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After that realization, bliss and joy became permanent in his life. Ramdas
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"In this experience you can never be cut off from the consciousness of being one with the One who has become all, in which you feel you are one with all because you have perceived that all is He, the One-without-a-Second."138
Such a man of God-realization, Dilip Roy witnessed, was very simple, humble and childlike. In fact, he called himself a child of Ram and talked and lived like a child. He loved children very much and played with them as one of them. Showing his bare gums with not a tooth in his head, Ramdas, laughingly, told Dilip Roy: "I was born a baby-without a single tooth, and look!...Ram has so ordiained that I simply had to revert to my babyhood again"139
Moreover, his unpretentiousness was striking to anybody. During Dilip Roy's stay in his ashram, they discussed many kinds of doubts and questions which were afflicting the author at that time and Ramdas helped him much by narrating unreservedly how similar doubts had arisen in his mind and how they were solved by Ram himself. He talked about his realization of God, and about his disciple, Krishna Bai, who had also attained self-realization through Ram's grace. He told the author about many miracles which he had witnessed. He delighted the author by telling him different amusing anecdotes of deep spiritual import. He also spoke of his disappointments especially with regard to the ashram he had established. But he never criticized anybody who held different views from his. Commending Ramdas, Roy notes that he was
"...such a pure and humble soul whose every gesture exuded spontaneous goodwill and friendliness, who refused to be offended and, to crown all, who hymned his great Caretaker even on those occasions when he might well have complained of having been let down."140
With warmth of heart he tried to remove the doubts of Dilip Roy. Ramdas assured him that any one who aspires can have vision of Krishna if he becomes God-mad, Krishna-intoxicated and loves him not among other things but above all things. He advised:
"Let Him be your one goal-first and last-and let everything else be secondary..... If your vyakulata [restless longing to meet Him takes precedence over all other desires, you can be sure He will be waiting for you there around the comer"141
But the aspirant must not be satisfied with the mere vision of Krishna, because after the temporary vision of Krishna, the person falls back to ignorance again. The aspirant must insist on seeing Him in all and all in Him so as to be
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