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light of the soul)) for liberation.
Suspicion As people continue to read scriptures, interpreting them with their own intellect and imagination (svachhand), their obstinacy increases, this in turn makes their veils of ignorance (avaran) denser over the self. If reading scriptures enlightens you, then why do you still stumble? People only stumble in the dark, how can one stumble in the light? If you claim to have knowledge, have any of your worries decreased as a result? On the contrary, your confusion about what is right and what is wrong has increased along with your doubts and uncertainty. And where there is uncertainty, suspicion takes hold. Where there is suspicion, ignorance prevails. The Self does not remain where there are doubts and suspicions. Gnan is that which makes one completely free of doubts.
Gnan is such that it will not disturb the stillness of even a single atom within the body. Doubts or suspicion is the enemy of the Self. It will make you throw away the Soul' (loose all spirituality). Therefore any doubts or suspicions that surface should be ripped out from their root. Once Self-realization is acquired and you become firmly established in the awareness of the Self, is there anything that can shake you? Is there anything in this world that can snatch away from you what is intrinsically your own?
new? Besides the film of this life has already been recorded in your past life. So why harbor so much turmoil and agony within you? You should never harbor suspicions or have doubts about anyone. And yet people are skeptical about mokhsa, about the Vitarag Lords and religion. The fools! You become ruined because of your suspicions.
The Self can only be acquired if the sense, 'I am this body' (dehadhyas), from infinite life cycles leaves. Otherwise this belief will not let you realize the Self. The intellect (buddhi) is the culprit in this and it will always show you the opposite because it always defends the worldly life and keeps you wandering within it. It continuously functions to the disadvantage of the Self. It will never let you see the right thing and will show you only the wrong. Once you are on the right path, there is the possibility of solving everything. To be on the right path means to be samkit (right belief, 'I am pure Soul'). To be on the wrong path means to remain under the influence of a wrong belief, ('I am this body, I am Chandulal). To be the Self is Gnan. The destruction of wrong belief results in the awakening of right belief. Only then does one experience the bliss of liberation. The intellect will keep you roaming in the life cycles of the world.
Insistence Of View Point
Suspicion is a most dangerous disease - one is never able to tell when it will creep up and how much damage it will do. For this current life, I can guarantee you that nothing is going to happen outside the law of vyavasthit. So why then should you harbor any doubts or suspicions? In an insecure world where there is no guarantee that you will return home once you leave to go out, where will you entertain doubts and where not? And whatever happens, has it not occurred before? Is it anything
So many people become engrossed with a particular viewpoint and get stuck in a camp. They keep strengthening the foundation of that faction, camp or sect. They become dogmatic and blind to others' viewpoints. Day and night they are lost in the activity of strengthening the foundation of the side they have chosen. You fools! Do you want to attain liberation or do you want to remain stuck in your dogmatism? Liberation and dogmatism are incongruous. Only when one rises beyond all viewpoints does he find the path of liberation. Where there is
