Vishvani Adhyatmik Ajayabio Aapna Sadhu Sadhvio Part 03

Author(s): Gunhansvijay
Publisher: Kamal Prakashan Trust
Catalog link: https://jainqq.org/explore/022595/1

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karuM ll (C) 8 ba so puSkara kamaLanA patranI bhAMti nahi lepAya je nejIvanI mAphakaapratihata vagatievicare AkAzanI jemaniAbaMlana guNa thakI je opatA evA mahAvratadhArIne paMcAMga bhAve huM namuM neaskhalita vAyu samUhanI jema jenibaMdha che, saMgopitAMgopAMga jenA gupta Indriya deha che nisaMgatAyavihaMgathI jeno amUlakha guNa che evA mahAvratadhArIne paMcAMga bhAve huM namuM khaDagItaNA varazrRMga jevA bhAvathI eThADI je bhADapaMkhI sArIkhA guNavAna apramatta che vratabhAra vahetA va2 vRSabhanI jema jeha samartha che evA mahAvratadhArIne paMcAMga bhAve huM namuM yugapradhAna AcAryasama pU. paM. zrI candrazekharavijayajI ma.sA. A pa en dhU bha huM to CHISI 3

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samarpaNam vartamAtakALatA tamAme tamAma saMyamIone... * jeonuM sAmAnya jIvana paNa vizvane mATe Azcaryajanaka che. * jeonA pazcAttApanA AMsuonI kiMmata zatruMjayatIrthAdhirAjanA prakSAla karatA paNa anaMtaguNI che. * jeonuM haiyuM matabhedo-gacchabhedone gauNa karIne guNAnurAganA madhura pravAhanuM jharaNuM baneluM che. * jeo jinazAsanane jANavA-mANavA-pracAravA-pamADavA mATe kamara kasI rahyA che. * jeonA caraNonI dhULa hIrAbajAranA atikiMmatI hIrAone zaramAvavAnuM kAma kare che. jeonI AMkhonuM amRta vaizAkhanI kALajhALa garamImAM TADhaka ApanAro dhodhamAra varasAda che. * jeonA snehALa, premALa, hetALa zabdo pASANa jevA hRdayone paNa mAkhaNa jevAM komaLa banAve che. * jeonuM bhAvasabhara haiye darzana mohanIyakarmanA virATa jaMgalamAM jvALA peTAvavAnuM kAma kare che. jeo mArA sAdharmika che, jeo mArA mATe pUjyatama che, jeo zubha-pravRttio mATe mArUM prerakabaLa che, e tamAma saMyamIonA karakamalamAM A pustaka bahumAnapUrvaka samarpita karUM chuM. eka ja bhAvanA sAthe ke, mArA saMyamIo sau prathama svAdhyAya-samrATa bane, enA AdhAre pachI saMyama-samrATa bane, chelle svabhAva samrATa bane mArA pUjyapAda gurUdevazrIe seMkaDo vAra prarUpelI A svAdhyAya saMyama-svabhAvanI tripadIne pAmIne sau siddhigAmI bane... -muni guNahaMsa vi.

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namo'stu tasmai jinazAsanAya vAna zI / na e vika haja ya nImasUri-zA zAsana samrATa vinA jamAMkaH 0Sii cAnaH 1 0 - * roTha haThat ' uThIsiMhanI vADI, ane vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabI : ApaNA sAdhu-sAdhvIjI bhagavaMto. yugapradhAnAcAryasama pa.pU.paM.zrI caMdrazekharavijayajI ma.sAheba bhAga - 3. prakAzaka kamala prakozana TrasTa

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G vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo *451215* kamalaprakAzanaTrasTa jIvatalAla pratApazI saMskRti bhavana 2777, nizA poLa, jhaverIvADa, rIlipha roDa, amadAvAda-1 phonaH 25355823, 25356033 2020203402 * lekhaka siddhAntamahodadhi, saccAritracUDAmaNi, sva. pUjyapAda A. bhagavaMta zrImadvijaya premasUrIzvarajI mahArAjA sAhebanA vineya pU. paM. zrI candrazekharavijyajInA ziSya muniguNahaMsavijya 972 AvRtti H nakala : 1000 vi.saM. 2070 mUlya rUA. 60/ AAAAAA mudrakaH yathArtha pablikezana 1-riddhi pelesa, 90 phUTa roDa, bhAyaMdara (vesTa) mo. : 98336 16004,Teli. : 2818 4599

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dhanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIka prastAvanA sAdhu-sAdhvI-zrAvaka-zrAvikA e caturvidha saMgha zramaNa saMgha kahevAya che. zramaNonI (ane zramaNIonI) pradhAnatAvALo saMgha e zramaNasaMgha. caudarAja lokanA sarva jIvonI hitakAmanAvALA jenazramaNo ane zramaNIo lAkho zrAvaka-zrAvikAo mATe parama pUjanIya tattva hatuM ane che. zrAvako ane zrAvikAo mATe to paMcamahAvratapAlaka zramaNa-zramaNIo "bhagavAnatulya che" ema kahIe to emAM kazuM khoTuM nathI. bhagavAna RSabhadevanA samayathI mAMDIne zrAvaka-zrAvikAo Aja sudhI zrIsaMghamAM zramaNonI ane zramaNIonI prabhutA svIkAratA ja AvyAM che ane Aje paNa e zrAvaka-zrAvikAo zramaNa-zramaNIo mATe gajaba koTino AdarabhAva - bahumAnabhAva dharAve che e niHzaMka hakIkata che. paNa A avasarpiNIkALa! paDato kALa! emAM vaLI pAMcamo Aro! e ya vaLI huMDA avasarpiNIno pAMcamo Aro! enI asara samAjanA dareke dareka kSetramAM ochA-vattA aMze paDI che - paDe che... eno niSedha to koNa karI zake? paraduHkhabhaMjana mahArAjA vikramanI paraMparAmAM Aje karoDo prajAjanonAM duHkhone dUra karavAnI javAbadArI UThAvanArA seMkaDo rAjanetAo keTalI hade prajAjano upara duHkhanA DuMgarAo ThAlavI rahyA che, e koNa nathI jANatuM? samagra prajAne nirogI banAvavAnuM bIDuM jhaDapanArA lAkho DokTaro mAtra svArtha khAtara, dhanapati banavA khAtara karoDo rogIonA vizvAsano ghAta karI rahyA che, nakAmI davAo ApI rogI tarIke ja kAyama rahevA daI potAno svArtha sAdhI rahyA che. re! nirogIone rogI banAvavAnA bhayAnaka kAvatarA karI rahyA che, paropakAranA amUlya sAdhana samAna potAnA kAryane rUpiyA kamAI levAno dhaMdho banAvI rahyA che e koNa nathI jANatuM? lAkho vepArIo ImAnadArI-saccAIno ToTo pIsI nAMkhI vizvAsaghAta, bheLaseLa, lAMcaruzavata

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- vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo dvArA mAtra ne mAtra potAnI tijorIo bharacaka karavAnA kAmamAM parovAI jaIne nItidharmane kyAMya vecI rahyA che... e koNa nathI jANatuM ? sAcA-nirdoSa mANasone nyAya apAvavA laDanArA vakIlo ane sAco nyAya ApanArA jajo keTalA? to paisAnI lAlace khoTAne sAcuM sAbita karanArA, bhayAnaka doSavALAone sAva nirdoSa jAhera karanArA vakIlo ane jajo keTalA? puSkaLa bhoga ApIne karoDo vidyArthIone sArA-sAcA saMskAra ane sAruM-sAcuM zikSaNa ApanArA zikSako keTalA? to zikSaNanA nAme vidyArthIo pAsethI ke sarakAra pAsethI cikkAra paisA paDAvanArA, skUlomAM bhaNAvavAne badale speziyala Tyuzano goThavAvI emAM ja abhyAsa karAvavA dvArA bamaNI - traNa gaNI Avaka UbhI karanArA, dhamakIo ApI vAra-tahevAre haDatALa pADanArA zikSako keTalA? prAcIna kALamAM badhA ja sArA-sAcA hatA, evuM nathI kahevuM paNa prAcInakALamAM 95% sArA-sAcA ane 5% kharAba-khoTA hatA. jyAre vartamAnamAM 5% sArA-sAcA ane 95% kharAba-khoTA... ATalo moTo taphAvata nathI lAgato zuM? samAjanAM koIpaNa kSetramAM UMDANapUrvaka dRSTipAta karazuM to A khedajanaka chatAM taddana sAcI hakIkata najara sAme AvyA vinA nahi rahe. zramaNa-zramaNIo paNa samAjathI sAva-sAva alaga to nathI ja ne? aneka jAtanA AkramaNo zramaNa-zramaNI saMgha upara AvyA ja che ne ? AnA kAraNe bIjA badhA kSetronI mAphaka zramaNa-zramaNIonI viziSTatAmAM, AcArasaMpannatAmAM, vicArazuddhimAM thoDo-ghaNo ghaTADo thAya, pheraphAra thAya e zakya nathI zuM? emAM ya vartamAnamAM to sAcA saMyamadharmanI ArAdhanA mATenI anukULatAo ghaNI ghaNI ghaTI gaI che. 2500 varSa pUrve zrI dharmadAsagaNi ja kahI gayA che ke bhAI ! lissa ya parihALI saMgamanuArUM nathi vettA bhAI! paDato kALa che, have saMyamayogya kSetro rahyAM nathI... have jo bhagavAna mahAvIrasvAmInI hAjarImAM emanA ziSyaratne A zabdo uccAryA hoya to Aje 2500 varSa bAda bhayAnaka vijJAnavAdanI bhUtAvaLanI hAjarImAM to zuM dazA hoya? vartamAnakALamAM gRhastha jIvanamAM keTalAM badhAM kharAba nimitto bhaTakAya che, e to badhA jANe ja che. have e kunimittonA kAraNe keTalAya gRhastho jAtajAtanA pApono, kusaMskArono bhoga banatA hoya... emAMthI koIne koI dIkSA laI ahIM Ave, vairAgya sAco hoya paNa pelA kusaMskAro paNa tagaDA hoya... emAM vaLI ahIM sAdhujIvanamAM paNa evA koIka kunimitto maLI jAya. kusaMskAro jAgrata thAya. vairAgyabhAva nabaLo paDe, ane zramaNo ke zramaNIonAM jIvanamAM nAnA-moTA doSa ghUsI jAya. koIka ayogya prasaMga banI jAya. AvA prasaMgo zrAvaka-zrAvikAo jue, sAMbhaLe.... kyAMka vaLI chApAomAM ane megejhinomAM e viSaya-kaSAya saMbaMdhI prasaMgo sArI rIte cagAvI-cagAvIne chApavAmAM AvelA hoya te vAMce ane UMDe UMDe zramaNa-zramaNIo pratye aNagamo-aruci emanA manamAM upasatAM thAya, 'badhA sAdhu-sAdhvIo AvA ja haze. A badhA pAse javA jevuM ja nathI.'' evA vicAro dhIme dhIme dRDhatA pakaDatA jAya ane pachI sAdhu-sAdhvIo pAse javuM-vaMdana karavA - vyAkhyAna sAMbhaLavA... A badhAM ja kAryo baMdha thatAM jAya. *

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~~~~~ vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo ~~~~~+ emAM ya vaLI keTalAka zAsanazatruo to zramaNa-zramaNIonuM jainazAsanamAM prabhutva khatama thAya ane e dvArA jainasaMgha chinnabhinna bane evuM IcchatA ja hoya che. teo to AvA koIka ADAavaLA prasaMgonI kAgaDoLe rAha jotA hoya che. AvA koIka prasaMgo bane eTale tarata eno cArebAju pracAra kare. e prasaMgo zramaNa-zramaNIonA jhaghaDA vagerenA hoya ke bIjA paNa hoya paNa eno evo pracAra kare ke bicArI bhoLI prajA, jenazrAvaka-zrAvikAo sAdhu-sAdhvIo pratyenA agAdha sabhAvane - ahobhAvane gumAvI bese. teo pachI sAdhu-sAdhvIo pAse javAne badale bIjA mArge dorAya. e lAkho zrAvaka-zrAvikAo zramaNazramaNIone badale have vidvAna-jANakAra tarIke prasiddha gRhastho pAsethI ja badhu mArgadarzana meLavavA lAge, e gRhastho paNa emanA kAnamAM zramaNa-zramaNIsaMgha pratye vadhu ne vadhu jhera reDatA jAya ane caturvidha saMgha be vibhAgamAM vaheMcAI jAya, tUTI jAya. eka bAju mAtra zramaNa-zramaNIo ane bIjI bAju mAtra zrAvakazrAvikAo! je rIte aMgrejoe bhAratane barabAda karyuM, e rIte keTalAko jANe ke ajANe janasaMghane chinnabhinna karavAnuM kAma karI rahyA che. bhAratIya prajA potAnA rAjAone bhagavAna tarIke jotI, ene vaphAdAra rahetI. aMgrejoe e rAjAomAMthI keTalAka rAjAone jANIjoIne amuka doSomAM phasAvyA. pachI e doSo-pApo prajAmAM jAhera karyA. prajA rAjAne dhikkAravA lAgI. rAjA pratyeno sadbhAva gumAvI besI. pariNAme rAjAone ukheDI nAMkhI potAnI sattA jamAvavI e aMgrejo mATe sAva ja saraLa thaI paDyuM. Aje je keTalAka zramaNa-zramaNIonuM prabhutva nathI IcchatA, lAkho jena zrImaMta gRhasthomAM potAnuM Adhipatya jamAvavA Icche che, teo jANe-ajANe AvA ja kAmo karI bese che. kALaprabhAvAdine lIdhe keTalAka ADAavaLA prasaMgo bane eTale A zAsanazatruo ene cArebAju phelAve. gRhasthavargamAM zramaNa saMgha pratye tiraskAra utpanna karAve. chevaTe e gRhasthomAM potAnuM Adhipatya jamAvavAmAM saphaLa bane. kadAca koIne evo vicAra AvI zake ke "zramaNo pratye zrAvaka-zrAvikAo vimukha bane emAM zramaNazramaNIone zuM vAMdho che? emane kyAM zrAvaka-zrAvikA saMghanI jarUra che? zuM teo emanuM varcasva-prabhutva Icche che? zramaNa-zramaNIo enI lAlasAvALA che ?' eno javAba e che ke sAcA zramaNo ke zramaNIo koIpaNa prakAranI malina apekSAvALA hotAM nathI ja chatAM e sAcA zramaNo evI jhaMkhanA cokkasa rAkhe ke "jinazAsanamAM suzramaNonuM prabhutva, suzramaNonI pradhAnatA akabaMdha rahevI ja joIe." kemake te zramaNo jinazAsananA sAcA anurAgI che. teo jANe che ke jo jinazAsanamAM zramaNonuM prabhutva khatama thaze to jinazAsana ja chinnabhinna thaI jaze. kabUla che ke zramaNomAM doSo paNa UbhA thayA che. keTalAka zramaNomAM ghaNA moTA doSo paNa UbhA thayA haze. paNa eTalA mAtrathI ja AkhIya zramaNae sthAne kharAba gaNAvI jA zramaNonI prabhutA khatama karAze to je hAlata bhArata dezanI thaI, e hAlata jainasaMghanI thaze. bhAratanA rAjAomAM dUSaNo ghuselA. keTalAka rAjAomAM ghaNA moTA doSo paNa hatA paNa aMgrejoe e doSone cArebAju phelAvI dIdhA, rAjAonI prabhutA khatama thaI, aMgrejo adhipati banyA. pariNAme bhAratanI je barabAdI thaI e badhA ja jANe ja che. evuM ahIM paNa banI zake ema che. jo keTalAka zramaNonA koIka doSone ughADA pADI daI AkhI ya

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-~-: vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo -~~-~+ zramaNa saMsthAne vagovavAmAM Ave ane e rIte enI prabhutA khatama karavAmAM Ave to emAM nukasAna suzramaNone nahi, paNa jinazAsanane - saMghane cokkasa thAya. eTale ja suzramaNo potAnI prabhutAnI lAlacavALA to bilakula nathI ja, chatAM teo zramaNonI prabhutA - pradhAnatA jaLavAI rahe e to Icche che ja. kemake emAM ja saMghanuM hita chupAyeluM che. sAra eTalo ja ke kukALa-kunimittAdinA kAraNe jaina zramaNomAM paNa kyAMka kyAreka aNaghaTatI bAbato banI hoya, banatI hoya... paNa eTalA mAtrathI zrIsaMghamAM AkhIya zramaNa saMsthA vagovAya, zrIsaMghamAM zramaNonI pradhAnatA para prahAra thAya, gRhasthonI pradhAnatA vadhatI jAya e zrIsaMghanA hitamAM nathI ja. A mATe sauthI jarUrI bAbata e che ke zrAvaka-zrAvikA vagerenA manamAM sAdhu-sAdhvIo pratyeno sabhAva-bahumAnabhAva akabaMdha rahe, vadhe. jo ema thAya to ja teo sadAya mATe zramaNa-zramaNIonA mArgadarzana mujaba ja pravRtti kare ane to ja saMghanuM hita sacavAya. vaLI kyAreka to evuM paNa bane che ke keTalAka mugdha sAdhu-sAdhvIo paNa koIka koIka prasaMgo sAMbhaLIne ema mAnatA thaI gayA che ke "have ApaNo zramaNa saMgha lagabhaga khalAsa thaI cUkyo che..." Ama khuda keTalAka zramaNa-zramaNIo paNa potAnA ja ghara uparanI zraddhA gumAvI bese che. haMmezAM kharAba vAto vadhu bahAra AvatI hoya, vadhu phelAtI hoya eTale e badhI vAtonI asara jaladI thAya e svAbhAvika che. A tamAmane vAstavikatA darzAvavI e atyaMta mahattvanuM kArya che. emane e jaNAvavuM jarUrI che ke "jyAM samAjanA lagabhaga pratyeka ghaTakamAM 5% zuddhi bacI che, tyAM A zramaNa saMghamAM 75% thI 80% zuddhi akabaMdha che, e vAta tame na bhUlo." emane e jaNAvavuM jarUrI che ke "Aje paNa AvI bhayaMkara avasthAmAM paNa seMkaDo zramaNa-zramaNIo Azcaryajanaka-bahumAnajanaka-agAdha sadbhAvajanaka benamUna ArAdhanA karI rahyA che. AvA uttama zramaNazramaNIothI bharelA saMgha pratye upekSA-tiraskAra-niMdAbhAva bilakula ucita banI zakato nathI." A jaNAvavA mATe, zramaNa-zramaNIsaMgha pratye caturvidha saMghane utkRSTa, vAtsalyavALo, AdaravALo, sabhAva-sanmAnavALo banAvavA mATe A pustikAmAM kula judA judA zramaNa-zramaNIonA prasaMgo AlekhavAmAM AvyA che. Azare 43 jeTalA prasaMgo trIjA bhAgamAM levAmAM AvyA che. jainasaMghanA pratyeka sabhyoe A avazya vAMcavuM joIe ane e vAMcIne manamAM bharAyelI khoTI khoTI vAtone dUra phagAvavI joIe. koIka doSavALAonI niMdA karavAne badale AvA uttamottama saMyamIonI hArdika prazaMsA e ja svapakalyANano nirdoSa mArga che. AmAM nIcenI vizeSatAo dhyAnamAM rAkhavI (1) lagabhaga tamAme tamAma prasaMgo vartamAna ke najIkanA ja bhUtakALanA sAdhu-sAdhvIjI bhagavaMtonA che. bahu jUnA prasaMgo lagabhaga lIdhA nathI tathA gRhasthonA prasaMgo paNa mAMDa 4-5 lIdhA che. (2) A dareka bAbata tadana satya che. emAM ame jarAya vadhArI vadhArIne lakhyuM nathI. aNano mera banAvyo nathI. hA, keTalAka prasaMgo dveSa-niMdAdAdinA nimitta na bane e hetuthI thoDAka badalIne lakhyA che. (3) viratidUta parIkSAmAM eka prazna pUchelo ke "sAdhu-sAdhvIjIo potAnA jIvanamAM anubhavelA suMdara prasaMgo amane lakhI mokale." Azare aDhIso-traNaso saMyamIoe parIkSA ApI. potAnA jIvanamAM

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----------vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo --------------jAte joyelA - anubhavelA ke sAMbhaLelA prasaMgo amane jaNAvyA. emAMthI paNa je vadhu AkarSaka, vadhu viziSTa jaNAyA, e prasaMgo judA tAravI A pustaka taiyAra karyuM che. ame to mAtra saMyamIoe lakhelA prasaMgone amArI bhASAmAM DhALyA che, ghaNI jagyAe to e badhA prasaMgo te te saMyamInI bhASAmAM ja sIdhe sIdhA lakhI dIdhA che. (4) A prasaMgomAM keTalAka prasaMgo e rIte paNa lakhyA che ke "jANe te te saMyamI pote ja potAnA anubhava lakhato hoya..." dA.ta. "amArA guruNInI sahanazakti ajabagajabanI hatI. AvI rIte Akho prasaMga lakhelo hoya, to emAM amArA = e prasaMga lakhanArA sAdhvIjI pote ja. guNI = e sAdhvIjInA guraNI. emAM amArA = A pustakanA lekhakane na samajavA. "mAro dIkSA paryAya e vakhate mAtra be varSano hato, tyAre..." AvuM lakhANa hoya, tyAM mAro = A pustakanA lekhakano nahi, paNa e prasaMga je sAdhue-sAdhvIjIe lakhelo hoya - emano... TUMkamAM e prasaMgo emanA ja zabdomAM DhALelA che.... eTale vAMcatI vakhate jyAre AvA prasaMgo Ave tyAre khyAla rAkhavo. (5) koI ema na samaje ke "A to mAtra 43 ja prasaMga! to bIjA badhAnuM zuM?" kemake ame to viziSTa ane AMkhe UDIne vaLage evI ArAdhanAono ullekha karelo che. je ghaNA badhAmAM sAmAnya ArAdhanAo hoya, tevI to hajAro che. e badhAno ullekha atre karyo nathI. dA.ta. 100-150 sAdhu-sAdhvIjIo 100 vardhamAnatapanI oLIo karI cUkyA che paNa e badhAno ame judo judo ullekha nathI karyo. Ama nAnI nAnI DhagalAbaMdha bAbato ame noMdhI ja nathI. vaLI AnA vadhu bhAga paNa chapAze. (6) AmAM lagabhaga ame koInA paNa nAma lakhyA nathI. ADakatarA nirdeza karelA hoya e saMbhavita che. (7) A koI eka grupa ke eka gacchanA badhA prasaMgo nathI. paNa judA judA lagabhaga 15-17 gacchonA prasaMgo A pustikAmAM che. (8) zrI saMghane vinaMtI ke AvA koIpaNa viziSTa prasaMgo tamArA khyAlamAM hoya to e amane mokalAve. "AziSa e. mahetA, 7, sunISa epArTamenTa, ratnasAgara skUla sAme, gopIpurA, kAjInuM medAna, surata. (gujarAta)." A saranAme e lakhANa mokalavuM. kavara upara sukatAnumodananA prasaMgo ema zabda lakhavo. je koIpaNa zAstrAnusArI viziSTa prasaMgo haze tene have pachInA vibhAgomAM samAveza karavAmAM Avaze. koIpaNa samudAyanA sAdhu-sAdhvIjIo AvA viziSTa prasaMgo mokalI zake che. e prasaMgoArAdhanAo mAtra sAdhu-sAdhvI saMbaMdhI ja hovA joIe. (9) "kevA prasaMgo vadhu asarakAraka ane viziSTa gaNAya.' e A pustaka vAMcavAthI khyAlamAM AvI zakaze. - (10) saMyamIoe amane nAnA-moTA ghaNA prasaMgo lakhelA, emAMthI ame cUMTIghUMTIne A prasaMgo lIdhA che. koIka koIka saMyamIe lakhelA prasaMgo AmAM na paNa AvyA hoya. teo pAse ame hArdika kSamA mAgIe chIe.

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-~-~~-~~~ vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo -- ---------- (11) keTalIka anumodanA evI hoya ke jemAM bIjAnA doSono ullekha AvavAno. dA.ta. koI sAdhvIjInI abhuta kSamAnI anumodanA karavAnI hoya tyAre emanA para krodha karanArAnA e krodha doSano ullekha AvavAno ja. jo krodhAdi thayA ja na hota to AmanI kSamA siddha ja na thAta. eTale AvI anumodanAmAM ADakatarI rIte koIkanA doSono ullekha thavAno paNa tyAM emanI niMdA karavAnI nathI, e karmavaza hovAthI evuM vartana karI beThA ema samajavAnuM che. ApaNe to kSamAzIla sAdhvIjInI kSamAnI anumodanA ja mukhya banAvavAnI che. (12) mithyAtRzAmaTyuparasa6.... mAnusArItyanumo pAma: zrI zAMtasudhArasanI A gAthAmAM kahyuM che ke "mithyAtvIonA paNa che je mokSamArgAnusArI guNo - anuSThAno che, tenI huM anumodanA karuM chuM." arthAt mArgAnusArI koIpaNa kRtya anumodanIya bane, bhale pachI e mithyAtvIonuM paNa kema na hoya? have A to badhA saMyamIo che, emanA je je kRtyo mArgAnusArI hoya e anumodanIya banavAnA ja. emAM gacchabheda jovAno na hoya. ' (13) A je koIpaNa prasaMgo maLelA che. e moTAbhAge viratidUtanI parIkSAmAM uttarapatromAMthI prApta thayA che. sAdhu-sAdhvIjI bhagavaMtoe kamala prakAzana upara uttarapatro mokalyA. e tapAsavAmAM je je suMdara prasaMgo prApta thayA, tenuM saMkalana A pustakamAM karavAmAM AvyuM che. sAdhu bhagavaMto ke sAdhvIjI bhagavaMto pAsethI sIdhA ja A prasaMgo sAMbhaLyA nathI ke patrathI paNa jANyA nathI. uttarapatromAM lakhAyelA prasaMgane AdhAre A badhuM lakhANa che. eTale bhUlathI koIka prasaMgomAM thoDoka phera thaI gayo hoya to e aMge kSamA cAhIe chIe. ame badhAne vinaMtI karIe chIe ke A pustaka vAMcyA bAda tame paNa tamArI AsapAsanA sAdhusAdhvIjIomAM je koIpaNa mokSamArgAnusArI anuSThAno-guNo joyA hoya, te vyavasthita lakhIne amane mokalAvazo. jethI e sukRto ghaNA loko sudhI pahoMcADI zakAya. (14) A pustaka vaMcAI jAya, eTale emane ema mUkI na rAkhazo, paNa bIjAne vAMcavA Apazo. koIpaNa eka jaNane A AkhuM pustaka vaMcAvI devuM e ja A pustakanI sAcI kiMmata cUkavelI gaNAze. aMte jinAjJAviruddha kaMIpaNa lakhAyuM hoya to trividhe trividha micchA mi dukkaDaM. - muni guNahaMsavijaya | lekha mokalavAnuM saranAmuM : AziSabhAI mahetA hitezabhAI gAlA 7, sunISa epArTamenTa, bI-17, tRpti sosAyaTI, ratnasAgara skUlanI sAme, hanumAna roDa, vile pArle (pUrva), kAjInuM medAna, gopIpurA, surata. muMbaI- 400 057. mobAIla : 9374512259 mobAIla : 9820928457

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vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo prAptisthAna hitezabhAI gAlA bI-17, tRpti sosAyaTI, hanumAna roDa, vile pArle (pUrva), muMbaI- 400 057. mobAIla : 9820928457 AziSabhAI mahetA 7, sunISa epArTamenTa, ratnasAgara skUlanI sAme, kAjInuM medAna, gopIpurA, surata mobAIla : 9374512259 kumArabhAI zAha 604, sukhasAgara epArTamenTa, Indora sTeDiyamanI sAme, dhoDa doDa roDa, surata. mobAIla : 98252 99487 dIpezabhAI dIkSita bI-2, amara epArTamenTa, DIvAIna lAIpha skUlanI sAme, bereja roDa, vAsaNA, amadAvAda. mobAIla : 09428608279 9

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1. 2. 3. 4. 5. 6. 7. 8. 9. 10. 11. 12. 13. 14. 15. 16. 17. 18. 19. 20. 21. 22. 23. vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIoanukramaNikA viSaya protsAhana Apo zarata paNa sArI; jo dharma vadhAre to! zubhAnuSThAno Adaro, banI ekatAna! vairAgyanA raMgo sajI kyAre prabhu! saMyama grahuM ? tame vRddha saMyamIonI sevA karo cho ne? vidyA vinayena zobhate sau mArI kSamApanA svIkArajo UMDAI AcArathI zAsana prabhAvanA vRddha saMyamIo mATe suMdara Adarza ! o bAla munirAja ! tamArI nirmaLa prajJAne amArI anaMtazaH vaMdanA cauda rAjalokavyApI jinazAsana sarasvatIdevInI sAcI ArAdhanA : jJAnAbhyAsano sakhata puruSArtha mArI dIkSAtithinI ujavaNI na hoya ! apavAdamArganA sevanamAM yatanApAlana kevuM hovuM joIe ? niHspRhatA eka zrAvakanI, zAstrAnusAritA eka AcAryadevanI ! ghaNA moTA chatAM ghaNA nAnA H eka paMnyAsajI AMbila-upavAsa vinAno anokho tapasvI vaiyAvaccano prakAra Avo paNa hoI zake kharo ? AvA paNa pauSadhavratI zrAvako hoya che ! zAsanaprabhAvanA karavAnI joradAra kuneha ! mAro sAdhubhava vaiyAvacca levA mATe nathI, karavA mATe che. anAsakta anAsakti (eka munirAjanA zabdomAM) 10 pAna naM. 13 14 14 16 17 24 26 31 48 49 51 55 58 59 60 62 63 64 63 68 30 71 72

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.... 74 88 K, - vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo che. viSaya pAna naM. 24. jyotiSanA bharose besI na rahevAya ! .. 25. mahAsaMyamI sUrideva 26. e mahAtmAne saMnidhinI davA paNa maMjura nathI ............ 80 27. mArA guru AvuM karI zake? huM kalpanA paNa karI zakato nathI....... 28. mArA nimitte koI durlabhabodhi na banavo joIe. ................ 29. vIsamI sadInA eka mahAna gacchAcAryanI saMyamasabhara jIvanakahANI ! ........... 30. rAga-dveSa maLa gALavA, upazamarasa jhIlo... ........... 31. jJAnInA bahumAnathI re, jJAnataNA bahumAna... saluNA ......................... azakya... azakya... nA re nA ! ....... ..... 95 33. vairAgya kevo ? colamajIThanA raMga jevo .............. 34. bhUla konI? Thapako kone? chatAM kSamA kevI?. ............. 35. badhuM zakya che : jarUra che sattvanI ane puruSArthanI . 36. jugupsAmoha upara vijaya........................... ........... ......106 37. sarvajIvanehI muni svajano para niHsnehI banatA........... ............ 38. gAthAo khUba gokho. ............. 39. sAco prajJAcakSu sAdhu.............. 40. kathiramAMthI kaMcana banI zake che. . ......... ......111 41. gautamasvAmInA vArasadAro jIvaMta che !............ ................. 42. apavAda mArga. ************* 115 43. rogI banyA saMyamarAgI !.................. * * javA ................ 101 **************......1 5 * * * * * * * * * * * .................. ........... . . . . . . . . ............. 119 1 1

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\\\\\\ vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo [0 saujanya yugapradhAna AcAryasama pUjyapAda paMnyAsa zrI candrazekharavijayajI ma.sA. prerita (navasArI) tapovana saMskAra dhAma - jJAna khAtAmAMthI tathA zrImatI nilAbena kartibhAI vorA parivAra (ghATakopara-muMbaI) zrutabhaktino lAbha lIdho e badala khUba khUba dhanyavAda.... 12 li. kamala prakAzana TrasTa A pustaka jJAnakhAtAmAMthI chapAyeluM hovAthI zrAvakoe AnI mAlikI karavI nahIM.

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A - vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo protsAhana Apo jema kAMTo kAMTAne kADhe, ema ahaMbhAva nAmano kAMTo hatAzA, nirAzA nAmanA kAMTAne kADhI mUke... "he Atmana ! tuM sUrya che, tuM mahAna che...' A badhA zabdothI mANasanI aMdara rahelA ahaMbhAvane poSavo paDe che, paNa e jarUrI che. enAthI moTo lAbha A thAya ke e doDato thaI jAya. mArA jIvanamAM ja banelo prasaMga! eka munivara saMyamamAM asthira banyA, guru sAthenA aNabanAvanA kAraNe ArtadhyAnamAM caDI gayA. ghaNA khoTA vicAro karI beThA. ne e badhI vAtanI khabara emanA eka divasanA rudana sAthenA keTalAka zabdo parathI paDI. mAre sAmAnya paricaya to kharo ja, paNa aMgata paricaya, AtmIyatA baMdhAI na hatI. paNa e muni che ane najIvA kAraNosara gaMbhIra vicAro karI beThA che... e jANakArIthI ja mAruM mana dravI UThyuM. lAgaNIsabhara haiyuM ciMtita banyuM. baporanA samaye e munine mArI pAse bolAvyA. meM emane A gItanA jevA ja zabdothI AvakAryA : | munivara! tame to kevo uttama saMyama pALo cho, svabhAva tamAro keTalo badho milanasAra che? kSayopazama paNa tamAro keTalo badho tIvra che? munivara! tame to kyAM ne kyAM pahoMcI zakazo. tamAruM bhaviSya bhavyAtibhavya banI zake ema che,... tame A sAva nAnI bAbatomAM kyAM aTavAI paDyA.' ane e muni to macchu DemanAM bAraNAM khUle ane pANIno dhodha vahe. ema codhAra AMsue raDavA mAMDayA. pAMceka miniTamAM haiyuM khAlI thaI gayuM. mAre e ja joItuM hatuM. emane lAgyuM ke " kaMIka chuM, koIka mAruM mahattva jANe che - mane jaNAve che, mArA astitvanI paNa kaMIka kiMmata che. mAruM jIvana ghaNA mATe lAbhadAyI banI zake ema che. huM nakAmo nathI." A je bhAva poSAyo, enAthI e pAchA utsAhamAM AvI gayA,.... bhale emano roga UMDo hovAthI vAraMvAra emane IMjekzana ApavuM paDyuM, paNa e IMjekzanano korsa pUro thaI gayo. e pachI have emane enI jarUra paDatI nathI. ThIka che, sAmAnya davAnI kyAreka jarUrI paDI paNa jAya. A tAkAta che utsAhavardhaka zabdonI! dhyAna rAkhajo, mANasa mAtrane, (pachI bhale e saMyamI kema na hoya?) darekane UMDe UMDe AvA ahaMkArAdi dioSo almAMzamAM paNa paDelA hoya ja che. e doSanI lAMbI paMcAta karavAne badale atyAre e poSIne ene bIjA badhA doSomAMthI bacAvI lo.

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vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo zarata paNa sArI; jo dharma vadhAre to! "jo A nAnA ma. Aje AkhI rAta eka paNa jhokuM khAdhA vinA ArAdhanA-svAdhyAyAdi kare to mAre 70mI oLI mAtra traNa dravyathI ja karavI,'' vaDIla tapasvI muni bolyA. eka vihAradhAmamAM rAtre cAra sAdhuo saMthAro karIne sUI rahyA hatA tyAre ja vaDIle A vAta zarU karI. emane 69mI oLI cAlu ja hatI, 70mI oLI saLaMga karavAnI ja hatI, e oLI 3 dravyathI ja ka2vAnI emaNe zarata mUkI, nAnA ma. ne ullAsamAM lAvavA mATe! "jo nAnA ma. Aje bilakula na UMghe to huM nava AMbila karIza.'' bIjA bolyA, 'mArI to zakti ja nathI, chatAM huM eka AMbila karIza.'' trIjA bolyA ane nAnA ma. ne cAnaka caDI. "juo, pachI pharI nahi jatA. pAkuM pALavuM paDaze.'' hA! hA! cokkasa pALazuM.'' ane nAnA ma. e saMthAro vALI dIdho. 10 vAgyA hatA. savAre cAra vAgyA sudhI saLaMga cha kalAka jApa-khamAsamaNA-paMcasUtrano svAdhyAya - navasmaraNano svAdhyAya... vagere karIne bilakula UMghyA vinA pasAra karyA. savAre cAra vAge vaDIla UThyA, khUba zAbAzI ApI, ane zarata mujaba 70mI oLI traNa dravyathI ka2vAnI taiyArI paNa batAvI. A prasaMga banyo che nAgezvaradhAmamAM! tithi hatI mahAsuda-12-2066. e rAte emaNe 108 logassano kAussagga + 108 khamAsamaNA... ema kula traNavAra kareluM... zubhAnuSThAno Adaro, banI ekatAna! 'atyAre kyAM jAya che? A jhoLI-tarapaNI laIne hamaNAM kyAM nIkaLyo ?'' gurujIe ziSyane prazna karyo. rAtanA be vAgyA hatA ane ziSya gocarI mATenI badhI taiyArI karIne upAzraya bahAra nIkaLI rahyo hato. rAtanA be vAge UThIne ziSye jhoLI-pAtrAdinuM pratilekhana zarU kareluM ane eno avAja thatAM guru jAgI gayelA. Azcarya pAmIne guru e dRzya joI rahyA. 'A celo rAtre be vAge zuM kare che?'' pachI to rItasa2 gocarI javA mATe taiyArI karato joIne guru AbhA ja banI gayA. 14

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~ vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo + tarata najIka jaI upara mujaba prazna karyo. gurujI! pelA vRddha muni mATe gocarI lAvavAnI che ne? e levA jAuM chuM." ziSya javAba Apyo. ziSyanA uttarathI gurujI badhI hakIkata samajI gayA. hakIkata e hatI ke e vRdamAM eka vRddha muni hatA. A ziSyane emanI tamAma prakAranI sevA soMpavAmAM AvelI. "vaiyAvacca, vRddhasevA mahAna dharma che." e zAstrIya padArthane sArI peThe samajI cUkelA ziSya mana mUkIne vRddhanI sevA AraMbhI dIdhI hatI. divasa-rAta joyA vinA vRddha munine samAdhi ApavAnA ekamAtra lakSya sAthe e lagabhaga maMDI ja paDyA hatA. mahinAonA, varSonA A vaiyAvacca-saMskAra eTalA badhA gADha banI gayelA ke emane uMghamAM paNa A vaiyAvaccenA saMskAro asara kare. enuM ja pariNAma A banelo prasaMga hato. AgalA divase gocarI lAvavAnI koIka bAbata aMge manamAM vicAro satata cAlyA haze. pariNAme rAtre uMghamAM e vicAroe potAnuM phaLa darzAvI ja dIdhuM. cAlAka guru badhI vAta pAmI gayA. sAdhune barAbara DhaMDhoLI bhAnamAM lAvyA "jarA jo to kharA! rAtanA be vAgyA che. A kaMI gocarIno samaya che. cAla, sUI jA." ane bhAnamAM AvelA ziSyane potAnI bhUla samajAI. kSamA mAMgI badhI upAdhi mUkI zAMtithI saMthArI gayA. (0 pUrve thaI gayelA zobhanamuni gocarI vahoravAnI kriyAmAM ja stutio banAvavAmAM evA lIna thayelA ke gRhastha patharA vahorAvyA to paNa emane khabara na paDI paNa "e muni uMghamAM paNa stuti banAvatA." evuM sAMbhaLyuM nathI. jyAre A muni jAgatA to satata vaiyAvaccanI dhUnamAM rahetA ja, paNa UMghamAM ya vaiyAvaccanI laganI cAlu rahI. A kevI vizeSatA! jema IrSA, krodhAdi doSo tIvratA sAthe sevIe to enA saMskAro gADha bane ane bhavobhavamAM jIva krodhI, IrSALu banyA ja kare, ema svAdhyAya, vaiyAvaccAdi guNo tIvratA sAthe, ekAgratA sAthe, puSkaLa harSollAsa sAthe sevIe, to enA saMskAro gADha bane ane AvatA bhavomAM jIva pharI svAdhyAyI, vaiyAvaccI... bane. eTale ja koIpaNa zubhayogamAM veTha na utAravI, utAvaLe pUruM karavAnuM lakSya na rAkhavuM, kaMTALA-khedathI zubhayoga na AdaravA.. nahi to e zubhayogo bhavAMtaromAM prApta na thavAdi rUpa moTA nukasAnonI saMbhAvanA che. emAM ya pratilekhana, pratikramaNa, loca Adi ke je yogo avazya AdaravAnA ja che, ruci na hoya to paNa je zubhayogo AcaravAnA ja che, te yogomAM bhAvollAsa, harSollAsa bheLavIne ene sumadhura ja na banAvI daIe! zA mATe e prabaLa puruSArthane nakAmo-niSphaLa thavA daIe?).

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- vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo+++ + vairAgyanA raMgo sajI kyAre prabhu! saMyama rahuM? eka saMyamIe dIkSA letA pahelAM lagAtAra cAra varSa sudhI akhaMDa ekAsaNA karelA (gADha kAraNasara kyAreka chUTuM rAkhyuM.) ane mATe ja enA ghare kAyamI ukALeluM pANI rahetuM. paNa upAzrayathI enuM ghara 300-400 DagalAM dUra hatuM. eTale tyAM pANI vahoravA bhAgye ja koI saMyamI jatA. emAM ya AMbila khAtAnAja pANI zarU thayA pachI to ghare-ghare eka-eka glAsa pANI vahoranArA to bhAgye ja koIka saMyamI maLe. dharmalAbha!'' sAMje pAMca-sADA pAMca vAgyAnA samaye eka munirAje mumukSunA ghare praveza karyo. sAthe loTa hato. ukALeluM pANI che?' ema pRcchA karI. mumukSu (ke je e vakhate mumukSu na hato, muni sAthe koIpaNa paricaya vinAno ja hato. mAtra prAyazcittarUpe akhaMDa ekAsaNA karato hato.) A rIte ghare pANI vahoravA AvelA munine joI atyaMta AnaMdamAM AvI gayo. "Avo aNamola supAtradAnano lAbha kyAMthI?' ema vicArI nAnakaDo ghaDo laI muni pAse Avyo. sAheba! lAbha Apo.' munirAje joyuM ke "sUryAsta thavAne poNo - eka kalAkanI ja vAra hatI. ane ghaDAmAM mumukSune cAle eTaluM be traNa glAsa jeTaluM ja pANI hatuM. jo pANI laI le to mumukSu zuM vApare ? ane e jo navuM pANI ukALe to to doSo lAge ja.' eTale munivara pANI vahoratA khacakAyA. be - paLamAM ja muninA khacakATanuM rahasya samajI gayelA cakora mumukSue tyAM ja ghaDo mUkI daI be hAtha joDI "pANAhAra divasa carima..." paccakakhANa jAte ja laI lIdhuM ane bolI UThyo, "sAheba! have mAre pANI vAparavAnuM nathI. A badhA pANIno Ape lAbha Apavo ja paDaze." munirAje pANI nirdoSa jANI e vahorI lIdhuM. eka nirdoSa saMyama jIvana jIvanArA saMyamIno Avo aNadhAryo, apUrva supAtradAnano lAbha maLavAthI mumukSuno mana-moralo nAcI UThyo. saMyamInA nirmaLa saMyame ja e mumukSunI bhAvanAne vega Apyo hato. A mumukSu jyAre dIkSA levAnI koI ja bhAvanAvALo na hato tyAre ene ekavAra vicAra Avyo ke "huM dararoja snAna karyA bAda darpaNa sAme Ubho rahI vALa oLuM chuM. divasamAM traNa-cAra vAra vALane kAMsakAthI darpaNa sAme rahIne barAbara karuM chuM. A mAro mArA rUpa uparano keTalo rAga! AmAM mane mokSa zI rIte maLe?' ane e divasathI potAnI meLe ja eNe darpaNamAM jovAno tyAga karyo. snAna bAda darpaNa vinA ja vALa oLI levAnI prekTisa pADI.

