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________________ dAdA bhagavAna? 380 yahA~ prakaTa bhaye caudaha loka ke nAtha ! praznakartA : 'dAdA bhagavAna' zabda prayoga kisake lie kiyA gayA hai? dAdAzrI : 'dAdA bhagavAna ke lie. mere lie nahIM hai| maiM to jJAnI puruSa huuN| 'dAdA bhagavAna', jo caudaha loka ke nAtha haiN| ve Apake bhItara bhI haiM, para Apa meM prakaTa nahIM hue haiN| Apake bhItara avyakta rUpa se raheM haiM aura hamAre bhItara vyakta hue haiM, ve phala pradAna kareM aise haiN| ISRNOTA150019-11 9788189933
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________________ dAdA bhagavAna ? (parama pUjanIya dAdAzrI kA jIvanacaritra saMkSipta meM ) - mUla gujarAtI saMkalana : DaoN. nIrUbahana amIna anuvAda : mahAtmAgaNa prakAzaka : ajita sI. paTela mahAvideha phAunDezana dAdA darzana, 5, mamatApArka sosAyaTI, navagujarAta kaoNleja ke pIche, usmAnapurA, ahamadAbAda 380014, gujarAta phona - (079) 27540408, 27543979 E-Mail: info@dadabhagwan.org All Rights reserved - Dr. Niruben Amin Trimandir, Simandhar City, Ahmedabad-Kalol Highway, Post - Adalaj, Dist.-Gandhinagar-382421, Gujarat, India. prathama saMskaraNa prata 2000, mudraka bhAva mUlya: 'parama vinaya' aura sitambara 2007 'maiM kucha bhI jAnatA nahIM, yaha bhAva ! 15 rupaye dravya mUlya : lesara kampojha dAdA bhagavAna phAunDezana, ahamadAbAda : mahAvideha phAunDezana (priMTiMga DivIz2ana), pArzvanAtha caimbarsa, naI riz2arva baiMka ke pAsa, usmAnapurA, ahamadAbAda- 380014. phona : (079) 27542964, 30004823
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________________ trimaMtra AtmajJAna prApti kI pratyakSa lIMka 'maiM to kucha logoM ko apane hAthoM siddhi pradAna karanevAlA huuN| pIche anugAmI cAhie ki nahIM cAhie? pIche logoM ko mArga to cAhie na?" - dAdAzrI parama pUjanIya dAdAzrI gA~va-gA~va, deza-videza paribhramaNa karake mumukSu janoM ko satsaMga aura AtmajJAna kI prApti karavAte the| ApazrI ne apane jIvanakAla meM hI pUjanIya DaoN. nIrUbahana amIna (nIrUmA~) ko AtmajJAna prApta karavAne kI jJAnasiddhi pradAna kI thii| dAdAzrI ke dehavilaya pazcAt nIrUmA~ vaise hI mumukSujanoM ko satsaMga aura AtmajJAna kI prApti, nimitta bhAva se karavA rahI thii| pUjya dIpakabhAI desAI ko dAdAzrI ne satsaMga karane kI siddhi pradAna kI thii| nIrUmA~ kI upasthiti meM hI unake AzIrvAda se pUjya dIpakabhAI deza-videzo meM kaI jagahoM para jAkara mumukSuoM ko AtmajJAna karavA rahe the, jo nIrUmA~ ke dehavilaya pazcAt jArI rhegaa| isa AtmajJAnaprApti ke bAda hajAroM mumukSu saMsAra meM rahate hue, jimmedAriyA~ nibhAte hue bhI mukta rahakara AtmaramaNatA kA anubhava karate haiN| graMtha meM mudrita vANI mokSArthI ko mArgadarzaka ke rupa meM atyaMta upayogI siddha ho, lekina mokSaprApti hetu AtmajJAna pAnA jarUrI hai| akrama mArga ke dvArA AtmajJAna kI prApti Aja bhI jArI hai, isake lie pratyakSa AtmajJAnI ko milakara AtmajJAna kI prApti kare tabhI saMbhava hai| prajvalita dIpaka hI dUsarA dIpaka prajvalita kara sakatA hai|
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________________ nivedana jJAnIpuruSa zrI aMbAlAla mUlajIbhAI paTela, jinheM loga 'dAdA bhagavAna' ke nAma se bhI jAnate haiM, unake zrImukha se Atmatattva ke bAre meM jo vANI nikalI, usako rikArDa karake saMkalana tathA saMpAdana karake graMtho meM prakAzita kI gaI hai| isa pustaka meM parama pUjanIya dAdA bhagavAna ke svamukha se nIkalI sarasvatI kA hindI anuvAda kiyA gayA hai, jinameM unake jIvanacaritra sAtha sAtha AtmavijJAna kI bAteM hai| sujJa vAcaka ke adhyayana karate hI unako jo AtmasAkSAtkAra huA vahI AtmasAkSAtkAra pAne kI bhUmikA nizcita bana jAtI hai, aisA anekoM kA anubhava hai| 'aMbAlAlabhAI' ko saba 'dAdAjI' kahate the| 'dAdAjI' yAne pitAmaha aura 'dAdA bhagavAna' to ve bhItaravAle paramAtmA ko kahate the| zarIra bhagavAna nahIM ho sakatA hai, vaha to vinAzI hai| bhagavAna to avinAzI hai aura use ve 'dAdA bhagavAna' kahate the, jo jIvamAtra ke bhItara hai| saMpAdakIya jUna 1958 kI usa zAma kA chaha baje ke karIba kA samaya, bhIr3a se dhamadhamAtA surata kA relve sTezana, pleTaphArma naM.3ke benca para aMbAlAla mUlajIbhAI paTela baiThe the| sonagaDha-vyArAse baDaudA jAne ke lie tAptI-velI relve se utarakara baDaudA jAnevAlI gADI kI pratIkSA meM the, usa samaya prakRti ne racA adhyAtma mArga kA adbhuta aashcry| kaI janmoM se vyakta hone ke lie prayatnazIla 'dAdA bhagavAna', aMbAlAla mUlajIbhAI rUpI maMdira meM kudarata ke kramAnusAra akrama svarUpa meM pUrNa rUpa se prakaTa ho gye| eka ghaMTe meM vizvadarzana prApta huA! jagat ke tamAma AdhyAtmika prazroM ke uttara naz2ara Aye aura praznoM kI pUrNAhati haI! jagata kyA hai? kaise cala rahA hai? hama kauna? ye sabhI kauna? karma kyA hai? baMdhana kyA hai? mukti kyA hai? mukti kA upAya kyA hai? aise asaMkhya praznoM kA rahasya najara aayaa| aise, kudarata ne saMsAra ke caraNoM meM eka ajoDa saMpUrNa darzana prastata kiyA aura usakA mAdhyama bane zrI e.ema.paTela, bhAdaraNa gA~va ke z2amIMdAra, kAnTraikTara kA dhaMdhA karanevAle, phira bhI parama 'sat'ko hI jAnane kI, 'sat'ko hI pAne kI aura bacapana se hI 'sat' svarUpa hone kI kAmanA rakhanevAle isa bhavya pAtra meM hI 'akrama vijJAna' prakaTa huaa| unheM jo prApta huA vaha to eka Azcarya thA hI para usase bhI bar3A Azcarya to yaha thA ki unhoMne jo dekhA, jAnA aura anubhava kiyA vaisI hI prApti anyoM ko karavAne kI unakI samarthatA! khuda apanA Atma kalyANa karake mukti pAnevAle aneka hoMge para apanI taraha haz2AroM ko chur3Ane kA sAmarthya to kevala tIrthaMkaroM meM yA jJAnIoM meM koI virale jJAnI meM hI hotA hai! aise virala jJAnI, jisane isa kalikAla ke anurUpa 'insTanTa' AtmajJAna prApti kA adbhuta mArga khola diyA, jo 'akrama' ke nAma se pracalita huaa| 'akrama' mAne ahaMkAra kA phula sTaoNpa (pUrNa virAma) mArga aura krama mAne ahaMkAra kA komA (alpavirAma) maarg| akrama mAne jo krama se nahIM vaha / krama mAne sIr3hI car3hanA aura akrama mAne liphTa meM prastuta anuvAda meM yaha vizeSa khyAla rakhA gayA hai ki vAcaka ko dAdAjI kI hI vANI sunI jA rahI hai, aisA anubhava ho| unakI hindI ke bAre meM unake hI zabda meM kaheM to "hamArI hindI yAne gujarAtI, hindI aura aMgrejI kA mikScara hai, lekina jaba 'TI' (cAya) banegI, taba acchI bnegii|" jJAnI kI vANI ko hindI bhASA meM yathArtha rUpa se anuvAdita karane kA prayatna kiyA gayA hai kintu dAdAzrI ke AtmajJAna kA sahI Azaya, jyoM kA tyoM to, Apako gujarAtI bhASA meM hI avagata hogaa| jinheM jJAna kI gaharAI meM jAnA ho, jJAna kA sahI marma samajhanA ho, vaha isa hetu gujarAtI bhASA sIkheM, aisA hamArA anurodha hai| anuvAda saMbaMdhI kamiyoM ke lie hama Apa ke kSamAprArthI haiN|
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________________ turaMta pahu~ca jAnA krama mukhya mArga hai jo niyamita rUpa se hai| jaba ki 'akrama' apavAda mArga hai, 'DAyavarz2ana' hai| krama mArga kahA~ taka calatA hai? jahA~ taka mana-vacana-kAyA kI ekatA hotI hai, arthAt jaisA mana meM ho vaisA hI vANI meM ho aura vartana meM ho, jo isa samaya asaMbhava hai, kyoMki krama kA setu bIca meM TUTa gayA hai aura kudarata ne mokSamArga jArI rakhane ke lie, aMtima avasara ke taura para yaha 'DAyavarz2ana' (mor3a) akrama mArga saMsAra ko upalabdha karAyA hai| isa aMtima avasara se jo lAbhAnvita ho gayA, samajho 'usa' pAra nikala gyaa| krama mArga meM pAtra kI zuddhi karate karate, krodha-mAna-mAyA-lobha ko zuddha karate karate aMtataH ahaMkAra pUrNatayA zuddha karanA par3atA hai, tAki usameM krodha - mAna-mAyA - lobha kA paramANu mAtra nahIM rahe, taba ahaMkAra pUrNatayA zuddha hotA hai aura zuddhAtmA svarUpa ke sAtha abhedatA hotI hai| isa samaya kramika mArga azakya ho gayA hai isalie 'akrama vijJAna' ke dvArA mana-vacana-kAyA kI azuddhiyoM ko eka ora rakhakara 'DirekTa' (sIdhA) ahaMkAra zuddha ho jAe aura apane svarUpa ke sAtha abheda ho jAe aisA saMbhava huA hai| usake bAda mana-vacana kAyA kI azuddhiyA~, kramazaH udayAnusAra Ane para unakI saMpUrNa zuddhi 'jJAnI' kI AjJA meM rahane para sAhajika rUpa se ho jAtI hai| isa duSamakAla meM kaThina karmoM ke bIca rahakara sabhI sAMsArika jimmevAriyA~ Adarza rUpa meM adA karate karate bhI 'maiM zuddhAtmA hU~' yaha lakSya niraMtara banA rahatA hai| 'akrama vijJAna' kI yaha ajIba dena to dekhie! kabhI sunI nahIM ho, kahIM par3hane meM nahIM AI ho aisI apUrva bAta, jo eka bAra to mAnane meM hI nahIM AtI, phira bhI Aja haqIkata bana gaI hai ! aise ajAyaba 'akrama vijJAna' ko prakAzita karanevAle pAtra kI pasaMdagI kudarata ne kina kAraNoM ke AdhAra para kI hogI, isakA uttara to prastuta saMkalana meM akrama jJAnI ke pUrvAzrama ke prasaMga aura jJAna prApti ke pazcAt unakI jAgRti kI parAkASThA ko nirdeza karanevAle prasaMgoM se apane Apa prApta hotA hai| jIvana meM kaDue-mIThe avasaroM se kisakA pAlA nahIM par3A hogA? lekina jJAnI unase judA kaise raha pAe~? jIvana kI cA~danI aura amAvasa kA AsvAda, jJAna- ajJAna dazA meM lete the, taba usa prasaMga meM jJAnI kI apanI ananya, anokhI aura maulika dRSTi hotI hai| aise sAmAnya avasaroM meM ajJAnI jIvoM kA haz2AroM bAra guz2aranA hotA hai, para unaki na to koI aMtara dRSTi khulatI hai aura na hI unake vedana kI samyak dRSTi kA prAdurbhAva hotA hai| jaba ki 'jJAnI' to ajJAna dazA meM bhI, are, janma se hI samyak dRSTi ke dhanI hote haiN| pratyeka avasara para vItarAga darzana ke jariye khuda samyak mArga kA saMzodhana kiyA karate haiN| ajJAnI manuSya jinakA anubhava haz2AroM bAra kara cuke haiM, aise avasaroM meM se 'jJAnI' koI nayA hI niSkarSa nikAlakara jJAna kI khoja kiyA karate haiN| 'honahAra biravAna ke hota cikane pAta' (guNI logoM ke bacapana se hI guNavAna hone ke lakSaNa dikhane lagate haiN|) isa ukti ko sArthaka karate hue unake bacapana ke prasaMga jaise ki, jaba unakI mAtAjI ne vaiSNava saMpradAya kI mAlA pahanane para jora diyA to ve bola par3e 'prakAza dikhalAe vahI mere guru / kuguru kI tulanA meM nigurA hI behtr|' aise prasaMgoM ke anusaMdhAna meM kisI vyakti yA usa vartana ko naz2ara aMdAja karate hue, bAladazA meM pravartamAna jJAnI kI adbhUta vicAradhArA, alaukika dRSTi aura jJAna dazA ke paripekSya meM hI draSTi karake usakA abhyAsa karanA behatara hogaa| prastuta saMkalana meM jJAnI puruSa kI apanI bAnI meM hI saMkSipta rUpa se unake jIvana ke prasaMgo ko saMkalita kiyA gayA hai| isake pIche yahI aMtara Azaya hai ki 'prakaTa jJAnI puruSa' kI isa adbhUta dazA se jagat paricita ho aura use samajhakara usakI prApti kare, yahI abhyarthanA / - DaoN. nIrubahana amIna ke jaya saccidAnaMda
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________________ dAdA bhagavAna? 'akrama vijJAna' aura ahaMkAra kA 'komA' (alpa virAma) usakA nAma 'kramika vijnyaan'| yaha akrama vijJAna AMtarika vijJAna kahalAtA hai, jo khuda ko sanAtana sukha kI ora le jAtA hai| arthAt apanA sanAtana sukha prApta karavAye, vaha Atma vijJAna khlaaye| aura yaha jo TempararI eDajasTamenTavAlA sukha dilAye, vaha sArA bAhya vijJAna khlaaye| bAhya vijJAna aMtata: vinAzI aura vinAzakArI hai aura 'yaha' (akrama vijJAna) sanAtana hai aura sanAtana banAnevAlA hai! dAdA bhagavAna? (1) jJAna kaise aura kaba huA? akrama kI yaha labdhi hameM prApta huI praznakartA : ApazrI ko jo jJAna prApta huA, vaha kaise prApta huA? dAdAzrI : yaha hameM prApta huI labdhi hai| praznakartA : naisargika rUpa se? yaha naicuralI (kudarata ke krama se) prApta huA hai? dAdAzrI : hA~, dIsa ija baTa necarala! praznakartA : ApakI yaha jo upalabdhi hai, vaha bhI sUrata ke sTezana para huI, aisI hara eka ko nahIM hotI, Apako huI, kyoMki Apane bhI kramika mArga para dhIre-dhIre kucha kiyA hogA na? dAdAzrI : bahuta kucha, saba kucha kramika mArga se hI kiyA thA, para udaya akrama ke rUpa meM aayaa| kyoMki kevalajJAna meM anuttIrNa hue! pariNAma svarUpa udaya meM yaha akrama Akara khar3A rahA! jJAnAgni se pApa bhasma praznakartA : vaha prakriyA kyA hai ki jo eka ghaMTe meM manuSya ko ciMtA mukta karavA sake? usameM koI camatkAra hai? koI vidhi hai ? dAdAzrI : kRSNa bhagavAna ne kahA hai ki jJAnI puruSa jJAnAgni se sAre pApoM ko jalAkara khAka kara deM! usa jJAnAgni se hama pApoM ko jalAkara khAka kara dete haiM aura phira vaha ciMtA mukta ho jAtA hai| prakAza meM kahIM koI pharka nahIM praznakartA : kyA Apa bhagavad gItA kI thyorI meM mAnyatA rakhate haiM? dAdAzrI : sabhI thyoriyA~ mAnya rakhatA hU~! kyoM nahIM mAnU~gA? vaha bhagavad gItA kI thyori saba eka hI hai na ! isameM Dipharansa (pharka) nahIM hai| hamArI thyori aura usameM Dipharansa nahIM hai| prakAza meM pharka nahIM hai, paddhati kA pharka hai yaha ! jJAna kA prakAza to samAna hI hai| ye anya mArga aura isa mArga kA, sanAtana mArga kA jo jJAna prakAza hai vaha to samAna hI hai para usakI paddhati alaga hai| yaha alaukika paddhati hai, eka ghaMTe meM manuSya svataMtra ho jAtA hai| vidina vana avara' ciMtA rahita ho jAtA hai| sAdhanA, sanAtana tattva kI hI praznakartA : Apane pahale upAsanA yA sAdhanA kI thI? dAdAzrI : sAdhanA to taraha taraha kI kI thii| para maiM koI aisI sAdhanA krama-akrama kA bheda praznakartA : pahale yaha samajhanA hai ki 'akrama vijJAna' kyA hai? dAdAzrI : ahaMkAra kA 'phula sTaoNpa' (pUrNa virAma) usakA nAma
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________________ dAdA bhagavAna? dAdA bhagavAna? nahIM karatA thA ki jisa sAdhanA se kisI vastu kI prApti ho| kyoMki mujhe kisI vastu kI kAmanA nahIM thii| isalie aisI sAdhanA karane kI AvazyakatA hI nahIM thii| maiM to sAdhya vastu kI sAdhanA karatA thaa| jo vinAzI nahIM hai, aisI avinAzI vastu jo hai usake lie sAdhanA karatA thaa| anya sAdhanAe~ maiM nahIM karatA thaa| jJAna se pahale koI maMthana? praznakartA : jJAna se pahale maMthana to kiyA hogA na? dAdAzrI : duniyA kI koI bhI cIz2a aisI nahIM hai ki jisake bAre meM socanA bAkI rakhA ho! isalie yaha jJAna prakaTa huA hai| yahA~ Apake mu~ha se do zabda nikale nahIM ki mujhe ApakI pUrI bAta samajha meM A jaaeN| hamAre eka minaTa meM pA~ca-pA~ca hajAra rivaoNlyuzana phirate haiN| koI bhI zAstra kA sArAMza do minaTa meM nikAla lU~! pustaka meM sarvAMza nahIM hotaa| sarvAMza jJAnI puruSa ke pAsa hotA hai| zAstra to DAirekzana (dizA nirdeza) kre| isa avatAra meM nahIM mile koI guru praznakartA : Apake guru kauna? dAdAzrI : guru to yadi isa avatAra meM pratyakSa mileM hoM to use guru kaha sakate haiN| hameM pratyakSa koI nahIM milaa| kaI sAdhu-saMto se bheMTa huii| unake sAtha satsaMga kiyA thA, unakI sevA kI thI para guru karane yogya koI nahIM milaa| hara eka bhakta, jo sAre jJAnI hue hai, unakI racanAe~ par3hI thI para rUbarU kisI se nahIM milA thaa| arthAt aisA hai na, hama zrImad rAjacaMdrajI (gujarAta meM hue jJAnIpuruSa) ko guru nahIM mAna sakate, kyoMki rUbarU milane para guru mAne jAe~ (zrImad dAdAjI ko pratyakSa rUpa meM nahIM mile the)| alabattA unakI pustakoM kA AdhAra bahuta acchA rhaa| anya pustakoM kA bhI AdhAra thA para rAjacaMdrajI kI pustakoM kA AdhAra adhika thaa| maiM to zrImad rAjacaMdrajI kI pustakeM par3hatA thA, bhagavAna mahAvIra kI pustakeM par3hatA thA, kRSNa bhagavAna kI gItA kA paThana karatA thA, vedAMta ke khaMDoM kA bhI vAcana kiyA thA, svAmInArAyaNa saMpradAya kI pustakeM bhI par3hI thI aura muslimoM kA sAhitya bhI paThana kiyA thA, aura ve sabhI kyA kahanA cAhate haiM, sabhI kA kahane kA matalaba kyA hai, hetu kyA hai, yaha jAna liyA thaa| sabhI kA sahI hai para apanI-apanI kakSA ke anusaar| apanI-apanI DigrI para sahI hai| tIna sau sATha DigrI mAnI jAe to koI pacAsa DigrI para AyA hai, koI assI DigrI para pahu~cA hai, koI sau DigrI para hai, kisI kI DeDha sau DigrI hai, satya sabhI kA hai. para kisI ke pAsa bhI tIna sau sATha DigrI nahIM hai| bhagavAna mahAvIra kI tIna sau sATha DigrI thii| praznakartA : yaha abhyAsa ApakA kahA~ para huA? dAdAzrI : yaha abhyAsa? vaha to kaI janmoM kA abhyAsa hogA! praznakartA : para zurU-zurU meM, janma hone ke pazcAt kisa taraha kA thA? janma lene ke bAda zurUAta kahA~ se huI? dAdAzrI : janma hone ke bAda vaiSNava dharma meM the, bAda meM svAmInArAyaNa dharma meM phire, anya dharmoM meM ghUme, ziva dharma meM ghUme, phira zrImad rAjacaMdrajI ke Azrama kI mulAkAta lI, phira mahAvIra svAmI kI pustakeM par3hI, yaha saba bArI-bArI se par3hA! aisI hamArI dazA rahI thI, sAtha-sAtha kArobAra bhI calatA thaa| sinsiyAriTI to niraMtara vItarAgoM ke prati hI praznakartA : Apane aisA aura kucha kiyA thA kyA? dAdAzrI : kucha bhI nahIM, para niraMtara vItarAgoM ke prati sinsiyAriTI (saMniSThA) ! kRSNa bhagavAna ke prati sinsiyAriTI ! isa saMsAra kI ruci nahIM thii| sAMsArika lobha bilakula bhI nahIM thaa| janma se hI majha meM lobha kI prakRti hI nahIM thii| are! kisI bar3e AdamI kA bagIcA ho, jisameM amaruda ho, anAra ho, mausaMbI ho, aise bar3e-bar3e bagIcoM meM ye sabhI bacce ghUmane jAte, usa samaya phaloM kI gaThariyA~ bA~dhakara ghara lAte the para maiM aisA kucha
