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Aptavani-4
Lord Krishna took over the reins. I ask you to let go of the reins only once a week. However, if mistakes still occur, then say, “Dada, I apologize for taking over the reins again. I will not do that again,” then let go of them again. Initially, you will make mistakes. It takes time for it to come into practice. You will get it right after two or three times. Then for further progress You have to continue “seeing' what 'Chandubhai' is saying, and whether it is correct or not.
The Gnani's Process In our Gnani's program, I see each and every kriya (action through mind, speech and body). That is why I call “this” speech a record. I keep “seeing” what this record is playing and what it is not; whereas people become engrossed (tanmayakar, become one with) with their speech. To remain completely nirtanmayakar (one does not become one) is considered absolute knowledge (Kevalgnan).
The way the world sees things is also the way the agnani sees things. But what they ‘see' will be of no use to them. This is because their “basement is ego (ahamkar). 'I am Chandubhai’ is their “basement' (foundation), and our (mahatmas') basement is 'I am Shuddhatma. Therefore, whatever I see counts towards a fraction of kevalgnan. For whatever fraction You ‘see’; however much of a fraction you ‘see' yourself as being separate; your speech as being separate and you ‘see what this ‘Chandubhai' (the non-Self) is doing, all gives rise to a corresponding fraction of kevalgnan. When someone insults me, it is in my Gnan and when this ‘record speaks, it is also in my Gnan. It is in my Gnan when this ‘record' says anything wrong. For me there is complete awareness (jagruti) all the time. And complete awareness is kevalgnan. In the worldly life, people have worldly awareness, but that awareness is based on ego. Whereas “this” awareness, is the awareness that comes after You become Shuddhatma (pure Soul). This is a fraction of
