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Questioner: Does a person sign in this life or does he do it in his past life?
Dadashri: He signs for it in this life. It was planned for in the past life, but it materializes only in this life.
One day my mama's (maternal uncle) son, Raojibhai, and I were taking a nap outside our home when I heard my mother, Zaverba, say from inside the house, Dear Lord! It will be nice if I could die.' I told my uncle, "Look, Mother signed off on her life!' Because when one cannot tolerate the pain within, he does the intent (bhaav) that he would be better off dead. He puts his 'signature' to it.
Questioner: He signs off without awareness.
Dadashri: Not without awareness; he does so in awareness (bhaan). Then if you ask him the next morning, 'So, you are thinking of leaving or what?' To that he will say, 'No, my health is good.
Questioner: When someone dies as soon as he is born, what is that?
Dadashri: Everyone ends up doing the intent (bhaav) within for sure; the account gets formed from within. Death can never come without an account. Death never comes all of a sudden. Everything is an incident; no event is an accident.
When one gets a heart attack and he is in a lot of pain, there is a spontaneous bhaav of, 'It would be nice if I can become free from this,' and then when he feels a little better he will say, 'Doctor make me well, make me well!' Hey, you! But what about the fact that you wanted to die and had signed off on it earlier? Why don't you think before making such a signature?
A person will decide, "Tomorrow I will go to Ahmedabad, or he will decide, 'I want to go to a pilgrimage'; he will make plans four months ahead of time. But when it comes to dying,
no one makes a decision for it. On the contrary, he will push away thoughts about death saying, 'No, no, it is nothing like that. This is just a thought; I am still in good health. The body is good enough for another fifty years!
But the one who is impartial (nishpakshpati) will recognize everything. Can you not tell when a person is packing his bags that he is ready to leave? So when the bags are being packed within, and when we are also able see it and yet we do not bother looking; then is that not a mistake on our part? In the old days, many people were straight-forward and with simple karma effects. They used to say, 'After five days, on the day of agiyaras (eleventh day of lunar fortnight), I am going to leave this world, and that is exactly what would happen. So do you think there are different rules for other people? The rules are the same. This is just one's illusion (moha) that creates attachment to the worldly life. At the time of his dying, if the family tells him, 'Uncle, now recite the Trimantra (three mantras that destroy all obstacles in life),' he will not do it and, on the contrary, he will think, *They don't have any sense!' Just look at him! What a sack of intelligence! No one will give him even a dime for his intelligence if he were to try and sell it. The uncle's mind is preoccupied with his daughter's marriage and he keeps thinking, "My daughter is not married; she is getting left behind.' Why would one not know about his death when he has become impartial (nishpakshpati)? He is afraid of death. He is not afraid of going out of town or to a pilgrimage because he feels that he will retum. Hey, you! What is the guarantee that you will return from there either?
I would whisper to a ship, 'Sink if you want to, but that is not 'our' wish.' A ship has been launched in the water to make profit, but because of the ocean it may even sink one day. That is how you speak to your body, 'Leave when you have to, but that is not my wish.' This is because the law of nature is so wonderful that it is not going to let anyone go. No one is going
