Torchno Prakash

Author(s): Ratnasundarsuri
Publisher: Ratnasundarsuriji
Catalog link: https://jainqq.org/explore/008943/1

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lagna jIvanano tamAro anubhava?" 'lagna pahelAM huM siMha hato.' ane atyAre ?" atyAre paNa siMha ja chuM' to pachI phera kyAM paDyo ?" 'e ja kahuM chuM huM tamane. lagna pahelAM huM siMha hato paNa jaMgalano. jayAre atyAre huM siMha jarUra chuM paNa jaMgalano nahIM paNa sarakasano ! gharamAM pati jayAre paNa Ave, oNphisa vagerenAM kAmomAM vyasta thaI jAya. jarAka samaya maLe eTale sophAseTa para besIne ArAma kare paNa ene zAMtithI beThelo joIne enI patnI enI sAme AvIne goThavAI jAya. Azcarya e sarjAya ke patnIne sAme ja beThelI joIne pati koka ne koka copaDI vAMcavAnuM zarU karI de. eka vAra AvuM banatAnI sAthe ja patnIe hAthamAM bhagavAnano phoTo laIne prArthanA karavAnuM zarU karI dIdhuM. zenI prArthanA kare che ?" patie pUchyuM, he bhagavAna ! AvatA janamamAM tuM mane copaDI banAvaje.' patnIno A javAba sAMbhaLIne pati paNa prArthanAmAM besI gayo. 'tame zenI prArthanA karo cho ?" 'tane bhagavAna kadAca copaDI banAve to ya paMcAMga ja banAve enI !" patie javAba Apyo. sigareTanA pAkITane khIsAmAM laIne pharanAro bhale ema mAnato hoya ke huM sigareTano mAlika chuM paNa hakIkatamAM e sigareTano gulAma ja hoya che. karoDonI saMpa mAM ALoTanAro bhale potAnI jAtane saMpattino mAlika mAnato hoya paNa hakIkatamAM e lobhano gulAma ja hoya che. basa e ja nyAye lAkho rUpiyAno kharca karIne lagna bhale ne dhAmadhUmathI UjavyA hoya ane potAnI jAtane patnInA mAlika mAnato hoya paNa hakIkatamAM to e vAsanAno gulAma ja hoya che. Azcarya pedA kare evuM A gaNita che. bahArathI tamane ema lAge ke te-te cIjono ane tete vyaktiono huM mAlika chuM paNa hakIkata e hoya ke aMdarathI te-te cIjonA ane te-te vyaktionA tame gulAma ja ho. Ano tAtparyArtha? A ja ke bhoga tamane gulAma ja banAve che. sAce ja jo tame mAlika banavA mAgo cho to tyAgano mArga apanAvI levA sivAya tamArI pAse bIjo koI vikalpa ja bacato nathI. vAstavikatA A hovA chatAM karuNatA e che ke gulAma banavAnA mArga para bhIDano koI pAra nathI jyAre mAlika banAvatA mArga para ko'ka ekaladokala vyakti ja jovA maLe che. rAganI ja jyAM bolabAlA hoya che tyAM sthiratA sarvathA asaMbhivata hoya che. mAtra zarIranuM ja jyAM AkarSaNa hoya che tyAM sthira prasannatA gAyaba ja hoya che. kAraNa? rAga karanAruM mana caMcaLa che ane rAganA kendramAM raheto padArtha kSaNabhaMgura che. meghadhanuSyanA raMgo sAthenI dostImAM Akhare to pastAvAnuM ja hoya che ne ? parNa para motI jevA dekhAtA jhAkaLanA biMdu sAthenA AkarSaNamAM Akhare to raDavAnuM ja hoya che ne ? paLe paLe ghasAtA rahetA ane mota tarapha dhakelAtA rahetA zarIra pratyenA mananA kheMcANamAM Akhare to hAtha ja ghasatA rahevAnuM che A vAstavikatA jeTalI vahelI samajAI jAya eTalI prasannatA akabaMdha rahevAnI zakyatA vadhI javAnI che.

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'tuM eka kAma karI na zake ?' patie patnIne kahyuM 'zuM?' 'tane krodha jyAre paNa Ave...' 'tyAre zuM ?' 'tyAre tAre 1thI 100 sudhInA AMkaDA bolI javAnA ane pachI ja krodha karavo.' 'enAthI tamane zuM phera paDaze ?' 'ghaNo phera paDaze' zo ?' 'tuM 1 thI 100 sudhInA AMkaDA bolI rahIza tyAM sudhImAM kama se kama mane gharanI bahAra nIkaLI javAno samaya to maLI raheze ne ? lobhI lobhanA mAdhyame saMpatti meLavavAmAM saphaLa banato hoya ane enA kAraNe lobha sAthenI enI dostI aDIkhama rahetI hoya e to samajAya che. mAyAvI mAyAnA mAdhyame durjana hovA chatAM potAnI jAtane sajjana hovAnuM puravAra karI zakato hovAnA kAraNe mAyA sAthenI enI mahobbata aDIkhama rahetI hoya e ya samajAya che. abhimAnIno potAnI zakti pradarzananA kAraNe sarvatra vaTa paDato hoya ane enA kAraNe abhimAna pratye enI kUNI lAgaNI rahetI hoya e ya samajAya che. paNa, krodhI krodhanA mAdhyame saMbaMdha kSetre, svasthatA kSetre, saMpatti kSetre, samAdhi kSetre, svajana kSetre, sadguNa kSetre satata nukasAnImAM ja Utarato jato hoya che ane chatAM e krodhanuM punarAvatana karato ja rahe che enuM kAraNa samajAtuM nathI. krodhanI asarakArakatA zuM enI vinAzakatA jovA nahIM detI hoya ? ApaNA gharamAM je paNa mahemAna Ave che e tamAmane tame lagna vakhate paherelo syuTa batAvyA karo cho enI pAchaLa koI kAraNa che ?' patnIe patine pUchyuM, 'dha' 'zuM kAraNa che ?' "e jANavAno Agraha tuM na rAkhe to sAruM che' 'nA. mAre e jANavuM ja che' 'to sAMbhaLI le. dareka mahemAnane syuTa batAvIne huM aTakI nathI jato paNa sAthosAtha acUka kahuM chuM ke mArA jIvanamAM duHkhanI zarUAta A kapaDAM paheryA tyArathI thaI che.' patie ThaMDe kaleje javAba ApI dIdho. kAcanA TukaDAne mANase 'hIrA'nuM lebala lagAvyuM hoya evuM sAMbhaLavAmAM nathI AvyuM. kAgaLanA TukaDAne mANase pa nI 'noTa'nuM lebala lagAvyuM hoya evuM ya sAMbhaLavAmAM nathI AvyuM. saDI gayela lAkaDAne mANase AkarSaka pharnicaranI upamA kyAreya nathI ApI. pa vAsanAne 'prema'nuM lebala lagAvI daIne mANase je nukasAnI veThI eno to jagatamAM joTo jaDe ema nathI. A jUThA lebalane vaphAdAra rahevA mATe eNe eTaeTalI vyaktio sAthe bevaphAI AcarI che ke jenuM varNana karavuM zakya nathI. bAkI, prema to attaranuM pratinidhitva dharAve che. enI upasthiti chatAM udvegano, ukaLATano anubhava thAya ? kalezanI durgaMdha ane saMklezano gaMdavADa anubhavavA ane jovA maLe ? saMgharSa ane samasyAnA kAdavamAM kharaDAvAnuM bane ? sAvadhAna ! vAsanAne 'vAsanA' tarIke oLakhI lo. mananI saMkhyAbaMdha uttejanAo ApoApa zAMta thaI jaze.

