Aptavani 01

Author(s): Dada Bhagwan
Publisher: Dada Bhagwan Foundation

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upon you a higher spiritual state: if you make a wry face, it (spiritual state) will escape you. Whoever has come to me with cups of poison, I have drunk them with a smiling face, while blessing them and have become Mahadevji (Lord Shiva).
As long as your belief of 'I am Chandulal' exists, everything will taste bitter, but for me the poison has turned into nectar. Respect or insults, sweet or bitter are all dualities. From now on we are free from such dualities; we are beyond such dualities. That is why we do these satsangs! After all, eventually everyone wants to achieve the state beyond duality, do they not?
When someone deals you anything bitter and you drink it with a smile, blessing him or her, your ego will be destroyed and you become that much more free. Not only that but your opponent will also react from your positive reaction and change for the better. He too will feel better. He will realize his weakness in being your adversary and appreciate your spiritual strength for taking the insult with a smile.
Do you think you would drink anything bitter of your own volition? How benevolent are those who make you drink it? Those who serve you the bitter drink) are like a mother. You have no choice but to drink. You will have to take the bitter in order to become nilkantha.
"You should tell 'Chandubhai' : 'you will have to take this bitter drink a hundred times.' That is all and there after he will get used to it. We have to force bitter medicine to a child but once he realizes that the medicine is good for him he will not have to be forced to drink it, he will drink it on his own. Once you make a decision that you want to drink all the bitterness served to you, you will be able to do so. It is easy to drink *sweet' but you have to know how to drink the bitter' also. Will you not have to drink it some time or another? Besides it
is a profit for you, so should you not practice drinking it?
You feel very hurt (at a loss) when someone insults you in front of everyone, but that is a tremendous spiritual gain for you and once you realize this, you will not see it as a loss, will you?
You say, 'I am Pure Soul (Shuddhatma)', so don't you want to remain in that state forever? For that, you will have to get rid of that ego of yours. You will be able to do that with conviction and hard work.
How appropriate is it for a vagabond to continue calling himself a vagabond after he has been made a king? After acquiring the state of 'Shuddhatma' you should not consider yourself anything but the pure Self.
Do you not want to move away from this state of bittersweet suffering? So then why do you still keep one foot in it? Once having made a decision to be free, how can you keep your feet in both, the Self and the non-Self? You cannot do that. When do people feel offended? It is when someone serves them something bitter. During the Gnan Vidhi you say that you are a pure Soul, so then should you protect your pure Self (pure Soul) or the relative self (the other side)? It is very difficult to render your ego juiceless through your own efforts; it is better if others do it for you. This way the ego will play its role in a superficial; make believe manner and the inner machinery will also function well. If it is so beneficial, why should you not take what is offered to you, with a smile in order to render the ego dry? When the ego becomes completely insipid, the Self becomes complete. Just decide that you want to render your ego juiceless and it will continue to become so.
If this medicine becomes agreeable to you then nothing will trouble you. And you now know that it is very profitable for