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way you want to proceed; You want to remain in pure awareness (shuddha upayog). If you do not decide in this way, You will lose the awareness (upayog). And our science is great. There are no other problems or strife (bhanjghad).
To Dwell as the Self Questioner: How can dwelling in the Self (nijavastu ramanata) arise?
darshan and charitra, or knowledge, vision and conduct respectively, as the Self, have already begun for You. Otherwise, attachment-abhorrence (raag-dwesh) will occur towards that which you see and know this happens in the ignorant state). If raag-dwesh does not occur for that which one 'sees and knows,' it is called vitarag charitra or conduct free from attachment and abhorrence.
Now, even Your conduct (charitra) has become very high. This is a wonder that has happened. But it will be good if You preserve and nurture it. It will be good if you do not trade it away for something which is of much inferior value. It will be good if someone does not tempt you with a chocolate and walk away with your jewelry, meaning it will be good if you do not get tempted by worldly pleasures at the cost of this priceless Gnan. Now Gnan (the knowledge as the Self), darshan (vision as the Self), charitra (being the Self), and tapa (internal penance that leads to liberation), will continue to operate within You. As far as penance is concerned, you will not know where it is occurring. "Our Agnas are such that penance (tapa) is inevitable.
When we travel by car, we do not talk to anyone because 'we' remain in our active and alert attentiveness of the real Self (upayog), in the awareness as the Self. We do not miss our upayog even for a moment.
Who would let go of such a wonderful spiritual science (vignan) once it has been placed in one's hands? Before Gnan, one could not remain in any focused awareness (upayog) even for five minutes. Even to remain in forty-eight minutes (one gunthanu) of meditation was a major task, whereas for You, this awareness prevails naturally and spontaneously, wherever you go.
Questioner: I understand that, Dada.
Dadashri: Now stop your mistakes, meaning do pratikraman. Decide before you leave home that this is the only
Dadashri: There are two to four ways for such dwelling (ramanata) to occur. If you do not know any way, then if you say, 'I am Shuddhatma, I am Shuddhatma,' for an hour or two, it will happen. Thus it progresses further.
Questioner: All ramanata (place to dwell in) is of varying types, is it not?
Dadashri: One does whatever he knows. If it is at a gross level, one will continue saying, 'I am Shuddhatma, I am Shuddhatma' or he takes a notebook and keeps writing, 'I am Shuddhatma,' in it. In doing this, even the body, speech and mind do the ramanata.
When one does it by saying, 'I am pure Soul,' at the gross level, dwelling in the non-Self complex (pudgal ramanata) will begin to leave. This is the beginning. Then one advances further within at more subtle levels, and when he asserts what He is with reference to the attributes of the Self, then that is true dwelling (ramanata). This gives instant reward. The bliss of the Self is experienced.
Questioner: Just as there is the delight' and the pleasure of the non-Self, likewise, should delight' and pleasure of the Self (anand) not express?
Dadashri: On what grounds are You non-acquisitive (aparigrahi)? On the grounds of this Akram Vignan! But you are not aparigrahi in your worldly interactions (vyavahar).
