Vidaai ki Bela

Author(s): Ratanchand Bharilla
Publisher: Todarmal Granthamala Jaipur
Catalog link: https://jainqq.org/explore/008385/1

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vidAI kI belA (upanyAsa) lekhaka: adhyAtmaratnAkara paNDita ratanacanda bhArilla zAstrI, nyAyatIrtha, sAhityaratna, ema.e., bI.eDa. prAcArya, zrI ToDaramala di. jaina siddhAnta mahAvidyAlaya e-4, bApUnagara, jayapura - 302015 prakAzaka: paNDita ToDaramala smAraka TrasTa e-4, bApUnagara, jayapura - 302015 phona : (0141) 2705581, 2707458 (1)

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: 63 hajAra 800 hindI: prathama gyAraha saMskaraNa (26 janavarI 92 se adyatana) bArahavA~ saMskaraNa (19 jUna, 2007) 3 hajAra 11 hajAra 300 2hajAra marAThI: prathama tIna saMskaraNa (24 akTUbara, 93 se adyatana) caturtha saMskaraNa (17 sitambara, 2005) gujarAtI : prathama saMskaraNa (12 navambara, 1993) dvitIya saMskaraNa (17 sitambara, 2005) 3 hajAra 500 2 hajAra prakAzakIya (prathama saMskaraNa) sAhitya ko samAja kA darpaNa kahA jAtA hai; para yaha nahIM bhUlanA cAhie ki sAhitya mAtra darpaNa nahIM, dIpaka bhI hai, mArgadarzaka bhI hai| sAhitya ke kSetra meM Aja kathAsAhitya hI sarvAdhika lokapriya vidhA hai| satya aura tathya ko jana-jana taka pahu~cAne kA isase sazakta aura sulabha mAdhyama abhI taka koI dUsarA vikasita nahIM ho skaa| jaina sAhitya meM Aja isaprakAra ke kathA sAhitya kI mahatI AvazyakatA hai, jo Adhunika saMdarbha meM upayogI ho aura jaina tattvajJAna ko janaruci ke anurUpa aisI sarala-subodha bhASA-zailI meM prastuta karatA ho, jisase pAThaka tattvajJAna se paricita aura prabhAvita hoM tathA adhyAtma ko aMgIkAra kara dharmalAbha se lAbhAnvita hote rheN| kathAzailI ke mAdhyama se kaThina se kaThina tAttvika siddhAntoM ko bhI saralatA se pAThakoM taka pahu~cAyA jA sakatA hai, unheM hRdayaMgama karAyA jA sakatA hai| Aja bar3e-bar3e grantha par3hane kA na to kisI ke pAsa samaya hai aura na vaisI ruci va bauddhika kSamatA hai, jisase sUkSmatama siddhAntoM ko hRdayaMgama kiyA jA ske| isakAraNa bhI Aja dArzanika siddhAntoM ko kathAzailI meM likhA jAnA Avazyaka pratIta hotA hai| yadyapi kathAzailI meM likhI gaI ApakI yaha dvitIya pustaka hai, para mujhe vizvAsa hai ki unakI yaha dvitIya kRti nizcita rUpa se advitIya siddha hogii| 'vidAI kI belA' praur3ha aura vRddha vyaktiyoM ke lie to 'varadAna' rUpa hai hI, sAmAnya pAThakoM ke lie bhI rocaka, jJAnavarddhaka aura adhyAtma ke adhyayana kI preraNA denevAlI kRti hai| ___ paNDita ratanacandajI bhArilla kI isa atyanta upayogI kRti ko prakAzita karate hue hameM atyanta prasannatA kA anubhava ho rahA hai| hamane eka varSa pahale 1 janavarI, 1991 ko ApakI suprasiddha kathAkRti 'saMskAra' kA prakAzana kiyA thaa| Apako yaha jAnakara sukhada Azcarya hogA ki itanI alpa avadhi meM hI samAja meM aisI lokapriyatA prApta kI hai ki usake aneka saMskaraNa prakAzita ho jainapatha ke sampAdakIya meM : samAcAra jagata (dainika) : jayapura se prakAzita 3 hajAra 500 1lAkha 20 hajAra kula saMkhyA 2lAkha 9hajAra 100 mUlya : 12 rupae mAtra mudraka : prinTa 'o' laiNDa bAIsa godAma, jayapura (2)

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cuke haiM aura mA~ga aisI banI huI hai ki samaya para pUrti kara pAnA bhI kaThina ho rahA hai| pAThakoM ke sAtha patra-patrikAoM aura samIkSakoM ne bhI use khUba sarAhA hai| hameM vizvAsa hai ki 'vidAI kI belA' bhI samAja meM isI taraha samAdRta hogI aura paThana-pAThana meM aayegii| isameM kathAnaka ke mAdhyama se jina adhyAtma ko apanAne kI aisI manovaijJAnika DhaMga se preraNA dI gaI hai ki pAThaka kA hRdaya parivartita hue binA nahIM rhegaa| yadyapi isameM saMnyAsa va samAdhi kI carcA hai, para yaha usa saMnyAsa va samAdhi kI bAta hai, jisakI sAdhanA-ArAdhanA jIvana ke uttarArddha meM yA mRtyu ke samaya nahIM, balki jIvana ke svarNakAla meM, ghara-gRhasthI meM rahakara bhI kI jA sakatI hai aura kI jAnI caahie| yaha AbAla-vRddha sabhI ke lie atyanta upayogI hai| isake sundara prakAzana ke lie zrI akhila baMsala bhI dhanyavAda ke pAtra haiN| dinAMka : 19 janavarI 1992 (prathama saMskaraNa) - nemIcanda pATanI mahAmaMtrI - paNDita ToDaramala smAraka TrasTa, jayapura prakAzakIya : hindI kA bArahavA~ saMskaraNa yaha sukhada Azcarya evaM prasannatA kA viSaya hai ki vigata teraha varSoM ke alpakAla meM isake satraraha saMskaraNa prakAzita karane kA saubhAgya hameM mila cukA hai| sAtha hI dainika samAcAra jagata patra ne bhI isakI viSayavastu se prabhAvita hokara ise kramazaH prakAzita kiyA hai| joki eka lAkha 20 hajAra chapatA hai| yaha bhI gaurava kI bAta hai ki hindI ke sivAya marAThI meM bhI isake cAra | saMskaraNa tathA gujarAtI meM do saMskaraNa prakAzita ho cuke haiN| hindI kA yaha gyArahavA~ saMskaraNa hai| isaprakAra yaha kRti abataka kula milAkara do lAkha nau hajAra kI vRhada saMkhyA meM prakAzita hokara jana-jana ke hAthoM meM pahu~ca cukI hai| isakI lokapriyatA aura utkRSTatA ke lie uparyukta A~kar3e hI paryApta haiN| samaya-samaya para samIkSakoM evaM pAThakoM ne bhI lekhaka kI anya kRtiyoM kI bhA~ti isa kRti kI bhI dila kholakara sarAhanA kI hai| navIna pAThakoM kI | preraNA hetu katipaya mahattvapUrNa abhimata pustaka ke anta meM prakAzita haiN| dinAMka : 27 maI 2007 - bra. yazapAla jaina prakAzana maMtrI (3)

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eka preraka patra 501.00 prastuta saMskaraNa kI kImata kama karane vAle dAtAroM kI sUcI 1. zrImatI candrAvatIbAI hIrAlAlajI kAlA, bar3anagara 1,000.00 2. zrImatI puSpAbAI mizrIlAlajI vaida, bar3anagara 1,000.00 3. zrImatI puSpAbAI pavanakumArajI kAlA, bar3anagara 1,000.00 4. zrImatI anitAbAI narendrajI pATodI, bar3anagara 1,000.00 5. zrI bAbUlAla totArAmajI jaina, bhusAvala 501.00 6. zrImatI patAsI devI dha.pa. zrI indracaMdajI pATanI, lADanUM 501.00 7. zrImatI prabhAvatI devI pATanI, jayapura 501.00 8. zrI navaratanalAlajI jaina, kelavAr3A 501.00 9. zrI bhAgacandajI jaina, kelavAr3A 501.00 10. zrI bAbUlAla rAjendrakumArajI jaina, kelavAr3A 501.00 11. DaoN. rAjamalajI jaina, kolArasa 501.00 12. zrI gulAbacandajI padamacaMdajI jaina, pIsAMgana 501.00 13. zrI chItaramalajI jaina, pIsAMgana 501.00 14. zrImatI saritAdevI musarapha tejapura 501.00 15. zrI mahAvIrakumArajI jaina, jayapura 501.00 16. jaina mahilA maNDala, lakar3avAsa 17. DaoN. amaracandajI jaina, phuTerA (damoha) 501.00 18. zrI rAmakizana tArAcaMdajI jaina, gur3hAcandrajI 501.00 19. zrI nIraja jaina putra zrI rAmakumArajI jaina, khataulI 501.00 20. zrImatI saralA jaina dha.pa. zrI rAmakumArajI jaina, khataulI 501.00 21. zrI rAjezakumArajI jaina, khataulI 501.00 22. zrI mA~gIlAla arjunalAlajI chAbar3A, indaura 251.00 23. zrI zAntinAthajI sonAja, akalUja 251.00 24. zrI ajitakumAra zAntinAthajI sonAja, akalUja 25. zrI candrakAnta zAntinAthajI sonAja, akalUja 251.00 26. zrI udayakumAra zAntinAthajI sonAja, akalUja 251.00 27. zrI mayUrabhAI ema. siMghavI, mumbaI 251.00 28. zrImatI razmidevI vIrezajI kAsalIvAla, sUrata 251.00 29. sva. RSabhakumAra jaina putrazrI surezakumArajI jaina, pir3AvA 251.00 30. zrI bAbUlAlajI jaina, kucar3auda 251.00 31. bra. kusumatAI pATIla, kuMbhoja 251.00 32. zrImatI zrIkAntAbAI dha.pa. zrI pUnamacandajI chAbar3A, indaura 201.00 33. zrImatI nIlU dha.pa. zrI rAjezakumAra manoharalAlajI kAlA, indaura 201.00 34. sva. dhApUdevI dha.pa. sva. tArAcandajI gaMgavAla kI puNya smRti meM, jayapura 151.00 35. zrImatI pAnAdevI mohanalAlajI seThI, gohATI 101.00 kula rAzi 15,681.00 Dr. Vishnu Saxena DAYAL CLINIC:TAHSHIL ROAD GENERAL PHYSICIAN SIKANDRA RAO (ALIGARH)204215 STDCODE:05725PHONE:44380 zraddheyAspada crnnvndn| mere 'caraNavandana' likhane para Apa avazya vismita hoNge| lekina Apa mere lie sarvathA vandanIya isalie haiM ki eka to Apa merI pitA kI Ayu ke haiM, dUsare yogyatA meM mujha nagaNya se kaI gunA adhika haiN| zAyada Apako dhyAna ho merI ApakI bheMTa gatavarSa meraTha meM zAkAhAra mele meM Ayojita kavi sammelana maMca para huI thii| maiM bhI eka kavi ke rUpa meM baiThA thA; taba Apane hama sabhI kaviyoM ko apanI likhI huI kucha pustakeM bheMTa kI thiiN| ___una pustakoM ko lAkara maiMne apanI lAibrerI meM sajA diyaa| socA kabhI phurasata hogI to phNgaa| kavi sammelanIya tathA cikitsakIya vyastatAoM meM varSa bhara ulajhA rahA, barasAta meM maiMne ApakI una kitAboM kA adhyayana kiyaa| eka to abhI bhI par3ha rahA huuN| ___ pustakeM kyA haiM! ye to jJAna kA sahaja bhaNDAra haiN| maiM to jainadarzana se pahale se bhI prabhAvita thaa| ApakI pustakeM par3hane ke uparAnta to yaha AsthA aura adhika balavatI ho gayI hai| sabhI pustakeM atyadhika sarala bhASA meM likhI gaI haiN| jo janasAmAnya ko bhI saMskArita karatI haiN| jaina sAhitya ke lie ApakI ye pustakeM eka anamola nidhi haiN| maiM kAyastha kula meM paidA avazya huA huuN| lekina Arambha se hI kucha aisA prabhAva rahA ki koI vyasana pAsa nahIM A skaa| Apake isa sadlekhana ke lie, Apako badhAI! 'saMskAra', 'vidAI kI belA' bahuta hI preraNAdAyI hai| AdaraNIya hukamacandajI bhArilla kI 'Apa kucha bhI kaho' ne bhI pUre parivAra ko jhakajhora diyaa| unheM bhI merI badhAI preSita kara deN| AbhAra, zubham ApakA hI... AzA hai sAnanda hoNge| DaoN. viSNu saksenA 24-8-96 prati, vidvatvareNya paNDita ratanacandajI bhArilla prAcArya, zrI ToDaramala di. jaina siddhAnta mahAvidyAlaya, jayapura 251.00

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buur 50m . lekhaka ke anya mahattvapUrNa prakAzana maulika kRtiyA~ aba taka prakAzita pratiyA~ kImata 01. saMskAra (hindI, marAThI, gujarAtI) 56 hajAra 500 18.00 02.vidAI kI belA (hindI, marAThI, gujarAtI) 1 lAkha sAta hajAra 12.00 03. ina bhAvoM kA phala kyA hogA (hi. ma., gu.) 49 hajAra 18.00 04. sukhI jIvana (hindI) (navInatama kRti ) 23 hajAra 05. NamokAra mahAmaMtra (hi., ma., gu., ka.) 67 hajAra 500 06. jinapUjana rahasya (hi.,ma., gu., ka.) 1 lAkha 79 hajAra 200 07. sAmAnya zrAvakAcAra (hi., ma., gu.,ka.) 71 hajAra 200 08. para se kucha bhI saMbaMdha nahIM (hindI) 8 hajAra 09. bAlabodha pAThamAlA bhAga-1(hi.ma.gu.ka.ta.aM.) 10. kSatracUr3AmaNi parizIlana (navInatama) 11. samayasAra : manISiyoM kI dRSTi meM (hindI) 3 hajAra 12. dravyadRSTi (navIna saMskaraNa) 5 hajAra 13. harivaMza kathA (do saMskaraNa) 10 hajAra 14. SaTkAraka anuzIlana 5 hajAra 15. zalAkA puruSa pUrvArddha (do saMskaraNa) 7 hajAra 16. zalAkA puruSa uttarArddha (prathama saMskaraNa) 5 hajAra 30.00 17. aise kyA pApa kie (do saMskaraNa) 8 hajAra 15.00 18. nIMva kA patthara 5 hajAra sampAdita evaM anUdita kRtiyA~ (gujarAtI se hindI)19 se 29. pravacanaratnAkara bhAga - 1 se 11 taka (sampUrNa seTa) 160.00 30. samyagdarzana pravacana 31. bhaktAmara pravacana 32. samAdhizataka pravacana 33. padArtha vijJAna (pravacanasAra gAthA 99 se 102) 34. gAgara meM sAgara (pravacana) 35. ahiMsA : mahAvIra kI dRSTi meM 36. guNasthAna-vivecana 37. ahiMsA ke patha para (kahAnI saMgraha) 38. vicitra mahotsava (kahAnI saMgraha) 4.00 25.00 sUrya astAcala kI ora Dhala calA thA aura apanI sindUrI kiraNoM se gaganamaMDala meM lAlimA bikheratA huA pazcima dizA ke pahAr3I saundarya meM cAra cA~da lagA rahA thaa| vaise pahAr3I pradeza apane ApameM bhI kama sundara nahIM thA, para sUrya kI kiraNoM se vaha aura bhI AkarSaka lagane lagA thaa| sUrya Dhala jAne se usakI tapana se to logoM ko mukti mila gaI thI, unakA zArIrika saMtApa to kama ho gayA thA; para mAnasika pIr3A se ve abhI bhI parezAna the; kyoMki viSaya-kaSAya va rAga-dveSa meM race-pace vibhinna ruciyoM vAle vyaktiyoM ke eka sAtha uThane-baiThane aura sAtha-sAtha rahane se pArivArika pariveza meM paidA huI kaSAyoM ke kAraNa manastapa hue binA nahIM rhtaa| jisaprakAra do pattharoM ke Apasa meM TakarAne meM cinagAriyA~ nikalanA svAbhAvika haiM; usIprakAra jaba do vyaktiyoM ke svArtha aura kaSAyeM TakarAtI haiM to rAga-dveSa kI cinagAriyA~ nikalanA bhI svAbhAvika hI haiM, joki manastapa kI janmadAtrI haiN| __ parivAra ke bIca Akhira koI kaba taka mu~ha para musIkA lagAye, mu~ha banda kie, mauna se baiThA raha sakatA hai? yadi koI cUpa rahane kI koziza kare bhI to vaha bhI to usakI nArAjagI kA hI pratIka bana jAtA hai| ataH pArivArikajanoM ke bIca meM vyaktiyoM kA bolanA jarUrI bhI hai aura majabUrI bhii| jaba eka sthAna para rakhe acetana bartana bhI TakarAne para binA baje nahIM raha sakate to sacetana prANI binA bole kaise raha sakate haiM? ataH bAteM honA 30.mom 000000000 66666666 (5)

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vidAI kI belA/1 svAbhAvika hai aura bAtoM-bAtoM meM bAta kA bar3ha jAnA bhI asvAbhAvika nahIM hai| kabhI-kabhI to anacAhe hI bAta yahA~ taka bar3ha jAtI hai ki loga maiMmaiM, tU-tU para utara Ate haiM, purakhoM taka pahu~ca jAte haiM aura phira kaSAya kA cakra itanI tejI se ghUmatA hai ki na to kisI ko apane choTe-bar3oM kA hI dhyAna rahatA hai aura na kisI kI mAna-maryAdA kI paravAha hii| basa kuzala yaha samajhie ki ve hAthApAI para nahIM utarate, anyathA vaha bhI asaMbhava nahIM hai| aise prasaMga eka bAra nahIM, dina bhara meM aneka bAra banate-bigar3ate rahate haiM; kyoMki paristhitiyoM kI parAdhInatA, viSayoM kA anurAga va moha kI mAra unheM bAraMbAra samajhautA karane ko bAdhya karate rahate haiN| ataH samajhautA bhI hotA rahatA hai aura bolacAla bhI cAlU ho jAtI hai| ___isa tathya se itanA Azvasta to huA hI jA sakatA hai ki ye lar3AIyA~ laMbI calane vAlI lar3AiyA~ nahIM huA karatI haiM, para isa kasamakaza se bhI to loga chuTakArA pAnA cAhate haiM; bhale hI thor3I dera ko hI shii| isalie zAma hote hI sabhI sevAnivRtta aura vRddha vyakti apanI-apanI mitramaMDalI ke sAtha aura praur3ha va yuvaka apane-apane parivAroM ke sAtha saira-sapATe ke lie bAga-bagIcoM kI ora cala pdd'te| vidAI kI belA/1 aura dhyAna karane yogya zAMta aura ekAMta jagaha dekhakara eka sthAna para baiTha gyaa| __ thor3I hI dera meM do vRddha vyakti bhI vahA~ A pahu~ce aura mujhase kevala dasa kadama kI dUrI para harI-bharI dUba dekha jamIna para hI paira pasAra kara baiTha gaye aura kosane lage jamAne ko| kabhI mahaMgAI kA ronA rote to kabhI vartamAna zikSA ke doSoM para do-do A~sU bahAte / kabhI netAoM ke zithilAcAra para carcA karate, to kabhI naukarazAhI ke bhraSTAcAra para AgababUlA ho-hokara unakI mA~-bahina aura beTI se sIdhA saMparka karake apanI jubAna ko gaMdA karane lagate / kabhI apane ghara kI dAstAna cher3a dete to kabhI ghara-ghara kI kahAniyA~ lekara baiTha jAte / isa taraha mujhe aisA lagA ki saMbhavataH ve loga pratidina isI taraha kI bebuniyAda bAtoM meM apanA bahumUlya samaya vyatIta kiyA karate hoNge| usa dina bhI ghara-bAhara, rAja-kAja aura ar3ausI-par3ausI ke guNadoSa hI unakI bAtacIta aura zodha-khoja ke viSaya bane hue the| mAnoM unake pAsa isake sivAya karane ke lie anya kucha kAma hI nahIM thA, vicAra-vimarza va bAteM karane ke lie anya koI viSaya hI nahIM thaa| ___ "bhalA jinake paira kabra meM laTake hoM, jinako yamarAja kA bulAvA A gayA ho, jinake sira ke sapheda bAla mRtyu kA saMdeza lekara A dhamake hoM, jinake aMga-aMga ne javAba de diyA ho, jo kevala kucha hI dinoM ke mehamAna raha gaye hoM, parijana-purajana bhI jinakI cira vidAI kI mAnasikatA banA cuke hoM, apanI antima vidAI ke ina mahatvapUrNa kSaNoM meM bhI kyA unheM apane paraloka ke viSaya meM vicAra karane ke bajAya ina vyartha kI bAtoM ke lie samaya haiM?" - yaha soca-soca kara merA mana vyathita hone lgaa| merA tattva-cintana aura AtmA-paramAtmA kA dhyAna karane kA vicAra to eka ora dharA raha gayA, mere mana meM nAnA vikalpa uThane lage - "Akhira usa dina bhI 'eka paMtha do kAja' kI ukti ko caritArtha karate hue prAyaH sabhI loga usa pahAr3I kI saundarya chaTA dekhane ke lie nikala par3e the| mere lie vaha sthAna ekadama nayA thA, ataH maiM bhI usa pahAr3I ke saundarya kI anupama chaTA dekhane kA lobha saMvaraNa nahIM kara sakA; isa kAraNa koI sAthI na milane para bhI maiM akelA hI usa upavana meM jA pahu~cA, jahA~ se vaha sUryAsta kA dRzya spaSTa dikhAI detA thaa| pA~ca-sAta minaTa meM hI usa dRzya ko dekhakara maiM usa suramya upavana meM cintana-manana (6)

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vidAI kI belA/1 kaise samajhAyA jAye ina vRddhajanoM ko ki tuma apanA amUlya samaya ina vyartha kI bAtoM meM barbAda kyoM kara rahe ho? pahAr3a se apanA mAthA kyoM mAra rahe ho? ina bAtoM se duniyA~ meM to koI parivartana hone vAlA hai nahIM, tumhArA hI manuSyabhava bigar3a jAyegA / kyA tumhAre ye sAre vikalpa nirarthaka nahIM haiM? yahA~ baiThakara ina bAtoM se kyA sAra nikalane vAlA hai? yaha to aisA araNya rudana hai, jise pazu-pakSI aura jaMgala ke jAnavaroM ke sivAya aura koI nahIM suntaa| yaha na kevala samaya kI barbAdI hai, balki ina bAtoM meM Arta-raudrarUpa khoTA dhyAna hone se ye bAteM kugati kI kAraNa bhI haiN|" "vaise bhI sabhI kA yaha kartavya hai ki ve jJAtA-dRSTA raheM; kyoMki sabhI ko zAMta va sukhI honA hai, AnaMda se rahanA hai| para vRddhajanoM kA to aba eka mAtra yahI mukhya kartavya raha gayA hai ki jo bhI ho rahA hai, ve usake kevala jJAtA-dRSTA raheM; usameM ruci na leM, rAga-dveSa na kreN| kyoMki vRddhajana yadi aba bhI sacce sukha kA upAya nahIM apanAyeMge to kaba apanAyeMge? phira unheM yaha svarNa avasara kaba milegA? unakA to aba apane agale janma-janmAntaroM ke bAre meM vicAra karane kA samaya A hI gayA hai, ve usake bAre meM kyoM nahIM socate? isa jIvana ko sukhI banAne aura jagata ko sudhArane meM unhoMne aba taka kyA kucha nahIM kiyA? bacapana, javAnI aura bur3hApA - tInoM avasthAe~ isI udher3a-buna meM hI to bitAI haiM, para huA kyA? jo kucha kiyA, ve saba reta ke gharoMde hI to sAbita hue, jo banAte-banAte hI Dhaha gaye aura hama basa hAtha malate raha gaye; phira bhI ina sabase vairAgya kyoM nahIM AyA?" - yahI vicAra karate-karate merA pUrA eka ghaMTA kaba-kaise bIta gayA, ve loga kaba uTha kara cale gaye - kucha patA hI nahIM lgaa| maiM unase kucha kahanA cAhatA thA, para kaha nahIM paayaa| mana kI bAta mana meM saMjoye maiM apane nivAsa para lauTa aayaa| dUsare dina maiM usI baiMca para baiThA huA vaicArika ur3AneM bhara-bhara kara kisI kalpanAloka meM vicara rahA thA ki na jAne ve donoM kaba Akara mere sAmane vAlI baiMca para baiTha gae aura lage apane atIta jIvana kI pustaka ke pRSTha plttne| jyoMhI unakI AvAja U~cI huI ki merA dhyAna bhaMga ho gyaa| yadyapi unheM merI upasthiti kA na to koI AbhAsa hI thA aura na mujha se koI sarokAra hI; para mujhe unakI bAtoM meM gaharI dilacaspI thI; kyoMki binA bhoge-bhugate hI unake jIvana ke anubhUta khaTTe-mIThe va kar3ave anubhavoM kA lAbha mujhe mila rahA thaa| ve dila khola bole jA rahe the aura merA mana unakI bAteM suna-sunakara vicAra vIthiyoM meM vicaraNa kara rahA thaa| ___ mujhe vahI baiThe-baiThe unakI saba bAteM spaSTa sunAI de rahI thii| Aja unakI bAtacIta kA viSaya rocaka thA, manoraMjaka thaa| ve donoM apanaapanI AlocanA kara rahe the, apane-apane doSoM kI samIkSA kara rahe the| ataH maiM unakI bAtoM ko vizeSa dhyAna se sunane lgaa| __ pahalA vRddha bola rahA thA - "baMdhu! yadyapi merA nAma sadAsukhI hai, para maiMne jIvanabhara duHkha hI duHkha bhogA hai; patA nahIM, jyotiSIjI ne merA nAma 'sadAsukhI' kyA socakara rakhA hogA?' dUsare vRddha ne bhI apane mitra sadAsukhI kI hA~ meM hA~ milAte hue kahA - "tuma ThIka kahate ho, ye jyotiSI bhI kyA balA haiM? dekho na! kisI jyotiSI ne merA nAma bhI 'vivekI' rakha diyA, jabaki mere jIvana meM aba taka mujhase eka bhI kAma viveka kA nahIM huaa| merA hara kadama aviveka

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vidAI kI belA / 2 6 kA hI rhaa| pahalI galatI to mujhase yahI huI ki maiMne apane parivAra niyojana para bilkula dhyAna nahIM diyA aura eka ke bAda eka karake sAta saMtAneM ho giiN| isa kAraNa eka kA bhI na DhaMga se lAlana-pAlana hI ho sakA aura na dekha-rekha hii| bhalA koI akelA AdamI sAta-sAta saMtAnoM ko kaise saMbhAla sakatA hai? dhaMdhA-pAnI dekhe yA unakI dekha-rekha kareM? aura gharavAlI to becArI ghara ke kAma se hI nahIM nibaTa pAtI, cUlhe-cakkI meM hI aTakI rahatI hai| dUsare, maiM svayaM bhI adhika nahIM par3ha sakA aura apanI saMtAnoM ko bhI koI vizeSa par3hAyA-likhAyA nahIM / dhaMdhA bhI cunA to aisA ki jIvana bhara marane ko hI phurasata nahIM milii| halavAI aura hoTala kA dhaMdhA bhI koI dhaMdhA hai? yadyapi isa dhaMdhe meM dharama ke dUne hote haiM, para aisI kamAI kAma kI, jisameM hiMsA hI hiMsA ho aura logoM ke svAsthya ke sAtha khilavAr3a karanA par3e?" sadAsukhI ne pUchA- "svAsthya ke sAtha khilavAr3a kaisI?" vivekI ne uttara diyA - "are bhAI! yaha dhaMdhA hI khoTA hai, jaba bAsI-sar3I-busI miThAI baca jAtI hai, to hama loga phira se usI miThAI meM kucha tAjA miSTAnna milAkara punaH nayA rUpa dekara use thAloM meM sajAkara rakha dete haiM aura tAje miSTAnna ke nAma para use beca dete haiM, mahInoM kA maidAbesana tathA saste se sastA ghaTiyA ghI tela vagairaha kAma meM lenA par3atA hai| kampITizana kA jamAnA hai na? ataH isa pApI peTa ke lie saba ulTesIdhe kAma karane par3ate haiN| saca pUchA jAe to bhale AdamiyoM ke to khAne lAyaka hI nahIM hotI ye miThAiyA~; para kyA kareM? anya koI upAya bhI to nahIM / prAtaH pA~ca baje se rAtri ke gyAraha bAraha baje taka dukAna para itanI kaThina DyUTI denI par3atI ki na subaha pUjA-pATha ko samaya aura na zAma (8) vidAI kI belA / 2 ko svAdhyAya evaM manana-cintana kI phurasata / sArA jIvana yoM hI kolhU ke baila kI taraha kAma-kAja meM jute-jute nikAla diyA / 7 cAhe ise mAnavIya manovijJAna kaho yA mAnavIya kamajorI, para yaha eka manovaijJAnika tathya hai ki adhikAMza vyakti dUsaroM kI ghaTanAyeM sunatesunate svayaM apane jIvana kI ghaTanAe~ sunAne ko utsuka hI nahIM, Atura taka ho uThate haiM aura kabhI-kabhI to bhAvukatAvaza na kahane yogya bAteM bhI kaha jAte haiM, jinase vAda-vivAda bar3hane kI saMbhAvanA ho, jhagar3e kI saMbhAvanA honA, aisI bAteM kahane se bhI apane ko roka nahIM paate| sadAsukhI ke sAtha bhI yahI huaa| vaha bhI vivekI kI bAteM sunakara apane jIvana kI eka duHkhada ghaTanA sunAne se svayaM ko nahIM roka sakA / ghaTanA kI bhUmikA banAte hue usane kahA- "isameM koI saMdeha nahIM ki rASTrahita, parivAra - kalyANa aura AtmoddhAra kI dRSTi se parivAra bar3hA lene aura AjIvikA ke cunAva karane meM tuma se bhUla huI hai; para pArivArika aura Arthika paristhitiyoM vaza ye bhUleM honA asvAbhAvika nahIM hai, inase tumheM pazcAtApa aura duHkha to ho sakatA hai, para ye lokaniMdya va daMDanIya aparAdhoM kI zreNI meM nahIM aatiiN| bhAI! mujhase to jIvana meM eka aisA akSamya aparAdha bana gayA hai, jise svayaM maiM bhI yugoM-yugoM taka nahIM bhUla sakU~gA aura usa aparAdha ke lie mere beTe mujhe kitanA bhI kaSTa kyoM na deM, maiM use apane aparAdha kA prAyazcitta mAnakara khuzI-khuzI sahatA rhuuNgaa| basa, isI kAraNa mujha para ho rahe apane beToM ke durvyavahAra kA mujhe koI duHkha-darda nahIM hai| " maiM socatA hU~ - "acchA huA, mere aparAdha kA daMDa mujhe isI janma meM mila rahA hai| jina logoM ne mere mAtA-pitA kI evaM merI donoM pIr3hiyA~ dekhIM haiM, unhoMne merI isa ghaTanA se avazya hI zikSA lI hogii| -

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vidAI kI belA/2 maiM apane usa aparAdha ko cillA-cillAkara kahanA cAhatA hU~, tAki bhaviSya kI pIr3hiyA~ bhI usase sabaka sIkha skeN| phira koI bhI vyakti apane pUjya mAtA-pitA ke sAtha mujha jaisA jaghanya aparAdha na kre|" vivekI ne kahA - "kucha kahoge bhI yA yoM hI paheliyA~ bujhAte rahoge?" sadAsukhI bolA - "hA~, hA~, kaha~gA; avazya kahU~gA aura jorajora se kahU~gA, tAki sArA jagata sune aura zikSA le / para phle...|' vivekI samajha gayA ki jabataka isake mana kI bhar3Asa pUrI taraha nahIM nikala jAyegI, jabataka yaha apane mana ke gubbAra nikAlakara sahaja nahIM ho pAyegA, tabataka vaha ghaTanA nahIM sunA pAyegA; ataH usane jo kucha kahA, saba cupacApa sunatA rhaa| sadAsukhI ne apanI bAta jArI rakhate hue Age kahA - "bhAI! kevala nAma sadAsukhI rakhane se thor3e hI koI sukhI ho jAtA hai, sukhazAnti prApta karane ke lie hameM kAma bhI aisA karanA cAhie, jisase sukha kI prApti ho| maiMne apane jIvana meM aisA koI kAma hI nahIM kiyaa| maiM to dina-rAta ekamAtra paisA kamAne ke cakkara meM hI par3A rhaa| vastutaH maiM aisA mAna baiThA thA ki paisA hI saba sukhoM kA sAdhana hai, paise se saba sukha pAye jA sakate haiM, para aba merA yaha bhrama dUra ho gayA hai; paisA bahuta kucha ho sakatA hai, para saba kucha nhiiN| aba maiM svayaM pratyakSa dekha rahA hU~ ki Aja mere pAsa kyA nahIM hai? karor3oM kI cala-acala saMpatti, aTUTa AmadanI ke srota; para pApa kA udaya Ate hI vaha saba saMpatti dekhate hI dekhate vipatti bana gaI hai| koI eka bAta ho to batAU~, kyA-kyA kahU~? kabhI phurasata meM zAnti se baiTheMge, taba saba sunaauuNgaa| abhI mere mana meM halacala hai, azAnti hai| Aja hama apane beToM se sevA kI AzA aura sadvyavahAra kI vidAI kI belA/2 apekSA rakhate haiM, para hameM yaha bhI to socanA cAhie ki kabhI hama bhI kisI ke beTe the, kyA hamAre mAtA-pitA bhI hamase yahI AzA/apekSA nahIM rakhate hoMge? hRdaya para hAtha rakhakara hama apanI antarAtmA se pUche ki hamane unake sAtha kaisA vyavahAra kiyA, kitanI sevA kI, unake kina-kina aramAnoM ko pUrA kiyA, hama kitane AjJAkArI rahe unake? yadi uttara nakArAtmaka rahe to phira hameM bhI apane beToM se aisI koI AzA/apekSA nahIM rakhanI caahie| beTe to prAyaH mA~-bApa kA hI anukaraNa karate haiM na? ve jaisA bacapana meM dekhate rahate haiM, vaisA hI to socate haiM; kyoMki bAlakoM kA to svabhAva hI anukaraNIya hotA hai|" sadAsukhI ke isa lambe bhASaNa ne vivekI kI jijJAsA ko aura bhI adhika jagA diyaa| ataH usane adhIra hokara kahA - "bhAI sadAsukhI! yaha saba to ThIka hai, tumhArI eka-eka bAta lAkha-lAkha kI hai, para vaha mUla bAta to kaho, jisake lie tuma yaha itanI lambI-caur3I bhUmikA banA rahe ho| Akhira aisA kyA anartha ho gayA, jisakA tumheM itanA pazcAtApa ho rahA hai?" sadAsukhI ne kahA - "bhAI! yaha bAta to pazcAtApa jaisI hai hI, sAtha hI dUsarA duHkha isa bAta kA hai ki unake jIte-jI mujhe apanI itanI bar3I bhUla samajha meM nahIM AI; anyathA maiM tabhI apane pazcAtApa ke ina A~suoM se unake caraNa pakhAra kara apane usa aparAdha ko kucha kama to kara hI sakatA thaa|" - yaha kahate-kahate sadAsukhI auratoM kI taraha jora-jora se phUTa-phUTa kara ro pdd'aa| ___ sadAsukhI ko atyadhika bhAvuka dekhakara vivekI ne kahA - "bhAI! bItI bAtoM ko yAda kara-kara ke aba isa taraha A~sU bahAne se koI lAbha nhiiN| aba to una bItI bAtoM ko bhUlane meM hI sAra haiN| (9)

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vidAI kI belA/2 kisI ne ThIka hI to kahA hai - 'bItI tAhi bisAra de, Age kI sudha leya' "bhUla kI punarAvRtti na hone denA hI bhUla kA sabase bar3A prAyazcitta hai| ataH bhUla ko bhUla jAo, vartamAna ko saMbhAlo, bhaviSya svayaM saMbhala jaayegaa|" sadAsukhI ne apane A~sU poMchate hue kahA - "punarAvRtti kA to aba prazna hI nahIM, para / " "para kyA" - vivekI ne khaa| sadAsukhI ne kahA - "yahI ki aba to ve isa duniyA meM hI nahIM vidAI kI belA/2 bhI nahIM thI so jaba jo cAhA tatkAla milatA rhaa| para isakA pariNAma acchA nahIM huaa| eka bar3e bApa ke ikalaute beTe meM jina durguNoM ke A jAne kI saMbhAvanA rahatI hai, ve saba durguNa dhIre-dhIre mujhameM bhI A ge| ____ jaise-jaise samaya bItatA gayA, ve vRddha hote cale gaye aura maiM yuvaa| unakA grAmINa rahana-sahana thA aura mujhe naye jamAne kI havA laga cukI thii| phira bhI pitAjI ne kala-kArakhAnoM kA saMpUrNa kArobAra mere hAthoM meM sauMpa diyA thA aura mAtAjI ne ghara kI saba cAbiyA~ merI dharmapatnI ko samhalA dI thii| isake bAda to ve mAtA-pitA ke nAte hama logoM ko kevala sahI salAha dene kI pavitra bhAvanA se hI bAta kiyA karate the| pitAjI mujhe neka salAha dene kI sadbhAvanA se apane jIvana kA amUlya samaya oNphisa meM Akara bitAte the aura mAtAjI merI patnI ko apane jIvana bhara ke anubhavoM kA lAbha denA cAhatI thI, ataH bImArI kI hAlata meM bhI cauke meM pahu~ca kara naye-naye vyaMjana banAkara batAnA cAhatI thI; para usa samaya hamArI buddhi para aise patthara par3a gaye the ki hamane unakI bhAvanAoM kI koI kadara nahIM kI, ulTA unakI pavitra bhAvanAoM kA anAdara hI kiyaa| eka bAra to hamAre dvArA unake prati aisA akSamya aparAdha bana gayA thA ki na ve use jIvana bhara bhUla pAye aura na hama hI use AjIvana bhUla skeNge|" vivekI ne pUchA - "aisI kyA bhUla huI jise tuma kabhI nahIM bhUla "na sahI yahA~, ve jahA~ bhI hoMge, sukhI hoMge; kyoMki jinakA maraNa zAnta bhAvoM se hotA hai, samatApUrvaka hotA hai; ve to hamezA sukhI hI rahate haiN|" vivekI ne Age kahA - "tumhAre hI kahe anusAra tumhAre mAtApitA kA maraNa bhI samatApUrvaka huA hai, zAnta bhAvoM se huA hai| ataH ve bhI nizcita hI uttama gati ko prApta hue hoNge| ____ maiM to tumhArI usa ghaTanA ko jAnanA cAhatA hU~, jisake kAraNa tuma itane duHkhI ho, yadi tumheM asuvidhA na ho to kho| use kaha dene se tumhArA jI bhI halkA ho jAegA aura ho sakatA hai mujhe bhI kucha navIna sIkhane ko mila jaay|" sadAsukhI ne duHkhI mana se apanI kahAnI kahanA prAraMbha kiyA - "maiM apane mAtA-pitA kA ikalautA putra thA, isa kAraNa unake bhaviSya kI AzA bhI ekamAtra maiM hI thaa| unhoMne mujhase bahuta sArI AzAyeM lagA rakhI thIM, nAnA prakAra ke sunahare svapna saMjo rakhe the| ataH ve bhI merI sabhI AkAkSAe~ pUrI karane meM sadaiva tatpara rahate the| ghara meM paise kI kamI to taba sakate?" ___ sadAsukhI ne pazcAtApa ke A~suoM se apane aparAdha kA prakSAlana karate hue kahA - "bAta yoM huI, pitAjI prAyaH dehAtI poSAka meM dhotIkurtA pahine evaM sira para sAphA (pagar3I) bA~dhe kursI para pA~va rakhe baiThe rahate the| mere mitra Ate aura mujhase pUchate ki isa dehAtI bUr3he ko hama kaI dinoM (10)

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vidAI kI belA/2 se yahA~ isI prakAra baiThA dekhate haiM, yaha kauna hai? ___ pahale eka-do dina to maiM yoM hI bAtoM-bAtoM meM TAla gayA, para pratidina koI na koI pUche to kahA~ taka TAlA jA sakatA thA? aura unake grAmINa rahana-sahana ke kAraNa mere hRdaya meM hIna bhAvanA to jAgRta ho hI gaI thI, ataH maiMne yaha kahanA prAraMbha kara diyA ki - yaha hamAre pitAjI ke purAne jamAne kA naukara hai, bUr3hA ho gayA so aba becArA jAe to kahA~ jAe? isa kAraNa donoM samaya ghara para bhojana karatA hai aura ArAma se yahA~ baiThA rahatA hai| isane jindagI bhara hamArI sevA kI to apanA bhI to kucha kartavya banatA hai na?" yaha bAta jaba pitAjI ne sunI to ve mana hI mana bahuta duHkhI hue aura unhoMne kArakhAne ke oNphisa meM AnA hI baMda kara diyaa| idhara ghara para gharelU kAmoM meM mAtAjI ke hastakSepa se merI patnI bhI parezAna thii| ataH eka dina jaba usane merA mUr3ha acchA dekhA, mujhe prasanna citta dekhA to bhojana karate samaya vaha bolI - "kyoMjI, kyoM na mAtAjI va pitAjI kI khaTiyA Upara ke kamare meM DAla dI jAye, tAki unakI yaha roja-roja kI cika-cika hI samApta ho jaaye| 'phira na rahegA bA~sa na bajegI baaNsurii|' ___ maiM to unakI binA kAma kI bAtoM se parezAna ho gaI huuN| dina bhara kucha na kucha kahatI hI rahatI haiN| aura hA~, suno! kumhAra se kaha diyA jAya ki vaha miTTI ke caur3e se do bartana pratidina de jAyA kare, jinameM inheM donoM samaya kA bhojana pappU ke hAtha se bheja diyA kruuNgii| unake jUThe bartana roja-roja kauna sApha kareM? pappU se kaha deMge so vaha unake jUThe bartana phaiMka diyA kregaa|" ___ mujhe praznasUcaka gaMbhIra mudrA meM dekhakara merI patnI ne apanI bAta jArI rakhate hue Age kahA - "mujhe eka sabase bar3I samasyA yaha bhI hai ki yahA~ vidAI kI belA/2 baiThaka meM eka to inake kAraNa pUrI saphAI nahIM raha pAtI, dUsare, jo bhI milane-julane AtA hai, vahI pUchatA hai - yaha dehAtina-sI bUr3hI aurata kauna haiM? Apa hI batAie - maiM roja-roja kyA javAba dUM? maiM to yaha kahate-kahate thaka gaI hU~ ki yaha hamArI sAsUjI ke jamAne kI naukarAnI hai, jindagI bhara yahA~ rahI, aba kahA~ jAe? yadyapi isase aba kAma karate nahIM banatA, phira bhI becArI se jo bhI banatA hai, dina bhara karatI hI rahatI hai| cAra roTiyA~, cAra kapar3e aura cAra hAtha jagaha hI to cAhie ise|" isa taraha bAteM banAkara unase bar3I muzkila se jAna chur3A pAtI huuN|" usakI bAta sunakara mujhe jIvana meM usa dina pahalI bAra aisA lagA ki "vAha! isameM bhI kucha akala to hai hI, jo upAya maiMne socA, vahI isane bhI..." sadAsukhI ne apanI ApabItI kahAnI sunAte hue Age kahA - "usa samaya usakI yaha bAta mujhe bhI a~ca gaI aura hama donoM ne milakara yaha vyavasthA kara dii| ___isa ghora apamAna kA dhakkA ve saha nahIM sake aura unheM sIviyara hArTa aTaika ho gayA, gaMbhIra dila kA daurA par3a gyaa| hama to apane svArtha se unheM beDaresTa karAne ke bahAne eka kamare meM kaida karane kI yojanA banA hI cuke the, prakRti ne bhI unheM paramAnenTa kampalITa beDaresTa karA diyaa| unhoMne ise bhI apane karmodaya kA phala mAnakara sahaja hone kA bahuta prayatna kiyA, para ve saMpUrNataH sahaja raha nahIM paaye| ve jIvana ke anta taka usa viSama paristhiti ko saMsAra kA svarUpa jAnakara evaM apane pApodaya kA phala mAnakara dhaiyapUrvaka jhelate rhe| jaba peTa jAye sage beTe-bahU ne milane vAloM ke sAmane apanI jhUThI Ana-bAna rakhane ke lie, apanA mithyA ahaMkAra puSTa karane ke lie apane dehAtI mAtA-pitA ko mAtA-pitA mAnane se iMkAra karate hue unhIM (11)