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________________ dAdA bhagavAna? dAdA bhagavAna? nahIM karatA thaa| arthAt lobha prakRti hI nahIM thii| mAna itanA sArA thA ki saMsAra meM majhasA aura koI nahIM hai| mAna, bar3A jabaradasta mAna! aura vaha to mujhe kisa kadara kATA, yaha to maiM hI jAnatA huuN| praznakartA : jJAnaprApti se pahale ApakI kaisI pariNatI thI? dAdAzrI : mujhe samyaktva hogA aisA lagatA thaa| bAkI, sArI pustakoM kI sTaDI (abhyAsa) kA lekhA-jokhA karake yaha khoja nikAlA ki 'vastu kyA hai?' yaha saba samajha meM A gayA thaa| aura tIrthaMkara, vItarAga hI sacce puruSa haiM aura vItarAgoM kA mata sahI hai, yaha ThAna liyA thaa| vahI anaMta kAla kA ArAdhana thaa| arthAt saba kucha vahI thaa| sArA vyavahAra jainavaiSNavoM kA sAtha meM thaa| kucha mAmaloM meM vaiSNava vyavahAra aura kucha mAmaloM meM jaina vyavahAra thaa| maiM ubalA huA pAnI sadaiva pIyA karatA thA, bIz2anesa para bhI ubAlA huA pAnI hI pIyA karatA thA! ApakA bhI aisA jaina vyavahAra nahIM rahA hogaa| para vaha jJAna prAkaTya kI vajaha nahIM hai| usakI vajaha to anya anekoM eviDansoM kA A milanA hai| agara aisA nahIM hotA to akrama vijJAna kaise prakaTa hotA?! akrama vijJAna meM caubIsoM tIrthaMkaroM kA sArA vijJAna sammilita hai| caubIsa tIrthaMkaroM ke avadhikAla meM jo nahIM sIjha pAye, nahIM bujhe, una sabhI ko bujhane (gUr3ha bAta samajhanevAle) ke lie yaha vijJAna hai| sacce dilavAloM ko 'saccA' milA praznakartA : para Apako akrama jJAna prakaTa kaise huA? apane Apa sAhajika rUpa se yA phira koI ciMtana kiyA thA? dAdAzrI : apane Apa 'baTa naicurala'(prAkRtika rUpa se) huA! hamane aisA koI ciMtana nahIM kiyA thaa| hameM itanA sArA to kahA~ se prApta hotA? hameM aisA lagatA thA ki adhyAtma meM kucha prApti hogii| sacce dilavAle the| sacce dila se kiyA thA, isalie aisA kucha pariNAma AyegA, kucha samyaktva jaisA hogA, aisA lagatA thA! samyaktva kI thor3I jhalaka hogI, usakA ujAlA hogA, usake bajAya yaha to pUrNa rUpa se ujiyArA ho gayA ! mokSa meM saMsAra bAdhA rUpa nahIM praznakartA : Apane saMnyAsa kyoM nahIM liyA? dAdAzrI : saMnyAsa kA to aisA udaya hI nahIM thaa| isakA matalaba yaha nahIM ki saMnyAsa ke prati mujhe cir3ha hai para mujhe aisA koI udaya naz2ara nahIM AyA thA aura merI yaha mAnyatA rahI hai ki mokSa ke mArga para saMsAra bAdhA rUpa nahIM honA cAhie, aisI merI dRr3ha mAnyatA thii| saMsAra bAdhA rUpa nahIM hai, ajJAna bAdhA rUpa hai| hA~, bhagavAna ko yaha tyAga mArga kA upadeza karanA par3atA hai, vaha sAmAnya bhAva se kiyA gayA hai| vaha kisI vizeSa bhAva se nahIM kiyA hai| vizeSa bhAva to yaha hai ki saMsAra bAdhA rUpa nahIM hai, aisA hama gAranTI ke sAtha kahate haiN| jJAna prAgaTya meM jagata kI puNyai praznakartA : yaha akrama jJAna kitane janmoM kA lekhA-jokhA hai? dAdAzrI : akrama jJAna jo prakaTa huA vaha to bahuta janmoM kA lekhAjokhA, saba milAkara apane Apa naisargika rUpa se hI yaha prakaTa ho gayA hai| praznakartA : yaha Apako 'baTa naicurala' huA, magara kaise? dAdAzrI : kaise mAne usake sAre sAyanTiphika sarakamasTenziyala eviDansa A mile, isalie prakaTa ho gyaa| yaha to logoM ko samajhAne hetu mujhe 'baTa naicurala' kahanA pdd'aa| bAkI yoM to sAre sAyanTiphika sarakamasTenziyala eviDansa A milane para vaha prakaTa ho gyaa| praznakartA : kauna se eviDansa A mile? dAdAzrI : sabhI taraha ke eviDansa A mile ! sAre jagata kA kalyANa honevAlA hogA, vaha samaya bhI paripakva huA hogaa| hone ke lie kucha nimitta to cAhie na? jJAna hone ke pUrva kI dazA vaha dazA jJAnAMkSepakavaMta khlaaye| matalaba AtmasaMbaMdhI vicAraNA kI
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________________ dAdA bhagavAna? dhArA hI nahIM TUTatI / vaha dhArA mujhe thI, aisI dazA thii| hA~, kaI dinoM taka lagAtAra vahI cIz2a calatI rahatI, dhArA TUTatI hI nahIM thii| maiMne zAstroM meM dekhA thA ki bhaiyA, yaha dazA kauna sI hai? taba merI samajha meM AyA ki yaha to jJAnakSepakavaMta dazA baratatI hai ! Apako kisakI ArAdhanA ? praznakartA : loga dAdAjI ke darzana ko Ate haiM para dAdAjI kisakI sevA-pUjA karate haiM? unake ArAdhya devatA kauna haiM? dAdAzrI : bhItara bhagavAna prakaTa hue haiM, unakI pUjA karatA hU~ / 'maiM' aura 'dAdA bhagavAna' eka nahIM hai praznakartA: phira Apa apane ko bhagavAna kaise kahalavAte haiM? 7 dAdAzrI : maiM khuda bhagavAna nahIM hU~ dAdA bhagavAna ko to maiM bhI namaskAra karatA huuN| maiM khuda tIna sau chappana DigrI para hU~ aura dAdA bhagavAna tIna sau sATha DigrI para haiN| isa prakAra merI cAra DigrI kama hai, isalie maiM dAdA bhagavAna ko namaskAra karatA hU~ / praznakartA: aisA kisa lie? dAdAzrI : kyoMki mujhe abhI cAra DigrI pUrI karanI hai| mujhe pUrI to karanI hogI na? cAra DigrI adhUrI rahI, anuttIrNa huA, para phira se uttIrNa hue bagaira chuTakArA hai kyA? praznakartA: Apako bhagavAna banane kA moha hai? dAdAzrI : bhagavAna bananA to mujhe bojha samAna lagatA hai| maiM to laghuttama puruSa huuN| isa saMsAra meM koI bhI mujha se laghu nahIM, aisA laghuttama puruSa huuN| praznakartA: yadi bhagavAna nahIM honA cAhate to phira yaha cAra DigrI pUrI karane kA puruSArtha kisa lie karanA ? 8 dAdA bhagavAna ? dAdAzrI : vaha to mere mokSa ke hetu| mujhe bhagavAna banakara kyA pAnA hai? bhagavAna to jo bhI bhagavat guNa dhAraNa karateM haiM, ve sabhI bhagavAna hoNge| bhagavAna zabda vizeSaNa hai| jo bhI manuSya usake lie taiyAra hogA, loga use bhagavAna kaheMge hii| hai? yahA~ prakaTa hue, caudaha loka ke nAtha ! praznakartA: 'dAdA bhagavAna' yaha zabda prayoga kisake lie kiyA gayA dAdAzrI : dAdA bhagavAna ke lie, mere lie nahIM hai| maiM to jJAnI puruSa hU~ / praznakartA: kauna se bhagavAna ? dAdAzrI dAdA bhagavAna, jo caudaha loka ke nAtha haiN| jo Apake bhItara bhI haiM, para Apa meM prakaTa nahIM hue haiN| Apake bhItara avyakta rUpa meM base haiM aura 'yahA~' (hamAre bhItara) vyakta ho gaye haiN| jo vyakta hue haiM, ve phala de aise haiN| eka bAra bhI hamAre bolane para kAma bana jAe~ aisA hai / para yadi unheM pahacAna kara bole to kalyANa ho jaayeN| yadi sAMsArika cIz2oM ko lekara koI ar3acana hogI, vaha ar3acana bhI dUra ho jaayegii| para usameM lobha mata krnaa| yadi lobha karane gaye to koI aMta hI nahIM aanevaalaa| dAdA bhagavAna kauna hai, yaha ApakI samajha meM AyA ? 'dAdA bhagavAna' kA svarUpa kyA? praznakartA: dAdA bhagavAna kA svarUpa kyA hai? dAdAzrI : dAdA bhagavAna kA svarUpa kauna-sA ? bhagavAna, aura kaunasA? jise isa varlDa (duniyA) meM kisI prakAra kI mamatA nahIM hai, jise ahaMkAra nahIM hai, jisameM buddhi nahIM hai, vaha dAdA svarUpa ! AtmajJAna se Upara aura kevalajJAna se nIce jJAnIpuruSa ko kevalajJAna cAra DigrI kama para aTakA huA hai aura
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________________ dAdA bhagavAna? dAdA bhagavAna? AtmajJAna ke Upara gayA hai| AtmajJAna se Age nikala gayA aura kevalajJAna ke sTezana taka nahIM paha~cA hai| isameM bIcavAle hisse ke jo jJeya haiM. unakA patA jagata ko nahIM hotaa| hama yaha jo bolate hai na, usameM se eka vAkya kA bhI jagata ko patA nahIM hotA, bhAna hI nahIM hotaa| vaise hamAre bolane ke bAda buddhi se use samajha meM A jAe, samajha meM nahIM Aye aisA nahIM hai| buddhi vaha prakAza hai, usa prakAza ke dvArA sAmanevAlA jo kahatA hai vaha samajha meM A jAe ki bAta sahI hai| para phira se use yAda nahIM aataa| sirpha jJAnIpuruSa kA vAkya aisA hai ki usameM vacanabala hone ke kAraNa jarUrata ho taba hAz2ira hogaa| jaba saMkaTa kA samaya Aye na, taba vaha vAkya hAz2ira ho jAe, use vacanabala kahate haiN| __ saMsAra dekhA magara jAnA nahIM pUrNa rUpa se hama kevalajJAna meM anuttIrNa hue manuSya haiN| praznakartA : cAra aMza mAne ve kauna se cAra aMza? dAdAzrI : yaha jo cAritramoha Apako naz2ara AtA hai, isakI bhale hI mujhe mUrchA nahIM ho, phira bhI sAmanevAle ko naz2ara AtA hai, isalie utane aMza kama ho jAte haiM aura dUsarA, saMsAra merI samajha meM avazya AyA hai para jAnane meM nahIM AyA aba tk| kevalajJAna mAne jAnane meM bhI AnA cAhiye, jabaki yaha to samajha meM hI AyA hai| praznakartA : jo jAnane meM nahIM AyA ho, usakA bheda kaise kiyA jAe? dAdAzrI : samajha meM AyA hai, jAnane meM nahIM AyA hai| yadi jAnane meM AyA hotA to kevalajJAna khlaataa| samajhane meM AyA hai isalie kevaladarzana kahalAtA hai| praznakartA : yaha 'jAnA nahIM para samajha meM AyA hai' yaha z2arA samajha meM nahIM aayaa| dAdAzrI : samajha meM mAne yaha jagata kyA hai, kaise utpanna huA, mana kyA hai, mana ke phAdara-madara (mAtA-pitA) kauna hai, yaha buddhi kyA hai, yaha citta kyA hai, ahaMkAra kyA hai, manuSya kA janma kyoM hotA hai, phalA~ kA janma kaise hotA hai, yaha saba kaise calatA hai, kauna calAtA hai, bhagavAna calAte haiM ki anya koI calAtA hai, maiM kauna hU~, Apa kauna haiM, ye sArI bAteM hamArI samajha meM A gaI haiM aura divyacakSu ke dvArA pratyeka jIva meM AtmA naz2ara AtA ho| arthAt saba kucha samajha meM A gayA ho, isalie use kevaladarzana kahate haiN| bolatA hai vaha hai TeparikArDa dAdAzrI : yaha kauna bola rahA hai? Apase kauna bAta karatA hai ? praznakartA : usa jJAna kA to mujhe patA nhiiN| dAdAzrI : arthAt yaha 'maiM' Apase bAta nahIM karatA huuN| 'maiM' to kSetrajJa ke taura para dekhA karatA huuN| 'maiM' apane kSetra meM hI rahatA huuN| yaha Apase jo bAta karatA hai vaha to rikArDa bAta karatA hai, kampalITa (pUrNa rUpa se) rikArDa hai| isalie isa para se dUsarA rikArDa nikala sakatA hai aura vaha bhI pUrNa rUpa se mikenikala (yAMtrika) rikArDa hai| arthAt yaha dikhAI denevAle bhAdaraNa ke paTela hai aura yaha jo bola rahA hai (mu~ha se jo vANI nikala rahI hai) vaha oNrijinala TeparikArDa hai! aura bhItara dAdA bhagavAna prakaTa hue haiM, unake sAtha rahatA hU~ ekatA se| aura kabhI bAhara nikalakara aMbAlAla ke sAtha bhI ekarUpa hotA huuN| donoM ora vyavahAra karane denA hogaa| aMbAlAla ke sAtha bhI AnA hogaa| isa samaya vyavahAra meM AyA kahalAe yaha, anyathA bhItara khuda abheda rhe| gurupUrNimA ke dina pUrNadazA meM AtmacaMdra hamAre yahA~ ye tIna dina uttama kahalAe~ : naye sAla kA pahalA dina, janmajayaMtI aura gurupuurnnimaa| ye tIna dinoM hama dUsare kisI bhI vyakti ke sAtha koI vyavahAra nahIM rakhate, arthAt hama usa samaya apane pUrNa svarUpa meM ekAkAra hote haiN| maiM (jJAnI puruSa) apane svarUpa meM (dAdA bhagavAna ke
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________________ dAdA bhagavAna? dAdA bhagavAna? sAtha) ekAkAra rahatA hU~, isalie usa darzana se phala kI prApti hogii| isalie usa pUrNa svarUpa ke darzana karane kA mAhAtmya hai na! gyArahavA~ Azcarya yaha akrama vijJAna bhagavAna mahAvIra taka dasa Azcarya hue aura yaha gyArahavA~ Azcarya hai| jJAnI puruSa vyApArI ke rUpa meM vItarAga haiM, vyApArI bhAva se vItarAga haiN| aise darzana ho vaha ajUbA kahalAe! dekhie na, yaha hamAre koTa aura TopI! aisA to kahIM hotA hogA jJAnI meM? use parigraha se kyA lenA-denA? jise kucha nahIM cAhie, phira bhI ve parigraha meM pha~se haiM! unheM kucha nahIM cAhie, aura haiM aMtima dazA meM! para logoM kI takadIra meM nahIM hogA, isalie yaha saMsArI bheSa meM haiM! arthAt yadi tyAgI kA bheSa hotA to lAkhoM-karoDoM logoM kA kAma bana jAtA! lekina ina logoM ke puNya itane kacce haiM! maiMne jo sukha pAyA vaha sabhI pAyeM praznakartA : Apako dharma pracAra kI preraNA kisane dI? dAdAzrI : dharma pracAra kI yaha preraNA sArI kudaratI hai| mujhe khuda ko jo sukha utpanna huA, isalie bhAvanA haI ki ina logoM ko bhI aisA hI sukha ho| yahI preraNA! loga mujhase pUchA karate haiM ki 'Apa jagata kalyANa kI nizcita manokAmanA kaise pUrNa kareMge?' ApakI aba umra ho gii| subaha uThate-uThate, cAya pIte-pIte dasa to baja hI jAte haiN| 'are bhaiyA, hameM isa sthUla deha ko kucha karanA-dharanA nahIM hai, sUkSma meM ho rahA hai sb|' yaha sthUla to mAtra dikhAvA karanA hai| inako sthUla kA AdhAra to denA hI hogA na? hRdaya bhigoe, jJAnI kI karuNA praznakartA : Apa vItarAgI kA lokasaMparka se kyA lenA-denA? dAdAzrI : vItarAga bhAva, aura koI saMbaMdha nahIM hai| para isa samaya to pUrNa vItarAga hai hI nahIM na! Apa jisase pUcha rahe haiM vaha isa samaya pUrNa vItarAga nahIM hai! isa samaya hama to khaTapaTiye vItarAga haiN| khaTapaTiyA mAne kyA ki jo hamezA usI bhAvanA meM rahate hai ki kaise isa jagata kA kalyANa ho| isa kalyANa hetu khaTapaTa karate raheM (apanI zakti vyaya karate haiM), bAkI vItarAga aura janasaMparka ko koI lenA-denA hI nahIM hai| pUrNa vItarAga to kevala darzana diyA kareM, dUsarA kucha nahIM krte| praznakartA : para vItarAga ke dvArA jo janasaMparka kiyA jA rahA hai vaha apane karma khapAne ke hetu kara rahe hai? dAdAzrI : apanA hisAba pUrA karane ke lie, dUsaroM ke lie nhiiN| unheM aura koI bhAvanA nhiiN| jaisA hamArA kalyANa huA aisA ina sabhI logoM kA kalyANa ho, aisI hamArI bhAvanA rahatI hai| vItarAgoM ko aisA nahIM hotaa| bilakula bhAvanA hI nahIM, pUrNatayA vItarAga! aura hamArI to yaha eka taraha kI bhAvanA hai| isIlie bar3e sabere uThakara baiTha jAte haiM, ArAma se| aura satsaMga zurU kara dete haiM, jo rAta ke sADhe gyAraha baje taka calatA rahatA hai| arthAt yaha hamArI bhAvanA hai| kyoMki hamAre jaisA sukha pratyeka ko prApta ho! itane sAre duHkha kisalie bhoganA? duHkha hai hI nahIM aura binA vajaha duHkha bhugata rahe haiN| yaha nAsamajhI nikala jAe to duHkha jaae| aba nAsamajhI kaise nikale? kahane para nahIM nikalatI, Apa dikhAyeM taba nikle| isalie hama to karake dikhalAte haiN| ise mUrta svarUpa kahate haiN| isalie zraddhA kI mUrti khlaaye| praznakartA : Apta puruSa kI vANI, vartana aura vicAra kaise hote haiM ? dAdAzrI : vaha saba manohArI hote haiM, mana ko haranevAle hote haiM, mana prasanna ho jaae| unakA vinaya alaga taraha kA hotA hai| vaha vANI alaga taraha kI hotI hai| vidAUTa igoijma (nirahaMkArI) vartana hotA hai| binA igoijma kA vartana saMsAra meM zAyada hI kahIM dekhane ko milatA hai varnA milanevAlA hI nahIM! jJAnI kise kahate haiM? praznakartA : jJAnI kI vyAkhyA kyA hai?
