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A LOVER OF LIGHT AMONG LUMINARIES: Dilip Kumar Roy life. On April 14, 1942, for instance. Krishnaprem wrote to Dilip Roy
"Do not vex yourself with disputes as to personality and impersonality. Personality has no meaning apart from its polar opposite Impersonality and vice versa. They are mental terms and must always be linked together in thought. To overstress one in consciousness is to be haunted by a malignant ghost of the other. Be receptive to both movements, and Krishna, from whom spring. both, will fertilise the soul. Do not think to affirm but aspire with your whole being (both sides of it) and you will receive that which cannot be affirmed and which is lost in all affirmation."49
"There are many reasons, too long to go into, why life in an Ashram causes these phantoms of our own creation to become more active and to come more out into the open. This gives us a chance to deal with them radically and it is a great advantageif we take it. Let us not look with judging eyes at the shells of men but having first seen our own hearts look just with eyes of pity and understanding on the pathetic struggles of those timid children, the egos of men, with the phantom forms of their own. ignorance and then, if we can, see deeper still the blissful self beneath, of whom these egos are but untaught children.... For God's sake, don't think I speak de haut en bas! I am no en haut myself and what I have written is addressed to my own heart as much as to yours. Naked we must seek Krishna. Even a stitch of self-protecting clothing hides us from Him. For instance, you write and so do I: that is all right, but in that writing is not Dilip and is not Krishnaprem gratified? We should write as the sun shines without any ego-gratification. Only then does He. the Light of lights, shine in our writing or our singing."
Krishnaprem always inspired Dilip Roy to have peace in life and also onepointed faith in his guru. On April 28, 1945, he advised, "... whatever 'inner conflicts' may trouble you, don't let them be about your Guru. Whatever you have gained has been through him." In another letter, very considerately, he wrote:
"I know or at least I can feel the difficulties you write about and I know that were I in your place they would be my difficulties also, and I can and do sympathise with every line you write about them. I know I should be in great difficulties-but there you are, we cannot escape from difficulties whatever road we tread.
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