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(nirabhimaani) and sees no faults in anyone, and takes upon himself the suffering of other people, then you can say that he has become free. The unhappiness of the worldly life does not affect the Self-realized being (Atmagnani).
After attaining the Atma, even if your fever goes up by five degrees, the Atma remains separate. As your fever increases, the Atma stays separate, and you will continue to experience that separation for days.
A man who had been paralyzed was saying, 'They all come to see me, but I myself am seeing the one who has been paralyzed, that this is what has happened to my legs, this is what has happened to my arms. Even I keep observing all that!' Therefore he is himself the seer, and even those who came to visit were also seers! That is the effect of this Gnan. The effect of Gnan is like this in spite of the paralysis. And if the Gnan was not there, it would be, 'I am paralyzed, I have a fever' and that would be a sign of dying!
If you say, 'It is happening to me', then who would do the repairing? And if the I becomes freed from that, it is possible that it can repair on its own. It is one of Nature's rules, that it would get repaired immediately.
So when can you say that the Atma has been attained? I will show you the signs, that after attaining the Atma, if your body is aching or your head is hurting, even then you will experience a state of well-being, unaffected by external sources (samadhi) within. If someone is verbally abusing you from the outside, even then you experience samadhi. When even in the midst of pain and sorrow (dukh), you experience a blissful state (samadhi) - that is the mark of Self-realization (Atmagnan). This would not be found in this present age (kaad); but nevertheless, it has happened!
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