Nijdosh Darshan Thi Nirdosh

Author(s): Dada Bhagwan
Publisher: Dada Bhagwan Foundation
Catalog link: https://jainqq.org/explore/008862/1

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nijadoSa darzanathI... nidaSi ! jagatathI chUTavA mATe.... jagata AkhuM ya nirdoSa che. mane potAne anubhavamAM Ave che. tamane e anubhavamAM Avaze tyAre tame A jagatathI chUTyA. nahI to koI eka paNa jIva doSita lAgaze tyAM sudhI tame chUTyA nathI. -dAdAzrI lIlA

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samarpaNa nijadoSa darzana viNa, baMdhana bhavobhava taNuM; khule draSTi svadoSa dekhyAnI, tare bhavasAgara ghaNuM. huM 'caMdu' mAnyuM tyAMthI, mULa bhUlanuM thayuM UgamaNuM; 'huM zuddhAtmA'nuM bhAna thatAM, thavA mAMDe bhUlonuM UThamaNuM. bhagavAna uparI, kartA jagano, pachI vaLagI anaMta aNasamajaNuM; vAge rekarDa paNa mAne bolyo, tethI hADohADa vAge, veNuM. bhUlo vaLagI rahI zAthI ? lIdhuM tenuM sadA uparANuM; bhUlone maLI jAya khorAka, kaSAyonuM peTa bharAyuM. jyAM sudhI rahe nija bhUlo, tyAM sudhI ja bhogavaNuM; dekhAya svadoSo jyAM jAta, mATe pUrNa niSpakSapaNuM. deha-AtmAnA bhedAMkanaviNa, pakSa rahe sadA jAta taNuM; 'jJAnI' bhedajJAna thakI, rekhAMkana AMke sva-para taNuM. pachI doSane dekhe tyAMthI ThAra, mazInagana mahIM goThavANuM; doSo dhovAnI mAsTara kI, dekhe tyAMthI kara 'paDakamaNuM'. bhUla bhAMge te bhagavAna, na rahyuM koinuM uparIpaNuM; 'jJAnI'nuM adbhUta jJAna, pragaTe nija paramAtmapaNuM. zuddhAtmA thai jue, aMtaHkaraNanAM aNu e aNu; 'bAvA'nA doSo dhovAya, sUkSmatva sudhInuM zuddhikaraNuM. nijadoSa darzana draSTi, 'dAdAvANI' Aja pramANuM; nijadoSa chedana kAja graMtha dharANuM jagata caraNuM. 3 trimaMtra

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'dAdA bhagavAna' koNa ? jUna 1958nI e samI sAMjano chaeka vAgyAno samaya, bhIDamAM dhamadhamatAM suratanAM sTezana para beThelA e.ema.paTela rUpI dehamaMdiramAM 'dAdA bhagavAna' saMpUrNapaNe pragaTa thayA ane kudarate saryuM adhyAtmanuM adbhuta Azcarya ! eka klAkamAM vizvadarzana lAdhyuM ! ' ApaNe koNa ? bhagavAna koNa ? jagata koNa calAve che ? karma zuM ? mukti zuM ?'I. jagatanAM tamAma AdhyAtmika praznonAM saMpUrNa phoDa paDyA ! emane prApti thaI te ja rIte mAtra be ja klAkamAM, anyane paNa prApti karAvI ApatAM, emanA adbhUta jJAnaprayogathI ! ene akrama mArga kahyo, krama eTale pagathiye pagathiye, krame krame UMce caDhavAnuM ! akrama eTale krama vinAno, liphTa mArga ! zorTakTa !! teozrI svayaM pratyekane 'dAdA bhagavAna koNa ?'no phoDa pADatA kahetAM ke, "A dekhAya che te 'dAdA bhagavAna ' nhoya, ame to jJAnI puruSa chIe ane mahIM pragaTa thayelA che te dAdA bhagavAna che, je cauda lokanA nAtha che, e tamArAmAM ya che, badhAmAM ya che. tamArAmAM avyaktarUpe rahelA che ne 'ahIM' saMpUrNapaNe vyakta thayelA che ! huM pote bhagavAna nathI. mArI aMdara pragaTa thayelA dAdA bhagavAnane huM paNa namaskAra karuM chuM.' AtmajJAna prAptinI pratyakSa lIMka - parama pUjya dAdAzrI gAmegAma-dezavideza paribhramaNa karIne mumukSu jIvone satsaMga tathA svarUpajJAnanI prApti karAvatAM hatAM. teozrIe potAnI hayAtImAM ja pUjya DaoN. nIrubahena amInane AtmajJAna prApti karAvavAnI jJAnasiddhi Apela. - parama pUjya dAdAzrInA dehavilaya bAda Aje paNa pUjya DaoN. nIrubahena amIna temanA pagale pagale te ja rIte mumukSu jIvone satsaMga tathA AtmajJAnanI prAti nimitta bhAve karAvI rahyA che, jeno lAbha laIne hajAro mumukSuo saMsAramAM rahIne javAbadArIo pUrI karatAM paNa mukta rahI AtmaramaNatA anubhave che. saMpAdakIya A jagatamAM pote baMdhAyelo che zAnAthI ? du:kha kema bhogavavA paDe che ? zAMti kaI rIte maLI zake ? mukti kaI rIte pamAya ? to A jagatamAM baMdhana potAne potAnI bhUlothI ja che, potAne jagatamAM koi vastue bAMdhyA nathI. nathI ghara-bAra bAMdhatuM, nathI bairI-chokarAM bAMdhatA, nathI dhaMdhA-lakSmI bAMdhatA ke nathI deha bAMdhI zakto. potAnI bleDarsa ane misTekathI baMdhAyA che ! arthAt nija svarUpanI ajJAnatA e sarva bhUlonuM mULa che ane pachI pariNAme anaMtI bhUlo, sUkSmatamathI laIne sthULatamarUpe bhUlo sarjAyA ja kare che. ajJAnatAthI draSTi doSita thai che ane rAga-dveSa thAya che ne navA karma baMdhAyA kare che. svarUpa'jJAna' prApti thaye draSTi nirdoSa pamAya che. pariNAme rAga-dveSa kSaya thai, karmabaMdhanathI mukta thai vItarAga thavAya che. bhUlonuM svarUpa zuM ? potAnI jAtane samajavAmAM mULa bhUgla thai che, pachI pote nirdoSa che, karekTa ja che ema manAya che ane sAmevALAne doSita manAya che, nimittane bacakAM bharavA sudhI paNa gunAo thayA kare che. atre prastuta saMkalanamAM jJAnI puruSa evI ja samajaNa Ape che ke jethI potAnI bhUla bharI draSTi chUTe, nirdoSa draSTi pragaTe. parama pUjya dAdAzrI vAraMvAra kahetA A jagata kaI rIte nirdoSa che, tenAM emane hajAro pUrAvA hAjara thai jAgRti rahe che. paNa je pUrAvA teozrInA jJAnamAM avalokana thayA te kayA haze ? te atre sujJa vAcakane eka pachI eka prApta thayA kare che. prastuta saMkalana jo jhINavaTabharI rIte 'sTaDI' karavAmAM Ave to vAcakane nirdoSa draSTinA aneka draSTikoNa saMprApta thAya tema che ! je pariNAme nirdoSa draSTinA paMthe potAne paNa lai jaze. kAraNa ke jeonI saMpUrNa draSTi nirdoSa thai che temanI A vANI vAcakane avazya te draSTinI samaja prApta karAvaze ja ! bIjAnA doSo jovAthI, doSita draSTithI saMsAra khaDo che ane nirdoSa draSTithI saMsAra virame che ! e pote saMpUrNa nirdoSa thAya. nirdoSa sthiti pAmavI kai rIte ? bIjAnAM nahIM paNa potAnA ja doSa jovAthI. potAnA doSo kevA kevA hoya che, tenI sUkSma samaja atre agopita thAya che. khUba ja jhINI jhINI doSa draSTine khullI karI nirdoSa draSTi banAvavAnI parama pUjaya dAdAzrInI kaLA ane sujJa vAcakane jIvanamAM khUba upayogI thaI paDe tema che. nimittane AdhIna, saMjogo, kSetra, kALane AdhIna nIkaLelI vANInA prastuta saMkalanamAM bhAsita kSatijorUpI doSane kSamyagaNI te pratye paNa nirdoSa draSTi rAkhI muktimArgano puruSArtha AdarI saMpUrNa nirdoSa draSTi pamAya e ja abhyarthanA ! - DaoN. nIrubahena amIna

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upodghAta tijadoSa darzanathI.... tirdoSa ! 'bIjAno doSa jovAthI karma baMdhAya, potAnA doSa jovAthI karmamAMthI chUTAya.' A che karmano siddhAMta. 'huM to doSa anaMtanuM bhAjana chuM karuNALa.' - zrImad rAjacaMdra anaMta avatArathI anaMta doSo A jIve sevyA. A anaMta doSonuM mULa eka ja doSa, eka ja bhUla che. jenA AdhAre anaMta doSonI vaLagaNA vartAi che. e kai bhUla haze ? moTAmAM moTo mULa doSa 'potAnA svarUpanuM ajJAna' e ja che ! 'huM koNa chuM ?" ATaluM ja nahIM samajAvAthI jAta jAtanI roMga bilipho UbhI thai gai ne temAM ja rAcyA anaMta avatArathI. kyAreka koi avatAramAM jJAnI puruSano bheTo thai jAya tyAre "e" bhUla bhAMge pachI badhI bhUlo bhAMgavA mAMDe. kAraNa ke 'jonAro' jAgRta thAya eTale badhI ja bhUlo dekhAvA mAMDe ane je bhUla dekhAya te avazya jAya. tethI to kRpALudeve AgaLa kahyuM, 'dIThA nahIM nija doSa to karIe koNa upAya ?' potAnA doSa dekhAya nahIM to tarIe kai rIte ? e to 'jonAro' jAgRta thAya to thAya. jagatanI vAstavikatAno khyAla nahIM hovAthI bhrAMta mAnyatAomAM ke je Dagale ne pagale virodhAbhAsavALI hoya che, temAM manuSya aTavAyA kare che. jene A saMsAramAM niraMtara bojo lAgyA kare che, baMdhana gamatuM nathI. muktinA je cAhaka che, teNe to jagatanI vAstavikatAo, jema ke A jagata koNa calAve che ? kevI rIte calAve che ? baMdhana zuM ? mokSa zuM ? karma zuM ? i.i. jANavI Avazyaka che ! ApaNo uparI varlDamAM koi che ja nahIM ! pote ja paramAtmA che ke pachI tenAthI uparI anya koNa hoi zake ? ane A bhogavaTAvALo vyavahAra AvI paDyo che, tenA mULamAM potAnI ja 'bleDarsa ane mIsTeksa' che ! 'pote koNa che' te nathI jANyuM ane lokoe ja kahyuM ke tuM caMdubhAi che. tevuM pote mAnyuM ke 'huM caMdubhAi chuM', e UMdhI mAnyatA ja mULa bhUla ane emAMthI AgaLa bhUlanI paraMparAo sarjAya che. A jagatamAM koi svataMtra kartA ja nathI, naimittika kartA che. aneka nimitto bhegA thAya tyAre eka kArya thAya. tyAre ApaNA loko ekAda dekhItuM nimitta potAnA ja rAga-dveSanA naMbaravALA cazmAmAMthI joine pakaDI lai tene ja bacakAM bhare che, tene ja doSita jue che. pariNAme potAnA ja cazmAno kAca jADo ne jADo thato jAya che (naMbara vadhe che). A jagatamAM koi koinuM bagADI nA zake, koi koine saLI nA karI zake. je saLIo ApaNane vAge che temAM mULamAM ApaNI ja karelI saLIonAM pariNAmo che. jyAM mULamAM 'potAnI' ja bhUla che, tyAM AkhuM jagata nirdoSa nathI karatuM? potAnI bhUla bhAMge to pachI varlDamAM koNa ApaNuM nAma denAra che ? A to ApaNe ja AmaMtyA te ja sAmA AvyA che ! jeTalA AgrahathI AmaMtryA eTalI ja coMTa sAthe vaLagyA ! je bhUla vagaranA che tene to bahAravaTiyAonA gAmamAM ya koi nAma nA de ! eTalo to badho pratApa che zIlano ! potAthI koIne duHkha thAya tenuM kAraNa pote ja che ! jJAnIothI koine kiMcitmAtra duHkha nA thAya. Urdu anekone parama sukhIyA banAvI de che ! jJAnI sarva bhUlo bhAMgIne beThAM che tethI ! potAnI eka bhUla bhAMge te paramAtmA thai zake ! A bhUlo zenA AdhAre TakI che ? bhUlonA uparANA lIdhAM tethI ! tenuM rakSaNa karyuM tethI ! krodha thai gayA pachI pote tenuM Ama uparANuM le, 'jo ene ema krodha nA karyo hota to e pAMsaro thAta ja nahIM !' A vIsa varSanA AyuSyanuM eksaTenzana karI ApyuM krodhanuM ! bhUlonuM uparANuM levAnuM baMdha thAya to e bhUla jAya. bhUlone khorAka Ape, tethI te khase ja nahIM ! ghara karI jAya. A bhUlo kema karIne bhaMgAya ? pratikramaNathI-pastAvAthI ! kaSAyono aMdhApo doSa dekhavA na de. jagata AkhuM bhAvanidrAmAM poDhI rahyuM che eTale ja to pote potAnuM ja ahita karI rahyo che ! 'huM zuddhAtmA chuM" evuM bhAna thaye bhAvanidrA UMDe ne jAgRta thAya.

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bhUlonuM rakSaNa koNa kare che ? buddhi ! vakIlanI jema bhUlanAM phevaranI vakIlAta karI buddhi caDhI bese 'ApaNI' upara ! eTale calaNa cAle pachI buddhinuM. potAnI bhUlono ekarAra karI nAkhe tyAM bhUlonuM rakSaNa UDe che ne pachI tene vidAya levI ja paDe ! ApaNane je bhUla dekhADe te to mahAna upakArI ! je bhUlo jovA potAne puruSArtha karavo paDe, te sAme cAlIne koi ApaNane dekhADI de, tenAthI saraLa bIjuM zuM ? jJAnI puruSa opana Tu skAya (khulleAma) hoya. bALaka jevAM hoya. nAnuM bALake ya 'emane' vinA saMkoce bhUla batADI zake ! pote bhUlano svIkAra paNa kare ! koi paNa bUrI Adata paDI hoya to temAMthI chUTAya kai rIte ? kAyamane mATe 'A Adata khoTI ja che' evuM aMdara temaja bahAra jAheramAM rahevuM joie, eno khUba pastAvo dareka vakhate levo joie ane enuM uparANuM ekeya vAra na levAya to e bhUla jAya. burI Adato kADhavAnI A parama pUjya dAdAzrInI AgavI zodhakhoLa che ! vItarAga pAse potAnA sarva doSonI AlocanA karyo e doSo tatkSaNa jAya ! jema bhUla bhAMge tema sUjha khulatI jAya.' parama pUjya dAdAzrIno siddhAMta zIkhI levA jevo che. je phariyAda kare che te ja gunegAra che !' tane sAmo gunegAra kema dekhAyo ? phariyAda zA mATe karavI paDI ? TIkA karavI eTale dasanuM karavuM eka ! zaktio veDaphAya ne khoTa jAya ! sAmAnI bhUla dekhAya teTalI nAlAyakatA mahIM rahI. bUrAM Azayo ja bhUlo dekhADe. ApaNane koNe nyAyAdhIza tarIke nImyA ? potAnI prakRti pramANe kAma kare sahu. pa.pU dAdAzrI kahe che, 'huM ya mArI prakRti pramANe kAma karuM chuM. prakRti to hoya ja ne ! paNa ame moMDhe kahI daie ke mane tArI A bhUla dekhAya che. tAre jarUra hoya to svIkArI leje, nahIM to bAjue mUkaje.' prathama gharamAM ne pachI bahAranA badhAya nirdoSa dekhAze tyAre jANavuM ke muktinA sopAna caDhyA. bIjAnA nahIM paNa potAnA ja doSo dekhAvA mAMDyA tyAre jANavuM ke thayuM samakita have ! ane jeTalA doSa dekhAya te thAya vidAya, kAyamane mATe ! sAmAnA avaguNa ke guNa beu jovAya nahIM ! aMte to banneya prAkRta guNo ja che ne ! vinAzI ja che ne ! enA zuddhAtmA ja jovAya. parama pUjya dAdAzrI kahe che, 'gajavuM kApanAro hoya ke cAritryahIna hoya, tene ya ame nirdoSa ja joie ! ame sat vastune ja joie. e tAttvika draSTi che. pekIMgane ame jotAM nathI.' jagata nirdoSa jovAnI A eka mAtra "mAsTara kI' che ! potAnI bhUlonI khabara kyAre paDe ? jJAnI puruSa dekhADe tyAre. mAthe jJAnI puruSa nA hoya to badho svacchaMda ja gaNAya. ajavALAnI bhUlono to kyAreka ukela Ave paNa aMdhArAnI bhUlo jAya ja nahIM ne ! aMdhArAnI bhUlo eTale 'huM jANuM chuM' !!! akrama jJAnanI prApti pachI mAtra aMdaranuM jovAmAM Ave to tame 'kevaLajJAna' sattAmAM hazo. aMza kevaLajJAna thAya, sarvAza nahIM. mahIM mana, buddhi, citta, ahaMkArane joyA karavuM. parasattAnA paryAyo joyA karavA. 'vastu, vastuno svabhAva cUke te pramatta kahevAya. vastu enA mULa dharmamAM rahe te apramatta bhAva.' mokSa kyAre thAya ? 'tAruM jJAna ane tArI samajaNa bhUla vagaranI thaze tyAre.' bhUlathI ja aTakyuM che. japa-tapanI jarUra nathI, bhUla vagaranA thavAnI jarUra che. mULa bhUla kaI ? 'huM koNa chuM'nuM ajJAna. e bhUla koNa bhAMge ? jJAnI puruSa ja. doSa nIkaLe kaI rIte ? doSa peTho kevI rIte e khabara paDe to kADhavAno rasto jaDe. doSa zraddhAthI, pratItithI pese che ane zraddhAthI, pratItithI e nIkaLe. so TakA mArI ja bhUla che evI pratIti thAya, pachI e bhUlanuM eka senTa paNa rakSaNa nA thAya tyAre e bhUla jAya ! je je bhagavAna thayA te potAnI bhUlo bhAMgIne bhagavAna thayA ! parama pUjya dAdAzrI kahe che, 'bhUla kone dekhAya ? bhUla vagaranuM cAritra saMpUrNa

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darzanamAM hoya ane bhUlavALu vartana enA vartanamAM hoya, to ene 'ame' chUTo thayelo kahIe chIe.' amane amArI sUkSmamAM sUkSma temaja sUkSmatara ane sUkSmatama bhUlo badhI ja dekhAya. doSa thAya teno daMDa nathI paNa doSa dekhAya tenuM InAma che. InAmamAM doSa jAya. te AtmajJAna pachI 'pote' potAnI jAta mATe niSpakSapAtI thAya che, tethI potAnI badhI ja bhUlo joI zake che ! zuddha upayogIne koI karma aDe nahIM. buddhi haMmezAM samAdhAna khoLe che, sthiratA khoLe che. buddhi sthira kyAre thAya ? bIjAnA doSa jue to buddhi sthira thAya agara to potAnA doSa jue to ya buddhi sthira thAya. ajJAnatAmAM bIjAnA ja doSa jue, potAnA dekhAya ja nahIM. buddhi sthira na thAya eTale hAlamaDola thayA kare. pachI AkhuM aMtaHkaraNa halAvI nAkhe, hullaDa macAvI de. te pAchI buddhi bIjAnA doSa dekhADe eTale pote sAcI TharIne sthira thAya! pachI hullaDa zAMta thaI jAya ! nahIM to vicAronuM dhamasANa cAlyA ja kare ane A rIte jagatamAM Dakho thaI rahyo che. AvI jhINI vAta kayA zAstramAM jaDe ?! jagatanuM saravaiyuM koI zAstramAM jaDe evuM nathI, e to jJAnI pAse ja maLe. sAmAnA doSa dekhAya te ja saMsAranI adhikaraNa kriyA ! mokSe janAro potAnI bhUlo joyA kare ane saMsAramAM bhaTakanArA pArakAnI bhUlo joyA kare ! abhiprAya rAkhavAthI draSTi doSita thaI jAya che. pratikramaNathI abhiprAya tUTe che ne navuM mana baMdhAtuM nathI. AtmadraSTi thayA pachI... dehAdhyAsa chUTe ane AtmAno adhyAsa bese tyAra pachI nijadoSa ja keTalAMka doSo barapharUpe jAmelA hoya, te jaldI zI rIte jAya ? aneka dekhAya. paDovALA hoya te dhIme dhIme jAya. jema jema doSa dekhAya, tema tema paDa ukhaDatA jAya. jema kAMdAnA paDa hoya tema bahu cIkaNA doSonAM bahu pratikramaNa karavA paDe. 'caMdubhAI'nA doSa thAya ne potAne nA game to e doSa dekhAyo kahevAya ane dekhAya te jAya. jIvana potAnA ja pApa-puNyanI gunegArInuM pariNAma che. phUlA paDe te puNyanuM ne patharA paDe te pApanuM pariNAma che ! kiMmata che samatAbhAve bhogavI levAnI. moTA bhAganI gUMco vANIthI paDe che. tyAM jAgRti rAkhI ke mauna sevI ukela lavAya. samyak draSTine navA doSo bharAtAM nathI ne jUnA khAlI thAya che. jJAnaprApti pachI ya kaSAya thaI jAya paNa tenI tarata khabara paDe ne juduM rahe. akrama vijJAnIe to jJAna ApIne pacIseya prakAranA mohano nAza karI Apyo. suTevo-kuTevo baMnevane bhrAMti kahI choDAvyA che sarvathI. sAmAnI kaI bhUla kaDhAya ? je bhUla ene dekhAtI nA hoya te. ane kaI rIte kaDhAya ? sAmAne bhUla kADhanAro upakArI dekhAya to kaDhAya. 'kaDhI khArI thaI' karIne kakaLATa nA karAya. gharanAM badhAM ja nidoSa dekhAya ne potAnA ja doSa dekhAya tyAre sAcA pratikramaNa thAya. pratikramaNa kyAM sudhI karavAM ? jenA tarapha mana bagaDyA karatuM hoya, yAda AvyA karatuM hoya tyAM sudhI. jyAM sudhI ApaNo eTekIMga necara haze, tyAM sudhI mAra paDaze. ApaNane game tevo athaDAvA Ave to ya ApaNe athaDAmaNa TALavI, ApaNe khasI javuM. pote kartA nathI paNa sAmAne kartA jue che e pote ja kartA thayA barAbara che ! sAmAne kicitmAtra kartA joyo ke pote kartA thaI ja gayo ! prakRti bhale vaDhavaDhA kare, paNa tene kartA nA jovo. kAraNa ke e nathI karato. 'vyavasthita' kare che ! doSa karanAro ahaMkAra ane doSa jonAro ya ahaMkAra ! doSa jonAro

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ekAMte ahaMkArI hoya ja. Akho dahADo mAphI mAMga mAMga karyA karavI. Akho dahADo mAphI mAMgavAnI Teva ja pADI devI. jJAnInI kRpAthI ja kAma thAya, kaMI doDadhAma karavAnI nahIM. kRpA kyAre maLe ? jJAnInI AjJAmAM rahevAthI. AjJAmAM rahevAthI samAdhi thAya. AtmA ya vItarAga che ne prakRti ya vItarAga che. paNa prakRtinA doSa kADhIe ke tenuM riekzana Ave. koIno doSa dekhAya te ApaNo ja doSa che. dAdAno A satsaMga, tyAM mAra paDe to ya choDavo nahIM. satsaMgamAM marI javuM paNa bahAra kyAMya javA jevuM nahIM, satsaMgamAM koInA doSa jovA nahIM. nahIM to 'vajralepo bhaviSyati' ! mATe ahIM tarata ja pratikramaNa karI dhoI nAkhavuM. nahI to nikAcita karma thaI jAya ! jJAnI puruSanA koI kALe doSa jovAya ja nahIM. jJAnI puruSa AgaLa buddhi vApare to te paDI jAya, narse jAya. ko'ka virala ja jJAnInI najIka rahI temano ekuMya doSa nA jue ! te ja jJAnInI sevAmAM najIka rahI zake ! bIjAnAM doSa jovAthI potAnA doSa jovAnI zakti rUMdhAI gaI che. koInI hotI ja nathI, bhUla gaNavI ja hoya to 'vyavasthita'nI gaNajo bhUla ane 'vyavasthita' eTale potAno ja hisAba potAne bhAge Ave che. pote bhUla karI che teno daMDa kudaratI nimitto dvArA potAne maLe che. jJAnInA pratyeka karma divya karma hoya. bAhya karma to badhAnA jevAM ja hoya paNa te samaye temane vartatI vItarAgatA ja nihALavA jevI che ! pratyakSanI vItarAgatA jovAthI vItarAga thavAya ! mokSArthInI lAkSaNikatAo kaI ? saraLatA ! opana Tu skAya ! potAnA badhA ja doSo khullA karI nAkhe te ! doSamAM ekAgratA thavAthI eTale ke doSa dekhAyo nahIM. aMdhApo Avyo tethI doSa vaLagyo. e doSa jovAthI jAya. ApaNe pote zuddhAtmA thaI gayA. have pudgalane cokhkhuM karavAnuM rahyuM. te jovAthI ja cokhkhuM thaI jAya. atikramaNa je kare teNe pratikramaNa karavAnuM. zuddhAtmA atikramaNa karato nathI, tethI pratikramaNa karavAnuM ene rahetuM nathI. A siddhAMta lakSamAM rAkhavAno. dAdAzrI kahe, ke amArAM pratikramaNa doSa thatAM pahelAM cAlu ja thaI jAya, enI meLe ! e jAgRtinuM phaLa che ! AgaLanI jAgRti to doSone doSa tarIke ya jotuM nathI. e 'zeya' ne 'pote' 'jJAtA'. jJeya che to jJAtApaNuM che ! koIne doSIta paNa nahIM gaNavA ne nirdoSa paNa nahIM gaNavA, nirdoSa jANavA ! potAnI prakRtine jovI, caMdubhAI zuM karI rahyAM che tene jovuM e zuddha upayoga che. prakRti kema jovAtI nathI ? AvaraNane lIdhe. e AvaraNa kaI rIte tUTe ? jJAnI puruSa 'vidhio' (caraNa vidhi) karAve, tenAthI AvaraNa tUTe. jJAnIne ya sUkSmatara ane sUkSmatama doSo hoya, je pratikramaNathI cokhkhA kare. prakRtinA guNa-doSone jonAro koNa ? prakRtine prakRti jue che, e jonAro che prakRtino buddhi ane ahaMkArano bhAga ! AmAM AtmA nirlepa hoya che. AtmAne sAruM-khoTuM hotuM ja nathI. prakRtinA doSo dekhADanArI UMcI prakRti kahevAya ke je AtmA prApta karAvanArI che. prakRtine nirdoSa jue che te paramAtmA ! jovAmAM muktAnaMda ! paNa AtmAne AnaMdanI ya paDI nathI. ene to mAtra jema che tema jovAmAM sarvasva che ! doSathI aMtarAya ne aMtarAyathI saMpUrNa AnaMdano anubhava aDake ! parama pUjya dAdAzrI emanI dazAnuM varNana karatAM kahe che ke amAre to vALa jeTalI ya bhUla thAya to tarata khabara paDI jAya !' te mahIM kevI korTa haze ?! kevuM jajamenTa haze ? koInI joDe matabheda ja nahIM. gunegAra dekhAya chatAM enI joDe matabheda nahIM ! bAhyamAM gunegAra, aMdara to kaMI ja guno nathI. tethI dAdAzrI saMpUrNa nirdoSa thayA ane AkhA jagatane nirdoSa joyuM ! jJAnI puruSanI eka sthULa ke sUkSma bhUla nA hoya ! sUkSmatara ne sUkSmatama

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thaI jAya ne ! pratItimAM to so TakA rAkhavuM ke jagata nirdoSa ja che. doSita dekhAya che e bhrAMti che ne tenAthI saMsAra khaDo che ! jANyuM tenuM nAma ke Thokara nA vAge. kaSAyo (krodha-mAna-mAyA-lobha) e Thokaro ja che ! ane tyAM sudhI bhaTakavAnuM ja che ! kaSAyono paDado bIjAnA doSo dekhADe che ! kaSAyo pratikramaNathI jAya ! mokSa mATe karmakAMDa ke kriyAo karavAnI jarUra nathI, AtmA jANavAnI jarUra che, jagata nirdoSa jovAnI jarUra che ! chatAM jene je anukULa Ave te kare. koInI TIkA karavAnI jarUra nathI. nahIM to tenI joDe navA karAra baMdhAze. svakarmane AdhIna ja bhogavaTo potAne Ave che, pachI bIjA kono guno ? ja hoya jenA pote saMpUrNa jJAtAdrazya hoya ane je bhUlo koIne nukasAnakartA nA hoya, mAtra potAnA 'kevaLa jJAna'ne ja e rokatI hoya ! chellA prakAranI jAgRti kaI ! A jagatamAM koI doSita ja nA dekhAya ! jeNe sarva bhUlo bhAMgI, teno A jagatamAM koI uparI ja nA rahyo ! tethI jJAnI puruSa e dehadhArI paramAtmA ja kahevAya. dAdAzrI kahe che, "ame' be judAM chIe. mahIM pragaTa thayelA che e dAdA bhagavAna che. e saMpUrNa pragaTa thaI gayA che, jhaLahaLa jyoti svarUpa ! je amane amArI paNa mahIMlI bhUlo dekhADe che ane e ja cauda lokano nAtha che ! e ja dAdA bhagavAna che ! 360 DigrInA pUrNa bhagavAna ! jagata tirdoSa ! jagata nirdoSa kaI rIte bhALI zakAya ?! AtmadraSTi thakI ja, pudgala draSTi thakI nahIM ! tattvadraSTi thakI, avasthA draSTi thakI nahIM ! sAmAne doSita jue, e ahaMkAra che jonArAno ! duzmana pratye paNa bhAva na bagaDe, bagaDe to turta ja pratikramaNathI sudhArI levAya to AgaLa pragati thAya ne aMte zIlavAna thavAya. zarUAtamAM buddhi sAmAne nirdoSa nahIM jovA de paNa nirdoSa jovAnI zarUAta karavI. pachI jema jema anubhavamAM Avaze, tema tema buddhi TADhI paDaze. jema dAkhalo gaNatA javAba meLavavA eka rakama dhAravI paDe, 'dhAro ke 1La' (sapojha haMDreDa) pachI javAba sAco maLe che ne ?! tema dAdAzrI paNa eka rakama dhAravAnI kahe che ke "A jagatamAM koI doSIta ja nahIM. AkhuM ya jagata nirdoSa che ? sAco javAba aMte maLI jaze. draSTi pramANe sRSTi. doSita draSTie sAmo doSita dekhAya ne nirdoSa draSTie sAmo nirdoSa dekhAya. jJAna maLyA pachI paNa jagata nirdoSa che e anubhavamAM nA Ave tyAM to dAdAzrIe kahyuM che mATe ema ApaNe nakkI karI nAkhavuM ke jethI koI doSita dekhAya ja nahIM. jyAM evuM nakkI nahIM thayeluM hoya, e bhAgamAM pachI mAnavAnuM ja ke jagata nirdoSa ja che ! javAba jANIe eTale dAkhalo gaNavAno sahelo mahAvIrano kharo ziSya koNa ? jene lokonA doSa dekhAvAnA ochAM thavA mAMDyA che ! saMpUrNa dazAe nahIM to ya zarUAta to thaI ! dharmamAM eka-bIjAnA doSo dekhAya che te mArA-tArAnI bhedabuddhithI ane tene mATe zrImad rAjacaMdre kahyuM, 'gaccha-matanI je kalpanA, te nahIM savyavahAra." dAdAzrI kahe che, ke "atyAre amArAthI je kaMI bolAya che te gatabhavamAM rekarDa thayeluM bolAya che. gayA bhavanI bhUlavALI rekarDa thayelI. tethI koI dharmamAM 'A bhUla che' evuM bolAya che. paNa AjanuM jJAna-darzana ane saMpUrNa nirdoSa jue che ne bolAyuM tenuM turta ja pratikramaNa thaI cokhkhuM thaI jAya che !' akrama mArganuM dAdAzrInuM ajAyaba jJAnIpada pragaTa thayuM che. A kALamAM ! koInI kalpanAmAM na Ave tevuM A AzcaryakArI kudaratanI bheTa che jagatane ! nirdoSa draSTi thaI, tyArathI pote premasvarUpa thayA ane emanA zuddha prema keTalAMyane saMsAramArgamAMthI mokSamArgamAM vALyA ! e aghaTa-avadha paramAtma premane koTI koTI namaskAra !! nirdoSa jagata dekhAya tyAre mukta hAsya pragaTe. mukta hAsya joIne ja keTalAMya roga jAya. jJAnI puruSanuM cAritrabaLa AkhA brahmAMDane eka AMgaLI para UbhuM rAkhe evuM hoya ! ane e cAritrabaLa kyAMthI pragaTe ? nirdoSa draSTithI ! - DaoN. nIrubahena amIna

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anukramaNikA) nijadoSa darzanathI... nirdoSa ! dIThA nahIM nijadoSo to.. vizvanI vAstavikatAo ! 1 na jovAya doSa koInA ! ApaNo uparI koNa ? 1 tyAre Avyo mahAvIranA mArgamAM ! 33 mULa bhUla kaI ? 2 na dIThA potAnAM ja doSo ! bhUlo kyAre paDe ? 3 ene kahevAya jaina ! koNa jagatano mAlika ? 3 doSo eTalAM ja khape pratikramaNa ! aNasamajaNa sarSo du:!!! 4 AtmA pote ja tharmomITara sama ! sAmo to che mAtra nimitta ! 5 e che bhUlonuM svarUpa ! na vAge vaiNa, vinA vAMka ! 6 jJAnInI tattvadraSTi ! bacakAM bharavA nimittane ! 6 tarelo ja tAre.... anumodananuM phaLa ! 7 tyAre bhUla bhAMgI kahevAya ! na paDakAre, to pUrNatA pamAya ! 8 bhUla kADhe, mahIM koNa ? ekamAMthI anaMta, ajJAnatAthI ! 8 aMdhArAnI bhUlo... be ja vastu vizvamAM ! 9 nathI ene uparI koI ! AmaMtrI dholane vaLatara sahita ! 10 draSTi nijadoSa bhaNI... bahAravaTiyoya chapAya zIlavAna samakSa ! 11 pramata bhAvathI dise paradoSa ! na rahyo bhogavaTo jJAnIne ! 12 vItarAgoe kIdhuM muktikAja ! 44 bhUla bhAMge te paramAtmA ! 12 jarUra che bhUla vagaranA jJAna ane samajaNanI4i4 dIdhA AdhAra uparANa laIne ! 13 bhUla vagaranuM, jJAna ane samajaNa ! 47 kUMcI bhUlo bhAMgavAnI ! 13 kAphI che besavI pratIti bhUlanI ! 48 baMdha karo kaSAyanuM poSaNa ! 14 bhUla bhAMgI Ape e bhagavAna ! 49 aMdhApo na dekhavA de doSane ! 15 bhUla vagaranuM darzana ne bhUlavALuM vartana! pa0 buddhi vakIlAta, jIte doSa ! 16 alaukika sAmAyika e puruSArtha ! pa1 kare jJAnI ekarAra, nijadoSanA... 16 na aDe kazuM zuddha upayogIne ! para doSo svIkAro, upakAra mAnIne ! 17 Aropa ApyuM aTake AgaLanuM vijJAna ! para 'A' tarkaTa karanAra 'tuM' ja ! 19 buddhi eksaparTa, doSa jovAmAM... alyA, le bodhapATha AnAthI ! 20 doSa jovo jAtano ja sadA ! bhUla bhAMgavAnI rIti... 20 doSa dekhe tyAM buddhi sthira ! AlocanA jJAnI pAse ! 23 pAmavA mukti, jue nijadoSa ! tema tema khIlatI jAya sujha.... 23 AvI jAva eka vAta para ! hatI ja nahi te jAya kyAMthI ? 24 paDyo ja hoya mAMhI e doSa ! dasanA karyA eka ! 24 potAnI gaTara gaMdhAya....... badhA duHkhonuM mULa "pote' ja ! 25 draSTi abhiprAya rahita ! na koI doSita jagatamAM ! 26 Ama aMta Ave gUMcavADAono ! 60 tyArathI thayuM samakita ! 27 jayAM chUTya mAlikIpaNuM sarvasvapaNe ! 61 aMte to e prAkRta guNo ! 27 AtmadraSTi thayA pachI.... moTAmAM moTo doSa ! 28 garUDa Ave, bhAge sApa ! 17 niSpakSapAtI draSTi ! 62 A to Indriyagamya jJAna ! 1 tema tema pragaTe Atama ujAsa ! 63 ane A jJAnagamya kahevAya ! 101 guhyatama vijJAna ! 64 potAnI bhUlone pote ja vaDhe ! 10ra doSa hoya paDavALA ! 65 tyAre saMpUrNa thayo nikAla ! 13 gunegArI pApa-puNyanI ! 66 kyAM sudhI mana caukhanuM thayuM ! 104 svarUpaprApti pachI ! 67 tyAM sudhI uparI mahIMvALA bhagavAna!105 eTale thaI gayA jJAnI ! 69 bhinnatA e bannenA jANapaNAmAM ! 106 dIse dhodha doSa taNA... 69 ethI aMtarAya... 107 gharamAM TokAya kaI bhUlane ! 71 saMpUrNa doSarahita dazA dAdAnI ! 107 Ama thAya karmo cokhkhAM ! 7ra jAgRti bhUlo sArma, jJAnI taNI ! 108 bhALo sAmAne paNa akartA ! 73 tethI amAro' na uparI koI ? 19 e che ekAMte ahaMkArI ! 74 mATe 'jJAnI' dehadhArI paramAtmA ! 109 mahatva che bhUlanA bhAnanuM ! 75 mahIMvALA bhagavAna dekhADe doSa : 19 tyAM puruSArtha ke kRpA ? 76 jagata nirdoSa ! vItarAgabhAve vinamratA ne kaDakAI ! 9 bhagavAne bhALyuM jaga nirdoSa ! 111 *jJAna'prApti pachInI paristhiti ! 78 kaI draSTie jaga dIse nirdoSa ! 112 tyAre doSa bane DiscArja rUpe... ( 81 tattva draSTie jagata nirdoSa ! 113 zraddhAthI zarU, vartanathI pUrNa.... 82 jagata nidoSa, purAvA sahita ! na choDavo kadi satsaMga 'A' ! 83 zIlavAnanA be guNa ! 114 vALavI, doSa jovAnI zaktine ! 83 A che jJAnanI pArAzIzI ! 115 *vyavasthita' kartA tyAM bhUla konI ? 84 eka 2kama Apa dhArazo ? 116 vajalepo bhaviSyati.... 84 draSTi pramANe sRSTi ! 117 dekhe doSa jJAnInA, tene.... 85 jaga nirdoSa anubhavamAM... 118 saraLane jJAnIkRpA apAra ! 88 aMtima draSTie jaga nirdoSa ! 120 guNa jotAM guNa pragaTe ! 89 joyuM to enuM nAma.... 122 nijakarma eTale nijadoSa ! 89 doSa dekhADe, kaSAya bhAva ! zuddha upayoga, AtmA taNo ! 90 tyAM kone vaDhazo ? 123 bhUlo, ajavALAnI... 90 nathI koI dumana have... 124 pragaTe kevaLajJAna, aMtima doSa jatAM ! 91 sApa, svachIya che nirdoSa... 125 aMdhArAnI bhUlo... 91 mahAvIre ya joyA svadoSa ! 126 dAdA "DaoNkTara' doSonAM ! 92 abheda draSTi thatAM thAya vItarAga... 127 doSa kADhavAnI koleja ! 92 ga7matanI je kalpanA... 127 AvaraNa tUcce doSa bhaLAya ! 94 AjanuM darzana ne gata bhavanI rekarDa ! 128 vItarAgonI nirdoSa draSTi ! 96 AzcaryakArI ajAyaba akrama jJAnInuM pada ! 130 doSita draSTine paNa tuM jANa' ! 97 na dekhe dAdA doSa koInA ! 131 nathI karavAnuM, mAtra jovAnuM ! 98 tyAre pragaTe mukta hAsya ! 132 ghauM potAnA ja vINone ! 18 122