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________________ dAdA bhagavAna? dAdA bhagavAna? dAdAzrI : jahA~ sadaiva prakAza ho| saba kucha jAnate ho, jAnane ke lie kucha bhI zeSa nahIM ho| jJAnI mAne ujaalaa| ujAlA mAne kisI prakAra kA aMdherA hI nahIM hotaa| aura jJAnI varlDa meM kabhI-kabhAra ekAdha hote haiM, do nahIM hote| unakA jor3a nahIM hotaa| jor3a hone para spardhA hogii| jJAnI honA yaha necarala eDajasTamenTa (kudarata kI samAyojanA) hai| jJAnI, koI apane balabUte para nahIM ho pAtA! jJAnIpuruSa to mukta hue hote haiN| ajor3a hote haiN| koI unakI spardhA nahIM kara sktaa| kyoMki spardhA karanevAlA jJAnI nahIM hotaa| dravya, kSetra, kAla, bhAva se apratibaddha vItarAgoM ne kahA hai, ki jo dravya, kSetra, kAla aura bhAva se niraMtara apratibaddha bhAva se vicarate haiM, aise jJAnIpuruSa ke caraNArviMda kI bhajanA karane para hala niklegaa| koI dravya unheM bA~dha nahIM sakatA, koI kAla unheM bA~dha nahIM sakatA, kisI bhAva se ve ba~dha nahIM pAte aura na hI koI kSetra unheM bA~dha sakatA hai| saMsAra meM ye cAra cIjeM hI haiM, jise lekara saMsAra khar3A rahA hai| nA rAga-dveSa, na tyAgAtyAga jJAnI puruSa kisakA nAma ki jinheM tyAga athavA atyAga saMbhava nahIM, sahaja bhAva se hote haiN| ve rAga-dveSa nahIM karate haiN| unakI vizeSa vilakSaNatA kyA hotI hai ki rAga-dveSa nahIM hotaa| dRSTi huI nirdoSa, dekhA jaga nirdoSa sAre saMsAra meM mujhe koI doSita naz2ara nahIM aataa| merI jeba kATanevAlA bhI mujhe doSita nahIM dikhtaa| usa para karuNA aayegii| dayA hamAre meM nAma mAtra ko nahIM hotI! manuSyoM meM dayA hotI hai, 'jJAnI puruSa' meM dayA nahIM hotii| ve dvaMdva se mukta hue hote haiN| hamArI dRSTi hI nirdoSa ho gaI hotI hai| yAnI tattvadRSTi hotI hai, avasthA dRSTi nahIM hotii| sabhI meM sIdhA AtmA hI najara aaye| (2) bAlyAvasthA mA~ se pAyA ahiMsA dharma eka dina hamArI madara (mA~) se pachA ki. 'ghara meM khaTamala ho gaye haiM, Apako nahIM kATate kyA?' uttara meM madara kahatI hai, 'hA~ beTA, kATate to haiM para ve dUsare kI taraha thor3e hI sAtha meM TiphIna lekara Ate haiM ki 'hameM kucha dIjiye, mAI-bApa!' ve becAre koI bartana lekara to nahIM Ate, jitanA khAnA ho utanA khAkara cale jAte haiN| maiMne kahA, 'dhanya haiM mAtAjI Apa! aura Apake isa beTe kA bhI dhanyabhAga haiM!" hama to khaTamala ko bhI lahU pIne dete the ki yahA~ AyA hai to aba bhojana karake jaa| kyoMki hamArA yaha haoNTela (zarIra) aisA hai ki yahA~ kisI ko koI kaSTa nahIM honA cAhie, yahI hamArA vyavasAya ! isalie khaTamaloM ko bhI bhojana karavAyA hai| aba yadi unheM bhojana nahIM karavAte to usake lie sarakAra hameM thor3e hI koI daMDa denevAlI thI? hameM to AtmA kI prApti karanI thI! sadaiva cauvihAra, sadaiva kaMdamUla tyAga, sadaiva ubalA huA pAnI, yaha saba karane meM koI kasara nahIM chor3I thI! aura isI vajaha, dekhiye, yaha prAkaTya huA, sArA 'akrama vijJAna' prakaTa huA! jo sArI duniyA ko svaccha banA de, aisA vijJAna prakaTa huA hai! mAtA ke saMskAra ne mAra khAnA sIkhalAyA merI mAtAjI bhI aisI thIM na! mAtAjI to mujhe acchA sIkhalAtI thiiN| bacapana meM maiM eka lar3ake ko mAra-pITa kara ghara AyA thaa| usa lar3ake ko khUna nikAla AyA thaa| mAtAjI ko isakA patA calA, to mujhase savAla karane lagI ki, 'beTA, yaha dekha, use khuna nikalA hai| aise hI tujhe koI mAre to khUna nikalane para mujhe terI davAI karanI hogI ki nahIM? isa samaya usa lar3ake kI mA~ ko bhI usakI davAI karanI par3atI hogI ki nahIM? aura vaha becArA kitanA rotA hogA? usako kitanA duHkha hotA hogA? isalie (tU Aja se taya kara ki) tU mAra khAkara AnA para kabhI kisI ko mAra kara nahIM aayegaa| tU mAra khAkara AnA, maiM terI davAI kruuNgii|'
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________________ dAdA bhagavAna ? boliye, aba aisI mA~ mahAvIra banAyegI ki nahIM banAyegI ? isa prakAra saMskAra bhI mAtAjI se ucca prakAra ke mile haiN| usameM ghATA kisakA? 15 maiM bacapana meM thor3A bahuta rUThA karatA thaa| bahuta rUThanA nahIM hotA thA, kabhI-kabhI rUTha baiThatA thaa| phira bhI maiMne hisAba nikAlA ki rUThane meM kevala ghATA hI hotA hai, isalie phira taya kiyA ki koI hamAre sAtha kaisA bhI vyavahAra kare phira bhI kabhI nahIM rUThanA / maiM rUThA jarUra thA, para usa dina subaha milanevAlA dUdha khoyA ! phira maiMne sAre dina meM kyA-kyA ga~vAyA usakA hisAba lagAyA.... mAtAjI se merI kyA zikAyata thI ki mujhe aura bhAbhIjI ko, donoM ko Apa samAna kyoM samajhatI haiM, mA~? bhAbhIjI ko AdhA sera dUdha aura mujhe bhI AdhA sera dUdha ? use kama diijiye| mujhe AdhA sera maMjUra thaa| mujhe jyAdA kI z2arUrata nahIM thI para bhAbhIjI kA kama karane ko kahA, Der3ha pAva kIjiye kahA, isa para mAtAjI ne kyA kahA? 'terI mA~ to yahA~ maujUda hai, usakI mA~ yahA~ nahIM hai na! usa becArI ko burA lgegaa| use duHkha hogaa| isalie samAnatA hI honI caahie|' phira bhI merA samAdhAna nahIM hotA thA / mAtAjI bAra-bAra samajhAtI rahatI, kaI taraha se samajhAne kA vyartha prayatna kiyA karatI thI ! isalie eka dina maiM ar3a gayA, magara usameM ghATA merA hI huA / isalie phira taya kiyA ki aba dobArA haThI nahIM honA hai| kama umra meM bhI sahI samajha bAraha sAla kA thA taba guru ke pAsa baMdhavAyI huI kaMThI TUTa gii| taba mAtAjI ne kahA ki, 'hama yaha kaMThI phira se guru ke pAsa bNdhvaaeN|' isa para maiMne kahA, 'hamAre purakhoM ne jaba isa kue~ meM chalAMga lagAI hogI, taba isa kue~ meM pAnI hogA, para maiM Aja jaba isa kue~ meM jhA~katA hU~ to bar3e-bar3e patthara naz2ara Ate haiM, pAnI naz2ara nahIM AtA aura bar3e-bar3e sA~pa dikhAI dete haiN| maiM isa kue~ meM giranA nahIM caahtaa|' bApa-dAdA jisameM gire usa kue~ meM hama bhI gireM aisA kahIM likhakara thor3e diyA hai? dekhie bhItara, 16 dAdA bhagavAna ? ki pAnI hai yA nahIM, yadi hai to kUda pddie| varnA pAnI nahIM ho aura girakara hamArA sira tur3avAne se kyA phAyadA? taba guru mAne prakAza dharanevAlA aisA artha maiM samajhatA thA / jo mujhe pratyakSa rUpa se jJAna nahIM dete, pratyakSa prakAza nahIM dharate to maiM kucha ThaMDA pAnI chir3akavAkara yA sira para pAnI ke ghar3e u~DelavAkara kaMThI ba~dhavAnA nahIM caahtaa| yadi mujhe lagA ki ise guru karane yogya hai to maiM ThaMr3A pAnI to kyA, hAtha kaTavAne ko kaheMge to hAtha kATane duuNgaa| hAtha kATa le to kyA huA, anaMta avatAroM se hAtha lie hI phirate hai na? aura yadi koI luTerA binA kahe kATa DAle to kATane dete haiM na? taba yahA~ gurujI kATe to kyA nahIM kATane denA? aura yadi guru ne kATA to? para gurujI becAre kATanevAle haiM hI nhiiN| para mAna lIjiye zAyada kATane ko kaheM, to hameM aisA nahIM karane kI koI vajaha hai kyA? isalie jaba madara ne kahA ki tujhe 'nigurA' kaheMge, taba una dinoM 'nigurA' mAne kyA isakI mujhe samajha nahIM thii| maiM mAnatA thA ki yaha zabda una logoM kA koI eDajasTamenTa hogA, aura 'nigurA' kahakara phajihata karate hoMge para 'binA guru kA aisA usakA artha una dinoM mujhe mAlUma nahIM thaa| isalie maiMne kahA ki, loga mujhe nigurA kaheMge, merI phaz2ihata hogI, isase jyAdA aura kyA kahanevAle haiM? magara bAda meM maiM isakA artha samajha gayA thaa| nahIM cAhie aisA mokSa teraha sAla kI umra meM skUla se samaya milane para vahA~ saMta puruSa ke Azrama meM darzana karane jAtA thaa| vahA~ para uttara bhArata ke eka-do saMtoM kA nivAsa thaa| ve bar3e sAtvika the, isalie maiM teraha sAla kI umra meM unakI caraNa sevA kiyA karatA thaa| usa samaya ve mujhe kahane lage ki, 'baccA, bhagavAna tumaku mokSa meM le jaayegaa|' maiMne kahA, 'sAhiba, aisI bAta nahIM kareM to mujhe acchA lgegaa| aisI bAta mujhe pasaMda nahIM hai!' unake mana meM huA hogA ki nAdAna baccA hai na, isalie samajhatA nahIM hai! phira mujhe
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________________ dAdA bhagavAna? 17 18 dAdA bhagavAna? kahA, 'AhistA-AhistA terI samajha meM aayegaa|' isa para maiMne kahA, 'ThIka hai, saahib|' para mujhe to bar3e-bar3e vicAra Ane lage ki bhagavAna mujhe mokSa meM le jAe~, phira vahA~ mujhe biThAyA hogA aura unakI pahacAnavAlA koI Ane para mujhe kaheMge, 'cala UTha yahA~ se' taba? nahIM cAhie terA aisA mokSa ! usake bajAya bIvI ke sAtha pyAja ke pakauDe khAyeM aura mauja uDAe~ to kyA burAI hai usameM? usakI tulanA meM yaha mokSa behatara hai phira! vahA~ koI UThAnevAlA ho aura mAlika ho to aisA mokSa hameM nahIM caahie| arthAt teraha sAla kI umra meM aisI svataMtratA jAgRta huI thI kI merA koI bhI mAlika ho to aisA mokSa hameM nahIM caahie| aura yadi nahIM hai to hamArI yahI kAmanA hai ki koI mAlika nahIM aura koI mujhe anDarahainDa nahIM caahie| anDarahainDa mujhe pasaMda hI nahIM hai| baiThe ho vahA~ se koI uThAye aisA mokSa mujhe nahIM caahie| jahA~ mAlika nahIM, anDarahainDa nahIM, aisA yaha vItarAgoM kA mokSa maiM cAhatA huuN| una dinoM mAlUma nahIM thA ki vItarAgoM kA mokSa aisA hai| para taba se merI samajha meM A gayA thA ki mAlika nahIM caahie| uTha yahA~ se kahe, aisA terA mokSa maiM nahIM caahtaa| aisA bhagavAna raheM apane ghr| mujhe kyA kAma hai terA? tu yadi bhagavAna hai to maiM bhI bhagavAna hU~! bhale hI, tU thor3I dera ke lie mujhe tere aMkuza meM lene kI tAka meM ho! Ai DonTa vAnTa (mujhe jarUrata nahIM)! aisI bhUkha kisa lie? ina pA~ca indriyoM ke lAlaca ke khAtira kyA? kyA rakhA hai ina lAlacoM meM? jAnavaroM ko bhI lAlaca hai aura hameM bhI lAlaca hai, phira hamAre meM aura jAnavaroM meM aMtara kyA rahA? paravazatA, AI DonTa vAnTa kisI kI naukarI nahIM karU~gA aisA pahale se hI khayAla rahA thaa| naukarI karanA mujhe bahuta du:khadAyI lagatA thaa| yoM hI mauta A jAe to behatara para naukarI meM to baoNsa (mAlika) mujhe DA~Te vaha bardAzta se bAhara thaa| 'meM naukarI nahIM karU~gA' yaha merI bar3I bImArI rahI aura isI bimArI ne merI rakSA kii| Akhira eka dosta ne pUchA, 'bar3e bhaiyA ghara se nikAla degeM taba kyA karoge?' maiMne kahA, 'pAna kI dukAna kruuNgaa|' usameM bhale hI rAta dasa baje taka logoM ko pAna khilAkara, phira gyAraha baje ghara para jAkara sone ko mile| usameM cAhe tIna rupaye mile to tIna meM hI gaz2ArA karU~gA aura do mile to do meM calAU~gA, mujhe saba nibAhanA AtA hai, para mujhe parataMtratA bilakula pasaMda nahIM hai| paravazatA, AI DonTa vAnTa (mujhe nahIM caahie)| __ anDarahainDa ko hamezA bacAyA jIvana meM merA dhaMdhA kyA rahA? mere Upara jo ho unake sAmane mukAbalA aura anDarahainDa (adhinatA meM kAma karanevAle)kI rkssaa| yaha merA niyama thaa| mukAbalA karanA magara apane se UparavAle ke saath| saMsAra sArA kisake vaza meM rahatA hai? mAlika (apane se jo Upara ho) ke! aura anDarahainDa ko DA~Tate rheN| para maiM mAlika ke sAmane balavA kara dU~, isake kAraNa mujhe lAbha nahIM huaa| mujhe aise lAbha kI paravA bhI nahIM thii| para anDarahainDa ko acchI taraha se saMbhAlA thaa| jo koI anDarahainDa ho usakI hara taraha se rakSA karanA, yaha merA sabase bar3A usUla rhaa| praznakartA : Apa kSatriya hai isalie? dAdAzrI : hA~, kSatriya, yaha kSatriyoM kA usUla, isalie rAha calate kisI kI lar3AI hotI ho to jo hArA ho, jisane mAra khAI ho usake pakSa meM rahatA thA, yaha kSatriyatA hmaarii| bacapana kA zarAratI svabhAva hameM to saba naz2ara AtA hai, bacapana kI ora mur3ane para bacapana naz2ara aaye| isalie hama vaha sArI bAta btaayeN| pasaMda Aye aisI cIz2a naz2ara Ane para hamArA bolanA hotA hai, varanA hama aisA kahA~ yAda rakheM? hameM aMta taka, bacapana taka kA saba naz2ara AtA rhe| sAre paryAya naz2ara aayeN| aisA thA.. aisA thA..., phira aisA huA, skUla meM hama ghaMTI bajane ke bAda jAyA karate the, vaha sArI bAteM hameM dikhatI haiN| mAsTarajI mujhe kaha nahIM pAte the, isalie cir3hate rahate the|
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________________ dAdA bhagavAna? 19 praznakartA: Apa skUla meM ghaMTI bajane ke bAda kyoM jAte the? dAdAzrI : aisA rauba ! mana meM aisA garUra para vahA~ sIdhe nahIM rahe tabhI aise Ter3hApana karake derI se jAte the na ! sIdhA AdamI to ghaMTI bajane se pahale jAkara apanI jagaha para baiTha jaae| praznakartA: rauba jamAnA vaha ulaTA rAstA kahalAye kyA ? dAdAzrI : vaha to ulaTA rAstA hI kahalAye na! ghaMTI bajane ke bAda hama jAyeM, jabaki mAsTarajI pahale A cuke hoM! yadi mAsTarajI dera se Aye to lAz2ima hai, para baccoM ko to ghaMTI bajane se pahale hI AnA cAhie na ? para aisA Ter3hApana / kahegA, 'mAsTarajI, apane mana meM kyA samajhate haiM?' lIjiye !! are ! tujhe par3hAI karanI hai ki laDAI karanI hai? taba kaheM, 'nahIM, pahale laDAI karanI hai|' praznakartA : to mAsTarajI Apa se kucha nahIM kaha pAte the kyA? dAdAzrI : kaha sakate the, para kaha nahIM pAte the| use mana meM bhar3aka rahatI thI ki bAhara patthara mAregA to sira phor3a degaa| praznakartA: dAdAjI, Apa itane zarAratI the kyA? dAdAzrI : hA~, zarAratI the| hamArA mAla ( prakRti svabhAva) hI sArA zarAratI ! Ter3hA mAla ! praznakartA : aura aisA hote hue bhI yaha 'jJAna' prakaTa ho gayA yaha to Azcarya kahalAye / dAdAzrI : 'jJAna' ho gayA kyoMki bhItara koI maila nahIM thA na ! isa ahaMkAra kA hI harja thA kintu mamattva jarA sA bhI nahIM thA, lAlaca nahIM thaa| isalie isa dazA kI prApti huii| para yadi koI merA nAma letA to usakI zAmata A jAtI thii| isalie kucha loga pIche se TippaNI kiyA karate the ki isakA miz2Aja bahuta hai| taba kucha aisA bhI kahate the, 'are, dAdA bhagavAna? jAne dIjiye na, ghamaMDI hai|' arthAt mere lie kauna-kauna se vizeSaNoM kA prayoga hotA hai isakI mujhe jAnakArI rahatI thii| para mujhe mamatva nahIM thA / yaha pradhAna guNa thA, usI kA pratApa hai yaha! aura yadi koI mamatvavAlA sau gunA sayAnA rahA, taba bhI saMsAra meM gaharAI taka DUbA hotA hai| hama mamatva rahita isalie vAstava meM AnaMda ho gyaa| yaha mamatva hI saMsAra hai, ahaMkAra yaha saMsAra nahIM hai| 20 bAda meM maiMne bhI anubhava kiyA ki aba maiM sIdhA ho gayA huuN| kisI ko mujhe sIdhA karane kA kaSTa nahIM uThAnA pdd'e| praznakartA: dAdAjI, Apa sIdhe kaise ho gaye? dAdAzrI : logoM ne aise-vaise zikaMje meM kasakara bhI mujhe sIdhA kara ddaalaa| praznakartA : yaha to pichale avatAroM meM zuddha hotA rahA thA na ? dAdAzrI : kitane hI avatAroM se yaha sIdhe hote Aye haiM, taba kahIM jAkara isa avatAra meM pUrNa rUpa se sIdhA ho paayaa| bhASA sIkhane ke bajAya bhagavAna meM rUci aMgrejI ke mAsTarajI se maiMne kahA ki Apa jo kahanA cAheM kaha sakate haiM para maiM Apake yahA~ pha~sa gayA huuN| paMdraha sAla se par3ha par3ha karatA hU~ para aba taka maiTrika nahIM ho paataa| ginatI se zurU karake paMdraha sAla ho gaye para maiTrika nahIM ho paayaa| ina paMdraha sAloM meM to maiM bhagavAna khoz2a nikAlatA / itane sAla vyartha meM ga~vAye! binA vajaha e-bI-sI-DI sikhAte haiN| anya kisI kI bhASA, videzIyoM kI bhASA sIkhane ke lie maiTrika taka par3hanA par3e? yaha kaisA pAgalapana hai? videza kI bhASA sIkhane meM yahA~ manuSya kI AdhI jindagI khatma ho jAe! laghuttama sIkhate, pAyeM bhagavAna anaMta avatAroM se vahI kA vahI par3hate haiM aura phira AvRtta ho jAtA
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________________ dAdA bhagavAna? dAdA bhagavAna? hai| ajJAna par3hanA nahIM pdd'taa| ajJAna to sAhajika rUpa se A jaae| jJAna par3hanA caahie| mere AvaraNa kama the, isalie terahaveM sAla meM jJAna ho gayA thaa| bacapana meM gujarAtI skUla ke mAsTarajI ne mujhase kahA, 'Apa yaha laghuttama sikhiye|' taba maiMne pUchA, 'laghuttama mAne Apa kyA kahanA cAhate haiM? laghuttama kaise hotA hai?' taba unhoM ne batAyA, 'yaha jo rakameM dI gaIM haiM, usameM se choTI se choTI rakama, jo avibhAjya ho, jisakA phira se bhAga nahIM kiyA jA sake, aisI rakama khoja nikAlanI hai|' usa samaya maiM choTA thA para logoM ko kaise saMbodhita karatA thA? 'ye rakameM acchI nahIM hai|' manuSya ke lie 'rakama' zabda kA prayoga karatA thaa| isalie mujhe yaha bAta rAsa aaii| arthAt mujhe aisA lagA ki ina 'rakamoM' ke bhItara bhI aisA hI hai na? arthAt bhagavAna sabhI meM avibhAjya rUpa se vidhyamAna hai| isalie maiMne isa para se turanta hI bhagavAna khoja nikAle the| ye sAre manuSya 'rakameM' hI hai na! usameM bhagavAna avibhAjya rUpa se rahe hue haiN| AtmA ke sivA aura kucha nahIM sIkhA bacapana meM maiM sAikila calAtA thA, taba bAvana rUpayoM meM rele kaMpanI kI sAikila milatI thii| usa samaya sAikila meM paMkacara hone para sabhI apane apane ghara para ripera karate the| maiM to udAra thA isalie eka sAikilavAle se jAkara kahA ki, 'bhaiyA. isakA paMkacara ThIka kara denA jraa|' isa para sabhI mujha se kahane lage ki, 'Apa bAhara ripeyara kyoM karavAte haiM? isameM karanA kyA hai?' maiMne uttara diyA ki, 'bhaiyA! maiM yahA~ yaha saba sIkhane nahIM AyA huuN| isa duniyA meM bahuterI cIjeM haiM, una sabhI ko sIkhane ke lie maiMne janma nahIM liyA hai| maiM to AtmA sIkhane AyA hai aura yadi yaha saba sIkhane baitUM to usa AtmA ke bAre meM utanA kaccApana raha jaae|' isalie maiMne sIkhA hI nhiiN| sAikila calAnI AtI thI para vaha bhI kaisI? sIdhe sIdhe sAikila savAra honA nahIM AtA thA, isalie pIche kI dhurA para paira rakhakara savAra hotA thA! aura kucha AyA nahIM aura sIkhane kA prayatna bhI nahIM kiyaa| yaha to AvazyakatAnusAra sIkha letA thaa| aura adhika sIkhane kI z2arUrata hI nhiiN| ghar3I huI duHkhadAyI merA kisI aura dhyAna hI nahIM thaa| kucha nayA sIkhane kA prayatna nahIM kiyA thaa| ise sIkhane baitUM to utanI usameM (AtmA sIkhane meM) kamI raha jAe na? isalie nayA sIkhanA nahIM thaa| bacapana meM eka sekanDa hainDa ghar3I paMdraha rupaye meM lAyA thaa| use pahanakara sirahAne hAtha rakhakara so gyaa| pariNAma svarUpa phira kAna meM darda hone lagA, isalie maiMne mana meM socA ki, yaha to duHkhadAyI ho gii| isalie phira kabhI nahIM phnii| cAbI bharane meM samaya nahIM ga~vAyA ghar3I kI cAbI bharanA mere lie musIbata thii| hamAre sAjhIdAra bole ki yaha sAta dina kI cAbIvAlI ghar3I hai, ise le aaye| isalie phira sAta dina kI cAbIvAlI ghar3I le aayaa| para eka dina eka pahacAnavAle Aye, kahane lage ki, 'ghar3I bar3I suMdara hai|' isa para maiMne kaha diyA ki, 'le jAiye Apa, mujhe cAbI bharane kI musIbata hai!' isa para phira hIrAbA lar3ane lagIM, Apa to jo jI meM Aye vaha saba auroM ko de diyA karate haiM, aba binA ghar3I ke maiM vakta kaise jAnU~gI? usa samaya hamAre bhAnaje paMdraha sAla se ghar3I kI cAbI ghumAte rahate haiN| maiMne kabhI bhI ghar3I kI cAbI ghumAI nahIM hai! maiM to kabhI kelenDara bhI nahIM dekhatA! mujhe kelenDara dekhakara bhI kyA karanA hai? kauna phAr3egA pannA usakA? kelenDara kA pannA bhI maiMne phAr3A nahIM hai| aisI phurasata, aisA vakta mere pAsa kahA~ hai? ghar3I kI cAbI yadi ghumAne lagUM to merI cAbI kaba ghumegI? arthAt maiMne kisI vastu ke lie samaya bigAr3A hI nahIM hai| reDiyo mAne pAgalapana eka mitra ne kahA, 'reDiyo laaie'| maiMne kahA, 'reDiyo? aura vaha maiM sunU~gA? phira mere TAIma kA kyA hogA?' yaha logoM ke pAsa sunane para uktA jAtA hU~, to phira vaha hamAre pAsa vaha kaise ho sakatA hai? vaha meDanesa (pAgalapana) hai sArI!