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vidAI kI belA/2 kevala apamAna, upekSA aura be-mauta marane kI mjbuurii|" una bUr3he mA~-bApa kI isa bar3abar3AhaTa meM vyakta ho rahI vacanAtIta pIr3A ko vANI denA to dUra, kalpanAoM kI sImA meM sameTa pAnA bhI saMbhava nahIM hai| jaba kabhI vaha svayaM apane bUr3he mAtA-pitA kI sthiti se gujare aura usake beTe-bahU usake sAtha bhI vaisA hI upekSita aura apamAnajanaka vyavahAra kareM, saMbhava hai taba kahIM usameM kucha akla aaye| para usa samaya taka to saba kucha cUka cukegaa| taba phira pachatAne ke sivAya hAtha meM rahegA hI kyA? vakta yU~ hI vyatIta hotA rahA aura thor3e dinoM ke antarAla se ve donoM hI usa jIvana ke bandhana se sadA-sadA ke lie mukta ho ge| vidAI kI belA/2 ke sAmane unheM apane khAnadAnI naukara-naukarAnI kahakara unake hRdaya para vajrapAta jaisA hRdaya-vidAraka prahAra kiyA ho, taba svAbhimAnI mAtApitA ke mana-maStiSka para viparIta prabhAva par3anA to svAbhAvika hI thA; kyoMki usa asahya hArdika vedanA ko unake dvArA jhela pAnA saMbhava nahIM thaa| unakI vedanA ko to koI sahRdaya bhuktabhogI mAtA-pitA hI samajha sakate the| hama jaise hRdayahIna nAlAyaka beTe-bahU unakI usa maraNatulya mAnasika pIr3A ko kyA jAneM?" _hamAre isa vyavahAra se duHkhI hokara ve donoM arddhanidrA meM bar3abar3Ate rahate the; kahate rahate the - "he bhagavAna! jamIna phaTa kyoM nahIM jAtI, jisameM hama samA jAyeM? yaha saba dekhane-sunane ke pahale hI ye A~kheM aMdhI aura kAna bahare kyoM nahIM ho gaye? yaha apamAna sahane ke pahale hI ye sAMseM sadA ke lie thama kyoM nahIM gaIM? kyA yahI dina dekhane ke lie nAnA kaSTa sahakara hamane isa nAlAyaka ko nau mAha peTa meM, aThAraha mAha goda meM aura aThAraha varSa ghara meM sIne se lagAye rakhakara, dina-rAta isakI cintAoM kI citA meM jala-jalakara, zarIra ko sukhAyA? svayaM rUkhA khAyA aura ise mevA-miSThAnna khilAyA, kesariyA dUdha pilAyA / aisA karake kyA hamane sacamuca AstIna ke sAMpa ko pAlA hai, kAle nAga ko dUdha pilAyA hai? kyA yahI dina dekhane ke lie dina-rAta parizrama kara-kara ke paisA kamAyA thA, pAnI kI taraha paisA bahAkara ise par3hAyA-likhAyA thA aura isa yogya banAyA thA? kyA yahI apamAna ke khUna ke cUMTa pIne ke lie isakA itane ThATa-bATa se vivAha kiyA thA? are bhagavAna! yaha mAnava kyA isI taraha kI saMtAna ke lie aisA tarasatA-tar3apatA hai? apanI jAna ko jokhima meM DAla-DAla kara apanA parabhava bigar3ane kI paravAha na kara jaise bane taise nIti-anIti se saMtAna ke sukha ke lie dina-rAta eka karatA hai? aura usake badale saMtAna detI hai dIpAvalI ke lie saphAI abhiyAna cala rahA thA, usa prasaMga meM eka dina jaba hama Upara vAle kamare meM gaye to yaha dekhakara daMga raha gaye ki kamare ke eka kaune meM una sAre miTTI ke kU~Do kA Dhera laga rahA thA, jinameM hama apane mAtA-pitA ko khAnA diyA karate the| ____ mujhe krodha A gayA aura maiMne krodhAveza meM DA~Tate hue beTe se kahA - "kyoM re pappU! tU inheM rojAnA kyoM nahIM pheMkatA gayA? aba inakA itanA bar3A Dhera jamA ho gayA hai| jise phikavAne ke lie majadUra ko kama se kama bIsa-paccIsa rupaye to dene hI par3eMge na?" atyanta bholepana se beTA bolA - "pApA! inheM phaiMkane kI kyA jarUrata hai? ye to bar3e kAma ke haiN|" "kyoM, kyA kAma AyeMge ye?" "jaba Apa va mammI bUr3he ho jAoge to ye hI Apake kAma A jAveMge na?" "kyA tU hameM inameM khilAyegA?" "pApA! maiM roja-roja naye phaeNDe kahA~ se lAU~gA? Apa to bar3e AdamI (12)

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vidAI kI belA/2 haiM so pratidina naye-naye ma~gA lete ho| yadi maiM na ma~gA sakA to....?" usakI bAta pUrI hI na ho pAyI thI ki maiMne punaH DA~Tate hue kahA - "kyoM be nAlAyaka! to kyA tU hameM ina sakoroM meM khilAyegA?" usane usI bholepana se punaH uttara diyA, "isameM nAlAyakI kI kyA bAta hai? yaha to apane kula kI rIti hai na? parivAra kI paramparA hai na? yaha paramparA mujhe bhI to nibhAnI hI par3egI na?' usakI ye bAteM sunakara maiM avAk raha gyaa| kucha hI kSaNoM meM mAtAjI evaM pitAjI kA saMpUrNa jIvanakrama mere smRti-paTala para utara aayaa| aura jyoMhI maiMne svayaM ko unake sthAna para aura apane beTe ko apane sthAna para pratisthApita kiyA to mere pairoM ke tale se jamIna khisakane lgii| ____ "jisaprakAra ke jIvana jIne kI kalpanA hI itanI bhayAnaka ho, vaisA jIvana jIne kI majabUrI kaisI hotI hogI ...?" isa vicAra mAtra se maiM bhaya, AzaMkA aura AtmaglAni ke mizrita vedanA se kA~pa utthaa| sadAsukhI ke isa AtmAlocana meM vivekI ko bhI apane jIvana kA pratibimba dikhAI par3A aura usakI samajha meM A gayA ki usakI vartamAna viparIta paristhitiyoM kI jar3eM kahA~ haiM? ___ acAnaka ve donoM hI sadAsukhI ke mitra uThe aura apanI-apanI dhuna meM atyanta AtmaglAni ke bhAvoM se bhare bhArI mana va bhArI kadamoM se apane-apane ghara kI ora cala pdd'e| Aja unakI vidAI meM calate haiM phira mileMge' kA ullAsa bharA abhivAdana dikhAI nahIM diyaa| tIsare dina maiM usI upavana meM una vRddha vyaktiyoM se kucha pahale pahu~ca gayA thaa| pichale do dinoM se unakI bAteM sunate-sunate maiM to unake jIvana, vyaktitva evaM vicAroM se bahuta kucha paricita ho gayA thA, para ve mere bAre meM abhI kucha bhI nahIM jAnate the| ____ hA~, ve mujhe ekAMta meM akelA baiThA dekhakara sahaja jijJAsAvaza kabhIkabhI merI ora dekha liyA karate the, isa kAraNa merA ceharA aba unheM aparicita nahIM rahA thaa| ___ yadyapi maiMne apanI ora se vigata do dinoM meM kabhI koI aisA hAvabhAva vyakta nahIM hone diyA, jisake kAraNa unakA dhyAna merI ora AkarSita hotA; para na jAne kyoM usa dina unake mana meM anAyAsa hI mujhase paricaya karane kI bhAvanA balavatI ho gii| ____ maiM apanI A~kheM banda kie apanI dhuna meM baiThA-baiThA vicAroM ke tAne-bAne buna rahA thA ki ve donoM vRddha anAyAsa mere pAsa Akara khar3e ho gaye aura merA dhyAna AkarSita karate hue bole - "namaskAra bhAI jI!" unheM acAnaka sAmane khar3A dekha pahale to maiM kucha sakucA-sA gyaa| phira svayaM ko saMbhAlate hue maiMne unake abhivAdana ke uttara meM kahA - "jaya jinendra jI' / phira Avabhagata karate hue maiMne kahA Aie! Aie!! maiM bhI Apa logoM se bAta karane kI soca rahA thA, para ApakI bAtoM kA to kabhI aMta hI nahIM AtA, ora-chora hI nahIM hotaa| bAteM pUrI hone kI pratIkSA meM hI sArA samaya pUrA ho jAtA hai| pichale do dinoM se maiM pratidina Apako yahA~ baiThA dekha rahA hU~ aura anacAhe hI Apa kI dilacaspa bAteM suna rahA huuN| Apa loga bar3e hI (13)

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vidAI kI belA/3 jora-jora se bejhijhaka hokara dila kholakara apane-apane dukha-darda kI evaM duniyAdArI kI bAteM kara rahe haiN| isa bIca mujhe aneka bAra aisA vikalpa AyA ki - 'maiM Apa logoM se mila~ aura Apake saMbaMdha meM mere mana meM sAgara kI laharoM kI taraha hiloreM le rahe apane vicAroM ko Apase kahU~', para Apake dvArA donoM hI dina koI na koI aisA prasaMga cher3a diyA gayA hai ki usI meM samaya pUrA ho gyaa| vaise ApakI bAteM bhI kucha aisI cittAkarSaka hotI ki maiM bhI unheM sunane kA lobha saMvaraNa nahIM kara paataa| isake atirikta yaha bhI vicAra AtA ki - "mahAkavi kAlidAsa kI nIti ke anusAra, 'do janoM kI bAtoM meM tIsare ko bolanA bhI to ucita nahIM hai', yaha socakara bhI maiM Apake pAsa nahIM pahuMca paayaa|" ___maiMne Age kahA - "mujhe ApakI bAtoM se kucha aisA AbhAsa ho rahA ki Apa apane pArivArika vAtAvaraNa se kucha trasta haiM, parezAna haiN| bur3hApe meM apane Apa ko asahAya-sA mahasUsa karate haiN| Apa apane jIvana se nirAza ho cuke haiM; taMga A cuke haiM; isa kAraNa mujhe AzaMkA hotI thI ki kahIM aisA na ho ki ina saba kAraNoM se Apa loga koI anartha kara baiTheM, AtmaghAta krleN|" basa, isI saMbaMdha meM maiM Apa logoM se kucha kahanA cAhatA thA, para eka to mujhe avasara hI nahIM milA, dUsare maiM isa asamaMjasa meM thA ki - "kisI ko binA mA~ge salAha denA bhI cAhie yA nahIM; kyoMki loka nIti meM ise mUrkhatA hI mAnA jAtA hai na!" aura aparicitoM ko salAha denA to aura bhI anucita hai, nItiviruddha hai| ataH kucha bhI salAha dene jaisI bAta karane ke pUrva kama se kama Apase eka bAra paricaya to kara luuN| maiM isI talAza meM thaa| calo, acchA huA Apa hI A gye|" mujhe khAdI ke dhotI-kurtA aura TopI ke sAdA bheSa meM dekha saMbhavataH vidvAna samajhakara sammAnapUrvaka zabdoM meM sadAsukhI ne kahA - "bhAIjI! vidAI kI belA/3 Apake vicAra to bahuta hI uttama haiN| Apa sabhI ke zubhacintaka to haiM hI, nyAya-nIti kA bhI pUrA-pUrA dhyAna rakhate haiN|" sadAsukhI kI bAta samApta hote hI vivekI ne kahA - "maiM to Apake bAre meM kucha aura hI soca rahA thA?" ___ maiMne kahA - "kyA maiM jAna sakatA hU~ ki Apa vahA~ baiThe-baiThe mere bAre meM kyA socate the? Apa logoM ne merI ora dekhA to aneka bAra hai, nizcita hI Apa logoM ne mere bAre meM koI rAya bhI avazya banAI hogii|" vivekI ne kahA - "hA~ maiM to yaha soca rahA thA ki saMbhavataH Apa bhI hama jaise hI ghara-parivAra se upekSita, musIbata ke mAre, bUr3he baila kI taraha ghara se niSkASita apane ko asahAya anubhava karane vAle, mauta kI pratIkSA kara rahe koI dukhiyA prANI haiN| anyathA yahA~ paradeza meM akele Akara pratidina ekAMta meM aise udAsa-udAsa se kisI pahu~ce hue bairAgI saMta kI bhA~ti A~kheM baMda karake ghaMTo nahIM baiThe rhte|" sadAsukhI ne vivekI kI hA~ meM hA~ milAte hue kahA - "mujhe to Apako dekhakara bAra-bAra yaha vicAra AtA thA ki yaha vyakti dIkhatA to koI vidvAna, vicAraka yA rAjanetA hai, para kisI samasyA se parezAna jarUra hai| akelA baiThA-baiThA bora to hotA hI hogaa| kahIM aisA to nahIM ki yaha bhI parezAnI se bacane ke lie hamArI taraha hI parezAna ho! aura parezAniyoM se chuTakArA pAne ke lie kisI kuMA-bAvar3I kI talAza meM ho? kabhIkabhI parezAniyA~ acche-acche vidvAnoM aura vivekiyoM ko bhI vicalita kara detI haiN| calo, calakara mAlUma karate haiM kauna haiM? kahA~ se AyA hai? kahA~ ThaharA hai? yahA~ dina bhara kyA karatA hai? aura becArA kisa musIbata kA mArA hai? ___ hameM Apake pahanAve se aisA lagA - "AdamI to bhalA lagatA hai, ataH hamane vicAra kiyA - "kyoM na ise apanA sAthI banAleM? apane sAtha hone se yaha bhI apanI bAtacIta va gapa-zapa meM apanA duHkha bhUlA

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vidAI kI belA/3 chor3a hI diyA hai| maiM Apa logoM ke pAsa isI irAde se AnA cAhatA thA, acchA hai Apa pahale se hI saceta haiN| bhaviSya meM aisA koI vikalpa A bhI jAye to Apa aisI galatI kabhI nahIM krnaa|" ____ maiMne unase Age kahA - "bhAI! maiM bhI saMgharSoM meM hI paidA huA, saMgharSoM meM hI palA-pusA aura bar3A huA hU~, par3hA-likhA hU~; maiMne jIvana meM bahuta utAra-car3hAva dekhe haiM, sabhI taraha ke saMgharSa jhele haiN| ataH aba maiM choTe-moTe saMgharSoM se nahIM ghbraataa| yaha saba to puNya-pApa ke khela haiM, AtI-jAtIM kSaNika avasthAyeM haiM, inase kyA ghabarAnA? eka kavi ne to saMgharSoM kA svAgata karate hue yahA~ taka likha diyA vidAI kI belA/3 rhegaa| aura yadi bemauta marane kA vicAra hogA to vaha vicAra bhI chor3a degaa| bemauta marane se koI phAyadA nahIM, hamane eka pustaka meM par3hA thA ki 'jo karma kie haiM, unheM to bhoganA hI par3egA, cAhe jIvita rahakara bhoge yA marakara / ' taba se hamane bhI yaha vicAra chor3a diyA hai, anyathA parezAniyoM meM aise vicAra to hameM bhI bahuta bAra Aye the|" yaha to eka manovaijJAnika tathya hai ki - "sAmAjika aura pArivArika prANiyoM ko akelApana kATane ko daur3atA hai| ataH Apako aisA akele baiThA dekhakara hamane yaha nizcaya kiyA ki kyoM na Apako bhI apanA sAthI banA leM, tAki ApakA samaya bhI carcA-vArtA meM AsAnI se kaTa jAyA kregaa|" una donoM kI bAteM sunakara maiMne kahA - "bhalA, bemauta maranA bhI koI maranA hai| yadyapi maiM pahale bahuta bAra marane kI soca cukA huuN| eka-do bAra to maiM marane se bAla-bAla hI bacA hU~; sadbhAgya se mujhe eka aise satpuruSa kA samAgama mila gayA, jinake kAraNa merI amUlya manuSya paryAya sArthaka ho giiN| unhoMne mujhe batAyA ki - "bhAI! aisI bhUla kabhI mata karanA; kyoMki jisa duHkha ke bhaya se ghabarAkara tuma bemauta maranA cAhate ho, usa duHkha se tumheM aise bemauta marane se bhI chuTakArA nahIM milegaa| jo pApa-puNya hamane kiye haiM, unakA phala to bhoganA hI pdd'egaa| isa janma meM nahIM bhoge to agale janma meM phira vaisI hI paristhitiyA~ baneMgI, aura vahA~ phira yahI saba duHkha sahane hoNge|" una satpuruSa ne yaha bhI batAyA ki - "isa taraha kI mauta binA saMkleza pariNAmoM ke nahIM hotI tathA saMkleza pariNAmoM ke sAtha marane se niyama se kugati hotI hai| naraka, nigoda yA tiryaMca gati meM jAnA par3atA hai, ata: aisI galatI kabhI nahIM karanA / taba se maiMne bemauta marane kA to irAdA 'jitane kaSTa-kaMTakoM meM, jisakA jIvana sumana khilaa| gaurava-gaMdha unheM utanA hI, yatra-tatra sarvatra milA / / para mere sadbhAgya se vartamAna meM merI saba pArivArika paristhitiyA~ mere anukUla haiN| mujhe vartamAna meM apane parivArajanoM ke kAraNa koI vizeSa kaSTa nahIM hai| kSaNika moha-rAga-dveSa ke kAraNa jo dUsaroM ke sAtha chuTa-puTa ghaTanAyeM yA dvaMdva ho jAte haiM, unako bhI maiM saMsAra kA svarUpa jAnakara tathA sAmane vAle kA kSaNika manovikAra mAnakara tattvajJAna ke sahAre gauNa kara detA hU~, apane para niyaMtraNa karake maiM kisI taraha TAla detA hU~ aura bAda meM jaba aparAdhI kA krodhAveza samApta ho jAtA hai aura viveka jAgRta hotA hai to vaha apane aparAdha ko svIkAra kara svayaM hI mere pAsa kSamA yAcanA kI mudrA meM Akara khar3A ho jAtA hai|" merA yaha prayoga bahuta hI saphala siddha huA hai| yadi Apa loga bhI yaha prayoga kareM to maiM samajhatA hU~ ApakI pArivArika parezAniyA~ bhI kama ho sakatI haiN| are! Apa hI socie na! "moha rAjA ke sAmrAjya meM yaha saba kaSAyacakra nahIM calegA to aura kahA~ calegA? para yaha saba sthAI nahIM hai, (15)

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vidAI kI belA/3 niyama se marane vAlA hai| kSaNa bhara bAda cale jAne vAle manovikAroM ke cakkara meM phaMsa kara apane AtmA kA ghAta kyoM kareM?" maiMne Age kahA - "Apako yaha jJAta honA cAhie ki yaha manuSya paryAya, uttamakula va jinavANI kA zravaNa uttarottara durlabha hai| anantAnanta jIva anAdi se nigoda meM haiM, unameM se kucha bhalI honahAra vAle birale jIva bhAr3a meM se ucaTe birale canoM kI bhA~ti nigoda se ekendriya Adi paryAyoM meM Ate haiN| vahA~ bhI ve laMbe kAla taka pRthvIjala-agni-vAyu evaM vanaspatikAyoM meM janma-maraNa karate rahate haiN| unameM se bhI kucha birale jIva hI bar3I durlabhatA se do-iMdriya, tIna-iMdriya, cAraiMdriya evaM paMcedriya paryAyoM meM Ate haiN| yahA~ taka to ThIka, para isake bAda manuSyaparyAya, uttamadeza, susaMgati, zrAvakakula, samyakdarzana, saMyama, ratnatraya kI ArAdhanA Adi to uttarottara aura bhI mahAdurlabha hai| ataH isa taraha vartamAna duHkhoM se ghabar3Akara bemauta marane kI bhUla kabhI nahIM karanA / anyathA apaghAta karane kA phala jo punaH naraka nigoda meM jAnA hai, usase koI nahIM bacA paayegaa|" merI ye preraNAprada bAteM sunakara ve donoM mitra gad-gad ho gye| azrupUrita nayanoM se vivekI ne kahA - "dhanya haiM Apa! hama loga Apake bAre meM kyA socakara Aye the aura Apa kyA nikle| Apa to vastutaH bahuta sulajhe hue vicAravAna cintaka puruSa haiN| Apane to hamArI A~kheM hI khola dI haiN| kahie, yahA~ Apa kahA~ Thahare haiM? vahA~ Apako koI kaSTa to nahIM hai, saba kuzala maMgala to hai na? ___ maiMne unheM apanA sAmAnya paricaya dete hue kahA - "bhAI! yadi rahIma kavi kI nIti para maiM calU~, unakI neka salAha mAnU~ to mujhe yahI kahanA cAhie ki - 'nahIM-nahIM mujhe koI kaSTa nahIM hai, Apa logoM ke AzIrvAda se maiM pUrNataH sAnanda huuN|' vastutaH hara kisI ke sAmane apane dila kA darda yA mana kI vyathA kahane se koI lAbha nahIM hai| isa mazInI yuga meM kisI ko na to kisI ke vidAI kI belA/3 kaSTa sunane kI phurasata hai aura na unheM sahayoga karane va sahAnubhUti pradarzita karane kA hI samaya hai| ataH kisI se kucha kahanA, 'bhaiMsa ke Age bIna bajAnA' hai, araNya-rudana karanA hai| Aja kuzala-kSema pUchanA bhI mAtra aupacArikatA bana kara raha gayA hai, eka rivAja-sA ho gayA hai, kisI ko kisI kI vAstavika kuzalakSema se koI lenA-denA nahIM hai| ataH aupacArika taura para to yahI uttara uttama hai| para, vAstavikatA isase bilkula judI hai, jise hama bhUdhara kavi kRta jainazataka kI nimnAMkita paMktiyoM meM dekha sakate haiM : joI dina kaTa, soI Ayu meM avazya ghaTai; bUMda-bUMda bIte, jaise aMjuli ko jala hai| deha nita chIna hota, naina teja hIna hota; jIvana malIna hota, chIna hota bala hai| Avai jarA nerI, takai aMtaka aherI; Abai parabhau najIka, jAta nara bhau niphala hai| milakai milApI jana, pUchata kuzala merI; aisI dazAmAMhI mitra! kAhe kI kuzala hai / / 37 / / yadi isa saMsAra meM puNyAtmA se puNyAtmA jIva bhI kuzala-maMgala se hotA, pUrNa sukhI hotA to yahIM mokSa hotA; phira mokSa ke lie koI prayatna hI kyoM karatA? ___ isa prakAra hama pratyakSa anubhava karate haiM ki tattvajJAna ke binA saMsAra meM koI sukhI nahIM hai| ataH hameM hara hAlata meM mAtra tattvajJAna prApta karane kA hI prayatna karanA caahie|" mere ina vicAroM ko sunakara vivekI evaM sadAsukhI bahuta prabhAvita hue aura unhoMne anurodha kiyA ki jaba taka Apa yahA~ raheM, taba taka apane satsamAgama kA lAbha avazya dete rheN| (16)

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jaba maiMne svayaM usa upavana meM vivekI aura sadAsukhI ke mukha se hI unake vaiyaktika jIvana kI samAlocanA sunI aura unheM apanI bhUloM para pazcAtApa karate dekhA to mere hRdaya meM unheM aura una jaise hI anyajanoM ko samajhAne kI bhAvanA huI / ataH maiMne kahA - "puruSoM kI bahattara kalAoM meM kevala do kalAoM ko hI sarvAdhika mahattvapUrNa mAnA gayA hai| eka jIvikA aura dUsarI jIvoddhAra / kahA bhI hai : kalA bahattara puruSa kI, tAmeM do saradAra / eka jIva kI jIvikA, dUjI jIvoddhAra / / jaba-jaba isa lokokti para dRSTipAta karatA hU~, vicAra karatA hU~ to pAtA hU~ ki adhikAMza vyakti to pahalI kalA-AjIvikA ko arjita karane meM hI apanI saMpUrNa zakti lagA dete haiM aura isameM saphala hone meM hI apane kartavya kI itizrI mAna lete haiN| dUsarI jIvoddhAra kI jo mahattvapUrNa kalA hai, usa para to ve jIvana ke aMta taka bhI dhyAna nahIM dete| para, jahA~ jIvikA kI kalA hamArI vartamAna Arthika samasyAoM kA samAdhAna karatI hai, vahI jIvoddhAra kI kalA hamAre janma-janmAntaroM ke duHkhoM ko dUra karake saccA sukha pradAna karatI hai| ataH jIvikA se adhika mahattva jIvoddhAra ko milanA caahie|" merI bAta pUrI hI nahIM huI thI ki vivekI bole - "bhAIjI / ApakA kahanA saca hai; para jaba taka jIvikA sthira nahIM hotI, parivAra ke uttaradAyitvoM se mukti nahIM mila jAtI; taba taka jIvoddhAra kI bAta sUjhatI hI kahA~ hai? jisase jIvoddhAra kI bAta karo, vahI kahatA hai - "bhUkhe bhajana na hoya gopAlA, yaha lo apanI kaMThI maalaa|" vidAI kI belA/4 vivekI kI isa bAta ko maddenajara rakhakara maiMne kahA - "yadyapi sthira jIvikA ke binA jIvoddhAra kI bAta saMbhava nahIM hai, AjIvikA kI bhI mAnava jIvana meM mahattvapUrNa bhUmikA hai| kama se kama roTI, kapar3A aura makAna kI prAthamika AvazyakatAoM kI samasyAoM kA samAdhAna to honA hI caahie| para, vaha hamAre hAtha meM hai kahA~? vaha to apane-apane prArabdha ke anusAra hI milatI hai| cIMTI ko kaNa aura hAthI ko maNa subaha se zAma taka apane-apane bhAgyAnusAra milatA hI hai| isameM AdamI kI buddhi adhika kAma nahIM aatii| rAjA sevaka para kitanA hI prasanna kyoM na ho jAye, para vaha sevaka ko usake bhAgya se kiMcit bhI adhika dhana nahIM de sktaa| dina-rAta pAnI kyoM na barase, to bhI DhAka kI TahanI meM tIna se adhika patte nahIM nikalate haiN| kahA bhI hai : tuSTo hi rAjA yadi sevakebhyaH, bhAgyAt paraM naiSa dadAti kiMcit / ahirniza varSati vArivAhA, tathApi patra tritayaH palAzaH / / yadyapi udyoga meM udyama kI pramukhatA hai, para udyama bhI to honahAra kA hI anusaraNa karatA hai, anyathA Aja sabhI udyama karane vAle karor3apati se kama nahIM hote| Aja aisA kauna hai jo bar3A AdamI banane kA, karor3apati banane kA udyama nahIM kara rahA? para unameM kitane karor3apati ho gaye? jaba bhAgya sAtha nahIM detA to acche-acche buddhimAnoM kI buddhi bhI kucha kAma nahIM krtii| vaise bhI 'dAne-dAne para likhA hai khAne vAle kA nAma' isa ukti ke anusAra sabakI AjIvikA to bhAgyAnusAra pahale se hI nizcita hai| yaha na kevala lokokti hai, gommaTasAra va samayasAra jaise Agama va adhyAtma graMtha bhI isakA samarthana karate haiN| ataH jIvikA meM hI sArI zakti lagA (17)

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vidAI kI belA/4 denA aura jIvoddhAra ko kucha bhI samaya nahIM nikAlanA acchI bAta nahIM hai|" astu! yaha to siddhAnta kI bAta hai koI mAne yA na mAne, usakI marjI / hameM isase kyA? para sadAsukhI aura vivekI ke bIca huI bAtacIta se to spaSTa patA calatA thA ki aba unake sAmane AjIvikA kI koI samasyA nahIM rhii| bhale hI unheM AjIvikA ke lie pahAr3I ilAke meM jAkara basanA par3A ho, para aba ve vahA~ AjIvikA se to pUrNa nizciMta haiN| paryaTakoM ke AvAgamana se unakA vyApAra-dhaMdhA yahA~ acchA cala nikalA hai| yadyapi unhoMne apane isa vyavasAya meM adhika akla nahIM lagAI thI aura na aisA koI bhArI udyama hI kiyA thaa| sahaja bhAva se rojI-roTI calatI rahe, basa isI vicAra se choTI-choTI dukAneM lagA lIM thIM / bhAgyodaya huA to unhIM dukAnoM meM ve mAlAmAla ho gaye aura kala-kArakhAne taka khula gaye / so ThIka hI haiM : tAdRzI jAyate buddhirvyavasAyo'pi tAdRzaH / sahAyA stAdRzaH santi, yAdRzI bhavitavyatA / / jaisI honahAra hotI hai, vaisI hI buddhi utpanna ho jAtI hai, udyama bhI usI dizA kI ora hone lagatA hai, sahAyaka bhI vaise hI mila jAte haiN| aise vicAra se vijJa vyakti AjIvikA kI adhika cintA nahIM karate; para aisI vijJatA kA abhI unameM abhAva thaa| vidAI kI belA/4 saMyogoM meM na to sukha hai aura na duHkha hI hai| sAMsArika sukha-duHkha to saMyogI bhAvoM se hotA hai, saMyogoM meM iSTa-aniSTa kalpanAe~ karane se hotA hai| saMyogoM meM vastutaH sukha hai hI kahA~, vaha to sukhAbhAsa hai, duHkha kA hI badalA huA rUpa hai| sacce sukha kI yadi khoja kI jAye to vAstavika sukha kA sAgara to apanA bhagavAna AtmA hI hai, jisakI sadAsukhI kI pahacAna hI nahIM thii| vivekI bAbAjI bhI jIvanabhara ThokareM khAte-khAte bAteM to vivekiyoM jaisI hI karane lage the, para abhI unheM vAstavika viveka (tattvajJAna) kI prApti nahIM huI thii| isa kAraNa ve bhI saMpanna hote hue bhI sukhI nahIM the| jIvana bhara par3ausI rahane se una donoM meM paraspara acchI maitrI ho gaI thI, ve donoM hI vRddha bhI ho cuke the| ataH unakA dhaMdhA-vyApAra aura kala-kArakhAne to saba unake lar3akoM ne saMbhAla hI liye the, unakA zarIra bhI aba isa yogya nahIM rahA thA ki ve vyApAra meM baccoM kA kucha bhI sahayoga kara skeN| ___ eka dRSTi se to yaha acchA hI huA ki aba unheM AtmoddhAra karane kA pUrA-pUrA suavasara prApta ho gayA thA, para koI usa zeSa jIvana kA bhI jIvoddhAra meM upayoga kare taba na? adhikAMza to jIvikA meM hI aTake rahate haiN| yaha bhI puNya kA udaya hI samajhanA cAhie ki unheM koI rAjaroga nahIM thA, para bur3hApA svayaM bhI to apane Apa meM eka bImArI hai, jisase koI nahIM baca sktaa| janma, jarA (bur3hApA) evaM mRtyu - ye tIna aise dhruva satya haiM ki jinase koI iMkAra nahIM kara sakatA / inakA sAmanA to samaya-samaya para sabako karanA hI par3atA hai| basa, hameM to kevala yaha dekhanA hai ki ye tInoM avasthAyeM sukhada aura sArthaka kaise ho sakatI haiM? bur3hApe kI bImArI se ve donoM grasita ho gaye the| zarIra kSINa hone ke 'pahalA sukha nirogI kAyA, dUjA sukha ho ghara meM mAyA' / isa lokokti ke anusAra yadyapi sadAsukhI bAhara se sukhI dikhAI dete the, para vastutaH andara se ve abhI bhI bahuta duHkhI the, kAphI parezAna the| ___ jo bhI sadAsukhI kI taraha saMyogoM meM sukha kI khoja karegA, use to nirAza honA hI par3egA; kyoMki saMyogoM meM sukha hai hI kahA~, jo use mile| (

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vidAI kI belA/4 sAtha unakA puNya bhI kSINa ho calA thaa| jisataraha jaba sarovara sUkhatA hai to saba ora se hI sUkhatA hai, usI taraha jaba puNya kSINa hotA hai to saba ora se hI kSINa hotA hai| ___ sadAsukhI va vivekI isI sthiti meM A cuke the| aba unheM kyA ghara para aura kyA dukAna para - donoM hI jagaha do hAtha jamIna bhI gaurava ke sAtha baiThane ke lie nasIba nahIM rahI thii| dukAna para jAte to beTe ghara para ArAma va svAdhyAya karane kA upadeza dete aura jaba ghara hote to na kevala bahUbeTiyA~, balki nAtI-pote taka unheM bhagavAna kA bhajana-pUjana karane aura pravacana sunane va satsaMga karane hetu tInoM samaya maMdira jAne kI salAha diyA krte| unake parivAra meM kisI ko unake ArAma va kalyANa kI kiMcit bhI paravAha nahIM thI aura na svayaM parijanoM ko bhI bhagavAna ke bhajana-pUjana, svAdhyAya va satsaMga se koI sarokAra thaa| unheM to kevala una bUr3hoM kI ghara va dukAna para upasthiti abhISTa nahIM thI; kyoMki eka to kisI bhI kAma meM unakI TokA-TAkI pasaMda nahIM thI aura dUsare, dukAna meM jagaha kI kamI to thI hI, ataH binA kAma vyartha meM hI koI thor3I-sI bhI jagaha kyoM ghere? tIsarI mukhya bAta yaha thI ki - bahU-beTiyA~ va nAtI-pote apane svacchanda AcaraNa meM unheM bAdhaka mAnate the; ataH ve unheM A~kha kI kirakirI kI taraha khaTakane lage the| isa taraha ghara va dukAna - donoM jagaha se upekSita ve donoM apaneapane ghara ke bAhara ke barAmadoM meM baiThe-baiThe Uba bhI jAte the| ataH zAma hote hI unakA saira-sapATe kA mana honA svAbhAvika hI thaa| so zAma hote hI ve mana bahalAne aura jI halkA karane ke lie usI upavana meM pahu~ca jaate| yadyapi sadAsukhI aura vivekI ko rahIma kavi kA yaha dohA bahuta acchI taraha yAda thA : vidAI kI belA/4 rahimana nija mana kI vyathA, mana hI rAkho goy| suna iThilaihaiM loga saba bAMTa na laiheM koya / / vivekiyoM ko apane mana kI vyathA apane mana meM hI rakhanI caahie| hara kisI se kahanI nahIM cAhie; kyoMki dUsaroM se kahane se koI lAbha nahIM hotA, apanI vyathA ko na to hara koI samajha hI sakatA hai aura na kama hI kara sakatA hai| jisase bhI hama apane dila kA duHkha-darda kaheMge, vaha yA to rAga-dveSa va ajJAnavaza hamArA hI doSa batAkara hameM aura adhika duHkhI kara degA yA phira hameM dIna-hIna duHkhI, musIbata kA mArA mAnakara dayAdRSTi se dekhegaa| hamArI aura hamAre parivAra kI kamajoriyoM ko yahA~-vahA~ kahakara badanAmI bhI kara sakatA hai aura hamArI kamajoriyoM kA galata phAyadA bhI uThA sakatA hai| ina saba hAniyoM ko jAnate hue bhI unase rahA nahIM jAtA thA; kyoMki parivAra kI upekSA se unakA mana dinabhara meM itanA bojhila ho jAtA ki unheM Apasa meM apanA duHkha-sukha kahe binA caina nahIM pdd'tii| unheM aisA lagane lagatA thA ki yadi ve apane mana ke gubbAra nahIM nikAleMge to kahIM pAgala na ho jaaeN| ataH ve zAma ko ghUmane-phirane ke samaya apane-apane mana kI bAteM kahakara mana halkA kara liyA karate the| yadi unake beTebahuoM meM koI jarA bhI samajhadAra hotA to saMbhavataH sthiti yahA~ taka nahIM pahu~catI ki unheM ghara kI bAta bAhara kahane ko majabUra honA pdd'taa| bhale hI ve par3he-likhe nahIM the, vidvAna nahIM the, para nire buddha bhI nahIM the, balki ve buddhimAna the, samajhadAra the| jIvana meM aneka utAra-car3hAva dekhe the, ataH laukika dRSTi se anubhavI bhI ho gaye the| vyakti vidvAna na ho to bhI buddhimAna ho sakatA hai; kyoMki vidyA arjita jJAna ko kahate haiM aura buddhi janmajAta pratibhA ko, jo unameM thI; anyathA ve apane jIvana meM itanI unnati kaise kara lete? isa kAraNa unakI (19)

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30 vidAI kI belA/4 sabhI bAteM korI-gapa-zapa nahIM hotI thiiN| bahuta-sI bAteM dUsaroM ke lie bahuta upayogI, zikSAprada aura preraNAdAyaka bhI hotI thii| ve kabhI-kabhI dhArmika carcA bhI cher3a diyA karate the| para unakI dhArmika carcA tattvajJAna se zUnya hone ke kAraNa adhUrI hotI thii| ___isa kAraNa jaba taka maiM vahA~ rahA, pratidina unake khaTTe-mIThe anubhavoM ko sunane tathA unake jIvana meM AdhyAtmika parivartana lAne ke uddezya se vahA~ niyama se jAtA rahA, jahA~ ve baiThakara bAteM kiyA karate the| Adhi, vyAdhi aura upAdhi se rahita AtmA ke nirmala pariNAmoM kA nAma samAdhi hai| Adhi arthAt mAnasika cintA, vyAdhi arthAt zArIrika roga aura upAdhi arthAta para ke kartatva kA bojha-samAdhi ina tInoM se rahita AtmA kI vaha nirmala pariNati hai, jisameM na koI cintA hai, na roga hai aura na para ke kartRtva kA bhAra hI hai| ekadama nirAkula, parama zAMta, atyanta nirbhaya aura nizaMka bhAva se jIvana jIne kI kalA hI samAdhi hai| yaha samAdhi saMvega ke binA saMbhava nahIM aura saMvega arthAt saMsAra se udAsI samyagdarzana ke binA saMbhava nhiiN| samyagdarzana ke lie tattvAbhyAsa aura bhedavijJAna anivArya hai| jise samAdhi dvArA sukhada jIvana jInA AtA hai, vahI vyakti sallekhanA dvArA mRtyu ko mahotsava banA sakatA hai, vahI zAntipUrvaka maraNa kA varaNa kara sakatA hai| samAdhi aura sallekhanA ko aura bhI sarala zabdoM meM paribhASita kareM to hama yaha kaha sakate haiM ki "samAdhi samatA bhAva se sukhazAntipUrvaka jIvana jIne kI kalA hai aura sallekhanA mRtyu ko mahotsava banAne kA krAntikArI kadama hai, mAnava jIvana ko sArthaka aura saphala karane kA eka anokhA abhiyAna hai|" vaha pahAr3I pradeza prAkRtika saundarya kI dRSTi se to zreSTha thA hI, adhyayana-manana va cintana kI dRSTi se bhI bahuta upayukta thA / atyanta zAMta va ekAMta hone se merA mana to vahA~ kucha dina aura Thaharane kA thA hI, saMyoga se vivekI va sadAsukhI jaise duHkhI, jijJAsu va saMsAra se udAsa-virakta vyaktiyoM kA saMparka ho jAne se unake nimitta se bhI zeSa samaya kA sadupayoga karane kA suavasara mila gyaa| sadAsukhI va vivekI buddhimAna vyakti the, ataH thor3e hI dinoM meM ve carcAyeM to bar3I U~cI-U~cI adhyAtma kI karane lge| ve na kevala gaharI tattvacarcA karate, saMnyAsa lene kI bAteM bhI karane lge| saMnyAsa lene kI bAteM haiM to bahuta acchI; para use koI yathArtha rUpa se grahaNa kara sake taba na! adhikAMza to aise logoM kA maraghaTayA vairAgya hI hotA hai| ataH maiMne unheM aura thor3A TaTolane kI koziza kii| ____ maiMne socA - "kahIM sacamuca aisA na ho ki sacce vairAgya ke bajAya ye loga pArivArika paristhitiyoM se parezAna hokara kahIM kisI se dveSa yA ghRNA karane lage hoM aura ye svayaM bhrama se use hI vairAgya mAna baiThe hoN| ina paristhitiyoM meM bhI loga sabhya bhASA meM aisA hI bolate haiN| na kevala bolate haiM, kabhI-kabhI unheM svayaM ko aisA lagane bhI lagatA hai ki ve virAgI ho rahe haiM; jabaki unheM vairAgya nahIM, vastutaH dveSa hotA hai| kevala rAga apanA rUpa badala letA hai, vaha rAga hI dveSa meM pariNita ho jAtA hai, jise ve vairAgya yA saMnyAsa samajha lete haiN|" jaba maiMne unake antarmana ko aura gaharAI se TaTolA to jJAta huA ki vastutaH ve saMgharSoM kA sAmanA na karake unase ghabarAkara palAyana kara rahe the| (20)

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vidAI kI belA/5 tattvajJAna ke abhAva meM bhalA koI saMnyAsa kI ora agrasara kaise ho sakatA mere AtmIya vyavahAra se unheM aisA lagA, mAno maiM unase ciraparicita huuN| ataH unhoMne AtmIyatA dikhAte hue kahA - "bhAI! kSamA karanA, hameM yAda nahIM A rahA ki hama Apase isake pahale kaba/kahA~ mile? para mile kahIM avazya haiN|" ___maiMne unase kahA - "maiM Apa logoM kI bAteM pichale cAra dinoM se suna rahA hU~ basa, unhIM bAtoM se maiM Apake nAma, vyaktitva evaM vicAroM se paricita huA huuN| mere dhyAna se to merA Apa logoM se saMbhavataH yaha prathama paricaya hI hai| para Apa loga mujhe bhI cira-paricita se hI lagate haiN| yadyapi lokanIti ke anusAra prathama paricaya meM mujhe Apase upadeza kI bhASA meM kisI prakAra kI bAta nahIM karanI cAhie, para Apa logoM ke prati mujhe sahaja dharmasneha ho gayA, ataH maiM duHsAhasa karake kucha kahanA cAhatA hU~, isake lie maiM kSamA cAhatA huuN|" ___merI bAta sunakara sadAsukhI ne atyanta vinamratA se kahA - "Apa kaisI bAteM karate haiN| yaha to hamArA parama saubhAgya hai jo hameM Apa jaise satpuruSa kA sahaja samAgama ho gayA hai| Apa jo bhI kahanA cAheM, avazya kheN| hameM to ApakI salAha se kucha na kucha lAbha hI hogaa|" maiMne kahA - "Apa loga apane jIvana meM huI bhUloM para pazcAtApa karake apane pApoM kA prakSAlana karane evaM doSoM ko dUra karane kA jo prayAsa kara rahe haiM, vaha to bahuta acchI bAta hai, para abhI taka Apane kevala apane pArivArika jIvana kI hI samIkSA kI hai, apane paraloka kI dRSTi se bhI to apanI samyak samAlocanA kiijie| usake binA saMnyAsa va samAdhi kI prApti honA kaise saMbhava hai?" sAtha hI jaba maiMne unheM apanA sAmAnya-sA paricaya diyA to vivekI ne kahA - "oha! Apa to lekhaka bhI haiM? maiMne ApakI kaI pustakeM par3hI vidAI kI belA/5 haiN| tabhI to maiMne mana hI mana socA ki "maiMne Apako pahale bhI kahIM dekhA hai| aba yAda AyA ki maiMne Apako pratyakSa nahIM, parokSa rUpa meM pustakoM meM dekhA hai| __bhAI! aba to Apa hamAre parokSa guru bhI haiM, hamane to ApakI pustakoM se bahuta kucha sIkhA hai| para pratyakSa guru ke binA jJAna nahIM hotaa| pustakeM koI kitanI bhI kyoM na par3ha leM, para pratyakSa carcA se jo spaSTIkaraNa hotA hai, vaha svayaM par3hane se nhiiN| yaha bAta avazya hai ki guru to kabhIkabhI hI mila pAte haiM aura jinavANI to nityabodhaka haiM, sadA apane sAtha hai, jaba mana meM Aye pddh'o| maiM guru kI mahimA batAkara jinavANI kI upayogitA se iMkAra nahIM kara rahA huuN| phira ApakA likhane kA DhaMga to samajhAne jaisA hI sarala hotA hai| ataH par3hane kA mahattva alaga hai aura sunane kA alg| donoM eka-dUsare ke pUraka haiM, virodhI nhiiN| jaba Apase pratyakSa paricaya ho hI gayA hai to aba to Apa hameM yaha batA kara hI jAie ki hameM apane zeSa jIvana ko kaise jInA cAhie? hamane apane jIvana meM isa jagata ke svarUpa ko acchI taraha dekhaparakha liyA hai, ataH aba hamArA jI isa jagata se Uba gayA hai| sArA jagata svArthI hai, koI kisI kA nahIM hai| cAhe vaha jIvana bhara sAtha nibhAne kI kasameM khAne vAlI patnI ho yA bhAI-bhatIje hoM / kyA patnI aura kyA putra-pautra, sabhI apane-apane sukha ke saMgAtI haiM, svArtha ke sAthI haiN| zAstroM meM bhI jagaha-jagaha yahI saba kahA hai| dekhiye vairAgya bhAvanA kI kucha paMktiyA~ - kamalA calata na paiMDa jAya maraghaTa taka parivArA / apane-apane sukha ko roveM pitA-putra-dArA / / prANAMta hone ke bAda kamalA (dhana-daulata) jIva ke sAtha eka kadama bhI to nahIM jaatii| jahA~ kI tahA~ par3I rahatI hai| parijana-purajana bhI kevala maraghaTa taka jAkara lauTa Ate haiN| putra-pautrAdi kuTambIjana tIna dina bAda apane-apane dhaMdhe meM laga jAte haiM aura teraha dina bAda to mAno una sabake (21)