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nijadoSa darzanathI... nirdoSa ! vizvatI vAstavikatAo ! praznakartA : jagatanI vAstavikatA viSe kaMIka kaho. dAdAzrI : jagatanA loko vyavahAramAM be rIte rahe che, eka laukika bhAvathI ane eka alaukika bhAvathI. te ghaNo kharo bhAga jagatano laukika bhAve ja rahe che ke bhagavAna upara che ne bhagavAna badhuM kare che. ane pAcho pote ya karato bhagavAne ya karatA jAya. emane kaMI virodhAbhAsano khyAla nathI jAya, ane emane bhagavAna mAthe hoya to bIka rahyA kare ke khudA ye karegA ne ye karegA. Ama karIne gADuM cAlyA kare. paNa je atyaMta vicAravaMta thayo che, jene mAthe bhArarUpa bojo koIno joIto ja nathI, to ene mATe kharekharI hakIkata alaukika hovI ja joIe ne ? alaukikamAM koI uparI che ja nahIM. jagatamAM tamArI bhUlo ja uparI che, tamArA bleDarsa (moTI bhUlo) enDa misTeksa (sAmAnya bhUlo) e be ja uparI che. bIjuM koI uparI che ja nahIM. ApaNo uparI koNa ? AvuM koNa kahI zake ? tyAre ohoho ! A keTalA nIDara haze ? ane Dara kono rAkhavAno ? mArI zodhakhoLa che ke tamAro uparI ja koI nathI A nijadoSa darzanathI... nirdoSa ! varlDamAM ! ane jene tame uparI mAno cho, bhagavAnane, e to tamAruM svarUpa che ! bhagavAnanuM svarUpa uparI hoI zake nahIM kyAreya paNa. enA ajANa che mATe e uparI hoI zake nahIM. tyAre uparI koNa ? tamArI bleMDarsa ane misTeksa. A be ja jo nA hoya to tamAro koI uparI che ja nahIM. mArA laMDarsa ane misTeksa nIkaLI gayelAM che, eTale mAro uparI koI paNa che nahIM. tame jyAre laMDarsa ane misTeksa kADhI nAkhazo tyAre tamArA uparI koI nahIM. hamaNe polIsavALAnI joDe tyAM athaDAmaNa karIne Avo, ahIM jaldI AvavA mATe, patAvyA sivAya Avo, 'polIsavALo' kahe, 'UbhI rAkho' ane tame UbhI nA rAkhI to pachI ahIM polIsavALA Ave. to tame tarata samajI jAva ra ke A mArA mATe Avyo che. kAraNa ke bhUla karI e ApaNane tarata khyAlamAM AvI jAya ke A bhUla karI. e bhUla bhAMgo. mAruM zuM kahevAnuM che ? narI bhUlo ja thayelI che. e bhAMgo. atyAra sudhI pArakAnI ja bhUlo dekhAI, potAnI bhUla dekhAI nathI. potAnI bhUla dekhe, bhAMge e bhagavAna thAya ! mULa bhUla kaI ? ane A bAju sAdhuo-saMnyAsIo icchAo khaseDa khaseDa kare che. te icchAo to kaMI khase evI nathI. Dabala thaIne Ave evI che. mULa bhUla kyAM thayelI che te khabara nathI lokone. e icchAo Ave e bhUla nathI. enI mULa bhUla dabAvIene ApaNe, cAMpa dabAvIene ApaNe to paMkho baMdha thaI jAya. Ama paMkho jhAla jhAla karIe to vaLe nahIM. enI mULa bhUla dabAvIe. 'huM caMdubhAI chuM' e ja mULa bhUla che. mULa bhUla ja A che. e Aropita bhAva che. sAco bhAva nathI e. jema ahIM AgaLa IndIrA gAMdhI jevA kapaDAM paherI ane badhAne kahe, 'huM IndIrA gAMdhI chuM' ane ema karIne eno lAbha uThAve, to eno guno lAgu thAya ke nA thAya ? evI rIte 'huM caMdubhAI chuM', teno niraMtara lAbha uThAve che. e Aropita bhAva kahevAya tenA gunA. eTale tamArI bhUlo (mIsTeksa) ane tamArA bleDarsa, A be ja tamArA uparI che. tamArI bleDarsa zuM haze ? 'huM caMdubhAI chuM' e paheluM blaDara. 'huM

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nijadoSa darzanathI... nirdoSa ! nijadoSa darzanathI. nirdoSa !. Amano dIkaro thAuM" e bIjuM bleDara. 'huM Ano dhaNI thauM" e trIjuM bleDara. 'huM A chokarAno bApa thauM" e cothuM bleDara, evAM keTalAM bleDarsa karyA che? praznakartA : aneka thayAM haze. dAdAzrI : hA. te A bleDarsa che te tamArAthI tUTaze nahIM. ame bleDarsa toDI ApIe ane pachI misTeksa hoya te tamAre kADhavAnI. te koI uparI che nahIM. vagara kAmano ajaMpo !! tamane samajAya chene, uparI nathI evuM ? cokkasa khAtarI thaI gaI ? bhUlo kyAre jaDe? loka mAne ke bhagavAna uparI che, te temanI bhakti karIzuM, to chUTI jaIzuM. paNa nA, koI bApoya uparI nathI. tuM ja tAro uparI, tAro rakSaka paNa tuM ja ne tAro bhakSaka paNa tuM ja. yu Ara hola enDa sola rIsponsibala phora yora selpha (tame ja tamAre potAne mATe saMpUrNa javAbadAra cho) pote ja potAno uparI che, AmAM bIjo koI bApoya AMgaLI ghAlato nathI. ApaNo bosa(uparI) che teya ApaNI bhUlathI ne anDarahenDa(hAtha nIcenA) che teya ApaNI bhUlathI ja che. mATe bhUla to bhAMgavI paDaze ne ? potAnI saMpUrNa svataMtratA-AjhAdI joItI hoya to potAnI badhI ja bhUlo bhAMgI jAya to maLe. bhUla to kyAre jaDe ke "pote koNa che ?" enuM bhAna thAya, paramAtmAno sAkSAtkAra thAya tyAre ! koNa jagatano mAlika ? amAro uparI koI bApoya nathI. A upara bosa che ke bApoya upara beTho che, evuM nathI. je cho e tame ja cho ane tamane daMDa ApanAro ya koI nathI ne tamane janma ApanAro ya koI nathI. tame pote janma lo cho ne dhAraNa karo cho ne A pAchuM jAva cho ne Avo cho. jAva cho ne Avo cho. tamArI marajI mujabanA sodA che. hindustAnamAM AvatA sudhI to jANe ke kudaratI sAhajIka rIte che, paNa A hindustAnamAM AvyA pachI thoDuM ghaNuM samajAya ke ApaNI kaMIka bhUla thAya che. DAhyA mANasa jo ATaluM ja samaje ke zuM mArAmAM koI paNa mANasa saLI karI zake ema nathI ? to ApaNe kahIe ke nathI, nathI, nathI !!! ane kaheze, mAro uparI koI nathI ?" tyAre kahIe, 'nathI, nathI, nathI !!!" tArA uparI tArA blaDarsa ane misTeksa. bleDarsa kema bhAMgavA ? to ame kahIe ke ahIM Avaje bA ane misTeka kema bhAMgavI ? te amAre tane samaja pADavI paDe. pachI tAre bhAMgavAnI. ame rasto dekhADIzuM. misTeka bhAMgavAnI tAre ane bleDarsa amAre bhAMgI ApavAnAM. aNasamajaNe sajaryA duHkha ! duHkha badhuM aNasamajaNanuM ja che A jagatamAM ! bIjuM kaMI paNa duHkha che e badhuM aNasamajaNanuM ja che. pote UbhuM kareluM che badhuM, nA dekhAvAthI ! dAjhe tyAre kahene ke bhaI, kema tame dAjhayA ? tyAre kahe, bhUlathI dAjhayo, kaMI jANI joIne dAjhuM ? evuM A badhuM bhUlathI duHkha che. badhA du:kha ApaNI bhUlanuM pariNAma. bhUla jatI raheze eTale thaI rahyuM. praznakartA : karma cIkaNAM hoya che, tene lIdhe ApaNane duHkha bhogavavuM paDe che ? dAdAzrI : ApaNAM ja karma karelAM, tethI ApaNI ja bhUla che. koI anyano doSa A jagatamAM che ja nahIM. bIjA to nimitta mAtra che. du:kha tamAruM che ne sAmA nimittane hAthe apAya che. sasarA marI gayAno kAgaLa posTamena ApI jAya, temAM posTamenano zo doSa ? A brahmAMDano dareka jIva brahmAMDano mAlika che. mAtra potAnuM bhAna nathI tethI ja jIvaDAMnI jema rahe che. potAnA dehanI mAlikIno jene dAvo nathI te AkhA brahmAMDano mAlika thaI gayo ! A jagata ApaNI mAlikInuM che tevuM samajAya e ja mokSa ! hajI evuM zAthI samajAyuM nathI ? kAraNa ke ApaNI ja bhUloe bAMdhelA che tethI. AkhuM jagata ApaNI ja mAlikInuM che !

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nijadoSa darzanathI... nirdoSa ! nijadoSa darzanathI... nirdoSa ! sAmo to che mAtra nimitta ! ApaNane makAnanI aDacaNa hoya ne koI mANasa madada kare ane makAna ApaNane rahevA Ape, to jagatanA manuSyone enI para rAga thAya ane jyAre e makAna laI levA phare to enI para dveSa thAya. A rAga-dveSa che. have kharekhara to rAga-dveSa karavAnI jarUra nathI, e nimitta ja che. e ApanAro ne laI lenAro, banne nimitta che. tamArA puNyano udaya hoya tyAre e ApavA mATe bhego thAya, pApano udaya hoya tyAre levA mATe bhego thAya. emAM eno kazo doSa nathI. tamArA udayano AdhAra che. sAmAno kiMcitmAtra doSa nathI. e nimitta mAtra che evuM ApaNuM jJAna kahe che. kevI suMdara vAta kare che !! ajJAnIne to koIka mIThuM mIThuM bole tyAM AgaLa rAga thAya ne kaDavuM bole tyAM dveSa thAya. sAmo mIThuM bole che te potAnI puNya prakAzita che ne sAmo kaDavuM bole che te potAnuM pApa prakAzita che. tethI mULa vAtamAM, beu sAmA mANasane kazuM levA-devA nathI. bolanArane kazuM levA-devA nathI. sAmo mANasa to nimitta ja thAya che. je jazano nimitta hoya enAthI jaza maLyA kare ane apajazano nimitta hoya enAthI apajaza maLyA kare. e nimitta ja che khAlI. emAM koIno doSa nathI ! praznakartA: badhA nimitta ja gaNAyane ? che. tyAre ApaNe jANIe ke A nimitta AvyuM. nahIM to cAlu gADI, e to karmanA udaya pramANe cAlyA kare. ta vaNe veNa, vitA vAMka ! praznakartA : koI ApaNane kaMI bolI jAya, e paNa naimittika ja ne ? ApaNo vAMka nA hoya to paNa bole to ? dAdAzrI : ApaNo vAMka nA hoya te bole, te koIne evo adhikAra nathI bolavAno. jagatamAM koI mANasane tamAro vAMka nA hoya, to bolavAno adhikAra nathI. mATe A bole che, to tamArI bhUla che, teno badalo Ape che A. hA, te tamArI gayA avatAranI je bhUla che, e bhUlano badalo A mANasa tamane ApI rahyo che. e nimitta che ane bhUla tamArI che. mATe ja e bolI rahyo che. have e ApaNI bhUla che mATe A bolI rahyo che. to e mANasa ApaNane e bhUlamAMthI mukta karAvaDAve che. enA tarapha bhAva na bagADavo joIe. ane ApaNe zuM kahevuM joIe ke prabhu ene sabuddhi Apajo. eTaluM ja kahevuM. kAraNa ke e nimitta che. bacakAM bharavA timirate ! amane to koI mANasano kharAba vicAra sarakho ya nathI Avato. ADuMavaLuM karI jAya to ya kharAba vicAra nahIM. kAraNa ke enI draSTi, bicArAne jevuM dekhAya che evuM kare che, emAM eno zo doSa che ? ane kharI rIte, ejhekTalI zuM che A jagata ke A jagatamAM koI doSita che ja nahIM. tamane doSa dekhAya che e tamArI jovAnI draSTimAM phera che. mane koI doSita dekhAyo nathI atyAra sudhI. mATe koI doSita che nahIM, ema karIne ApaNe cAlajo ne ! ApaNe chelve sTezana che te senTrala che evuM jANIne cAlIe to phAyado thAya ke nA thAya ? tamane kema lAge che ? praznakartA : hA, thAya phAyado. dAdAzrI : nimitta sivAya A jagatamAM koI cIja bIjI che ja nahIM. te ya nimitta ja che. praznakartA: bajAramAMthI ahIM satsaMgamAM Avyo e kayuM nimitta ? dAdAzrI : e to karmano udaya. nimittano kazo savAla ja nathI. udayakarma, bajAranA karmanA udaya pUrA thayAM, eTale A karmano udaya ahIM cAlu thayo. eTale enI meLe vicAra Ave ke cAlo tyAM jaIe. nimitta kyAre kahevAya ? ahIM AvavA mATe nIkaLyA, dAdara sTezane UtaryA, thoDeka sudhI AvyA ne ko'ka maLyuM ke bhAI, pAchAM cAlo. mAre Ama che ne mAre khAsa kAma

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nijadoSa darzanathI... nirdoSa ! nijadoSa darzanathI... nirdoSa ! dAdAzrI : koI doSita che nahIM ema jANazo to ja bIjA badhAM nirdoSa lAgaze ApaNane ! kAraNa ke ApaNe nimitta chIe, e bicArA nimitta che ane ApaNA loko nimittane bacakAM bhare che. nimittane bacakAM, evuM bhare kharuM koI dA'Do ? nA bhare, nahIM ? nimittane bacakAM bhare ? praznakartA : ApaNe nimittane bacakAM bharIe chIe, paNa bharavA na joIe. dAdAzrI : pArako doSa jovo ene ame nimittane bacakAM bharavAnI sthiti kahIe chIe. arere, nimittane bacakAM bharyA te ? e tane gALo bhAMDe che, e tArA karmano udaya che. A udaya tAre bhogavavAno che. vacce e nimitta che. nimitta to upakArI che ke bhaI, tane karmamAMthI chUTo karavA Avyo che. upakArI che tene badale tuM gALo bhAMDe che ? tuM ene bacakAM bhare che, eTale e nimittane bacakAM bharyA kahevAya. eTale A mahAtmAo DarI gayelAM ke nA, ame bacakuM bharIzuM nahIM have koI dahADo ya !! A mane chetarI gayo' tema bolyo te bhayaMkara karma bAMdhe ! enA karatAM be dhola mArI le to ochuM karma baMdhAya. e to jyAre chetarAvAno kALa utpanna thAya, ApaNA karmano udaya thAya tyAre ja chetarAIe. emAM sAmAno zo doSa ? eNe to ulaTuM ApaNuM karma khapAvI ApyuM. e to nimitta che. atumodanatuM phaLa ! praznakartA: bIjAnA doSe potAne daMDa maLe ? dAdAzrI : nA, emAM koIno ya doSa nahIM. potAnA doSathI ja sAmevALA nimitta bane. A to bhogave enI bhUla. karavuM, karAvavuM ane anumodavuM. e anumodananuM ya phaLa Ave. karyA vagara phaLa nA Ave. praznakartA : anumodana kone kahevAya ? dAdAzrI : A koI kAMI karatAM acakAto hoya to tame kaho ke "tuM tAre kara, huM chuM ne !' te anumodana kahevAya ane anumodana karanAranI vadhAre jokhamadArI kahevAya ! karyAnuM phaLa kone vadhAre maLe ? tyAre kahe, jeNe vadhAre buddhi vAparI, tenA AdhAre te vaheMcAI jAya ! na paDakAra, to pUrNatA pamAya ! A jagatamAM koI paNa mANasa tamAruM kaMI paNa nukasAna kare che, emAM e nimitta che. nukasAna tamAruM che, mATe "risponsibala' (javAbadAra) tame cho. koI mANasa koInuM kazuM karI zake ja nahIM, evuM A svataMtra jagata che ! ane jo koI kaMI paNa karI zakyuM hoya to 'phIyara' (Dara)no pAra ja nA raheta ! to to pachI koI koIne mokSe ja nA javA de. to to bhagavAna mahAvIrane ya mokSe javA nA deta ! bhagavAna mahAvIra to kahe che ke tamane je anukULa Ave te bhAva mArI upara karo. tamane mArI upara viSayanA bhAva Ave to viSayanA karo, nirviSayInA bhAva Ave to nirviSayInA karo, dharmanA bhAva Ave to dharmanA karo, pUjyapadanA Ave to pUjyapada Apo, gALo devI hoya to gALo do. mAre eno paDakAra nathI. jene paDakAra nathI e mokSe jAya che ane paDakAra karavAvALAno ahIM mukAma rahe che ! nahIM to A jagata to evuM che ne tamArI upara avaLo ke savaLo bhAva bAMdhyA ja kare. gajavAmAM tame rUpiyA mUkatA hoya ne te ko'ka gajavuM kApanArAnA jovAmAM AvI gayuM to e gajavuM kApavAnA bhAva kare ke nA kare ? ke rUpiyA che, kApI levA jevuM che, paNa tyAM to tame gADI AvI ne besI gayA ne tame upaDI gayA ane e rahI gayo, paNa e bhAva to kare ja jagata ! paNa temAM tamAro paDakAra nathI to koI tamAruM nAma denAra nathI. koInA paNa bhAvamAM tamAro bhAva nathI to koI tamane bAMdhanAra nathI. ema bAMdhe to pAra ja nA Avene ? tame svataMtra cho, koI tamane bAMdhI zake ema nathI. ekamAMthI anaMta, ajJAnatAthI ! A AMkha hAthathI dabAI jAya to vastu eka hoya to be dekhAya. AMkha e AtmAnuM riyala svarUpa nathI. e to rileTiva svarUpa che. chatAM, eka bhUla

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nijadoSa darzanathI. nirdoSa ! nijadoSa darzanathI... nirdoSa ! basa, ApaNI bhUlo hoya te ja ! bhUlo ne bleDarsa !!! eTale tamArI bhUla nahIM hoya to koI nAma denAruM ya nathI A varlDamAM. juo, rastAmAM koI nAma de che ? polIsavALA, cekIMgavALA koI kazuM pajave che ? herAna kare che ? kAraNa ke tamArI bhUla nahIM hoya to koI nAma ja nA thavAthI ekane badale be dekhAya che ne ? A kAcanA TukaDA jamIna upara paDyA hoya to keTalI badhI AMkho dekhAya che ? A jarAka bhUlathI keTalI badhI AMkho dekhAya che ? tema A AtmA pote dabAto nathI, paNa saMyoganA presara | (dabANa)thI ekanA anaMta rUpe dekhAya che. A jagata AkhuM bhagavat svarUpa che. A jhADane kApavAno mAtra bhAva ja kare to ya karma coMTe tema che. sAmAnuM jarA kharAba vicAryuM to pApa aDe ne sAro bhAva kare to puNya aDe. - A ApaNe ahIM satsaMgamAM AvyA ne ahIM mANaso UbhA hoya to thAya ke A badhA zuM UbhA che ? te manamAM bhAva bagaDe. te bhUla mATe tenuM tarata ja pratikramaNa karavuM paDe. be ja vastu vizvamAM ! saMyogo ane zuddhAtmA be ja che. saMyogo UbhA kema thayA ? saMyoga badhAMne judA judA Ave. hA, koIne AkhI jiMdagI koI mAranAra nA maLe ane koIne AkhI jiMdagImAM keTalIya vakhata mAra khAvo paDe. ane Avo saMyoga kema thAya che ne Ane Avo kema ? kAraNa ke eNe koIne mAravAno bhAva ja karyo nahoto, eTale ene evAM saMyoga ane ANe mAravAnA bhAva karyA hatA tethI ene Avo saMyoga. eTale e saMyogo zAthI AvyA, tenAM paNa kAraNo jaDe evAM che. A saMyoga kayA kAraNathI bhego thayo e paNa jaDe evuM che. rastAmAM koI garIba mANasa maLyo ane bahu raDato hoya to tame agiyAra rUpiyA ApatA hoya, to A bhAI kaheze ke rahevA done, ene rUpiyo ja Apone, agiyAra rUpiyA ene zAnA Apo cho ? have pelo lenAra, ApanAra tame ane ApaNe nA pADI eTale aMtarAya paDyo. pelAne maLatuM hatuM, temAM AMtaro paDyo. te aMtarAya karmathI rUpiyA emanI pAse bhegA nA thAya. have A je je badhuM karyuM A enA ja badhA saMyogo bhegA thayelA che. kaMI navA saMyogo nathI. tamAro koI uparI che nahIM, tema tamAro aMDarahenDa paNa koI che nahIM. jagata badhuM svataMtra che. tamArI bhUlo ja tamArI uparI che AmaMtrI dholate, vaLatara sahita ! koI ApaNane gALo bhAMDe, ApaNane khoTuM sAMbhaLavAnuM maLyuM, e to bahu puNyazALI kahevAya, nahIM to e maLe nahIMne ! huM pahelAM evuM kaheto hato, AjathI dasa-paMdara varSa upara ke bhaI, koI paNa mANasa paisAnI aDacaNavALo hoya, to huM kahuM chuM ke mane eka dhola (tamAco) mAraje, huM pAMcaso rUpiyA ApIza. eka mANasa maLelo, meM ene kahyuM ke, 'tAre paisAnI bhIDa chene ? sobassonI ? to tArI bhIDa to AjathI ja nIkaLI jaze. huM tane pAMcaso rUpiyA ApuM, tuM mane eka dhola mAra.' tyAre kahe, "nA dAdA, AvuM nahIM thaI zake." eTale dhola mAranArA ya kyAMthI lAve ? vecAtA lAve toya ThekANuM paDe evuM nathI ne gALo denArAnuM ya ThekANuM paDe evuM nathI. tyAre jene ghera beThAM evuM phrI oNpha kosTa (maphata) maLatuM hoya to bhAgyazALI ja kahevAyane ! kAraNa ke mane pAMcaso rUpiyA ApatAMya koI maLatuM nahotuM. te jJAna thatAM pahelAM to huM mArI jAtane gALo bhAMDato hato, kAraNa ke mane koI gALo bhAMDatuM nahotuM ne ! tyAre vecAtI kyAMthI lAvIe ApaNe ? ne vecAtuM koNa Ape ? ApaNe kahIe ke tuM mane gALa de, to ya kaheze ke nA tamane gALa nA devAya. eTale paisA ApIe to ya gALo koI nA de. eTale pachI mane mArI jAte gALo devI paDatI hatI, 'tamArAmAM akkala nathI, tame mUrakha cho, gadheDA cho, AvA cho, kaI jAtanA mANasa cho, mokSadharma kaMI agharo che ke tame ATaluM badhuM tophAna mAMDyuM che ?" evI gALo jAte deto hato. koI gALo denAra nA hoya tyAra pachI zuM karIe ? tamane to ghera beThAM koI gALo denAra maLe che, phrI oNpha kosTa maLe che tyAre teno lAbha nA uThAvavo joIe ?!

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nijadoSa darzanathI. nirdoSa ! - 11 nijadoSa darzanathI. nirdoSa ! bahAravaTiyo ya chapAya zIlavAta samakSa ! bhagavAna ja uparI nathI tyAM AgaLa pachI ! bhagavAnanA oThA nIce tame vAMdho uThAvo cho ke bhagavAna che, dayA karaze ApaNI upara ! 'hau thaze" ema karIne UMdhuM karo cho, javAbadArI vahoro cho ! zIlano prabhAva evo che, jagatamAM koI nAma nA de enuM. bahAravaTiyAnI vacce raheto hoya, badhI ya AMgaLIoe sonAnI vIMTIo ghAlelI hoya, ahIM AkhA zarIre badhA sonAnA dAgInA paheryA hoya ne bahAravaTiyA bhegA thayA hoya. bahAravaTiyA jue ya kharA paNa aDAya nahIM, aDI zake nahIM. bilakula gabharAvA jevuM jagata ja nathI. je kaMI gabharAmaNa che e tamArI ja bhUlanuM phaLa che ema ame kahevA AvyA chIe. loko ema ja jANe che ke jagata aDasaTTo che. praznakartA: samajaNanI eTalI kacAza ! dAdAzrI : e samajaNanI kacAzane lIdhe ja jagata UbhuM rahyuM che. e ema kahevA mAgIe chIe ke jagatamAM bhaya rAkhavA jevo che ja nahIM. je bhaya Ave che e tamAro hisAba che. cUkate thaI javA do. ahIMthI pharI navesarathI dhIrazo nahIM. tamane koI avaLuM kahe, e tamane che te manamAM ema thAya ke A mane kema avaLuM bole che ? eTale tame ene pachI pAMca gALa bhAMDo. eTale je tamAro hisAba hato te cUkavatI vakhate tame pharI navo hisAbano copaDo cAlu karyo. eTale eka gALa dhIrelI hatI te pAchI ApavA Avyo, te ApaNe jame karI levAnI hatI tene badale pAMca tame dhIrI. ne pAchI A eka to sahana thatI nathI tyAra horo bIjI pAMca dhIrI. te have AmAM manuSyonI zI rIte buddhi pahoMce ! te dhIra dhIra karI ane gUMcAguMca kare che. gUMcavADo badho Ubho kare che. A ame paMdara varasathI dhIratA nathI, te keTalA copaDA cokhkhA thaI gayAne badhA ! dhIravAnuM ja baMdha karI dIdhuMne ! jame ja kara. 'Amane" kahI dIdhelune, jame karI dejo. saheluM chene, mArga sahelo chene ? have A zAstramAM lakheluM nA hoya. koI kazuM karI zake nahIM. tame svataMtra cho. tamArA uparI ja koI nathI. ta raho bhogavaTo jJAtIne ! koIne ApaNAthI kiMcitmAtra duHkha thAya to jANavuM ke ApaNI bhUla che. ApaNI mahIM pariNAma UMcA-nIcAM thAya eTale bhUla ApaNI che ema samajAya. sAmI vyakti bhogave che eTale enI bhUla to pratyakSa che paNa nimitta ApaNe banyA, ApaNe ene TaiDakAvyo mATe ApaNI ya bhUla. kema dAdAne bhogavaTo nathI Avato ? kAraNa ke emanI ekeya bhUla rahI nathI. ApaNI bhUlathI sAmAne kaMI paNa asara thAya ne jo kaMI udhAra thAya to tarata ja manathI mAphI mAgI jamA karI levuM. ApaNAmAM krodha-mAna-mAyAlobhanA kaSAyo che e udhAra thayA vagara rahe ja nahIM. eTale tenI sAme jame karI levuM. ApaNI bhUla thaI hoya te udhAra thAya, paNa tarata ja kaeNza-rokaDuM pratikramaNa karI nAkhavuM. ApaNA thakI koIne atikramaNa thAya to ApaNe jame karI levuM ane pAchaLa udhAra nahIM rAkhavuM. ane jo koInA thakI ApaNane atikramaNa thAya to ApaNe AlocanA, pratikramaNa ne pratyAkhyAna karI levuM. bhUla bhAMge te paramAtmA ! jeNe eka vakhata nakkI karyuM hoya ke mArAmAM je bhUla rahI hoya tene bhAMgI nAMkhavI che, te paramAtmA thaI zake che ! ApaNe ApaNI bhUlathI baMdhAyA chIe. bhUla bhAMge to to paramAtmA ja chIe ! jenI eka paNa bhUla nathI e pote ja paramAtmA che. A bhUla zuM kahe che ? tuM mane jANa, mane oLakha. A to evuM che ke bhUlane potAno sAro guNa mAnatA hatA. te bhUlano svabhAva kevo che ke te ApaNI upara amala kare. paNa bhUlane bhUla jANI to te bhAge. pachI UbhI nA rahe. cAlavA mAMDe. paNa A to zuM kare ke eka to bhUlane bhUla jANe nahIM ne pAcho enuM uparANuM le. tethI bhUlane gharamAM ja jamADe.

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nijadoSa darzanathI. nirdoSa ! nijadoSa darzanathI. nirdoSa ! dIdhA AdhAra bhUlone, uparANAM laIne ! praznakartA : dAdA, bhUlanuM uparANuM kevI rIte levAya che ? dAdAzrI : A ApaNe koIne TaiDakAvyA pachI kahIe ke, "ApaNe ene TaiDakAvyA nA hota to e samajata ja nahIM. mATe ene TaiDakAvavo ja joIe.' AnAthI to e "bhUla' jANe ke A bhAIne mArI hajI khabara nathI ane pAcho mAruM uparANuM le che. mATe ahIM ja khAo, pIo ne raho. eka ja vakhata jo ApaNI bhUlanuM uparANuM levAya to e bhUlanuM vIsa varSanuM AyuSya laMbAya. koI bhUlanuM uparANuM nA levAya. kUMcI bhUlo bhAMgavAnI ! mana-vacana-kAyAthI pratyakSa dAdA bhagavAnanI sAkSIe kSamA mAMga mAMga karavAnI. Dagale ne pagale jAgRti rahevI joIe. ApaNAmAM krodha-mAna-mAyAlobhanA kaSAyo to bhUlo karAvI udhAra karAve evo mAla che. te bhUlo karAve ja ane udhArI UbhI kare paNa tenI sAme ApaNe tarata ja tatkSaNa mAphI mAMgIne jamA karIne cokhkhuM karI levuM. A vepAra penDiMga nA rakhAya. A to daraasala rokaDiyo vyApAra kahevAya. praznakartA : atyAre bhUla thAya che e gayA avatAranI kharIne ? bhUlane oLakhato thayo eTale bhUla bhAMge. keTalAMka kApaDa kheMcI kheMcIne Ape che ane uparathI kahe che ke Aje to pA vAra kapaDuM ochuM ApyuM. A to AvaDuM moTuM raudradhyAna ane pAchuM enuM uparANuM ? bhUlanuM uparANuM levAnuM nA hoya. ghIvALo ghImAM koIne khabara nA paDe e rIte bheLaseLa karIne pAMcaso rUpiyA kamAya. e to mULa sAthe vRkSa ropI de che. anaMta avatAra pote ja potAnA bagADI de che. baMdha karo kaSAyatuM poSaNa ! koI mANasane bhUla rahita thavuM hoya to tene ame kahIe ke mAtra traNa ja varSa krodha-mAna-mAyA-lobhane khorAka nA ApIza. to badhA maDadAla thaI jaze. bhUlone jo traNa ja varSa khorAka nA maLe to ghara badalI nAkhe. doSa e ja krodha-mAna-mAyA-lobhanuM uparANuM. jo traNa ja varSa mATe uparANuM kyAreya paNa nA lIdhuM to te bhAgI jAya. jJAnI puruSanA dekhADyA sivAya manuSyane potAnI bhUlano khyAla na Ave. AvI anaMtI bhUlo che. A eka ja bhUla nathI. anaMtI bhUlo pharI vaLI che. praznakartA : paNa vadhAre doSa dekhAtA nathI. thoDAka ja dekhAya che. dAdAzrI : ahIM satsaMgamAM besavAthI AvaraNo tUTatAM jAya tema doSo dekhAtA jAya. praznakartA : doSo vadhAre dekhAya e mATe jAgRti zI rIte Ave ? dAdAzrI : mahIM jAgRti to bahu che. paNa doSone khoLavAnI bhAvanA thaI nathI. polIsavALAne cora jovAnI icchA thAya tyAre cora jaDI jAya. paNa A jo polIsavALo kahe ke "kaMI cora pakaDavA jevuM nathI. e to Avaze to pakaDIzuM.' eTale pachI cora majA kare ja ne ? A bhUlo to saMtAIne beThI che. tene zodho to tarata ja pakaDAI jAya. badhI ja kamANInuM phaLa zuM? tamArA doSo eka pachI eka tamane dekhAya dAdAzrI : gayA avatAranA pApane laIne ja A bhUlo che. paNa A avatAramAM pharI bhUla bhAMge ja nahIM ne vadhAratA jAya. bhUlane bhAMgavA mATe bhUlane bhUla kahevI paDe. tenuM uparANuM nA levAya. A jJAnI puruSonI kUMcI kahevAya. tenAthI game tevAM tALAM UghaDI jAya. jJAnI puruSa tamArI bhUla mATe zuM karI zake ? e to mAtra tamArI bhUla batAve, prakAza pADe, rasto batAve ke bhUlanuM uparANuM nA lezo. paNa pachI jo bhUlonuM uparANuM che ke ApaNe to A duniyAmAM rahevuM che, te Ama zI rIte karAya ?" alyA, A to bhUlane poSI uparANuM nA laIza. eka to mUo bhUla kare ane uparathI kalpAMta kare, to 'kalpa" (kALacakra)nA aMta sudhI rahevuM paDaze !

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nijadoSa darzanathI... nirdoSa ! nijadoSa darzanathI.... nirdoSa ! 15 to ja kamANI karI kahevAya. A badho ja satsaMga pote potAnA badhA ja doSo jue e mATe che. ane potAnA doSa dekhAya tyAre ja e doSo jaze. doSo kyAre dekhAze ? jyAre pote svayaM thaze, 'vasvarUpa' thaze tyAre. jene potAnA doSa vadhu dekhAya e UMco. jyAre A dehane mATe, vANIne mATe, vartanane mATe saMpUrNa niSpakSapAtIpaNuM utpanna thAya, tyAre ja pote potAnA badhA ja doSo joI zake. buddhi vakIlAte, jIte doSa ! jAgRta thayA eTale badhI khabara paDe ahIM bhUla thAya che, Ama bhUla thAya che. nahIM to potAne potAnI ekeya bhUla jaDe nahIM. be-cAra moTI bhUla hoyane te dekhAya. ene potAne dekhAya eTalI ja. koIka phero boleya kharAM ke jarA krodha kharo ne saheja lobheya kharo ema bole kharAM, paNa ApaNe kahIe 'tame krodhI cho'. eTale potAnA krodhanuM rakSaNa kare, bacAva kare, vakIlAta kare. amAro krodha e krodha gaNAya nahIM evI vakIlAta kare ane jenI vakIlAta karo, e haMmezAM tamArI para caDhI bese. jagatanA badhA lokone krodha-mAna-mAyA-lobha kADhavAM che. kone kADhavAnI icchA nA hoya ? e to veravI ja che, evuM badhA jANe che chatAM roja jamADe che ne moTAM kare che. potAnI bhUla ja dekhAya nahIM pachI mANasa bhUlone khorAka ja Ape ne ! aMdhApo na dekhavA de doSate ! tane tArA doSa keTalA dekhAya che ? ane keTalA doSa tuM dhoI nAkhuM chuM ? praznakartA doSa to ghaNAM dekhAya che. jevI rIte krodha che, lobha rahelo che. dAdAzrI : e to cAra-pAMca doSo, e dekhAyA te nA dekhAyA kahevAya. ane koIkanA tarapha doSa jovAnuM, te keTalA joI ApuM ? praznakartA : ghaNAM badhA dekhAya. dAdAzrI : bahu joI ApuM tuM ? praznakartA : hA. dAdAzrI : ko'kanA to raste jatAya, tane cAlatA nathI AvaDatuM, tuM Ama cAluM chuM, tuM Avo chuM, badhA bahu jAtanA doSa dekhAya ane potAnA doSa jaDe nahIM. kAraNa ke krodha-mAna-mAyA-lobhathI aMdha che. lobhano aMdha, krodhano aMdha, mAyAno aMdha, mAnano aMdha - badhuM aMdha svarUpe che. UghADI AMkhe aMdhA thaIne phare che, bhaTaka bhaTaka kare che. keTalI upAdhi kahevAya ! UghADI AMkhe AkhuM jagata UMdhI rahyuM che ane badhAM UMghamAM ja karI rahyAM che, evuM bhagavAna mahAvIra kahe che. kAraNa ke potAnuM ahita karI rahyA che. UghADI AMkhe ahita karI rahyA che, ene bhagavAne bhAvanidrA kahI. AkhuM jagata bhAvanidrAmAM paDeluM che. 'huM zuddhAtmA chuM" evuM bhAna thayA pachI bhAvanidrA savaze gaI kahevAya, jAgRta thayA kahevAya. kare jJAtI ekarAra, tijadoSatA.... bhUla thaI hoya, paNa enuM AyuSya zI rIte vadhe te huM jANato hato. eTale zuM karuM ? badhA beThA hoya ne ko'ka eka jaNa Avyo ne kahe, "moTA jJAnI thaI beThAM cho, hukalI to chUTatI nathI." ema badhuM bolene, tyAre huM kahuM ke 'mahArAja, A ATalI UghADI nabaLAI che e huM jANuM chuM.' tame Aja jANuM, huM to pahelethI ja jANuM chuM. jo huM ema kahyuM ke, "amArA jJAnIone kazuM aDe nahIM." eTale pelo dukko mahIM aMdara samajI jAya ke ahIM vIsa varSanuM AyuSya ApaNuM vadhyuM ! kAraNa ke dhaNI sArA che, game te karIne rakSaNa kare che. e evo huM kAco nathI. rakSaNa koI dahADo nathI karyuM. loka rakSaNa kare ke nA kare ? praznakartA : hA kare, bahu joradAra kare. dAdAzrI : eka sAheba chIMkaNI suMghatA hatA, Ama karIne. meM kahyuM, sAheba, A chIMkaNInI jarUra che tamAre ?" tyAre e kahe, 'chIMkaNIno to kaMI vAMdho nahIM." meM kahyuM, A sAhebane khabara ja nathI ke A chIMkaNInuM mahIM AyuSya

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nijadoSa darzanathI. nirdoSa ! 17 nijadoSa darzanathI... nirdoSa ! vadhArI Apo cho ! kAraNa ke AyuSya eTale zuM ? koI paNa saMyoga che te viyoganuM nakkI thayA pachI saMyoga bhego thAya. A to nakkI thayuM hoya enuM pAchuM AyuSya vadhAre Ama ! kAraNa ke jIvato mANasa game eTaluM vadha-ghaTa karAvaDAve eTale zuM thAya pachI ?! A badhA AyuSya vadhAre che, dareka bAbatamAM enuM rakSaNa kare che ke "kazo vAMdho nahIM, amane to aDe ja nahIM." khoTI vastunuM rakSaNa karavuM e to bhayaMkara guno che. praznakartA ane zuSka adhyAtmamAM UtarI gayA hoya to te ema kahe ke AtmAne kazuM aDe nahIM. A to pudgalane che badhuM. dAdAzrI : e to badhA bahu che ahIM. goLa goLa goLa goLa kare pelAM. emanAM ja mAla, e zuSka kahevAya. pachI badhuM sAMbhaLyA pachI huM kahuM ke bhagavAne kahyuM che ke ATalA lakSaNa joIe. mRdutA, RjutA, kSamA ! A to mRdutA dekhAtI nathI, RjutA dekhAtI nathI, Ama to akaDAI ! akaDAI ne AtmAne bahu cheTuM che. A to pola cAlyuM jAya che. A loko javAba ApI zakatA nathI eTale pachI A badhA pola mAravA jAya. paNa mArA jevA javAba Ape ne ? tarata javAba Ape. bIrabala jevo tarata hAjarajavAba. doSo svIkAro, upakAra mAnIne ! amArAmAM ADAI jarAya nA hoya. koI amane amArI bhUla batAve to ame tarata ja eksepTa (svIkAra) karI laIe. koI kahe ke A tamArI bhUla che to ame kahIe ke, 'hA, bhAI, A te amane bhUla batADI to tAro upakAra." ApaNe to jANIe ke je bhUla eNe batAvI ApI mATe eno upakAra. bAkI doSa hoya ke nA hoya enI tapAsa karavA javAnuM nahIM, emane dekhAya che mATe doSa che ja. mArA koTanI pAchaLa lakhyuM hoya ke 'dAdA cora che." loka pachI pAchaLa bole ke nA bole ? zAthI 'dAdA cora che' evuM bole che ? kAraNa ke mArI pAchaLa lakhyuM che, borDa mAryuM che ne ! te ApaNe joIe tyAre khabara paDe ke hA, pAchaLa borDa mAryuM che. bhale bIjuM koIka lakhI gayuM haze, paNa A badhAMne vAMcatA to AvaDene ! praznakartA : dAdAe AptavANImAM ema lakhyuM che ke "dAdA cora che" evuM koI lakhI Ape to mahAna upakAra mAnavo. evuM lakhyuM che. dAdAzrI : hA, lakhyuM che. praznakartA : eTale e kevI rIte ? dAdAzrI : hA, upakAra nahIM mAno to emAM tamane Akho tamAro ahaMkAra Ubho thaIne dveSa pariNAma pAmaze. ene zuM nukasAna javAnuM che ? enA bApanuM zuM javAnuM che ? e to nAdAra ja thaIne Ubho raheze ne tame nAdArI karAvI. eTale tamAre kahevuM, 'bhAI, tamAro upakAra che bA" ! ApaNI nAdArI nA nIkaLe eTalA hAru. e to nAdAra thaIne Ubho ja raheze, ene zuM ? ene duniyAnI paDelI nathI. A to bole. bejavAbadArIvALuM vAkya koNa bole ? jene potAnI javAbadArInuM bhAna nathI te bole. to enA joDe ApaNe bhasavA jaIe to ApaNe ya kUtarAM kahevAIe. eTale ApaNe kahIe, 'tAro upakAra che bA". praznakartA : ApaNA doSanA bhAva udayamAM Ave e ApaNe joIe ne samajIe eTalA mATe ApaNe eno upakAra mAnavo ? dAdAzrI : hA, jyAM jyAM doSa Avato hoya tyAM upakAra mAnajo aMdarakhAnethI, to e doSa baMdha thaI jaze. polIsavALA upare ya abhAva Avato hoya to eno upakAra mAnajo. to abhAva baMdha thaI jaze. Aje koI paNa mANasa khuMcato hoya to te bahu sAro mANasa, A to ApaNo upakArI che. baMdha thaI jaze khuMcatuM. eTale A zabda ame je ApIe chIene, eka-eka zabda davAo che. A badhA daraasala meDIsIna che, daraasala !! nahIM to 'cora' kahe teno upakAra mAnajo e vAkya zI rIte samajAya ene ? eTale tame mane

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nijadoSa darzanathI... nirdoSa ! 19 20 nijadoSa darzanathI... nirdoSa ! pUchavA nA Avo ne tamArA pariNAma badhAM badalAI jAya, enA karatAM tame upakAra mAnajo, dAdAnuM kahyuM eTaluM karajo ke eno upakAra che bhaI, A dAdAe kahyuM che mATe. praznakartA : dAdA upakAra mAnatA hoya pachI ame upakAra mAnIe emAM zuM vAMdho pachI ! nahoto. eTale ApaNe pachI sAmAno doSa kADhIe chIe ke tuM mane AvuM kema bole che ? tarkaTa ApaNe UbhuM karyuM ane pachI kahIe Amane ke, tuM amane AvI gALa kema Ape che ? tyAra pachI koI kaheze, alyA, eNe gALa dIdhI, paNa tuM evuM kahene, 'tuM rAjA che.' tyAre ema kaheze, 'tuM rAjA che" basa. A to badhuM projekzana ApaNuM ja che. alyA, le bodhapATha AtAthI ! dAdAzrI : hA, ApaNe evo hisAba levo ke 'sAruMne, cora ekalA kahe che.' lucco che, badamAza che, nAlAyaka che evuM badhuM nathI kahetA. eTalo sAro chene ? nahIM to enuM moTuM che. eTale phAve eTaluM bole. ene kaMI nA kahevAya ApaNAthI ? ApaNe upakAra mAnavAno. upakAra mAnavAthI ApaNuM mana bagaDe nahIM. samaja paDIne ? loko mane kahe che ke 'tamAre tamArA doSo kahevAnI zI jarUra ? phAyado zo ?" meM kahyuM, 'tamane bodhapATha ApavA mATe ke tamane AvI hiMmata Ave. huM boluM chuM te tamane hiMmata kema nA AvavI joIe ? haMmezA je doSa thayone te khullo kare to mana pakaDAI jAya. pachI mana DaratuM rahe ke A to UghADuM karI deze, UghADuM karI deze. UlaTuM ApaNAthI DaratuM rahe. A to bahu bhalA mANasa che. UghADuM karI deze. ame to kahI dIdhuM ke ame badhuM UghADuM karI daIzuM. opana Tu skAya (khulle Ama) karI nAkhIzuM. tyAre badhA doSa jatA rahyA. tyAre vilaya thaI jAya.' bhUla bhAMgavAtI rIti... tamAre keTalI bhUlo thatI haze ? praznakartA : be-cAra-pAMca thaI jAya. A vAta saiddhAMtika che. kevI rIte ke tame mane kaho ke, 'dAdA, A pelo tamane 'cora' kahe che. to tame zuM karo ?" tyAre huM kahuM ke, 'bhaI, upakAra mAnavo.' kema kahe che, upakAra mAno tame ? zA badala ? tyAre kahe che, koI kahe nahIM AvuM. A paDagho che kazAkano, te mAro potAno ja paDagho che. mATe upakAra mAnuM. A jagata paDaghA svarUpe che. enI haDa parasanTa geranTI lakhI Apu chuM. eTale ameya upakAra mAnIe to tamAre ya upakAra ja mAnavo joIe ne ! ane tamAruM mana bahu sAruM raheze. 'cora kahe che' teno upakAra mAne che. nahIM to pachI tamane saheje lAgaNI thaI jAya ke, dAdA mATe AvuM bole che ?! mahAvIra mATe AvaDAM AvaDAM zabdo bolatA hatA to ya lokoe pacAvyA. emanA bhaktoe badhAe pacAvyA emanA zabdo. je je bole e badhuM pacAvI letA hatA. bhagavAne zIkhavADeluM evuM. 'A' tarkaTa karanAra "tuM" ja ! praznakartA : eTale jagata nirdoSa che e samajavAnI draSTi have keLavavI paDene ? dAdAzrI : eTale A vAtane ApaNe jo nA bolyA hoya to Dakho ja dAdAzrI : koNa nyAya karanAruM ? A bhUla che evuM nyAya karanAruM koNa ? praznakartA : nukasAna Ave tyAre lAge ke bhUla karI che. dAdAzrI : tyAre khabara paDe, nahIM ? paNa nyAya karanAra koNa AmAM ? bhUla karanAra mANasa bhUla kabUla nA kare ekadama. nyAya karanAra mANasa kahe ke A tArI bhUla che to vaLI samajAya. to kabUla kare, nahIM to kabUla nA kare. bhUla koI kabUla nA kare A duniyAmAM ane jo samajaNa paDe to kabUla kare. ene zUTa ona sAITa (dekho tyAMthI ThAra) karavuM joIe. nahIM to bhUla