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~~~ vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo paNa lalATamAM moTo kesarI cAMdalo bhagavAnanI AjJAnA pratIkarUpe karavo to khUba gamato. ane e to darpaNamAM joyA vinA zI rIte karavo phAve? mumukSue eno paNa upAya ajamAvyo. esano aSTa paDavALo mukhakoza evI rIte bAMdhe ke mAtra kapALa ane be AMkha sivAya mukhano koI ja bhAga na dekhAya ane e rIte karIne ja pachI cAMdalo kare jethI mukhadarzananuM pApa na lAge. mAtra eka glAsa pANI vaDe ja e roja snAna karato. ane e badhuM pANI TabamAM laI bahAra paraThavI deto. eka glAsa pANIno evo to vyavasthita upayoga kare ke jethI eTalA ochA pANImAM paNa saMpUrNa snAna thaI jatuM. dIkSA pUrve dIkSAnI bhAvanA vinAnA cAra varSa AvA viratipariNAma sahita e mumukSue vitAvyA. mumukSu kahe che ke A bhAvoe ja mane sarvaviratinI IcchA pragaTAvI. (jo adIkSArthI AtmA paNa sAdhunI bhakti karavA pANI choDI rAtabhara tarasyo rahevA taiyAra thAya, potAnuM mukha sudhdhAM jovAmAM pApa mAne, to ApaNe badhA to sarvaviratidharo chIe. zAsanane jo kharekhara samajyA hoIe to sAdhunI bhakti mATe ApaNo bhAva kevo hoya? ApaNA nAma lakhAvavA ke phoTo mukAvavAnI IcchA sudhdhAM paNa zuM ApaNane zobhe kharI? vicArazo.). tame vRddha saMcamIonI sevA karo cho ne? huM eka gharaDo sAdhu chuM, mArI uMmara thaI che 72 varSa! dIkSA paryAya mAro 40 varSano che. mAruM puNya Ama ghaNuM ochuM, eTale huM vyAkhyAnAdinI zakti dharAvato nathI. mAre koI ziSya paNa nathI. huM evo ghora tapasvI paNa nathI, ke meM evI koI vaiyAvacca paNa koInI karI nathI. Ama jovA jaIe to mArAmAM evI koI ja viziSTatA nathI ke jenA kAraNe koIne mArA tarapha AkarSaNa thAya. hA! zarUAtanAM 20-25 varSa meM ekAsaNA karyA che, moTA divasomAM bila-upavAsa karyA che. mArA gurunA Adeza mujaba lagabhaga AkhuM jIvana pasAra karyuM che. jIvanamAM kadI mUlaguNono bhaMga karyo nathI. jyAM zakya hatuM tyAM nirdoSa gocarI ja vAparI che, vihAradhAma vageremAM jyAre jyAre doSita gocarI vAparavAno avasara Avyo tyAre be-traNa dravya ja vAparIne barAbara yatanA pALI che, dara be-cAra mahine mArA mananA sUkSma pAponI paNa meM AlocanA karI che. roja lagabhaga 5-7 kalAkano svAdhyAya karyo che. jhaghaDA-kaMkAsa vagerethI lagabhaga dUra ja rahyo chuM. kyAreka Aveza Avyo paNa che, game tema bolyo paNa chuM, paNa e ja divase enI mAphI mAgyA vinA rahyo nathI. manamAM kyAreka vikAro jAgyA che kharA, AMkhothI

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vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo) vijAtIyane joI levAnAM pApa paNa thayA che kharA, paNa sAcuM kahuM ? mane tyAra pachI du:kha paNa thayuM che. mArI jAta upara dhikkAra paNa thayo che. huM prabhu pAse khUba raDyo paNa chuM. guru pAse enuM prAyazcitta paNa lIdhuM che chatAM yuvAnI ane kusaMskAronA kA2Ne 55-60 varSanI uMmara sudhI mAnasika doSono zikAra huM cokkasa banyo chuM paNa sAthe e paNa kahIza ke meM vyavahAra bagADyo nathI. meM kadI ekalAM baheno sAthe vAta karI nathI. kadI koInI sAme TIkI TIkIne joyuM nathI. sUryAsta bAda meM upAzrayamAM bahenone pravezavA dIdhA nathI. TUMkamAM koIne paNa mArI sAme AMgaLI cIMdhavAnuM mana thAya ke mArA para zaMkA jAya evuM kazuM ja meM karyuM nathI. baMdhabAraNe kadI beTho nathI. upAzrayamAM kAyama mATe khullA sthAnamAM holamAM besuM chuM, rUmamAM kadI paNa besato nathI. Ama bhale huM tapasvI-prabhAvaka-vaiyAvaccI-jJAnI... jevo viziSTa sAdhu nathI, paNa asaMyamI patita sAdhu paNa nathI. ekaMdare mArI zakti pramANe meM sAruM jIvana pasAra karyuM. have huM mukhya vAta karuM. lagabhaga pacAseka varSanI uMmara sudhI to mane kazI ciMtA bhaviSyanI na hatI paNa dhIre dhIre nAnAmoTA rogo thavA lAgyA, zarIra ghasAvA lAgyuM, badhA ja saMyamayogo sphUrti sAthe ekale hAthe pALavA agharA paDavA lAgyA. mane zvAsanI takalIpha hatI eTale be-traNa mALa caDatA paNa mane zvAsa caDI jato. eTale ja ghaDAo UMcakI-UMcakIne lAvavA e mArA mATe agharuM thaI paDyuM. vihAramAM paNa - pANIno moTo ghaDo UMcakavAnI mArI zakti na rahI. vAyunA roganA kA2Ne mArA hAtha paNa thoDA thoDA dhrUjavA lAgelA, eTale koIpaNa pAtra vage2e hAthamAM pakaDatA mane ja bhaya lAgato ke 'A paDI jaze to?' eTale gocarI javAnuM paNa mane bhAre paDavA lAgyuM. upAzrayamAM jo mAtra paThavavA eka-be mALa caDa-Utara ka2vI paDe ema hoya to mane ciMtA thaI paDatI. - = AvI ghaNI nAnI-moTI ciMtAo mane gherI rahI hatI. e vakhate to mArA guru sAthe hatA ane emano vizALa parivAra paNa sAthe hato eTale gurunA prabhAvathI mAruM badhuM ja sacavAI jatuM hatuM paNa Azare paMcAvana varSanI uMmarathI mArAmAM eka ciMtAno kIDo saLavaLavA lAgyo. 'mArA gurunI uMmara ghaNI thaI gaI che, e game tyAre jatA raheze. emanA gayA pachI mane koNa sAcavaze ? huM konI sAthe rahIza? bIjA badhA sAdhuonA pota-potAnA grupa banI gayA che. paNa mAre to koI ziSya nathI. evI koIka aMgata AtmIyatA paNa nathI. saMsAra svArthI che, koNa mane rAkhaze ? badhAne huM bojArUpa lAgIza. kemake huM to koIne paNa kazA kAmamAM AvavAno nathI. UlaTuM mAre badhAnI sevA levI paDe evI hAlata che. to mane to koI nahi rAkhe. to zuM huM ekalo paDI jaIza? mAre ekalA rahevuM paDaze? ke pachI dIna banIne koIkanA grupamAM apamAna sahetA rahevuM paDaze? mArI samAdhinuM zuM? mAruM maraNa kamote thaze?'' A vicArothI mArI mAnasika pIDA khUba ja vadhI gaI. e to bhAI! jenA para vIte ene 18

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vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo) khabara paDe. mane mArI jAta sAva ekalI paDI jatI dekhAI. badhA sAdhuo potapotAnA grupa banI javAthI AnaMdamAM hatA, paNa koIne mArA jevA noMdhArAono vicAra paNa nahi Avyo hoya ke A gharaDA thaI rahelA, ekalA sAdhunI zI hAlata thatI haze ? mArI muMjhavaNa vadhI ane huM Akho divasa udAsa rahevA lAgyo. gurune paNa A vAta ka2vAnI mArI hiMmata na thaI. mAro svabhAva pAcho svamAnI! eTale mAgaNI karavI koInI pAse dIna banavuM... e mArA svabhAvamAM ja na hatuM. have eka bAju svamAna ! svAbhimAna ! bIjI bAju ghaDapaNanA kAraNe UbhI thayelI parAdhInatA ! A be vacce kema meLa khAya? paNa jinazAsana to ratnonI khANa che ! mArI samaja UMdhI paDI. amArA grupanA eka saMyamI-prabhAvaka sAdhu eka rAtre mArI pAse AvyA. daseka miniTa bIjI badhI vAto karyA bAda e mane khAnagImAM laI gayA. "ghaNA divasathI tame ciMtAmAM lAgo cho, moDhA para AnaMda dekhAto nathI. evuM zA mATe ? amArI koI bhUla ? tame amane tamArI mUMjhavaNa na kaho ? ame tamArA bALaka jevA chIe.'' e sAdhue bharapUra vAtsalya ane lAgaNIbharI vANIthI mane prazna karyo. "nA. nA. kazI ciMtA nathI. tame badhA cho. pachI mAre zI ciMtA ?'' meM vAta chupAvI. paNa e yuvAna sAdhu bhAre hoMziyAra! eka miniTa zAMta rahI eNe gadgad banI gayelA svara sAthe zabdo uccAryA. "munivara! amane pArakA na gaNo. tamArI koIpaNa ciMtA dUra ka2vAnI javAbadArI mArI che. mane ApanI sevAnI taka Apo. mArA para upakAra karo.'' ane divasonI mArI ciMtA dhrusake dhrusake rUdana sAthe, coMdhAra AMsu sAthe bahAra varasI paDI. be miniTa sudhI huM raDato ja rahyo. e sAdhu mArI pITha para hAtha pheravato rahyo. "mane mAtra mArA ghaDapaNanI ciMtA che, mane koNa sAcavaze ? guru to have game tyAre upaDI jaze. pachI huM ekalo? taddana nakAmo ane bojArUpa. mArI sArasaMbhALa koNa leze ?'' meM kahyuM, ane mArA Azcarya vacce e prabhAvaka muni bolI UThyA, 'basa, ATalI ja vAta che ne ? to tame jarAya ciMtA na karo. huM hamaNA ja tamArI pAse bAdhA laI lauM chuM ke huM AkhI jiMdagI tamArI sAthe rahIza. tamArA ziSyanI jema rahIza. mAre be ziSyo thaI gayA che. bIjA paNa thaze paNa e badhA karatA paNa mAre mana tamAruM mahattva sauthI vadhAre raheze. mArA ziSyo mArI nahi, tamArI kALajI sauprathama ka2ze. ane tame vizvAsa rAkhajo ke A mAruM vacana huM akSarazaH pALIza. tamArI sevA dvArA to mane bhagavAnanI sevAno lAbha maLaze. mAruM mohanIya karma tUTaze. mArI zaktio sAcA mArge ja vaparAze. A badhuM tamArI sevAnA prabhAvathI thaze. huM tamAro upakArI nahi, paraMtu 19

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-~~-~~-vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo --~-~tame mArA atyaMta upakArI banazo. have pachI A ciMtA bilakula nahi karavAnI." ane kharekhara tyAM ne tyAM be hAtha joDIne mArI sAme tyAre ne tyAre e sAdhue pratijJA laI lIdhI. e vAtane Aje 17 varSa thaI gayAM, mArA guru kALadharma pAmyAne 16 jeTalA varSa thaI gayAM. paNa sADA traNa karoDa ruvAMDAthI huM A javAba ApuM chuM ke "e sAdhue e vacana savAyuM pADyuM che. Aje enA 15-15 ziSyo hovA chatAM e sAdhu mAruM paDilehaNa karavA Ave che. divasamAM be-be vAra mane zAtA pUchavA Ave che." huM lagabhaga besaNA karuM chuM, paNa mArI gocarI koNa lAvaze? e ciMtA mane thatI ja nathI. kemake roja mane samayasara gocarI vaparAve che. mArI davAnI paNa kALajI rakhAve che. "pANI koNa lAvI Apaze?' e prazna ja mane Ubho nathI thato. kemake pahelInuM pANI ane bIjInuM pANI mArI jagyAe samayasara AvI ja gayuM hoya. vihAramAM to huM ghaDo nahIM UMcakI zakuM. to mane vihAramAM pANI koNa vaparAvaze? ane mArI jhaDapa ochI che, to mArI sAthe koNa cAlaze?" evI ciMtAo mane rahI nathI. kemake kAyama mATe vihAramAM eka sAdhu mArI sAthe ne sAthe ja cAle che. mArA mATe potAnI jhaDapa ghaTADIne cAle che. ane mane ghaDo to ThIka, paNa tApaNI paNa UMcakavA detA nathI. pANI vAparavA ke spaMDila javA mATe e ja mane pANI Ape. mAre UMcakavAnuM nahi ja. "mArA kapaDAno kApa koNa kADhaze? 72 varSe mArI kApa kADhavAnI koI zakti nathI." e vicAra svapnamAM paNa mane AvavA dIdho nathI. e sAdhuomAMthI koIpaNa sAdhu kApa kADhe eTale mArI pAse AvI jIda karI, kheMcIne mArA eka-be, eka-be kapaDA laI jaI, barAbara kApa kADhI pAchA ApI jAya. "mArA mAtrA-sthaDilanA pyAlA mUkavA-paraThavavA koNa jaze?' evo vicAra chellAM 15 varSamAM A sAdhuoe AvavA dIdho nathI. mane kaDaka AzA che ke "tamAre mAtru paraThavavA upara caDavuM nahi ke nIce UtaravuM nahi." mArI pAse koIpaNa ekAda sAdhu kAyama bese, ane jyAre huM mAtru karuM ke tarata paraThavI Ave. spaMDila javAnuM paNa e ja rIte. jo bahAra jagyA maLe, to sAdhu ja mAro spaMDilano pyAlo paraThavI Ave. na maLe to nIce vADAmAM mUkI Ave. paNa mane Utara-caDA na karavA de. mArI prasannatA khAtara emaNe potAnA be-traNa mumukSuo mArA nAme ja dIkSita karavAno sakhata prayatna karelo, paNa meM jIda pakaDI ane ema thatAM aTakAvyuM. "moTI uMmare mArA ziSya bane, ane huM vidAya thAuM, to emanuM zuM? vaLI mane e sAdhu ane enA 15 ziSyo kadI parAyA lAgyA ja nathI. teono vyavahAra ja eTalo badho Ucca koTino, lAgaNIbharelo, saMyamabharelo che.

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--------vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo------------ mArI vaiyAvaccamAM jo khAmI Ave to e sAdhu potAnA ziSyone Thapako ApyA vinA na rahe. cokhkhuM kahI de ke "mArI sevA pachI, pahelA A vRddha muninI sevA karavAnI." keTaluM lakhuM? mArI AMkho AMsuthI chalakAya che, mane A ghaDapaNamAM paNa svargIya prasannatA anubhavAya che. DAyAbiTIsa + zvAsa + hRdayano duHkhAvo + vakarelo vAyu.... vagere vagere vicitra rogo vacce paNa nIrogI karatA ya vadhu prasannatA mAruM haiyuM anubhave che. huM e sAdhuono guru nathI, upakArI nathI, sago-vahAlo nathI, koIpaNa prakAre sahakAra ApanAra paNa nathI. chatAM te badhA mane phUlanI jema sAcave che, e zA mATe? eno uttara eka ja che ke "huM sAdhu chuM ane vRddha chuM' basa mAtra ne mAtra eka agAdha-amApa zubhabhAvanAthI prerAIne teo mane sAcavI rahyA che, mane prasannatAnI bheTa bakSI rahyA che. mane to have koI ciMtA nathI. paNa mane ciMtA che mArA jevA bIjA hajAro vRddha sAdhusAdhvIojInI! kula 15000 sAdhu-sAdhvIjIomAM 1000 saMyamIo to evA haze ja ke jeo 60 varSanI uMmara vaTAvI gayA hoya. emane sevAnI kharekhara jarUra hoya. zuM e badhAne mArA vaiyAvaccIo jevA sAdhuo maLyA haze? ziSyavihoNA ane sahAyakavihoNA seMkaDo saMyamIo avanavI ciMtAomAM pIDAtA to nahi hoya ne? meM e pIDA anubhavI che, e ciMtAno bhAra meM ekavAra veMDhAryo che. mArI eka vAta sau mAnazo kharA? tame sau tamArA gacchanA, tamArA grupanA vRddhone haiyAnA umaLakA sAthe vadhAvI lejo. emanI mAnasika pIDAone mIThAM-madhurAM AzvAsananA ane anumodanAnA zabdo dvArA zamAvI dejo. emanA AMkhamAM ekalavAyApaNAnA, asahAyatAnA AMsunuM eka TIpuM paNa na paDavA dezo. e AMsu nathI, paNa dhagadhagatI Aga che, je tamArA puNyakarmane rAkha banAvI deze e na bhUlazo. tame zrAvakone, bhaktone sAcavavA mATe A vRddhone noMdhArA na mUkazo. gRhastho mATe tamArI pAse kalAkono samaya hoya ane A vRddha sAdhuone mATe dasa-paMdara miniTa paNa na hoya evI adhamatA tamArA jIvanamAM tame na AvavA dezo. gRhasthone paDatA mUkIne paNa vRddha sAdhuo pAse hoMze haze doDI janArA tame banajo. tame gRhasthone to kevo moTo upadeza Apo cho ke "mA-bApa tamArA upakArI che, emane barAbara sAcavajo. e gharaDAM thAya tyAre emanI lAkaDI tame banajo." to zuM A vRddha sAdhuonI lAkaDI tame na banI zako. emane samAdhi ApavAnI tamArI pharaja tame cUkI jazo ? huM mAnuM chuM ke uMmara thAya eTale mANasano svabhAva bagaDe. vRddha mANaso cIDiyA svabhAvavALA, jihI bALaka jevA paNa banI jAya paNa eTalA mAtrathI emanI upekSA karavI e yogya to na ja

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vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo gaNAya ne ? AvatIkAle tamArI paNa e ja hAlata thavAnI ja che ne ? tyAre tamane koI choDI de e tamane gamaze? jarAka AMkho baMdha karIne vicAro ke e gharaDA sAdhunA sthAne tame ho to tamArI hAlata zuM hoya? tamane zuM zuM apekSAo hoya? tamane kaI kaI muzkelIo hoya? yuvAnInA madamAM vRddhatvanI vAstavikatAne vIsarI na jazo. vRddhone kaI kaI muzkelIo hoya che? e koIka ghA sAdhune satata jozo, to khyAla Avaze. gocarI vAparyA bAda UbhA thavAmAM paNa vRddhano dama nIkaLI jato hoya. - cAlatI vakhate lathaDatA hoya to satata TekAnI jarUra rahe, paDI javAno bhaya lAge. traNa TAIma kaMIka bhAvatI cIja vAparavAnuM mana thAya, e apekSA pUrI na thAya to mana ribAya... - kAnethI saMbhaLAtuM na hoya eTale koInI sAthe vAtacIta karI na zake. pariNAme navarA paDe ane manamAM vicAro cAle. koIka vAto karatA hoya, to e sAMbhaLavAnI IcchA thAya, evI zaMkA paNa thAya ke "A badhA mArI viruddhamAM ja badhI vAta karatA haze.'' * paDilehaNamAM, sthaMDila-mAtrumAM je zArIrika parizrama paDe, e paNa emanA mATe asahya bane. ghaDapaNanA kAraNe 2Atre traNa-cAra vAra paNa mAtru javuM paDe, rAtre kone paraThavavA mokale ? badhA sUtAM hoya. e vakhate koIkane uThADe, paNa jo e utsAha na batAve to eno AghAta bhAre lAge. -- - nAnA - navA sAdhuo vRddhonI mazkarI kare, 'thoDuM thoDuM kAma karatA raho, to khAvAnuM pacaze.'' ema kahIne kAma soMpatA jAya ane hasatA jAya. AvuM jo bane to potAnI A asahAya dazA, azakta dazA emane mAnasika pIDA khUba Ape. - sauthI agatyanI vAta e che ke vRddhane bIjI badhI vastu karatA paNa sauthI vadhu jarUra hoya che hUMphanI, AzvAsananI, vahAlabharelA zabdonI! e jo maLe to moTA rogo vacce paNa e mAnasika prasannatA - samAdhi keLavI zake che. paNa A badhuM jo na maLe, to vaga2 2oge paNa bhAre becenI e anubhavaze. kapaDAM melAM thAya, kyAreka jhADA thaI javAthI kapaDAM bagaDe, kyAreka uMghamAM mAtru thaI javAthI kapaDA bagaDe. A badhuM koNa dhoze ? enI emane phikara rahe ja. ghaDapaNanA kAraNe AvA badhA kapaDA paheravA na game e paNa zakya che, paNa e badhA kAma soMpe kone? -- evuM na vicArazo ke "ame to saMyamI vRddhanI sevA karIe. je vRddhane khAvA-pIvAmAM rasa hoya, cokhkhAM kapaDAM ja paheravAmAM rasa hoya, uMghyA karavAmAM rasa hoya, gRhastho sAthe vAtocIto

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-------------- vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo --------------karavAmAM ja hoya evA gharaDAnI sevAthI zuM lAbha maLe?" A vicAra khoTo che. kemake A badhA kaMI mUlaguNonA doSo nathI, A badhA ja doSo uttaraguNonA doSo che. vaLI A umare AvA kALamAM AvA AvA doSo to konAmAM nathI jAgatAM? zuM khuda tamArAmAM AvA ke enA jevA bIjA koI doSo nathI? to tame tamArA doSa nibhAvI zako ane pArakAnA na nibhAvo, e kema cAle? kharI vAta e to nathI ne? ke vaiyAvacca karavAnI IcchA ja nathI, vRddha mATe ghasAI chUTavAnI teyArI nathI, sevA levI che paNa sevA karavI nathI. moTA banavuM che, paNa nAnA banavuM nathI. aMdaranI A malina bhAvanA ja vRddhonI vaiyAvacca na karavA mATenA khoTAkhoTA kutarko UbhA karAvatI nathI ne? e aMdara joIjoIne cakAsajo. tame e na bhUlazo ke vRddhonI sevA tamArA kAmavikArAdi doSone saLagAvIne sApha karI nAkhaze. vRddhonI sevA tamArI jJAnazakti, pravacanazakti, lekhanazaktine pacAvanArI pAcanazakti Apaze. vRddhonI sevA tamane A bhavamAM ane bhavAMtaramAM saMyamasAdhaka nIrogI dehanI bheTa Apaze. vRddhonI sevA tamArI vANImAM amRtatulya mIThAzane janmAvI deze. vRddhonI sevA sadeva tamane prasannatA bakSanArA vAtAvaraNamAM ja rAkhanAruM puNya janmAvaze. vRddhonI sevA tamane ghaDapaNamA uttama vaiyAvaccIo meLavI Apaze. jo tame vRddhonI sevA nahi karo, upekSA karazo to kAM to tame kadI vRddha ja nahi bano, arthAt yauvanavayamAM ja mota AvI paDaze. kAM to vRddhAvasthAmAM nirAdhAra-niHsahAya-atyaMta pIDita banI rahezo. mane mArI ciMtA nathI, paNa mane mArA jevA hajAreka vRddhonI ciMtA to che ja, emanI kyAMka kyAMka upekSA thatI joIne mane karuNA utpanna thAya che. mane e upekSA karanArA sakSama sAdhuo pratye paNa dayA pragaTe che ke "bicArA teonuM zuM thaze?' basa mArI eka aMtima prArthanA che, kakaLatA haiyAnI aMtima vinaMtI che. saunA hita mATenI aMtima bhAvanA che - - ke 50 varSa sudhInA pratyeka saMyamIo = sAdhuo ane sAdhvIjIo evo daDha saMkalpa kare, pratijJA le ke huM ochAmAM ochA eka vRddhane sAcavI laIza. emanI sevA karIza. e vRddha saMyamI mAro ziSya hoya ke mArA guruno ziSya hoya ke mArA gurubhAIno ziSya hoya ke bIjA koI grupano hoya ke bIjA koI gacchano hoya. paNa jo ene jarUra haze to huM cokkasa enI sevA karIza ja. e vRddhanI javAbadArI bhale kharekhara bIjAnI hoya ane teo e javAbadArI na nibhAvatA

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vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo> hoya, paNa huM e javAbadArI upADI laIza. e javAbadArI na nibhAvanArAnI paNa niMdA nahi karuM emanA pratye karuNA dhAraNa karIza. zAstromAM pAsasthA vagere zithilAcArIonI paNa sevA karavAna AjJA pharamAvI che, to A vRddha saMyamIo to ekaMdare ghaNA ja mahAna che. emanI sevA to mAre karavI ja.'' A eka ja pratijJA sau sakSama saMyamIo svIkAre, ane potAnA grupamAM jo koI vRddha hoya to enI sevA dvArA A pratijJAno nAnA pAyA para prAraMbha kare. kadAca saMpUrNa sevA karavAnA ullAsa-zakti na hoya, to chevaTe vRddhanA vastronuM pratilekhana ke mAtra paraThavavuM ke saMthAro pAtharI Apavo ke ene mATe gocarI lAvI ApavI. AmAMthI ekAda paNa avazya karavuM. chellAmAM chelluM eTaluM to karavuM ja ke e vRddha muni pAse roja pAMceka miniTa javuM, madhura vAto karavI, emanA guNonI prazaMsA karavI. emanI sAthe maitrI bharelo vyavahA2 ka2vo, emane prasanna banAvI detI vAto karavI, emane AzvAsana ApavuM. basa, mArI ATalI vinaMtI so svIkAre. li. 72 varSano sauthI vadhu prasanna eka vRddha sAdhu (A patra badhAe gaMbhIratAthI vAMcavo, vicAravo. vRddhanI mAphaka ja glAna mATe paNa A ja badhI vAta samajI levI. jo sakSama saMyamIo AvI pratijJA le, amala zarU kare to hajAreka vRddha saMyamIonI vyavasthA enI meLe goThavAI jAya. emane mATe eka sthAne rokAvuM paDe, moTA nukasAna na hoya to e svIkArI levuM. badhA A vinaMti mAnaze ?) vidyA vinayena zobhate naveka varSa pahelA ame amadAvAda tapovananI pAse AvelA kobA-mahAvIra jaina ArAdhanA kendramAM rokAyelA, tyAM pU.paM. yazovijayajI ma. paNa hAjara hatA. A mahAtmAne prAyaH badhA oLakhe che, agharA agharA granthonI saMskRta TIkAo gujarAtI / hindI vivecana sahita emaNe lakhelI che. zrutajJAnano bhaMDAra che. ghaNA loko emane 'laghu yazovijaya'nA nAmathI oLakhe che. (300 varSa pUrve thayelA mahopAdhyAya yazovijayajI ma.nI pratikRti...) e vakhate emanuM batrIza-batrIzInuM kAma cAlu hatuM, mane amuka meTara tapAsavA ApeluM. jo ke samayanA abhAve huM saMzodhaka to na banI zakyo paNa amuka pAnAM joyA, emAM eka padArtha dhyAnamAM Avyo. 'jinazAsanamAM be prakAranA padArtho che AjJAgrAhya ane yuktigrAhya!'' A padArtha prasiddha ja che, paNa mArA dhyAnamAM daza vai. vRttino pATha hato, enA AdhAre evo artha 24.

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--------vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo ~~~~~~~ nIkaLato hato ke kharekhara to tamAmetamAma padArtho yuktibAhya (= tarkathI sAcA sAbita thaI zake tevA...) ja che, paraMtu je tarkagrAhya padArthonA tarko ApaNI samajavAnI tAkAta na hoya, e padArtho tarkagrAhya hovA chatAM paNa ApaNA mATe AjJA grAhya ja banI jAya.... (AnuM vistArathI nirUpaNa vidUtamAM ja pUrve kareluM ja che....). A padArtha ghaNA vakhata pahelA meM emane lakhI jaNAvelo, pachI koI enI carcA thaI na hatI paNa jyAre kobAmAM amuka divaso sAthe rahevAnuM thayuM, tyAre eka divasa huM bapore gocarI vAparyA bAda luNA kADhato hato, ane acAnaka teo hAthamAM eka pAnuM laIne mArI pAse AvI caDayA. huM Azcarya pAmyo, kAraNa ke teozrI to eka rUmamAM divasano moTA bhAgano samaya svAdhyAyamAM evA taraboLa banelA rahetA ke emane gocarI mATe paNa mAMDa UbhA karavA paDe, ... to acAnaka emaNe ahIM mArI pAse kema AvavuM paDyuM? mArA karatA dIkSAparyAyamAM teozrI ochAmAM ochA daseka varSa to moTA haze ja, ane jJAnanI bAbatamAM to pUchavuM ja zuM? meruaNunuM aMtara hatuM teozrI ane mArA vacce ! emane kaMIpaNa kAma hoya to e mane potAnI pAse ja bolAvI zake. eTale ja Ama pacIseka DagalAM cAlIne, hAthamAM pratanA pAnAM sAthe mArI pAse emanuM AvavuM ajugatuM ja lAgyuM. e vakhate jo ke mArI pharaja hatI ke luNA dhotA dhotAM paNa UbhA thaI javuM. chatAM tyAre e viveka jAgrata na thayo eTale huM UbhaDaka page besI rahI emanI sAthe vAto karavA lAgyo... "sAhebajI! Apa kema ahIM padhAryA?' are, e badhuM pachI! juo, tame kahetA hatA ne, e pATha batrIzImAM paNa upAdhyAyajIe lakhelo che. tame taddana sAcA cho, juo, A pATha! sarva ninavAnaM tasadaMtamAme tamAma jinavacano tarkasaMgata che. eTale ke badhA ja padArtho yuktigrAhya che ja, paNa jyAM ApaNe yukti samajI na zakIe, tyAM e padArtho AjJAgrAhya bane.." basa, ATaluM bolI, mArI anumodanA karI, hasatA mukhe e pAchA pharyA. huM to teozrInI A namratA, A bIjAnA nAnA guNane paNa anumodavAnI nikhAlasatA, badhuM kAma paDatuM mUkIne mArI pAse - sAva nAnA sAdhu pAse sAmethI cAlIne AvavAnI A nirabhimAnitA... joIne Abho ja banI gayo. mane have samajAI gayuM ke teo zA mATe ATalo tIvra kSayopazama dharAve che, teo ATalA badhA granthonI ATalI badhI TIkAo zI rIte lakhI zakyA? eka eka granthamAM hajAro sAkSIpATho zI rIte ApI zakyA? hajAro jaina jainetara granthonuM vAMcana nAnI uMmaramAM teozrIe zI rIte karI lIdhuM? dIkSAnA chaThThA ja varSe bhASArahasya jevA atikaparA grantha upara emanI hindI ane saMskRta bhASAmAM kalama zI rIte cAlI? 2 5 -

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* vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo saMyamIo ! vinaya to jinazAsanamAM mULa che, enI upekSA karanAro saMyamI jinazAsananI ja upekSA kare che. have tame ja mane kaho ke jo AvA mahAna sAdhu paNa Avo vinaya AcaratA hoya, to ApaNe badhAe zuM karavuM joIe? ApaNe A badhuM zIkhavuM nathI? sAcA-sArA-zreSTha saMyamI banavuM nathI? badhAnI bhAvanA AvI to che ja ne? to pachI eno sAco mArga A ja che ke gurunA, vaDIlanA ane guNiyala nAnAonA paNa vinayamAM leza paNa khAmI na AvavA devI. prabhue uttarAdhyayananA 36mA adhyayanamAM sarvaprathama adhyayana A ja rAkhyuM che, eno saMdeza paNa A ja che ke saMyamIoe pahelA to vinayI ja banavAnuM che. cAlo, ApaNe sau prabhunA A saMdezane AtmasAt karIe, gautamasvAmIne ApaNo Adarza banAvIe ane vahelA vahelA paramapadane pAmIe. sau mArI kSamApanA svIkArajo (pUjyapAda gurudevazrI zAsanaprabhAvaka paMnyAsapravara zrI candrazekharavijayajI ma.sAheba zrAvaNa suda-10, vikrama saMvata 2067, bapore 12-39nI AsapAsanA samaye ja amadAvAda AMbAvADI jainasaMghanA upAzrayamAM ja samAdhipUrvaka kALadharma pAmela che. chellA keTalAka divaso-mahinAothI teozrI zarIranI azaktinA kAraNe bolI zakatA na hatA. koIka koIka divasa, thoDuMka thoDuMka bolI zakyA hatA. paNa e pUrve jyAre emanI vAgdhArA askhalitapaNe vahetI hatI tyAre emaNe potAnA haiyAnA je bhAvo rajU karelA, e AdhAre ema cokkasa kahI zakAya ke aMtima divasomAM - paLomAM pragaTa-apragaTarUpe, teozrInA AtmAmAM labdhirUpe ke upayogarUpe e bhAvo cokkasa paDelA ja haze. pUjyapAda gurudevazrI svayaM potAnA bhAvo rajU karata to to hajAro saMyamIone emanI e amUlya-avarNanIya bhAvadhArAno sAkSAt sparza karavA maLata. amArI pAse emanI bhAvadhArAne emanA ja zabdomAM mUkavAnI zakti nathI ja, chatAM "na mAmA karatAM kahANo mAmo sAro'' e nyAye emanI pavitratama bhAvadhArAne zabdomAM 2jU ka2vA prayatna karIe chIe.. emanI sarvottama bhAvadhArAnA lAkhamAM bhAga jeTaluM paNa ame zabdomAM rajU karI zakavAnA nathI, eTale sau A lakheluM lAkhagaNuM karIne vAMcazo, ane amArI A UNapane - khAmIne mAphI Apazo e ja ekamAtra abhyarthanA) 26

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- vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo (paramAtmA pAse kSamAnI prArthanA) mArA pyArA prabhu vIra! kharekhara sAcuM kahuM chuM ke AkhI jiMdagI tArA zAsanane romeromamAM vasAvIne jIvyo chuM. mane gAMDI dhUna lAgI hatI, tArA zAsananI sevA-rakSA-prabhAvanA karavAnI. ane e mATe meM mAruM zarIra eTalI hade ghasI nAkhyuM ke prabhu! tArI sAthe vAta karavA mATenI mArI zArIrika zakti paNa rahI nathI. prabhu! game tema to ya huM vitarAgI to nathI ja, ane mATe ja tArA zAsananI sevA karavAmAM anekAneka vAra tArI ja AjJAonuM ullaMghana meM karyuM che, huM rAga-dveSane paravaza paNa banyo chuM. mArA manamAM viSaya-kaSAyo paNa jAgyA che, ... prabhu! e tamAmetamAma pApanI AlocanA meM mArA pUjya guru bhagavaMto pAse vAraMvAra karI ja che, meM koI pApa chupAvyA nathI, codhAra AMsue, sAcA haiye raDyo chuM. have to aMtima paLo AvI cUkI che. paralokanI vATe vicaravAnuM che mAre! prabhu! o vhAlA svAmI! mArI chellI eka ja vinaMtI svIkArazo? meM AkhA jIvana daramyAna jANe-ajANe tArA je koIpaNa aparAdho karyA hoya, enI tuM mane kSamA ApI de. tArA zAsananI je sevA meM karI che, enAthI jo tuM khuza thayo hoya, to kamasekama ATaluM to mane ApI ja de. ane bIjI eka vinaMtI.... nikhAlasa heye tane kahuM chuM ke huM jema pApathI khUba DaruM chuM, ema durgatinA duHkhothI paNa khUba DaruM chuM. naraka ke tiryaMcanA duHkhonuM smaraNa paNa mane dhrujAvI de che. eTale ja sadgati maLe enI tIvra tamannA che ja. chatAM. chatAM. e vAta atyAre gauNa karuM chuM. bhale je gati maLavI hoya, te maLe.. paNa. paNa... tyAM mArA haiyAmAM tAruM zAsana maLe, eTaluM to tuM mane Apaje ja. tAro rAga, tArA zAsanano anurAga, ruvAMDe ruvAMDe samyagadarzananI dhagadhagatI khumArI. ATaluM tuM ApI deje. basa, pachI duHkhonA vAvAjhoDA tUTI paDe ne, to ya vAMdho nahi. mArA mATe e sauthI moTI sadgati ja che. o prabhu! A garIbane, A yAcakane ATalI bhIkha to tuM Apaje ja. jo ke, kaMjusa na banIza, upekSA karanAra na banIza, mArA doSonuM darzana karanAra na banIza. (zrIzramaNasaMghanA vidhamAna-avidhamAna AcArya bhagavaMto-vaDIlo pAse kSamAnI prArthanA) jinazAsananI dhurA vahana karanArA paramapUjya upakArI AcArya bhagavaMto ane sthavira mahAtmAo!

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-~~~ ~ vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo ~ ~ 35 thI 75nI mArI uMmara daramyAna, kula 40 varSa daramyAna meM saMgha-zAsananAM kAryomAM mAro yathAzakti bhoga Apyo. A 40 varSa daramyAna saMgha-zAsana upara aneka prakAranI Aphato AvI ane e dareka vakhate zAsanadAjhathI prerAIne huM e Aphato dUra karavA mATe pUrepUrA jozI sAthe tUTI ja paDyo. paNa Aje e yAda karuM chuM tyAre mane e lAgyA kare che ke e vakhate mArI bhAvanA cokkasa pavitra hatI, e vakhate mAro prayatna paNa mAtra ne mAtra Aphato dUra karavAno hato paNa e vakhate huM je jussAthI laDyo, jussAmAM je meM vidhAno karyA. je nirNayo karyA, je nIti apanAvI... e zAsananA koIka pUjyavaryone nathI paNa gamI. pUjyavaryonI nIti ane mArI nIti judI paDavAthI mAnasika stara para saMgharSa paNa thayo. mane tyAre te te pUjyavaryo mATe evA vicAra paNa AvyA ke "AmanI nIti barAbara nathI...' eTale huM emano virodha paNa karI beTho. A badhAM kAraNosara te te pUjyone duHkha pamADavAmAM, AghAta lagADavAmAM huM nimitta banyo chuM, zAsananA kAryo bhale thayAM, e bhale sAruM thayuM... paNa emAM pUjyonI, vaDIlonI AzAtanA karavAmAM huM jANe-ajANe nimitta banI gayo chuM. svargastha AcArya bhagavaMto ke vidyamAna pUjyo! e so pAse huM aMtaHkaraNathI kSamApanA mAguM chuM. mAre koI ja bacAva karavo nathI, bacAva karI zakAya paNa nahi. Apa sau paNa zAsananA rAgI hatA, ane cho. mArI zakti, puNyAInA baLe huM ApanI avagaNanA paNa karI beTho. chatAM kharA aMtarathI kahuM chuM, Apano sevaka chuM, sevakanI bhUlanI kSamA Apazo, bhUla bhUlI javI e ja to Apa jevA mahApuruSonI mahAnatA che. mArA avinayanI, avivekanI Aje mAphI mAguM chuM. (ziSyo-praziSyo pAse kSamAnI prArthanA). ziSyo! tame to mane atyaMta vahAlA cho. eTalA mATe nahi ke tame mArI khUba sevA karo cho, paNa eTalA mATe ke tame tamArAM mA-bApa-bhAI-bahena... Akho saMsAra choDIne tamAruM sauthI amUlya jIvana mane soMpI daIne eka advitIya koTinuM mahAna sukRta kareluM che. tame sau varSo sudhI mArI sAthe rahyA cho, mArA bhAvone sauthI vadhAre tame ja jANo cho. "A ziSya che ke A praziSya che." "A mArI sevA khUba kare che ke A mArI sevA karanAro nathI." "A khUba bhaNe che ane A abhaNa che "A nUtana che ke A jUno sAdhu che' "A gharaDo che ke A yuvAna che'. meM kyAMya koIpaNa bAbatamAM bhedabhAva rAkhyo nathI. eka sagI mAtAnI jema tamane saune khUba khUba vAtsalya ApyuM che, je nabaLA hatA, emane to vadhu vAtsalyathI sAcavyA che. paNa huM mAtra saMsArI bA jevo nathI. jainazAsanano zramaNa chuM, eTale ja mArI aMgata pharaja

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~~~~~~~ vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo ~-~~-~e hatI ke tamane saune uttama koTinA saMyamI banAvavA, jJAnI banAvavA ane tamane mokSamArge AgaLa dhapAvavA.. eTale ja snehasabhara haiyAne dabAvI rAkhIne huM vAraMvAra kaDaka banyo chuM. huM tamArAmAM nAnuM paNa asaMyama sevana joI na zakato, ane mATe ja Thapako paNa ApI besato. kadAca eTale ja mArI chApa kaDaka, AcAracusta sAdhu tarIkenI che. A kaDakAInA kAraNe tamane aNagamo thayo ja haze, mArI kaDakAI kyAreka tamane bhAre paNa lAgI haze. mAro Thapako kyAreka tamane AghAta pamADanAro paNa banyo haze, mArI lAla AMkhathI kyAreka tamane saMsAra lIlo bAga lAgavA mAMDyo haze. A badhuM ja zakya che. have to huM jAuM chuM, basa! have tamAre koI ciMtA nahi rahe. have tamane koI Thapako nahi Ape, koI nahi aTakAve, koI tamArI sAme lAla AMkha nahi kare.. have to tamAre zAMti ne? nA! nA! jo tame kharekhara mArA ziSya - praziSya ho, to tamane.. vadhu kazuM ja kahevuM nathI. koI hitazikSA ApavI nathI, basa eTaluM ja.... zakya hoya to tamArA A kaDaka gurune mApha karajo.. zakya hoya to tamArA A kaDaka gurunI kaDakAI pAchaLanI haiyAnI mIThAzane yAda karajo... zakya hoya to tamArA A chavAstha gurathI tamane jANe-ajANe je koIpaNa anyAya thayo hoya, ene udAra heye bhUlI jajo... zakya hoya to tamArA A gurune paralokamAM javA mATe tamArI tapa-saMyamAdinI ArAdhanAmAMthI ekAda Tako paNa sAthe bhAthuM bAMdhI Apajo... mArA pyArA ziSyo! khUba uttama saMyamajIvana jIvajo. khUba viziSTa koTino svAdhyAya karajo. khUba viziSTa koTino svabhAva keLavajo. tamArA A gurunI aMtima zikSA aMtima paLa sudhI yAda rAkhajo. (zreSTha vaiyAvaccI ziSyo-praziSyo pAse kSamAnI prArthanA) huM samayanI bAbatamAM custa chuM, kaDaka chuM. e badhA ja jANe che, eTale ja mArI vaiyAvacca karavI e saraLa kAma nathI. vaiyAvaccanuM koIpaNa kAma samayasara thavuM joIe, barAbara thavuM joIe, e na thAya to guru tarIke huM kaDaka zikSA ApI ja dauM.. 29

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-~-~~-~~vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo ------- emAMya moTI uMmare svabhAva cIDiyo bane, AvezavALo bane. e mane ya khabara che. huM ya have moTI uMmaravALo kyAranoya banI gayo chuM. mArAmAM paNa A badhI asara ochA-vattA aMzamAM AvI ja hoya. chatAM tame khaDepage mArI sevA karI che, mArA aMDila-mAtru paraThavyA che, mArA aMDila-mAtru sApha karyA che, mArA mATe rAtrinA ujAgarA karyA che, mArA mATe tamAro svAdhyAya-tamArA bhaktotamArA comAsAo gauNa karyA che, tame ATaluM badhuM karyuM chatAM meM enI kadara karavAne badale ThapakA ApyA hoya to ya tame to hasatA ja rahyA cho, bharayuvAna uMmaramAM tamArI A gurubhaktine biradAvavA mATe mArI pAse mAtra AMkhanA AMsu ja che, paNa emAM ja badhuM AvI jAya che. zabdo e mATe vAmaNAM ja paDavAnA. mane garva hato ke "meM mArA gurudevanI jevI sevA karI che tevI kadAca koIe potAnA gurunI nahi karI hoya.' paNa Aje tame mAro garva sAva utArI nAkhyo. tamArI gurusevA rUpI merunI sAme mArI gurusevA to mane dhULanI rajakaNa samAna paNa nathI lAgatI. jyAM sudhI mane mokSa na maLe, tyAM sudhI dareka mAnava bhavamAM chelle vaiyAvaccI tarIke, samAdhidAtA tarIke tame ja maLo... evI mane bhAvanA thAya che. tamArI uttamottama vaiyAvaccamAM ya meM to bhUlo kADhIkADhIne tamane khUba parezAna karyA che, tamArI vaiyAvaccanA badalAmAM huM tamane kazuM ApI zakyo nathI, tamArI kadaradAnI karI zakyo nathI. mane kSamA Apajo paNa mArA aMtaranA AziSa che ke prabhu to tamArI vaiyAvaccanI kadara karaze ja. tame mane samAdhi ApI che, to prabhu tamane jIvanamAM ane maraNamAM sarvatra samAdhi Apaze ja, A mArA tamane AzIrvAda che, ane e niSphaLa nahi ja jAya enI mane zraddhA che. ... cAlo, have vidAya lauM chuM. pharI kyAre kyAM maLazuM? e khabara nathI. chelle molamAM to bhegA thazuM ja ne? (potAnA aNu jevA doSane meru jevo moTo ja jovAno pUjyapAda gurudevazrIno svabhAva hato. ame upara emanA e svabhAva pramANe ja lakhyuM che, eTale saune vinaMtI ke pUjyapAdazrIne "meru jevA moTA doSavALA mAnavAnI bhUla na kare." ane... emanI kSamApanAnI parAkASThAnI bhAvadhArAne sparza karavAno, haiyAthI anubhavavAno prayatna kare. saMyamIone AnAthI vadhu sUcana karavAnI jarUra kharI?)