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________________ dAdA bhagavAna? dAdA bhagavAna? phona kA qhalala bhI nahIM rakhA mujha se kahane lage ki, 'hama phona lgvaayeN|' maiMne kahA, 'nahIM. usa balA se kahA~ lipaTeM phira? hama caina kI nIMda so raheM ho aura ghaMTI bajane lage, aisI jhaMjhaTa kyoM mola leM? loga to zauka kI khAtira rakhate hai ki hamArI zAna bddh'egii| isalie zAnavAle, logoM ke lie lAz2ima haiN| hama Thahare mAmUlI AdamI, caina kI nIMda sonevAle, sArI rAta nijI svataMtratA meM soyeN| matalaba ki vaha Teliphona kahA~ rakheM? phira ghaMTI bajI ki parezAnI zurU! maiM to dUsare hI dina uThAkara bAhara pheMka duuNgaa| jarA-sI ghaMTI bajI nahIM ki nIMda meM khalala ho jaae| zAyada macchara-khaTamala khalala pahu~cAye to anivArya hai para yaha to aicchika hai, ise kaise bardAzta kareM? pahale hama moTarakAra rakhate the| taba DrAIvara Akara kahatA, 'sAhiba, phalA~ pArTa TUTa gayA hai|' mujhe to pArTa kA nAma bhI nahIM AtA thaa| phira mujhe lagA ki yaha to pha~sAva hai! pha~sAva to vAipha ke sAtha ho gayA aura pariNAma svarUpa bacce hue| aura eka bAz2Ara khar3A karanA ho to kara sakate haiM para aise pha~sAnevAle do-cAra bAjAroM kI kyA AvazyakatA hai? aise phira kitane bAjAra lie ghumateM phireM? yaha to sArI kaoNmanasensa kI bAteM khlaayeN| vaha DrAIvara yoM hI gADI meM se peTrola nikAla legA aura Akara bolegA, ki 'cAcAjI, peTrola DalavAne kA hai?' aba cAcAjI kyA jAne ki yaha kyA balA hai? isalie phira hama moTarakAra nahIM rakhate the| vahA~ sukha nahIM dekhA praznakartA : dAdAjI, hameM yaha saba kucha cAhie aura Apako kucha nahIM cAhie isakI vajaha kyA hai? usa roDa para ghuma-phirakara jAte haiN| jabaki maiM hisAba lagAU~ ki sIdhe jAe to eka mIla hogA aura ghumakara jAne para tIna mIla hoMge, yadi AdhI golAI kATa deM to Der3ha mIla kA phAsalA rahegA, isalie maiM bIca meM se sIdhA nikala jaauuN| logoM ke kahe anusAra kahIM calA jAtA hai kyA? lokasaMjJA nAma mAtra ko bhI nahIM thii| logoM ne jisameM sukha samajhA, usameM mujhe sukha naz2ara nahIM aayaa| ruci, kevala acche vastroM kI hI kevala eka hI bAta kA zauka thA ki kapar3e pharsTa klAsa pahanatA huuN| use Adata kahiye yA phira mAna ke lie| usakI vajaha se acche vastra pahanane kI Adata sI hai, aura kucha bhI nhiiN| ghara jaisA bhI ho calA luuNgaa| praznakartA : bacapana se hI na? dAdAzrI : hA~, bacapana se| praznakartA : skUla jAte samaya bhI acche vastra kyA? dAdAzrI : skUla jAte samaya yA ora kahIM bhI hara jagaha vastra acche se acche caahie| arthAt basa itanA hI...akele vastroM meM hI zakti kA vyaya huA hai| kapaDe silavAte samaya phira darjI se kahanA par3atA ki. 'dekhanA bhaiyA. yaha kAlara aisI cAhie. aisA honA cAhie, vaisA honA caahie|' aura kisI cIz2a meM zakti kA vyaya nahIM huaa| byAhane meM bhI zakti kharca nahIM kI thii| dAdAzrI : vaha to Apa, logoM se sIkhakara kahateM haiN| maiMne logoM se nahIM siikhaa| maiM pahale se hI logoM se viruddha calanevAlA aadmii| loga jisa rAha calate hoM, vaha rAstA golAkAra meM Age se mur3akara jAtA ho, loga anuttIrNa hue magara yojanA anusAra mere pitAjI aura bar3e bhaiyA ne donoM ne milakara gupta maMtraNA kI thI ki, hamAre parivAra meM eka sUbedAra ho gaye hai, isalie ise bhI maiTrika hone para sUbedAra bnaaeN| yaha gupta maMtraNA maiMne suna lI thii| unakI sUbedAra banAne
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________________ dAdA bhagavAna? dAdA bhagavAna? diijiye| isa para maiMne samajhA ki aba hamArI grahadazA parivartita huii| dhaMdhe meM to saba samajha Ane lage, phaTAphaTa saba A jaae| aura haoNTala meM jAne ko mile, cAya-pAnI calate raheM, sabakucha calatA rahe aura dhaMdhA bhI kAnTraikTa kA, naMgA dhaMdhA! byAhate samaya bhI mUrchA nahIM kI icchA thii| unakI vaha dhAraNA miTTI meM mila gii| maiMne mana hI mana socA ki ye loga mujhe sUbedAra banAnA cAhate haiM, to jo sara sUbedAra hogA merA, vaha mujhe ddaaNttegaa| isalie mujhe subedAra nahIM bananA hai| kyoMki bar3I muzkila se yaha eka avatAra milA hai, vahA~ phira DA~TanevAle A mile| to phira yaha janma kisa kAma kA? hameM bhoga-vilAsa kI kisI cIz2a kI tamannA nahIM hai aura vaha Akara DA~Ta sunAye yaha kaise bardAzta kiyA jAe? jinheM bhogavilAsa kI cIjeM cAhie, ve bhale hI DA~Ta sunA kreN| mujhe to aisI kisI cIz2a kI z2arUrata nahIM hai| isalie maiMne ThAna liyA ki pAna kI dukAna nikAleMge hama, para aisI DA~Ta sunane se dUra rheNge| isalie maiMne taya kiyA thA ki maiTrika meM anuttIrNa hI honA hai| isalie usa para dhyAna hI nahIM detA thaa| praznakartA : yojanAbaddha? dAdAzrI : hA~, yojanAbaddha / isalie phela huA vaha bhI yojnaabddh| matalaba ki nona maittrik| maiM vaha sAyanTiphika sarakamasTenziyala eviDansa aisA bolU~, dI varlDa ija dI pajala iTa selpha, dhera Ara Tu vyu poInTasa... aisA saba bolU~, isalie loga savAla kareM ki 'dAdAjI, Apa kahA~ taka par3heM haiM?' ve to aisA hI samajhe ki dAdAjI to grejyueTa se Age gaye hoMge! maiMne kahA, 'bhaiyA, isa bAta ko gupta hI rahane dIjiye, ise kholane meM maz2A nahIM aayegaa|' isa para ve Agraha karane lage ki, 'batAiye to sahI, par3hane meM Apa kahA~ taka gaye the?' taba maiMne batAyA ki, 'maiTrika phel'| maiTrika phela hone para bar3e bhaiyA kahane lage, 'tujhe kucha nahIM aataa|' maiMne kahA, 'brena (dimAga) khatama ho gayA hai|' isa para unhoM ne pUchA, 'pahale to bahuta bar3hiyA AtA thA na?' maiMne kahA, 'jo bhI ho magara brena javAba de gayA hai|' taba kahe, 'dhaMdhA sa~bhAlegA kyA?' maiMne kahA, 'dhaMdhe meM kyA karU~gA, Apa jitanA kaheMge utanA karatA jaauuNgaa|' pariNAma svarUpa Der3ha sAla dhaMdhA karane ke bAda bar3e bhaiyA kahane lage ki, 'tU to phira se avvala naMbara lAyA!' dhaMdhe meM ruci paidA ho gaI, paisA kamAne ko milaa| yaha to sUbedAra honevAlA thA usake bajAya yaha ulaTI rAha cala niklaa| isalie bhaiyA taMga A gaye aura socA ki ise dhaMdhe meM lagA byAhate samaya nayA sAfA lagAyA thA, usa para sehare kA bojha Ane para sAfA nIce utara AyA aura utarate-utarate A~kho ke Upara A gayA, ghumakara jaba dekhA to hIrAbA (dharmapatnI) naz2ara nahIM aaii| jo zAdI karane AyA ho vaha sAhajika rUpa se dulhana kI ora dekhegA hI na? sAjo-sAmAna nahIM dekhtaa| kyoMki pahale kanyA dikhAne kI paraMparA nahIM thii| isalie jaba lagnamaMDapa meM AtI, tabhI dekha paate| taba mere muhAne para vaha bar3A seharA A gyaa| isalie dekhanA baMda ho gyaa| taba mujhe turaMta hI vicAra A gayA ki 'yaha byAha to rahe haiM, para do meM se kisI eka ko ra~DApA to AyegA hI (yAnI kisI eka kI mRtyu hone para donoM eka-dUsare se bichaDa hI jAyeMge), donoM ko ra~DApA nahIM aanevaalaa|' usa vakta aisA vicAra AyA thA mujhe vahA~ para, yoM hI chUkara calA gyaa| kyoMki ceharA naz2ara nahIM AyA, isalie yaha vicAra aayaa| a...ha...ha...! 'unako' 'gesTa' samajhA maiM unnIsa sAla kA thA, taba mere yahA~ beTe kA janma huaa| isakI khazI meM sAre phrenDa sarkala (mitramaMDala)ko peDe khilAye the aura jaba beTe kA dehAMta ho gayA taba bhI per3e khilAye the| taba saba kahane lage ki, 'kyA dUsarA AyA?' maiMne kahA, 'pahale per3e khAiye phira batAU~gA ki kyA huaa|' hA~, varanA zoka ke mAre per3e nahIM khAte, isalie pahale khulAsA nahIM kiyA aura peDe khilaaye| jaba sabhI ne khA lie taba batAyA ki, 'vaha jo mehamAna Aye the na. ve cale gaye!' isa para kahane lage ki, 'aisA koI karatA hai kyA? aura yaha per3e khilavAye Apane hameM!' yaha to hameM vamana karanA paDe aisI hAlata ho gaI hamArI!' maiMne kahA, "aisA kucha karane jaisA nahIM hai|
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________________ dAdA bhagavAna? dAdA bhagavAna? vaha mehamAna hI thA, gesTa hI thaa| aura gesTa ke Ane para kahate haiM 'Aiye, padhAriye' aura jAte samaya 'padhAranA' kaheM. aura kyA jhaMjhaTa karanI gesTa ke sAtha?" isa para sabane kahA kI, 'use thor3e gesTa kahate haiM? vaha to ApakA beTA thaa|' maiMne kahA ki, 'mere lie to vaha gesTa hI hai|' phira beTI ke janma para bhI yahI bAta doharAI gii| saba bhala gaye aura peDe khA lie| beTI ke dehAMta para bhI per3e khAye! hamAre loga kucha yAda thoDe hI rakhanevAle haiM? inheM bhUlane meM dera kitanI? logoM ko bhalane meM dera nahIM lgtii| dera lagatI hai kyA? mUrchita avasthA jo ThaharI! mUrchita avasthA mAne kyA, bhUlane meM dera hI nahIM lgtii| phira bhI mitroM ne mAnA, 'supara hyumana' praznakartA : aba Apane yaha jo satsaMga zurU kiyA vaha kisa umra meM? Apane sabhI ko per3e khilAye use satsaMga kaheM? dAdAzrI : nahIM, use satsaMga nahIM khte| vaha to merA darzana hai, eka taraha kI sUjha hai merii| satsaMga karIbana 1942 se zurU huaa| bayAlIsa se mAne Aja use ikatAlIsa sAla hue (1983 meN)| malataH satsaMga kI zurUAta bayAlIsa se huii| ATha meM merA janma, mAne merI cauMtIsa sAla kI umra hogii| vaise to battIsa sAla kI umra se hI satsaMga zurU huA thA matalaba ki pahale logoM ko thor3e-thor3e vAkya milate the shii| bAIsa sAla kI umra meM hI maiMne mitroM se kaha diyA thA ki. bhAIyoM Apa loga merA koI kArya kabhI bhI mata krnaa| ahaMkAra to coTI para hI thA, isalie kahA ki, 'Apa apanA kAma dera rAta bhI majha se karavA jaanaa|' isa para mitroM ne Apatti jatAI ki, 'aisA kyoM kahate haiM? hamArI-tumhArI karane kI kyA z2arUrata hai?' aisA huA ki eka AdamI ke yahA~ maiM rAta bAraha baje gayA thaa| isa para usa bhAI ke mana meM AyA ki kabhI itanI rAta gaye bAraha baje to Ate nahIM aura Aja Aye hai, matalaba kucha paise-vaise kI z2arurata hogI? arthAt usane ulaTA bhAva kiyaa| ApakI samajha meM AtA hai na? mujhe kucha nahIM cAhie thaa| usakI dRSTi meM mujhe aMtara naz2ara aayaa| pratidina kI jo dRSTi thI vaha dRSTi Aja bigaDI naz2ara aaii| aisA merI samajha meM Ane para ghara jAkara maiMne vizleSaNa kiyaa| mujhe mahasUsa huA ki saMsAra ke manuSyoM kI dRSTi bigar3ate dera nahIM lgtii| isalie hamAre sAtha jo loga rahate haiM, unheM eka aisI nirbhayatA pradAna kareM ki phira kisI bhI hAlata meM unakI daSTi meM parivartana nahIM aaye| isalie maiM ne kaha diyA ki, 'Apa meM se koI bhI merA koI kArya mata karanA kbhii| arthAta merA Dara Apake mana meM nahIM honA cAhie ki yaha kucha lene Aye hoNge|' taba kahe, 'aisA kyoM?' maiMne uttara diyA ki, 'maiM do hAthavAloM ke pAsa se kucha mA~gane ke haka meM nahIM huuN| kyoMki do hAthavAle khuda hI du:khI haiM aura ve sukha khojate haiN| maiM unase koI AzA nahIM karatA huuN| para Apa mujhase AzA rakhanA kyoMki Apa to khojate haiM aura Apako rajAmaMdI hai| mujhase ApakA kArya binA jhijhaka karavA jAnA, para merA koI kArya mata krnaa|' aisA bola diyA aura nirbhaya banA diye| isa para una loMgo ne kyA pratibhAva diyA ki 'binA supara hyumana ke koI aisA bola nahIM sktaa|' arthAt ve kyA bole, ki yaha supara hyumana kA svabhAva hai, hyumana kA necara nhiiN| niraMtara vicArazIla dazA 1928 meM maiM sinemA dekhane gayA thA, vahA~ mana meM mujhe yaha prazna uThA thA ki 'are! isa sinemA se hamAre saMskAroM kI kyA dazA hogI? aura ina logoM kI kyA hAlata hogI?' phira dUsarA vicAra AyA ki, 'kyA isa vicAra kA koI hala hai hamAre pAsa? hamAre pAsa koI sattA hai? hameM koI sattA to hai nahIM, isalie yaha vicAra hamAre kisI kAma kA nahIM hai| yadi sattA rahI to vicAra kAma AtA, jo vicAra sattA se pare ho, usake pIche lage rahanA vaha to ahaMkAra hai|' bAda meM dUsarA vicAra AyA ki, 'kyA yahI honevAlA hai isa hindustAna kA?' una dinoM jJAna nahIM huA thA, jJAna to 1958 meM huaa| usase pahale ajJAna to thA hI na? ajJAna koI le thor3e hI gayA thA? jJAna nahIM thA para ajJAna to thA hI para usa samaya ajJAna meM bhI yaha dikhAI diyA ki, 'jo itanI jaldI ulaTI bAta pracAra kara sake,
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________________ dAdA bhagavAna? dAdA bhagavAna? vaha sIdhI bAta kA pracAra utanI hI jaldI kregaa|' isalie sIdhI bAta ke pracAra hetu ve sAdhana sarvottama hai| yaha saba usa samaya socA thA, paraMtu 1958 meM jJAna prakaTa hone ke pazcAt usake bAre meM jarA-sA bhI vicAra nahIM AyA hai| jIvana meM niyama hI yahI rahA arthAt bacapana se maiMne yahI sIkhA thA ki, 'bhaiyA, tU mujhe Akara milA aura yadi tujhe kucha sukha prApta nahIM huA to merA tujha se milanA bekAra hai|' una milanevAloM se aisA maiM kahatA thaa| vaha cAhe kitanA bhI nAlAyaka ho, yaha mujhe nahIM dekhanA hai para yadi maiM tujhe milA aura merI ora se sugaMdhi nahIM AyI vaha kaise calA leM? yaha dhUpabattI nAlAyakoM ko sugaMdhi nahIM detI kyA? praznakartA : sabhI ko detI hai| dAdAzrI : usI prakAra yadi merI sugaMdhi tujha taka nahIM pahu~catI to phira merI sugaMdhi hI nahIM khlaaye| arthAt kucha lAbha honA hI caahie| aisA pahale se hI merA niyama rahA hai| nahIM huI, aisI merI mAnyatA thii| isalie vahA~ tapa hone dete the| para usa tapa kA dAg2a Aja taka banA huA hai! gayA nhiiN| tapa kA dAg2a sArI jindagI nahIM jaataa| yaha ulaTA mArga hai, yaha hamArI samajha meM A gayA thaa| tapa to bhItarI honA caahie| prApta tapa bhugatA, adiTha rUpa meM muMbaI se baDaudA kAra meM AnA thA, isalie baiThate hI kaha diyA ki, 'sAta ghaMTe eka hI jagaha baiThanA hogA, tapa AyA hai| hama Apake sAtha bAteM kareM, para bhItara meM hama se hamArI bAta calatI rahe ki, 'Aja Apako tapa AyA hai isalie eka akSara bhI mu~ha se mata nikaalnaa|' loga to AzvAsana ke lie pUchate raheM ki, dAdAjI Apako anukUlatA hai ki nahIM? taba kahate, 'pUrI anukUlatA hai|' para hama kisI ko bhI kamizana nahIM juTAte, kyoMki hama bhugteN| eka akSara bhI mu~ha se nikAle vaha dAdAjI nhiiN| ise kahate haiM, prApta tapa bhugtnaa| pratIkSA karane ke bajAya hameM rAta ke samaya bAhara se AnA par3e to hamAre jUtoM kI AvAz2a se kuttA jAga nahIM jAe, isalie hama paira dabAkara calate the| kuttoM ko bhI nIMda to hotI hai na? una becAroM ko kahA~ bichAnA nasIba meM? taba kyA unheM caina kI nIMda sone bhI nahIM denA? praznakartA : dAdAjI, yaha Apake pairoM meM gokharU kaise ho gaye? jaba bAIsa sAla kA thA taba eka dina eka jagaha kevala eka hI minaTa ke lie basa cUka gyaa| hAlola roDa para eka gA~va par3atA hai, vahA~ thA aura basa Akara nikala gii| vaise to maiM AyA thA eka ghaMTe pahale para haoNTela se bAhara Ane meM eka minaTa kI derI huI aura basa nikala gii| arthAt vaha viSAda kI ghar3I khlaaye| agara samaya para nahIM Ate aura basa nikala gaI hotI to hama samajhate ki calie, 'leTa' ho gye| usa hAlAta meM itanA viSAda nahIM hotaa| yaha to samaya se pahale Aye aura basa nahIM pakar3a pAye! aba dUsarI basa Der3ha ghaMTe ke bAda hI milatI thii| aba vahA~ Der3ha ghaMTA jo pratIkSA karanI par3I na, vahA~ merI kyA sthiti huI? mAne bhItara mazIna calane lagI! aba aise vakta meM kitanI jhaMjhaTa paidA hotI hai? majadUra ko pacAsa jhaMjhaTa hotI hai aura mujhe lAkha hove! kahIM jarAsA bhI caina nahIM Aye, na to khar3e rahanA bhAye ki na to koI 'Aiye, dAdAzrI : vaha to hamane AtmA prApta karane hetu tapa kiyA thA usakA pariNAma hai| vaha tapa kaisA ki jUte meM kIla Upara A jAe to use ThokanA nahIM, yoM hI calAte rhnaa| bAda meM hameM mAlama par3A ki yaha to hama ulaTI rAha cala rahe haiN| aisA tapa hamane kiyA thaa| jUte meM kIla bAhara nikala Aye aura pairoM meM cubhatI rahe usa samaya yadi AtmA hila jAe to Atma prApti
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________________ dAdA bhagavAna? dAdA bhagavAna? baiThiye' kahakara baiThane ko gaddI de vaha suhaaye| aba Der3ha ghaMTA to mAno bIsa ghaMTe samAna lge| isalie maiMne mana meM kahA ki, sabase bar3I mUrkhatA yadi koI hai to vaha pratIkSA karanA hai| kisI manuSya ke lie yA kisI vastu ke lie pratIkSA karanA usake samAna phulizanesa (mUrkhatA) aura koI nahIM isa duniyA meM! isalie taba se, bAIsa sAla kI umra se pratIkSA karanA baMda kara diyaa| aura jaba pratIkSA karane kA avasara A par3e taba usa ghar3I aura koI kAma sauMpa diyA karatA, pratIkSA to karanI hI par3atI hai, usakA to koI cArA nahIM hai na! para isakI tulanA meM hamane socA yaha pratIkSA karane kA samaya bar3A suMdara hai| varanA khAlI idhara-udhara jhA~kate phireM ki basa AI ki nahIM AI! isalie aise samaya para hamane aura prabaMdha kara diyA tAki bhItara hameM ArAma rhe| koI prabaMdha to kiyA jAe~ ki nahIM kiyA jAe~ hamase? praznakartA : kiyA jaaeN| dAdAzrI : kAma to anekoM hote haiM na? praznakartA : arthAt mana ko kAma para lagA dete? dAdAzrI : hA~, mana ko kAma para lagA denaa| praznakartA: kisa kAma meM lagAte? dAdAzrI : kisI prakAra kA prabaMdha kara sakate haiN| mAne una dinoM maiM kyA karatA thA? kisI saMta yA phira kapAladeva (zrImada rAjacaMdra) kI koI likhAI ho vaha maiM bolatA nahIM thA, par3hA karatA thaa| bolane para vaha raTAI khlaaye| use maiM par3hA karatA thA saaraa| ApakI samajha meM AtI hai yaha bAta? praznakartA : use kaise par3hate the, dAdAjI? binA pustaka ke kaise par3hate saMkalpa-vikalpa calA kreN| aura jaba kevala raTanA hI hogA to mana ho gayA bekaar| 'he prabhu, he prabhu' bolate rahe aura mana bekAra beThA phira bAhara calA gayA hotA hai| isalie maiMne eDajasTamenTa liyA thaa| tAki jaisA likhA ho vaisA naz2ara AtA rhe| jaise :- he prabhu, he prabhu kyA karU~, dInAnAtha dayAla, maiM to doSa anaMta kA bhAjana hU~ karuNAla! yaha hara zabda, akSarasaH mAtrA-bindI ke sAtha saba naz2ara aaye| kRpAludeva ne eka aura rAstA batalAyA thA ki ulaTe krama se pddh'naa| Akhira se lekara zurUAta taka aanaa| taba logoM ko isakI bhI prekTisa (Adata) ho gaI, Adata-sI ho gii| mana kA svabhAva hI aisA hai Apa jisameM piroyeMge, usakI Adata ho jAyegI, raTa legaa| aura aise par3hane meM raTanA nahIM hotA, naz2ara AnA caahie| isalie yaha hamArI sabase bar3I khoja hai, par3hane kii| aura phira hama dUsaroM ko bhI sIkhalAte haiN| ina sabhI ko sIkhalAyA ki par3hakara bolnaa| praznakartA : aba dAdAjI, bAIsaveM sAla meM bhI yaha tAqata thI, kyA? dAdAzrI : hA~, bAIsaveM sAla meM yaha tAqata thii| ulajhana meM khIlI aMtara sUjha yAnI merI isa ulajhana ke kAraNa yaha jJAna utpanna huaa| Der3ha ghaMTA yadi ulajhatA nahIM to....? la the| praznakartA : eka minaTa bhI nahIM cUkate... dAdAzrI: vaha eka minaTa ke lie cUkeM, usake phala svarUpa yaha jJAna paidA huaa| mAne ThokareM khA-khAkara yaha jJAna utpanna huA hai, sUjha paidA huI hai| jaba Thokara lage taba sUjha paidA ho jaae| aura vaha sUjha sadaiva mujhe helpiMga (sahAyaka) rahA kre| arthAt phira maiMne kabhI rAha nahIM dekhI kisI kii| bAIsaveM sAla ke pazcAt maiMne kisI kI rAha nahIM dekhii| gAr3I Aja dAdAzrI : binA pustaka ke par3hatA thaa| mujhe to 'he prabhu' akSara likhe hue naz2ara Aye aura maiM par3hatA rhuuN| varanA mana to raTegA aura phira sAre
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________________ dAdA bhagavAna ? 33 sAr3he tIna ghaMTe 'leTa' hai mAne hama phijUla TAIma (samaya) vyatIta nahIM kareMge aura hama upayogapUrvaka rheNge| aise prabaMdha kiyA kAunTara puliyoM kA aba rAha dekhanA aura phira jabaradasta 'rivaoNlyuzana'! ina majadUroM ko prati minaTa pacAsa 'rivaoNlyuzana' (mana kI socane kI gatizakti) hote haiM, jaba ki mere prati minaTa eka lAkha rivaoNlyuzana hote haiN| arthAt mere aura maz2adUroM ke bIca meM aMtara kitanA? unake pacAsa rivaoNlyuzana hone kI vajaha se jaba Apa unase koI bAta kaheM to unheM samajhane meM bahuta dera hogii| Apa sAdI-sI bAta, vyavahAra kI sIdhI-sI bAta batAyeMge to vaha bhI usakI samajha meM nahIM aayegii| isalie phira use alaga tarIke se samajhAyeM taba usake palle pdd'egii| aba mere rivaoNlyuzana adhika hone kI vaz2aha se merI bAta ina U~cI kaumavAloM kI samajha meM Ate bhI dera lagatI thii| hamAre samajhAne para bhI ve samajhate nahIM the| isalie maiM kyA kahatA thA ki, 'yaha nAlAyaka hai, kamaakla hai|' isakI vajaha se bhItara meM pAvara adhika bar3ha jAtA thaa| 'itanA samajhAne para bhI nahIM samajhatA ! kaisA mUrkha manuSya hai !' aisA kahakara usa para gussA karatA phiruuN| phira merI samajha meM AyA ki yaha rivaoNlyuzana kI vajaha se aisA hotA hai, jisake kAraNa usake dimAg2a meM utaratA nahIM hai| aba hama sAmanevAle kA kasUra batAyeM vaha hamArA kasUra hai| isalie phira maiMne puliyA~ denA zurU kara diyaa| kyoMki yadi paMdraha sau rivaoNlyuzana kA paMpa, tIna hajAravAle iMjana para calAyeMge to paMpa TUTa jaayegaa| isake lie phira pulI denI par3egI, kAunTara pulii| iMjana cAhe tIna hajAravAlA ho aura paMpa bhale hI paMdraha sauvAlA ho para bIca meM puliyA~ denI cAhie tAki paMpa taka paMdraha sau hI phuNce| kAunTara pulI ApakI samajha meM AtI hai? usI prakAra maiMne bhI phira logoM se bAta karate samaya kAunTara puliyA~ denA zurU kara diyaa| phira merA gussA honA baMda ho gyaa| bAta sAmanevAle kI samajha meM Aye, usa prakAra kAunTara pulI denI caahie| 34 dAdA bhagavAna? (3) ahaMkAra - mAna viruddha jAgRti nivAsasthAna kA cayana bhI vicArapUrvaka vaNika prakRti kA mAla thor3A kSatriya meM milAyeM aura kSatriya prakRti kA mAla thor3A vaNika meM milAyeM aura phira jo mikcara hogA vaha bahuta ThIka hogaa| dahIM yadi khaTTA-mIThA rahA to zrIkhaMDa maz2edAra bnegaa| isalie hamane pahale se hI kyA kiyA thA? pahale to hama paTeloM ke muhalle meM rahate the| hamAre bar3e bhaiyA kA vyavahAra paTeloM ke sAtha thaa| para vaha vyavahAra mujhe rAsa nahIM AtA thaa| maiM choTA thA para paTeloM ke sAtha rahanA mujhe rAsa nahIM AtA thaa| kyoM rAsa nahIM AtA thA? kyoMki yoM umra to bAIsa kI thI, para muMbaI kevala ghumane hetu jAyA karatA thA aura lauTate samaya muMbaI kA halavA, jo kiphAyatI dAmoM para milatA thA, vaha le AtA thA / jo hamArI bhaujI saba par3ausioM meM bA~TatI thiiN| aise eka-do bAra le gayA thA para eka bAra le jAnA bhUla gyaa| isa para sAre par3ausI, jina se bhaujI milatI, kahate 'isa bAra halavA nahIM lAe kyA?' mujhe lagA ki, 'yaha pIr3A jo nahIM thI kahA~ se mola lI?' pahale aisI pIr3A nahIM thii| koI 'nahIM lAe' kahakara apamAnita nahIM karatA thaa| yaha lAe, vahI hamArI bhUla ho gii| eka bAra lAe, dUsarI bAra lAe aura tIsarI bAra nahIM lAe ki tamAzA ho gayA / 'lIjiye, isa bAra nahIM lAe?' aba hama to pha~se / arthAt ina logoM ke sAtha vyavahAra karane yogya nahIM hai| bAkI una kSatriyoM kA sArA vyavahAra kaisA hotA hai? ve kaheMge, yadi jarUrata ho to hamArA sira utAra lenA para Apako hameM denA pdd'egaa| sira utArakara lene-dene kI hI taiyAriyA~ inake saude kaise? bar3e hI hoMge! saTTe kA bahuta bar3A bijanesa, sira hI kATa lenA aura utAra denaa| isalie hameM yaha sira kA lena-dena rAsa nahIM aayaa| hameM kisI kA sira nahIM cAhie aura vaha to hamArA sira mA~gane aaye| aise saudo meM hameM par3anA hI nahIM thA, isalie taya kiyA ki vaNika ke sAtha rahA jaaeN| eka AdamI ne mujha se pUchA thA ki rAvaNa kA rAjya kyoM jAtA rahA?
