Aptavani 01

Author(s): Dada Bhagwan
Publisher: Dada Bhagwan Foundation

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Committing suicide is a very dangerous ego. When the ego is shattered, when it gets no nourishment from anywhere, a person will commit suicide. Consequently that person binds a life of hell. The lesser the ego, the higher the life form and the greater the ego, the lower one goes.
Some exercise ego of killing and some exercise ego of saving lives. God sees both these acts as acts of egoism because nobody has the power to kill or save any living being; they are merely being egoistic in claiming to save lives. The person who saves lives incarnates to a higher life form and the one who kills will go to a lower life form. There is bondage in both for sure.
Lions have tremendous ego. A lion is the king of the animal world. He has wandered through all cycles of births and found happiness nowhere. Finally in his current life form, he goes around venting his ego through his roars and wails in the jungle. He desires to be free but does not find the right path. It is very difficult to find the right path and what is more, it is even more difficult to encounter the giver of liberation. Countless circumstances come together and dissipate but only the circumstance of an encounter with a Gnani will give you the permanent solution.
Satisfying The Ego What you see around you is not sansar (the worldly life). The ego itself is worldly life. In such a world what is wrong if nothing is satisfied? If a man has borrowed five hundred rupees from you and when the time comes for him to return the money he does not do so. Your ego remains unsatisfied. To satisfy your ego you file a lawsuit, but if that man comes to you pleading and weeping and gets down on his knees to you, your ego becomes satisfied and so you will let him go.
slightest dislike for the state he is in. Even a pauper has attachment for his hut and finds happiness in it because of his ego. Ultimately, through his ego he will find happiness in it because he feels he is better off than the dogs and the animals in the street. Whatever happiness a person acquires through his ego, his ego will not let him feel dislike towards it.
The ego creates division and factions. The Gnani is egoless. Division and factions come together in the presence of a Gnani. To rule by creating division and factions is the job of an egotist. Sensitiveness And Atkan (get stuck): Spiritual Roadblock
Some people are very sensitive. Sensitiveness is a direct expression of ego. If there is a discussion going on and I ask a question and someone speaks out in the middle; that is called a sensitive ego. The predominant spiritual roadblock, related to ego is atkan. Other examples of atkan are sexual matters, greed and pride. For example a strong healthy horse stops dead in its tracks when it comes to a mosque or a graveyard; it will not move forward at all. That is called a block. Likewise in spiritual progress there are certain major blocks called atakan. Every human being has an atkan and this is the very thing that makes him wander life after life. Atkan leads to wandering and wandering leaves one hanging, neither here nor there and I rescue such persons. The ego of atakan is acceptable but not the one of sensitiveness. There is no progress as long as there is an ego of sensitiveness. Sensitiveness is present if a person becomes upset over trivial things. You can get rid of your atkan by just observing it but the ego of sensitiveness will only go if you are very forceful and vigilant in breaking it. Whatever you have brought with you from the past life is indeed what is going to come forth from within. You have to simply observe it. The Gnani has bestowed upon you the absolute light of the Self, so
This ego is such that it will not let a person entertain the