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~ vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo + UMDAI (1) eka sAdhu ajavALAmAM vihAra karavAnI pUrNa bhAvanAvALA! ane zakya hoya to ema ja kare. paNa vadhAre vihAra hoya, guruno Adeza hoya eTale jo aMdhArAmAM vihAra karavo paDe to emAM gurvAjJAne pramANa karI aMdhArAmAM vihAra kare. aMdhArAmAM paDilehaNa paNa kare. paNa emAM emanI be kALajI AMkhe UDIne vaLage. ApaNe to upadhino vIMTIo bAMdhIe, dAMDAmAM daMDAsana lagADIe, pyAlo + maccharadAnI bAMdhIe ane vihAra karavA lAgIe paNa e munivara vicAre ke "upAzrayanI bahAra khullAmAM daMDAsanano upayoga na thaI zake e vAta sAcI. paNa upAzrayanA bAraNAM sudhI to daMDAsanano upayoga thaI ja zake ne? jo daMDAsana bAMdhI dauM, to saMthArAnA sthAnathI upAzrayanA bAraNAM sudhI paNa nIce pUMjyA vinA ja cAlavuM paDe. evuM zA mATe karavuM? AmAM to yatanA pALI zakAya che." ane A vicAra pramANe e muni upadhi bAMdhI, jhoLI gaLe laTakAvI eka hAthamAM dAMDo + pyAlo + maccharadAnI UMcakI, bIjA hAthamAM daMDAsana rAkhI enAthI barAbara pUMjatA pUMjatA cheka daravAjA sudhI jAya. jyAMthI khullo bhAga zarU thAya tyAM pahoMcI tyAM daMDAsana dAMDAmAM bAMdhIne pyAlo + maccharadAnI bAMdhIne vihAra kare. vihAra karIne upAzraye pahoMce eTale badhI upAdhi barAbara ekavAra ajavALAmAM joI le. jyAre meM pRcchA karI tyAre kahe ke "aMdhArAmAM paDilehaNa to karyuM, paNa emAM kyAM jIva dekhAvAnA che? have ajavALAmAM AvIne ekavAra joI lauM to jIvavirAdhanA thaI che ke nathI thaI? eno khyAla to Ave.' dasa ki.mI. aMdhArAmAM vihAra karavAno apavAda gurvAjJAdi kAraNosara seve, chatAM dasa DagalAMnI paNa jayaNA jo zakya hoya to to pALavI ja joIe. e emano spaSTa abhiprAya AmAM dhvanita thAya che ane e zAstrAnusArI che. (2) eka muni potAnA sthApanAjInuM pratilekhana karyA bAda sthApanAjIne ThavaNI para mUke paNa sthApanAjIne jhoLIAmAM na bAMdhe. jhoLIAne ThavaNImAM vacce barAbara bheravI de. meM jyAre pUchyuM ke "kema jhoLIAne juduM rAkho cho ? kema emAM sthApanAjI bAMdhI detA nathI?" e muni kahe "jhoLIAmAM sthApanAjI bAMdhu, to jhoLIAnA be cheDA upara laTakatA rahe, ane e pavanathI satata UDyA kare. e rIte vAyukAyanI virAdhanA thAya. e aTakAvavA mATe jhoLIAnA cheDA na UDe eno prayatna karuM chuM." meM kahyuM ke "ema to pAtrAnI jhoLI bAMdhyA pachI enA be cheTA paNa UDyA ja kare ne?" tyAre muni kahe "mATe ja e be cheDA paNa jhoLInI upara laTakatA rAkhavAne badale jhoLInI nIce

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-------------- vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo ---- ---- barAbara dabAvI dauM chuM. jethI e bilakula UDe nahi." vAyukAyanI virAdhanA na thavA devA mATe A muni eTalI badhI cIvaTavALA che ke bapore pote gocarI vahorIne Ave tyAre bhInA kapaDA, jhoLI-pallA dorI para sUkave to kharA. paNa pachI pote ekAsaNuM karavA bese eTale aDadho-poNo kalAka to UbhA na thaI zake, tyAre pelA kapaDA UDyA. kare, to vAyukAyanI virAdhanA thAya ne? eTale A muni vAparavA to bese, paNa emanuM mana UDatA kapaDA tarapha! eTale je navakArazIvALA je sAdhu vAparIne vahelA UbhA thAya emane tarata vinaMtIpUrvaka kahe ke "pelA kapaDAM nIce utArI lezo?" badhA kapaDAM UDatA baMdha thAya, tyAre emane hAza thAya. jo emane lAge ke "badhA ekAsaNAvALA che, eTale badhAne vAparatA vAra lAgaze. kapaDA sukAyA bAda paNa khoTA UDyA ja karaze." to e paMdara miniTa moDA vAparavA bese. kapaDA sUkAI jAya eTale utArI lIdhA bAda gocarI vAparavA bese. jIvadayAnI kevI sUkSmatama pariNati! (3) dAMtamAM pAyoriyA vagere rogo na thAya e mATe eka sAdhu Ayurvedika maMjana hAthathI ghasato hato. (brazathI nahi.) maMjana ghasyA bAda pyAlAmAM enA kogaLA karatI vakhate gaLAmAM kaphano gaLapho AvavAthI tarata IzArAthI mArI pAse mAgaNI karI ke "mAruM kheriyuM Apajo ne!' meM kahyuM "pyAlAmAM ja ghUMkI nAMkho ne!" paNa emaNe nA kahIne pharI kherIyuM mAMgyuM. meM kherIyuM lAvIne ApyuM tyAre emAM kapha thuMkI barAbara ghasI nAkhyo. pAchaLathI meM kAraNa pUchyuM ke "tame pyAlAmAM ja kema na theMkyA?" tyAre e kahe "juo, maMjananuM pANI to retImAM - kapacImAM ekameka thaI javAthI emAM saMmUrchAima na thAya. paNa emAM ja jo kaphano gaLapho kADhuM to e gaLapho paNa maMjananA pyAlA sAthe ja paraThavavo paDe ne? paNa e to mATI vagere sAthe ekameka na thAya. e gaLapho have ghasavo paNa ucita na lAge. eTale huM kadI paNa maMjananA pyAlAmAM gaLapho thuMkato nathI. e to huM kheriyAmAM ja ghUMkIne ghasI lauM." (4) eka sAdhu vihAramAM upadhi rAkhavA mATe plAsTika to rAkhe ke jethI upadhi bhInI na thAya. paNa e plAsTika thelI jevuM nahi, paNa sIvelA vinAnuM corasa kapaDuM hoya evuM plAsTika rAkhe. ema ogho paNa bhIno na thAya e mATe oghAnuM plAsTika rAkhe. paNa e paNa sIveluM nahi, oghAriyA jevA AkAranuM plAsTika rAkhe. huM A baMnemAM UMdhuM karato hato. mArI pAse plAsTIkanI kothaLI hatI, ane oghA mATe sIveluM plAsTIka hatuM. keTalAka pAse to meM AkhI dasIo ja samAI jAya ane upara cena lagAvI zakAya evuM paNa plAsTika joyeluM. meM A sAdhune prazna karyo tyAre emaNe javAba Apyo ke "kothaLI vageremAM jo aMdara kIDImacchara vagere nAnA jIvo phasAI jAya to e jaladI nIkaLI na zake. ApaNane paNa e kADhavAmAM

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vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo eno javAba e Ape e pUrve to emanA gurue ja ApI dIdho ke "emane oLI cAle che.. mATe miSTa nahi cAle.'' huM samajyo ke 'e majAka kare che.' kemake copaDelI roTalI, lIluM zAka, dUdha, masAlAvALI dALa... A badhuM meM ja to e sAdhune ApeluM. emAM oLI zI rIte hoI zake ? paNa mArA moDhA paranI mUMjhavaNa joIne emaNe vyavasthita khulAso karyo ke "pahelA e vardhamAna tapanI oLI karatA hatA. paNa pittanA kAraNe UlaTI + azakti vagerene lIdhe AMbilo karavA khUba agharA paDavA mAMDyA. eTale emaNe oLI choDI. paNa eka divasa emane vicAra Avyo ke huM AMbilanI oLI bhale na karI zakuM, paNa eno artha e paNa nathI ke 'mAre badhuM ja khAvuM : mIThAI-mevo-pharasANAdi vAparavuM.' enA badale huM ekAsaNAnI oLI karuM. arthAt roTalI-zAka-dALa-bhAta-dUdha A pAMca ja vastuovALA ekAsaNA karavA ane e rIte oLI karavI. dA.ta. 20mI oLI hoya, to 20 divasa AvA sAdA ekAsaNA karavAnA. pachI be-cAra divasa pAraNA.. eTale ke miSTAnnAdi vAparI levAnuM. vaLI 21 divasa sAdA ekAsaNA. A rIte oLIo karavAnI. atyAre emane 33mI oLI cAle che. roja ekAsaNAnuM paccakkhANa ane dhAraNA abhigraha le che. eTale emane pAMca vastu sivAya kazuM ApavAnuM nahi.'' huM to Abho ja banI gayo. kevo gajabano sApekSabhAva! tapanI oLI nahi, to tyAganI oLI to kharI ja! vAha re vAha ! (8) eka prabhAvaka pravacanakAra paMnyAsajI mane maLyA. e zakya hoya tyAM sudhI moTA holamAM ane e paNa pravacana holamAM ja bese. rUmomAM ke pravacana hola sivAyanA moTA holamAM paNa na bese. meM emane jyAre kAraNa pUchyuM tyAre e kahe ke "juo, jyAre zrAvako upAzraya banAve, tyAre pravacana hola banAvavA pAchaLa to emano Azaya spaSTa ja hoya che ke ahIM ApaNe vyAkhyAna sAMbhaLazuM, ArAdhako sAmAyika-pratikramaNAdi karaze.'' eTale pravacana hola mukhyatve zrAvaka-zrAvikAnA mATe ja banato hovAthI e sAdhu mATe AdhAkarmI doSavALo na bane. paNa upAzrayamAM svAdhyAyakhaMDa-dhyAnakhaMDa-bIjA trIjA mALe moTA hola... vagere je banAvavAmAM Ave, temAM to zrAvakono Azaya A ja hoya che ke "ahIM sAdhuo bhaNaze, ahIM sAdhuo raheze, ahIM gocarI vAparaze...'' eTale e badhA sthAno sAdhunA uddezathI banatA hovAthI e AdhAkarmAdi doSavALA bane. eTale huM zakya hoya tyAM sudhI pravacana holamAM ja besuM chuM. gocarI paNa tyAM ja goThavuM chuM. mArA ziSyone paNa tyAM ja besADuM chuM. hA! nA chUTake chevaTe rUma vagereno upayoga karuM paNa kharo.'' 34

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~ vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo + (9) eka sAdhu mane kahe "bahAra aMDila javAnI jagyA na maLe, to pyAlAmAM jaIne ucita sthAne paraThavI AvuM. e vakhate upAzrayamAM rAkhelI vADAnI rUmono upayoga karavo paDe. e speziyala sAdhu mATe banI hovAthI emAM doSa to che ja, chatAM e to nA chUTake sevavo paDe che. paNa e vADAnI nAnakaDI rUmamAM besavA mATe je UMcI be pALa banAvelI hoya che, huM kadI enA para nathI besato. ene badale tyAM ja pALanI bAjumAM ja besIne kAma patAvuM chuM. rUma to nA chUTake vAparavI paDe che, paNa pelI pALa to na vApare to paNa cAlI ja zake che. to zA mATe e AdhAkarmI pALa vAparavI?" (10) eka sAdhue vAraMvAra phITa AvavAthI chevaTe DokTaranA kahevA pramANe be TAIma davA zarU karI. e davA evI ke avazya levI ja paDe. ekAdavAra paNa bhulAI jAya to tarata phITa Ave. (zarIra kheMcAya - mANasa bebhAna thaI jAya.. jenuM bIjuM nAma AMcakI che.) eTale roja baMne TAIma davA samayasara avazya levI ja paDe. vaLI e davA garama paDe evI hovAthI sAthe kaMIka khorAka levo paDe. jo ekalI davA levAmAM Ave to rItasara chAtImAM duHkhavA mAMDe. bAra-bAra varSathI prAyaH saLaMga ekAsaNA karanAra e sAdhu ekAsaNA choDavA Icchato na hato. eTale ja eNe DokTaronI pAse rajA mAgI ke "khorAka vinA ekalI goLI laIe to cAle ke nahi?" paNa DokTaronI sakhata nA ane chAtImAM baLavAno jAta anubhava eTale savAra-sAMja goLI sAthe kaMIka vAparavuM anivArya banyuM. chevaTe duHkhI heye ekAsaNA choDI navakArazI zarU to karI. paNa emAM emaNe je kALajI karI e advitIya hatI. e muni kahe ke "savAre koIpaNa eka ja vastu vAparavAno meM nirNaya karyo. jo jainonA gharo hoya to nirdoSa dUdha maLI rahe paNa mAtra ne mAtra dUdha ja vAparavAnuM. emAM khAMDa nahi ja naMkhAvavAnI. khAkharA paNa nahi, to pauA-upamA-miSTa-khajUra vagerenI to vAta ja kyAM rahI? sAdhuo bhaktibhAvathI badhu vaparAvavA prayatna kare. paNa huM roja dhAraNA abhigraha ja karI lauM eTale eka ja vastu mATe vAparavAnI rahe. jyAM jainonA ghara na hoya, eTale dUdha na maLe tyAM paNa goLa to maLI ja jAyane? evA sthAnomAM goLa lAvI goLanuM pANI karIne mAtra e eka ja vastu vAparI lauM. A thaI savAranI vAta! sAMjanI gocarI mATe mane lagabhaga zaMkA ja rahe che ke "e doSita hoya che. kemake rAtribhojananA tyAgavALA ghaNA ghaNA ochA hoya. eTale sAMje gocarI cokkasa gharomAM ja maLe. emane paNa khabara hoya ke sAdhu-sAdhvIo Avaze ja. eTale mizrAdi doSa to lAge ja. vaLI ApaNe to

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vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo) sUryAstanA eka kalAka pUrve to emanA ghare gocarI-vahoravA pahoMcI ja jaIe. eTale e badhAe gocarI ApaNA mATe vahelI banAvavI ja paDe... eTale sAMje rAMdhelI rasoI huM leto nathI. enA badale korA mamarA athavA caNA athavA ekalA khAkharA (dUdha paNa nahi...) lAvIne enAthI ja sAMjanI gocarI pUrI karI lauM. savAre navakArazImAM dUdha/goLapANI vAparatA be miniTa ane sAMje caNA/mamarA/khAkharA vAparatA pAMca miniTa lAge. huM sAMjanI gocarImAMDalImAM nathI jato,mArI jagyAe ja vAparuM chuM. mane bhaya rahe che ke sAMjanI gocarInI garama-garama, alaga alaga vastuo joIne huM lalacAI jaIza to? mAro vairAgya tUTI jaze to ? to huM paNa dhIre dhIre e badhuM vA52vA lAgIza. nA! ekAsaNAnA na thAya to bhale, paNa have ATalo tyAga to kamasekama mArAmAM Takavo ja joIe ne?'' muninA A zabdoe mArI AMkhomAM jhaLajhaLIyAM AvI gayAM. (11) eka moTI uMmaranA munirAja comAsAmAM kadI paNa bArI pAse na bese. bhIMtathI paNa be traNa cAra hAtha dUra bese. jyAre meM AnuM rahasya pUchyuM tyAre abhaNa gaNAtA e muni bolyA ke 'comAsAmAM game tyAre varasAda paDe ane e vakhate bArI upara, dhAra upara paNa pANInA chAMTA paDe. e pachI pANI aMdara AvatuM aTakAvavA e bArI baMdha karIe to pelA TIpAM rItasara cakadAI ja jAya ne ? ane bArI baMdha karyA bAda thoDIvAre varasAda baMdha thayA pachI kholIe to ya e bArI para rahelA TIpAonI tathA bahAranA bhAgamAM rahelA TIpAonI virAdhanA thAya ja. eTale meM nakkI karyuM ke varasAdanA samayamAM bArI kholavI paNa nahi ke baMdha paNa karavI nahi. e rIte ja TevAI gayo chuM.'' (12) "tame ekalA AvyA cho? sAthe koI bhAI nathI?'' e munirAje maLavA AvelA 60 varSanI uMmaranA eka bahenane prazna karyo. huM tyAM ja jarAka dUra beThelo hato. pelA bahena bolyAM, "nA, sAhebajI! koI ghare nathI. e to bahAra gayA che. huM ekalI ja AvI chuM.'' A munie kahI dIdhuM ke "amArAthI ekalA bahena sAthe vAta karavA na besAya. tame koI bhAIne letA Avo to besAya.'' ane pelA bahene vaMdana karIne vidAya lIdhI. meM tarata pelA sAdhune pUchyuM ke "e koNa hatuM ?'' sAdhue javAba Apyo ke 'mArA saMsArI bA hatA.'' huM to A javAba sAMbhaLIne stabdha thaI gayo.'' bhalA mANasa ! sagA bA, 60 AsapAsanI uMmara, sAMjano cAra vAgyAno samaya ! tamane kyAM AmAM koI doSa lAgavAno che?'' meM emane 36

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vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo ~~~~~~ ThapakAnI bhASAmAM zabdo kahyA. e vakhate muni kahe "ApanI vAta e apekSAe cokkasa sAcI ke AmAM mArA manamAM koI ja kharAba bhAva nathI paNa chatAM mane lAge che ke ApaNe vyavahAra to barAbara pALavo ja joIe. Aje jo emAM DhIla mUkuM to Aje bA che, AvatI kAle yuvAna bahena vagere paNa hoya. Aje cAra vAgyA che, AvatI kAle sUryAsta bAda aMdhArAno samaya paNa hoya.. AvA dUSaNo ghUsI na jAya e mATe pANI pahelA pALa bAMdhI levI jarUrI che." brahmacarya guNa mATenI keTalI badhI sajAgatA! vyavahAranI zuddhi jALavavA mATenI keTalI badhI jAgRti! (13) poSa mahinAnI thIjavI nAkhatI ThaMDImAM ame amadAvAda tapovanamAM hatA. cAre bAju khullI jagyA hovAnA kAraNe zahera karatA tapovanamAM 20% ThaMDI vadhAre lAge. Akho divasa kAmaLI oDhIne ja besavAnuM mana thAya. gocarI vakhate ke paDilehaNa vakhate vastro na paherIe eTaluM ja! evA vakhate rAtre to kevI ThaMDI lAge? ame upAzrayamAM paNa eka rUmamAM saMthAro karatA, upAzrayanA ane A rUmanA tamAma bArI-bAraNAM barAbara baMdha rAkhatA. rUmamAM nIce lAkaDuM hovAthI ThaMDI ochI thatI, chatAM ekAda dhAbaLo pAtharavAmAM ane ekAda dhAbaLo oDhavA mATe to avazya levo paDato. e pachI paNa TUMTiyuM vALIne UMghavAnuM thatuM. AvI paristhitimAM eka prabhAvaka paMnyAsajI bhagavaMta bahAra holamAM saMthAro karatA. nIce lAkaDAne badale koTAsTona (lAdI) hovAthI ThaMDI puSkaLa lAge, chatAM e pUjanIya paMnyAsajI mAtra saMthAro ane uttarapaTTo ja pAtharatA. oDhavAmAM mAtra kAmaLI ja vAparatA. dhAbaLo ekapaNa nahi. ame ghaNI vAra vinaMtI karI ke "Apa rUmamAM AvIne saMthArI jAo." paNa te kahe "mane koI takalIpha nathI. tamane rUma jarUrI che, to tame khuzIthI tyAM ArAma karo." vaLI rAtre UMgha ochI thAya, ne eTale divase eka-be kalAka UMghI jAya evuM paNa e na karatA. divase mAMDa 20 miniTa ArAma kare. bAkI Akho divasa pATha ApavAdimAM pasAra kare. bIjA eka muni to mAtra ne mAtra kapaDo ja oDhe che. kAmaLI paNa oDhatA nathI. deha pratyenI mamatA keTalI badhI ghaTADI dIdhI haze A mahAtmAoe! (14) eka gurue potAnA ziSyone zIkhavADyuM che ke koIpaNa bahenanI sAthe kAraNasara vAtacIta karavI paDe, emane saMbodhana karavuM paDe to ekalA nAmathI emane na bolAvavA. nizA, raMjana... vagere paNa nizAbahena, raMjanabahena... ema dareka jagyAe bahena zabda avazya lagADavo. meM jyAre A vAta jANI tyAre e gurune Ama karavAnuM kAraNa pUchyuM, meM dalIla paNa karI ke "dasavaikAlikanA sAtamA adhyayanamA to nAthim v gujhA.. ema kahyuM ja che. e rIte koI

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- vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo strIne enA nAmathI saMbodhana karavAnI rajA ApI ja che." tyAre e guru kahe - "nAma ja nahi bolavuM evuM huM nathI kaheto. mArI vAta eTalI ja che ke nAmanI sAthe bahena zabda bolavo. AmAM pharaka cokkasa che. koIpaNa pati potAnI patnIne bolAve tyAre ekaluM nAma ja bole che ne? tyAM e bahena zabda bole che kharo? e bolavo ene phAve kharo? na ja phAve. Ano artha e ke pati-patnI vacce kAmarAga, sneharAga che, tyAM bahena zabda bolavo phAvato nathI. to sIdho artha e thAya ke jo bahena zabda bolavAmAM Ave, to aprazastabhAva jAgavAnI zakyatA ghaNI ghaTI jAya. vaLI vyavahAramAM paNa e ja vadhu yogya lAge. bahena zabdamAM sanmAna che, eTale ja tyAM aprazasta rAga prAyaH Ubho thato nathI. AthI ja huM e paNa zIkhavuM chuM ke koIpaNa bahenane "tuMkArAthI nahi bolAvavA. ApaNA karatA uMmaramAM nAnA hoya, re! pAMca varSanI nAnakaDI chokarI hoya to paNa "tame' zabdathI ja bolAvavA. tame ja kaho ke "e chokarI! tAruM nAma zuM? tuM kyAM rahe che?' e zabdo kevA lAge? ane "tamAruM nAma zuM? tamAruM ghara kyAM che? rasoI keTalA vAge bane che?" e zabdo kevA lAge? ema "e nizA! raMjanane bolAvI lAva ne?' e zabdo sAdhunA moDhe zobhaze kharA? ene badale "nizAbahena! pelA raMjanabahenane bolAvI lAvajo ne?" A zabdo kevA lAge? e gurunI vAto mane sparzI gaI. ane je pAMca-sAta divasa sAthe rahevAnuM thayuM. emAM meM emanA vartanamAM paNa A uccatama AcAra nihALyo. koIpaNa bahena mATe, nAnI chokarI mATe paNa "tuM" kAro meM emanA moDhe sAMbhaLyo nathI. pote khuda 60 varSanI uMmara vaTAvI cUkelA hovA chatAM vyavahAranI surakSA karavAmAM ekadama sajAga hatA. (15) "lagabhaga badhA sAdhu pAse ekAda poTalAno parigraha to hoya ja che. to tamAre paNa poTalA to haze ja ne?" meM eka sAdhune prazna karyo. e kahe "nA, mArI pAse ekapaNa poTaluM nathI." mane AMcako lAgyo. meM pharI pRcchA karI "AvuM bane ja zI rIte? ekAda poTaluM to hoya ja...' paNa emaNe pharI kahyuM ke "nA, devagurunI kRpAthI mAre parigraha karavo nathI paDyo." "paNa tamo to nyAya vagere ghaNuM bhaNelA cho. sAMbhaLyuM che ke khAlI nyAya upara to tame 10,000 pAnAM jeTaluM lakhANa kareluM che. e badhI noTo kyAM gaI? e sivAya paNa tame je bhaNatA, enI noTo to banAvatA ja hatA. to tame to DhagalAbaMdha granthono abhyAsa karelo che, e badhAnI paNa noTo to haze ne?" hebatAI jaIne prazna karyo. emaNe javAba dIdho ke "hA! DhagalAbaMdha noTo hatI, paNa meM badhI ja kADhI nAMkhI. je

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----vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo + bIjAone upayogI thAya evI hatI, e jJAnabhaMDAramAM ApI dIdhI. je mAtra mArA abhyAsa mATe hatI, evI noTo paraThavI dIdhI. keTalIka agatyanI noTonA pustako chapAI gayA pachI to e noTo paNa paraThavI dIdhI. have to nakkI ja karyuM che ke je chapAvavAnuM hoya, evuM agatyanuM ja lakhavuM ane chapAyA bAda e tarata ja paraThavI devu. e sivAyanuM koIpaNa lakhANa thAya to koI mAge to ApI devuM, nahi to paraThavI devuM. paNa ekAda paNa nAnakaDuM paNa poTaluM banAvavuM nahi." prazna: "paNa pustakonI to jarUra paDe ne? enuM poTaluM to haze ne?" uttara H "pustako to jJAnabhaMDAramAMthI jyAre joIe tyAre, jyAM joIe tyAM maLe che. zA mATe eno parigraha karI pAMcamA mahAvratane malina karavuM?' praznaH paNa tamArI potAnI lakhelI noTa hoya, to bhaviSyamAM bIjAne bhaNAvavAmAM e noTa anukULa rahe. mahenata na karavI paDe. uttara : juo, pahelI vAta to e ke have lagabhaga dareka dareka viSaya upara sArAmAM sArAM pustako chapAI ja gayAM che. ApaNI lakhelI noTa karatA e vyavasthita pustako ja abhyAsa karAvavAmAM vadhu upayogI bane. chatAM ekavAra tamArI vAta mAnI laIe to paNa mAre bIjAne bhaNAvavA mATe kadI mArI noTonI jarUra paDatI nathI. hA! koIka viSayamAM mahenata karavI paDe, paNa e to mane to game che. emAM navo kSayopazama paNa khIle. hA! jene A badhuM na phAve teonI vAta judI! teo apavAda mArge bhale e noTo rAkhe ya kharA paNa mAre to rAkhavI paDI nathI. AkhI jiMdagI rAkhavAnI IcchA ya nathI. prazna : bhale pustako-noTono parigraha na hoya, paNa vadhArAnI kAmagIo + pAtrAo + kapaDAM + colapaTTAdinA to poTalA haze ja ne? ekAda to chevaTe e upadhionuM poTaluM hoya ja... uttara : nA re nA! upadhi to A jamAnAmAM puSkaLa maLe che. zrAvakonI bhakti behada che, bhAratamAM game te sthAne ApaNane badhuM maLI rahe che. pachI A badhI vastu bhegI karavAnI jarUra zI? mArI pAse AmAMnuM kazuM ja vadhAre nathI. colapaTTo paNa mAtra eka ja che. je vaparAzamAM cAlu che. ziyALAmAM ThaMDIthI bacavA mATe eka pazamInAnI kAmaLI rAkhI che, paNa e kAyama sAthe ja UMcakuM chuM. eTale enuM ya poTaluM banAvavuM paDyuM nathI. A badhI praznottarI bAda meM emane pRcchA karI ke "parigraha na karavAno ATalo badho sakhata puruSArtha zA mATe?" -- tyAre emaNe pAMcamA mahAvratanA bhaMgathI mAMDIne DhagalAbaMdha nukasAno batAvyA. (e badhA ja saMvigna saMyamIonI niyamAvali vageremAM darzAvelA che, eTale ahIM pharI lakhato nathI.) (16) eka mahAtmAne pratikramaNa mAMDalImAM roja Ayariya uvajajhAe... pachI besI jaIne beThA beThA pratikramaNa karatA meM joyA. mane kutUhala thatuM. tyAM sudhI UbhA UbhA kare, vidhisara kare

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-~~~-~~-~-~ vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo ~--~~-~ane Ayariya. pachI sAva besI ja jAya. AvuM zA mATe? vaLI e mahAtmA sArA hatA. besIne kare to paNa ekadama TaTTAra bese, hAtha barAbara joDelA rAkhe... pahelA to mane thayuM ke thAka lAgyo haze... eTale beThA beThA karatA haze, paNa AvuM meM ghaNA divaso sudhI joyuM. chevaTe mArAthI na rahevAyuM ane ekavAra sAMje vaMdana karavA AvelA meM emane pUchI ja lIdhuM. emaNe javAba dIdho ke "mane eka vicitra roga che. elarjI che ke zuM? e khabara nathI paNa jo vadhu samaya Ubho rahuM to mane pagamAM puSkaLa khaMjavALa zarU thaI jAya. e khaMjavALa evI Ave ke jorajorathI khaNyA vinA na rahI zakAya. hA! jo huM besI jAuM, to khaMjavALa paNa besI jAya. AvuM pAchuM roja ja thAya evuM nathI. amuka kALe, amuka khorAkanA lIdhe AvuM thatuM haze. badhA Ane raktavikAra kahe che. Akho divasa to koI muzkelI hotI nathI, kemake emAM UbhA rahevAnuM AvatuM nathI. paNa roja sAMjanA pratikramaNamAM Ayariya.. pachI khaMjavALanI zarUAta thavA lAge. mane e aMdAja AvI jAya eTale huM tarata besI jAuM... apavAdarUpe besavuM paDe che, paNa emAM eTalI to kALajI rAkhuM ja ke ekadama TaTTAra besuM, hAtha barAbara joDelA rAkhuM, stavana vakhate caityavaMdana mudrA barAbara jALavuM. ATalo sApekSabhAva na rAkhuM to mAro apavAda khoTo Thare." e mahAtmAnI kALajI meM barAbara joI che. kriyA daramyAna e kadI paNa koInI sAthe vAta na kare, AjubAju paNa na jue, sIsakArA paNa na kare. sAMjanuM pratikramaNa mAMDalImAM ja kare. 102 DIgrI tAva hato, tyAre paNa emaNe mAMDalI na choDI. beThA beThA karyuM, paNa na Teko dIdho ke na hAtha joDI rAkhavAmAM pramAda karyo. zAMtabhAve tAvanI vedanA sAthe ya mAMDalInuM pratikramaNa na choDayuM, e kahe ke "je pratikramaNamAMDalImAM praveza karavA mATe AMbila karelA, je mAMDalIno mahimA evo che ke zAstrIya dRSTie to AcArya suddhAM paNa mAMDalImAM ja pratikramaNa kare e mAMDalI najIvA kAraNosara mAre zIdane choDavI?' re! e sAdhune maLavA mATe bhakto AvelA hoya to paNa pratikramaNa zarU thAya eTale badhAne paDatA mUkIne e sAdhu mAMDalImAM AvI ja jAya. pote vaDIla hoya to paNa AmAM mInamekha pheraphAra nahi. hA! evA atyaMta viziSTa kAma AvI paDe tyAre ja nAchUTake mAMDalI choDe. paNa e paNa emane bilakula ISTa nahi. emanA aMgata paricaya bAda emanA jIvanamAM anubhavAyeluM A amRta mane maLyuM che ane mArA jIvanamAM utAravAno prayatna zarU karyo che.. (17) lekhaka, pravacanaprabhAvaka, vidvAna eka mahAtmA pAse eka saMgha vinaMtI karavA Avelo. tyAre jogAnujoga huM paNa tyAM ja beThelo. saMghe comAsAnI vinaMtI karI. e mahAtmAe potAnI 40 -

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* vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo anukULatA hovAthI saMmati ApI. jaya bolAI. e pachI e mahAtmAe saMgha samakSa karelI lAta sAMbhaLIne mArI AMkhamAM harSanA AMsu AvI gayAM. huM to vicAramAM paDI gayo ke 'badhA mahAtmAo AvA banI jAya to?'' A rahyA emanA zabdo : juo, pahelI vAta e ke mArA cAturmAsanA kharca nimitte cAturmAsika phaMDa karavAnI koI ja jarUra nathI. kemake mArA comAsAmAM saMghanA AgevAnonA mAthe kharcano leza paNa bojo Ave evuM huM kazuM ja karAvato nathI. je koIpaNa kharcavALA anuSThAna haze, enI jAherAta jAhe2mAM ja karavAnI, saMghanA sabhyo lAbha le to e anuSThAna karAvavAnuM. nahi to anuSThAna radda karavAnuM. dA.ta. koIpaNa tapa karAvIe, emAM 10 besaNA karAvavAnA thAya to e tamAre karAvavA ja paDe evuM bilakula nahi. saMghamAM ja jAhe2Ata ka2vAnI, jeTalA bhAgyazALIo lAbha le eTalA besaNA karAvavAnA, bAkInA besaNA badhA ghare kare. ekapaNa besaNuM na noMdhAya, to badhA ja ghare karAvavAnA. emAM saMkhyA ochI thAya to paNa ciMtA na karavI. e ja vAta ravivArIya zibirAdimAM paNa samajavI. zibira pachI alpAhAra rAkhavo ja paDe evuM kaMI nahi. saMghamAM jAherAta karyA bAda koI lAbha le, to alpAhAra rAkhavAno. nahi to enA vinAnI ja zibiro karAvavAnI. koI lAbha na le, to AgevAno tarIke e javAbadArI tamArA 52 Ave evuM bilakula nahi. ema bALakonI ArAdhanA, emanA InAmo vageremAM paNa samajI ja levuM. tathA tamAre tyAM koIpaNa phaMDa mATe karAvavAnuM nathI. tame je kahezo, te phaMDa karavAmAM huM preraka banIza. mArA potAnA koI ja phaMDaphALA nahi thAya. e bAbatamAM tame nizciMta rahejo. tamAre tyAM devadravyAdimAM je Avaka thAya, e yogyasthAne vaparAI jAya e mATenI mArI preraNA cokkasa che. e mATe mArgadarzana paNa ApuM chuM, paNa thayelI AvakamAMthI amuka rakama mArA kahyA pramANe amuka ja sthAnamAM ke amuka ja TrasTamAM kharcavI paDaze... evo mAro leza paNa Agraha nahi. rakama yogya sthAne kharcAya e ja jarUrI..... agatyanI vAta e ke "ame AgevAna = TrasTI chIe, eTale te te phaMDaphALAmAM, te te anuSThAnomAM ame rakama nahi lakhAvIe to mahArAjane khoTuM lAgaze. mahArAjanA manamAM amArI chApa kaMjUsa tarIkenI paDaze. mahArAjane ApaNA pratye Adara nahi rahe. mATe ApaNe amuka kharco to karavo ja paDaze. amuka anuSThAno to karAvavA ja paDaze. nahi to pAchaLathI A mahArAja ja badhe kaheze ke A saMghanA TrasTIo ThaMDA che, rasa vinAnA che...'' AvA AvA koI ja vicAro karazo nahi. huM tamArI pAse AvA prakAranI koI ja apekSA rAkhato nathI. tamane mArI preraNA sAMbhaLIne kharA haiyAthI dAna karavAnI bhAvanA thAya to karajo. paNa AvA dabANa heThaLa rahezo 41

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-~~~~~~ vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo ---------- nahi. eka rUpiyo paNa tame AkhA comAsA daramyAna nahi kharco, to paNa mAro tamArA pratyeno Adara Aja jeTalo ja raheze. huM comAsuM mukhyatve mArI ArAdhanA mATe karuM chuM. bIjAnI ArAdhanA emAM gauNa che. e thAya to ThIka, na thAya to huM mArA pariNAmamAM leza paNa malinatA AvavA devA mAgato nathI. eTale tame nizcita ja rahezo." huM to Abho banIne A badhuM sAMbhaLato ja rahyo. emanA ekaeka zabdomAM niHspRhatAnA, saMghanA AgevAno vagere adharma na ja pAmavA joIe." evI dRDhatAnA, potAnI ArAdhanAnI mukhyatAnA paDaghA mane saMbhaLAtA hatA. aDadho kalAka bAda jyAre huM nIce AMbila khAte gocarI vahoravA gayo, tyAre e AgevAnone paraspara vAtacIta karatA meM sAMbhaLyA. e bolatA hatA ke "A mahArAja sAheba to gajaba che. ApaNane saMpUrNa ciMtAmukta karI dIdhA. zuM emanA vicAro che! zuM emanI dIrghadRSTi che. jo badhA mahAtmAo AvI ja udAra manovRttivALA banI jAya, to kyAMya koI jhaghaDA-saMkalezo - aNabanAvo banavAno prazna ja Ubho na thAya." A badhuM huM sAMbhaLato gayo, gocarI vahorato gayo. paNa mArI AMkhamAMthI Tapaka Tapaka AMsu. paDI gayAM. kemake meM mArA pUrvenA comAsAomAM ArAdhanAonA kharcA mATe jIda karI hatI. TrasTIoe rasa na dAkhavyo tyAre bIjAo sAme emanI niMdA karI hatI. e ja kAraNe mAre AgevAno sAthe aNabanAva paNa banyo hato. hAya! "mArA comAsAmAM ATalA tapa thayA, ATalA lAkha rUpiyA kharcAyA, ATalA lAkhanuM phaMDa thayuM, ATalI zibiro-jamaNavArAdi thayA, ATalA judA judA anuSThAno thayA." A badho yaza meLavavAnI bhUkha mane eTalI badhI lAgelI ke emAM bhAna bhUlIne meM AvezamAM AvIne na bolavAnA zabdo paNa uccArI dIdhelA. e anuSThAnAdi dvArA loko kharekhara keTaluM pAmyA, e to bhagavAna jANe paNa bhAvanI bhArobhAra malinatAonA pratApe huM to sAdhutAnuM kaccaraghANa kADhI cUkyo. mArA vicitra vartananA kAraNe keTalAya loko dharmathI vimukha paNa banyA ja haze. evuM mane e divase bhAna thayuM. mane lAgyuM ke jo kharo pazcAttApa nahi karuM, akaraNaniyama nahi karuM to AvatA bhavomAM huM durlabhabodhi thaIza.' ane meM guru pAse AlocanA karI. e AgevAnone bolAvIne raDatI AMkhe emanI khUba kSamA mAgI. udAradila e zrAvako ya e vakhate raDI paDyA, mArA pazcAttApe emanI paDI gayelI bhAvanAone pharI UMce caDAvavAnuM bhagIratha kAma pUruM karI dIdhuM. e TrasTIo bolyA "sAheba! je thayuM te bhUlI jAo. paNa tamAre A pApanA prAyazcittarUpe AvatuM comAsuM amAre tyAM ja karavAnuM che" ane be-cAra varSanA AMtarA bAda pharI eka comAsA mATe vartamAnajoga kahI paNa dIdhA. paNa te divasathI meM paNa e mahAtmA jevI ja paddhati apanAvI lIdhI che. zrAvako pAsethI leza paNa apekSA rAkhavAnuM sAva choDI dIdhuM che. "mArA pravacanamAM AgevAnoe to AvavuM ja joIe

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-------------- vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo------------ ke roja eka-be AgevAnoe to hAjarI ApavA AvavuM ja joIe." Avo Agraha meM choDI dIdho. hA! emane emanA ucita kartavyo samajAvuM chuM. zAMta bhAve samajAvuM chuM, paNa mArI vAta emaNe mAnavI ja paDe evI apekSA bilakula rAkhato nathI. keTakeTalA dhanyavAda ApavA e mahAtmAne! jemaNe mane AvatA bhavomAM durlabhabodhi banatA aTakAvyo. (18) vizALagacchanA eka AcAryanA atyaMta kRpApAtra sAdhune sAro evo paryAya hovA chatAM, zAstrAbhyAsa sAro evo hovA chatAM, AcAryanI asIma kRpA hovA chatAM, svabhAvAdi sArA hovA chatAM paNa eke ya ziSya na hato. A vAtanuM mane Azcarya paNa hatuM ane kutUhala paNa hatuM. ekavAra hiMmata karIne meM AcAryazrIne pUchI lIdhuM ke "ApanAmAM ziSyanI tamAma prakAranI pAtratA hovA chatAM ziSya parivAra kema nahi? khuda Ape to A bAbata tarapha dhyAna ApIne emanA ziSyo karI ApavA joIe ne?" AcArye javAba dIdho "amArA grupamAM chellA ghaNA sAdhuo enAthI ja taiyAra thayelA hatA ane enA ziSya banavA taiyAra paNa hatA. paNa e kahe che ke "A badhAne ApanA ja ziSya banAvo." enI jIdanA kAraNe meM badhAne mArA ziSyo banAvyA che. zuM karuM? tame ja ene samajAvo. e mAnI jAya to navA ziSyo huM enA banAvuM. paNa baLajabarI karavAno mAro svabhAva nathI." mane emanI vAta sAMbhaLI ema lAgyuM ke pelA mahAtmA sArI vAtamAM paNa jaDatAvALA banyA lAge che. "ziSya karavo nahi' e niHspRhatAguNano Adarza cokkasa hoI zake paNa emAM ekAMta pakaDI levo e to aNasamaja che. hA! apAtra ziSyo na ja karavA. paNa pAtra paNa jo nahi kare to jinazAsana AgaLa cAlaze zI rIte? huM e mahAtmA pAse gayo. mArA taraphathI dhaDAdhaDa rajUAta karI dIdhI. mane ema ja hatuM ke "e khoTA che ane huM sAco chuM." paNa mArI rajUAta bAda emaNe potAnI ja vAta rajU karI, e sAMbhaLIne huM vicAramAM paDI gayo. emanI vAta mane ekadama mArmika lAgI. e munie mane kahyuM ke "ekavAra mArA gurujI AcAryazrIe mane kaheluM ke - mArI to have uMmara thaI. thoDAka varSano huM mahemAna! mArA pachI mArA ziSyone sAcavaze koNa? emAM gharaDAmAMdA-nabaLA ghaNA che. e badhAne koNa saMbhALI leze? tuM ja eka samartha che. paNa tuM samartha hovAthI ja tArA paNa aneka ziSyo thavAnA. svAbhAvika che ke tuM emane ja vadhAre sAcavaze, kemake e juvAna-svastha-tagaDA haze ane sauthI vadhu to e ke e tArA potAnA haze. eTale tArA ziSyo to sacavAI jaze, paNa mArA nahi sacavAya. koNa jANe? e bicArAonuM zuM thaze? khera! je thavAnuM haze e thaze. ene to koNa mithyA karI zake? - gurujInI A vedanA mane sparzI gaI. 43

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-------- vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo --~~~~ emane mATe badhA ja sarakhA hatA, eTale ja emanA vRddhAdi ziSyo rakhaDatA thaI jAya, ribAya eno bhayaMkara AghAta emane lAge ja. eka ziSya tarIke mArI pharaja e ja ke je gurue mArA upara anaMta upakAra karelo che, eno badalo vALavA huM emane saMpUrNa prasannatA ApuM. eno eka ja upAya mane dekhAyo "mAre ziSyo na karavA." mAre ekapaNa ziSya na hoya eTale mArA manamAM "A mAro ane A pArako' e bheda ja Ubho na thAya. khuda guru paNa mArA para saMpUrNa vizvAsa mUkI zake ke "Ane kyAM potAno ziSya che ke jethI potA-pArakAno bheda rahe." ane kharuM kahuM? gurujI mane ziSya karavAnuM kharekhara kahe paNa che. e emanI pharaja samaje che chatAM mAro ekapaNa ziSya meM nathI thavA dIdho. enAthI gurujIne hRdayathI apAra saMtoSa paNa thayo che. e potAnA gharaDA vagere sAdhuone kahyA ja kare che ke "tamAre AnI pAse rahevAnuM. e tamane badhAne sAcavI leze. mArA badhA ja ziSyo enA ja thaI jaze." alabatta meM evI pariNati to keLavI ja che ke mArA ziSyo thAya to ya huM kadI pakSapAtI nahi ja banuM. mArA mATe sAdhumAtra samAna che paNa enI pratIti gurune mAre zI rIte karAvavI? emanuM mana zaMkAzIla rahe e emanA mATe svAbhAvika che. eTale emane vizvAsa ApavAno ekamAtra rasto A ja hato ane e meM apanAvyo. bhale, mArA eka paNa ziSya nathI thayA, paNa mArA anaMta upakArI gurune huM A rIte paNa parama saMtoSa to ApI zakyo ne? AnAthI ja mane to moTI nirjarA maLavAnI. pachI ziSya nA hoya to ya zuM?.." AvI AvI ghaNI vAto e munivare mane karI. ziSya nahi karavA pAchaLano emano Azaya spaSTa hato, emAM jaDatA na hatI paNa samajaNapUrvakano tyAga hato. alabatta emanA guru emanA A sAdhunI vizvAsapAtratA na pichANI zakyA e cokkasa emano doSa, paNa eTalA mAtrathI emaNe karelA upakAro khatama thaI jatA nathI. e upakArono badalo vALI ApavAnI pharaja ziSya nibhAvavAnI maTI jatI nathI. bolo, joyA che koI AvA tyAgI mahAtmA! (19) eka munirAja potAnA gacchanA je koIpaNa gharaDA sAdhuo maLe, emane bhArobhAra AzvAsana Ape. spaSTa kahe "tamArI sevA karanAra koI hoya to to vAMdho ja nathI. paNa tamane je divase ema lAge ke "amane koNa sAcavaze?" e divase mane yAda karajo. A sevakane tamArI bhaktino lAbha Apajo. huM game tyAM hoIza, tamArI sevA mATe doDato AvIza. tamArA mATe jeTaluM ghasAI javuM paDe eTaluM ghasAIza. vihAro aTake, progrAmo aTake, eka ja jagyAe vadhu rahevuM paDe, pravacano aTake.. to ya huM e badhuM ja svIkArIza."