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nijadoSa darzanathI.... nirdoSa ! nijadoSa darzanathI... nirdoSa ! lagADIe to ya bhUla che. kAraNa ke e Adata ene choDatI nathI. praznakartA: paNa dAdA, eno kaMIka rasto to hoya ke nahIM ? e Adata choDavA mATe kaMIka rasto to hovo joIene ? ghaTe ja nahIM. tamArA gAmamAM koI bhUla kabUla kare kharAM ? praznakartA : kabUla nA kare. dAdAzrI : hA. koI kabUla nA kare. jo akkalanA kothaLA vecavA jAya to cAra AnAya nA Ave. akkalanA kothaLAne vecavA jAya to Ave paisA ? badhAya akkalavALA, hindustAna dezamAM badhA akkalavALA te koNa paisA Ape ? koI bhUla kabUla nA karene tamAre tyAM ? ane tuM bhUla kabUla karuM chuM tarata ? praznakartA : hA, tarata. mArI eka bhUla kahuM ? dAdAzrI : hA. praznakartA : huM pAnAM ramavAno bahu zokhIna chuM. dAdAzrI : ema ?! pAnA ramavA e to hisAba che. mahIM hisAba karelo pote, je DisAIDa kareluM che, te ja ApaNe pote bhogavIe chIe A. praznakartA H have A pAnA rame ne rAjI thAya paNa emanA vAiphane sAruM nA lAge. dAdAzrI : rasto eno eka ja ke A bhaI pAnAM ramatAM hoya to emane niraMtara mahIM rahevuM joIe ke A khoTI vastu che, A khoTI vastu che, A khoTI vastu che. niraMtara Ama rahevuM joIe. ane AvuM roja khoTI vastu bolIe ane eka dahADo koI AvIne Tasare caDhAve ke "A pAnA ramavA bahu kharAba vastu che. tyAM tame kaho ke "nA, sArI vastu che' ke pAchuM bagaDyuM. te ghaDIe tamAre ema kahI devuM ke khoTI vastu ja che. paNa Tasare caDhAvene, eTale jIvatuM rAkhe che A loko ! eTale loko kahe che, "amArI Adato kema chUTatI nathI ?" paNa jIvatuM zuM karavA rAkho cho ? pharI pANI nahIM pAvAnuM te dahADe. loka to UMdhuM bole. tamane samajAyuMne ? evuM bane ke nA bane ? praznakartA : bane che. dAdAzrI : eTale tethI jIvatuM rahyuM che. mane hau evuM thayeluM eTale pachI meM zodhakhoLa karelI. eTale A badhI vastu hoya chatAM aMdara ene mATe juduM. hukko pIto hato to ya aMdara juduM, cA pIto hato to ya aMdara juduM. paravaza karanArI vastuo ApaNane nA hovI joIe. chatAM paravaza thaI gayAM to have kema chUTavuM teno upAya ApaNe jANavo joIe. upAya jANyo tyArathI chUTA ja chIe. eTale thoDA vakhatamAM choDI devAnuM ja che, A chUTI ja javAnuM che. enI meLe chUTI jAya enuM nAma chUTayuM kahevAya. ahaMkAre karIne choDIe e kAcuM rahe to AvatA bhavamAM pAchuM pharI Ave. enAM karatAM samajaNathI choDavA jevuM che. eTale jene je vastu hoya, te Ama pAnA ramIe sArI rIte pharsTaklAsa, paNa manamAM mahIM Ama hovuM joIe ke A na hovuM joIe, A na hovuM joIe. pachI hajAra mANasanI rUbarU, ApaNe upadeza ApatA hoya te ghaDIe dAdAzrI : sAruM nA lAge to e ja bhogave. je bhogave enI bhUla. jo nA bhogavatA hoya to kazI emanI bhUla nathI. jo e bhogavatA hoya to emanI ja bhUla che. praznakartA: vAipha kahe che, huM bhogavatI ja nathI. tyAre dhaNIne lAge che ke e bhogave che. dAdAzrI : paNa e pote kahe che ke huM nathI bhogavatI eTale pachI thayuM, chUTayuM ! A jJAna pahelAM bhogavatA haze ! pachI to samajene ! kAraNa ke koI ne koI Adata hoya. te kaMI ene ne ApaNane levA-devA nathI. e to mAla bharIne AvelA che. potAne choDavuM hoya to ya nA chUTe. e Adata ene nA choDe pachI ! have ene ApaNe vaDhIe to ApaNI bhUla che. enA para khoTuM

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nijadoSa darzanathI... nirdoSa ! koIka AvIne kahe, 'have zuM, pAnA chUTatAM nathIne, amathAM e karyA karo cho ?!' tyAre kahe, "pAnAno vAMdho nathI.' evuM nA bolAya. tyAM kahI devuM ke, bhaI, amArI nabaLAI che, A pAnA 2muM chuM te basa !' 23 praznakartA H hajAra mANasanI vacce bhUlano ekarAra karavo joIe ? dAdAzrI : basa, ekarAra karavo joIe, to pAnAM caDhI nahIM bese. nahIM to tame ema kaho ke eno kazo vAMdho nahIM, to pAnAe jANyuM ke, 'A babucaka mANasa che, ahIM ja rahevA jevuM che.' pAnA pote ja samajI jAya. A poluM ghara che. eTale ApaNe ekarAra, game te TAIme ! AbarU jAya tyAM paNa AbarU nahIM, nAkakaTTI thAya to ya ekarAra karI levo. ekarAra karavAmAM pUrA rahevuM joIe. mana vaza karavuM hoya to ekarArathI thAya. ekarAra karone, dareka bAbatamAM potAnI nabaLAI khullI karI de to mana vaza thaI jAya. nahIM to mana vaza thAya nahIM. pachI mana bephAma thaI jAya. mana kaheze, 'phAvatuM ghara che A !' AlocatA jJAtI pAse ! ane doSa amane kahe ne enI sAthe ja chUTI jAya ane amAre kaMI enI jarUra nathI. tamAre chUTavAno rasto che eka A. kAraNa ke vItarAgo sivAya doSa koI jagyAe kahevAya ja nahIM. kAraNa ke jagata AkhuM doSita ja che. amane to AmAM navInatA ya nA lAge ke A bhAre che ke A halako che. evuM bole ya nahIM amArI pAse to ya amane to eka jAtanuM ja lAge che. bhUla to thAya mANasa mAtranI, emAM gabharAvAnuM zuM ? bhUla bhAMganArA che tyAM kahIe, mArI AvI bhUla thAya che. to e rasto batAve. tema tema khIlatI jAya sUjha... bhUla bhAMgaze to kAma thaze. bhUla bhAMgaze zenAthI ? tyAre kahe mahIM sUjha nAmanI zakti che. bahu gUMcAya tyAre sUjha paDe ke nA paDe ? pachI Ama nirAMte besI rahe pachI mahIM sUjha paDe ke nathI paDatI ? 24 nijadoSa darzanathI... nirdoSa ! praznakartA : hA. dAdAzrI : te koNa ApavA Ave che ? sUjha to ekalI ja zakti mokSe laI jAya evI che. jIva mAtrane sUjha nAmanI zakti hoya che. gAyo khUMcAya ne thoDIvAra UbhI rahe, cogaradama nIkaLavAno rasto nA hoya to thoDIkavAra UbhI rahe tyAre mahIM sUjha samajAya ne tyAra pachI nIkaLI jAya. e sUjha nAmanI zakti che, e khIle zAnAthI ? tyAre kahe, jeTalI bhUla bhAMge tema tema sUjha khIlatI jAya. ane bhUla kabUla karI ke bhaI, A bhUla mArI thayelI che bA. tyArathI zakti bahu vadhatI jAya. hatI ja nahIM te jAya kyAMthI ? A krodha karyo che te khoTuM karyuM che, evI samajaNa paDe ke nA paDe ? have samajaNa paDI hoya ke sAluM A vadhAre paDatuM che. eTale potAnI bhUla samajaNa paDI che. tyAra pachI zeTha AvyA bahArathI ane emaNe kahyuM ke 'mahArAja, A ziSya joDe ATaluM badhuM thAya ? pAcho tyAM AgaLa navI jAtanuM kahe, 'krodha karavA jevo che. te bahu vAMko che.' alyA, tane potAne samajaNa paDelI che ke A bhUla thayelI che ne pAchuM A uparANuM lauM chuM ? kaI jAtano ghanacakkara chuM ? ApaNe zeThane tyAM zuM kahevuM joIe ke, 'mane bhUla samajAI che. huM have pharI AvuM nahIM karuM.' to e bhUla bhAMge. nahIM to ApaNe bhUlanuM uparANuM laIe, zeTha Ave tyAre. te zAnA hAru ? zeThanI AgaLa AbarU rAkhavA. alyA, A zeTha AbarU vagarano che. A lUgaDAMne lIdhe lokonI AbarU che. bAkI lokonI AbarU ja kyAM che ? A badhe dekhAya che ? dasatA karyA eka ! A jagata 'rileTiva' che, vyavahArika che. ApaNAthI sAmAne akSare ya nA bolAya ane jo 'parama vinaya'mAM hoya to khoDe ya nA kaDhAya, A jagatamAM koInI khoDa kADhavA jevuM nathI. khoDa kADhavAthI zo doSa besaze tenI khoDa

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nijadoSa darzanathI... nirdoSa ! nijadoSa darzanathI nirdoSa ! kADhanArane khabara nathI. koInI ya TIkA karavI eTale ApaNI dasa rUpiyAnI noTa vaTAvIne eka rUpiyo lAvavo te. TIkA karanAra haMmezA potAnuM ja gumAve che. jemAM kazuM ja vaLe nahIM. te mahenata ApaNe nA karavI. TIkAthI tamArI ja zaktio veDaphAya che. ApaNane jo dekhAyuM ke A tala nathI paNa retI ja che, to pachI tene pIlavAnI mahenata zuM kAma karavI ? 'TAIma enDa enarjI" (samaya ane zakti) bane 'vesTa' (nakAmA) jAya che. A to TIkA karIne sAmAno mela dhoI Apyo ne tAruM potAnuM kapaDuM meluM karyuM ! te have kyAre dhoIza ! koInA ya avagaNa nA jovAya. jovA hoya to potAnA juone ! A to bIjAnI bhUlo joIe to magaja kevuM thaI jAya che ! enA karatAM bIjAnA guNo joIe to magaja kevuM khuza thaI jAya che ! badhA duHkhonuM mULa "pote' ja ! sAmAno doSa koI jagyAe che ja nahIM, sAmAno zo doSa ! e to ema ja mAnIne beThA che, ke A saMsAra e ja sukha che ne Aja vAta sAcI che. ApaNe ema manAvavA jaIe ke tamArI mAnyatA khoTI che to te ApaNI ja bhUla che. lokone pArakAMnA doSo ja jovAnI Teva paDI che. koInA doSo hotA ja nathI. bahAra to tamane dALabhAta, zAka-roTalI badhuM banAvIne, rasa-roTalI banAvIne Ape badhAM, pIrase, pAchAM ghI mUkI jAya, ghauM vaNe, tamane khabare ya nA paDe, ghauM veNIne daLAve che. jo kadI bahAravALA duHkha ApatA hoya, to ghauM veNe zuM karavA ? eTale bahAra koI du:kha ApatA nathI. du:kha tamAruM mahIMthI ja Ave che. sAmAno doSa ja nA joIe, doSa jovAthI to saMsAra bagaDI jAya che. potAnA ja doSa jo jo karavA. ApaNA ja karmanA udayanuM phaLa che A ! mATe kaMI kahevAnuM ja nA rahyuM ne ? A to badhA anyonya doSa de ke "tame AvA cho, tame tevAM cho' ne bhegA besIne Tebala para khAya. Ama mahIM vera baMdhAya che, A verathI duniyA UbhI rahI che. tethI to ame kahyuM ke 'samabhAve nikAla karajo.' enAthI vera baMdha thAya. te koI doSita jagatamAM ! eka eka karmanI mukti thavI joIe. sAsu pajave tyAre eke eka vakhata karmathI mukti maLavI joIe. to te mATe ApaNe zuM karavuM joIe ? sAsune nirdoSa jovA joIe ke sAsuno to zo doSa ? mArA karmano udaya tethI e maLyAM che. e to bicArAM nimitta che. to e karmanI mukti thaI ne jo sAsuno doSa joyo eTale karma vadhyA, pachI ene to koI zuM kare ? bhagavAna zuM kare ? ApaNe ApaNuM karma baMdhAya nahIM evI rIte rahevuM, A duniyAthI cheTe rahevuM. A karma bAMdhelA tethI to A bhegAM thayelAM che. A ApaNAM ghare bhegA koNa thayelA che ? karmanA hisAba baMdhAyelA che te ja badhA bhegAM thayAM che ane pachI ApaNane bAMdhIne mAre hala ! ApaNe nakkI karyuM hoya ke mAre enI joDe bolavuM nathI, to ya sAmo AMgaLA ghAlI ghAlIne bolAva bolAva kare. alyA, AMgalA ghAlIne zuM karavA bolAve che ? AnuM nAma vera ! badhA pUrvanAM vera ! koI jagyAe joyeluM che ke ? praznakartA : badhe e ja dekhAya che ne ! dAdAzrI : tethI huM kahuM chuM ne, ke khasI jAva ane mArI pAse Avo. A huM je pAmyo, huM te tamane ApI dauM, tamAruM kAma thaI jaze ane chUTakAro thaI jaze. bAkI, chUTakAro thAya nahIM. ame koIno doSa nA kADhIe, paNa noMdha karIe ke juo A duniyA zuM che ? badhI rIte A duniyAne meM joyelI, bahu rIte joyelI. koI doSita dekhAya che e ApaNI hajI bhUla che. jyAre tyAre to nirdoSa jovuM paDazene ? ApaNA hisAbathI ja che A badhuM. ATaluM TUMkuM samajI jAvane, to ya badhuM bahu kAma lAge. mane jagata nirdoSa dekhAya che. tamAre evI draSTi Avaze eTale A pajhala solva thaI jaze. huM tamane evuM ajavALuM ApIza ane eTalA pApa

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nijadoSa darzanathI... nirdoSa ! nijadoSa darzanathI . nirdoSa ! dhoI nAkhIza ke jethI tamAruM ajavALuM rahe ane tamane nirdoSa dekhAtuM jAya. ane joDe joDe pAMca AjJA ApIzuM. e pAMca AjJAmAM rahezo to e je ApeluM jJAna che, tene saheje ya phrekTara nahIM thavA de. tyArathI thayuM samakti ! potAno doSa dekhAya tyArathI samakita thayuM kahevAya. potAno doSa dekhAya tyAre jANavuM ke pote jAgRta thayo che. nahIM to badhuM UMghamAM ja cAle che. doSa khalAsa thayA ke nA thayA, tenI bahu ciMtA karavA jevI nathI paNa jAgRtinI mukhya jarUra che. jAgRti thayA pachI navA doSa UbhA thAya nahIM ne jUnA doSa hoya te nIkaLyA kare. ApaNe e doSone jovAnA ke kevI rIte doSo thAya che ! jeTalAM doSo dekhAya teTalAM vidAyagIrI levA mAMDe. je te cIkaNA hoya te be dahADA, traNa dahADA, pAMca dahADA, mahine ke varSe paNa e dekhAya eTale cAlavA ja mAMDe, are, bhAgavA ja mAMDe. gharamAM jo cora peTho hoya to te kyAM sudhI besI rahe ? mAlika jANato na hoya tyAM sudhI. mAlika jo jANe to tarata ja cora nAsavA mAMDe. aMte to e prAta guNo ! praznakartA : dAdA, ApaNe doSa nahIM jovAnA ne guNo jovAnA ? dAdAzrI : nA. doSo ya nahIM jovAnA ne guNo ya nahIM jovAnA. A dekhAya che e guNo to badhA prAkRta guNo che. te eke ya TakAu nathI. dAnezvarI hoya te pAMca varSathI mAMDIne pacAsa varSa sudhI e ja guNamAM rahyo hoya, paNa sanepAta thAya tyAre e guNa pharI jAya. A guNo to vAta, pitta ane kaphathI rahyA che ane e traNemAM mela thAya to sanepAta thAya ! AvA guNo to anaMta avatArathI bheLA kara kara karyA che. chatAM, Ama prAkRta doSo bhegA nA karavA joIe. prAkRta sArA guNo prApta kare to kyAreka AtmA prApta karI zakaze. dayA, zAMti e badhA guNo hoya te paNa jo vAta, pitta ne kapha bagaDyAM to te badhAne mAra mAra kare. A to prakRtinAM lakSaNa kahevAya. AvAM guNothI puNyAnubaMdhI puNya baMdhAya. tenAthI koIka avatAramAM 'jJAnI puruSa' maLI Ave, to kAma thAya. paNa AvAM guNomAM besI rahevuM nahIM. kAraNa ke kyAre emAM pheraphAra thaI jAya e kahevAya nahIM. e potAnA zuddhAtmAnA guNo nathI. A to prAkRta guNo che. ene to ame bhamaraDAM kahIe chIe. AkhuM jagata prAkRta guNomAM ja che. AkhuM jagata bhamaraDAM chApa che. A to sAmAyika-pratikramaNa prakRti karAve ane potAne mAthe le che ne kahe che ke meM karyuM !" te bhagavAnane pUche to bhagavAna kahe ke, "A to tuM kAMI ja karato nathI.' A koI divasa paga phATato hoya to kahe, 'huM zuM karuM ?" prakRti parANe karAve che ne kahe che ke "meM karyuM !" ane tethI to e AvatA avatAranuM bIja nAkhe che. A to udayakarmathI thAya ane eno garva le. A udayakarmano garva le ene sAdhu zI rIte kahevAya ? sAdhu mahArAjonI eka bhUla, ke je udayakarmano garva le che. e jo bhUla thatI hoya ane teTalI eka bhUla ja jo bhAMge to to kAma ja thaI jAya. udayakarmano garva mahArAjane che ke nahIM eTaluM ja jovAnuM hoya, bIjuM bahAranuM kazuM ja jovAnuM nA hoya. emane bIjAM kaSAyo haze to cAlaze paNa udayakarmano garva nA hovo joIe. basa, ATaluM ja jovAnuM hoya. dareka jIva anaMta doSanuM bhAjana che. kRpALudeve kahyuM, 'huM to doSa anaMtanuM, bhAjana chuM karuNALa' evuM bolaje. moTAmAM moTo doSa ! bhagavAne saMsArI doSane doSa gaNyo nathI. 'tArA svarUpanuM ajJAna' e ja moTAmAM moTo doSa che. A to huM caMdubhAI chuM' tyAM sudhI bIjA doSo ya UbhA che ane eka vakhata potAnA svarUpanuM bhAna thAya to pachI bIjAM doSo haMDatA thAya ! A to potAnI eka bhUla dekhAtI nathI. ApaNe kahIe, "zeTha. tamArAmAM kaMIka doSa to kharone ?" tyAre kahe, 'hA, thoDoka saheja krodha che ane saheja lobha che. bIjuM kAMI doSa nathI.' A tuM tyAM anaMta bole che ne ahIM pAcho...' 'be" ja che evuM moDhe bole che ! ApaNe pUchIe tyAre e jANe ke

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nijadoSa darzanathI... nirdoSa ! nijadoSa darzanathI... nirdoSa ! AbarU jatI raheze. alyA, AbarU hatI ja kyAM che ? AbarUdAra to konuM nAma ke manuSyamAMthI pharI cArapago nA thAya, enuM nAma AbarUdAra ! alyA, ATalo badho pAko mANasa tuM. bhagavAna pAse "huM anaMta doSanuM bhAjana chuM" ema bole ane ahIM bahAra be ja bhUla che ema bole !! ApaNe kahIe, 'bhagavAna pAse bolato hatone ?" tyAre kahe, 'e to tyAM bolavAnuM hoya, ahIM nahIM.' enAM karatAM to taDabUcAM sArAM, enAmAM eTalA doSa nA hoya ! alyA, bhagavAna pAse juduM bole che ane ahIM juduM bole che ? haju to keTalA cakkara pharIza tuM ? jarA krodha kharo ne jarA lobha kharo, be bhUlano mAlika ! bhagavAna ahIM pharatA hatA, te emanI pAse pAMca lAkha bhUlo hatI ne A be bhUlano mAlika ! bhagavAna dehadhArI hatAne tyAM sudhI be-pAMca lAkha bhUlo paDI rahetI hatI ne A bhUla vagarano (!) e jo potAnA doSa dekhAya nahIM, to koI di' taravAnI vAta karavI nahIM, evI AzA ya rAkhavI nahIM. manuSya mAtra anaMta bhUlanuM bhAjana che ane jo ene potAnI bhUla nathI dekhAtI to eTaluM ja che ke ene bhayaMkara AvaraNa varte che. A to bhUla dekhAtI ja nathI. have bhUlo dekhAya che thoDI ghaNI ? bhUlo dekhAya che ke nathI dekhAtI ? praznakartA : have dekhAya che. naryo bhUlano bhaMDAra eTale jIvaDuM thaI jAyane pachI ? nahIM to pote ziva che. jIva-zivano bheda kema lAge che ? A to bhUlane laIne che. A bhUla bhAMge to ukela Ave. dIThA tahIM tijadoSa to... - paheluM vAkya kahe che ke huM to doSa anaMtanuM bhAna chuM karaNALa.' ane chelluM eka vAkya kahe che ke "dIThA nahIM nijadoSa to tarIe koNa upAya !' | 'anaMta doSanuM bhAjana chuM" evuM mane ya samajAya che paNa dekhAto ekya nathI. mATe taravAno upAya che kaMI ? kema dekhAto nathI ? potAnA doSa kyAre dekhAya ? ke jagatane jema jema nirdoSa joto jAya, tema tema potAnA doSa dekhAtA jAya. jagatanA doSo kADhe che tyAM sudhI potAno eka akSareya doSa jaDe nahIM. jagatanA doSa kADhe kharuM koI? pArakAMnA doSa kADhavAmAM hoziyAra hoya che bahu ? esparTa hoya che, nahIM ? ta jovAya doSa koItA ! praznakartA : mane sAmA mANasanA guNo karatAM doSo vadhAre dekhAya che enuM zuM kAraNa ? dAdAzrI : AkhA jagatanA lokone atyAre evuM thaI gayuM che. draSTi ja bagaDI gaI che. enA guNa jue nahIM, doSa khoLI kADhe tarata ! ane doSa jaDe ya kharAM ane potAnA doSa jaDe nahIM ne ? praznakartA : sAmAnA doSa dekhAya te doSa potAnAmAM hoya ? dAdAzrI : bhUlano svabhAva kevo che ke dekhAya e jatI rahe ne pAchI bIje dahADe pAchI ATalI ja Ave. naryo bhUlono ja bhaMDAra che ! A to bhaMDAra ja bhUlano che. pachI vaDhI paDe che ne te vaDhyA pachI nikAla karatAM ya nathI AvaDato. alyA, vaDhI paDe che ? te vidyAne have eno nikAla to kara ! jema thALI ApaNe bagADI hoya to dhotA nA AvaDe pachI ? paNa A to vaDhI paDyo pachI eno nikAla karatAM ya nA AvaDe. pachI moDhuM caDhAvIne pharyA kare ! mecakkara, moTuM zuM karavA caDhAve che te ? dAdAzrI : evo koI kAyado nathI, chatAM evAM doSo hoya. A buddhi zuM kare che ? potAnA doSo DhAMka DhAMka kare ne bIjAnAM jue. A to avaLA mANasanuM kAma. jenI bhUla bhAMgI gaI hoya te bIjAnI bhUglo nA jue. e kuTeva ja nA hoya. saheje nirdoSa ja jue. jJAna evuM hoya ke saheje bhUla nA jue.

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nijadoSa darzanathI.... nirdoSa ! nijadoSa darzanathI... nirdoSa ! praznakartA : bIjAnI bhUla ja mANasa zodhe che ne ? dAdAzrI : bhUla koInI jovAya nahIM. koInI bhUla jozo e bhayaMkara guno che. tuM zuM nyAyAdhIza ? tane zuM samajaNa paDe ke tuM bhUla jouM chuM? moTA bhUlanA jovAvALA AvyA ? bhUla jouM chuM, to pachI tuM bhAna vagarano chuM. bebhAna chuM. bhUla hotI haze ? bIjAnI bhUla to jovAtI haze ? bhUla jovI e guno che, bhayaMkara guno che. bhUla to ApaNI ja dekhAtI nathI. bIjAnI zuM karavA khoLo cho ? bhUla tamArI potAnI javAnI che, bIjA koInI bhUla jovAnI nathI. ane evI jo bhUlo jovAmAM Ave, A pelAnI bhUla jue, pelo pelAnI bhUla jue, to zuM thAya ? koInI bhUla ja nA jovAnI hoya. che ya nahIM bhUla. je bhUla kADhene te bilakula nAlAyaka hoya che. sAmAnI saheja paNa bhUla thAya che evuM meM joyuM to e mArAmAM nAlAyakI hoya che. enI pAchaLa kharAba Ayo hoya che. hA, bhUgla kyAMthI lAvyA ? potapotAnI prakRti pramANe kAma kare che. emAM bhUla kyAM AvI ? A nyAyAdhIzanuM DIpArTamenTa che ? sahu sahunI prakRti pramANe kAma kare che. huM ya mArI prakRti pramANe kAma karyA karuM chuM. prakRti to hoya ja ne ! praznakartA : e ja bhUlI jAya che ke A sAmo mANasa kartA nathI. e nA mAne to ya amane bilakula vAMdho nathI. ame kahIe, A karajo ane nA mAne to kaMI nahIM. praznakartA H Apane kazuMya nahIM ? dAdAzrI : huM jANuM ke e zenA AdhAre bole che ! udayakarmanA AdhAre bole che. kaMI ochuM mArI AjJA rokavAnI icchA che ? icchA ja nA hoya ne ? eTale emane guno nA lAge. A udayakamanA AdhAre bole to e vALavuM paDe amAre. jo prakRti vIphare tyAM amAre che te paraheja karI devI paDe. potAnuM ahita to saMpUrNa kare, bIjA badhAnuM karI nAkhe. bAkI, saraLa prakRti bhUlo karatI hoya, karyA ja kare. e to duniyAmAM badhI pravRtio ja che !!! tane tArI bhUlo pUrepUrI dekhAya che ? praznakartA : hA, bhUlo to dekhAya che. dAdAzrI : ekuMya bhUla dekhAtI nathI tane. ane jeTalA vALa che enA karatAM vadhAre bhUlo che. e zI rIte samajaNa paDe tane ?! praznakartA : e bhUla khAvI athavA na khAvI e karmAdhIna che ne ? dAdAzrI : ohoho ! e sArI zodhakhoLa karI ! juone bAbA ja chene, badhAM AvaDAM AvaDAM bAbA ! bebhAnapaNuM !! juone, haju bhUla khAvI ke nA khAvI e karmAdhIna che ke kema haju to AvuM bole che !! kUvAmAM kaMI paDato nathI. tyAM sAcavIne cAle che. samaya Ave to doDe, tyAM kema karmAdhInapaNuM bolato nathI ? TreIna Ave te ghaDIe pATA oLaMgI jAya ke nahIM ? tyAM kema karmAdhIna bolato nathI. potAnA doSa potAne zI rIte dekhAya ? dekhAya ja nahIM ne ! kAraNa ke jyAM mohanuM sAmrAjya hoya, mohathI bharelAM !! huM phalANo chuM, huM Ama chuM, eno moha pAcho !! potAnA padano moha hoya kharo ke ? nA hoya ? prazna kartA : ghaNo hoya ! dAdAzrI : hA, e enI jAgRti rahe to kazo vAMdho nathI. sAmAnI bhUla joI tyAMthI ja saMsAra navo Ubho thayo. te jyAM sudhI e bhUla bhAge nahIM tyAM sudhI eno niveDo Ave nahIM. mANasa gUMcavAyelo rahe. amane to kSaNavAra paNa koInI bhUla dekhAI nathI ane dekhAya to ame moMDhe kahI daIe. DhAMkavAnuM nahIM ke bhaI, AvI bhUla amane dekhAya che. tane jarUra hoya to svIkArI leje, nahIM to bAjue mUkI deje. praznakartA : e to enA kalyANa mATe Ama kaho cho. dAdAzrI : e kahIe cetavavA mATe to ukela Ave ne ! ane pachI

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nijadoSa darzanathI.... nirdoSa ! dAdAzrI : A ja che. bIjuM kazuM nathI. niMdA karavA jevuM nathI paNa badhe AvuM ja che. tyAre Avyo mahAvIratA mArgamAM ! doSa jyArathI dekhAvAnA thAyane, tyArathI kRpALudevano dharma samajyo kahevAya. potAnA doSa Aje je dekhAya te kAle nA dekhAya, kAle navI jAtanA dekhAya, parama dahADe enAthI navI jAtanA dekhAya, tyAre ApaNe jANIe ke A kRpALudevano dharma samajAya che ne kRpALudevano dharma pALe che. potAnA doSa dekhAya nahIM tyAM sudhI kazuM samajyo nathI. kramika mArgamAM to kyAreya potAnA doSa potAne dekhAya ja nahIM. 'doSo to ghaNA che paNa amane dekhAtA nathI.' evuM jo kahe to huM mAnuM ke tuM mokSano adhikArI che paNa je kahe ke, mArAmAM be-cAra ja dekhAya che, te anaMta doSathI bharelo che, ne kahe che ke be-cAra ja che ! te tane be-cAra doSa ja dekhAya che, tethI eTalA ja tArAmAM doSa che ema huM mAne che ? mahAvIra bhagavAnanA mArgane kyAre pAmyo kahevAya ? jyAre roja potAnA so-so doSo dekhAya, roja so-so pratikramaNa thAya, tyAra pachI mahAvIra bhagavAnanA mArgamAM Avyo kahevAya. "svarUpanuM jJAna' to hajI enI pachI kyAMya dUra che. paNa A to cAra pustako vAMcIne 'svarUpa" pAmyAno kepha laIne phare che. A to 'svarUpa"no eka chAMTo paNa pAmyo nA kahevAya. jyAM "jJAna" aTakyuM che tyAM kepha ja vadhe. kephathI jJAnAvaraNa ane darzanAvaraNa khasavAnuM aTakyuM che. mokSe javA mATe bIjI eke ya vastu naDatI nathI. moTAmAM moTAM bhayasthAno e svachaMda ane kepha che ! ta dIThA potAnAM ja doSo ! potAnA doSa dekhAya che tamane ? praznakartA : e ja potAnA doSa gotavAnI ja jarUra che. ApaNe dAdAzrI : hA, te zAthI nathI dekhAtA e ? nijadoSa darzanathI.... nirdoSa ! praznakartA: ApaNe saMsAramAM aTavAyelA paDyA chIe, eTale rojIMdA kAryamAM parovAI gayelA chIe mATe dekhAtA nathI. dAdAzrI : nA, dekhAvAmAM kaMIka bhUla thaI rahI che. pote jaja che, AropIya pote che. guno karanAre ya pote che paNa joDe vakIla Ubho karyo che, pote ja vakIla thAya che pAcho. praznakartA : eTale potAno khoTI rIte bacAva ja kare. dAdAzrI : hA, badho bacAva karyo che. hA, basa, bIjuM kazuM karyuM nathI. khoTI rIte badhA bacAva karyA. jagata UghADI AMkhe UMdhe che. eTale pachI doSa zI rIte mAlama paDe ? tArAM doSa tane dekhAtA nathI. zI rIte mANasa doSa dekhI zake potAnA ? praznakartA : dhULa thoDA dekhAya, sUkSma nA dekhAya. dAdAzrI : doSa kema nathI dekhAtA ? tyAre kahe che, "mahIM AtmA nathI ?" tyAre kahe, AtmA che, eTale ke jaja che, jaja ! ahaMkAra AropI che. ahaMkAra ne jaja(AtmA) be ja jaNa hoyane, to badhA doSa dekhAya, ghaNAM kharAM doSa dekhAya paNa A to mahIM vakIla (buddhi) rAkhyo che eTale vakIla kahe ke, "A badhAM ya evuM ja kare che ne !" Akho doSa UDI gayo. tame jANo cho vakIla rAkhe che evuM ? vakIla rAkhe badhAMya. pote jaja, pote AropI ne pote ja vakIla. bolo, kalyANa thAya kharuM ? praznakartA : nA thAya. dAdAzrI : Ama tema karIne vakIla pAcho patAvI Ape. thAya ke nA thAya evuM ? praznakartA : thAya. dAdAzrI : Akho dahADo AnuM A ja tophAna ane tenAM duHkho che A

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nijadoSa darzanathI... nirdoSa ! 3pa nijadoSa darzanathI. nirdoSa ! badhAM. bolo, have keTalI potAnI bhUlo bahAra nIkaLe ? potAnI keTalI bhUlonuM sTeTamenTa (lakhANa) ApI de ? praznakartA : pachI e sTeTamenTa zuM Ape ? dAdAzrI : A mAthAnA vALa chene, eTalI bhUlo che. paNa pote jaja ne pote vakIla ne pote AropI, zI rIte bhUlo jaDe ? niSpakSapAtI vAtAvaraNa utpanna nA thAya ne ! niSpakSapAtI vAtAvaraNa utpanna thAya to mokSa saraLa che. mokSa kaMI cheTo nathI. A to pakSapAta bahu che. ane bIjAnI bhUlo kADhavI hoya to kADhI Ape, ene mATe nyAyAdhIza che e, thoDoghaNo, alpaaMze, paNa potAnI bhUlo kADhavA mATe jarAya nyAyAdhIza nathI. eTale pote jaja, pote ja vakIla ane AropI pote eTale kevuM jajamenTa Ave ? potAnA lAbhamAM ja hoya. praznakartA : sagavaDiyuM, basa ! potAne jevI sagavaDa hoya ne evuM lAvIne goThavI de ! tyAre doSo che te eka bAju pAyA caNAvIne mahIM rahevAnuM makAna karatA hoya. pAyA simenTa nAkhIne karatAM hoya. e doSo jANe ke A mUo kazuM karavAno nathI. moDhe bole che eTaluM ja, zI rIte doSa kADhavAno ? - je eka doSa kADhI zake, te bhagavAna thAya !!! eka ja doSa ! eka doSanuM nivAraNa kare e bhagavAna thAya. A to doSanuM nivAraNa thAya che paNa bIjAno doSa pADIne ! bIjAnI hayAtI lAvIne pelAnuM nivAraNa kare. bAkI potAnI eka bhUla bhAMge to bhagavAna thAya. praznakartA : bIjo doSa pADe nahIM, e kevI rIte bane ? dAdAzrI : A to badhI bhUlo ja che, paNa eka bhUla bhAMge te kyAre ? samakita thayA pachI bhAMge, nahIM to bhAMge nahIM, tyAM sudhI eka bhUla bhAMge nahIM. tyAM sudhI to pahelA khode ne pachI pAcho pUre. khode ne pure, khode te pUre. kazI kriyA enI kAma lAge nahIM. badhI kriyA niSphaLa jAya che ! ene kahevAya jaita ! tamArAmAM be-cAra doSa haze ke nahIM hoya ? praznakartA : vadhAre. dAdAzrI : dasa-paMdara doSo haze ? praznakartA : e gaNyA gaNAya nahIM. dAdAzrI : hA. enuM nAma jaina kahevAya. jaina konuM nAma kahevAya ke potAnAmAM ahaMkAra che, doSa che, evI potAne ema khAtrI che. bhale doSa na dekhAya, paNa e che evI jene zraddhA che ene jaina kahevAya. pote anaMta doSanuM bhAjana che. paNa have kyAre e khAlI karI rahezo ? praznakartA : e to ApanI kRpA thaze tyAre. dAdAzrI : bahu moTI vAta karI ! dAdAzrI : eTale pachI saMsAra chUTe nahIMne koI dahADo ya ! Ama tame sagavaDiyuM karyA karo ane nirdoSa thavuM che, bane nahIMne ! vakIla nA hoya to ja potAnI bhUlo mAlama paDe. paNa AjanA loko vakIla rAkhyA vagara rahe nahIMne ! vakIla rAkhe ke nA rAkhe loka ? A jJAna ApyA pachI tarata ja khabara paDe ke A bhUla thaI. kAraNa ke vacce vakIla nathI have. vakIla ghera gayA, riTAyarDa thaI gayA. gunegAra to haju rahyA che paNa vakIla nA rahyA. A bhUlo jAyane to potAnuM bhagavAnapada prApta thAya evuM che. A bhUlone laIne jIvapada che ane bhUlI jAya to zivapada prApta thAya. A jagatanAM lokoe potAnA doSa joyA nathI, eTale ja e doSo rahe che, mukAma kare che nirAMte ! Ama to e kaheze ke mAre doSa kADhavA che, paNa

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nijadoSa darzanathI. nirdoSa ! nijadoSa darzanathI... nirdoSa ! paramAtmAnI sattA kyAre prApta thAya ? bhUla bhAMge to ! e bhUla bhAMgatI nathI ne sattA prApta thatI nathI ane lokonAM sasarA ane sAsu thaIne majhA mANe che. bhUla bhAMge to sattA prApta thAya, paramAtmAnI sattA prApta thAya. ane A jJAna prApta thayA pachI 'pote paramAtmA che' evuM lakSa beThuM che, eTale have dhIme dhIme zreNI mAMDe e ne te sattA prApta thayA kare. bAkI bhUla dekhADe te sAcuM. keTalI badhI bhUlo ? eka bhUla ApaNI je bhAMge, ApaNI moTAmAM moTI bhUla bhAMgI Ape te bhagavAna kahevAya. doSo eTalAM ja khape pratikramaNa ! anaMta doSanuM bhAna che tyAre eTalAM ja pratikramaNa karavAM paDaze. jeTalAM doSa bharI lAvyA che, te tamane dekhAze. jJAnI puruSe jJAna ApyA pachI doSo dekhAya, nahIM to potAnA doSa potAne dekhAya nahIM, enuM nAma ja ajJAnatA. potAnA doSa ekaMya dekhAya nahIM ne ko'kanA jovA hoya to badhA bahu joI Ape, enuM nAma mithyAtva. ane jJAnI puruSe jJAna ApyA pachI, divyacakSu ApyA pachI potAne potAnA sarva doSa dekhAya. saheja manaphera thayuM hoya to ya khabara paDI jAya ke A doSa thayo. A to vItarAga mArga eka avatArI mArga che. A to bahu javAbadArIvALo mArga che. eka avatAramAM badhuM cokhkhuM ja thaI javuM joIe. ahIM paheluM cokhkhuM thaI javuM joIe. eTale naryA doSanuM bhaMDAra cho. ahIM jJAnavidhimAM Avazo to huM badhA pApa dhoI nAkhIza. e dhovAnuM mAre bhAga AvyuM. pachI potAnA doSa dekhAze. ane potAnA doSa dekhAyA tyArathI jANavuM ke have mokSe javAnI taiyArI thaI. bAkI koIneya potAnA doSa dekhAyelA nahIM. AtmA pote ja tharmomITara sama ! je pote kare ne emAM potAne bhUla che evuM kyAreya khabara paDe nahIM. pote je karato hoya, sahaja svabhAve je kArya kriyA karato hoyane emAM potAnI bhUla che evuM kyAreya dekhAya nahIM, ulaTuM koI bhUla dekhADe to ya ene UMdhuM dekhAya. e japa karato hoya ke tapa karato hoya, tyAga karato hoya, emAM ene potAnI bhUla na dekhAya. bhUla to pote AtmasvarUpa thAya, jJAnI puruSe Apelo AtmA prApta thAya, to AtmA ekalo ja tharmomITara samAna che ke bhUla dekhADe, bAkI koI bhUla nA dekhADe. potAnI bhUla nA dekhAya koIne. bhUla dekhAya to to kAma ja thaI gayuM ne ! A to pahelAno abhyAsa hoya ke huM badhAmAM bhagavAna jouM chuM paNa vaDhavADa karatI vakhate to bhagavAna badhuM bhUlI jAya ne jhaghaDo karI bese ke dUdha kema DhoLyuM ! gharanuM chokaruM jAte dUdha DhoLe kharuM ? A to Adi-anAdithI cAlI AvelI, bApAe chokarAne vaDhavuM joIe evI rIta che. A te kaMI mANasAI kahevAya ? mAnavatA to kevI sugaMdha Ape ? paccIsa pacIsa mAIlanA eriyAmAM sugaMdha Ave. potAnI badhI bhUla dekhAya to jANavuM ke bhalIvAra Avaze. eka bhUla lokone potAnI dekhAtI nathI. e che bhUlonuM svarUpa ! ahaMkAra ogaLI jAya to to bhUla khalAsa thaI jAya. ahaMkAra ema ne ema ogaLaze nahIM, e caTaNInI peTha vATavA jevo nathI. ahaMkAra to bhUlo dekhAya eTalo ogaLe. ahaMkAra eTale bhUlanuM svarUpa. igoijhama e sTrakTara ja bhUlanuM che. kahevAya zuM ke svarUpanuM bhAna nathI, te bhAna bhUlelAM che. bhAna bhUlelAmAM Akho igoijhama bhAna bhUlelo che. tyAre mahIM zuM sAmAna che enI pAse, ke mahIM nAnI-moTI bhUlo che ! te bhUkhva bhAMgaze to kAma thaze. niSpakSapAtI thAya to potAnI bhUla dekhAze. vANI to mahIM badhA zAstronI vANI paDelI che. bhUla bhAMgaze tyAra pachI vANI nIkaLaze ane te vANI pAchI niSpakSapAtI hovI joIe. musalamAna beTho hoya tene ya sAMbhaLavAnuM mana thAya. jaina beTho hoya tene ya sAMbhaLavAnuM mana thAya. badhA sTAnDarDane sAMbhaLavAnuM mana thAya te niSpakSapAtI vANI kahevAya. ane bhUla bhAMge to paramAtmA thAya. paramAtmA to che ja paNa

