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I am the Soul
his wit about him. It is not possible to gather your wits in an unconscious state. If physically unconscious people are oblivious of everything, then how can those who are spiritually unconscious, be aware of anything at all?
That is why the disciple has not said, 'I have received a unique understanding, or acquired unique knowledge or gathered unique information'. No! He has said, 'A unique realisation occurred'. For until now owing to the charm of moha he had been unconsciously mistaking par for sva. He woke from this unconscious state and contemplated over the self himself, and that is how he realised the self.
With the awareness there should come a spiritual gain; did it come? Nijapada means the awareness of 'I am the soul'. Until now the feeling of atma was mixed up with the body, senses, pran, mind and intellect. Instead of 'Atma is my self', 'Atma is my own state' being the belief, the jiva was wallowing in the belief that body etc. were the self. But when the awareness of the own state was realised, first of all it was clear that I am the soul', and then that body etc. are all inanimate paryayas, not my paryayas but those of the perishable pudgals. I am indestructible.
I am an undivided unit. The many paryayas like body etc. that abound are not my form. The pudgal substance takes on many forms, it transforms into many forms. Along with it, I too have to get into that state. But I am not in that form.
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I am the chaitanya - the life-energy power in the form of chit-chamatkar - a live miracle. There is chaitanya in the infinite spaces of the atma. Not even a single space is without chaitanya. The paryayas of body etc., are all inanimate paryayas. I have become like inanimate in the company of the body etc. But being inanimate is not my nature - dharma. My dharma is the eternal sat - chaitanya.
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