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-~~~ vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo~~~~~ jyAre be-traNa gharaDA sAdhuo pAsethI e muni dvArA maLelA A AzvAsananI vAto meM sAMbhaLI tyAre mane jarAka Azcarya to thayuM ja ke "e munirAja zA mATe gharaDA sAdhuonI sevA mATe ATalA badhA tatpara che?" meM jyAre e sAdhune prazna karyo tyAre emaNe khUba ja suMdara javAba Apyo. e kahe "ApaNI AkhI jiMdagInI ArAdhanAnI saphaLatA aMte to samAdhimaraNa para ja AdhArita che ne? jo chelle asamAdhithI maryA ane UMdhA raste caDI gayA, to pharI pAchuM mokSamArge caDavuM khUba ja kaparuM ja paDavAnuM. eTale samAdhimaraNa to joIe ja. have glAna vagere sAdhuone jo ke samAdhinI jarUra che. paNa emanI sAme maraNano prazna tatkALa nathI. jyAre gharaDA sAdhuone to mota najara sAme dekhAtuM hoya, ane teone samAdhinI jarUra khUba ja hoya. kemake chellI uMmaramAM teo zuM karI zake? mane jo emanI sevAno lAbha maLe to emane samAdhimaraNa prApta karAvavAmAM huM nimitta banuM, enAthI evuM puNya mane baMdhAya ke mane paNa mRtyu vakhate samAdhi maLe. bhAI! samAdhimaraNa maLatuM hoya, to ghasAI chUTavuM e to sAva sAmAnya gaNAya. eTale ja jeTalA gharaDA sAdhuo maLe e tamAmane mATe mane A bhAvanA thAya ke mane emanI sevAnI taka maLe. emAM ya jenI sevA karanAra koI na hoya enI to sevA karavAmAM ghaNo ja vadhAre lAbha thAya. basa, A eka ja kAraNasara huM tamAma vRddha sAdhuone AzvAsana ApavAnuM, emanI sevAnI taka mane ApavAnI vinaMtI karavAnuM kAma karye rAkhuM chuM." A munirAja ochI buddhinA, bolatA na AvaDe evA, ochA puNyavALA nathI hoM! vidvAnomAM emanI AgaLa paDatI gaNanA thAya che, pravacanAdi ApavAmAM e lokapriya che, puNya to emanuM sUkSma rIte jhagArA mAre che. eTale rakhe ne koI evuM vicAre ke vaiyAvacca to abhaNo-aprabhAvakoalpapuNyazALIo ja kare...nA. e bhramaNA che. (20) eka mahAtmA pANI cUkavIne sUryAsta samaye sAMje darzana karavA jAya tyAre jo dIvA zarU thaI gayA hoya to bahAra ja UbhA rahIne stutio bole, arihaMta ceIyANa karI le. kyAreka aMdhAruM thavA AvyuM hoya to pachI derAsara javAnuM mAMDI vALe. e muni kahe ke "jyAre meM zAstromAM vAMcyuM ke ujaIvALI jagyAe rahevuM nahi. rahevuM ja paDe to bolavuM nahi - haravuM-pharavuM nahi. vagere. tyAre mane khyAla Avyo ke tejasakAyanI rakSA mATe to keTalI badhI kALajI karavAnI che. tyArathI mArA jIvanamAM meM zakya eTalo prayatna zarU karyo che. sUryAsta bAda derAsaranI aMdara to khAsuM aMdhAruM anubhavAya eTale tyAM jo dIvo zarU thaI gayelo hoya to e ujaI tarIke cokhkho dekhAya. e vakhate mane stuti bolavAnA bhAva ja na jAge. stuti bolavA jAuM ke manamAM vicAra Ave ke "tejasakAyanA jIvonI virAdhanA thAya che." A vicAranA 45

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-~~~~vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo --~~-~kAraNe ja mAruM mana vyAkuLa thaI jAya. stutirUpI bhakti dvArA jIvahiMsA rUpI kamabhakti sAdhu tarIke mane na zobhe. zrAvakono AcAra judo che. sAdhuno AcAra judo che. eTale huM sAMje derAsaranI bahAra Ubho rahIne ja stuti vagere boluM. bahAranA bhAgamAM to sAro evo prakAza hovAthI dIvAnI ujaI tyAM na gaNAya, haNAI jAya. zakya hoya tyAM sudhI huM kAmaLI oDhIne paNa ujaImAM Ubho raheto nathI. kemake moTuM-hAthapaga vagere bhAgo to khullA che. e badhA para ujaI paDe to e jIvonI hiMsA thAya ja ne? eTale ja ujaImAM Ubho rahIne vAtacIta paNa na karuM. ApaNA zabdothI-vAyuthI paNa tejasakAyanI hiMsA thavAnI vAta zAstramAM che ja. eTaluM ja nahi, mArI upadhi para eTale ke dAMDA-pAtrA vagere upara paNa jo ujaI paDatI hoya to mane cena na paDe. huM tarata ja e upadhi tyAMthI haTAvI lauM, e pachI ja mane saMtoSa thAya. huM kadI upAzrayamAM lAITa cAlu karAvato nathI. game eTaluM aMdhAruM hoya, paNa emAM ja jIvavAnuM huM zIkhI gayo chuM. hA! bIjAone jarUra hoya ane karAve to e emano apavAda che. mAre jarUra nathI, mATe huM A apavAda sevato nathI. tejasakAyanI virAdhanAthI bacavA mATe ja mobAIla-pheksa-jherokSa vagere mane khUba khUMce che. enAthI bacavA mATe khUba prayatno karuM chuM. kyAreka nAchUTake e doSo sevavA paDe to prAyazcitta to karI ja lauM chuM." bolo, tejasakAyanI virAdhanAthI bacavA mATe ApaNA jIvanamAM AvI koI yatanA kharI? atyAra sudhImAM keTalA phona karAvyA? emAM ya kAraNasara keTalA? emAM nakAmI vAto paNa, jenA vinA cAlI zake evI vAto paNa keTalI karAvI? A mahAtmA to kahetA hatA ke phona karAvavo ja paDe to "mahArAja sAheba tamane dharmalAbha kahevaDAve che' vagere vadhArAnI koI ja vAta karAvato nathI." ane ApaNe? jAte ja mobAIla para bolIe kharA ke? phona upara mAMgalika saMbhaLAvIe kharA ke? phonanuM spIkara cAlu karAvIne badhuM sAMbhaLIe kharA ke? phonamAM jAtajAtanAM citro joIe kharA ke? dharma pAmelA zrAvaka-zrAvikAo duHkhI heye vAraMvAra vedanA ThAlavatA sAMbhaLyA che ke "mahArAja sAheba! mobAIlAdino upayoga khUba vadhI gayo che. amArA jeTalA phona hoya, enA karatA vadhAre phona karAvavAnA.." A badhAmAM ApaNe nimitta na ja banavuM joIe. (21) vihAra karIne AvelA eka vaDIla sAdhu ghaDo taiyAra karIne upAzraya bahAra nIkaLatA hatA. meM joyA eTale kahyuM ke, "sAhebajI! pANI badhuM AvI gayuM che." e hasI paDyA. mane kahe "e to AMbila khAtAnuM che. huM gharomAM vahoravA jAuM chuM. kAyama ukALeluM pANI pInArA keTalAka gharono mane khyAla che. tyAMthI nirdoSa pANI maLI rahe ne?"

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* vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo mane khUba AnaMda thayo. 25 varSanA dIkSAparyAya pachI paNa e mahAtmA nirdoSa pANI mATe svayaM ATalI kALajI karanArA hatA. e pachI rAtre zAMtithI emanI sAthe beTho tyAre emaNe mArA praznone anusAre ghaNI vAto karI. prazna : bAre mahinA nirdoSa pANI maLI rahe che? uttara H juo comAsAnA cAra mahinA to dareka sthAne evA zrAvakagharo maLI ja jAya che ke jyAM nirdoSapANI maLI rahe. ziyALA-unALAmAM paNa jo jainonA gharo hoya to AThamacaudazanA divase kaMIne kaMI tapa karanArA zrAvaka-zrAvikAonA ghare ukALeluM pANI maLI rahe. e sivAya paNa keTalAka sthAne bAremAsa ukALeluM pANI pInArA dhArmika gRhastho hoya che. hA! jyAM AvuM kazuM na hoya tyAM paNa mane khabara na hovAthI koIka sthAnika zrAvakane ja pUchI lauM ke ''ahIM koI ukALeluM pANI pInArA che ?...' ema be-cAra jaNane pUchavAthI jo pInArA maLI jAya to sAruM... A badhA prayatno pachI paNa jo pANI na maLe to pachI chevaTe AMbila khAtAnuM pANI lauM ke je sAdhu-sAdhvI mATe thatuM hovAthI AdhAkarmI hoya che athavA to mizra hoya che. prazna : paNa khAlI pANI mATe A badhI jhaMjhaTa karavAno kaMTALo nathI Avato ? uttara : tame 'jhaMjhaTa3 zabda bolo cho e ja Azcarya che. gocarI mATe ApaNe A badho prayatna karIe ja chIe ne ? tyAM 'jhaMjhaTa' nathI lAgatI, to A 'jhaMjhaTa' zA mATe ? UlaTuM mane to khUba ja AnaMda Ave che. kyAreka to aDadho-poNo ki.mI. dUra paNa pANI levA javuM paDe che. paNa e vakhate mAro harSa to vadhI jAya che. bAkI jene A 'jhaMjhaTa' lAge, ene mATe to AkhuM sAdhujIvana 'jhaMjhaTa' ja che ne ? jAte kapaDA dhovA 'jhaMjhaTa' nathI? vAhanavyavahAranI bharapUra sagavaDa hovA chatAM cAlIcAlIne paga toDI nAMkhavA, cholI nAkhavA e jhaMjhaTa nathI? hajAmonI katAra lAgI hovA chatAM vALo kheMcIkheMcIne bhAre duHkhI thavuM e 'jhaMjhaTa' nathI? vijJAnanA benamUna sAdhanono lAbha AkhuM vizva laI rahyuM hovA chatAM e ja baLadagADAnA yugamAM jIvatA hoIe ema TI.vI., kampyUTara vagereno bilakula upayoga na karIne bAghA rahevuM e jhaMjhaTa nathI? mokSArthI mATe saMyamanI pratyeka carcA mahAnanda che, to bhavAbhinandI mATe pratyeka carcA jhaMjhaTa che.... e munirAje mArA moDhAmAMthI nIkaLI gayelA 'jhaMjhaTa' zabda mATe mane zAMtithI chatAM vyavasthita pako Apyo. 47

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vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIoAcArathI zAsana prabhAvanA juo to kharA tyAgadharmano prabhAva keTalo che ! eka moTA gharamAM mahemAno hovAdi kAraNosara veDamI banAvelI hatI. 12-15 mANaso 2 hatA. sAdhu acAnaka vahoravA jaI caDayA. badhA bhaktibhAvathI bhegA thaIne UbhA rahyA. mukhya vyaktio vahorAvavA lAgyA. veDamIno jaththo paDelo hato paNa sAdhune AMbilanI roTalIno khapa hato. badhAe badhI vastunI vinaMtI karI, paNa sAdhue veDamInA jaththAnI nIce rahelI be lUkhI roTalInI yAcanA karI "mAre Ano khapa che.'' gRhastho AbhA ja banI gayA. be roTalI vahorI sAdhu hajI to gharanAM bAraNAnI bahAra ja nIkaLyA che. tyAM emanA kAne zabdo saMbhaLAyA 'zuM ApaNA jaina sAdhuo che! veDamInA jalasA tyAgI lUkhI roTalI Aroge che. dhanya che A mahAtmAone !'' eka zrAvaka sAdhune vinaMtI karI cheka bAramA mALe vahoravA laI gayo. sAdhu mATe zIrokhamaNa vagere banAvI rAkheluM. sAdhune e doSita lAgyuM; mAtra roTalI-zAkAdi nirdoSa lAgatI vastuo vaho2Ine nIkaLI gayA. zrAvaka acaMbo pAmyo. bAra-bAra mALa meM caDAvyA, to paNa A sAdhuo zIro doSita lAgavAthI vahoratA nathI. e kevI gajabanI anAsakti! zaMkhezvara aThThama ka2vA Avelo eka yuvAna tyAM tapasvI mahAtmAnA saMparkamAM Avyo. zaMkhezvaramAM rasoDAo moTA pAye cAlatA hovA chatAM e mahAtmA nirdoSa gocarI mATe, AMbilanI lUkhI roTalIo mATe zaMkhezvaranA jainetara gharomAM vahoravA gayA. e yuvAna sAthe gayo. jainetarono jabaradasta bhAva ane mahAtmAnI mAtra lUkhI roTalI-roTalA vaho2vAnI pravRtti joI e yuvAna stabdha banI gayo. 'A zaMkhezvaramAM moTuM AMbila khAtuM cAluM che. DhokaLA, DhosA, IDalI... vagere badhuM ja maLe che, chatAM e badhAnI Asakti na poSavA, e doSita vastuo na levA A sAdhu lUkhI roTalI-roTalAthI nirvAha kare che.'' e vicArothI yuvAna eTalo badho bhAvita banyo ke eNe dIkSA levAno nirNaya karyo. e pAko mumukSu banI gayo. eka sAdhuno tyAgadharma eka saMsArIne cheka sAdhu banavA sudhInI saphaLa preraNA ApanAro banyo. jainetaronA ghare gocarI gayelA mahAtmAne peMDA-mAvAnI vinaMtI thaI 'A gharanA che ke bahAranA ? mAvo kevo ? keTalA divasa ?....'' vagerene lIdhe e vastuo vahoravA jevI na lAgavAthI sAdhue nA pADI. roTalI, roTalA, chAza vahoryA. paraMtu A prasaMgathI pelA jainetarane lAgyuM ke "A jaina sAdhuo kaMI khAvAnuM nathI maLatuM eTale ahIM AvanArA nathI. A to sArI sArI vastuo paNa levAnI nA pADe che. paisA ApIe to paNa nA pADe che. A lokono AcAra jabaro che...'' 48

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- vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo + vRddha saMcamIo mATe suMdara Adarza ! adhyAtmayogI pUjyapAda AcAryadeva kalApUrNasUrijI ma.sAhebanA samudAyanA eka sAdhvIjInI uMmara atyAre 94 varSanI che. A uMmare paNa teo - (ka) sthApanAjInuM paDilehaNa jAte kare. (kha) derAsare darzana karavA paNa cAlIne jAya. (ga) savAre 3 vAge UThI jAya ane 400 logassano kAussagna vagere ArAdhanA kare. (gha) 85 varSa sudhI cAlIne vihAra karelo, chellA cAra varSathI sthiravAsa che. (ca) 75 varSanI uMmara sudhI moTA tapo cAlu hatA. (cha) 90 varSanI uMmara sudhI roja ekAsaNA cAlu hatA. (ja) Aje paNa pAMcatithi AMbila-ekAsaNA-upavAsa kare. (jha) 70 ziSyAonA guruNI pada para birAjamAna che. (Ta) roja 15 bAMdhI navakAravALI = 1500 jeTalA navakAra gaNe. (Tha) roja traNa kalAka svAdhyAya Aje paNa cAlu ja che. emaNe potAnA jIvanamAM je tapa karelo che, tenI noMdha nIce mujaba che. eka mAsakSamaNa soLa upavAsa agyAra upavAsa dasa upavAsa navavAra aThThAI zreNItapa (110 divasa, jemAM 83 upavAsa) siddhitapa (44 divasa, jemAM 36 upavAsa) kaMThAbharaNapa moTo dharmacakratapa (Azare 120 divasano...) bhadratA cattAri-aDha-dasa-doya tapa siMhAsana tapa zatruMjaya tapa (2 aDhama, 7 chaThTha) kSIra samudra tapa.

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vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo) gaNadhara tapa (11 chaTTha) vIzasthAnaka tapa (420 upavAsa) varSItapa chamAsI tapa cAramAsI tapa doDhamAsI tapa bemAsI tapa ratnapAvaDI tapa (9 chaTTha+2 ama) navanidhAna tapa (nava upavAsa) caudaratna tapa (15 upavAsa) zatruMjyaTuMkanA 21 upavAsa zatruMjyaTuMkanA 9 upavAsa divALI tapa (pa chaTTha) saLaMga 500 AMbila vardhamAna tapanI 100+45 oLI 100 navapadanI oLI. caMdanabALA tapa covIsa tIrthavarNatapa (24 AMbila) (nIcenA tapo ekAsaNAthI karyA che...) sahasrakUTa tapa (1024 ekAsaNA) 45 Agama tapa (45 ekAsaNA) navakAra tapa (68 ekAsaNA) karmaprakRti tapa (158 ekAsaNA) covIsa tIrthaMka25da tapa (300 ekAsaNA) navADIsAmAM Aje A sAdhvIjI bhagavaMta potAnuM zeSa saMyamajIvana prasannatA pUrvaka pasAra karI rahyA che. 50

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vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo * o bAla munirAja! tamArI nirmaLa prajJAne amArI anaMtazaH vaMdanA munivara ! mane eka muMjhavaNa che, tame mane uttara Apazo ?" 14 varSanI uMmaranA bAla munirAje eka vaDIla munirAjane vinayapUrvaka prazna karyo. dIkSA lIdhAne hajI to 7-8 mahInA ja thayA hatA. paNa pUrvabhavanI koIka apUrva ArAdhanAno pratApa, ke tamAme tamAma mIThAIo ane tamAme tamAma pharasANo koIpaNa chUTa vinA tyAgI dIdhA hatA. mAtra gurujI kyAreka sAmethI vaparAve, tyAre ja vApare. muMbaI kAMdivalImAM e be baMdhuo sAthe janmyA hatA. amuka kAraNosara mA-bApe nirNaya lIdho ke "eka bhAI enA mAmAne tyAM ja uchare ane eka ApaNI pAse rahe." ane eka dIkarAne mAmAne tyAM mUkI AvyA. paNa Azcarya ! baMne bhAIo vacce RNAnubaMdha kevo ! ke mAmAnA ghare rahelA bhAIne sakhata tAva caDyo, game eTalA upacAro karavA chatAM ThekANuM paDe ja nahi ane mA-bApa pAse rahelo bhAI Akho divasa raDyA ja kare tAvavALA bhAIne to hospITalamAM dAkhala karavo paDyo, badhI cakAsaNI bAda khuda DokTare kahyuM ke, "Ane bIjo koI ja tAva nathI. paNa be bhAIo joDiyA janmelA che, to emane sAthe ja rAkho. judA rAkhazo to A tAva jaze nahi..." aMte jyAre mA-bApe baMne dIkarAone potAnI sAthe ja rAkhavAno nirNaya lIdho ane mAmAne tyAMthI dIkarAne laI AvyA, tyAre ekano tAva ane bIjAnuM rUdana zAMta thayA. ghoDiyAmAM ramatA be bhAIo vacce pUrvabhavano A kevo saMbaMdha ! e baMne bhAIoe 14 varSanI uMmare hajI 8 mahInA pahelA ja dIkSA lIdhI che. emAMnA nAnA munirAje eka vaDIla munirAjane upara mujaba prazna karyo. hA, hA ! bolo ne ? zenI muMjhavaNa che, tamane ?' vaDIle AtmIyatA darzAvI. ane e vairAgI bAlamuni bolI UThyA. meM sAMbhaLyuM che ke ravivAre AdinAtha saMghamAMthI be ki.mI. jeTalo lAMbo ane cAra-pAMca kalAka AkhA navasArImAM pharanAro moTo varaghoDo nIkaLavAno che. dharmacakratapano e varaghoDo che... e vAta sAcI ? paNa munivara ! emAM ApaNe sAdhuoe jovA javAya kharuM? emAM jAtajAtanA beMDo Ave, jAtajAtanI bagIo, racanAo, AkarSaka AITamo jovAmAM ApaNane kautukano doSa na lAge? A badhuM jovAnI utkaMThA, kautuka e doSa kahevAya ne ?" taddana saraLabhAve e bAlamunie prazna karyo.

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vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo> vaDIla muni Azcarya pAmyA. 'jinazAsananI prabhAvanAnuM ajoDa nimitta bananAra e rathayAtrA cokkasa anumodanIya, paraMtu emAMnI bhAta-bhAtanI vastuo jovAnI utkaMThA sAdhune thAya e bhale ne nAnakaDo toya doSa to kharo ja' ema e vaDIlamuni sArI peThe samajatA hatA. paNa taddana nUtana bAla muninI AvI UMDI samajaNa joI e Azcarya pAmyA, ati AnaMda pAmyA. emaNe javAba dIdho ke, rathayAtrAmAM hAjarI ApavA ApaNe javAnA chIe, e to barAbara. paNa enI badhI AITamo jovAnI utkaMThA e to doSa che ja. huM paNa joIza kharo, paNa e tamArI vAta to bilakula sAcI..." A sAMbhaLI munirAjanA mukhamAMthI ratnonI vRSTi thaI. e bolyA ke,"bhale, gurujInI ane prabhunI AjJA hoya to huM rathayAtrAmAM jaIza, paNa varaghoDo jovA, badhu nihALavuM e to prabhunI AjJA nathI ja ne ? to huM to badhA sAdhuonI sAthe sAthe cAlIza. varaghoDo jovA kyAMya Ubho nahi rahuM. ane hA ! roDa upara paNa jo cheka kinArI upara cAlIza, to AgaLa-pAchaLanA badhA dRzyo mane dekhAI ja jAya. mAre e kutUhala nathI poSavuM. huM to badhA sAdhuonI barAbara vaccovacca ja cAlIza." potAnA AtmAne bacAvI levA mATenI emanI AvI udAttabhAvanA ane ema chatAM jovA janArA anya sAdhuo mATe leza paNa asadbhAvAdi vinAnI emanI nikhAlasatA joI e vaDIlamuninuM yuM harSanA AMsu vahAvI rahyuM. e ja AdinAthasaMghamAM AgalA divase sAMje 6.30 vAgyAthI mahApUjA zarU thavAnI hatI. AkhA navasArInA hajAro jaino darzana karavA, mahApUjA nihALavA padhAravAnA hatA. AdinAtha saMghathI be ki.mI. dUra rahelA ghaNA sAdhuo A advitIya mahApUjAnA darzana mATe tyAM pahoMcI javAnA hatA. paNa A ja bAlamunie potAnI meLe manamAM nirNaya karI lIdho ke, "sUryAsta bAda sAdhuthI derAsara vageremAM na javAya. dIvAo thaI gayA hoya, baheno vagerenI varajavara - bhIDa khUba hovAthI saMghaTTo vagere paNa thaI jAya. ane 'tyAM kevuM zaNagAryuM haze ? phUlo kavA lagADyA haze...?' e badhuM jovAmAM to sAdhupaNAmAM doSa lAge. eTale mAre nathI jovuM." 52

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vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo paNa jyAre gurujIe Adeza karyo ke "Aje sAMje tyAM javAnuM che..." to gurvajJAne paNa khUba ja umaMgabhera vadhAvI lIdhI. A ja bAlamunie vaDIla sAdhune jijJAsAthI pUchyuM ke - - A badhI jAtajAtanI patrikAo Ave, e badhuM sAdhuthI jovAya. 'patrikA kevI AkarSaka che ?...' ema vicAra Ave, emAM to rAgabhAva ja poSAya ne ? samaju vaDIla munie e vAtano 'ha' kAramAM javAba dIdho. -- o bAla munirAja ! tamArI nirmaLa prajJAne amArI anaMtazaH vaMdanA baMne joDiyA bAlamunioe dIkSA meLavavA mATe gRhasthapaNAmAM chellA be varSa tamAma mIThAIono tyAga karelo hato. Aje paNa badhuM tyAgI dIdheluM che. baMne munivaroe tamAme tamAma prakAranA phaLo paNa tyAgI dIdhA che. ekavAra eka vaDIle baMne bAlamunione pRcchA karI ke "tame sAcuM bolajo, A 40-50 sAdhuonI moTI gocarI mAMDalImAM mISTAnna-pharasANa paNa Ave che, unALAmAM kerIno rasa paNa Avato hato. bIjA sAdhuo vApare paNa che. tame juo paNa cho "A kerIno rasa, mIThAI, pharasANa vagere AvyA che..." bIjAne vAparatA juo cho. to zuM tamane IcchA nathI thatI ? ke ame paNa vAparIe... zuM tamane e sArI vastuo vAparavAnuM mana nathI thatuM ? sAcuM bolajo hoM !" ane be ya bAlamunioe daDhatA sAthe javAba Apyo ke, "A badhuM tame amane pUcho cho, paNa amane to A badhA vicAra ja nathI AvatA. ame saMsAramAM hatA, tyAre A ghaNuM badhuM maLatuM ja hatuM... paNa ame chellA be varSa kazuM vApareluM nahi. amane AvA koI vicAro nathI AvatA. ame kharekhara A vAta hRdayathI kahIe chIe.." vaDIla muni behada Azcarya pAmyA. 15 varSanA bAlamunione zuM ghaNI badhI AITamo joyA pachI paNa, badhA vAparatA hoya to paNa jAte vAparavAnI icchA na thAya ? A zI rIte saMbhave ?... e prazna hajI paNa emane muMjhavI rahyo che. baMnee 13 varSanI uMmare zikharajInI yAtrA karI. te divase emane upavAsanuM pAraNuM hatuM. tyAre te baMne bhAIo saMsAramAM hatA. pAraNuM karavA beThA to joyuM ke 25-25 AITamo pAraNAmAM hatI. (moTuM rasoDuM, saMgha hovAthI eTalI AITamo hatI...) 53.

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---------------- vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo------------ baMnene Azcarya thayuM. ATalI badhI AITama kaMI pAraNAmAM hotI haze? tyAM cAturmAsa mATe rokAyelI potAnI saMsArI bahenane baMnee vAta karI ke, "zuM ATaluM badhuM vAparavAnuM?.." bahena kahe "A to amAre roja hoya che...' baMne bhAIo alpadravya vAparIne UbhA thaI gayA. baMne bAlamunio kAyama ekAsaNA kare che, vacce vacce oLIo kare che, e baMnenI keTalIka vizeSatAo : (ka) mAMDalInA kAma karavA mATe atyaMta utsAhI ! vyavasthApakane Agraha kare ke, "amane mAMDalInA kAma soMpo." vyavasthApaka kahe ke, "tamane eka kAma to sopeluM ja che. badhA eka-eka kAma kare.." paNa munio kahe "amane vadhAre kAma Apo. amAre badhAnI bhakti karavI che." (kha) teo baMne ekAsaNAmAM hoya to paNa savAre navakArazI janArAone vinaMti kare "tame roja amArI tarANI laI jajo. emAM tame vastu lAvo, mahAtmAo vApare, eno lAbha amane maLe. eTale amArA upara eTalo upakAra karajo..." ema bapore paNa potAnI tarANI-pAtro ApavA vadhu tatpara ! "amArA pAtrA-tarapaNImAM gocarI Ave, to e bhaktino lAbha amane maLe.." e ja emano bhAva ! (sAmAnyathI evuM hoya che ke jeo ekAsaNA kare, teo potAnA pAtrA-tarapaNI bIjAne ApavAmAM muMjhavAtA hoya, kemake pAtrAporisI vakhate badhA pAtrAdinuM pAchuM pratilekhana karavuM paDe, eTale e badhuM zodhavA javuM paDe. paNa A baMne munio porisI samaye potAnA pAtrAdi zodhI lAvavAnuM kaSTa paNa bhaktinA uchaLatA haiye uThAve..). (ga) jyAre paNa koI stavana, stuti gavAya tyAre nAnA bAlamuninI AMkho sahaja rIte baMdha thaI jAya, e AjubAjunuM badhuM bhAna bhUlI jAya... e stavana-stutinA zabdomAM bhIMjAvA lAge. emAMya viziSTa stavanAdi vakhate to emanI AMkhomAMthI AMsunI dhArA vahevA lAge. e dhrusake dhrusake raDI paDe. AvuM to vAraMvAra banyA ja kare. - Aje paNa ghaNAne Azcarya thAya che ke, "15 varSanI uMmaramAM evo te kevo bhaktibhAva ! ke A rIte anarAdhAra azrudhArA vahe che..." paNa e nakkara satya che. (gha) vaDIla munie bAlamunine pUcheluM ke "kautuka, bhAtabhAtanI vastuo jovAnI utkaMThA e badhuM doSa che..." evuM tamane zIkhavADyuM koNe ? tamArA gurujIe A badhuM zIkhavADyuM che?" tyAre e bAlamuni kahe ke

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-------vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo ~-~-~ "nA re nA ! A badhuM kaMI gurujIe zIkhavADavuM paDe? A to sIdhI-sAdI vAta che. eTalo to khyAla koIne paNa Ave.." (e muni to sAva ja saraLa che, emane e vAtano khyAla ja nathI ke AvI samajaNa. to ghaNA ochAone paDe. re ! koI samajAve e pachI paNa A badhuM doSarUpa lAgavuM agharuM che. to vagara samajAvyuM A badhuM doSarUpa zI rIte lAge ?) (keTalIka dhyAnamAM levAnI bAbato : (ka) rathayAtrA, mahApUjA e zAsanaprabhAvanAnuM kAraNa hovAthI, mugdhajIvone bodhibIjanuM kAraNa hovAthI e rIte upAdeya che. sAdhuoe paNa jinAjJA pramANe te te kAryakramamAM aucityapUrvaka hAjarI ApavI e paNa yogya che. paraMtu e samajI levuM ke "rathayAtrAmAM jAtajAtanA beMDo - avanavA kAryakramo... vagere jovAnI utkaMThA-kutUhalavRtti e doSa rUpa che." ema mahApUjAmAM paNa samajI levuM. (kha) koIka A prasaMga vAMcIne ema paNa vicAre ke "A bAlamunio badhAnA doSo ja jotA haze? e niMdA to nahi karatA hoya ne ?." paNa Avo vicAra bilakula yogya nathI. teo nikhAlasa, saraLa, namra che. AvI badhI malinatAo emanAmAM pravezI nathI. mATe ja to gacchanA sAdhuonI bhakti karavA mATe teo keTalA badhA utsAhita che ! emanI sUkSma ane nirmaLaprajJA guNadoSono jaldI bodha karAvI de che. (ga) kaMIpaNa navuM thavAnuM hoya, kaMIpaNa navI vastu hoya... to e jovA-jANavAnI sahaja utkaMThA lagabhaga darekane thatI hoya che. e doSa bhale nAno hoya, paNa e ApaNA jIvanamAM paNa ApaNe anubhavatA hazuM. AtmAne, zAstrone, zAsanane jovuM-jANavuM-anubhavavuM e paramArtha che. A bAlamuni AvaDI uMmaramAM AvA sUkSma doSone pakaDI zake, tyAgI zake, e badhuM chatAM nirabhimAnI rahI zake... e mAsakhamaNanA pAraNe mAsakhamaNa karavA karatA paNa ghaNI ja moTI siddhi che. UMDANathI vicArazuM to A vAta samajAyA vinA nahi rahe. jAtane ja pUchIe ke AvA AzcaryakArI prasaMgo, vastuo, kAryakramo jovA-jANavAnI IcchA-pravRttine ApaNe rokI zakIe chIe kharA? navuM sAMbhaLavA, navuM jovA... ApaNI Indriyo utkaMThita nathI thatI ?..) cauda rAjalokavyApI jinazAsana muMbaInA eka sukhI parivArane gharanA kAmakAja mATe eka kAmavALInI jarUra hatI. atyAre ghaNe ThekANe evuM paNa zarU thayuM che ke sukhI parivAro gAmaDAomAMthI garIba chokarA-chokarIone zaheramAM lAvI potAne tyAM covIsa kalAka mATe rAkhe. e tyAM ja rahe, tyAM jame. mahIne-varSe ene pagAranI rakama ApI devAmAM Ave.

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- vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo~~~ A parivAra mahArASTranA ja eka gAmaDAmAMthI mahArASTriyana garIba chokarIne muMbaI potAnA ghare laI Avyo. kacarA-potA karavA, rasoI banAvavI... vagere gharanA badhA kAryomAM e chokarI sahAya kare. e parivAra jyAM raheto hato, enI bAjumAM ja sAdhvIjIono upAzraya hato. A zrImaMta parivAra dhArmika paNa hato. emane tyAM ja gharaderAsara hatuM. jyAre paNa vihAra karIne sAdhvIjI bhagavaMto padhAre tyAre upAzrayamAM kacarA-potA karavA tathA sAdhvIjIone bIjI paNa koIka jarUriyAta hoya... to zrImaMta parivAra e marAThI-chokarIne ja e badhuM kAmakAja soMpatA. A rIte e chokarIne upAzrayamAM vAraMvAra kaMIne kaMI kAma aMge javAnuM thatuM. game te hoya paNa e chokarI pUrvabhavano koIka ArAdhaka AtmA hato. jaina kuLamAM bhale janma na maLyo, paNa AtmAmAM to sAcA jainatvane pAmavAnI bharapUra yogyatA dharabAyelI paDI hatI. e chokarIne sAdhvIjIone joI khUba AnaMda Avato. emanI jIvanacaryA ene khUba gamatI. paNa pote to eka kAmavALI, garIba, marAThI chokarI hatI.. sAdhvIjIono paricaya vadhavA lAgyo. emAM sAgara samudAyanA eka sAdhvIjIno saMparka to e chokarI mATe pArasamaNi samAna banI rahyo. sAdhvIjInI preraNAthI e chokarIne sAmAyika, aSTaprakArI pUjA vagere dharmArAdhanA karavAnuM mana thayuM. eno pracaMDa bhAgyodaya. zrImaMta parivAra ane saMpUrNa anukULa thaI gayo. e marAThI garIba chokarI gharamAM ja aSTaprakArI pUjA karavA lAgI. sAmAyikAdi paNa zarU karI dIdhA. zrImaMta parivAranA bahene e chokarIne kahI dIdhuM ke "tAre gharanA kAmanI ciMtA na karavI. e badhuM huM saMbhALI laIza. tuM nizcita banIne dharmArAdhanA kara. tAro emAM utsAha che, ene ame kadI nahi rokIe. tuM AgaLa vadha..." ane sAdhvIjI bhagavaMto sAtheno paricaya vadhato ja gayo. abhyAsa paNa zarU thaI gayo. dIkSAnI bhAvanA pragaTI, zrImaMta parivAre saMmati ApI, ane saMyamajIvananI tAlima mATe sAdhvIjIo sAthe e

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- vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo~~~ marAThI chokarIe vihAro paNa zarU karI dIdhA. saMyamanI tAlImamAM saphaLatA maLI, vaizAkha-jeTha mahine bhAyaMdaramAM thanArI sAmuhika 910 dIkSAomAM emano paNa samAveza thayo. dIkSArthIonA aMtima meLAvaDAmAM tamAma dIkSArthIoe potapotAnuM vaktavya ApyuM. A marAThI mumukSue gurutattvano mahimA varNavatuM vaktavya ApyuM. Azcarya to e thayuM ke tamAma dIkSArthIomAM A mumukSunuM vaktavya lokone sauthI vadhu asarakAraka = prItikara banyuM. lokoe be moDhe e marAThI mumukSunA vaktavyanA vakhANa karyA. aMte dIkSAnA divase tamAma mumukSuonA vidAyatilakanA caDAvAo bolAyA. emAM paNa eka ajAyaba ghaTanA banI gaI. muMbaInA eka gAMdhI parivAre e marAThI mumukSune aMtima vidAyatilaka karavAno caDAvo rUA. 4 lAkhamAM lIdho. bAkInA tamAma mumukSuonA vidAyatilakanA caDAvA karatA A caDAvo moTo hato. e garIba marAThI mumukSunA mA-bApanuM rU. 35000 thI jAheramAM bahumAna karavAmAM ApyuM. sAmAnyathI to evuM bane ke koIka garIba dIkSA le, to loko ema bole ke, "garIba hatI, eTale dIkSA lIdhI..." paNa A marAThI mumukSunA mukha upara nItarato dekhAto vairAgya sau koIne bahumAna janmAvato hato. A badhI to thaI dIkSA pUrvenI vAto ! dIkSAne mAtra ATheka mahinA ja thayA che. emaNe hamaNA ja siddhitapanI ArAdhanA karI. kula 36 upavAsa ane 8 besaNA sAthe e tapa pUrNa karyo. emaNe dIkSA divasathI ja pAMca varSa sudhI maunanI pratijJA lIdhI che. sUtro bolavA vagerenI chUTa, paNa vAtacIta vagere pAMca varSa sudhI baMdha...). (mahopAdhyAyajI kahe che ke jainakuLamAM janma maLavA mAtrathI ja je jaina che, e dravyajaina che. jyAre mokSamArga tarapha laI jatA zubhabhAvono svAmI bhale game tyAM hoya e bhAvajaina che. e bhAvajaina narakamAM ke devalokamAM paNa hoya. tiryaMcagatimAM sApa ke vAgha ke siMha paNa hoya. mAnavomAM e bhAvajaina bahArathI musalamAna ke krizcana paNa hoya. mATe ja jinazAsana caudarAjaloka vyApI che. kemake sAtamI nArakathI mAMDIne siddhazilA sudhI badhe ja mokSamArgAnusArI jIvo = bhAvajaino vidyamAna che, jemAM jinazAsana dhabakI rahyuM che. - A sAdhvIjI janma jaina nathI, marAThI che. sukhI gharanA nahi, garIba gharanA hatA.. Ama chatAM pUrvabhavanI ArAdhanAo kevI joradAra haze ke sAdhvIjIvana to pAmyA ja, sAthe sAthe enI ArAdhanA karavAno apUrva ullAsa paNa pAmyA. 57,

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-~~~vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo ------------ (emanA guruNInuM grupa mahAsaMyamI tarIke khyAti pAmeluM che. eka vAta dhyAnamAM levI. jainetarane dIkSA cokkasa apAya, paNa emAM zAsana mATe kharAba bolAvuM na joIe. garIba jainetarone gADhakAraNa vinA, enI viziSTa yogyatA vinA dIkSA ApavAmAM lokaniMdAno saMbhava khAsa dhyAnamAM levo. A dIkSA apavAda jevI samajavI.) sararavatIdevInI sAcI ArAdhanA : jJAnAbhyAsano sakhata puruSArtha muMbaInA pratiSThita saMghanA pramukhe varSo sudhI saMghanI sevA bajAvyA bAda 67 varSanI uMmare dIkSAno svIkAra karyo. dIkSA bAda sUtro gokhavAno puruSArtha AraMbhyo. paNa uMmara moTI thaI gayelI, eTale gAthAo caDatI na hatI. chatAM emaNe puruSArthamAM khAmI na AvavA dIdhI. roja 3-4 kalAka koIpaNa jAtano kaMTALo lAvyA vinA satata gokhe. dara be-traNa ke cAra divase mAMDa eka gAthA thAya. arthAtu rojanI 3-4 kalAkanI mahenata pachI mAMDa ekAda lITI yAda rahe. kula 6 mahInA thayA, tyAre A rIte pagAmasikkA (50 gAthA..) pUrI thaI. (mahAnizIthasUtramAM ekadama spaSTazabdomAM jaNAvAyuM che ke rojerojanI sakhata mahenata karavA dvArA eka varSe ekagAthA kaMThastha thAya, to paNa e puruSArtha eNe choDavo nahi. jo eka varSe paNa eka gAthA na caDe, to chevaTe namaskAramahAmaMtranA japamAM ane jJAnIonI sevAmAM udyama karavo. Aje 50 varSanI uMmaranA ke enAthI moTI uMmaranA ghaNA zrAvako evA hoya che ke emane have saMsAranI koI vizeSa javAbadArI nathI hotI, dIkarAoe dhaMdho-vepAra saMbhALI lIdhA hoya, lagnAdi prasaMgo paNa patI gayA hoya, zarIra ekaMdare sAruM hovAthI dIkSA laI vihAra-locAdi tamAma kAryo sArI rIte karI zakavAnI kSamatA paNa hoya. mahAtmAonA saMparkane lIdhe sarvavirati pratye utsAhita paNa banelA hoya... chatAM eka ja muzkelI ke "je gokhe, e caDe nahi. gAthAo AvaDe nahi..." AvA zrAvako mAtra ATalA ja kAraNasara dIkSA letA aTake evuM paNa bane che. koNa samajAve emane ke gAthAo na caDavA mAtrathI dIkSAnI lAyakAta khalAsa thatI ja nathI. dIkSA karmakSaya mATe che, ratnatrayInI ArAdhanA mATe che. gAthAo ochI caDe to paNa jJAna mATeno sakhata puruSArtha, jJAnIonI bhakti-sevA... A badhuM paNa jJAnanI ArAdhanA ja che. "vadhu gAthA caDe to jJAnanI ArAdhanA vadhu ane ochI gAthA caDe to jJAnanI ArAdhanA ochI..." A samajaNa ja sAva khoTI che.

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vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo AvA vRddhi mahAtmAno Adarza sAme rAkhI hajI paNa e zrAvako mithyA mAnyatAonA phaMdAmAMthI chUTIne samyag mArge AgaLa vadhe e ja zubhabhAvanA.) mArI dIkSAtithinI ujavaNI na hoya ! "Aje kema sAdhuonA svAdhyAyano ghoSa saMbhaLAto nathI. vAtAvaraNa zAMta kema che ? sAdhuo kyAMka gayA che ke zuM ?" AcAryadeve prazna karyo. 40-50 sAdhuonuM e vRMda eka saMghamAM birAjamAna hatuM. AcAryadeva svAdhyAyanA atyaMta rasika ! ziSyone emaNe svAdhyAyamAM ja DubADI dIdhA hatA. saMyamajIvananI surakSA karavAnuM ajoDa sAdhana svAdhyAya che, evuM teozrI khUba ja aMtarathI mAnatA hatA. sAdhuo Akho divasa svAdhyAya kare e emane khUba khUba game. Azcarya to e hatuM ke cArebAju sAdhuo svAdhyAyano ghoSa karatA hoya, e vakhate emane UMgha jaldI AvI jAya. svAdhyAya emanI niMdrAmAM khalelarUpa nahi, paNa jANe ke saMgItanuM kAma karato. eTale ja Akho divasa upAzraya svAdhyAyanA ghoSathI bharyo bharyo raheto. paNa Aje svAdhyAyano avAja bilakula saMbhaLAto na hato. taddana zAMta vAtAvaraNa hatuM eTale AcAryadeve potAnI sevAmAM rahelA sAdhune upara mujaba prazna karyo. "sAhebajI ! badhA vyAkhyAnamAM gayA che." sAdhue gabharATathI TuMkoTaca javAba Apyo. "vyAkhyAnamAM ? kema ? meM to badhAne kahyuM che ke vyAkhyAno to zrAvaka-zrAvikAo mATenA che, sAdhu-sAdhvIo mATenA nathI. emaNe to vAcanA sAMbhaLavAnI, pATha karavAno. zA mATe sAdhuo vyAkhyAnamAM gayA ? roja to nathI jatA." AcAryadeve vaLato prazna karyo. "gurudeva ! vAta ema che ke.... Aje ApanI dIkSAtithi che, eTale ApaNA vaDIla sAdhuoe Aje vyAkhyAnamAM Apano guNAnuvAda rAkhyo che. ApanA saMyama, svAdhyAyAdi yogonI bharapUra anumodanA sAMbhaLIne sAdhuo paNa ullAsavALA bane, e mATe vaDIloe Aje badhA sAdhuone vyAkhyAnamAM AvavAnuM pharamAvyuM che..." ziSye spaSTa javAba dIdho... ,, ane AcAryadeva ekadama zokamagna banI gayA. emanA mukhanI prasannatA chinavAI gaI. vyAkhyAna pUrNa thayA bAda mukhya vaDIla mahAtmA tamAma sAdhuo sAthe AcAryadeva pAse AvyA. bhAvathI vaMdana karI vinaMti karI ke "ApazrI dIkSAtithinA nimitte hitazikSA ApazojI...'' 59

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vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo) ane tyAM to AcAryadevanI AMkhomAMthI anarAdhAra azrudhArA vahevA lAgI. "tame A zuM karyuM ? mArA guNAnuvAda karyA ? mArAmAM zuM che ? re ! guNAnuvAdane lAyaka to ApaNA bhUtakAlIna mahApuruSo che. e badhAne choDIne tame mArA jevI tuccha vyaktinA guNAnuvAda karyA ? arere ! tame e mahApuruSonI AzAtanA karI." "are....! (mukhya vaDIlane uddezIne) tuM to samaju che. A badhA to navA che, aNasamaju che. paNa tuM paNa A bhUla karI beTho. tamane mArA AghAtano paNa koI vicAra na Avyo...." lagabhaga pA-aDadho kalAka AcAryadeve raDatI AMkhe potAnI vedanA ThAlavI. AcAryadevanI amogha dezanA saMpUrNa thaI, eTale mukhya vaDIle kahyuM, "guruvara ! basa, amane Aje hitazikSA maLI gaI che. Ape amArI AMkha UghADI dIdhI che. huM ApanI kSamA cAhu chuM." (sArA kAryomAM paNa aucitya to hovuM ja joIe ne ? nIcenI bAbato dhyAnamAM levI. (ka) devAdhidevanuM janmakalyANaka ujavI zakAya, paNa guruvaryo vagerenI janmatithinI ujavaNI karavI e ucita jaNAtI nathI. (kha) svargastha guruvaryonI dIkSAtithi, kALadharmatithi ujavavAmAM paNa ApaNI saMyamamaryAdAonuM ullaMghana na thAya, emanA guNAnuvAdamAM anyonI hIlanA na thaI jAya e atyaMta jarUrI che. (ga) jema ApaNA guruvaryo ApaNA khUba upakArI che, ema A. haribhadrasUrijI, mahopAdhyAya yazovijayajI, jagadguru hIrasUrijI vagere vagere aneka mahApuruSo adbhuta zAstro ApaNA sudhI pahoMcADavA dvArA ane AcAraparaMparAone avicchinnapaNe ApaNA sudhI pahoMcADavA dvArA khUba upakArI che ja ne ? yogya avasare e mahApuruSonA guNAnuvAda ApaNe karIe chIe kharA ? emanI upakArasmRtithI ApaNuM haiyuM bhInuM-bhInuM bane che kharuM ? jo hA ! to khUba sarasa ! jo nA ! to e bhUla sudhArI laIe.) apavAdamArganA sevanamAM yatanApAlana kevuM hovuM joIe ? eka munirAjanI tabiyata evI bagaDI ke emAM vaidyoe anAja levAnuM bilakula baMdha karAvyuM. Akho divasa mAtra maganuM ja pANI vAparavAnuM. savAra-bapora-sAMja... maganA pANI sivAya kaMI ja levAnuM nahi. A munirAja nirdoSa gocarInA khapI hatA. paNa Akho divasa maganuM pANI nirdoSa to zI rIte maLe ? eTale zrAvakane tyAM e maganuM pANI AdhAkarmI karAvyA vinA chUTako na hato. 60

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-~-vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo --~-- e munirAje duHkhatA dile enI sucanA ApI to kharI, paNa enI sAthe bIjI badhI je kALajIo karI e Azcarya pamADe evI che. (ka) maganuM pANI AkhA magamAMthI nahi, paraMtu photarAvALI maganI dALamAMthI banAvaDAvyuM. AkhA maga to sacitta hoya, eTale enI virAdhanA vadhArAmAM thAya. maganI dALa acitta hovAthI e vadhArAnI virAdhanA na thAya. (kha) maganI dALa rAMdhavAmAM je pANI nAMkhavAmAM Ave, e paNa jo te ghare sahaja ukALeluM pANI banAveluM hoya, to te ja nAMkhavuM. navuM sacittapANI nahi. eTale potAnA nimitte eTalI pANInI vadhu virAdhanA thatI aTake. (ga) e maganA pANImAM kAcuM mIThuM naMkhAvavAne badale balavaNa naMkhAvyuM. kAcuM mIThuM raMdhAI javAthI acitta to thaI jAya, paNa potAnA nimitte e vadhArAnI virAdhanA thayelI kahevAya. jyAre pAkA mIThAmAM e vadhArAnI virAdhanA nahi. pAkuM mIThuM banAvavAnI virAdhanA to pahelA ja bIjA mATe thaI cUkI hoya. | (gha) emAM koIpaNa lIlotarI-lIMbu-maracAM-lImaDo vagere nAMkhavAnI spaSTa nA pADe, kemake emane mAtra maganA pANInI ja jarUra hatI. A badhAnI nahi. A to svAda mATenI vastuo lAgI. (ca) emAM ArogyanA mATe jIrU naMkhAvavuM jarUrI hatuM, paNa e jIru AkhuM na naMkhAvyuM. je zekeluM, acitta hoya e ja naMkhAvyuM. (AnuM nAma ja sAcI saMyamapariNati ! paDato kALa, nabaLA saMghayaNAdine kAraNe utsargamArganuM sevana zakya na hoya e vAta sAcI, eTale ja apavAdo sevavA paDe e vAta paNa sAcI... paNa e apavAdamAM ochAmAM ochA doSathI patAvavAno Avo uttama pariNAma e ja sAcI sAdhutAnI nizAnI che. AvuM to ApaNe paNa karI zakIe. * vihAradhAmAdimAM AdhAkarmI levuM paDe to mAtra be-traNa dravya ja levA, miSTAnnAdi na levA. che sAthe sAIkalAdivALo mANasa hoya to paNa jeTalI upadhi upADavAnI zakti hoya, eTalI to jAte ja UMcakavI. je na UMcakI zakAya e ja duHbhAtA dile sAIkalavALAne ApavI. paNa vyavasthA hovAthI badhI ja upadhi na ApI devI. * uMmara thayAnA lIdhe vihAra thaI zakato na hoya ane sthiravAsanI paNa anukULatA thatI na hoya. A kAraNasara DoLI vagereno upayoga karavo paDe to pachI tIrthayAtrAdi mATe eno upayoga na karavo. zakya hoya eTalo eno ocho vaparAza karavo. emAM paNa jeTaluM cAlavAnI zakti hoya, eTaluM to cAlavuM ja. DoLI vagere hovAthI pAMceka kimI. cAlavAnI zakti hovA chatAM na cAlavuM... ema na karavuM.

