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Dadashri: This you can even do at home if you want to. Questioner: This is the first time I was able to sit down to do samayik. I felt very blissful.
Dadashri: So do pratikraman for everyone; do pratikraman every day for people at home, then do it for your close relatives. First do pratikraman for all those who have been hurt. Do you remember them or not?
Questioner: Yes, I do. Every day I do that in a samayik. Dadashri: By doing this pratikraman, did you get convinced that it is a good experience?
Questioner: Dada, before, whenever I did pratikraman, I used to feel that, 'why do I have to do pratikraman unnecessarily, when it is not even my fault?"
Dadashri: No, but what about now?
Questioner: Now I understand.
Dadashri: Did you feel bliss (anand) today?
Questioner: Yes, I understand where I was wrong. That was not the case before. For some time now I understand it.
Dadashri: Still, when you come to see the roots of your major mistake, you will experience a lot of bliss. If you do not feel bliss when you do pratikraman, it means that you have not learned to do it properly. If a person does atikraman and does not feel a sense of remorse, then that person is not human.
Questioner: Dada, which is the main mistake? (408)
Dadashri: Before, you could not see any mistakes at all, could you? The mistakes you see now are your tangible/gross (sthool) mistakes. You will see even beyond this level.
Questioner: Are we talking about the subtle (sookshma),
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subtler (sookshmatar)...?
Dadashri: You will continue to see your mistakes. Right now there is a density of veils. You can see the external body but how can you know what he is like from within? These two ladies are very fair on the outside but how can you know what they are like from the inside? So when You 'see' what is within, then You will understand the main mistake. Do you understand? Questioner: Yes, Dada.
The Sign of a Living Pratikraman
Here when you do pratikraman for two, three hours, you see nothing but your mistakes during that time. That is called live pratikraman. When you sit down to do this pratikraman, You become a pure Soul (Shuddhatma). When you sit down to do pratikraman, does pratikraman continue to occur? Does it occur even when you don't want it to?
Questioner: Yes, it does.
Dadashri: What if I said, 'Now stop doing it'? Questioner: Then the pulley just keeps running.
Dadashri: Who makes it run? The answer is, 'Now that you have attained the state of Shuddhatma, all these actions are of the pragnya shakti - the energy of the awakened Self after Self-realization. Prior to attaining Gnan, they were actions of agnya shakti (energy of ignorance mediated through the egointellect complex). For people who use the word 'Shuddhatma' but do not have Self-realization, their actions of power, or energy, of ignorance (agnya shakti) continues; for them, the actions of pragnya have not yet arisen. What has occurred with us? For us, the activities of ignorance (agnya) have stopped and activities of pragnya have started. What does agnya do? It continues to bind one to the worldly life (sansar). It will keep giving rise to new worldly life every day.