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vidAI kI belA/5 phira sunahare dina lauTa Ate haiM aura saba apane-apane rAga-raMga meM masta ho jAte haiN| phira kauna kisako yAda karatA hai? jo bAda meM bhI yadA-kadA rote dikhAI dete haiM, ve bhI saba apane-apane svArthoM ko hI yAda kara-kara ke rote haiN| kahA~ taka gAveM isa svArthI jagata kI gAthAoM ko? ataH hama saMnyAsa dhAraNa kara AtmasAdhana dvArA samyaka samAdhi se apane jIvana ko sukhamaya banAnA cAhate haiN| bhalA yaha bhI koI jIvana hai? jisameM saMgharSa hI saMgharSa hoM, eka kSaNa ko bhI zAMti na mile / aisI kaSAyAgni meM jalanA aba hameM eka kSaNa ko bhI abhISTa nahIM hai| ataH Apa hameM saMnyAsa aura samAdhi kA svarUpa bhI samajhA diijie|" ___ unakI saMnyAsa va samAdhi lene kI tIvra bhAvanA ko dekhakara unake pariNAmoM kI yathArtha sthiti jAnane ke lie maiMne kahA - "dekho, dharma hameM jIvana-saMgharSa se palAyana karanA nahIM sikhAtA, balki vaha paryAya kA satya samajhakara usake sAtha samatApUrvaka samAyojana karanA, samajhautA karanA sikhAtA hai|" kisI kavi ne to aise palAyanavAdiyoM ko jhakajhorate hue yahA~ taka kaha diyA hai : jinase ghara mAMhi kachU na banyoM, ve bana meM jAhi kahA kari haiM? jo ghara meM, kaSAyoM ke kAraNa utpanna huI pArivArika jIvana kI choTIchoTI pratikUlatAoM kA dhIraja ke sAtha sAmanA nahIM kara sakatA, vaha munijIvana kI kaThora sAdhanA kaise karegA? tathA prAkRtika parISahoM aura parakRta upasargoM ko kaise sahegA? jIvana to saMgharSoM kA hI dUsarA nAma hai| aura saMgharSoM kA janma bAhara meM nahIM, antara meM hotA hai| tattvajJAna ke abhyAsa se jaise-jaise kaSAyeM kRza hoMgI, rAga-dveSa kI kAraNabhUta iSTAniSTa kalpanAe~ bhI sImita hogI, saMgharSa bhI sImita hote jAyeMge tathA kaSAyoM kA zamana jIvana se palAyana karane se nahIM, satya ko samajhane aura use svIkAra karane se hotA hai| ataH sarvaprathama pUrI zakti se satya ko samajhane meM juTanA hogaa| vidAI kI belA/5 isake lie sabase pahale zAstrAbhyAsa ke dvArA hameM tattvanirNaya karanA hogA, jJAnasvabhAvI AtmA kA nizcaya karanA hogA, sacce deva-zAstraguru ke yathArtha svarUpa ko samajhanA hogA, phira jo para kI prasiddhi meM hI mAtra nimitta haiM, aisI pA~coM indriyoM, mana aura inake viSayoM para se apanI ruci ko haTAkara Atma-sammakha karanA hogA, tabhI saMnyAsa evaM samAdhi kI pAtratA prApta hogii| yahIM se hotA hai saMnyAsa evaM samAdhi kA zubhAraMbha / ___ ata: Apa logoM ko Aja hI niyamita svAdhyAya karane kA saMkalpa kara lenA cAhie / jJAna hI sarva samAdhAnakAraka hai, jo kevala svAdhyAya se hI prApta ho sakatA hai| jise samatA se, niSkaSAyabhAva se jInA nahIM AtA usakA maraNa samAdhipUrvaka kaise ho sakatA hai? nahIM ho sakatA; kyoMki niSkaSAyabhAva yA zAMta pariNAma hone kA dUsarA nAma hI to samAdhi hai| __ ataH jise apane maraNa ko samAdhipUrvaka sampanna karanA hai, use apane svastha jIvanakAla meM hI samAdhi karanI hogii| samAdhi aisI koI saMjIvanI ghuTTI nahIM hai, jise kevala marate samaya pilAne se kAma cala jAya / yaha to AtmA kI sAdhanA hai, ArAdhanA hai, jIvana jIne kI kalA hai jisakI jIvana bhara sAdhanA kI jAtI hai| ___isI pavitra bhAvanA se jaba maiMne eka bAra samAdhi pATha sunane kI bhAvanA vyakta kI to isa ajJAnI jagata ne usa ghaTanA ko kisa rUpa meM liyA - vaha bhI eka sunane lAyaka manoraMjaka kissA banakara raha gyaa|" sadAsukhI aura vivekI donoM hI mere usa kisse ko sunane kA Agraha karane lage, kintu samaya adhika ho jAne se maiM unheM usa dina vaha kissA nahIM sunA paayaa| agale dina sunAne kA AzvAsana dekara maiMne unase bidA le lii| ve apane mana meM usa kisse ko sunane kI abhilASA lie usa dina apane-apane ghara cala diye| (22)

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ASAr3ha mAsa kA zukla pakSa thA, samudra se mAnasUna uThane lagA thaa| bAdala umar3a-ghumar3a rahe the, bijalI kar3aka rahI thI, do dina se to sUrya ke darzana bhI nahIM ho rahe the| mere pravAsa ke chaThaveM dina savere se hI ghanaghora ghaTAyeM chA gaIM, madhyAnha taka to umasa rahI, para aparAnha hote-hote mUsalAdhAra varSA prAraMbha ho gaI, jo zAma taka thamI hI nhiiN| saba ora jala hI jala dikhAI de rahA thaa| choTe-bar3e nadI-nAle bhI uphana rahe the, sar3akoM para ghuTanoM pAnI thaa| aisI sthiti meM usa dina saira-sapATe ko nikalane kI to koI soca hI nahIM sakatA thA, saMbhava bhI nahIM thaa| bUr3he-bacce - sabhI apane-apane gharoM ke chajjoM se, daravAjoM, khir3akiyoM evaM jharokhoM se jhA~ka-jhA~ka kara varSA kA AnaMda le rahe the, para sadAsukhI aura vivekI baicena the, ve pratIkSA kara rahe the ki pAnI thor3A-sA bhI thame to ve mere nivAsa sthAna para A jAveM; kyoMki maiM unheM samayAbhAva ke kAraNa kala pUrI bAta sunA nahIM sakA thA / etadartha unake eka ghaMTe ke andara tInatIna phona A cuke the, jo unakI AturatA ke paricAyaka the| ___jyoMhI barasAta thor3I-sI thamI nahIM ki ve donoM mere AvAsa para A dhamake aura Ate hI vivekI bolA - "hama aisI barasAta meM bhIgate hue kevala ApakA vaha kissA sunane Aye haiM, jo kala kahate-kahate raha gayA thaa| ataH Apa anya koI aupacArikatA kie binA hameM to sarvaprathama vahI kissA sunaaie|" unakI utsukatA dekha maiMne kahA - "hA~, hA~, sunAte haiM, pahale jarA garama to ho lo, bhIgate hue jo A rahe ho| aura kucha nahIM to kama se kama eka-eka pyAlA garama-garama cAya hI pI lo, phira zAnti se baiThakara vaha prasaMga bhI sunnaa| vidAI kI belA/6 sadAsukhI bolA - "bhAIjI! hameM abhI kisI bhI vastu kI AvazyakatA nahIM hai, Apa to..." "tumheM AvazyakatA nahIM hai, yaha ThIka hai; para hamArA bhI kucha karttavya hai yA nahIM? are bhAI! ghara para Aye atithiyoM kA kucha na kucha Atithya to honA hI cAhie na?" - maiMne khaa| sadAsukhI bolA - "hama abhI cAya-pAnI kucha nahIM piyeMge, Apa anya kucha vikalpa na kreN| vaise bhI Apa to svayaM pravAsI haiM, paradezI haiN| jaba hama Apake ghara AyeMge, taba hama jI bhara kara ApakA Atithya svIkAra kreNge| abhI to Apa hamAre mehamAna haiM, ataH yadi Apa hamArA AmaMtraNa svIkAra kara kala hamAre ghara padhAreM to bar3I kRpA hogii| nizcaya hI Apake sAnnidhya se hameM bahuta lAbha milegaa| hameM Apase bahuta bAteM karanI haiM, bahuta-sI zaMkAoM kA samAdhAna karanA hai| ___ maiMne kahA - "are bhAI! yaha to apanI bhAratIya saMskRti hai, isakA nirvAha to honA hI cAhie na? aura tuma ghara kI bAta kahate ho so bhAI! jahA~ Thahare haiM, vahI ghr| jalapAna ke lie kyA ghara? kyA paradeza? kyA paradeza meM maiM bhojana nahIM karatA yA jalapAna nahIM karatA? bhale phUla na ho to pA~khur3I hI sahI; para ghara Aye atithi kA satkAra to honA hI caahie|" ___ Atithya satkAra kI aupacArikatA ke bAda maiMne apanI bAta prAraMbha karate hue kahA - "bAta bIsa varSa purAnI hai, jaba merI umra koI saiMtIsaar3atIsa varSa kI rahI hogii| usa samaya eka bAra mujhe aisA bukhAra AyA, jisake kAraNa mere aMga-aMga meM asahya vedanA ho rahI thI, isalie maiMne apanI patnI ko bulAkara kahA - 'tU mujhe koI aise AdhyAtmika bhajana sunA, koI aisA zAntipradAyaka stotra aura vairAgyapreraka kAvyapATha sunA; jisase merA upayoga badale aura mujhe pIr3A ciMtana na ho| vaha becArI saba (23)

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vidAI kI belA/6 kAma chor3akara mere pAsa A baiThI aura jinavANI meM se acche-acche stotra aura bhajana sunAne lgii| sunAte-sunAte usakI dRSTi samAdhimaraNa pATha para bhI pdd'ii| samAdhimaraNa pATha vairAgya-preraka to hai hI, karNapriya bhI hai; ataH vaha sahaja bhAva se samAdhimaraNa pATha par3hane lgii| maiM bhI usa pATha ke vairAgya-preraka prasaMgoM se prabhAvita hokara bhAvukatAvaza manobhAvoM ko ekAgra kara usI meM tanmaya ho apanI zArIrika pIr3A ko bhUlane kA prayatna karane lgaa| isaprakAra usa dina ve AdhyAtmika bhajana aura stotrAdi ke pATha mujhe rAmabANa acUka auSadhi' sAbita hue| sacamuca merA upayoga badala jAne se darda kI anubhUti kama hone lagI aura merI karAheM kama ho giiN| merI karAheM kama hotI dekha merI patnI ko aura adhika utsAha AyA aura vaha madhura kaMTha se usa samAdhimaraNa pATha kA jora-jora se sasvara pATha karane lagI - bhava-bhava meM sura padavI pAIM, tAke sukha ati bhoge| bhava-bhava meM gati narakatanI dhara, duHkha pAye vidhi yoge|| bhava-bhava meM tiryaMca yoni dhara, pAyo duHkha ati bhaarii| bhava-bhava meM sAdharmIjana ko, saMga milyo hitakArI / / bhava-bhava meM jina pUjana kInI, dAna supAtrahiM diino| bhava-bhava meM maiM samavazaraNa meM, dekhyo jinaguNa bhiino|| aitI vastu milI bhava-bhava meM, samyakguNa nahIM paayo| nA samAdhiyuta maraNa kiyo maiM, tAtai jaga bharamAyo / / kAla anAdi bhayo jaga bhramateM, sadA kumaraNahi kiino| ekabAra hU samyakyuta maiM nija Atama nahiM cIno / / jo nija-para ko jJAna hoya to maraNa samaya duHkha kaaNii| deha nivAsI maiM nijabhAsI, yohiM svarUpa sadAI / / viSaya-kaSAyana ke vaza hokara, deha Apano jaanyo| kara mithyA saradhAna hiye bica, Atama nAhiM pichaanyo|| ___ (24) vidAI kI belA/6 yoM kleza hiya dhAra maraNakara, cAroM gati bharamAyo / samyak-darzana-jJAna-carana ye, hiradai meM nahiM lAyo / / dhanya-dhanya sukauzala svAmI, vyAghrI ne tana khaayo| to bhI zrImuni neka Dige nahiM, Atama so cita laayo|| yaha upasarga sahayo dhara thiratA, ArAdhana citadhArI / to tumare jiya kauna dukha hai, mRtyumahotsava bhArI / / par3ausiyoM ne bhI vaha AvAja sunI aura unheM Azcarya huaa| are! yaha kaisA svara sunAI de rahA hai? kisakA mRtyumahotsava prAraMbha ho gayA hai? are !! yaha to bahinajI kI AvAja hai| kala to bhAIjI acche bhale-caMge ha~sa-ha~sakara bAteM kara rahe the, rAta bhara meM yaha kyA se kyA ho gayA? ekaeka karake sabhI ar3ausI-par3ausI merA antima samaya nikaTa samajhakara, sahAnubhUti kI bhAvanA pragaTa karane Ane lge| ___ eka ne kahA - 'are! abhI umra hI kyA hai? para mauta umra dekhatI hI kaba hai? abhI-abhI to sukha dekhane ke dina Aye haiM, aba taka to bicAroM ne duHkha hI duHkha dekhaa|' ___dUsarA bolA - 'aise sajjana, saMtoSI, paropakArI virale hI hote haiM, para honahAra para kisakA vaza calA hai? jo jitanI Ayu lekara AyA, utanA hI to jiyegaa|' isa prakAra nAnAprakAra kI bAteM hone lgiiN| jabaki aisA kucha bhI nahIM ghaTA thaa| na koI marA thA, na maraNAsanna hI thA, maiM mAtra bukhAra meM thA aura apanA upayoga badalane, pIr3A-cintana ArtadhyAna se bacane evaM samatA bhAva se samaya bitAne ke lie zAntipUrvaka samAdhimaraNa pATha suna rahA thaa| ____ para isameM una becAre ar3ausiyo-par3ausiyoM kA bhI kyA doSa? unhoMne to samAdhi pATha par3hane kA artha hI yaha mAna rakhA thA, unakI mAnasikatA hI yaha bana gaI thI ki samAdhimaraNa kevala jIvana ke antima kSaNoM meM sunAyA jAtA hai|

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vidAI kI belA/6 vastutaH arahaMta yA rAma kA nAma satya, ziva evaM sundara hai aura inake nAma lene se sadgati hotI hai; parantu arahaMta nAma satya hai, rAma-nAma satya hai, satya bolo gatya hai' yaha vAkya Ajakala zavayAtrA se jur3a gayA hai, zava yAtrA ke artha meM rUr3ha ho gayA hai, mauta kA pratIka bana gayA hai; ataH ise mRtyu ke avasara ke sivAya anyatra kahIM bhI bolanA azubha yA apazakuna kA sUcaka mAnA jAne lagA hai| ___isa kAraNa jisa taraha zAdI ke avasara para arahaMta nAma satya hai' evaM 'rAma nAma satya hai' nahIM bolA jA sakatA, usI taraha Aja samAdhi pATha bhI mRtyukAla se jur3a gayA hai, maraNAsanna dazA ke sAtha rUr3ha ho gayA hai isa kAraNa Aja jagata kI sthiti yaha hai ki samAdhimaraNa kA pATha bhI hara koI vyakti nahIM par3ha-suna sktaa| bImArI meM bhI vayovRddha maraNAsanna vyaktiyoM ko hI samAdhimaraNa sunane kA saubhAgya mila pAtA hai| vaha bhI taba, jabaki unakI pA~coM indriyA~ pUrNa zithila ho jAtI haiM, DaoNkTara javAba de detA hai, vyakti behoza ho jAtA hai, usameM na sunane kI zakti bacatI hai, na socane-samajhane kI kSamatA / aisI sthiti meM sunAne se lAbha bhI kyA hone vAlA hai? kAna meM korA maMtra dene se to mukti hogI nhiiN| hamArI to yahI zubhakAmanA hai ki kisI yuvA yA praur3ha ko maraNa kA prasaMga hI na Aye, para mauta para kisakA vaza calA hai? kadAcit kisI yuvA kI Ayu pUrNa ho gaI to use to binA samAdhimaraNa pATha sune hI maranA par3egA, kyoMki aMta taka bhI yuvAoM kA maranA kisI ko abhISTa nahIM hotaa| ____ vastutaH samAdhi mRtyumahotsava nahIM, jIvana jIne kI kalA hai| ise isI dRSTi se dekhA jAnA caahie| para aisA nahIM ho pA rahA hai| samAdhipATha ko mAtra mRtyu ke avasara para par3hane kI vastu nahIM mAnanA cAhie aura na use mRtyu se hI jor3anA caahie| yaha jIvana bhara ciMtana karane kA viSaya hai, tAki sAdhaka kA mRtyu ke samaya bhI jJAna-vairAgya jAgRta rahe aura use moha kI mAra mUrchita na kara ske|" vidAI kI belA/6 maiMne kahA - "saMyoga se jaise-jaise maiM darda bhUlatA gayA, vaise vaise hI usa samaya merI nIMda gaharAtI gaI aura thor3I dera meM gaharI nIMda meM so gyaa| darda ke kAraNa rAta bhara so nahIM sakA thA, ataH nIMda to AnI hI thI so A gaI aura ar3ausa-par3osa meM yaha ghaTanA upahAsa kA viSaya bana gii| logoM ko aisA lagA mAnoM koI murdA jIvita ho uThA ho|" mere hI Upara ghaTita isa ghaTanA ko sunakara sadAsukhI aura vivekI ke hRdaya meM samAdhi kA sahI svarUpa jAnane kI evaM jIvana meM apanAne kI jijJAsA jAgRta ho gii| unhoMne saMnyAsa aura samAdhi lene kA saMkalpa to kara hI rakhA thA; kyoMki ve apane laukika jIvana se Uba cuke the aura pAralaukika jIvana ko sudhArane kI bhAvanA rakhate the| ataH unheM to mere rUpa meM anAyAsa hI aisA nimitta mila gayA, jo zAyada unheM cirAga lekara DhU~r3hane para bhI nahIM miltaa| para rAta adhika ho jAne se usa dina adhika carcA na ho skii| agale dina punaH milane kI AzA se ve apane-apane ghara cale ge| (25)

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vidAI kI belA/7 vidAI kI belA/7 karate rahate haiN| jo muhAvarA mauta se sAvadhAna hone ke lie kahA gayA ho, use grAhakoM para ghaTita karake dukAna na chor3ane kI preraNA denA, kisI catura vyApArI bApa kA hI kAma ho sakatA hai, jo apane beToM ko isataraha kI preraNA dete haiN| ___ para, aba sadAsukhI aise dukAnadAroM aura vyApAriyoM kI zreNI se bahuta Upara uTha gayA thaa| aba usake socane kA tarIkA bilkula badala gayA thaa| vaha mauta ke artha ko acchI taraha samajhane lagA thaa| ataH vaha dukAnadArI ko hI tilAMjali dekara mauta ke mukha meM jAne ke pahale mauta ko hI bemauta mArane ke iMtajAma meM laga gayA thA, amara hone ke samyak puruSArtha meM laga gayA thaa| vahI pahAr3I pradeza, vahI harA-bharA upavana, vaisA hI suramya vAtAvaraNa, para sadAsukhI ko aba saba kucha badalA-badalA-sA lagane lagA thA, usakA mana jo badala gayA thaa| kisI ne ThIka hI kahA hai - 'mana ke jIte jIta haiM, mana ke hAre haar|' sadAsukhI kA mana aba pahale kI taraha vikathAoM meM nahIM ramatA thaa| usakI bhAvanA aura vicAroM meM aba pahale kI apekSA jamIna-AsamAna kA antara A gayA thaa| usake dvArA svayaM kI bhUloM ko sahaja bhAva se svIkAra karanA aura nirantara apanI AlocanA-samAlocanA karate rahanA isakA prabala pramANa hai| jahA~ pahale usakI bAtacIta adhikAMza rAjanIti va dUsaroM kI TIkATippaNI para hI kendrita rahA karatI thI, vahIM aba usakI carcA ke mukhya viSaya dharmakathAyeM aura tAttvika viSaya bana gaye the| ___mujhe usa pahAr3I pradeza ke pravAsa meM pahu~ce koI adhika samaya nahIM huA thaa| lagabhaga do saptAha hI hue hoMge, jisameM bhI prathama saptAha to parokSa paricaya meM yoM hI bIta gayA thaa| sadAsukhI ke nikaTa saMparka meM Aye to abhI mAtra sAta dina hI hue the| isa bIca usake jIvana meM Aye camatkArika parivartana ko dekhakara maiM svayaM cakita thaa| kauna jAne kisa jIva kI kaba kAlalabdhi A jAve, kisakI pariNati meM kaba/kyA parivartana A jAve? kisakA kaba/kaisA bhAgyodaya ho jAve? yahI bAta mauta ke saMbaMdha meM bhI lAgU par3atI hai| dukAnadAroM ke zrImukha se yaha kahate kabhI bhI sunA jA sakatA hai ki - 'mauta kA aura grAhaka kA koI bharosA nahIM, kaba A Tapake', para balihArI hai una dukAnadAroM kI jo mauta kA iMtajAma na karake grAhakoM kA hI iMtajAra pichale saptAha se niyamita cala rahI tattvagoSThI meM kala kisI kAraNavaza vivekI upasthita nahIM ho sakA to sadAsukhI ko aisA lagA mAnoM vivekI ne koI bar3I nidhi kho dI ho, vaha koI bahuta bar3I apUraNIya kSati kara baiThA ho / usakA mAnanA hai ki vivekI ko kisI bhI kImata para tattvagoSThI jaisA svarNa avasara nahIM chor3anA caahie| kahA~ milate haiM aise maMgalamaya prasaMga? na jAne kisa janma kA puNya phalA hai, jo ghara baiThe jJAnagaMgA meM gote lagAne kA saubhAgya mila rahA hai| ___ ataH dUsare dina vivekI ke Ate hI usane use Ar3e hAthoM liyA aura U~ce svara meM kahA - "vivekI! tuma kala tattvagoSThI meM kyoM nahIM Aye? isase mahattvapUrNa kAma aura kyA ho sakatA hai? tumheM yaha to jJAta hI hai ki bhAIjI mAtra hamAre-tumhAre lie hI itane dinoM se yahA~ ruke hue haiN|" ____ sadAsukhI kA kaThora rukha dekhakara vivekI sakapakA gyaa| vaha apanI saphAI meM kucha kahanA hI cAhatA thA ki sadAsukhI ne punaH bhArI asaMtoSa kI mudrA meM kahA - "aba tumhArA ghara-gRhasthI kA koI bhI bahAnA maiM

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vidAI kI belA/7 nahIM sunanA cAhatA / jinake moha meM tuma itane pAgala hue jA rahe ho, duHkha ke dinoM meM ye koI kAma nahIM AyeMge aura aba unheM tumhAre kAma yA salAha kI apekSA bhI kahA~ hai? tuma kevala apanI kamajorI ke kAraNa hI apanA amUlya samaya kharAba kara rahe ho / ve tumheM na bhI chor3ate hoM to tumheM to aba unase ekatva-mamatva kama karanA hI hogaa|" sadAsukhI kA nArAja honA anucita nahIM thA, ThIka hI thA; kyoMki mitra kahate hI use haiM, jo apane mitra ko usake hita meM niyojita kare, kalyANa ke mArga meM lgaaye| sadAsukhI ne kucha namra hote hue punaH kahA - "dekho bhAI! aba apanA duniyAdArI meM ulajhane kA samaya nahIM rhaa| kala jaba bhAIjI ne apane vyAkhyAna meM eka bAta bahuta saTIka kahI to usa samaya mujhe tumhArI bahuta yAda aaii| maiMne tumheM idhara-udhara bahuta dekhA, para tuma kahIM dikhAI hI nahIM die| tumhArI kala kI anupasthiti se merA upayoga bahuta kharAba hotA rhaa|" vivekI ne kheda prakaTa karate hue jijJAsA pragaTa kI - "kyA kahA thA bhAIjI ne? kucha batA sakoge?" / "hA~ hA~, kyoM nahIM? tU mujhe samajhatA kyA hai? vaise bhI maiM bhAIjI kI pratyeka bAta bar3e dhyAna se sunatA huuN| phira kala to tere na Ane se merI jimmedArI aura bhI bar3ha gaI thii| ataH maiMne eka-eka bAta dhyAna se sunI aura dhAraNA meM lii|" sadAsukhI ne mere vyAkhyAna ko akSarazaH duharAte hue kahA - "are bhAI! strI-putrAdi sabhI parijana-purajana svArtha ke hI sAthI hote haiN| koI kitanI bhI mIThI-mIThI bAteM kyoM na kare, kaise bhI AzvAsana kyoM na deM; para samaya para koI kAma nahIM AtA, koI bhI duHkha ke dinoM meM sahabhAgI nahIM banatA / kadAcit koI bananA bhI cAhe to vastuvyavasthA ko hI kisI vidAI kI belA/7 meM kisI kA hastakSepa svIkRta nahIM hai| vastuvyavasthA meM aisA koI prAvadhAna hI nahIM hai ki koI kisI ke sukha-duHkha meM sahabhAgI bana skeN|" zAstroM kA ullekha karate hue bhAIjI ne kahA - dekho na! sApha-sApha likhA hai - 'sutadArA hoya na sIrI, saba svAratha ke haiM bhiirii|' zAstroM kI bAteM galata thor3e hI hotI haiN| bhAIjI ne eka anya bhajana kI bhI kucha paMktiyA~ sunAI thI, jinake katipaya bola isa prakAra haiM : 'tana koI chUtA nahIM, cetana nikala jAne ke baad| phaiMka dete phUla ko, khuzabU nikala jAne ke bAda / / chor3a detA mA~ ko bachar3A, paya nikala jAne ke bAda / ' zAyada agalI paMkti bhAIjI bhUla rahe the, jaba taka ve socane ko ruke, taba taka mere mu~ha se nikala gayA - "kaha do, kaha do bhAIjI! kaha do ki - beTe mA~-bApa ko bhI chor3a dete, svArtha sadha jAne ke bAda / / " merA itanA kahanA thA ki saba zrotAoM kI dRSTi merI aura mur3a gii| apanI ora sabakI dRSTi dekhakara pahale to maiM kucha jheMpA; kyoMki maiMne anAdhikAra ceSTA jo kara DAlI thii| mujhe vyAkhyAna ke bIca meM bolane kI dhRSTatA nahIM karanI cAhie thI aura maiM yaha gustAkhI kara baiThA thaa| para jaba maiMne sabako muskurAte aura sarAhanA ke svara meM vAha! vAha!! karate sunA to mujhe aisA lagA ki - "jaise maiMne koI bahuta bar3e viveka kI bAta kaha dI hai, anyathA ve vyAkhyAna ke bIca meM vAha! vAha!! kyoM karate?" __vastutaH vaha bujurgoM ke diloM kA darda thA, jo mere mu~ha se anAyAsa phUTa par3A thaa| ataH sabakA prasanna honA to svAbhAvika hI thaa| bhAIjI ne bhI merI bAta kA hI samarthana karate hae merI vahI paMkti bAra-bAra duhraaii| (27)

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46 vidAI kI belA/7 "beTe mA~-bApa ko bhI chor3a dete....|" sadAsukhI ke mu~ha se ye bAteM sunakara vivekI bhI uchala par3A thA aura vaha bhI vAha-vAha karatA huA bolA - "vAha! sadAsukhI tumane to kamAla kara diyaa|" "kyA khAka kamAla kara diyA / tuma to aise dAda de rahe ho jaise maiM koI bahuta bar3A kavi yA zAyara bana gayA houuN| are bhAI! mere mu~ha se to TUTephUTe zabdoM meM kevala mere aura janatA ke dila kA darda nikalA thaa|" vivekI ne kahA - "kavi bhI to aise hI banate haiM - Apako patA nahIM, bAlmIki mahAkavi kaise bane the?" unako lakSya karake hI kavi sumitrAnaMdana paMta ne yaha kahA hai :'viyogI hogA pahalA kavi, Aha se upajA hogA gAna / umar3a kara A~khoM se cupacApa, bahI hogI kavitA anajAna / / ' sadAsukhI ne Age kahA - "bhAIjI ne apane vyAkhyAna meM eka kahAnI ke mAdhyama se isa svArthI jagata kA jo zabdacitra prastuta kiyA thA, vaha mohanIMda meM soe hama-tuma jaise saba jIvoM kI A~kheM kholane ke lie paryApta thaa| vivekI ne apanI bhUla kA ahasAsa karate hue punaH kahA - "bhAI! mujhase sacamuca bhUla huI hai ki maiMne aisA svarNa avasara kho diyA / yadi tuma sunA sakate ho to vaha kahAnI bhI avazya sunaao| maiM bhaviSya meM samaya para pratidina upasthita rahane kA pUrA-pUrA prayatna kruuNgaa|" vivekI ke anurodha para sadAsukhI ne bhAIjI ke vyAkhyAna meM sunI kahAnI ko sunAte hue kahA - "eka seTha thA, jisakA nAma thA khuzIrAma / duniyA kI dRSTi meM khuzIrAma saba ora se sukhI thA, sATha varSa kA hote hue bhI pUrNa svastha thA, aTUTa saMpatti thI, kala-kArakhAnoM se asImita Aya, pA~ca-pA~ca lar3ake, unakI eka se bar3hakara eka sundara va suzIla bahue~, kilakAriyoM se ghara kA konA-konA guMjAte pote-potiyA~ kulavaMtI nArI, vidAI kI belA/7 AjJAkArI putra, anukUla ar3ausI-par3ausI, sevAbhAvI naukara-cAkara sabhI sadaiva unakI sevA meM samarpita, vilAyatI gAr3iyA~, bar3e-bar3e baMgale / kyA nahIM thA usake pAsa? eka tattvajJAna ke sivAya saba kucha to thaa| bhAgyodaya se jJAniyoM ke jIvana meM yadi aisA banAva bana bhI jAve to ve to isa ThATha-bATa kI kSaNa-bhaMguratA ko bhalI-bhA~ti jAnate haiM, ataH ve isa ThATha-bATa se tanmaya nahIM hote, prabhAvita bhI nahIM hote| para yadi yahI saba anukUla saMyoga ajJAniyoM ko mila jAyeM to unheM apaca hue binA nahIM rahatA, abhimAna hue binA nahIM rhtaa| seTha khuzIrAma ko bhI yaha saba pacA nahIM thA, isa kAraNa aba vaha AsamAna meM ur3Ane bharane lagA thaa| aba usakA pA~va jamIna para TikatA hI nahIM thA, vaha apane Age kisI ko kucha samajhatA hI nahIM thaa| kisI se sIdhe mu~ha bAta karanA to mAno vaha bhUla-sA hI gayA thA aura nIce kI ora dekhanA bhI aba usakI Adata meM nahIM rahA thaa| para sabake dina sadA eka se nahIM rhte| vaha bhI unhIM meM se eka thA, jo jaldI hI jamIna para A giraa| eka bAra vaha aisA bImAra par3A ki lAkhoM prayatnoM ke bAvajUda bhI svastha nahIM haa| jaba vaha saba ora se nirAza ho gayA to use bhagavAna yAda aaye| daivayoga se eka dina anAyAsa usake ghara eka mahAtmAjI A phuNce| ___ mahAtmAjI ne seTha ko sAThottara evaM atyadhika asvastha dekhakara zeSa jIvana ko dharma ArAdhanApUrvaka bitAne kI salAha dii| unhoMne kahA - "dekho seTha! maiM apane nimittajJAna se tumhAre bhUta va bhaviSya ko acchI taraha jAnatA huuN| tumhAre puNyodaya se tumhArA bhUtakAla to bahuta hI acchA bItA hai, para tumhArI vartamAna pariNati dekhate hue mujhe tumhArA bhaviSya sukhada dikhAI nahIM detaa| aba tumhArA puNya kSINa ho calA hai, isa kAraNa bur3hApe meM to sukha zAMti dIkhatI hI nahIM, agalA janma bhI (28)

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vidAI kI belA / 7 aMdhakAramaya dikhAI detA hai| ataH merI salAha mAno to tuma apanA zeSa jIvana jJAna-vairAgya sahita samatApUrvaka bitAo / tAki tumheM vartamAna meM bhI AkulatAjanita duHkha kI anubhUti na ho aura agalA janma bhI sudhara ske|" 48 seTha ne kahA - "mahAtmAjI ! hama jJAna-vairAgya kyA jAneM? hamase to Apa yadi dAna-puNya karane ko kaho to hama lAkha do lAkha rupayA kharca kara sakate haiM, pUjApATha karA sakate haiN| para, aba bur3hApe meM par3hane-likhane aura svAdhyAya karane kI zakti hI hamameM kahA~ ? aba saMyama-niyama se rahanA bhI hamAre vaza kI bAta nahIM hai|" strI- putra kuTumba parivAra ke vyAmoha meM par3e seTha kI pAtratA dekha mahAtmAjI ne sarvaprathama seTha ko saMsAra, zarIra aura bhogoM se aruci utpanna karAne ke lie isa svArthI jagata kA svarUpa samajhAne kA prayatna kiyA / mahAtmAjI ne kahA - "dekho seTha! tuma jina strI-putra, kuTumba - parivAra ke moha - jAla meM ulajhakara apanA amUlya mAnava jIvana barbAda kara rahe ho, apane hitAhita ko bilkula bhUla baiThe ho, apane bhaviSya ko aMdhakAramaya banA rahe ho, ve koI bhI tumheM duHkha ke dinoM meM kAma nahIM aayeNge| yaha jagata bar3A svArthI hai| jinheM tuma apanA kahate ho, ye saba svArtha ke hI sage haiN| ataH tuma kuTumba parivAra ke moha meM par3akara aba adhika pApa meM na pdd'o| pApa kA phala to tumheM akele hI bhoganA pdd'egaa|" "mahArAja! maiM Apa se mu~hajorI to nahIM kara sakatA, Apa jo kaheMge, maiM ApakI AjJA pAlana karane kI koziza karU~gA, para Apane jo mere kuTumba-parivAra para saMdeha pragaTa kiyA, unheM svArthI batAyA- isa bAta para mujhe vizvAsa nahIM; kyoMki mujhe apane parivAra para pUrA bharosA hai| ve mere lie to apane prANa taka samarpita karane ko hara samaya taiyAra rahate haiN| bhalA aise parivAra ke bIca meM merA bur3hApA duHkhada kaise ho sakatA hai ? (29) vidAI kI belA / 7 49 Apako patA nahIM hai, mere strI- putra Adi mujhe eka kSaNa bhI duHkhI nahIM dekha skte| vaise agalA janma to dekhA kisane hai? phira bhI maiMne mauke-mauke para bhArI dAna-puNya karake pUjA-pATha karAke, tIrthoM ke yAtrA saMgha nikAlakara, maMdira vagairaha banavAkara apane agale janma kA bhI kuchakucha iMtajAma kara hI liyA hai|" seTha kI bAteM sunakara mahAtmAjI muskuraaye| unhoMne kahA - "seTha! tuma bahuta bhole ho / jaba tumheM punarjanma aura puNya pApa meM vizvAsa hI nahIM hai to dharama-karama karake yaha rijarvezana kahA~ kA karA liyA hai? seTha! abhI taka tumane pUrva puNyodaya se saba ora se kuTumba parivAra kI anukUlatA hI dekhI hai| pratikUlatA kA prasaMga to aba prApta huA hai| tuma aba dekhanA ki kauna /kitanA samarpaNa karatA hai?" seTha ne AtmavizvAsa pragaTa karate hue kahA "maiM ApakI isa bAta se sahamata nahIM hU~, aisA kahakara Apane mere parijanoM kA apamAna kiyA hai|" mahAtmAjI ne kahA- "dekho seTha! yaha tuma nahIM, tumhArA moha bola rahA hai, ahaMkAra bola rahA hai| bhale hI abhI tumheM merI bAta para vizvAsa nahIM ho rahA hai, para kabhI na kabhI tumheM merI bAta mAnanI hI hogii| yadi tumheM mere nimittajJAna para jarA bhI vizvAsa ho to usake anusAra tumheM itanA to mAnanA hI par3egA ki aba tumhArI jiMdagI kevala caMda dinoM kI raha gaI hai / ataH tumhAre jo ati Avazyaka kAma haiM, unheM zIghra pUrA kara lo, anyathA yahA~ kA saba kucha to adhUrA chor3akara hI jAnA hogA, agale janmoM meM bhI tumhArA atRpta AtmA sukha-zAMti prApta nahIM kara skegaa| ataH tumheM yaha saba vikalpa tor3akara apane kalyANa ke mArga meM laga jAnA caahie|" mahAtmAjI se apanI mauta kI bAta sunakara seTha kI A~khoM ke Age a~dherA chA gayA, vaha hakkA-bakkA raha gyaa| kucha paristhiti kA lAbha uThAte hue mahAtmAjI ne seTha ke kAna meM kahA - seTha sunate hI mUrchita ho maraNa tulya ho gyaa|

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vidAI kI belA/7 anAyAsa seTha kI yaha sthiti dekhakara ghara ke sabhI loga ghabar3A gye| kisI kI samajha meM kucha nahIM A rahA thA ki dekhate hI dekhate yaha kyA ho gayA, abhI to seThajI mahAtmAjI se acchI bhalI bAteM kara rahe the aura abhI-abhI cala bse| phira kyA thA, tatkAla sabhI unase prApta hone vAle apane-apane sukhoM ko, svArthoM ko yAda kara-karake rone lge| rAtri ke dasa baja rahe the, isa kAraNa rAtabhara kA samaya to unake zava ke pAsa baiThakara sabako gujAranA hI thA / AdhA-pauna ghaMTe rone kI aupacArikatA pUrI karake saba ghara-bAhara kI bAteM karane lge| bhaviSya kI rUparekhAyeM banane lgiiN| isI bIca saMpatti ke svAmitva aura ba~TavAre kI bAteM bhI prAraMbha ho giiN| beTe-beTiyoM aura bhAI-baMdhuoM meM eka alaga prakAra kI sugabugAhaTa zuru ho gii| beTe-beTiyoM aura bhAI-baMdhu bar3I hI bezarmI se saMpatti para apanA-apanA ekAdhikAra jatAne ke cakkara meM the| sabhI seTha para pakSapAta ke Aropa lagA-lagAkara unako burA-bhalA kaha rahe the| una becAroM ko kyA patA thA ki seThajI mare nahIM the, balki mahAtmAjI kI yojanA ke anusAra apane parivAra kI parIkSA karane ke lie, unakI bhAvanAoM ko parakhane ke lie mahAtmAjI ke dvArA hI kAna meM phUMke gaye maMtra ke mutAbika marane kA nATaka kara rahe the| aisI sthiti meM vahA~ jo bhI bAteM huIM thIM, unheM sunakara seThajI ko mahAtmAjI kI bAtoM para kucha-kucha vizvAsa ho calA thaa| yadyapi seTha ko apane parijanoM kI bAtoM se unake Upara krodha A rahA thA, para vaha seTha una logoM kI bhAvanAoM ko aura gaharAI se jAnanA cAhatA thA, ataH cupacApa vaise hI A~kheM baMda kie mRtavat rAta bhara par3A rahA aura unakI bAteM sunatA rhaa| isase usakA mana unake prati glAni se bhara gyaa| jitanA use unake prati rAga thA, usase kahIM adhika dveSa ho gyaa| vidAI kI belA/7 prAtaH hote hI mahAtmAjI phira seTha ke ghara sahAnubhUti darzAne ke bahAne A dhmke| aura seTha ke ghara ke sabhI sadasyoM ko bulAyA tathA eka kaTore meM jala ko maMtrita karake eka-eka kara sabase kahA ki jo isa jala ko pI legA, usake jIvana ke bIsa-bIsa varSa seThajI ko mila jaayeNge| phira tumhAre aMtima samaya taka seThajI tumhAre sAtha raha skeNge| yadi eka hI vyakti apane jIvana ke bIsa varSa nahIM denA cAhatA to pati-patnI donoM milakara bhI AdhA-AdhA pAnI pIleM to donoM apane jIvana ke dasa-dasa varSa bhI de sakate haiN| sabhI eka dUsare kA mu~ha tAkane lage, bahuta pratIkSA karane ke bAda jaba koI bhI Age nahIM AyA to mRtavat par3e seTha ko aura bhI adhika krodha AyA, vaha Aga-babUlA ho gayA, krodha meM usake oTha thara-thara kAMpane lge| vaha cillAyA - "saba haTa jAo mere sAmane se| aba merI samajha meM acchI taraha A gayA ki tuma loga kitane svArthI ho? Aja tumane merA bhrama bhaMga kara diyA hai, merI A~kheM khola dI haiN| aba samajha meM AyA ki mahAtmAjI kA kahanA zata-pratizata sahI thA, jisa para aba taka maiMne vizvAsa nahIM kiyA thaa|" mahAtmAjI ne seTha ko zAMta karate hue kahA - "bhAI! isameM ina logoM kA koI doSa nahIM hai| tumhIM bhrama meM the| ye loga apanI Ayu tumheM denA bhI cAheM to bhI nahIM de skte| loka kI sva-saMcAlita vastu vyavasthA meM aisA kucha bhI saMbhava nahIM hai; jo aisA mAnate haiM yA kahate haiM, ve svayaM ko evaM dUsaroM ko dhokhA dete haiN| jo nizcita hai, use kauna palaTa sakatA hai?" mahAtmAjI ne seTha se Age kahA - "koI kisI ko sukhI-duHkhI nahIM kara sakatA, jIvana-maraNa nahIM de sakatA; kyoMki koI kisI ko apane puNya-pApa nahIM de sakatA, Ayu nahIM de sktaa|" dekho na! samayasAra ke baMdha adhikAra meM AcArya kuMdakuMda ne kitanA spaSTa likhA hai - (30)

