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washed and the one insulting you becomes the nimit (a living or non-living instrumental evidence in unfolding karma effect) in the process.
The Phenomenal Value of Pratikraman
Questioner: Sometimes I feel offended and hurt that I do so much and yet he insults me.
Dadashri: You will have to do pratikraman for him. This is simply an interaction in worldly life (vyavahar). There are all kinds of people in it. They will not let you go to moksha.
Questioner: Why should I do pratikraman?
Dadashri: The reason you do pratikraman is this: "Him insulting me is the fruition of my karma (udaya) in which he ends up binding demerit karma for himself. So I am doing prarikraman for him. I will never do anything again for which I become a nimit in someone else binding karma.'
The world is not likely to let anyone go to moksha. They will find a way of holding you back. If you do pratikraman, you will be able to break away from that grip. That is why Lord Mahavir has given all these three in pratikraman: alochana, which is to recall and confess the mistake; pratikraman, repentance and asking for forgiveness; and pratyakhyan, vowing never to repeat the mistake. He has given us all three in just one word. There is no other solution for this. Now when can a person do pratikraman? It is when he has awareness. Such awareness arises when he attains Gnan from a Gnani Purush.
You should do pratikraman so that you become free from karmic liability.
In the beginning, people used to attack me too. But then they got tired of doing so. If we respond by retaliating, people will not get tired of attacking us.
This world will not let anyone go to moksha. The world is full of interfering intellect. Amidst it all, if one passes through with awareness and closes all accounts of karma, then he will attain moksha. Getting the Work Done Through the Prakruti
After attaining Self-realization, when one says, 'I am Shuddhatma,' from that moment on, he is nirvikalp; he is without the vikalp - the false imagination of, 'I am Chandulal.' But if he says anything other than that such as, 'I am like this,' or 'I am like that, then that is all vikalp. Vikalp is the cause of the worldly life. I am Shuddhatma is the nirvikalp state, the state of bliss. Nevertheless, Chandulal will continue doing good deeds as well as bad ones. He will do right deeds that are helpful to others, and he will also do wrong deeds that hurt others. No one can do only helpful or only hurtful deeds. Some do more hurtful ones and some do less.
Questioner: Is that going to happen even when we do not wish it?
Dadashri: Yes, it will; so once you decide, 'I am Shuddhatma,' then you simply have to see all these helpful or hurtful, right or wrong actions that unfold. If any good or bad results occur within, then you should not think, 'Something bad happened. My Shuddhatma has become ruined.' Shuddhatma is your real Self. This so-called helpful-hurtful, good-bad is the result of mistakes of past life (karma). You just have to keep
seeing those results. And this "good-bad' "helpful-hurtful' is the worldly, relative language. There is no such thing as helpfulhurtful in the Lord's language. ('Lord' refers to Lord Mahavir).
Questioner: Why should one even bother with it if helpful hurtful is not in the Lord's language?
Dadashri: There is nothing to do or bother about. That is why I say 'see juvo) and do not hurt anyone. However, if
