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He Who Conquers Sexuality is the Emperor of the World
Now You Have to Be Free From the Atkan of
Sexuality
Now everything within should become very clear. Having attained Akram Gnan, it is possible for one to remain in constant bliss if he so chooses. Such is the Gnan You have, so now your effort should be towards how you can break free from atkan (major blockade or impediment, within, for liberation). You have to do alochana, pratikraman and pratyakhyan and bring about a resolution. Before, when there was no bliss, it was natural for one to fall prey to arkan. But once eternal happiness arises, why should that be the case? Why does bliss not arise? It does not come because of this atkan.
Be Warned About Only Sexuality
Questioner: Dada, I understand now that I am doing wrong, and yet it occurs.
Dadashri: Does pratikraman not occur afterwards?
Questioner: It does. But I cannot stop when 'Chandubhai' is doing wrong. Then I immediately do pratikraman. But within no time, he turns everything around and does the wrong thing.
Dadashri: There is nothing wrong with everything going wrong. But this sexuality is one thing that makes a person forget everything. So 'we' tell you to be vigilant when it comes to matters related to sexuality.
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Pratikraman
You are not able to see your mistakes as days go by. Eating heavy meals will cause sloth and dullness (pramaad); for the most part, your awareness will go down for several hours after you eat, then the intoxication will come down. But intoxication of sexuality remains for a whole twenty-four hours. This is the reason that one simply is not able to see his mistake. One will begin to see his mistake when he becomes free from sexuality. These mistakes are the serious mistakes, the subtle mistakes, and one does not see them because of his dependency on sexuality. So it is up to each individual to do pratikraman, depending on how much hurry he is in. As such, here there is no such rule that one should do this only in this way. (310) Why Am I Attracted to a Specific Person?
Questioner: Having decided that I do not want to have bad thoughts about any young man, I do not get bad thoughts about him- but I keep seeing his face and the associated feelings, even after I do pratikraman. What should I do?
Dadashri: So what if you keep 'seeing' that? You have to keep 'seeing' it. Do you experience pain when you see a movie? You will see his face.
You will be able to 'see' more when the inside becomes cleansed; You will 'see' clearly. Do pratikraman and keep 'seeing' that which arises, that is all.
Questioner: She (the relative self) does pratikraman because she does not like the attraction that arises for him. Yet he appears within more and more.
Dadashri: It is fine if You 'see' that. But You must be able to 'see' all that (the attraction and associated feelings); it is useless if You cannot 'see' that. It cannot be considered pratikraman if You cannot 'see' that. Pratikraman can occur only if You can 'see.' Thereafter, with pratikraman, it (attraction; raag) will become less and less. If the karmic tuber is large, it
