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possible to do so. You will remember all sorts of things. While you are eating you will only remember your sick relatives! Now why would you be reminded about a sick person during your mealtime? So it is primarily memory, that harasses people.
Questioner: But then I question how I would deal with paying sales tax and income tax, if I forget about the world. Will that not get me into trouble?
Dadashri: It is not like that. It is possible for the world to remain out of your mind, and your work in the world to go on as well. On the contrary, it will occur spontaneously and naturally.
The Gnani Is Beyond Use of Memory
It is memory that gives rise to misery (dukh). I had tremendous memory prior to this Gnan, and it caused me lot of misery. It would keep me up at night. From that, I was able to deduce where misery (dukh) lies. Looking at it this way, I was happy in every way, but there was endless dukh because of this memory. I would remember many things at a time. But memory is a paudgalik (of the non-Self) matter; it is not chetan (of the Self). Then after Gnan I began to ‘see'. It was not a 'vision' from memory, but it was a direct and exact ‘vision’.
Questioner: You say that you do not have any memory, but today when you give examples of incidents that took place ten years ago, you describe it exactly just as it happened. It seems to come out in a systematic manner, in the same 'link', word for word, just like a recording. What would you say that is? What kind of power (shakti; energy) is that?
Dadashri: ‘Memory' is dependent on attachmentabhorrence (raag-dwesh), and that is why it is never exact. That which comes out of me is based on the vision (darshan); therefore, it is exact. I can see everything, from the time I was four years old, until now. I do not have to think about it or recall
