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eating, you become one with it, and new charging occurs.
As you conduct your business, the discharge is occurring. You started your business as a result of having charged karma for such a business. It starts to discharge the day you start your business, but your becoming engrossed in it will create a new charging process all over again.
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From the moment you were born till the time you die, everything is discharging. Your current existence in the human form is a discharge. You had charged for a human birth in your past life, which is now discharging. The Lord does not object to any aspect of the discharge process, but the state of your meditation during the discharge process is of great significance. For example, in the temple while worshipping the Lord, if your mind is preoccupied in the shoes you leave outside the temple, then even in worship, you are charging karma related to the negative meditation of the shoes.
Drinking water is equivalent to charging, because the person believes he is the one drinking it. When the water is converted into urine and excreted, the excretion is equivalent to discharge.
Scratching an itch is a discharge but one experiences pleasure in that sensation. All gross activities of the body are a discharge and there is nothing that merits involvement in it with pleasure or sorrow. It is the relative self (pratishthit Atma) that experiences pleasure. The Real Self, shuddhatma, is the Knower of the relative self. The Knower knows that there will be a burning sensation from the itching. But to become engrossed in the pleasure of scratching creates new charging. Discharge moha is dissipating but at the same time one keeps charging again for the next life. One may be trying to charge for a human birth but ends up as a donkey! That is how unpredictable all this is. As such people have no idea about what is beneficial and what is
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harmful and consequently they end up doing the wrong thing. If what you are doing goes against the social norm, then you should avert your mind, speech and body from those actions. If what you are doing is acceptable to others, there is nothing wrong, but you have to find some other solution if it is not. The absolute 'I' has no power or control over the mechanical 'I, which is on autopilot. Once the charging is done, the discharge is inevitable and unavoidable. Even the Lord has no power to stop it. As far as discharge is concerned, the batteries of your mind, speech and body will discharge in exactly the same manner as they were charged. However, once you realize the Self, no new charging takes place, because after Self-Realization there is no meddling (the Self remains in the Knower-Seer state) in the discharge process. And the rest is dissolved through purusharth (awareness and application of Dadashri's 5 Agnas).
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When moha charges, it is a gradual process of filling. It starts at one degree then two degrees and so on till it reaches or fills up to say five hundred degrees. Now when it discharges, that is when it empties, it starts directly from the level of five hundred degrees. For example when anger explodes, it comes out with a force of five hundred degrees and decreases to four hundred then continues to diminish till it is completely finished or empties totally; it discharges completely. Everything that discharges initially starts from the very top and eventually diminishes. Anger, when it surfaces, flares up at five hundred degrees and then it slowly melts away.
You keep experiencing likes and dislikes in all aspects of your life. You have no choice in the matter, likes and dislikes will occur. Why do these likes and dislike occur? No one ever thinks about it. You cannot alter these feelings even if you want to. It has nothing to do with your desires. From the day you were born, the three batteries of the mind, body and speech are discharging because they were charged in your past life. At the
