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arise. Sooner or later, the light will be kindled in everyone, so if there is someone like that around, it would benefit everyone. Otherwise, you cannot become Shuddhatma just like that. Shuddhatma Cannot Be Attained Through
Chanting One person tells me, 'I keep remembering, I am Shuddhatma.' So I said to him, 'Goodness, you keep remembering it and yet you still have not attained Shuddhatma? And then he says, “No. And the next day, I had to think to myself, what was that word? For four hours, I kept thinking, “What was that word? What was that word? But I could never recall that word.”
So a person will forget even the word. Therefore, that reciting or chanting (samaran) could never sink into your awareness. Instead of doing that kind of recitation (samaran), you are better off chanting your wife's name; at least she will make you savory fritters (bhajiya) and sweet fritters (jalebi). By giving these false chanting of mantras (samaran) over and over, one has neither attained the celestial realm (deva gati), nor prosperity over here. So they were given the runaround from both sides. It would have been all worth it if they had found prosperity over here.
They tell you, ‘We are giving you this mantra to chant, just keep reciting it (samaran)'. You fool, what am I supposed to do if I forget that chant (samaran)? Besides, when does a chant remain? It remains automatically, for things you have attachment (raag) for. Or else, if there is someone towards whom you have considerable abhorrence (dwesh); it will constantly remain on your mind. So anything that you have a lot of attachment (raag) for, will remain on your mind; samaran for it will prevail.
And the fruit of chanting of a mantra (samaran) is the worldly life (sansar); you have to wander-wander-wander. Can you understand what I am telling you? Do you understand the