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________________ dAdA bhagavAna ? 35 taba maiMne use pUchA, 'kyoM jAtA rahA? mujhe jarA samajhAo na !' isa para usane batAyA ki, 'yadi sekreTarI pradhAna ke taura para eka baniyA rakhA hotA to use apanA rAjya nahIM ga~vAnA par3atA!' maiMne pUchA, 'kaise nahIM ga~vAtA? taba usane kahA ki, nArada ne jaba sItA ke bAre meM batAyA ki sItA bahuta hI rUpavatI hai, aisI hai, vaisI hai, usa samaya rAvaNa mana meM ukasAyA gayA ki kisI bhI taraha sItA prApta karanI hai| usa samaya yadi vaNika usakA amAtya hotA to samajhAtA ki 'sAhaba, z2arA dhairya dhAraNa kIjiye na, maiMne eka dUsarI sItA se bhI bar3hakara strI dekhI hai|' matalaba rAvaNa ko aina mauke para dUra kara detA aura eka bAra maukA hAtha se nikala gayA mAnoM sau sAla kA phAsalA ho jaae|' aisI bAta usa AdamI ne mujhe batAI thii| maiMne socA ki bAta to sayAnepana kI hai| mauke kA phAyadA uThAne ke lie aisA koI cAhie hI ! isalie ina vaNikoM ke sAtha, hamAre donoM ora par3osI vaNika haiM, unake sAtha ina cAlisa sAloM se rahatA hU~ / hamane ghara meM kaha diyA thA ki hamAre yahA~ koI kucha lene Aye to avazya denA, vApasa lauTAye to le lenA, para mA~ganA to kabhI nhiiN| eka bAra diyA ho, phira se dobArA denA par3e, tIsarI bAra denA par3e, aise sau bAra bhale hI denA par3e para vApasa lauTAne kA mata khnaa| lauTAyeM to le lenA / ina vaNikoM kA vyavahAra itanA lAjavAba ki usake yahA~ halue kA pUrA qatalA bhejeM ekabAra aura dUsarI bAra yadi AdhA yA cauthAI TukaDA bhejeMge taba bhI koI zora-zarAbA nahIM krte| aura ekAdha bAra yadi nahIM bhejeMge taba bhI hallA-gullA nhiiN| unake sAtha hameM rAsa AyegA / hameM zorazarAbevAloM ke sAtha rAsa nahIM aataa| usake bAda maiMne eka vaNika ko munIma kI naukarI dI thii| eka bhAI mujha se kahane Aye ki 'Apako vaNikoM se bahuta lagAva hai, to isa vaNika ko naukarI para rakheMge kyA?' maiMne kahA, 'A jAo, kArakhAne para itane sAre loga kAma karate haiM aura tUM ThaharA vaNika yaha to behatara hogA ! ' aise sadaiva apane sAtha vaNika rakhA karatA thA / 36 dAdA bhagavAna ? vaha saba mAna ke khAtira hI roz2AnA cAra-cAra gADiyA~ ghara ke Age khar3I ho| mAmA kA mohallA, saMskArI mohallA | Aja se paiMtAlIsa sAla pahale loga baMgaloM meM kama rahate the| baDaudA mAmA kA mohallA sabase bar3hakara ginA jAtA thA / una dinoM hama vahA~ mAmA ke mohalle meM rahA karate the aura kirAyA paMdraha rupaye mAhavAra thaa| una dinoM loga sAta rupaye kirAye ke makAnoM meM par3e rahate the| aba vahA~ mAmA ke mohalle meM ve baMgaloM meM rahanevAle moTareM lekara hamAre pAsa AyA karate the| kyoMki musIbatoM meM pha~se hue hote the, isalie yahA~ para Ate, ulaTA-sIdhA karake Ate the, taba bhI unako 'pichale daravAje se' bAhara nikAla detA thA (apanI sUjhabUjha se musIbata meM se nikalane kA rAstA dikhAtA thaa)| pichalA daravAjA dikhAtA thA ki isa daravAje se nikala jaaiye| aba gunAha usane kiyA ho aura pichale daravAje se maiM chuDavA detA / arthAt gunAha apane sira liyaa| kisa lie? usa mAna ke khAtira / 'pichale daravAje se' bhagA denA gunAha nahIM kyA? vaise akla lar3Akara rAstA dikhAyA hove, isalie ve baca nikalate the| isalie ve hameM sammAna se rakhate, para gunAha hamAre sira AtA / phira samajha meM AyA ki abhAnAvasthA meM yaha sAre gunAha hote haiM, mAna ke khAtira hI / phira mAna pakar3a meM aayaa| mAna kI bar3I ciMtA rahatI thii| praznakartA : mAna ApakI pakar3a meM AyA, phira mAna ko mArA kaise? dAdAzrI : mAna maratA nahIM hai| mAna ko isa taraha upazama kiyaa| bAkI, mAna maratA nahIM hai| kyoMki mAranevAlA khuda ho to phira mAregA kise ? khuda apane ko kaise mAregA? ApakI samajha meM AyA? isalie upazama kiyA aura jyoM-tyoM karake dina gujAreM / vaha ahaMkAra kATatA rahatA dina-rAta hamArI buddhi jarA jyAdA kUda-phA~da kiyA karatI thI aura ahaMkAra kI kUda - phA~da bhI adhika thii| mere bar3e bhaiyA bahuta ahaMkArI the, vaise parsanAliTIvAle AdamI the, unako dekhate hI sau AdamI to idhara-udhara ho
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________________ dAdA bhagavAna? 37 dAdA bhagavAna? jaate| kevala A~kha kI parsanAliTI hI aisI thii| A~khoM aura cehare kA prabhAva hI aisA thA!! maiM dekhakara hI kahatA, 'majhe to unakA Dara rahatA hai|' phira bhI ve mujhe kyA kahate ki 'maiMne tere jaisA ahaMkArI aura koI nahIM dekhA!' are, maiM to Apase bhar3akatA huuN| phira bhI akele meM kahA karate ki, maiMne tere jaisA ahaMkAra aura kahIM nahIM dekhA! aura vAstava meM vaha ahaMkAra bAda meM merI dRSTi meM aayaa| vaha ahaMkAra jaba mujhe kATatA thA taba mAlUma huA ki bar3e bhaiyA jo batAte the, vaha yahI ahaMkAra hai sArA ! 'mujhe aura kucha nahIM cAhie thA' mAne lobha nAma mAtra ko nahIM aisA ahaMkAra! eka bAla barAbara bhI lobha nhiiN| aba isalie vaha mAna kaisA hogA? yadi mAna aura lobha vibhAjita hue hote to mAna thor3A kama huA hI hotA... mana se mAnA huA mAna mana meM to aisA gumAna ki mAnoM isa duniyA meM maiM hI hU~, dUsarA koI hai hI nhiiN| dekhiye, khuda ko nA jAne kyA samajha baiThe the! milkiyata meM kucha nhiiN| dasa bIghA jamIna aura eka makAna, usake alAvA aura kacha nahIM thaa| magara mana meM rauba kaisA? mAno carotara ke rAjA ho! kyoMki AsapAsa ke chaha gA~va ke logoM ne hameM bahakAyA thaa| dahejiyA dulhA, mA~ge utanA daheja mile taba dulhA byAhane para rAjI hove| usakA dimAga meM khumAra rahA karatA thaa| kucha pUrvabhava kI kamAI lAyA thA, isalie aisI khumArI thI sArI! gaI, usake 'hebicyuaiTaDa' ho gye| aba mAna jaba itanA bhArI hogA to usakI rakSA bhI karanI par3egI na! isalie phira yadi koI bhUla se jaldI meM 'aMbAlAlabhAI' nahIM bola pAye aura 'aMbAlAla' kahakara pukAre to usameM thor3e hI usakA gunAha hai? chaha akSara eka sAtha jaldI meM kaise bola pAtA koI? praznakartA : kyA Apa aisI AzA karate the? dAdAzrI : are, merA to phira mola-taula zurU ho jAtA ki 'isane mujhe aMbAlAla kahA? apane Apako kyA samajhatA hai? kyA, usase aMbAlAlabhAI nahIM bolA jAtA?' gA~va meM dasa-bAraha bIghA jamIna ho aura kacha rauba jamAne jaisA nahIM para mana meM to na jAne apane Apako kyA samajha baiThe the? 'hama chaha gA~vavAle, paTela, dahejavAle!' aba sAmanevAlA 'aMbAlAlabhAI' nahIM kahatA, taba merI sArI rAta nIMda harAma ho jAtI, vyAkulatA rhtii| lIjiye!! usameM kyA prApti honevAlI thI? usase mu~ha kucha thor3e hI mIThA hotA hai? manuSya ko kaisA svArtha rahatA hai? aisA svArtha jisameM kucha svAda bhI nahIM AtA ho| phira bhI mAna liyA thA, vaha bhI lokasaMjJA kI mAnyatA! logoM ne bar3A banAyA aura logoM ne bar3appana kI mAnyatA bhI dI! magara aisA logoM kA mAnA huA kisa kAma kA? ye gAya-bhaiMsa hamArI ora dRSTi kareM aura sabhI gAyeM hameM dekhatI raha jAeM aura phira kAna hilAe to kyA hama aisA samajheM ki ve hamArA sammAna karatI haiM, aise?! yaha saba usake samAna hai| hama hamAre mana se mAna leM ki ye loga saba sammAna se dekha raheM hai, mana kI mAnyatA! ve to sAre apaneapane duHkha meM DUba hue haiM becAre, apanI-apanI ciMtA meM haiN| ve kyA Apake lie baiThe rahe haiM, binA kisI kAma ke? apanI-apanI ciMtA lie cakkara lagA rahe haiM sabhI! pasaMdIdA ahaMkAra duHkhadAyI huA usa samaya AsapAsa ke loga kyA kahate? bahuta sukhI mAnuSa! kaoNnTrekTa kA vyavasAya, paise aate-jaate| logoM se bahuta prem| logoM ne bhI usameM bhI mere bar3e bhaiyA to jabaradasta khumArI rakhate the| mere bar3e bhaiyA ko maiM 'mAnI' kahA karatA thaa| taba ve mujhe mAnI batAte the| eka dina mujhe kahane lage, 'tere jaisA mAnI maiMne nahIM dekhaa|' maiMne pUchA, 'kahA~ para Apako merA mAna naz2ara AyA?' taba kahane lage, 'hara bAta ko lekara terA mAna hotA hai|' aura usake bAda khojane para pratyeka bAta meM merA mAna dikhAI diyA aura vahI majhe kATatA thaa| mAna kaise paidA ho gayA thA? ki saba loga, 'aMbAlAlabhAI, aMbAlAlabhAI!' kahA karate the, aMbAlAla to koI kahatA hI nahIM thA na! chaha akSara se pukAre, isalie phira usakI Adata sI ho
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________________ dAdA bhagavAna? dAdA bhagavAna? premadRSTi kabUla kI, ki bhagavAna jaise mAnuSa, bahuta sukhI mAnuSa! loga kahate sukhI mAnuSa aura maiM ciMtA apAra kiyA karatA thaa| eka dina nIMda hI nahIM A rahI thI, ciMtA miTatI nahIM thii| phira baiTha gayA aura eka puDiyA banAI, jisameM (mana se) sArI ciMtAe~ rkhii| aise lapeTA, vaise lapeTA aura Upara vidhi kI aura phira do takiyoM ke bIca rakhakara so gayA, taba barAbara kI nIMda A gii| aura phira sabere uThakara usa puDiyA ko vizvAmitrI nadI meM bahA dii| phira ciMtA kama ho gii| para jaba 'jJAna' huA taba sAre saMsAra ko dekhA aura jaanaa| dAdAzrI : vaha chor3ane se chUTatA nahIM, ahaMkAra chUTatA hai kahIM? vaha to sUrata ke sTezana para yaha jJAna prakaTa ho gayA aura apane Apa chUTa gyaa| bAkI, chor3ane se chUTatA nahIM hai| chor3anevAlA kauna? ahaMkAra ke rAjya meM chor3anevAlA kauna? jahA~ rAjA hI ahaMkAra ho, use kauna chor3egA? usa dina se 'maiM' alaga hI svarUpa meM praznakartA : Apako jo jJAna prApta haA usa prasaMga kA thoDA-sA varNana kIjiye na! usa samaya Apake kyA manobhAva the? praznakartA : para 'jJAna' se pahale bhI yaha jAgRti to thI na, ki yaha ahaMkAra hai, aisI? dAdAzrI : hA~, yaha jAgRti to thii| ahaMkAra hai yaha bhI mAlUma hotA thA, para vaha pasaMda thaa| phira jaba bahuta kATA taba patA calA ki yaha hamArA mitra nahIM ho sakatA, yaha to hamArA duzmana hai, isameM kisI meM maz2A nahIM hai| praznakartA : vaha ahaMkAra kaba se duzmana lagane lagA? dAdAzrI : rAta ko nIMda nahIM Ane detA thA, isalie samajha gayA ki yaha kisa prakAra kA ahaMkAra hai| isalie to eka rAta meM pur3iyA banAkara subaha jAkara vizvAmitrI meM bahA AyA! aura kyA karatA? praznakartA : mAne pur3iyA meM kyA rakhA? dAdAzrI : sArA ahaMkAra! aisA saba nahIM caahie| kisake khAtira yaha saba? binA bajaha ke, na lenA, na denA! loga kaheM ki 'apAra sukhiyA hai' aura majhe to kahIM sUkha kA chIMTA bhI naz2ara nahIM AtA ho, bhItara ahaMkAra kI apAra ciMtA-parezAniyA~ hotI rhe| dAdAzrI : mere manobhAva meM kisI prakAra kA koI vizeSabhAva nahIM thaa| maiM to isa ora tApti relave lAIna para sonagaDha-vyArA nAmaka jagaha hai vahA~ merA biz2anesa thA, vahA~ se maiM lauTakara sUrata sTezana para AyA thaa| taba eka bhAI hamezA mere sAtha rahA karate the| una dinoM maiM sUryanArAyaNa ke asta hone se pahale bhojana kiyA karatA thA, isalie Trena meM hI bhojana kara liyA thA aura sUrata ke sTezana para chaha baje Trena se utare the| usa samaya sAthavAle bhAI, bhojana ke jUThe bartana dhone ko gaye the aura maiM relve kI benca para akelA baiThA thaa| mujhe usa samaya yaha 'jJAna' utpanna ho gayA ki jagata kyA hai aura kaise cala rahA hai, kauna calA rahA hai aura yaha saba kaise cala rahA hai, vaha sArA hisAba naz2ara meM A gyaa| isalie usa dina merA igoijma (ahaMkAra) aura saba kucha khatama ho gyaa| phira maiM alaga hI svarUpa meM rahane lagA, vidAUTa igoijma aura vidAUTa mamatA (binA ahaMkAra aura binA mamatA ke)! paTela usI taraha, pahale kI taraha hI the, para 'maiM' alaga svarUpa ho gayA thA! taba se niraMtara samAdhi ke sivA, eka sekinDa ke lie bhI, aura kucha rahA nahIM hai| sUrata sTezana para kyA naz2ara AyA? vaha ahaMkAra kaba chUTA? praznakartA : usa ahaMkAra ko chor3ane kA mana kaba huA? vaha pAgala ahaMkAra Apane kaba chor3a diyA? praznakartA : dAdAjI, jaba Apako sUrata ke sTezana para jJAna huA, taba kaisA anubhava huA thA?
