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[18] He Who Conquers Sexuality is the Emperor of the World 329
Therefore, there is moksha with alochana, pratikraman and pratyakhyan. If there is one tool for moksha in this world, then this is the one. But alochana, pratikraman and pratyakhyan should be done as taught by the Gnani Purush. The pratikraman taught by others will not work.
Therefore, do alochana, pratikraman and pratyakhyan whenever you have sexual thoughts about anyone. You definitely have to do that.
Questioner: Dada, if one is attracted to the same place again and again, is that not because he has interest in it?
Dadashri: Of course, it has to do with interest. He would not be attracted if he was not interested, would he?
Questioner: Yes. But was the seed of karma sown (charged) because of his interest in it, or not?
Dadashri: Now you are talking crazy again. One will not be attracted if he is not interested, will he?
Questioner: There is interest within. I do pratikraman for the attraction, but when the night falls, I get attracted there again, the interest is there again, more pratikraman is done for it and that chapter is closed. Then, after five minutes or so, I am affected again and I feel, 'What nonsense is this?"
Dadashri: You should erase it again, that is all.
Questioner: Is that all? Should I not be concerned about anything else?
Dadashri: This is a karmic stock that you have accumulated and the responsibility is yours. Therefore, You have to keep 'seeing' it; you should not become lax in washing it off.
Questioner: What is considered, 'The cloth has been washed completely?"
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Dadashri: You, yourself, will know that it has been washed off when you do pratikraman.
Questioner: Should some repentance remain within?
Dadashri: Of course repentance should remain! There should be repentance until it (sexuality) is completely resolved. 'You' just have to 'see' whether there is remorse (khed), or not. 'You' have to do Your job and he ('Chandulal') has to do his.
Questioner: Dada, it is very sticky. All this is very sticky, but it is changing gradually. (314)
Dadashri: The kind of mistake (dosh) that was filled (as karmic stock in the past life) is the kind that comes out, but it will all empty in twelve, ten or five years. The whole 'tank' will be cleaned out. Then it will be clean! Then enjoy yourself!
Questioner: Once the seed (of sexuality) is planted, it is bound to sprout, is it not?
Dadashri: The seed will be sown without fail! It will manifest (come into effect in next life), but as long as it has not taken root, if you can decrease its energy, then by the time you die it will all become clean.
That is why I tell those who have made mistakes in matters of sexuality to fast on a Sunday and spend all day repenting about it and washing it off over and over again. If they were to do that in compliance with this Agna, it will all come to an end. When Pratikraman Fails, Confess to the Gnani
Questioner: Sometimes, when I look at someone sexually, then from within I feel, 'Why did I have to look at her in this way? I will have to do pratikraman.' I get really tired of doing this.
Dadashri: Yes, you will get tired. It is the inner vision, the sexual look that occurs; it occurs even though you do not wish