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- vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo + * ekAsaNuM na thaI zake eTale sIdhI navakArazI ja na karavI. paNa besaNuM ke porisI vagere karavA. re ! navakArazI karavI paDe to paNa traNa TaMkano abhigraha levo. emAM dravyonI maryAdA bAMdhavI. yatanA vinAno apavAda unmArga banI javAnI, durgatikAraka banavAnI pAkI zakyatA che.) niHspRhatA eka zrAvakanI, zAstrAnusAritA eka AcAryadevanI ! vi.saM. 2063mAM dharmanagarI surata mukAme paramapavitra upadhAnatapanI ArAdhanAnA maMDANa thayA. sthaLa hatuM pU.pAda rAmasUrIzvarajI DahelAvALAnA agnidAhathI pavitra thayela rAmapAvanabhUmi ! nizrA hatI sAgarasamudAyanA eka saMyamI AcAryadevanI ! Azare 200 jeTalA ArAdhako upadhAna tapamAM joDAyA hatA. AmAM AMkhe UDIne vaLage evI mahattvanI bAbata e hatI ke e AkhAya upadhAnatapano saMpUrNa lAbha mAtra eka bhAIe ja lIdho hato. lAkho rUpiyA dharmamArge kharacavA chatAM paNa Azcarya to e vAtanuM hatuM ke e potAnuM nAma jAhera karavA taiyAra na hatA. badhu gupta rIte karavA IcchatA hatA ane kharekhara ema ja thayuM. mAtra AcAryadeva ane keTalAka mukhya kAryakarone ja A vAtanI khabara hatI ke "koNa vyakti A badho lAbha laI rahI che" bAkI e sivAya seMkaDo ArAdhako vagerene to Aja dina sudhI paNa e khabara nathI paDI ke "koNe A upadhAna karAvyA che." chelle mALano divasa Avyo, tyAre A bhAI potAnA AkhA parivAra sahita e prasaMgamAM upasthita rahyA, kemake pote karelA sukRtanI anumodanA karavAno e apUrva lhAvo hato. paNa e paNa mAtra prekSaka tarIke, sabhAsada tarIke upasthita thayA. atithivizeSa rUpe ke anya vizeSa koIpaNa svarUpe nahi. karmaTha kAryakaro Aje paNa e zrAvakanI udAratA ane e karatAya vadhu UMcI nAmaniHspRhatAnA vakhANa karatA thAkatA nathI. emAM kula 50 lAkha rUA. jeTalI devadravyanI upaja thaI. nizrAdAtA AcAryadeve kamAla karI. je je saMghomAM nUtana derAsara, jIrNoddhAra vagere mATe devadravyanI jarUra hatI e badhA saMghone bolAvaDAvyA,upadhAnasamitine samyagu mArgadarzana ApI kabula karAvyuM ke "A upajanA paisA rAkhI mukavA nahi, paNa jarUriyAta hoya tyAM tarata ja vAparI nAMkhavA." ane aThavADiyAmAM to 45-47 lAkha rU.nI vyavasthita vaheMcaNI paNa thaI gaI. | vahIvaTakartAo prazaMsA kare che ke "AcAryadevanI preraNAthI keTalAka tIrthonA kAma cAlu che. chatAM AcAryadeve potAnA mArgadarzana heThaLa taiyAra thatA tIrtho mATe A rakamanI mAMgaNI suddhA paNa na karI. ulTe nAnA nAnA saMghone yAda karI emanI AvazyaktA pUrI karavA tarapha dhyAna ApyuM.

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vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo dhanya che emanI niHspRhatAne !" (daravarSe A bhAratamAM upadhAnatapamAM mALanI uchAmaNI nimitte karoDo rUpiyAnI devadravyanI Avaka thAya che. zrAvako khUba udAratA ane ullAsa darzAve che, ane moTAbhAganI 2kamo bharapAI paNa thAya che. jo e rakama te te TrasTomAM rAkhI mUkavAne badale bhAratabharanA seMkaDo saMghomAM jarUriyAta pramANe e rakama tarata vaheMcI devAmAM Ave to devadravyano sAco-suMdara upayoga thAya. TrasTamAM rakhAyelI e saMpatti dvArA mAchalA udyogAdi hiMsaka kAryone protsAhana maLatuM aTake. zrAvako paNa aneka prakAranA pApomAMthI bacI jAya. A Adarza sau apanAve to ghaNuM suMdara !) ghaNA moTA chatAM ghaNA nAnA : eka paMnyAsajI sAdhuonA eka virATa vRMdamAM bIjA-trIjA naMbare rahelA eka anubhavI paMnyAsapravaranA jIvananI keTalIka AdarzabhUta vizeSatAo : (ka) 100 + 23 vardhamAnatapanI oLI (kha) 1 vAra saLaMga 500 AMbila. (ga) 1 vAra saLaMga 1000 AMbila. (gha) eka varSItapa ekAsaNAthI karyo. jemAM pAMca vigaIono mULathI tyAga karyo. (ca) 1 vAra zreNItapa (Azare 110 divasano tapa, emAM 82 upavAsa, 28 ekAsaNA) jemAM tamAma upavAsa covihAra karyA ane A tamAma divasomAM roja vyAkhyAna to cAlu ja. eka ja divasa pAraNuM karI tarata 22mI oLI upADI, emAM ja 250 ki.mI.no vihAra karyo. (cha) eka siddhitapamAM chelle mAsakSamaNa karyuM, 15 upavAsa vadhu karIne siddhitapa pUrNa karyo. (ja) e grupanA sAdhuo kahe ke " A amArA paMnyAsajI rAtre UMgha le che ke nahi ? e ja amane khabara nathI paDatI. ziyALAmAM ame 2Atre 12-2-4 vAge mAtru mATe uThIe chIe, tyAre emane besIne jApa karatA ja joIe chIe. amane Azcarya thAya che. bhAgye ja evuM banyuM che ke ame rAtre UThyA hoIe ane ame emane saMthArAmAM UMdhelA joyA hoya." (mAMDa traNeka kalAka ArAma letA haze....) (jha) e mAtra tapasvI, japasvI ja nathI, sAthe svAdhyAyI paNa che... svAdhyAya mATeno emano utsAha advitIya ! sAva nAno sAdhu paNa jo emane managamatA viSayo bhaNAvato hoya, to enI pAse bhaNavA besI jAya. leza paNa zarama nahi. e nAnA sAdhunI sAme eka ziSyanI mAphaka besI jAya. emaNe chedagranthAdi ghaNA granthono abhyAsa karyo che. 63

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-~~ vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo () emane mauna ghaNuM priya ! moTA bhAge mauna ja rahe. chatAM jarUra paDe to spaSTa zabdomAM kahI paNa zake. sAcI bAbata yogya sthAne yogya rIte kahevAmAM e kadI koIthI DaratA nathI. (6) dara mahIne 1 aThama ochAmAM ocho kare. A sivAya paNa DhagalAbaMdha chaThTha, aThThamo, upavAso game tyAre karyA ja kare. parvatithiomAM ja tapa karavo evuM nahi... (Da) A badhA karatA paNa sauthI agatyanI bAbata che emaNe karelI vaiyAvacca ! eka vRddha sAdhunI emaNe karelI sevA Azcaryajanaka ghaTanA rUpa che. e munine ghaNIvAra DhIlA jhADA chUTI jAya. kyAreka to pANI jevA ThallA thaI jAya. enI rItasara dhAra paNa kyAreka phUTatI. e badho maLa rUmamAM badhI bAju verAI jato. evI paristhitimAM A paMnyAsajI potAnI jAte hAtha dvArA e badhuM upADI pyAlAmAM laI paraThavI AvatA. e AkhI rUma jAte pANI dvArA sApha karatA. AmAM emane arUci, udvega, kaMTALo na Avato. moDhAnA hAvabhAva na badalAtA. lakavAgrasta e vayovRddha muninI tamAma prakAranI sevA A paMnyAsajIe ghaNA varSo sudhI karI. (Dha) sAthenA sAdhuonI tabiyata jarAka paNa kharAba thAya ke tarata ja A paMnyAsajI emanI sevAmAM lAgI jAya. be TAImanuM paDilehaNa, gocarI-pANI lAvavA... vagere tamAma kAryo vagara kIdhe e karI le. sAdhuo nA paDatA rahe ane e emanuM kAma karyA ja kare. (ta) gocarImAM kyAreka be-traNa ToksI vyaMjana ke eka-doDha cetano supa vagere vadhI paDe to je vastu bIjA koI na vApare e badhuM pote khapAvavA mATe laI le. (AvI to aneka bAbato che. dareka vRdamAM jo AvA guNasaMpanna vaDIlo hoya, to vRMdamAM saMkalezAdi ghaNA ghaTI jAya. prasannatA, saMyamarAgAdi guNo mahekavA lAge...) AMbila-upavAsa vinAno anokho tAravI eka zaheramAM 45 sAdhuo eka ja sthAne cAturmAsa mATe rokAyA hatA. emAM vardhamAna tapanI oLI, mAsakSamaNa vagere ghora tapazcaryA karanArA tapasvIo paNa ghaNA ! emAM vaLI Aso mAsanI oLI zarU thaI. lagabhaga 36-37 sAdhuo navapadanI oLImAM joDAyA, mAMDa 8-9 sAdhuo cAlu gocarI vAparanArA hatA. emAM eka mahAtmA roja ekAsaNAnuM paccakhkhANa karatA. svAbhAvika che ke Aso-oLImAM zrIsaMghamAM paNa puSkaLa ArAdhako AMbila karatA hoya, AMbilakhAtAmAM 25-30 vastuo banatI hoya. 36-37 sAdhuo vAparanArA hovAthI aneka prakAranI vastuo Ave, enuM pramANa paNa vadhAre hoya... A badhu gocarImAM Ave, eTale vadhaghaTa thAya e lagabhaga badhAno anubhava che. emAM ya AMbilanI gocarI 36-37 sAdhuone

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-~-~~-~~-vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo - -- * vaheMcavAmAM saheje aDadho kalAka nIkaLI jAya, e pachI je gocarI vadhe e ThaMDI thaI gaI hoya e paNa spaSTa che. eka to AMbilanI rukSa gocarI ! emAM vaLI sAva ThaMDI paDI gayelI gocarI ! emAM ya judI judI AITamo ! A badhuM chelle khapAvavA ApavuM paDe, tyAre sAdhuone muzkelI paDe e svAbhAvika che. A tamAma sAdhuonI sevAno amUlya lAbha e ekAsaNAvALA mahAtmA letA. AMbilamAM jeTaluM vadhe, e badhuM pote khapAvavA laI le, koIpaNa sAdhune leza paNa parezAnI na thavA de. eka cetano bharIne caTaNI vadhe ke traNacAra TokasI maga vadhe, ThaMDI ThaMDI maganI dALa vadhe ke ThaMDI ThaMDI khIcaDI vadhe. vastu kaI ? kevI ? e kazuM ja e mahAtmA na jue, cetano bharIne caNA vadhe to paNa e khapAvI de. paccakakhANa ekAsaNAnuM, chatAM lagabhaga roja ja AMbilanI ja AvI vadhaghaTa gocarI vAparI. amuka divasa ekAsaNAnI vadhelI gocarI paNa sAthe vAparIne emane paNa puSkaLa sahAya karI. emanuM saMyama paNa eTaluM badhuM UMcu ke amadAvAdamAM eka sthAnamAM saMghanA zrAvako e muni mATe kahe ke "amAre tyAM A munirAja comAsAmAM hatA. cAra mahinAmAM ame emanI AMkhonI kIkI nihALI nathI. arthAt e muni sadA mATe AMkho nIcI DhALI rAkhe. UMce jue nahi. IryAsamitino upayoga to bApa re bApa !" bolatI vakhate muhapattIno upayoga na rahyo hoya tevuM temanA mATe bhAgye ja banyuM che. namratA, nirahaMkAritA to behada ! sAdhuo kahe ke "A munine koI pApa badala prAyazcitta ApavAnuM thAya to zuM ApavuM ? e paNa moTo prazna thaI paDe. kemake upavAsa - chaThTha - ama to e ramatamAM karI zake che, kazI takalIpha nahi. enAthI vadhu kaThina prAyazcitta cheda che. paNa emane cheda ApIe, to paNa e to hoMze hoMze badhAne nAnAone paNa vaMdana kare. e to ulTA vadhu khuza thAya. eTale cheda Apavo ya nakAmo ! jenAthI aparAdhIne kaMIka muzkelI paDe, evI vastu prAyazcittamAM apAya. paNa A to cheda jevA prAyazcittane paNa pacAvI jAya evA che." A nirUpaNa emanI nirahaMkAritAnI prazaMsA mATe karAyeluM hatuM. jyAre moTA grupamAM sAthe vihAra karatA hoya, sAMje cUnAnuM pANI ghaNuM nIkaLyuM hoya, savAre pAcho dasa-bAra ki.mI.no vihAra hoya, e vakhate e vadheluM pANI koNa le? badhA be-cAra ToksA laI le, paNa bIju badhuM pANI paraThavavuM paDe.

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-~-~~ vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo ------- e vakhate A munirAja Akho loTa bharacaka bharI de, ane AkhA vihAramAM e pANI uMcake. e manamAM vicAre ke "A pANI AgaLanA sthAne sthaDila - kApa - luNAdimAM kAma Avaze, eTale eka ghaDo pANI ochuM ukaLAvavuM paDaze. eTalI virAdhanA to ochI thAya..." je pANI pote vAparavAnuM nathI, e pANI paNa gacchane mATe loTa bharIne Akho vihAra uMcakIne cAlavuM e kevI suMdara gaccha bhakti ! kevo jIvadayAnA pariNAma ! | vihAra karIne jevA sthAna para pahoMce ke tarata potAno pyAlo kholI de. pyAlo luMchavA mATenuM vastra (mAtarIyuM) pavanarahita sthAne bAMdhI de. luMchaNiyuM vagere paNa bahAra kADhI rAkhe. emano bhAva e ke "badhA mahAtmAo mArA pyAlAmAM mAtru kare, mArA mAtarIyAno upayoga kare,... koIe potAnA pyAlA choDavA na paDe, eTale ja savAre pAchA bAMdhavA na paDe. e badhAnI bhaktino lAbha A rIte mane maLe..." svAdhyAyanI dhagaza paNa bhAre ! jo bhaNanArA sAdhuo hoya, to cAra-pAMca kalAka pATha ApavA taiyAra ! koI bhaNanAra na hoya to paNa pote roja daseka kalAka svAdhyAya kare. rAtre UMghavAnuM paNa ochuM ! je kAma moTA bhAge sAdhvIjIo ja karatA hoya che ane eTale je kAmo mATe sAdhuoe sAdhvIjInI sahAya levI paDatI hoya che, e badhA ja kAmo A munie barAbara zIkhI lIdhA. pATA raMgavAnA hoya ke oghA TAMkavAnA hoya ke oghA-daMDAsanAdino kApa kADhavAno hoya ke navA dorA vagere banAvavAnA hoya... badhAmAM A sAdhu hoMziyAra ! A sAdhuno manano bhAva e ke "mArA guru ane mArA dAdAguru tathA tamAma zAstrakArabhagavaMto ema Icche che ane pharamAvI gayA che ke sAdhuoe sAdhvIjIo sAthe bilakula paricaya na karavo joIe. eTale ja sAdhuoe A badhA kAryo zIkhI laI jAte ja karavA joIe ke jethI te nimitte paNa sAdhvIjIono paricaya na thAya. ... basa, A mahApuruSonI bhAvanAne huM sArthaka karuM..." A bhAvanA paNa mAtra svArthalakSI nahi, paraMtu gacchanA koIpaNa sAdhu emane A kAma soMpe, to karI Ape. "tame zIkhI lo ne ? huM kyA badhAnA kAma karyA karuM ? huM to mArU saMbhALuM" AvA prakArano uttara emaNe svapnamAM paNa vicAryo nathI. emano ati mahattvano eka guNa che dAkSiNya ! e sadA mATe sarvane anukULa thavA prayatna kare. na emanA moDhAmAMthI koI kArya mATe nA nIkaLe ke na emanA mukha para kadI uga-Aveza dekhAya. mATe ja e badhA ya sAdhuone khUba ja priya ! sudAkSiNya jana sarvane upAdeya vyavahAra e upAdhyAyajI mahArAjanuM vacana emanAmAM ekadama sArthaka thatuM dekhAya. (27-28 varSanI bharayauvana vaya ! A bhISaNakALa ! muMbaI mahAnagarImAM ja saMpUrNa

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- vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo + saMsArIjIvanano uchera !... A badhA viSamatama paribaLo vacce ATalI badhI guNavattA keLavI levI e Azcarya ja nahi, mahA Azcarya che. zAstrakAro to ema kahe che ke "vArtAmiUTI. A anAdikALamAM jIvo anAdi kuvAsanAthI vAsita hovAthI temanAmAM doSonA DhagaleDhagalA ja jovA maLe eTale ja jo koInAmAM ekAda guNa paNa sAco dekhAI jAya to e moTuM Azcarya mAnajo." have A mahAtmAmAM to eka nahi paNa vaiyAvacca - nirmaLabrahmacarya - apAra sahiSNutA - svAdhyAyarasiktA - paropakAritA - dAkSiNya - namratA - saraLatA... guNonI phoja jamA thayelI jovA maLe che. A mAtra gokhI kADhelA guNonuM lisTa ApavAmAM nathI AvyuM. paNa emanI sAthe rahenArA koIne paNa je guNonI spaSTa pratIti thayA vinA na rahe evA A guNo che.) vaiyAvaccano prakAra Avo paNa hoI zake kharo ? e vRddha munirAjane UMghamAM sAyakala calAvavAnI bimArI hatI. arthAt jema sAyakala calAvanAranA paga halana-calana pAme, e rIte A vRddha muni paNa UMghamAM paga halAve. jonArAne ema ja lAge ke jANe e sAyakala calAvI rahyA che. paNa AnuM nukasAna bhAre hatuM. ghaDapaNanA kAraNe hojarI nabaLI paDelI ja hatI, emAM vaLI A rIte UMdhamAM paga halAve eTale ghaNIvAra emane UMghamAM jhADA thaI jatA, spaMDilanA kAraNe colapaTTAdi vastro bagaDatA. A gharaDA munivALuM Akhu grupa vaiyAvacca mATe atiprasiddha che. koIpaNa vRddha mahAtmAnI sevA karavA mATe A grupa haMmezA taiyAra ! Aje paNa A grupamAM pAMca-cha vRddho che. paNa vaiyAvaccIo behada sevA kare che. eka paNa vRddhane asamAdhi na thavA devAnI puSkaLa kALajI kare che. emAMya mukhya vaiyAvaccI paMnyAsajI to kaMIka avanavA ja vaiyAvaccI tarIke judA tarI Ave che. A vRddha muninA kapaDA jyAre A rIte rAtre bagaDe, tyAre rAtre ja e kapaDAno kApa kADhavAnuM kAma A vaiyAvaccIo kare. eka divasa game te kAraNe mAtra aDadho-poNA ghaDA jeTaluM ja cUnAnuM pANI nIkaLyuM. vyavasthApake vicAryuM ke "cAlI jaze, vAMdho nahi Ave." ane e ja rAtre e vRddha mahAtmAne jhADA chUTI gayA. pahelA to koIne khabara na paDI. paNa khabara paDatA ja tarata e kapaDA badalAvyA. moTo prazna e thayo te bagaDelA colapaTTA - uttarapaTTAdino kApa kADhavo zI rIte zakya bane? kemake pANI hatuM mAtra aDadho ghaDo !

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-~~~~~~~RE vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo ~~~~~~~~ adhUrAmAM purU e comAsAnA divaso hovAthI bahAra dhodhamAra varasAda varasato hato. emAM vaLI madharAtano samaya ! emAM zrAvakone uThADavA, pANI navuM garama karAvavuM... e badhu e sthAnamAM atyaMta kaparuM hatuM. zuM karavuM ? aMDilathI bagaDelA vastrono kApa kADhyA vinA chUTako na hato. paNa koIne paNa koIpaNa upAya sujhato na hato. e ja vakhate paMnyAsajIe badhA sAdhuone kahyuM ke "tame badhA hamaNA ja ukyA cho, tamane badhAne mAtrAnI zaMkA to haze ja ne? to eka moTo pyAlo lAvo. ane badhA vArApharatI emAM mAtru karo...." paMnsAyajIe AvuM zA mATe kahyuM e to koI samajI na zakyA, paraMtu emanI AjJA pramANe badhAe pyAlAmAM mAtru karyuM. sAdhuo ghaNA hovAthI moTo pyAlo lagabhaga poNAbhAgano to bharAI gayo. e pachI paMnyAsajIe kahyuM, "badhA rUmanI bahAra jatA raho..." ane badhA sAdhunA gayA bAda paMnyAsajIe aMDilathI bagaDelA vastro e mAtrAmAM ja ghasI ghasIne sApha karyA. e rIte aMDilanA badhA aMzo dUra thaI gayA. e pachI aDadhA ghaDA jeTaluM cUnAnuM pANI hatuM, emAM kramazaH be vAra badhA vastro ghasI ghasIne dhoI lIdhA. eTale tatkALa to e badhA vastro sApha thaI gayA. e pachI bIjA divase badhA vastrono vyavasthita kApa kADhI lIdho. paNa sAdhuo to A badhuM joIne avAcaka ja banI gayA. eka moTA paMnyAsajI ghaNA badhA sAdhuonA mAtrAnA sahAre eka gharaDA sAdhunA aMDilavALA kapaDAne cokhkhA kare ane emAM emane leza paNa jugupsA ja na thAya... A badhu e sAdhuo pahelI ja vAra joI rahyA hatA. (madhyastha dRSTithI vicAravuM ke "utsargamArge A na karAya paNa AvI kaTokaTinA samaye apavAda paNa hoya ja. vaLI, A paMnyAsajInA manamAM sAdhuo pratyeno sabhAva + jugupsAno javalaMta vijaya + vaiyAvacca upara agAdha zraddhA... vagere keTalA badhA guNo haze, e A nAnakaDA prasaMga uparathI dhvanita tha AvA paNa pauSadhavatI zrAvako hoya che ! "are bhAI ! tame to pauSadhamAM lAgo cho. A bAju kyAM jAo cho? hAthamAM plAsTIkanI DabI che, pANI che, eTale lAge che ke tame bahAra Thalle jaI rahyA cho. tame bahAra Thalle javAnI jagyA joI che ?" surata gopIpurAnA eka rastA upara sAdhue zrAvakane pRcchA karI. --

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vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo e mahAtmA saMyamI hatA. vADAno paNa upayoga na karavo paDe e mATe eka-be ki.mI. dUra Thalle javuM paDe to paNa e taiyAra ! lagabhaga gocarI vAparyA bAda lle javAno emano rojIMdo krama ! e divase paNa gocarI vAparyA bAda Thalle javA nIkaLyA. tApI nadInA kinAre Thalle javAnI jagyA che, e vAta e muni jANatA hatA. paNa tyAM javAno TUMko rasto galIomAMthI nIkaLato hovAthI bhUla-bhUlAmaNImAM phasAI javAya tevo hato. chatAM "pUchatA pUchatA pahoMcI jaIza." ema vicArI e mahAtmA nIkaLelA. vaLI e Akho vistAra muslamAnono hato. eTale emAMthI pasAra thavAmAM paNa e munine thoDoka bhaya lAgato hato. tyAM ja emaNe 100 DagalA dUra eka dhotIyA-khesavALA bhAIne jatA joyA, hAthamAM plAsTIkanI DabI ane bagalamAM caravaLo joI khyAla AvI gayo ke "koI pauSadhavratadhArI zrAvaka che." "ene rasto khabara haze ane mAre sobata maLI raheze..." ema dhArIne munirAja jhaDapathI cAlI e zrAvakanI sAthe thaI gayA. alabatta muninuM mana acaMbAmAM paDI gayuM hatuM. "zrAvako poSadhamAM A rIte bahAra Thalle jAya che ? zrAvako to pauSadha kare e ya ghaNuM che. have to pajusaNa sivAya pauSadhIo paNa ghaNA ochA dekhAya che... emAM A rIte Thalle janArA..." munie zrAvakane jyAre A prazna karyo tyAre namrabhAve eNe uttara Apyo ke "amArA upAzrayamAM lagabhaga 8-10 zrAvako pAMca tithi pauSadha kare che. emAM ghaNAkharA zrAvako poNo ki.mI. cAlIne bahAra ja Thalle jAya che. A saMskAra amArAmAM evA rUDha thaI gayA che ke emAM have koIpaNa pheraphAra thato nathI. kazI muzkelI paDatI nathI." mahInAnA 25 divasa to saMDAsa ja vAparIe chIe, paraMtu pAMca divasa paNa A ArAdhanA karavA maLe e amArA mATe AnaMdano viSaya che... "cAlo, sAhebajI ! huM Apane rasto ane jagyA batAvuM. Aje mane sAdhu bhaktino lAbha maLaze...' e munirAja khUba AnaMda pAmyA. (e zrAvako to saMsAramAM cikkAra hiMsA kare che, emanAmAM jIvadayAnA pariNAma viziSTa kakSAnA na hoya. chatAM pauSadhavrata lIdhA bAda poNo ki.mI. cAlIne bahAra Thalle javAno puruSArtha teo samyak prakAre Adare che. ApaNe to mahAvratadhArI chIe, ApaNA jIvadayAnA pariNAma kevA nirmaLa hoya ! jo zarIranI zakti pahoMcatI hoya to ApaNe kama se kama eTaluM to nakkI karavuM ja joIe ne ? ke eka ki.mI.nI aMdara jo bahAra Thalle javAnI jagyA maLaze, to huM bahAra ja lle jaIza. huM vADAno upayoga nahi karuM." 69

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vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo hA ! A vAta paNa mukhyatve sAdhu bhagavaMto mATe che. sAdhvIjIoe to pravacanahIlanA na thAya ane zIlanI rakSA thAya e rIte ja laghunIti-vaDInIti karavAnA hoya che. emAM saMyamavirAdhanA na thAya to to ghaNuM sarasa. bAkI saMyamavirAdhanA SaTkAyahiMsA e pravacanahIlanA - zIlabhaMganI apekSAe nAno doSa che... e vAta spaSTa ja che...) = zAsanaprabhAvanA karavAnI joradAra kuneha ! 50-60% musalamAnonI vasati dharAvatuM dakSiNa gujarAtanuM e nAnakaDuM gAma ! jainonA ghara khullA kharA, paNa 20-25 ! moTA bhAganA badhA muMbaI - surata - amadAvAda! paNa derAsara prAcIna ! e jIrNoddhArane yogya banyuM hatuM, muMbaInA eka dharmaniSTha zrImaMta zrAvake e jIrNodvAra sahitanI nUtana pratiSThAno mukhya lAbha lIdho. e mahotsava daramyAna Azare karoDa rUA. jeTalI vizALa lakSmIno sadyaya thayo. paNa e mahotsavanA kAraNe je zAsanaprabhAvanA thaI e AMkhe UDIne vaLage evI hatI. (ka) gAmanA tamAme tamAma gharomAM vAjate gAjate, Dhola-nagArA sAthe jaIne AmaMtraNa patrikA ApI. tamAma muslima gharomAM paNa e ja rIte AmaMtraNa patrikA mokalI. musalamAno Azcarya pAmyA, "amane AmaMtraNa ! jaino emanA bhagavAnanA mahotsavamAM amane bolAve che !" (kha) pAMca-sAta divasanA e mahotsavamAM mukhya be divasa AkhAya gAmanuM jamaNa goThavavAmAM AvyuM. aDhAreya komamAM jaina dharma mATe sadbhAvanI lAgaNI pragaTI. (ga) Azcarya to e vAtanuM thayuM ke AkhAya jamaNavAranI vyavasthA karavAnI badhI ja javAbadArI muslimabhAIoe upADI lIdhI. jamaNavAra mATenuM vizALa medAna muslimoe phALavI ApyuM. emAM maMDapa bAMdhavAthI mAMDIne, pATalAo goThavavA, pIrasavuM... vagere badhI ja javAbadArI bhAvuka musalamAnoe utsAhathI svayaM upADI ane nibhAvI. (gha) rathayAtrA, sAmaiyu nIkaLyuM tyAre Thera Thera svAgatanA benaro lagADavAmAM AvelA. emAM muslima vepArIoe potAnA dukAnonI AgaLa jainasaMghAdinuM svAgata karanArA moTA benaro lagAvyA. musalamAnonA benaro sauthI vadhAre hatA. (ca) mahotsavanA pAMceya divasa muslimoe potAnI IcchAthI jIvonI katala baMdha rAkhI. "jainonI bhAvanAne ApaNe puSTi ApavI joIe, kama se kama pAMca divasa to ApaNe katala baMdha rAkhIe." e emanI bhAvanA hatI. 70

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( vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo (cha) muslima samAje nirNaya lIdho ke "have pachInA varSomAM pratiSThA-dhajAnA divase muslima samAja tala baMdha rAkhaze..." (ja) pratiSThA-mahotsava Adi tamAma kAryakramomAM bhaktimaMta zrImaMta zrAvakoe kula savA karoDa rUpiyAno sarvyaya karyo. (cha'rI pAlita saMgho, aMjanazalAkA pratiSThAdi mahotsavo vagere viziSTa prasaMgomAM judI judI rIte jainetarone yAda karavAthI, sAthe levAthI, satkAra-sanmAna karavAthI besumAra phAyadAo thAya. (1) teo jainadharma pratye sadbhAvavALA bane, samyaktva ke bodhibIja pAmanArA bane. (2) jainetaro taraphathI tIrthone bhaya to na rahe, ulTuM teo ja jainatIrthonI rakSA mATe utsAhI bane. (3) SoDazaka prakaraNamAM kyuM che ke "jyAM derAsara banAvavAnuM hoya, tyAM AjubAjumAM rahenArA jainetarAdine dAna, mAna ane satkAra ApavA dvArA kuzala AzayavALA banAvavA. AvuM thavAthI teo samyakatvanuM bIja pAmanArA banaze." A vAta upalakSaNathI bIjA paNa zAsanaprabhAvanAnA kAryomAM samajI levAnI che. eTale AvA viziSTa kAryomAM ucita rIte jainetarone paNa joDavAmAM Ave to zAstrAjJAnuM pAlana karavA vagere rUpa paNa ghaNA lAbho thAya.) mAro sAdhubhava vaiyAvacca levA mATe nathI, karavA mATe che. (eka munivaranA zabdomAM) amArA grupanA 25 varSanA dIkSA paryAyavALA e munivara ! amArA badhAnA vaDIla ! paNa emane dIkSAnA bIjA ja mahinAthI azAtAvedanIyano vicitra prakArano udaya thayo. enA kAraNe emane vAraMvAra tAva AvI jAya. paristhiti evI ke savAra-sAMja dUdha sivAya kaMI na vAparI zake ane bapore dALa-bhAta sivAya kaMI ja nahi. e rIte emaNe varSo vItAvyA. chatAM emanI vizeSatA e ke koInI sevA levA mATe e taiyAra nahi, ulTuM samudAyamAM koIpaNa mAMdA paDe to ene mATe A muni khaDe page taiyAra ! e vakhate e potAnI zArIrika muzkelIno vicAra paNa na kare. emaNe potAnA jIvanamAM eka vRddhamuninI kula 7-8 varSa sevA karI che. e sevA paNa jevI tevI nahi, paNa (ka) ghaNIvAra AkhI AkhI rAtanA ujAgarA karavA paDe. (kha) traNa TAIma gocarI-pANI, sthaMDila paraThavavuM, davA ApavI vagere badhuM kaMTALyA vinA ekale hAthe kare. (ga) Injekzana ApavuM, TesTIMga mATe lohI levuM, oksIjanano bATalo caDAvavo, bI.pI. 71

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-~~~-~~~~ vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo ------ mApavuM... A badhuM ja emaNe zIkhI lIdheluM. glAnanI sevAmAM A badhuM ja e jAte ja karatA. (gha) e vRddhamunine chellA varSomAM spaMDila mAMDa mAMDa thAya, e vakhate e maLanI zuddhi vagere karavAnuM kAma A munirAja ja potAnA hAthe kare. na saMkoca ! na jugupsA ! vRddhasevAno eka mAtra AnaMda ! (ghaDapaNa eTale parAdhInatAnuM ja bIjuM nAma ! ekavAra ApaNe saue gharaDA banavAnuM che. te vakhate sevA karanArA saMyamIonI jarUra paDavAnI ja che. jo evA saMyamI nahi maLe, to asamAdhi thayA vinA nahi rahe. jo ghaDapaNamAM ApaNane samAdhi ApanArA sevAbhAvI saMyamIonI sahAya joItI hoya to e mATe evuM ja puNya bheguM karavuM paDe. eno upAya e che ke Aje yauvanadazAmAM ApaNe koIka vRddhane sAcavIe, enI sevA karIe, ene paramazAtA ApIe. jo AvuM karazuM to ApaNane paNa evA ja samAdhidAyaka mahAtmAo maLaze. jo zramaNa saMsthAmAM traNa-traNa ke cAra-cAra saMyamIonA grupo paraspara evo nirNaya karavA lAge ke "ApaNe traNa jaNe ke cAra jaNe bhegA maLIne ApaNA samudAyanA eka vRddhane sAcavI levA." to vRddha sAdhu-sAdhvIono prazna ApoApa ukalI jAya. AmAM lAbha paNa ghaNA ! - ekAda vRddha hAjara hoya to brahmacaryAdi saMbaMdhamAM paNa surakSA maLe. - sevA karavAno amUlya avasara maLe. - gacchanA vRddho A rIte judA judA grupomAM sacavAI javAthI gacchano moTo prazna ukalI jAya. A rIte gaccha sevAno lAbha maLe. - vRddhanI sevAthI mohanIya karmanA, jJAnAvaraNAdinA paNa cUrecUrA thAya. saMyama nirmaLa bane. basa ATaluM ja karavAnuM che ke - dara cAra saMyamI dITha eka vRddha sAdhunI saMpUrNa javAbadArI vaheMcAI jAya. alabatta, vRddhasevAmAM gacchabheda na jovAya, paNa potapotAnA gacchanI paNa jo AvI vyavasthA goThavAI jAya to ekaMdare to puSkaLa lAbha ja che ne ?) anAsakta anAsakti (eka munirAjanA zabdomAM) Aje AhAra ghaNo vadhyo che, koIne khapAvavA cAle, to lejo. paraThavavo paDaze..." mAMDalImAM jAherAta thaI, eTale meM amuka AhAra khapAvavA mATe lIdho. mAre oLI cAlatI hatI. AhAra to lIdho, paNa mArI pAse dALa vagere koI sAdhana na hatuM. mArI bAjumAM ja beThelA munirAjanI tapaNImAM AMbilanI maganI dALa hatI ja. meM tarANImAMthI thoDIka ja dALa

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TokasImAM lIdhI. e munirAjanuM e tarapha dhyAna na gayuM. meM dALa jIbhane aDADI ane huM coMkyo. e kaDavI kaDavI hatI. moDhAmAMthI aMdara ja na utare. meM tarata pelA munine pUchyuM ke "A zuM che ? maganI dALa kaDavI kema che ?" tyAre e munine bhAna thayuM ke "emanI dALa meM lIdhI che." e gaLagaLA thaI gayA. mane kahe "kSamA karajo, mane khyAla na rahyo. emAM kariyAtuM bheguM kareluM che." "zA mATe ?" meM pUchyuM. e kaMI na bolyA. "roja AvuM karo cho ?" meM pharI pUchyuM. e mauna rahyA. emanA maunamAM mane javAba maLI gayo. huM jANI gayo ke A vairAgI munirAje khAvAnI Asakti toDavA mATe AMbilo zaru karyA. ane AMbilamAM paNa Asakti na thAya, e mATe kariyAtAvALI kaDavI dALa roja vAparatA. Asakti toDavA A kevo ghora puruSArtha ! AMbilanI gocarI roja huM jato hato. A prasaMga banyA bAda meM kariyAtuM lAvavAnuM baMdha karyuM. "mAre emane AvI kaDavI gocarI zI rIte vAparavA devAya ?" mAruM mana bolatuM hatuM. paNa eka-be divasa bAda e muni mArI pAse AvyA. rItasara mane karagaravA lAgyA. "tame kariyAtuM baMdha na karazo. mArI AtmasAdhanAmAM bAdhaka na banazo." emano vairAgya, anAsakti mATenI emanI lAlasA joI huM stabdha thaI gayo. bIjA divasathI meM punaH emanI IcchA pramANe kariyAtuM lAvI ApavA mAMDyuM. prasanna banelA e muninI A anAsaktinI sAdhanA punaH zaru thaI. amArA bhavoSitAraka guru mahArAja to kahe ke "ApaNA badhAmAM A sAdhu pahelo mokSe jaze, ema lAge che." vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo) ane kharekhara emanI guNavattA jabarI ! gocarImAMDalImAM game eTaluM vadhe, aNabhAvatuM vadhe to paNa A muni prAyaH kadI nA - na pADe. * eTalA paragaju ke badhAnA kAma hoMze hoMze kare. emane kAma bhaLAvavAmAM koIne saMkoca nahi. -- - mAMDalI vyavasthApaka mATe A muni korA ceka jevA ! game eTaluM kAma soMpo to paNa e prasannatA sAthe, hoMze hoMze kare. -- vaDIlo mAtru jAya eTale pyAlo paraThavavAno lAbha levA pahoMcI ja jAya. "mane paNa mAtrAnI zaMkA thaI che...'' ema bahAnuM kADhIne paNa pyAlo paraThavavA laI jAya. 73

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-- to paNa A muni badhuM sAMbhaLI le, bacAva na kare. gusso na kare. UMghamAM paDakhuM pherave tyAre emano ogho pharI ja gayo hoya. jagyA puMjAI ja gaI hoya. jIvadayAnA evA gADha saMskAra ! -- vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo) nAnA ke moTA saMyamIo kyAreka A munine Thapako Ape ke kaMIka jema tema bolI de vacce mAMdagInA kAraNe 8-10 mahinA traNa TAIma vAparavuM paDatuM. to sAMjanI gocarI baporanI gocarImAMthI ja kADhI le. sAMjanI gocarI doSita thaI javAnI zakyatAnA kAraNe ja baporanI kADhelI gocarI sAMje vAparI le. -- gocarImAMDalImAM kaMIpaNa sAmethI na mAMge. emaNe maMgAvelI vastu bhUlathI emane na pahoMce. to yAda paNa na karAve ke bIjIvAra maMgAve paNa nahi. (anAsakti be prakAranI hoya che. (1) jemAM evI apekSA hoya ke "loko mane tyAgI, vairAgI tarIke jANe. mArI anAsaktinI prazaMsA kare." e yaza-kIrtinI AsaktivALI evI bhojanAdinI anAsakti che. arthAt Asakta anAsakti che. jo AvuM hoya to e vyaktine potAnI prazaMsA khUba game. e potAnI anAsaktinI vAto jAte ja bIjAone kare. e badhuM khAnagI rAkhavAne badale jAhera karavAnI ja enI vadhu kAmanA hoya. (2) jemAM AvI koI malina apekSA na hoya. potAno vairAgya, tyAga chAno rahe, loko jANI na jAya evI ja bhAvanA manamAM ramatI hoya e anAsakta anAsakti kahevAya. kariyAtA sAthe roja kaDavuM vAparavuM e anAsakti ! ane enI koIne khabara na paDavA devI, kahevuM nahi e anAsakta anAsakti ! ApaNe AvA kyAre banazuM ?) jyotiSanA bharose besI na rahevAya ! "A chokarAnI kuMDaLI jotA spaSTa khyAla Ave che ke Ane koIpaNa hisAbe dIkSA na apAya. dIkSA Apazo to e pAcho ghare Avaze. tamArI Ijjata bagaDaze.'' vidvAna jyotiSIe yuvAna mumukSu putra mATe kaDaka + Tuzabdo uccAryA. cha varSa pUrve A ja yuvAne enA pitAnI dIkSA aTakAvelI. dIkaro nAstika jevo hato. dIkSAno virodhI ! paNa aMte sadguruno bheTo thayo ane khuda dIkaro paNa dIkSA mATe taiyAra thayo. pitAjI khuza hatA. emanI cha varSanI mahecchA pUrNa thatI hatI. paNa.. jyotiSIe kALaju kaMpAvanArI AgAhI karI. 74

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vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo sago dIkaro dIkSA bAda pAcho ghera jAya, e zI rIte paravaDe ? emAM vaLI kuTuMba ghaNuM vizALa, khAnadAna, IjjatadAra ! pitAzrI nirNaya letA muMjhAyA. gharanA badhA sabhyo, parivAra bhego thayo. tyAre e yuvAnanA sagA kAkA khumArIbhera bolI uThyA. "jyotiSanI vAtothI bilakula gabharAvAnI jarUra nathI. mAro bhAI ane bhatrIjo dIkSA leze ja. ane jo kharekhara AgAhI sAcI paDe to paNa ciMtA na karazo. mArA traNa dIkarA che. ghare pAchA pharelA bhatrIjAne huM mArA cothA dIkarA tarIke rAkhI laIza." ane kAkAnI A dharapata, daDhatAnA pariNAme raMgecaMge dIkSA thaI. e yuvAna ghare to na gayo, paNa Aje mahAna jainAcArya banIne zAsanaprabhAvanAnA ajoDa kAryo kare che. e yuvAnanA kAkAe paNa 64 varSe dIkSA lIdhI. parivAranA 8 jaNane dIkSA apAvavAmAM nimitta banyA. e kAkAno dharmarAga evo joradAra ke vekezanamAM potAnA dIkarA-dIkarIone pharajiyAta sAdhu-sAdhvIo pAse bhaNavA mokale. tithinA pauSadha pharajiyAta kare ane karAve. e kAkA 64 varSanI uMmare dIkSAnuM muhUrta khAnagImAM kaDhAvIne ghare gayA. paNa patnIne game te rIte e vAtanI khabara paDI ane eNe dhamakI ApI "huM uparathI bhusako mArIne AtmahatyA karIza, jo tame dIkSA lIdhI to...' paNa chevaTe patnI paNa mAnI gaI ane e kAkAe dIkSA lIdhI. Aje e vRddha kAkA munirAja saMyamajIvana mastIthI maLe che. saMyamajIvanamAM hajI sudhI ekapaNa divasa evo nathI gayo ke jemAM A muni gurujanAdinA upakArone yAda karIne raDyA na hoya. khUba khUba saMvedanazIla emanuM haiyuM ! je nAnA sAdhuo emanI sevA kare, emano AbhAra mAnIne AMsu vahAve. maccharadAnImAMthI jo ekAda paNa macchara mareluM nIkaLe, to A muni rItasara dhrusake dhrusake raDI paDe. sahavartIoe e munine AvI rIte ghaNIvAra raDatA joyA che. sahavartIo lakhe che ke "sAMje pratikramaNamAM jyAre savvastra vi... sUtra bolAya, tyAre potAnA divasa daramyAnanA pApo badala A muninI AMkhomAMthI AMsu paDe, paDe ne paDe ja." jANe ke emanI AMkhomAM pANInI TAMkI na goThavI hoya, ema nAnI nAnI bAbatomAM paNa AMkho chalakAI jAya. emanA bhatrIjAe (AcAryadeve) prathamapIThikAno japa zaru karyo, temane japamAM baLa maLe e mATe A vRddha kAkA munie 25 zuddha AMbila saLaMga karyA. (mAtra bhAta + pANI ja...) 75

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-~~-~-- vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo -------- AcAryadeve pUchyuM ke "tamArA mATe japamAM zuM saMkalpa karuM?" to kahe "A jIMdagImAM mArI 68 oLI pUrNa thAya, e ja mArI IcchA che." Aje 81 varSanI uMmare teo 81 oLI sudhI pahoMcI gayA che. 45-50 DIgrI garamIvALA ane 20 DIgrI ke 1-2 DIgrI jevI bhayaMkara ThaMDIvALA sthAnamAM zAsananA kAma mATe AcAryadeve be-traNa varSa satata rokAI javAno prasaMga Avyo. AcAryadevane zAsananA kAryomAM baLa maLe, e mATe AkhA grupe saLaMga roja eka-eka AMbila cAlu rAkhavAno nirNaya lIdho. paNa tyAM AMbilakhAtA nahi ane gharo ochA, vaLI ThaMDI-garamI baMne ati vadhAre... emAM vaLI 6 sAdhuo TAIphoIDa-jonDIsanA rogamAM sapaDAyA. saLaMga AMbila cAlu rAkhavAno vicAra paDI bhAMgyo. paNa e vakhate A vRddha munie kahyuM ke "ApaNA AcAryadevane zAsananA kAryomAM baLa maLe e mATe akhaMDa bila cAlavA ja joIe. koI nahi kare, to huM ekalo karIza. mAtra roTalI ane pANI maLaze. to paNa cAlaze. mArA taraphathI koIpaNa phariyAda nahi Ave. enI huM bAMhedharI ApuM chuM." ane kharekhara bhISmasaMkalpI munirAje 78,79,80 traNa oLI saLaMga karI. Aje 81 varSanI uMmare e je nAnI nAnI ArAdhanA kare che. te jarAka joIe. (ka) eka AMkha bilakula nathI, chatAM AkhA divasamAM pAMca kalAka svAdhyAya kare. (kha) ATha karmanA kSaya mATe 20 logassa, vizuddhasaMyama pAlana mATe 17 logassa, jinazAsana rakSA mATe 12 logassa, siddhabhagavaMtonI ArAdhanA mATe 8 logassa, pAMcajJAnanI ArAdhanA mATe 5 logassano kAussagga roja kare che. (ga) "namo jiNANe jiabhayANaM'nI pAMca, gurue ApelA maMtranI pAMca, navakAramaMtranI 1, "namo siddhANaM'nI 20, sthUlabhadrajI ane dhannA aNagAranI eka, rakvAmi mahatraNa paMca nI 1, nAgezvara pArzvanAtha, gautamasvAmI, siddhAcalatIrthAdhipati AdinAtha, zaMkhezvara pArzvanAthanI eka-eka ane tisthaya che pakSIyaMta nI eka mALA roja gaNe che. (jyotiSa sAcuM che, enI nA nahi. paNa (ka) Aje sacoTa, ekadama sAcuM jonArAo ochA... (kha) e karmo nikAcita na hoya to tUTI javAnI zakyatA ghaNI (ga) nikAcita hoya to paNa patana thatA pUrve jeTalA varSa ArAdhanA thaI, e to sArA mATe ja ne?. eTale ja jyotiSa jovaDAvavuM kharuM, paNa enA bharose besI na rahevuM.)

