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a major spiritual obstruction within him and this tuber is a very serious disease.
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There are countless faults and mistakes within. Once you become aware of this fact, you will start to see them and they will decrease. Do you think I see faults in others? I do not have time for that. It is only through the fruition of your many and cumulative meritorious deeds that a Gnani Purush will show you your faults. That is when I would use my spiritual powers (siddhis) and perform 'an operation' on you to rid you of your diseased tubers. Such operation is a hundred thousand times more complex than that performed by the surgeons of this world.
The more of your mistakes you see, the more you become their master. The one who has no faults, has no superior above him. I have no master over me and that is why I am the master of all masters. I do not have any overt or gross mistakes and the subtle mistakes too are gone. I have only the subtler and the subtlest mistakes, of which I remain the absolute Knower and the Seer. Lord Mahavir too did the same. Only when no trace of any attachment (raag) remains, can one see these subtler and the subtlest mistakes.
Lord Mahavir could see his mistakes up until the time he attained Keval Gnan (Omniscience, Absolutism). The moment he attained Keval Gnan was exactly the same moment his ultimate fault departed. Both the events took place simultaneously. "The moment the last fault ceases to be seen, there is the manifestation of Keval Gnan'. Such is the law.
Questioner: Dada, right from childhood I have had a very tough life. I have had to endure many hardships growing up and now as a parent I continue to endure and suffer because of my children. How can I continue to endure? Who is at fault here?
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Dadashri : If you were to break this china cup would you feel as much aggravation as you would if your child broke it? Everything is a consequence of your own mistakes. If you understand that you have to face difficulties because of your own past account, then would you worry or agonize over it? By placing blame on others, you create unnecessary worries and suffering. Your suffering continues day and night when you feel that you are the one that has to endure so much.
The knowledge of the Self is such that as it grows, it yields results. You will no longer experience any suffering. There is no suffering in the Gnata-gneya relationship, where you are the Knower, merely observing the object, that which is to be known. Why is it that the person who fights with you, fights with only you and no one else? That itself is your own fault. Your own mistakes bind you and you have to become free from only your own mistakes. These are all relationships of circumstances. These are all circumstances in front of you. Without past accounts, you would not encounter anyone. You are bound entirely by your own faults and it is only through becoming aware of your faults that you can become free. Seeing only my own faults liberated me. You will continue to become free as you see your own faults.
You can bear losing five hundred rupees if you lost them yourself. In the same token you will find the strength to endure the consequences of your past mistakes once you realize that you are the one at fault. You become free once you realize that you were at fault, otherwise you become bound even further.
People will tell you to become strong and increase your power of tolerance. But how long can the rope of tolerance last before it breaks? Tolerance has limits. The amount of strength or power needed to tolerate would equal the amount of power