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'tArA pati sAthe tuM pharavA gaI hoya ane tane duHkhano anubhava thayo hoya evo prasaMga tArA jIvanamAM banyo che kharo?' piyara Avela patnIne enI bahenapaNIe pUchayuM. 'hA. eka vakhata evuM banyuM che' 'kyAre ?" patie mane kahyuM hatuM ke huM Aje tArA para khuza chuM. tuM kahe e dukAnamAM ApaNe kharIdI mATe jaIe.' "pachI?" emane sADInI dukAnamAM laI gaI." 'emaNe tane sADI na apAvI ?" | 'apAvI ne?" to pachI duHkha zenuM thayuM ?" sADIne badale huM emane jhaverAtanI dukAnamAM na laI gaI enuM patnIeniHsAso nAkhatA javAba Apyo. bahena, tamArI sAthe A koNa che?' DaoNkTare pUchyuM, mArA pati che' 'emane ahIM sAthe kema lAvyA cho ?" kema zuM vAMdho che?' 'tamane kadAca khyAla na hoya to jaNAvuM ke A strIonA rogo mATenuM ja davAkhAnuM che.' mane eno khyAla che" 'toya tame emane sAthe lAvyA cho?" kAraNa?' strIomAM je roga hoya che peTamAM koI paNa vAta na TakavAno' e roga emane lAgu paDyo che." icchAnuM zarIra eTaluM badhuM moTuM che ke AkhI duniyAnAM kapaDAMthI ya e DhaMkAya tevuM nathI. vAsanAnI Aga evI vikarALa che ke AkhI duniyAnI sAmagrInA jaLathI ya e zAMta thAya tevI nathI. icchAno khADo eTalo badho UMDo che ke jagata AkhAnI badhI ja saMpattithI e purAya tevo nathI. sAce ja jIvanane pavitra ane manane prasanna rAkhavuM che? jIvo sAthenA kalezathI ane mananA saMkalezathI sAce ja bacatA rahevuM che ? asaMtoSa ane atRptinI AgamAM manane zekAtuM aTakAvavuM che? eka ja kAma karo. icchApUrtinA prayAso para pUrNavirAma mUkI do. tRSNAnI AjJA mAnavAnI manane spaSTa nA pADI do. taLiyA vinAnA vAsanAnA khapparane zAMta karavAnA pAgalapanathI manane mukta karI do. peTamAM anna kaI rIte TakI jAya enI mANasa kALajI bhale karato hoya paraMtu kokanA jIvana aMge sAMbhaLelI halakI vAta, nabaLI vAta, gaMdI vAta ke khAnagI vAta vahelAmAM vahelI take kokane kahI devAnI mANasanI (ku)Tevano to koI joTo jaDe tema nathI. karuNatA to e che ke mANasa kyAMka sAruM jue che ke kokanA jIvana aMge sAruM sAMbhaLe che to e vAta e potAnA peTamAM ja rAkhI mUke che. paNa nabaLuM eNe joyuM nathI ke sAMbhaLyuM nathI ane e vAtane prasAravAnI utAvaLa eNe karI nathI. gaTaranuM baMdha DhAMkaNuM khulluM karato rahe ane attaranI khullI rahela bATalInuM DhAMkaNuM baMdha karato rahe evo mANasa jo sarvatra apriya ja banato raheto hoya che to sArI vAtane dabAvato rahe ane gaMdI vAtone phelAvato rahe e mANasa apriya kadAca nahIM paNa banato hoya to ya apAtra to banato ja rahe che.

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sAMbhaLyuM che ke tame sauMdaryaprasAdhana kaMpanI sAme korTamAM kesa dAkhala karyo che. vAta sAcI ?" 'tamArI uMmara?' '40 varasanI' 'lagna?' 'nathI karyA" vaiirAgI cho?" zI bAbatano kesa karyo che?" chetarapIMDIno' 'tamArI sAthe chetarapIMDI thaI?" paNa zI rIte ?" rUpavatI samajIne meM je strI sAthe lagna karyA e strI hakIkatamAM rUpavatI che ja nahIM, kurUpa ja che. huM ene pahelI vAra jovA gayo tyAre eNe caherA para je sauMdarya upasAvyuM hatuM e sauMdarya mATe eNe sauMdarya prasAdhana kaMpanInAM sAdhanono upayoga karyo hato. A mArI sAthe chetarapIMDI nathI to bIjuM zuM che?" patie Akroza ThAlavyo. to pachI lagna na karavAnuM koI kAraNa to haze ne?" hA. mAre evI strI joItI hatI ke je sarvAMgasuMdara hoya' evI eka paNa strI na maLI ?' be varasa pahelAM eka strI evI maLI kharI paNa eNe mArI sAthe lagna karavAnI nA pADI dIdhI.' kAraNa?" 'e sarvAMgasuMdara puruSanI zodhamAM hatI." ziyALa para vizvAsa rAkhavAmAM sasaluM kadAca nahIM paNa chetarAtuM hoya, kAgaDA para bharoso rAkhavAmAM koyala kadAca mAra nahIM paNa khAtI hoya, durjana para bharoso mUkavAmAM sajjanane kadAca herAna nahIM paNa thavuM paDatuM hoya. paNa. rAga para jeNe paNa vizvAsa mUkyo, rAganAM darzanane jeNe paNa sAcuM mAnyuM, rAgane jeNe paNa potAnA jIvanano salAhakAra banAvyo, rAganI jeNe paNa potAnA hRdayamAM jigarajAna mitra tarIkenI pratiSThA karI dIdhI e mANase jIvanamAM mAre na khAdho hoya, hAra na khAdhI hoya, poke poke AMkhamAMthI AMsu vahAvyA na hoya evuM bhUtakALamAM kyAreya banyuM nathI, vartamAnamAM banatuM nathI ane bhaviSyamAM kyAreya banavAnuM paNa nathI ! jIvanane salAmata rAkhavuM che? rAgathI sAvadha raho ! mArI apUrNatA mane dekhAya ja nahIM ane chatAM sAmAnI pUrNatA aMgenA mArA AgrahamAM TasanA masa thavA huM taiyAra na thAuM to mArA lamaNe asaMtoSa ane uga na jhIMkAya to bIjuM thAya zuM? peTanA dardIne mastakanA dardI pratye sahAnubhUti hoya che. kaeNnsaranA rogIne hRdayarogI, pratye hamadardI hoya che. lakavAgrastane apaMga pratye premabhAva hoya che paraMtu koNa jANe kema paNa krodhIne abhimAnI pratye tiskAra ja jAgato hoya che, lobhIne mAyAvI pratye dveSa ja pedA thato rahe che, dhanalaMpaTane vAsanAlaMpaTa dITho ya nathI gamato. duSpariNAma AnuM e Ave che ke maitrI, kSamA ane prema A badhAya zubhabhAvo mAtra zabdonA viSaya ja banyA rahe che, anubhavanA viSaya banatA ja nathI. jIvana uttama ane anubhavo adhama e jIvananI mAmUlI karuNatA to nathI ja ne?

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lagna pachI tAruM zarIsa sukAI gayuM hoya evuM lAge che" eka mitre bIjA mitrane pUchyuM. roja haoNTalamAM jamavuM paDe che' kema bhAbhIne rasoI banAvatA AvaDatuM nathI ?" rasoI to sarasa banAvI zake che paNa ene rasoI banAvavI ja nathI. zuM karuM ?" strIonA svabhAvane samajavo azakya ja che' 'tAro koI anubhava ?" tArI bhAbhInI ja vAta le ne? ene rasoI banAvatA AvaDatI ja nathI ane chatAM rasoI e banAvyuM ja jAya che ane enI banAvelI bekAra rasoI mane khavaDAvye ja jAya che. mArI tabiyata eNe Ama ja khalAsa karI nAkhI che" bIjA mitre haiyAvarALa ThAlavI. 'tamAre kAMI joIe che ?' patnIe patine pUchyuM, nA. kema?' 'A to kyAranA ya tame kaMIka zodhyA karatA ho evuM mane lAgyuM eTale meM pUchyuM nA. kAMI nathI.' 'jo kAMI ja nathI to chellA eka kalAkathI hAthamAM lagna karAvyAnuM sarTiphikeTa laIne zA mATe UbhA cho?" kahuM tane ?' kahI do ne! vilaMba zuM kAma karo cho?" sarTiphikeTamAM joI rahyo chuM ke." "ke?" "emAM lagna kyAre samApta thAya che (EXPIRY DATE) enI koI tArIkha lakhI che ke nahIM?" TopI sarasa maLe ane lamaNe mastaka bekAra jhIMkAyuM hoya, rUpa AkarSaka maLyuM hoya ane patnI amAsanA aMdhakAranuM pratinidhitva dharAvatI hoya, inAmamAM jhaverAta maLyuM hoya ane rahevAnuM jhUMpaDAmAM hoya, bhAI cAra copaDI bhaNyA hoya ane bhAbhInA gaLAmAM ema.e.pI.eca.DI. no svarNacandraka laTakato hoya, bhAbhInA kaMTha sAme kAgaDo ya jatI jato hoya ane bhAInA kaMTha pAse anupa jaloTAne ya potAnI hAra svIkArI levI paDatI hoya, phoTAne vartamAnapatromAM sthAna maLatuM hoya ane eksa-re smazAnagRhamAM pahoMcADavAnI AgAhI karato hoya, vicAro AsamAnamAM UDavAnA cAlatA hoya ane AcaraNe samudramAM DubADI devA taiyAra hoya. AvA jAtajAtanAM ane bhAtabhAtanAM kajoDAMothI bharelo A saMsAra che. ahIM mananI prasannatA TakAvI rAkhavAnA traNa ja vikalpo che-svIkArabhAva, samAdhAnabhAva ane sahakArabhAva. ApaNI pAse enuM svAmitva kharuM ? chUTAcheDA' 'saMbaMdha viccheda' 'judAI' saMsAranI A ja to vyAkhyA che. pANInA eka parapoTAno bIjA parapoTA sAthe tame saMbaMdha bAMdho, thAya zuM? meghadhanuSyanA raMgone saMdhyAnA raMgo sAthe dostI thaI jAya, enuM TakAupaNuM rahevAnuM keTaluM ? vahetI nadIne caMcaLa pavana sAthe prIta thaI jAya, eno aMjAma AvavAno zuM? asthira, AgrahI ane apekSAsabhara eka manavALo, evA ja eka bIjA manavALA sAthe jIvanabhara sAthe ja rahevAnA kola-karAra kare ane evA ja manavALA banyA rahIne e kola-karArane nibhAvavAnA prayAso kare to emAM emane baMnene saphaLatA maLe kharI ? rAma rAma karo rAma rAma ! saMbaMdhanI sthiratA ane nirmaLatA, e baMne to AbhArI che anAgrahavRttine, apekSArahitavRttine ane niHsvArthavRttine. rAgakendrita saMbaMdhamAM A traNa vRtti tame kyAMthI lAvI zakazo ?

