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jiva who has managed to subdue the kashayas of anger etc. That is to say, in whom the attachment and aversion have become mild. “Having gone beyond all expectations and desires, only the endless feeling of moksa resides in the inner most self, the wandering of the material world appears tiresome; the material pleasures are all futile, only illusions of happiness; It is a happiness that is coming from behind the thin veil of sorrow; Jiva has achieved nothing in spite of enjoying it infinite number of times;' a specific indication of an inquisitive jiva, who is deliberating continuously in many such ways, has been given in this gatha.
‘Antar daya' - Shri Prabhu has ordered that there should be compassion for chhakaya jivas. In these chhakayas, the self is the first. Self is the atma. Only the one who can have compassion for the soul, can show compassion for the chhakaya. In other words this may be called svadaya - compassion for the self. So long as the jiva was in a state of attaining eligibility, it was limited to showing compassion to all living beings – pranidaya. But now that the journey has commenced on the path of moksa, the compassion for the self – svadaya or antar daya would have appeared. Such a jiva is extremely conscious of every moment, lest the atma be affected by some passionate feeling - vishaya kashaya. It is cautious every moment, lest the atma be tainted by attachment etc, lest it be pulled down by affected disposition. Such an awakened jiva is in the midst of the tremendous effort that should transform it into the state of natural disposition and as such the feelings of violence and the like begin to step out of its atma's activity. It begins to gradually see the atma in the entire universe. Then neither the defiling of the tendencies within nor the sinful feelings in the external conduct, remain.
It does not harm any jiva, and not just that it does not even hurt its feelings. Neither directly nor indirectly would the jiva be responsible for anybody's ill-being. Only the desire for the
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