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can these mistakes be seen and destroyed.
Know that as your sleep and food intake decreases, so does your spiritual apathy. They will increase your awareness.
With the elimination of faults, a person's face will radiate with inner light. His speech will become sweet and people will be attracted to him.
Mistakes with strong atoms (parmanus) are easily seen and evident. These mistakes represent the force of the prakruti. In the relative world these heavy mistakes will make one become more involved in the faults and the same force would reap great spiritual progress if such a person were to attain Gnan
What does shuddha upyog of Atma (attentiveness of the Pure Self) mean? It means that the Soul should not be left alone, or unattended. When flying a kite, you would tie its string to your toe. Similarly, you cannot lose sight, even for a moment, of the awareness of the Self.
There are infinite faults. These faults make you fall asleep, otherwise what do you need sleep for? Sleep is your enemy. It is spiritual apathy. Apathy in awareness of the pure Self (shuddha upyog) is considered impure awareness (ashuddha upyog).
In order to destroy all your faults, you will either have to give service to the Gnani and the mahatmas, or do svapurusharth (real independent effort). Darshan of Dada will give you the fruit of devotional worship, but not of knowledge (Gnan).
If you believe that you have no faults or mistakes within you, then how is it possible for you to see them? Such a person will sleep soundly. Our ascetics do not sleep (remain inattentive). They remain very alert.
The mistakes and faults that bite the owner, I call 'electrical mistakes. The mistakes of darkness are the ones that escape
the owner's awareness. The mistakes that bite are immediately noticeable. Those that do not bite, remain unnoticed.
Questioner : What are these electrical mistakes?
Dadashri : They are mistakes that are open and straightforward. They go away after making you uneasy and embarrassing you. They are beneficial to you because they keep you alert and vigilant, whereas no one can see the mistakes of darkness, those that remain hidden. The owner is unaware of these mistakes, he is in spiritual apathy as far as these mistakes are concerned, and no one else can show these mistakes to him. He is the culprit behind them and yet he will not find anyone to point those mistakes out to him, whereas he will easily find someone to point out his mistakes with 'electricity'.
The beliefs 'I know' and 'everything is fine from now onwards, there is no problem', and there is no more mistake', are mistakes of the dark and are very grave and dangerous. None except the Gnani can say, 'I have no more mistake left'.
From now on maintain only this: 'I am pure Soul' and in matters of the non-Self, the relative world, 'I know nothing'. Then you will never have any problems. You should never allow the disease of 'I know' to gain entry within you. You, the pure Self is flawless. But within you-your relative self, there are many mistakes and as they come to light, you have to settle them with equanimity.
If you have a firm and ardent desire to remain only in the Gnani's Agna, then through his grace you will be able to do so. The ecstasy of the Agnas is with those who follow them. The ecstasy of the Gnan is with those who impart this knowledge to others. The bliss of the Self is distinct from these two.
If a person understands what I am saying but does not allow it to 'sink' within him, then realize that he has a tuber of