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vidAI kI belA/7 maiM mAratA hU~ anya ko, yA mujhe mAreM anyajana / yaha mAnyatA ajJAna hai, jinavara kaheM he bhavyajana / / nija AyukSaya se maraNa ho, yaha bAta jinavara ne khii| tuma mAra kaise sakoge jaba, Ayu hara sakate nahIM? / / nija AyukSaya se maraNa ho, yaha bAta jinavara ne khii| ve maraNa kaise kareM taba, jaba Ayu hara sakate nahIM? / / maiM hU~ bacAtA anya ko, mujhako bacAve anyajana / yaha mAnyatA ajJAna hai, jinavara kahe he bhavyajana / / saba Ayu se jIvita raheM, yaha bAta jinavara ne khii| jIvita rakhoge kisa taraha, jaba Ayu de sakate nhiiN?|| saba Ayu se jIvita raheM, yaha bAta jinavara ne khii| kaise bacAveM de tujhe jaba, Ayu de sakate nahIM? / / maiM sukhI karatA duHkhI karatA hU~, jagata meM anya ko| yaha mAnyatA ajJAna hai, kyoM jJAniyoM ko mAnya ho? / isaprakAra sabhI jIva apane kie puNya-pApa kA phala hI bhogate haiN| anya koI kisI ko sukhI-duHkhI nahIM kara sktaa| yadi koI anya kisI anya ko sukhI-duHkhI kara sake to svayaM kie puNya-pApa kA kyA hogA? ataH kisI anya ke prati rAga-dveSa karanA vyartha hai| jJAnI aisI zraddhA ke bala se hI kaSAyeM kRza karate haiM, moha-rAga-dveSa kA vamana karake samatAbhAva dhAraNa karate haiN| tathA saMsAra, zarIra va bhogoM kI asAratA kA bArambAra vicAra karake sAMsArika sukhoM se saMnyAsa le lete haiM, virAgI hokara munidharma sAdhana dvArA svarUpa kI prApti karate haiN| yahI jIvana jIne kI kalA hai jisase hama aba taka anabhijJa rahe haiN| yadi saccA sukha prApta karanA ho to hameM bhI ina sabase saMnyAsa lekara paMcaparameSThI aura zuddhAtmA kI zaraNa meM AnA hogaa| etadartha paMDita jayacandajI chAbar3A kI nimnAMkita paMktiyA~ bAraMbAra smaraNIya haiM : vidAI kI belA/7 "zuddhAtama aru paMcaguru, jaga meM zaraNA doy| moha udaya jiya ke vRthA, Ana kalpanA hoya / / " mahAtmAjI ke isa saMdeza ko sunakara seTha ke netra khula gaye aura unhoMne jagata se saMnyAsa lene kA dRr3ha saMkalpa kara mahAtmAjI se saMnyAsa va samAdhi ke saMbaMdha meM vistAra se samajhane kA nivedana kiyaa| mahAtmAjI ne kahA - "saMsAra, zarIra va bhogoM ko asAra, kSaNika evaM nAzavAna tathA duHkhasvarUpa va duHkha kA kAraNa mAnakara unase virakta honA hI saMnyAsa hai| tathA samatA bhAva ko samAdhi kahate haiN| zAstrIya zabdoM meM kaheM to, kaSAyarahita zAMta pariNAmoM kA nAma hI samAdhi hai| tattvoM kA manana, mithyAtva kA vamana, kaSAyoM kA zamana, iMdriyoM kA damana, AtmA meM ramaNa - yahI saba to samAdhi hai, jo aba tumheM karanI hai| samAdhi ke lie sarvaprathama svarUpa kI samajha atyAvazyaka hai tathA yaha svarUpa kI samajha paMcaparameSThI kI pahacAnapUrvaka hotI hai aura sacce devazAstra-guru kI yathArtha zraddhA usameM nimitta hotI hai| etadartha sarvaprathama tumheM deva-zAstra-guru kI zaraNa meM AnA hogA, paMcaparameSThI kA svarUpa samajhanA hogaa| puruSoM kI anaginata kalAoM meM do kalAyeM hI pramukha haiM - eka jIvikA dUsarI jIvoddhAra / pahalI kalA meM to tuma saphala rahe hI ho| dUsarI kalA ko bhI tuma hAsila kro| saMnyAsapUrvaka samAdhi kI sAdhanA karake apane zeSa jIvana ko bhI sArthaka kara lo| isa taraha mahAtmAjI kI preraNA evaM prayAsoM se tathA svayaM kI bhalI honahAra se zeTha ko sanmArga mila gyaa| ___ isa mArmika kahAnI ko jaba sadAsukhI ke mukha se vivekI ne sunA to vaha bhI gadgada ho gayA aura usakA viveka bhI jAgRta ho gyaa| (31)

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54 vidAI kI belA/7 vivekI ko aisA lagA - "mAno yaha usI ke jIvana kI kahAnI hai| ataH usane bhI isa dizA meM sakriya hone kA saMkalpa kara liyaa|" sadAsukhI ke mukha se apane vyAkhyAna ko akSarazaH duharAte aura donoM ke jIvana ko isa taraha prabhAvita aura parivartita hotA dekha mujhe apanA sArA zrama sArthaka lagane lgaa| ____ mujhe isa bAta se pUrNa saMtoSa va bhArI prasannatA huI ki bhale hI jIvana ke uttarArddha meM hI sahI, para sadAsukhI va vivekI donoM hI sanmArga para A gye| yahI to mAnava jIvana kI sabase bar3I upalabdhi hai, jo unheM mere nimitta se usa pahAr3I pradeza meM bhI mila rahI thii| isI se to yaha kahA jAtA hai ki - jaba bhalI honahAra hotI hai to vipatti bhI sampatti bana jAtI hai aura nimitta bhI AkAza se utara Ate haiN| dekho na! maiM bhI to usa vana pradeza meM AkAza se utara kara hI to gayA thaa| isameM merA kyA hai, unakI yogyatA se hI yaha saba sahaja banAva bana gayA thaa| aba maiM avasara pAte hI unheM 'samAdhi, sAdhanA aura siddhi' viSaya ko acchI taraha samajhAne kA prayAsa kruuNgaa| "jagata meM sadAsukhI aura vivekI jaise jijJAsu jIva bhI virale hI hote haiM, jo jagata ke svarUpa ko jAnakara - saMsAra, zarIra aura bhogoM kI asAratA ko pahacAna kara apane jIvana ke uttarArddha meM AtmA-paramAtmA ke svarUpa ko, dharma ke svarUpa ko jAnane kI jijJAsA pragaTa karate haiN| apanA zeSa jIvana samatA se, niSkaSAyabhAva se samAdhipUrvaka jInA cAhate haiN| ___ adhikAMza vyakti to aise hote haiM jo pratikUla paristhitiyoM se ghabar3Akara, jIvana se nirAza hokara jaldI hI bhagavAna ko pyAre ho jAnA cAhate haiM, duHkhada vAtAvaraNa se chuTakArA pAne ke lie samaya se pahale hI mara jAnA cAhate haiN| saubhAgya se yadi anukUlatAyeM mila gaIM to Ayu se bhI adhika jIne kI niSphala kAmanA karate-karate ati saMkleza bhAva se mara kara kugati ke pAtra banate haiN| ___ aise loga donoM hI paristhitiyoM meM jIvana bhara jagata ke jIvoM ke sAtha aura apane-Apake sAtha saMgharSa karate-karate hI mara jAte haiN| ve rAga-dveSa se Upara nahIM uTha pAte, kaSAya-cakra se bAhara nahIM nikala pAte / mujhe sadAsukhI va vivekI kI atRpta jijJAsA ko to zAMta karanA hI cAhie, inakI zaMkAoM kA samAdhAna to honA hI cAhie, anyathA ye bhI kahIM bhI bhaTaka sakate haiN| inake lie mujhe bhale hI kucha bhI tyAga kyoM na karanA par3e, maiM avazya kruuNgaa| mujhe abhI ghara jaldI jAkara karanA bhI kyA hai? aura yadi kucha karanA bhI ho to isase bar3hiyA kAma aura kyA ho sakatA hai?" isa prakAra socate-vicArate thor3I dera to maiM asamaMjasa meM rahA, anantaH maiMne eka saptAha aura vahA~ rukane kA kAryakrama banA hI liyaa| (32)

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vidAI kI belA/8 isase usake jIvana meM to AmUla-cUla parivartana huA hI, usase anya aneka sthAnIya mahilAoM ne bhI preraNA lii| vidAI kI belA/4 yadyapi mujhe ghara jAne kI koI jaldI nahIM thI, para nirdhArita kAryakrama ke anusAra mere pravAsa kA samaya samApta ho gayA thA, ataH mujhe samaya para ghara vApisa pahu~canA Avazyaka laga rahA thA, tAki mere kAraNa ghara-parivAra vAloM ko AkulatA na ho| para una logoM kI atRpta jijJAsA ko yoM hI chor3akara cale jAnA mere mana ko svIkRta nahIM huaa| pichale do saptAha taka to maiM ekAMta meM cintana-manana kI dRSTi se saba parivArajanoM se spaSTa kahakara ajJAtavAsa meM rahA thaa| para aba mujhe apane rukane ke lie AgAmI kAryakrama kI sUcanA denA Avazyaka ho gayA thA, anyathA sabhI loga cintita ho utthte|| merA samAcAra ghara pahu~cA hI thA ki dUsare hI dina merI dharmapatnI vahA~ A phuNcii| mAno vaha mere patra kI pratIkSA hI kara rahI thii| patnI ko acAnaka vahA~ pahu~cA dekha maiM Azcarya meM DUba gyaa| mujhe vicAra AyA ki jise maiM ajJAtavAsa meM Ate samaya eka sahadharmI pati ke karttavya ke nAte dharma lAbha hetu sAtha meM calane ko kaha-kaha kara thaka gayA thA, vahI Aja acAnaka apane pote-potiyoM aura bahU-beTiyoM se moha tor3akara, ghara-dvAra ko unake bharose chor3akara evaM viSaya-kaSAyoM se mu~ha mor3akara yahA~ satsaMga karane kaise A gaI? calo, koI bAta nahIM, 'jaba jAga jAye tabhI hai saverA' - yaha socakara maiM mana hI mana khuza thaa| ___maiM soca rahA thA - "jo patniyA~ kevala viSaya-kaSAya evaM rAga-raMga meM hI sahabhAgI banatI haiM, dharmasAdhana meM sAtha nahIM rahatI, unheM to dharmapatnI kahalAne kA adhikAra hI nahIM hai| saMbhavata: merI patnI aba sacce arthoM meM dharmapatnI bana jaayegii|" huA bhI yahI, vaha vahA~ mere sAtha eka saptAha ghara ke saba saMkalpavikalpoM ko chor3akara sadAsukhI, vivekI tathA vahA~ ke sAmAnya zrAvakazrAvikAoM ke sAtha huI sAmUhika tattvagoSThiyoM meM sakriya bhAga letI rhii| bAtacIta ke bIca vivekI ne pUchA - "bhAIjI! usa dina Apane kahA thA - 'niSkaSAya bhAva yA zAMta pariNAmoM kA dUsarA nAma hI samAdhi hai aura vaha niSkaSAya bhAva yA kaSAyoM kA zamana vastusvarUpa kI yathArtha samajha se hI hotA hai| ataH maiM jAnanA cAhatA hU~ ki vastusvarUpa kI samajha se ApakA kyA tAtparya hai?" vivekI kI vastusvarUpa ko samajhane kI jijJAsA dekhakara mujhe prasannatA huI aura maiMne jinAgama ke anusAra vastusvarUpa kI vyAkhyA karate hue batAyA - ___ "loka ke sabhI dravyoM ko, padArthoM ko vastutvaguNa ke kAraNa vastu bhI kahate haiN| ina sabhI vastuoM kA svarUpa pUrNa svataMtra va svAdhIna hai| AtmA bhI eka akhaNDa, avinAzI, anAdi-anaMta, jJAnAnandasvabhAvI, pUrNa svataMtra vastu hai| jJAtA-dRSTA rahanA usakA svabhAva hai| krodhAdi karanA AtmA kA svabhAva nahIM, vibhAva hai| svabhAva se viparIta bhAva ko vibhAva kahate haiN| kAma, krodha, mada, moha, lobha Adi ke bhAva AtmA ke viparIta bhAva haiN| ataH ye saba vibhAva hai| ____ jaba taka yaha jIva vastusvAtaMtrya ke isa siddhAnta ko nahIM samajhegA aura krodhAdi vibhAva bhAvoM ko hI svabhAva mAnatA rahegA, apane ko para kA kartA-dhartA mAnatA rahegA taba taka samatA evaM samAdhi kA prApta honA saMbhava nahIM hai|" eka jijJAsu ne prazna kiyA - "vastusvAtaMtrya kI samajha se samatA kaise AtI hai?" ____ maiMne kahA - "tumane bahuta acchA prazna kiyA hai - aba jarA dhyAna se suno! ina donoM kA paraspara colI-dAmana jaisA atyanta nikaTa saMbaMdha hai| pratyeka vastu yA loka ke sabhI padArtha pUrNa svataMtra aura svAvalaMbI haiN| koI (55)

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vidAI kI belA / 8 bhI dravya kisI paradravya ke adhIna nahIM hai, eka dravya kA karttA bhoktA bhI nahIM hai| aise zraddhAna va samajha se hI samatA AtI hai, kaSAyeM kama hotI haiM, rAga-dveSa kA abhAva hotA hai| 58 basa, isI prakAra ke zraddhAna- jJAna va AcaraNa se AtmA niSkaSAya hokara samAdhimaya jIvana jI sakatA hai|" dUsarA nayA jijJAsu bolA, "isa samAdhi kI carcA kA abhI kyA kAma? yaha to marate samaya dhAraNa karane kI vastu hai na ?" maiMne kahA - "aisI bAta nahIM hai, marate samaya to samAdhirUpa vRkSa ke phala khAe jAte haiM, bIja to abhI hI bonA hogA; tabhI to usa samaya phala milegA / suno! dhyAna se anubhaviyoM kI bAteM sunoM! kyA kahate haiM jJAnIjana? ' darzana - jJAna - caritra ko, prItisahita apanAya / cyuta na hoya svabhAva se, vaha samAdhi ko pAya / / ' samyagdarzana, jJAna, cAritra kI samRddhi vRddhi hI samAdhi hai| mahApurANa ke ikkIsaveM adhyAya meM kahA hai ki 'uttama pariNAmoM meM citta ko sthira karanA hI yathArtha samAdhi hai| athavA paMcaparameSThiyoM ke smaraNa ko samAdhi kahate haiN|' bhagavatI ArAdhanA meM samAdhi ke saMbaMdha meM aisA likhA hai ki sama zabda kA artha hai eka rUpa karanA, mana ko ekAgra karanA / zubhopayoga meM mana ko ekAgra karanA samAdhi zabda kA artha hai| niyamasAra gAthA eka sau bAIsa meM samAdhi kI carcA karate hue kahA hai| ki - 'vacanoccAraNa kI kriyA kA parityAga kara vItarAgabhAva se jo AtmA ko dhyAtA hai, use samAdhi kahate haiN|' paramAtmaprakAza kI eka sau nabbe vIM gAthA meM parama samAdhi kI vyAkhyA karate hue aisA kahA hai ki 'samasta vikalpoM ke nAza hone ko paramasamAdhi kahate haiN|' - (34) vidAI kI belA / 8 isI kAraNa sAdhaka samasta zubhAzubha vikalpoM ko chor3ane kI bhAvanA bhAte haiM, unheM heya mAnate haiN| " tIsare jijJAsu ne pUchA - "kyA dhyAna, yoga aura samAdhi meM kucha antara hai?" maiMne kahA - "dhyAna se suno, nae-nae praznoM ke cakkara meM pahalA prazna adhUrA raha jaayegaa| dhyAna ke prakaraNa meM aisA kahA jAtA hai ki - " dhyeya aura dhyAtA kA ekIkaraNa rUpa samarasIbhAva hI samAdhi hai|" yoga aura samAdhi meM antara spaSTa karate hue syAdvAdamaMjarI kI TIkA meM aisA kahA hai ki - 'bAhyajalpa aura antarjalpa ke tyAgasvarUpa to yoga hai tathA svarUpa meM citta kA nirodha karanA samAdhi hai|' tumhAre praznakA uttara isI meM A jaayegaa| isaprakAra jahA~ bhI Agama meM samAdhi ke svarUpa kI carcA AI hai, use jIvana kI sAdhanA, AtmA kI ArAdhanA aura dhyAna Adi nirvikalpa bhAvoM se hI jor3A hai, na ki maraNa se| ataH samAdhi prApta karane ke lie maraNa kI pratIkSA karane ke bajAya jIne kI kalA sIkhanA jarUrI hai, jo sarvajJa svabhAvI AtmA kI yathArtha samajha se hI saMbhava hai| tattvajJAna ke abhyAsa ke bala se jinake jIvana meM aisI samAdhi hogI, unakA maraNa bhI niyama se samAdhipUrvaka hI hogA / etadartha hameM apane jIvana meM jainadarzana ke pramukha siddhAntoM kA adhyayana aura satata abhyAsa karanA atyanta Avazyaka hai, unakI zraddhA se hamAre jIvana meM yaha samAdhi kI dazA prApta ho sakegI evaM rAga-dveSa se mukta hokara niSkaSAya avasthA ko prApta kara skeNge| jagata meM jitane bhI jIva janma lete haiM, ve sabhI marate haiN| isa taraha pratipala asaMkhya anaMta jIvoM kI mRtyu hotI rahatI haiM; para sabhI jIvoM kI mRtyu ko mahotsava kI saMjJA nahIM dI jA sakatI hai| jinhoMne apanA jIvana samAdhipUrvaka jiyA ho, maraNa bhI unhIM jIvoM kA samAdhipUrvaka hotA hai|

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vidAI kI belA/8 vastuta: Adhi-vyAdhi va upAdhi se rahita AtmA ke nirmala pariNAmoM kA nAma hI to samAdhi haiN| samatA bhAva yA niSkaSAya bhAva kA nAma hI to samAdhi hai? isase maraNa kA kyA saMbaMdha?" Agama ke AdhAra para kI gaI samAdhi kI isa carcA ko sunakara jahA~ vivekI evaM sadAsukhI ne saMtoSa pragaTa kiyA, vahIM sAtha meM unake mana meM aura bhI aneka prazna khar3e ho gye| para samaya kAphI ho gayA thA aura carcA bhI gaMbhIra thI, ataH 'ati sarvatra varjayet' kI nIti ke anusAra AvazyakatA se adhika carcA karanA maiMne ThIka nahIM smjhaa| 'bAta kitanI bhI bar3hiyA kyoM na ho, para eka sImA taka hI usakA lAbha milatA hai| sImA kA ullaMghana hote hI amRta tulya SaTrasa vyaMjana bhI viSarUpa pariNata hone lagate haiM" - yaha socakara bAtacIta usa samaya baMda kara dI gii| viSama paristhitiyoM meM jIne vAle sAmAnya vRddhajanoM kI bhA~ti sadAsukhI aura vivekI bhI aba apane jIvana se nirAza ho cuke the| aba ve apane bur3hApe ke dinoM ko gina-gina kara kATa rahe the| mAnoM aba to unheM apane marane kI hI pratIkSA thii| unakA ekamAtra antima kArya 'maraNa' hI zeSa raha gayA thA, jise ve yena-kena-prakAreNa - jisa taraha bhI saMbhava ho, sudhAra lenA cAhate the| unhoMne suna rakhA thA ki jinakA 'maraNa' sudhara jAtA hai, ve hI parabhava meM agale janma meM sukhada saMyogoM meM pahu~cate haiM, unako hI svarga kI prApti hotI hai| aura jinakA maraNa bigar3a jAtA hai, ve naraka-nigoda Adi gatiyoM meM jAkara anantakAla taka asIma duHkha bhogate haiN| ataH ve kahA karate the ki jIvana to jaise jiyA, jI liyaa| aba usakA ronA rone se kyA prayojana? aba to bAra-bAra yahI vicAra AtA hai ki kama se kama maraNa to na bigar3a jaave| una becAroM ko kyA patA thA ki - "jisane apanA jIvana ro-rokara jiyA ho, jinako jIvana bhara saMkleza hI saMkleza aura azAnti rahI ho, jinakA jIvana kevala AkulatA meM hI bItA ho, jisane jIvana meM sukhazAnti kabhI dekhI hI na ho, nirAkulatA kA anubhava kiyA hI na ho; isa kAraNa jinake jIvana bhara saMkleza pariNAma rahe ho, ArtadhyAna hI huA ho; unakA 'maraNa' kabhI nahIM sudhara sakatA; kyoMki jaisI mati vaisI gati / ____ Agama ke anusAra jisakA AyubaMdha jisa prakAra ke saMkleza yA vizuddha pariNAmoM meM ho jAtA hai, usakA maraNa bhI usI prakAra ke saMkleza samAdhi-sAdhanA aura siddhi sanyAsa aura samAdhi hai jInA sikhAne kI klaa| bodhi-samAdhi sAdhanA zivapaMtha pAne kI kalA / / sallekhanA kamajora karatI kAya aura kaSAya ko| nirbhIka aura ni:zaMka kara utsava banAtI mRtyu ko|| - paNDita ratanacanda bhArilla aise kyA pApa kie - pRSTha-88 1. mAnasika cintA 2. zArIrika roga 3. para ke kartavya kA bhAra 4. Adhi-vyAdhi-upAdhi se rahita AtmA kA nirmala pariNAma / (35)

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vidAI kI belA/9 jisane prIti citta se bhagavAna AtmA kI bAta bhI sunI hai, vaha nizcita hI bhavya hai aura nikaTa bhaviSya meM hI vaha mokSa prApta kregaa| ataH Apa loga maraNa sudhArane kI cintA chor3akara apane zeSa jIvana ko sArthaka karane ke lie apane samaya aura zakti kA sadupayoga kreN| apane upayoga kA laukika kAryoM ke vikalpoM meM aura vikathAoM meM durupayoga na kreN| apane amUlya samaya kA eka kSaNa bhI viSaya-kaSAya meM barbAda na kreN| vivekI aura sadAsukhI merI bAteM sunakara utsAhita to hue, para unhoMne suna rakhA thA ki Ayukarma kA baMdha to vartamAna Ayu ke tribhAga meM ho jAtA hai ataH unakA mAnanA thA ki - hamArI Ayu ke tribhAga to kabhI ke nikala cuke hoMge; kyoMki hama to bAsaTha-bAsaTha basaMta dekha cuke mAjI! hamArA hamArA kalyANa nahIM A vidAI kI belA/9 yA vizuddha pariNAmoM meM hotA hai| ataH yahA~ yaha kahA jAyegA ki jaisI gati vaisI mti| jaba taka AyubaMdha nahIM huA taba taka 'mati anusAra gati' baMdhatI hai, Ayu baMdha hone para gati ke anusAra mati hotI hai| ataH yadi kugati meM jAnA pasaMda na ho to mati ko vyavasthita karanA Avazyaka hai| jaba maiMne unheM isa bAta se avagata karAyA to ve ghabarAye hue bole - "bhAIjI! hamArA to pUrA jIvana hI saMkleza pariNAmoM meM bItA hai, aba hamArA kyA hogA? hamArA kalyANa kaise hogA? maiMne kahA - "Apa ghabarAyeM nhiiN| Apa logoM ko jo saMnyAsa aura samAdhi kI bhAvanA huI, usase aisA lagatA hai ki abhI Apako azubha Ayu va khoTI gati kA baMdha nahIM huA hai| jisako azubha Ayu aura khoTI gati kA bandha ho jAtA hai, usakI mati (buddhi) bhI gati ke anusAra kumati hI hotI hai| kahA bhI hai - 'tAdRzI jAyate buddhi vyavasAyayopi tAdRzaH / __sahAyaH stAdRzaH saMti, yAdRzI bhavitavyatA / / buddhi, vyavasAya aura sahAyaka Adi sabhI kAraNa-kalApa eka honahAra kA hI anusaraNa karate haiM / arthAt jaisI honahAra hotI haiM, tadanusAra hI buddhi-vicAra utpanna hote haiN| vyavasAya-udyama bhI usI prakAra hone lagatA hai, sahAyaka nimittakAraNa bhI sahajarUpa se vaise hI mila jAte haiN| ataH spaSTa hai ki Apa logoM kI honahAra bhalI hai, Apa nizcita hI bhavya haiM, anyathA Apa logoM ke aise vizuddha pariNAma hote hI nhiiN| Apa logoM ke vartamAna ke vizuddha pariNAmoM se mujhe to ApakA bhaviSya ujjvala hI pratIta hotA hai| padmanandi paMcaviMzatikA meM AcArya padmanandi ne spaSTa kahA hai - "tatprati prIti cittena, yena vArtApi hi shrutaa| nizcitaM saH bhavet bhavyo bhAvI nirvANa bhAjinam / / 2.2 / / / vastutaH unhoMne Ayu ke tribhAga ke niyama ko to pUrI taraha samajhA hI nahIM thA, nimitta-naimittika saMbaMdha kA bhI unheM yathArtha jJAna nahIM thaa| ataH maiMne unheM vartamAna Ayukarma ke vibhAgoM meM hone vAle AgAmI Ayukarma ke baMdha kI prakriyA samajhAte hue batAyA ki - "AgAmI (badhyamAn) Ayukarma kA baMdha, jo vartamAna (bhujyamAna) Ayu ke tribhAga meM hotA hai, usa tribhAga kA samaya jIvana meM adhikatama ATha bAra AtA hai| phira bhI yadi Ayukarma kA baMdha na ho to jIvana ke anta samaya meM arthAt maraNa ke antarmuhUrta pahale taka bhI hotA hai| vivekI ne kahA, "bAta kucha kaThina ho gaI, kucha samajha meM nahIM aayaa| Ayukarma ke tribhAga se ApakA kyA tAtparya hai? koI udAharaNa dekara samajhAie na?" maiMne kahA - "hA~ suno! mAna lo ApakI vartamAna (bhujyamAna) Ayu ikyAsI varSa hai to ikyAsI meM tIna kA bhAga dekara usameM se eka (tIsarA) bhAga ghaTAne para arthAt do-tihAI umra bItane para ikyAsI varSa kA prathama (36)

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vidAI kI belA/9 tribhAga cauvana varSa kI umra meM AyegA, taba AgAmI (vadhyamAna) Ayu kA baMdha hogaa| yadi usameM AgAmI (vadhyamAna) Ayu kA baMdha nahIM huA to zeSa bace vartamAna Ayu ke sattAIsa varSoM kA dUsarA tribhAga bahattara varSa kI umra meM AyegA, usameM AgAmI Ayukarma kA baMdha hogaa| taba bhI na huA to vartamAna Ayu ke nau varSoM kA tIsarA tribhAga aThahattara varSa kI umra meM AyegA, jisameM AgAmI Ayukarma kA baMdha hogaa| isake bAda cauthA tribhAga assI varSa meM, pA~cavA~ tribhAga assI varSa ATha mAha meM chaThavA~ tribhAga assI varSa dasa mAha bIsa dina meM, sAtavA~ tribhAga assI varSa gyAraha mAha solaha dina va solaha ghaMTe meM, aura AThavA~ tribhAga assI varSa gyAraha mAha paccIsa dina bAraha ghaMTe va cAlIsa minaTa meM AyegA jisameM AgAmI Ayu kA baMdha hogaa| isa prakAra badhyamAna AyubaMdha ke ATha avasara Ate haiN| yadi ina AThoM bAra bhI AgAmI Ayukarma kA baMdha nahIM huA to AvalI kA asaMkhyAtavA~ bhAga bhujyamAna Ayu kA zeSa rahane para to AgAmI Ayu kA baMdha avazya hotA hI hai| saMbhavataHabhI Apa bAsaTha-tiresaTha varSa se adhika nahIM hoNge| isa dRSTi se vicAra kareM to abhI ApakI Ayu ke vibhAga kA kevala eka avasara hI aisA nikalA hai, jisameM AyubaMdha kI saMbhAvanA thI, sAta avasara phira bhI zeSa haiN| ataH abhI Apako samyak puruSArtha dvArA AtmAnubhUti prApta karane kA suavasara hai, nirAza hone jaisI koI bAta nahIM hai; para itanA avazya samajha lIjie ki aba 'zubhasya zIghra' kI ukti ke anusAra zubha kAma meM dera nahIM honI caahie| dhyAna rahe, Ajakala nirvyasanI, uccavargIya svastha zAkAhArI manuSyoM kI ausata Ayu sattara-pacahattara se assI-pacAsI varSa to hotI hI hai, jisakA prathama tribhAga lagabhaga pacAsa se pacapana varSa kI umra meM AtA hai| dUsarA bahattara se pacahattara varSa kI umra meM, isake bAda to lagabhaga aThahattara se assI varSa kI umra meM AgAmI Ayu kA baMdha ho sakatA hai| vidAI kI belA/9 kadAcit kisI kA Ayu baMdha ho bhI gayA ho to bhI nirAza hokara baiThane ke bajAya yadi tattvAbhyAsa dvArA pariNAma vizuddha rakhA jAya to Ayukarma kI sthiti meM utkarSaNa-apakarSaNa to ho hI sakatA hai tattvAbhyAsa nirarthaka nahIM jaataa| ataH Apako aba taka kI huI bhUla yA lAparavAhI se ghabarAne kI bAta to bilkula hI nahIM hai, para duniyAdArI ke jhameloM meM aba eka miniTa bhI kharAba karanA Apake hita meM nahIM hai|" ___merI bAta se pUrNa sahamata hote hue sadAsukhI ne kahA - "hA~, Apa bilkula ThIka kaha rahe haiM, maiMne bhI eka bAra eka ukti sunI thii| kisI ne kahA thA ki 'zreyAMsi bahuvighnAni' acche kAmoM meM vighnoM kI adhika saMbhAvanA rahatI hai| aise vighna-saMtoSI logoM kI bhI duniyA meM kamI nahIM hai, jinheM dUsaroM ke acche kAmoM meM vighna DAlane meM hI sukha milatA hai| ataH hama Apake nirdezoM kA pUrI taraha pAlana karane kA prayatna kreNge| para yaha to batAie ki isake lie hameM sarvaprathama kyA karanA cAhie?" unheM mArgadarzana dete hue maiMne kahA - "jinake jIvana meM mAnasika zAnti rahegI, jinakA jIvana viSaya-kaSAyoM se saMklezita nahIM hogA, jinake jIvana meM vizuddha pariNAma raheMge, unheM azubha gatiyoM meM jAne kI kAraNabhUta naraka-tiryaMca Ayu kA baMdha hI nahIM hogaa| aisI sthiti meM unakA ku-maraNa kaise ho sakatA hai? ve jo jaba bhI deha chor3eMge samatA aura samAdhipUrvaka hI chodd'eNge| ___para dhyAna rahe, jinakA jIvana sukha-zAnti evaM nirAkulatA meM bItatA hai, unhIM kA maraNa samAdhipUrvaka hotA hai| ataH hameM maraNa sudhArane ke bajAya jIvana ko sudhArane kA hI prayatna karanA hogaa|" vivekI ne kahA - "yaha to ThIka hai, para mAnasika zAnti kaise rahegI? usakA kyA upAya hai? hamArA jIvana viSaya-kaSAyoM se kaise bace? hamAre pariNAma vizuddha kaise raheM? ina sabakI vidhi bhI to btaaie| (37)

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vidAI kI belA/9 AcArya amitagati ne sAmayika pATha meM spaSTa rUpa se kahA hai - svayaM kiye jo karma zubhAzubha, phala nizcaya hI ve dete| kareM Apa phala deya anya to, svayaM kiye niSphala hote|| apane karma sivAya jIva ko, koI na phala detA kucha bhii| para detA hai yaha vicAra taja, thira ho chor3a pramAda buddhi / " jaba maiMne unheM saMkSepa meM yaha samajhAyA to ve bahuta prasanna hue aura unhoMne bhArI saMtoSa vyakta kiyaa| mAnoM unheM koI nidhi mila gaI ho athavA unake hare-bhare ghAvoM para zItalatA pradAna karane vAlI malahama lagA dI gaI ho| vidAI kI belA/9 aise upadeza to hamane bahuta bAra sune ki kaSAya mata karo, zAnti rakho, viSayoM se baco Adi; para unase kucha bhI kAma nahIM banA, ina upadezoM se kaSAyeM kiMcit bhI kama nahIM huiiN| jaba taka hamAre manovikAroM ko janma dene vAlI sAMsArika samasyAoM kA samucita samAdhAna nahIM hotA, taba taka ina krodhAdi manovikAroM kA abhAva kaise ho sakegA? ata: jainadarzana ke pariprekSya meM hameM koI aisA mArgadarzana dIjie - aisA upAya batAie ki hameM sarvaprathama kyA karanA cAhie; tAki hama apane jIvana meM una upadezoM ko sArthaka kara skeN|" maiMne unheM jainadarzana ke pramukha siddhAMta vastusvAtaMtrya aura kartA-karma ke svarUpa ke mAdhyama se manovikAroM kI utpatti na hone ke upAya samajhAte hue batAyA ki - "tIna loka meM jitane bhI padArtha haiM, ve saba apaneapane svabhAva se svataMtra rUpa se milate-bichur3ate haiM, svayaM hI Ate-jAte haiN| unameM paraspara kartA-karma saMbaMdha nahIM hai, mAtra nimitta-naimittika saMbaMdha haiN| kahA bhI hai - hotA svayaM jagata pariNAma, maiM jaga kA karatA kyA kAma? jaba saMyoga ke milAne meM yA alaga karane meM, kisI kA bhalA-burA hone meM, sukha-duHkha pAne meM kisI anya kA kucha hastakSepa hI nahIM hai to koI kisI para binA kAraNa krodhAdi kyoM kareM? kheda-khinna kyoM ho? harSaviSAda kyoM kareM? saMklezita bhI kyoM hoM? __ vastusvAtaMtrya ke siddhAMta kI zraddhA vAle vyakti to kevala jJAtA-dRSTA rahakara saba paristhitiyoM meM sAmyabhAva hI dhAraNa karate haiM, unheM saMyogoM meM sukhabuddhi nahIM rahatI; kyoMki ve jAnate haiM ki saMyogoM meM sukha hai hI nhiiN| puNya-pApa ke siddhAMtAnusAra bhI koI kisI ko sukhI-duHkhI nahIM kara sakatA / ataH puNya-pApa kA yathArtha zraddhAna hone se bhI para ke prati rAga-dveSa kI pariNati kama ho jAtI hai| mahAdurlabha manuSya bhava khone meM kuzalatA kaisI? joI dina kaTa, soI Ayu meM avazya ghaTai; bUMda-bUMda bIte, jaise aMjuli ko jala hai| deha nita chIna hota, naina tejahIna hota; jIvana malIna hota, chIna hota bala hai| Avai jarA nerI, takai aMtaka aherI; Abai parabhau najIka, jAta narabhau niphala hai| milakai milApI jana, pUchata kuzala merI; aisI dazA mAMhi, mitra kAhe kI kuzala hai| bhUdhara zataka : kavivara bhUdharadAsajI (38)

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vidAI kI belA/10 maiMne kahIM par3hA thA ki devagati meM sarvArthasiddhi ke ahamindroM kA tetIsa-tetIsa sAgaroM jaisA lambA samaya tatvacarcA meM mAtra tetIsa varSa kI alpa avadhi kI bhA~ti bIta jAtA hai| unheM patA hI nahIM lagatA, itanA lambA jIvana kaba/kaise bIta gayA? para mujhe yaha bAta a~catI nahIM thI ki kahA~ to tettIsa sAgaroM kI kalpanAtIta-amApa avadhi aura kahA~ tettIsa varSoM kI nagaNya alpa avdhi| itanA laMbA samaya itanI alpa avadhi kI bhA~ti kaise nikala jAtA hogA? ___parantu jaba mere usa pahAr3I paryaTana kendra para dhArmika carcA meM do mahIne do dina kI bhA~ti nikala gaye taba mujhe vizvAsa ho gayA ki tattvacarcA va sukhada vAtAvaraNa meM aisA pratIta honA koI asaMbhava bAta nahIM hai| A rahe haiN| aura hama bhI kauna se vItarAgI ho gaye haiM? hameM bhI unakI yAda Ane lagI haiN| ataH hamane eka-do dina meM hI ghara jAne kA nizcaya kara liyA hai|" mere dvArA yaha vicAra pragaTa karane para una logoM meM vaisI hI pratikriyA huI, jaisI mujhe saMbhAvanA thii| koI bhI vyakti mujhe vApisa ghara jAne dene ke lie mana se rAjI nahIM thaa| idhara mere hRdaya meM bhI unake prati aTUTa dharma sneha ho gayA thaa| ataH maiM bhI unakA sAtha chor3ane kI kalpanA mAtra se bhAvuka ho uThA thaa| ___ isa moha kI mahimA hI kucha aisI vicitra hai ki donoM tarapha se hI mAra karatA hai| isIkAraNa to sAdhu-saMta cAturmAsa ke atirikta eka sthAna para adhika kAla taka nahIM rukate / anyathA yaha moha unheM bhI apane mohajAla meM phA~se binA nahIM maantaa| vastutaH bahatA pAnI va bhramatA yogI hI pavitra rahatA hai - caumAse meM eka sAtha cAra mAha taka eka hI sthAna para rukanA to sAdhu-saMtoM kI bAdhyatA hai, majabUrI hai; para ve una caumAse ke dinoM meM bhI isa moha-mAyA se pUrNa sAvadhAna rahate haiM, gRhasthoM ke saMparka meM adhika nahIM rahate / unase dUra hI rahate haiM aura rahanA bhI cAhie; kyoMki gRhasthoM ke adhika sAnnidhya se unheM doSa lagatA hai, unameM moha utpanna hone kI saMbhAvanA bhI rahatI hai| jaba nirmohI sAdhu-saMtoM ke jIvana meM yaha saMbhAvanA ho sakatI hai to hama-tuma jaise sAdhAraNa zrAvakoM kI to bAta hI kyA hai? hama-tuma to vaise bhI moha-mAyA meM AkaMTha nimagna haiN| isa do mahIne ke samaya meM hI ghara se beTe-bahuoM aura pote-potiyoM kA aneka bAra bulAvA A cukA thA aura hameM bhI kucha-kucha unakI yAda satAne lagI thii| eka dina mana meM vicAra AyA ki - "jijJAsuoM kI jijJAsA to usa agni ke samAna hai, jo ghI kI AhUtiyoM se kabhI tRpta nahIM hotii| Akhira kabhI na kabhI to ghara jAnA hI hogaa| jaba jAyeMge, ye loga to tabhI duHkhI hoMge aura inakA adhika se adhika dinoM taka rokane kA Agraha kabhI kama nahIM hogaa| isameM ina becAroM kA doSa bhI kyA hai, rAga kA to svarUpa hI aisA hai| ata: eka na eka dina to thor3A bahuta kaThora rukha apanAnA hI pdd'egaa| ataH kyoM na kala hI kaha diyA jAya ki - "aba hameM zIghra hI ghara pahu~canA hai| sabhI loga bahuta yAda kara rahe haiN| bulAve ke saMdezoM para saMdeza usa pahAr3I paryaTana kendra para do mAha taka rahane se aura samaya-samaya para sadAsukhI va vivekI ke ghara Ate-jAte rahane se unake pUre parivAra ke nikaTa saMparka meM Ane ke kAraNa una sabase merA ghaniSTha paricaya to huA hI; merI vicAradhArA kA evaM gRhasthocita loka-vyavahAra kA bhI unake parivAra (39)

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vidAI kI belA / 10 para acchA prabhAva pdd'aa| pariNAma yaha huA ki unake parivAra meM - pitA-putroM va sAsa - bahuoM meM aba taka jo mana-muTAva rahA karatA thA, vaha bhI miTa gayA aura unameM paraspara prema aura dharma ke prati AsthA bhI utpanna ho gii| 70 unake jIvana meM anAyAsa hue isa asaMbhAvita parivartana se ve to prasanna aura prabhAvita the hI, unake ar3ausI par3ausI evaM unase saMbaMdhita anya aneka parivAra bhI merI carcA va vyavahAra se kisI na kisI rUpa meM prabhAvita the / ataH sabhI kI icchA rahatI thI ki maiM vahA~ adhikatama rUkU~ / para, merI bhI apanI kucha nijI paristhitiyA~ thIM, jinake kAraNa merA ghara para lauTanA Avazyaka thaa| vaise bhI Akhira ghara se bAhara rahane kI kucha na kucha maryAdAyeM to hotI hI haiN| maiM koI sAdhu-saMta to thA nahIM, phira sAdhu-saMta bhI to eka hI sthAna para adhika kAla taka nahIM Thaharate / isI bIca mujhe bulAne ke ghara se mere pAsa aneka saMdeza bhI A cuke the, ataH merA ghara pahu~canA Avazyaka ho gayA thA / sapatnIka mere vApisa ghara lauTa Ane para mere prati unakA sneha aura adhika bar3ha gayA thaa| ataH patrAcAra se parokSa saMparka to unhoMne rakhA hI, kucha hI dinoM meM ve donoM prabuddha parivAra apane par3osiyoM sahita dharmalAbha kI bhAvanA se kucha dina ke lie mere pAsa A gye| unhoMne Ate hI apanI laMbI yAtrA ke bIca huI vyathA-kathA kie binA aura Ava-bhagata kI apekSA kie binA mAtra yaha nivedana kiyA ki "bhAI jI ! hama loga Apake sAnnidhya kA adhikatama lAbha lene Aye haiM, ataH Apa aisA kAryakrama banAyeM, jisase Apako vizeSa kaSTa hue binA hameM ApakA pUrA-pUrA lAbha mila sake aura hama jIvana jIne kI kalA meM pUrNa pAraMgata ho skeN| hama apane zeSa jIvana ko sArthaka kara lenA cAhate haiN|" (40) vidAI kI belA / 10 maiMne mArgadarzana karate hue kahA- "Apako sUryodaya ke pUrva brahmamuhUrta meM uThakara sarvaprathama paMcaparameSThI ke svarUpa kA smaraNa karanA caahie| tatpazcAt 'maiM kauna hU~? merA svarUpa kyA hai? mere lie kyA heya hai aura kyA upAdeya?' isakA vicAra karanA caahie| dekho ! zrImad rAjacandra isa viSaya meM kyA kahate haiM? ve atIndriya AnaMda ke rasapAna kI vidhi batAte hue kahate haiM - 'maiM kauna hU~, AyA kahA~ se, aura merA rUpa kyA ? saMbaMdha sukhamaya kauna hai, svIkRta karU~ parihAra kyA ? isakA vicAra viveka pUrvaka zAnta hokara kIjie / to sarva Atmika jJAna aru siddhAMta kA rasa piijie|' anAdikAla se ajJAnI jIva kI deha meM va rAgAdi bhAvoM meM hI ekatvabuddhi hai, vaha AtmA ke zuddha svarUpa ko nahIM jAna paayaa| isa kAraNa use AtmAnubhUti nahIM huI, samyagdarzana kI prApti nahIM huI / deha kI utpatti meM vaha apanI utpatti mAnatA hai, deha ke vinAza meM apanA vinAza mAnatA hai| isIprakAra deha yadi gorI-kAlI, rogI- nirogI, patalI-moTI ho to vaha svayaM ko hI utpatti-vinAzarUpa, gorA-kAlA, rogI- nirogI, moTA-dubalA mAna letA hai| isI taraha vikArI paryAya meM ekatva hone se svayaM ko hI krodhI, mAnI, mAyAvI va lobhI mAna letA hai| ataH usase kahate haiM ki bhAI ! tU aisA vicAra kara ki - "maiM to jJAnAnanda svabhAvI apane Apa meM svayaM paripUrNa vastu hU~ / mujhe pUrNatA prApta karane ke lie evaM sukhI hone ke lie kisI bhI para vastu ke sahayoga kI kiMcit bhI AvazyakatA nahIM hai| kAlA gorA Adi to pudgala ke pariNAma haiN| jaba mujhameM jar3a pudgala jaise rUpa, rasa, gaMdha, sparzAdi haiM hI nahIM; to mere kAle-gore hone kI to bAta hI kahA~ se AI?