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'tame pharI atre kema AvyA ?' dardIne DaoNkTare pUchyuM, 'eka vAta karavI che' bolo' meM ApanI davA to lIdhI, e davAthI mane sAruM paNa thaI gayuM paraMtu Ape ApanI je phI mArI pAsethI lIdhI che e phI vadhu hoya evuM lAge che' 'koNe kahyuM ?' 'mArI patnI ema kahe che' 'eka vAta pUchuM ?' 'zuM ?' "jo paisA karatA tamane tamArI kiMmata vadhu lAgatI hoya to mArI phI ochI che ane tamArA karatA paisAnI kiMmata tamArI patnIne vadhu lAgatI hoya to mArI phI vadhu che. tamane zuM lAge che ? hA. mANasanuM zarIra bhale ne prANavAyunA AdhAre TakatuM hoya, mANasanuM jIvana to Aje paisAnA AdhAre ja jANe ke TakI rahyuM che ! lagna karavAnA che ? paisA jAIze. koka yuvatI para baLAtkAra thayo che? ene paisAnuM vaLatara cUkavavAmAM Avaze ! patnIne chUTAcheDA ApavA che ? bharaNapoSaNa peTe tamAre ene dara mahine rUpiyA 2000 cUkavavA paDaze. phaeNkTarImAM kAma karatAM karatAM kArIgarano hAtha mazInamAM AvI javAnA kAraNe kapAI gayo che ema ne ? zeTha taraphathI ene be lAkha rUpiyA cUkavI devAmAM Avaze. relvemAM thaI gayela eNksiDanTamAM garIba bApe potAno ekano eka yuvA dIkaro gumAvI dIdho che, emane ? sarakAra mA-bApa taraphathI ene vaLatara peTe pAMca lAkha rUpiyA cUkavavAmAM Avaze ! TUMkamAM, gADIne doDAvavI che ne ? peTrolane hAjara rAkho. jIvanane calAvavuM che ane TakAvavuM che ne ? paisA hAjara rAkho. A che AjanA jamAnAnI tAsIra ! 11 'dosta ! tuM amerikA jAya che ?' 'javAno hato...' 'mAMDI vALyuM ?' 'nA. mulatavI rAkhyuM ?' 'eTale ?' 'tA. 31 jAnyuArInA roja javAno hato enA badale 4 phebruArInA roja javAnuM nakkI rAkhyuM.' 'kAraNa ?' '2 phebruArInA roja tArA lagna nakkI thayA che ne ?' 'dha' 'ApattinA samaye sAthe na rahuM to huM tAro mitra zAno ? basa, A hisAbe ja amerikA javAnI tArIkhamAM meM pheraphAra karyo che. thiyeTaramAMthI pikcara joIne bahAra AvatA darzakone thiyeTaranI bahAra Ubhelo yuvaka e pikcara jovA jatAM pahelAM eka vAra pUchI to le ja che ke "dosta ! pikcara kevuM che?' jo darzakano pikcara mATeno abhiprAya moLo maLe che ke bekAra maLe che to e yuvaka pikcara jovAnuM mAMDI ja vALe che. kAza ! A ja prayoga lagnajIvanamAM pravezavA mAgatA yuvaka-yuvatIo lagnajIvanamAM pravezI cUkelAM pati-patnI pAse karatA hota ! kadAca saMkhyAbaMdha muzkelIothI ane saMtApothI potAnA jIvanane ane manane bacAvI levAmAM teone acUka saphaLatA maLata ! paNa sabUra ! gheTAMonuM ToLuM kyAreya AgaLa cAlI rahela gheTAnA anubhavane jANavA taiyAra jo hotuM nathI to vAsanAbhUkhyA jIvo vAsanApUrtinA mArga para kadama mAMDI cUkelAnA anubhavane jANavA zuM taiyAra thAya ? 12

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'tame Aje kAna kholIne sAMbhaLI lo' 'dosta ! eka vAtanI tArI pAse mAphI mAgavI che' zenI?" 'tArI gerahAjarImAM...' chellA eka mahinAthI huM tamane roja yAda karAvI rahI chuM ke mArA mATe eka sarasa sADI letA Avajo paNa tame hajI sudhI mane sADI lAvI ApI nathI. jo Aje paNa tame sADI nathI lAvyA to...' to zuM?" to huM mArA piyara cAlI jaIza' eka kAma karIza?" piyara jaIne tuM pAchI Ave tyAre mArA mATe eka syuTanuM sarasa kapaDuM laI Avaje.' 'tArA nAme Avela bhAbhInuM kavara meM bhUlamAM phoDI nAkhyuM che. alabatta, emAM rahela kAgaLa meM vAMcyo nathI paNa mAre e kavara phoDavA jevuM to nahotuM ja ne?" kyAM che e kavara ?" A rahyuM le, vAMcI le emAMno kAgaLa.' ane mitre e kAgaLa hAthamAM laIne joyo to e stabdha thaI gayo. kAgaLa bilakula koro hato. 'A kAgaLa to sAva koro ja che!" koro ja hoya ne! tArI bhAbhIne ane mAre chellA eka varasathI Ameya bolavA vyavahAra che ja kyAM ?" manane Ama to rAkSasa, dAvAnaLa, daitya, vAvAjhoDuM , bhUkaMpa, pralaya vagere jAtajAtanI upamAo ApavAmAM AvI che paNa ene sauthI vadhu mAphaka Ave evI koI upamA hoya to e upamA che 'smazAna'nI. smazAnamAM tame lAkho zabonA agnisaMskAra karI nAkho. e kAyama bhUkhyuM ane atRpta ja rahevAnuM. bIjAM karoDo zabInA agnisaMskAra karI nAkhyA pachI ya enI hAlatamAM koI ja sudhAro nahIM thavAno. basa, manane tame ApI do cakravartInuM sAmrAjya, abajonI saMpatti ke karoDo strIo. e kAyama mATe bhUkhyuM ane atRpta ja rahevAnuM. jo tame enI salAhanA AdhAre jIvana jIvavA gayA to nizcita samajI rAkhajo ke e tamArA jIvanane naraka banAvIne ja raheze. jIvanane svarga banAvavAno eka ja vikalpa che. mananI mAMgane pUrI karavAnI nA pADI do. ahaMnI eka khAsiyata khyAlamAM che? e duHkhI thavA taiyAra rahe che paNa jhUkI javA taiyAra nathI raheto. jAtane kendramAM rAkhIne e duzmano vadhArato rahe che paNa mitro vadhAratA rahevA e paridhi para Ubho rahI javA taiyAra nathI thato. yAda rAkhajo . ahaMnuM mULa pota to lIMbunuM che. saMbaMdhanA dUdhamAM dAkhala thato rahIne e saMbaMdhane phADato ja rahe che. saMbaMdhamAM khaTAza pedAza karato rahIne saMbaMdhane e besvAda banAvato ja rahe che. sabaMdhanI vacce Ubho rahIne saMbaMdhIne e bhayabhIta banAvato rahe che. - sAce ja jIvanamAM mitrabhAva, premabhAva ane kSamAbhAvanI pratiSThA thayelI ja rahe evuM iccho cho ? to ahaMbhAvane manamAM sthAna ApavAnI nA ja pADI do.

