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believes down to the core that had the Sadguru not given the Bodha, had such a perfect motivation not been available, then 'I would not have developed such an eligibility that would help me attain samyaktva'. Therefore the first benevolence is of the Gurudev. To express his gratitude, he says -
'I did acquire the unique realisation of the atma, but it was with the blessings of the Sadgurudeva. The sat that was awake within the Sadgurudeva became the motivation for the awakening of the sat in my self. Otherwise this would not have been possible.'
Brothers! Even the scriptures say that the jiva, which is Mithyatvi from infinite time, attains samyaktva only through its own tremendous effort. But if there is not direct yoga of the Sadguru, if there is no surrender - adhigama in the form of the Sadguru, then it never occurs. Adhigama has to be present first. Therefore, the benevolence of the Sadguru is limitless. There has to be a feeling of gratitude towards him. That is why, the disciple first remembers the benevolence of the Gurudev and then says, 'A never before realisation occurred'. A unique realisation of what? A realisation that had not occurred until now!
जे स्वरूप समज्या विना पाम्यो दुःख अनंत 'Having been ignorant of that true form, I have suffered infinite sorrow' - that state of ignorance, about the own true form, which has led to the suffering of infinite sorrows of this infinite world. The jiva is always aware of all the subjects in this world from the very beginning, yet it is unaware of its own true form. Being in the company of pudgals, it has believed itself to be pudgal, and has always wallowed in the thought that the body itself is atma. It never rose above this state, to realise that 'I am not the body'. That is why the disciple says, 'what I had not understood from infinite time, I have understood now. Not merely with the intellect, but with a realisation in the atma too.' Only one who is conscious can have
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