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anyway. 'Dada' has not objected to you having snacks. But what has left you stranded and dangling? Look for that atkan. And if that connection is still there, tell me about it. If it is something you cannot tell me, then find out what it is, and if you go after it and do extraordinary spiritual effort (parakram), then it will be fine. For that, get Gnani's blessings (do Vidhi) here, and in your mind ask for the energy to do so, then the energy will manifest within. There is nothing else.
long as one has not realized one's bliss of the Self. Now that You have attained the bliss of the Self, you do not need the support of external pleasures and happiness. Therefore, put aside all other forms of pleasure. Bliss of the Self and external pleasure can not arise together. Therefore, find the atkan.
Experience (anubhav), awareness laksha) and conviction (pratiti) prevail for everyone; that is not the fruit of purusharth. They are the fruit of 'Dada's' grace. Now when can you call something a purusharth and a parakram? It is when the 'rope' you are hanging from the rope that makes you wander life after life, breaks. To break this, You have to do parakram. What you have attained is the result of your merit karma (punya) of the highest order. Through these merit karmas, you attained the Gnani's grace and through the Gnani's grace, you have attained the Self.
Your speech will be liked by everyone when the atkan leaves. There is nothing wrong with what you say, but because of the atkan, it does not come out as it should. Speech is hampered and unnatural due to the atkan within. It will not even produce a liberating smile (mukta-hasya) on your face. Once the atkan is gone, your speech will be good and your smile will radiate with liberation. Therefore, get rid of the atkan and do salvation of the world (jagat kalyan).
The speech (vani), the conduct (vartan) and the humility (vinaya); these three should become such that they win over the mind and the hearts of others. When that happens, then realize that you have begun to become like 'Dada.' Thereafter, there is no problem. Then You are safe: You have a safe side. Therefore, these three-speech, conduct and humility - must become directly visible to others. Without these attributes, one cannot verify whether something is authentic, can one?
Extraordinary Inner War against Atkan Have snacks, eat whatever you want, you have to do that
Nikachit (karma that has to be suffered) will not let you off. Nikachit means that you have no choice but suffer through the effects (fruit of the karma) no matter how desperately you do not wish for it. Even when you feel, 'I do not want anything now,' the karma that will drag you into it is called nikachit. With whatever inner intent (bhaav) it was bound, it will dissipate with the same bhaav. Therefore, there is no problem even with nikachit karma. This whole worldly life (sansar) is nothing but nikachit. Now a man may not have any interest in sex or a woman may not have any interest in sex, but they have no choice but suffer through the act. That verily is called nikachit karma. The problem, however, is with atkan. One needs to
see' where he still gets excited with temptation of pleasure (galgalia). That is where one loses awareness and becomes deluded (murchhit). Do you understand the word galgalia?
Questioner: I have heard the word, but I haven't understood it exactly.
Dadashri: If a boy from a very respectable family gets into a habit of dancing in plays and theatre, and someone switches his interest and takes him away from the dancing, he may not have a problem for a year or two. But if he happens to pass by a theatre and reads the billboard, he will have galgalia. The old habit and delusion will overcome him. It will make him lose awareness and he will lie to you and somehow get in. He will not even have awareness of what lies to tell.