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nijadoSa darzanathI nirdoSa ! nijadoSa darzanathI. nirdoSa ! 39 potAnA doSa jovAmAM niSpakSapAtI evA koNa hoya ? e to kRpALudeva hoya ane emanAM be-traNa pholoarsa hoyane, te hoya. bAkI potAnA doSa jovAmAM, pakSapAtano savAla ja kyAM che ? potAnA doSa jovAmAM khabara ja nathI paDatI. jJAtItI tatvadraSTi ! amane A jagatamAM koI doSita dekhAtuM ja nathI. gajavuM kApanAro hoya ke cAritryahIna hoya, tene ya ame nirdoSa ja joIe ! ame 'sat vastune ja joIe. e tAttvika draSTi che. pekiMgane ame jotA nathI. verAiTIjha opha pekiMga che, temAM ame tattvadraSTithI joIe. 'ame" saMpUrNa nirdoSa draSTi karI ane AkhA jagatane nirdoSa joyuM ! mATe ja "jJAnI puruSa' tamArI 'bhUlane bhAMgI zake ! bIjAnuM gajuM nahIM. tarelo ja tAre. A badhI bhUla to kharIne ? enI tapAse ya nathI karIne ? praznakartA : ApaNI kaMIka bhUla thAya che eTaluM samajAya che, paNa emAMthI nIkaLatuM nathI. ane nIkaLavAnI koziza karIe tema UMDA ne UMDA UtaratAM jaIe chIe. dAdAzrI : koziza ja nA karazo. e koziza karavAnI, te ahIM AgaLa khADo khodavAno che, tyAM AgaLa khADo pUravAno che. tene badale tyAM khADo khodIne ahIM pUre te kAmanAM koNa paisA Ape ? praznakartA : nA Ape. dAdAzrI : ane uparathI daMDa thAya ke A jamIna kema khodI nAkhI ? uparathI kesa thAya ke tame ahIM kema khodI nAkhyuM ? mATe pharI pUrI Apo. ne pharI AnI upara pANI reDI ane sarakhuM karAvI do. Apo. te koI ukela lAvI Ape. je chUTelo hoya te choDAvI Ape. pelo baMdhAyelo mANasa, e ja DUbakAM khAyA karato hoya, 'bacAvo' kaheto hoya, 'te mUA, tuM bacAva bacAva kahe che, tuM zuM mane bacAvavAno che te ?" praznakartA: ATalAM vakhata tene zaraNe gayA ukela lAvavA mATe, tyAM pAchAM DUbI gayA, je DaoNkTaranI davA lIdhI eNe darda vadhAryuM, ghaTADyuM nahIM. dAdAzrI : e DaoNkTaro barAbara bhaNelA nahIM. e DUbakAM khAtA hatA ane je DaoNkTara ema kahe, 'nA, ame tarelA chIe. tuM Ava' to ApaNe jANIe ke e pote kahe che ne ! bAkI koI kahe nahIM ke tarelA chIe. nahIM to jANe koIka dahADo kaMIka bhAMjagaDa thaze ne loka jANI jaze, ke A DUbakAM khAtI vakhate bUma pADatA hatA. te mApI jAyane loko ? kema taryA hatA ne DUbakAM khAtI vakhate bUma pADo cho ? kahe ke nA kahe ? eTale saMjoga sArAM bAjhayA nahIM. A phera saMjoga sAro bAjha, kAma nIkaLI jaze. eTale A badhuM zI rIte AmAM pAme ? ohoho ! mAthAnA vALa to gaNI zakAya, paNa A emanI bhUla nA gaNI zakAya. - jo roja paccIsa jeTalI bhUlo samajAya to to ajAyaba zakti utpanna thAya. saMsAra naDato nathI, khAvA-pIvAnuM naDatuM nathI. nathI tape bAMdhyA ke nathI tyAge bAMdhyAM. potAnI bhUle ja lokane bAMdhyA che. mahIM to pAra vagaranI bhUlo che. paNa mAtra moTI moTI paccIseka jeTalI ja bhUlo bhAMge to chavvIsamI enI meLe cAlavA lAge. keTalAka to bhUlane jANe chatAM potAnA ahaMkArane laIne tene bhUla nA kahe, A kevuM che ? eka ja bhUla anaMta avatAra bagADI nAkhe. e to poSAya ja nahIM. kAraNa ke niyANuM mokSanuM kareluM, te ya niyANuM pUrepUruM nahIM kareluM. tethI to AvuM thayuM ne ! dAdA pAse AvavuM paDyuM ne ? tyAre bhUla bhAMgI kahevAya ! eka-eka avatAre eka bhUla bhAMgI hota to ya mokSa svarUpa thaI jAta. eTale A badhA loka kare che ne. te UMdhI jagyAe khode che. enAM karatAM nA khodatA hoya ne koIkane kahetA hoya ke bhAI, kaMIka mAro ukela lAvI

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nijadoSa darzanathI. nirdoSa ! nijadoSa darzanathI. nirdoSa ! paNa A to eka bhUla bhAMgavA jatAM nathI, pAMca bhUla vadhArI Ave che. A bahAra badhuM rUpALuMbaMba jevuM ne mahIM badho kakaLATano pAra nahIM ! Ane bhUla bhAMgI kema kahevAya ? tamAro to koI uparI ja nathI. paNa bhUla batAvanAra joIe. bhUlone bhAMgo, paNa potAnI bhUla potAne kevI rIte jaDe ? ane te ya ekAda-be ja che kaMI ? anaMta bhUlo che ! kAyAnI anaMtI bhUlo to bahu moTI dekhAya. koIne jamavA bolAvavA gayA ho te evuM kaThora bole ke batrIsa bhAtanuM jamavAnuM teDuM hoya to ya nA game. enA karatAM nA bolAve to sAruM ema mahIM thAya. are, A bole to karkaza vANI nIkaLe ane mananI to pAra vagaranAM duSaNo hoya ! bhUla kADhe, mahIM koNa ? ApaNI bhUlo to koNa bhAMgI zake ? 'jJAnI puruSa', ke je potAnI sarva bhUglo bhAMgIne beThA che, je zarIra chatAMya a-zarIra bhAve, vItarAga bhAve rahe che. azarIra bhAva eTale jJAnabIja. badhI bhUla bhAMgyA pachI potAne ajJAnabIja nAza thAya ne jJAnabIja phula Uge, te azarIra bhAva. jene kiMcitmAtra-saheja paNa deha para mamatA che, to e a-zarIra bhAva kahevAya nahIM ne e deha parathI mamatA jAya zI rIte ? jyAM sudhI ajJAna che, tyAM sudhI mamatA jAya nahIM. A jagatamAM badhuM ja jaDe paNa potAnI bhUla nA jaDe. mATe ja potAnI bhUlo dekhADavA jJAnInI jarUra che. jJAnI puruSa ja evA sarva sattAdhArI che ke je potAne potAnI bhUla dekhADI tenuM bhAna karAvI Ape ne tyAre bhUla bhAMge. e kyAre bane ? jyAre jJAnI puruSano bheTo thAya ane potAne niSpakSapAtI banAve. potAnI jAta pratye paNa niSpakSapAtIpaNuM utpanna thAya tyAre ja kAma sare. svarUpanuM bhAna jyAM sudhI jJAnI puruSa nA karAvI Ape tyAM sudhI niSpakSapAtIpaNuM utpanna nA thAya. 'jJAna' koInI ya bhUla nA kADhe. buddhi sarvanI bhUla kADhe, sagA bhAInI bhUla kADhe. aMdhAratI bhUlo... A to 'jJAnI puruSa' che, to potAne doSanI khabara paDe. nahIM to ene potAne khabara ja zuM paDe ? cAlI sTImara kocIna bhaNI. hokAyaMtra bagaDI gayuM che, eTale kocIna cAlI ! dakSiNane ja e hokAyaMtra uttara dekhADe ! nahIM to hokAyaMtra haMmezA uttaramAM ja laI jAya, eno svabhAva ! hokAyaMtra bagaDI jAya pachI 'kyA kare' ? ane potAne dhruvano tAro jotAM AvaDato nathI. moTAmAM moTI bhUla e svachaMda. svacchedathI to AkhuM lazkara UbhuM che. svachaMda e ja moTI bhUla. te saheja ema kahyuM ke emAM zuM thayuM ? eTale thaI rahyuM. e pachI anaMta avatAra bagADe. 'jANuM chuM' e aMdhArAnI bhUla to bahu bhAre. ane pAchuM 'have kaMI vAMdho nathI' e to mArI ja nAkhe. A to jJAnI puruSa vagara koI bolI ja nA zake ke 'ekuMya bhUla nathI rahI'. dareka bhUlone joIne bhAMgavAnI che. badhuM potAnA doSathI baMdhAyeluM che. mAtra potAnA doSa jo jo karavAthI chUTuM thavAya tema che. A ame amArA doSa jo jo karyA te ame chUTayA. nija doSa samajAya eTale chUTo paDato jAya. mATe 'jJAnI puruSa' tamArI bhUlane bhAMgI zake, bIjAnuM gajuM nahIM. ame tarata ja bhUla eksepTa karI, nikAla karI nAkhIe. A kevuM che ke pahelAM bhUlo karelI teno nikAla nA karyo tethI enI e ja bhUlo pharI Ave che. bhUlono nikAla karatAM nA AvaDyo tethI eka bhUla kADhavAne badale bIjI pAMca bhUla karI. nathI ete uparI koI ! praznakartA : paNa dAdA, A pratyakSa puruSa sivAya A bhUla samajAya nahIM ? dAdAzrI : zI rIte samajAya, baLyuM ?! emanI ja bhUla nA samajAya, pachI e bIjAnI bhUla zI rIte kADhe ? jene uparInI jarUra nathI, jene koI bhUla dekhADanAranI jarUra nathI, te ekalo ja bhUla kADhI zake. bAkI bIjo koI bhUla kADhI zake nahIM. je pote potAnI tamAma prakAranI bhUlo badhI ja jANe che tene uparInI jarUra nathI. uparInI kyAM sudhI jarUra hoya che ke jyAM sudhI

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nijadoSa darzanathI.... nirdoSa ! nijadoSa darzanathI.. nirdoSa ! tame bhUlo nahIM joI zako ne amuka prakAranI bhUlo tamane rahetI hoya to e tamAre uparI hoya ja. ne uparIpaNuM kyAre chUTe che ? tamArI eka paNa bhUla tamane je dekhAtI na hoya, e badhI ja dekhAyA kare. A to kAyadesaranI vAta che ne ! tamane badhAne ochI dekhAya che mATe to huM uparI chuM haju. tamArI dekhAtI thAya to pachI zuM karavA huM uparI thauM ? A paMcAtamAM huM kyAM paDe ? eTale kAyado ja duniyAno e che. jene potAnI parNa bhUlo dekhAze eTale ene uparI koI nA rahyo. tethI ame kahIe ne ke amArI koI bApoya uparI nathI. ulaTA bhagavAna amane vaza thaI gayelA che. 'amane' hareka bhUla, potAnI kiMcitmAtra bhUla, kevaLajJAnanI aMdara dekhAtI bhUlo paNa amane dekhAya. bolo, have kevaLajJAna varte nahIM, chatAMya kevaLajJAnamAM dekhAtI bhUla dekhAya ! draSTi tijadoSa bhaNI.. A jJAna lIdhA pachI bahAranuM to tame jozo e judI vAta che, paNa tamArA ja aMdaranuM tame badhuM joyA karazo, te vakhate tame kevaLajJAna sattAmAM hazo. paNa aMza kevaLajJAna thAya, savaoNza nahIM. aMdara kharAba vicAra Ave tene jovA, sArA vicAro Ave tene jovA. sArA upara rAga nathI ane kharAba upara dveSa nathI. sAruM-khoTuM jovAnI ApaNe jarUra nathI. kAraNa ke sattA ja mULa ApaNA kAbUmAM nathI, eTale jJAnIo zuM jue ? AkhA jagatane nirdoSa jue. kAraNa ke A badhuM 'DiscArja'mAM che, emAM emano bicArAno zo doSa? tamane koI gALa bhAMDe te 'DiscArja'. 'bosa' tamane gUMcave te paNa 'DiscArja' ja che. bosa to nimitta che. koIno doSa jagatamAM nathI. je doSa dekhAya che te potAnI ja bhUla che ane e ja 'bleDarsa' che ane tenAthI ja A jagata UbhuM rahyuM che. doSa jovAthI, UMdhuM jovAthI ja vera baMdhAya che. pramatta bhAvathI dise paradoSa.. praznakartA : pramatta bhAva eTale zuM ? dAdAzrI : vastu, vastuno svabhAva cUke te pramatta kahevAya. vastu tenA mULa dharmamAM rahe te apramatta bhAva. vItarAgoe kIdhuM muktikAja ! tame tamArI aNasamajaNathI AvuM badhuM gUMcAo cho. e gUMcavaNa mATe tamAre mane pUchavuM joIe ke mane ahIM gUMcAya che to AmAM zuM karavuM ? eTale pUchavuM. enA mATe ApaNe satsaMga rAkhIe chIe. eka karma ochuM thaI jAya to gUMco dahADe dahADe ochI thatI jAya. eka dahADAmAM eka ja karma jo ochuM kare, to bIje dahADe be ochA karI zake. paNa A to roja guMco pADyA ja kare che ne vadhAryA ja kare che ! A badhA loko zuM divela pIne pharatA haze ? emanAM moDhAM para jANe 'divela pIdhuM nA hoya !" evAM thaIne phare che. badhA divela vecAtuM lAvatA haze kaMI ? moMghA bhAvanuM divela roja kyAMthI lAve ? mahIM pariNatI badalAya ke divela pIdhA jevuM moTuM thaI jAya ! doSa potAno ne kADhe bhUla bIjAnI, enAthI mahIMnI pariNatI badalAI jAya. potAno doSa khoLo ema 'vItarAgo' kahI gayA, bIjuM kazuM ja kahI gayA nathI. 'tuM tArA doSane oLakha ane chUTTo thA. basa, ATaluM ja muktidhAma Apaze tane." ATaluM ja kAma karavAnuM kahyuM che bhagavAne. jarUra che bhUla vagaranA jJAna ane samajaNanI ! eka AcArya mahArAja kahe, "mAro mokSa kyAre thaze ?" tyAre bhagavAna kahe, 'tamAruM jJAna ne tamArI samajaNa bhUla vagaranI thaze tyAre.' A bhUla che, e ja bhUlathI aTakyA che. tamAruM jJAna ane tamArI samajaNa bhUla vagaranI thaze tyAre tamAro mokSa thaze. tyAre zuM khoTuM kahe che ? praznakartA : barAbara che. dAdAzrI : tyAre koI kahe, sAheba japa-tapa karavAnA te ? e to tAre je dahADe peTamAM ajIrNa thayuM hoya to te dahADe upavAsa karaje. japa-tapanI A jagatamAM koI gunegAra nathI. je gunegAra dekhAya che e ApaNI potAnI kacAza che. koI gunegAra dekhAya che e ja tamAro pramatta bhAva che. kharI rIte apramattapaNuM hovuM joIe. eTale koI gunegAra dekhAya ja nahIM.

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nijadoSa darzanathI.... nirdoSa ! amAre zarta nathI. tArI samajaNa ne jJAna bhUla vagaranuM kara, koI paNa raste. zuM khoTuM kahe che bhagavAna ? bhUla che tyAM sudhI to koI kabUla ja nA karene ! atyAre to keTalI badhI bhUlo ?! huM caMdulAla chuM, A bAIno dhaNI chuM, ema kahe che pAcho ne A bAbAno bApo chuM kahe che. keTalI badhI bhUlo ?! A to paraMparA bhUlonI. mULamAM bhUla. mULa tyAM 2kama che te eka avinAzI che ane eka che te vinAzI che. ane avinAzI joDe vinAzI guNavA jAya che, tyAre horo to pelI rakama UDI jAya che. pelI vinAzI, dhaNI nahIM to bApa to kharo, e mUkIe tyAra horo to e UMDI eTale guNAkAra koI dahADo thAya nahIM, javAba Ave nahIM ne dI vaLe nahIM. zakkaravAra kAyama rahe. zakkaravALa vaLe nahIM ne zanivAra thAya nahIM, evarI De phrAIDa (dararoja zukravAra). bhagavAne kaMI ema kahyuM che ke tapa karaje, japa karaje, bhUkhyo maraje, upavAsa karaje, tyAga karaje evuM kahyuM che ? tAruM jJAna ne tArI samajaNa bhUla vagaranI kara, te dahADe tuM pote ja mokSa svarUpa che ! jIvatA dehadhArIno mokSa !!! bhagavAnanI vAta to sahelI ja che ne paNa ApaNe tapAsa karI koI dahADo ke bhUla vagaranuM jJAna ne bhUmsa vagaranI samajaNa zI rIte thAya ? ApaNe to evI tapAsa karI ke zuM Aje upavAsa karavo che ke Aje zeno tyAga karuM? alyA, bhagavAne tyAganI zarta kyAM karI che ? A to UMdhA raste caDhI gayA, ADagalIomAM pesI gayA. bhagavAne zuM kaheluM, jJAna ane samajaNa bhUla vagaranI karI nAkha tuM. praznakartA : samajaNa bhUla vagaranI e vAta pharIthI samajAvo ! dAdAzrI : hA. tamArI samajaNa bhUla vagaranI thaze tyAre tamAro mokSa thaze. samajaNamAM ja bhUla tamArI. e jyAre bhUla vagaranI thaze, mArI joDe besI besIne, to niveDo Ave. jyAM sudhI bhUla che tyAM sudhI kema niveDo Ave ?! koInI bhUlo haze ?! pachI zuM kahe che, huM pote mokSa svarUpa chuM. tuM pote ja paramAtmA che. mAtra bhUla vagaranuM jJAna ane bhUla vagaranI samajaNanuM bhAna thavuM joIe. nijadoSa darzanathI.... nirdoSa ! jJAna kevuM hoya ? bhUla vagaranuM. ane samajaNa kevI hovI joIe ? bhUla vagaranI. jo jJAna ekaluM haze to papaiyA nahIM bese. che jhADa papaiyAnuM paNa eka papaiyo nA bese, evuM hoya kharuM ? tame joyA nahIM hoya papaiyA ? praznakartA: joyelA che. dAdAzrI : joyelAM ? alyA mUA, ucherIne moTo karyo, to Avo nIkaLyo ? pANI pAI ucherIne moTo karyo, to mahIM Avo nIkaLyo ? mahIM papaiyuM ja nA bese. eTale jJAna bhUla vagaranuM thavuM joIe ne bhUla vagaranI samajaNa. have ekaluM jJAna bhUla vagaranuM thAya to ya kazuM vaLe nahIM. samajaNa bhUla vagaranI thAya to cAle. samajaNa e hArTane pahoMce che ane jJAna e buddhine pahoMce che. Aje cAlu jJAna e, lokonuM vyavahArika jJAna e buddhine pahoMce ane samajaNa e hArTane pahoMce, hArTavALuM TheTha pahoMcADe che. mokSa sudhI pahoMcADe che. ene ApaNA loka sujha kahe che. A samajaNa je che, tenAthI sUjha utpanna thAya che ne sUjhathI samajaNa utpanna thAya che, e TheTha pahoMcADanArI vastu uttamamAM uttama A che. bhUlathI to A saMsAreya sAro nathI cAlato, to bhUlathI to mokSa thAya koI dahADo ya ? jJAna ne samajaNa bhUla vagaranI thaze, tame jANo ke jJAna to AvuM che ane A to badhuM ajJAna che, bhUlavALuM che tyArathI jJAna thayA kare. A to ATalI uMmare ya ene ema zarama nA Ave ke huM Amano dhaNI chuM. kahetA zarama Ave ? evuM kahe. A mArA dhaNI thAya. evuM baIe ya kahe. ATalI umare emane zarame ya nA Ave, baLI. kAraNa ke eMsI varSanA thayA, tene ya zarama nathI AvatI. kAraNa ke jevuM jANe evuM bolene ane loke ya samaje evuM bolene ! nahIM to kyAM jAya ? paNa e jJAna khoTuM nathI. A je jANe che te paNa e vyavahAranuM jJAna che, sAcuM jJAna nathI.

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nijadoSa darzanathI.. nirdoSa ! 43 nijadoSa darzanathI... nirdoSa ! A sAcA jJAnamAM to tame zuddhAtmA cho ane e ya zuddhAtmA che. paNa e zuddhAtmAnuM bhAna thavuM joIe ne ? atyAre to 'huM caMdulAla chuM' e bhAna che, 'huM jaina chuM" e bIjuM bhAna che. umara cumotera varSanI che, e ya paNa bhAna che. badhuM ya bhAna che. nAnapaNamAM kyAM kyAM ramavA gayelA te ya bhAna che. nokarI kyAM kyAM karelI, vyApAra kyAM kyAM karyA, te ya badhuM bhAna che paNa 'pote koNa che?" e bhAna nathI. praznakartA : have e Apo tame, e bhAna karavAnI icchA jAgRta thaI che ne e mATe AvyA chIe. dAdAzrI : e jJAna mATe bhavobhava icchA hoya che, paNa sAcuM niyANuM nathI karyuM. jo niyANuM karyuM hota ne to badhI puNya emAM vaparAI jAya. niyANAno svabhAva zo ? tyAre kahe ke jeTalI tamArI puNya hoya te niyANA khAte ja vaparAya. A to gharamAM puNya vaparAI gaI, dehamAM puNya vaparAI gaI, badhAmAM puNya vaparAI gayuM, mokSanuM niyANuM kareluM nahIM ne ! mokSanuM niyANuM kareluM hota to badhI puNya emAM ja vaparAI jAya. jone ame mokSanuM niyANuM karI AvelA te badhuM pAMsaruM cAle che ne kaMIka aDacaNo hoya to milamAlikone aDacaNa haze, vaDApradhAnane haze, paNa amAre koI aDacaNa nahIM. bhUla vagaratuM, jJAna ane samajaNa ! praznakartA : bhUla vagaranuM jJAna ane bhUla vagaranI samajaNa thaze to tuM pote ja mokSa svarUpa che. keTalI badhI UMcI vAta kahI dIdhI. Aropita bhAva e ja mULamAM bhUla che, baMdhana che ! dAdAzrI : hA ane A vijJAna UbhuM nA thAya tyAM sudhI Avo phoDa ja nA paDe ne ! zAstramAM Avo phoDa ja nA hoyane ! phakta zubha karo, kaMIka zubha karo, kaheze paNa Aropita bhAva che evuM to koI samajAve kare nahIM. kAraNa ke jJAnI puruSa vagara Avo phoDa paDe nahIM. lokone buddhimAM samajAI gayeluM hoya ke A kaMIka bhUla che, bahu moTI bhUla thaI rahI che. evuM samajAya paNa to ya jJAnI puruSa bhegA nA thAya to kare zuM che ? ema ne ema kerI baphAyA kare. loka samajaNavALA bahu, te buddhimAM badhuM samajIne tora kADhe kare ke A zuM che te ? paNa to ya baphAyA kare. ane jJAnI puruSa bhegA thAya to badhA phoDa pADI Ape. dareka zabdano phoDa nA paDe to e jJAnI puruSa nahIM. phoDa paDavA ja joIe. ajJAnathI phoDa paDatA hoya to ajJAna zuM ochuM hatuM ? ajJAne kyAM na hotuM ApaNe ghera ? sToka baMdha hatuM ja ne ! kAphI che besavI pratIti bhUlatI ! A loko kahe che ke have ame amArA doSo che e ame jANyA. paNa have kADhI Apo. tame amane mAro-karo, je karavuM hoya e karo, paNa doSa kADhI Apo. have enA mATe zuM rasto ?' doSa kevI rIte peTho, e tame tapAsa karo. tyAra pachI khabara paDe. doSa nIkaLe kevI rIte ? peTho te ghaDIe ghAlavo nathI paDato. eTale kADhavA vakhate kADhavo nA paDe. je vastu ghAlelI hoya te kADhavI paDe. A to mane kahe che, 'doSa kADhI Apo !' alyA paNa e zAthI pesI gayAM ? tyAre kahe, "eka mANasa evA kusaMgamAM gayo. te ene khAtarI thaI ke 'A majhA kare che ane A rasto bahu sarasa, bahu sarasa sukhano.' ene e jJAna para zraddhA besI gaI, pratIti besI gaI. evI rIte huM Amane zuM karuM chuM ? je emanI bhUlo che e nakAre che. ke "amArAmAM bilakuleya bhUla nathI evI, lokonAmAM bhUla che.' e emanI bhUla emane dekhADuM chuM. pachI emane pratIti bese che, haMDreDa parasenTa (so TakA) ke A badhI bhUlo ja che. e ame eksepTa (svIkAra) karIe chIe. 'A bhUla amane kADhI Apo.' kahe. meM kahyuM. have kADhavAnuM nA hoya. pratIti besI gaI, e ja nIkaLavA mAMDI. tAre phakta mana khulluM rAkhavAnuM ke bhaI, tame cale jAva basa, eTaluM ja bolavAnI jarUra. pratIti besavAthI ja bhUla jatI rahe ne pratIti

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nijadoSa darzanathI.... nirdoSa ! nijadoSa darzanathI.. nirdoSa ! besavAthI bhUla pese. ghAlavA-kADhavAnuM nA hoya e to. A to kaMI kArakhAnA che ? te eka bhUla kADhavI hoya to keTalAya vakhata thAya te ? avatAronA avatAro jAya. samajAya evI vAta che ke A badhI ?! pratIti, emAM DAgha nA pADavo joIe. praznakartA : Apa sImpaTamsa (lakSaNo) jotAM nathI ane mULa kaoNjhanI (kAraNanI) davA karo cho, evAM DaoNkTara kyAM maLe ?! dAdAzrI : DaoNkTara nathI tenI to A bhAMjagaDa che ne ! evA DaoNkTara maLyA nathI ane davAya maLI nathI, eTale pachI A cAlyuM tophAna ! eTale pachI pariNAmane jhUDa jhUDa karavA mAMDyA, IphekTane ! zraddhAthI peThuM. e pratIti saMpUrNa beThI, eTale e peThuM. ane pratItithI Utare. saMpUrNa pratIti thavI joIe ke A doSa ja che. eTale nIkaLI jaze. A ja niyama che. pachI ene rakSaNa nA kare, proTekzana (2kSaNa) nA Ape to cAlI jAya. paNa pAcho proTekzana Ape che. ApaNe kahIe, 'sAheba, A chIMkaNI suMdho cho haju ?" tyAre kahe, 'e vAMdho nahIM.' e proTekzana ApyuM kahevAya. manamAM jANe ke A khoTuM che. pratIti beThI hoya, paNa pAchuM proTekzana Ape. proTekzana nA ApavuM joIe. Ape kharA proTekzana ? praznakartA : hA, proTekzana Ape ja ne ! dAdAzrI : AbarU jatI rahelI che ja kyAM AbarU ? AbarUvALo to A kapaDAM paherIne pharato haze ? A to DhAMka DhAMka kare che AbarU ! DhAMkI DhAMkIne AbarU rAkhyA kare che. phATe tyAre sAMdhI le che, alyA, joI jaze, sAMdhI kADha. bhUla bhAMgI Ape e bhagavAta ! potAnI eka bhUla bhAMge ene bhagavAna kahevAya. potAnI bhUla batAvanArA bahu hoya paNa koI bhAMgI nA zake, bhUla dekhADatAM paNa AvaDavI joIe. jo bhUla dekhADatA nA AvaDe to ApaNI bhUla che ema kabUla karI nAkhavuM. A koIne bhUla dekhADavI e to bhArI kAma che ane e bhUla bhAMgI Ape e to bhagavAna ja kahevAya. e to "jJAnI puruSa'nuM ja kAma. amane A jagatamAM koI doSita dekhAtuM ja nathI. ame saMpUrNa nirdoSa draSTi karI ane AkhA jagatane nirdoSa joyuM ! mATe ja 'jJAnI puruSa' tamArI 'bhUla'ne bhAMgI zake ! bIjAnuM gajuM nahIM. bhagavAne saMsArI doSane doSa gaNyo nathI. 'tArA svarUpanuM ajJAna' e ja moTAmAM moTo doSa che. A to 'huM caMdulAla chuM tyAM sudhI bIjA doSo ya UbhA che ane eka vakhata 'potAnA svarUpanuM bhAna thAya to pachI bIjA doSo heMDatA thAya ! bhUla vagaranuM darzana te bhUlavALuM vartata ! potAnI bhUla potAne jaDe e bhagavAna thAya. praznakartA : A rIte koI bhagavAna thayelo ? dAdAzrI : jeTalA bhagavAna thayelA e badhAyane potAnI bhUla potAne jaDelI ane bhUlane bhAMgelI te bhagavAna ja thayelA. e bhUla rahe nahIM evI rIte bhUlane bhAMgI nAkhe. badhI bhUlo dekhAya, eka evI bhUla na hatI ke nA dekhAI hoya. sUkSmamAM sUkSma evI badhI ja bhUla dekhAya. amane ya amArI pAMcapacAsa bhUla to roja dekhAya ane te ya sUkSmatara ne sUkSmatama bhUlo dekhAya, je lokone nukasAnakAraka kazuM ya nA hoya. A bolatAM bolatAM koInuM avarNavAda bolI javAya, te ya bhUla kahevAya. e to pAchI cULa bhUla kahevAya. have bhUla kone dekhAya ? tyAre kahe, bhUla vagaranuM enuM cAritra, zraddhAmAM che potAne ! hA, ane bhUlavALuM vartana, vartanamAM che, ene bhUla dekhAya. bhUla vagaranuM cAritra enI zraddhAmAM hoya, bhUla vagaranuM cAritra saMpUrNa darzanamAM hoya ane bhUlavALuM vartana enA vartanamAM hoya, to ene ame chUTo thayelo kahIe chIe. bhUlavALuM vartana bhale rahyuM. paNa enAM darzanamAM zuM che ? eka sUkSmamAM sUkSma bhUla rahitanuM cAritra kevuM hovuM joIe ? e mahIM darzanamAM hovuM joIe. darzanamAM sUkSmamAM sUkSma bhUla na rahe evuM darzana hovuM

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nijadoSa darzanathI... nirdoSa ! nijadoSa darzanathI... nirdoSa ! joIe, to ja bhUla dekhAI jAyane ?! dekhanAro 'klIyara' hoya to ja dekhI zake. tethI ame kahIe chIene ke 360 vALA je bhagavAna che ne te saMpUrNa 'klIyara' (cokhA) che ane amAruM 'anaklIyaransa' dekhADe che. A jJAna maLyA pachI badhAne 'be' to thAya ja. pelAmAM paNa 'be' hoya che. jene jJAna nA maLyuM hoya, tene ya 'be' hoya che ane A paNa 'be' hoya che. A jJAna pachI aMdara ne bahAra joI zake. te aMdara bhUla vagaranuM cAritra A che, evuM e darzanamAM joI zake ! ane bhUla vagaranuM cAritra jeTaluM enAM darzanamAM UMcuM gayuM, eTalI che te bhUlo ene dekhAya. mahIM jeTaluM TrAnsperanTa (pAradarzaka) ne klIyara thayuM, ariso zuddha thayo ke tarata mahIM dekhAya. emAM jhaLake bhUlo ! tamAre bhUlo jhaLake che ke nahIM ? praznakartA: dekhAya che. bhUla vagaranuM cAritra jenAM darzanamAM hoya ane bhUlavALuM cAritra jenAM vartanamAM hoya eTale dekhAya ? dAdAzrI : eTale tarata khabara paDe ke peluM bhUla vagaranuM. eTale bhUla vagaranuM cAritra darzanamAM hoya, te kahI Ape ke A bhUla thaI. alaukika sAmAyika e puruSArtha ! eTale bhUlo dekhAvA mAMDIne, te jeTalI dekhAya eTalI jAya. tamane thoDI bhUlo dekhAya che ? roja pAMca-dasa dekhAtI jAya che ne ? e dekhAI, eTale dekhAvAnuM vadhatuM jaze. haju to bahu dekhAze. jema jema dekhAtI jAya, tema tema AvaraNa khUlatAM jAya ne tema vadhu dekhAtI jAya. amuka doSo baMdha thAya evuM nathI, e to mAra khAze tyAre anubhava thaze, tyAre doSo baMdha thaze. huM jANuM ke A anubhava vagara baMdha nA thAya. baMdha karAvIe te khoTuM che. jeTaluM karavuM hoya eTaluM thAya evuM che ane te kare che keTalAka mahAtmAo. puruSArtha che paNa e badhA mANasone AvaDato nathI. ApaNe tyAM je peluM sAmAyika karAve chene, e moTo puruSArtha che. bhUlano svabhAva kevo che ke bhUla dekhAI ke bhUla javAnI taiyArI karI de. bhUla UbhI nA rahe. doSa thAya teno vAMdho nathI paNa doSa dekhAvo joIe. doSa thAya che teno daMDa nathI paNa bhUlo dekhAya che tenuM InAma maLe che. koIne potAnI bhUlo nA dekhAya. AtmA prApta thayA pachI niSpakSapAtI thAya eTale bhUlo dekhAvAnI zarU thAya. A jJAna ApyA pachI tame niSpakSapAtI thayA eTale dehano pakSapAta tamane pADozI jeTalo rahyo. eTale je bhUla hoya te dekhAyA kare. dekhAI eTale javA mAMDe. ta aDe kazuM zuddha upayogIte ! have A jJAna ja tamArI je bhUlo che te dekhADe che. 'caMdubhAI' koInI joDe Ugra thaI gayA to 'tamane' mAlama paDI jAya ke ohoho, bhUla keTalI badhI hatI ! eTale bhUlo dekhAya enuM nAma AtmA. niSpakSapAta thayo, enuM nAma AtmA. jyAM sudhI tame AtmA cho, tyAM sudhI doSa aDe nahIM. jo tame zuddha upayogamAM ho, to tamArA hAthe koI vastu khoTI thAya to ya tamane aDe nahIM. zuddha upayogIne koI karma aDe nahIM. eTale amane AcArya mahArAja pUche che ke ame UghADe page pharIe chIe, jIvonI ahiMsA pALavA mATe ane tame to moTaramAM pharo cho. tamAruM jJAna sAcuM che, e ame kabUla karIe chIe paNa tamane doSa nahIM lAgato hoya ? meM kahyuM ke ame zuddha upayogI chIe. Aropa ApyuM aTake AgaLanuM vijJAta ! sAmo nirdoSa dekhAya to doSita koNa dekhAya ? praznakartA : jenI pAse ajJAna vadhAre hoya ene vadhAre doSita lAge. dAdAzrI : hA, sAmo mANasa doSita lAge. ane jenI pAse jJAna ja hoya, tene sAmo mANasa doSita bilakula lAge nahIM. have doSita lAge nahIM. chatAMya doSa kono ? koIno doSa to hovo joIe ne ? A jeTalAM doSa bane che e badhA ja tamArA potAnAM ja doSa

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nijadoSa darzanathI. nirdoSa ! pa3 nijadoSa darzanathI... nirdoSa ! che. potAnA ja doSa che, evuM jeNe joyuM nathI, vicAryuM nathI ane e doSano pote nikAla karatA nathI. ane bIjA lokone Aropa Apa Apa kare che. tethI AgaLanuM vijJAna badhuM baMdha thayuM che, aTakyuM che. tamArA doSa jyAre samajAya, tyAre tamane AgaLa vijJAna cAlu thAya. buddhi eksaparTa, doSa jovAmAM.. A jagatamAM koI doSita ja nathI. A doSa dekhAya che te ja ApaNI bhrAMti che. tamane samaja paDI A vAta thoDI ghaNI ? praznakartA : thoDI paDI. dAdAzrI : koI doSita ja nathI. doSita to ApaNane A buddhi mahIM UMdhuM dekhADa dekhADa karyA kare che ne tethI A badho saMsAra Ubho rahyo che. buddhine doSa jotAM bahu AvaDe. 'pelAe Ama karyuM che ne !' ApaNe kahIe ke tamArA doSanuM varNana karo. tyAre kaheze, evuM kaMI khAsa nathI. eka-be doSa che, bAkI khAsa nathI. pratikramaNa karyA kare to e bhagavAnanuM moTAmAM moTuM jJAna che. Aja mokSe laI jAya. ATalo zabda, amAruM eka ja vAkya jo pALane, to mokSe jato rahe. doSa dekhe tyAM buddhi sthira ! praznakartA : eTale pArakAno doSa nahIM ApaNo ja doSa ? dAdAzrI : hA, evuM chene, buddhine eka jagyAe sthira karyA vagara kAma nahIM thAya eTale jo eno doSa jozo to ya buddhi sthira thaze. ane ene nirdoSa juone potAno doSa juo, to ya buddhi sthira thAya. nahIM to ema ne ema buddhi sthira thAya nahIMne pAchI ! praznakartA : eTale kyAMka to doSa che. eno artha e thayo ke tyAM doSa nathI to ahIMyA doSa che. dAdAzrI : hA eTalo ja phera. praznakartA : have samajamAM beThuM ke A nirdoSa kevI rIte che ! dAdAzrI : kAraNa ke buddhi zuM kahe che ? buddhi samAdhAna khoLe che, sthiratA khoLe che. eTale tame koIkano doSa kADho to buddhi sthira thAya. pachI enI javAbadArI game te hoya. paNa koIkano doSa kADhyone eTale buddhi sthira thAya. doSa koIno nathI, mAro ja che, to ya buddhi sthira thAya. paNa Ama buddhi sthira thavAno rasto e mokSamArga. have buddhi Ame ya sthira thAya ane Ame ya sthira thAya che paNa je koInA para AropaNa thayA sivAyanI buddhi hoya, evI buddhinI sthiratA hovI joIe. eTale ApaNe potAnA para ja nAkhIe to Ano ukela Ave evo che. to buddhi paNa sthira thAya ne ! AvI rIte A jagatamAM Dakho thaI rahyo che. ane potAnI bhUla pakaDAtI nathI. ane sAmAnI bhUla tarata mAlama paDI jAya. kAraNa ke buddhi mUkAI che ne ! ane jene buddhi mUkAI nathI tene to kaMI bhUlano savAla ja nathI raheto doSa jovo jAtato ja sadA ! praznakartA : koI doSita nathI eTale pote paNa doSita nathI evuM thayuM ? dAdAzrI : nahIM, mane A du:khe che ke kema ? uparathI koIke DhekhALo nAkhyo ane mane lAgyuM eTale doSa kono kahevo ? praznakartA : e to koIno doSa nathI. dAdAzrI : eTale tyAM AgaLa A mAro doSa haze, tyAre A banyuM. te potAnI jAtano doSa to jovo ja paDaze ne ?! ane potAnI bhUlo jyAM sudhI nA dekhAya tyAM sudhI mANasa haju AgaLa vadhe kevI rIte ? bAkI koI gALa bhAMDe ane potAne asara nA thAya, potAnI jAtanI ja bhUla che evuM potAne lAgyA kare ane sAmo nirdoSa che evuM samajAya, pote

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nijadoSa darzanathI... nirdoSa ! papa nijadoSa darzanathI . nirdoSa ! dAdAzrI : tame sAmAno doSa Apo to tamArI buddhi sthira thaI, eTale tamane khAvA de, pIvA de, badhuM UMghavA de paNa sAmAno doSa ApavAthI saMsAra Ubho raheze. ane huM zuM kahuM chuM ke saMsAra jo AthamI nAkhavo hoya to mULa doSa tamAro che, vAstavikatAmAM Ama che. have potAno doSa Apo, to ahIM ya buddhi sthira thaI jaze. buddhine evuM nathI ke ApaNo potAno doSa kADhe. paNa buddhi sthira thavI joIe, buddhine sthira karyA sivAya cAle nahIM. AvuM kaMI zAstramAM ochuM lakhavAmAM Ave che ? ne, koI phariyAda ja nahIM ne ! gAyo-bheMso che, badhA evAM anaMtA jIvo che, e lokone koI phariyAda nahIM, bilakula phariyAda nahIM. praznakartA: A bahu moTI vAta nIkaLI ke buddhine sthira karavAnI. pahelA buddhine tyAM saMsAramAM sthira karatAM hatAM tyAM doSa dekhAto hato. dAdAzrI : hA, buddhine sthira karavA mATe sAdhana joIe. te chevaTe pote gunegAra nathI ema TharAve loko. to ApaNe kahIe, pelo to gunegAra kharone ! eTale koIkane coMTI paDIe, paNa tyAM buddhi sthira karIe koI jagyAe. eTale buddhi jo sthira nA thAya to bIjuM zuM karo ? to pachI tamAre ema kahevuM ke mAro ja doSa che. eTale buddhi ahIM sthira thAya. nahIM to buddhi hAlI eTale mahIM aMtaHkaraNa AkhuM hAlamaDola, hAlamaDola, ahIM jema hullaDa thayuM hoyane, evuM ja. eTale buddhi sthira karavI paDe ne ? sthira nA karIe tyAM sudhI hullaDa jAgyA jevuM thAya. ajJAnI potAnI javAbadArI para buddhi sthira kare che ane tame loko potAnI bhUla jovAmAM sthira karo. ane pachI sthira kare eTale hullaDa baMdha thaI gayuM ne ! nahIM to vicAronI paraMparA cAlyA kare mahIM. jo evuM kahyuM ke A pelAnI bhUla che. eTale ApaNI buddhi sthira thAya. pachI nirAMte jamavAnuM bhAve. paNa emAMthI pachI saMsAra AgaLa vadhato jAya. che. ApaNe saMsAra kADhI nAkhavo che. eTale ApaNe kahIe, bhUla mArI che, to ja buddhi sthira thaze ane pachI jamavAnuM bhAvaze. buddhi sthira thavI joIe. samajAya evI vAta che ne ? praznakartA : buddhi sthira thAya e tadana samajAya evI vAta che. dAdAzrI : hA, ane jyAM sudhI buddhi asthira che, tyAM sudhI khAvA nahIM de, jamavA nahIM de, suvA nahIM de, kazuM nahIM karavA de. tyAM e mananI caMcaLatA nathI, buddhinI caMcaLatA che. buddhi sthira thaI ke ukela AvI gayo. evuM chene, A jagatanuM AkhuM saravaiyuM zAstrAmAM nathI rahyuM. paNa ame ene khulluM karIe chIe ke A jagatamAM koI doSita che ja nahIM. AvuM badhuM je dekhAya che, mAraphADa, khUna kharAbI bahu thAya che, corIo, luccAI badhuM thAya che, emAM koI doSita ja nathI. e vAstavika draSTi che. vAstavika draSTi uparathI jo kadI eno tALo meLavo to tamArI doSa draSTi nIkaLI gaI ke tame khudA thaI gayA, basa ! bIjuM kazuM che nahIM !! pAmavA mukti, jue tijadoSa jagata nirdoSa ja che kAyamane mATe, sApe ya nirdoSa che ne vAdhe ya nirdoSa che. sApa ne vAgha badhAya nirdoSa che. A indirA ya nirdoSa che ane morArajI ya nirdoSa che ane jalokavALA ya nirdoSa che, badhA nirdoSa che. paNa doSa dekhAya che ne ? bIjAnA doSa dekhAtA jeTalAM baMdha thaI gayAM e ja mokSanI kriyA. doSa dekhAya che e saMsAranI adhikaraNa kriyA. eTale ApaNo ja doSa, bIjA koIno doSa nahIM. pArakAMnA doSa dekhAtA baMdha thaI gayA e mokSanI TikiTavALo thaI gayo. nahIM to jagata AkhuM badhuM pArakAMnA ja doSa jue. eTale potAnA doSa jovA mATe jagata che. pArakAnA doSa jovAthI ja A jagata UbhuM thayuM che ane pArakAMnAM doSa jue koNa ? jene guruttama banavuM hoya te ! mokSe janAro potAnI bhUla joyA kare ne pArakAnI bhUla jonAro saMsAramAM bhaTakyA kare. koI pArakAMnI bhUla jotAM haze, temAM kaMTALavuM nahIM. mUo e ahIM bhaTakavAno che eTale e joyA ja karene, e bhaTakavAno che. te evuM nA praznakartA : Ape kahyuM ne buddhi sthira thAya, saMsAra tarapha agara to AtmAnI tarapha....

