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you want to live your life by hurting others. Even then you should have the inner intent (bhavna) that you do not want to hurt anyone. You are only responsible for your bhavna. You are not responsible for your actions.
Adverse Bhaav
The whole world is binding karma through adverse intent (pratipakshi bhaav). A Self-realized person does not have adverse intent (pratipakshi bhaav). There is an effect, but he does not bind karma. And when his highest spiritual effort (parakram) occurs, he will not be affected at all. Now what happens in a state where he is affected? In such a state, if someone curses or insults him, he will feel, 'Why did they even say that to me?' That is how he will feel. Whereas parakram would say, "It must be your own fault, for him to say such things to you. And the reason you have lost out, is because you do not know how to do business." When You talk to yourself in this way, you will get to know yourself, you will experience your own Self, you will undergo the experience of sitting in Your own seat; the seat of Shuddhatma (the pure Soul). But you quickly jump out of your seat here. This is because of the familiarity (parichaya; habit) of infinite past lives, and also because of the suffering that still remains pending!!
Your own mistake, awakens the demerit karma (paap) and sets the ceiling fan in motion which then falls on you. The account of karma (hisaab) is indeed your own!
What do we mean by spoiling the mind? It is not only the mind that gets spoiled. The entire antahkaran (the inner complex of the self comprised of mind, intellect, chit and ego) becomes spoiled. After the entire 'parliament' (the four components of the antahkaran) makes a decision, the adverse intent (pratipakshi bhaav) will arise. 'I am going to do this to him or that to him,' is what you will feel. It is not only the mind that does this. The mind is gneya (to be known) and it is