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premalagna karI cUkelo eka yuvAna enA jigarajA mitra sAthe - ke jeNe goThavelA lagna karyA hatA-bagIcAmAM pharavA gayo hato. baMne jaNA eka bAMkaDA para beThA hatA ane tyAM e baMneno eka kaoNlejakALano mitra AvI caDyo ke jenAM lagna thayA ja nahotA. 'tamane eka prazna pUchavo che" bola' 'tamArI daSTie lagna kayA sArA? premalagna ke goThavelAM lagna ?' 'tAro A prazna to evo che ke tuM amane pUcha ke mAre kaI rIte maravuM vadhu sAruM? paMkhA para laTakI jaIne ke pachI gADInA pATA nIce jhukAvI daIne ? amAre tane javAba zo Apavo? "DaoNkTara! tabayitamAM koI ja sudhAro nathI' "zuM vAta karo cho?" 'bilakula sAcuM ja kahuM chuM. peTa hajI ya bhAre rahe che ane sustI to zarIramAMthI javAnuM nAma ja nathI letI." 'tame khAdhuM zuM?' 'Ape kahyA pramANe haLavo khorAka ja lIdho che" 'to ya zuM e to kaho' gAMThiyA-jalebI-kacorI' A haLavo khorAka kahevAya?' nahitara zuM? kAraNa ke A badhAya tela-ghI upara ja taratA hoya che ne? jo haLavA na hoya to tarI ja zI rIte zake ? dardInA A tarkano DaoNkTara pAse koI javAba ja nahoto. khabara thI paDatI ke AkarSaNanA zarUAtanA tabakkAmAM eka-bIjA vinA na jIvI zakavAnI vAto karatA daMpatI khUba alpa samayamAM eka-bIjA sAthe jIvavA rAjI kema nahIM rahetA hoya ? saMbaMdha emane akArA baMdhana jevo kema lAgavA mAMDato haze ? premanuM sthAna hRdayano dhikkArabhAva kema laI leto haze? eka ja kAraNa lAge che. aparicayanA kALamAM sukha mATenI je kalpanA manamAM sAkAra thaI hoya che e badhI ja kalpanAnuM vAstavika paricayanA kALamAM saMpUrNa bASpIbhavana thaI javAnA kAraNe ja premanA sthAne dhikkArabhAva pratiSThita thaI jato haze. cAMdInA caLakatA sikkAnI kalpanA karIne hAthamAM uThAvela vastu e cAMdIno sikko nathI paNa koke ghUMkI kADhelo baLakho ja che enI spaSTa pratIti thaI gayA bAda cAMdInA sikkAnI kalpanAnuM sukha keTalA samaya sudhI TakavAnuM che? re saMsAra ! tuM kalpanAmAM ja 'puSpa" che. bAkI vAstavika svarUpe to tuM 'kaMTaka' ja che ! vezyAno tame koInI ya sAthe sthira saMbaMdha prasthApita karI zako to ja tame tarkano ya koka padArtha sAthe ke prasaMga sAthe sthira saMbaMdha prasthApita karI zako. vezyA mATe ema kahI zakAya ke eka bAju e koInI ya nahIM to bIjI bAju e badhAyanI. basa, tarka mATe paNa ema ja kahI zakAya ke eka bAju e koIno ya nahIM ane bIjI bAju e badhAyano. AvA tarkane jeNe paNa potAnA jIvanamAM agrima sthAna ApI dIdhuM, tarka AdhArita jeNe potAnI jIvanazailI banAvI dIdhI e AtmA tathyathI kAyama mATe dUra dhakelAI gayo. sIDInuM mAdhyama agAzI sudhI pahoMcavA mATe barAbara che paNa sIDI e agAzI to nathI ja. tathya sudhI pahoMcavA tarkano upayoga jarUra karIe paNa sAthosAtha e vAta yAda rAkhIe ke tarka e tathya to nathI ja !

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'paNa tame A zaM karo cho ?' patnIe patine pUchyuM, 'kema, darpaNa sAme Ubho chuM.' 'zenA mATe ?' 'darpaNa sAme koI zenA mATe UbhuM rahetuM haze, eTalI ya tane akkala nathI ?' akkala che eTale to pUchuM chuM kAraNa ke darpaNa sAme UbhA to cho paNa AMkha to tame tamArI baMdha ja rAkhI che !' 'samajIne baMdha rAkhI che' 'eTale ?' 'AMkha baMdha hoya tyAre huM kevo lAguM chuM, e mAre jANavuM che eTale huM AMkha baMdha rAkhIne darpaNa sAme Ubho chuM' pati mahAzaye hasatA hasatA javAba Apyo ! AtmanirIkSaNa e ja to adhyAtma jagatanuM darpaNa che. adhyAtmanA mArga para atyAre tame kyAM UbhA cho enI ekadama spaSTa jANakArI e tamane ApIne ja rahe che paNa duHkhada vAstavikatA e sarjAI che ke mANasa saMkhyAbaMdha sAdhanAo karavA taiyAra che; paraMtu AtmanirIkSaNa karavA taiyAra nathI. tapanI sAdhanA to barAbara che ane anivArya paNa che; paraMtu e mArge AhArasaMjJAnuM jora keTaluM ghaTyuM e jovuM to paDaze ja ne ? prabhudarzana-vaMdana-pUjana pachI mananI prasannatA keTalI vadhI enI tapAsa karavI to paDaze ja ne ? sAmAyikanI sAdhanAe hRdayamAM samatvabhAvanI pratiSThA keTalI karI e jovuM to paDaze ja ne ? yAda rAkhajo, kurUpa mANasa darpaNano jema duzmana hoya che tema bogasa sAdhaka AtmanirIkSaNano duzmana hoya che. ApaNo naMbara emAM na lAgI jAya enI pUrI takedArI rAkhIe. 17 "alyA bhAI ! A te zI mAMDI che ?' 'kema, zuM thayuM ?' 'tArI TaeNksImAM besatA pahelAM ame tArI pAse 60kilomITarathI vadhu jhaDape TaksI nahIM calAvavAnuM vacana lIdhuM che ane tuM to atyAre 100 kilomITaranI jhaDape TaeNksI bhagAvI rahyo che !' 'e vinA chUTako ja nathI' 'kema?' TaeNksInI breka pheIla thaI gaI che. eTale aMdhAruM thAya e pahelAM huM tamane tamArA lakSyasthAne pahoMcADI devA mAguM chuM' TaeNksI DrAivare javAba Apyo. pAponuM sevana koka bhavomAM thaI gayuM hatuM mATe to A bhavamAM duHkho AvyA. have e duHkhone dUra karavA jo pApono rasto ja pasaMda karavAno hoya to pachI eno artha to e ja thayo ne ke AvatA janamamAM duHkhone AvavAnuM ApaNe sAme caDIne AmaMtraNa ApI dIdhuM. saMsAramAM AtmAnI anaMtakALathI cAlI rahela rakhaDapaTTInuM A ja to mULa che. pApasevanathI AvelA duHkhane dUra karavA to AtmAe pApano rasto lIdho ja; paraMtu dharmasevanathI maLela sukhanA samayamAM paNa AtmAe karyAM to pApo ja ! TUMkamAM, sAmagrI AtmAne sukhanI maLI ke saMyogo AtmA para duHkhanA AvyA, AtmAnI pasaMdagI to pApanA rastA para ja rahI. breka 'pheIla' thaI gaI hoya tyAre gADI UbhI ja rAkhI devI paDe. jIvanamAM duHkho AvyA hoya tyAre pApo sthagita ja karI devA paDe eTaluM A jIvane kema samajAtuM nahIM hoya e ja samajAtuM nathI ! 18