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________________ dAdA bhagavAna ? 41 dAdAzrI : sArA brahmAMDa naz2ara AyA ! yaha jagata kaise cala rahA hai, kauna calAtA hai, saba naz2ara aayaa| Izvara kyA hai, maiM kauna hU~ yaha kauna hai, yaha saba kisa AdhAra para A milatA hai, yaha saba naz2ara aayaa| phira samajha meM A gayA aura paramAnaMda ho gyaa| phira sAre rahasya khula gae ! zAstroM meM pUrNa rUpa se likhA nahIM hotaa| zAstroM meM to jahA~ taka zabda pahu~cate haiM vahA~ taka kA likhA hotA hai aura jagata to zabdoM se bahuta Age hai| bhIr3a meM ekAMta aura prakaTa bhaye bhagavAna praznakartA : sUrata kesTezana para jo anubhUti huI, jo ekadama DAirekTa prakAza AyA, vaha apane Apa anAyAsa hI huA kyA? dAdAzrI : hA~, anAyAsa hI, apane Apa hI utpanna ho gyaa| sUrata ke sTezana para eka benca para baiThA thA, bahuta bhIr3a thI, para yaha anAyAsa hI utpanna ho gayA ! praznakartA: tatpazcAt ? dAdAzrI : phira saba pUrNa rUpa se hI dikhAI diyA, tatpazcAt sArA parivartana hI A gayA ! praznakartA: usa samaya duniyA ke sAre loga to vahIM ke vahIM hI hoMge na? dAdAzrI : hA~, phira to manuSyoM ke pekiMga dikhAI dene lage aura pekiMga ke bhItara kA mAla bhI dikhAI dene lgaa| verAITIja oNpha pekiMga (taraha-taraha ke pekiMga) aura mAla (AtmA) eka hI taraha kA ! arthAt usI kSaNa sArA saMsAra hI bhinna dikhAI diyA vahA~ para / praznakartA: jJAna ke pazcAt vyavahAra kA kArya hotA thA kyA? dAdAzrI : behatarIna hotA thaa| pahale to ahaMkAra vyavahAra ko kaluSita karatA thA / praznakartA: pada meM jo 'bhIr3a meM ekAMta aura kolAhala meM zukla 42 dAdA bhagavAna ? dhyAna' likhA hai usakA yadi thor3A vivaraNa kiyA jAe to? dAdAzrI : 'bhIr3a meM ekAMta' ke mAne kyA hai ki manuSya ekAMta meM ekAMta rUpa se nahIM raha sakatA hai, kyoMki usakA mana hai na! isalie jahA~ bhIr3a ho usameM ekAMta ! phira 'kolAhala meM zukla dhyAna' utpanna huaa| irdagirda itanA kolAhala ki kyA kaheM? logoM kI bhIr3a thI aura maiM apane zukla dhyAna meM thA / arthAt sArA saMsAra pUrA kA pUrA mujhe jJAna meM dikhAI diyaa| jaisA hai vaisA naz2ara aayaa| praznakartA: aisI avasthA kitanI dera ke lie rahI? dAdAzrI : eka hI ghaMTA! eka ghaMTe meM to saba ekjhekTa hI ho gyaa| phira to sArA parivartana huA, vaha naz2ara aayaa| ahaMkAra to mUla se hI gAyaba ho gyaa| krodha- mAna-mAyA-lobha sArI kamajoriyA~ calI gii| maiMne aisI to AzA bhI nahIM kI thii| loga mujhase savAla karate haiM ki 'Apako jJAna kaise huA?' maiMne pUchA, 'Apa naqala karanA cAhate haiM to isakI naqala honA duzvAra hai| disa ija baTa naicurala (yaha sahaja prAkRtika hai)! yadi naqala karane yogya hotA to maiM hI batA detA ki bhaiyA, maiM isa rAha gayA, idhara gayA, udhara gayA, isalie mujhe yaha prApta huaa| aura maiM jisa rAha gayA thA na, usa rAha para itanA bar3A puraskAra milanA saMbhava hI nahIM thaa| maiM to kucha sAdhAraNa phAiva parasenTa (pA~ca pratizata) kI AzA karatA thA ki yadi hamArI mehanata phale to isameM se hameM ekAdha pratizata bhI mila jaae|' dinAMka se nahIM sarokAra praznakartA: dAdAjI, Apako jJAna huA usa dina tArIkha kauna sI thI ? dAdAzrI : vaha sAla to aTThAvana (1958) kA thA / para tArIkha to, hameM kyA mAlUma ki usako noTa karane kI naubata AyegI ! aura kabhI koI noTa mA~gegA yaha bhI mAlUma nahIM thA na ! maiMne to jAnA ki aba hamArA hala nikala AyA /
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________________ dAdA bhagavAna? 43 dAdA bhagavAna? praznakartA : usa para upayoga dekara khojanA to par3egA na? dAdAzrI : nahIM, nahIM, vaha to yadi tArIkha milanI hogI to apane Apa mila aayegii| isa samaya hama kyoM jhaMjhaTa meM par3e? praznakartA : usa samaya bArIza kA mausama thA kyA? dAdAzrI : nahIM, vaha bArIza aura garamI ke bIca kA mausama thaa| praznakartA : julAI kA mahInA thA kyA? dAdAzrI : vaha julAI nahIM, jUna thaa| hameM usase koI sarokAra hI nahIM thA, hameM to ujiyArA haA usase sarokAra thaa| praznakartA : loga pIche se jAnane ko betAba hoMge na? dAdAzrI : betAba hoMge taba sAmane A bhI sakatA hai! z2arUrata hogI taba nikala aayegaa| aise karanA pratikramaNa are, usa samaya ajJAna-avasthA meM hamArA ahaMkAra bhArI thA! phalA~ aise, phalA~ vaise, nirA tiraskAra, tiraskAra, tiraskAra, tiraskAra.... aura kabhI kisI ko sarAhate bhI shii| eka ora isako sarAhateM aura dUsarI ora usakA tiraskAra krte| aura jaba 1958 meM jJAna prakaTa huA taba se e. ema. paTela ko bola diyA ki jisake jisake tiraskAra kiye hai, una AdamIoM ko khoja-khojakara, ve tiraskAra ko sAbUna DAlakara dho DAliye, isalie eka-eka ko khojakara sabhI bArI bArI se dhote rheN| isa ora ke par3osI, usa ora ke par3osI, sAre parivAravAle, cAcA, mAmA saba ke sAtha tiraskAra huA hotA hai, binA vajaha ! una sabhI ko dho ddaalaa| praznakartA : arthAt mana se pratikramaNa kiyA, rUbarU jAkara nahIM? dAdAzrI : maiMne e.ema.paTela se kahA ki yaha Apake kiye sAre ulaTe kAma mujhe naz2ara Ate haiN| aba to ina sabhI ulaTe kiyoM ko dho ddaaliye| isalie unhoMne kyA karanA zurU kiyA? kaise dhoyA? maiMne taba unako samajhAyA ki yAda kiijiye| caMdubhAI ko gAliyA~ sunAI hai, sArI jindagI bhalA-burA kahA hai, tiraskRta kiyA hai, yaha saba varNana karake kahanA, 'he caMdubhAI, mana-vacana-kAyA kA yoga, dravyakarma, bhAvakarma, nokarma se bhinna, prakaTa zuddhAtmA bhagavAna! caMdubhAI meM sthita zaddhAtmA bhagavAna ! maiM bArabAra caMdubhAI kI mAfI cAhatA hU~, dAdA bhagavAna ko sAkSI rakhakara mAfI mA~gatA haiM aura phira se aise doSa nahIM kruuNgaa|' yadi Apa aisA kareMge taba Apa sAmanevAle ke cehare kA parivartana dekha liijiye| usakA ceharA badalA huA naz2ara aayegaa| Apa yahA~ pratikramaNa kareM aura vahA~ parivartana hotA rhe| isa jJAna ke prAkaTya ke pazcAt yaha sAre sAyanTiphika sarakamasTenziyala eviDansIsa A mileM aura sUrata ke sTezana para kAla A milaa| usa kAla ko lekara yaha jJAna prakaTa ho gayA, ki jagata kisa AdhAra para cala rahA hai, kaise cala rahA hai yaha saba, sArA vijJAna dikhAI par3A, bAhara kI A~kha se nahIM, aMdarUnI A~kha se| basa usI kSaNa se sArA ahaMkAra calA gyaa| 'maiM deha ha~' vaha saba ur3a gyaa| pUrNatayA jJAnadazA hai tatkSaNa se| aba vahA~ baDaudA meM jJAnadazA meM rahatA thaa| mUla pahalevAle karma kI vajaha se sAre phrenDa sarkala kA AnA-jAnA hotA rahatA thaa| pahale kI taraha logoM se, 'Apa kaise haiM? kyA huA? kyA nahIM, yaha saba hotA rahatA thA, para usameM jo pahale mamatA thI vaha nahIM rhii| pahale mAna ke poSaNa hetu maiM bolatA thaa| kisI kA koI kArya maiMne muphta meM nahIM kiyA hai usakI evaz2a meM merA mAna kA poSaNa hotA rahA hai, itanA hii| arthAt binA evaz2a ke to koI kArya hotA hI nahIM hai| para aba vahI kArya mAna kI apekSA ke bagaira hone lgaa| jJAna prakaTa hone ke pazcAt cAra sAla gujara gye| vahA~ taka kisI ko mAlUma nahIM thA ki inako kucha prApti huI hai| phira sArI bhIr3a hone lagI (loga jJAnaprApti ke lie Ane lge)|
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________________ dAdA bhagavAna? dAdA bhagavAna? (4) sAjhedArI meM vyavasAya karate... naukarI meM mile utanA hI ghara kharca ke lie hamane bacapana meM taya kiyA thA ki jahA~ taka ho sake jhUTha kI lakSmI ghara meM ghusane nahIM denI hai aura yadi saMyogAdhIna ghusa jAe to use dhaMdhe meM hI rahane denI, ghara meM ghusane nahIM denI hai| isalie Aja hameM chiyAsaTha sAla ho gaye para jhUTha kI lakSmI ko ghara meM ghusane nahIM diyA aura ghara meM kabhI bhI kleza paidA nahIM huaa| ghara meM taya kiyA thA ki itane paisoM se ghara claanaa| dhaMdhe meM lAkhoM kI kamAI ho, para yadi yaha e.ema.paTela sarvisa (naukarI) karane jAe to kitanA vetana mile? jyAdA se jyAdA chahasausAtasau rupaiyA mile| dhaMdhA, to puNyAI kA khela hai| isalie naukarI meM mujhe jitanA mile utane paisoM kA hI ghara meM kharca kiyA jAe, zeSa dhaMdhe meM hI rahane denA caahiye| inkamaTaiksavAloM kA khata Aye to hama kaheM ki vaha rakama hai use bhara diijiye|' kauna sA 'aTaika' kaba hogA usakA koI ThikAnA nahIM hai aura yadi una paisoM ko kharca kara diyA taba vahA~ inkamaTaiksavAloM kA 'aTaika' hogA hI, para sAtha-sAtha yahA~ dUsarA 'aTaika' (hArTa kA) bhI AyegA! hara jagaha 'aTaika' hone lage haiM na? ise jIvana kaise kaheM? Apako kyA lagatA hai? bhUla hotI lagatI hai yA nahIM? hameM usa bhUla ko miTAnI hai| lakSmI kI na kamI, na bharAva ugAhI kare taba parezAnI Aye na ! yaha sana bayAlIsa kI bAta hai, una dinoM phrenDasarkala meM rupayoM kA lena-dena claa| una rupayoM ko phira vApasa lauTAne koI nahIM aayaa| pahale to kisIko rupaye dene para koI do sau-pA~ca sau nahIM lauTA thA taba taka ThIka thaa| mere pAsa thA isalie maiMne sabhI dostoM ko helpa (madada) kI thI, magara bAda meM eka bhI lauTAne nahIM aayaa| isa para mere aMdara se AvAz2a AI ki, 'yaha acchA huA, yadi rupayoM kI phira se ugAhI kareMge to phira se udhAra mA~gane aayeNge|' ugAhI karane para thor3e-thoDe karake pA~ca hajAra lauTAe jarUra magara phira se dasa hajAra lene aayeN| isalie yadi lene AnevAle ko baMda karanA ho to yaha rAstA uttama hai| hama itane se hI roka lagA deM, tAlA lagA deN| ugAhI kareMge to phira se AyeMge na! aura una logoM ne kyA niSkarSa nikAlA ki, 'ugAhI hI nahIM karate. caliye hamArA kAma bana gyaa|' isalie phira ve mu~ha dikhAne se hI bAz2a Aye aura mujhe yahI cAhie thaa| matalaba ki 'bhalA huA, miTA jaMjAla, sUkha se bhajeMge zrI gopAla' arthAt usa samaya yaha kalA hastagata huI! hamArA eka pahacAnavAlA rupayA udhAra le gayA thaa| phira lauTAne hI nahIM aayaa| isa para hamArI samajha meM A gayA ki yaha baira se ba~dhA hogA, isalie bhale hI le gyaa| Upara se usase kaha diyA ki, 'tU aba hameM rupayA lauTAne mata AnA, tujhe chUTa dete haiN|' aise yadi paise ga~vAnA par3e to ga~vAkara bhI baira se mukti paaiye| udhAra diyA thA use hI dubArA diyA! kaise pha~se? aisA hai na ki saMsAra meM lena-dena to calatA hI rahatA hai| kabhI kisI se lie hote haiM, kabhI kisI ko denA par3atA hai, arthAt kabhI kisI AdamI ko kucha rupaye udhAra diye aura usane nahIM lauTAe, to isake kAraNa mana ko kleSa to hogA hI na? mana meM hotA rahe ki, 'vaha kaba lauTAyegA? kaba vApasa karegA?' isakA koI aMta hai kyA? hamAre sAtha bhI aisA hI huA thA na ! paise vApasa nahIM Ane para usakI mujhe kabhI lakSmI kI kamI nahIM par3I aura bharAva bhI nahIM huaa| lAkha Ane se pahale kahIM na kahIM se bama A giregA (kucha aisA ho jAe) aura kharca ho jaayeNge| mAne bharAva to hotA hI nahIM hai kabhI, aura kamI bhI nahIM hotI hai, aura kucha dabAkara bhI nahIM rakhA hai| kyoMki yadi hamAre pAsa jhUTha kA paisA Aye taba dabAnA par3egA na? aisA galata dhana hI nahIM AtA to dabAe~ kaise? aura aisA hameM cAhie bhI nhiiN| hameM to kamI nahIM ho aura bharAva nahIM hotA mAne bahuta ho gyaa|
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________________ dAdA bhagavAna? dAdA bhagavAna? ciMtA to hama pahale se hI nahIM kiyA karate the| yoM sAdhAraNa rUpa se Takorate, use kahate jarUra the| hamane eka AdamI ko pA~ca sau rupaye udhAra diye the, dene para bahIkhAte meM darja to nahIM kiyA hotA ki na hI koI kAgaz2a para dastakhata karavAye hote the! isako sAla-Der3ha sAla ho gayA hogaa| majhe bhI kabhI yAda nahIM AyA thaa| eka dina vaha AdamI mujhe rAste meM mila gayA, mujhe yAda Ane para maiMne usase kahA ki, 'yadi aba hAtha para rahate ho to mere pA~ca sau jo udhAra lie the, use lauTA diijiye|' isa para usane pUchA ki 'pA~ca sau kAhe ke?' maiMne yAda dilAyA ki, 'Apa jo mujha se udhAra le gaye the na ve|' yaha sunane para vaha kahane lagA ki, 'Apane majhe kaba diye the? rupaye to maiMne Apako udhAra diye the, yaha Apa bhUla gaye haiM kyA?' isa para mujhe koI hairAnI nahIM huii| kucha samaya rUkakara, maiMne kahA ki, 'mujhe jarA socane diijiye|' thor3I dera socane kA dikhAvA karake maiMne kahA ki, 'hA~, yAda AyA sahI, aisA kIjiye, Apa kala Akara le jaaiye|' phira dUsare dina rupaye de diye| vaha AdamI yahA~ Akara hamase ulajhane lage ki Apa mere rupaye kyoM nahIM lauTAte to kyA kareMge hama? aisI kaI ghaTanA hone ke udAharaNa hai| isalie isa saMsAra ko kaise pAra kara sakate haiM? hamane kisI ko yadi rupaye udhAra diye ho to vaha kapar3e kI kAlI ciMdI meM bA~dhakara dariyA meM DAla dene ke bAda vApasa milane kI AzA karane ke barAbara hai| yadi vApasa A jAe to jamA kara lenA aura denevAle ko cAya-pAnI pilAkara kahanA ki, 'bhAIjI, ApakA RNa samajhanA cAhie ki Apane rupayA lauTAyA varanA aise kAla meM koI bhI lauTAtA nhiiN| Apane lauTAyA yaha ajUbA khlaaye|' vaha kahe ki, 'vyAja nahIM milegaa|' taba kahanA, 'mUla dhana lAyA itanA hI kAphI hai|' samajha meM AtA hai? aisA saMsAra hai| udhAra liyA hai use lauTAne meM kaSTa hotA hai aura udhAra denevAle ko vApasa na Ane kA duHkha hai| aba inameM sukhI kauna? aura hai vyavasthita (sAyanTiphika sarakamasTenziyala eviddns)| nahIM lauTAtA vaha bhI vyavasthita hai aura mujhe Dabala dene par3e vaha bhI vyavasthita hai| praznakartA : Apane dUsare pA~ca sau kyoM diye? dAdAzrI : dobArA kisI avatAra meM usa AdamI ke sAtha pAlA nahIM par3e islie| itanI jAgRti rahe na, ki yaha to galata jagaha A gye| ThagAye, magara kaSAya na karane hetu hamAre sAjhIdAra ne eka bAra hamase kahA ki, 'loga Apake bholepana kA lAbha uThAte haiN| maiMne kahA, 'Apa mujhe bholA samajhate haiM isalie Apa hI bhole haiM, maiM to samajha-bUjha ke sAtha ThagAtA huuN|' isa para usane kahA, 'aba maiM aisA nahIM boluuNgaa'| maiM samajhU ki isa becAre kI mati hI aisI hai, usakI nIyata aisI hai, isalie jAne dIjiye, leTa go kIjiye! hama kaSAyoM se makta hone Aye haiN| hama kaSAya nahIM ho isalie ThagAte haiN| isalie dobArA bhI tthgaayeNge| jAna-bUjhakara Thage jAne meM majA AyegA ki nahIM? jAna-bUjhakara ThagAnevAle kama hoMge na? praznakartA : hote hI nhiiN| dAdAzrI : bacapana se merA 'prinsipala' (siddhAMta) rahA thA ki samajhakara ThagAnA! bAkI koI mujhe ullU banAye aura Thaga jAe usa bAta meM koI dama nahIM hai| yaha jAna-bUjhakara Thage jAne para kyA huA? brena TaoNpa para pahu~ca gayA, bar3e-bar3e jajoM kA brena kAma nahIM karatA aise kAma karane lgaa| jaja jo hote haiM ve bhI samajha ke sAtha ThagAnevAloM meM se hote haiN| aura jAna-bUjhakara Thage jAne para brena TaoNpa para pahu~ca jAtA hai| para dekhanA, tU aisA prayoga mata krnaa| tUne to jJAna liyA hai na? yaha to jaba jJAna nahIM liyA ho taba aisA prayoga karanA hai| arthAt jAna-bUjhakara ThagAnA hai, para vaha kisake sAtha aise ThagAnA hai? jisake sAtha hamArA rojAnA vyavahAra ho usake sAtha! aura bAhara bhI kabhIkabhI kisI se ThagAnA, magara samajha-bUjhakara! sAmanevAlA samajhe ki maiMne ise Thaga liyA aura hama samajhe ki use ullU bnaayaa| dhaMdhe meM bhI opana Tu skAya dhaMdhe ke bAre meM to maiM sabakucha jaisA ho vaisA batA detA thaa| isa
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________________ dAdA bhagavAna? dAdA bhagavAna? para eka AdamI kahane lagA ki, 'aisA kyoM batA dete haiM?' taba maiMne kahA ki, 'jise logoM ke pAsa se rupayA lona(karja) para lenA ho vaha gupta rkhegaa| hameM kucha lona kI z2arUrata nahIM hai| aura yadi koI denA cAheM to sareAma de| hamArA to oNpana Tu skAya jaisA hai| isalie kaha detA ki isa sAla bIsa hajAra kA ghATA huA hai| yaha maiM oNpana hI kaha detaa| jhaMjhaTa hI nahIM na!' hisAba milA aura ciMtA samApta jJAna hone se pahale hamAre dhaMdhe meM eka bAra kyA haA ki eka sAhaba ne hamArA yakAyaka ekadama se dasa hajAra kA nukasAna kara diyA. hamArA eka kAma sAhaba ne yakAyaka nAmaMjUra kara diyaa| una dinoM dasa hajAra rupaye kI bahuta bar3I kImata thI, Aja to dasa hajAra kisI ginatI meM nahIM hai na! mujhe usa dina gaharA dhakkA lagA aura ciMtA hone lagI, vahA~ taka bAta jA pahu~cI thii| taba usI kSaNa mujhe bhItara se AvAja sunAI dI ki, 'isa dhaMdhe meM hamArI khuda kI pArTanarazIpa kitanI?' una dinoM hama do pArTanara the, phira maiMne hisAba lagAyA ki do pArTanara to kAgaz2a para haiM,para vAstava meM kitane haiM? vAstava meM to merI gharavAlI, pArTanara kI vAipha usake beTebeTiyA~, ye sAre pArTanara hI kahalAe na! taba mujhe lagA ki ina sabhI meM se koI ciMtA nahIM karatA, to maiM akelA sArA bojha apane sira para kyoM laM? usa dina mujhe isa vicAra ne bacA liyaa| bAta sahI hai na? yadi ghATe kI apekSA kareM to? se adhika jo mila gye| yaha to dhAraNA ho cAlIsa hajAra kI aura yadi bIsa hajAra mile to duHkhI-du:khI ho jaae| dekhiye, tarIkA hI pAgaloM-sA hai na! jIvana jIne kA tarIkA hI pAgaloM jaisA hai na! aura yadi pahale se ghATA hI nirdhArita kare usake jaisA sukhiyA to aura koI nahIM hotaa| ghATe kA hI upAsaka ho, phira jIvana meM ghATA AnevAlA hI nahIM! matabheda miTAne musIbateM jhelI sAjhIdAra ke sAtha hamane paiMtAlIsa sAla sAjhedArI kI, para eka bhI matabheda nahIM huaa| taba kitanI musIbateM jhelanI par3I hoMgI? aMdarUnI musIbateM to hotI hai na? kyoMki isa duniyA meM matabheda mAne kyA? ki musIbateM jhelnaa| pariNAma svarUpa, sAjhIdAra ne dekhe bhagavAna arthAt jJAna hone se pahale bhI hamane matabheda nahIM hone diyA thaa| khaTamala ke sAtha bhI matabheda nhiiN| khaTamala bhI becAre samajha gaye the ki yaha binA matabheda ke manuSya hai, hama apanA kvaoNTA (hissA) lekara calate bneN| praznakartA : para Apa jo de diyA karate the, vaha pUrva kA seTalamenTa (hisAba cukatA) hotA hogA ki nahIM, isakA kyA pramANa? dAdAzrI : seTalamenTa hii| yaha koI naI bAta nahIM hai| magara savAla seTalamenTa kA nahIM magara aba naye sire se bhAva bigar3anA nahIM caahie| vaha to seTalamenTa hai, iphekTa (pariNAma) hai para isa samaya nayA bhAva nahIM bigdd'taa| nayA bhAva hamArA pukhtA ho ki yahI karekTa (sahI) hai| praznakartA : isase kleza meM se mukti bhI rhe| dAdAzrI : hA~, sahana karane para kleza meM se mukti bhI rahe aura sirpha kleza-mukti hI nahIM, sAtha hI sAmanevAlA manuSya, sAjhIdAra aura usake hamaneM bhI sArI jindagI kaoNnTrekTa kA dhaMdhA kiyA hai| taraha-taraha ke kaoNnTrekTa kiye haiN| unameM samaMdara meM jeTiyA~ bhI banAI haiN| aba vahA~ para dhaMdhe kI zurUAta meM kyA karatA thA? jahA~ para pA~ca lAkha kA munAfA honevAlA ho vahA~ pahale se hI taya karatA thA ki yadi lAkha rupaye mila jAe~ to kAfI hai| varanA Akhira naphA-nukasAna nahIM ho aura inkamaTaiksa bharane jitanA mile aura hamArA kharcApAnI nikala gayA to mAnoM bahuta ho gyaa| aura bAda meM tIna lAkha mile taba mana meM kaisA AnaMda rahegA? kyoMki dhAraNA