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nijadoSa darzanathI... nirdoSa ! kare to pachI e bhaTake zI rIte ? 53 AvI jAva, eka vAta para ! ahIM jo tamane gamatuM hoya to doSita joyA karavuM. saMsAra gamato hoya to jagatane doSita joyA karo ane saMsAra na gamato hoya to eka kinAre Avo. eka vAta upara AvI jAva. jo saMsAra na gamato hoya to saMsAra doSita nathI, evuM tame joyA karo. mArA doSe ja thaIne A UbhuM thayuM che. eka kinAre to lAvavuM paDaze ne ? virodhAbhAsa kyAM sudhI cAlavAnuM ? mahAvIra bhagavAnane koI doSita lAgyuM nathI. pelA uparathI deva AvIne herAna karI gayA to ya emane deva doSita nathI lAgyA. payo ja hoya mAMhI e doSa ! * jagatamAM doSita nA dekhAya. nirdoSa dekhAtA hovA joIe. praznakartA : evuM to kharuMne, ApaNe jene doSita joIe chIe, je draSTie doSa joIe chIe, e doSa ApaNAmAM bharAyelA che. dAdAzrI : tethI ja dekhAya. praznakartA : ane jeTalA aMze doSanuM ochA thavApaNuM thayuM, eTalA aMze draSTi svaccha thAya kharI ke ? dAdAzrI : hA, eTaluM cokhkhuM thAya. potAnI gaTara gaMdhAya te bIjAtI gaTara dhovA jAya ! doSo to badhAnI gaTaro che. A bahAranI gaTaro ApaNe ughADatAM nathI. ya A nAnA bAbAne ya e anubhava hoya. A rasoDuM rAkhyuM te gaTara to hovI ja joIene ! paNa te gaTarane ughADavI nahIM. koInAmAM amuka doSa hoya, koI ciDhAto hoya, koI raghavAyo pharato hoya, te jovuM, tene gaTara ughADI kahevAya. enA karatAM guNo jovA te sAruM. gaTara to ApaNI potAnI ja jovA jevI nijadoSa darzanathI... nirdoSa ! che. pANI bharAI gayuM hoya to potAnI gaTara sApha karavI. A to gaTara bharAI jAya che, paNa samajAtuM nathI ! ane samajAya chatAM kare zuM ? chelle koThe paDI jAya che e. enAthI to A rogo UbhA thayA che, zAstro vAMcIne gA gA kare ke 'koInI niMdA nA karazo' paNa niMdA to cAlu ja hoya. koInuM jarAya avaLuM bolyo ke teTaluM nukasAna thayuM ja ! A bahAranI gaTaronuM DhAMkaNa koI ughADatuM nathI. paNa lokonI gaTaronAM DhAMkaNa ughADa ughADa kare che. 58 eka mANasa saMDAsanA bAraNAne lAta mAra mAra karato hato. meM kahyuM, 'kema lAto mAro cho !' tyAre kahe ke, khUba sApha karuM chuM to ya gaMdhAya che.' bolo, have e mUrkhAI keTalI badhI kahevAya ! jAjarUnA bAraNAne lAto mArIe toya gaMdhAya che, temAM bhUla konI ? praznakartA : lAto mAranAranI. dAdAzrI : kevaDI moTI bhUla kahevAyane ? kaMI daravAjAno doSa che bicArAno ? A lAto mArI mArIne jagata AkhuM gaMdhAya tene sApha karavA jAya che. paNa te saMDAsanA bAraNAMne lAto mArIne potAne upAdhi thAya che ane bAraNAM ya tUTI jAya che. tamane to zuM kahIe chIe ke A dehanAM je je doSa hoya, mananAM doSa ke hoya eTalA tamane dekhAyA eTale tame chUTyA. bIjuM tamAre doSo kADhavAne mATe mAthAkUTa karavAnI nathI, ke saMDAsanuM bAraNuM khakhaDAya khakhaDAya karavAnI jarUra nathI. saMDAsanA bAraNAne lAto mArIe to e gaMdhAtuM maTI jAya ? kema nA maTe ? eNe lAta mArI to ya na maTe ? bUma mArI ya to ? praznakartA : nA maTe. dAdAzrI : saMDAsane kazuM asara nA thAyane ? evuM A loko mAthAkUTa kare che, vagara kAmanI mAthAkUTa ! tema A navaTAMke ya daLyuM nathI ne pahelAM jUnuM daLeluM hatuM te uDADI mUkyuM, bhaiDI bhaiDIne ! te bhaiDeluM UDI jAya ne badhuM ! navuM daLeluM to kyAM gayuM, paNa jUnuM daLeluM che te pharI bhaiDavA lIdhuM te uDADI mUkyuM ! kazuM hAthamAM ja rahyuM nathI. A manuSyapaNuM dekhAya che ne te be pagane

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nijadoSa darzanathI... nirdoSa ! badale cAra paga thAya evuM che. bolo, keTalo napho thayo ? draSTi abhiprAya rahita ! 59 doSa jovAnuM baMdha karI done ! praznakartA : jo doSa nA joIe to duniyAnI draSTie ApaNe eksesa phUla (vadhAre paDatA mUrkha) nA lAgIe ? dAdAzrI : eTale doSa jovAthI saphaLa thaIe ApaNe ? praznakartA : doSa jovAthI nahIM, paNa DIsTIMgsana karavAnuM (taphAvata jovAno) ke A mANasa Avo che, A mANasa Avo che. dAdAzrI : nA, enAthI to jokhama che ne badhuM. e prijyuDIza (pUrvagraha) kahevAya. prijyuDIza koInI para rakhAya nahIM. gaIkAle koTa corI gayo hoya to ya Aje corI jaze evuM ApaNAthI nA rakhAya. paNa phakta ApaNe koTa ekalo ThekANe mUkavo joIe. sAvacetI levAnI ApaNe. gaIkAle koTa bahAra mUkyo to Aja ThekANe mUkI devo. paNa prijyuDIza nA rakhAya. tethI to A duHkho che ne, nahIM to varlDamAM duHkho kema hoya te ?! ane bhagavAna duHkha ApatA nathI badhA tamArA ja UbhAM karelAM du:kho che ne te tamane pajave che. temAM bhagavAna zuM kare ? koInI para prijyuDIza rAkhazo nahIM. koIno doSa jozo nahIM. e jo samajI jazo to ukela AvI jaze. tame pratikramaNa nA karo to tamAro abhiprAya rahyo. mATe tame baMdhanamAM AvyA. je doSa thayo temAM tamAro abhiprAya rahyo ane abhiprAyothI mana UbhuM thayeluM che. mAre koI paNa mANasa joDe sahejeya abhiprAya nathI. kAraNa ke eka ja phero joI lIdhA pachI huM enA mATe bIjo abhiprAya badalato nathI. saMjogAnusAra koI mANasa corI karato hoya te huM jAte jouM, to ya ene huM cora kaheto nathI. kAraNa ke e saMjogAnusAra che. jagatanA loko to je pakaDAyo tene cora kahe che. A saMjogAnusArano cora hato ke kAyamano cora nijadoSa darzanathI... nirdoSa ! hato, evI kaMI jagatane paDelI nathI. huM to kAyamanA corane cora kahuM chuM. atyAra sudhI koI paNa mANasano abhiprAya meM badalyo nathI. 'vyavahAra AtmA' saMjogAdhIna che ne te 'nizcaya AtmA'thI ekatA che. amAre AkhA varlDa joDe matabheda nathI. FO praznakartA : e to hoya nahIM. kAraNa ke Apane to koI mANasa doSita lAgato nathI ne, nizcayathI. dAdAzrI : doSita lAge nahIM. kAraNa ke kharekhara evuM hotuM nathI. A je doSita lAge chene, te doSita draSTithI doSita lAge che ! jo tamArI draSTi nirdoSa thAya to doSita lAge ja nahIM koI ! Ama aMta Ave gUMcavADAoto ! gUMcavADAno 'enDa' kyAre Ave ? rileTiva ane riyala A be ja vastu jagatamAM che. ola dhIsa rileTiva Ara TempararI eDajasTamenTa ane riyala Ijha dhI paramenanTa. have paramenanTa bhAga keTalo ane TempararI bhAga keTalo, enI vacce lAIna oNpha DImArkezana nAkhI Ape, to gUMcavADo baMdha thAya, nahIM to gUMcavADo baMdha thAya nahIM. covIseya tIrthaMkaroe e DImArkezana lAIna nAkhelI. kuMdakuMdAcArye A lAIna nAkhelI ane atyAre ApaNe A DImArkezana lAIna nAkhI daIe chIe ke tarata ene rAge paDI jAya che. rileTiva ane riyala, A benA gUMcavADA vacce lAIna oNpha DImArkezana nAkhI ApIe ke A bhAga tAro ane A pArako bhAga che. have pArakA bhAgane 'mAro' mAnIza nahIM, evuM ene samajAvI daIe ke eno ukela AvI gayo. A to pArako mAla bathADI paDyo che. tenI vaDhavADo cAle che, jhaghaDAM ja cAlyA kare che. gUMcavADo eTale jhaghaDAM cAlyA ja kare ane ekuMya potAnI bhUla dekhAya nahIM, Ama to che AkhuM bhUlavALuM ja khAtuM ! eTale rileTiva ane riyalanuM jJAna thayA pachI potAnI ja bhUlo dekhAya. jyAM juo tyAM potAnI ja bhUlo dekhAya ane che ja potAnI bhUla. potAnI bhUlathI A jagata UbhuM rahyuM che, A koIkanI bhUlathI jagata UbhuM rahyuM nathI. potAnI bhUla UDI

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nijadoSa darzanathI... nirdoSa ! AtmadraSTi thayA pachI.. jAya ke pachI e siddhagatimAM ja cAlyo jAya ! jyAM chUTuM mAlikIpaNuM sarvasvapaNe.... eTale jeTalAM ApaNane potAnAM doSa dekhAya, eTalA doSa mahIMthI ochAM thAya, ema ochAM thatAM thatAM jyAre doSano kothaLo pUro thaI rahe, tyAre tame nirdoSa thAva. tyAre che te potAnA svarUpamAM AvI gayA kahevAya. have e kyAre patto paDe ? anaMta avatArathI bhaTaka bhaTaka karIe chIe, doSa to vadhatA ja cAlyA che. eTale jJAnI puruSanI kRpAthI ja badhuM kAma thaI jAya. kAraNa ke pote mokSadAtA che. mokSanuM dAna ApavA AvelA che. emane kazuM joItuM nathI. saMpUrNa jAgRti varte, tyAre potAnI eka paNa bhUla nA thAya ! eka paNa bhUla thAya e ajAgRti che. doSa khAlI karyA vagara nirdoSa nA thavAya ! ane nirdoSa vagara mukti nahIM. jyAre doSarahita thazo tyAre nirdoSa thazo. nahIM to pachI thoDA-ghaNAM bAkI haze to A mAlikIpaNuM choDI dezo eTale nirdoSa thazo. A deha mAro nahIM, A mana mAruM nahIM, A vANI mArI nahIM, to tame nirdoSa thaI zakazo. paNa atyAre to tame mAlika kharAne ? TAITala hau (mAlikI) che ke ?' meM to TAITala keTalA vakhatathI phADI nAkheluM che ! chavvIsa varSathI eka sekanDa paNa A dehano huM mAlika thayo nathI, A vANIno mAlika thayo nathI, manano mAlika thayo nathI. garUDa Ave, bhAge sApa !! zAstrakAroe eka dAkhalo Apyo che ke bhaI, A caMdananA jaMgalamAM naryA sApa sApa sApa hoya. pelA jhADane vIMTAIne badhA besI ja rahyA hoya ThaMDakamAM. caMdananA jhADane vIMTAIne enA jaMgalamAM. paNa eka garUDa Ave ke badhuM bhAgamabhAga, bhAgamabhAga thAya evI rIte A meM garUDa mUkI ApyuM che, badhA doSo nAsI jaze. zuddhAtmArUpI garUDa beThuM che. eTale badhA doSo nAsI javAnA. ane dAdA bhagavAna mAthe che pachI ene zo bhaya ! mAre mAthe 'dAdA bhagavAna' che to 'mane" ATalI badhI hiMmata che, to tamane hiMmata nA Ave ? praznakartA : hiMmata to pUrepUrI Ave ! niSpakSapAtI draSTi ! dAdAzrI : "svarUpanA jJAna' vagara to bhUla dekhAya nahIM. kAraNa ke huM ja caMdubhAI ne mArAmAM to kazo vAMdho nathI, huM to DAhyo-Damaro chuM" ema rahe ane 'svarUpanA jJAnanI prApti pachI tame niSpakSapAtI thayAM, mana-vacana-kAyA para tamane pakSapAta nA rahyo. tethI potAnI bhUlo temane potAne dekhAya. jene potAnI bhUla jaDaze, jene kSaNe kSaNe potAnI bhUla dekhAya, jyAM jyAM thAya tyAM dekhAya, nA thAya tyAM nA dekhAya e pote paramAtmA svarUpa" thaI gayo ! vIra bhagavAna thaI gayo !!! 'A' jJAna prApta karyA pachI pote niSpakSapAtI thayo. a a a

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nijadoSa darzanathI... nirdoSa !! 63 nijadoSa darzanathI . nirdoSa ! A to jAgRti ja nathI. eka paNa mANasa evo nathI ke jene jAgRti hoya. A bhAIne jyAM sudhI "jJAna" ApyuM nathI, tyAM sudhI emanAmAM koI paNa jAtanI jAgRti nA hoya. jJAna ApyA pachI enAmAM jAgRti utpanna thAya. pachI bhUla thAya to jAgRtine lIdhe bhUlo dekhAya. varlDamAM koIne jAgRti ja nA hoya ane potAnI eka be bhUlo dekhAya. bIjI bhUla dekhAya nahIM. A to jJAna pachI tamane tamArI to badhI ja bhUlo dekhAya, e A jAgRtine laIne ! kAraNa ke "caMdubhAI nathI, huM zuddhAtmA chuM' e samajAya pachI ja niSpakSapAtI thavAya. koIno sahejeya doSa dekhAya nahIM ane potAnA badhA ja doSo dekhAya tyAre potAnuM kAma pUruM thayuM kahevAya. pahelAM to huM ja chuM' ema rahetuM, tethI niSpakSapAtI nahotA thayA. have niSpakSapAtI thayA eTale potAnA badhA ja doSo dekhAvAnuM zarU thAya ane upayoga aMdara tarapha ja hoya, eTale bIjAnA doSo nA dekhAya ! potAnA doSa dekhAvA mAMDyA eTale 'A' 'jJAna' pariNamavAnuM zarU thaI jAya. potAnA doSa dekhAvA mAMDyA eTale bIjAnA doSa nA dekhAya. A nirdoSa jagatamAM koI doSita che ja nahIM, tyAM doSa kone apAya ? doSa che tyAM sudhI doSa e ahaMkAra bhAga che ne e bhAga dhovAze nahIM, tyAM sudhI badhA doSa nIkaLaze nahIM, tyAM sudhI ahaMkAra nirmULa nahIM thAya. ahaMkAra nirmULa thAya tyAM sudhI doSo dhovAnA che. tema tema pragaTe Atama ujAsa ! praznakartA: AtmAno adhyAsa paDe pachI bhUlo enI meLe ochI thatI jAya ? dAdAzrI : cokkasa, bhUlo ochI thAya enuM nAma ja AtmAno adhyAsa. dehAdhyAse jo jAya, tema tema A utpanna thAya. pahelAM to samakita thAya to ya badhA doSa nA dekhAya evuM samakita hoya che. pachI jAgRti vadhatI jAya, tema doSa potAnA dekhAtA jAya ! potAnA doSa dekhAya e to kSAyaka samakita kahevAya. e kSAyaka samakita lokone ahIM AgaLa maphatamAM bhelADIe chIe. ekaluM maphatamAM nahIM, UlaTAM ApaNe kahIe ke Avajo, cA pAIe to ya nathI AvatAM juone, ajAyabI che ne ! A bhUlo dekhAtI thaIne, eTale he caMdubhAI ! tame atikramaNa karyuM, mATe pratikramaNa karo' kahIe ApaNe. A jagatamAM potAnI bhUla dekhAya nahIM. jene potAnI bhUla potAne dekhAya, enuM nAma samakita. AtmA thAya eTale doSa ja dekhAya ne ! doSa dekhAyo mATe ApaNe AtmA chIe, zuddhAtmA chIe, nahIM to doSa dekhAya nahIM. jeTalAM doSa dekhAya eTalo AtmA pragaTa thaI gayo. guhyatama vijJAna ! praznakartA : dAdA, sAmAnA doSa kema dekhAya che ? dAdAzrI : potAnI bhUlane lIdhe ja sAmAvALo doSita dekhAya che. A dAdAne badhA nirdoSa ja dekhAya. kAraNa ke potAnI badhI ja bhulo temaNe bhAMgI nAkhI che. potAno ja ahaMkAra sAmAnI bhUlo dekhADe che. jene potAnI bhUla ja jovI che tene badhAM nirdoSa ja dekhAvAnA. jenI bhUla thAya te bhUlano nikAla kare. sAmAnI bhUlano ApaNane zo Dakho? praznakartA : dAdA, sAmAnA doSo nA jovA hoya chatAM jovAI jAya ane bhUta vaLage to zuM karavuM ? dAdAzrI : je gUMcave che e buddhi che, e viparIta bhAvane pAmelI buddhi che ane ghaNAM kALanI che ane pAcho Teko che. tethI e jatI nathI. jo ene kahyuM ke mAre hitakArI nathI to enAthI chUTI javAya. A to nokara hoya che, tene kahyuM ke tAruM kAma nathI, pachI enI pAse dhakko khavaDAvIe to cAle ? tema buddhine ekeya vakhata dhakkA nA khavaDAvIe. A buddhine to tadana asahakAra ApavAno. viparIta buddhi saMsAranA hitAhitanuM bhAna dekhADanArI che. jyAre samyak buddhi saMsAra khaseDI mokSa bhaNI laI jAya che. praznakartA : doSa chUTatAM nathI to zuM karavuM ? dAdAzrI : doSa chUTe nahIM. paNa ene ApaNI vastu na hoya ema

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nijadoSa darzanathI... nirdoSa ! kahIe to chUTe. 65 praznakartA : paNa evuM kahIe chatAM nA chUTe to zuM karavuM ? dAdAzrI : A to je doSo barapha jevA thaI gayA che te ekadama kema chUTe ? chatAM e jJeya ne ApaNe jJAtA e saMbaMdha rAkhIe, to enAthI e doSo chUTe. ApaNo Teko nA hovo joIe. Teko nA maLe to ene paDye ja chUTako. A to AdhArathI vastu UbhI rahe che. nirAdhAra thAya to paDI jAya. A jagata AdhArathI UbhuM rahyuM che. nirAdhAra thAya to to UbhuM ja nA rahe, paNa nirAdhAra karatAM AvaDe nahIM ne ! e to jJAnIonA ja khela ! A jagata to anaMta 'guhya'vALuM, emAM 'guhyamAM guhya' bhAgane zI rIte samaje ? doSo hoya paDovALA ! e bhUlo pachI zeya svarUpe dekhAya. jeTalAM jJeya dekhAya eTalAthI mukta thavAya. A DuMgaLInA paDo hoya chene, tema doSo paNa paDovALA hoya che. te jema jema doSa dekhAya tema tema tenA paDa ukhaDatAM jAya ane jyAre enA badhA ja paDo ukhaDI jAya tyAre e doSa jaDa mULathI kAyamane mATe vidAya laI le. keTalAMka doSo eka paDavALA hoya che. bIjuM paDa ja temane hotuM nathI tethI temane eka ja vakhata jovAthI cAlyo jAya. vadhAre paDavALA doSone pharI pharI jovA paDe ane pratikramaNa karIe to jAya ane keTalAka doSa to evA cIkaNA hoya che ke pharI pharI pratikramaNa karyA karavuM paDe ane loko kaheze ke eno e ja doSa thAya che ? to kahe ke bhAI hA, paNa enuM kAraNa emane A nA samajAya. doSa to paDanI peTha che, anaMta che. eTale je badhA dekhAya ane enA pratikramaNa kare eTale cokhkhA thatAM jAya. praznakartA : eka bAju ApaNe kahIe chIe ke jJAna kriyAkArI che ane eka bAju kaMI bhUla thaI jAya che to ene nikAlI bhAva kahIe chIe, e eDajasTamenTa kahevAya ne ? dAdAzrI : e nikAlI bAbato ja che badhI. A badhI bAbata ja nikAlI nijadoSa darzanathI... nirdoSa ! che. te nathI grahaNIya ne nathI tyAga karavAnI. tyAgamAM tiraskAra hoya, dveSa hoya ane grahaNamAM rAga hoya ane A to nikAlI bAbato badhI !! 66 ane tamAre doSa che evuM tamane kema dekhAya che ! eno purAvo zo ? tyAre kahe che, caMdubhAI gusse thayA te tamane nA game. e tamane nA game e tamane caMdubhAIno doSa dekhAyo. evuM Akho dahADo nA gamatuM hoya e badhA doSa tamane dekhAvA mAMDyA. gutegArI pApa-puNyatI ! A jagata 'vyavasthita' che. te 'vyavasthita zakti', je ApaNI gunegArI hatI te pAchI ApaNI pAse mokale. tene AvavA devI ane ApaNe ApaNA samabhAvamAM rahIne teno nikAla karI nAkhavAno. gayA avatAramAM je je bhUlo karelI te A avatAramAM Ave, tethI A avatAramAM ApaNe sIdhA cAlIe to ya te bhUla naDe, enuM nAma gunegArI ! A gunegArI be prakAranI che. amane phUlo caDhAve te ya gunegArI ane patharA paDe te ya gunegArI ! phUlo caDhe e puNyanI gunegArI ane patharA paDe e pApanI gunegArI che. A kevuM che ? pahelAM je bhUlo karelI teno korTamAM kesa cAle ne pachI nyAya thAya. je je bhUlo karelI te te guno bhogavavo paDe, te bhUlo bhogavavI ja paDe. e bhUlono ApaNe samatA bhAve nikAla karavAno, emAM kazuM ja bolavAnuM nahIM. bole nahIM to zuM thAya ? kALa Ave eTale bhUla Ave ane te bhogavAI ne nIkaLI jAya. moTI nAtomAM A bolavAthI ja to badhI gUMco paDelI che ne ! mATe te gUMco ukelavA mauna rAkhe to ukela Ave evuM che. 'jJAnI puruSe' gUMco pADelI nahIM. tethI temane atyAre badhuM AgaLa ne AgaLa vaibhava maLyA kare. ane tamane badhAMne atyAre A avatAramAM 'jJAnI puruSa' maLI gayA che. mATe pAchalI gUMcono samabhAve nikAla karI navI gUMco pharI nA pADazo, to pharI e gUMco nahIM Ave ane ukela AvI jaze. eTale ApaNe bhUla to bhAMgavI paDaze ne !

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nijadoSa darzanathI... nirdoSa ! 67 praznakartA : paNa bhUla zuM zuM che e badhI dekhAvI joIe ne ! dAdAzrI : e to dhIme dhIme dekhAtI jaze. tamane A vAta karuM chuM tema tema dekhAze. tamArI bhUla jovAnI draSTi utpanna thaze. tamArI icchA thaze ke mAre have bhUla khoLI kADhavI che to jaDyA vagara rahe nahIM ! have je tamArA udaya chene, te udayamAM je doSa che te rIjharvoyara (sarovara)no mAla che eTale navuM Avaka nathI emAM ane jAvaka che cAlu. te pahelAM jozabaMdha hoya, be-pAMca varasa pachI khAlI thaI jAya. pachI bUma pADo to ya nA paDe ane amuka varSo pachI to AnI ora ja dazA Avaze. ane te ame sephasAIDa karI ApeluM che. tamAre eTaluM lakSamAM rahevuM joIe ke sephasAIDa kareluM yAda na AvavuM joIe. suTevo ne kuTevo beu sephasAIDa nathI karI ApaNe ? praznakartA : hA. dAdAzrI : pachI dAdA, mane Ama kema thAya che ? Aje gusso thaI gayo hato. are, gusse thaI gayo, tene jo ne ! teM jANyuM chene ? pahelAM jANatA nahotA, pahelAM to meM ja karyuM ema kahetA hatA. te have juduM paDyuM ne ? praznakartA : hA. svarUpa prApti pachI... dAdAzrI : A sAyansa che. sAyansa eTale sAyansa. paccIsa prakAranA moha, cArjamoha meM bilakula baMdha karI dIdhAM che. ane DiscArja moha to rahevAno ja ane DiscArja moha to bhagavAna mahAvIrane paNa hato. emanA gajA pramANe, kAraNa ke e khapAvIne gayelA hoya ane ApaNe khapAvyA vagaranA hoya. e dasanA devAdAra hoya ane ApaNe lAkhanA devAdAra hoIe. emaNe devAno nikAla karI nAkhelo ane tame ya nikAla karI nAkhazo. basa, devAno nikAla ja karavA beThA tyAM AgaLa ApaNe samabhAve nikAla karIe chIene ? hA, nikAla ja karI nAkhavAno che. nijadoSa darzanathI... nirdoSa ! suTevo ne kuTevo beu bhrAMti che. ApaNe bhrAMtinI bahAra nIkaLyA have. je mAla ApaNo na hoya ene saMgharIe kema karIne ? Fe ApaNe doSane jovAnA. doSa keTalAM dekhAya che te jANavuM ApaNe. doSane doSa juo ane guNane guNa juo. eTale zubhane guNa kahyo ane azubhane doSa kahyo. ane te AtmabhASAmAM nathI. AtmabhASAmAM doSa ke guNa kazuM che ja nahIM. A lokabhASAnI vAta che, bhrAMti bhASAnI vAta che. AtmabhASAmAM to doSa nAma ja nathI kazuM. mahAvIra bhagavAnane koI doSita dekhAto ja nahoto. gajavuM kApanAra ya doSita nahoto dekhAto. khIlA mAryA teno doSa nahoto dekhAyo. UlaTuM enA para karuNA AvI ke AnuM zuM thaze bicArAnuM. jokhamadArI to AvI ne potAnuM svarUpa jANato nathI. jo svarUpa jANato hota ne mAryuM hota to to bhagavAnane emanI para karuNA nA Avata ke, e to jJAnI che. paNa svarUpane jANato nathI eTale pote kartA thayo ane svarUpane jo jANato hoya to te akartA hato, eTale vAMdho nahoto. eTale vAta TUMkamAM samajI levAnI che. loMgakaTa (lAMbo rasto) che ja nahIM, A zorTakaTa (TUMko rasto) vastu che. tamane AtmAnI jAgRti AvI gaI, zarUAta thaI gaI, e bahu moTAmAM moTuM kArya thaI gayuM. eka kSaNavAra AtmA chuM evuM lakSa nA bese koIne, to lakSa bese e to moTAmAM moTI vastu thaI. te dahADe pApo ya dhovAI jAya che. tethI tamane e lakSamAM rahyA kare che, niraMtara cUkAtuM nathI. have karmano udaya jarA bhAre hoyane te tamane mUMjhave jarA, saphokezana kare. te ghaDIe tamane naDatuM nathI. tamAro AtmA jato rahyo nathI. paNa te ghaDIe AtmAnuM sukha AvatuM baMdha thAya ane amane sukha AvatuM baMdha nA thAya, amane to niraMtara rahyA kare. UbharAyA kare UlaTuM, joDevALAne ya sukha lAge. amArI joDe beThA hoyane tene sukha lAge. sukha UbharAyA ja kare eTaluM AtmAnuM sukha che, A deha hovA chatAMya, A kaLiyuga hovA chatAMya ! have bhUla thAya che te dekhAya che, khabara paDe che badhI ?

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nijadoSa darzanathI.... nirdoSa ! nijadoSa darzanathI... nirdoSa ! ane jAgRtithI badhA potAnA doSo, badhuM ja dekhAya. sAmAnA doSa kADhavA enuM nAma jAgRti nathI. e to ajJAnIne bahu hoya. sAmAnA doSa bilakula dekhAya nahIM, potAnA doSa dekhavAmAM bilakula navaro paDe ja nahIM, enuM nAma jAgRti. eTale thaI gayA jJAtI ! praznakartA : jeTalA vibhAva thAya e badhA doSa gaNAya ne ? dAdAzrI : have vibhAva thAya ja nahIM. have je doSa dekhAya chene, te mAnasika doSa dekhAya che. mana:paryavane laIne, mAnasika doSo, buddhinA doSo, ahaMkAranA doSo eTale aMtaHkaraNanA badhA doSo temane dekhAya. caMdubhAInA doSa tamane dekhAya ke nahIM ? praznakartA : hA. dAdAzrI : caMdubhAInA doSa tamane dekhAyA ke tame thaI gayA jJAnI. A to tame mane hajI daseka kalAka maLyA hazo. A to meM tamArA hAthamAM, je hIrAnI kiMmata nA thAya evuM tamArA hAthamAM mUkeluM che. paNa e hIro bALakanA hAthamAM AvavAthI enI velyu ja nathI ! dIse dhodha doSa taNA.. kSaNe kSaNe doSa dekhAya che ne? praznakartA : kSaNe kSaNe to nahIM, thoDA thoDA dekhAya che. dAdAzrI : hajI to kSaNe kSaNe dekhAze. haju to bahu doSa che. pAra vagaranAM che, paNa dekhAtA nathI haju. A koIne dasa doSa potAnA nA dekhAya. be-traNa haze ema bole, kAraNa ke doSa dekhAya tyArathI to mokSe javAnI taiyArI thaI. te doSano dhodha dekhAya chene, badho. have jeTalA dekhAya eTalA gayA. pAchAM bIje dahADe eTalA utpanna thayA karaze. niraMtara vahyA ja karaze. jyAM sudhI nirdoSa nA banAve tyAM sudhI vahyA karaze. have halakAM thavAze ! doSo dhodhabaMdha dekhAya evuM karo, kazuM mahenata puSkaLa che bahu ya !!! tamane je tamAruM svarUpa che te svarUpa ane caMdulAla judA. caMdulAlano khabho thAbaDo ! caMdulAla sAruM karIne AvyA hoya te dahADe kahIe, tame to ATalI UMmare sAro lAbha uThAvyo, tame chUTazo to amane choDazo. tame jyAM sudhI vaLagelA hazo tyAM sudhI amAro ukela nahIM Ave. mATe ApaNe kahevuM ke 'vahelA paravArIne satsaMgamAM jAva'. 'caMdubhAI Ama karo, tema karo', evuM UlaTuM tamAre kahevAnuM. tame to uparI thayA ane 'chokarA joDe ATaluM hAya hAya zuM karo cho ?" ema tamAre kahevAnuM. kayA avatAramAM chokarAM nahotAM. kUtarA, bilADImAM chokarAM vagara to ekuMya avatAra gayo nathI ne ? baLyA, joya sAcAM chokarAM ! A to laukika vastu che. A to kaMI sAcuM che ? A to rileTiva che. A dUdhI bUmo pADe che, mArAM chokarAM keTalA ? so dUdhIyAM beThAM hoya to so ya tArAM chokarAM ! pAne pAne dUdhIyuM bese tema A lokone doDha-doDha varSe, babbe varSe eka-eka dUdhIyuM besyA kare !!! A dUdhIyAmAM ya jIva rahyo che ne AmAMya jIva rahelo che. pelAmAM ekendriya jIva rahelo che ne AmAM paMcendriya jIva che. paNa jIva to banne jagyAe rahelo che ne ! jIva to evaDo ne evaDo ja che ne ! eTale potAnA doSa dekhAya che ne ? caMdubhAIne kahevAyeya kharuM ke 'caMdubhAI, Ama zA hAru karo cho ? ame tamAro chUTako karavA mAgIe chIe, tamAro thaze to amAro thaze." te caMdubhAI zuddha thaze tyAre ApaNo chUTakAro thaze ! eTale ApaNe mahIM potAne ja kahevuM ke "caMdubhAI, tamAro ja doSa che, tyAre ja A bhAMjagaDa UbhI thaI ne AvAM tamane bhegA thayA, nahIM to AvAM bhegA thatA haze ?! nahIM to Ama phUla caDhAve evAM mANasa bhegA thAya. juone, mane phUlA caDhAve evA mANasa bhegA nathI thatAM ?! hai ?! Apane samajAyuMne ?

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nijadoSa darzanathI... nirdoSa ! 71 nijadoSa darzanathI... nirdoSa ! Ama thAya karmo cokhAM ! praznakartA : mahAtmAonuM evuM sTeja kyAre Avaze ke pratikramaNa karavAnA ja UDI jaze ? dAdAzrI : eTeka karavAnuM bhUlI gayo eTale pratikramaNa karavAnuM bhUlI jaze, gharamAM TokAya kaI bhUlate ? jIvana badhuM bagaDI gayuM che, AvuM jIvana nA hovuM joIe. jIvana to premamaya hovuM joIe. jyAM prema hoya tyAM bhUllo ja nA kaDhAya. bhUla kADhavI hoya to samaja barAbara pADavI. ene ApaNe kahIe, 'Ama karavA jevuM che." to e pelI kaheze, 'sAruM thayuM mane kahyuM.' upakAra mAne. 'cAmAM khAMDa nathI", kaheze. alyA, pI jA ne chAnomAno. vakhate ene khabara paDazene ? e ApaNane kahe ulaTI, ke tame khAMDa mAMgI nahIM ?! tyAre kahIe, tamane khabara paDe tyAre mokalajo. jIvana jIvatAM nathI AvaDatuM. gharamAM bhUla kaDhAya nahIM. kADhe ke nA kADhe ApaNA loko ? praznakartA : dararoja kADhe. dAdAzrI : bApanI, mAnI, chokarAnI, badhAMnI bhUlo kADhe mUo. potAnI ekalAnI ja nA kADhe ! kevo DAhyo ! akkalavALo ! eTale AvI vAMkI jAta che A. have DAhyA thaI jajo eTale atikramaNa nahIM karavAnuM. koI vakhata Ama chAMTo uDyo eTale ApaNe tarata jANavuM ke A DAgha paDyo eTale tarata dhoI nAkhavuM. bhUla to thAya, nA thAya evuM nahIM, paNa bhUla dhoI nAkhavI e ApaNuM kAma. praznakartA: paNa DAgha dekhAya evI draSTi maLavI joIe. dAdAzrI : e ApaNane maLI che. bIjA lokone to maLI ja nA hoya ne ApaNane to maLI che ne ke A bhUla thaI, ApaNI bhUla khabara paDe. ApaNI jAgRti evI che ke bhUlo badhI dekhADe. thoDI thoDI dekhAya, jema jema paDaLa khasatAM jAya tema tema dekhAtAM jAya. jyAre gharanA mANaso nirdoSa dekhAya ne potAnA ja doSa dekhAya tyAre sAcAM pratikramaNa thAya. praznakartA : jUnAM doSonAM kyAM sudhI pratikramaNa karavAnAM ? dAdAzrI : doSo hoya tyAM sudhI ane ApaNA doSane laIne sAmAne du:kha thAya evuM hoya to ja kahevAnuM, 'caMdulAla enA pratikramaNa karo'. nahIM to karavAnI jarUra nahIM. praznakartA : A janmamAM evAM doSo karyA nA hoya, paraMtu bhUtakALamAM pahelAnA janmamAM evA doSo karyA hoya ke jenA pratikramaNa karI emAMthI chUTI javuM hoya to kaI rIte karavuM ? kyAM sudhI karavuM ? dAdAzrI : gayA avatAramAM doSo thayelA tenI zI rIte khabara paDe ApaNane ? je kleIma karato Ave tenuM nivAraNa thAya. kleIma ja nA karatAM hoya to ? eTale kleIma karato Ave tenuM pratikramaNa karavuM. bIjA koIne levAdevA nathI. koI manamAM yAda AvyA karatuM hoya, jenA tarapha mana bagaDyA karatuM hoya, tenA pratikramaNa karavA. jagata AkhuM nirdoSa che ja paNa nirdoSa dekhAtuM nathI, enuM zuM kAraNa ? e ApaNA eTeka(vALA) svabhAvane ja laIne. ApaNane gALa bhAMDe te ya nirdoSa che, mAra mAre te ya nirdoSa che. nukasAna kare te ya nirdoSa che. kAraNa ke ApaNo hisAba ja che A badhI. ApaNo hisAba ApaNane e pAcho Ape che. te ApaNe pAchuM pharI ene ApIe te pharI navo hisAba bAMdhIe chIe. eTale ApaNe 'vyavasthita' mAnIe eTale basa. kahI devAnuM ke 'lo, hisAba cokhkho cUkate thaI gayo." nirdoSa joze to mokSa thaze. doSita joyo eTale pachI tame AtmA joyo ja nathI. sAmAnAmAM tame jo AtmA juo to e doSita nathI.

