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I am the Soul
617 unmoving like a stone image. Why! The mice used to drink up the milk. Yet the sage was unaware. He had no feeling of resistance in the face of torture and trouble.
Such a sage was living in Maharashtra till recently. But more than 4 - 6 people did not know him. He was not even bothered that anybody should know him, salute him or pray to him. Brothers! This is secret practice - secret sadhana. He did not even have the desire to let anybody know that he was a sadhaka. There are many who while being householders or as tyagis who perform excellent sadhana. Nobody knows that they exist. Whose thoughts are the very best in physical service and spiritual pursuit? In people's view merely their service comes to be noticed, but nobody knows how deep these sages have really gone into the atma, or that they have gone into the endless depths of the atma and measured them. Outwardly they appear to be in vyavahar - activity, but inwardly they are in the atma.
Brothers! I shall mention my own experience. My great benevolent Guruniji Pujya Bapji, for whom I have the greatest respect, is also one such anatarang sadhaka. Outwardly she appears to be engrossed in interaction with the society, in her duties towards the disciples, in discourses and the like. But while in all these activities, her self is engrossed in the feeling of the atma. Her equanimity and tolerance are boundless. Today for over 32-33 years there has been the rise of ashata Vedaniya karma in her body in varying degrees. Yet she has never expressed agony or agitation. She is neither engrossed with her body nor her disciples. Just rapt in self-trance, beyond all expectations.
She had few opportunities of study and teaching, yet when the nectar like words from her take the form of a discourse, they strike a chord deep inside us. For every thought that emanates from her self-experience is so mysterious yet so simple and clear that it directly touches our alma. Brothers! Even you would have experienced how touching the thoughts which fill her discourses
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