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which then allows you to overcome any circumstance or obstacle that comes your way.
The Circumstance Of The non-Self
Anything that comes your way is as a result of your prakruti (nature, inherent characteristic traits). Everything you receive is in accordance to your prakruti. The type and taste of tea, of vegetables and food you get, all come to you in keeping with your prakruti. But your internal anger, pride, attachment and greed interfere with all of this. Greed meddles in this by prompting you to accumulate and hoard things. This leads you to be deceitful and thereby meddle even more with grave consequences. There is no need to be meddlesome. Everything will be provided for you, in accordance with your prakruti, upon demand from within. What would happen if people started to worry whether the sun would rise the next day? Mooah! Everything is out there for you if you know how to enjoy it. The sun, the moon, the stars, air, water is all for you.
But his wife was very smart and hunted him down to a Jain monastery in Delhi. He was sitting in a religious discourse given by a Jain priest, dressed as a sadhu with his head shaved. His wife shows up there unexpectedly and unannounced. She became indignant and started yelling at her him in the midst of the discourse, 'What are you doing to me? You leave home dumping the responsibility of six children on me and run away like a coward. Who is going to take care of their expenses of education and marriage?' She grabbed his arm and started to drag him. The businessman realized immediately that if he put up any resistance she would cause a bigger scene. He asks his wife to let go of him so that he can at least change his clothes. His wife however refused, saying that she would not give him the opportunity to run away again and that he should be ashamed of running away in the first place. She told him he would have to go with her dressed as he was. Even the Jain priest assessed the situation and signaled him to go. The lady returned home with her husband in a sadhu's attire! Renunciation was not in his prakruti and so he had to return home.
A very old maharaj (high ranking ascetic) who became bed ridden could not find anyone to take care of him and so he started to miss his home. Expecting that his daughter-in-law along with the help of others at home will take care of him, he somehow managed to return home. But when he arrived home, the family refused to take care of him. Renunciation was in his prakruti and so he was faced with it even this late in life.
This is how strange the working of the prakruti is. What is prakruti? We give things names to identify them. But prakruti means circumstantial evidence. People dance according to the way their prakruti dictates and yet they claim 'I am dancing' or 'I am fasting'. Renunciation is possible only if it is in one's prakruti. If renunciation is not in his prakruti, his wife will drag him back home.
Suppose you get a chance to spend ten days at a hillstation which appeals to your prakruti (relative self), then you'll wish you had ten more days to stay there, but you will find it difficult to spend even two days at some other location. All that you eat and drink comes to you in accordance with your prakruti. But you possibly may not get enough to satisfy your greed. Even the renunciation and fasting you do is in accordance to your prakruti and yet your ego claims 'I did it. Whether you are able to renounce or not, it is all in accordance to your prakruti.
A well to do businessman in Baroda was fed up with his head strong and nagging wife. He felt he would be better off becoming an ascetic; at least people will give him respect and revere him. So he ran away from home and became a sadhu.
