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A LOVER OF LIGHT AMONG LUMINARIES : Dilip Kumar Roy delivered permanently from downpulls and sorrows of the ego.
From his own instance, he told Dilip Roy that the Grace of Ram cannot be described but it can be experienced with one's whole being. He was convinced that if the aspirant appeals to him to teach him to love him, all will be revealed to him. He suggested that the aspirant must trust him absolutely and then he will take him in hand and mould him to his will. He will draw him under the wings of his love if he seeks refuge in him alone. But the person has to tread the whole way, the long steep ascent on his own, with all the power and tenacity of his own aspiration. The guru can stimulate the process, but the flame of the individual's aspiration has to be fanned ceaselessly by his own effort and vigilance.
He firmly asserted that one can understand very little with the mind. When one goes above the mind, one can understand the grace of God. He described one incident to Dilip Roy which happened during the initial stage of his sadhana. One of Ramdas's intellectual friends had many questions in his mind to which he could not find convincing answers. So, he went to Ramdas. But Ramdas did not know how to answer the mental queries of anybody. So, he avoided him at that time. Then he appealed to his one extractor, Ram, who, at night, formulated some questions and answered them point by point through Ramdas's own voice. He kept the record of those questions and answers and showed it to his friend the next morning. His friend exclaimed: “You take my breath away! For these were just the questions I came to put to you myself !”142 Ramdas's faith in Ram became deep-rooted and he began to accept all the incidents of life, pleasant as well as unpleasant, happening to him as the Grace of God.
Once he stayed in Central India as a Raja's honoured guest In the royal palace, Ramdas received everybody, the rich and the poor with the same spontaneous welcome. After a few days, he wanted to proceed on his journey. The Raja offered to reserve a saloon for him in the train. But Ramdas wanted to travel on a thirdclass compartment. So they had to buy an ordinary ticket for him.
When the train arrived, it was crowded. There were Muslim roughnecks in the compartment in which there was room. They did not want a Hindu sadhu among them. But the Royal guards compelled them to allow Ramdas to enter into it. Ramdas went inside, relying on his protector' Ram. As the train moved, more passengers entered that compartment, till Ramdas had to sit on the dusty floor. Those rowdies had taken him for a beggar and a coward, so they laughed at him and also kicked his shins in contempt. At that time, tears rolled down from Ramdas's eyes and in his ecstasy he spoke to himself:
"O Ram, your lila (playl is indeed inscrutable ! Last night Ramdas was fawned upon by royalty and today he is kicked by all and sundry ! How you love to play with your devotees !”|43
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