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I am the Soul
he was listening to the voice of his soul. He began to think. Who am I? The mind repeatedly uttered – who am I? There was no answer forthcoming, but the feeling arose that I am somebody different, somebody independent. What is this “I”? In spite of not knowing what the answer to this question could be, he began to feel good that the question itself had arisen. And he lost track of time in that thought.
It was long since three hours had gone past. Now he was anxious to take the second dose. There was a feeling of peace within. He knew that this was not medicine, but a blessing. He opened the second packet and read. There was a beautiful statement in it - “Try reaching back!” Where shall I turn back from? He realised after a while that, his friend knew his past and wanted him to turn to the past. Sometimes the past is for forgetting while at others it is for remembering. In Arthur's case too, it was the same. His past was worth taking a lesson from. He began to think.
He was a child of a poor widow. They were four brothers and sisters. Never having enough to eat or wear. Yet they were living the joys of a guileless life. In the entire year, the only time they ate well was on Christmas day when they had cake. That morning their mother would bake a cake. In the evening, that would be cut into four and only one would be available to each of them. But the joy of that moment would be there for the entire day. Arthur remembered that day. Aha! The joy that the little piece of cake contained! How tasty it used to be! Today I can get all sorts of cuisine. There is no taste, no interest, no hunger, no satisfaction. Why so? Why is there no joy even after attaining wealth? The happiness and joy that were present when I was poor are not to be seen today. It is proved that there is no happiness in wealth. Wealth is not the reason for happiness.
Arthur was disillusioned. Until now he had wasted away in pursuit of wealth. He had forgotten everything, and without
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