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* nijadoSa darzanathI... nirdoSa ! e che ekAMte ahaMkArI ! potAnA doSa dekhAya che have ? praznakartA: hA, e dekhAya che. dAdAzrI : nahIM to pote potAno eka doSa nA dekhAya. ahaMkArI mANasa potAno doSa joI zake nahIM. phakta moTA moTA doSa jANe kharo ke A becAra doSa che mArAmAM, paNa badhA joI zake nahIM ! koIno doSa thAya temAM tIrthaMkaro hAtha ghAlatA na hatA. A hAtha ghAle che, te eTalo ahaMkAra che. doSita jonAro ahaMkAra che ane doSe ya ahaMkAra che. beu ahaMkAra che ! nijadoSa darzanathI. nirdoSa ! bhALo sAmAne paNa akartA ! tame kazuM bolyA, te pelAne doSa dekhAya to eno phAyado zuM thAya ? praznakartA : phAyado zAno thAya ? nukasAna ja thAyane ! dAdAzrI : kayA jJAnanA AdhAre e doSa jue che ? praznakartA: emAM jJAna kyAM AvyuM ? e to ajJAnatAne laIne doSa jue chene ? dAdAzrI : hA, paNa eNe zAna lIdheluM hoya chatAMya doSa jue che to ? e potAnuM jJAna ja kAcuM kare che. pote kartA nathI ne sAmAne kartA jue che. e pote ja kartA thayA barAbara che. sAmAne kaMIka aMze kartA jue eTale pote kAco paDI gayo. e ApaNuM jJAna kahe che. pachI prakRti bhale vaDhamvaDhA kare paNa kartA nA jovo. prakRti to vaDhI ya paDe ! praznakartA : keTalIka vakhata behada vaDhI paDe che e zuM ? dAdAzrI : behada ? are, e to sAruM, mAramAra nA kare eTaluM sAruM kahevAya. nahIM to ethIe AgaLa jAya, baMdUko laIne pharI vaLe, prakRti to ! | hA, te badhuM ya bane, mahIM aMdara je mAla bharelo evo nIkaLe ! paNa kartA joyo to e ApaNuM jJAna kAcuM paDI gayuM. kAraNa ke A badhuM parasattA ja kare che, tamAre evuM jJAna kAcuM paDI jAya che ? praznakartA : hA, ghaNI vakhata paDI jAya. dAdAzrI : prakRti vaDhe teno vAMdho nahIM, paNa "ene' kartA nA jue. prakRti to pote DroIga karyuM hoyane, gaye avatAra philama pADI, te pramANe laDhe hau, mAramAra hau kare ! paNa ApaNe kartA nA jovo. AkhA dahADAmAM koInoya kazo guno thato hoto nathI. jeTalAM koIkanA doSa dekhAya che, teTalI haju kacAza ! badho ja tamAro hisAba che. praznakartA : ane doSa karanAro paNa ? dAdAzrI : e paNa ahaMkAra che ane doSita jonAro ya ahaMkAra che. praznakartA : doSa e paNa ahaMkAra ema kema kaho cho ? dAdAzrI : eTale ke doSane karanAro ja, basa. chatAM doSa karanAro ahaMkArI nA paNa hoya. ApaNuM jJAna lIdheluM hoya ane pAMca AjJA barobara pALato hoya, enA doSane doSa gaNAto nathI. kAraNa ke 'pote' sAmo potAnA doSa jonAra hoya. paNa emAM doSa e bharelo mAla che, 'tamAro' doSa nathI. evuM e sApekSatA che emAM, ekAMtika nathI. paNa doSa jonAro to ahaMkArI ja hoya. praznakartA : eTale dAdA, doSa karanAro ahaMkArI na paNa hoya ? dAdAzrI : nA paNa hoya. praznakartA doSa jonAro ahaMkArI hoya ja. dAdAzrI : hoya ja ekAMte. ekAMte hoya ja. A duniyAmAM doSa jonAro

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nijadoSa darzanathI. nirdoSa ! nijadoSa darzanathI.... nirdoSa ! ekAMte ahaMkArI hoya ja. mahattva che bhUlatA bhAtanuM ! bhUlanI tarata khabara paDe to bhUla kare ja nahIMne ! paNa pachI covIsa kalAka thAya to ya nA khabara paDe. praznakartA : e to peluM bhogavaTAnuM pariNAma Avene, eTale khabara paDe. dAdAzrI : e to cha mahine Ave pariNAma, potAnI jAtane kazuM khabara che ? tyAra pachI khabara paDe. vagara vedane khabara paDe tyAre jANavuM ke jJAna pragaTa thayuM che ! A jJAna ne A ajJAna evo bheda paDI javo joIe. praznakartA : potAnI bhUla khabara paDe pachI bhUla aTake kharI ? dAdAzrI : nA aTake eno savAla nathI. khabara paDe eTale bahu thaI gayuM. bhUla aTake ke nA aTake, e to mAphI ja che. bhUla khabara nathI paDatI tene mAphI nathI. nA aTake eno savAla nathI. bebhAnapaNAne mAphI nathI. bebhAnapaNAthI bhUla thAya che. praznakartA : evuM bebhAnapaNe keTalIya vAra utpanna thayuM hoya. bAkI keTalIya bAju bebhAnapaNuM rahetuM haze to tyAM bhUlo thayA karatI hoya ne ? dAdAzrI : thayA ja karene paNa, thayA karatI hoya nahIM, thayA ja kare che ! praznakartA : e bebhAnapaNuM chUTe ane bhUla dekhAya, evuM zI rIte banI praznakartA : AmAM to dAdA tarata khyAla Avelo ke AvuM thaze. A bhAIe kahyuM ke tarata khabara paDI gaI ke locA vALyA. dAdAzrI : nA, paNa ApaNI potAnI meLe kazuM khabara nA paDe. praznakartA : A jAte ja khabara paDI gaI. zake ? dAdAzrI : e kahyuM, eNe cetavyo eTale pAchuM joyuM te potAnI meLe koI kahe nahIM, nimitta bane nahIM. praznakartA : A bhAIe kahyuM ne pachI tarata ja mane sTrAIka thayuM, ke A bhUla thaI. dAdAzrI : bhUla thaI khabara paDe che ne ? bhUla thaI to sudhAre ne paNa ? khabara paDI jAya to, e to tarata bhAMgI nAkhene ? dAdAzrI : e to jAgRti AvavI joIe. Akho dahADo mAphI mAMga mAMga karyA karavI. Akho dahADo mAphI mAgavAnI Teva ja pADI devI. pApa ja baMdhAyA kare che. avaLuM jovAnI draSTi ja thaI gayelI che. tyAM puruSArtha ke kRpA ? praznakartA : bhUla dekhAya, e to puruSArtha jabaro karavo paDe ? dAdAzrI : puruSArtha nahIM, kRpA joIe. puruSArthathI to ahIM AgaLa ghaNI doDadhAma kare to ya kazuM vaLe nahIM. puruSArthanI to AmAM jarUra ja nathI. eTale ahIM to kapA meLavavAnI ! eTale zuM ke dAdAne rAjI rAkhavAnA ane rAjI kyAre thAya ? emanI AjJAmAM rahe to ! e eTaluM ja jue ke A keTalI AjJAmAM rahe che ? phUlanA hAra lAvyo ke kazuM bIjuM karyuM e jue nahIM, hArano praznakartA : hA. dAdAzrI : tyAre sAruM. bhUla to bahAra thayA ja karavAnI. tane khabara paDaze, te bhAna thatuM jaze. potAnI meLe bhAna thAya bhUlanuM. tyAre huM kahuM ke A jJAnI ! bhUlamAM ja cAlyA kare mANasa. bhUlane ja satya mAnIne cAlyA kare. pachI potAne jarA vedana Ave tyAra pachI vicAre ke sAluM Ama kema thAya

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nijadoSa darzanathI. nirdoSa ! nijadoSa darzanathI... nirdoSa ! to thoDoka lAbha maLe. emAM saMsArI lAbha maLe ne AmAM ya thoDo lAbha maLe ! badhI bhUlo bhAMgavA kAM to yajJa (jJAnInI ane mahAtmAonI sevA karavI evo yajJa) mAMDavo paDaze athavA sva-puruSArtha karavo paDaze. nahIM to Ama tema darzana karI jAva to bhaktinuM phaLa maLe paNa jJAnanuM phaLa nA maLe. ApaNI draDha icchA che ke jJAnInI AjJAmAM rahevuM che to temanI kRpA thakI AjJAmAM rahevAya. AjJA pALe tyAre AjJAnI mastI rahe. jJAnanI mastI kone rahe ke je bIjAne upadeza Apato hoya. A vijJAna to rokaDiyuM che, tarata phaLa ApanAruM che. tame eka kalAka mArI AjJAmAM raho to zuM thAya ? samAdhi thaI jAya ! vItarAgabhAve vinamratA te kaDakAI. praznakartA : satsaMgamAM pelI phAIlono samabhAve nikAlanI vAta nIkaLelI, jo ke vinamratA dAkhavIe ane cIkaNI phAIla vadhAre uchaLatI hoya to tyAM vinamratA dekhADavAnI jarUra nathI. UlaTo e vadhAre avaLo cAle. dAdAzrI : evI kaMI jarUra hotI nathI paNa e javAba kADhatAM nA AvaDe, e levala kADhavuM muzkela che. praznakartA : A kevI rIte levalamAM rAkhavuM ? dAdAzrI : e to dareka mANasa ema ja kahe, sAmAnI ja bhUla kADhe ne ! bhUla potAnI ja che, paNa te emane meM kahyuMne, ke vinamratA nahIM karavAnI. vItarAga bhAve enI joDe rahevAnuM. kaThaNe ya vItarAga bhAva hovo joIe. praznakartA: paNa e rahevuM muzkela ne ? e kaI rIte rahI zakAya ? dAdAzrI : sarasa rIte rahI zake. ApaNo doSa nA hoya to badhuM ya rahevAya. ApaNAM doSa che tyAM kazuM rahevAya nahIM. mULamAM doSa ja ApaNo hoya che. je bIjA upara doSa DhoLavA phare che eno ja doSa hoya che. A to potAnI sephasAIDa khoLe che ! A bIjAM to ApaNuM ja pratibiMba che. koI ApaNane kazuM kahe nahIM. ApaNA ja gunAthI kahe che. dareka TAIme tamAro ja guno hoya che ane te tamAro guno samajAto nathI eTale pArakAMno guno juo cho. ane pArakAMno guno jovo e moTAmAM moTI ajJAnatA che ! ame ATalo vakhata kahe kahe karIe chIe ke AkhuM jagata nirdoSa che ne pachI doSa kADhIe to murkha nA kahevAIe ? tane nathI lAgatuM ke A thiyarI vItarAganI che ? praznakartA : ekkekTa vItarAganI thiyarI ! dAdAzrI : potAnA doSa jonArAM mANasa jItIne gayelAM, mokSe cAlyA gayelA. potAnA doSa vagara kazuM koI kahe ja nahIM ApaNane ! eTale jAgRta raheje. praznakartA: ApanA zabdo tarata ja kriyAkArI thaIne UbhA raheze. dAdAzrI : A zabdo badhA kriyAkArI ja hoya, ApaNe jo mahIM ghUsavA daIe to. ghUsavA nA daIe to zuM thAya ? jJAta' prApti pachInI paristhiti ! sApa, vIMchI, siMha, vAgha, duzamana koI paNa doSita tamane nA dekhAya, emano doSa nathI evuM dekhAya, e draSTi thaI gaI eTale thaI rahyuM. te e draSTi tamane maLI gayelI che. tamane A duniyAmAM koI doSita dekhAya nahIM. praznakartA : e draSTi maLI gayelI che. dAdAzrI : pachI ahIM ja mokSa sukha bhogave. ahIM AgaLa AnaMda ja hoya. koIno doSa dekhAyo tyAM sudhI du:kha rahe. bIjAnA doSa dekhAtA baMdha thayA eTale chUTakAro. praznakartA: koIkavAra gusso thaI jAya vAipha para, e doSa dekhAyo kahevAya ? dAdAzrI : paNa 'tamane' gusso nA thAya ne ?

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nijadoSa darzanathI.... nirdoSa ! nijadoSa darzanathI... nirdoSa ! praznakartA: mane, zuddhAtmAne nA thAya. dAdAzrI : hA, paNa e to tamane tamAro doSa dekhAya. tamane dekhAya ne paNa A doSa ? praznakartA : hA, dekhAya. dAdAzrI : eTale tamAro doSa dekhAya, paNa eno (vAiphano) doSa nA dekhAya ne ? praznakartA : nA. dAdAzrI : basa, te ApaNe to koIno doSa nA dekhAvo joIe. tamAro doSa, caMdubhAIno doSa dekhAya. paNa bIjA koIno doSa nA dekhAvo joIe. praznakartA : e jyAre gusso Avyo tyAre eno (vAiphano) doSa dekhAyo eTale gusso Avyo ne ? dAdAzrI : nA. e to eno doSa dekhAyo, eTale tame kaho cho ke caMdubhAI doSita che, paNa tamane vAipha doSita nA dekhAya. tamane eno doSa dekhAto nathI, caMdubhAIno dekhAya che. eTale tamAro potAno doSa kADho ke, 'bhaI, A to caMdubhAIno ja doSa che. potAno ja doSa che A to !' samaja paDIne ? praznakartA : gusso thaI gayA pachI evuM lAge. dAdAzrI : e thaI gayA pachI paNa caMdubhAI doSita lAge ne tamane ? praznakartA : hA. dAdAzrI : to ja guno kahevAya ne ! e thaI gayA pachI ja guno gaNAya. sAmAno doSa nA dekhAyo, potAno doSa dekhAya eTale ke A caMdubhAIno doSa tamane dekhAya. caMdubhAI gunegAra che evuM tamane lAge. dAdAzrI : caMdubhAIne e (vAipha) gunegAra che evuM lAge. paNa tamane caMdubhAI gunegAra che evuM lAge. caMdubhAIe Amano doSa joyo ane AmanI joDe gusso karyo, mATe caMdubhAI gunegAra che evuM lAge tamane. praznakartA : mArA nokarane be-traNa bUmo pADI UThADyo, eNe javAba Apyo nahIM. e jAgato hato. enA para khUba krodha Avyo to enuM zuM karavuM ? dAdAzrI : krodha Avyo pachI tamane doSa dekhAyo kharo ? praznakartA : doSa to dAdA pahelAM dekhAyo pachI ja krodha Ave ne ? dAdAzrI : hA, eTale krodha Avyo, paNa pachI to lAgyuM ke Ano doSa nathI. eTale tamane tamArI bhUla dekhAI. praznakartA : tarata nA lAgyuM. dAdAzrI : pachI ya e pelAe bhUla nathI karI, mATe A bhUla pote karI pachI lAgyuM. pelAe bhUla karI hota to potAno doSa dekhAta ja nahIM ! praznakartA : AvuM amAre roja bane ! gusso AvI ja jAya. dAdAzrI : to tamAre pratikramaNa karavuM paDe. paNa zenA AdhAre pratikramaNa ? pastAvo karavAnuM kAraNa ? eNe AvuM karyuM zA mATe ? tyAre kahe, eNe je karyuM te tamArA karmanA udaya che. te eNe A bhUgla karI. koI paNa mANasa bhUla kare che te tamArA nimitte ja kare che. mATe tamAro ja karmano udaya che ane eNe bhUla karI. eTale tamAre pastAvo pharI karI levo joIe. tamAre gusse thavAnI jarUra na hatI, ahIM A jagyAe. ema ne ema pastAvo karAya nahIM. guno dekhAto hoya ane sAbita nA thAya tyAM sudhI eno pastAvo zI rIte thAya ? e to sAbita thavo joIe ke bhaI, potAnA ja karmano udaya che. evI samajaNa hovI joIe ene. atyAre koI mane dhola mAre to tarata huM to ene AzIrvAda ApuM. enuM zuM kAraNa ? e dhola mAre che ? A duniyAmAM koI dhola mArI zake nahIM. praznakartA : hA, dAdA. evuM ja thAya.

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nijadoSa darzanathI... nirdoSa ! 81 nijadoSa darzanathI... nirdoSa ! pahelAM to meM InAma kADhyuM hatuM, AjathI trIseka varSa upara InDiyAmAM InAma kADhyuM hatuM ke mane koI paNa mANasa mAraze ene pAMcaso rUpiyA rokaDA ApIza. paNa koI dhola mAranAra nIkaLyo nahIM. koI duHkhI hoya ke 'bhAI, duHkhano mAryo tuM ahIM uchInA khoLavA enA karatAM A laI jAne !' tyAre e kahe, 'nA bA. e uchInA khoLavA sAru paNa tamane dhola mArIne mArI zI dazA thAya A duniyA bilakula kAyadesara cAle che, bhagavAna calAvatA nathI chatAM sTroMga kAyadesara che. bhagavAnanI hAjarIthI cAle che A. eTale koI paNa tamArI joDe doSa kare to te tamAro ja paDagho che. duniyAmAM koIno doSa hoto ja nathI. mane jagata AkhAnAM jIvamAtra nirdoSa ja dekhAya che. A je doSita dekhAya che e ja bhrAMti. ApaNuM vijJAna evuM kahe che ke koI paNa mANasano doSa dekhAya te tamAro doSa che. tamArA doSathI e rIekzana (pratyAghAta) AveluM che. AtmA ya vItarAga che ane prakRti ya vItarAga che. paNa tame jevo doSa kADho eTale enuM rIekzana Ave. tyAre doSa bane e DiscArja rUpe. badhuM nirdoSa ja che. doSita dekhAya che e ja ApaNo doSa che. koI jIvano doSa che ja nahIM. evuM dekhAyuM to jJAna kahevAya, paNa e dekhAya nahIMne? praznakartA : doSita jovo nathI chatAM doSita dekhAya e DiscArja kahevAyane ? dAdAzrI : DiscArja. DiscArja Tu bI hebIcyaeTeDa. potAnI sattA nahIM e hebITyueTeDa kahevAya. praznakartA : doSita dekhAya to e DiscArja kevI rIte kahevAya ? dAdAzrI : doSita jovAno bhAva chUTyo eTale DiscArja kahevAyane ! paNa e eNe pUrepUrI AjJA pALI nathI. e dhIme dhIme AjJA pALato jaze, tema tema cokhkhuM thaI jaze. tyAM sudhI enuM pratikramaNa karavuM paDe. praznakartA : paNa bejhIkalI evuM phITa thaI gayuM che ke nirdoSa ja che. paNa koIkavAra evuM doSita dekhAI jAya che. dAdAzrI : eTale ja e hebITyueTeDa che, kahyuMne. nA karavuM hoya to ya thaI jAya. praznakartA : amArAM lokonI draSTi hajI nirdoSa kema nathI thatI ? dAdAzrI : draSTi nirdoSa ja che. praznakartA : nirdoSa dekhAvuM joIe, ema bhAva che, paNa chatAMya bIjAnA doSa dekhAya che. dAdAzrI : doSa dekhAya che, e jene dekhAya chene, tene ApaNe 'joIe' chIe, basa. bAkI je mAla bharelo hoya tevo ja nIkaLe ne ? praznakartA : paNa enuM pratikramaNa karavuM paDe ne ? dAdAzrI : pratikramaNa karavuM ja paDene ! zA mATe evo mAla bharyo hato ?! zraddhAthI zarU, vartanathI pUrNa.. eTale A ApaNuM jJAna zuddha jJAna che. samajaNe ya zuddha che. jagata AkhuM nirdoSa dekhAvuM joIe. paheluM nirdoSa zraddhAmAM AvyuM. have dhIme dhIme samajaNamAM Avaze, jJAnamAM Avaze. pote zuddhAtmA ja che ne ! gajavuM kApe to ya nirdoSa dekhAvo joIe. je jANyuM e pAchuM ApaNI zraddhAmAM pUrepUruM Ave, tyAra pachI vartanamAM Ave. eTale pUrepUruM zraddhAmAM haju AvyuM nathI. jema jema zraddhAmAM AvatuM jaze ema vartanamAM AvatuM jaze. te badho prayoga dhIme dhIme thAya. evuM ociMtuM nA banI zake kaMI ! paNa jANe tyAra pachI e prayogamAM Avene ?! praznakartA : A jANyuM to ghaNAM vakhatathI che ja ne ? dAdAzrI : nA. paNa e jANyuM nA kahevAya. jANyuM enuM nAma kahevAya

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nijadoSa darzanathI... nirdoSa ! ke pravartanamAM Ave ja. eTale pUrepUruM jANyuM nathI. A to sthULa jANyuM. jANyAnuM phaLa zuM ? tarata ja pravartanamAM Ave. eTale A sthULa jANyuM che, haju to enuM sUkSma, sUkSmatara ne sUkSmatama thaze tyAre pravartanamAM Avaze. na choDavo kadi satsaMga 'A' ! A satsaMgamAM to mAra paDato hoya to ya mAra khaIne paNa A satsaMga choDavo nahIM. marI javuM to ya AvA satsaMgamAM marI javuM, paNa bahAra nA maravuM. kAraNa ke je hetu mATe maryo, te hetu eno joInTa thaI jAya che. ahIM koI mAratuM nathIne ? mAre to jato rahuM ? A jagata kAyadesara goThavAyeluM che. have emAM koInA doSa jue to zuM thAya ? koIno doSa haze kharo ? praznakartA : koIno doSa to nahIM hoya, paNa mane evuM dekhAya che. dAdAzrI : je dekhAya che, e darzana khoTuM hoya. ApaNe eka vastu ahIMthI joIe, e hoya ghoDo ane baLada jevuM dekhAya to ApaNe baLada che evuM bolIe. paNa tyAM jaIne tapAsa karIe to khabara paDe ke ghoDo che, to ApaNe nA samajIe ke ApaNI AMkho vIka (nabaLI) thayelI che ! eTale pharIvAra ke je dekhAya evuM nakkI ja nA mAnIe. 83 praznakartA : ApanA vijhana (draSTi)thI koInAM doSa nathI chatAM mane AvuM kema dekhAya che ? dAdAzrI : tane dekhAya che emAM tuM jJAna goThavato nathIne ! ajJAnane cAlu rahevA dauM chuM. A dAdAnA cazmA pahere to doSa nA dekhAya. paNa pelAM cazmAthI jo jo karyA kare che. nahIM to A jagatamAM koI doSita che ja nahIM ! A mArI UMDAmAM UMDI zodhakhoLa che. vALavI, doSa jovAtI zaktine ! koIno doSa ja jovo nahIM. tyArathI ja DAhyA thaI jAya. doSa koIno kharekhara che nahIM. A to vagara kAmano mejIsTreTa thaI jAya che. potAnA doSa 4 nijadoSa darzanathI... nirdoSa ! pUrA dekhAtA nathI ane bIjAnA jovA taiyAra thayA. doSa jovAnI mANasanAmAM zakti che, e potAnA doSa jovA mATe ja che. bIjAnA doSo jovA mATe nathI. teno durupayoga thavAthI potAnAM doSa jovAnI zakti baMdha thaI gaI. bIjAnA doSa kADhavA mATe nathI A. e enA potAnA doSa nahIM kADhe ne ? ApaNe bIjAnA doSa kADhIe to emane game che ? praznakartA : nathI gamatuM. dAdAzrI : nA gamato vepAra baMdha nA karIe ApaNe ? 'vyavasthita' kartA tyAM bhUla kotI ? jAgRti rAkhavI evo nizcaya hovo joIe. bhUlano savAla nathI. ApaNe ahIM bhUla thatI ja nathI. bhUla to 'jenI' thAya, ene pAchuM potAne samajaNa paDe ke A bhUla thaI, paNa vyavasthita kare che, paNa pote nimitta thayo, mATe enuM AlocanA-pratikramaNa-pratyAkhyAna karavuM joIe ke, 'AvuM nA hovuM joIe.' nahIM to pachI cAle ja nahIM ne ! vastu ja AkhI judI che. kare che vyavasthita. ApaNe tyAM eTale koIno doSa jovAno hoto ja nathI ne ! A satsaMgamAM koInI bhUla jovAnI draSTi choDI dejo. bhUla thatI ja nathI koInI. e badhuM 'vyavasthita' kare che. mATe bhUlanI draSTi ja kADhI nAkhavI. nahIM to ApaNo AtmA bagaDI jAya. praznakartA : bhUlanI draSTi rahe to pagathiyuM UtarI paDe ne ? dAdAzrI : khalAsa thaI jAya mANasa ! badhuM vyavasthita' kare che. A jJAna maLyA pachI badhuM vyavasthitanA AdhIna thAya che. vajralepo bhaviSyati... anya kSetre kRtam pApam dharma kSetre vinazyati, dharma kSetre kRtam pApam vajralepo bhaviSyati.

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85 nijadoSa darzanathI... nirdoSa ! nijadoSa darzanathI.... nirdoSa ! bahAra kaMI doSa thayo hoya to ahIM AgaLa nAza thaI jAya, paNa ahIM AgaLa pApa karyuM te "vajalepo bhaviSyati'. eTale meM kahyuM. "dhoI nAkhajo.' tyAre kahe, 'hA. bhUlyo. have koI dahADo AvuM nahIM thAya." meM kahyuM, koInIya doSa jozo nahIM, ahIM nA jovo, bAra jaIne jovo. bahAra jaIne jozo to ahIM AgaLa e dhovAI jaze paNa ahIM jue to vajalepa thaI jAya. sahejeya koIno doSa nA jovAya. game tevuM UMdhuM karato hoya, to doSa nA jovAya ane jovAI jAya to ApaNe dhoI nAkhavo joIe ane nahIM to e vajalepa thaI jAya. eTale ahIM to dhoI nAkhavuM tarata ja. vicAra avaLo Avyo ke tarata dhoI nAkhavuM. koI UMdhuM kare ke chatuM kare, te ApaNe jovAnI jarUra nathI. A dharmasthAna kahevAya. ghera bhUla karI hoya to ahIM AgaLa satsaMgamAM e bhUla bhUMsAI jAya. paNa dharmasthAnamAM bhUla thaI, to nikAcIta thAya. praznakartA : dAdA pAse beThA hoya to ya nikAcIta thAya ? dAdAzrI : nA thAya. paNa eno je lAbha maLato hoya te nA maLe ne ! eno lAbha maLato hoya te nA thAya. te AvI bhUlo thAya che, eTale cetavIe tamane. bhUla thAya tethI karIne jJAna jatuM rahetuM nathI. cetavavAthI cokhkhuM thAya ne ? dekhe doSa jJAtItAM, tete.. tane amAro doSa dekhAya koI dahADo ? praznakartA : nA. dAdAzrI : koI dahADo ya nahIM ? ane A pahelI vakhata A bicArAne amAro doSa dekhAya che. tethI ame ajANyA mANasane bahu amArA TacamAM rAkhatA nathI. buddhi vApare to doSa ja dekhAya mANasane, paDI jAya. e to narke jAya, samajaNa vagaranA. alyA, jJAnI puruSane, je AkhA lokane tAre, tenAmAM ya doSa khoLI kADhyA ?! paNa A ajANyA mANasa, samajaNa nahIM. tethI ame bahu TacamAM nA rAkhIe. eka-be kalAka rAkhIe. nIrubena ekalAne ja, emane doSa nahIM dekhAyA, keTalAMya varSathI joDe rahe che paNa eka akSareya doSa nahIM dekhAyo ! eka sekanDeya doSa nA dekhAyo te A nIrubena ! te bhAre kahevAya ? tane koIka dahADo dekhAto haze, nahIM ? koI dahADoya nahIM ? praznakartA : dAdA, ApanuM to A vijJAna, e vAtonI to adabhUtatA ja che ! ahIM doSa jovAnuM to kaMI kAraNa ja nathI. saMpUrNa jJAnadazA vartatI hoya jemane !! dAdAzrI : evuM chene ke tamArA jaino hoyane te sArAM, AvaDo chokaro hoya te ya kahe ke dAdAjI kahe e sAcuM, bIjuM nahIM. evuM mAne che badhAMya. ane A bIjo badho kAco mAla. praznakartA : Apa niraMtara ekadama sUkSmatamamAM upayogamAM vartatA hoya, tyAM doSa rahe ja nahIM ne kazuM ? pachI ApanA doSa kema jovAya ? dAdAzrI : evI samajaNa nahIMne, ekya samajaNa nahIM. praznakartA : kevaLajJAna svarUpe vartatA ho pachI bahAranuM game tevuM hoya, zrImad rAjacaMdra to eTale sudhI kIdhuM ke jJAnIne sanepAta thAya, to ya emanA doSa nA jovAya. dAdAzrI : paNa e samajaNa hovI joIe ne ! samajaNa kaMI sahelI vastu che ! praznakartA : UlaTAMnuM A pUchavAmAM, peluM vAtacIta karavAmAM vinaya cUkAya e badhI bhUlo amArI amAre dhovAnI hoya. dAdAzrI : jyAM nahIM jovAnuM tyAM e joI nAkhe, e ajAyabI ja che ne ! bIjI jagyAe doSa juene, to huM e bhAMgI ApuM. ane ahIM doSa jue to koNa bhAMge enuM ? koI bhAMganAruM ja rahyuM nahIMne ! eTale huM cetavI dauM ke alyA, jo ke, ahIM cetato raheje. maha samajaNa nahIM ne bicArAne ! koI

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nijadoSa darzanathI... nirdoSa ! nijadoSa darzanathI... nirdoSa ! jAtanI ya samajaNa nahIMne ! A thoDuM-ghaNuM jJAna ApyuM hoyane, te jAgRti rahe e lokone. cokhkho hoya to. bIjI samajaNa nahIM ke huM zuM karI rahyo chuM ?! buddhi phasave. tenI potAne khabara nA paDe ne ! buddhi badhAMne phasave. nA jovAnuM hoya te ya dekhADe. A bAbatamAM nIrubena joyAM meM. eka dahADo avaLo vicAra nA Ave. amArA hAthe koIkane mAratAM hoIene, to ya vicAra nahIM. enuM kaMI hitanuM kAraNa joyuM haze tethI mAratA haze ! praznakartA : ane evuM ja hoya che. dAdAzrI : have e AmanI buddhi zI rIte pahoMce ? praznakartA: AkhuM kevaLa karuNA ane kalyANa sivAya bIjuM kaMI ahIM che nahIM. dAdAzrI : dhIme dhIme enuM ya rAge paDI jaze. praznakartA : A jJAnamAM to jagatamAM paNa koIne doSita jovAnuM nathI, to jJAnI puruSanA to doSa jovAtA haze ? jagata nirdoSa jovAnuM che. potAnI ja bhUlathI doSa dekhAya che. dAdAzrI : hA, paNa evuM bhAna rahe nahIM ne mANasane ! bhAna rahe to AvuM kare ya nahIMne bicAro ? jokhama kheDe nahIM ne A to ? bahu moTuM jokhama kahevAyane ! tethI to pelA bhAIne kaheluM ke ATha vAgyAthI vaheluM tamAre AvavuM nahIM. ame cA pItAM hoIe ne doDha kapa pItAM hoya ke be kapa pItAM hoIe ! tyAre enI buddhi batADaze ke ATaluM badhuM be kapa pIvAnI zI jarUra ? eka pIdhI hoya to ya zuM khoTuM ? mahIM ThaMDaka rahe che eTaluM ja sAruM che ne ! praznakartA : Apa to kaho chone ke, eka kSaNa paNa amAro mokSano dhyeya ame cUkIe nahIM. dAdAzrI : eka miniTe ya, eka kSaNe ya nA cUkAya. praznakartA H have AkhuM mokSamArgamAM rahevuM ane A vyavahAra pAcho. eka eka vyaktine du:khadAyI nA thAya, eno roga nIkaLe, eTaluM kaDaka bolavuM paDe, e badhuM karavAnuM. dAdAzrI : pachI be bahAravaTiyAnI vAte ya vAMcIe. praznakartA : e paNa karavAnuM ne mokSa cUkavAno nahIM. dAdAzrI : be bahAravaTiyAnI vAte ya vAMcavAnI. e copaDI hAthamAM AvI hoya te pUrI karavAnI. pepara vAMcavAnI phAIlano ya nikAla karavAno ane A kahe che amAre kAma vadhAre che ! le, A kAmavALA AvyA ! ahIM pANI mUkyuM hoya ne to ahIM dhare mane, mAre nA pIvuM hoya to ya ! e jANe ke A thaI gayuM kAma ! mAre nA pIvuM hoya to ya dhare. huM kahyuM ke, "nA, hamaNe nahIM." ene e kAma mAne. ApaNe je karma nA baMdhAya kahIe chIene, te pAMca AjJA pALato hoya, eMsI TakA to. nahIM to badhAM karma baMdhAya ja. AjJA nA pALIe eTale karma baMdhAya ja. mArI pAse Akho dahADo ya besI rahe to kazuM vaLe nahIM. ane mArI pAse cha mahinA bhego nA thayo paNa AjJA pALato hoya tenuM kalyANa thAya. bAkI ahIM to badhAne ThaMDaka lAgene, te badhA besI ja rahene ! kUtaruM ya ahIMthI khase nahIM, baLyuM ! mArIe toya pAchuM ahIM AvIne bese. ame auraMgAbAda gayA hatA. te kUtaruM mArI pAsethI khasatuM na hatuM. saraLate jJAtIkRpA apAra ! mokSamArga hAthamAM AvyA pachI je tamArAthI doDAya evuM AmanAthI praznakartA: jovA jevuM to mahIluM ja che, ke cA pItI vakhate Apa mahIM kevI rIte vItarAgatAmAM raho cho ! dAdAzrI : evI jovAnI zakti kyAMthI lAve ? e to ApaNA jJAnathI

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nijadoSa darzanathI... nirdoSa ! doDAya nahIM. A to badhuM pAchuM pramAdI khAtuM. amAre UMcakavA paDe. eTale A che te bilADInAM baccA jevAM che. bilADIne enAM baccAne jAte UMcakIne pharavuM paDe ne tame vAMdarAnAM baccA jevAM cho. tame pakaDIne rAkho, choDo nahIM, cokkasa ! DijhAIna eTale DijhAIna !! ane Amane to amAre UMcakavA paDe ! kAraNa ke emanI saraLatA joIne ame khuza hoIe. ane khuza hoIe eTale UMcakIne pharIe. saraLatA te badhuM ja khulluM karI nAkhe. badhAM ja kabATa UghADAM karI nAkhe. lyo sAheba, joI lo. kaheze ke, amArI pAse A mAla che. ane asaraLatA eTale eka ja kabATa khulluM kare. bIjuM to, kaheze to UghADIza, nahIM to nahIM ughADIe. ane A to kahetAM pahelAM badhAM ja UghADAM karI nAkhe. saraLatA tame samajyA ?! guNa jotAM guNa pragaTe ! ane sAmAno guNa joyo ke guNa utpanna thaze. basa ! ApaNe gALa bhAMDIe ne koI nA bole, eTale ApaNe jANIe ke AmAM kevA sarasa guNa che ! to ApaNane e guNo utpanna thAya. ane koIno doSa che ja nahIM A duniyAmAM. potAnA doSathI ja che A badhuM ya. tijarma eTale tijadoSa ! A karama, karama gAya che paNa karama zuM che tenuM temane bhAna nathI. potAnAM karma eTale nijadoSa. AtmA nirdoSa che. paNa nijadoSe karIne baMdhAyelo che. jeTalA doSa dekhAtA thAya eTalI mukti anubhavAya. koI koI doSone to lAkha-lAkha paDa hoya eTale lAkha-lAkha vAra joIe tyAre e nIkaLatA jAya. doSo to mana-vacana-kAyAmAM bharelA ja che. ame jAte jJAnamAM joyuM che ke jagata zenAthI baMdhAyuM che. mAtra nijadoSathI baMdhAyuM che. naryo bhUlono bhaMDAra mahIM bharelo che. kSaNe kSaNe doSa dekhAya tyAre kAma thayuM kahevAya. A badho mAla tame bharI lAvyA te pUchyA vagarano ja ne ! zuddhAtmAnuM lakSa beThuM eTale bhUlo dekhAya. chatAM bhUlo nA dekhAya e naryo pramAda kahevAya. 90 nijadoSa darzanathI... nirdoSa ! zuddha upayoga, AtmA taNo... AtmAno zuddha upayoga eTale zuM ? ene vIlo nA mUkAya. pA kalAka jhoka AvI hoya to pataMganI dora aMgUThAne vIMTIne jhoka khAvI. tema AtmAnI bAbatamAM jarAya ajAgRti nA rakhAya. A mana-vacana-kAyAno doSa to kSaNe kSaNe dekhAvo joIe. A duSamakALamAM doSa vagara kAyA ja nA hoya. jeTalA doSa dekhAyA eTalA (jJAnanAM) kiraNa vadhyAM kahevAya. A kALamAM A akrama jJAna to gajabanuM prApta thayuM che. tamAre mAtra jAgRti rAkhIne bharelA mAlane khAlI karavAno che, dho dho karavAno che. anaMta bhUlo che. bhUlone lIdhe UMgha AvI jAya che. nahIM to UMgha zAnI ? UMgha Ave e to verI gaNAya. pramAdacaryA kahevAya ! zubha upayogamAM paNa pramAdane azubha upayoga kahe che. jJAnI puruSa to eka ja kalAka UMdhe. niraMtara jAgRta rahe. khorAka ocho thaI gayo hoya, UMgha ochI thaI gaI hoya tyAre jAgRti vadhe. nahIM to pramAdacaryA rahe. UMdha khUba Ave te pramAda kahevAya. pramAda e to AtmAne gAMsaDI bAMdhyA barAbara. jyAre UMgha ghaTe, khorAka ghaTe tyAre jANavuM ke pramAda ghaTyo. bhUla bhAMge tyAre enA moM para lAITa Ave. suMdara vANI nIkaLe, loko enI pAchaLa phare. bhUla nathI ja evuM jo mAnIne besI rahe to pachI bhUla dekhAya ja kyAMthI ? pachI nirAMte sUI rahe. ApaNA RSimunio UMdhe nahIM. bahu jAgrata rahe. bhUlo, ajavALAtI... sthULa bhUlo to sAmasAmI TakarAmaNa thAya eTale baMdha thaI jAya. paNa sUkSma, sUkSmatara, sUkSmatama eTalI badhI hoya che ke e jema jema nIkaLatI jAya tema tema mANasanI sugaMdha AvatI jAya. A bhUlo to aMdhArAnI bhUlo. te potAne dekhAya nahIM. e to jJAnI puruSa prakAza pheMke eTale dekhAya. enA karatAM ajavALAnI bhUlo sArI. ilekTrisiTIvALI hoya te potAne tarata dekhAya. praznakartA : ilekTrisiTIvALI bhUlo zuM che ? dAdAzrI : e badhI chatI bhUlo akaLAmaNa thaIne jatI rahe. enAthI

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nijadoSa darzanathI... nirdoSa ! nijadoSa darzanathI... nirdoSa ! jAgRta ne jAgRta rahevAya. e sAruM kahevAya. jyAre aMdhArAnI bhUlo to koIne dekhAya ja nahIM. emAM pote ja pramAdI hoya, aparAdhI hoya ane dekhADanAra ya nA maLe. jyAre ilekTrisiTIvALI bhUlo to koI batAvanAre maLI rahe. potAnI bhUlo potAne karaDe tene ame ilekTrisiTIvALI bhUlo kahIe ane aMdhArAnI bhUlo eTale potAnI bhUlo potAne nA karaDe. je bhUla karaDe te to tarata ja dekhAI jAya paNa je nA karaDe te jANa bahAra jatI rahe. aMdhArAnI bhUlo ane aMdhArAnI vAta enA karatAM kaThaNa mANasanI ajavALAnI bhUlo sArI, pachI bhalene jaththAbaMdha hoya. jyAre nA gamatI avasthAo AvI hoya, koI mAre paththara vaDe, tyAre bhUlo dekhAya. sTroMga paramANuvALI bhUlo hoya te tarata ja dekhAya, bahu kaDaka hoya. je bAju pese e bAju garakI jAya. saMsAramAM pese to emAM garakI jAya ane jJAnamAM pese to emAM garakI jAya. bhUlo ja pajave che ! 'huM jANuM chuM' e aMdhArAnI bhUla to bahu bhAre bhUla ane pAchuM 'have kaMI vAMdho nathI' e to mArI ja nAkhe. A to jJAnI puruSa vagara koI bolI ja nA zake ke "mArAmAM ekuMya bhUla nathI rahI." dareka bhUlone joIne bhAMgavAnI che. ApaNe "zuddhAtmA' ane bahAranI bAbatamAM 'huM kazuM jANuM nahIM" ema rAkhavAnuM, ethI vAMdho ja nahIM Ave. paNa 'huM jANuM chuM' evo roga to pesavo ja nA joIe. ApaNe to 'zuddhAtmA'. 'zuddhAtmA'mAM ekeya doSa nA hoya paNa caMdulAlamAM je je doSa dekhAya tema tema teno nikAla karavAno. aMdhArAnI bhUlo ane aMdhArAmAM daTAI rahelI bhUlo nA dekhAya. jema jema jAgRti vadhe tema tema vadhAre vadhAre bhUlo dekhAya. sthaLa bhUlo ya bhAMge to AMkhanuM lAITa pheraphAra thaI jAya ! aMdhArAmAM bharelI bhUlo aMdhArAmAM kyAMthI dekhAya ? bhUlo jema jema nIkaLatI jAya tema tema vANI ya evI nIkaLatI jAya ke koI be ghaDI sAMbhaLato rahe ! dAdA "DaoNkTara' doSotAM ! pragaTe kvaLajJAta, aMtima doSa jatAM ! | 'mArAmAM bhUla ja nathI" evuM to kyAreya nA bolAya, bolAya ja nahIM. 'kevaLa' thayA pachI ja bhUlo nA rahe. bhagavAna mahAvIrane kevaLajJAna uparyuM tyAM sudhI doSo dekhAtA hatA. bhagavAnane kevaLajJAna uparyuM te kALa ane potAnA doSa dekhAtA baMdha thavAno kALa eka ja hato ! te banne ya samakAlIna hatA ! chellA doSanuM dekhAvuM baMdha thavuM ane A bAju kevaLajJAna UbhuM thavuM. evo niyama che. jAgRti to niraMtara rahevI joIe. A to divase ya kothaLAmAM AtmA pUrI rAkhe to kema cAlaze ! doSo jotA jaIne dhovAthI AgaLa vadhAya, pragati thAya, nahIMtara paNa AjJAmAM rahevAthI lAbha to che. tenAthI AtmA jaLavAI rahe. jAgRti mATe satsaMga ane puruSArtha joIe. satsaMgamAM rahevA mATe pahelAM AjJAmAM rahevuM joIe. aMdhAratI bhUlo... are, manamAM bhAMDelI gALa ke aMdhArAmAM karelAM kRtyo bhayaMkara che ! pelo jANe ke "mane koNa jovAnuM che ne koNa Ane jANavAnuM che ?" alyA, A nhoya popAbAInuM rAja ! A to bhayaMkara guno che ! A badhAMne aMdhArAnI bhUlo to ghaNI ja che e jo jANIe to bhUlo dekhAtI thAya ne pachI bhUlo ochI thatI jAya. ame badhAMnA doSa ochA jotAM rahIe ? evI amane navarAze ya nA hoya. e to bahu puzca bhegI thAya tyAre tamArA doSa dekhADIe. A doSothI mahIM bhAre roga Ubho thAya. parya jAge tyAre ame siddhi baLe enuM oNparezana karIne kADhI nAkhIe. A DaoNkTaro kare che te oNparezana karatAM lAkha gaNI mahenata amArA oNparezanamAM hoya !! doSa kADhavAtI kaoNleja ! hasatAM-ramatAM doSa kADhavAnI kaoNleja ja A che ! nahIM to doSa to rAgavaiSa vagara jAya nahIM. hasatAM-ramatAM cAle A kaoNleja e ya ajAyabI ja che ne ! akramanI ajAyabI che ne ! praznakartA : ApanA zabdo evAM nIkaLe ke e doSa nIkaLyA karato hoya