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'pappA ! eka prazna pUchuM ?' 'pUcha' "ATalA badhA yuvAno A medAna para eka sAthe doDI kema rahyA che ?' 'doTanI harIphAI che' 'emAM zuM thaze ?' 'je jItaze ene 'kapa' maLaze' 'ekane ja ' 'hA' jo kapa ekane ja maLavAno hoya to pachI ATalA badhA e doDavAnI jarUra zI che ?' bALakanA A praznano enA pappA pAse koI javAba nahoto. tame koI paNa kUtarAne kyAreya cAlato joyo kharo ? nA. kUtaro haMmezAM doDato ja hoya che. basa, A yugane koI eka ja nAma ApavuM hoya to ApI zakAya ke A 'doyuga' che. ahIM tame iccho ke na iccho, tamAre doTamAM sAmela thavuM ja paDe che. na tame bAbAne enI be varasanI vayamAM 'narsarI'mAM mUkavA nathI mAgatA paNa bAjuvALAe potAnA be varasanI vayanA bAbAne 'narsarI'mAM mUkyo che. basa, tamAre e doTamAM sAmela thavuM ja rahyuM. bAjuvALo potAnA gharamAM 50,000 nuM kampyUTara vasAvI beTho che. basa, tamAre tamArA gharamAM rahela ekadama barAbara cAlatuM paNa jUnuM kampyUTara kADhIne navuM pa0,000 nI kiMmatanuM kampyUTara vasAvavuM ja rahyuM. TUMkamAM, saMsAranA bajAranA evA mArga para tame AvIne UbhA rahI gayA cho ke jyAre tamArI icchAthI tamAre cAlavAnuM nathI paNa tamArI pAchaLa UbhelAnA dhakkAthI doDavAnuM ja che. 'doTayuga'nA AjanA saMsArane namaskAra ho nava gajanA ! 19 'tArA pappAnI uMmara keTalI ?' 'zuM kAma che tamAre ?' mAre e jANavuM che ke tane khabara che ke kema ?' mAro javAba sAMbhaLIne tame stabdha thaI jazo' 'emAM stabdha zuM thaI javAnuM? pappAnI jeTalI uMmara thaI haze eTalI ja tuM kahevAno che ne ?' 'to sAMbhaLI lo. mArI jeTalI uMmara thaI che eTalI ja uMmara pappAnI che.' 'paNa zI rIte ?' mAro janma thayo e divase ja e pappA banyA ne ?' dIkarAe cokhkho javAba ApI dIdho. A ja to majA che satyanI. daSTikoNa jyAM alaga AvI jAya tyAM satya to UbhuM rahe paNa hakIkata AkhI ne AkhI ja badalAI jAya. rAma dazarathanA saMdarbhamAM bhale putra tarIke jAhera thayA hoya paNa e ja rAma sItAnA saMdarbhamAM pati jAhera thAya, bharatanA saMdarbhamAM bhAI jAhera thAya, hanumAnanA saMdarbhamAM svAmI jAhera thAya ane rAvaNanA saMdarbhamAM duzmana jAhera thAya. saMbaMdho badhA ja alaga alaga ane chatAM enAM satyane koI paDakArI zake nahIM. paramAtmA mahAvIradeve Apela A anekAMtadRSTi jagata svIkArI le to jagatanAM yuddho baMdha thaI jAya e AdarzanI vAto ApaNe na karatAM eka ja kAma karIe. ApaNA khudanA jIvanane anekAMtaSTithI zaNagArI daIe. ApaNA khudanA manane sAmAnA dRSTikoNane samajavA mATe ane svIkAravA mATe taiyAra karI daIe. khAtarI sAthe kahuM chuM ke kama se kama ApaNuM mana to saMklezamukta ane ApaNuM jIvana to kaleza mukta banIne ja raheze. 20

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tame mArI pAsethI lIdhelA rUpiyA be lAkha tame mane pAchA kyAre ApavAnA cho? paisA laI gayA pachI tame pAchA ApavAnuM to yAda paNa karatA nathI ane nAma paNa letA nathI e kema cAle ?' eka nazAbAje bIjA nazAbAjane kahyuM. meM tamArI pAsethI be lAkha lIdhA che ?" nyAyAdhIzane tyAM enI dIkarInAM lagna tA.26 jAnyuArInA nakkI thayA hatA ane emaNe tA. 20 jAnyuArInA peparamAM jAherAta ApI ke, anivArya kAraNasara lagna tA.31 jAnyuArInA nakkI thayA che. paricitoe jAherAta vAMcI ane 31 jAnyuArInA lagnamAM pahoMcavAno progrAma banAvyo tyAM to 30 jAnyuArInA nyAyAdhIza taraphathI bIjI jAherAta AvI ke, - tA. 31 jAnyuArInA nakkI thayela lagna tA. 5 phebruArI para laI javAmAM AvyA che enI sahue noMdha levI." koke nyAyAdhIzane phona karIne AnuM kAraNa pUchyuM tyAre emaNe javAba Apyo ke mArA thanArA jamAI e vakIla che ane e mudata mAgyA ja kare che. huM zuM karuM?" paNa kyAre ?" 'tame nazAmAM hatA tyAre.' A sAMbhaLatA ja pelo nazAbAja khaDakhaDATa hasI paDyo, e be lAkha to meM tamane pAchA ApI dIdhA che." paNa kyAre ?" 'tame nazAmAM hatA tyAre !" manane tamAre sAce ja oLakhavuM hoya to enI eka oLakha A che ke e zubhane kAyama mATe vilaMbamAM mUkatuM rahe che jyAre azubhane hAjaramAM patAvatuM rahe che. dAna karIza kharo paNa Aje nahIM, AvatI kAle ! pizcara jovAmAM mAre AvatA aThavADiyAnI rAha nathI jovI, A ravivAre ja joI levuM che ! mAre enI sAthe kSamApanA karI levI to che ja paNa rAha jouM chuM ke eya keTalo jhUke che ! eNe mArI niMdA karI ja che ne? huM ene atyAre ne atyAre ja dekhADI devA mAguM chuM ! hA. A che ApaNuM mana. zubha kanyA sAthe AtmA mananA lagna karI devA mAge che. ane vakIla jevuM mana mudata upara mudata pADyuM ja jAya che. kharI karuNatA e sarjAI che ke AtmA khakhaDAvIne mana para koI dabANa sarjI zakato nathI. paNa sabUra ! A vakIla evo kahyAgaro che ke AtmA eka vAra dabANa karIne zubha kanyAnAM lagnaturta karI levA enA para jora lagAve to e ja paLe e lagna karI levA saMmata thaI jAya tema che. ApaNe e prayoga eka vAra paNa karI jozuM kharA? A ja to banI rahyuM che samasta saMsAramAM ! kSetra cAhe lagnanuM pakaDo ke bajAranuM pakaDo, ramatagamatanuM pakaDo ke kArakirdI banAvavAnuM pakaDo. zarUAta e badhAyanI kadAca svarganI anubhUti karAvatI hoya tevI paNa samaya jema jema pasAra thato jAya tema tema svarga gAyaba thatuM jAya ane sAkSAt narakamAM hovAno ahesAsa thato jAya ! zA mATe Ama banatuM haze ema pUcho cho ? eka ja javAba che eno. badhIya kabUlAto ane badhI ja pravRttio mohanA nazAmAM ja thatI hoya che. lagna thAya che vAsanAnA nazAmAM. bajAramAM mANasa doTa lagAvI rahyo che lobhanA nazAmAM kArakirdImAM naMbara eka para AvI jaIne TakI rahevAnuM pAgalapana mana para savAra thAya che ahaMnA nazAmAM ! dArUnA nazAmAM thatAM kAryo karatAM ya mohanA tIvra nazAmAM thatAM kAryo bhAre trAsadAyaka banI rahetA hoya che. A satya ApaNane kyAre samajAze?

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'tuM paisA kyArathI bacAvato thaI gayo ?' eka karuNa prasaMga banI gayo tyArathI." zuM banyuM?" pappA ane huM, baMne ya roja "bAtharuma taravA jatA hatA ane emAM eka divasa pappAno paga pANImAM lapasyo ane e DUbavA lAgyA. DUbatI vakhate huM bilakula bAjumAM hato ane mArI sAme joIne pappA bUma pADavA lAgyA. bacAva...bacAva...bacAva...' pappA Ame ya mane roja paisA bacAvavAnI salAha to ApatA ja hatA paNa huM e salAhane gaNakArato nahoto paraMtu bAthamAM DUbI gayA e pahelAM mane aMtima salAha je ApI gayA enI avagaNanA to huM zuM karI zakuM ? basa, A bAju pappAnuM DUbI javuM ane A bAju paisA bacAvavAnuM mAruM cAlu thayuM' dIkarAe javAba Apyo. bhaiyAjI ! cIkuno bhAva ?" 20 rUpiye Dajhana' keLAM ?" 12 rUpiye Dajhana' saMtarAM?" 24 rUpiye Dajhana' kaMIka ochuM na karI zako ?' zemAM?" cIkumAM ThIka che, 20 rUpiyAmAM poNo Dajhana laI jajo" bhaiyAjIe javAba ApI dIdho. tamane aMgrejI vAMcatA ja na AvaDatuM hoya ane rastA para mukAyela sUcanAnuM borDa jo aMgrejI bhASAmAM lakhAyela hoya to tamAre enuM arthaghaTana karavA koka aMgrejI bhASAnA jANakAranI ja salAha levI paDe ne ? sAce ja jIvanane bhUla mukta-pApa mukta ane jUTha mukta jo ApaNe rAkhavA mAgIe chIe to eka kAma khAsa e karavA jevuM che ke anaMtajJAnIonI je paNa AjJAo che enuM arthaghaTana ApaNA manane na karavA detA koka saguru pAse jaIne ja enuM arthaghaTana ApaNe samajI levA jevuM che. anyathA banaze evuM ke jJAnIonI AjJA haze, 'AtmA bacAvI lo" ApaNe AtmAne to joyo-jANyo ke samajyA ja nathI. ApaNe zarIrane bacAvavAmAM lAgI jaze ane phaLasvarUpe durgatinI yAtrAe nIkaLI jazuM. sAvadhAna ! guMDo bhale gALonI bhASA ja samajato hoya ane mocI bhale cAmaDAnI bhASA ja samajato hoya, lobhI bhale paisAnI bhASA ja samajato hoya ane kAmI bhale strI zarIranI bhASA ja samajato hoya, sonI bhale suvarNanI ja bhASA jANato hoya ane luhAra bhale hathoDAnI bhASA ja samajato hoya. paNa, kahevuM hoya to ema kahI zakAya ke A badhI ja bhASAono samAveza koI eka ja bhASAmAM jo thaI jato hoya to e bhASAnuM nAma che svArthanI bhASA. kamAlanuM Azcarya to e che ke svArtha sadhAto hoya che to kUtarAne gadheDAnI bhASA samajAvA lAge che ane svArtha ghavAto hovAnuM lAge che to dIkarAne sagA bApanI bhASA samajAtI nathI. yAda rAkhajo, A kathA A saMsAranI nathI, ApaNAM ja potAnA mananI che. prabhuvacanonA sahAre ene jo keLavIne sudhArazuM nahIM to ApaNe jyAM paNa hazuM, jIvazuM ke jazuM tyAM, ApaNane narakano ja anubhava thato rahevAno che.