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vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo mahAsaMcamI sUrideva (ka) saLaMga 500 AMbilanA pAraNAno e divasa ! AcAryadeve e pAraNAmAM mamarAnI cIkI vAparI. 500 AMbilanI anAsakti eTalI badhI AtmasAta thayelI ke A mamarAnI cIkI vAparatI vakhate je nAnakaDI Asakti thaI, e paNa emane dhrujAvanArI banI. gocarI bAda e khUba udAsa banI gayA. ziSyonI AgaLa baLApo raju karatA e sUrideva bolyA ke - hAya ! mArA 500 AMbila pANImAM gayA. mane Aje mamarAnI cIkImAM rAga thayo. (ja kapaDuM AkhuM kALuM ja hoya, emAM koI moTo kALo DAgha lAge to paNa e najaramAM na Ave. enI koI noMdha na levAya. ema jemanA jIvana Asakti vagere doSothI kALA kALA hoya, teone koI khAvAnI moTI Asakti jAge, to paNa emane e doSarUpa na lAge. eno kheda na thAya. re ! e doSanI noMdha paNa na levAya. paNa dhoLAdhaba vastra upara nAnakaDo paNa mezano DAgha e jaldI najaramAM Ave, e jaldI kheda upajAvanAro bane. A sUrideva 500 AMbilamAM potAnuM mana dhoLuM dhaba banAvI cUkyA hatA. anAsaktinI saphedAI emanA AtamamAM chavAI cUkI hatI. eTale ja mamarAnI cIkI jevI sAmAnya vastunI sAmAnya Asakti paNa emane khUba pazcAttApa karAvanArI banI.) (kha) ghaDapaNamAM e sUrideva parAdhIna banyA. ziSyo je gocarI-pANI lAve e ja emaNe vAparavAnA. sUrijIne zaMkA paDatI ke "mArA pratyenA atibhaktibhAvathI ane mArA ghaDapaNane lIdhe A ziSyo badhuM doSita to nahi lAvatA hoya ne ? badhI rasoI garamAgarama, AdhAkarmAdirUpa to nahi karAvatA hoya ne ?" paNa A zaMkAnuM samAdhAna meLavavuM zI rIte ? pote to enI tapAsa karavA jaI zake ema na hatA. chevaTe gocarI lAvanArA ziSyane potAnI pAse bolAvI sUrideva bolyA ke - "jo. tuM mane nirdoSa gocarI ja vaparAvaze, evo meM tArAmAM vizvAsa mukyo che. have tuM vizvAsaghAta na karato. mane jhera (doSitagocarI) pIvaDAvavuM ke amRta pIvaDAvavuM (nirdoSa gocarI) e tArA hAthamAM che." AcAryadevanI tabiyata ane ghaDapaNa joIne bhaktimaMta ziSyane evI IcchA thayelI kharI ke "sUrijIne svAthyane anukULa vastu doSita karAvIne paNa vaparAvuM." paNa sUrijInI lAgaNIsabhara vinaMti sAMbhaLI ziSya sajjaDa banI gayo. nirdoSa gocarI mATe daDhatA keLavI lIdhI. (ga) "sAhebajI ! vAparavA padhAro. navakArazI AvI gaI che." ziSya vRddha sUrijIne vinaMti karI.

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vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo) "are, ATalI jaldI gocarI AvI gaI ? keTalA vAgyA ? zrAvakone tyAM ATalI vahelI navakArazI maLe ja nahi. tuM zI rIte A badhuM laI Avyo ? mane lAge che ke te koI zrAvakane tyAMthI doSita gocarI vahorI che. e vinA ATalI vahelI gocarI maLe ja nahi. mane pAkI khabara che. basa ! mAre Aje navakArazI nathI karavI. Aje porisI karIza." sUrideva bolI uThyA ane tyAM ja porisInuM paccakkhANa laI lIdhuM. porisImAM paNa dUdha vagere pravAhI na lIdhuM. kemake e vaheluM AveluM hovAthI doSitanI zaMkA hatI. paNa je khAkharA vagere taddana nirdoSa vastuonI hatI, e ja vAparI. (gha) "Aje adhyAtmayogI mahApuruSa padhAravAnA che, eTale emanA AvyA bAda huM gocarI vAparIza.' sUrideve ziSyane kahyuM. sUrideva to e adhyAtmayogI mahApuruSanA pitAnA sthAne hatA. chatAM emane adhyAtmayogI upara bhAre bahumAna ! "paNa, sAhebajI ! emane AvatA to dasa vAgaze." ziSye kahyuM. "bhale ne dasa vAge ! paradeza kamAvA gayelo dIkaro kamAIne pAcho Avato hoya to bApane keTalo AnaMda hoya. Aje to huM e mahApuruSanA hAthe ja gocarI vAparIza. mAre koI utAvaLa nathI." sUrijIe kahyuM. (pote ghaNA vaDIla hovA chatAM, vRddha hovA chatAM, samayano ghaNo vilaMba thavA chatAM paNa AgaMtuka mahAtmA pratyeno vAtsalyabhAva, bahumAnabhAva keTalo gajabano ? ke enA mATe dasa vAgyA sudhI navakArazI karavA paNa taiyAra nahi...) (ca) Asana kAyama mATe sAduM rAkhe. jo ziSyo jADuM Asana pAthare, to dUra karIne ja jaMpe. emanI AcArya padavInA divase jADuM Asana pAtharavAmAM AveluM. e vakhate paNa emaNe e Asana dUra phagAvI dIdheluM. (cha) ziyALAmAM UMghatI vakhate traNa kAmaLI paheravI paDe, to paNa jyAre savAranuM pratikramaNa kare, tyAre traNeya kAmaLI, pAMgaraNI, kapaDo badhuM kADhI nAMkhe. mAtra colapaTTo paherIne pratikramaNa kare. (ja) bhayaMkara ThaMDI hoya to paNa savAre paDilehaNa vakhate bArI kholI ja nAMkhe. (jha) potAnA ziSyonA vikAsa mATe potAnAthI chUTA pADavA, bIje mokalavA paNa saharSa taiyAra ! "mArA ziSyo mArI pAse ja rahevA joIe..." evuM leza paNa mamatva nahi. ane e rIte ziSyone bIjA pAse bhaNavA mokalIne bhaNAvyA paNa kharA. 78

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vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo (Ta) adhyAtmayogIne A sUrideva patramAM lakhatA ke "tamArA jevI paramAtmabhakti hajI mArAmAM AvI nathI." (pote moTA hovA chatAM A keTalI badhI namratA ! nikhAlasatA ! nirabhimAnitA !) (Tha) sUridevane vaMdanAdi karavA sAdhvIjIo Ave, paNa emanI sAme UbhA UbhA ja vAta karIne cAlI jAya. "sUridevanI sAme Asana upara besIne vAto karavI" e prasaMga kadI na banato. (brahmacaryanI rakSA mATe, vyavahAranA pAlana mATe sUrijI AvA sajAga hatA) (Da) uMmara ghaNI thavAthI vihAra karI na zakatA, to paNa DoLI ke vhIlacerano upayoga na kare. moTA bhAge mAsakalpa kare. vihAro ghaTADI de. eka mahine najIkanA sthAnamAM jAya tyAre zrAvako ke sAdhuo ja emane khurazImAM UMcakIne laI jAya. A sUrijIne mAsakalpa vyavasthAno prema jabaradasta ! ghaNA vihAro, lAMbAvihAro emane nApasaMda hatA. (Dha) Akho divasa lagabhaga svAdhyAyamAM magna ! zloko, pustako, granthonuM vAMcana-manana karyA kare. saMghanA moTA moTA TrasTIo vaMdanAdi mATe Ave to paNa adhavacce vAMcana na choDe. amuka prakaraNa pUrNa thAya, pachI ja pustakamAMthI mAthuM UMcu kare ane pUche ke "bolo, zuM kAma che ?" ane kaMI kAma na hoya to eka miniTamAM to e moTA moTA TrasTIone paNa snehapUrvaka vidAya ApI de. (ta) sAdhuone zrAvakono paricayAdi na karavA de. koI sAdhu pAse zrAvakone beThelA, vAto karatA jUe to sUrideva tarata e zrAvakane potAnI pAse bolAvIne kahe ke "le, eka navakAravALI gaNa." rAtre paNa zrAvakone sAdhuo pAse besavA na de. sAdhuone potAnA sthAne ja svAdhyAya karAve. (tha) A sUrideva jyAre sAdhu hatA ane abhyAsa karatA hatA. tyAre eka bAju potAnA ja sthAnika upAzrayamAM traNa traNa paMDito bhaNAvanArA hatA. bIjI bAju najIkanA eka upAzrayamAM eka AcAryadeva bhaNAvanArA hatA. paNa emano svabhAva bhAre kaDaka. Thapako ApatA vAra na lagADe. chatAM A sUrideva "bhale game eTalI kaDakAI sahana karavI paDe. paNa huM bhaNIza to vratadhArI AcAryadeva pAse ja ! mAre paMDito pAse nathI bhaNavuM." ema dRDha nizcaya karIne kharekhara traNeya paMDitone tyAgI kaDaka AcAryadeva pAse kaDakAI sahana karavApUrvaka bhaNyA. 79

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- vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo + e mahAtmAne saMnidhinI davA paNa maMjura nathI "koInI pAse cokhkhuM supa ke odana che?" 20 sAdhuonI mAMDalImAM vaDIla paMnyAsajIe badhAne prazna karyo. chellA cAreka divasathI 7-8 mahemAna mahAtmAo paNa padhArelA hatA. paMnyAsajIe potAnA ziSyone sucana karI dIdheluM ja hatuM ke "mahemAnonI bhakti karajo..." nirdoSa gocarInA khapI mahAtmAo doSita vastuthI bhakti karavA taiyAra na hatA, to mahemAna munio paNa nirdoSatAnA ja khapI hatA. paNa eka divasa eka jagyAe dhArmika prasaMga nimitte jamaNavAra hato, gocarI mATenI vinaMti paNa AvI... ane bhaktinA mAsuka sthAnika munio hoMzabhera zIro laI AvyA. e sivAya e divase gharomAMthI paNa sahaja rIte gocarI vadhI paDI. paMnyAsajIne zIro baMdha, chatAM khapAvavA mATe zIro lIdho. pAtru AkhuM ghI-ghI vALuM thaI gayuM. vAparI lIdhA bAda pAtru barAbara dhovA mATe, ghInI cIkAza dUra karavA mATe supa-odana jarUrI lAgavAthI emaNe mAMDalImAM upara mujaba pRcchA karI. sAhebajI ! cokhkhA to nathI, paNa hamaNAM ja gharomAMthI laI AvIe, vAra nahi lAge." vinayI sAdhue javAba dIdho. "nA re nA ! eTalA mATe vadhaghaTa levA javAnI jarUra nathI. AMgaLIthI luMchI luMchIne sApha karI laIza." paMnyAsajIe spaSTa nA pADI, sAdhuoe be vAra vinaMti karI, chatAM nA pADI eTale sAdhuo vadhu jIda na karI zakyA. mahemAna sAdhuo gocarI vAparIne UbhA thaI gayA. paNa emaNe joyuM ke paMnyAsajIne hajI vAra lAge ema che. spaSTa khyAla Avyo ke "zIrAe moTuM mArI nAkhyuM che ane pAtrAmAM phelAyelI cIkAza kADhavI agharI paDe che..." "ApaNI pAse hiMgASTaka che. e paMnyAsajIne Apo ne? enAthI be lAbha thaze. moTuM marI gayuM che, te sAruM thaze ane pAtru ghasI ghasIne sApha karavAmAM paNa saraLatA raheze." eka mahemAna sAdhue kahyuM ane tarata bIjo mahemAna sAdhu paMnyAsajI pAse hiMgASTaka laI gayo. "sAhebajI ! A lo. jaldI kAma patI jaze. bAkI to Apa herAna thazo..." ema vinaMti karI. "nA, jarUra nathI. cAlaze." paMnyAsajIe TuMkamAM javAba dIdho. "paNa, sAhejI ! Apa herAna thAo cho, to A laI lyo ne? anukULa raheze." mahemAne pharI vinaMti karI. "nA." paMnyAsajIe hasIne TuMkamAM javAba dIdho.

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vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo paNa gurujI mane khUba gamI gayelA. emanA tarapha eTalI badhI vadhAre lAgaNI baMdhAI gayelI ke eka divasa paNa emanAthI dUra na thaI zakuM. mArA mAtA-pitAne paNa huM sAva bhUlI gayo. ghare jato ja nahi. gurujI pAse ja raheto. A lAgaNInA gADha baMdhanathI prerAIne ja meM dIkSA levAno nirNaya karyo, mArA mAtA-pitA saMmata thayA ane raMgecaMge mArI dIkSA thaI. mArA gurujI bhAre samaju ! mArA hitanI sAcI bhAvanAvALA ! huM emanI sevA karavA talasuM paNa e mane sevA karavA na de. Ama paNa huM nAno ! e ja mA2I khUba ja kALajI rAkhatA. huM jIda karI, chAnI rIte emanI sevA karI leto. paNa emane mArA taraphathI sevAnI bilakula apekSA nahi. zaruAtanA be-traNa cAturmAsa paNa amArA judA thayA. zeSakALamAM gaccha sAthe bhegA thavAnuM paNa thatuM. paNa abhyAsanI vizeSa goThavaNa thaI na hatI. eTale ja prAraMbhika abhyAsa pUrNa thaI gayA bAda eka vAra emaNe upa2 mujaba mane eka vidvAna AcArya pAse bhaNavA javA kahyuM. "Apa paNa mArI sAthe Avazo ne ?" meM pUchyuM. "nA. tAre ekalAe ja javAnuM. huM amuka kAraNosara sAthe rahI nahi zakuM." gurujIe kahyuM. "to huM nahi jAuM. ApanA vinA mAre rahevuM ja nathI, bhaNavuM ja nathI..." meM jIda karI. gurujIe mane ghaNo samajAvyo, paNa mArI bALahaTha akabaMdha rahI. prasaMga pUro thayo. samaya vaheto gayo. paNa dhIre dhIre mArA gurujIno svabhAva game te kAraNe vicitra thavA lAgyo. mArI sAthenuM vartana badalAvA lAgyuM. nAnI nAnI vAtomAM paNa mane khakhaDAvI nAMkhe, jema tema saMbhaLAvI de... ghaNIvAra abolA laI le... Akho di' bole ja nahi. ekavAra to sAva nAnI vAtamAM ya mane tamAco paNa mArI dIdho. mArI hAjarImAM ja zrAvako sAme mArA mATe niMdAo karI. jANe ke huM emano zatru houM, e rIte e mArI sAthe vartavA lAgyA. chevaTe huM paNa chadmastha hato. A badhuM sahana karavAnuM sAmarthya mArAmAM na hatuM. mane paNa gurujI pratye asadbhAva utpanna thayo. emanA pratyenI gADhalAgaNI dhIme dhIme ghaTavA lAgI. have ame baMne sAthe rahevA chatAM paNa jANe ke ekabIjAthI sAva alAyadA jevA ja rahetA. gurujIne mArA pratye bhAre aNagamo hoya evuM mane lAgyA karatuM. meM eka-be vAra A aMge khulAso paNa mAMgyo. "mArI bhUla zuM thaI ? ke Apa mane tiraskAro cho ?" meM pUcheluM. to gurujI mArA para ukaLI gayelA. "tArA mATe ATalo bhoga ApuM chuM. to ya tane ocho paDe che ? tuM maherabAnI karIne mane parezAna na kara. tuM kahe to tArA 82

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-~~-~~-vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo--------page paDuM." huM hebatAI gayo. e pachI huM kadI khulAso karavAnI hiMmata na karI zakyo. acAnaka eka divasa mArA upara pelA vidvAna AcAryano patra Avyo. emAM lakhyuM hatuM ke "thoDA vakhata pUrve tame mArI pAse bhaNavA AvavAnA hatA. paNa game te kAraNe tame na AvyA. hajI paNa tamArI bhAvanA hoya to khuzIthI AvI zakazo. huM tamane bhaNAvavA taiyAra chuM. bIjI kazI ciMtA karazo nahi." meM patra mArA gurujIne vaMcAvyo. "tArI jema IcchA hoya, tema kara. mArI nA nathI." emaNe mane upekSApUrvaka saMmati ApI. gurujIne choDavA ane abhyAsa karavA huM taiyAra thaI gayo. gurujIe mane vidvAna AcArya pAse mukyo ane teo potAnA gacchamAM joDAI gayA. amArA baMne vacce bhAvaaMtara to paDI ja gayeluM, have dravya-aMtara paNa paDI gayuM. mAro abhyAsa zaru thayo. "guruno viraha satAve' e prazna have rahyo na hato. vidvAna AcArya mane dIla daIne pATha ApatA hatA. mAro kSayopazama ghaNo ja sAro, jhapATAbaMdha abhyAsa thavA lAgyo. mane bhaNavAnI ruci paNa sakhata hatI. jota jotAmAM be varSanA vahANA pasAra thaI gayA. huM sAro evo vidvAna banI gayo. have bAkInA grantho huM jAte paNa bhaNI zake e mATe sakSama banI gayo. A be varSa daramyAna na to meM mArA gurujIne patra lakhelo ke na to emano koI patra Avelo. patrasaMparka paNa lagabhaga baMdha thaI gayelo. kyAreka alapajhalapa sukhazAtAvaMdanApRcchA rUpa parokSa maukhika saMparka thato. vizeSa kaMI nahi. lagabhaga huM gurujIne bhUlI cUkyo hato, mAro mArga badalAI gayo hato. paNa eka evo divasa ugyo ke je divase huM dhrusake dhrusake raDyo. e divasa kadAca mArA AkhA bhavano zreSThatama divasa banI rahyo. e divase na huM kaMI khAI zakyo ke na kaMI pI zakyo. basa, Akho divasa raDato ja rahyo, DusakA bharato ja rahyo. kAraNa ? kAraNa ke e divase mArA bhavodadhitAraka, anaMtakaruNAsaMpana, niHspRhaziromaNI, mArA sarvasvasamAna mArA gurujIno = mArA bhagavAnano aitihAsika patra Avyo.

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-~~-~~-vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo ~-~-~ je gurujIne huM lagabhaga gumAvI cUkyo hato, je gurujI mATe meM khoTI khoTI ghaNI kalpanAo karI hatI, je gurujI kadAca mane pharI maLavAnA ja na hatA. kadAca, huM ja jemane meLavavA Icchato na hato, e mArA gurujI mane e divase pAchA maLyA, bamaNA gurujI banIne... nA, nA ! sAkSAta bhagavAna banIne mane e pAchA maLyA. mAro e aMgata patra Aje huM jAheramAM sahune vAMcavA mATe khullo mUkuM chuM. A zramaNa saMsthAne jaNAvavA mAMguM chuM ke "jainazAsananA sAcA guruvaryo kevA hoya !" A rahyA e gurujInA patramAM rahelA amRtabiMduo ! mArI mAtra eka ja vinaMti che ke A patranA zabdone koI gAMDI ghelachA na mAnazo, ke ene mAtra kalpanA rUpa paNa na mAnazo. mArA gurujInA sADA traNa karoDa rUMvADAmAMthI utpanna thayelA A pAvana zabdo che. patra H mArA AtmIya, mArA nirdoSa pavitra snehanuM ekamAtra bhAjana munirAjazrI...! taddana nirdoSa chatAM ghora aparAdhI tArA gurujInI anuvaMdanA. tuM zAtAmAM to che ne ? pUjya vidvAna AcAryazrInI nizrAmAM tAro svAdhyAya khUba ja sAro thayo. lagabhaga pUrNa thayo... enA samAcAra AcAryazrInA patra dvArA jANyA bAda kadAca AkhA jagatamAM sauthI vadhu AnaMda A tArA ghora aparAdhI gurune thayo che, paNa e tuM samajI nahi zake. je meM IcchayuM hatuM, je mArI bhAvanA hatI, je mATe meM bhayaMkara sAhasa kheDyuM, je mATe meM mArI jIMdagI jugAramAM mUkI e phaLa Aje be-be varSa bAda siddha thatuM joI huM zA mATe atyaMta AnaMda na pAmuM ? mAre keTalIka vAta vistArathI karavI che. tArA hitanI ane tArA dvArA zAsanahitanI ekamAtra bhAvanAthI ja meM tane dIkSA ApI. mAre tArI sevA joItI na hatI, paNa tuM zAsanano sAco sevaka bane, sva-parano tAraka bane e ja ekamAtra mArI bhAvanA hatI. ane ApaNe zaruAtanA varSo sAthe rahyA, e vakhatanI mArI jIvanacaryA uparathI paNa tane e vAta samajAI ja haze. paNa A mATe jarUrI hatuM ke "tane Thosa zAstrAbhyAsa karAvavo." huM jAte e mATe akSama 'to. mATe ja vidvAna AcArya pAse mukavAno meM nirNaya karyo. paNa tArI mArA taraphanI gADha lAgaNIe mArI IcchAne aTakAvI dIdhI. huM paNa tArI sAthe ja tyAM rahuM e keTalAka kAraNosara zakya na hatuM. emAM eka kAraNa e paNa kharuM ke mArI hAjarI tArA svAdhyAyamAM vighna to UbhuM kare ja.

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-~~vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo mAre zuM karavuM? prabhuvIre gautamasvAmIno sneharAga dUra karavA mATe AjJA karIne emane chUTA pADyA. paNa tArI sAme mAruM AjJAzastra cAle tema na hatuM. kemake gautamasvAmInI jema tuM mArI AjJA mAnI le e zakya na hatuM. ghaNA divaso vicAra karyA bAda chevaTe mAre eka vicitra mArga apanAvavo paDyo. je bhayAvaha hato, dekhAvamAM DarAmaNo hato, chatAM nAchuTake meM e mArga apanAvyo. meM tAro mArA pratyeno sneharAga ghaTADavA mATe tArI sAthenuM vartana bagADI dIdhuM. tArI sAthe abolA lIdhA; jANI joIne ! tane eka tamAco mAryo; jANI joIne ! tArI hAjarImAM loko samakSa tArI niMdA karI; jANI joIne ! teM khulAsA mAMgyA, tyAre gusso karIne tane cUpa karI dIdho; jANI joIne ! AtmIya ziSya ! tArA pratyenuM mAruM vAtsalya tyAre paNa agAdha hatuM, mATe ja A badhuM huM zI rIte karI zakyo? e mAruM mana jANe che. huM roja UMghatA pahelA raDI paDato. "eka nirdoSa AtmAne huM trAsa ApI rahyo chuM." e vicAra mane khUba satAvato. eka sagI mA dIkarAne parezAna karI zake? dIkarAne duHkhI thato joI zake ? paNa mArA romeromamAM tAruM hita, zAsananuM hita vaseluM hatuM e huM nirdabhabhAve kahuM chuM. tane mArI vAtamAM vizvAsa paDaze ke nahi ? enI to mane khabara nathI. paNa huM A bAbatamAM zuddha chuM, pavitra chuM... e AtmasAkSIe kahI zakuM chuM. mAre niSphara banavA ghaNo puruSArtha karavo paDyo che hoM ! AmAM tane ArtadhyAna thAya, ApaNA benA saMbaMdho tUTI jAya, tuM gurusamarpaNa gumAvIne gurudrohI paNa banI jAya... A badhA jokhamasthAno hatA ja. paNa mane mArI pavitrabhAvanA upara vizvAsa hato. aMte jyAre mane lAgyuM ke "tAro mArA taraphano sneha ogaLI gayo che, tyAre meM ja e AcAryazrIne jaNAvIne tArA upara patra lakhAvaDAvyo. e patra Avyo, tuM taiyAra thayo. meM bahArathI to upekSArUpe rajA ApI. paNa aMdarakhAne huM ghaNo khuza hato. tAro abhyAsa zarU thayo. AcAryazrI dvArA tArA badhA samAcAra mane maLatA ja rahetA hatA. paNa tArI sAthe meM patrasaMparka jANI joIne ja na karyo, tArA svAdhyAyane akhaMDita banAvavA !

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* vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo + chelle be-cAra dina pUrve ja AcAryazrIe atyaMta AnaMdanA samAcAra mokalyA ke "tuM badhI rIte taiyAra thaI gayo che. vidvAna, pariNata, saMyamI muni banI cUkyo che." tuM kalpanA nahi karI zake ke A samAcAra vAMcI huM aMtarathI khUba nAcyo chuM. tane khabara che? tAro svAdhyAya khUba sAro thAya e mATe chellA be varSathI dara pAMca tithi meM AMbila karyA che. rojeroja prabhu pAse bhAvabhInI prArthanA karI che ke "mArA ziSyano khUba sAro abhyAsa thAya, eTaluM karI Apajo." tArA mATe ja roja namaskAra mahAmaMtranI eka bAMdhI mALA gaNI. tArA svAdhyAyanI saphaLatA mATe meM be varSathI miSTAnnano saMpUrNa tyAga karyo che.... huM kharekhara nirdoSa chuM' eTaluM sAbita karavA mATe ATalI vAta pUratI thaI raheze ne ? alabatta nirdoSa sAbita thavA mATe mAro A prayatna nathI. paNa tuM guru pratyenA asaddabhAvathI Atmahita gumAvI na bese e mATe A khulAso karyo che. chatAM eka hakIkata to che ja ke A paddhatimAM tane khUba mAnasika trAsa paDyo ja che.. ziSya ! Aje AMkhanA AMsu sAthe tArA caraNomAM paDIne mArA aparAdhanI kSamA mAMgu chuM. tuM mane mAphI Apaze ne ? tuM bhale mArI pAse pAcho na phare... huM sahana karI laIza. paNa tArA A gurujI pratye asadbhAva na rAkhato eTalI ja ekamAtra sUcanA che. basa, viramuM chuM. tArA AtmAnA hitamAM ane zAsananA kAryomAM tuM khUba ja saphaLatA pAme e ekamAtra paramakRpALu devAdhidevane prArthanA. patra pUro thayo. be vAra, cAra vAra e patra vAMcyo. Akho bhUtakALa mArI najara samakSa dekhAvA lAgyo. gurujIe A zuM karyuM? kevuM karyuM? zuM koIpaNa guru AvuM karI zake? ekanA eka ziSyanA manamAM potAnA mATenI kharAba chApa upasAvavAno prayatna karI zake? ane emAM e guru zuddhatama hoI zake? ATalo badho bhoga ziSyanA hita mATe A rIte ApanAra to kadAca 2500 varSamAM mAtra mArA gurujI ja haze. huM patra laIne pahoMcyo vidvAna AcAryazrI pAse ! bolavAnA to hozakoza ja na hatA. meM sIdho patra ApI dIdho. AcAryazrIe patra vAMcyo. mArI coMdhAra AMsu vahAvatI AMkhone joIne e samajI gayA ke "mane ghora pazcAttApa thayo che.." madhura smita veratA AcAryazrIe mane "athathI iti" sudhIno Akho ItihAsa kahI saMbhaLAvyo. teozrI A bhedI nATaka (!)nI rajeraja bAbata jANatA hatA.

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vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo + e pachI to huM jaldImAM jaldI mArA gurujIne = bhagavAnane maLyo. azruothI emanA paganA aMguThAnuM prakSAlana karyuM. have emanI sAthe ja rahuM chuM. emanA A upakArane satata najara sAme rAkhI emanI saMpUrNa sevA karavAno puruSArtha AdaruM chuM. (jo jinazAsananA dareke dareka gurujano. AvA niHspRhI, ziSyahitanI sAcI khevanAvALA, svArthabhAvanA malinabhAvothI sadA mATe alipta, ziSya kAje zakya eTalo vadhu bhoga ApavA taiyAra thAya to kadAca koIpaNa ziSya guru pratye asabhAvavALo, gurunI sAme thanAro, gurunA doSo jonAro na bane. to bIjI bAju ziSyo paNa A vAta samajI rAkhe ke gurujano pAse vadhu paDatI apekSAo rAkhavI, ane pachI e apekSAo guru taraphathI pUrI na thAya tyAre guru upara doSAropaNa karavuM e emanA mATe hitakArI nathI. "gurue dIkSA ApI che, saMyamayogonuM mArgadarzana ApyuM che, prAthamika abhyAsa karAvyo che ane e rIte saMyamamAM sthira karyA che..." e paNa A kALanI daSTie nAno upakAra nathI ja. noMdha : A Akho ya lekha eka munirAja taraphathI prApta thayo che. teozrIe nAmAdi jaNAvyA nathI. ane Ama paNa sukRtAnumodanamAM ame mukhya nAma ApatA paNa nathI... e dhyAnamAM levuM.) mArA nimitte koI durlabhabodhi na banavo joIe. "e ziSya ! ahIM Ava !" spaMDila jaI AvI upAzrayamAM praveza karatA ziSyane gurue tarata pAse bolAvyo. hAjI ! Avyo." kahI ziSya tarata gurunI pAse jaI namra banI Ubho rahyo. gurue kahyuM, "jo, je pUchuM, eno sAco javAba Apaje. gabharAIza nahi, jUThuM bolIza nahi. huM chellA be-cAra divasathI joUM chuM ke tuM aMDila jAya che ane 50 miniTe pAcho phare che. jagyA dUra hoya ane 50 miniTa thAya, to to vAMdho nahi. paNa jagyA to najIkamAM ja che. re ! tuM ja pahelA to roja 20 miniTamAM pAcho AvI jato hato. Aje acAnaka 50 miniTa kema thavA lAgI ?" gurunI vAta sAcI hatI. svAbhAvika che ke koIpaNa sAcA gurune AvuM bane to ciMtA thAya ja, ane vaLI emAM ziSyanA hitanI ja ekAMte bhAvanA hatI. paNa ziSya je vAta karI, e Azcarya pamADe, AMkha ughADe tevI hatI. ziSya bolyo, "gurujI ! roja ame relve lAIna para AgaLa AvelI jhADImAM caMDila jaIe

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- vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo ------chIe. e mATe eka jhuMpaDapaTTImAMthI pasAra thaIne jatA hatA. e jagyAe eka kALo kutaro che, huM e galImAM pravezuM tyArathI ja e bhasavAnuM zaru kare ane cheka chelle sudhI bhasyA kare. AvuM cAra-pAMca divasa roja cAlyuM. e karaDato na hato ane mane kutarAno koI vizeSa bhaya paNa nathI. paNa gurujI ! Apane eka vAta pUchuM? A rIte eka kutaro sAdhune joIne rojeroja bhasyA ja kare. to enAmAM enA saMskAra paDI ja jAya ne? e saMskArane kAraNe evuM paNa bane ne ?-ke AvatA bhavomAM jyAM paNa e jAya, tyAM jyAre paNa sAdhu dekhAze, tyAre emanA pratye tiraskAra ane gALono varasAda ja varasAvaze. have jo AvuM thAya to e bhaviSyanA bhavomAM susAdhuono saMparka na pAme. pariNAme samyatva na pAme. durlabhabodhi bane. gurujI ! A zakya to che ja ne ? mArA nimitte eka kutaro durlabhabodhi mane, e kema cAle ? eTale ja e TuMkA rastAne choDIne huM cheka lAMbA rastethI pharI pharIne Thalle jAUM chuM. eTale ja mane 20ne badale 50 miniTa thAya che. gurujI ! Apane mArA nimitte ciMtA thaI, e badala kSamA karazo. paNa meM A je karyuM, e khoTuM to nathI karyuM ne ?" gurujI AzcaryabharI AMkhe A ziSyane joI ja rahyA. (0 ApaNA nimitte koI durlabhabodhi bane, e ghaNuM bhayaMkara pApa che. jo zakya hoya, to ApaNe e nimitta banatA aTakavuM joIe. aMDila, mAtru paraThavavAnA nimittathI koI ApaNA thakI adharma pAmatuM nathI ne ? karkaza bhASA, parasparanA aNabanAvAdinA kAraNe ApaNA thakI koI adharma pAmatuM nathI ne? paisA mAMgavA, projekTo mATe saMgha upara pharaja pADavI e nimitte koI adharma pAmatuM nathI ne ? zrAvakone tuccha gaNavA, emane tiraskAravA... vagere nimitte koI adharma pAmatuM nathIne? yAda rAkhavuM ke ApaNA nimitte - ApaNA pramAde koIpaNa jIva adharma pAme, to khuda ApaNe paNa durlabhabodhi banIe... sAvadha rahevuM khUba ja jarUrI che.)

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vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo vIsamI sadInA eka mahAna gacchAcAryanI saMcamasabhara jIvanakahANI ! (1) paDilehaNa paNa hAthanI rekhAo dekhAya pachI ja karavAno Agraha rAkhatA. (alabatta mULamArga jUdo che.) (2) dareka kriyAomAM mudrAo acUka sAcavatA. (3) jayavIyarAyamAM jarUra hAtha joDI UMcA karavAno Agraha rAkhatA. (pratikULatAmAM paNa) derAsaramAM darzana karavA nizrAvartI dareka mahAtmAone samUhamAM ja laI jatA. koIe ekalA nahi javuM evA AgrahI hatA. (4) kammaranI atyaMta takalIphamAM paNa derAsaramAM prabhu sAme khurazI vagereno upayoga karatA nahi. eka hajArano svAdhyAya na thAya to bIjA divase dUdha tyAga karatA. (dUdha ja jemano mukhya khorAka hato chatAM) (5) vihAra karIne gAmamAM pahoMcatAM agiyAra vAgI jAya chatAM stotra ane sUrimaMtrano jApa karIne pachI ja navakArazInuM paccakkhANa pALatA. (6) ubhayaTaMka pratikramaNa saMpUrNavidhi ane sUtra-arthanA pUrNa upayogamaya banI karatA. (chellA divase 5-3 mi. kALadharma pAmyA te pUrve sAMje 4-45 paDilehaNa nA Adeza ane vAMdaNAmAM paNa pUrNa upayoga hato.) dareka AvartomAM pUrNa upayoga hato. (7) paDilehaNamAM dareka vasranA paDilehaNamAM akhkhoDA-pakhkhoDA sAcavatA. (8) caumAsI pakSI pratikramaNa pUjyazrInI nizrAmAM karanArane traNa-sADAtraNa kalAka lAgatA. (saMvatsarI pratikramaNa to pUjyazrI sAthe karavAno zrAvako lhAvo mAnatA ane khAsa muMbaI-surata vagere zaheromAMthI pUjyazrI jyAM birAjamAna hoya tyAM pratikramaNa karavA zrAvako AvatA.) (9) bArI-bAraNuM kholavuM-baMdha karavuM hoya tyAre sAdhune baMdha karatAM pahelAM pUMjavAno upayoga khAsa ApatA. (10) sUryAsta thatAM ja pUjyazrI daMDAsaNa laIne mAMDalAM karI letA. (11) sUryAsta thatAM AkhA upAzrayamAM najara pheravI letA. koI sAdhu bahAra UbhA hoya to bolAvI samayano khyAla ApatA. (12) bImArImAM paNa rAtre agiyAra vAgyA pahelAM pUjyazrI saMthAratA nahi. (13) koI sAdhune svAdhyAya karyA pahelAM suvA detA nahi. 89

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-~~~~~ vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo ~~~~~~~ (14) koI sAdhu pratikramaNa pUrNa thaye sUI jAya to avazya uThADI svAdhyAya karAvI pachI ja saMthAravAnI saMmati ApatA. (15) savAre pratikramaNa bAda paNa svAdhyAya karavAno ane karAvavAno pUjyapAdazrIno Agraha hato. (16) pAMcatithie to sAdhuone upavAsa-AyaMbila Adi vizeSa tapanI pUjyazrI avazya karavA preraNA karatA. (17) upakaraNa-kAMbaLI-cazmAnI phrema Adi jarUrI vastuo sAva sAdI vAparatA. (18) Azrita-sAdhu ke sAdhvIjInA vadhu UjaLAM kapaDAM ke kiMmatI phrema vagere jotAM tarata aruci batAvatA ane kaDaka hitazikSA ApatA ane kahetA ke badhA AcArya thaI gayA cho ? (19) AMTIno banAvelo sutarAu guMthyA vinAno kaTisUtra vAparatA ane nizrAvartI sAdhuone te ja vaparAvatA. (20) oghAriyuM garama kAMbaLInuM ja vAparatA. (21) kAMbaLI lAla paTTInI garama ja oDhatA. (22) zarIranI asvasthatAmAMya muhapattino upayoga kyAreya cUkatA nahi. (23) eka kalAka vyAkhyAnamAM muhapattino upayoga eka sekanDa paNa cUkatA nahi. (24) gocarI vAparatI vakhate dareka vastu khUba bArIkAIthI nirIkSaNa karatA. (25) gocarI vAparatI vakhate pUrNa mauna rAkhatA ane sAdhuone rakhAvatA. (26) kapaDuM ke lUNuM dorI upara jarA paNa uDatuM hoya to tarata sAdhuone Takora karatA. vAyukAyanI virAdhanAthI baco..!" (27) Avazyaka kriyA ke derAsaramAM koInI nAnI paNa azuddhi hoya ke yogya uccAra zuddhi na hoya to pUjyazrI jarApaNa calAvatA nahi. (28) paphakhI-caumAsI ke saMvatsarI sUtra bIjA bole paNa svayaM saMpUrNa dhAratA. (29) derAsaramAM tithine anurUpa stavana gavarAvatA ane gAnAranI sAthe dhruva kaDIo khUba bhAra ApIne bhAvavAhitA sAthe pote gAtA. (30) paryuSaNano loca lagabhaga eMzI varasa sudhI to saMvatsarInA divase ja karatA. chellA ATheka varSathI saMvatsarInA eka-be divasa pahelAM karatA. (31) koI sAdhu bhagavaMta ke sAdhvIjI bhagavaMta suMdara lakhANa kare ke abhyAsa kare athavA jJAnano koIpaNa rIte vikAsa kare, koI tapa kare to temane khUba vAtsalya ApIne upabRhaNA anumodanA karatA. keTaluM suMdara kayuM che ? tame to keTalI zAsana sevA karo cho ? vagere suMdara vacanothI upabRhaNA avazya karatA.

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-~~~~vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo ~~~~~~~ (32) pUjayazrIne 200 gAthAno svAdhyAya paNa eka kalAka cAlato. dareka svAdhyAya anuprekSA pUrvaka karatA. (33) asvastha sthitimAM paNa sAMjanuM pratikramaNa mAMDalImAM ja karavAno Agraha rAkhatA ane chelle sudhI lagabhaga mAMDalImAM ja karyuM. . (34) hastapratonuM saMrakSaNa - saMzodhana - saMmArjana kevI rIte karavuM ? lipionuM jJAna pUjyazrI sAdhu ane sAdhvIjIne svayaM zIkhavatA. (35) tattvajJAnazALA sthApavAnA khUba AgrahI hatA - premI hatA. (36) pUjayazrIno khorAka ghaNo ocho hato eTale ke teozrI alpAhArI hatA. (37) eka sekanDa paNa khoTI na veDaphAI jAya tenI khUba sAvadhAnI rAkhatA. (38) koI moTo zrAvaka hoya ke nAno - koI phAlatu vAtamAM samaya ApatA nahi. (39) koI zrAvaka sAhebajI pAse AvIne nirarthaka bese to dharmalAbha kahIne uThADavAno prayatna karatA. (40) pUjyazrI vhIlaceranA sakhata virodhI hatA. ane chelle sudhI game tevI kaparI paristhitimAM vAhanano upayoga nathI karyo. (41) pUjyazrI game tevI asAdhya bimArImAM paNa hospiTalamAM nahi javAnA AgrahI hatA. ane chelle kensara jevI asAdhya bimArImAM eka kalAka paNa hospiTala gayA nathI, ane sAdhuone ke sAdhvIjIone paNa A bAbate virodha karatA. (42) pUjyazrI paMcyAsI varSanI vaya sudhI eka yuvAnane Takkara mAre tevI TaTTAra yoga sAdhanAmAM kalAko sudhI besatA hatA... svAdhyAya karatA hatA. (43) koIpaNa gAmamAM jJAnabhaMDAra asta vyasta jue to vyavasthita karavAnA AgrahI hatA. sAdhu ane sAdhvIjIo pAse jJAnabhaMDAranuM kArya karAvatA ane suMdara mArgadarzana svayaM ApatA. (44) vaDI dIkSAmAM mahAvratonI samajaNa khUba mArmiktAthI ApatA (nUtana dIkSitane). (45) sUryAsta bAda zrAvikAbahena ke sAdhvIjIno praveza upAzrayamAM kyAreya na thato. (46) pUjyazrI besavAmAM suvAmAM ke upara-nIce vastu mukavAmAM jJAnanI koI AzAtanA na thaI jAya tenI khUba kALajI rAkhatA hatA. jJAnanA kabATane paNa pUTha na thaI jAya tenuM dhyAna rAkhatA hatA. - (47) pAlitANAmAM cAturmAsa karavAno virodha karatA hatA. yAtrA sivAya pAlitANA javuM nahi ke tyAM rahevuM nahi evI spaSTa AjJA hatI. (48) pUjyazrInA hAthamAM jayAre juo tyAre prata ke pustaka hoya ja.

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------------- vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo~~-~~-~ (49) samudAyanA sAdhu-sAdhvIjIne dara paMdara divase na laI zako to cAra mahine paNa AlocanA laI lo evI hitazikSA ApatA. (50) yogohana karatA sAdhu ke sAdhvIjInuM aDadhuM khamAsamaNa calAvatA nahi zuddha kriyAnA AgrahI rahetA. jogamAM AyaMbila karAvavAno ja Agraha rAkhatA. (51) mahotsavo-upAzraya-derAsara vagere banAvavAnI pUjyazrInI preraNA kyAreya na rahetI. (para) dUra beThA paNa vRddha sAdhvIjIonuM khUba dhyAna rAkhatA. vRddha sAdhvIjIonI vaiyAvacce sevAmAM javA nAnA nAnA sAdhvIjIone vAraMvAra preraNA karatA. (53) ghUMkanI - kaphanI kuMDInI roja jayaNA karAvatA. (54) pATa para birAjatAM rajoharaNathI pUjyA-prArthanA karyA vinA kyAreya na besatA. (55) DoLImAM game teTalo vihAra hoya to satata svAdhyAyamAM rahetA. (56) nAnA ke moTA sAdhu ke sAdhvIjI pUjyazrIne vaMdana kare tyAre bIjA khamAsamaNe pUjyazrI te vaMdana karanAra mahAtmAone svaye hAtha joDIne "maFeNe vaMdAmi' kahetA... lahuDA pratye vinaya sAcavavAnuM kyAreya cUkatA nahi. (57) koIpaNa padastha - AcArya bhagavaMto ke munio nAnA hoya to paNa patramAM ke rUbarU vAtacItamAM "Apa'thI saMbodhatA. | (58) cAturmAsamAM koIpaNa tapa samUhamAM karAvavo hoya to tapanA biyAsaNA vagere saMghamAM nahi karAvavAno Agraha rAkhatA. (59) kAMbaLI evI rIte oDhatA ke cheDo uDe nahi. vAyukAyanI virAdhanA na thAya temaja kapaDAM badhAM DhaMkAyelA rahe. (60) muhapatti - oghAnA dorA ke koIpaNa vastumAM raMgIna dorA vi. na hoya tevA sAdA vAparatA. (61) pUjyazrI 85 varSa sudhI nAnA bALakanI jema gAthA-zloka kaMThastha karatA hatA. (62) pUjyazrIne ghaNo svAdhyAya moDhe (kaMThastha) cAlato hato. (63) Adhunika ADaMbarothI pUjyazrI lAkho yojana dUra hatA. benDa-vAjA - bhabhakAdAra patrikA - phoTA - peparsa vageremAM jAherAto - sAmaiyA vageremAM nirlepa hatA. niHspRha ziromaNi hatA. (64) pUjyazrI potAnA svArtha - mAna-apekSA ghavAya to kyAreya gusso karatA nahi, paraMtu sAraNAdi yogya ziSyone sthira karavA gusso karatA to paNa bIjI ja miniTe koNe bhUla karI hatI te vAta pUjyazrI bhUlI jatA hatA.