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________________ dAdA bhagavAna? dAdA bhagavAna? sAre parivAra kI urdhvagati hogii| hamArA aisA dekhakara usakA bhI mana vizAla ho jaayegaa| saMkIrNa mana vizAla ho jaayeNge| sAjhIdAra bhI rAta-dina sAtha rahane ke bAvajUda Akhira aise hI satkAra kiyA karate the ki 'dAdA bhagavAna Aiye, Apa to bhagavAna hI haiN|' dekhiye, sAjhIdAra ko mere Upara prema AyA ki nahIM? sAtha rahe, matabheda nahIM huA aura prema utpanna huA! isa hAlAta meM unako kitanA lAbha hogA! apane khuda ke lie maiMne kucha nahIM kiyaa| vaha dhaMdhA to apane Apa calatA thaa| hamAre sAjhIdAra itanA kahate the ki, 'Apa yaha jo AtmA saMbaMdhI saba karate haiM, vaha karate rahie aura do-tIna mahine para ekAdha bAra kArya kA nirdeza de jAnA ki 'aise krnaa'| basa itanA kAma ve mujha se liyA karate the| praznakartA : para, sAjhIdAra kA bhI kucha aMdAz2a to hogA na, kucha pAne kA? sAjhIdArI kareMge to khuda ko kucha lAbha hotA ho tabhI sAjhIdAra banAe~ge na? dAdAzrI : haaN| praznakartA : to vahA~ usa samaya use kauna-sA lAbha huA? dAdAzrI : use to sAMsArika rUpa se, paisoM ke mAmale meM bhI sArA lAbha hogA na! vaha to apane beToM ko sUcanA de gaye the ki dAdAjI kI upasthiti vaha zrImaMtAI hai| mujhe kabhI bhI paisoM kI kamI nahIM AI hai| (5) jIvana meM niyama TesTeDa kiyA apane Apako / 1961-62 meM maiMne eka bAra kahA thA ki, 'jo mujhe eka thappar3a mAregA, use maiM pA~ca sau rupaye duuNgaa|' para koI thappar3a mArane hI nahIM aayaa| maiMne kahA, 'are, paisoM kI kamI ho to lagA de na!' taba kahe, 'nahIM. merI kyA gata hogI?' kauna mAratA? aisA karane kauna Aye? agara koI muphta meM mAratA hai usa dina use mahA puNya samajhanA cAhie ki hameM itanA bar3A puraskAra Aja diyaa| yaha to bahuta bar3A puraskAra samajhanA caahie| vaha to pahale hamane bhI dene meM koI kasara nahIM chor3I hai na, vahI vApasa AtA hai yaha sb| ___maiM kyA kahanA cAhatA hU~ ki isa duniyA kA krama kaisA hai ki Apako jo kamIz2a 1995 meM milanevAlI hai use Apane Aja upayoga meM le lI, to 1995 meM binA kamIz2a ke raha jAyeMge, yaha spaSTa karanA cAhatA hU~, tAki Apa use salike se upayoga meM laaeN| binA chIja ke kisI cIz2a ko nikAla mata denA aura yadi nikAlanI par3e taba bhI kahIM na kahIM chIja par3ane ke pazcAt hI nikAlI jaae| aisA merA niyama rahA hai| isalie maiM kahatA hU~ ki itanI ghIsAI abhI nahIM huI, isalie cIz2a nikAlanA nhiiN| kyoMki thor3I-sI chIja huI ho aura abhI cIz2a kAma meM lAI jA sakatI ho, use yoM hI nikAla pheMkanA vaha to miniMgalesa (arthahIna) hI kahalAye na! arthAt ye sArI cIjeM jo Apa upayoga meM lAte haiM usakA koI hisAba to hogA ki nahIM hogA? vaha saba hisAba hai aura kahA~ taka kA hisAba hai, ki eka paramANu taka kA hisAba hai, boliye, vahA~ aMdhera kaise calanevAlA hai? 'vyavasthita' kA aisA niyama hai, paramANu taka kA hisAba hai| isalie kucha bigAr3anA nhiiN| saMsAra meM pola nahIM calatA jJAnI puruSa ko tyAgAtyAga saMbhava nahIM, phira bhI mujhe pAnI kA bigAr3a karanA par3atA hai| hameM paira meM jo phrekcara huA, isalie vilAyatI saMDAsa meM baiThanA par3atA hai, jahA~ phira pAnI ke lie jaMjIra khiMcanI paDatI hai aura do Dibbe pAnI baha jAtA hogaa| yaha kisalie kahatA hU~? pAnI kI kamI hai isalie athavA pAnI qImatI hai isa kAraNa? nahIM, para pAnI ke kitane hI jIva yoM hI binA vajaha TakarA-TakarAkara mAre jAte haiN| aura jahA~ kama pAnI se kAma ho sakatA hai vahA~ itanA sArA bigADa kyoM kiyA jAe? yadyapi maiM to jJAnI puruSa hU~ isalie bhUla hote hI turaMta davAI DAla (pratikramaNa kara) detA huuN| phira bhI davAI to hameM bhI DAlanI hogI, kyoMki vahA~ jJAnI puruSa ho ki jo koI bhI ho, kisI kI calatI nahIM hai| yaha a~dhera nagarI
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________________ dAdA bhagavAna? dAdA bhagavAna? meM gaMDu rAjA kA rAja nahIM hai, vItarAgoM kA zAsana hai| caubIsa tIrthaMkaroM kA zAsana hai| Apako bhAtI hai yaha tIrthaMkaroM kI aisI bAta? jAgRti, judApana kii| mujhe kabhI-kabhI bukhAra car3hatA hai taba koI Akara pUche ki, 'Apako bukhAra AyA hai kyA?' taba maiM kahatA hU~ ki, 'hA~, bhaiyA e.ema.paTela ko bukhAra AyA hai, jise maiM jAnatA huuN|"mujhe bukhAra AyA' aisA kahU~ to mujha se lipaTa jaayegaa| khuda ke lie jaisI kalpanA karegA turaMta hI khuda vaisA ho jaayegaa| isalie maiM aisA nahIM bolatA ki 'mujhe bukhAra AyA hai'| 'hamAre' anubhava kI bAta maiM pharsTa klAsa meM relayAtrA nahIM karatA, kyoMki dUsare paiseMjara phira pIchA karate haiN| mujhe ulaTA-sIdhA bolanA nahIM AtA, ve pUche ki ApakA patA-ThikAnA kyA hai, taba maiM sahI-sahI batA dU~ aura vaha khojatA huA ghara para A dhmkeN| arthAt yaha saba betukI jhaMjhaTa kyoM mola lenA? isakI tulanA meM mere sage bhAIoM jaise tharDa klAsa ke paiseMjara acche haiN| tAtparya kyA hai ki Ane-jAne para kisI kI ThokareM lageM to aMdarUnI kaSAya bhAva kyA hai isakA patA cle| kisI kI Thokara lagane para bhItarI kamajoriyoM kA patA cle| tAki isa taraha sArI kamajoriyA~ nikala jaaeN| relayAtrA pUrI hone ke bAda jaba paira dukhane lage taba kyA kahU~, 'aMbAlAlabhAI, Apake pairoM meM bahuta darda huA, nahIM? thaka gaye haiM kyA? sikur3akara baiThanA par3A isalie paira du:khate hoNge|' phira bAtharUma meM le jAkara pITha thapathapAU~, 'maiM ha~ na Apake sAtha, Darate kyoM haiM? hama, zuddhAtmA bhagavAna jo hai Apake saath|' tAki phira se pharsTa klAsa ho jaae| musIbata meM Ane para pITha thapathapAkara khnaa| jJAna hone se pahale akele the, aba do hue| pahale to kisI kA bhI sahArA nahIM thaa| khuda hI apane Apa sahArA DhU~Dhate rheN| aba eka se do he| aisA kabhI kiyA thA yA nahIM? praznakartA : kiyA thaa| dAdAzrI : usa samaya hameM alaga taraha kA mahasUsa hotA hai na? mAnoM sAre brahmAMDa ke rAjA ho aise bolanA caahie| yaha sArI apane anubhava kI bAta maiMne Apako batA dii| ____ maiM 'e.ema.paTela' ke sAtha bahuta bAteM kiyA karatA thaa| mujhe acchI lage aisI bAteM kiyA karatA thaa| hama bhI itane bar3e chihattara sAla ke aMbAlAlabhAI se aisA kahate haiM na! 'chihattara sAla hue, kucha sayAne hue haiM? vaha to anubhava se sahI jJAna pAkara sayAne hue haiN|' praznakartA : Apa kaba se bAteM kiyA karate the? dAdAzrI : jJAna hone ke baad| pahale to kaise bAta karatA maiM? 'maiM alaga hU~' aisA bhAna huA usake bAda meN| jaba byAhane baiThe the use yAda karake aMbAlAla se kahe ki, 'ohoho! Apa to byAhane baiThe the na kyA! phira sira para se pagar3I khisaka gaI thI, phira Apako vidhura hone kA vicAra AyA thA' aisA bhI sunAU~ maiN| byAhate samaya kA lagna maMDapa, pagar3I kaise saraka gaI thI, saba najara aaye| vicAra Ate hI najara aaye| hama boleM aura hameM AnaMda aaye| aisI bAta karane para ve khuza ho jaaeN| (6) patnI hIrAbA ke sAtha eDajasTamenTa matabheda TAlane sAvadhAnI hI baratI byAhate samaya pukArate haiM, 'samayAnusAra saavdhaan'| yaha jo mahArAja kahate haiM vaha sahI hai, samaya Ane para sAvadhAna rahane kI AvazyakatA hai, isI zarta para saMsAra meM byAhA jAtA hai| vaha yadi uchala par3I ho aura hama bhI uchala paDeM, vaha asAvadhAnI khlaaye| vaha jaba uchala par3e to hama zAMta ho jaaeN| sAvadhAnI baratanA jarUrI nahIM kyA? aise hama sAvadhAnI baratate the| darAra-varAra hone nahIM dete| darAra par3ane kI naubata Ane para velDiMga kara de phir|
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________________ dAdA bhagavAna? dAdA bhagavAna? merI tIsa sAla kI umra meM hI maiMne saba ripera kara diyA thaa| ghara meM phira jhaMjhaTa hI nahIM, matabheda hI nhiiN| yadyapi pahale hamArA unase bakher3A hotA thA, vaha nAsamajhI kA bakher3A thaa| kyoMki svAmItva jatAne gaye the| praznakartA : sabhI jo svAmItva jatAte haiM aura dAdAjI Apa yadi svAmItva jatAyeMge, usameM aMtara to rahegA hI na? dAdAzrI : aMtara? kaisA aMtara? svAmItva jatAnA mAne pAgalapana! meDanesa kahalAye!! aMdhere ke kitane bheda hote haiM? praznakartA : phira bhI ApakA thor3A alaga taraha se hotA hogA na? ApakA to kucha naI taraha kA hI hogA na? dAdAzrI : thor3A aMtara rhegaa| eka bAra matabheda baMda karane ke bAda phira se usa bAta para matabheda hone nahIM diyaa| aura yadi ho gayA to hameM mor3anA AtA hai| matabheda to prAkRtika rUpa se ho jAe, kyoMki maiM usake bhale ke khAtira kahatA hoU~ phira bhI use ulaTA lage to phira usakA kyA upAya hai? sahI-galata karane jaisA hI nahIM hai isa saMsAra meN| jo rupayA calA vaha kharA aura nahIM calA vaha khottaa| hamAre to sAre rupaye calate haiN| ApakA to kahIM-kahIM nahIM calatA hogA na? praznakartA : yahA~ dAdAjI ke pAsa calatA hai. aura kahIM nahIM cltaa| dAdAzrI : aisA? ThIka hai taba! isa oNphisa meM calatA hai to bhI bahuta ho gyaa| yaha to duniyA kA heDa oNphisa kahalAye, hama brahmAMDa ke mAlika jo Thahare! aisA sunane para loga prasanna ho jAe~ ki brahmAMDa ke mAlika! aisA to kisI ne kahA hI nahIM hai| aura bAta bhI sahI hai na! jisakA isa mana-vacana-kAyA kA svAmItva chUTa gayA, vaha sAre brahmAMDa kA mAlika ginA jaaeN| kI (A~kha kI) bImArI thii| DaoNkTara unakA ilAja kara rahe the aura A~kha ko asara ho gayA, isalie nukasAna huaa| isa para logoM ke mana meM huA ki yaha eka 'nayA dulhA' paidA haa| phira se byAha rcaayeN| kanyAoM kI bharamAra thI na! aura kanyAoM ke mAtA-pitA kI icchA aisI ki idhara-udhara se kaisA bhI karake Akhira kue~ meM dhakelakara bhI nibaTArA krnaa| isalie bhAdaraNa ke eka paTela Aye, unake sAle kI beTI hogI, isalie aaye| maiMne pUchA, 'kyA cAhie Apako?' isa para usane kahA, 'Apa para kaisI gujarI?' aba una dinoM, 1944 meM merI umra chattIsa sAla kI thii| usa samaya maiMne usase kahA, 'kyoM Apa aisA kyoM kahate haiM?' isa para ve kahate haiM, 'eka to hIrAbA kI A~kha calI gii| dUsarA, unakI koI saMtAna bhI nahIM hai|' maiMne kahA, 'saMtAna nahIM hai koI, para mere pAsa koI sTeTa bhI nahIM hai| baDaudA jaisI riyAsata nahIM hai ki mujhe usakA uttarAdhikArI caahie| yadi sTeTa hotA to saMtAna ko diyA khlaaye| yaha ekAdha chapariyA ho, thor3I-bahuta jamIna ho aura vaha bhI hameM phira kisAna hI banAye na! agara yaha sTeTa hotA to ThIka hai|' aura phira maiMne use pUchA ki, 'Apa aisA kyoM kahate haiM? hamane hIrAbA se jaba zAdI huI taba promisa kiyA hai| isalie eka A~kha calI gaI to kyA huA! donoM A~kha calI jAyegI taba bhI maiM hAtha pakar3akara claauuNgaa|' usane pUchA, 'Apako daheja deMge to kaisA rahegA?' maiMne kahA, 'Apa apanI beTI ko kue~ meM dhakelanA cAhate haiM? isase to hIrAbA ko du:kha hogaa| hIrAbA ko du:kha hogA ki nahIM hogA? unako lagegA ki merI A~kha calI gaI isalie yaha naubata AI na!' hamane to promisa Tu pe kiyA hai (vacana diyA hai)| maiMne use batAyA, 'maiM kisI bhI hAlata meM mukaranevAlA nahIM, cAhe duniyA idhara se udhara ho jAe taba bhI promisa mAne promisa!' kyoMki maiMne promisa kiyA hai, promisa karane ke bAda mukarate nhiiN| hamArA eka janama usake lie, kyA tabAhI ho jAyegI usase! zAdI ke maMDapa meM hAtha thAmA thA. hAtha thAmA mAne promisa kiyA hmne| aura sabhI kI hAjirI meM promisa kiyA thaa| kSatriya ke taura para hamane jo promisa kiyA ho, usake lie eka avatAra nyochAvara kara denA caahie| patnI se promisa kiyA, isalie... hIrAbA kI eka A~kha 1943 ke sAla meM calI gii| unako glukomA
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________________ dAdA bhagavAna? a dAdA bhagavAna? kaisI samajha? kaisA eDajasTamenTa? hama bhI yadi kar3hI khArI Aye to kama khAyeMge yA phira kar3hI khAye binA nahIM calA sakeM to dhIre se usameM thor3A pAnI milA deN| khArI ho gaI ho to thor3A pAnI milAne para turaMta khArApana kama ho jaayegaa| isa para eka dina hIrAbA ne dekha liyA to vaha cillA uThI, 'yaha kyA kiyA? yaha kyA kiyA? Apane usameM pAnI DAlA?' taba maiMne kahA ki, 'yaha culhe para pAnI u~Dela kara pakAte hai taba thor3I dera ke bAda do uphAna Ate haiM na? isa para Apa samajhatI haiM ki paka gaI aura yahA~ maiMne pAnI u~DelA isalie kaccI hai aisA Apa samajhatI hai magara aisA kucha bhI nahIM hai|' para vaha kyA aise mAnanevAlI thI? nahIM khAne detii| culhe para bhI to pAnI hI u~DelanA hai na? yaha to sArI mana kI mAnyatAe~ haiN| mana ne yadi aisA mAna liyA to aisA sahI samajheMge, varanA kaheMge ki bigar3a gyaa| para kucha bigar3atA hI nahIM na! vahI ke vahI pA~ca tattvoM kI banI sArI cIjeM haiM : vAyu, jala, teja, pRthvI aura AkAza! isalie kucha bigar3anA-karanA nahIM hotaa| niraMtara jAgRti yajJa se phalita 'akrama vijJAna' praznakartA : para dAdAjI Apane jo kiyA vaha kitanI jAgRti ke sAtha pAnI u~DelA hogA? Apa unheM da:kha nahIM ho isalie kahanA nahIM cAhate the ki, namaka z2arA jyAdA ho gayA hai isalie pAnI uNddelaa| dAdAzrI : hA~, are kaI bAra to cAya meM zakkara nahIM hotI thI, taba bhI hamane mu~ha nahIM kholA thaa| isa para loga kahate ki, 'aisA calA loge to sArA ghara bigar3a jaayegaa|!' maiM kahatA, 'kala dekha lenA aap|' phira dUsare dina vahI kahe ki, 'kala cAya meM zakkara nahIM thI phira bhI Apa kucha bole nahIM hamase?' maiMne kahA, 'mujhe Apase kahane kI kyA z2arUrata? Apako mAlUma honevAlA hI thA! agara Apa cAya nahIM pInevAlI taba mujhe kahane kI jarUrata pdd'tii| magara Apa bhI cAya pItI haiM, phira maiM kyoM Apako kaha~?' praznakartA : para kitanI jAgRti rakhanI par3e pala-pala? dAdAzrI : pratyeka kSaNa, caubIsa ghaMTe jAgRti, usake bAda yaha jJAna prApta huA thaa| yaha jJAna kucha yoM hI nahIM huA hai| hama yaha jo kucha bolate haiM na, vaha Apake pUchane para usa jagaha kA darzana ubhre| darzana mAne yathApUrva jaise huA ho vaise najara aanaa| jaise huA thA vaise tAddaza naz2ara aaye| matabheda se pahale hI sAvadhAna hamAre meM yadi kaluSita bhAva nahIM rahA to sAmanevAle ko bhI kaluSita bhAva nahIM hogaa| hamAre nahIM cir3hane para ve bhI ThaMDe ho jaayeNge| dIvAra samAna ho jAnA tAki sunAI nahIM de| hamArI zAdI ko pacAsa sAla ho gaye para kisI dina matabheda hI nahIM huaa| hIrAbA ke hAthoM se ghI u~DelA jA rahA hone para bhI maiM cupacApa dekhatA hI rhuuN| usa samaya hamArA jJAna hAz2ira raheM ki vaha ghI u~DeleMgI hI nhiiN| maiM yadi kahU~ ki u~Delie taba vaha nahIM uNddeleNgii| jAna-bUjhakara koI ghI u~DelatA hai kabhI? nahIM na? phira bhI ghI u~DelA jA rahA hai, vaha hama dekhate rheN| matabheda hone se pahale hamArA jJAna oNna da maoNmenTa (tatkSaNa) hAz2ira rahatA hai| prakRti ko pahacAnakara samAdhAna se peza AyeM hamAre ghara meM kabhI bhI matabheda nahIM huaa| hama Thahare pATIdAra isalie hisAba meM hamArI ginatI nahIM hotii| matalaba jaba ghI parosanA hotA hai taba ghI kA pAtra AhistA-AhistA, ghI hisAba se parosA jAe aise nahIM jhukaate| phira kaise jhukAte hoMge hama? yoM sIdhe nAInTI DigrI para hI! aura anyatra loga to kyA kareMge? vahA~ dekheM to, hara samaya DigrI DigrIvAlA (thor3Athor3A, ekadama se u~Delate nhiiN)| yaha hIrAbA bhI DigrI-DigrIvAloM meM se thiiN| yaha saba mujhe nahIM bhAtA thA aura mana meM hotA thA ki yaha to hamArA barA dikhatA hai| para hamane prakRti ko pahacAna liyA thA ki yaha aisI prakRti hai| magara yadi hamane kabhI u~Dela diyA to vaha calA legii| vaha bhI hamase kahA karatI ki 'Apa to bhole haiM, sabako bA~Tate phirate haiN|' unakI bAta bhI sahI ! maiMne alamArI kI cAbI use de rakhI thii| kyoMki koI Ane para,
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________________ dAdA bhagavAna? dAdA bhagavAna? vaha sacamuca du:khI hai ki banAvaTa karatA hai yaha dekhe bagaira maiM turaMta de diyA karatA thaa| mujha se aisI galatiyA~ hotI raheM aura sAmanevAle ko binA vajaha enkarejamenTa (protsAhana) milatA raheM, aisA hIrAbA kA anubhava thA aura isalie maiMne phira cAbI unheM hI sauMpa dI thii| yaha saba ajJAna dazA meM hotA thA, jJAna hone ke pazcAt kabhI matabheda nahIM huaa| mukara kara bhI TAlA matabheda maiM Apa sabhI ko jo yaha batA rahA hU~ vaha mujha para binA TrAyala lie nahIM batAtA huuN| sArI AjamAiza karane ke bAda kI bAteM haiN| kyoMki jJAna nahIM thA taba bhI vAipha ke sAtha mujhe matabheda nahIM thaa| matabheda mAne dIvAra se sira ttkraanaa| logoM ko bhale hI isakI samajha nahIM hai para merI samajha meM A gayA thA ki yaha khulI A~kha dIvAra se TakarAyA, matabheda kI vajaha se! huA kyA ki, eka bAra hIrAbA se hamArA matabheda ho gyaa| maiM bhI pha~sAva meM A gyaa| merI patnI ko maiM 'hIrAbA' saMbodhana karatA huuN| hama jJAnIpuruSa Thahare, hama sabhI bujhurga striyoM ko 'bA' (mAtA) kaheM aura bAkI sabako 'biTiyA~' kheN| isalie Apa bAta jAnanA cAhate haiM to batAtA hU~, bahuta lambI kahAnI nahIM hai, bAta choTI sI hai| eka bAra hamArA bhI matabheda ho gyaa| maiM pha~sa gyaa| hIrAbA mujhase kahatI hai, 'mere bhAI kI cAra beTiyA~ haiM, unameM se sabase bar3I beTI kI zAdI hai, use hama cA~dI kI kauna-sI cIz2a deMge?' taba maiMne kahA, 'ghara meM jo bhI ho de denaa|' isa para vaha kyA kahane lagI? hamAre ghara meM Ama taura para 'terI-merI' zabda kA prayoga nahIM hotA, 'hamArA-apanA' kA hI prayoga huA karatA hai| para usa dina unhoMne kahA ki, 'yaha Apake mAmA ke beToM ko to itane baDe baDe cAdI ke thAla diyA karate haiM!' arthAt usa dina bAtabAta meM 'merI-terI' ho gii| Apake mAmA ke beTe' kahA, yahA~ taka naubata A gii| itanI merI nAsamajhI, aisA mujhe lgaa| maiM turanta mukara gyaa| mukara jAne meM harja nahIM hai| matabheda hone dene se mukara jAnA behatara hai, isalie maiM usI kSaNa mukara gyaa| maiMne kahA, 'maiM aisA kahanA nahIM cAhatA, sAtha meM nagada pA~ca sau eka rupayA de denaa|' taba vaha kahane lage ki 'kyA?! Apa to bhole ke bhole hI raheM! bahata bhole haiM! itane sAre rupaye koI detA hai kahIM?!' dekhiye jIta huI na merI! maiMne kahA, 'pA~ca sau eka nagada denA aura cAMdI ke choTe baratana bhI denaa|' taba vaha kyA kahatI hai, 'Apa bhole haiN| itanA sArA diyA jAtA haiM kahIM?' dekhiye, miTA diyA na matabheda! matabheda to hone hI nahIM diyA aura Upara se unhoMne hamase kahA ki.'Apa bhole haiM!' yaha to 'mere' bhaiyA ke yahA~ Apa kama dete haiM yaha vicAra unake mana meM uThate the, usake badale unhoMne aisA kahA ki itane sAre nahIM dene caahie| khoTe sikke, bhagavAna ke caraNoM meM ghara meM apanA calana nahIM rkhnaa| jo manuSya calana rakhatA hai, use bhaTakanA par3atA hai| hamane bhI hIrAbA se kaha diyA thA ki hama khoTe sikke haiN| hameM bhaTakanA pusAtA nahIM na! khoTA sikkA ho vaha kisa kAma kA? vaha bhagavAna ke pAsa par3A rhegaa| ghara meM apanA adhipatya jamAne jAoge to TakarAva hogA na? hameM aba 'samabhAva se nikAla (nipaTArA)' karanA hai| ghara meM vAipha ke sAtha 'phrenDa' (mitra) jaisA rahanA hai| vaha ApakI 'phrenDa' aura Apa usake 'phrenDa'! aura yahA~ koI likhakara nahIM rakhatA ki calana tumhArA thA ki unakA thA! myunisipAliTI meM bhI noTa nahIM hotA aura bhagavAna ke yahA~ bhI noTa nahIM kIyA jaataa| hameM bhojana se lenA-denA hai ki calana se? isalie acchA bhojana kisa prakAra mila pAtA hai isakI talAza kiijiye| agara myunisipAliTIvAle noTa rakhate ki ghara meM kisakA calana hai, taba to maiM bhI eDajasTa nahIM hotaa| yaha to koI bhI noTa nahIM karatA hai| jaba hama baDaudA jAe~ taba hamAre ghara meM hIrAbA ke gesTa kI taraha rahate haiN| yadi ghara meM kuttA ghusa Aye taba hIrAbA ko takalIpha hogI, 'gesTa' ko kyA takalIpha? kuttA ghusa Aye aura ghI meM mu~ha DAlA to jo mAlika hogA useM ciMtA hogI, gesTa ko kyA? gesTa to yoM hI dekhA kre| bahuta hone para pUchegA ki, 'kyA ho gayA?' taba kaheM ki, 'ghI bigar3a gyaa|' isa
