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... the form of pure chetana!
The jiva pursuing the three gems becomes chetanavant with the contact of chetana. Jiva is chaitanya and chaitanya is jiva. There is no jiva independent of chaitanya. Apart from the jiva, chaitanya is found nowhere else. But the jiva stuck in the inanimate world does not experience this chaitanya.
Once the jiva faces the self, then it experiences that it is pure chetan. Its affection with par feelings is overcome. The feeling of possession in the company of par pudgals is swept away. It becomes totally aloof. It begins to sway in the bliss of its own knowledge. It gets immersed in the wonderful and marvellous bliss.
The fortunate disciple has had the touch of pure chetana. With the experience of the chaitanya his feelings of ego and possessiveness in par have diminished. He has overcome the karta-bhokta feelings. That is why he is telling the Gurudev, 'My natural disposition of knowledge had been involved with the par, in trying to know the pudgals. It has now come away from there and has begun to transform into sensing the nijabhava and atmananda. As a result I am now fully convinced that I am not the karta-bhokta, and have recognised the akarta feeling residing in my pure true form.'
'Indeed, if the karta-bhokta feeling can be attached to me from any viewpoint, it can only be in the pure form of my chetana, and in nothing else'. He says -
अथवा निज परिणाम जे, शुद्ध चेतनारूप; कर्ता - भोक्ता तेहनो, निर्विकल्प स्वरूप
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The feelings of the chetan when it is getting transformed within its natural state are always in the form of pure chetana. There is no element of impurity in it. There is only the sensitivity of the own feelings of the jiva. The natural disposition of the
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