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[11] Purusharth Against Bad Qualities of Prakruti
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tubers (granthi)? Does it come under a negative trait of prakruti?
Dadashri: It goes into neither. It is much more than both. It is very destructive or hurtful to the relative self (atmaghar). It is a kind of an ego. To have suspicion means to have serious mistrust, starting from mild, doubt-related uneasiness, to suspicion; these are all attributes that are harmful to the self (atmaghari). There is not a single benefit in it. It continues to cause tremendous harm. That is why 'we' have told you not to have any suspicion. So do not have any suspicion, and if it arises, and even if it may seem so, and even if it is well founded, you will not gain anything from it.
It is a kind of an ego. Do you understand what I am saying?
Questioner: Is pratikraman the solution for suspicion? When suspicion arises, should I do pratikraman immediately?
Dadashri: Yes, you should do pratikraman for whoever suspicion arises.
Questioner: So that is the only solution for it, is it not?
Dadashri: Yes, that is the only solution; otherwise suspicion will eat you up alive.
Questioner: Whenever any suspicion arises, it is better to clear it off so that it can be resolved.
Dadashri: If you have suspicion about anything, you should look into it and then come home and go to sleep. And ultimately all this inquiry will have to be stopped.
Root Cause of Fear Questioner: Fear (bhaya), self preservation instinct (bhaya sangnya), what are these? How do they arise? How do they charge and discharge?
Dadashri: One experiences fear to whatever degree he
believes himself to be temporary.
Questioner: I did not understand what you mean about one believing himself to be temporary.
Dadashri: 'I am Chandubhai' is a temporary state and, when one believes he is "Chandubhai,' then he will be subject to fear. 'I am Shuddhatma - the pure Soul, nothing at all can happen to Me, I am eternal'; with this awareness, what is there to fear? Questioner: Then there is no fear.
(206) Dadashri: The experience of 'temporary applies to nonIndians to a greater degree as compared to Indians. This is because of the belief of doership. 'I am the doer and these actions are of my own doing.' So here in Indians) there is less fear. Non-Indians fly away like startled birds!
Suspicion and Fear Questioner: Is there a connection between fear and suspicion?
Dadashri: Suspicion gives rise to fear and fear creates suspicion. They are both like cause and effect. One should not have any suspicions at all. Do not be suspicious about anything. Do not be suspicious about whether your son or your daughter is going off on the wrong track. Make an effort to improve this.
Questioner: But suspicion occurs from moment to moment.
Dadashri: Suspicion is the same as killing your own self. Do not ever have suspicions.
Questioner: But why does suspicion arise? The question is not about doing' it; it simply occurs every moment for me.
Dadashri: Because it occurs you have to say, 'This suspicion is not mine, this is not mine', the moment it occurs you have to say this.