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nijadoSa darzanathI... nirdoSa ! nijadoSa darzanathI.... nirdoSa ! tyAMthI. ahIMthI zabdo evA nIkaLe ke pelo doSa tyAM kharI paDe. dAdAzrI : kharI paDene ? barobara che. have tamane doSa dekhAya che e tamane zI rIte khabara paDe ? tyAre kahe, caMdubhAI gusse thAya te tamane game nahIM. e jANyuM ke A caMdubhAImAM A doSa hato. pakaDAyo doSa. e doSa tame joyAM. caMdubhAInAmAM je doSa hatA e tame joyA. 'dIThAM nahIM nijadoSa to karIe koNa upAya ?" nijadoSa jovAnI draSTi utpanna thaI gaI eTale paramAtmA thavAnI taiyArI thaI, kahe che. ane nijadoSa to koIne ya nA dekhAya. ahaMkAra che tyAM sudhI aNue aNumAM doSa che. bhrAMti jAya tyAre khabara paDe ke ohoho ! caMdubhAI krodha kare che. te ApaNane game nahIM. caMdubhAI Ama kare che, e caMdubhAIno doSa pakaDAyo. pakaDAya ke nA pakaDAya doSa badhAM ? koIkane duHkha thAya evuM bolI gayAM hoya caMdubhAI to caMdubhAIne kahevuM ke pratikramaNa karo, kema Ama karo cho ? praznakartA : zUTa eTa sAITa, tarata ja. dAdAzrI : hA, Akho dahADo nahIM, paNa e to lAge ApaNane ke A doSa A sAmenAne duHkha thAya evuM bolyo che tenuM pratikramaNa karavAnuM ane te kare che ApaNA mahAtmAo. zuddhAtmAne pratikramaNa zuM karavAnuM ? je atikramaNa karato ja nathI, tene pratikramaNa zuM karavAnuM ? A to jeNe karyuM tene kahIe, tame karo. Akho siddhAMta moDhe rAkhavo paDaze A to. ane rahe che paNa, lakhe to bhUlI jAya. Akho siddhAMta moMDhe yAda rahe che ne ? hA... emanAthI uMmarane laIne thoDuM ochuM avAya to ya paNa badhuM moDhe, lakSamAM rahevAnuM badhuM ya. ApaNe to kAma sAthe kAma che ne ? chUTavA sAthe kAma che ne ApaNe ? praznakartA : mane to tamArI eka vAta bahu gamelI tyAM auraMgAbAdamAM bolelA. praznakartA : pakaDAya. paNa dAdA, tamAruM vAkya gayuM hatuM. doSa dITho ne gayo. dekhANuM eTale gayo. dAdAzrI : hA. dAdAzrI : doSa dekhAyo eTale gayo. tyAre tethI zAstrakAroe kahyuM, mahAvIra bhagavAne kahyuM hatuM ke tuM doSane joI le. doSamAM ekAgratA thavAthI eTale joyuM nahIM ane AMdhaLo rahyo, tethI doSa tane vaLagyo. have e doSane tuM jouM to cAlyo jaze. have e dAvo zuM mAMDe che ? e pudgala ApaNane kahe che ke tame to zuddhAtmA thaI gayA, mAruM zuM ? to ApaNe kahIe, have mAre ne tAre zuM levA-devA ? tyAre kahe, "nA, evuM cAle nahIM. e tame bagADavuM hatuM. A te jevuM hatuM evuM karI Apo. nahIM to tame chuTakAro nA thAya. tyAre kahe, zI rIte chUTakAro thAya ? tyAre kahe, je ajJAnatAthI tame joyuM tethI ame baMdhAyA tamArI joDe ane jJAnathI juo to ame chuTI jaIe. eTale jJAne karIne doSa gALyA sivAya e doSa jAya nahIM. ajJAne bAMdhelA jJAna karIne chUTe. eTale ApaNe joyAM. jJAna eTale jovuM. joyuM e chUTyuM. pachI game tevuM hoya. ane chatAMya akrama vijJAna che... kramikamAM badho DahApaNavALo mArga hoya. choDato choDato Avyo hoya ane ahIM to choDato choDato nahIM Avelo. eTale praznakartA: ke mArA pratikramaNa doSa thatAM pahelAM thaI jAya che. doSa pahelAM tamArA pratikramaNa pahoMce che. dAdAzrI : hA, A pratikramaNa zUTa ona sAITa. doSa thatAM pahelAM cAlu ja thaI jAya enI meLe. ApaNane khabare ya nA paDe ke kyAMthI UbhuM thaI gayuM ! kAraNa ke jAgRtinuM phaLa che. AvaraNa tUTya doSa bhaLAya ! bhUlo nahotI dekhAtI. AtmA pragaTa nahoto tethI bhUla nathI dekhAtI. A to have ATalI badhI bhUlo dekhAya che, enuM zuM kAraNa che ? AtmA pragaTa thayo che. praznakartA : zarUAtamAM amane jyAre bhUla nahotI dekhAtI, tyAre zuM

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nijadoSa darzanathI... nirdoSa ! amAre AtmA pragaTa nahoto thayo ? dAdAzrI : thayo'to. paNa te dhIme dhIme A bhUlo dekhAya evuM huM karato hato, AvaraNa toDato hato. 95 jeTalAM doSa utpanna thAya che eTalAM doSa dekhAyA sivAya jAya nahIM, jo dekhAyA sivAya gayo to A akrama vijJAna na hoya. evuM A vijJAna che. vijJAna che A to ! doSo pratikramaNathI dhovAya. koInI athaDAmaNamAM Ave eTale pAchA doSo dekhAvA mAMDe ne athaDAmaNa nA Ave to doSa DhaMkAyelo rahe. pAMcaso-pAMcaso doSo rojanA dekhAvA mAMDe eTale jANajo ke pUrNAhuti pAse AvI rahI che. praznakartA : paNa dAdA, A jJAna lIdhA pachI ApaNI jAgRti evI Ave, ApaNA potAnA doSa dekhAyane, khUba badhA pApo dekhAya ane teno gabharATa thAya. dAdAzrI : teno gabharATa rAkhavAthI zuM phAyado ? dekhanAra, hoLI jonAro mANasa dAjhe kharo ! praznakartA : nA. dAdAzrI : hoLI dAjhe, paNa hoLI jonAro kaMI dAjhe ! e to caMdubhAIne thAya, tyAre khabho thAbaDavo ke bhaI, thAya che bA. karyo che te thAya, kahIe. praznakartA : paNa te garamI lAge ne dUrathI hauM, dAdA ! dAdAzrI : hA, lAge, lAge. praznakartA H eTalAM badhAM pApo karelAM dAdA, kyAre chUTakAro maLe ema thAya ! dAdAzrI : hA, e hisAba vagaranA, pAra vagaranA doSo karelA ! praznakartA : ane e jyAre dekhAya tyAre ema thAya, ke A dAdA nahIM F nijadoSa darzanathI... nirdoSa ! maLyA hota to amAruM zuM thAta ! dAdAzrI : pApa potAnuM dekhAyuM tyArathI ja jANIe ke ApaNI kaI DigrI thaI ! A jagatamAM koI potAnuM pApa joI zake nahIM. koI dahADo doSa joI zake nahIM. doSa jue to bhagavAna thAya. praznakartA : vahunA, koInA doSo nA dekhAya evuM karo. dAdAzrI : nA, doSo to dekhAya baLyA, e dekhAya che tethI to AtmA jJAtA che ne peluM jJeya che. praznakartA : paNa doSo dekhAya nahIM evuM nA thAya ? dAdAzrI : nA, nA dekhAya to to AtmA jato rahe. AtmA che to doSa dekhAya che, paNa doSo nathI, zeya che e. vItarAgonI nirdoSa draSTi ! vItarAgonI kevI draSTi ! zuM draSTie emaNe joyuM ke jagata nirdoSa dekhAyuM !! haiM sAheba !! ApaNe vItarAgone pUchIe ke sAheba, tame to kevI, kaMI AMkhe evuM joyuM te A jagata tamane nirdoSa dekhAyuM ? tyAre e kahe, "e jJAnIne pUchajo. ame tamane javAba ApavA nA ApIe.' DITelamAM vigatavAra jJAnIne pUchajo. meM joyuM e emaNe to joyuM paNa meM ya joyuM e ! praznakartA : eTale dAdA, nirdoSa jANavA, nirdoSa gaNavA nahIM ema ? ane doSita jANavA ema ? dAdAzrI : ApaNA jJAnamAM doSita nahIM, nirdoSa ja jANavA. doSita koI hoto ja nathI. doSita bhrAMta draSTithI che. bhrAMta draSTi be bhAga pADe che. A doSita che ne A nirdoSa che. A pApI che ne A puNyazALI che. ane A draSTie eka ja che ke nirdoSa ja che. ane te tALAM vAsI dIdhelAM. buddhine e bolavAno skopa ja nA rahyo. buddhine Dakho karavAno skopa ja nA rahyo. buddhibena tyAMthI pAchAM pharI jAya ke ApaNuM have cAlatuM nathI. ghera cAlo. e kaMI ochI

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nijadoSa darzanathI... nirdoSa ! nijadoSa darzanathI... nirdoSa ! kuMvArI che ? paiNelI hatI te tene tyAM jAya pachI sAsare jatI rahe bena. doSita draSTine paNa tuM jANa'! praznakartA : eTale dAdA, doSita paNa nahIM gaNavA, nirdoSa paNa nahIM gaNavA, nirdoSa jANavA. dAdAzrI : jANavAnuM badhuMya. doSita jANavA nahIM. doSita jANe te to ApaNI draSTi bagaDI che ane doSita joDe "caMdubhAI e kare che e "ApaNe" joyA karavAnuM. 'caMdubhAIne' "ApaNe" AMtaravAnA nahIM. praznakartA : e zuM kare che e joyA karavAnuM. dAdAzrI : basa, joyA karo. kAraNa ke e doSitanI joDe doSita enI meLe mAthAkUTa kare che paNa A "caMdubhAI ya nirdoSa che ane e ya nirdoSa che. be laDhe che paNa banneya nirdoSa che. praznakartA : eTale caMdubhAI doSita hoya to ya ene doSita gaNavo nahIM. ene doSita tarIke jANavo kharo ? dAdAzrI : jANavo. e to jANavo ja joIe ne ? praznakartA : ane sUkSma draSTithI e nirdoSa ja che. dAdAzrI : sUkSma draSTithI e nirdoSa ja che, paNa caMdubhAInuM tamAre je kaMI karavuM hoya te karavuM. bAkI jagatanA saMbaMdhamAM nirdoSa gaNavAnuM huM kahuM chuM. caMdubhAIne tamAre Takora karavI paDe ke AvuM cAlazo to nahIM cAle. ene zuddha phUDa ApavAno che. azuddha phUDathI A dazA thaI che te zuddha phUDe karIne niveDo lAvavAnI jarUra. praznakartA H e kaMI ADuM avaLuM kare to pratikramaNa karavAnuM kahevuM paDe ? dAdAzrI : hA, e badhuM ja kahevuM paDe. 'tame nAlAyaka cho' kahIe. eme ya kahevAya. caMdubhAI ekalA mATe bIjAne mATe nahIM. kAraNa ke tamArI phAIla naMbara vana, tamArI potAnI, bIjAne mATe nahIM. praznakartA H eTale phAIla naMbara vane doSita hoya to tene doSita gaNavI, ene vaDhavuM. dAdAzrI : badhuM vaDhavuM, priyuDIsa hau rAkhavo enI para ke tuM Avo ja che, huM jANuM chuM. ene vaDhavuM hau kAraNa ke ApaNe eno niveDo lAvavo che have. tathI karavAnuM, mAtra jovAtuM ! praznakartA : paNa A bIjA koI bhAI hoya, phAIla na. dasamI, ene doSita nahIM jovA. e nirdoSa ema ? dAdAzrI : nirdoSa ! are, ApaNI phAIla naMbara Tu hau nirdoSa ! kAraNa ke gunA zA hatA ? ke badhAne doSita joyA ane A caMdubhAIno doSa joyo nathI. e gunAnuM rIekzana AvyuM A. eTale gunegAra pakaDAI gayo. bIjA gunegAra che ja nahIM. praznakartA : peluM UMdhuM joyuM che. dAdAzrI : UMdhuM ja joyuM. have chatuM joyuM. vAta ja samajavAnI che. kazuM karavAnuM nathI. vItarAgonI vAta samajavAnI ja hoya, karavAnuM nA hoya, evAM vItarAga DAhyA hatA ! jo karavAnuM hoya to mANasa thAkI jAya bicAro ! praznakartA : ane kare to pAchuM baMdhana Ave ne ? dAdAzrI : hA. karavuM e ja baMdhana ! kaMI paNa karavuM e baMdhana. mALA pheravI, meM karyuM eTale baMdhana. paNa te badhAne mATe nahIM. bahAranAne mATe huM kahuM ke mALA pheravajo. kAraNa ke emane tyAM e vepAra che emano. beunA vepAra judA che. praznakartA : potAnI prakRti dekhAvA mAMDI che, badhuM dekhAya, mana-buddhicitta-ahaMkAra badhuM dekhAya paNa eno sTaDI kevI rIte karavo ? enI AgaLa jJAna kevI rIte kAma karavuM joIe ? kevI jAgRti rahevI joIe ?

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nijadoSa darzanathI.. nirdoSa ! 1 nijadoSa darzanathI... nirdoSa ! dAdAzrI : prakRti to ApaNane mAlama ja paDI jAya. e ApaNane khabara ja paDI jAya ke A prakRti AvI ja che ane ochI khabara paDI hoya to dahADe dahADe samaja vadhatI jAya ! paNa chevaTe 'phUla' samajamAM Ave. eTale ApaNe phakta karavAnuM zuM che ke A caMdubhAI zuM karI rahyA che te ApaNe joyA karavAnI jarUra che, e ja zuddha upayoga che. praznakartA : potAnI prakRtine jovAnuM hoya, emAM jovAya nahIM ne pAchuM cUkI javAya to emAM kaI vastu kAma karatI hoya che ? dAdAzrI : AvaraNa. e AvaraNa toDavuM paDe e to. praznakartA : e kevI rIte tUTe ? dAdAzrI : ApaNe ahIM vidhiothI tUTatuM jAya dahADe dahADe, tema tema dekhAtuM jAya. A to badhuM AvaraNamaya ja hatuM, kazuM dekhAtuM na hotuM, te dhIme dhIme dekhAvA mAMDyuM. e AvaraNa jovA nA de badhuMya. atyAre badhAya doSa dekhAya nahIM. keTalA dekhAya che ? dasa-paMdara dekhAya che ? praznakartA : ghaNAM dekhAya che. dAdAzrI : so-so ? praznakartA : ceIna cAlyA kare. dAdAzrI : to ya pUrAM nA dekhAya. AvaraNa rahene pAchAM. ghaNA doSa hoya. amAre vidhi karatI vakhate ya amane sUkSmatara ane sUkSmatama doSo thayA kare, je sAmAne nukasAna na kare evo, paNa e doSa amane thAya te khabara paDe. tarata amAre ene sApha karavAM paDe, cAle ja nahIMne ! dekhAya eTalA to sApha karavAM ja paDe. ghauM potAnA ja vINo te praznakartA : bIjAnI prakRti jovAnI je Adata na hoya ene zuM kahevAya ? dAdAzrI : bIjAnI prakRti jovI to doSa kADhavo nahIM. samajavo kharo ke "A doSa che' paNa ApaNe kADhavo nahIM. e emanAM potAnAM doSa jotAM zIkhyA che, eTale ApaNe kADhavAnI jarUra kharI ? praznakartA : nA, e ApaNA doSa kADhe to ApaNe zuM karavAnuM ? dAdAzrI : e ApaNAM kADhe to pharI ApaNe jo enAM kADhavAM jaIe to vadhatuM jAya dahADe dahADe. enA karatAM ApaNe baMdha karIe to ko'ka dahADo vicAra Ave ke "A kaMI thAkatAM nathI. mAre ekalAne ja thakava thakava karyA kare.eTale e thAkIne baMdha thaI jAya. bIjAno doSa kADhavo e TAIma yujhalesa (nakAmo) vAparavA jevuM che. potAnA doSanuM badhuM pAra vagaranuM ThekANuM nA hoya ne bIjAnA doSa jue. alyA bhaI, tuM tArA ghauM vINane ! pArakAM ghauM vINe ne ahIM ghera tArAM vINyAM vagaranAM daLyA karuM chuM ! zuM ? praznakartA : paNa evuM hoya dAdA, ke ApaNA to ghauM vINelAM hoya, paNa ApaNe vINatA hoya ne vyavahAra jenI sAthe hoya, to e ApaNAmAM AvIne pAchAM vINyAM vagaranAM nAkhI jatAM hoya bhegAM ane ApaNe kahIe ke bhaI, AvuM nA karIe. dAdAzrI : vIdhyA vagaranA nAkhe kyAre ke ApaNAM Ama vINyA vagaranAM hoyane, to ja nAkhe. e vINelAM hoya to nA nAkhe. e to kAyadA che badhA. A to Indriyagamya jJAta.... praznakartA : nA, paNa dAdA ApaNe samabhAve nikAla karatA hoIe koI vastuno, ke 'bhaI A vastu sArI nathI.' ke AnI aMdara AmAM kaleza thAya che, ke AnI aMdara, Ane lIdhe kaMI vyavahAra bagaDe che. paNa sAme samabhAve nikAla karavAne badale ema kahe, 'huM to karIza. tArAthI thAya e karI le.' to pachI tyAM kaI rIte vyavahAra karavo ?! dAdAzrI : evuM chene, A badhAM buddhinAM aDapalAM che. jyAM pariNAma ja, je pariNAma phare nahIM, tyAM joyA karavAnuM ke pariNAma zuM thAya che e ! sAmAnI

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102 nijadoSa darzanathI... nirdoSa ! nijadoSa darzanathI.... nirdoSa ! 11 prakRti joyA karavAnI. have A aDapalAM koNa kare che ? praznakartA : pudgala ? dAdAzrI : buddhi. nahIM to pariNAma to badhAM je che ene joyA karavAnAM che ApaNe. jue to ApaNe AtmA thaI gayA ane peluM doSo juo to prakRti thaI jazo. praznakartA: dAdA, loko ema kahe che ke "ame to tamArI prakRtinI bhUla kADhIe chIe ne ame ene joIe chIe ke A tamArI bhUla kADhe che. dAdAzrI : nA, e bhUla kADhanAra joI zake nahIM ane jonAra bhUla kADhe nahIM. A to kAyadA hoya ne ?! praznakartA : eTale tame kaho ke, bhUla kADhIne kaho ke ame joIe chIe ame bhUla kADhIe chIe, dheTa mInsa (teno artha).... dAdAzrI : koI bhUla kADhanAra joI zake nahIM ane jonAra hoya te bhUla kADhI zake nahIM. e peluM jovuM ne A jovAmAM phera che. peluM indriyagamya jonAra ane peluM atIndriya che, te jJAnagamya jonAra che eTale A joyuM kahevAya nahIM. praznakartA : jo koInI paNa bhUla kADhI, dheTa mInsa.. dAdAzrI : koInI paNa bhUla kADhavI e to moTAmAM moTo guno che. kAraNa ke A jagata nirdoSa che. ane A jJAtagamya kahevAya ! praznakartA: paNa dAdA, ApaNe A DiscArja tarIke joIe chIe ke A jo caMdubhAI khoTI bhUla kADhe che koInI, e jue che, e zuM to ? dAdAzrI : e caMdubhAI je jue che bhUla kADhatI vakhate, e jue che buddhigamya che. praznakartA: nA, eTale A caMdubhAI caMdubhAIne jue che e buddhigamya dAdAzrI : hA, e buddhigamya che. ane peluM jJAnagamya kyAre kahevAya ke koInI bhUla kADhe nahIM ane jue tyAre jJAnagamya kahevAya. praznakartA: hA, paNa dAdA, rojIMdA vyavahAramAM koI vakhata kahevuM to paDe ke A vastu sArI nathI. dAdAzrI : paNa 'kahevuM paDe' e kAyado nA hoya, kahevAI jAya, evI nirbaLatA hoya ja. ame hau koIne mArI joDe rahetAM hoyane, tene kahIe ke A zuM karavA bhUla karI pAchI ?" evuM kahIe. paNa kahevAI jAya, zuM kahyuM ? evI saheja nirbaLatA bharAI paDelI hoya badhAne. paNa ema ApaNe samajavuM ke "A bhUla thaI. AvuM na thavuM joIe'. ... eNe pote ema mAnavuM joIe ke A khoTuM che. to bhUlo kADhavAnI Adata e dhIme dhIme DiscArja thatI thatI khalAsa thaI jaze. peluM DiscArja thaI rahyuM che badhuM. potAnI bhUlote pote ja vaDhe ! dareka aDacaNo Ave chene, pahelI sahana karavAnI tAkAta Ave, pachI aDacaNo Ave che. nahIM to mANasa tyAM ne tyAM khalAsa thaI jAya. eTale kAyadA evAM che badhA. praznakartA : dAdA, e 'vyavasthita zakti' kare ? dAdAzrI : enuM nAma ja 'vyavasthita'. eTale evAM saMjoga UbhA thaIne pachI che te, zakti ya utpanna thaze, nahIM to e mANasa zuMnuM zuM thaI jAya ! mATe koI rIte gabharAvAnuM koI kAraNa nathI. ApaNe to dAdA che ne huM chuM, basa, bIjuM kAMI nathI A duniyAmAM. dAdA che ne huM chuM, beu. dAdAnA jevI daraasala khumArI rahevI joIe. koI bApoya uparI nathI evI. uparInA uparI kahyA dAdAne !

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nijadoSa darzanathI... nirdoSa ! 103 104 nijadoSa darzanathI.. nirdoSa ! praznakartA : dAdA, amane to amArI bhUlo haju DarAve ne ? dAdAzrI : hA, DarAve. praznakartA : hA, tamArI sthiti upara pahoMcatA to. dAdAzrI : bhUlo DarAve ne ! te paNa ApaNe samajIene, ke A koNa DarAve che te ? tema ApaNe jANIe. paNa mULa to chIe dAdA ja chIene ApaNe ? emAM phera nathI ne ? ekanAM eka ja chIene ? eTale amArAM bhAgIdAra te eka phero mane kahe che, "be-traNa aDacaNo hamaNe AvI che te badhI bhAre aDacaNo AvI." meM kahyuM, jAva, agAzImAM jaIne bolo ke bhaI, be-traNa aDacaNo AvI che ne dAdA beMka kholI che ApaNe. eTale bIjAM je hoya te AvI jAva, te pemenTa karI dauM, kahIe. zuM kIdhuM ? pahelAM beMka nahotI te mArI upAdhi hatI. have beMka che mArI pAse dAdA beMka, jeTalI hoya e badhA bhegA thaIne Avo, kahIe. te paNa agAzImAM jaIne bolyA ya kharAM mArA zabdo. bUma pADIne bolyA ke, "je hoya e, badhAM AvI jAva. mAre pemenTa karavuM che'. hA, mahIM hAya hAya... jU paDe to ema kaMI dhotIyA kADhI nAkhe cAlatuM haze ? eTale evuM kahevuM ko'ka dahADo. ApaNI agAzI che ja ne ? te 'AvI jAva, pemenTa karI daIe' kahIe. dAdAzrI : ApaNA manamAM na rahe enAM tarapha ne enAM manamAM ApaNA tarapha nA rahe eTale kamplITa nikAla thaI gayo. praznakartA : enA manamAM na rahevuM joIe. dAdAzrI : rahe to ApaNe vAMdho nahIM. ApaNAM manamAM bilakula kliyara thAya to thaI gayo. praznakartA : eTale ApaNane enA mATe vicAra paNa nA Ave evuM ? dAdAzrI : hA. praznakartA : vicAra AvatAM paNa baMdha thaI jAya enAM mATe. dAdAzrI : hA. kyAM sudhI mata cokhkhuM thayuM! ekAda mahAtmAne mATe amane vicAra pheraphAra paDI gayA. mahIM vicAra amAre Ave nahIM, chatAM AvavA mAMDyA e mANasa mATe, eTale meM jANyuM zuM thayuM mahIM vaLI pAchuM A navuM ? zuM kAraNathI A ene mATe A vicAra Ave che ?! sAro mANasa che ne e bagaDI gayo che ke zuM che te ?! ane pachI mahIMthI javAba maLyo ke enAM udaya rAThA che. enAM udaya phevarebala nathI enAM. tethI evuM dekhAya che. eTale pachI ame kUNI lAgaNI rAkhIe pachI. kAraNa ke mANasane udaya phevara hoya ne koIne phevara nA ya paNa hoya. evuM bane ne ? praznakartA : bane. tyAre saMpUrNa thayo nikAla ! tame DhIlA thAva to vastu badhI vadhAre coMTI paDe. ane badhI phAIlono nikAla thaI gayo eTale paramAtmA ja cho. tamAre phAIla kharI ke ? praznakartA : hA, hA. dAdAzrI : ema ? tyAre sAruM. phAIlo che tyAre ja bhAMjagaDa ne ! praznakartA H phAIlano nikAla kamplITa thaI gayo e kyAre kahevAya ? phAIla pUrepUrI ukalI gaI, eno nikAla thaI gayo, evuM kyAre khabara paDe ? kyAre kahevAya ? dAdAzrI : te to jagatamAM hoya ja. paNa A to amane Taca thatuM hoya evI vAta Ave, to ame eka bAju kuNI lAgaNI karI nAkhIe. praznakartA: eTale evI rItanAM kUNI ? e kevI rItanAM karI nAkho kUNI lAgaNI ? dAdAzrI : eTale jevAM dekhAya evuM ame mAnIe nahIM pachI. e to

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nijadoSa darzanathI.... nirdoSa ! 15 106 nijadoSa darzanathI... nirdoSa ! sArAM ja che. praznakartA : eTale pachI vyavahAramAM tame pachI zuM karo ? dAdAzrI : nirdoSa che ne ! meM to vyavahAra nirdoSa ja joyelo che. doSita kema dekhAya che ? mATe dhera Ara kaoNjhIjha (tyAM kaMI kAraNa che) nirdoSa ja joyeluM che badhuM. buddhithI doSita che jagata ane jJAnathI jagata nirdoSa che. tane hasabaMDa nirdoSa nathI dekhAtA ? praznakartA : dekhAya chene ! dAdAzrI : tyAra pachI have, pachI bhUla kADhIe eno zo artha che ? A bhUla to phakta A pUtaLuM pelA pUtaLAnI bhUlo kADhatuM hoya te ApaNe joyA karavAnuM. te A prakRti nihALavAnI. tyAM sudhI uparI mahIMvALA bhagavAna ! AmAM bIjA koInuM che ja nahIM, tyAM ApaNI ja bhUlonuM phaLa ApaNe bhogavavAnuM. mAlakI ApaNI, uparIya koI nahIM, mahIM beThA che te bhagavAna ja ApaNA uparI. e zuddhAtmA e bhagavAna. phAIla vagaranA zuddhAtmA e bhagavAna kahevAya ne phAIlavALA e zuddhAtmA, zuddhAtmA kahevAya. juone, tamane phAIlo chene, nirAMte samajI gayAMne tarata ke phAIlavALA zuddhAtmA e zuddhAtmA kahevAya. praznakartA: tamArI sthiti pAmavI che, dAdA. badhI phAIlo hoya to ya aDe nahIM. dAdAzrI : eTale have phAIla sudhI AvyA che. have phAIlano ukela lAvI nAkhavAno basa, eTale patI gayuM. badhuM kAma patI jAya che. nathI himAlayamAM tapa karavA paDyAM ke nathI upavAsa karavA paDyA. himAlayamAM to tapa anaMta avatAra sudhI kare toya kazuM vaLe nahIM. UMdhe raste saheja ja UMdho rasto hoya, paNa te raste gayA to mULa jagyA nA Ave. karoDa varSa pharyA karIe to ya nA Ave ! bhinnatA e botA jANapaNAmAM ! praznakartA : prakRtinAM guNa-doSa je jue che te jonAro koNa che ? dAdAzrI : e ja prakRti che. praznakartA : prakRtino kayo bhAga jue che ? dAdAzrI : e buddhino bhAga, ahaMkArano bhAga. praznakartA : to pachI AmAM mULa AtmAnuM zuM kAma che ? dAdAzrI : mULa AtmAne zuM ?! ene levA-devA ja nahIM ne ! praznakartA : mULa AtmAnuM jovA-jANavApaNuM kaI rItanA hoya ? dAdAzrI : e nirlepa hoya che ane A to lepIta che. praznakartA : eTale sAruM-khoTuM jue che e lekhItabhAga che. dAdAzrI : hA, e badho lepItabhAga ! praznakartA: A buddhie prakRtinuM sAruM-khoTuM joyuM, e je jue che, jANe che e pote che ? dAdAzrI : prakRtino doSa jue to e prakRti thaI gaI. AtmA nathI tyAM AgaLa. AtmA Avo nathI. ene koIno doSa nA dekhAya. praznakartA: eka-bIjAnA doSanI vAta nathI karatA, pote potAnAM doSanI vAta kare che. dAdAzrI : te vakhate prakRti ja hoya. paNa e UMcI prakRti, AtmAne prApta karAvanArI che. praznakartA : ane prakRtine nirdoSa jue che, e koNa jue che ? dAdAzrI : e prakRtine nirdoSa jue che e ja paramAtmA che, e ja

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nijadoSa darzanathI... nirdoSa ! 107 108 nidoSa darzanathI nirdoSa ! zuddhAtmA che. bIjA kazAmAM hAtha ja nathI ghAlato ne ! praznakartA H nirdoSa jovAmAM ene kevo AnaMda maLe che ? dAdAzrI : e AnaMda, e muktAnaMda kahevAya ne ! praznakartA : eTale pariNAmane vize kaMI bolato ja nathI. dAdAzrI : pariNAmane, prakRtinA pariNAmane joto ja nathI. be prakAranAM pariNAmIka jJAna. eka che te prakRtinuM pariNAmIka jJAna ane eka AtmAnuM pariNAmIka jJAna. praznakartA : paNa e jema che tema jovAmAM kayo svAda cAkhI rahyo che? dAdAzrI : e to eNe AnaMda cAkhI lIdhelo hoyane, paNa e zuM kahe che, mAre AnaMdanI kaMI paDelI nathI, mane to A jema che ema jovAmAM paDelI che. eTale ame zuM kahyuM ke "jema che tema' juone ! e chellAmAM chellI vAta che ! ethI aMtarAya.. praznakartA : saMpUrNa AnaMda kyAre varte ? badhA doSo gayA pachI ja ne ? dAdAzrI : AnaMda to varte ja che. paNa doSo che te aMtarAya kare che. eTale ene lAbha nathI levA detA. AnaMda to atyAre ya che, paNa goThavaNI karatA nathI ApaNe. saMpUrNa doSarahita dazA dAdAnI ! potAnA doSa jovAmAM suprIma korTavALoya pahoMce nahIM, tyAM to pahoMce ja nahIM jajamenTa. tyAM to potAno ATalo doSa joI zake nahIM. A to gADAMnA gADAM doSa jyAM kare che. A to zULa, jADuM khAtuM, eTale doSo dekhAtA nathI. ane ATalo saheja amatho vALa jeTalo doSa thAyane, tarata khabara paDI jAya ke A doSa thayo. eTale e kevI korTa haze aMdara? e jajamenTa kevuM ? chatAMya koI joDe matabheda nahIM. gunegAra joDe ya matabheda nahIM. dekhAya kharo gunegAra, chatAM matabheda nahIM. kAraNa ke kharI rIte e gunegAra che ja nahIM. e to phorenamAM gunegAra che ne ApaNe to 'homa' sAthe bhAMjagaDa che. eTale ApaNe matabheda hoya nahIM ne ! dAdAne sthULa-sUkSma be doSo gayelA hoya. bIjAM je sUkSmatara ane sUkSmatama e doSo rahyA che, e jagatane bilakula nukasAnakAraka ke naphAkAraka hoya nahIM. jagatane sparze nahIM, evAM doSa hoya. sthaLa doSo eTale tame mArI joDe cAreka mahinA rahone, toya tamane ekuMya doSa nA dekhAya, covIsa kalAka raho to ya. A nIrubena che, te niraMtara sevAmAM rahe che, paNa eka doSa emane jovAmAM Avyo nA hoya. emane niraMtara sAthe ja rahevAnuM. jo jJAnI puruSamAM doSa che to jagata nirdoSa kema karIne thAya ? jAgRti bhUlo sAme, jJAtI taNI ! amArI jAgRti 'Topa' paranI hoya. tamane khabare ya nA paDe, paNa tamArI joDe bolatAM jyAM amArI bhUla thAya tyAM amane tarata khabara paDI jAya ne tarata tene dhoI nAkhIe. enA mATe yaMtra mUkeluM hoya che, jenAthI tarata ja dhovAI jAya. ame pote nirdoSa thayA chIe ne AkhA jagatane nirdoSa ja joIe chIe. chellA prakAranI jAgRti kaI ke jagatamAM koI doSita ja nA dekhAya che. amAre jJAna pachI hajAro doSo rojanA dekhAvA lAgelA. jema doSa dekhAtA jAya tema tema doSa ghaTatAM jAya ne jema doSo ghaTe tema 'jAgRti' vadhatI jAya. have amAre phakta sUkSmatara ne sUkSmatama doSo rahyA che, jene ame 'joIe' chIe ane 'jANIe'. e doSa koIne harakatakartA nA hoya paNa kALane laIne e aTakyA che ane tenAthI ja 360 DigrInuM "kevaLajJAna" aTakyuM che ane 356 DigrIe AvIne UbhuM rahI gayuM che ! paNa ame tamane pUruM 360 DigrInuM 'kevaLajJAna' kalAkamAM ja ApIe chIe paNa tamane ya pacaze nahIM. are, amane ja nA pacyuM ne ! kALane laIne 4 DigrI UNuM rahyuM ! mahIM pUrepUruM 360 DigrI

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nijadoSa darzanathI... nirdoSa ! 109 riyala che ane rileTivamAM 356 DigrI che. A kALamAM rileTiva pUrNatAe jaI zakAya tema nathI. paNa amane teno vAMdho nathI. kAraNa ke mahIM apAra sukha varyA kare che ! tethI 'amAro' ta uparI koI ? jene jeTalI bhUlo nA dekhAya tene teTalI te bhUlo uparI. jenI badhI ja bhUlo khalAsa thAya teno koI uparI ja nahIM. mAro koI uparI che ja nahIM tethI huM badhAno uparI, uparIno ya uparI ! kAraNa ke amArAmAM sthaLa doSo to hoya ja nahIM. sUkSma doSo paNa cAlyA gayelA. sUkSmatara ane sUkSmatama hoya, tenA ame saMpUrNa jJAtA-draSTA hoIe. bhagavAna mahAvIra paNa A ja karatA hatA. mATe "jJAtI' dehadhArI paramAtmA ! 110 nijadoSa darzanathI. nirdoSa ! bhUlo bahAranI pablika paNa joI zake ane sUkSma bhUlo buddhijIvIo joI zake. A be bhUlo 'jJAnI puruSa' pAse nA hoya ! pachI sUkSmatara doSo te jJAnIone ja dekhAya. ane ame sUkSmatamamAM beThA chIe. mArI je sUkSmatara ne sukSmatama bhula hoya, je kevaLajJAnane rokatI hoya, kevaLajJAnane AMtare evI bhUla hoya, te bhUla "bhagavAna" "mane' dekhADe. tyAre 'huM jANuMne, ke "mAro uparI che A." evI nA khabara paDe ? ApaNI bhUla dekhADe e bhagavAna uparI kharo ke nahIM ? praznakartA : hA, barAbara che. dAdAzrI : tethI ame kahIe chIe ke, A bhUla je amane dekhADe che e cauda lokano nAtha che. e cauda lokanA nAthanAM darzana karo. bhUla dekhADanAra koNa che ? cauda lokano nAtha ! ane e dAdA bhagavAna to meM joyelA che, saMpUrNa dazAmAM che aMdara. enI gerenTI ApuM chuM. huM ja emane bhajuM chuM ne ! ane tamane ya kahuM chuM ke 'bhaI, tame darzana karI jAva." dAdA bhagavAna 360 DigrI ne mAre 356 DigrI che. eTale ame be judAM chIe, e puravAra thaI gayuM ke nahIM ? praznakartA : hAsto ne ! dAdAzrI : ame be judA chIe. mahIM pragaTa thayelA che e dAdA bhagavAna che. e saMpUrNa pragaTa thaI gayA che, jhaLahaLa jyoti svarUpa ! a a a jJAnI puruSamAM dekhAya evI sthaLa bhUlo nA hoya. A doSanI tamane vyAkhyA ApuM. sthULa bhUla eTale zuM ? mArI kaMIka bhUla thAya to je jAgrata mANasa hoya te samajI jAya ke AmaNe kaMIka bhUla khAdhI. sUkSma bhUla eTale ke ahIM pacIsa hajAra mANaso beThA hoya to huM samajI jAuM ke doSa thayo. paNa pelA pacIsa hajAramAMthI mAMDa pAMceka ja sUkSma bhUlane samajI zake. sUkSma doSa to buddhithI paNa dekhAya, jyAre sUkSmatara ane sUkSmatama bhUlo e jJAne karIne ja dekhAya. sUkSmatara ane sUkSmatama doSo manuSyone nA dekhAya. devone avadhijJAnathI jue to ja dekhAya. chatAM e doSo koIne nukasAna karatAM nathI, evA sUkSmatara ane sUkSmatama doSo amAre rahelA che ane te ya A kaLikALanI vicitratAne lIdhe ! 'jJAnI puruSa" pote dehadhArIrUpe paramAtmA ja kahevAya. jene eka paNa cULa bhUla nathI ke eka paNa sUkSma bhUla nathI. mahIMthI bhagavAna dekhADe doSo... jagata be jAtanI bhUla joI zake, eka sthaLa ane eka sUkSma sthaLa

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jagata nirdoSa ! bhagavAne bhALyuM jaga tirdoSa ! praznakartA : bhagavAna mahAvIre AkhA jagatane nirdoSa joyuM. dAdAzrI : bhagavAne nirdoSa joyuM ane potAnI nirdoSa draSTithI nirdoSa joyuM. emane koI doSita na lAgyo. evuM meM paNa nirdoSa joyuM che ane mane paNa koI doSita dekhAto nathI. phUlahAra caDhAve to ya koI doSita nathI ne gALo bhAMDe to ya koI doSita nathI. A to mAyAvI draSTine laIne badhA doSita dekhAya che. AmAM khAlI draSTino ja doSa che. praznakartA : nirdoSatA kevI rIte prApta thAya ? dAdAzrI : AkhA jagatane nirdoSa jozo tyAre ! meM AkhA jagatane nirdoSa joyuM che, tyAre huM nirdoSa thayo chuM. hita karanArane ane ahita karanArane ya ame nirdoSa joIe. koI doSita nathI. doSa eNe karyo hoya, to ya kharI rIte enA AgalA avatAre karyo hoya. paNa pachI to enI icchA nA hoya chatAM atyAre thaI jAya. atyAre enI icchA vagara thaI jAya che ne ? bharelo mAla che. eTale emAM eno doSa nahIMne, eTale nirdoSa gaNyo. 112 nijadoSa darzanathI... nirdoSa ! I draSTie jaga dIse nirdoSa ! pudgalane jozo nahIM, pudgala tarapha draSTi nA karazo. AtmA tarapha ja draSTi karajo. kAnamAM khIlA mAranArA te paNa bhagavAna mahAvIrane nirdoSa dekhAyA. doSita dekhAya che te ja ApaNI bhUla che. e eka jAtano ApaNo ahaMkAra che. A to ApaNe vagara pagAranA kAjI thaIe chIe ane pachI mAra khAIe chIe. mokSe jatAM A loko ApaNane gUMcave che, evuM je bolIe chIe te to vyavahArathI ApaNe bolIe chIe. A Indriya jJAnathI je dekhAya che evuM bolIe chIe. paNa kharekhara hakIkatamAM to loko gUMcavI zake ja nahIMne ! kAraNa ke koI jIva koI jIvamAM kiMcitmAtra DakhoDakhala karI zake ja nahIM evuM A jagata che. A loko to bicArA prakRti je nAca karAve te pramANe nAce, eTale emAM koIno doSa che ja nahIM. jagata AkhuMya nirdoSa che. mane potAne nirdoSa anubhavamAM Ave che. tamane e nirdoSa anubhavamAM Avaze tyAre tame A jagatathI chUTyA. nahIM to koI eka paNa jIva doSita lAgaze tyAM sudhI tame chUTayA nathI. praznakartA H AmAM badhAMya jIva AvI jAya ? mANaso ya nahIM paNa kIDI maMkoDA badhA ya AvI jAya ? dAdAzrI : hA. jIvamAtra nirdoSa svabhAve dekhAvA joIe. praznakartA : dAdA, tame jIvamAtra nirdoSa che ema kahyuM. have nokarImAM meM kyAMka bhUla karI ane mAro uparI amaladAra ema kahe ke teM A bhUla karI. pachI e mane vaDhaze, Thapako Apaze. have jo huM nirdoSa houM to kharI rIte mane na vaDhavuM joIe ne ? dAdAzrI : koIne vaDhavAnuM ApaNe jovAnuM nahIM. ApaNane vaDhanAra paNa nirdoSa che evuM tamArI samajamAM hovuM joIe. eTale koInI para doSa nA DhoLAya. jeTalA nirdoSa tamane dekhAze eTalA tame samajamAM AvyA kahevAo. mane jagata nirdoSa dekhAya che. tamAre evI draSTi Avaze. eTale A

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114 nijadoSa darzanathI. nirdoSa ! nijadoSa darzanathI. nirdoSa ! 113 pajhala solva thaI jaze. huM tamane evuM ajavALuM ApIza. ane eTalA pApa dhoI nAkhIza ke jethI tamAruM ajavALuM rahe. ane tamane nirdoSa dekhAtuM jAya. ane joDe pAMca AjJAmAM rahezo to e je ApeluM jJAna che tene saheje ya phrekTara nahIM thavA de. tattva draSTie jagata tirdoSa ! ame jagata AkhAne nirdoSa joIe chIe. praznakartA : evuM AkhA jagatane nirdoSa kyAre jovAya ? dAdAzrI : tamane dAkhalo ApI samajAvuM. tame samajI jazo. eka gAmamAM eka sonI rahe che. pAMca hajAra lokonuM e gAma che. tamArI pAse sonuM che te badhuM sonuM laIne tyAM vecavA gayAM. eTale pelo sonI sonuM Ama ghase, jue. have ApaNuM sonuM Ama cAMdI jevuM dekhAtuM hoya, chAsiyuM sonuM hoya to ya pelo vaDhe nahIM. e kema vaDhato nathI ke AvuM kema bagADIne lAvyA ? kAraNa ke enI sonAmAM ja draSTi che, ane bIjA pAse jAva to e vaDhe ke AvuM kema lAvyA cho ? eTale je coksI che e vaDhe nahIM. eTale tame jo sonuM ja mAMgo cho. to AmAM sonuM ja juone ! emAM bIjAne zuM kAma juo cho ? ATaluM chAsiyuM sonuM kema lAvyo ? evI vaDhavaDhA kare, eno kyAre pAra Ave ? ApaNe ApaNI meLe joI levAnuM ke AmAM keTaluM sonuM che ane enA ATalA rUpiyA maLaze. tamane samajAyuMne ? e draSTie huM AkhA jagatane nirdoSa jouM chuM. sonI A draSTie game tevuM sonuM hoya toya sonuM ja juene ? bIjuM jovAnuM ja nahIMne? ane vaDheya nahIM. ApaNe ene batAvavA gayA hoIe to ApaNAM manamAM thAya ke 'e vaDhaze to ?" ApaNuM sonuM to badhuM kharAba thaI gayuM che ! paNa nA, e to vaDhe-kare nahIM. e zuM kaheze, "mArI bIjI zI levA-devA ?" te akkalahINA che ke akkalavALA che ? praznakartA : barobara che. Avo dAkhalo Apo to phITa jaldI thaI jAya. dAdAzrI : have A dAkhalo koI jANatuM nathI kaMI ? praznakartA: jANatA haze. dAdAzrI : nA, zI rIte khyAlamAM Ave ? Akho dahADo dhyAna lakSmIjImAM ne lakSmIjIno viSaya patyo ke pAchA ghera bAIsAheba sAMbhara sAMbhara thAya ane bAIsAhebano viSaya patyo ke pAchA lakSmIjInA viSaya sAMbhare ! eTale bIjuM kazuM khyAlamAM ja nA rahene ! pachI bIjAM saravaiyA kADhavAnA ja rahI jAyane ? ame coksIne joyelA, te mane ema thAya ke A vaDhato kema nathI ke tame sonuM kema bagADI lAvyA ? enI draSTi kevI suMdara che ! kazuM vaDhato ya nathI. AnuM sAruM che teya bolato nathI. paNa ema kaheze, 'beso, cA-pANI pIzone ?" alyA, chAsiyuM sonuM che to ya cA pIvaDAve che ? evuM AmAMya. zuM mahIM 'cokhkha' sonuM ja chene ? tAttvika draSTie joIe to doSa koIno ya nathI. jagata nirdoSa, purAvA sahita ! ApaNe jagata AkhuM nirdoSa joIe chIe. ApaNe jagata nirdoSa mAneluM che. e mAneluM kaMI ochuM pheraphAra thaI javAnuM che ? ghaDImAM pheraphAra thaI jAya ? ApaNe nirdoSa mAneluM che, jANeluM che, e kaMI ochuM doSita lAgavAnuM ! kAraNa ke jagatamAM koI doSita che ja nahIM. huM ejhekTalI (jema che tema) kahI dauM chuM. buddhithI prupha (purAvA) ApavA taiyAra chuM. A buddhizALI jagatane, A je buddhino phelAvo thayelo che, emane mupha joItuM hoya to huM ApavA mAguM chuM. zIlavAtatA be guNa ! atyAre haMDreDa parasenTa (so TakA) zIlavAna hoya nahIM. e zIlavAna A praznakartA : akkalavALA ja kahevAya ne ? dAdAzrI : A similI barobara nathI ?