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- vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo~ ~+ (65) pUjyazrI upara Aropa ApanAra vyakti sAme Ave to bIjA divase paNa pUjyazrI tene kSamA ApatA hatA ane enA aparAdhane yAda paNa karatA na hatA. (66) pUjayazrI divasa daramyAna karelI ArAdhanA. svAdhyAya-viziSTa saMgha - zAsana kAryo ane vyAkhyAnAdimAM samaya kyAM ? keTalo phALavyo teno rojameLa svayaM hAthe lakhatA. (67) dIkSA thayA bAda nutana dIkSitanA ghera bIjA divase pagalAM karavA ke vhoravA javAno pUjyazrI sakhata niSedha karatA. rAga-dveSa maLa gALavA, upazamarasa jhIlo "are, bApa re ! A to bhAre thaI. e muni mane sakhata Thapako ApyA vinA nahi rahe." pANI lAvanAro sAdhu ciMtAmAM paDI gayo hato. vAta ema banI ke karmasAhityano UMDANapUrvaka abhyAsa karI rahelA eka mahAtmAe pAMcamA karmagranthano talasparzI abhyAsa karI enI eka sArAmAM sArI noTa banAvI hatI. Azare doDhasobaso pAnAnuM e lakhANa ! sakhata mahenata ! sUkSma ciMtano emAM utArelA. svAbhAvika che ke e noTanI e muni barAbara kALajI kare. paNa ekavAra evuM banyuM ke vihAramAM e noTa mahAtmAe potAnA khAlI ghaDAnI aMdara mUkI rAkhelI. sthAne pahoMcyA bAda e noTa kADhavAnI rahI gayelI. ghaDo emane ema paDelo. pANI lAvanAra bIjA muni bhagavaMta e ja ghaDo pANI lAvavA mATe laI gayA. "e ghaDo paDilehaNa thaI gayo haze" evA koIka vicArathI emaNe kaMI vizeSa dhyAna na ApyuM. ane ghaDAmAM dhagadhagatuM pANI vahorI lIdhuM. AkhI noTa e dhagadhagatA pANImAM palaLI gaI, khalAsa thaI gaI. upAzraye AvyA bAda pANI ThAratI vakhate emane A bAbatano upayoga gayo. emane khyAla AvI gayo ke "pAMcamA karmagranthanI bhAre jahemata sAthe banAvelI noTa pANImAM gaI..." "e noTa banAvanAra mahAtmAne bhAre AghAta lAgaze." e vicAre A muni muMjhavaNamAM paDyA. paNa have kahyA vinA kema cAle? e mahAtmA pAse jaI hAtha joDI dInavadane kSamA mAMgI ke "mahAtman ! mArI bhUla thaI. mane kSamA Apo. tamArI noTa ajANatA ja mArA nimitte khalAsa thaI gaI." paNa Azcarya upajAve evI ghaTanA e vakhate banI. je mahAtmAnA sakhata ThapakAnI, bhAre AghAtanI kalpanA A munie karI hatI, e mahAtmA prasannatA sAthe hasatA hasatA bolyA "are, tame to mArA para moTo upakAra karyo. Ama to huM bIjI-trIjI vAra pAMcamA karmagranthanuM

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vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo punarAvartana karata ke kema ? e prazna hato. paNa tamArI kRpA utarI, eTale e AkhI noTa bIjIvAra banAvavAno mane avasara maLyo. AkhI noTa pharI banAvIza, mane keTalo lAbha thaze ! pAMcamo karmagrantha ekadama pAko thaI jaze.'' pelA muni to AbhA ja banI gayA. (0 ApaNe ghaNI mahenata karIne banAvelI koIpaNa vastunI kharI kiMmata vicArIe to AdhyAtmika dRSTie mAtra be paisA jeTalI ja che. paNa enI sAme upazamabhAva, prasannatAdi zubhabhAvonI kiMmata eka abaja rUpiyA jeTalI che. be paisAnI vastu nAza pAme tyAre gusso karI, sAmevALA para Aropa-Akroza karI bIjA eka abaja rUpiyA paNa gumAvavA e mahAmUrkhatA che. saMskRtamAM eka suvAkya che. '"gataM na zo--m'" je khatama thaI gayuM, eno zoka na karavo. Ama paNa e have pAchuM to AvavAnuM ja nathI. to pachI nakAmo zoka karIne du:khI zIdane thavuM ? * * ApaNI upadhi, noTo, besavAnI jagyA, Tebala, bolapenAdi, ziSyAdi, bhakto vagere DhagalAbaMdha vastuone koI laI jAya, jhuMTavI jAya, paDAvI jAya, pAchI na Ape... to paNa emAM sadaiva hasatA ja rahIe. e jIva pratye lezapaNa asadbhAva na karIe, e ja ApaNI sAcI sAdhutA che.) alabatta, e vastu adhikaraNa na bane, e mATenI kALajI to rAkhavI ja joIe. jJAnInA bahumAnathI re, jJAnataNA bahumAna... saluNA "sAhebajI ! amane to bhAre Azcarya thayuM che. Apa vizALa samudAyanA gacchAdhipati cho, svayaM AgamonA pAragAmI cho, hajAronA prAyazcittadAtA cho ane amArA gurujI karatA paryAya ane padavI baMne apekSAe moTA cho. chatAM Aje sAMjanI gocarImAM Apa pahelA Asana upara AvIne beThA ane mArA gurujI be miniTa pachI AvyA, to Apa Asana upara rItasara AkhA ne AkhA UbhA thaI gayA. sAhebajI ! AvuM kema ? Ape abhyutthAna karavAnuM ja na hoya." eka munirAje gacchAdhipatizrIne prazna karyo. vAta taddana sAcI ja hatI. e AcAryadeva kharekhara vizALasamudAyAdhipati, vizALa zrutasvAmI, dIrghaparyAyavALA... hatA ja. eTale ja munine Azcarya thayuM ke "mArA gurujI Ave, ane A gacchapati UbhA thAya evuM kema ?' ` guNonA samrATa gacchAdhipatizrIe sacoTa uttara Apyo. "tArA guru zAsana-prabhAvaka che. viziSTaguNa saMpanna che. huM emano vinaya karuM to mArAmAM paNa e badhA guNo vikase. kharekhara 94

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vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo to meM mAtra tArA guruno nahi, paNa emanAmAM rahelA viziSTa guNono vinaya karelo che..." vaDIlonA vinaya pratye pramAda sevatA e munirAjanuM mastaka zaramathI namI paDyuM. (0 pratyeka vaDIlo to ApaNA mATe ratnAdhika che ja, paNa nAnA munio paNa viziSTa guNonI apekSAe ratnAdhika ja che. ApaNe ratnatrayInA abhilASI chIe ne ? to e ratnAdhikonuM bahumAna karavAthI kharekhara to ratnonuM ja bahumAna thAya che. enA dvArA e ratnonI prApti thAya che. to ApaNe vaDIlo ke guNAdhika nAnA muniono yathocita vinaya karavo ja joIe ne ? * e vizALa samudAyanA adhipati, ApaNe to sAmAnya sAdhu ! e mahAgItArtha AgamajJa ! ApaNe abhaNa-agItArtha-aparipakva ! e potAnAthI nAnAno paNa vinaya kare, ApaNe zuM ApaNA vaDIlono paNa vinaya na karI zakIe ? kama se kama ATaluM to karavuM ja ke - koIpaNa vaDIla ApaNI pAse Ave to ApaNe UbhA thavuM ja, Asana ApavuM. -- - guru ApaNI pAse Ave ke holamAM AMTA lagAvatA hoya... e dekhAtAnI sAthe ja UbhA thavuM. ApaNI pAse koIpaNa vaMdanAdi mATe Ave to pahelA guru pAse emane vaMdanAdi mATe mokalavA, e pachI ja emanI sAthe vAtacIta karavI. vaDIlonI sAme moTA avAje na bolavuM. ekadama namra banIne rahevuM. "hAjI ! nAjI !" ema jI sAthenA uttaro ApavA, jemAM bhArobhAra namratAno bhAva dekhAya. - vaDIlone koI sUcana karavuM hoya, vaDIlone emanI bhUla badala nirdeza karavo hoya to khAnagImAM, lAgaNIpUrvaka kahevuM. vinayanA AvA aneka prakAro ApaNe badhAe khAsa zIkhavA jevA che.) -- - azakya... azakya... nA re nA ! 12 sAdhuonuM eka nAnakaDuM paNa ghaNuM ja suMdara sAdhuvRMda bhAre Azcarya janmAve evuM cAritrajIvana jIvI rahyuM che. kadAca A vAMcatA vAMcatA koIne ema paNa manamAM vicAra Avaze ke "A badhuM azakya che, A te kaMI banatuM haze ? AjanA kALamAM AvuM jIvana jIvI zakAtuM haze..." paNa AvI jo koI zaMkA kare, to ene kahevuM paDaze ke "nA, A azakya nathI. najaronajara jovAyeluM A munivRMda che. bhAgyavaMta AtmAo AvA munivRMdanA darzanano lAbha meLavI zake." 95

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- vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo sau prathama A munivRMdanA gurunI keTalIka vizeSatAo joIe. * e vRMdanA guru = vaDIla je mahAtmA che, emano dIkSA paryAya 26 varSa jeTalo thayo che. chellA 25 varSathI emaNe ekAsaNA karatA ochuM paccakhANa karyuM nathI. arthAt 9000 jeTalA divaso saLaMga ekAsaNAthI ochuM paccakhANa nahi. emAM ja emaNe 100 + 60 vardhamAnatapanI oLIo karI che. arthAt A 9000 divasomAMthI 6500 jeTalA divaso AMbila karyA, ane bAkInA 2500 jeTalA divaso ekAsaNA karyA. (besaNuM paNa kyAreya nahi, to navakArazIno to prazna ja nathI.). * A guruvara varSo pUrve potAnA samudAyanA eka vidvAna mahAtmA pAse abhyAsa karavA pAlitANAmAM 6-8 mAsa rokAyA hatA. "AvA vidvAna mahAtmAono yoga bhAgye ja thAya." ema vicArI abhyAsa karavAno A amUlo avasara leza paNa cUkI na javAya e mATe e munirAja roja cha kalAka pATha letA. bAkInA samayamAM enI sakhata mahenata karatA. cheka bAra vAge tyAre ja upAzrayamAMthI bahAra nIkaLe, darzana kare. bAlAzramamAM jaI lukhI roTalI ane bhAtanuM osAmaNa vahorI lAve. e mAtra be ja dravyathI AMbila kare. A rIte kula 6-8 mahinA sudhI sakhata svAdhyAya karyo. e munirAjanA zabdo : "Avo avasara pharI maLe ke na maLe? e mane zaMkA hatI. eTale ja mAre eka paLa paNa gumAvavI na hatI. e 6 mAsa huM jayataLeTInI sparzanA karavA paNa gayo nathI." * ekavAra emanA be ziSyo dUrathI vihAra karIne AvyA, gurune maLyA. gurue vihAra aMgenI pRcchA karI. ziSyoe kahyuM, "be divasa pUrve ja eka gItArtha vRddha anubhavI mahAtmA ane temanA vizALavRMda sAthe rahevAnuM thayuM..." tarata gurue pRcchA karI ke "e mahAtmA to ghaNI sArI vAcanA Ape che. te divase vAcanA hatI ?" ziSyo kahe "gurujI ! bapore vAcanA to hatI. temanA badhA ja sAdhuo vAcanA mATe rUmamAM bhegA thayelA hatA. paNa ame na gayA. kemake ApaNo ane emano samudAya jUdo ! vaMdanavyavahAra paNa paraspara baMdha ! vAcanA sAMbhaLavI hoya, to vaMdana to karavA ja paDe... eTale ame na beThA.." gurue Thapako Apyo ke "Avo samudAyabheda tamane koNe zIkhavADyo ? AvA uttama mahAtmAnI viziSTa vAcanAo sAMbhaLavA maLe, tyAre to vaMdana paNa karAya... "vaMdana vyavahAra baMdha che." e to sAmAnya paristhitimAM ! have dhyAna rAkhajo..." (hRdayanI keTalI badhI vizALatA ! guNagrAhitA !)

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-------------- vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo-------------- have emanA 12 sAdhuonA chaMdanI vizeSa bAbato. - tamAma sAdhuo ochAmAM ochuM ekAsaNuM kare ja. emanA gurujIne 25 varSa daramyAna potAnA koIpaNa sAdhune ekAsaNAthI ochuM pacca. ApavAno avasara hajI sudhI Avyo nathI. - savAre sajajhAya kare, te sUryodaya vakhate. pratilekhana e rIte ja zaru kare. eTale ajavALAmAM ja pratilekhana thAya. - game eTalo lAMbo vihAra hoya paNa savAre sUryodaya sajhAya karyA bAda pAMceka miniTa pachI vihAra zaru kare. - sAMje paNa sUryAsta pUrve pahoMcI javAya e rIte vihAra karavAno. - atyAra sudhI koIe paNa aMDilano pyAlo vADAmAM mukyo nathI. pUratI kALajI sAthe yogya vidhi karI che. - atyAra sudhI kyAreya vihAramAM ekapaNa mANasa sAthe rAkhyo nathI. - vihAra-jIMDila-mAtru A anivArya kAraNa sivAya kALaveLAmAM kAmaLI oDhIne paNa bahAra javAnuM nahi. (derAsara paNa kAmaLIkALa bAda...). - vihAra na hoya tyAre badhA sAdhuo sUtraporisImAM svAdhyAya kare. pAtrAporisIno samaya thAya eTale badhA sAdhuo sAthe ja porisI bhaNAve. sAMje saMthArA porisI paNa e ja rIte badhA sAthe bhaNAve, samayasara bhaNAve. - baporanuM pratilekhana lagabhaga sADA traNa kalAke karavAnuM. vaheluM nahi. - koIpaNa baheno ke sAdhvIjIo sUryodaya pUrve ke sUryAsta bAda upAzrayamAM praveza na karI zake. enI pAkI kALajI ! sAMje koI maLavA AvyA hoya, to ya sUryAsta pUrve tamAma bahenone ke sAdhvIjIone bahAra nIkaLI javAnuM kahevAmAM Ave. - keLA sivAya tamAma phaLo badhAne saMpUrNa baMdha. (kerI vagere kaMI ja nahi, koI chUTa nahi.) nirdoSa chUTa maLe, to paNa koI ja na vApare. badhAne baMdha. - vihAramAM jainagharo na hoya, to jainetaromAMthI gocarI lAvavAnI. e paNa jo zakya na bane ane rasoDAnI AdhAkarmI gocarI levAno prasaMga Ave, to mAtra khIcaDI + kaDhI A sivAya koIpaNa vastu levAnI nahi. -- - eka vRddha mahAtmAne pagamAM takalIpha hovAthI mojA pahere. bAkI koI nahi. - zakya hoya to gharomAMthI ja pANI lAvavAnuM. (AMbilakhAtAnuM nahi... je doSita hoya...) jo gharomAM na ja maLe, to pachI doSita pANI levuM. paNa eno upayoga mAtra pIvA pUrato karavAno. (kAjo-luNAM kharA.) paNa kApAdimAM upayoga na karavo. arthAt doSita pANIthI kApa na kADhavo.

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---------vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo ~~-~~-~('pANI pIvuM anivArya hovAthI e mATe doSita paNa pIvuM paDe. paNa kApa evo anivArya nathI hoto. jyAre gharonA pANInI anukULatA maLe, tyAre thoDo moDo kApa kADhI zakAya.) - 1 mahinA pahelA koIpaNa muni kApa kADhatA nathI. - mumukSu jo ekAsaNuM karavA samartha hoya to ja A vRdamAM dIkSA laI zake. nahi to A vRMdanA adhipati mumukSune vivekapUrvaka kahI de ke "tamArI ekAsaNuM karavAnI zakti nathI, to tame bIjA grupamAM dIkSA laI zako cho..." (ziSyasaMpatti vadhAravAnI lAlasA nahi, mumukSu bIjA pAse dIkSA le enI koI ja ciMtA nahi.) - bAra mAsa daramyAna kyAreya pANI ThAravAnuM nahi. unALAmAM zIta ke alpagarama pANI na maLe, ane ekadama dhagadhagatuM pANI maLe to paNa e parAtomAM ThAravAnuM nahi. paNa sAdhuonA pAtrAomAM ja e pANI ThArI devAnuM. - plAsTIkanA TokasA-TokasI vAparavAnA nahi. tuMbaDAnA ke lAkaDAnA pAtro vagere vAparavA. ghaDA paNa plAsTIkanA ke tAMbAnA nahi vAparavA. - sTezanarI, davAo, kapaDuM vagere paNa jo zrAvakonI ja te te vastuvALI dukAno hoya to e dukAnomAMthI ja yogya pramANamAM levuM. jethI AdhAkarmI ke krIta vagere doSo na lAge. (zrAvako pAse maMgAvIe tyAre to teo bIjI dukAnomAMthI kharIdI lAve, emAM kratAdi doSo saMbhave...) - AkhA grupamAM ekapaNa sAdhu pAse koIpaNa zrAvakano mobAIla naMbara ke anya koI naMbara nathI. game te zrAvaka Ave, koInA naMbara teo noMdhatA nathI. have jayAre naMbara ja pAse na hoya to phona karAvavAno to prazna ja kyAM rahyo ? - ekapaNa jherokSa karAvavAnI nahi. - vihAramAM jyAM javAnuM hoya, tyAM AgaLathI samAcAra nahi mokalavAnA ke "ame ATalA ThANA AvIe chIe. gocarI-pANI-upAzrayAdinI vyavasthA rAkhavI." paNa vihAra karIne tyAM gayA bAda ja pANI vagerenI gaveSaNA-vyavasthA vicAravAnI. - jo sUryAsta thaI jAya ane hajI je sthAne pahoMcavAnuM hoya te sthAna dUra hoya to jo rastAmAM bIjuM koI sthAna maLI jAya to tyAM ja rokAI javuM. paNa sUryAsta bAda vihAra na karavo. jo rastAmAM yogya sthAna na ja maLe, to pachI AgaLa nAchUTake vihAra karavo. - koIpaNa sAdhu pAse koIpaNa baheno ke sAdhvIjIo besI na zake, paricaya na kare. hA ! sagIbena, bA vagere svajano hoya to emanA pUratI jayaNA. - comAsuM hoya to paNa sAdhvIjIo - dararoja vaMdana karavA na AvI zake. mAtra pAMca tithi ja vaMdana mATe AvI zake. e sivAya vyAkhyAnamAM ja mukhya munine vaMdana karI le.

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EUR vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo + - ogho-pAtrA vagere amuka kAryo sivAya sAdhvIjIne koI kArya soMpavuM nahi. - sAdhvIjIoe vahorelA upakaraNo-davA vagere bilakula levA nahi. - sUryodaya pahelA ane sUryAsta bAda derAsare darzana mATe javuM nahi, tathA sUryAsta pahelA ja tamAma vaDIla mahAtmAone vaMdana karI levA. (sUryAsta bAda vaMdana karavA e barAbara nahi.) - tamAma sAdhuo sAMje be ghaDI pahelA pANI cUkavI de, sUryAsta pahelA ja vaMdana paccakhANa karI le. - rezamI vastro, rezamI jhoLIyA vAparavAnA nahi. - muhapattI-kapaDA vageremAM dorA naMkhAvavAnA nahi. - oghAno pATo sapheda rAkhavAno. emAM aSTamaMgalanuM bharatakAma ke mAtra Alekhana-citrAmaNa paNa karAvavAnuM nahi. sAdo pATo vAparavAno. - jyAre saMghamAM ghaNA AMbilo hoya ke varSItapanA besaNA hoya tyAre sahaja rIte ja nirdoSa pANI vadhu pramANamAM maLe... te vakhate ja kApa kADhavAno. - upAzrayamAM aMdhAru hoya to paNa lAITa karAvavAnI nahi (dhIme dhIme jayaNApUrvaka kAma karavAnA kAraNe vizeSa muzkelI na paDe...) - lagabhaga badhA ja sAdhuo 12 mAsamAMthI 8 mAsa to AMbila ja kare. emAM paNa nirdoSa AhAranI gaveSaNA pAkI kare. jeo oLI na kare teo paNa pAMcatithi AMbila kare. - badhA sAdhuo savAranuM pratikramaNa eka ja sthApanAcAryajInI sAme mAMDalImAM besIne manamAM bolIne kare. sAMjanA pratikramaNamAM jo zrAvako na AvavAnA hoya to sUryAsta bAda tarata pratikramaNa zarU thaI jAya - pratikramaNa bAda badhAe svAdhyAya karavAno. porisI Ave, tyAre porisI bhaNAvavAnI. sUryodaya sudhI badhA mauna rAkhe. (manamAM ke dhIrA svare pATha kare...) A badhuM saMyamajIvananuM sauMdarya nihALyuM. A vaMdanA gururAjanuM svAdhyAyakSetra paNa ghaNuM vizALa che. te A pramANe praznottara granthoH hIraprazna - senaprazna - vividha praznottara - praznottara ciMtAmaNI - praznottara ratnaciMtAmaNI - labdhiprazna - praznottarakarNikA - praznapaddhati. prakaraNa grantho : cAraprakaraNa - traNa bhASya - 6 karmagrantha (mULa-TIkA-bhAvArtha) cAra vAra bIjAone bhaNAvyA. bRhatsaMgrahaNI - paMcasaMgraha - hitopadeza - vicAra ratnAkara - aSTakaSoDazaka-batrIsa-batrIzI (traNavAra) - adhyAtmasAra - upadezarahasya - upadezapada - paMcasUtra -

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---------------- vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo -~~ dharmabiMdu (traNavAra) - yogaviMzikA (sAtavAra), yogazataka (pAMcavAra), yogadaSTisamuccaya (be vAra), yogabiMdu, viMzativiMzikA, paMcasUtra (saTIka), paMcavastuka, zrAddhavidhi, dharmasaMgraha, yogasAra, upadezamAlA, upadezaprAsAda, vItarAgastotra (saTIka), yatilakSaNa samuccaya, vairAgyakalpalatA, zrAvakavidhi prakaraNa, piMDa vizuddhi, adhyAtmopaniSada - pravacanasAroddhAra - yatidinacaryA - pakhisUtra (saTIka), - upamiti bhava prapaMco kathA - yogazAstra (saTIka cAra prakAza) - 125, 150, 350 gAthAnA stavano arthasahita - AThadaSTinI sajajhAya - samaktinA saDasaTha bolanI sajajhAya - dravyaguNaparyAyano rAsa - siMduraprakaraNa - vairAgyazataka - triSaSTi 10 parva - pariziSTa parva - sAmAcArI prakaraNa - kUpadRSTAntavizadIkaraNa - gurutattvavinizcaya. Agamagrantho : dazavaikAlika hAribhadrITIkA + Avazyaka niryukti hAribhadrI TIkA + oghaniryukti droNavRtti + piMDaniryukti malayagirivRtti + uttarAdhyayana (bhAvavijayajIvRtti - zAMtisUrivRtti) + AcArAMga (zIlAMkavRtti) + anuyogadvAra + 10 pannA + kalpasUtra + mahAnizItha. - 100 + 60 oLInA ghora tapasvI, 45-47 varSanI nAnI uMmaranA gururAje ATalo zAstrAbhyAsa paNa karelo che. Azcarya to e che ke pote 11 ziSyonA guru hovA chatAM, ghora tapasvI hovA chatAM, svayaM vidvAna vyAkhyAnakAra hovA chatAM paNa Aje potAnAthI sAva nAnA, paragacchanA muni pAse zAstrAbhyAsa karavA kaTibaddha banyA che. kevI namratA ! zAstrAbhyAsalaMpaTatA ! nirahaMkAritA ! A vaMdanA eka muni sI.e. pAsa thayA bAda dIkSita banelA che. e munirAje cha mukhya Agamagranthono to abhyAsa karyo ja, e pachI punAmAM 30 mAsa daramyAna tyAMnA DaoN. balIrAma zukla (kAzI paMDita) pAse rojanA be kalAka lekhe kula 30 nyAyagranthono abhyAsa karyo. e mahAtmAne 58mI oLI paNa cAlu che. (keTalIka dhyAnamAM levA jevI bAbato : jo prekTIsa pADavAmAM Ave, puruSArtha AdaravAmAM Ave to A kALamAM paNa zarIrane barAbara ghaDIne ghaNA ghaNA UMcA AcAro pALI ja zakAya che. paNa eka-be-traNa vAra niSphaLatA maLe, dhIraja khUTe ane ApavAdika AcArone ja kAyamI jIvana banAvI daIe e AlokamAM to mastI ApanAruM banI zakaze, paNa paralokamAM ? hA ! jeo kharekhara AvA uccatama AcAro pALI zakavA koIpaNa rIte samartha nathI, chatAM jeone eno pazcAttApa che. AvA AcArasaMpanna munivaro pratye agAdha bahumAna che. teo

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-~~--~~~vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo ---------- paNa bhAvathI to A sarva AcAronA pAlaka ja che. mATe ja teo e AcArapAlako jeTalI ja nirjarA pAme che, e saMdeha nathI. A ja kAraNasara AvA mahAtmAomAM bAhyadRSTie AcArapAlana na dekhAya to eTalA mAtrathI emane nabaLI koTinA sAdhu-zithila sAdhu mAnavAnuM, bolavAnuM gojhAruM pApa bilakula na AdaravuM. zAstrakAroe to kevI suMdara salAha ApI che ke "sthavarakalpIoe ane jinakalpIoe paraspara koInI niMdA vagere karavA nahi. bhale sthaviro jinakalpIo karatA AcAranI apekSAe ghaNA ghaNA nabaLA che. to paNa e badhA jinAjJAmAM varte che. mATe koI hIlanIya banatuM nathI. jeo AjJAbhaMjaka banelA che, teo paNa niMdanIya... to nathI ja.) vairAgya kevo ? colamajIThanA raMga jevo A zuM che? guMdaranI gheMsa che? unALAmAM tamAre tyAM guMdaranI gheMsa zI rIte hoI zake ? nakkI mArA mATe ja banAvI che ne? ane Ama paNa cheka muMbaIthI tame mArA mATe ahIM sudhI A gheMsa lAvyA. eTale e abhyAhata doSavALI to banI ja gaI. huM e bilakula nahi vahoruM." covIsa varSanI bharayuvAna, grejyueTa banelo vairAgI sAdhu eka bena sAme nIcA DhALelA netre upara mujaba bolI rahyo hato. e bena hatI e ja sAdhunI saMsArI sagI bA ! dIkarAnI dIkSAne jhAjho samaya thayo na hato ane bAne to dIkarAno rAga samAtIta hoya e sIdhI sAdI vAta che. eTale ja unALAmAM ya dIkarAne bhAvatI guMdaranI ghesa bAe jAte banAvI ane dIkarAne maLavA surata bAju jaI pahoMcI. dIkarAne khUba vinaMti karI, AjIjI karI... paNa saMyamasaMpanna putramunie spaSTa nA pADI. AdhAkarmI ane abhyAhata A baMneya doSo emane haragIja maMjUra na hatA. putramuni to nA pADI potAnA sthAne jaI besI gayo. paNa bIjI bAju bAne bhAre AghAta lAgyo. e to tyAM ja UbhI UbhI rovA lAgI. putrasneha parAkASThAe pahoMcyo. e vakhate A grupanA eka vRddha muni dUrathI A dazya joI rahyA hatA. bAne A rIte duHkhI banIne dhrusake dhrusake raDatI joI emane bhAre AghAta lAgyo. vRddhamuni pahoMcI gayA pelA putramuni pAse ! "munivara ! tamArI bA A rIte dhrusake dhrusake raDe e zuM sAru lAge che ? jAo. mArI AjJA che ke tame e bAnI IcchA pUrI karo. guMdaranI sa vahorI lo. apavAda rUpe Aje vAparI lo."

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-------vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo-~~-~~ vRddha vaDIla muninA kahevAthI putramunie kakaLatA haiye guMdaranI gheMsa vahorI. paDadAnI aMdara jaI vAparavA beThA. pAMca-dasa miniTa thaI, tyAM to e vRddha munie sAdhunI bAne bolAvI "A bAju Avo." bA najIka pahoMcI ke tarata ja munie paDado kheMcIne dUra karI dIdho. "juo, tamArA putramuni kevI rIte vApare che ?" bA to aMdaranuM dRzya joI AbhI ja banI gaI. -- bAe joyuM ke "dIkaro ghesa khAI to rahyo ja hato. paNa sAthe sAthe enI AMkhethI codhAra AMsu vahI rahyA hatA. moDhA upara tIvra vedanA spaSTa dekhAI rahI hatI." vRddhamuni bolyA "zuM tame mAno cho ke AvI rIte guMdaranI gheMsa khAIne tamArA putramuninA zarIramAM lohInuM eka biMdu paNa banaze ? juo, to kharA ! A dIkaro keTalo trAsa anubhave che ! zuM tame eka sagI bA thaIne dIkarAne duHkhI karazo ? A tamane zobhaze ?" bA to sAMbhaLI ja rahI. e ja vakhate bAe pratijJA laI lIdhI. "bAdhA Apo mane ke huM have kadIpaNa mArA dIkarA mATe kazuM ja nahi lAvuM..." (cAritrapariNAma eTale zuM? AhAra pratyenI anAsakti eTale zuM? jinAjJA pratyeno agAdha bahumAnabhAva eTale zuM ?... A badhA ya praznonA uttara A putramuninA nAnakaDA prasaMgamAMthI ja prApta thaI jAya che. sagI bA che ! manabhAvatI vastu che ! guru vagere badhAnI saharSa saMmati che. chatAM "mAre AdhAkarmI, abhyAhata vAparavuM nathI." e nirmaLa pariNAmanA mAlika e munirAja kharekhara koTi koTi vaMdanane pAtra che. khUba ja khedanI vAta che ke AvA vairAgya saMpanna, buddhisaMpanna yuvAna munirAja bharayauvanamAM ja valabhIpura pAse eka akasmAtamAM kALadharma pAmyA. valabhIpura gAmanA mukhya derAsaranI bhamatImAM AkhI bhamatI pUrI thAya tyAM Arasa/pattharamAM kotareluM emanuM citra Aje paNa vidyamAna che.) bhUla konI ? Thapako kone ? chatAM kSamA kevI ? "jUo, ahIM bhAta-dALa baMne garama che, AcAryabhagavaMtane anukULa raheze. tApaNImAM baMne bhegA ja vahorI lo. eTale garama raheze." gocarI vahoravA gayelA be sAdhuomAMthI vaDIla sAdhue nAnA sAdhune sUcanA karI.

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vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo e divasa hato 100thI vadhu ziSyonA gurupade birAjamAna pravacanaprabhAvaka AcAryadevanI 108mI oLInA pAraNAno divasa ! muMbaI lAlabAga bhUlezvarano upAzraya ! mahotsavanA divaso ! e prasaMga nimitte 150thI vadhu sAdhuo bhegA thayelA hatA. savAre pAraNAno prasaMga sukhapUrvaka saMpanna thaI gayo. AcAryadeva pAraNAnA zarUAtanA divasomAM bapore mAtra dALa-bhAta vAparatA. amuka divaso bAda bIjo khorAka zaru karatA. A to prathama divasa ja hato. eTale bapore dALa-bhAta ja vAparavAnA hatA. AcAryadevanI gocarInuM kAma eka munirAja saMbhALatA hatA, te AcAryadevazrInI anukULatAdi barAbara jANatA ane e pramANe ja gocarI lAvatA. paNa Aje bIjA eka vaDIla sAdhue A vaiyAvaccI munine kahyuM ke "huM paNa tamArI sAthe Aje bapore gocarI vahoravA AvIza. e rIte AcAryadevanI gocarI lAvavAno mane paNa lAbha maLaze..." nAnA vaiyAvaccI muni nA na kahI zakyA ane baMne munio vahoravA gayA. emAM eka ghare garamAgarama dALabhAta joIne vaDIla munie upa2 mujaba preraNA karI. paNa nAnA vaiyAvaccI sAdhu A bAbatamAM anubhavI ! AcAryazrInI rucinA jANakAra ! eTale e bolyA ke "AcAryazrI judA judA lAvelA dALa-bhAta ja le che, ane pAtrAmAM bhegA kare che. ApaNe jo pahelethI ja dALa-bhAta bhegA karI laIe, to AcAryazrIne e bilakula anukULa AvatA nathI. eTale dALa-bhAta be judA judA pAtramAM ja vahoro..." paNa vaDIla sAdhu kahe "are, emAM kaMI vAMdho nahi. ulTuM bhegA karelA ja emane vadhAre phAvaze. tame ciMtA na karo. mArI javAbadArI !" nAnA sAdhu have zuM kahe ? chevaTe vaDIlanI sUcanAthI emaNe eka ja tara5NImAM dALa-bhAta bhegA vahoryA. ane tarata upAzraye pahoMcyA. vizALa gocarImAMDalImAM AcAryadevanI AgaLa tarapaNI mUkI. AcAryadeve ta25NI ughADIne joyuM ke 'emAM to dALa-bhAta baMne bhegA karelA che.' AcAryazrIne zI khabara ? ke A rIte vahoravAnuM kAma vaDIle kareluM che, vaiyAvaccIe nahi.' e to ema ja samajyA ke roja je sAdhu gocarI vahorI lAve che, mArI sevAmAM che, e ja A lAvyo che.' ane kharekhara tarapaNI e sAdhue ja mukelI ne ? eTale ja AcAryazrIe vizALa mAMDalImAM ja e sAdhune Thapako Apyo ke "alA ! ATalA vakhatathI mArI gocarI lAve che, chatAM tane mArI ruci-arucinuM bhAna nathI ? tane oLInA pAraNA paNa sAcavatA AvaDatA nathI ? tane anubhava to che ke huM dALa-bhAta bhegA lAvelA kadI leto nathI. mane e rucikara nathI. chatAM A bhUla ? sAva jaDa che tuM ?" nAnA sAdhu sAMbhaLI rahyA, "mArI bhUla thaI gaI, gurudeva ! pharIvAra barAbara kALajI rAkhIza." ema kahI bhAvathI kSamA mAMgI. 103:

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-------------vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo ------------ pelA gocarI vahorAvanAra vaDIla sAdhu prathama to gabharAI gayA. emane thayuM ke "nAnA sAdhu hamaNAM ja khulAso karaze ke huM to dALa-bhAta chUTA chUTA ja vahoravAno hato, paNa A vaDIla sAdhu na mAnyA. meM emane spaSTa kaheluM paNa kharuM, chatAM emaNe jIda karIne dALa-bhAta bhegA vahorAvyA... have jo Avo khulAso thAya to AcAryazrI mane ja badho Thapako Ape. badhA sAdhuo vacce mAre Thapako sAMbhaLavo paDe. "doDhaDAhyo" biruda maLe..." paNa vaDIla sAdhue joyuM ke "nAnA sAdhue koI ja khulAso na karyo. badho doSa potAnA mAthe svIkArI lIdho. eka akSara suddhAM paNa bacAva na karyo. e 100% nirdoSa hovA chatAM, nirdoSa sAbita thaI zakatA hovA chatAM emaNe 1% paNa potAnI jAtane nirdoSa sAbita karavAno prayatna paNa na karyo." vaDIla sAdhu gaLagaLA thaI gayA. e nAnA sAdhu pratyeno ahobhAva khUba vadhI gayo. prasaMga patyA bAda sAMje ekAMtamAM vaDIla sAdhue nAnAne pRcchA karI "tame taddana sAcA hatA, chatAM tame vAstavika rajUAta kema na karI..." tyAre e nAnA vaiyAvaccI sAdhu hasatA hasatA bolI uThyA.. "huM jo khulAso karuM to ApazrIne badho Thapako sAMbhaLavo paDe. e ucita thoDuM gaNAya? mAro khulAso sAco hoya, to ya enA nimitte vaDIla sAdhue Thapako sAMbhaLavo paDe e mane maMjura nathI. vaLI guruno Thapako maLe e to mAruM saubhAgya che. e saubhAgya huM zA mATe naMdavAvA dauM? vaLI koI gaMbhIra bAbata hoya to barAbara ! paNa A to sAmAnya bAbata che. AmAM huM jeTaluM sahana karuM eTaluM mAru ja hita vadhAre thAya ne ?" vaDIla sAdhu stabdha thaIne A zabdo sAMbhaLI ja rahyA. (jarAka ApaNA AtmAmAM uMDANapUrvaka daSTipAta karazuM to kadAca evuM dekhAze ke ApaNe to ApaNI bhUla hoya to ya game te rIte bacAva karavA ja taiyAra hoIe. cokhe cokhkhI bhUla hoya to ya koIne koI bahAnA AgaLa dharIne bhUlane nabaLI dekhADavAno prayatna karIe. re ! bIjA upara doSa DhoLIne ApaNe chaTakI zakatA hoIe, to ApaNe emAM ya kadI pAchaLa na paDIe. kyAM kharekharA doSone paNa na svIkAravAnI, bacAva karavAnI ApaNI adhamatA ! kyAM khoTA ya doSone svIkArI levAnI, bacAva na karavAnI, sahana karavAnI A muninI mahAnatA ! cokkasa ! brahmacarya vagere saMbaMdhI gaMbhIra bAbatomAM khoTuM doSAropaNa thAya, to ucita khulAsA karavA paDe, paNa nAnI nAnI vAtomAM paNa "huM doSI nathI" evuM ja sthApita karavAno puruSArtha e AtmArthI AtmAnuM lakSaNa nathI.

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vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo jo kharekhara ApaNane ApaNo A svadoSa-asvIkAra, svadoSa bacAva nAmano doSa khaTakato hoya, prastuta muninI mahAnatA haiyAne sparzatI hoya to AdhyAtmika kSetranA e ajoDa vAkyane jIvanamAM apanAvI levuM joIe ke "A mArI ja bhUla che." ane te te prasaMgomAM ene AtmasAta karI levuM joIe. karazuM ApaNe A puruSArtha ?) (sUcana : A prasaMga prAyaH 28-30 varSa pUrveno che. prastuta muni 15 varSanI nAnakaDI uMmare dIkSita thayelA hatA. emaNe Aja sudhImAM ghaNA mahAtmAonI sevA-bhakti karelI che.) badhuM zakya che : jarUra che sattvanI ane puruSArthanI (eka munirAjanA zabdomAM) AjathI cAravarSa pUrve vihAramAM godharAnI pUrve eka sthAne amane e munirAjano bheTo thaI gayo. sAgara samudAyanA e mahAtmA ! e vakhate 80 varSanI emanI uMmara ! (Aje to 84 varSanI haze.) e divase emano paricaya thayo, emanI ArAdhanAo jANavA maLI, ame to khUba ja Azcarya pAmyA. A rahI emanI ArAdhanAnI vizeSatAo : + 63 varSanI uMmare dIkSA lIdhI, 17 varSano dIkSAparyAya thayo. (Aje 21 varSano...) + dIkSA letI vakhate zarata karelI ke 'huM bhaNI nahi zakuM. mane kazuM caDatuM nathI. jApa-dhyAna karIza.' chatAM dIkSA bAda emane ja bhAvanA thaI ke mAre bhaNavuM che ane gurvajJAthI emaNe gokhavAno puruSArtha zaru karyo. eka bALakanI jema roja moTe moTethI gokhe. dIkSA bAda je sayaLAsaLana... gAthA gokhAvavAmAM Ave che, e paNa aDadhI ja gAthA mAMDa sAta divase pAkI thaI. 15 divase e gAthA pUrNa karI. paNa emaNe puruSArtha na choDyo, gokhavAnuM cAlu ja rAkhyuM. ane AzcaryanI vAta e ke 11 varSe pakhIsUtra kaDakaDATa gokhIne pUrNa karyuM. AvI sakhata mahenata ane gurukRpAnA pratApe Aje to roja eka gAthA gokhI zake che. + dIkSA bAda emaNe jIvavicA2-navatattva-cauzaraNapayannA-paMcasUtra-aneka stavano ane aneka sajjhAyo kaMThastha karI lIdhA che. + 80 varSanI uMmare paNa roja 20-25 kimI.no vihAra karavo hoya to ya cAlIne ja kare. na DoLI-na vhIlacera ! makkamatA gajabanI ! 105

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* vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo + dIpathI mAMDIne 17 varSa thayA. kadI ekAsaNA ane parisIthI ochuM paccakhANa karyuM nathI. athAta 6000 thI paNa vadhu ekAsaNA akhaMDa karyA. + ekavAra vihAramAM bhAre kasoTI thaI. savAre cha vAge pIMpaLI gAmethI nIkaLyA, paNa rasto atizaya kharAba ! cheka sAMje cAra vAge e munirAja vaTAmaNa pahoMcyA. chatAM e munie koI ja phariyAda na karI. sAMje cAra vAge darzana karyA bAda pANI vAparI ekAsaNuM karyuM. vaLI bIjA ja divase pAcho 18 ki.mI.no vihAra to hato ja, e karIne cheka bapore eka vAge pahoMcyA, to paNa ekAsaNAmAM koI ja bAMdhachoDa nahi. + jyAre gocarI vAparavA bese tyAre "huM gocarI vAparavA besuM chuM" ema avazya bole. (eka vAstaviktA kadI na bhUlIe ke ArAdhakatA vinAnI prabhAvaktA, vidvattA, vyavasthApakatA, saMcAlakatA nukasAnakArI che. prabhAvaktAdi vinAnI ekalI ArAdhatA kadI nukasAnakArI banatI nathI. hA ! baMne hoya to sonAmAM sugaMdha ! paNa ApaNe samajI to levuM ja joIe ke pahelA ArAdhakatA, pachI prabhAvakatAdi ! alabatta ArAdhakatA eTale zuM? enuM spaSTa svarUpa cokkasa vicArI levuM. rAgadveSanI hAni thAya e ja sAcI ArAdhakatA...). jugupsAmoha upara vijaya muMbaImAM ekasthAne comAsAmAM cAra sAdhuo birAjamAna hatA. emAM eka hatA bALamuni ! bAra varSanI nAnI vaye dIkSA lIdhelI, paryAya be varSano thaI gayelo, eTale prastuta comAsA daramyAna emanI uMmara 14 varSa ! ekavAra cAra sAdhunI e mAMDalImAM traNeka cetanAnI tapaNI bharIne dUdha AvyuM, paNa vaheMcatA vaheMcatA zaruAtamAM ja vaDIlanA hAthamAMthI tarANI chaTakI ane aDadhI tarANI jeTaluM dUdha jamIna para DhoLAI gayuM. have ? jyAM roja gocarI vaparAtI hoya, meluM luMchaNiyuM pheravAtuM hoya, evI jagyAe DhoLAyeluM dUdha koNa vApare ? re ! tadana cokhkhI jamIna hoya to ya tyAM DhoLAyeluM dUdha hAthathI ke kapaDAthI levuM paDe... AvuM dUdha vAparatA moTuM bagaDe e svAbhAvika che. vaDIla sAdhue kheda vyakta karyo ke "ATaluM dUdha to bagaDI gayuM. khera ! have A dUdha luMchaNiyAthI luchI nAMkhIne pyAlAmAM bheguM karI paraThavI daIe. bIjuM vadhArAnuM dUdha huM laI AvuM chuM."

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vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo paNa tyAM ja bAlamuni bolyA "vadhArAnuM dUdha lAvavuM nahi paDe. huM hAthathI A badhuM dUdha laIne vAparI laIza. mane cAlaze." vaDIlamuni Azcarya pAmyA. "AvuM dUdha tame vAparazo ? phAvaze ? huM to bilakula vAparI zakuM nahi. mane to ulTI ja thaI jAya. ane tame ya na vAparo to cAlaze. kemake bIjuM dUdha to maLI ja rahevAnuM che. ApaNane kazI khoTa paDavAnI nathI." paNa bAlamuni kahe "Apa ciMtA na karazo. meM A rIte pahelA paNa eka-be vAra dUdha vApareluM che. nakAmuM zA mATe dUdha bagaDavA devuM ?" vaDIla to ahobhAva sAthe bAlamunine joI rahyA. ane kharekhara be hAthe e dUdha pAtrImAM bheguM karI laIne bAlamuni vAparI gayA. na koI phariyAda ! na duguMchA ! na moDhAnI rekhAmAM ya pheraphAra ! vaDIlamuni vicAratA ja rahyA ke "varSonA dIkSAparyAya bAda paNa huM je na meLavI zakyo, e A bAlamunie mAtra be varSanA dIkSAparyAyamAM meLavI lIdhuM. koTi koTi vaMdana ho e bAla chatAM paripakva munirAjane ! (Ama to A vAta nAnakaDI che. chatAM emAM garbhita rIte paDelo vairAgyaguNa atikiMmatI che. ghaNI moTI vAto karanArA ApaNAmAM AvA nAnA nAnA guNonI to khAmI nathI ne ? e ApaNe jAte ja tapAsI levuM joIe.) sarvajIvarasnehI muni svajano para niHsnehI banatA... 'khaca... khaca' eka guMDAe koI mANasanA peTamAM jorathI cappu hularAvI dIdhuM. be guMDAoe ene barAbara pakaDI rAkhyo hato. sAMjano sADApAMca vAgyAno samaya ! kalakattAnA e jhaverI, uMmara varSa 60 ! dukAna baMdha karIne ghare jaI rahyA hatA, tyAM najara sAme A rIte eka bhAInuM nirdayatAthI khUna thatuM nihALyuM. paisA mATe ke jUnuM vaira vALavA ke bIjA koIka kAraNe ? kayA kAraNe e khUna thayuM e to khabara na paDI. paNa A dRzya joIne e jhaverI bhAI dhrujI uThyA. saMsAranI asAratA pratyakSa dekhAvA lAgI. 'AvatI kAle mAruM paNa mota A rIte ke bIjI rIte paNa avazya thavAnuM ja che.' e saccAI emane rUMvADe rUMvADe sparzI gaI. tarata pAchA dukAne gayA, 'huM jAuM chuM, mArI koI ciMtA karazo nahi...' ema nAnakaDI ciThThI mUkIne e bhAI sIdhA dIlhI pahoMcyA. emanI IcchA hatI pravrajyA svIkArI AtmakalyANa sAdhI levAnI ! 107

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-~~~-~~ vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo ~~~~~~~~ * tyAM koIka kalyANamitre salAha ApI ke "gujarAta jAo, zAzvata tIrtha zatruMjaya girirAjanI sparzanA karo. enA prabhAve tamane cokkasa sadgurunI prApti thaze." > ane bhAI upaDyA gujarAta ! tyAM pAlitANAmAM eka yogIkakSAnA AcAryadevano bheTo thayo. bhAIe potAnA mananI badhI rajuAta karI. AcAryazrIe pAtratA nihALI dIkSAnI rajA ApI. - dIkSA vakhate e bhAIe nAnakaDI cabarakhImAM kalakattAnuM potAnuM saranAmuM vagere lakhIne AcAryazrIne ApyuM. "mAruM maraNa thaI jAya, pachI tame A saranAme mArA aMgenI vigatavAra jANa karazo. tyAM sudhI nahi.." ekapaNa svajanane bolAvyA vinA bharapUra vairAgya sAthe e 60 varSanA vRddha jhaverIe dIkSA lIdhI. 15 AjathI 60 varSa pUrvenI A vAta ! te vakhate vaijJAnika sAdhanonI sagavaDa paNa ghaNI ochI ! eTale svajano paNa emane zodhI zakyA na hatA. emAM ya kyAM kalakattA ! kyAM gujarAta! vairAgya pAko hato eTale moTI uMmare paNa saMyamamAM kaDaka banIne ja jIvatA. - (1) dara mahIne ochAmAM ochA 18 upavAsa kare. (2) je 12 divasa vApare, te paNa ekAsaNA ja.. (3) e ekAsaNA paNa kAyama avaDhanA paccakakhANe kare. (4) e badhA ekAsaNA ThAmacovihAra kare. (vAparatI vakhate ja pANI ! e pachI nahi...) e sivAya svAdhyAya-dhyAnAdinI ArAdhanA vadhArAnI ! emanI sauthI moTI ArAdhanA hatI svajanadhUnananI ! vicAra to karo ke dIkSAmAM paNa svajanone yAda na karyA. (kadAca mane aTakAve to ? evo bhaya paNa hoya.) ane dIkSA bAda paNa kadIpaNa ekAda patra paNa saMsArI ghare na lakhyo. kuTuMba ghaNuM sukhI ! patnI, dIkarAo, dIkarIo, pautra, pautrIo, vahuo, mitro... A badhAnI yAda AvyA vinA rahe kharI ? emane maLavAnI, emane hitopadeza ApavAnI IcchA thayA vinA rahe kharI ? - paNa A mahAtmA varSo sudhI jIvyA, chatAM kharekhara mRta banIne jIvyA. saMsAranA koIpaNa saMbaMdhane yAda karyA vinA jIvyA. emanA kALadharma bAda vigatavAra e samAcAra kalakattA mokalavAmAM AvyA. (ApaNe svajano-mitro-bhaktone mahIne-varSe keTalI TapAla lakhIe? keTalA phona karAvIe ? keTalIvAra maLavA mATe bolAvIe? e svajanone maLyAno keTalo AnaMda anubhavAya?... A badhuM ApaNe cakAsazuM, to ApaNA vairAgyanI parIkSA karAvavA bIjA koIpaNa pAse javuM nahi paDe.)