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vidAI kI belA/10 vidAI kI belA/10 'maiM rAgaraMga se bhinna, bheda se bhI maiM bhinna nirAlA huuN| maiM hU~ akhaNDa caitanya piNDa, nija rasa meM ramane vAlA huuN|' 'maiM' to arasa, arUpa, agaMdha evaM asparza svarUpI caitanya tattva huuN| merA para padArthoM se kucha bhI saMbaMdha nahIM hai| maiM to zuddha-buddha niraMjananirAkAra eka parama padArtha hU~ tathA para kI pariNati se sadA aprabhAvI huuN| ___maiM jJAna kA ghanapiNDa, Ananda kA rasakaMda, caitanya sUrya huuN| maiM svayaM hI dhyeya hU~, zraddheya hU~, jJAna hU~ evaM jJAyakasvabhAvI bhagavAna huuN|" AcAryakalpa paNDita ToDaramalajI ne bhI zrotA ke svarUpa kA nirUpaNa karate hue yahI kahA hai ki - "sarvaprathama vicAra karo ki - maiM kauna hU~? merA kyA svarUpa hai? yaha caritra kaise bana rahA hai? ye mere bhAva hote haiM, inakA kyA phala lgegaa| jIva duHkhI ho rahA hai so duHkha dUra hone kA kyA upAya hai...?" ataH pratidina prAtaHkAla bistara chor3ate hI hAtha-pA~va aura mu~ha dhokara, Alasa tyAga kara, pUrNa saceta hokara zAnta va ekAnta sthAna meM baiThakara NamokAra maMtra ke mAdhyama se paMcaparameSThI ke svarUpa kA vicAra kiyA karo / usameM vicAra karo ki - 'he prabho! mujhameM aura ApameM koI antara nahIM hai, jaise ananta jJAna-darzana ke ghanapiNDa Apa haiM, vaisA hI maiM hU~, svabhAva se jaisA maiM hU~, vaise hI Apa haiN| eka samaya kI paryAya meM Apa meM aura mujhameM mAtra itanA antara hai ki Apa vItarAgI ho gaye haiM aura maiM abhI rAgI-dveSI huuN| isa antara ko maiM apane samyak puruSArtha se jaba cAhU~ taba badala sakatA huuN| kahA bhI hai - 'mama svarUpa hai siddha samAna / amita zakti sukha jJAna nidhAna kintu Aza vaza khoyA jJAna / banA bhikhArI nipaTa ajAna hU~ svataMtra nizcala niSkAma / jJAtA-dRSTA AtamarAma' tatpazcAt bhedajJAna kI vidhi se apane AtmA ke svarUpa kA vicAra kiyA kro| 1. AtmakIrtana : sahajAnaMdavarNI 'anuja-agraja suta-sutA priya suhRda jana saba bhinna haiM; ye zubha-azubha saMyogajA civRttiyA~ bhI anya haiN| svonmukha civRttiyA~ bhI AtmA se anya haiM; caitanyamaya dhruva AtmA guNa bheda se bhI bhinna haiN|| isaprakAra bhedajJAna dvArA aisA vicAra karo ki - "maiM rAga se, deha se, guNabheda se va nirmala paryAryoM se bhI sarvathA bhinna huuN| maiM anuja-agraja, putraputrI, mitrajana se to bhinna hU~ hI, zubha-azubha rUpa caitanya kI vRttiyoM se bhI anya huuN|" ___ svAdhyAya kI preraNA dete hue maiMne Age kahA - "saMsAra, zarIra va bhogoM se virakti ke lie bAraha bhAvanAoM ke mAdhyama se inakI kSaNabhaMguratA evaM asAratA kA bhI vicAra karanA / jaisA ki yatra-tatra kahA gayA hai| vastusvarUpa kI yathArtha samajha ke lie AdhyAtmika graMthoM kA adhyayana karanA bhI Avazyaka hai| tabhI vizuddha pariNAma hoMge aura rAga-dveSa kama hoMge, kaSAyeM kRza hoMgI aura samatA va samAdhi kI prApti hogii|" __ mere isa kathana se ve bhArI prasanna hue aura unhoMne usI samaya mujhe Azvasta karate hue mere sAmane hI isa dizA meM sakriya hone kA dRr3ha saMkalpa kiyaa| unake isa alaukika parivartana se mujhe bhArI prasannatA huii| isake lie maiMne to unheM dhanyavAda diyA hI, unake mukhamaNDala para bhI kRtajJatA kA bhAva jhalaka aayaa| 1. DaoN. bhArilla : AtmagIta 2. DaoN. bhArilla : bArahabhAvanA (41)

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vivekI aura sadAsukhI ke dvArA nirantara gahana adhyayana, manana aura cintana karane se dina pratidina unake jJAna meM vRddhi evaM pratibhA meM vikAsa ho rahA thaa| aba unhoMne ghara-bAhara kI saba cintAe~ chor3akara apane jIvana ko Atmahita meM samarpita karane kA saMkalpa kara liyA thaa| unakI isa Atmonnati se maiM behada prasanna thA / para saMnyAsa aura samAdhi ke saMbaMdha meM ve abhI bhI bhramita the| vastutaH ve abhI vastusvarUpa ke yathArtha taka nahIM pahuMca pAye the| unhoMne suna rakhA thA ki - "jisataraha sAla bhara meM par3hAI karane para bhI yadi vidyArthI parIkSA meM saphala nahIM hotA to usakA zrama sArthaka nahIM mAnA jaataa| usItaraha jinakA maraNa samAdhipUrvaka hotA hai, unakA hI mAnava jIvana sArthaka mAnA jAtA hai aura aba taka kI sAdhanA-ArAdhanA saphala samajhI jAtI hai|" isakAraNa ve apane samAdhimaraNa ke viSaya meM bahuta sajaga the, samAdhi se saMbaMdhita viSayoM kA adhyayana-manana bhI bahuta kiyA karate the; para abhI taka ve mRtyu ko mahotsava ke rUpa meM svIkAra nahIM kara pA rahe the| isa saMbaMdha meM vivekI kA kahanA thA - "jo jIvana bhara mRtyu ke bhaya se bhayabhIta rahe hoM, jinheM pratipala mauta kA AtaMka AtaMkita kie rahatA ho, maraNa kI kalpanA mAtra se jinakA dila dahala jAtA ho, hRdaya kA~pa uThatA ho, ve mRtyu jaisI duHkhada durghaTanA ko mahotsava ke rUpa meM kaise manA sakate haiM? unake lie vaha manahUsa ghar3I mahotsava jaisI sukhada kaise ho sakatI hai? mahotsava kisI bhI prakAra kA kyoM na ho, vaha to harSa ke mAhaula meM hI manAyA jAtA hai, eka sukhada prasaMga hI mAnA jAtA hai| cAhe vaha kisI vidAI kI belA/11 kA janmotsava ho, vivAhotsava ho, athavA dhArmika, sAmAjika va rASTrIya utsava ho - sabhI mahotsava prasannatA ke pratIka hI hote haiN| ___ apanI bAta ke spaSTIkaraNa meM usakA kahanA thA ki - "yadi marane vAlA vyakti bahuta bar3A AdamI ho to usakI zavayAtrA bahuta vizAla ho sakatI hai, usakI ciMtA caMdana kI banAI jA sakatI hai, usakA antima saMskAra rASTrIya sammAna ke sAtha kiyA jA sakatA hai, para usa duHkhada prasaMga ko mahotsava nahIM kahA jA sktaa| jisa kuTumba-parivAra, samAja yA rASTra kI aisI apUraNIya kSati huI ho, jisakI pUrti saMbhava hI nahIM ho, bhalA vaha usa apUraNIya kSati para prasannatA sUcaka mahotsava kaise manA sakatA hai? jinheM divaMgata vyakti ke prati asIma sneha hai, aTUTa prema hai, hArdika anurAga hai, usakI ciravidAI meM ve prasanna kaise ho sakate haiM? mohI vyaktiyoM ke lie to mRtyu iSTa viyoga kA kAraNa hone se duHkhada hI hotI hai| bhalA ve isa antahIna viyoga kI nimittabhUta duHkhada mRtyu ko mahotsava kA rUpa kaise de sakate haiM?" kalpanA kIjie - "kadAcit kisI ne kisI kI mRtyu para harSa sUcaka vAdyadhvani bhI bajavA dI to loga usake bAre meM kyA soceMge? phira bhI hamAre AcAryoM yA manISiyoM ne mRtyu ko mahotsava kI saMjJA dekara aisI asaMbhava kalpanA kyoM kara DAlI?" vivekI kI yaha jvalaMta samasyA thI, jisakA samAdhAna use nahIM mila pA rahA thA; kyoMki bhautika jagata aura hama-tuma saba pratidina pratyakSa dekhate bhI yahI haiM ki marane vAle apane sabhI priyajanoM ko rotAbilakhatA chor3akara sadA-sadA ke lie cale jAte haiM; phira kabhI nahIM milate / aisI sthiti meM koI bhI mRtyu ko mahotsava kaise mAna sakatA hai? para isameM vivekI kI mUla bhUla yaha thI ki vaha isa lokottara yA AdhyAtmika samasyA kA samAdhAna bhI isa bhautika yA laukika jagata meM (42)

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vidAI kI belA/11 hI khoja rahA thaa| isa kAraNa use isakA samucita samAdhAna kahA~ se milatA? mere sAmane bhI usane yaha samasyA rakhI thI; para usa dina to upayukta avasara na hone se maiM usakA samAdhAna nahIM kara pAyA thA, kintu eka dina jaba maiM saptabhayoM se bhayabhIta vyaktiyoM ko samyagdRSTi ke samAna nirbhaya rahane kI preraNA de rahA thA, nirbhIka hokara jIne kI kalA' para prakAza DAla rahA thA, taba vivekI ko sAmane baiThA dekha mujhe usakA vaha prazna smaraNa ho AyA, jisameM usane mRtyu ko mahotsava manAne meM zaMkA pragaTa kI thii| usa prazna ke saMdarbha meM maiMne use saMbodhita karate hue kahA - "dekho, bhAI vivekI! yaha to maiM bhI mAnatA hU~ ki manISiyoM dvArA mRtyu ko mahotsava kaha dene mAtra se mRtyubhaya se bhayabhIta yaha jagata mRtyu ko mahotsava mAnane vAlA nahIM hai aura jaba taka antaHkaraNa se bAta svIkRta na ho taba taka kisI bhI dabAva meM Akara tAttvika bAta ko bhI zirodhArya kara lene se koI lAbha nahIM hotaa| ataH isake sahI samAdhAna ke lie maiM Agama, yukti evaM svAnubhava se yaha bAta kaha rahA huuN| Apako yahA~ itanA to nizcita hI mAnakara calanA cAhie ki mRtyu jaise gaMbhIra prasaMga ko holI-divAlI jaise harSollAsa ke sAtha manAye jAne vAle utsava kI bhA~ti to nahIM manAyA jA sktaa| isa artha meM Agama meM mRtyu ko mahotsava kahA bhI nahIM hai| mRtyumahotsava kI tulanA hama usa beTI kI vidAI se kara sakate haiM, jo yogya vara ke sAtha bar3e ghara meM byAhI gaI ho|" udAharaNa ko spaSTa karane ke lie maiMne vivekI se yaha pUchA - "batAo vivekI! yogya vara ke sAtha bar3e ghara meM byAhI gaI beTI kI vidAI sukhadAyI hai yA duHkhadAyI?" vivekI mere isa prazna ko sunakara kucha kahe binA merI ora A~kheM phAr3a-phAr3akara dekhatA rhaa| vidAI kI belA/11 thor3I dera taka kucha uttara na milane para maiMne hI bAta ko Age bar3hAte hue kahA - "yadi vaha vidAI duHkhada ho to koI vivAha hI kyoM kareM?" yaha sunate hI vivekI ne utsAhita hokara kahA - "hA~, yaha bAta to hai| binA kAraNa koI duHkha meM kyoM par3egA? yaha sthiti to beTI aura mA~bApa sabake lie sukhada haiN| bhalA saMpanna ghara meM evaM yogya vara ke sAtha beTI kA vivAha ho jAnA koI sahaja bAta to nahIM hai| aisA saubhAgya sabako kahA~ milatA hai, vaha bhI isa jamAne meM jabaki sabhI ke sira para daheja kA bhUta savAra ho?" ___usake isa uttara ko sunakara maiMne kahA - "tumhAre matAnusAra hI yadi binA daheja die bar3e ghara meM byAhI gaI beTI kI vidAI sukhadAyI hai to phira beTI evaM usake mAtA-pitA vidAI ke samaya rote kyoM haiM? mAtA-pitA to beTI kA vivAha usake sukha aura apane saMtoSa ke lie hI karate haiM aura use sasurAla meM sukhI dekha khuza bhI hote haiM tathA sukha kA anubhava bhI karate haiN| bhale hI beTI kI vidAI ke samaya apane se usakI judAI hone ke kAraNa mohavaza ronA A jAtA ho; para unakA vaha mohajanita tAtkAlika duHkha vastutaH duHkharUpa nahIM hai| isa kAraNa unake una A~suoM para koI A~sU nahIM bhaataa|| vastutaH vaha vidAI duHkhadAyI nahIM, sukhadAyI vidAI hI hai| aisI vidAI meM aisA hI hotA hai, ronA-ha~sanA eka sAtha hotA hai, Upara se rote dikhAI dete haiM; para rote nahIM haiN| hA~, unakA vaha ronA nakalI bhI nahIM hai, isa vidAI kA to svarUpa hI kucha aisA hai, ise hI sukhadAyI vidAI kahate haiN| ____ hA~, yaha bAta alaga hai ki beTI aura mA~-bApa ke pUrva pApodaya se duHkhada saMyoga mila jAve to kyA mAtA-pitA aura kyA beTI, sabhI vidAI ke samaya antaHkaraNa se duHkhI hote haiM aura bilakha-bilakha kara rote bhI haiM, vaha vidAI vastutaH duHkhada vidAI hI haiN| (43)

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vidAI kI belA/11 ThIka isIprakAra ciravidAI (mRtyu) bhI do taraha kI hotI hai - 1. sukhadAyI, 2. duHkhdaayii| yadi vyakti ne jIvana bhara satkarma kie haiM, puNyArjana kiyA hai, sadAcArI jIvana jiyA hai, apane AtmA va paramAtmA kI pahacAna karake unakA Azraya va Alambana liyA hai, paramAtmA ke batAye patha para calane kA puruSArtha kiyA hai to nizcita hI usakI vaha ciravidAI kI belA sukhadAyI hogI; kyoMki usake satkarmoM ke phalasvarUpa vartamAna vRddha, rogI evaM jIrNa-zIrNa zarIra ke badale meM sundara zarIra, sugati va nAnA prakAra ke sukhada saMyoga milane vAle haiN| jisataraha kisI ko pahanane ke lie nayA sundara vastra taiyAra ho to purAnA, jIrNa-zIrNa, mailA-kucailA vastra utAra kara phaiMkane meM usako kaSTa nahIM hotA; usI taraha jisane naI puNya kI kamAI kI ho, satkarma kie hoM, use to navIna divya deha hI milane vAlI hai, use purAnA zarIra chor3ane meM kaisA kaSTa? aisI mRtyu ko hI mRtyu mahotsava yA sukhadAyI vidAI kahate haiN| aisI ciravidAI (mRtyu) ke samaya sage-saMbaMdhI rAgavaza bAhara se rote dikhAI dete haiM para andara se unheM isa bAta kA saMtoSa va harSa hotA hai ki divaMgata AtmA kI sadgati huI hai| jaise ki acche ghara meM byAhI beTI ko vidA karate samaya mA~-bApa rAgavaza rote to haiM, parantu andara se unheM isa bAta kA saMtoSa va harSa hotA hai ki merI beTI sukhada saMyogoM meM gaI hai| isake viparIta jisane jIvanabhara duSkarma kie hoM, pApAcaraNa kiyA ho, durvyasanoM kA sevana kiyA ho, dUsaroM para rAga-dveSa karake saMkleza bhAva kie hoM, jo dina-rAta khAne-kamAne meM hI aTakA rahA ho, viSayakaSAyoM ke kaMTakAkIrNa vana meM hI bhUlA-bhaTakA rahA ho, jisane jIvana bhara araNya rudana hI kiyA ho, use to ina kukarmoM ke phala meM kugati hI honI hai, duHkhadAyI saMyogoM meM hI jAnA hai| usakI pariNati bhI saMklezamaya ho vidAI kI belA/11 jAtI hai, vaha saMkleza bhAvoM se hI maratA hai| usakI isa ciravidAI kI belA ko duHkhadAI vidAI kahate haiN| aise vyakti kI mRtyu kabhI mahotsava nahIM bana sktii| jaise ki duHkhada saMyogoM meM byAhI gaI beTI kI vidAI to mA~-bApa ko jIvana bhara ke lie duHkhada hI hotI hai| mRtyu ko mahotsava banAne vAlA maraNonmukha vyakti to jIvanabhara ke tattvAbhyAsa ke bala para mAnasika rUpa se andara meM taiyAra hotA hai aura vidAI denevAle vyakti bhI bAhara se vaisA hI vairAgyaprada vAtAvaraNa banAte haiM, taba kahIM vaha mRtyu mahotsava bana pAtI haiN| isa vAtAvaraNa meM parivAra ke mohI vyakti bhI kSaNa bhara ke lie viyogajanita duHkha bhUla jAte haiM tathA sabhI sukha va saMtoSa kA anubhava karane lagate haiN| __vastutaH mRtyu ke samaya maraNAsanna vyakti kI manaHsthiti ko moharAga-dveSa Adi manovikAroM se bacAne, pA~coM indriyoM ke viSayoM se tathA paradravya para aTakane-bhaTakane se bhI bacAne tathA Atmasammukha karane ke lie saMsAra, zarIra va bhogoM kI asAratA ko batAne vAlA vairAgyavarddhaka tathA saMyogoM kI kSaNabhaMguratA darzAnevAlA aura AtmA ke ajara, amara va avinAzI svarUpa kA jJAna karAne vAlA AdhyAtmika vAtAvaraNa banAnA jarUrI hai| isake binA mRtyu mahotsava nahIM bana sktii| __ kabhI-kabhI parijana-purajana moha va ajJAnavaza apane priyajanoM ko maraNAsanna dekhakara yA maraNa kI saMbhAvanA se bhI rone lagate haiM, isase mRtyusanmukha vyakti ke pariNAmoM meM saMkleza hone kI saMbhAvanA bar3ha jAtI hai; jabaki use samatApUrvaka niSkaSAyabhAva se, zAMtabhAvoM se deha tyAgane meM sahayoga karanA cAhie, tabhI mRtyu mahotsava bana pAtI haiN|" ___isI bIca eka mu~haphaTa-bAtUnI zrotA bolA - "jaba mRtyu ke samaya kAna meM NamokAra maMtra ke sunane-sunAne mAtra se mRtyu mahotsava bana jAtI hai to phira jIvana bhara jinavANI ke adhyayana kI kyA AvazyakatA hai?" (44)

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80 vidAI kI belA/11 jaisA ki jIvandhara caritra meM AI kathA se spaSTa hai / usa kathA meM to sAphasApha kahA gayA hai ki mahArAjA satyandhara ke putra jIvandhara kumAra ke dvArA eka maraNAsanna kutte ke kAna meM NamokAra maMtra sunAyA thA, jisake pariNAma svarUpa vaha kuttA svarga meM aneka RddhiyoM kA dhAraka maharddhika deva huaa| isase bar3A pramANa aura kyA cAhie? kyA purANoM kI bAteM galata ho sakatI haiM? ____ maiMne usakI jijJAsA zAMta karate hue kahA - "are bhAI! yaha rAjamArga nahIM haiN| anyathA muni banane aura Atma sAdhanA kA upadeza kyoM diyA jAtA? kadAcit kabhI aMdhe ke hAtha baTera laga jAye to isakA artha yaha to nahIM ki baTera pakar3ane ke lie A~kha kI AvazyakatA hI nahIM hai| jisa taraha yuddha ke maidAna meM saphalatA prApta karane ke lie jIvana bhara astra-zastra kalA kA abhyAsa jarUrI hai, usI taraha mRtyu ko mahotsava banAne ke lie jIvanabhara tattvAbhyAsa jarUrI hai| tumane jo jIvandhara caritra (kSatracUr3AmaNI) meM AI kutte ko svarga prApta hone kI kathA ke saMdarbha meM prazna kiyA hai, vaha avazya hI vicAraNIya hai kyoMki vaha bhI to paurANika kathA hai; parantu usa kathana ke abhiprAya ko samajhane ke lie hameM prathamAnuyoga ke zAstroM (purANoM) kI kathana paddhati evaM unake vyAkhyAna kA vidhAna samajhatA hogaa| etadartha paNDita ToDaramalajI kRta mokSamArga prakAzaka kA nimna kathana draSTavya haiM, jaise - "kisI ne upavAsa kiyA usakA phala to alpa thA, parantu use anya dharma pariNati kI vizeSatA huI, isalie vizeSa ucca pada kI prApti huI, vahA~ usako upavAsa hI kA phala nirUpita karate haiN| jisa prakAra kisI ne namaskAra maMtra kA smaraNa kiyA va anya dharma sAdhana kiyA, usake kaSTa dUra hue, atizaya pragaTa hue; vahA~ unhIM kA vaisA phala nahIM huA, parantu anya kisI karma ke udaya se vaise kArya hue haiM; tathApi unako una zIlAdi kA hI phala nirUpita karate haiN| usI prakAra vidAI kI belA/11 koI pApakArya kiyA, usako usI kA to vaisA phala nahIM huA hai, parantu anya karma ke udaya se nIca gati prApta huI athavA kaSTAdi hue, use usI pApa kA phala nirUpita karate haiN|" ___yadi uparyukta prazna ko hama isa saMdarbha meM dekheM to usa kutte ko na kevala NamokAra maMtra ke zabda kAna meM par3ane se svarga kI prApti huI, balki usa samaya usakI kaSAyeM maMda rahIM hogI, pariNati vizuddha rahI hogI, nizcita hI vaha jIva apane pUrvabhavoM meM dharma saMskAra se yukta rahA hogA; para prathamAnuyoga kI zailI ke anusAra 'NamokAra mahAmaMtra' dvArA paMca parameSThI ke smaraNa kI preraNA ke prayojana se usakI svarga kI prApti ko mAtra NamokAra maMtra kA phala nirUpita kiyA hai| jo sarvathA ucita hai, aura prayojana kI dRSTi se pUrNasatya hai, yathArtha hai| jinavANI ke sabhI kathana matArtha kI mukhyatA se hI hote haiN| ataH unakA abhiprAya grahaNa karanA cAhie, abhidheyArtha grahaNa karanA cAhie, zabdArtha nhiiN| ___ yadyapi lokadRSTi meM lokaviruddha hone se anya utsavoM kI bhA~ti mRtyu kA mahotsava khuziyoM ke rUpa meM to nahIM manAyA jA sakatA, para tattvajJAniyoM dvArA mRtyu ko mahotsava jaisA mahasUsa to kiyA hI jA sakatA hai| jaba isa jIva ko bhedajJAna ke bala se nija-para kA viveka jAgRta ho jAtA hai, apane amaratva kI zraddhA ho jAtI hai; taba vaha tattvAbhyAsa se aisA anubhava karane lagatA hai ki - "maiM to isa vinAzIka zarIra se bhinna ajara-amara avinAzI huuN| merI to kabhI mRtyu hotI hI nahIM hai| mRtyu to kevala eka deha se dUsarI deha meM gamana kriyA kA nAma hai, jo ki AyupUrNa hone para avazyaMbhAvI hai| jaba Ayukarma kI sthiti pUrNa ho jAtI hai to na cAhane para bhI jIva ko eka deha se dUsarI deha meM jAnA hI par3atA hai, deha ko chor3anA hI par3atA hai tathA jIrNa-zIrNa aura asAdhya rogI hone para AtmArAdhana evaM saMyama kI sAdhanA meM asamartha deha ko chUTanA hI cAhie, anyathA jIrNa-zIrNa zarIra ko koI kaba taka DhotA rahegA?" (45)

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vidAI kI belA/11 loka meM jisataraha vyakti jaba purAnA vastra tyAgakara nayA vastra dhAraNa karatA hai to prasanna hI hotA hai, usItaraha lokottaramArga meM bhI jaba samAdhimaraNa ke mAdhyama se jIva vRddha va rogI zarIra ko tyAga kara navIna zarIra dhAraNa karatA hai to usa samaya use bhI prasanna hI honA caahie| deha meM ekatva-mamatva rakhane vAle mithyAdRSTi-ajJAnI jIvoM ke lie mRtyu duHkhada ho sakatI hai; kyoMki ve paryAyamUr3ha hone se mRtyu ko sarvanAza kA hetu mAnate haiM, para una bhedavijJAniyoM ko to mRtyu se bhayabhIta nahIM honA cAhie, jinhoMne tattvAbhyAsa aura vairAgyajananI bAraha bhAvanAoM ke satata cintana-manana se saMsAra, zarIra va bhogoM kI asAratA, kSaNabhaMguratA evaM AtmA kI amaratA kA bhalIbhA~ti anubhava kara liyA hai| jinakI parijana-purajanoM ke prati bhI moha-mamatA nahIM rahI hai aura deha ke prati bhI apanatva TUTa cukA hai, unheM to mRtyu ke bhaya se bhayabhIta nahIM honA caahie|" mere isa samAdhAna se vivekI ne bhArI prasannatA pragaTa kii| varSARtu meM AvAgamana va yAtAyAta kI asuvidhA ke kAraNa prAyaH sabhI jagaha dhaMdhA-vyApAra sahaja hI kama ho jAtA hai| ina dinoM zAdIvivAha Adi sAmAjika utsava bhI nahIM hote, isa kAraNa lena-dena evaM kraya-vikraya bhI kama ho jAtA hai| kRSakoM kI phasaleM bhI khetoM meM khar3I hotI haiM, ina saba kAraNoM se kRSaka varga, majadUra varga evaM vyApArI varga meM ina dinoM dharma kArya karane kI pravRtti vizeSa dekhI jAtI haiN| sabhI dharmoM ke dhArmika parva bhI prAyaH inhIM dinoM adhika manAye jAte haiN| ___ cAturmAsa ke kAraNa sAdhu-saMtoM ko bhI cAra mAha taka eka hI sthAna para ThaharanA par3atA hai| isa kAraNa bhI ina dinoM dhArmika vAtAvaraNa banane kA sahaja yoga bana jAtA hai| kAraNa kucha bhI sahI, para gRhasthoM ko kucha dharma-karma karane kA kabhI na kabhI suavasara to mila hI jAtA hai| ise bhI gRhasthoM kA sadbhAgya hI samajhanA cAhie, anyathA vyApArI to itanA vyasta vyakti hotA hai ki vaha na kabhI caina se peTa bhara bhojana kara sakatA hai aura na kabhI nIMda bhara so sakatA hai| jaba bhI koI usase dharma-karma, paThana-pAThana yA manana-cintana karane kI bAta kare to usakA eka hI uttara hotA hai - "are bhAI, abhI to hameM marane kI bhI phurasata nahIM hai|" para merI samajha meM unakI yaha bAta Aja taka nahIM AI ki kyA mauta bhI phurasata vAloM ke pAsa hI AtI hai? kAza! unakI yaha bAta yathArtha hotI to bahuta acchA hotA / deza ke kAma bhI adhika se adhika nipaTate aura koI maratA bhI nahIM; kyoMki samAdhi aura sallekhanA meM antara samAdhi samatA bhAva se sukha-zAnti pUrvaka jIvana jIne kI kalA hai aura sallekhanA mRtyu ko mahotsava banAne kA krAntikArI kadama hai, mAnava jIvana ko sArthaka aura saphala karane kA eka anokhA abhiyAna hai| samAdhi sAdhanA aura siddhi : aise kyA pApa kie - pRSTha-105 (46)

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vidAI kI belA/12 sabhI apane ko apane-apane kAmoM meM vyasta rakhate; jaba kisI ko marane kI phurasata hI nahIM milatI to bhalA koI maratA hI kyoM! sadAsukhI va vivekI kA bhI yaha saubhAgya hI thA ki usa pahAr3I kSetra meM jahA~ ve rahate the, varSARtu meM do-tIna mAha taka pAnI kucha adhika hI barasatA thaa| isakAraNa una dinoM vahA~ kucha dinoM taka paryaTakoM kA AvAgamana pUrI taraha baMda rahane se vyApAriyoM ko vyApAra se phurasata hI phurasata rahatI thii| ataH unhoMne yahI do mAha kA samaya saparivAra dharma lAbha ke lie cunaa| saparivAra Ane ke kAraNa yadyapi unhoMne yahA~ kevala do mAha Thaharane kA hI saMkalpa kiyA thA, para isa daurAna unheM aisA lagA ki isa AzAtIta dharmalAbha ko chor3akara, satata pravAhita jJAnagaMgA kI amRtamaya madhura dhArA ko chor3akara phira rAga kI Aga meM jalane ke lie ghara jAnA ThIka nahIM hai| aise durlabha saMyoga bhI to sAtizaya puNya ke yoga se hI milate haiN| isa dharma lAbha ko abhI to kisI kImata para chor3anA hI nahIM hai| bhaviSya meM bhI varSa meM kama se kama do tIna mAha kA samaya avazya hI nikAlA kreNge|" taba se ve apane saMkalpa ke anusAra prativarSa mere pAsa Ate rahe aura cAra-cAra mAha raha kara tattvAbhyAsa karate rhe| isa bIca unhoMne mokSamArga prakAzaka ko to AdyopAMta aneka bAra par3hA hI; samayasAra, niyamasAra, pravacanasAra, puruSArthasiddhayupAya Adi aneka choTe-bar3e graMthoM kA bhI unhoMne sUkSmadRSTi se svAdhyAya kiyaa| inake sivAya ve vividha kaviyoM kI bArahabhAvanAoM kA tathA vairAgyabhAvanA, chahaDhAlA, kundakundazataka, zuddhAtmazataka, jainazataka aura nATakasamayasAra kA niyamita rUpa se pArAyaNa (pATha) bhI kiyA karate the, isase ye to unheM kaMThastha hI ho gaye the| jainadarzana ke pramukha siddhAMta vastusvAtaMtrya, bhedavijJAna, kramabaddhaparyAya, sarvajJatA, puNya-pApa, nimittopAdAna, nizcaya-vyavahAra, anekAMta-syAdvAda vidAI kI belA/12 cAra abhAva, pA~ca samavAya, SaTkAraka Adi viSayoM para gaMbhIra carcA karake apanI samyak zraddhA ko dRr3ha karake karttavya ke bhAra se nirbhAra hokara nirAkula rahate aura Atmasammukha hone kA apUrva puruSArtha bhI kiyA krte| unakA mAnanA va kahanA thA ki "yahI sukhI hone kA saccA upAya hai aura yahI jIvana jIne kI sahI kalA hai|" jisane isa vidhi se jIvana jInA sIkha liyA hai, usI kA maraNa samAdhipUrvaka ho sakatA hai| samyagdarzana prApta karane kI pRSThabhUmi kaisI hotI hai, isa para na kevala unhoMne carcA kI, balki apane jIvana ko vaisA hI jIne kA prayatna bhI kiyaa| carcA ko caryA meM badalane kA puruSArtha bhI kiyaa| aisA karake unhoMne mahasUsa kiyA ki vastutaH jainadarzana aura kucha nahIM, mAtra sukhada jIvana jIne kI adbhuta kalA hai| "jo jainadarzana ke anusAra jIvana jInA sIkha letA hai, vaha vartamAna meM to pUrNa nirAkula, atyanta zAMta aura pUrNa sukhI rahatA hI hai, usakA anaMta bhaviSya bhI pUrNa sukhamaya, atIndriya AnaMdamaya ho jAtA hai|" cAra mAha taka satata lAbha milane para bhI vivekI va sadAsukhI kA mana abhI bhI nahIM bharA thaa| tattvajJAna kI to pyAsa hI kucha aisI hotI hai, jo jaldI nahIM bujhtii| para gRhasthAvasthA meM rahate hue apane ghara-parivAra kI bhI to adhika upekSA nahIM kI jA sktii| tathA ye loga apane parijana-purajanoM ko bhI dhArmika saMskAra denA cAhate the, jo ucita bhI thA; kyoMki jinako jo vastu adhika priya pratIta hotI hai, hitakara lagatI hai, vaha apane priyajanoM ko bhI bharapUra bA~Ta denA cAhate haiN| ataH ve ghara se pUrNanirvRtta hone para bhI kucha samaya apane parijana-purajanoM ke sAtha rahakara unheM bhI tattvajJAna kA lAbha diyA karate the| isa bAra jaba unhoMne ghara jAne kA kAryakrama banAyA to mujhe yaha vicAra AyA ki kyoM na inheM jAte-jAte eka bAra punaH jainadarzana ke nicor3a ke (47)

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vidAI kI belA/12 rUpa meM samyagdarzana, saMnyAsa evaM samAdhi kA saMkSipta sArAMza batA diyA jaay| etadartha maiMne eka saMkSipta bhASaNa taiyAra kiyaa| bhASaNa taiyAra karate samaya mujhe yaha vicAra bhI aayaa| "patA nahIM inakA punaH AnA bane yA na bane, inase merA milana ho yA na ho, isa kSaNabhaMgura kAyA kA kyA ThikAnA? maiM bhI isa lAyaka rahU~ na rahU~ ki inase kucha kaha sakU~ / saMbhava hai hama meM se kisI ke zarIra kI sthiti hI aisI na rahe, jisase punarmilana ho ske| ata: bhaviSya kI AzA meM vartamAna ko khonA koI samajhadArI kI bAta nahIM hogii|" yaha socakara maiMne unakI 'vidAI kI belA' para eka dIkSAMta bhASaNa dene kI ghoSaNA kara dii| ghoSaNA karate to kara dI, para bhASaNa kA viSaya kyA ho? usakA prastutIkaraNa kaise kiyA jAya? mere lie yaha eka samasyA bana gii| cAra jane baiThakara paraspara carcA karanA alaga bAta hai, aura bhASaNa denA alg| bhASaNa denA hara eka ke vaza kI bAta nahIM hai| bhASaNa to apane vicAroM kI, apane cintana kI eka kalAtmaka abhivyakti hai| maMca para khar3e hokara binA soce-samajhe jozIlI bhASA meM kucha bhI kaha jAnA bhASaNa nahIM haiN| ___ acche bhASaNa ke lie pUrvAgraha se rahita kisI nirdhArita viSaya para, gaMbhIratApUrvaka, suvicArita, vyavasthita vicAroM ko viSaya ke anurUpa bhASA denA atyAvazyaka hai| viSaya ke sahI saMpreSaNa ke lie bhASA kA sarala, subodha, parimArjita aura deza-kAla ke anurUpa honA bhI Avazyaka hai| merA socanA thA ki kitanA bhI parizrama kyoM na karanA par3e para zrotAoM ko pUrA-pUrA lAbha milanA caahie| yaha socakara maiM likhita bhASaNa bolane kI taiyArI meM juTa gyaa| vidAI kI belA/12 maiMne suna rakhA thA ki "lekhakoM ko jaba taka phADU roga nahIM lagatA, taba-taka ve saphala lekhaka nahIM bana paate| isa phADU roga kI bhI eka romAMcaka kahAnI hai - eka vyakti lekhaka banane kI dhuna meM rAta meM do-do baje taka lekha likhatA aura prAtaH uThakara jaba vaha svastha citta meM - phresa mAinDa meM apane hI likhe lekhoM ko par3hatA to svayaM ke likhe lekha svayaM ko hI pasaMda nahIM Ate aura vaha unheM phAr3a kara phaiMka detaa| aisA karate hue jaba use kaI dina ho gaye to usake mAtA-pitA ko cintA huI ki ise yaha kyA ho gayA hai? yaha roja dera rAta taka jAgajAgakara itane parizrama se to likhatA hai aura savere par3hakara svayaM hI saba phAr3akara phaiMka detA hai| ise jarUra koI mAnasika roga huA hai| ve ghabarAye aura use eka manocikitsaka ke pAsa le gye| unhoMne usakA hAla sunAte hue kahA - DAkTara sAhaba! ise phADU roga' ho gayA cikitsaka usake lakSaNoM se saba kucha samajha gyaa| usane kahA - "bhAI! vaise to yaha roga sabhI udIyamAna lekhakoM ko hotA hai aura honA hI cAhie, anyathA lekhaka nahIM banA jA sktaa| phira bhI yadi Apako iSTa na ho to isakI rAmabANa auSadhi bhI mere pAsa hai| usake mAtA-pitA ne kahA - "roga to koI bhI bhalA nahIM hotaa| Apa to isakA upacAra kara hI diijie|" cikitsaka ne kahA - "ThIka hai, Apa loga, ise pratidina prAtaH zAma bhaiMsa kA dUdha pilAyA karo aura bhaiMsa kA hI dahi khilAyA kro| sAyaMkAla bhaiMsa ke dUdha-ghI se bane tathA nAnA prakAra ke madhura vyaMjana bhI khUba manA-manA kara khilAyA kro| isa taraha svAdiSTa gariSTha bharapeTa bhojana karAne se kucha hI dinoM meM isakA yaha roga ThIka ho jaayegaa|" (48)

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vidAI kI belA/12 aisA karane se use zAma se hI gaharI nIMda Ane lagI aura vaha kucha hI dinoM meM bhaiMsa kI bhA~ti hI susta va AlasI ho gyaa| ise kisI bhI kAma ko bAra-bAra karane meM Alasa Ane lgaa| lekhaka banane kA utsAha to ThaMDA ho hI gayA, niyamita svAdhyAya va paThana-pAThana meM bhI AlasI ho gyaa| aba to use eka-eka patra likhane meM bhI Alasa Ane lgaa| aba jaba vaha kucha likhatA hI nahIM to phAr3atA kyA? isa taraha usakA 'phADU' roga ThIka ho gyaa|" ___phADU roga to mujhe bhI huA thA, para ganImata yaha rahI, saubhAgya yaha rahA ki isakA upacAra karAne ke lie maiM kisI cikitsaka ke pAsa nahIM gyaa| anyathA zAyada merI bhI vahI sthiti hotI, jo isa kahAnI ke nAyaka kI huii| ___maiMne to apanA vahI purAnA rAstA apanAyA / jaba taka eka-eka paMkti para pUrNa saMtoSa nahIM hotA, maiM parizrama kI paravAha kie binA pUre panne ke panne phAr3a detA aura punaH likhtaa| rAta to bahuta bIta gaI, para prayatna karate-karate bhASaNa kI eka acchI rUparekhA taiyAra ho gaI aura maiM sukha kI nIMda so gyaa| maiM sunA karatA thA ki sAhityakAroM ko eka-eka racanA meM eka-eka putra prApti jaisI sukhAnubhUti hotI hai; para isakA pratyakSa anubhava mujhe usa rAta huA jaba mere dIkSAMta bhASaNa kI eka sundara rUparekhA taiyAra ho gaI thii| yadyapi usa rAta maiM bahuta dera se so pAyA thA, para ati utsAha ke kAraNa agale dina maiM samaya para uTha gayA aura jaldI-jaldI taiyAra hokara samaya ke pUrva hI vahA~ pahu~ca gayA, jahA~ dIkSAMta bhASaNa kA kAryakrama rakhA gayA thaa| sabhA kI prAthamika aupacArikatA ke uparAnta apanA bhASaNa prAraMbha karate hue maiMne kahA - "vidAI ke kSaNa bhI bar3e vicitra hote haiN| cAhe ve beTI kI vidAI ke kSaNa hoM yA dharmAtmAoM kI ciravidAI ke; donoM hI sthitiyoM meM sabhI ko harSa-viSAda evaM sukha-duHkha kI milI-julI aisI vicitra anubhUti hotI hai, jise vANI se vyakta nahIM kiyA jA sktaa| eka ora jahA~ vidAI ke bAda cirapratIkSita durlabha manorathoM ke sAkAra hone kA harSa hotA hai, vahIM dUsarI ora apane saMbaMdhiyoM se sadA-sadA ke lie bichur3ane kA asIma duHkha bhI hotA hai| vaha sthiti to aura bhI vicitra ho jAtI hai, jaba ciravidAI ke samaya eka ora to mRtyu ko mahotsava jaisA manAne kI bAta kahI jAtI hai aura dUsarI ora anantakAla ke lie apane iSTajanoM ke viyoga kI asahya mAnasika vedanA kA pahAr3a sAmane khar3A dikhAI detA hai| yadyapi ina paristhitiyoM meM maraNAsanna sAdhakoM ke mana meM antardvandva bhI hotA hai para ve usa antardvandva ko jainadarzana ke pariprekSya meM kie gaye tattvAbhyAsa (49)

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vidAI kI belA/13 ke sahAre upazAMta kara lete haiM, usa dvandva para vijaya prApta kara lete haiN| usa vijaya ke harSa meM hI unakI vaha mRtyu mahotsava bana jAtI hai| vaha jAnatA hai ki mRtyu to sabhI kI eka na eka dina hone vAlI hI hai| isa dhruvasatya se to koI kabhI iMkAra hI nahIM kara sktaa| jinhoMne janma liyA hai, unheM Aja nahIM to kala - kabhI na kabhI to maranA hI hai aura jinakA saMyoga huA hai, unakA viyoga bhI avazya honA hI hai| isa sthiti ko koI bhI TAla nahIM sktaa| to kyoM na hama vaha kSaNa Ane ke pUrva hI dUsaroM ke prati apane kartavyoM kI tathA dUsaroM para apane adhikAroM kI samIkSA karaleM, karttavyoM evaM adhikAroM kI yathArthatA ko acchI taraha samajha leM; tAki bAda meM kisI ko koI pachatAvA na rhe| Aja taka hama mukhyataH inhIM do bAtoM se sarvAdhika prabhAvita rahe haiN| hama apane ajJAna se aba taka aisA mAna baiThe the ki parivAra kA pAlanapoSaNa karanA, unheM par3hA-likhA kara catura banAnA aura una sabake lie jaise bhI ho vaise dhanArjana karanA hamAre pramukha kartavya haiN| isake badale meM kuTumba-parivAra hamArI bharapUra sevA kareM, hamArI AjJA meM rahe, jaisA hama kaheM vahI kareM - yahI hamArA una para adhikAra hai|' ina kartavyoM evaM adhikAroM kI anadhikAra ceSTAoM se hama aba taka parezAna rahe haiM, para jinAgama ke adhyayana-manana evaM abhyAsa se Aja hameM yaha patA calA hai ki vastutaH saba apane-apane hI kartA-bhoktA haiM, saba mAtra apane hI bhAgyavidhAtA haiN| koI bhI kisI ke sukha-duHkha kA, jIvana-maraNa kA, unnati-avanati kA kartA-dhartA nahIM hai, koI kisI kA bhalA-burA kucha bhI nahIM kara sktaa| apane ye kartRtva ke vikalpa saba nirarthaka haiN| ataH aba hama gharagRhasthI ke karttApane ke bhAra se pUrNa nirbhara hokara tathA dUsaroM ke bhalA-burA vidAI kI belA/13 karane kI cintA se mukta hokara, nizcinta hokara kyoM na apane svarUpa meM jamane-ramane kA prayatna kareM? saMyoga na sukhada hai na duHkhada / duHkhada to kevala saMyogI bhAva hote haiM, ataH saMyogoM para se dRSTi haTA kara svabhAva sanmukha dRSTi karanA hI zreSTha hai| ___samyagdRSTi kI dRSTi se mRtyu itanI gaMbhIra samasyA nahIM hai; kyoMki use mRtyu meM apanA sarvasva naSTa hotA pratIta nahIM hotaa| vaha yaha bAta acchI taraha jAnatA hai ki mRtyu kevala purAnA jhoMpar3A chor3akara naye bhavana meM nivAsa karane ke samAna sthAnAntaraNa mAtra hai, purAnA mailA-kucailA vastra utAra kara nayA vastra dhAraNa karane ke samAna hai| yadi vaha nUtanagRha praveza ke utsava kI taraha mRtyu ko mahotsava ke rUpa meM mAnatA hai to bhI koI Azcarya kI bAta nahIM hai aura yadi bahuta samaya se raha rahe jhoMpar3e ke prati sahaja anurAga vaza thor3I khinnatA bhI dikhAI de jAya to yaha bhI asaMbhava nahIM hai| aisA honA bhI svAbhAvika hI hai| mithyAdRSTi kI dRSTi isake viparIta hotI hai| eka to usakI sthiti usa daridrI ke samAna hotI hai, jisane jIvana meM kucha nahIM kmaayaa| apane rahane ke lie bhavana to dUra, eka jhoMpar3A bhI nahIM banA pAyA / yadi makAna mAlika ne use apane makAna se nikAla diyA to dara-dara kI ThokareM khAne ke sivAya anya koI cArA nahIM rhegaa| aisI sthiti meM usakA duHkhI honA svAbhAvika hI hai| jisane jIvana bhara pApAcaraNa hI kiyA ho, naraka-nigoda jAne kI taiyArI hI kI ho, usakA to rahA-sahA puNya bhI aba kSINa ho rahA hai, usa ajJAnI aura abhAge ke duHkha ko kauna dUra kara sakatA hai? aba usake maraNa sudharane kA to prazna hI nahIM rahA, usakI to AgAmI gati ke anusAra mati bigar3anA hI hai| (50)

