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UNDERSTANDING SAMAYIK
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Pratikraman
Questioner: But, I saw that film twice. (538)
Dadashri: Good, nothing wrong with that. Whatever You can see,' you have that much time to wash it off. This is a pure (shuddha) Self (Atma).
mistakes will not come again.
The Mind is Not Involved in Samayik
Otherwise, if you want to remember all your mistakes, you will not be able to. But if you sit in a samayik, You will 'see them effortlessly. So the Seer that saw that 'film' is the Self who is the Knower-Seer. The Self 'sees' what you are doing.
Does anyone else want to talk about his experience of the samayik?
Questioner: When I am seeing' my 'film and the mind gets involved in it, it likes it, gets stuck in places, yet in all that there is no feeling (bhaav) of 'I have done something bad or wrong'; how does that appear?
Dadashri: The mind is not present at all during samayik. There is no existence of the mind at that time. You were only to *see'. You are not to see whether anything was good or bad.
Questioner: After seeing,' do I not have to say that I am asking for forgiveness?
Dadashri: Pratikraman is a different thing. But you cannot say things like, 'It was like this and like that, that it got stuck'; there is nothing there to get stuck. It is not the activity of the mind; it is the 'activity of the Self. You (the Self) can *see all that because it is the activity of the Self; and that is why the mind has nothing to do with it.
You Can See the Conduct of the Atma
Questioner: I absolutely feel at peace; I was able to see lots of my mistakes.
Dadashri: Whatever mistakes You saw are gone. Now the remaining small ones, if there are any, will go away when you do a samayik like this again.
Did anything else come to you?
Questioner: Yes, I saw' all the mistakes from the young age up until now. And now I have a special prayer and request, Dada, please do something so that I will not repeat any mistakes in sexuality.
Dadashri: Yes, 'T' will do that for you. But up to what age did you see them?
Questioner: From a very young age.
Dadashri: Did You see all the mistakes, beginning from a very young age up until now? That is very good.
The Seer is the Self (Gnata-Drashta); you 'saw' the Self (experienced the Self)! Otherwise, if you try to recall the mistakes, you will not be able to do that at all, whereas here You 'saw' all this. That is a lot. Still, whatever You saw, it is all gone. Those
Questioner: If I do pratikraman once, will they mistakes) come back again?
Dadashri: If it is with very thick and heavy veils (of karma effect), then it will keep coming back. If it is long in duration, that karma will stay with you right until the end. And that is why You have to see it again, and keep 'seeing' it until it comes to an end. And all this time, You got to 'see' - experience the conduct (charitra) as the Self, in the samayik. This is called charitra (conduct); it is pure conduct (shuddha charitra).
Anyone here that was able to see properly, raise your hand please. You too could see! Even one from a patidar (Patel