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nijadoSa darzanathI... nirdoSa ! 115 116 nijadoSa darzanathI. nirdoSa ! chellA paccIsaso varSamAM nathI. chellA pacIsaso varSonAM je karmo che, emAM A zIlavAna thaI zake ja nahIM mANasa. zIla Ave kharuM paNa pUrNatA nA Ave. praznakartA : paNa zIlanI dizAmAM to javAya ? nathI, vAdhe ya doSita nathI.' eTale A javAba uparathI AkhI rakama khoLI kADhavAnI che. A javAba zo ke A jagata AkhuM nirdoSa svarUpa che. jIvamAtra nirdoSa che. doSita dekhAya che te potAnI pelI ajJAnatAthI. bolo, have keTalI bhUlamAM hazo tame ? praznakartA : ghaNI bhUlamAM. dAdAzrI : jyAre jagata nirdoSa dekhAze, tamAruM gajavuM kApato hoya e ja mANasa tamane nirdoSa dekhAya tyAre jANavuM ke karekTanesa (yathArthatA) para AvyuM. dAdAzrI : hA, javAya. praznakartA : to e javA mATe zuM karavuM ? mAro eka moTAmAM moTo mUMjhavato prazna che. ene mATe zuM karavuM ? e khabara nathI paDatI. dAdAzrI : TUMkA vAkyathI kAma levuM ke koI duzmananA tarapha bhAva paNa na bagaDe ane bagaDyo hoya to pratikramaNathI sudhArI lo. bagaDI javo e vastu nabaLAIne laIne bagaDI jAya. to pratikramaNathI sudhArI lo ene ! ema karatAM karatAM e vastu siddha thaze. ane bIjuM A jagatamAM koI doSita che ja nahIM. kharekhara dareka jIva nirdoSa ja che, jagatamAM. doSita dekhAya che, te ja bhrAMti che. koI doSita nathI. e 'nA' lakSamAM rahevuM joIe. praznakartA: paNa e buddhithI samajavuM bahu agharuM che. dAdAzrI : buddhi samajavA de ja nahIM A. koI doSita nathI e buddhi samajavA de ja nahIM. praznakartA: to ene mATe zuM karavuM ? dAdAzrI : A vAkya to tamArA anubhavamAM Ave to anubhava ja tamane kahI Apaze. paheluM A vAkya zarUAta karo. to pachI eno anubhava tamane kahI Apaze. eTale pachI buddhi TADhI paDI jaze. A che jJAnanI pArAzIzI ! eka rakama Apa dhArazo ? skulamAM bhaNatI vakhate erithameTIkamAM (aMkagaNita) zIkhavADe che ne mAstaro, ke kaMI nA phAve to sapojha (dhAro ke) 1OO evuM kahe che ne ? nathI kahetA, 100 dhAro to javAba Avaze. tyAre vaLI ApaNA manamAM ema thAya che ke mAstare 1O upara kaMI jAdu karyo lAge che. to ApaNe kahIe ke nA huM to savAso dhAruM. tyAre kahe, tAre dhAravA hoya to dhArane ! evI dhAraNAthI javAba Ave evo che. evI eka rakama huM dhAravAnI kahuM tamane ? A jagatamAM koI doSita ja nathI. jagata AkhuM ya nirdoSa che. tamane doSa dekhAya che ? praznakartA : joIe to dekhAya. dAdAzrI : kharekhara doSa che nahIM. chatAM doSa dekhAya che, e ja ApaNI aNasamajaNa che. lokonA kiMcitmAtra doSa dekhAya che e ApaNI aNasamajaNa che. A rakama dhAre ane e rakama dhArIne javAba lAve to javAba AvI jAya evo che. koI doSita che ja nahIM jagatamAM. tamArA doSathI ja tamane baMdhana che. bIjA koInA doSa che ja nahIM. koI tamAruM nukasAna kare, koI gALo A jagatanA saravaiyA rUpe tame pUcho ke A jagatanuM saravaiyuM zuM che? tyAre kahe, "koI paNa mANasa doSita che ja nahIM jagatamAM. manuSyo ya doSita

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nijadoSa darzanathI nirdoSa ! 117 118 nijadoSa darzanathI... nirdoSa ! dekhAya che. bhagavAne A ja zodhakhoLa karI ane tame je sAro kaho cho, te ke tamArI mUrkhAI mahIM che, phUlIzanesa che. sAro sAro kahe pachI ApaNe pUchIe tyAre kaheze, "mane vizvAsaghAta karyo." tyAre tuM sAruM-sAruM kaheto hato zuM karavA te ?! sAro kahe ne dasa varSa pachI kahe ke mane vizvAsaghAta karyo evuM bane ke nA bane ? praznakartA : bane che ja ne ! bhAMDe, InsalTa (apamAna) kare to eno doSa nathI, doSa tamAro ja che. draSTi pramANe sRSTi ! praznakartA H kyAreka evuM paNa bane che ke ekanI eka vyakti Aje ApaNane sArI lAge. bIje divase tiraskArayukta lAge. trIje divase e vyakti ApaNane madadakartA paNa lAge. to evuM zAthI thAya ? dAdAzrI : e vyaktimAM pheraphAra dekhAya che te ApaNo roga che. vyaktimAM pheraphAra hoto ja nathI. mATe pheraphAra dekhAya che te ApaNo ja roga che. ane adhyAtma e ja kahe che ne ! adhyAtma zuM kahe che ? tane jotAM ja AvaDatuM nathI. amatho, vagara kAmano vahuno dhaNI zAno thaI beTho chuM ? eTale ApaNane jotAM nahIM AvaDavAthI AvuM badhuM thAya che. bAkI A phekTa vastu nathI. potAnA mATe sAmI vyakti zuM dhAratI haze, e zuM khabara paDe ? tamArA tarapha koI mANasa abhAva batAve to tamane enA tarapha kevuM lAge ? praznakartA : abhAva batAve to sAruM na lAge. dAdAzrI : tyAre evuM tame bIjAne abhAva batADo to zuM thAya ? praznakartA : e eka koyaDo che ke AmanAmAM mane sAro bhAva dekhAya ne A bIjAnAmAM mane kharAba bhAva dekhAya. dAdAzrI : nA, e koyaDo nathI. ame samajIe ke zuM che A, eTale amane koyaDo nA lAge. eka bhaI mane roja pUche ke mane A mANasamAM avaLA bhAva kema dekhAya che ? meM kahyuM, 'e mANasano doSa nathI, tamAro doSa che." praznakartA : paNa ApaNe jo kharAba hoIe to badhAMya kharAba dekhAvA joIe. dAdAzrI : ApaNe ja kharAba chIe tethI ja A kharAba dekhAya che. A kharAba koI che ja nahIM. je kharAba dekhAya che te tamArI kharAbIne lIdhe kharAba dAdAzrI : ane evuM je khoTuM dekhAya che te sAruM che, evuM ya nA mAnazo. jaga nirdoSa, anubhavamAM.. praznakartA : sAmo nirdoSa dekhAya e jAgRti satata rahevI joIene ? dAdAzrI : nirdoSa dekhAtAM tamane bahu vAra lAgaze. paNa tamAre dAdAe kahyuM che, tethI tamane nirdoSa dekhAya vakhate, to te kahevA mAtrathI. paNa tamane ejhekTa (yathArtha) nA dekhAya. praznakartA : evo anubhava nA thAya amane ? dAdAzrI : anubhava nA Ave atyAre tamane. praznakartA H ame manamAM mAnI laIe ke hA, e nirdoSa ja che to ? dAdAzrI : A jJAna thayuM paNa e anubhava jyAre tyAre thaze, paNa atyAre to Ama pahelAM nakkI karI nAkhyuM eTale ApaNane bhAMjagaDa nahIMne ! nirdoSa che evuM kahIe, eTale ApaNuM mana bagaDe nahIM pachI. koIkane doSita Theravo ke tamAruM mana paheluM bagaDe ane tamane du:kha Ape ja. kAraNa ke doSita kharekhara che ja nahIM. tamArI akkalathI ja tamane doSita dekhAya che ane e ja bhrAMtinI jagyA che. hA, have tame mane kahe kahe karo paNa huM konI phariyAda sAMbhaLuM ! praznakartA: hamaNAM Ape zuM kahyuM ke tame mane kahe kahe karo.

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nijadoSa darzanathI... nirdoSa ! 119 dAdAzrI : hA, paNa AvI badhI vAta karo cho, phalANo Ama karato hato, phalANo Ama karato hato, evuM tamane samajaNa paDI ke A badhuM khoTuM che ? praznakartA : hA. dAdAzrI : A TAIma badho nakAmo gayo. badhuM nirdoSa che evuM samajyA ke ukela AvI gayo. praznakartA : ApaNuM koI gajavuM kApe to tarata ApaNe ema kahIe ke A mArA karmano udaya thayo, to tarata te mANasa nirdoSa dekhAya. dAdAzrI : eTaluM jo jJAnamAM AvI gayuM, A mArA ja karmano udaya che, to e nirdoSa dekhAya te barAbara, e anubhavapUrvakanuM kahevAya. praznakartA : e anubhavapUrvakanuM kahevAya ? dAdAzrI : hA. praznakartA : ApaNo karmano doSa che ema dekhAya to ? dAdAzrI : hA, e ja ke A mArA ja karmano udaya che, eno doSa nathI A. A che te jAgRti kahevAya. ane ema ne ema tame bolo ke jagata AkhuM nirdoSa che, e haju tamane pUruM anubhavamAM nathI AvyuM. eTale A amuka bAbatamAM tamAruM AvuM DIsAIDa (nakkI) thaI jAya. ane amuka bAbato evI raheze ke jemAM DIsIjhana (nirNaya) nahIM thAya eTale tamAre mAnI ja levAnuM. pachI che te TAIma Avaze tyAre e DIsAIDa thaI jaze. ApaNe javAba jANatA hoya to pachI hisAba lakhatAM lakhatAM AvI gayAM eTale khabara paDI jAya. javAba jANatA hoya to sAruMne ?! praznakartA : hA. have koI paNa ApaNane phaLa maLe ke koI paNa kArya thAya, plasa ke mAInasa (adhika ke ochuM) paNa e ApaNAM karmanA AdhIna 120 nijadoSa darzanathI... nirdoSa ! ja che, evuM mAnI levAmAM Ave dAdAzrI : hA, bIjuM kazuM che ja nahIM. ApaNuM ja che badhuM. mAInasa kaho to ya ApaNuM ane plasa kaho to ya ApaNuM. paNa vyavahAramAM ApaNe pelAne kahevuM joIe ke bhaI, tame sAruM kAma karI batAvyuM evuM bolavuM joIe ane kharAba karyuM hoya to ene ema na kahevuM joIe ke tame kharAba karyuM ! praznakartA : to ene zuM kahevAnuM ? dAdAzrI : ene kazuM ja nahIM kahevAnuM. enA pratye mauna rahevAnuM. kAraNa ke sAruM nA kahIe to ene enkarejamenTa (protsAhana) nA maLe. enA manamAM ema thAya ke A zeTha to kazuM bolatA ja nathI. e to ema ja jANe che ne ke 'meM karyuM A !' ApaNA karmanA udaye e kare che, evuM e jANato nathI. e to kaheze meM mahenata karIne karyuM che A.' to ApaNe 'hA' pADavI paDe. aMtima draSTie jaga nirdoSa ! praznakartA : have koI mANasa evo nAlAyaka dekhAto nathI ne pahelAM mane nAlAyaka sivAya koI dekhAtuM na hotuM. dAdAzrI : che ja nahIM. e tapAsa karyA pachI to meM kahyuM ke AkhuM jagata mane nirdoSa dekhAya che. praznakartA H zuddhAtmA nA joIe tyAre ja doSita dekhAyane ? dAdAzrI : doSita kyAre dekhAya ke zuddhAtmA nA joIe eTale doSita dekhAya ne bIjuM enuM saravaiyuM nathI kADhyuM eNe. ekjhekTalI (vAstavikamAM) jo saravaiyuM kADhIe to e pote ja kahe, doSa jonAro ja kahe, bhaI mArI ja bhUla che A to. eTale Ama ekaluM zuddhAtmA jovAthI ya kaMI maTe nahIM. e to AgaLa ne AgaLa ja cAlyA kare. eTale paddhatisara nikAla thavo joIe. eTale saravaiyAmAMthI nikAla thavo joIe ke kaI rIte doSa nathI eno. hA eno doSa che nahIM ane A dekhAya che kema ?

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nijadoSa darzanathI... nirdoSa ! bhagavAna mahAvIre kahyuM ke AkhuM jagata nirdoSa che, je kaMI bhUla hatI te mArI ja hatI ane te pakaDAI gaI. ane te mane ya pakaDAI gaI mArI bhUla. ane have tamane zuM kahuM chuM ? tamArI bhUla pakaDo. huM bIjuM kazuM kaheto ja nathI kaMI. je pataMgano doro mArI pAse che tevo pataMgano doro tamArI pAse che. zuddhAtmAnuM jJAna pote prApta karyuM eTale pataMgano doro hAthamAM rahyo. pataMgano doro hAthamAM nA hoya ane gulAMTa khAya ne bUmAbUma karIe, kUdAkUda karIe, emAM kazuM vaLe nahIM. paNa hAthamAM doro hoya to kheMcIe to gulAMTa khAto baMdha thaI jAya ke nA thaI jAya ? te doro meM tamArA hAthamAM Apelo che. 121 eTale tamAre A nirdoSa jovAnuM che. nirdoSa draSTithI Ama zuddhAtmA joIne ene nirdoSa banAvavo. e thoDIvAra pachI pAchuM mahIMthI bUmAbUma karaze. 'A AvuM AvuM kare che, ene zuM nirdoSa juo cho ?" eTale ekjhekTalI nirdoSa jovAno ane jema che tema ekjhekTalI nirdoSa ja che. kAraNa ke A jagata je che ne, te tamane dekhAya che e badhuM tamAruM pariNAma dekhAya che, kaoNjhIjha nathI dekhAtA. have pariNAmamAM kono doSa ? praznakartA : kaoNjhIjhano doSa. dAdAzrI : kaoNjhIjhanA karanArAno doSa. eTale pariNAmamAM doSa koIno nA hoya. te jagata pariNAma svarUpa che. A to eka meM tamane nAnAmAM nAnu saravaiyuM kADhatA zIkhavyuM. bIjA bahu saravaiyA che badhA. keTalAMya saravaiyA bhegAM thayAM tyAre meM eksepTa karyuM, jagata nirdoSa che evuM. nahIM to ema ne ema eksepTa thAya kaMI ? A kaMI gappu che ? tame tamArI pratItimAM laI jajo ke A jagata nirdoSa che, ema so TakA che, nirdoSa ja che. doSita dekhAya che e ja bhrAMti che. ane tethI A jagata UbhuM thayuM che basa, UbhuM thavAnA kAraNamAM bIjuM koI kAraNa nathI. jJAnadraSTithI jovA jatAM jagata nirdoSa che ane ajJAnatAthI jagata doSita dekhAya che. jagata jyAM sudhI doSita dekhAya che tyAM sudhI bhaTaka bhaTaka karavAnuM. ane jyAre jagata 122 nirdoSa dekhAze tyAre ApaNo chUTakAro thaze. jANyuM to enuM nAma... nijadoSa darzanathI... nirdoSa ! jANyuM to enuM nAma kahevAya ke kyAreya Thokara nA vAge. gajavuM kapAya to ya Thokara nA vAge. ane tamAco mAre to ya Thokara nA vAge, enuM nAma jANyuM kahevAya. A to 'huM jANuM chuM, huM jANuM chuM", gA gA karaze. eTale haLadaranI gAMThe gAMdhI thaI beThAM che. bAkI jANyuM to enuM nAma kahevAya ke ahaMkAra nAme ya nA rahe. gajavuM kApI le, tamAcA mAre to ya asara nA thAya, tyAre enuM nAma jANyuM kahevAya. A to gajavuM kApI lene to 'mAruM gajavuM kApI lIdhuM', polIsavALAne bolAvo ! te bUmAbUma karI mUke. alyA zenAM AdhAre kapAyuM tenI tane zI khabara che ? jJAnI puruSa jANe che ke zenA AdhAre kapAyuM che. gajavuM kApanAro emane gunegAra nA dekhAya ane Amane to gajavAM kApanAro gunegAra dekhAya che. je gajavuM kApanAro nirdoSa che chatAM tamane gunegAra dekhAya che, mATe tame haju to keTalAMya avatAra bhaTakazo. je dekhavAnuM te nA dekhyuM ne UMdhuM ja dekhyuM ! je gunegAra nathI tene gunegAra dekhyo. jo A UMdhuM jJAna zIkhI lAvyA che !! chatAM e je dharama kare che, kriyAkAMDa kare che e khoTuM nathI. paNa kharI vAta, kharI hakIkata to jANavI paDaze ne ? pelo gajavuM kApanAra tamane gunegAra dekhAya ne ? e to badhA polIsavALAne ya gajavuM kApanAro gunegAra dekhAya che ane majUrone ya evuM ja dekhAya che, to emAM tame zuM navuM jJAna lAvyA ? e to nAnA chokarAM ya jANe che ke A gajavuM kApyuM che ! mATe 'A gunegAra che' evuM nAnA chokarAM ya kahe, bairA ya kahe ne tame ya kaho. to tamArAmAM ane badhAnAmAM phera zo che ? 'huM jANuM chuM, huM jANuM chuM" kaho cho. paNa loko kahe che evuM ja jJAna tamArI pAse che ne ? ene jJAna kahevAya ja kema ? bIjuM navuM jJAna tamArI pAse che ja kyAM te ? 'jJAna' evuM nA hoya ne ? doSa dekhADe, kaSAya bhAva ! eka kSaNavAra koI jIva doSita thayo nathI. A je doSita dekhAya che

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nijadoSa darzanathI... nirdoSa ! te ApaNAM doSe karIne dekhAya che. ane doSita dekhAya che eTale ja kaSAya kare che. nahIM to kaSAya ja nA kare ne ? doSita dekhAya che eTale khoTuM ja dekhAya che. AMdhaLe AMdhaLA athaDAya che, enA jevI vAta che A. AMdhaLA mANasa sAmasAmI TIcAya te ApaNe jANIe ne cheTe rahIne kahIe ke, 'A AMdhaLA lAge che !' ATalA badhA athaDAya enuM zuM kAraNa ? dekhAtuM nathI. bAkI jagatamAM koI jIva doSita che ja nahIM. A to badhuM je doSa dekhAya che te tamAro che. tethI kaSAya UbhA rahyA che. 123 bIjAMnA doSa dekhADe te kaSAyabhAvano paDado che. tethI bIjAnA doSa dekhAya. zIMgaDA jevA kaSAyabhAva hoya che, te vALyA vaLe nahIM. have krodha-mAna-mAyA-lobha 'ochAM karo, ochAM karo' kahe che. te ochAM kyAre thAya ? e ochAM thatAM haze ? vAstavikatAnuM jJAna hoya ke koI doSita che ja nahIM, to pelAM krodha-mAna-mAyA-lobhane ochA karavAnuM ja nA rahyuM ne ! doSita dekhAya eTale pachI pratikramaNa karavuM paDe ne ? praznakartA : hA. dAdAzrI : vakhate pAchalAM krodha-mAna-mAyA-lobhane lIdhe doSita dekhAya to pratikramaNa karavuM paDe. eTale e pachI krodha-mAna-mAyA-lobha jatAM rahe che. tyAM kone vaDhazo ? hamaNe DuMgara uparathI eka DhekhALo ATalo gabaDato gabaDato Avyo ne mAthAmAM vAgyo ne lohI nIkaLyuM, te ghaDIe tame kone gALo do cho ? gusse konI upa2 thAva cho ? DuMgara parathI AvaDo moTo patharo paDyo hoya paNa paheluM joI le ke koIe gabaDAvyo ke kema ? koI nA dekhAya agara to vAMdare gabaDAvyo hoya to ya kazuM nahIM. bahu tyAre ene nasADI mUke. ene zuM gALo de ? enuM nAma nahIM, nizAna nahIM, kyAM dAvo mAMDe ? nAmavALA upara dAvo maMDAya, paNa nijadoSa darzanathI... nirdoSa ! vAMdarAbhAInuM to nAma nahIM, kazuM nahIM, kemano dAvo mAMDe ? gALo zI rIte bhAMDe ?! 124 Ama to mUDha mAra khAya che paNa gharamAM eka jarAka ATaluM UMcuM-nIcuM thaI gayuM hoya to kUdAkUda karI mele ! to ya bhagavAnanI bhASAmAM badhA nirdoSa che. kAraNa ke UMghatA kare emAM eno zo doSa ? UMghamAM koI kahe, 'tame mAruM A badhuM ghara bALI mUkyuM ne badhuM mAruM nukasAna karI nAkhyuM ?" have UMghato bole ene ApaNe kemano guno lagADIe ? duzmata have... tathI koI praznakartA : jagata nirdoSa kayA arthamAM ? dAdAzrI : UghADA arthamAM ! A jagatanA loko nathI kahetA ke A amAro duzmana che, mane AnI joDe nathI phAvatuM, mArA sAsu kharAba che. mane badhA nirdoSa dekhAya. praznakartA : paNa tame to kaho cho ke Apane koI kharAba dekhAto ja nathI. dAdAzrI : koI kharAba che ja zAno ? eTale kharAba zuM jovAnuM ? ApaNe sAmAno sAmAna jovAno ! dAbaDIne zuM karavAnI ! dAbaDI to pittaLanI hoya ke tAMbAnI hoya ke lokhaMDanI ya hoya ! duzmana dekhAya to du:kha thAyane, paNa duzmana ja nA dekhIe ne ? atyAre to tamArI draSTi evI che, cAmaDAMnI AMkha che. eTale A duzmana, A nathI sAro ne A sAro kaheze. A sAro che te becAra varSa pachI pAcho ene ja kharAba kaho. kahe ke nA kahe ? praznakartA : jarUra kahe. dAdAzrI : ane mane A varlDamAM koI duzmana nathI dekhAtuM. mane nirdoSa ja dekhAya che badhA. kAraNa ke draSTi nirmaLa thayelI che. A cAmaDAnI AMkhathI nA cADa, dAmanuM breIne.

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126 nijadoSa darzanathI... nirdoSa ! nijadoSa darzanathI.... nirdoSa ! sApa, vIMchI ca che nirdoSa... A duniyAmAM koI doSita che ja nahIM. praznakartA : udayakarmathI ja che, je che te, e kAraNe ne ? dAdAzrI : hA, jagata AkhuM nirdoSa che ja. kaI draSTie nirdoSa ? tyAre kahe, jo zuddhAtmA joIe to nirdoSa ja che ne ! doSita koNa che ? bahAranuM pudgala ne ! A jene jagata mAne che. te pudgala.... ApaNe zuM jANavuM che ke e pudgala udayakarmane AdhIna che Aje. ene potAne AdhIna nathI, potAnI icchA nA hoya to ya karavuM paDe A. eTale e nirdoSa ja che bicAro. eTale amane AkhuM jagata nirdoSa ja.... jIvamAtra nirdoSa dekhAya. jagata nirdoSa svabhAve che. AkhuM ya jagata nirdoSa che. tamane bIjAnA je doSa dekhAya che te tamArAmAM doSa hovAthI ja doSa dekhAya che. jagata doSita nathI e tamane jo draSTi Ave to ja tame mokSe jazo. jagata doSita che evI draSTi Ave to tamAre ahIM nirAMte paDI rahevAnuM che. koI japa karato hoya, tapa karato hoya temAM ApaNe teno doSa zuM jovAno ? evuM che, enAM 'vyavasthita'nA tAbAmAM hoya evuM bicAro kare. emAM ApaNe zuM levA-devA ? ApaNe TIkA karavAnuM koI kAraNa che ? ApaNe enI joDe navA karAra zuM kAma bAMdhIe ? ene je anukULa Ave te e kare. ApaNane to mokSa sAthe ja kAma che. ApaNane bIjA sAthe kAma nathI. ane jagatamAM amane koI doSita dekhAya nahIM. gajavuM kApe te ya doSita nA dekhAya. eTale jagatamAM koI paNa jIva doSita dekhAya nahIM. sApa hoya ke vIMchI hoya ke game te hoya, je tamane doSita dekhAya chene, eno bhaya tamane pasI jAya. ane amane doSita dekhAya ja nahIM. zA AdhAre doSita nathI e badho AdhAra ame jJAnathI jANIe. A doSita dekhAya che e to bhrAMtadraSTi che, bhrAMtinI draSTi ! A cora che ne A zAhukAra che, A phalANo che e bhrAMtinI draSTi. ApaNuM lakSa zuM hovuM joIe ke badhA jIvamAtra nirdoSa che. ApaNane doSa draSTithI doSita dekhAya che. te haju ApaNI jovAmAM bhUla thAya che eTaluM samajavuM joIe. kharekhara koI doSita che ja nahIM, bhrAMtithI doSita lAge che. mahAvIre ya joyAM svadoSa ! cora tamAruM gajavuM kApe chatAM ya e tamane doSita nA dekhAya evA keTalAM badhA kAraNo thaze tyAre mokSa thaze. AtmajJAna thayA pachI evI draSTi thazene, to ja mokSa thAya, nahIM to mokSa thAya nahIM. jovA jAya to, A to je doSita dekhAya che, te tamArI buddhi tamane phasAve che. bAkI doSita koI che ja nahIM A jagatamAM ! ApaNAmAM buddhithI ema lAge ke ANe to AkhI jiMdagImAM kazuM AvuM pApa karyuM nathI ne ene AvuM ? tyAre kahe, nA, e keTalAya avatAranA pApa, have cIkaNA pApa hoyane te pAke moDA. tame eka atyAre AvuM cIkaNuM karma bAMdhyuM te pAMca hajAra varSe pApa pAke. vipAka thatAM to bahu TAIma jAya che. ane keTalAMka kUNAM karma hoya te so varSe pAkI jAya, tethI ApaNA loko kahe chene saraLa mANasa che, sAro mANasa che. saraLanA karmo baMdhA cIkaNAM nA hoya. ane karma eno vipAka thayA vagara phaLa Ape nahIM. AMbAnI kerIo AvaDI paNa eno rasa na nIkaLe ? vipAke thavo joIe. A jJAna thayA pachI doSita amane ya koI mANasa, koI jIva dekhAyo nathI. jyAre A draSTi maLaze tyAre mahAvIra draSTi thaI che ema nakkI thaze. jenI draSTimAM koI doSita dekhAto nahoto. bhagavAnane ahIM AgaLa kAnamAM bahuM mAryuM to koNa doSita dekhAyuM hatuM ? praznakartA : svakarma. dAdAzrI : svakarma dekhAyA. devoe mAkaNa pADyA, bIjuM karyuM, trIjuM karyuM. to ya doSita koNa dekhAyuM ? svakarma. mahAvIra bhagavAnane ya pelA lokoe barU mAryuM hatuM te tarata ja jJAnamAM joyuM ke zAnuM pariNAma AvyuM ! eTale kAnamAM barU mAryA tene ya nirdoSa joyA hatA !

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nijadoSa darzanathI.... nirdoSa ! 127 128 nijadoSa darzanathI. nirdoSa ! koIno doSa to kADhavA jevo jagatamAM che ja nahIM. ame kyAreya koIno doSa kADhIe nahIM. koIno doSa hoto ya nathI. bhagavAne ya nirdoSa joyAM che. te vaLI ApaNe doSa kADhanArA koNa ? emanAthI DAhyA vaLI pAchAM ? bhagavAna karatAM DAhyA ?! bhagavAne ya nirdoSa joyAM che. jagatamAM koIne doSita joyuM nathI, enuM nAma mahAvIra ane mahAvIrano kharo ziSya koNa ke jene lokonA doSa dekhAtA ochA thavA mAMDyA che. saMpUrNa dazAe nA thAya, paNa doSa dekhAtA ochA thavA mAMDyA che. abheda draSTi chatAM thAya vItarAga. A tamane doSita dekhAya che enuM zuM kAraNa che ke tamArI draSTi vikArI thayelI che. mArA-tArAnI buddhivALI che. A mAruM ne A tAruM evA mArAtArAnA bhedavALI che ! jyAM sudhI doSita dekhAya che tyAM sudhI kazuM ja pAmyo nathI. amane koInI joDe judAI nathI. abheda draSTi thaI e bhagavAna kahevAya. A amAruM ne A tamAruM e sAmAjika dharmo hoya badhA. A sAmAjika dharmoe to gUMcavADo Ubho karyo che ne dharma pALatA jAya ne ciMtA vadhatI jAya. gacchamatatI je lpatA.. bAkI A kRpALudeve kahyuM che ke 'gacchamatanI je kalpanA te nahIM savyavahAra." vItarAganuM vijJAna nathI. tyAM dharma che ja nahIM, abhedatA che ja nahIM. A phalANA saMpradAyano ho ke A phalANA saMpradAyano ho, paNa koInI TIkA nahIM. bhagavAna zuM kahe che ? niSpakSapAtIne ApaNe pUchIe ke sAheba ApanuM zuM kahevuM che ? A loko amane aMdhA lAge che. tyAre kahe, e tamArI draSTimAM game te kharuM, paNa e emanI jagyAe sAcA che. tyAre kahe, cora corI kare che te ? te e enI jagyAe sAcA che. tame zA mATe DahApaNa karo cho ? tame phakta ene nirdoSa draSTithI juo. tamArI pAse jo nirdoSa draSTi hoya to enAthI tame juo. nahIM to bIjuM jozo nahIM ! ane bIjuM jozo to mAryA jazo. jevuM jozo evuM thaI jaze. jevuM jozo evA tame thaI jazo. zuM khoTuM kahe che ? A vItarAgo DAhyA che ke, A tamane lAge che ne ! ahIM to A vaiSNava dharmanA loko vItarAgano dharma pAmavA AvyA che, te emane lAgyuM ke AvA vItarAgo hatA ! tyAre meM kahyuM, AvAM vItarAgo hatA. tyAre kahe, AvuM to sAMbhaLyuM ja na hotuM meM. tethI A derAsaramAM pese chene, sImaMdhara svAmInA darzana kare chene, ullAsabhera ! praznakartA : A to tame bahu bhAre kahyuM, jevuM jozo tevuM thaI jazo. dAdAzrI : hA. evuM jozo to tame te rUpa thaI jazo. eTale meM bIju koI dahADoya joyuM nathI. doSita jovAya ja nahIM. svarUpa je UMdhuM dekhAya che, ApaNe ene pheravI nAkhavuM joIe ke Ama kema dekhAyuM ? AjanuM darzana te gata bhavatI rekarDa ! amane jagata AkhuM nirdoSa dekhAya che. paNa te zraddhAmAM che. zraddhAmAM eTale darzanamAM ane anubhavamAM AvyuM che ke nirdoSa ja che. chatAM vartana, je chUTatuM nathI haju !!! atyAre koI phalANA saMtanI avaLI vAta AvI. e game tevAM hoya to paNa tamAre to e nirdoSa ja dekhAvA joIe. chatAM ame peluM bolIe ke A AvAM che, AvAM che e nA bolAya. amArI zraddhAmAM e nirdoSa che, kalpanA te kalpanA ja nahIM, paNa e ja che te AvaraNa svarUpe thaI paDyuM. chatAMya bhagavAne ene dharma kahyo. e enI jagyAe dharmamAM ja che. tame DahApaNa nA karazo e je karI rahyo che, e enI jagyAe dharmamAM ja che. mATe tame DAhyA nA thazo. tAruM khoTuM che, evuM koIneya kyAreya nA kahevAya. enuM nAma niSpakSapAtI. 'tAruM khoTuM che" A to zene mATe ApaNe kahIe chIe ke tamane samajavA mATe, A bIjA lokonI vAta karIe chIe. bIjA lokonI TIkA karavA mATe vAta nahIM karavAnI. TIkA hoya ja nahIM koI jagyAe ane jo TIkA che to

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nijadoSa darzanathI... nirdoSa ! jJAnamAM AvI gayeluM che ke nirdoSa che, chatAM bolAya che. vartanamAM bolAya che. eTale A TeparekarDa kahIe chIe ene !! TeparekarDa thaI gaI, ene zuM thAya ? paNa TeparekarDa iphekTiva che ne badhI eTale pelAne to ema ja thAya ne ke hamaNe A dAdA ja bolyA. praznakartA : ane e bolatI ghaDIe A bhUla kahevAya, evuM aMdara hoya kharuM ? 129 dAdAzrI : hA. bolatI ghaDIe, ona dhI momenTa (tatkSaNa) khabara hoya. A khoTuM thaI rahyuM che, A khoTuM bolAya che. praznakartA : e barobara che paNa pelA saMtanI A bhUla kahevAya, evuM je bolAI rahyuM che te vakhate evI khabara hoyane ke emanI A apekSAe AvI bhUla kahevAya ? dAdAzrI : hA. kaI apekSAe emanI bhUla kahevAya e jANIe, paNa e mAnyatA to pahelAnI hatI ne ! A badhuM e pahelAnuM jJAna hatuM. eTale AjanI TeparekarDa nathI A. praznakartA : eTale pahelAnuM jJAna A TepamAM, bolavAmAM helpa kare che ? dAdAzrI : hA. ane haju to e atyAre bolI ja rahyuM che. paNa loka to ema ja jANe ne ke Aje dAdA bolyA, hamaNe dAdA bolyA paNa huM jANuM ke A pahelAnuM che. eTale to ya amane kheda to thayA kare ne ! AvuM nA nIkaLavuM joIe. eka akSareya nIkaLavo nA joIe. praznakartA : have AvuM jo jema che tema nA bolo, to sAMbhaLanArA badhA geramArge dorAya, evuM bane ne ? dAdAzrI : sAMbhaLanArAo ? paNa e buddhino Dakho ja ne ! vItarAgatAne Dakho nahIM ne kazo !! praznakartA : paNa sAMbhaLanArAo to buddhine AdhIna ja hoya chene ? nijadoSa darzanathI... nirdoSa ! dAdAzrI : hA. paNa mArI buddhimAM A sAMbhaLanArane nukasAna thaze eTale nukasAna ne napho, prophITa enDa losa joyAne ? prophITa enDa losa to buddhi dekhADe ke sAmAne nukasAna thaze ! chatAM atyAre ame A saMtanuM bolyA paNa Aje A kAmanuM nathI. paNa te dahADe ame evuM nahotA mAnatA ke A jagata AkhuM nirdoSa che. 130 praznakartA : te vakhate buddhino Dakho hato, evuM thayuMne ? dAdAzrI : hA. te dahADe buddhino Dakho hato. 'eTale A DakhA jAya nahIMne, jaldI? praznakartA : eTale badhuM vartana pahelAMnA ja jJAnane laIne chene ? dAdAzrI : pahelAM buddhi jyAM sudhI hatIne, tyAM sudhI A koceluM. paNa buddhi gayA pachI koce nahIMne ! nahIM to buddhi darekane kocyA kare. buddhi haMmezA ya jyAM sudhI che tyAM sudhI kampera enDa konTrAsTa cAlyA ja kare. praznakartA : ane siddhAMta mUkyo chene ke A nirdoSa che. dAdAzrI : eTale che nirdoSa ne zA mATe AvuM thAya che ? ame A UghADuM kahIe chIe ke jagata AkhuM nirdoSa che. ane eka bAju A zabdo AvA nIkaLe che. AzcaryakArI ajAyaba akrama jJAtItuM pada ! A to badhu sAyansa che. A dharma nathI. dharma to badhA bahAra cAle che ne e badhA dharma kahevAya. e rileTIva dharmo che. rileTIva eTale nAzavaMta dharmo ane A to 'riyala' tarata mokSaphaLa ApanAro tarata ja mokSano svAda cakhADI de. Avo mokSamArga cAkhyo, svAdamAM AvI gayo, anubhavamAM AvI gayo. 'jagata AkhuM nirdoSa che' evuM tamane samajavAmAM AvyuM, jyAre bhagavAna mahAvIrane e anubhavamAM hatuM. koI vakhata tamane samajaNa nA paDe ne koIka vakhata bhAMjagaDa thaI jAya to ya paNa te tarata pAchuM jJAna hAjara thaI jAya

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nijadoSa darzanathI. nirdoSa ! 131 132 nijadoSa darzanathI... nirdoSa ! ke eno zo doSa ? 'vyavasthita' che e samajAya. nimitta che samajAya. badhuM samajAI jAya. bhagavAnane anubhavamAM hatuM. amane A samajamAM che. samaja amArA jevI rahene ! ejhekTa hAjara, zUTa ona sAITa samaja rahe te amAruM A kevaLa darzana kahevAya. tamAruM kevaLa darzana hajI thaI rahyuM che. kevaLajJAna thAya evuM nathI to ApaNe ene zA mATe bolAvIe? je thAya evuM nA hoya ene kahIe, 'padhAro, padhAro' to zuM thAya ? kevaLa darzana kaMI ochuM pada kahevAya ? varlDanI ajAyabI pada kahevAya !!! A duSamakALamAM kevaLa darzana to gajabanuM pada kahevAya. suSamakALamAM tIrthaMkaranA vakhatanA pada karatAM A pada UMcuM kahevAya. kAraNa ke atyAre to traNa TakAe pAsa karyA hatA, mahAvIra bhagavAnanA vakhatamAM tetrIsa Take pAsa karatA hatA. 'jagata AkhuM nirdoSa che" evuM samajamAM AvI gayuM ! na dekhe dAdA doSa koItA ! tamArA doSo paNa amane dekhAya paNa amArI draSTi zuddhAtmA tarapha hoya, udayakarma tarapha draSTi nA hoya. amane badhAnA doSonI khabara paDI jAya paNa enI amane asara thAya nahIM, tethI ja kavie lakhyuM che ke, 'mAM kadI khoDa kADhe nahIM, dAdAne ya doSa koInA dekhAya nahIM." che, e badhA guNo AtmAnA. ane vyavahAramAM A ApaNe kahyAM te lakSaNa che enAM. ApaNe koIne dhola mArIe ane e ApaNI sAme hase tyAre ApaNe jANIe chIe ke Amane sahaja kSamA che. tyAre ApaNane samajAya ke vAta barAbara che. tamArI nirbaLatA ame jANIe chIe. ane nirbaLatA hoya ja. eTale amArI sahaja kSamA hoya. kSamA ApavI paDe nahIM, maLI jAya, sahajapaNe. sahaja kSamAM guNa to chellI dazAno guNa kahevAya. amAre sahaja kSamA hoya. eTaluM nahIM paNa tamArA mATe amane ekadhAro prema rahe. je vadha-ghaTe e prema na hoya, e Asakti che. amAro prema vadhe-ghaTe nahIM e ja zuddha prema, paramAtma prema che ! tyAre pragaTe mukta hAsya ! praznakartA : eka akSareya Apano pahoMce to nirdoSatA AvI jAya. dAdAzrI : ane amAro akSare ya pahoMcatA vAra nathI lAgatI. A jJAna je ApeluM chene, eTale eka akSare ya pahoMcavAmAM vAra nathI lAgatI. jagata AkhuM nirdoSa dekhAze tyAre mukta hAsya utpanna thaze. bhAra vagaranuM mukta hAsya utpanna thAya ja nahIM evo niyama che. eka paNa mANasa doSita dekhAyane, tyAM sudhI hAsya utpanna nA thAya. ane mukta hAsyathI mANasa kalyANa karI nAkhe. mukta hAsyanA eka phero darzana karene to ya kalyANa thaI jAya ! e to have pote te rUpa thavuM paDaze. pote thAya to badhuM rAge paDI jAya. haMmezA parsanAlITI ja kaMI ekalI kAma nathI karatI. potAnuM je cAritra e bahu moTuM kAma kare. tethI ja to zAstrakAroe kahyuM ke jJAnI puruSa eka AMgaLI upara AkhuM brahmAMDa UbhuM rAkhe. kAraNa ke cAritrabaLa che. cAritrabaLa eTale zuM ? nirdoSa draSTi. nirdoSa draSTi dAdA pAse sAMbhaLI ane haju pratItimAM beThI che. amane anubhavamAM hoya. pratIti tamane beThI che kharI, paNa haju vartanamAM AvatAM vAra lAgene ? bAkI mArga A che. mArga sahelo che ne kazo vAMdho Ave evo nathI. - jaya saccidAnaMda mane atyAre koI gALo bhAMDe pachI kaheze, "sAheba, mane mApha karo." are, bhaI, mApha amAre karavAnuM nA hoya. mApha to amArA sahaja guNamAM ja hoya. sahaja svabhAva ja amAro vaNAI gayelo ke mAphI ja bakSe. tuM game te karuM to ya mAphI ja bakSe. jJAnIno e svAbhAvika guNa thaI jAya che. ane te AtmAno guNa nathI e, nathI dehano guNa, e vyatireka guNo che badhA. A guNo uparathI ApaNe mApI zakIe ke AtmA eTale sudhI pahoMcyo. chatAM A AtmAnA guNo nathI. AtmAnA potAnA guNo to tyAM TheTha joDe jAya

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