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vidAI kI belA/13 isaprakAra mRtyu para A~sU bahAne vAle mithyAdRSTi evaM mRtyu ko mahotsava meM badala dene vAle samyagdRSTi kI sthiti ko tathA unakI vartamAna bhUmikA ko spaSTa karate hue maiMne apane usa dIkSAMta bhASaNa meM Age kahA - "samyagdRSTi bhagavAna AtmA ko jJAnajyotisvarUpa caitanya deva ke rUpa meM dekhatA hai| vaha apane svarUpa ko paradravyoM se pRthaka, rAgAdi se rahita, zAzvata jJAtA-dRSTA hI jAnatA hai, mAnatA hai tathA mRtyu ko kevala deha se dehAntara hone rUpa kriyA mAnatA hai| isa kAraNa vaha mRtyu se nahIM ddrtaa| jabaki mithyAdRSTi ko anAdi se deha meM apanApana hone se use mRtyu meM apanA sarvasva luTA-luTA-sA lagatA hai, sarvasva samApta huA sA pratIta hotA hai, isa kAraNa usakA duHkhI honA, bhayabhIta honA bhI svAbhAvika hI hai|" samyagdRSTi to samaya-samaya para zarIra ke saMbaMdha meM yaha vicAra karake virakta rahatA hai ki - "Aja taka itane varSoM se mere saMyoga meM raha rahe isa zarIra ke ananta pudgala paramANuoM kA mere anukUla pariNamana ho kaise rahA hai? isameM yadi kisI ko Azcarya ho to ho; inake vighaTane meM kyA Azcarya!" "nau daravAjoM kA piMjarA, tAmeM suA smaay| ur3ave ko acaraja nahIM, acaraja rahave mAhiM / / " ataH use mRtyubhaya nahIM hotaa| jJAnI vicAra karatA hai ki - "jisaprakAra jisa miTTI ke sAMce meM zuddha cA~dI kI mUrti banAI jAtI hai, DhAlI jAtI hai, vaha sA~cA TUTane para cA~dI kI mUrti nahIM TUTatI, vaise hI zarIrarUpI sAMce meM AtmA kI mUrti virAjatI hai, jo kabhI nahIM ttuutttii-phuutttii|" samyagdRSTi ko deha meM Atmabuddhi nahIM rhtii| vaha deha kI nazvaratA, kSaNa-bhaMguratA se bhalI bhA~ti paricita hotA hI hai, usakI jar3atA-acetanatA se bhI paricita ho jAtA hai| vidAI kI belA/13 para va paryAya se bhedajJAna hone se use apane AtmA meM hI apanApana rahatA hai| ataH zraddhA va viveka ke stara para use mRtyubhaya nahIM hotaa| saMbhava hai, koI samyagdRSTi bhI AcaraNa ke stara para use mRtyu ko mahotsava kI taraha nahIM manA pAye / use bhI bAhara se mithyAdRSTi kI taraha A~sU bahAte dekhA jA sakatA hai| purANoM meM bhI aise aneka udAharaNa upalabdha haiN| rAmacandrajI kSAyika samyagdRSTi the, phira bhI chaha mahIne taka lakSmaNa ke zava ko kaMdhe para Dhote phire| kavivara banArasIdAsa kI maraNAsanna vipanna avasthA dekhakara logoM ne yahA~ taka kahanA prAraMbha kara diyA thA ki - "patA nahIM inake prANa kisa moha-mAyA meM aTake haiM?" logoM kI isa TIkA-TippaNI ko sunakara unhoMne saMketa dvArA sleTapaTTI mA~gI aura usa para likhA : jJAna kutakkA hAtha, mAri ari mohnaa| pragaTyo rUpa svarUpa anaMta su sohanA / / jA paraje ko anta satyakari jaannaa| cale banArasI dAsa, phera nahiM AvanA / / mRtyu ke samaya jJAnI kI A~khoM meM A~sU dekhakara hI use ajJAnI nahIM mAna lenA cAhie; kyoMki usake abhI kevala anantAnubaMdhI krodhAdi kaSAyoM kA hI to abhAva huA hai| apratyAkhyAnAdi tIna kaSAyoM kI caukar3I to abhI bhI usake vidyamAna haiM, ataH zraddhA to jJAnI kI siddhoM ke samAna nirmala ho gaI hai, para cAritraguNa meM abhI kamajorI hai, isa kAraNa viyogajanita kSaNika duHkha kA vega A jAnA asvAbhAvika nahIM hai| apanI zraddhA ko majabUta karane ke lie vaha bArambAra apane mana ko samajhAte hue kahatA hai - hamako kachu bhaya nA re! jAkari jaise jAhi samaya meM jo hotaba jA dvAra, so bani hai, Tari hai kachu nAhiM, kara lInoM niradhAra / hamako kachu bhaya nA re! jAna liyo saMsAra / / (51)

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94 vidAI kI belA/13 jo kArya jisake dvArA, jisa vidhi se, jisa samaya, jina kAraNoM ke mAdhyama se honA hai, vaha kArya usI ke dvArA, usI vidhi se, usI samaya, unhIM kAraNoM ke mAdhyama se hotA hI hai; use kisI bhI prakAra TAlA nahIM jA sktaa| AcAryoM ke kathanoM ko smaraNa karate hue vaha apane mana ko samajhAtA hai| he mana! tU anya vikalpa chor3a aura zrI guruoM ke una kathanoM para vicAra kara, jisameM vastu ke svataMtra pariNamana kI spaSTa udghoSaNA kI gaI hai| svAmI kArtikeya kArtikeyAnuprekSA meM kahate haiM - "jaM jassa jammi dese, jeNa vihANeNa jammi kAlammi / NAdaM jiNeNa NiyadaM, jammaM vA ahava maraNaM vA / / ta tassa tammi dese teNa vihANeNa tammi kAlammi / ko sakkadi vAreduM iMdo vA taha jiNindo vA / / jisa jIva kA jisa deza meM, jisa kAla meM, jisa vidhAna se, jo janma-maraNa jinadeva ne niyatarUpa se jAnA hai, usa jIva kA usI deza meM, usI kAla meM, usI vidhAna se vaha avazya hotA hai, use iMdra athavA jinendara TAlane meM samartha nahIM haiM, anya kI to bAta hI kyA hai| jJAnI vicAra karatA hai ki tIna loka meM jitane padArtha haiM, ve saba apane-apane svabhAva se pariNamana karate haiM, koI kisI kA kartA-bhoktA nahIM hai| jaba yaha zarIra svayaM hI utpanna hotA hai aura svayaM hI bichur3atA hai, svayaM hI galatA hai, svayaM hI bar3hatA hai to phira maiM isa zarIra kA kartAbhoktA kaise? isa sthiti meM mere rakhane se vaha zarIra kaise rahe? vastutaH maiM isameM kucha bhI phera-badala yA parivartana nahIM kara sktaa| maiM to mAtra apane jJAyakasvabhAva kA hI kartA-bhoktA huuN| usI kA vedana va anubhava karatA hU~, kara sakatA huuN| isa zarIra ke naSTa ho jAne se merA kucha bhI bigAr3a nahIM aura isake rahane se kucha bhI lAbha nhiiN| vidAI kI belA/13 vaise bhI yaha deha atyanta apavitra hai, asthira hai, ghinAvanI hai, isameM raMca-mAtra bhI sAra nahIM hai| camar3e meM lipaTI sundara dIkhane vAlI yaha deha sAta kudhAtuoM se bharI huI mala-mUtra kI mUrti hI hai| isake nava dvAroM se dina-rAta aisA maila bahatA rahatA hai, jisake nAma lene se hI ghRNA utpanna hotI hai, jise aneka vyAdhiyA~ (bImAriyA~) nirantara lagI rahI haiN| usa deha meM rahakara Aja taka kauna sukhI huA hai? isakA svarUpa ramane yogya nahIM hai, apitu chor3ane yogya hai| ataH he bhavya prANiyo! isa mAnava tana ko pAkara mahAtapa karo; kyoMki isa deha pAne kA sAra to Atmahita kara lene meM hI hai| ___isa taraha saMsAra, zarIra aura AtmA ke svarUpa ke yathArtha jJAna ho jAne se bheda-vijJAnI samyagdRSTi mRtyu se nahIM ddrtaa| jise jagata hauvA samajha baiThA hai, vaha mRtyu jJAnI ko mitra ke samAna hitakArI pratIta hotI hai| kyoM na ho? honA hI caahie| kyoMki vaha jAnatA hai ki yaha mRtyu hI mujhe isa ghRNita jIrNa-zIrNa, duHkhada deha-rUpa kArAgRha se mukta karAtI hai| jisa deha ko ajJAnI apanA jAnakara, apanA mAnakara usameM ramA rahatA hai| usa deha ke saMbaMdha meM yadi jarA bhI gaharAI se vicAra kareM to jJAta ho jAyegA ki isameM kyA-kyA gaMdagI bharI hai? isakI asaliyata kyA hai? yaha kAyA kitanI kSaNa bhaMgura va nAzavAna hai? nimnAMkita paMktiyoM se yaha bAta aura adhika spaSTa ho jAtI hai - jisa deha ko nija jAnakara, nita rama rahA jisa deha meN| jisa deha ko nija mAnakara, raca-paca rahA jisa deha meN|| jisa deha meM anurAga hai, ekatva hai jisa deha meM / kSaNa eka socA kabhI kyA-kyA bharA usa deha meN|| aura bhI dekhie kyA-kyA kahA hai isa deha ke bAre meM hamAre manISiyoM ne - deha apAvana athira ghinAvanI, yAmeM sAra na koii| sAgara ke jala soM zuci kIjai, to bhI zuddha na hoii|| (52)

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vidAI kI belA/13 sAta kughAtamayI mala mUrata, cAma lapeTI sohai| antara dekhata yA sama jaga meM aura apAvana ko hai|| navamala dvArA bahe niza-vAsara, nAma lie ghina Ave / vyAdhi-upAdhi aneka jaha~-taha~ kauna sudhI sukha paave|| rAcana joga svarUpa na yAkau, vicarana joga sahI hai| yaha tana pAya mahAtapa kIjai, yA meM sAra yahI hai / / isa prakAra vastusvarUpa ke bArambAra cintana-manana karate rahane se jJAnI kI zraddhA to sudRr3ha hotI hI hai, dhIre-dhIre AcaraNa bhI zraddhA ke hI anurUpa hone lagatA hai| phalasvarUpa usakA maraNa bhI sahaja hI samAdhimaya ho jAtA hai| sadAsukhI ne jijJAsA pragaTa kI - "kyA saba sahaja hI hotA hai? kyA maraNAsanna vyakti ko sallekhanA dhAraNa karane kI jarUrata nahIM hai? zAstroM meM to sallekhanA lene kI bahuta vistAra se carcA kI gaI hai| kyA sallekhanA aura samAdhimaraNa koI alaga-alaga hai?" sadAsukhI ke eka sAtha prazna sunakara mujhe mana hI mana prasannatA huI, para una praznoM ke sahI samAdhAna ke lie vistRta carcA apekSita thI, ataH maiMne kahA "bhAI! tumheM ina praznoM ko samajhane ke lie kama se kama eka dina aura rukanA pdd'egaa|" sadAsukhI aura vivekI ne saharSa jAne kA kAryakrama sthagita karake do dina aura rukane kA nizcaya kara liyaa| so ThIka hI hai, jise satya ko samajhane kI lagana laga jAtI hai, usake lie eka dina rukane kI to bAta hI kyA hai vaha to sarvasva samarpaNa karane ke lie sadaiva tatpara rahatA hai| "nirbhaya va nirlobhI hue binA satya kahA nahIM jA sakatA aura saMpUrNa samarpaNa ke binA satya sunA va samajhA nahIM jA sktaa|" - isa tathya se suparicita sadAsukhI aura vivekI agale dina samaya se pA~ca minaTa pahale hI mere pAsa A A gaye aura atyanta vinamra bhAva se pUche gaye praznoM ke uttara kI cAtaka kI bhA~ti pratIkSA karane lge| ___ samAdhi ke svarUpa evaM usake upAyoM ke saMbaMdha meM to paryApta carcA ho hI cukI thI, para Agama meM Aye sallekhanA ke svarUpa kI carcA abhI zeSa thI, isa kAraNa isa saMbaMdha meM unakI jijJAsA svAbhAvika thii| maiMne sallekhanA ke saMbaMdha meM Agama ke AdhAra para unheM sarala zabdoM meM samajhAne kA prayatna kiyaa| maiMne kahA - "sallekhanA jaina darzana kA pAribhASika zabda hai, jo do zabdoM se milakara banA hai - sat + lekhanA = sllekhnaa| jisakA artha hotA hai samyak prakAra se kAya aura kaSAya ko kRza krnaa| jaba upasarga, durbhikSa, bur3hApA yA asAdhya roga Adi koI aisI anivArya paristhiti utpanna ho jAve, jisake kAraNa dharma kI sAdhanA saMbhava na rahe, to vastusvarUpa kI samajha evaM AtmA ke Azraya se kaSAyoM ko kRza karate hue anazanAdi tapa dvArA kAya ko kRza karake dharma rakSArtha maraNa ko varaNa karane kA nAma sallekhanA hai| ise mRtyu mahotsava bhI kahate haiN| dharma ArAdhaka uparyukta paristhiti meM prItipUrvaka prasannacitta se bAhya meM zarIrAdi saMyogoM ko evaM aMtaraMga meM rAga-dveSa Adi kaSAya bhAvoM ko 1 'samyak' kAya + kaSAya lekhanA sallekhanA "kAyasya bAhyasyAbhyantarANA ca kaSAyANAM tatkAraNa hApana krameNa samyagallekhanA sallekhanA" - sarvArthasiddhi 17/22 (53)

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vidAI kI belA/14 kramazaH kama karate hue pariNAmoM meM zuddhi kI vRddhi ke sAtha zarIra kA parityAga karatA hai| basa yahI saMkSepa meM sallekhanA kA svarUpa hai| samAdhi kI vyAkhyA karate hue zAstroM meM kahA gayA hai ki 'samarasI bhAva:-samAdhiH, samarasI bhAvoM kA nAma samAdhi hai| uttama pariNAmoM meM citta ko sthira rakhanA yA paMcaparameSThI ko smaraNa karanA samAdhi hai|' samAdhi meM trigupti kI pradhAnatA hone se samasta vikalpoM kA nAza honA mukhya hai| munirAjoM ke samasta zubhAzubha vikalpa chUTa jAte haiM, isalie ve paramasamAdhi ke dhAraka hote haiN| vacanoccAraNa kI kriyA parityAga kara saMyama, niyama evaM tapa pUrvaka nija zuddhAtmasvarUpa kA dhyAna paramasamAdhi hai|' sallekhanA meM jahA~ kAya yA kaSAya ko kRza karanA mukhya hai, vahI samAdhi meM nija zuddhAtmasvarUpa kA dhyAna pramukha hai| vaise to sallekhanA va samAdhi zabda paryAyavAcI zabda ke rUpa meM bhI prayukta hue haiM, phira bhI sUkSma dRSTi se dekhA jAya to uparyukta vivecana se yaha spaSTa ho jAtA hai ki samAdhi se hI sallekhanA saphala ho sakatI hai| jaba taka jIvana meM para ke prati samarasI bhAva yA sAmyabhAva nahIM hogA tabataka kaSAyoM kA kRza kara pAnA saMbhava hI nahIM hai aura kaSAyeM kRza hue binA zarIra ko kRza karane kA kucha bhI artha nahIM hai| kaSAyoM ke sAtha kAya kA kRza karanA hI sallekhanA hai| kevala kAya ko kRza karanA to AtmaghAta hai, sallekhanA nhiiN|" isaprakAra sallekhanA va samAdhi kA saMkSepa meM antara spaSTa karate hue maiMne unase sallekhanA ke bheda-prabhedoM kI bhI saMkSepa meM carcA kI, jo isa prakAra hai - sallekhanA ke kaI prakAra se bheda kie jA sakate haiN| jaise ki - vidAI kI belA/14 nityamaraNa va tadbhavamaraNa kI apekSA nityamaraNa sallekhanA evaM tadbhavamaraNa sallekhanA ye do bheda haiN| (1) nityamaraNa - pratisamaya Ayukarma ke kSaya ke sAtha dravyasallekhanApUrvaka vikArI pariNAma vihIna zuddha pariNamana nitya maraNa sallekhanA hai| (2) tadbhava maraNa - bhujyamAna (vartamAna) Ayu ke anta meM zarIra aura AhAra Adi ke prati nirmamatva hokara sAmyabhAva se zarIra tyAganA tadbhava maraNa sallekhanA hai| vivekI ne pUchA - "ye to ThIka, para zAstroM meM kAyasallekhanA, kaSAya-sallekhanA, bhakta pratyAkhyAna Adi nAma bhI to sallekhanA ke prakaraNa meM Ate haiN| ye kyA haiM? inakA kyA svarUpa hai? tathA inake dhAraNa kI vidhi kyA hai? yaha bhI hama jAnanA cAhate haiM, kRpayA inakA bhI spaSTIkaraNa kara dIjie? ___ maiMne kahA - "kAya ko kRza karanA, sahanazIla banAnA kAyasallekhanA hai|" yadi kAya ko paSTa kiyA, ArAmatalaba banAyA to iMdriyoM ke viSayoM meM adhika pravRtti hotI hai, AtmA malina hotA hai, kAma vAsanA bar3hatI hai, nidrA pramAda Alasya AtA hai| vAta-pitta-kapha Adi roga ho jAte haiN| ataH samAdhidhAraka ko tapazcaraNa dvArA kAyA ko kRza karanA Avazyaka hai| jaisI Ayu kI sthiti jAne, tadanusAra deha se mamatva kama karate hue AhAra ke AsvAda se virakta ho, rasoM kI gRddhatA chor3akara nIrasa AhAra lenA prAraMbha kreN| etadartha kabhI upavAsa, kabhI ekAzana, kabhI nIrasa AhAra, kabhI alpa AhAra (Unodara) - isa taraha krama-krama se apanI zakti pramANa AhAra ko kama karate hue dUdha para Ave, dUdha se chAcha, chAcha se garma pAnI tatpazcAta pAnI kA bhI tyAga karake deha kA tyAga karanA kAya-sallekhanA hai| 1 mahApurANa 21 - 226 2 paramAtmaprakAza 190 (54)

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100 vidAI kI belA/14 "samAdhidhAraka vyaktiyoM ko kisa prakAra saMbodhita kiyA jAye, jisase pariNAma samAdhimaya ho sakeM? tathA vedanA se unakA citta vibhakta na ho upayoga kI ekAgratA khaNDita na ho aura pIr3A cintana meM upayoga na jaay|" vidAI kI belA/14 bhaktapratyAkhyAna sallekhanA meM bhI isI prakAra bhojana kA tyAga hotA hai| bhojana ke tyAga kI mukhyatA se ise hI bhaktapratyAkhyAna kahate haiN| isakA utkRSTa kAla bAraha varSa va jaghanya kAla antarmuhUrta hai| rAga-dveSa mohAdi bhAvoM ko kRza karanA kaSAyasallekhanA hai| kaSAyasallekhanA binA kAya sallekhanA nirarthaka hai| jo rAga-dveSa va viSayakaSAya jIta sakegA, usI ke samAdhimaraNa saMbhava hai| Agama meM maraNa yA samAdhimaraNa ke ullekha aneka apekSAoM se hue haiN| pA~ca prakAra ke maraNa kI apanI eka apekSA hai, inakA saMkSipta svarUpa isa prakAra haiM :(1) paNDita paNDita maraNa :- kevalI bhagavAna ke deha visarjana ko paNDita-paNDita maraNa kahate haiN| isa maraNa ke bAda jIva punaH janma dhAraNa nahIM krtaa| (2) paNDita maraNa :- yaha maraNa chaTha guNasthAnavartI muniyoM ke hotA hai| eka bAra aisA maraNa hone para do-tIna bhava meM hI mukti ho jAtI hai| (3) bAla paNDita maraNa :- yaha maraNa dezasaMyamI ke hotA hai| isa maraNa ke hone para solahaveM svarga kI prApti ho sakatI hai| (4) bAla maraNa :- yaha maraNa caturtha guNasthAnavartI avirata samyagdRSTi ke hotA hai| isa maraNa se prAyaH svarga kI prApti hotI hai| (5) bAla-bAla maraNa :- yaha maraNa mithyAdRSTi ke hotA hai| yaha maraNa karane vAle apanI lezyA va kaSAya ke anusAra cAroM gatiyoM ke pAtra ho sakate haiN| yadyapi pA~cave bAla-bAla maraNa ko chor3akara uparyukta cAroM prakAra ke maraNa samAdhipUrvaka hI hote haiM, para svarUpa kI sthiratA aura pariNAmoM kI vizuddhatA apanI-apanI yogyatAnusAra alaga-alaga hotI hai|" sadAsukhI aura vivekI mere dvArA itanI vistRta jAnakArI pAkara bhArI prasanna hue| unhoMne kRtajJatA pragaTa karate hue aMtima prazna pUchA - unakI isa paropakArI maMgalamaya bhAvanA kA Adara karate hue maiMne kahA - "yadyapi dUsaroM ko samajhAne kI ApakI bhAvanA uttama hai, para vastutaH dUsaroM ko samajhAnA sahaja kArya nahIM hai; kyoMki samajha bAhara se nahIM, aMdara se, antarmana se AtI hai| phira bhI karuNAvaza yA dharmasnehavaza yadi kabhI vikalpa Ave to sAdhaka kI sthiti dekhakara jaisI paristhiti ho, jina kAraNoM se vaha svarUpa se vicalita ho rahA ho, unakI sArthakatA va nirarthakatA kA jJAna karAyA jAnA caahie| udAharaNArtha - koI vyakti asAdhya roga aura usase utpanna vedanA se pIr3ita ho, pIr3Acintana ArtadhyAna kara rahA ho, athavA bhUkha-pyAsa va iMdriyoM ke viSayoM kI vAMchA se kheda-khinna ho rahA ho, saMkleza kara rahA ho yA strI-putrAdi ke prati vizeSa anurAgI hokara iSTa viyogaja ArtadhyAna kara rahA ho to usase kaheM ki - ___ "he bhavya Atman ! jo duHkha tumheM abhI hai isase bhI ananta guNe duHkha tuma isa jagata meM anantabAra janma-maraNa karake bhoga cuke ho, phira tumhAre AtmA kA kyA bigar3A? kucha bhI to nahIM bigdd'aa| ataH aba isa thor3e se duHkha se kyA ghabarAnA? dekho, tumhArA yaha pIr3Acintana ArtadhyAna phira naye duHkha ke bIja bo rahA hai| ataH isa pIr3A para se apanA dhyAna haTAkara AtmA para kendrita karo, jisase pUrvabaddha karmoM kI nirjarA to hogI hI, navIna karmoM kA baMdha bhI nahIM hogaa| jo asAtA karma udaya meM AyA hai, use sahanA to par3egA hii| yadi samatApUrvaka, sAmyabhAvoM se saha loge tathA tattvajJAna ke bala para saMkleza (55)

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102 vidAI kI belA/14 pariNAmoM se bace rahoge aura AtmA kI ArAdhanA meM lage rahoge to duHkha ke kAraNabhUta sabhI saMcitakarma kSINa ho jaayeNge| tuma cAhe nirbhaya raho yA bhayabhIta, rogoM kA upacAra karo yA na karo, jo prabalakarma udaya meM AyA hai, vaha to phala die binA jAyegA nhiiN| rogopacAra bhI karma ke maMda udaya meM hI apanA kArya kregaa| jaba taka asAtA karma kA prabala udaya rahatA hai, taba taka koI bhI auSadhi nimitta rUpa se bhI kAryakArI nahIM hotii| anyathA bar3e-bar3e vaidya, DaoNkTara tathA rAjA-mahArAjA to kabhI bImAra hI nahIM par3ate; kyoMki unake pAsa upacAra ke sAdhanoM kI kyA kamI? ataH spaSTa hai ki honahAra ke Age kisI kA bhI vaza nahIM cltaa| aisA mAnakara samatAbhAva se usa duHkha ke bhI jJAtA-dRSTA rahanA yogya hai| aisA karane se hI vyakti apane maraNa ko samAdhimaraNa ke rUpa meM pariNata kara sakate haiN| yadi azA vedanA ho rahI ho aura upayoga AtmA meM na lagatA ho to usa samaya 'saMsAra, zarIra va bhogoM se virakta, svarUpasAdhaka, upasargajayI gajakumAra, sukauzala evaM sukumAla jaise sukumAra munirAjoM dvArA kaThora sAdhanA karane evaM unameM asahya vedanA ko sahane kI sAmarthya kahA~ se, kaise A gaI?' isakA vicAra karo aura soco ki inakI tulanA meM hameM to kucha bhI kaSTa nahIM hai|" aisA socane, vicAra karane se hamameM bhI bhedavijJAna ke bala se vaisA hI sAhasa va sAmarthya pragaTa hone lageMge, jisase kaThinatama pratikUla paristhitiyoM kA sAmanA karane kI zakti hamameM avazya pragaTa hogii|" ___mere vicAra se sadAsukhI evaM vivekI Azvasta to hue, para aba unake mana meM una upasargajayI saMtoM ke jIvanadarzana ko jAnane kI utkRSTa abhilASA jAgRta ho gii| etadartha unhoMne apane ghara jAne ke kAryakrama ko aura eka saptAha ke lie sthagita kara diyaa| ____ maiMne bhI unheM katipaya upasargajayI samAdhidhAraka mahAna AtmAoM ke preraNAdAyaka jIvana-darzana karAne kA nizcaya kara liyaa| koI kitane hI prayatna kyoM na kareM, para honahAra ko koI TAla nahIM sktaa| jo honA hai vaha to hokara hI rahatA hai| 'dvArikA dvIpAyana muni ke nimitta se jalakara bhasma ho jAyegI', isa bhaviSyavANI ko sunakara dvIpAyana bAraha varSa ke lie dvArikA chor3akara cale gaye, unhoMne socA - 'na rahegA bAMsa na bajegI bAMsurI', phira bhI kyA ve use jalane se roka pAye? nahIM, nahIM roka pAye / dvArikA jalI aura dvIpAyana muni ke nimitta se hI jlii| sukumAla ko vairAgya na ho jAe etadartha usakI mA~ subhadrA ne kyA kama kozizeM kIM? lAkhoM-lAkha prayatna kie| na kevala use vairAgya ke vAtAvaraNa se bacAyA, sAdhu samAgama se dUra rakhA, sAtha hI use saMsAra meM ulajhAye rakhane ke lie bhI rAga-raMga evaM bhogamaya vAtAvaraNa banAne ke bharapUra prayatyana kie| sabhI prakAra ke sukhada saMyoga milaaye| isake lie subhadrA ne apane beTe kI eka-do nahIM battIsa-battIsa zAdiyA~ kI aura eka se bar3hakara eka atisundara sarvaguNa saMpanna aisI patisevAparAyaNa battIsa patniyA~ sukumAla kI sevA meM khar3I kara dIM, jo apane pati kI sevA-suzrUSA meM satata sAvadhAna rhtiiN| isataraha saMsAra meM jo bhI sukha saMbhava the, mA~ subhadrA ne sukumAla ke lie ve saba juTAye, sabhI bhogopabhoga sAmagrI juTAkara use bhogoM meM AkaMTha nimagna kara diyaa| para kyA isase subhadrA kA cAhA ho pAyA? nahIM, antatogatvA huA vahI, jo honA thaa| bhaviSyavANI ke anusAra subhadrA ke pati seTha surendradatta jaba apane putra sukumAla kA mukha dekhate hI saMnyAsI hokara banavAsI ho gaye to subhadrA ko AzaMkA huI ki pitA kI taraha usakA putra bhI kahIM sAdhu na 56)

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104 vidAI kI belA/15 bana jAya? vaha nahIM cAhatI thI ki merA beTA bhI sAdhu bane / jabaki usI bhaviSyavANI ke anusAra muni yazobhadra kI vANI sunate hI sukumAla kA sAdhu ho jAnA bhI nizcita thA, para putravyAmoha meM usakI mA~ subhadrA ko usa bhaviSyavANI para pUrA vizvAsa nahIM ho pA rahA thA / vaha saMzaya ke jhUle meM jhUla rahI thii| isa kAraNa vaha apane ikalaute putra sukumAla ke prati aura bhI adhika saMzakita ho uThI thii| use Dara thA ki kahIM pitA kI parachAyIM putra para bhI na par3a jAye aura vaha bhI sAdhu banakara kahIM unhIM kI rAha para na calA jAye? usake bAre meM kI gaI bhaviSyavANI bhI sahI na ho jAye? subhadrA kA socanA ThIka hI thA, usakI cintA bhI svAbhAvika hI thI, kyoMki dUdha kA jalA chAcha ko bhI phUMka-phUMka kara pItA hai| ataH usane sukumAla ko sAdhu-saMtoM ke prabhAva se bacAye rakhane ke lie bhI aneka upAya kie| apane sabhI paharedAroM ko pUrNa sAvadhAna karate hue kaThora Adeza die| "dhyAna rahe, kisI bhI sAdhu kA isa mahala ke Asa-pAsa AvAgamana na ho|" svayaM ne bhI sAdhuoM ko AhAra ke lie par3agAhana karanA, AmaMtrita karanA sarvathA baMda kara diyA / dUra-dUra taka mahala ke cAroM ora bhI kar3A paharA lagA diyA, tAki koI sAdhu usa muhalle meM hI na A ske| para honahAra to kucha aura hI thI, tadanusAra sAre kAraNa-kalApa milate cale gye| subhadrA ke dvArA kI gaI isa kAryavAhI ke pahale se hI usI ke sage bhAI munirAja yazobhadra usake mahala kI sImA se thor3I dUrI para eka upavana meM Thahare hue the| tathA unhoMne vahIM para apanA cAturmAsa bhI sthApita kara liyA thaa| subhadrA ke na cAhate hue bhI yaha saba usake anajAne meM sahaja ho gayA thaa| jaba subhadrA ko yaha dhyAna AyA ki are! munirAja yazobhadra kA caumAsA to isI nagara meM ho rahA hai, aura vaha bhI mahala ke pIche ke upavana meM hii| isase vaha ghabar3A gaI, cintita ho uThI aura daur3I-daur3I unake vidAI kI belA/15 pAsa phuNcii| munirAja kI vaMdanA kara nArI kI maryAdA ke anusAra unase sAta hAtha dUra baiTha gii| jaise hI munirAja kI praznasUcaka dRSTi usakI ora mur3I to usane kahA - svAmin! Apa to svayaM nimittajJAnI haiM, bhaviSyadraSTA haiM, aura mA~ kI mamatA ko bhI Apa acchI taraha jAnate haiN| kahIM aisA na ho ki maiM pati kI taraha putra ko bhI kho bai? mere patideva seTha surendradatta to saMnyAsI banakara vanavAsI ho hI gaye haiN| unake viyoga kA mujhe apAra duHkha hai, para putrAnurAga vaza putra ke sahAre patideva ke viyogajanita asahya duHkha ko to maiMne jaise-taise saha liyA, parantu putra ke viyoga kA duHkha maiM na saha skuuNgii| ataH Apa mujha duHkhinI para itanI kRpA avazya kareM ki Apake upadeza yA zloka pATha Adi kI AvAja mere mahala taka na phuNce| nimitta jJAniyoM ke kathanAnusAra jisa dina mere putra ke kAna meM kisI bhI sAdhu ke vacana par3a jAyeMge, usI dina vaha virAgI hokara vanavAsI bana jaayegaa| he svAmI! Apa bhI apane divyajJAna meM yaha acchI taraha jAnate haiM ki merA putra atyanta sukumAra hai| vaha ratnoM kI jyoti meM to rahatA hai, kamala puSpoM se sugaMdhita taMduloM kA sarasa bhojana karatA hai, makhamala para calatA-phiratA hai, use sUrya kA prakAza suhAtA nahIM, rUkhA-sUkhA bhojana bhAtA nahIM, rAI ke dAne jaise sUkSma rajakaNa bhI usake caraNoM meM cubhate haiN| bhalA aisA sukumAra bAlaka vanavAsI hokara sAdhu-jIvana kI kaThora sAdhanA kaise kara pAyegA? naMge pA~va kaMTakAkIrNa Ubar3a-khAbar3a mArgoM para kaise gamana kara sakegA? sardI, garmI evaM bhUkha-pyAsa kI asahya vedanA kaise sahegA? bhayaMkara upasargoM ko kaise jhela sakegA? khUna ke pyAse DAMsa-macchara aura mAMsabhakSI hiMsaka pazuoM ke prANalevA upadravoM kA sAmanA kaise kara sakegA? aura maiM bhI usake viyogajanita duHkha ko sahane kI zakti kahA~ se lAU~gI? he svAmina! maiM usake moha meM pAgala ho jaauuNgii| mujhameM usake viyoga ko sahane kI zakti nahIM hai| ataH merI yahI ekamAtra vinamra prArthanA hai ki

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106 vidAI kI belA/15 kRpayA Apa atyanta maMdasvara meM paThana-pAThana evaM upadeza kareM tAki ApakI AvAja usake kAnoM taka na phuNce| munirAja yazobhadra ko subhadrA ke vicitra putravyAmoha para evaM saMsArI prANiyoM kI kAruNika dazA para mana hI mana haMsI bhI AI aura karuNAbhAva ke kAraNa duHkha bhI huaa| ve use kucha AzvAsana deM athavA samajhAyeM - aisI sthiti meM nahIM the; kyoMki unheM apane nimittajJAna meM spaSTa pratibhAsita ho rahA thA ki aba sukumAra kI Ayu atyalpa raha gaI hai| aura use alpakAla meM hI mere hI nimitta se vairAgya honevAlA hai tathA use AtmasAdhanA kA apUrva puruSArtha karanA hai| sAtha hI use apane duhare vyaktitva kA paricaya dekara itihAsa meM apanA nAma bhI amara karanA hai, purANa puruSa bananA hai, ataH ve cupa rhe| mahAna AtmAoM ke viSaya meM yaha ukti prasiddha hai ki - 'vajrAdapi kaThorAni, mRdUni kusumAdapi' ve jahA~ puSpa ke samAna komala hote haiM, vahIM vajra ke samAna kaThora bhI hote haiN| sukumAla kI bhI yahI sthiti thii| ve bAhara se jitane sukumAra the, andara se utane hI kaThora bhI the; jaisA ki unake aMtima jIvana se spaSTa ho cukA hai| para mohI prANiyoM kI samajha meM yaha bAta nahIM A sakatI; ataH yazobhadra munirAja ne subhadrA se kucha nahIM khaa| apanI prArthanA ke uttara kI pratIkSA karate-karate jaba subhadrA nirAza ho gaI to usakA zaMkAlu mana aura adhika saMzakita va kheda-khinna ho gyaa| ghara Ate hI usane apane paharoM kI vyavasthA aura bhI adhika sudRr3ha kara dii| __para honahAra ko kauna TAla sakatA thA? jaba jo honA hotA hai, vaha to hokara hI rahatA hai| sAre samavAya yA kAraNakalApa vaise hI milate cale jAte haiN| vidAI kI belA/15 107 sAdhAraNa manuSya to kyA, asIma zakti saMpanna iMdra evaM anaMtabala ke dhanI jinendra bhI usameM kucha pheraphAra nahIM kara skte| zArIrika dRSTi se atyanta sukumAra hote hue bhI seTha putra sukumAla meM manobala evaM Atmabala adbhuta thA / jahA~ unheM bAlyAvasthA meM sUrya kA prakAza nahIM suhAtA thA, jo ratnoM kI jyoti meM hI rahA karate the, jinheM pA~voM meM rAI ke dAne cubhate the; vahI muni avasthA meM unhoMne jaisI - jo kaThora sAdhanA kI, usakI itihAsa va purANoM meM koI misAla nahIM miltii| ___apane pUrvabhava - vAyubhUta kI paryAya meM choTe se vaTabIja kI taraha vairabhAva kA aisA bIja bo diyA thA, jo dikhane meM bhale choTA thA, para usakA phala sukumAla ko apanI munidazA meM vaTavRkSa kI bhA~ti bahuta bar3e upasarga ke rUpa meM bhoganA pdd'aa| ___ purANoM se patA calatA hai ki mahAmuni sukumAla apanI bhUtapUrvavAyubhUta kI paryAya meM yauvanAvasthA taka anapar3ha rahe / ve na kevala anapar3ha the, balki svabhAva se krodhI va kRtaghnI bhI the| inake eka bhAI aura the unakA nAma thA agnibhUta / agnibhUta bar3e the aura vAyubhUta choTe / saMyoga se bacapana meM donoM hI anapar3ha raha gye| yadyapi inake pitA rAjapurohita the aura unakA rAjya meM acchA sammAna thA tathA uttarAdhikAra meM rAjapurohita kA pada unake inhIM beToM ko milatA, para lAr3a-pyAra meM donoM bAlakoM ke anapar3ha raha jAne se vaha pada unheM nahIM mila skaa| isakAraNa ve donoM AjIvikA se bhraSTa hokara mAre-mAre phirane lge| unakI yaha sthiti dekhakara unakI mA~ ne unheM apane bhAI ke pAsa par3hane bhejaa| mAmA ke pAsa pahu~cakara donoM bhAIyoM ne unheM mA~ kA saMdeza sunAyA aura apane Ane kA uddezya btaayaa| mAmA yazobhadra ne eka kSaNa vicAra karake kahA - tumhArI mA~ ne yaha kahakara bhejA so to ThIka hai, para merI to koI sagI bahina hI nahIM thI, to (58)

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108 vidAI kI belA/15 109 tuma mere bhAnaje kaise ho sakate ho? phira bhI jaba tuma A hI gaye aura par3hanA cAhate ho to maiM tumheM par3hA dUMgA, para tumhAre khAne-pIne kI vyavasthA tumheM svayaM bhikSAvRtti se karanI par3egI tathA merI AjJA kA akSarazaH pAlana karanA hogaa| yadyapi unake mAmA yazobhadra ko kisI bhI vidyApremI ziSya ko apane pAsa rakhane meM koI asuvidhA nahIM thI, phira sage bhAnajoM ko apane pAsa na rakhane kA to prazna hI kyA thA? aura vaha bhI par3hAne ke lie| jaise apane beTe vaise hI bahina ke beTe; para yazobhadra ko yaha bhalI-bhA~ti patA thA ki ye donoM mAtA-pitA ke lAr3a-pyAra meM hI bigar3e haiN| ataH unhoMne socA - "mA~-bApa kI DA~Ta-DapaTa to beTe ekabAra saha bhI le para mAmA kA riztA to bahuta hI nAjuka hotA hai| mA~ se mAmA meM dviguNita sneha kI mAtrA hotI hai| dekho na! 'mAmA' zabda meM hI do mA~ haiM na?ataH unheM par3hAne ke lie kucha dinoM ko mujhe mAmA kA mamatva to tyAganA hI hogaa|" yaha socakara unhoMne nirmama hokara kahA - "soca lo bhAI! tuma cAhoge to maiM mAtra par3hAne kI vyavasthA kara sakatA hU~, bhojana Adi kI vyavasthA tumheM svayaM bhikSAvRtti se karanI hogii|" agnibhUta va vAyubhUta bahuta parezAna the, ataH unhoMne gurujI kI saba zarte svIkAra karalI aura adhyayana karane lge| jaba ve par3ha-likhakara apanI purohitAI vidyA meM nipuNa ho gaye aura guru se vidAI lekara ghara vApisa jAne lage to gurujI ne apane dIkSAMta bhASaNa meM rizte kA asalI rahasya udghATita karate hue unase kahA ki - "saMbhavataH aba tuma samajha gaye hoge ki usa samaya maiMne tumheM apanA bhAnajA mAnane se kyoM iMkAra kiyA thA? bahuta kucha saMbhava thA ki jisa kAraNa tuma mAtA-pitA ke pAsa nahIM par3ha sake, unhIM kAraNoM se yahA~ bhI par3hane se vaMcita raha jaate|" yaha bAta sunakara bar3e bhAI agnibhUta ne to guru mAmA kA bahuta bhArI upakAra mAnA aura kRtajJatA kA bhAva pragaTa kiyA; para vAyubhUta jo svabhAva vidAI kI belA/15 se hI ahaMkArI, duSTa va kRtaghnI thA, usane upakAra na mAnakara ulTA krodha pragaTa kiyA aura nArAja hokara vahA~ se ghara calA gyaa| vAyubhUta ne apane durAcAra ke kAraNa alpAyu ke sAtha thor3e hI kAla meM kUkarI, sUkarI va caMDAlanI Adi kI nAnA yoniyoM meM janma-maraNa ke duHkha uThAte hue nAgazarmA brAhmaNa ke yahA~ nAgazrI nAmaka kanyA ke rUpa meM janma liyA aura vahA~ jaina sAdhu ke saMparka meM Ane se usakA jIvana sudharanA prAraMbha huaa| ___ vAyubhUta kI payArya meM nAgazrI ke jIva ne jina mAmA (guru) yazobhadra se vidyArjana kI thI, saMyoga se nAgazrI kI digambara sAdhu ke rUpa meM unhIM se punaH bheMTa ho gii| nAgazrI ko dekhate hI yazobhadra muni ne apane nimitta jJAna se usake pUrva bhava jAna lie aura karuNA kara use bhedajJAna karAne ke sAtha paMcANuvrata bhI de diye| jinakA usane dRr3hatA se pAlana karate hue pApa karmoM kA kSaya kiyA aura vahI nAgazrI kA jIva Age calakara sukumAla huii| isa taraha hama dekhate haiM ki yazobhadra muni ne vAyubhUta kI paryAya se lekara sukumAla kI paryAya taka isa jIva ko tIna-tIna bAra jJAnadAna dekara sanmArga para lagAyA / so ThIka hI hai jisakI honahAra bhalI hotI hai use nimitta to mila hI jAte haiN| ____ agnibhUta bhare yauvana se muni ho gaye to unakI patnI kA unake viyoga meM duHkhI honA svAbhAvika hI thaa| moha kI mahimA hI kucha aisI hai usake kAraNa ajJAnI jIvoM ko apane hita-ahita kA kucha bhI viveka nahIM rhtaa| mohI jIvoM ko kisI kArya ke asalI kAraNa kA patA to hotA nahIM hai| ve to nimittoM para hI doSAropaNa kiyA karate haiM aura binA kAraNa una para rAga-dveSa kiyA karate haiN| ____ yahI sthiti agnibhUta kI patnI kI thii| vaha apane pati ke saMnyAsI hone kA kAraNa apane devara vAyubhUta ko mAna rahI thii| ataH vaha vAyubhUta (59)

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110 vidAI kI belA/15 para doSAropaNa karake use kosA karatI thii| vAyubhUta bhI krodhI prakRti kA to thA hI, abhimAnI bhI bahuta thaa| viveka to usameM nAmamAtra ko bhI nahIM thaa| bhalA vaha bhAbhI ke mithyA doSAropaNa ko kaise bardAzta kara sakatA thA? usane bhI IMTa kA javAba patthara se dene kI ThAna lI aura eka dina krodha se Aga-bUbalA hokara use nAnA prakAra se apamAnita karate hue usake mu~ha para lAta de maarii| abalA hone se vaha bhAbhI usa samaya to kucha bhI pratikAra nahIM kara pAyI, para use krodha to bahuta aayaa| usane mana hI mana saMkalpa kiyA ki 'maiM isa apamAna kA badalA lekara hI rhuuNgii|' usakA vaha krodha aMdara hI aMdara antarmana meM par3A-par3A dhIre-dhIre baira meM badala gyaa| saMkleza pariNAmoM ke sAtha ka-maraNa karane ke kAraNa vaha bhAbhI kA jIva nAnA nikRSTa yoniyoM meM janma-maraNa karatA rhaa| bhalI honahAravaza jaba vAyubhUta kA jIva seThaputra sukumAla ke rUpa meM manuSya paryAya meM AyA taba usI samaya vAyubhUta kI bhAbhI kA jIva usI jaMgala meM siyAranI kI paryAya meM jA phuNcaa| siyAranI mAMsAhArI pazu hone se svabhAvataH mAMsAhArI to thI hI, phira manuSya kA mAMsa to pazuoM ko aura bhI adhika priya hotA hai| jaba seTha putra sukumAla muni banakara jaMgala ke kAMToM-kaMkar3oM se bhare rAste meM jA rahe the to unake komala pAvoM meM kaMkar3a cubhane se khUna bahane lgaa| rAste meM par3e usa khUna ko cATate-cATate vaha siyAranI apane baccoM sahita vahA~ jA pahu~cI, jahA~ mahAmuni sukumAla dhyAnastha ho gaye the| unheM dekhate hI pUrvabhava ke baira ke dRr3ha saMskAravaza usa siyAranI ko unake prati anajAne hI dveSa umar3a AyA aura usane nirdayatApUrvaka dhIre-dhIre tIna dina taka unheM noca-noca kara khAyA, phira bhI muni sukumAla sumeru kI taraha aDiga rahe aura AtmA kA dhyAna karatekarate samAdhimaraNapUrvaka deha visarjita karake sarvArthasiddhi meM ahamindra hue| vidAI kI belA/15 111 kahA~ to mahAna tapasvI, mahAna upasargajayI, dhairya ke dhanI, dhIra-vIra mahAnamuni sukumAla kA parama utkRSTa jIvana aura kahA~ mahAkrodhI, mahAkRtaghnI, mahAmAnI, anapar3ha vAyubhUta kA mahAnikRSTa jIvana / eka hI jIva kI bhinna-bhinna do dazAoM meM jamIna-AsamAna jaisA kitanA va kaisA mahAna antara! para yaha koI asaMbhava bAta nahIM hai| aura bhI aise udAharaNa purANoM meM pAye jAte haiN| mahAvIra aura mArIci ko hI dekha lIjie na! jo mArIci kI paryAya meM mahA mithyAdRSTi thA, tIrthaMkaratva kA ghora virodhI thA, vahI mahAvIra kI paryAya meM Akara svayaM sAkSAt dharmatIrtha pravartaka tIrthaMkara bana gayA. yaha hai pariNAmoM kI vicitrtaa| jIvoM ke pariNAmoM kI isa vicitratA ke saMbaMdha meM kavivara bhAgacandajI ne ThIka hI kahA hai - "jIvana ke pariNamana kI ati vicitratA dekhahU praannii| nitya nigoda mA~hi se kaDhikara, nara paryAya pAya sukhdaanii|| samakita lahi antarmuharta meM kevala pAya varI shivraanii|| kahA~ to nityanigoda kI atyanta mUrchita dayanIya dazA aura kahA~ manuSya paryAya kI utkRSTatA? usameM bhI samyagdarzana kI jAgRta dazA; na kevala samyagdarzana, balki kevalajJAna aura mukti dazA kI prApti bhii|" aisI sthiti meM yadi vAyubhUta ke jIva ne apanI Atmonnati karake mahAmuni sukumAla jaisI parama pavitra paryAya prApta kara lI to usameM bhI koI Azcarya nahIM honA caahie| isalie to kahate haiM ki - jaba samaya A jAtA hai to sulaTate dera nahIM lgtii| ataH vartamAna paryAya ke pariNAmoM ke kAraNa kisI ko sarvathA burA yA bhalA mAna lenA ucita nahIM hai tathA svayaM apanI vartamAna dazA ko unnata yA avanata dekhakara abhimAna yA nirAza honA bhI yogya nahIM hai| paristhitiyoM ke banate bigar3ate dera nahIM lgtii| Aja kA pazu kala paramAtmA bana sakatA hai| ataH kisI kA anAdara yA upekSA karanA bhI ucita nahIM hai| (60)

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112 vidAI kI belA/15 bhalA usa samaya kauna jAnatA thA ki yahI vAyubhUta Age calakara mahAmuni sukumAla baneMge aura sAdhu parameSTI meM sammilita hokara jagata pUjya ho jAyeMge? vastutaH saMsAra meM saMsaraNa karane vAle, bhava-bhramaNa karane vAle sabhI jIva bhUle bhagavAna haiN| apane usa bhagavata svabhAva ko na jAnane-pahacAnane rUpa bhUla mUla meM ho rahI hai| isI bhUla kA dUsarA nAma to saMsAra hai| jaba taka yaha jIva apanI bhagavattA ko nahIM jAnegA, pahacAnegA; taba taka janma-maraNa kA abhAva nahIM ho sktaa| isa dRSTi se apane AtmasvarUpa ko na jAnanA, na pahacAnanA koI sAdhAraNa bhUla nahIM hai, kyoMki sAdhAraNa mUla kI itanI bar3I sajA nahIM ho sktii| jagata meM jo hama janma-maraNa kara rahe haiM, duHkha bhoga rahe haiM, ve saba isI mUla meM ho rahI bhUla ke kAraNa hI to bhoga rahe haiN| sabhI apane svabhAva ko bhUle hue haiN| para yaha bAta hama saMsArI prANiyoM ko samajha meM abhI taka nahIM aaii| hama aba taka ina duHkhoM ke kAraNoM kI khoja bAhya jagata meM hI karate rahe haiM, jabaki bhUla apane andara hI hai| ___ yadi hama apanI yaha bhUla svIkAra kara leM to phira hama saMsAra meM saMsaraNa kareM hI kyoM? jisaprakAra pAgalakhAne meM rahane vAlA koI bhI pAgala apane ko pAgala nahIM mAnatA, usIprakAra koI bhI saMsArI prANI apane ko bhUlA huA nahIM maantaa| yahI to hamArI sabase bar3I bhUla hai, sabase bar3A pAgalapana hai| para, saubhAgya yaha hai ki vaha bhUla kevala apanI eka samaya kI paryAya meM hI huI hai, trikAlI Atmadravya meM nhiiN| bhagavAna Atmatattva to sadA nirbhUla svabhAvI hI hai aura usa nirmUlasvabhAvI AtmA yA kAraNaparamAtmA kA Azraya lete hI, usa para dRSTi DAlate hI hamArI (ajJAnI jIvoM kI) vidAI kI belA/15 113 yaha anAdikAlIna bhUla miTa jAtI hai| ataH isa dizA meM hameM sadaiva sakriya rahanA caahie| yaha to huI bahuta bar3I bhUla kI bAta, para hama to itane lAparavAha haiM ki sAmAnya-sI choTI-moTI bhUloM kI bhI paravAha nahIM krte| kabhIkabhI sAmAnya-sI dikhane vAlI bhUla bhI yA jarA sI nAsamajhI bhI kaise tila kA tAr3a yA rAI kA pahAr3a bana jAtI hai, yaha hama soca bhI nahIM sakate / ataH hameM koI bhI choTA-bar3A kAma karane ke pahale usake pUrvApara pariNAma para dUradRSTi se vicAra avazya kara lenA caahie| kisI kavi ne ThIka hI kahA hai :"choTA bar3A kucha kAma kIje, parantu pUrvApara soca liije| binA vicAre yadi kAma hogA, acchA na usakA pariNAma hogA" yadi yaha dekhanA ho ki - rAga-dveSa vaza kI gaI choTI-sI bhUla kA kitanA bhayaMkara pariNAma ho sakatA hai to yaha bhI hama upasargajayI unhIM mahAmuni sukumAla ke pUrvabhava kI usa choTI-sI ghaTanA meM dekha sakate haiM, jisameM unhoMne sAmAnya-sI nAsamajhI meM bhI apanI bhAbhI ko lAta mArakara kI thii| usIkA phala unheM itane bar3e prANaghAtaka upasarga ke rUpa meM bhoganA pdd'aa| kavi sUracaMdakRta vRhata samAdhimaraNa pATha meM bhI unakA isIprakAra kA ullekha AyA hai| vahA~ likhA hai - "dhanya-dhanya sukumAla mahAmuni kaise dhiirjdhaarii| eka zyAlanI juga vaccAjuta, pA~va bhakhyo duHkha bhaarii|| yaha upasargasahyodharathiratA ArAdhana sukhkaarii| to tumare jiya kauna duHkha hai, mRtyu mahotsava bhaarii||" eka nahIM, aise aneka upasargajayI sAdhuoM ko isa rUpa meM smaraNa kiyA gayA ki unhoMne bar3e-bar3e bhayaMkara duHkha sahe haiN| hameM-tumheM to unakI tulanA meM kucha bhI kaSTa nahIM hai| ataH hameM bhI unase preraNA lekara Aye duHkha ko apanI hI bhUla kA phala yA apane udaya kA pariNAma samajhakara

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114 vidAI kI belA/15 dhairya se sahana karanA sIkhanA caahie| tAki pUrvabaddha karma khira jAveM aura navIna karmabaMdha na ho|" yaha jJAnaparaka carcA sunakara vivekI bahuta prasanna huA tathA aura bhI jo upasarga vijetA samAdhi meM saphala rahe, unake bAre meM bhI jAnane kI jijJAsA pragaTa kI, parantu usa samaya mujhe phursata bhI nahIM thI aura ve bhI ghara vApisa jAne kI jaldI meM the| ataH maiMne unheM anya purANa prasiddha sukauzala, rAjakumAra, sanatakumAra, pA~coM pAMDava Adi aneka mahAna upasargajayI munirAjoM kA nAmollekha karate hue inake jIvanacaritroM evaM purANoM ko par3hane kI preraNA dekara usa dina ke antima vaktavya se virAma le liyaa| sadAsukhI va vivekI apanI mitra-maNDalI ke sAtha apane ghara vApisa cale to gaye, para unake Aye dina Ane vAle patroM se aisA lagatA thA ki unake jIvana meM Azcaryajanaka parivartana ho rahA hai| prathama patra meM hI unhoMne likhA tA ki unhoMne ghara pahu~cate hI una sabhI samAdhi sAdhaka mahAna tapasviyoM ke jIvana caritroM ko AdyopAMta par3ha liyA hai, jinako par3hane kI preraNA maiMne dI thii| yaha jAnakara mujhe bhArI prasannatA huI, mere harSa kA ThikAnA na rhaa| maiMne bhAvanA bhAyI sabhI jIva isI prakAra sanmArga meM lagAkara apanA kalyANa kreN| strI-puruSa-kuTumba-parivAra ke prati huA anurAga to duHkhada hotA hI hai, para dharmAnurAga bhI kama kaSTakAraka nahIM hotaa| sadAsukhI va vivekI se merA dharmAnurAga ke sivAya aura saMbaMdha hI kyA thA? kucha bhI nhiiN| para, jaba se sadAsukhI kI ciTThI se vivekI ke bImAra hone kA samAcAra jJAta huA, tabhI se patA nahIM kyoM, merA mana bhArI-bhArI ho gyaa| maiM svayaM ko sahaja va sAmAnya sthiti meM nahIM rakha paayaa| sAdharmI vAtsalya meM bhI itanA gaharA AghAta laga sakatA hai, isakA mujhe usa dina pahalI bAra anubhava huaa| sadAsukhI kA patra par3hate-par3hate pahale to maiM usakI yAda meM aisA kho gayA ki anya kucha sudha-budha hI na rhii| phira usake viSaya meM mana hI mana antarjalpa karate-karate patA nahIM kaba/kaise maiM jora-jora se bolane lagA, U~cI AvAja meM kahane lagA ki - "sarvajJa bhagavAna ke sivAya koI nahIM jAnatA ki - kisako/kaba/kyA ho jAe? becArA yahA~ se bhalA-caMgA gayA thaa| abhI use gaye pUre do saptAha bhI nahIM hue ki yaha anartha ho gyaa|" __ andara se merI zrImatIjI kI AvAja AI - "are! vahA~ akele baiThe-baiThe kisase-kyA kaha rahe ho? itane jora-jora se kyA dIvAroM se bAteM kara rahe ho? are! kisako/kyA ho gayA? maiM bhI to sunUM! kisake bAre meM kaha rahe ho? mere bhaiyA ko to nahIM ho gayA kucha? le-dekara eka hI to merA bhAI hai aura vaha bhI ...... / khaira! jaisA bhI hai ........ / " kahate-kahate usakA galA bhara AyA aura A~khoM meM A~sU jhalaka aae| jInA sIkhAne kI kalA maiM eka zAzvata satya hU~, dhruva-dhAma hU~ caitnymy| maiM hU~ anAdi-anaMta jaba, taba kyoM satAve mRtyu bhy|| bodhi-samAdhi dvAra hai, nijarUpa pAne kI klaa| saMnyAsa aura samAdhi hai, jInA sIkhAne kI klaa|| - ratanacaMda bhArilla (62)

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vidAI kI belA/16 usako samajhA-samajhA kara kaise thaka gae the, para usane unakI bhI kahA~ sunI? 116 vidAI kI belA/16 maiMne kahA - "nahIM, mahAbhAga! duHkhI na hoie| tumhAre pyAre bhAI ko kucha nahIM huA, use ho bhI kyA sakatA hai? logoM kI mauta jisakI muTThI meM ho, vaha jaba/jisako mRtyuloka bhejanA cAhe bheja sakatA ho, bhalA usako kyA ho sakatA hai? usakI bar3abolI bAtoM se to aisA lagatA hai mAno vaha amaratA kA paTTA likhAkara hI AyA hai| para dhyAna rahe, isa saMsAra meM amara bhI amara nahIM hote| eka na eka dina to unheM bhI bhagavAna kA pyArA honA hI par3atA hai, mauta ke zikaMje se koI nahIM baca sktaa| are! yahA~ A~sU bahAne ke bajAya eka bAra vahA~ jAkara usa bhale AdamI se kaho ki kabhI bhUle-bhaTake bhagavAna kA nAma to le hI liyA kre| usake lie to Ajakala paisA hI paramezvara bana baiThA hai| dina-rAta peTa ke nAma para peTI bharane ke cakkara meM hI par3A rahatA hai| na nIti-anIti kA khyAla, na saca-jhUTha kA tthikaanaa| netAgirI ke nAma para dAdAgirI karatA hai, so alg| dayA nAma kI vastu to usake pAsa hai hI nhiiN| zAyada vaha samajhatA hai, usakI dAdAgirI se yamarAja bhI Dara jAegA, para aisA nahIM hogaa| jisa dina mauta kA paigAma A jAegA, yaha saba kucha yahI aise hI chor3akara sadA-sadA ke lie calA jAnA hogaa| kevala bhalIburI karanI hI usake sAtha jaaegii| jisakA natIjA naraka nigoda meM jAkara bhoganA pdd'egaa| ataH use samajhAo ki vaha ina saba dhaMdhoM ko chor3akara thor3A dharama-karama meM dhyAna lgaae| paise kI kyA kamI hai usake pAsa? para vaha Adata se majabUra hai| jitanA vaha Upara se dhaulA (sapheda) rahatA hai, utanA hI andara se kAlA hai| usane to gA~dhI TopI ko kalaMkita hI kara diyA hai| usane rAjanaitika netAgirI ke nAma para dAdAgirI kI dukAna calA rakhI hai|" patnI punaH bolI : "tuma usake lie itane parezAna na huA kro| vaha isa janama meM to sudhara nahIM sktaa| kyA tumheM patA nahIM, pitAjI __ tuma eka ora to sabako yaha samajhAte-samajhAte nahIM thakate ki - koI kisI kA bhalA-burA nahIM kara sakatA aura dUsarI ora bhalA karane kA itanA tIvra vikalpa? are ! chor3o bhI usa nAlAyaka kI crcaaeN| mujhe to usakI carcA se bhI cir3ha hone lagI hai|" ____ maiMne kahA - "bhAgavAna! tumhAre usa ikalaute bhaiyA kI carcA maiMne cher3I thI yA tumane? tumhIM to merI dhUmila smRti ke ghAvoM ko harA-bharA karatI ho aura jaba merA mana bhar3aka uThatA hai to tuma hI usakI carcA chor3ane ko kahane lagatI ho / ThIka hai, chor3a detA hU~, para kyA karU~, apanApana hone se kabhI-kabhI yaha vikalpa A jAtA hai ki - kAza! vaha sanmArga para A jAtA to usakA mAnava jIvana sArthaka ho jaataa|" patnI bhAvuka hokara bolI - "Apa ThIka kahate ho, rAga kA svarUpa hI kucha aisA hai jo Apa jaise jJAniyoM ko bhI kabhI-kabhI vicalita kara detA hai to hama to bisAta hI kyA haiM? bahina hone ke nAte mujhe bhI kabhIkabhI usakA rAga bahuta hI parezAna kara detA hai, merI to kaI rAteM usake vikalpa meM kharAba ho jAtI haiM, rAta-rAta bhara nIMda nahIM aatii| yaha kahatekahate patnI kI A~kheM DabaDabA aaiiN|" A~sU poMchate hue usane kahA - "eka bAra Apane yaha bhI to kahA thA ki jo kukarma karane meM jitanA zUravIra-dussAhasI hotA hai, yadi vaha sulaTa jAve to dharma ke kSetra meM bhI vaha vaisA hI zUravIrapanA dikhA sakatA hai, dharma ke kSetra meM bhI utanA hI saphala siddha ho sakatA hai| saMbhava hai ApakA vikalpa kabhI sArthaka ho jAve aura yaha bhI ho sakatA hai ki usakA bhaviSya ujjvala bananA ho, isI kAraNa Apako usake prati aisI karuNA AtI ho| maiM to yahI kAmanA karatI hU~ ki ApakA vikalpa sArthaka ho jaave|" (65)

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118 vidAI kI belA/16 Age bAta badalate hue usane pUchA - "kisakA patra hai aura usameM kyA likhA hai? kisako kyA ho gayA hai| jisakI cintA meM tuma itane bhAvuka ho uThe? saubhAgya se aba tumheM ghara-parivAra kI koI cintA nahIM rahI to jagata kA bhalA karane kI dhuna savAra ho gaI aura vaha bhI isa stara para ki nIMda hI harAma ho jAye / miyAMjI yoM hI zahara ke aMdeze meM dubale hue jA rahe haiM, yaha bAta apanI samajha meM nahIM aatii| bhalA yaha bhI koI bAta huI? ____ maiMne usakI pahalI bAta kI sunI-anasunI karate hue usake dUsare prazna ke uttara meM kahA - "vivekI ko pakSAghAta ho gayA hai, lakavA laga gayA hai - aisA sadAsukhI ne apane patra meM likhA hai|" patnI ne aphasosa pragaTa karate hue kahA - "are! yaha to bahuta burA huaa| bicAre jAte-jAte kitanA kahakara gaye the ki hama zIghra hI vApisa aayeNge|" ____ maiMne bIca meM hI kahA - "una becAroM ko kyA patA thA ki ve aba kabhI vApisa na Ane ko jA rahe haiM, sadA ke lie vidAI lekara jA rahe haiN| patnI ne jijJAsA pragaTa kI - "aba kaisI hAlata hai? pakSAghAta kA asara kahA~-kahA~ kitanA huA hai, calate-phirate to haiM na? apanA nityakarma karane ke lie parAdhIna to nahIM ho gaye? ___ maiMne patra par3hakara sunAte hue kahA - "pakSAghAta kA prabhAva to saMpUrNa dAhine aMga para hai, calanA-phiranA, uThanA-baiThanA to pUrI taraha baMda hai| bImArI ke kAraNa vivekI kI zArIrika sthiti bahuta kharAba ho gaI hai| malamUtra visarjita karane meM bhI bhArI kaThinAI hone lagI hai| bhojana bhI apane hAthoM se nahIM kara pAte / pAnI pIne taka meM parAdhInatA ho gaI hai| aura to ThIka, mu~ha kI makkhiyA~ bhI aba ve nahIM bhagA skte| vidAI kI belA/16 para, itanA saubhAgya samajho ki mu~ha, kAna, A~kha va mastiSka para adhika asara nahIM AyA hai| isakAraNa socane-vicArane, bolane evaM dekhane-sunane kI zakti kSINa nahIM huI hai|" ___ yaha samAcAra sunAte hue aura vivekI ko dekhane ke lie jAne kI bhUmikA banAte hue maiMne apanI dharmapatnI se kahA - "dharmapremiyoM ko jitanA prema apane viSaya-kaSAya va svArtha ke sAthI strI-putra va kuTumbaparivAra se hotA hai, aura jitanA prema sAdharmIjanoM se hotA hai, usase bhI kaI gunA adhika prema dharmAyatanoM se - deva-zAstra-guru tathA jinabimba, jinAlaya va dharmatIrthoM se hotA hai; tathA jitanA prema dharmAyatanoM, dharma ke sAdhanoM se hotA hai; usase bhI kaI gunA adhika prema dharma se - jJAyakasvarUpa bhagavAna AtmA se, zuddhAtmA yA kAraNa paramAtmA se hotA hai| yadi aisA ho to hI usakA dharmaprema saccA mAnanA cAhie, anyathA usameM saccA dharmaprema nahIM hai - aisA hI mAnA jaayegaa|" isa bAta ko sunakara patnI merI bhAvanA ko bhA~pa gii| vaha samajha gaI ki maiM laMbI-caur3I bhUmikA kyoM banA rahA hU~? ataH vaha bar3e hI vinamra bhAva se sahAnubhUti pragaTa karate hue bolI - "Apa vivekI ko saMbodhanArtha unake ghara avazya jaaie| aise samaya meM nahIM jAoge to kaba jAoge? maiM bhI Apake sAtha calU~gI; kyoMki aise saMkaTa ke samaya apane Thaharane, khAnepIne aura Atithya kA bhAra una para DAlanA ucita nahIM hai| maiM Apako to saMbhAlU~gI hI, yathAsaMbhava vivekI kI sevA Tahala karane meM bhI sahayoga kruuNgii| kyA patA unake parivAra vAle kitanA samaya nikAla pAte hoMge? Akhira yahI eka kAma thor3e hI hai unake sAmane! aura bhI na jAne kyAkyA samasyAyeM hoNgii|" ___maiM usakI isa samajhadArI para Azcaryacakita thaa| merI bhAvabhaMgimA ko dekhakara vaha punaH bolI - "aise kyA dekha rahe ho? maiM ThIka hI to kaha rahI haiM, aise mauke para maiM majAka nahIM krtii| calo! uTho! taiyArI karo! (64)

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120 vidAI kI belA/16 121 kalpanA karo, kadAcit mere bhAI ke saMbaMdha meM hI aisA koI samAcAra milatA to hama loga daur3e-daur3e jAte yA nahIM?" maiMne kahA - "mahAbhAga! jAte, avazya jAte, vahA~ nahIM jAte to phira rahate kahA~! mujhe abhI isa ghara meM bahuta dinoM rahanA hai, ataH aisI galatI to maiM kaise kara sakatA thA?" vaha bolI - "tuma to sadA mujhase ThiTholiyA~ hI karate rahate ho| are! maiM to yaha kaha rahI haiM ki gRhastha avasthA meM mere bhAI jaise sAta vyasaniyoM, adharmiyoM aura pApiyoM ke sAtha bhI to vyavahAra nibhAnA par3atA hai, jinheM hama se milane kA koI harSa nahIM hotA aura jinake hRdaya meM hamAre prati koI Adara - sammAna bhI nahIM hotA, phira ve loga to hamAre sAdharmI Thahare! sAdharmIjanoM kI khoja-khabara lenA evaM unakA tana-mana-dhana se sahayoga karanA to hamArA parama kartavya hai| phira vaha to hamArA ziSya evaM ananya mitra bhI hai| jaba hama vivekI se mileMge to unheM kitanI khuzI hogii| AdhA duHkha to unakA vaise hI dUra ho jaayegaa| ataH hameM Aja hI calane kI taiyArI kara lenA cAhie; tAki unheM Apake sAnnidhya kA lAbha adhika se adhika mila ske|" dUsare dina jaba hama vahA~ pahu~ce to hamane dekhA ki vivekI eka bahuta hI choTe aMdhere kamare meM akelA par3A hai, zAyada usa kamare ne kabhI sUrya ke prakAza ke darzana to kie hI nahIM the| dina ke bAraha baje bhI momabattI yA balba se hI eka-dUsare kA mu~ha dekhA jA sakatA thaa| eka kone meM sTUla para purAnA paMkhA rakhA thA jo kevala apanI khar3akhar3a kI AvAja se apane astitva kA bodha karA rahA thaa| pAsa meM eka caukI para pAnI kA loTA-gilAsa rakhA thaa| bAhara daravAje para eka bUr3hA naukara baiThA-baiThA so rahA thA, jo unakI sevA-suzruSA ke lie hogaa| para vaha zAyada baharA thA, hamane bahuta AvAja lagAIM, para usake kAnoM para jUM taka nahIM reNgii| vidAI kI belA/16 saMbhavataH pAnI kA gilAsa uThAne kI koziza meM gilAsa hAtha se chUTa kara TUTa gayA thA, kA~ca ke Tukar3e va pAnI abhI bhI vahA~ phailA par3A thaa| vivekI jAgate hue bhI soyA sA laga rahA thA, mu~ha para makkhiyA~ bhina-bhinA rahI thiiN| vaha bicArA palaka jhapakAne aura muskurAne ke sivAya aura kucha nahIM kara pA rahA thaa| hameM dekhakara usakI muskurAhaTa ne hamArA svAgata kiyA. A~khoM ne Ava-bhagata kii| hama bhI pAsa meM par3I eka beMca para baiTha gye| use dekhakara hamArI A~khoM se A~sU Tapaka pdd'e| hamAre A~sU dekhakara usakI A~kheM bhI nama ho gaIM; para usane kahA - "are! gurujI ApakI A~kha meM pAnI!" maiMne kahA - "are pagale! ye to tuma jaise sAdharmIjanoM ko dekhakara premAzru A gaye haiN| dukhada A~suoM kA kyA kAma?" phira maiMne pUchA - "ghara-parivAra vAle saba kahA~ gaye? kyA yahA~ koI nahIM hai?" vivekI kA uttara thA - "are bhAI! eka dina kI bAta thor3e hI hai, jo saba loga yahA~ mere pAsa baiThe rheN| Akhira rojI-roTI bhI to kamAnI hai, dhaMdhA-pAnI nahIM dekheMge to ghara-kharca kaise calegA? bAhara naukara baiThA hai, jarUrata ke kAma vaha karatA rahatA hai|" maiMne kahA - "vaha to zAyada baharA hai|" vivekI bolA - hA~, bhaaii| naukara Ajakala milate hI kahA~ hai? merI patnI ne bIca meM bAta kATate hue pUchA - "aura bahue~-beTiyA~ kahA~ calI gii|" vivekI bolA - "bacce to kaoNleja, skUla gaye hoMge aura bahue~ vizrAma kara rahI hoNgii| ve bhI becArI dina bhara kAma karate-karate thaka jArtI haiN| Akhira zarIra hI to hai, thor3A bahuta vizrAma to mA~gatA hI hai na?" maiM baiThe-baiThe soca rahA thA "tattvajJAna kA pUrA lAbha to isa bhale AdamI ne liyA hai, ise kisI meM koI kamI to dikhAI hI nahIM detii| sacce upagUhana aMga kA dhArI to ise kahate haiN| (65)

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123 122 vidAI kI belA/16 yadyapi yaha satya hai ki vivekI ke parivArajana usakI sevA karane kI bhAvanA rakhate haiM, para korI sadbhAvanA va sahAnubhUti se thor3e hI kisI ke kaSTa dUra ho jAte haiN| kaSTa kama karane ke lie to bharapUra sahayoga evaM sevA kI jarUrata hotI hai| jo use bilakula nahIM mila rahI hai| phira bhI usake vicAra kitane ucca haiM, kitane udAra haiM, kitanA gaMbhIra hai usakA vaha cintana! ___ jaba maiMne usake prati apanAye gaye pArivArika vyaktiyoM ke vyavahAra para asaMtoSa pragaTa kiyA taba usane unakI ora se spaSTIkaraNa karate hue apanI jisa mahAnatA kA paricaya diyA, vaha vastutaH jagata ko anukaraNIya hai|" usane kahA - "ve bhI becAre kyA kareM? ve merI sevA meM kitane bhI sajaga va sAvadhAna kyoM na raheM? para merI pratyeka icchA kI pUrti samaya para kara pAnA koI sahaja kArya to nahIM hai| yadi dasa-bIsa dina kI bAta ho taba to ghara ke saba kAryoM ko bhI gauNa kiyA jA sakatA hai aura caubIsoM ghaNTe bhI sevA meM khar3A rahA jA sakatA hai| para yaha bImArI aisI nahIM hai, yaha to anizcitakAlIna bImArI hai, lambe kAla taka calane vAlI bImArI hai, isa kAraNa parivArajanoM kI sevA karane kI hArdika bhAvanA hone para bhI sevA meM zithilatA AnA asvAbhAvika nahIM hai| dUsarI mahatvapUrNa bAta yaha hai ki rogI kI paricaryA sevA-suzruSA ke yogya sAdhana suvidhAoM kI upalabdhi-anupalabdhi bhI to usake puNyapApa ke udaya para nirbhara karatI hai| ataeva bhI kisI ko doSI ThaharAnA ucita nahIM hai| ___ maiM svayaM hI isa mAmale meM adhika bhAgyazAlI nahIM huuN| dekho na! merI patnI to mujhe chor3akara pahale hI svarga sidhAra cukI hai| jahA~ taka beTebahuoM aura pote-potiyoM kI bAta hai, so bhAI! una becAroM para pahale se hI kAma kA itanA adhika bojha hai ki ve usase hI nahIM nibaTa pAte / merI vidAI kI belA/16 sevA meM aTakAne kA artha hai unake bhaviSya ko aMdhakAramaya banA denA, par3hAI-likhAI va AjIvikA se vaMcita krnaa| apanI jarA-sI sukhasuvidhA ke lie bhalA unheM itane bar3e khatare meM DAlanA kyA ucita hai? beToM ne nayA-nayA kAma DAlA hai| isa kAraNa usa para unheM pUrA-pUrA dhyAna denA atyAvazyaka hai| ataH ve cAheM bhI to maiM svayaM nahIM cAhU~gA ki ve mere pAsa hI baiThe rheN| ve baiThakara kareMge bhI kyA? merA duHkha to mujhe hI sahanA hogA, ve merA duHkha thor3e hI bA~Ta leMge? aura mujhe aisA duHkha hai bhI kyA? apanI bhUla ke kAraNa isase bhI anantaguNe duHkha maiMne anantabAra sahe haiN| yadi ve apanI vyAvasAyika unnati ke lie athavA apane aizoArAma ke lie bhI merI upekSA karate, taba bhI mujhe koI kheda yA aphasosa nahIM hotA; kyoMki maiM aisA mAnatA hU~ ki ye loga to nimitta mAtra haiM, merA sukha-duHkha to merI karanI kA phala hai, usase inakA kyA saMbaMdha? phira unhoMne to apanI zakti yA sAmarthya ke anusAra naukara Adi kI vyavasthA to kara hI rakhI hai na? aba mere bhAgya se naukara bhI acchA nahIM milA, to isameM una becAroM kA kyA doSa? naukara dainika Avazyaka nityakarma hI to nibaTA sakatA hai| kabhIkabhI to jaba vaha ghaMToM taka ko idhara-udhara ho jAtA hai, taba to maiM pAnI pIne evaM pezAba karane ko bhI mu~hatAja ho jAtA huuN| dekho na! vaha gilAsa hAtha se girakara TUTa gayA hai| para vaha bhI kaba taka bA~dha kara baiThA rahe? baiThAbaiThA vaha Uba bhI to jAtA hogaa| isa kAraNa merI A~kha jhapakate hI vaha thor3I dera ko khisaka jAtA hai| ___para koI bAta nahIM, yaha to bahuta acchA hai, ghaMTe do ghaMTe kI bhUkhapyAsa se kyA pharka par3atA hai? narakoM meM aisI pyAsa va bhUkha hai ki samudra bhara pAnI pIne para bhI pyAsa nahIM bujhatI aura pAnI kI eka bUMda milatI nhiiN| (66)

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124 vidAI kI belA/16 tInoM lokoM kA saMpUrNa anna khAne para bhI bhUkha nahIM miTa sakatI aura eka dAnA anna kA milatA nhiiN| Apa jo kamare meM aMdhere va garmI kI bAta karate ho, DAMsa-maccharoM kI bAta karate ho, so bhAI! isa makAna ke lagabhaga sabhI kamare aise hI haiM, purAne jamAne kA banA hai na? hama to yaha socakara saMtoSa rakhate haiM ki hama aneka bAra cUhe va sA~pa banakara biloM meM bhI to rahe haiM, vahA~ kauna se venTIlezana yA khulI khir3akiyA~ thii| aura jaba macchara kATate haiM taba samAdhimaraNa pATha kI ve paMktiyA~ smaraNa kara lete haiM, jinameM sukumAragajakumAra Adi aneka munirAjoM kA ullekha kiyA gayA hai| sukha-zAnti va nirAkulatA se rahane kA yahI eka mAtra upAya hai| Apa hI ne to batAyA thA ki nirAkula rahane ke lie paristhitiyoM ko palaTane kI anadhikAra ceSTA karane ke bajAya vastusvarUpa kA vicAra karake apane pariNAmoM ko palaTa lene kA bahuta sIdhA va sarala upAya jinAgama meM hai| yaha mahAmaMtra hama Apa hI se to sIkhe haiN|" vivekI ke ye vicAra sunakara mujhe vicAra AyA ki - "dhanya hai isakI dhArmika zraddhA ko, sahanazIlatA aura sahiSNutA ko|" itanI pratikUla paristhitiyA~ hote hue bhI maiMne usake mAthe para kabhI salavaTa nahIM dekhii| maiMne use isa bIca sadA prasanna, zAMta aura haMsamukha mudrA meM hI dekhA hai| jaise-jaise mitroM, paricitoM aura riztedAroM ko usakI bImArI kA patA calatA to sAmAnya vyavahAra nibhAne ke nAte loga milane to Ate, para rogI ke duHkhadarda meM hAtha baTAne kA, use jinavANI ke do zabda sunAne kA athavA usakI pIr3A ko sunane kA kisI ke pAsa samaya nahIM hotaa| Aye nahIM ki jAne kI socane lagate / dasa minaTa meM to unakI do-cAra bAra ghaDI para dRSTi calI jAtI hai| ___ maiM vivekI ke pAsa baiThA-baiThA AgaMtukoM kA yahI dRzya dekhatA rhtaa| mujhe unake usa vyavahAra se aisA mahasUsa hotA thA ki Aja ke isa mazInI vidAI kI belA/16 125 yuga meM manuSya bhI mazIna kI taraha hRdayahIna ho gayA hai| sahAnubhUti kevala zabdoM taka hI sImita raha gaI hai| AnevAlA pratyeka vyakti bar3e vinamra bhAva se hAtha jor3akara kahatA hai ki - "hamAre lAyaka yadi koI sevA ho to avazya btaaie|" para marIja usake lAyaka use koI sevA batAye, usake pahale hI usakI sunI-anasunI karate hue 'acchA to calUM jarA,..' kahakara AMdhI kI taraha AtA aura tUphAna kI taraha calA jAtA, use kucha sunane kI na phurasata hI hai aura na jarUrata hii| ____ maiM logoM kA atyanta aupacArika vyavahAra aura vivekI kI sahiSNutA dekha-dekha kara hairAna ho rahA thaa| maiM socatA thA ki "yadi vivekI ke pAsa Aja tattvajJAna kA bala nahIM hotA, aura isa vidAI kI belA meM, ina saba paristhitiyoM ko jJAtAdRSTA bhAva se jAnane-dekhane kI sAmarthya na hotI to kyA hotA? yaha to tattvAbhyAsa kA hI camatkAra hai, jo yaha jindA hai; anyathA ajJAnI to AtmaghAta hI kara letaa| aneka bhuktabhogI vyakti usake isa dhairya kI, sahanazIlatA va sahiSNutA kI prazaMsA bhI karate, Azcarya bhI pragaTa karate; para vivekI na to pratikUlatA meM parezAna dikhAI detA aura na prazaMsA meM harSita hI hotA / sAmyabhAva se saba kucha sahate hue pUrva meM par3he-sune hue tattvajJAna ke cintana manana meM hI apane upayoga ko ekAgra karane kA prayatna karatA rhtaa| vivekI kI deha kI dayanIya dazA aura unake cintana ke anukaraNIya Adarza ko dekhakara bhAvukatAvaza merI A~kheM aneka bAra gIlI huiiN| merI patnI bhI mere A~suoM ke sAtha apane A~sU bahA rahI thii| mitra ke anurAga meM jaba maiM hI mAta khA gayA to nArI to Akhira meM nArI hI hai na! vaha to svabhAva se hI bhAvuka aura komala hRdaya hotI hai| hama donoM ko apane nikaTa pAkara vivekI bahuta prasanna thaa| use AzA thI ki samAcAra milate hI maiM usakI isa antima vidAI kI maMgala (67)

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vidAI kI belA/16 127 126 vidAI kI belA/16 belA meM usake pAsa avazya pahuMcU~gA aura use aMtima samaya meM saMbodhita kruuNgaa| para yaha usakA bar3appana thA / vaha apane Apa meM itanA adhika sajaga va sAvadhAna thA ki aba use kisI ke saMbodhana kI AvazyakatA hI nahIM thii|" vivekI ne nivedana kiyA ki - "yadyapi maiMne apane roga ko asAdhya mAnakara bhaktapratyAkhyAna nAmaka vrata lene kA saMkalpa kara liyA hai, para jaba Apa A hI gaye haiM to kRpayA isakI vistRta jAnakArI dekara merI dhAraNA ko dRr3ha karane kA kaSTa kreN|" ___ maiMne bhakta pratyAkhyAna kA svarUpa samajhAte hue batAyA - "bhaktapratyAkhyAna sallekhanA meM aisI pratijJA lI jAtI hai ki - maiM samasta pApAraMbha sAvadya se virakta hokara, pA~coM pApoM kA tyAga karake mana-vacanakAya va kRta-kArita-anumodanApUrvaka viSaya-kaSAya kI ruci, zoka, bhaya, avasAda, arati Adi kaluza-pApa pariNAmoM kA bhI tyAga karake apane AtmA meM sthira hotA huuN| samAdhidhAraka kA mUla pratijJA vAkya isaprakAra haiM - 'ahaM sarvasAvadha virato'smi bhakta pratyAkhyAna samAdhimaraNa avdhaaryaami|' 'bhakta' zabda kA artha hai AhAra aura pratyAkhyAna' zabda kA artha hotA hai tyAga / isaprakAra bhaktapratyAkhyAna kA artha hai - 'AhAra ko kama kramakramase tyAga kara deha ko kRza karanA tathA vrata-niyama-saMyama dvArA kaSAyoM ko kuza karake deha tyaagnaa|' dUsare zabdoM meM kaheM to apanI zArIrika zakti pramANa aura Ayu kI sthiti pramANa AhAra ko ghaTAkara dUdha Adi peya pInA, phira krama se dUdhAdi peya padArthoM kA bhI tyAga karake apanI zakti pramANa upavAsAdi karake AtmA va paramAtmA ke dhyAnapUrvaka viSaya-kaSAyoM ko kRza karate hue deha ko tyAganA bhakta pratyAkhyAna samAdhi hai|' ___ isakA utkRSTa kAla bAraha varSa aura jaghanyakAla antamuhUMta pramANa haiM, ina donoM ke bIca kA kAla madhyama hai| sallekhanA kA dhAraka puruSa apane bAhyAbhyantara bala evaM pariNAmoM ko jAnakara viSaya-kaSAyoM ke tyAgapUrvaka zarIrAdi bAhya saMyogoM evaM AhArAdi kA kramazaH tyAga karatA hai / tathA jagata ke saba prANiyoM ke sAtha jAne-anajAne meM hue aparAdhoM ke prati hita-mita-priya vacanoM ke dvArA kSamA mAMgatA huA svayaM bhI kSamAbhAva dhAraNa karatA hai| ___ isa samAdhimaraNa meM aisI pratijJA lI jAtI hai ki yadi upasarga, durbhikSa yA roga Adi bhAva se nivAraNa ho jAyegA to AhAra grahaNa karU~gA, anyathA maraNaparyanta annAdi AhAra kA sarvathA tyAga to hai hii|" isI uparyukta kathana ke anusAra vivekI ne saMkalpa kara liyA thA ki "maiM sarvapApoM kA tyAga karatA hU~, merA saba jIvoM meM samatA bhAva hai, kisI ke sAtha vaira-virodha nahIM hai, maiM sarva vighna-bAdhAoM ko chor3akara samAdhi grahaNa karatA hU~, kaSAya rahita hone kA prayatna karatA hU~ tathA svarUpa meM ekAgratA karake usI meM jamane-ramane kA saMkalpa karatA huuN| ___ maiM AhAra saMjJA kA, saMpUrNa AzAoM kA aura mamatvabhAva kA tyAga karatA hU~ tathA kramazaH annAhAra kA tyAga kara krama-krama se dugdhAhAra evaM uSNa jalapAna para rahU~gA, phira dugdhAhAra kA bhI tyAga karake tattvajJAna ke bala para kaSAyoM ko kRza karate hue deha kA tyAga kara duuNgaa| - aisA saMkalpa karake vivekI samAdhi kI sAdhanA karane kI taiyArI karane lgaa| "koI kitanA bhI rAgI-dveSI yA vairAgI kyoM na ho; para jIvana kI antima ghar3iyoM meM ciravidAI kI maMgalabelA meM to prAyaH sabhI ke aMdara apane parijanoM evaM sage-saMbaMdhiyoM se milane, unheM saMbodhana karane, samajhAne tathA unake prati hue apane aparAdhoM kI kSamA yAcanA karane-karAne kI bhAvanA jAgRta ho hI jAtI hai|" (68)

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129 128 vidAI kI belA/16 yadi sallekhanAdhAraka ne tattvAbhyAsa karake jinAgama ke pariprekSya meM samAdhipUrvaka jInA sIkha liyA hai, vaira-virodha ke duSpariNAmoM ko jAna liyA hai tathA apane abhAva meM apane snehI aura mohI mAtA-pitA evaM strI-putrAdi ko hone vAle kalpanAtIta duHkhoM kA ahasAsa kara liyA hai, taba to use saMbodhana kA bhAva aura bhI adhika jAgRta hotA hai| tAki antima vidAI kI belA meM koI A~sU na bahAye, roye nahIM, duHkhI na ho| vastutaH jJAnI pUrNa nirvikalpa hokara hI, sabhI se moha-mamatva tyAga kara hI apane prANa tyAganA cAhatA hai| ataH vaha sabako samajhAtA hai|" ina tathyoM se suparicita vivekI ne apane sabhI kuTumbiyoM evaM saMbaMdhiyoM ko saMbodhita karake laukika saMbaMdhoM se bhedajJAna karAte hue kahA - "sabhI rizte zarIra ke rizte haiN| jaba taka yaha zarIra hai, taba taka Apa ke saba riztedAra haiM, zarIra badalate hI saba rizte badala jaayeNge| zarIra se hI ina riztoM kI pahacAna haiN| batAo! AtmAoM ko kauna pahacAnatA hai? jaba kisI ne kisI ke AtmA ko kabhI dekhA hI nahIM hai to use pahacAne bhI kaise?" vivekI ne Age kahA - "isa zarIra ke bhAI-baMdhuo! beTe-beTiyo! va kuTumbIjano! merA Apa sabase koI bhI saMbaMdha nahIM haiN| ye saba rizte jisake sAtha the, usase hI jaba maiMne saMbaMdha viccheda kara liyA hai to aba Apase bhI merA kyA saMbaMdha? jaba deha hI apanI nahIM hai to deha ke riztedAra apane kaise ho sakate haiM? ataH mujhase moha mamatA chor3o, maiM bhI isa dukhadAI moha se mu~ha mor3akara sabase saMbaMdha chor3anA cAhatA huuN| aisA kie binA sukhI hone ko anya koI upAya nahIM hai| ataH saba aisA vicAra kareM ki - 'maiM zarIra nahIM, maiM to eka akhaNDa jJAnAnanda svabhAvI anAdi-ananta evaM amUrtika AtmA hU~ tathA yaha vidAI kI belA/16 zarIra mujhase sarvathA bhinna jar3asvabhAvI, sAdi-sAnta, mUrtika pudgala hai| isase merA koI saMbaMdha nahIM hai|' jise Apane kabhI na dekhA, na pahacAnA, usase moha kaisA? ataH Apa mujhase rAga-dveSa kA bhAva chor3eM / maiM bhI Apa sabake prati hue moha evaM rAgadveSa ko chor3anA cAhatA huuN| Apa loga mere mahAprayANa ke bAda, khedakhinna na ho tathA AtmA-paramAtmA kI sAdhanA-ArAdhanA meM sadA tatpara rheN| basa, yahI merA Apako saMdeza hai, upadeza hai, Adeza hai aura AzIrvAda hai| ise jisa rUpa meM cAheM grahaNa kreN| para isa kalyANa ke mArga meM avazya lgeN| isa svarNa avasara ko yoM hI na jAne deN|" vivekI kI isa Adarza samAdhi evaM utkRSTa bhAvanA se jahA~ eka ora mujhe bhArI prasannatA thI, vahIM kucha-kucha IrSyA bhii...| maiM bhAvuka ho uThA thaa| merI A~khoM se A~suoM kI jhar3I laga gaI thI, jinheM poMchanA kaThina ho rahA thaa| maiM asamaMjasa meM thA, soca rahA thA, loga kyA kaheMge? yaha kaise gurujI haiM? yadi kisI ne kaha diyA ki - "kyA sArA jJAna dUsaroM ko samajhAne ke lie hI hotA hai?.... "to maiM kyA mu~ha dikhAU~gA? __ maiMne apane mana ko jhakajhorate hue kahA - "kaho guru kaisI rahI? bar3e guru banate the, jJAnI hone kA daMbha bharate, yaha kyA huA? nAriyoM kI bhA~ti bhAvuka ho ye AMsU kyoM bahA rahe ho? kahA~ gayA vaha tumhArA tattvajJAna? tumhAre ye A~sU dekha jaba koI kahegA ki 'vAha bhAI vAha!! guru to guru hI raha gayA, celA mahAguru bana gayA' to taba tuma kyA kahoge...?" mere mana ke hI dUsare kone se AvAja AI - "kahane do, kahane do, koI bAta nahIM, hama bhI kaha deMge, Akhira ziSya kisakA hai?" jisa taraha putra ke Age bar3hane se pitA prasanna hI hotA ISyAluM nahIM; usI taraha ziSya bhI yadi guru se Age bar3hatA hai to guru bhI prasanna hI hote haiM (69)

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130 vidAI kI belA/16 IrSyA nahIM krte| jo ziSyoM se IrSyA kareM vaha guru to vastutaH guru hI nahIM hai, kyoMki jaba usameM gurutva nahIM to vaha kisI kA guru kaise bana sakatA hai? isa taraha maiM apane mana meM cala rahe antardvandva ko zAMta karake vivekI ko vidAI dene kA sAhasa juTA hI rahA thA ki dekhate hI dekhate vivekI ne A~kheM baMda kara lIM, mAno vaha atIndriya Ananda meM nimagna hokara nirvikalpa hone kA puruSArtha kara rahA ho| __maiM usakI A~kheM khulane kI pratIkSA karatA rahA, para ve khulI hI nahIM, mu~ha para hAtha pherakara dekhA to pAyA ki vaha moha-mAyA se saMgharSa karatekarate svarUpa ke sahAre mRtyuMjayI bana gayA hai, amara ho gayA hai| vaise maiMne vidAI to bahuta bAra bahutoM ko dI, para dhanya thA, vaha vivekI, jisane sArthaka aura saphala kara lI apanI aMtima vidAI kI belaa| OM zAnti ......... zAnti .............. zAnti ........... abhimata (pAThakoM kI dRSTi meM prastuta prakAzana) * vastutaH isa kRti ko par3hakara hama gad-gad ho gaye 'vidAI kI belA' meM anekoM jagaha aise marmasparzI prasaMga aura vAkya Aye haiM, jinheM par3hakara hama vimohita se ho gye| saMsAra kA svarUpa, manuSya janma kI durlabhatA aura usakI sArthakatA, pArivArika (gharelU) jIvana ke anukUla-pratikUla prasaMgoM meM samatAbhAva dhAraNa karane ke utpreraka kathA prasaMga aura sabhI prAsaMgika bAtoM kA sahaja kathA pravAha evaM sabhI viSayoM kA ati sundara DhaMga se sarala bhASA meM mArmika pratipAdana isa kRti meM huA hai| ise par3hakara hameM preraNA to milI hI, mAgadarzana bhI milaa| - jinendra dAsa jaina sevAnivRtta iMjIniyara, dhAmapura (u.pra.) * yaha itanI acchI lagI ki bAra-bAra par3hane kI icchA hotI hai paNDita ratanacandajI bhArilla kI nUtana kRti 'vidAI kI belA' eka uccakoTi kI racanA hai| isameM sadAsukhI aura vivekI ke kathAnaka ke mAdhyama se saMsAra kI dazA kA sahaja hI sundara citraNa kiyA gayA hai| pustaka ke zIrSaka ko dekhakara pahale to aisA lagA ki isameM lar3akI kI vidAI kI belA kA koI citraNa hogaa| kintu pustaka ko dhyAnapUrvaka par3hane para jJAta huA ki isameM to cira vidAI (mRtyu mahotsava) kI belA kA vizada vivecana hai| isameM vivekI kI cira vidAI kI belA kA jo mArmika citraNa kiyA gayA hai vaha cintana aura manana ke yogya hai| viSaya pratipAdana kI zailI atyanta rocaka hai| vartamAna yuga meM aise hI sAhitya kI AvazyakatA hai| mujhe yaha pustaka itanI acchI lagI ki bAra-bAra ise par3hane kI icchA hotI hai| - sevAnivRtta pro. udayacaMdrajI jaina sarvadarzanAcArya, pUrva vibhAgAdhyakSa, hindU vizvavidyAlaya, banArasa (70)

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vidAI kI belA 132 * sazakta lekhanI kA utkRSTa namUnA 'vidAI kI belA' AdhyAtmika dRSTi se Adhunika kathA sAhitya ke kSetra meM ApakI sazakta lekhanI kA utkRSTatama namUnA hai| kyA racanA taMtra, kyA caritra-citraNa, kyA vaicArika zAnta rasa kA paripoSa, kyA samAdhimaraNa kI vyAkhyA? kyA - kyA ginAyeM, saba meM utkRSTatA hai| adhyAtma rasa se ota-prota yaha kRti sUkSmatama siddhAntoM ko hRdayaMgama karAne meM bhI saphala hai| 'jIvana jIne kI kalA' ko kathAnaka meM bar3I acchI taraha se anusyUta kiyA hai| ApakA lekhana gUr3havicAra garbhita, subodha aura Atmabodha lakSyI hotA hai| bArambAra par3hA ........ phiraphira par3hane ko mana lalacAtA hai| isameM praur3hoM ko apanA bur3hApA saphala va sukhada banAne kI kalA mila jAtI hai| adhika kyA? yaha kRti AtmArthI ko mokSonmukha banAne meM pUrNa samartha haiN| * pro. premacanda nirakhe, malkApura (mahA.) * sundara kRti 'vidAI kI belA' rocaka, jJAnavarddhaka, AdhyAtmika AsvAda denevAlI sundara kRti hai / etadartha lekhaka ko jitanA dhanyavAda diyA jAya kama hai| - DaoN. mahendrasAgara pracaNDiyA, alIgar3ha (u.pra.) * gujarAtI anuvAda atyAvazyaka - paNDita ratanacanda bhArilla dvArA likhita 'vidAI kI belA' bahuta sundara kRti hai| yaha pustaka mujhe itanI acchI lagI ki maiMne ise eka baiThaka meM hI pUrI taraha par3ha lI aura bArambAra par3hane kA mana hotA hai| isameM kathA kA prastutIkaraNa aura AdhyAtmika bodha khUba sundara DhaMga se rakhA gayA hai| hindI na jAnanevAle hamAre gujarAtI bhAI bhI ise par3ha sakeM; samajha sakeM, etadartha gujarAtI anuvAda atyAvazyaka hai| ise par3hakara isakA gujarAtI anuvAda karane kI svayaM merI prabala bhAvanA ho rahI hai| etadartha ApakI anumati apekSita hai| uttara kI pratIkSA meM / - DaoN. balUbhAI zAha, bambaI (71) abhimata * lAkhoM pratiyA~ ghara-ghara pahu~ceM 'vidAI kI belA' par3hakara mujhe jo Ananda prApta huA, maiM usakA varNana zabdoM meM nahIM kara sktaa| ise jo bhI bhAI par3hanA prAraMbha karegA, anta taka par3hakara hI chodd'egaa| tattvajJAna hone para samAdhi kisa prakAra sahaja ho jAtI hai, isakA varNana isa pustaka meM lekhaka ne sarala bhASA meM kiyA hai| 'vidAI kI belA' pustaka chaha mAha ke alpakAla meM dasa hajAra kI saMkhyA meM samAja meM phaila gii| yaha to khuzI kI bAta hai hI, isakI aura bhI lAkhoM pratiyA~ ghara-ghara pahu~ceM aisI merI Antarika bhAvanA hai tathA isa prakAra kI aura bhI pustakeM banAyI jAe~, jinase vRddha, praur3ha, yuvA evaM bAlakoM meM bhI vItarAga mArga ke prati saccI tattva ruci jAgrata hove / lekhana ne isa pustaka ke dvArA viveka ko samAdhimaraNa karAkara samAdhi kI bhAvanA ko pragaTarUpa dekara samAja kA bahuta bar3A upakAra kiyA hai| yaha pustaka 'saMskAra' se bhI adhika lokapriya hogI aisA merA mAnanA hai| - pUnamacanda chAbar3A maMtrI, paNDita ToDaramala smAraka TrasTa, jayapura - * vidAI kI belA rUpaka : eka madhura saMkalpanA 'vidAI kI belA', subhASita vAkyoM, nIti, Agama aura AdhyAtmika vicAroM ko apane meM samAhita kiye hue haiN| mRtyu ke samaya ko 'vidAI kI belA' ke rUpa meM prastuta karake lekhaka ne madhura saMkalpanA dI hai| isa 'vidAI kI belA' samaya hamAre pariNAma kaise hoM aura ina pariNAmoM ke lie jIvana ke antima caraNa vRddhAvasthA meM kyA taiyArI ho ; isakA dizAnirdeza 'sadAsukhI' ke caritra ke rUpa meM bahuta sundara DhaMga se kiyA gayA hai| samAdhi, samAdhimaraNa, sallekhanA ina viSayoM kA vivecana bar3A madhura hai| sadAsukhI ke jIvana meM inakA darzana to pUre vivecana ko sajIva banA detA hai| pustaka kA geTa-apa, kAgaja, chapAI Adi bhI sundara hai| lekhaka badhAI ke pAtra haiN| - zrI harakacanda bilAlA, azokanagara (ma.pra.) 133

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134 vidAI kI belA abhimata 135 * anya bhASAoM meM bhI anUdita honA cAhie sarala svabhAvI paNDita zrI ratanacandajI bhArilla kI kRti 'vidAI kI belA' ne dharma ko sIdhe hamAre jIvana se jor3A hai| prApta viSama paristhitiyoM meM sukhI hone ke saralatama upAya ke rUpa meM vidAI kI belA' mAnoM eka samIkaraNa sA bana gayA hai| ___ yaha kRti marAThI aura kannar3a bhASA ke pAThakoM ko bhI unakI bhASA meM anUdita hokara upalabdha ho - aisI merI bhAvanA hai| ApakI sAmAnya zrAvakAcAra' aura 'saMskAra' kRtiyA~ bhI atizaya upayogI haiM, ve bhI uparyukta bhASAoM meM anUdita honI caahie| merA mAnanA hai ki - kaThina tattvajJAna ko sarala bhASA meM prastuta karanA hI vidvatAkI sahI kasauTI hai, jo ina kRtiyoM meM dekhane ko milatI - bra. yazapAla jaina ema.e., kumbhoja bAhubalI (mahArASTra) * vIDIo kaisiTa bananA cAhie ___ 'vidAI kI belA'aura 'saMskAra' meM lekhaka ne gAgara meM sAgara bhara diyA hai| yaha pracAra-prasAra kA yuga hai aura Aja TI.vI., vI.sI.Ara. pracAra ke sazakta mAdhyama haiN| ataH ina pustakoM kA saMkSipta rUpAntaraNa hokara vI.DI.o. kaisiTa bananA caahie| jisase adhikatama dharmaprabhAvanA ho ske| lekhaka kI isa dena ke lie maiM Antarika hRdaya se unakA abhivAdana karatA huuN| - gambhIramala sonI, phulerA * sabhI mumukSu ise bArambAra par3heM 'janma-maraNa rUpa saMsAra meM bhaTakate hue saMsArI prANiyoM ko janmamaraNa miTAne kA upAya jAnane ke lie evaM zAnti sukha kA lAbha prApta karAne ke lie yaha kRti atyanta upayukta hai| sabhI mumukSu ise bArambAra par3heM va lAbha utthaayeN| - paNDita narendrakumArajI bhiSIkara nyAyatIrtha, solApura (mahArASTra) * rocaka jJAnavarddhaka kathAnaka Apane antara ke himAlaya pradeza meM tathA caitanya ke nandanavana meM vihAra karake evaM cetana ratnAkara meM DubakI lagAkara 'vidAI kI belA' ke rUpa meM samAdhi kA vAstavika svarUpa likhA hai aura kathAnaka ke mAdhyama se nija paramAnanda AtmA kI do avasthAoM ke rUpa meM kathAnaka ke pAtra sadAsukhI evaM vivekI ko prastuta kiyA hai; joki anAdikAla se apane upayoga lakSaNa kI vibhAvadazArUpa hokara vivekahIna the, asamAdhi se duHkhI the, unheM jJAnagaMgA meM DubakI lagavAkara ratnadhAraNa karAkara samAdhimaraNa kI vicitratA kA anubhava kiyA hai| isa rocaka, jJAnavarddhaka, kathAnaka se AtmArthiyoM ko AzAtIta lAbha hogaa| isa kRti ke lie Apako jitanA dhanyavAda diyA jAe kama hai| - AtamAgaveSI vidvAna sujAnamala modI, bar3I sAdar3I (rAja.) * ahiMsAvANI (mAsika) mArca, jUna, 1992 prastuta kathAkRti ko laghu upanyAsa kaheM yA bar3I kahAnI? vaise kathAvArtA bhI kahA jA sakatA hai| pUrI kRti kA kathya uttama puruSa meM prastuta kiyA gayA hai| yoM lekhaka svayaM hI usameM eka caritra bana jAtA hai| eka pAtra ke rUpa meM lekhaka svayaM prArambha se anta taka kathAnaka para chAyA rahatA hai| kathAnaka kA pAtra vivekI nAyaka ke rUpa meM ubhara kara hamAre sAmane AtA hai| nAyaka viveka hotA hai| usake vivekI hone kI sthiti bahuta hI kSipra huI hai| usakI gati kucha dhImI aura manovaijJAnika honI apekSita thii| vidvAna lekhaka samAja ke jAne-mAne pravacanakAra bhI haiM, ataH isa kathAnaka meM ve vivekI ke guru bana jAne ke nAte saMllekhanA maraNa ke niryApakAcArya ke rUpa meM prastuta hote dikhAI dete haiN| kathAnaka meM lekhaka ne samAdhimaraNa/sallekhanA maraNa kI sarala subodha vyAkhyA kI hai aura kathA nAyaka kI maraNAsanna viSama avasthA meM usakI sthiti-prajJatA tathA taTastha jJAtA-dRSTA svarUpa kA acchA vizleSaNa evaM citraNa kiyA hai| yahI isa kRti kI khAsI saphalatA hai| (72)

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136 vidAI kI belA - vIrendraprasAda jaina, pradhAna saMpAdaka, alIgaMja (u.pra.) * ahiMsA vAisa (mAsika) dillI, jana-mArca, 92 (saMyuktAMka) __ kathA zailI ke mAdhyama se jaina tattvajJAna ko saralatA se pAThakoM taka pahu~cAne kA bhArillajI kA yaha prazaMsanIya prayAsa hai / isa vidhA meM ApakI yaha dUsarI pustaka hai| prathama kathAkRti 'saMskAra' kA samAja meM yatheSTha svAgata huA hai| prastuta pustaka meM kathAnaka ke dvArA saMnyAsa evaM samAdhi kI carcA hai| usa saMnyAsa evaM samAdhi kI, jisakI sAdhanA-ArAdhanA na kevala jIvana ke uttarArddha meM yA mRtyu ke sannikaTa hone para kI jAtI hai, apitu jIvana ke svarNakAla meM, parivAra ke madhya meM rahate hue bhI kI jA sakatI hai aura kI jAnI caahie| sarala, subodha bhASA meM likhI yaha pustaka upadezAtmaka zailI meM hai| mujhe lagatA hai ki yaha 'saMskAra' se bhI adhika janapriya hogii| - satIzakumAra jaina, saMpAdaka, zramaNa-sAhitya saMsthAna, dillI * isase jIvana jIne kI kalA kA jJAna bhI hotA hai| ApakI anupama kRti 'vidAI kI belA' par3hakara mujhe aisA lagA ki yaha kRti hama jaise vRddhoM ke lie hI likhI gaI hai, jinakI 'vidAI kI belA' aba najadIka hai| vAstava meM yaha upanyAsa tattvacarcA va sAmayika tattvajJAna se bharA huA hai| isako par3hakara tattvajJAna to hotA hI hai, jIvana jIne kI kalA kA jJAna bhI hotA hai| AtmArthI ko tattvajJAna kI pyAsa kaisI hotI hai yA kaisI honI cAhie, yaha bhI isameM darzAyA gayA hai| Apane 'vivekI' ko samAdhimaraNa karAkara, samAdhi bhAvanA ko prekTIkala rUpa dekara samAja kA bahata hI upakAra kiyA hai| ise par3hakara manuSya ko saccI samAdhi kI preraNA milatI hai| isake lie Apako jitanA bhI dhanyavAda diyA jAya, kama hai| - zrI sAgaracanda jaina, 'vicAraka', bhogA~va (mainapurI) * yaha hamAre jIvana para pUrI utaratI hai jainapatha pradarzaka meM Apake dvArA likhita 'vidAI kI belA' kI kizteM par3hIM, bahuta bar3hiyA lagIM, yaha hamAre jIvana para pUrI utaratI haiN| Apa jo bhI likheM, usakI pustaka avazya bananI caahie| ise bhI pustaka ke rUpa meM abhimata 137 avazya chpaayeN| -svarUpacanda motIlAla jaina, sanAvada (ma.pra.) * Atmadharma batAnevAlI kRti ApakI vidAI kI belA' aura 'saMskAra' donoM hI kitAbeM bahuta hI rocaka, mArmika evaM Atmadharma batalAnevAlI haiN| inheM par3hakara bahuta harSa huaa| aisI hI mArmika jJAna denevAlI kitAbeM Apake dvArA lambe kAla taka likhI jAtI raheM, yaha merI maMgala kAmanA hai| - vhorA hIrAlAla jaina, puNe (mahArASTra) * caitanyasukha mAsika, udayapura ___paNDita ratanacanda bhArilla kI vidAI kI belA' saMskAra kI taraha hI kathA sAhitya kI dUsarI kar3I hai| yaha sabhI prakAra ke pAThakoM ke lie rocaka, jJAnavarddhaka evaM adhyAtma kA sAra batAnevAlI anupama kRti hai| isakI bhASA sarala evaM subodha hai| ___ gRhasthI meM rahate hue bhI isake pAThakoM ko AtmA kI saccI sAdhanA evaM ArAdhanA kI preraNA milegii| gahastha bhI samAdhimaraNa kara apanA aihika evaM pAralaukika jIvana sukhI banA skegaa| - paNDita mAMgIlAla agravAla * apane paise kharca karake bhI mitroM ko par3hane dUMgA 'vidAI kI belA' par3hakara mujhe itanI zakti va zAnti milI ki maiM zabdoM meM varNana nahIM kara sktaa| isa pustaka ne mujha jaise registAnI pyAse prANI ko pAnI hI nahIM, balki amRtapAna karAyA hai| maiM ise apane paise kharca karake bhI mitroM ko par3hane duuNgaa| - rAjIva jaina, dillI *jaina sAhitya ko naI dena __ 'vidAI kI belA' upanyAsa vidhA meM likhakara apane jaina sAhitya ko eka naI dena hI hai| vastutaH yaha sarvazreSTha bana par3A hai| eka AtmArthI jIva ke lie samatAmaya jIvana jIne ke lie samAdhimaraNa kI yathArtha jAnakArI ke lie Agama ke Aloka meM likhI gaI yaha kRti atyanta upayogI bana gaI hai| -bAla bra. kailAzacanda zAstrI 'acala', (73)

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138 abhimata 139 vidAI kI belA lalitapura (u.pra.) * yaha kRti zAntipatha pradarzikA bana sakegI Apane bujurgoM ko apanA zeSa jIvana sArthaka karane kI kalA kA digdarzana to isa 'vidAI kI belA' kathA kRti meM karAyA hI hai, jana sAmAnya ke lie bhI yaha anupama kRti zAntipatha kI patha pradarzikA banegI, pAThakoM ko sukhada jIvana kI zurUAta karane meM sahAyaka hoNgii| pUrva meM ApakI anupama kathAkRkata saMskAra to par3hI thii| janasAmAnya kI ruci meM parivartana hetu sarala bhASA va kathAnaka zailI meM ye pustakeM likhakara Apane bhI apane anuja DaoN. hukamacanda bhArilla kI bhA~ti sAhitya kI sabhI vidhAoM meM mahAna yogadAna kiyA hai| ___ tattva ke pracAra-prasAra kI gaMgA-jamunA dhArA ke samAna ApakI jor3I ko samAja sadaiva smaraNa rkhegaa| - (zrImaMta seTha) rAjendrakumAra jaina, vidizA (ma.pra.) * eka anupama kArya ApakA 'vidAI kI belA' upanyAsa bahuta acchA lgaa| Apane dhArmika kSetra meM upanyAsa zailI apanA kara bahuta acchA-eka anupama kAma kiyA hai| sadAsukhI aura vivekI pAtroM jaisI samAja meM jAgRti Ave aura Apa jaise vidvAna sAhitya ke sRjana va pracAra-prasAra dvArA isa janajAgaraNa ke kAma ko karate raheM - yahI merI maMgala bhAvanA hai| - kiraNa bhAI je. kAmadAra, jaitapura (guja.) * sabase rocaka va upAdeya kRti 'sAmAnya zrAvakAcAra' aura 'vidAI kI belA' donoM pustakeM bahuta upayogI haiN| inameM viSaya kA pratipAdana bar3I spaSTatA se kiyA gayA hai| sabase rocaka va upAdeya 'vidAI kI belA' lgii| isameM kathA sUtra jur3a jAne se isakI paThanIyatA tathA bodhagamyatA bar3ha gaI hai| ina kRtiyoM ke lie Apako hArdika bdhaaii| - prasiddha sAhityakAra zrI yazapAlajI jaina, naI dillI * gUr3hatattvoM ke pratipAdana kI vilakSaNa sUjha-bUjha _ 'vidAI kI belA' vAstava meM eka AdhyAtmika kRti hai| jaina darzana ke gUr3hatattvoM evaM rahasyoM ko Apane apanI vilakSaNa sUjha-bUjha se sarala evaM bodhagamya banAyA hai| ApakI racanAoM meM Apake gahana adhyayana, paripaka anubhava evaM tIvra AdhyAtmika abhiruci kI amiTa chApa dRSTigocara hotI hai| ____ hama Apake sukhada jIvana kI kAmanA karate hue bhAvanA bhAte haiM ki lokahita kI dRSTi se Apa isI taraha ke bodhagamya bhASA-zailI ke sAhitya kA sRjana karate hue dharma ke pracAra-prasAra meM satata saMlagna rheN| - DAlacanda jaina, (pUrva sAMsada) sAgara (ma.pra.), adhyakSa, a.bhA. digambara jaina pariSada, dillI * kRti mana ko prabhAvita karatI hai 'vidAI kI belA' par3hI, bahuta acchI lgii| itane sundara DhaMga se likhI gaI hai ki mana ko prabhAvita karatI hai| hameM yaha itanI acchI lagI ki hamane ajamera meM Ayojita siddhacakra maNDala vidhAna mahotsava ke avasara para TrasTa kI ora se isakI 300 pratiyA~ sabhI sAdharmI bhAIbahinoM ko bheMTa kii| hama AzA karate haiM ki bhaviSya meM bhI samAja ko isIprakAra kI sundara, lAbhaprada, kalyANamArga kI ora le jAne meM nimitta rUpa racanAyeM par3hane ko milegii| - zrI hIrAcandajI vhorA maMtrI, vI.vi. svAdhyAya maMdira TrasTa, ajamera * anupama kRti upanyAsika zailI meM likhI gaI vidAI kI belA sAhityika dRSTi se anupama kRti hai| bhASA sarala, sarasa va bodhagamya hai| kavara kA geTaapa bhI AkarSaka bana par3A hai| utkRSTa kRti ke lie lekhaka ko bdhaaii| - zrI akhila baMsala (74)

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140 vidAI kI belA abhimata saMpAdaka, samanvaya vANI, jayapura * patra likhe binA caina nahIM par3I ApakI 'vidAI kI belA' itanI pasaMda AI ki Apako patra likhe binA caina nahIM pdd'ii| kathA ke mAdhyama se, manuSya jIvana kA citra khIMcakara usa jIvana ko zAzvata sukha kI prApti kI ora mor3akara sArA mokSamArga Apane isa kitAba meM citrita kiyA hai| tattvajJAna pratipAdana kA ekadama bar3hiyA phlo banA hai| jaina tattvajJAna se anabhijJa vyakti to ise par3he to usake dhyAna meM bhI parama satya vastu svarUpa AyegA tathA rocaka paddhati ke kAraNa vyakti parI kitAba par3hakara hI rukegaa| AtmA ko mukti ke mArga meM lagAne, mRtyu kA svAgata karane evaM jIna kI kalA meM utsAhita karane kI sAmarthya isa kitAba meM hai| isake pahale ApakI 'saMskAra' kitAba par3hI thI, vaha bhI apane viSaya kI bejor3a lagI thii| usake bAda Apane itanI jaldI yaha anupama kRti dekara samAja kA bar3A upakAra kiyA hai| etadartha ApakA hArdika abhinndn| -bAla bra. zrI dhanyakumAra belokara, mahAmaMtrI * prAraMbha karane para pUrI par3he binA chor3I nahIM jAtI ___'vidAI kI belA' AdyopAnta pddh'ii| Apane jainadarzana ke dArzanika siddhAntoM kA saMkSepa sArabhUta, nicor3a, sarala, sugama bhAvavAhI zailI meM sAhityika kahAnI ke rUpa meM isa DhaMga se rakhA hai ki par3hane vAle kA citta AkarSita hokara Age-Age utsukatA bar3hatI rahatI hai| pustaka ko hAtha se chor3ane kA mana nahIM hotA balki jJAna kI khurAka milatI rahane se peTa kI khurAka meM upekSA hotI rahatI hai| prAthamika bhUmikA vAloM ke lie to loha-cumbaka kA kAma karatI hai yaha pustaka / jaisA nAma vaisA hI guNa hai isameM / caturgati saMsAra paribhramaNa rUpa bhAvamaraNa dravyamaraNa kA vinAza kara samAdhimaraNa, saMnyAsamaraNa, paNDita maraNa kA mahotsava kaisA hotA hai, isakA sundara citraNa kiyA hai| yaha kRti deza-videza meM sArvajanika rUpa se manamohaka banakara sabakA avinAzI AtmakalyANa meM nimitta bane / yahI maMgala bhAvanA hai| - paNDita devIlAlajI mehatA, udayapura (rAja.) *samAdhi sAdhaka mumukSu ko sarvAMgINa upayogI pustaka 'khaniyAMdhAnA meM nandIzvara jinAlaya zilAnyAsa mahotsava ke prasaMga para saMyoga meM bahuta dinoM bAda mujhe Apake sarala-subodha zailI meM AdhyAtmika pravacana sunane kA saubhAgya milA / merA hRdaya praphullita huaa| ApakI navIna kRti 'vidAI kI belA' bhI maiMne manoyogapUrvaka par3hI, par3hakara bhArI prasannatA huii| nizcaya hI eka samAdhi sAdhaka mumukSu jIva ko yaha pustaka sarvAMgINa upayogI hai, aisA mujhe lgaa| pratyeka AtmakalyANArthI jIva ko isakA adhyayana karanA cAhie? - vayovRddha vidvAna bra. bAbA parasarAmajI adhiSThAtA, udAsIna Azrama, indaura (ma.pra.) * pratyeka kRti ghara-ghara meM dhyAnapUrvaka par3hI jAtI hai DaoN. bhArilla! Apa to antarrASTrIya stara ke vidvAna bana hI cuke haiM, Apake agraja paM. ratanacandajI bhArilla bhI bahuta sundara likha rahe haiN| unakI bhI pratyeka kRti ghara-ghara meM khUba dhyAnapUrvaka par3hI jAtI hai| pUjana viSayaka jinapUjana rahasya, samAdhi viSayaka, vidAI kI belA, sadAcAra preraka saMskAra evaM sAmAnya zrAvakAcAra aura NamokAra mahAmaMtra Adi sabhI kRtiyA~ bejoDa haiN| Apa logoM kI unnati dekhakara hArdika prasannatA hotI hai| - paNDita hIrAlAla jaina 'kauzala' - DaoN. satyaprakAza jaina, ema.e., pIeca.DI., dillI *jaisA vizvAsa thA, vaisI hI pAI _ 'vidAI kI belA' kRti prApta kii| nAma ke anusAra usameM sAmagrI hogI - aisA zraddhAna thA, jaisA vizvAsa thA vaisI hI paaii| maiMne rAtri ke samaya usakA adhyayana AraMbha kiyA to AdyopAnta par3he binA chor3ane ko jI hI nahIM caahaa| Apa logoM ke parivAra ko vilakSaNa sarasvatI prApta huI, yaha dekhakara apAra harSa ho rahA hai| Apake cehare kI zAntamudrA se bhI bar3I zAnti milatI hai| samaya-samaya para hama logoM ke preraNA srota bane rheN| - bra. chakkIlAla jaina (75)

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vidAI kI belA adhiSThAtA gu. diga. jaina udAsIna Azrama, droNagirI (ma. pra. ) * kisI bhI varga ke pAThaka kA mana Uba nahIM sakatA paNDita ratanacandajI bhArilla dvArA likhita 'vidAI kI belA' pustaka mere pAsa lagabhaga eka mAsa pUrva A gaI thI, para ise eka ke bAda ekaaneka pAThakoM ne sujhe se mAMga-mAMgakara rucipUrvaka AdyopAnta par3hA aura muktakaNTha se prazaMsA kii| yaha Aja mere hAtha meM A pAI hai| isase isakI rocakatA siddha hotI hai| ise jo bhI par3hanA zurU karatA hai, vaha anta taka pahu~ce binA nahIM rahatA / "jo bhI paidA hotA hai, use eka na eka dina vartamAna jIvana se vidAI lenI par3atI hai" - isI bAta ko pratibhAzAlI lekhaka ne atyanta rocaka zailI meM kathA kA rUpa dekara prakaTa kiyA hai| kaThina se kaThina tattvoM ko sarala evaM sarasa hindI bhASA meM aise DhaMga se likhA hai ki kisI bhI varga ke pAThaka kA mana Uba nahIM sktaa| 142 prastuta pustaka meM yatra-tatra prasaMgataH saMskRta, prAkRta aura hindI ke atyanta sarala aura zikSAprada padya diye haiM, jinase isakI garimA aura bhI adhika bar3ha gaI hai| kathAnaka meM diye gaye pAtroM ke sadAsukhI evaM vivekI Adi nAma sArthaka haiM, jinheM soca-samajhakara hI rakhA gayA hai| prastuta kRti meM sallekhanA kI carcA apekSAkRta vistAra se kI gaI hai / jo akSarazaH par3hane yogya hai| vaise to sallekhanA va samAdhimaraNa donoM paryAyavAcaka zabda haiM, para vidvAna lekhaka ne pRSTha 9 para jo sUkSma antara batalAyA hai - vaha mUlataH dRSTavya hai| ise jo bhI par3heMge unake mana avazya hI nirmala-nirvikAra hoNge| mAnava jIvana meM janma kI apekSA maraNa sudhArane kA mahattva adhika hotA hai / jinhoMne samAdhi dvArA apane maraNa kareM saMbhAla liyA ve apane agale janma ko sukhI banA lete haiN| prastuta pustaka kA viSaya, lekhana zailI, prUpha saMzodhana, TAipa, kAgaja, chapAI-saphAI aura gaiTaapa Adi sabhI nayanAbhirAma aura cittAkarSaka hai| (76) abhimata 143 - paM. amRtalAla zAstrI, sAhityAcArya, brAhmI vidyApITha, lADanUM * sahI jIvana-zailI samajhAne meM samartha kRti 'vidAI kI belA' meM lekhaka ne nAnA janmoM meM honevAle ciravidAI kA kathAzailI meM sundara varNana kiyA hai| bAra-bAra honevAlI duHkhada ciravidAI sukhada kaise bana sakatI hai? isa bAta ko Agama ke Aloka meM samajhAne kA saphala prayAsa prastuta kRti meM kiyA gayA hai| tattvadarzana se samanvita yaha racanA rucikara to hai hI, isakI bhASA-zailI bhI sarala evaM pravAhapUrNa hai| AzA hai pAThaka isa racanA ke mAdhyama se apanI jIvana zailI samajhane meM yatnazIla hoNge| - DaoN. devendrakumAra zAstrI, ema.e., pIeca. DI. zAsakIya snAtakottara mahAvidyAlaya, nImaca (ma. pra. ) * ApakI lekhanI se aisA hI lekhana sadaiva hotA rahe ApakI likhI 'vidAI kI belA' pddh'ii| pustaka itanI acchI lagI ki par3hanA prAraMbha karane para pUrI karake hI rukaa| aneka sthala to aise preraNAdAyaka aura hRdayasparzI haiM, jinheM punaH par3hane kA mana hotA hai| mRtyumahotsava ke viSaya meM dI gaI vyAvahArika jAnakArI to mArmika hai hI, tAttvika viSayavastu aura AdhyAtmika gaharAI bhI bharapUra hai| ApakI lekhanI se isIprakAra kA yazasvI lekhanakArya hotA rahe yahI maMgala kAmanA hai| - DaoN. vhI. eca. sonaTake, nAlA sopAra, (vesTa) mahArASTra * eka-eka akSara meM rasa kI gaMgA bahatI hai maiMne Apake dvArA likhita vidAI kI belA, sukhI jIvana, saMskAra aura ina bhAvoM kA phala kyA hogA, Adi kitAboM kA jJAna prApta kiyA hai| vaha mujhe bahuta hI acchI lagIM, mere mitroM ne bhI ina pustakoM ko par3hA aura inakI prazaMsA karate hue kahA ki ina pustakoM ke eka-eka akSara rasa kI gaMgA bahatI hai aura bahuta jJAnaprada bAteM prApta hotI haiN| yadyapi hama jaina nahIM haiM; phira bhI ApakA sAhitya atyanta sarala bhASA meM hone se hameM samajha meM A jAtA hai| mujhe aura mere mitroM ko ina pustakoM ko par3hakara bahuta khuzI hotI hai| mere mitroM ne Apase milane kI icchA bhI vyakta kI hai|

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144 vidAI kI belA - dinezacanda rAjoriyA, nAharagar3ha ror3a nImar3I ke thAne ke pAsa, jayapura * samAja kI didgadarzaka kRti sAhitya ko samAja kA darpaNa kahA jAtA hai; kintu abataka samAja ke samakSa sAmAjika ceharoM ko pratibimbita karanevAle itane adhika darpaNa A cuke haiM ki aba samAja una darpaNoM meM apanA vikRta mukha dekhane kA AdI sA ho gayA hai| isalie Aja yaha Avazyaka ho gayA hai ki sAhitya samAja kA mAtra darpaNa hI nahIM, balki dizA darzaka bhI bane / lekhaka kI atyanta lokapriya kRti 'vidAI kI belA' jaisI hI 'sukhI jIvana' bhI isI navIna prayoga kI eka aura mahattvapUrNa kRti hai| isameM lokottara sukha-zAnti prApta karAnevAle dArzanika siddhAntoM kA nirUpaNa karane evaM vartamAna jIvana kI gUr3ha samasyAoM ko saralatA se sulajhAne ke lie hI vidvAna lekhaka ne kathA sAhitya kA sahArA liyA hai| lekhaka samaya-samaya para gUr3ha vicAroM aura gahana anubhUtiyoM ko saralatama rUpa meM jana-jana taka pahu~cAne zraddhAspada banAne ke lie anyAnya AcAryoM ke kathanoM kA AdhAra bhI grahaNa karate rahe haiN| upanyAsa hote hue bhI isameM prema bhAvoM ko pUrA udAttIkaraNa huA hai| mAnasika evaM AdhyAtmika yoga kA itanA Adhikya hai, jisase isameM laukika prema kA sthAna nagaNya ho gayA hai| sacamuca yaha eka AdhyAtmika racanA hai, jo AtmArthiyoM kA mArgadarzana karane meM pUrNa samartha hai| bArambAra svAdhyAya karane yogya hai| - DaoN. anekAnta jaina pravaktA, lAlabahAdura zAstrI saMskRta vizvavidyAlaya, dillI (77)

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lekhakIya : aisA kyA hai isa upanyAsa meM ? "AjIvikA Adi ke ati Avazyaka kAryoM ke kAraNa samaya kama hai aura sAhityika sAmagrI pracura hai, kyA-kyA par3heM? Akhira isameM aisA kyA hai? jise jarUrI kAma chor3akara bhI par3hA jAya?" yadi Apake mana meM aisA prazna uThe to ye prAraMbhika lekhakIya ke pRSTha par3ha hI leN| saMbhava hai ye do pRSTha par3hane para Apako pUrI pustaka par3hane kA mana ho jaay| ___merA vizvAsa hai ki yadi Apane pustaka par3hanA prAraMbha kara diyA to pUrI par3he binA nahIM rahA jAyagA aura ho sakatA hai ki Apako bahuta kucha aisA jJAna mila jAye jo Apake jIvana meM AmUla cUla parivartana lA de| yadi sacamuca Apako sukhI aura saphala jIvana kI zurUAta karanA ho to ise avazya pddh'eN| isa kathAnaka kA eka-eka pAtra apane jIvaMta AcAra-vicAra se Apako kucha na kucha aisA saMdeza degA, jo Apake lie sukhada aura saphala jIvana jIne ko na kevala prerita karegA; balki bAdhya karegA aura ApakA jIvana sukhI ho jaayegaa| ___ vastutaH sukhI jIvana ke lie jitanI jarUrata paise kI hai, usase kahIM adhika AvazyakatA mAnasika saMtulana kI hai; kyoMki duHkha ke mUla kAraNa do haiN| pahalA kAraNa hai - 'artha kA abhAva' aura dUsarA kAraNa hai 'sahI soca kI kmii|' jisakA soca sahI hai, use dhana kI kamI nahIM rahatI; kyoMki sahI soca se puNyArjana hotA hai aura paisA puNya se hI AtA hai| dekho, parizrama to sabhI karate haiM; para puNya ke binA parizrama vyartha ho jAtA hai| parizrama to zramika adhika karate haiM para paisA eyarakaMDIsana meM baiThe iMjIniyara Adi adhikAriyoM ko adhika milatA hai| eka bAra maiM eka puraskAra vitaraNa ke samAroha meM eka skUla meM gyaa| vahA~ yadyapi bAlaka choTe the; para sAtha meM pAlaka bhI Aye the| choTe-bar3e sabhI kucha na kucha navIna preraNA lekara jA~ya, isa pavitra bhAvanA se maiMne apane adhyakSIya bhASaNa meM eka prazna pUchA - hama saba jitane yahA~ baiThe haiM kyA sabakI 'zakala' eka jaisI hai? uttara thA - nhiiN| phira maiMne pUchA - "kyA hama sabakI 'akala' eka jaisI hai?" phira uttara milA 'nhiiN|' maiMne aura bhI aise hI do tIna prazna pache - "kyA saba eka jaise amIra yA garIba haiM? sabake mAtA-pitA eka jaise svabhAva ke haiM? sabake gharoM meM eka jaisI sukha-suvidhAyeM haiM? sabakA eka hI uttara thA nahIM, nahIM, nhiiN| ___ maiMne anta meM pUchA - "isa asamAnatA kA kAraNa kyA hai" - eka ATha varSa ke bAlaka ne hAtha uThAkara kahA - maiM bolU~? anumati pAkara vaha bolA - "isameM socane kI kyA bAta hai jisane pichale janma meM jaisA puNya-pApa kiyA, usake phala ke anusAra use sukhada-duHkhada saMyoga isa janma meM mile| eka baccA rAjakumAra kI taraha palatA hai, paidA hote hI cA~dI ke pAlane meM jhUlatA, sone kI cammaca usake mu~ha meM hotii| dUsarA phuTapAtha para paidA hotA, hoza saMbhAlate hI bhIkha kA kaTorA hAtha meM hotA, abhAva meM jItA, eka dina phuTapAtha para hI mara jAtA / janmajAta yaha antara spaSTa batAtA hai ki vyakti apane bhale-bure karmoM kA hI phala bhogatA hai| ata: yadi hama Arthika aura mAnasika sukha cAhate haiM to hameM satya kA sAtha denA hogA, sadAcArI jIvana jInA hogaa| aise zubha kAma karane hoMge, jinase puNyArjana hotA hai aura nirdayatA, beImAnI chala-kapaTa dhokhAdhar3I jaise pApa pariNAmoM se bacanA hogaa| aisA karane se dhanAdi ke anukUla saMyoga to mileMge hI, mAnasika saMtoSa bhI milegaa| ghara-bAhara meM vizvAsa bar3hegA aura hama yazasvI jIvana jIne ke sAtha tana-mana evaM dhana se bhI sukhI hoNge|" yadi ina sabakA prekTIkala rUpa dekhanA ho to yaha pustaka avazya pddh'eN| - adhyAtma ratnAkara paNDita ratanacanda bhArilla