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FULLER PORTRAITS
"You have told us Guru.... that every sadhaka here represents type and serves a Divine purpose in not only getting something from you but evoking something in you on the rebound. I have often wondered what purpose was served by my irruption here till the answer flashed, apocalyptically:I was sent here by the Divine to test your patience in a way none else possibly could:to bring out, that is, the difference between the human patience and the divine."20
Sri Aurobindo guided Dilip Roy very lovingly on his path of spiritual seeking. Once Dilip Roy felt that his inner enemy was his lower vital and very frankly he confessed it. His guru promised him that he would render the help requisite in transforming his disciple's nature.
At another time. Dilip Roy found it almost impossible to surrender himself completely to his guru because of the predominance of ego in his nature. Again. in his moments of darkness, he turned to his gurudev and very tenderly he explained to him what the real surrender is and how it could be achieved.
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Even when Dilip Roy found that his desire and love for eating fish was uncontrollable, he saw his guru in his dream promising him to help him in controlling his instinct and really he had no hankering for fish then. Similar was the case of his love for drinking and the same patient help and guidance he had from his guru who was an alchemist for him. His 'Guru, the Alchemist' changed Dilip Roy's baser or row metal into the pure gold. With the deep feeling of thankfulness. Dilip Roy says
"It was this innate tenderness of his incredible love that held me captive in his Ashram for over two decades, enabling me to fend off the "attacks" of the demonic forces which strove sleeplessly to wean me from him because he was appointed by the Divine to divinize our human nature. It is to fulfil this mission that he employed his Messianic power, in prose and verse, to convince us about the utter reality of the Divine Grace which alone could exhort the clod to claim kinship with God."21
When Dilip Roy began to stay at Sri Aurobindo Ashram, he came to know from one of his guru's letters that one can write great poetry or compose music from the inner being and for that one should have the passage clear between the outer mind and something in the inner being. Dilip Roy at that time, found that though he himself was known as a leading composer of music, he had written very few poems. Even in those poems, his style and rhythm were halting and Tagore, who appreciated his musical talents, never spoke well of his poetry. So, he began to translate Sri Aurobindo's poems and later on wrote Bengali poems on
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