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Questioner: Immediately. If the wind blows, it will be erased immediately.
Dadashri: It will get smudged if the wind blows. It may take one hour or two hours. That is called pratyakhyani krodh.
(260) And the fourth one is like a line one draws in the sand under water. It will get erased immediately. That is called 'a line in the water. It is called sanjvalan krodh. Not all mahatmas have anger like 'a line in the water.' For most, it will mend after a fortnight or so. For some, it is like the line drawn in the sand in the water.
This is something that the intellect (buddhi) will accept, is it not?
Questioner: This is something that the self (atma) will accept
Dadashri: Which atma are you talking about? The vyavahar atma, the pratishthit atma (the relative self)? It is all a play of the intellect (buddhi). And which kind of atma will be there? It is all vyavahar atma (the relative self). The main Atma (the Self) knows even all this; it 'knows' everything.
Apratyakhyan Avaran Kashay
Questioner: Once the anantanubandhi kashay breaks, is overcome, it will go into the descending level and thus gradually decreases?
Dadashri: It can also increase. But when apratyakhyan kashay comes, it means that it is kashay for which one has never done pratikraman or pratyakhyan in the past life. That is why all the kashays that come, come because one has failed to do pratyakhyan. So once pratikraman and pratyakhyan start, and one continues to do them, then as a consequence of that he will move from the fifth into the sixth gunasthanak.
What occurs in the sixth gunasthanak? Pratyakhyan avaran kashay arises!
Pratyakhyan Avaran Kashay What does pratyakhyan avaran mean? It means kashays occur even when one does pratikraman and pratyakhyan. The ones that come have so many layers. Those with few layers are gone, but those with many layers are pratyakhyan avaran.
They will not go away even after hundreds of thousands of pratikramans.
Questioner: What kind of mistakes are they?
Dadashri: They are called pratyakhyan avaran. They do not go away even after one does pratyakhyan.
Questioner: What is the major reason behind it?
Dadashri: They are very deep and very thick. If an onion has five thousand layers, would it not look the same even if you peel off a layer at a time? This is like a layer of a kind, a veil of a kind (avaran). Everyone has one or two of these, not too many.
Questioner: They keep coming back again and again. Dadashri: Yes, they will keep coming back. Questioner: But will they not leave, sooner or later?
Dadashri: They will begin to leave. As the karmic account (hisaab) matures, it will become less. There is no problem with them going. They will go away for sure, but what kind of problems do they create today? Despite doing pratikraman and pratyakhyan, they come back.
Hence, you created pratyakhyan avaran by doing pratyakhyan for apratyakhyan avaran. So now, what about the pratyakhyan avaran that is created?
