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(tapa) than to have such beggarly thoughts. Lord does not tell you to become dependent instead of independent.
Questioner: On the day I am fasting, if I start feeling like eating something, I have to remind myself that it is my fast day, but I still make sure to set aside some of my favorite food so that I can eat it the following day. Is that wrong to do?
Dadashri: The person who eats will be better off than that. This is because the person who fasts is bound, by his wrong deed (dosh). Whereas the person who does not fast; does not get bound. He eats and forgets about it. On the other hand, someone who despite not eating, is fixating, ‘I will eat tomorrow', and so he becomes bound. When this deception eventually comes into fruition, he will find himself in the primal form of a four-legged beast! Isn't that the whole lunacy of religion? My goodness! This is a mighty responsibility that you have taken on. 'I will eat it tomorrow' you will think to yourself at night, as you think about your pantry, and your focus (dhyan) will be, 'It is in the pantry so I will get to eat it tomorrow.' Now is there anything that this dhyan is not capable of? It can make two legs into four legs (take one from human to animal lifeform). If you keep falling over with two legs, then you will have four; at least you will not keep tripping over then!
Here they are all fasting, and yet along with it they do kashay (anger, pride, deceit and greed). If you want to do kashay, then do not fast, and if you want to fast then do not do kashay. Your fast should be void of artadhyan (adverse internal meditation that hurts the self) or raudradhyan (adverse internal meditation that hurts the self and others). However, on days where a person is not fasting, if he does not get to eat until two in the afternoon, he creates havoc. The 'top' (Dada's analogy for people- bhammardo-Dadashri uses this analogy: the string wound around it represents causes or charging of karma in past life. And the spinning, as the string unwinds, represents the effect
