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I am the Soul joy from within the self. It has no state other than the state of self experience.
Ordinarily man tries to seek out devices of entertainment while retiring. He tries to find ways of passing time. Man has never learnt to find happiness without some device or apparatus. If nothing is available he takes recourse to delving into thoughts of remembering the past or imagining the future. He spends hours together in such thoughts, but cannot go into the self for even a moment. He cannot derive the experience of the atma from the self. How can one who has never experienced the joy of the atma, ever find joy in the state of retirement?
Here it is the matter of a sadhaka with samakit who has already experienced the joy of the self, for his complete inner state is now detached from the entire material world and engrossed in the own atma. Once the deep experience of the own atma is realised, then there is an insatiable thirst for tasting it again and again. That is why that jiva yearns to secure the moments of retirement, which would take it beyond the sansar. The moment retirement is secured; the flow of its application begins to abound in the experience of the true original disposition. Thus in the inner self of such sadhaka, the anubhava dhara in nivrutti dasha (the flow of experience in the state of retirement) abounds.
For a jiva in the material world, there are very few moments of retirement available. Since there are labels such as body etc, the jiva has to get involved in their activities. When a samakiti jiva is involved with the activities of the body etc., its attention remains in the true original disposition of the self. It certainly knows that the bodily and other activities are not its own; they are not my duties. I am but the bodiless atma. I am a substance beyond the senses. There is no place for such activities in the true disposition of the atma. But this atma is possessing a body. That is why the activities of the body need to be done. But that is
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