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vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIogAthAo khUba gokho. e hatA adhyAtmayogI ! gAthAo gokhAvavAno emano Agraha ghaNo ! potAnA ziSyone ane sAdhvIjIone gAthAo barAbara gokhAvaDAve. rAtre A AcAryazrI potAnA ziSyonI gAthAo sAMbhaLe, bhUla paDe to sudhAre. potAnA najIkanA ja svajano emanA ziSyo banelA, paNa teo paNa jo gAthA na gokhe, to emane ya Thapako ApyA vinA na rahe. Tu be ziSyo AcArya pAse besI vArApharatI ekapachI eka gAthAo bole, emAM jo koIka ziSya jhokhA khAya, uMghavA lAge, to tarata dhImethI TapalI mArIne jagADe ane barAbara pATha karAve. emanA A parizramane kAraNe e samudAyamAM Aje ghaNA sAdhu-sAdhvIo hajAro gAthAo gokhI cUkyA che. Aje to e mahAyogI hAjara nathI. paNa emanA samudAyanA vidvAna-sthavira mahAtmAo paNa evA che ke jemane Aje 25 thI 30 hajAra gAthAo upasthita che. kyAMka kAcuM thAya, to pAkuM karI le che. sAMbhaLyuM che ke emanA samudAyanA prAyaH ekapaNa sAdhu-sAdhvIjI evA nahi hoya, jemane ochAmAM ochI traNeka hajAra gAthA gokhI na hoya. = A samudAyanI keTalIka viziSTatAo. - AkhA ya gacchamAM AcArya gacchAdhipati mAtra eka ja ! bIjA mahAtmAo vidvAna-sthavira hoya, to paNa teo vadhumAM vadhu paMnyAsapadavI ja le che. arthAt A gacchamAM AcArya nahIM. - A gacchamAM e ja dIkSA laI zake ke jene AkhI jIMdagI mATe cAno tyAga hoya. kemake guru paraMparAthI A gacchamAM e niyama cAlyo Ave che ke nAnA ke moTA, gharaDA ke yuvAna, guru ke ziSya koIe paNa cA pIvAnI nahi. - sAMjanuM pratikramaNa badhAe bhegA maLIne mAMDalImAM ja karavAnuM. mAMDalI bahAra koIpaNa pratikramaNa na karI zake. (A vAMcanArAomAMthI keTalAkanA manamAM evA prazno paNa ubhA thAya ke - sUtra karatA arthanuM mahattva vadhAre che, sUtrano ATalo Agraha rAkhavA karatA arthano Agraha rAkhe to sAruM. - eka ja gacchamAM ghaNA AcAryo hoI zake che, e zAstrIya che. eka ja AcAryano Agraha zA mATe ? - utsarga-apavAdamaya jinazAsana che. apavAdamArge cA pI zakAya. eTale mAtra cAnA vyasanavALAne e cAnA kAraNe dIkSA na ApavI e kevI rIte yogya gaNAya ? 1094

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-~~~~~~vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo - vRddho-glAna sAdhuo mAMDalImAM vadhu samaya besavA azakya hoya ane eTale mAMDalI sivAya pratikramaNa kare to emAM khoTuM zuM che? A badhI vAta apekSAe sAcI hoya to paNa apekSAe uparanI cAra bAbato paNa eTalI ja sAcI che. e adhyAtmayogIe arthane mahattva nathI ApyuM evuM thoDuM che? paNa sUtranI jeTalI mahattA che, e paNa jyAre upekSita thatI dekhAya, tyAre ene mahattA ApavAmAM Ave to e yogya ja che ne ? dA.ta. sUtranuM mahattva 30% che, arthanuM mahattva 70% che. paNa sUtranuM mahattva 10% paNa mAMDa dekhAya, tyAre enuM 30% mahattva pUrNa karavA enA para bhAra ApavAmAM Ave e svAbhAvika che. arthanuM mahattva 70% to rAkheluM ja che, emAM kaMI ochuM nathI karyuM. * AvuM anya bAbatomAM paNa samajI levuM. apavAda hoya enI nA nathI, paNa utsarganI ArAdhanAnA lAbho DhagalAbaMdha che, .... A aMge ghaNI vicAraNA thaI zake.) sAco prajJAcakSu sAdhu 55 varSano dIkSA paryAya dharAvatA e munirAjanI Aje uMmara 92 varSanI AsapAsa che. chellA 15 varSathI e muni baMne AMkho gumAvI cUkyA che. saurASTranA eka moTA zaheramAM eka saMghamAM teo sthiravAsa rokAyA che. moTA bhAge te ekalA ja hoya che. tyAM koI comAsuM kare, to saMkhyA vadhAre thAya, anyathA nahi. baMne AMkhonuM teja haNAI gayuM hoya, sAthe koI sahAyaka na hoya to zI rIte divasomahinAo-varSo pasAra thAya ? e prazna sahaja rIte ja ApaNane badhAne thAya. paNa AvI vikaTa paristhitimAM paNa emaNe je ArAdhanA jALavI rAkhI che, e bhAre Azcarya upajAve evI che. (ka) chellA 15 varSathI kAyama ekAsaNA kare che, lagabhaga 12 tithi AMbila kare che. AMbila emanA zarIrane mAphaka na hovA chatAM paNa te AMbilanA anurAgI che. "traNa roTalI, eka Tokaso dALa ane be DhokaLA" A emano AMbilano niyamita khorAka che. (kha) prazna e thAya ke "e joI zakatA nathI, to gocarI koNa lAve ? sAthe koI sAdhu nathI ke e gocarI-pANI lAvI Ape." paNa A munirAja pAse eka mANasa rAkhavAmAM Avyo che. e mANasa emane judA judA gharomAM gocarI laI jAya. pote joI to na zake, paNa pUchI pUchIne vastu vahore. zrAvako paNa samaju ! eTale bIjo koI vAMdho na Ave. A rIte jAte gocarI-pANI lAve. (ga) pote kAyama eka ja sthAne bese, te sthAnathI emaNe be dorI bAMdhI che. eka dorI

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~~~vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo * potAnA sthAnathI cheka vADAnI rUma sudhI bAMdhI che. bIjI dorI potAnA sthAnathI derAsaranA daravAjA sudhI bAMdhI che. potAnI pAse eka lAkaDI rAkhI che, jeno AgaLano bhAga vaLelo che. jyAre aMDila-mAtru javuM hoya tyAre e lAkaDI uMcI karI dorImAM bheravI de, ane pachI e dorIne AdhAre cheka vADAnI rUma sudhI pahoMcI jAya. jyAre derAsara javuM hoya, tyAre e bAjunI dorImAM lAkaDI bheravI ene AdhAre derAsara sudhI pahoMcI jAya. (gha) AMkho na hovAthI vAMcI zaktA nathI, paNa junI je gAthAo gokhI che, enuM punarAvartana manamAM kare. jyAre samaya maLe, tyAre mALA gaNyA kare. koI hAyavoya nahi, apekSA nahi. | (ca) kApa-luNAnuM kAma paNa jAte kare. sAtheno mANasa jyAM jarUra paDe tyAM sahAya kare. bAkI jeTaluM zakya hoya eTaluM pote jAte ja kare. | (cha) jyAre AMkho hatI, tyAre emaNe varSItapAdi ghaNI ArAdhanAo paNa karI che. kula 39 varSItapa karyA che. (muMbaInA eka saMghamAM khUba ArAdhaka eka zrAvakanI be AMkho jatI rahelI, tyAre eka vidvAna munirAje emane hitazikSA ApelI ke "tamArI bahAranI AMkho jatI rahI, paNa aMdaranI AMkho to che ne ? bahAranI AMkhothI jagata dekhAtuM. aMdaranI AMkhothI AtmA dekhAze..." e vakhate ArAdhaka zrAvake uttara Apelo ke "sAheba ! tamAre to mAtra bolavAnuM che. mArA para zuM vIte che, enI to mane ja khabara paDe che." - parivAra saMpanna zrAvakanI A vAta sAMbhaLatA ahesAsa thAya ke "be AMkho vinA jIvavuM keTaluM badhuM kaparuM che." chatAM A muni paMdara varSathI A rIte ekalA rahe che. phariyAda vinA jIve che... e emanI keTalI viziSTatA ! alabatta zramaNasaMghanI pharaja che ke e bhale game te samudAyanA hoya, paNa emanI sevA mATe ochAmAM ochA eka-be sAdhu tyAM goThavavA. vaiyAvaccamAM gacchabheda na jovAya evuM zAstravacana che. koIka vaiyAvaccI sAdhu A kAma upADI le, to e khUba prazaMsanIya banaze.) kathiramAMthI kaMcana banI zake che. "beTA ! gADI A cukI haiM, ora tuM abhI taka so rahA hai / majurI aise to nahi hogii|" haidrAbAdanA sTezana upara eka mAravADI zeTha sTezana para rahelA bAkaDA upara ughelA eka majura bALakane uThADI rahyA hatA. AjathI 50 varSa pUrveno A taddana sAco prasaMga ! rAtre bAra vAge zeTha potAnA parivAra sAthe sTezana para utaryA. badho sAmAna ghoDAgADI sudhI laI javA mATe majuranI zodha karavA lAgyA, paNa aDadhI rAte majura-kulI koI najaramAM na Avyo. zeTha muMjhAyA, sAmAna ghaNo hato ane zrImaMtAImAM ucharelo parivAra jAte A sAmAna uMcakavAdi kAma mATe azakya paNa kharo. 1 1 1

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++++++ vizvanI AdhyAtmiA mAyanImo++++++++ tyAM vaLI sTezananA ekAda mANasane kulI aMge pUchaparacha karatA e bhAIe kahyuM ke "A bAkaDA para ughelo nAno chokaro kulInuM kAma kare che ene uThADo. e tamAruM kAma patAvI deze." zeThe ene upara mujaba kahIne uThADyo. ___ yogato yogato me choro tarata. ubho thayo. "zeThajI ! mApha karanA, jarA niMda jora se A gai, isalie gADI A gai, vo bhI mAluma nahi par3A / pharamAie, kauna sA sAmAna uThAnA hai|" zeThe sAmAna bAvAne ? "ghoDAgADI taka use le jAnA hai, bola kitanI majurI legaa|" "zeTha ! Apa jo deMge, vo le luNgaa|" chorAle namratAtha. 4Apa hImo. 59 // ze6 deg4mAnAnA khAdhela hatA. A badhI bAbatamAM pAchaLathI jhaghaDA thAya enA karatA pahelethI ja cokkasa rakama nIrI sevAmAM Ave to thI. OM2 na. 2. bheTale. zeTha 32rI ho "aisA nahi, pakkI majurI bola de, bAda meM jhaMjhaTa nahi / " ___5 cho42|| 59 // bhii|shthii 45 dIyo. "zeThajI ! Apa kama thoDe hI deMge ? Apa jo deMge, mujhe maMjura haiM, Apa ciMtA mata kiijie|" bhane zeThe vizvAsa. mUDIyo sAmAna uMyAvAvyo. chokarAe jhaDapathI badho sAmAna ghoDAgADI sudhI pahoMcADyo. ghoDAgADImAM caDAvI dIdho. chokarAnI hoMziyArI, namratA joI mAravADI zeTha enA tarapha AkarSAyA. "Ane mArA ghare 2|jii 06, to po ma. bhAve..." zeThanI anubhavI po ratnane 5 / 25 yUDI. tA. "dekha beTe ! merA ghara choTI galI meM hai| galI ke aMdara ghoDAgADI nahi jA zakatI / tuM eka kAma karegA ? mere sAtha hI ghoDAgADI meM beTha jA, galI ke bAhara ghoDAgADI khaDI rahegI, vahA~ se ghara taka ye sAmAna phira se uMcakanA paDegA / karegA ye kAma ? majurI pUrI duuNgaa|" zeThe vinatirI.. chorA nahIpo. "are zeTha ! maiM kAma karane ke lie hI to huuN| calo, maiM sAtha AtA huuN|" rastAmAM zeThe chokarAne badhuM pUchI lIdhuM ke "e kyAM rahe che, sTezana para keTalo samaya majurI 42 cha ? yo 4 cha ? bhriin| paisA syAM rANe cha ? bhA-5 yA 2 cha ?" A badhA ja praznonA javAbo chokarAe kaMIka udAsa banIne ApyA. kAraNa ke enI hAlata sArI na utA. me bolyo "zeThajI ! merA koI ghara nahi hai / maiM anAtha huM / na mere mA-bApa hai, na mere bhAibahana / maiM kauna thA, vo bhI maiM nahi jAnatA ! maiM kisa taraha baDA huA, ye bhI mujhe mAluma nahi hai / jaba se maiM akkalamaMda huA huuN| taba se maiMne apane Apa ko sTezana pe hI dekhA hai| sTezana mAstara ko mere para lagAva hai / barSo se maiM yaha majurI kA kAma karatA hU~, sTezana kI kenTIna meM bhojana karatA hU~, rAta ko sTezana ke bAkaDe para so jAtA hU~, jo kucha paise bacata hote haiM, vo sTezana mAstara ko de detA hU~, vo bhalA AdamI hai, mere paise vo saMbhAlate haiN|"

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- vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo -- - chokarAnI vAto sAMbhaLI zeThanI AMkhamAM AMsu AvI gayA. koNa jANe AvA anAtha Avo to karoDonI saMkhyAmAM A dharatI para haze. zuM emanI dardanAka jIMdagI ! zeThe kahyuM "te veTe! tuM mere para je he ? para tema varanA, va para tUA...." chokaro kahe "je taiyAra che, paraMtu mApa vo sTezana mAstara vI saMmati snenI pahelI vo mere pitA samAna hai" zeThe be-traNa divasamAM ja sTezanamAstarane maLIne badhI vAta karI. sTezanamAstara to khuza thaI gayA. e jANatA hatA ke "kulInI jIMdagImAM chokarAno vikAsa kazo thavAno nathI. enA badale A mAravADI zeThane tyAM rahe to enuM bhAgya ughaDI jAya..." emaNe rajA ApI. chokarAne khAnagImAM laI jaIne sUcanA ApI ke "zeTha vAra che vahota sArI chI chI vINA rUthara-thara pachI 66 thI tupho tene ko mIlegI, lekina kabhI bhI mana bigADanA mata, apane hAthoM ko apavitra karanA mata, prAmANikatA ko gumAnA mata / kAma karane meM kabhI galatI ho jAya, nukasAna ho jAya, to kabhI bhI juTha mata bolanA, saccI bAta batA denA / zeThajI ko hamezA vaphAdAra rahenA / " ane e chokarAnI mAravADI zeThanA ghare navI jIMdagI zarU thaI. kAma karavAno utsAha, prAmANiktA, moDhAnI mIThAza... zeTha ane emano parivAra chokarA para khuza khuza thaI gayo. zeThanA gharanI najIkamAM ja derAsara-upAzraya ! comAsAmAM tyAM sAdhu bhagavaMto padhAryA. have to avAra navAra sAdhubhagavaMto dhArmika zeThane tyAM vahoravA Ave. A chokarAne anekavAra gocarI vahorAvavAno lAbha maLe. ene to A badhuM khUba game. pachI to ghare koI hAjara na hoya to paNa pote jAte ja ghare AvelA munione vyavasthita gocarI vahorAve. paristhiti e sarjANI ke gharavALA karatAM ya A nokara chokarAne gocarI vahorAvavAno anubhava vadhI gayo. ekavAra chokarAe zeThane vinaMti karI ke "topahara vo muddo lucha ma nahi hotA, 33 varU maiM upAzraya meM sAdhu bhagavaMta ke pAsa jAuM, mujhe unase milanA bahuta acchA lagatA hai|" zeTha to A sAMbhaLIne khUba AnaMda ApyA. Avo vicAra uttama AtmAne ja Ave ne? zeTha jAte ja ene upAzrayamAM AcAryadeva pAse laI gayA, eno itihAsa kahI saMbhaLAvyo ane enI bhAvanAo paNa jaNAvI. AcAryazrIe chokarAnA mukha parathI ja bhaviSyanI kalpanA karI lIdhI ane AcAryadeve roja ene sUtrAdino abhyAsa zaru karAvyo. Azcarya e thayuM ke comAsu pUrNa thAya e pahelA to A chokarAe pAMca pratikramaNano abhyAsa saMpUrNa karI lIdho. zeThanA to AnaMdano pAra nathI. eka kulI kyAM ? ane Aje pAMcapratikramaNa bhaNIne jaina banI gayelo A dhArmika yuvAna kyAM ? zeThane sauthI vadhu Azcarya to te vakhate thayuM ke jyAre eka divasa e chokarAe namra mastake zeThane vinaMti karI ke "zenI ! merI rUcha jaina sAdhu vanane vazI daiA mApa mupha saMmati hai ?''

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vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo zeThe kahyuM ke "mArI to hA che. paNa tArA pitAtulya sTezanamAstaranI rajA laI lauM." zeThe sTezanamAstarane badhI vAta jaNAvI. te paNa jAte AvIne AcAryadevane maLI gayA. jaina sAdhunA jIvana aMge praznottarI karIne badhuM jANI lIdhA bAda emane pUrNa saMtoSa thayo ane dIkSAnI rajA ApI. ane zeThe dIkSAno tamAma kharca potAnA mastake upADI laI dhAmadhUmathI dIkSA karAvI, dIkSAmAM sTezanamAstare mAtA-pitA tarIkenI badhI javAbadArI nibhAvI. A vAtane Aje lagabhaga pacAsa varSa pasAra thaI cUkyA che. Aje e chokaro 65-70 varSanI uMmare pahoMcyo che. ATalA varSanA vizALa dIkSAjIvanamAM eNe ghaNo svAdhyAya karyo, ghaNI ArAdhanAo karI. Aje e AcAryapada para birAjamAna che, potAnA samudAyanA gacchAdhipati che. vikramasaMvata 2064-65nuM cAturmAsa A AcAryadeve supArzvanAtha vAlakezvara jainasaMghamAM kareluM hatuM. dhanya che e sTezana mAstarane ! dhanya che e mAravADI zeThane ! dhanya che e bAla majurane ke je banyA kathiramAMthI kaMcana ! to dhanyAtidhanya che e jinazAsanane ! je AvA AtmAone dhanya banAve che. gautamasvAmInA vArasadAro jIvaMta che ! "dasa vAgyA sudhI pATha karavAno, e pahelA uMghavAnuM nahi. barAbara ? huM dasa vAge AvIza. huM kahuM, pachI saMthAro karaje." suratanA eka upAzrayamAM gurue ziSyane upara mujaba sUcana karyuM. gautamasvAmI tarIke prasiddhi pAmela e munirAja ! gurunI pratyeka vAta bhagavAnanI AjJA mAnI svIkAranAra e munirAja ! samarpaNamAM to Amano joTo na jaDe' evI jabaradasta prasiddhi pAmelA e munirAja ! bharayauvanavayamAM paNa uzruMkhalatAne badale namratA-parataMtratAne AtmasAta karI cUkelA e munirAja ! 'hA jI' kahIne muni tyAM besI svAdhyAya karavA lAgyA. dasa vAgI gayA, paNa guru to na AvyA. agiyAra vAgI gayA, to paNa guru na AvyA. jyAM sudhI guru AvIne uMghavAnuM na kahe, tyAM sudhI mArAthI uMghAya kema ? e vicArathI muni tyAM ja besI rahyA. 114

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- ~> vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo ~ ~ ~ paNa zarIra to zarIranuM kAma kare ja ne ? aMte TebalanA AdhAre muni jhokA khAtA khAtA tyAM ja beThA beThA suI gayA. hakIkata e banelI ke guru potAnI sUcanA bhUlI gayelA, ane saMthArI gayelA. eTale e dasa vAge AvyA nahi. cheka rAtre be vAge guru mAtra karavA mATe uThyA, acAnaka emane rAtanI vAta yAda AvI. saphALA ubhA thaI e ziSyanA sthAne gayA. joyuM to TebalanA AdhAre ziSya jhokA khAto, beTho beTho sUtelo hato. arere ! mArA pramAdamAM Ane keTalI muzkelI paDI?" gurUne duHkha thayuM. tarata eno saMthAro pAtharI daI ziSyane uThADyo, saMthArA para suvADI dIdho. ziSyanA A gajaba koTinA samarpaNa mATe gurune paNa puSkaLa bahumAna thayuM. A ziSya evo che ke gacchanA koIpaNa sAdhu sAthe maLavAnuM-besavAnuM-vAto karavAnuM thAya tyAre e pahelethI ja kahI de ke "juo, tame mane je paNa vAta karazo, e badhI vAta huM mArA gurune kahI ja devAno chuM. kazuM chupAvavAno nathI. eTale je vAta tame mArA gurune jaNAvavA IcchatA na ho, e vAta mane karatA ja nahi..." (gautamasvAmI ane mAlatuSamuni mAtra itihAsamAM suvarNAkSare lakhAI gayelA Adarza pAtro ja che, ema na mAnazo. emanA vaMzajo Aje paNa jIvatA jAgatA che. ApaNuM jIvana kevuM? zuM ApaNe dareke dareka kAma gurunA kahyA pramANe ja karIe ? zuM ApaNe AvatI-jatI badhI TapAlo gurune vaMcAvIe ? zuM ApaNe guruthI khAnagI koIpaNa vAta na ja karIe ? ApaNI apekSAo, mahattvAkAMkSAo eTalI badhI vadhI to nathI gaI ne ? ke jemAM guru ApaNane pratibaMdhaka lAgavAthI emanI upekSA karIne ja jIvana jIvavAnI vRtti-pravRtti ApaNAmAM pravezI gaI hoya ?.... zAMtacitte ApaNe badhAe vicAravAnuM che, to ja ApaNane sAco dharmano lAbha thaze.) ApavAda mArga - "juo, tapasvI mahArAja ! gurujIno Adeza Avyo che ke ApaNe tarata emanI pAse pahoMcavuM. gurujI e sthAnamAM hajI ghaNA divaso rokAvAnA che. eTale have ApaNe vihAra karavo paDaze. paNa tame vihAra karI zakazo ? pagamAM sojo thayo che, tenuM zuM karazo ?" eka yuvAna

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------------vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo------------ munirAje potAnI sAthe rahelA vRddhamunine badhI vAta karI. muMbaInA eka saMghamAM e baMne munivaro rokAyA hatA. vRddhamuninI uMmara 70 AsapAsa ! be-cAra divasa pahelA rAtre mAtra karavA jatA be pagathiyA cUkI gayA, paDyA ane sojo AvI gayo. "enI meLe maTI jaze" ema vicArIne vRddhamunie koI upacAra karAvyA nahi. paNa chevaTe duHkhAvo vadhyo. e kAraNasara ane bIjA paNa amuka kAraNasara baMne munio gurunA kahevAthI e saMghamAM rokAI gayA. guru zAsananA kArya mATe vihAra karI muMbaInA ja anya saMghamAM pahoMcyA. vRddha munirAja ! 70 AsapAsa uMmara ! paNa tapasvI ane saMyamanA khapI mahAtmA ! 91thI 96 oLI saLaMga karI, vacce mahino ArAma karI 97 thI 100 oLI eka sAthe upADI. A samaye emane 100mI oLI cAlatI hatI. 20 jeTalA AMbila thaI gayelA. emanI bhAvanA rojeroja uchALA mAratI hatI. gurunI rajA laI emaNe saMkalpa karyo ke "AkhI 100mI oLI mAtra ne mAtra koIpaNa eka ja dravya (mAtra khIcaDI, mAtra roTalI, mAtra DhokaLI ke mAtra maga...) vAparIne karavI." ane 20 jeTalA AMbila to e rIte karI paNa lIdhA. e ekadravya paNa doSita na levuM paDe, e mATe cheka be ki.mI. dUra rahelA AMbila khAte roja jAte vahoravA jAya, tyAM 50-60 AMbila roja thatA hovAthI nirdoSa gocarI maLI rahe. koIpaNa eka ja dravya vahorI lAve. pagamAM duHkhAvo sojo hovA chatAM temaNe chUTa levAno vicAra na karyo. yuvAnamunie kahyuM ke "huM roja tamArA mATe tyAM jaI AvuM..." paNa emanI jIda bhAre ! "mArA mATe mAre koIne 2 ki.mI. nathI mokalavA." ane jIda karI jAte ja gocarI jaI Ave. A rIte nirdoSa gocarI mATe roja 4 ki.mI.no vihAra thAya. chatAM prasannatA phATaphATa thAya. pagano sojo utarato na hovAthI tyAM DokTarane batAvyuM, AMbilamAM laI zakAya evI davAo zaru karI. paNa sojo ane eno duHkhAvo ghaTato na hato. Ama chatAM dhIme dhIme cAlIne paNa jAte ja dUrathI gocarI lAvavAnuM cAlu ! e saMghanA upAzraya evo ke emAM mAtru paraThavavAnI kuMDI agAsImAM hatI, eTale mAtra paraThavavA traNa mALa caDavuM paDe. ane A vRddhamunine roja rAtre traNathI cAra vAra mAtra javuM paDe. chatAM aMdhArAmAM game tyAM paraThavI devAno vicAra paNa emane na Avyo. sAthenA munine rAtre uThADavA paNa e taiyAra nahi, roja rAtre traNathI cAra vAra traNa mALa caDe, ane utare. pagano duHkhAvo sahana karatA jAya ane dhIme dhIme caDa-utara karatA jAya. chatAM phariyAdanuM nAma nahi ! AvI paristhitimAM ja eka divasa guruno Adeza Avyo ke "agatyanA kAma hovAthI tame baMne mArI pAse AvI jAo." kula 60 ki.mI.no vihAra karavAno hato. yuvAnamunine ciMtA hatI ke A vRddha muni vihAra nahi karI zake ? DoLI-vhIlaceramAM laI javA paDaze." paNa saMyamAnurAgI vRddhamuni kahe "meM kadI DoLI-vhIlacera vAparI nathI, ane huM dhIme dhIme to cAlI zakuM chuM, eTale huM vihAra karIne ja AvIza. mAre kazAno upayoga karavo nathI."

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-~~~-~~-- vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo ~~-~ ane pagamAM moTo pATo bAMdhelo hovA chatAM badhI upadhi sAthe emaNe vihAra karyo. pahelA ja divase 10 ki.mI. pahoMcyA ane duHkhAvo vadhavA lAgyo. yuvAnamunie pharI samajAvyA. chatAM "mArI zakti jyAM sudhI pahoMcaze, tyAM sudhI huM cAlIza ja. mAre DoLI-vhIlaceranA pApa karavA nathI." e eka ja zabdo emanA mukhethI nIkaLyA. bIjA divase vaLI pAcho vihAra thayo. paNa duHkhAvo asahya banyo. be divasa ArAma karI thoDIka davA badalI pharI vihAra karyo ane pAcho duHkhAvo ati-asahya banyo. pharI eka saMghamAM cAra divasa rokAI javuM paDyuM. , yuvAnamunie A divaso daramyAna vRddhamunine kahyuM ke "tame tamArI upadhi-jhoLI mane ApI do, huM uMcakI laIza." paNa yuvAnanI jIda sAme vRddhanI jIda ghaNI joradAra hatI. ane A tamAma vihAra potAnI badhI ja upadhi jAte uMcakIne ja karyo. "mane pagamAM duHkhAvo che, pITha para ke khabhA para duHkhAvo nathI. eTale upadhi-jhoLI uMcakavAmAM mane koI ja vAMdho nathI." A emanI vicAradhArA ! chevaTe yuvAnamunie A badhI vAta gurune jaNAvI. gurune lAgyuM ke "A vRddhamuni vihAra kare e ucita nathI." eTale gurue sIdhI AjJA karI ke "tamAre DoLI/vhIlaceramAM besIne ahIM AvI javuM. mAro Adeza che..." eka bAju gurvAzA ! bIjI bAju saMyamarAga ! chevaTe eka nAnakaDI bhUla e vRddhamuni karI beThA. gurvAjJAnuM ullaMghIne emaNe puSkaLa duHkhAvA vacce paNa cAlatA cAlatA ja vihAra karyo ane chellA bAkI rahelA 16 ki.mI. kula traNa vihAra dvArA pUrNa karI guru pAse pahoMcI gayA. paNa pagano sojo behada banyo, be-traNa sthAne "lohInA patthara ja hoya' evA sojA thaI gayA. laMgaDAte page ja cAlavuM paDe evI paristhiti ! gurue A badhuM joI Thapako Apyo, "gurvAjJA mAnavAmAM vadhu lAbha" e samajAvyuM. AMkhanA AMsu sAthe vRddhamuni bolyA "huM pharI AvI bhUla nahi karuM. ApanI AjJA avazya pALIza..." 20 divasa e ja sthAne rokAyA, ghaNA upacAro karyA, paNa e sojo vihArAdinA kAraNe puSkaLa puSkaLa vadhI gayelo... 20 divase paNa ThekANuM na paDyuM. mAtra ArAma thavAne lIdhe 40% thI 50% jeTalo sudhAro thayo. paNa laMgaDAtA page ja cAlavuM paDe... evI paristhiti to ubhI ja rahI ! e ja gALAmAM be-cAra divasa harpisanA roganI tIvratama baLatarAo anubhavI. A sahana karatA rahyA ane makkamatA sAthe 100mI oLInI ArAdhanA paNa karatA rahyA. pAraNuM karI levAno vicAra paNa nahi. gurunA AdezathI ekane badale be-traNa dravyathI AMbila zaru karyA. kharI vAta have Ave che.

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vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo acAnaka gurunI ja tabiyata nabaLI paDatA e badhA sAdhuoe tAtkAlika vihAra nakkI thayo. vRddha muni muMjhAyA. gurue Adeza karyo ke "tamane ahIM rAkhI zakAya ema nathI. tamAre mArI sAthe ja AvavAnuM che. huM ghaNuM vicAryA bAda tamane Adeza karuM chuM ke tamAre vhIlaceramAM besIne mArI sAthe AvavAnuM. mAtra eka ja divasano vihAra che, tyAM pAchuM aThavADiyuM rokAvAnuM ja che." gurvAzA mAnavAnI pratijJA laI cUkelA vRddhamunie e vAta to svIkArI, paNa aMdara paDelo saMyamarAga, vhIlacerAdi doSo na sevavA mATenI dhagaza, jIvadayAno pariNAma... e badhuM thoDuM ja jatuM rahe ? ane emanA manamAM valopAta zaru thayo. ane sAMje vihArasamaye e vhIlaceramAM beThA. 15-17 sAdhuo sAthe ja hatA. guru paNa mAMdagI-ghaDapaNAdinA kAraNe vhIlaceramAM hatA... paNa A vRddhamuni 70 varSanI uMmare sau prathamavAra vhIlaceramAM besatA hatA. sAthe mANasa na rAkhavo paDe e mATe sAdhuo ja vhIlacerane dhakko lagAvatA. paNa hajI to vhIlacera calAvavAnI zaru paNa thaI na hatI, tyAM to e munirAjano pazcAttApa hada vaTAvI gayo, aMtaranI vedanA dhodhamAra AMsu sAthe bahAra vahevA lAgI. "mAre A vhIlaceranuM pApa karavuM paDe che. o bhagavAna ! mane bacAvaje..." bIjA vaDIla sAdhuoe hetathI mAthe hAtha pheravI AzvAsana ApyuM, "tame to gurvAzAnuM pAlana karo cho, tame kaMI sukhazIla thoDA ja banyA cho ! ane jo tame cAlavA jazo, sojo vadhI jaze to ? eTale zAMta thaI jAo." paNa saMvignatAnI asara ema to kema ochI thAya ? sAMjano e cAra ki.mI.no vhIlaceramAM karelo vihAra emane rovaDAvyA ja karato hato. nAnA bALakanI AMkhanA AMsunI mAphaka emanA AMsu sukAtA ja na hatA. upAzraye pahoMcyA, gurunA khoLAmAM mAthuM mUkI dhrusake dhrusake raDyA. emanI IcchA hatI ke guru emane cAlavAnI rajA Ape... paNa ekavAra Adeza thayA bAda potAnI IcchA vyakta karavAnI e hiMmata na karI zakyA. guru paNa emanA paganA sojAnI gaMbhIratA nihALI cAlavAnI rajA kema Ape ? kadAca paga kapAvI nAMkhavA paDe eTalI hade roga vakare to ? A sojAnA eka mahInA daramyAna sAdhuo emanuM paDilehaNa karavA jAya, paNa e vRddhamuni eka paNa vastranuM paDilehaNa na karavA de. bumo pADI pADIne DilehaNa karatA aTakAve. "mAre bIjAnI sevA levI nathI. beThA beThA huM badhuM ja karI zakuM chuM, pachI huM bIjA pAse paDilehaNa zA mATe karAvuM ?" ekavAra gurue jAheramAM kaheluM ke "sAdhuo potAnA pAraNA khAnagI rIte ja kare, jAheramAM nahi..." ane A tapasvImunine e manamAM besI gayuM. "mAre paNa mArI 100mI oLInuM pAraNuM khAnagI rIte ja karavuM che." evI aMtaranI bhAvanA pragaTa karI dIdhI. (ApaNe A vRddha + tapasvI + glAna muni pAsethI ghaNuM badhuM zIkhavAnuM che evuM nathI lAgatuM ? 1180

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-~~~-~~~ vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo~~~~~~~ - nAnA-moTA tapamAM doSita to vAparI zakAya, emAM vAMdho nahi." evuM to ApaNe nathI mAnatA ne? A munie 100mI oLImAM eka dravya vAparavAmAM paNa doSita na levAno suMdara-sajjaDa prayatna karyo che. > nAnI nAnI bimArImAM ke lAMbA vihAromAM ke prasaMgo mATe jhaTa jhaTa DoLI-vahIlacerano upayoga karI levAnuM to ApaNuM valaNa nathI ne ? A munirAja 70 varSanI uMmare, 100mI oLImAM, paganA moTA sojA ane duHkhAvAmAM paNa ane gurunI saMpUrNarajA hovA chatAM paNa vhIlacerAdi vAparavA lagIre taiyAra nathI. > jarAka kaMIka muzkelI thAya eTale saMpUrNa parAdhIna banI javuM, bIjA pAse vaiyAvacca levI, mAMDalInuM kAma choDI devuM... evI ALasu manovRtti to ApaNI nathI ne ? A muni vRddha + glAna + tapasvI hovA chatAM vaiyAvacca levA to taiyAra nathI ja, uparathI mAMDalInuM kAma ane bhakti.. baMne mATe ati-utsAhI che. > tapasvIne vigaI khAnArAo pratye sabhAva-ahobhAva ocho thAya... evuM bane. paNa A munine ekadivasa sahavartI muni mATe vadhaghaTamAM gocarI lAvavAno lhAvo maLyo, to e khuza khuza thaI gayA. "Aje mane bhaktino lAbha maLyo." ema bolI uThyA. ApaNuM valaNa kevuM? yatijItakalpamAM kahyuM che ke sAco sAdhu apavAdamArge doSa seve, to paNa e khUba pazcAttApa kare. jo ene pazcAttApa na thAya, to ene apavAdamArga sevavAno adhikAra nathI. e ananutApI zabdathI oLakhAya che. apavAdasevana karavuM ja paDe. to kevI rIte karavuM? e A munirAja pAsethI ApaNane zIkhavA maLe che.) rogI banyA saMcamarAgI ! e benane janmathI ja phITano roga ! dara mahine ekAdavAra phITa Ave. AkhuM zarIra kheMcAya, bena bebhAna banI jAya. be divasa sudhI zarIra AkhuM jaDa banI jAya. varSonA varSo A rIte vItyA. A benanI sagI be benoe dIkSA lIdhelI. ekavAra emano patra Avyo ke "tame pajusaNa karavA ahIM vaDodarA Avazo to ArAdhanA sArI thaze..." ane phITavALA bena potAnI bA sAthe sagI bena sAdhvIo pAse prathamavAra dharmArAdhanA karavA vaDodarA gayA. sAdhvIjIonI preraNAthI cosaTha praharI pauSadhano prAraMbha karyo. "tamAre phITanI takalIpha che, eTale ekAsaNA ja karavA." ema sAdhvIjIoe preraNA ApI, chatAM A benano bhAva uchaLato rahyo, ane pahelA divase upavAsa karyo. bIjA divase

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-~ --vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo ~-~~+ nabaLAInA kAraNe phITa AvI, paNa na pauSadha pAravAnI vAta ke ekAsaNuM karavAnI vAta ! mana makkama karI bIjA divase paNa upavAsa karyo. trIjA divase nabaLAI vadhavA chatAM pharI upavAsa karyo... ane e rIte bene jIvanamAM pahelIvAra aDhAInI tapazcaryA karI. emano utsAha khUba ja vadhI gayo. bIje varSe pharI potAnA bena sAdhvIjIo pAse ArAdhanA mATe A bena gayA, ane emaNe Azcaryajanaka vAta karI. "janmathI mAMDIne je roga mane vaLagelo hato, dara mahine jeno humalo Avato hato, e roga gayA varSe aDhAI karyA bAda saMpUrNapaNe baMdha thaI gayo. ekavarSathI phITa AvI ja nathI." have e bene abhyAsa zaru karyo. kSayopazama ocho eTale rojanI cAra-pAMca kalAkanI mahenata kare, tyAre mAMDa cAra divase eka gAthA yAda rahe... thoDA samaya bAda sAdhvIbeno muMbaI AvyA, tyAre A bene kahyuM ke "mAre dIkSA levI che..." sAdhvIbeno muMjhAyA, "atimaMda kSayopazama, bhale varSathI phITa AvI nathI, paNa pAcho roga zaru thAya to ? sAcavavuM bhAre paDe..." ane emaNe dIkSAnI nA pADI. paNa A benano vairAgya colamajIThanA raMga jevo hato. e cheka sAdhvIbenonA guru pAse pahoMcI gayA ane haiyAnA bhAva jaNAvyA. gurue sAdhvIbenone Adeza Apyo ke "jo A benane "mA" sAsare mokalaze, to tene keTalI ciMtA raheze? je "mAe tamane A sthAna sudhI pahoMcADyA che, enA upakArane yAda karIne tame A tamArI benane sAcavI lo." aMte dIkSA thaI. A bene dIkSA bAda pahelA ja varSe mAsakSamaNanI ArAdhanA karI, e uparAMta zatruMjaya tapa, zreNItapa, siddhitapa, be varSItapa, vIsasthAnaka tapa, 500 AMbila, vardhamAnatapanI 79 oLIo, papamI oLI kariyAtu ane roTalI ema mAtra be ja dravyathI papa divasa maunapUrvaka karI. teo loca paNa jAte ja kare che ane 20 varSano dIkSAparyAya thaI gayo hovA chatAM potAnuM badhuM kAma jAte ja kare che. (phITa jevI vicitra bimArI. dara mahine be divasa bebhAna karI denArI bimArI... chatAM eka mumukSu jyAre makkama bane che, vairAgI bane che... tyAre e kyAMthI kyAM sudhI pahoMcI zake che, e AnA uparathI spaSTa rIte samajI zakAya che. eTale ja "huM mAMdo chuM, mArAthI have kazuM na thAya." evI evI dInatAono bhoga banavAne badale utsAhapUrvaka sakhata puruSArtha Adaravo e ja eka suMdara mArga che.)

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0 svAdhyAyopayogI (1) kalyANa maMdira pustako OUhi sAdhana grantho. (1) kalyANa maMdira (2) raghuvaMza (1-2 sarga) (3) kIrAtAjuMnIya (1-2 sarga) (4) zizupAlavadha (1-2 sarga). (5). naiSadhIyacaritam (1-2 sarga) zloka, artha, samAsa, anvaya, bhAvArtha sahita. thAya siddhAMta muktAvali (bhAga 1-2) | gujarAtI vivecana sahita. thAptipaMcaka... candrazekharIyAvRtti sahita siddhAnta lakSaNa (bhAga 1-2)... candrazekharIyAvRtti sahita 1mAnyanirukti (gujarAtI vivecana) * vicchedakatvanirukti (gujarAtI vivecana) Agama grantho ) oghaniryukti (bhAga 1-2) droNAcArya vRtti + gujarAtI bhASAMtara (pratAkAre) o.ni. sAroddhAra (bhAga 1-2) viziSTa paMktio upara vivecana (pratAkAre) dasavaikAlika sUtra (bhAga 1 thI 4) hAribhadrIvRtti + gujarAtI bhASAMtara Avazyaka niryukti | (hAribhadrI vRtti - gujarAtI bhASAMtara sahita bhAga 1 thI 8) uttarAdhyayana sUtra (zAMtisUrivRtti - gujarAtI bhASAMtara sahita adhyayana-1) upadezamALA-siddharSigaNivRtti (54 gAthA) (gujarAtI bhASAMtara sahita) siddhInAradasthavitH (oghaniryuktinI viziSTa paMktionuM rahasya kholatI navI candrazekharIyA saMskRta vRtti) (saMyama-adhyAtma-pariNatipoSaka grantho sAmAcArI prakaraNa (bhAga 1-2) candrazekharIyAvRtti gujarAtI bhASAMtara sahita (dasavidha sAmAcArI) yogaviMzikA candrazekharIyA vRtti sahita svAdhyAyIo khAsa vAMce svAdhyAya mArgadarzikA (silebasa) 0 zAstrAbhyAsanI kaLA (zI rIte grantho bhaNavA?' enI paddhati) mumukSuone-nUtanadIkSitone-saMyamIone atyaMta upayogI pustako. munijIvananI bALapothI (bhAga 1-2-3) * saMvigna saMyamIonI niyamAvalI have to mAtra ne mAtra sarvavirati, gAmAtA , vaMdanA , zaraNAgati * mahApaMthanA ajavALA 1 A naveka pustako ne pratyeka virATa jAge che tyAre , tribhuvanaprakAza mahAvIra deva AtmArthIe avazya vAMcavA jevA che. mahAbhiniSkramaNa , uMDA aMdhArethI, virAganI mastI * dhana te munivarA re...(dasavidha zramaNadharma para 108 kaDI + vistRta vivecana vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabI (bhAga 1-2-3-4)...(450 AsapAsa zreSTha prasaMgo) aSTapravacana mAtA...(ATha mAtA upara vistRta vivecana) , mahAvrato...(pAMca mahAvrato. upara vistRta vivecana) , jainazAstronA cUMTelA zloko bhAga 1-2 (arthasahita) AtmasaMprekSaNa...(AtmAnA doSo kevI rIte jovA ? pakaDavA ? enuM virATa varNana) mumukSuone mArgadarzana...(dIkSA levAmAM naDaratabhUta banatA aneka praznonuM samAdhAna.) 350 gAthAnuM stavana (bhAga-1-2-3)...pAMca DhALa upara vistRta vivecana sahita pradAna viveka (zrAvikAone bheTamAM ApavA-sAcI samaja ApavA maMgAvI zakazo.) AtmakathA (viratidUtanI 11 AtmakathAono saMgraha) dazavaikAlikacUlikAnuM vivecana zalyoddhAra (AlocanA karavA mATe upayogI sUkSmatama aticAra sthAnono saMgraha) viratidUta mAsika 1 thI 120 aMkano Akho seTa jene paNa joie, te meLavI zake che.

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toDa liMkAsamAM hinthanI asvacchatA jI ajAyabIo paMcamahAdddhArI sAdhu sAdhvIjIoeTale jevA! kayAMya rAga nAmanA lepathIlipta na bane. jevA! kayAMya kSetramAM - thAnamAM zagana rAkhe. jevA! AnA vinA na ja cAle evuM emane na hoya. jevA! ativihA2 DeristharavAsa... beyathI bacIne vihare. jevA! Indriyone kAbUmAM rAkhe. jevA! mamatvabhAva na rAkhe, paragrahana rAkhe. ' jevA! badhAnI sAthe rahevA chatAM eNo haM bhAvanAthI bhAvita bane. - jevA! kriyAomAM gajaba koTinI apramattatA sAdhe. na jevA! pAMca mahAvratono bhAra UMcakavAmAM kayAreya na thAo. A pustaka vAMcazo, to tamane lAgaze che haLAhaLa kaliyugamAM paNa AvA sAdhu-sAdhvIjIo birAjamAna che. e ja che ApaNI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo !