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(18] He Who Conquers Sexuality is the Emperor of the World 327
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Pratikraman
will not decrease all of a sudden.
Questioner: If I keep seeing his face and have bad (sexual) thoughts about him, is that not wrong?
Dadashri: No, there is nothing wrong in that. You are strong so all You have to do is to see that these sexual thoughts are still arising. If you are strong, then nothing will touch you. This is simply the karmic stock that was filled in the past life, that is coming out. If the stock was not there, then you would not be having any thoughts about anyone. There are so many young men; you don't have thoughts about all of them, do you? Whatever stock there is within is coming out. Would you not recognize that this is stored stock (bharelo maal)? There are so many young men but these thoughts do not arise for all of them, do they?
The thoughts arise about only those few whom you have seen and you get attracted when your eyes (drashti) fall on them.
The Path as Suggested by the Gnani
If I ask if his mind still gets spoiled, he will say, 'Yes, it occurs even now.' Even at age seventy! Why don't you settle down? What kind of a man are you? Your 'shop' (body) is bankrupt and yet you are not settling down.
Questioner: If a person has such sexual thoughts, what should he do in that situation?
Dadashri: Let it come. When it comes, welcome it with flowers and tell the thought, 'I am glad that you came. I like that.' You will have at least this much pleasure, will you not? Instead of bringing thoughts of grief and sorrow, it is bringing these good thoughts!
You may get a sexual thought by looking at someone. Now, why did this thought arise? It is because there is moha
(illusory attraction) inside, filled from the past life, and that is why this circumstance (sainyog) arose. When do such circumstances come together? It is not as if you went out to invite them! But they come together, all the same! When circumstances come together, your mind at that time is under the influence of moha and the subatomic particles of sexuality will show you all its phases. What should You do at that time? Who is the nimit for this wrong sexual thought? You should do pratikraman in the name of that nimit. Then do the pratikraman to the pure Soul of that lady by saying, 'Dear pure Soul, who is separate from the union of mind, speech and body, charge karma (bhaavkarma), subtle discharge karma (dravyakarma) and gross discharge karma (nokarma) of this lady (insert her name here)! I just had sexual thoughts about this lady. For that I am doing alochana (confession) in front of Dada Bhagwan.' To declare this is alochana. You do not need to call Me there for My physical presence. You can have Me there through this inner contemplation and then do the pratikraman: 'Dear pure Soul, grant me the power and energy not to have such thoughts about anybody. I am asking for Your forgiveness for such thoughts. Grant me the energy never to have such sexual thoughts about anybody.'
'It is my determination and desire never to harbor such thoughts in the future,' is called pratyakhyan (312)
Your wish is to never have such thoughts again, and yet they will come if they are in your karmic stock. But you will have to do pratyakhyan every time. However many times you do pratyakhyan, that many layers of the onion' are shed. Then the next layer will come. Which onions have more layers, small ones or big ones?
Questioner: Large ones have more.
Dadashri: Yes, so for the one who has a large onion, for him more layers will be shed. But they are being shed.