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'tuM cA pIe che ?" rojanI pAMca kapa' pAMca kapa?" hA. alabatta, Ama to huM rojanI be kapa cA ja pIto hato; paraMtu eka mahinA pahelAM eka mahArAja sAhebanuM vyAkhyAna sAMbhaLyuM tyArathI be kapanA pAMca kapa karI nAkhyA che" vyAkhyAna sAMbhaLIne ? 'hA' vyAkhyAnamAM evuM te zuM AvyuM..." mahArAja sAhebe eka vyAkhyAnamAM evuM kahyuM hatuM ke "zarIra e ApaNuM jAlima duzmana che' ane bIjA divasanA vyAkhyAnamAM ema kahyuM hatuM ke 'cA e to jhera che' meM nakkI karI lIdhuM vyAkhyAna sAMbhaLIne ke zarIra e jo duzmana ja hoya to ene jhera ja ApavuM joIe. basa, e divasathI meM be kapane badale cAnA pAMca kapa pIvAnA zarU karI dIdhA che." beTA! mArI tArI pAse eka ja AzA che' "pappA! je hoya e kahI do. ApanI badhI ja AzAo huM pUrNa karIne ja rahIza.' 'jIvanamAM kAmo tuM evA karaje ke tArA A bApanuM nAma rozana thaIne ja rahe pappA ! eka vAta kahuM?" bola e kAma to huM atyAre karI ja rahyo chuM' zI rIte ?' javAba Apo. ApanuM nAma rozanalAla che ne?" basa, roja ApaNAM gharanA daravAjA para ApanA nAmanI je takatI lagADI che enA para lAiTa huM ja karuM chuM. ApanuM nAma rozana thatuM ja rahe che.' tame sApane, vAghane ane Agane samajI zako paNa manane samajavAnI bAbatamAM tamane kyAreya saphaLatA na maLe. kAraNa? e dareka prasaMgamAMthI ane dareka vaktavyamAMthI potAne gamato ane phAvato artha ja kADhatuM rahe ane potAnI apekSAnI pUrti karatuM rahe. tame sAcA arthamAM jIvanane sArthaka banAvI devA mAgo cho ? eka kAma karo. manane samajAvavAnI vAta pachI karajo. pahelAM manane samajI lo. enI cAlabAjI, enI mutsaddIgIrI, enI jAtane bacAvatA rahevAnI hoziyArI, enI yazanI bhUkha-mananA A svabhAvane samajI lIdhA pachI manane tamAre samajAvavuM nahIM paDe. alpa prayAse e tamArA vezamAM AvI ja jaze. dUdha thakI ja jIvI zakatA bAbAne tame dUdha na ApatA ramakaDAM ApI do ane bAbAnI je hAlata thAya, kaMIka aMze evI ja hAlata AjanA yuvAdhananI thaI rahI che. hRdaya kaho to hRdaya ane lAgaNI kaho to lAgaNI, enA ja sAre jIvanamAM prasannatAne anubhavI zakatA AjanA samasta yuvAdhanane hRdayane badale manane cAlAka banAvavAnI kaLA zIkhavADavAmAM AvI rahI che. lAgaNInI bhInAzane buddhinI rukSatA dvArA saMpUrNapaNe sUkavI nAkhavAnAM skUlo ane kaoNlejomAM jANe ke abhiyAna zarU thaI gayA che. pariNAma Aje AMkha sAme ja che. bALaka jIvI rahyo che, bALapaNa ane bhoLapaNa enI pAsethI gAyaba che. yuvaka zaktizALI banI gayo che, saMvedanazIlatA ane hArdikatA enI pAsethI jANe ke vidAya laI cUkyA che ! zuM svIkArI levAya A duSpariNAmane?

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popaTalAla?" nA. A khoTo naMbara che" paMdara miniTa pachI pharI ghaMTaDI vAgI, "popaTalAla?" nA. khoTo naMbara' pharI pAMca miniTa pachI ghaMTaDI vAgI, 'popaTalAla ?" bhAI ! tamane babbe vAra to kahyuM ke A khoTo naMbara che. ane chatAM tame vAraMvAra A ja naMbara para phona karyA karo cho?' 'tamArI takalIpha huM samajuM chuM paNa meM pAkI jANakArI meLavyA pachI ja tamArA naMbara para phona karyo che. zuM popaTalAla nathI ?' are, tamArA gharamAM nAno bAbo hoya to ene ya A khabara haze ke popaTa lAla nahIM paNa lIlo ja hoya che. tame kyArenA ya atre "popaTa lAla che?" e zuM puchAvyA karo cho ? 'tamArI patnI kema che ?' kema, e to majAmAM ja che" sAMbhaLyuM hatuM meM ke emanuM vajana ochuM karavA mATe tame emane roja ghoDesavArI karAvo cho. enAthI kAMI lAbha thayo ?' 'lAbha thayo ne?' keTaluM vajana UtaryuM?" '10kilo' 10 kilo?' "hA. paNa vajana patnInuM utAravAnuM hatuM enA badale ghoDAnuM UtarI gayuM che. A paNa eka prakArano lAbha ja gaNAya ne ?" gAMDo bhASAne samajI zakato nathI jyAre doDhaDAhyo bhASAne jANI joIne vikRta rIte samajato rahIne sAmA sAthe vikRta vyavahAra karato rahe che. nirakSara kadAca aNaghaDa rIte varte che paNa saMskArahIna sAkSara to aziSTa vyavahAra Acare che. buddhino mAMdo kadAca jagata mATe AzIrvAdarUpa nathI banato eTaluM ja; paraMtu vikRta buddhivALo to jagata mATe abhizAparUpa puravAra thAya che. rAmathI jagatane bhale lAbha ja thayo che; paraMtu cha-cha mahinA sudhI sUI ja rahelA kuMbhakarNathI jagata herAna thaI gayuM hoya evuM kyAMya vAMcavAmAM ke sAMbhaLavAmAM nathI AvyuM. jyAre rAvaNathI ? eka vicitra prakAranI prArthanA zarU karavI che ? kahI do prabhune jAgRti Ape to rAma jevI Apaje. e zakya na hoya to kuMbhakarNa jevI behozI Apaje paNa rAvaNa jevuM jhanUna to kyAreya na ApIza.. AkhA saMsAranI eka ja vAkyamAM vyAkhyA karavI hoya to karI zakAya ke 'mane ke ka-mane vyakti sAthe, paristhiti sAthe ane sAmagrI sAthe jAtajAtanAM samAdhAno karatA ja rahevuM paDe enuM nAma saMsAra." javAba Apo. zarIra tamane je paNa AkAranuM maLyuM che, tamAre eno svIkAra karI levo ja paDyo che ne? kuTuMba jevuM paNa maLyuM che tamane, tamAre ene apanAvavuM paDyuM ja che ne ? je sthaLamAM tamAre jIvana vitAvavAnuM AvyuM che e sthaLamAM tamArA jIvanane tamAre goThavavuM ja paDyuM che ne? samAdhinA ane prasannatAnA gaganamAM manane covIseya kalAka viharatuM rAkhavuM che? eka kAma karo. AtmAne mATe nukasAnakArI na nIvaDatA hoya evAM tamAma pratikULa paribaLone svIkAratA ja raho. kadAca pratikAra karavAnuM mana thAya to paNa manane bagADatA rahIne e tamAmano pratikAra karavAnuM to TALatA ja raho.

