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Same goes for aversion too. You will make all efforts to feed the feeling of aversion that you have for a person. You will feel pleased to see ill happen to him, hear ill about him. If you cannot spoil anything for him, and if somebody else does, you will develop a feeling of attachment for that person. Thus we feed the feeling of aversion lying within us.
So long as the feeling of feeding attachment and aversion is lying in us, the free state of atma does not manifest. The attachment for bondage further grips the bondage. How can those who have a love for bondage develop a love for freedom at all? That is why moksa bhava does not arise. And this path of attachment and aversion is the path of bondage.
If a state that can break-through these reasons occurs within, only then can the lead to moksa be caught. The state occurs naturally. Once it appears within us, it somehow finds a direction. It needs no guidance.
What is this state? Brothers! We have experienced the state of attachment and aversion. When we see a beloved person or thing, or for that matter when we even hear their name, or when we even think of them every pore in us is filled with joy, there is happiness all over, we begin to sway in happy memories. We again throw ourselves into old experiences. We lose track of the time that is lost in doing this. This is a state of attachment which the jiva easily slips into; which needs no effort at all to be awakened.
The state of aversion is equally easy to the jiva. That is why the enmity with somebody sometimes gets carried on for lives together. Even if a direct opportunity is not available, you wish such great ill in your mind for the enemy. What feelings of jealousy and hate must you be harbouring for this purpose! All these thoughts very easily awaken in the atma.
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