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Take Advantage of the Opportunity of Saiyam
When someone says, "Chandubhai has ruined everything," the inner results within will change as a reaction. However, to know that "what is happening within is wrong" is half the saiyam (ardha-saiyam). And if such results do not arise at all, then it is considered complete saiyam.
Questioner: When someone scolds me, or insults me, I just shut the window on that side. I will not listen to that. They can just carry on talking.
Dadashri: You had the 'scope' to practice saiyam in that situation, but you did not take advantage of it. If you were to say to someone, "Tell me off so I can try and practice saiyam (equanimity, absence of kashay)," that will not work, will it? This opportunity for saiyam happens naturally and rarely, and when it happens, people turn a deaf ear to it and shun it, “Oh go away! He will say that, he has a bad habit of doing that!” How much do you benefit in doing that? If there is a foul stench and you pinch your nose, what saiyam did you exercise?
At one time, I even put out a reward of five hundred rupees, stating that anyone in need of money, should come here and slap me and collect the five hundred rupees. Would anyone be ready to slap me for free? Goodness! No, no one came to slap me despite the reward. People told me, 'Dada, where would we go if we slap you?' That is how it is. Therefore, do not miss the opportunity when it comes around.
My energy has increased through the multiplication of saiyam. After attaining the Gnan, a state of endless saiyam resulted in me. So whatever I received, was beneficial. During external adversity, the saiyam of the Self that prevails is tremendous.
Saiyam Is Indeed the Purusharth
Real saiyam (kashay-free state) arises in the presence of