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corI karatA pakaDAI gayela corane paoNlIso jIpamAM besADIne laI jatA hatA paNa Azcarya e sarjAyuM hatuM ke jIpamAM beThela coranA caherA para gajabanAka prasannatA hatI ane e maraka maraka hasI rahyo hato. tane khabara to che ne ke tane kyAM laI javAmAM AvI rahyo che" eka polIse corane pUchyuM, 'tame paradezI vastunA virodhamAM hatA ne?" 'hato zuM, Aje ya enA virodhamAM ja chuM !" 'tamArI ceSTA parathI to evuM lAgatuM nathI !" "kaI ceSTA?" 'tamArA hAthamAM je sigareTa che e...' "e zuM?" 'e to paradezanI banAvaTanI che' 'paradezanI ja sigareTa pIvAnI mArI ceSTA ja puravAra kare che ke huM paradezI vastuonA virodhamAM chuM !" 'zI rIte ?' 'paradezI sigareTane saLagAvatA rahIne huM sahune saMdeza ApavA mAguM chuM ke mArI jema tame ya paredazI vastuone saLagAvatA raho !" 'kyAM ?" jelamAM' "to pachI tuM ATalo badho prasanna kema che? maraka maraka hasI kema rahyo che ?" jiMdagImAM pahelI ja vAra mane jIpamAM besavAnuM maLyuM che. mArA haiye eno pArAvAra AnaMda che" core javAba Apyo. viSTA cUMthatA Dukkarane joIne ApaNane bhale enI dayA AvatI hoya, e to majAmAM ja hoya che. hADakAnA TukaDAne jorazorathI baTakA bharatA rahevAnA kAraNe moDhAmAMthI lohI nIkaLI rahelA kUtarAne joIne ApaNane bhale trAsa thato hoya, kUtaro pote to AnaMdamAM ja hoya che. ApaNI ya hAlata AvI ja che ne? anaMtajJAnIo ApaNI dayA khAI rahyA che. pAMceya indriyonA viSayomAM pAgala banelA ApaNane joIne, nazvara padArtho khAtara ApaNane kaSAyAviSTa banI jatA joIne, paNa ApaNI hAlata zI che? e ja pelA viSTA cUMthatA Dukkara jevI, hADakAnA TukaDAne baTakA bharI rahelA kUtarA jevI ane prathamavAra ja jIpamAM besavA maLI rahyA badala AnaMda anubhavI rahelA pelA cora jevI ! ApaNuM thaze zuM? tame dAvAnaLanI garamIne ekavAra pahoMcI vaLo, pralayakALanA pavana vacce ya ekavAra tame surakSita rahI zako, bhUkaMpanA jAlima AMcakA vacce ya ekavAra tame aDIkhama UbhA rahI jAo, nadInA ghUghavatA pUranI sAme taratA rahIne ekavAra kinAre pahoMcI jAo. paNa, mananA kutarkane pahoMcI vaLavAmAM tame dharAra niSphaLa ja jAo. enI dalIlabAjIne paDakAravAmAM tame mAra ja khAI jAo. vikalponAM je tophAno e sarje enI sAme jAtane surakSita rAkhavAmAM tame UMdhA ja paDI jAo. vicAronuM je gADha jaMgala e UbhuM karI de emAMthI bahAra nIkaLatA tame navanejAM pANI UtarI gayAno anubhava karIne ja raho. sAce ja jIvananA prAvaNane zAMta rIte vaheto rAkhavo che ? manane aMtaHkaraNanI AjJAmAM goThavI do. 29

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eka paradezI bhAratamAM Avyo ane phaLo kharIdavA phaLonI dukAne jaI caDyo, "A zuM che?" AvaDuM nAnuM ? amAre tyAM to eka mITara lAMbuM hoya che ! ThIka che, A phaLa kayuM che ?" sapharajana' e paNa AvaDuM ja? amAre tyAM to enuM vajana ochAmAM ochuM eka kilonuM hoya che ! ThIka che. paNa A zuM che?" paradezInI A gappAbAjIthI akaLAI gayelA dukAnadAre pelA paradezIe taDabUca aMge potAnI jijJAsA vyakta karI hatI enI oLakha ApatAM eTaluM ja kahyuM ke, e bhAratanI drAkSa che !" A javAba sAMbhaLIne pelA paradezIe to tyAMthI cAlatI ja pakaDI. sAMbhaLyuM che ke tame zreSTha citrakAra cho' samAjamAM e rItanI mArI khyAti phelAyelI che to kharI paNa mane mArA sthAnano barAbara khyAla che. tamAre kAMI kAma hoya to kaho' 'mAre eka gadheDAnuM citra joIe che" banAvI ApuM" samaya?" 'pAMceka kalAkano' dasa ja miniTamAM joItuM hoya to?" 'sAme besI jAo. ATha ja miniTamAM banAvIne ApI daIza'citrakAre saNasaNato javAba ApI dIdho. asatya'nevANIno doSa mAnavA mana hajI taiyAra rahe che; paraMtu 'atiyozakti'ne mana vANIno doSa mAnavA to taiyAra nathI rahetuM paraMtu kadAca 'vaTa paDI rahyA'nA bhramamAM rAcatuM rahe che. ane bane che evuM ke atizayokti ja AgaLa jatAM asatyanI janmadAtrI banI rahe che. zaktione surakSita rAkhavI che? jIvo pratyenA maitrIbhAvane jIvanamAM dhabakato rAkhavo che? satyanA AbhUSaNathI vANIne zaNagAratA rahevuM che ? ahaMkAranA bojathI jIvanane haLavuM phUla rAkhavuM che? eka kAma khAsa karo. zabdone 'dhI'nuM sthAna ApI do. binajarUrI eno upayoga nahIM. vadhu paDato eno upayoga nahIM. bAhya kalezathI ane AtyaMtara saMklezathI acUka bacI javAze. adhIrAI ane asahiSNutA, AjanA vijJAna yuganA mANasane vaLagelA be bhayaMkara doSo che. potAnA manamAM pedA thatI koI paNa icchAne - pachI cAhe e cA pIvAnI hoya ke paisA kamAvAnI hoya, jhaverAta kharIdavAnI hoya ke Trena pakaDavAnI hoya, skUTara lAvavAnI hoya ke ugharANI patAvavAnI hoya - turta ja pUrI karavA mAge che. ane emAM jo vilaMba thAya che to AvezamAM AvI jatAM, krodhAviSTa banI jatAM yAvatuM hiMsAtmaka banI jatAM ene paLanI ya vAra lAgatI nathI. AMkha sAme rAkhajo A vAstavikatA ke adhIrAI ane asahiSNutA e evA doSo che ke je saMkhyAbaMdha jIvaleNa rogo mATe AmaMtraNapatrikAnI garaja sAratA rahe che. pachI e roga lohInA UMcA dabANano paNa hoI zake che to hRdaya humalAno paNa hoI zake che. alsarano paNa hoI zake che to hatAzA ane nirAzAno paNa hoI zake che. sAvadhAna ! 31.

