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pure Self (shuddha upayog)'. Do not think about anything else. This is not like a day, which ends soon. This is the process of the worldly life. All your karmic accounts will be over if you remain in shuddha upayog. If you start thinking, 'When will all this end?' then some other 'ghost' will take over and possess you. What is the big hurry?
I have very little charitra moha (illusory attachment in discharge), whereas you have heaps of it. But yours is also gradually going down a little at a time. Charitra moha is going away. As it leaves, it frees you for sure.
From the five hundred thousand 'guests of charitra moha' you had, five hundred just left, leaving you with that many less, then another five hundred will leave. Then instead of five hundred thousand, four hundred thousand will remain, and then it will go down to three hundred thousand, then two hundred thousand. It will continue to decrease in this manner and eventually there will be nothing left. What is the point in counting to see how many remain and how many have gone? Just remain in the awareness of the pure Self so that, along with the state of samvar (a state free from karmas inflow, charge), there is constant discharge of karmas (nirjara).
Questioner: Does this mean that the more I remain in shuddha upayog, the more discharge of karmas will occur?
Dadashri: Shuddha upayog is the only thing that is to be *done'. Your dharma (duty) is shuddha upayog. The more you miss the awareness (upayog), the more you will suffer. The Five Agnas (special directives given by Dadashri in Gnan Vidhi) that I give You is for the purpose of keeping You in shuddha upayog. To be in-to follow the Five Agnas is itself shuddha upayog. Even following only one of them is shuddha upayog. Is it not possible for you to practice at least one Agna out of five?
Questioner: Dada, the Five Agnas are such that if I follow just one, all five are followed automatically.
Dadashri: On the contrary, that is better, is it not? You get benefit of all five by following just one. This is very easy and straightforward. It is not difficult. There is no one above you to scold you. Otherwise if you had a guru above you, then he would scold you. The moment you get up in the morning, he starts his scolding.
What creates Karmas? Questioner: You said that there is planning behind whatever one experiences now. In this process there is also kriyaman (effect of effect karma that is experienced through five senses in the same life), as well as sanchit (accumulated karmas from the past life), so then how is one to understand the karmas and the cause of those karmas?
Dadashri: That planning of the karmas (cause) is not dependent on kriya (that which occurs through thoughts, speech and acts). It depends on your dhyan (meditation, intent, bhaav). You may give a donation of five thousand rupees because someone pressured you to do so, but your dhyan at the time of giving was not true-exactly as it should have been, meaning it was not in agreement with your actions.
Questioner: I did not have a great desire to give.
Dadashri: No, it is not the desire (ichchha). There is no need for desire at all. Desires do not bind karmas. It depends on your dhyan (inner intent, meditation). Desire can be there or not. At the time of giving the money, if you feel in your mind that you would have never given the donation if that had not pressured you, then despite your outwardly altruistic actions, you will go into the animal kingdom because you became bound by this meditation called raudradhyan.
Questioner: What does dhyan depend on?
Dadashri: It depends on one's development. It depends on whatever gnan has developed in you.