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________________ dAdA bhagavAna? dAdA bhagavAna? para gesTa kahegA, 'are, bahuta burA huA' aisA nATakIya rUpa se khegaa| bolanA to paDegA ki 'bahuta burA huaa'| yadi hama kaheM ki, 'acchA huA' to ghara se bAhara nikAla deNge| hameM gesTa ke taura para nahIM rahane deNge| __ Apake bagaira acchA nahIM lagatA maiM itanI umra hone ke bAvajUda hIrAbA se kahA karatA hU~, 'maiM jaba bAhara gA~va jAtA hU~, taba Apake bagaira acchA nahIM lgtaa|' agara maiM aisA na kahU~ to vaha mana meM kyA kyA socegI? mujhe acchA lagatA hai to unako kyoM acchA nahIM lagatA hogA? aisA kahane para saMsAra banA rahatA hai| aba tU ghI u~Dela na, nahIM u~DelegA to rukhA-sukhA lgegaa| suMdara bhAva u~Dela! maiM kahatA hU~ na! phira mujhase pUchatI hai, 'Apako merI bhI yAda AtI hai?' maiM kahU~, 'bahuta yAda AtI hai, dUsare logoM kI yAda AtI hai to ApakI nahIM AyegI kyA?' aura yAda AtI bhI hai, nahIM AtI aisA bhI nahIM hai| kitanA sa~bhAlA hogA taba? paiMtAlIsa sAla ho gaye, hameM ghara meM vAipha ke sAtha matabheda nahIM huA hai| vaha bhI maryAdA meM rahakara bAta karegI aura maiM bhI maryAdA meM rahakara bAta karatA huuN| vaha kisI dina maryAdA ke bAhara kI bAta kareM to maiM samajha jAU~ ki vaha maryAdA chor3a rahI hai| isalie maiM kaha dU~ ki ApakI bAta ThIka hai, para matabheda hone nahIM detaa| eka minaTa ke lie use aisA mahasUsa nahIM hone detA ki mujhe du:khI karate haiN| hameM bhI nahIM hotA ki vaha hameM duHkhI karatI haiN| eka AdamI ne mujhe pUchA ki, 'vartamAna meM ApakI vAipha ke sAtha ApakA vyavahAra kaisA hai? 'lIjiye, lAiye' kahA karate haiM? maiMne kahA. 'nahIM. 'hIrAbA' kahatA hU~, vaha itanI bar3I chihattara sAla kI aura maiM aThahattara kA, kahIM lIjiye, lAiye' kahanA zobhA degA? meM hIrAbA kahakara pukAratA huuN|' phira vaha pUchane lagA, 'Apake prati unheM pUjyabhAva hai kyA?' maiMne kahA, 'maiM jaba baDaudA jAtA hU~ na, taba pahale vidhi karane ke bAda Asana letI haiN| yahA~ caraNoM se sira lagAkara vidhi karatI haiN| pratidina vidhi karane se nahIM cuktiiN| kisI bhI jJAnI kI strI ne aise vidhi nahIM kI hai| ina sabhI ne dekhA hai, taba hamane usakI kaisI dekhabhAla kI hogI ki vaha vidhi karegI!' isakA aMdAjA Apako isa bAta se A jaayegaa| viSaya samApti ke bAda kA saMbodhana, 'bA' jaba se hIrAbA ke sAtha merA viSaya samApta huA hogA, taba se maiM 'hIrAbA' pukAratA hU~ unheN| (dAdAjI 35 sAla kI umra meM brahmacarya meM A gaye the|) tatpazcAt hameM vAIpha ke sAtha koI TakarAva nahIM huaa| aura pahale jo TakarAva thA vaha viSaya ko lekara, sahacarya meM to thor3A-bahuta TakarAva hotA rahatA, lekina jahA~ taka viSaya kA DaMka rahA vahA~ taka vaha jAnevAlI kahA~? usa DaMka ke chUTane para jaae| yaha hamArA svAnubhava bayAna karate haiN| yaha to hamAre jJAna kI vajaha se acchA hai, varanA yadi jJAna nahIM hotA taba to DaMka lagate hI rheN| usa hAlata meM to ahaMkAra hogA na! usameM ahaMkAra kA eka hissA 'bhoga' hotA hai ki usane mujhe bhugata liyA aura yaha kaheM, "usane mujhe bhugata liyaa|' aura yahA~ para (jJAna ke pazcAt) usakA nipaTArA kiyA jAtA hai| phira bhI vaha DiscArjavAlI kica-kica to rahegI hii| para vaha bhI hamAre bIca nahIM thI, vaisA kisI prakAra kA matabheda nahIM thaa| (7) jJAnI dazA meM barate aise pratyeka paryAya meM se pAra yaha saba to merI pRthakkaraNa kI gaI vastue~ haiM, aura vaha eka avatAra kA nahIM hai| eka avatAra meM to itane sAre pRthakkaraNa kahA~ saMbhava hai? assI sAla meM kitane pRththakaraNa kara pAyeMge bhalA? yaha to anekoM avatAroM kA pRthakkaraNa hai, jo Aja saba prakaTa ho rahA hai| praznakartA : itane sAre avatAroM kA pRthakkaraNa isa samaya ikaTThA kaise prakaTa hogA? dAdAzrI : AvaraNa TUTA islie| aMdara jJAna to sArA vidyamAna hai hii| AvaraNa TUTanA cAhie na? jJAna to zeSa hai hI, para AvaraNa TUTane para prakaTa ho jaae|
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________________ dAdA bhagavAna? 64 dAdA bhagavAna? sabhI phez2Isa (pahalU) kA jJAna maiMne khoja nikAlA thaa| hara 'phez2Isa' meM se maiM pAra nikala AyA hU~ aura hara phez2Isa kA maiMne 'enDa' kara diyA hai| usake bAda yaha 'jJAna' huA hai| __bolate samaya bhI zuddha upayoga yaha hama jo kucha bolate haiM, vaha upayoga ke sAtha bolate haiN| yaha rikArDa bole (mu~ha se vANI nikale), usa para hamArA upayoga rahegA ki, kyA kyA bhUleM haiM aura kyA nahIM? syAdvAda meM koI galatI hai, ise hama bArIkI se dekhA karate haiM aura jo bola rahe haiM vaha rikArDa hai| logoM ko bhI rikArDa hI bole, para ve mana meM samajheM ki maiM bolaa| hama niraMtara zuddhAtmA ke upayoga meM rahate haiM, Apake sAtha bAta karate samaya bhii| binA vidhi ke kSaNa bhI nahIM ga~vAyA hama to ina bAtoM meM kyA ho rahA hai vahI dekhA kreN| hama palabhara ke lie bhI, eka minaTa bhI upayoga se bAhara nahIM hote| AtmA kA upayoga hotA hI hai| hameM vidhi karanI ho aura mana ko jaise hI phurasata mile ki turanta aMdara vidhi zurU ho jAe, usa samaya sahaja rUpa se sabako aisA lage ki dAdAjI isa samaya kisI kArya meM vyasta hoNge| mUDa nahIM hai aisA to kisI ko lage hI nhiiN| kisI kArya meM kAryarata hoMge aisA lage, utanA kArya hama kara lete haiN| hameM jo vidhi karanI hotI hai vaha karanI zeSa raha gaI ho| dopahara meM saba A dhamake aura nahIM ho pAI ho| to jaba yahA~ phurasata mile taba phira vaha bhI ho jaae| aura vaha bhI zuddha upayoga ke sAtha hI hogii| bhojana ke samaya, dAdAjI kA upayoga.... bhojana ke samaya hama kyA karate haiM? bhojana meM samaya jyAdA lagatA hai, khAyeM kama aura bhojana karate-karate kisI ke sAtha bAtacIta nahIM karate, hur3adaMga nahIM mcaate| matalaba ki bhojana meM hI ekAgra hote haiN| hama se cabAyA jAtA hai isalie hama cabA-cabAkara khAyeMge aura usakA kyA svAda hai use jAneMge, usameM lubdhatA nahIM krte| usameM saMsAra ke loga lubdhatA karate haiM, jabaki hama use jAnate haiN| kitanA majedAra svAda hai, use jAnate haiM ki vaha aisA thaa| ekjhekTa (yathArtha rUpa se) jAnanA, svAdamagna honA aura bhugtnaa| saMsArI manuSya yA to bhugateMge yA to svAdamagna hote haiN| hama to ThaMDa meM bhI jaba hameM zAla or3hAI jAe taba jarA-sI khisakA deN| yadi ThaMDI havA lagegI to niMda nahIM Aye, aise sArI rAta jAgate rheN| aura yadi ThaMDa nahIM rahI taba khA~sI Ane para jAga jAe~, phira upayoga meM rheN| kitane hI sAloM se hama, cAhe rAta meM tabIyata bigaDI ho ki rAta meM kucha bhI huA ho, subaha ekjhekTa sAr3he chaha baje jAga jAte haiN| hamAre jAgane para sAr3he chaha hI baje hote haiN| vAstava meM to hama sote hI nahIM haiN| rAta meM DhAI ghaMTe taka hamAre bhItara vidhiyA~ calatI rheN| sAr3he gyAraha taka satsaMga cle| bAraha baje so jAe~, Ama taura para sone kA sukha, yaha bhautika sukha hama lete nahIM hai| sTaoNra bhI namaskAra kare, 'isa vItarAga ko' jaba amarikA jAe~ taba hameM zopiMga maoNla meM le jAte haiN| calie dAdAjI' kahate hai| jaba hama sTaoNra meM jAyeM taba sTaoNra becArA hameM bAra-bAra namaskAra karatA rahe, ki dhanya hai Apa, hama para jarA-sI bhI dRSTi nahIM bigaaddii| sAre sTaoNra meM kahIM para bhI hamArI dRSTi nahIM bigar3atI! hama dekhate z2arUra haiM para dRSTi nahIM bigaadd'te| hameM kyA jarUrata kisI cIz2a kI? koI vastu mere kAma to AtI nahIM! terI dRSTi bigar3a jAe na? praznakartA : AvazyakatA ho vaha cIja kharIdanI par3e! dAdAzrI : hA~, hamArI dRSTi bigar3atI nhiiN| ye sTaoNra hameM do hAtha jor3akara namaskAra karatA rahe ki aise puruSa ke Aja taka darzana nahIM hue! kisI prakAra kA tiraskAra bhI nhiiN| pharsTa klAsa, rAga bhI nahIM, dveSa bhI nahIM, aura hamako kyA kaheM? vItarAga Aye, vItarAga bhagavAna !
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________________ dAdA bhagavAna? dAdA bhagavAna? phreza (taro-tAjA) raheMge, taba Apako bhI mahasUsa hogA ki dAdAjI ne hameM phreza bnaayaa| vizva meM vItarAga adhika upakArI yadi maiM zAdI meM zarIpha huA to zAdI kyA mujhase A lipaTegI? hama zAdI meM jAe~ magara pUrNatayA vItarAga raha paayeN| jaba kabhI mohabAz2Ara meM jAe~ taba saMpUrNa vItarAga ho jAe~ aura bhakti ke bAjAra meM jAne para vItarAgatA jarA kama ho jaayegii| vyavahAra binA tanmayatA kA zAdI ke, vyAvahArika avasaroM ko nibaTAnA par3atA hai| jo vyAvahArika rUpa se maiM bhI nibaTAtA hU~ aura Apa bhI nibaTAyA karate hai, para Apa tanmayAkAra hokara nibaTAte haiM aura maiM unase alaga rahakara nibaTAtA huuN| arthAt bhUmikA badalane kI jarUrata hai, aura kucha badalanA jarUrI nahIM hai| jJAnI barateM prakaTa Atma-svarUpa hokara praznakartA : ina tIna dinoM se mere mana meM eka hI vicAra maMDarA rahA hai ki Apa pacahattara sAla kI umra meM sabere se zAma taka yoM hI baiThe haiM aura mujhe Der3ha ghaMTe meM kitanI hI bAra hilanA-DulanA par3atA hai, taba Apa meM aisI kauna-sI zakti kAma kara rahI hai? dAdAzrI : yaha zarIra z2arUra purAnA hai, para bhItara meM saba kucha javAna hai| isalie eka hI jagaha baiThakara dasa ghaMToM taka maiM bola sakatA huuN| ina logoM ne yaha dekhA hai| kyoMki yaha deha bhale hI aisI naz2ara Aye, pacahattara kI asaravAlI, bAloM ko bhI asara huA hai para bhItara saba kucha yuvA hai| isalie isa zarIra meM jaba koI bimArI Aye taba logoM se kahatA hU~ ki, 'bhar3akanA nahIM, yaha zarIra chUTanevAlA nahIM hai| bhItara to abhI javAna hai sb|' tAki unakI sthiratA banI rhe| kyoMki hamArI aMdarUnI sthiti alaga hai| eka minaTa ke lie bhI maiM thakatA nahIM huuN| isa samaya bhI rAta sAr3he tIna baje taka hamAre sAtha baiThanevAlA cAhie (yAnI usake sAtha satsaMga calatA rhe)| bAkI vaise hamArI phrezanesa (tAz2agI) kabhI gaI nahIM hai| Apa bhI praznakartA : dAdAjI, umra to ho gaI hai ApakI, phira bhI... dAdAzrI : phira bhI! umra to isa deha kI huI hai na, hamArI kahA~ umra honevAlI hai? aura dUsarA kyA hotA hai ki Apa sabhI ko sAyakolaoNjikala iphekTa hotA hai| hameM kisI prakAra kA aisA sAyakolaoNjikala iphekTa nahIM hotA ki 'mujhe bukhAra AyA hai| kisI ke pUchane para mu~ha se aisA kaheMge, para bAda meM phira use miTA dete haiN| itanI hamArI jAgRti hotI hai| 'maiM' 'khuda' meM aura 'paTela' jagata kalyANa kI vidhi meM bahudhA 'maiM' mUla svarUpa meM rahatA hU~, mAne par3osI ke taura para rahatA huuN| aura thor3e se hI TAIma ke lie isameM se (svarUpa meM se) bAhara AtA huuN| mUla svarUpa meM rahane ke kAraNa phira phrezanesa jyoM kI tyoM banI rhegii| rAta meM bhI jyAdAtara soyA hI nahIM huuN| pAva ghaMTA jarA jhapakI A jAe~ utanA hI, do vakta milAkara pAva ghaMTA, bAkI to kevala A~khe mu~dI huI hotI haiN| ina kAnoM se jarA kama sunAI detA hai tAki loga samajheM ki dAdAjI ko nIMda laga gaI hai aura maiM bhI samajhU ki jo samajhate haiM ThIka hai| mujhe vidhiyA~ karanI hotI haiM, isalie maiM khuda meM aura e.ema.paTela vidhiyoM meM hote haiN| arthAt isa saMsAra kA kalyANa kaise ho, usakI sArI vidhiyA~ kiyA kreN| mAne ve niraMtara vidhirata hote haiM, dina ko bhI aura rAta ko bhI vidhirata hote haiN| prakRti ko aise mor3e jJAnI bAkI loga to aisA hI samajheM ki dAdAjI apane kamare meM jAkara so jAte haiN| magara isa bAta meM koI tathya nahIM hai| padmAsana lagAkara ghaMTe bhara baiThatA hU~, vaha bhI isa satahattara sAla kI umra meM padmAsana lagAkara baiThanA AsAna hai kyA? paira bhI mor3a sakatA hU~ aura usI kI vajaha se A~khoM kI zakti, A~kho kI rozanI saba kucha surakSita rahA hai|
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________________ dAdA bhagavAna? dAdA bhagavAna? jo sukha maiMne pAyA, vahI jaga pAyeM maiM kahA karatA hU~ na ki bhaiyA maiM to sattAIsa sAloM se (1958 meM AtmajJAna hone ke bAda) mukta hI hU~, binA kisI Tenzana ke| arthAt Tenzana huA karatA thA e.ema.paTela ko, mujhe thor3e hI kucha hotA thA? para e.ema.paTela ko bhI jaba taka Tenzana rahatA hai, taba taka hamAre lie bojha hI hai na! vaha jaba pUrA hogA taba hama samajheM ki hama mukta hue aura phira bhI jaba taka yaha zarIra hai vahA~ taka baMdhana hai| lekina aba usake lie hameM koI Apati nahIM hai| do avatAra jyAdA hone para bhI hameM Apatti nahIM hai| hamArA lakSya kyA hai ki, 'yaha jo sukha maiMne pAyA hai vahI sukha sArI duniyA ko mile|' aura Apako kyA jaldI hai yaha btaaiye| Apako vahA~ pahu~cane kI jaldI hai kyA? dAdAI blainka ceka yaha 'dAdAjI' eka aisA nimitta hai, jaise ki 'dAdAjI' kA nAma dene para yadi bistara meM bimAra par3e ho, bichaune meM hilanA-DulanA nahIM hotA ho phira bhI khar3e ho sakate haiN| isalie apanA kAma banA liijie| Apa jo kAma karanA cAheM vaha ho sake aisA hai| mAne nimitta hai aisaa| magara usameM burI niyata mata rkhnaa| kisI ke yahA~ zAdI meM jAne ke lie zarIra khar3A ho jAe (tabIyata acchI ho jAe), aisA mata maaNgnaa| yahA~ satsaMga meM Ane ke lie zarIra khar3A ho aisA maaNgnaa| matalaba ki 'dAdAjI' kA sadupayoga karanA, unakA durupayoga nahIM honA caahie| kyoMki yadi durupayoga nahIM kiyA to 'dAdAjI' dobArA musIbata ke vakta kAma aayeNge| isalie hama unheM yoM hI fajUla kAma meM nahIM laaeN| __ arthAt yaha dAdAjI kA to blainka ceka, korA ceka khlaaye| vaha bAra-bAra munAphe ke lie upayoga meM lene jaisA nahIM hai| bhArI musIbata Ane para jaMjIra khiiNcnaa| sIgareTa kA pAkiTa gira gayA ho aura hama rela kI jaMjIra khIMceMge to daMDa hogA ki nahIM hogA? mAne aisA durupayoga mata krnaa| apanApana sauMpa diyA dekhiye, maiM Apako batA duuN| merA to yaha khojate-khojate lambA arasA gujara cukA hai| isalie Apako to maiM AsAna-sI rAha dikhAtA huuN| mujhe to rAheM DhU~DhanI par3I thiiN| Apako maiM jisa rAha gayA thA vahI rAha dikhA rahA hU~, tAle kholane kI cAbI de detA huuN| yaha 'e.ema.paTela' jo haiM na, unhoMne khuda kA apanApana bhagavAna ko samarpita kara diyA hai| isalie bhagavAna use hara taraha se samhAla lete haiN| aura aisA samhAlate haiM na, sahI mAnoM meM! para kaba se samhAlate haiM? jaba se khuda kA apanApana gayA taba se, ahaMkAra jAne ke baad| bAkI, ahaMkAra jAnA muzkila hai| isalie hameM vahA~ muMbaI yA baDaudA meM kucha loga kahate haiM ki, 'dAdAjI, Apa pahale mile hote to behatara thaa|' isa para maiM kahatA hU~, 'gaTharI ke taura para mujhe uThA lAte haiM taba yahA~ AnA hotA hai aura gaTharI ke mAphika uThA le jAte haiM taba jAtA huuN|' aisA karane para ve samajha jAte haiN| phira bhI kahate haiM, 'gaTharI kI mAphika kyoM kahate haiM?' are, yaha gaTharI hI hai na, gaTharI nahIM to aura kyA hai? bhItara pUrNa rUpa se bhagavAna hai, para bAhara to gaTharI hI hai na! arthAt apanApana nahIM rahA hai| mahAtmA sabhI, eka dina bhagavAna hokara raheMge praznakartA : Apane jo batAyA ki, hama sabako Apa bhagavAna banAnA cAhate haiM, vaha to jaba hoMge taba hoMge para Aja to nahIM hue haiM na? dAdAzrI : para ve hoMge na! kyoMki yaha akrama vijJAna hai| jo banAnevAlA hai vaha nimitta hai aura jise banane kI icchA hai ve doMno jaba A mileMge, taba hokara hI rheNge| banAnevAlA kliyara(spaSTa) hai aura hamArA kliyara hai, hamArI aura koI vRtti nahIM hai| isalie eka dina sAre aMtarAya dUra ho jAyeMge aura bhagavAna hokara rahegA, jo hamArA mUla svarUpa hI hai| jaya saccidAnaMda
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________________ kSetro meM viharamAna 'tIrthaMkara sAhiboM' ko atyaMta bhaktipUrvaka namaskAra karatA huuN| * vItarAga zAsana deva-devIyoM ko atyaMta bhaktipUrvaka namaskAra karatA huuN| * niSpakSapAtI zAsana deva-devIyoM ko atyaMta bhaktipUrvaka namaskAra karatA prAta:vidhi * zrI sImaMdhara svAmI ko namaskAra / * vAtsalyamUrti zrI dAdA bhagavAna ko namaskAra / * prApta mana-vacana-kAyA se isa jaga ke koI bhI jIva ko kiMcitmAtra bhI duHkha na ho, na ho, na ho| * kevala zuddhAtmAnubhava ke sivA isa jaga kI koI bhI vinAzI cIja mujhe nahIM caahie| * pragaTa jJAnI puruSa 'dAdA bhagavAna' kI AjJA meM hI sadA rahane kI parama zakti prApta ho, prApta ho, prApta ho| * jJAnI puruSa dAdA bhagavAna ke vItarAga vijJAna kA yathArthatA se, saMpUrNa rUpa se, sarvAMga rUpa se kevala jJAna, kevala darzana aura kevala cAritrya meM pariNamana ho, pariNamana ho, pariNamana ho| * caubIsa tIrthaMkara bhagavaMto ko atyaMta bhaktipUrvaka namaskAra karatA huuN| namaskAra vidhi * pratyakSa dAdA bhagavAna kI sAkSI meM vartamAna meM mahAvideha kSetra meM vicarate, tIrthaMkara bhagavAna zrI sImaMdhara svAmI ko atyaMta bhaktipUrvaka namaskAra karatA huuN| (40) * 'zrI kRSNa bhagavAna' ko atyaMta bhaktipUrvaka namaskAra karatA huuN| (5) * bharata kSetra meM hAla vicarate sarvajJa 'zrI dAdA bhagavAna' ko nizcaya se atyaMta bhaktipUrvaka namaskAra karatA huuN| * 'dAdA bhagavAna' ke sabhI samakitadhArI mahAtmAoM ko atyaMta bhaktipUrvaka namaskara karatA huuN| * sAre brahmAMDa ke jIvamAtra ke rIiyala' svarUpa ko atyaMta bhaktipUrvaka namaskAra karatA huuN| (5) * 'riyala' svarUpa vahI bhagavad svarUpa hai| isIlie sAre jaga ko 'bhagavad svarUpa meM darzana karatA huuN| * 'riyala' svarUpa vahI zuddhAtmA svarUpa hai| isIlie sAre jaga ko 'zuddhAtmA svarUpa' meM darzana karatA huuN| * 'riyala' svarUpa vahI tattva svarUpa hai| isIlie sAre jaga ko tattvajJAna' se darzana karatA huuN| (vartamAna tIrthaMkara zrI sImaMdhara svAmI ko parama pUjanIya zrI dAdA bhagavAna ke mAdhyama dvArA pratyakSa namaskAra pahu~cate hai| kausameM likhI saMkhyA ke anusAra pratidina eka bAra pddheN|) * pratyakSa dAdA bhagavAnakI sAkSI meM vartamAna meM mahAvideha kSetra aura anya kSetro meM vicarate 'OM parameSTi bhagavaMto' ko atyaMta bhaktipUrvaka namaskAra karatA huuN| * pratyakSa dAdA bhagavAna kI sAkSI meM vartamAna meM mahAvideha kSetra aura anya kSetroM meM vicarate 'paMca parameSTi bhagavaMto' ko atyaMta bhaktipUrvaka namaskAra karatA huuN| * pratyakSa dAdA bhagavAna kI sAkSI meM vartamAna meM mahAvideha kSetra aura anya (5)
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