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were no pending karmic account with you. Even opinions you express about facts, will offend someone. Satsang will sweep and clean out everyone's rubbish. If you see other people's trash, you will accumulate even more rubbish. By seeing your own rubbish, it will be swept away. Those who are lazy or apathetic will see more faults in others.
Mistakes
Mistakes made in the dark (ignorant state, non-Selfrealized state) and mistakes that remain hidden in the dark are not visible. As the light of the awareness of the Self increases, so does the visibility of mistakes. Destroying mistakes visible to the world will create a change in the glow of your eyes. Your intentions (bhaav) should be pure. As your mistakes depart, your speech will be such that others would look forward to listening to.
But how is it possible for you to see mistakes made of darkness, in darkness (ignorance)? Your overt and obvious mistakes will stop as you get into conflict with others. But there are so many subtle (shookshma), subtler (shookshmatar) and the subtlest (shookshmatam) mistakes that still remain and when these depart, your fragrance (spiritual attraction) will spread.
Visible and obvious mistakes or shortcomings of a stern and unyielding person, regardless of their quanity, are still better than the invisible mistakes that remain hidden in the dark.
You will realize your mistakes when you encounter disagreeable circumstances, for example when someone hurts you or you encounter some misfortune.
You should never say, "I am free of faults." Such a statement should never be made. It is only when one becomes the Absolute (Keval) that faults and mistakes cease to exist within one.
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Mistakes of darkness only become evident when a Gnani sheds light on them. Your visible mistakes are better than the mistakes that remain hidden in the dark. Those with 'electricity', i.e. mistakes that are lit, can be seen.
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What does one have to do 'purusharth' (effort) for? Only after one becomes a Purush (Self-Realised), does one's real purusharth (real independent effort) and sva-parakram (extraordinary independent effort) begin.
Within you is a warehouse of countless faults and mistakes. It is only when you can see these faults and mistakes in every passing moment, that you have accomplished your work. You are the one responsible for filling this 'warehouse' with mistakes, without consulting anyone.
Once the awareness of the pure Self is established, you will begin to see your mistakes. Failure to see them is sheer spiritual apathy (pramad - laziness).
During times of dire circumstances, Gnan will stand the test. The Gnan has attained a very high level when one's awareness prevails uninterrupted even as one's ears are being cut off. Up until this level of awareness is attained, all else is considered spiritual apathy.
Gnani Purush sleeps only for an hour. He is constantly aware. The Self is all-illuminating and hence in this state, all is visible, including the subtlest of mistakes. This awareness will increase as one's food intake and sleep decreases. Otherwise from the vantage of the relative self, it is all spiritual apathy. Too much sleep is spiritual apathy. Too much food is also spiritual apathy (pramad). Pramad is like packing and sealing 'the Self' in a dark bag.
People have no inkling or awareness of what a mistake is? Only through extraordinary independent effort (sva-parakram)
