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would order their meals in the assembly hall. They enjoyed the Lord's words so much that they would not leave his side and yet today I see these very men still wandering around. They are left behind because of their desire for trivial and insignificant things.
Before anything takes place, first sprouts the desire for it. A person who wants to pass an exam will first have the desire to do so. As the obstacles get destroyed, things fall into place according to one's desires. You may have a deep desire to spend your money for satsang but what can you do? Obstacles created in your past life will prevent you from doing so even when the opportunity presents itself. Once the obstacles are destroyed, things will naturally work out according to your desires.
Desire (effect of karma) is not the same as bhaav (chintvan, deep inner intent that charges karma).
Questioner : What is the difference between desire and bhaav?
of the pratishthit atma. Both the Gnani (Self-Realized) and Agnani (Non Self-realized), have a pratishthit atma. In the agnani the bhaav is in the form of a strong mental resolve. He strongly resolves (does a bhaav) that he will do pratikraman and so his dravya (effect) is created accordingly. Now out of this dravya emerges another bhaav.
Questioner : What is bhaavmun (internal subtle mind, intent mind) and dravyamun (physical mind, effect mind)?
Dadashri : When the pratishthit atma does bhaav, it is the beginning of the bhaavmun (subtle mind, cause mind) and because of this, dravyamun (physical mind, effect mind) is formed. Actually, there are two kinds of mind : discharge and charge.
Really speaking the bhaavmun (intemal subtle causal mind) is the direct charging part of the pratishthit atma. The dravyamun (physical mind, effect mind) that you see is a discharge. The charging part cannot be seen, felt or known. Indeed if charging was such that a person could understand it, would he even let it occur? Everyone would be liberated! But bhaav is such that it cannot be detected. If anyone were to discover it, he would seal it up immediately. Only a handful of people understand bhaav but even then they understand it to be that of the ignorant soul and consequently confuse the whole issue. Bhaav cannot be comprehended without Gnan. It is extremely subtle. One can say 'subtle' a hundred thousand times over and still there would be no end of its subtlety.
The pure Self does not have bhaav. It is separate and beyond bhhav. Bhaav means existence and it belongs to the one who projects, the pratishthit atma. People create bhaav towards what they like; they continue to have likes and dislikes. The likes and the dislikes really belong to the pratishthit atma and that is what binds karma. They do bhaav for transient things and
Dadashri : This bail of cotton lying here is innocuous but when you light it with a match, that is desire. Desire is a living fire and it will continue to burn until it is satisfied. Desire is to light a fire to anything, and it will keep burning within you. My state is such that I do not even have a match to light anything.
Emerging desires and diminishing desires are charging desires and discharging' desires respectively. Drinking and eating are diminishing or discharging desires: they are not harmful but emerging or charging desires cause bondage and will create torment within you.
What is Bhaav? The pure Self has no bhaav. The bhaav we refer to is that
