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[13] Liberation from Artadhyan and Raudradhyan
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In thinking about the future, if one experiences fear, then artadhyan has occurred for sure.
In artadhyan, one continues to worry about himself, 'What will happen if this occurs? What will happen if that occurs?' He will continue to have fear of this kind.
Raudradhyan Hurts the Self and Others
When you imagine that the other person has hurt you, that is raudradhyan.
When you have a thought because of another person (nimit), the thought of harming him... all that is raudradhyan. Say, for example, a cloth merchant cheats his customers by stretching the material when he measures it; the moment he thinks about cheating his customers, he is in raudradhyan.
Questioner: When others are hurt because of us, is that raudradhyan?
Dadashri: Yes, whether one gets hurt or not. But if you tell him he is worthless, he is deceitful, he is a thief; that is all raudradhyan.
Actually, there is no one at fault (doshit) in this world. It is through our misunderstanding that the other person appears at fault.
Questioner: I experience raudradhyan. I see mistakes in others. How does my doing that hurt the other person? If I see him as the culprit, how does he feel hurt in that? If the person I see at fault is unaware of it, how is that raudradhyan?
Dadashri: It will have an effect and thus it is called raudradhyan. Why would he not have an affect? You may think that he does not know. He will be affected somewhere without fail. He will not even know.
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Dharmadhyan from Artadhyan-Raudradhyan Questioner: Many times it occurs that I get deeper and
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deeper into artadhyan and raudradhyan and still I am not aware of it. So how can I become aware about this?
Dadashri: When one feels hurt (dukh), is that not artadhyan? And in raudradhyan there is increased suffering: that suffering is more like a burning pain. All of it, artadhyan and raudradhyan, are hurtful to man. It is nothing but ashatavedaniya (the karma of suffering).
Questioner: That occurs every moment. What do I have to do to be free from all that?
Dadashri: Keep 'seeing' that 'in reality, no one is at fault (doshit) at all. I see it that way because of the unfolding of my own karma. But truly it is not that way.' Therefore, if he appears at fault (doshit), this vision will show him as flawless (nirdosh), and keep doing pratikraman.
If you have a negative or bad thought about anyone, you should come to the conclusion that, 'It is the unfolding of my own karma, and how is that poor man to be blamed?' In doing this, he will cease to appear at fault (doshit) to you. And that is considered dharmadhyan (absence of artadhyanraudradhyan). So, where raudradhyan was going to take place, you turned it into dharmadhyan. And that will give you great inner bliss. 'He appears at fault only due to the unfolding of my own karma. He is just a nimit (evidentiary doer).'
Currently, the other person is never truly at fault; he is simply a nimit (instrumental evidence) in the unfolding of your own karma.
Our Own Kashays Are Our Enemies Do nimits ever come to you?
Questioner: Sometimes.
Dadashri: Yes. That person is simply a nimit. He is not the actual doer. If a thief picks your pocket, he is a nimit. He