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A 'TAI'nI kiMmata ?" tamane pasaMda paDI che?" 'hA' "to pachI kiMmata zuM pUcho cho? laI jAo.' to ya keTalAnI che e kaho to kharA !" 500 nI" pa00 nI ?' '450 Apajo' 450 mAM to sarasa bUTa AvI jAya' 'eka salAha ApuM? 450nA bUTa laIne ene ja gaLAmAM laTakAvI do' dukAnadAre saMbhaLAvI dIdhuM. 'tamArI uMmara moTI hovA chatAM tame pAtaLA cho jyAre mArI uMmara nAnI hovA chatAM huM pahelavAna chuM enI pAchaLanuM kAraNa zuM che ?' eka prauDha vayanA maccharane nAnI vayanA macchare pUchyuM, kAraNa sAva sIdhuM che. amArA jamAnAmAM moTI uMmaranA mANasonAM kapaDAM nAnI uMmaranA mANaso paheratA hatA eTale e sahunAM zarIra pUrepUrAM DhaMkAyelAM rahetA hatA ane enA kAraNe amane emanuM lohI pIvA lagabhaga maLatuM ja nahotuM. jyAre Aje AkhI paristhiti badalAI gaI che. moTI uMmaranA mANaso nAnI uMmaranA mANasonAM kapaDAM paheravA lAgyA che eTale emanAM zarIra moTe bhAge khullAM ja rahe che ane enA kAraNe tamane badhAne emanuM lohI pUratA pramANamAM pIvA maLI rahyuM che! tame badhA pahelavAna ja ho to emAM Azcarya zuM che?" prauDha macchare javAba Apyo. 'garaje gadheDAne ya bApa kahevo paDe' 'garajavAnane akkala nahIM' 'hAjara so hathiyAra' A badhI kahevato je paDI che eno tAtpardhArtha eTalo ja che ke je cIjanI jyAM upayogitA hoya tyAM e cIjane ja hAjara rAkhavI paDe, e cIjanA vikalpamAM bIjI cIja game teTalI sArI paNa hoya ane kImatI paNa hoya toya ene tyAM hAjara na ja rakhAya. javAba Apo. pANI karatAM dUdha vadhu sAruM kharuM ke nahIM ? vadhu kImatI kharuM ke nahIM ? hA. paNa zuM eTalA mAtrathI mAchalI pANIne badale dUdhamAM taravAnuM pasaMda kare kharI ? be roTalI karatAM eka badAmamAM vadhu tAkAta kharI ke nahIM ? hI. paNa zuM eTalA mAtrathI mANase thALImAM roTalI rAkhavAne badale badAma rAkhato thaI jAya kharo ? tejInA samayamAM eka kalAke maMdiramAM kADhavAne badale bajAramAM kADhavAmAM vadhu kamANI thAya kharI ke nahIM ? hA. paNa zuM eTalA mAtrathI prabhudarzana baMdha karI daIne bajAramAM ja besI rahevAnuM karAya kharuM? nA. tAtparyArtha spaSTa che. aucityane hAjara rAkhIne vivekapUrvaka pravRtti karo. hA, maccharone ya AjanA yuganI vastra paridhAnanI vyavasthA jo jAmI jatI hoya to havasakhora puruSone ane vAsanAbhUkhI strIone mATe to pUchavuM ja zuM? teo to ema ja Icche che ke A dezamAM thaI gayelA saMtoe bhale mAnava zarIre 'paramAtmA" banI javAnA mArga darzAvyA hoya, ame to mAnava zarIre 'pazu sukho' kevI rIte bhogavI zakAya enA ja rastAo para AjanA mAnavo kaI rIte doDatA thaI jAya enA vikalpo zodhIne sahu samakSa mUkI devA mAgIe chIe ! vebasAiTa kholo, mobAila cAlu karo, megejhInonAM pAnAMo uthalAvo, marda gaNAtA sAMDhone ya hAra kabUlI levI paDe evo vyabhicArano badho ja masAlo tamane tyAM upalabdha thaI jaze. 33

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'tuM eka kAma karIza?" 'tame amane jIvananuM rahasya samajAvazo?' eka saMtanI pAse gayelA paMdareka yuvAnoe potAnA mananI jijJAsA vyakta karI. 'tame badhA mArI sAthe sAmenA oraDAmAM cAlo' saMte yuvakone vAta karI ane yuvako saMtanI pAchaLa pAchaLa emaNe jaNAvelA oraDAmAM dAkhala thayA. 'tamane tarasa che ?" 'hA' 'pANI pIvuM che?" "bajAramAM javAnuM che" kAMI lAvavuM che?" hA. sarasa majenI cAraNI laI Ava' nokara bajAramAM gayo to kharo. eka kalAka bAda pAcho Avyo paNa kharI paNa enA hAtha khAlI hatA. 'kema, cAraNI na maLI?" maLatI to hatI paNa.." 'paNa zuM?" sArI cAraNI ekeya nahotI' eTale?" badhI ya cAraNI kANAMvALI hatI' eka kAma karo. oraDAnI bahAra sonAnA-cAMdInA ane kAcanA kapa paDyA che. tamane ThIka lAge e kapa ahIM laI Avo." badhAya bahAra doDyA. sonAnA ane cAMdInA kapa levA mATe paDApaDI thaI gaI. kAcanA kepa ema ne ema paDyA rahyA ane badhA yuvako saMta pAse hAjara thaI gayA. basa, juo. jIvananuM A ja rahasya che. tarasa chipAvavA jarUrI pANInI che paNa sahu kaMpanI pasaMdagImAM ja paDyA che" saMte hasatA hasatA javAba ApI dIdho. paralokadRSTi, pApavRtti, pavitrakRti A badhAMya jIvananA lakSya sthAnethI jyAre ojhala thaI jAya che tyAre mANasanA jIvanamAM kaI karuNatA nathI sarjAtI hotI e prazna che. - peTrola vinAnI gADI cAlatI bhale na hoya paNa ghAsatela mizrita peTrolavALI gADI to cAlatI hovAchatAM bagaDatI ja rahetI hoya che. saMpatti-sAmagrI-samRddhi-sAmarthya vinAnuM jIvana bhale kadAca camakadAra na dekhAtuM hoya paNa zuddhi vinAnuM jIvana to camakadAra dekhAtuM paNa hoya to ya Akhare to vinipAta notarIne ja rahe che. lagabhaga navI peDhImAM have AvuM ja banavAnuM che. e peDhI bhAtanA vikalpamAM khIcaDI pasaMda karI zakaze ke kema emAM zaMkA che. sophAseTanA abhAvamAM khurazIthI potAnI khuzI TakAvI zakaze ke kema emAM zaMkA che. patnInuM 'strI' tarIke gaurava jALavI zakaze ke kema emAM zaMkA che. paisA kamAvavAnI saMkhyAbaMdha yuktio jANatA yuvakane paisA gaNatAM kadAca nahIM AvaDe evuM paNa banI zakaze to kaoNlejamAM ema.e.pI.eca.DI. nI upAdhi meLavI cUkelI yuvatI dALamAM vaghAra karatAM gothuM khAI jatI hovAnuM ya banI zakaze. TUMkamAM, AjanA zikSaNane pAmelA yuvAdhana pAse gothAsUjha jabaradasta haze paNa koThAsUjha nAmanI ya haze ke kema emAM zaMkA che. cAraNI e kANAM vinAnI laI Avaze ane sUpaDuM e kANAMvALuM ja pasaMda karI besaze. eno saMsAra kevo cAlaze enuM anumAna thaI zake che.

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eka bAbatanI mAre tArI pAse mAphI mAgavAnI che" jelamAMthI chUTIne ghare jaI rahela kedIne jelara vAta karI rahyo hato.' zenI?' 'tane jelamAMthI choDI mUkavAno Adeza to mArI pAse 10divasa pahelAM AvI ja gayo hato paNa mane eno khyAla ja na rahyo ane tAre mArA kAraNe 10divasa jelamAM vadhu rahevuM paDyuM." jelara sAheba, emAM zuM thaI gayuM?" kema tane takalIpha to paDI ja ne?" eka kAma karazo?" "zuM ?' huM pharIvAra jelamAM AvuM ane mane je paNa sajA thAya, emAM tame 10divasa vahelA choDI mUkajo. hisAba barAbara thaI jaze' kedI bolyo. cA ne badale huM dUdha pIuM to kema?" bahu sAruM. dUdha zarIra mATe lAbhakArI che" 'dUdha gAyanuM pIuM to ?' 'vadhu sAruM. kAraNa ke gAMdhIjI nahIM paNa hindustAnanA moTA bhAganA loko e ja pIe che.' ane bheMsanuM dUdha?" 'e to vadhu sAruM kAraNa ke cA enI ja sarasa bane che" ane bakarInuM dUdha?' enA jevuM uttama dUdha to bIjuM eke ya nahIM kAraNa ke gAMdhIjI enuM ja dUdha pItA hatA !" ema kahevAya che ke eka nAnA mANasane hajAra DAhyA mANaso paNa bhegA thaIne vadhu nAgo karI zakatA nathI. Aje A nAgAInI vadhu ne vadhu bolabAlA thatI rahe evo kALa cAlI rahyo che. zarIrane saMpUrNa DhAMkeluM rAkhIne pikacaramAM kAma karavA mAgatI abhinetrIne pa00 rUpiyA paNa maLe ke kema emAM zaMkA che jyAre zarIrane saMpUrNapaNe khullu karI devA taiyAra thaI jatI abhinetrIne 5,,,0 rUpiyAnI ophara thaI jAya evI zakyatA pUrepUrI che. TUMkamAM, Aje tame nAgAI keTalI AcarI zako cho enA AdhAre ja tamAro bajArabhAva nakkI thAya che. sItA rAvaNane tyAM ya pavitratA TakAvI zakI hatI e vAta rAmAyaNamAM bhale AvatI hoya. Aje to potAnI sItA [7] o rAvaNanI laMkAmAM jaIne sonuM lAve e gaNatarIe rAvaNo pAse sAme caDIne potAnI sItAo [2] ne mokalanArA patidevono phAla taiyAra thaI cUkyo che ! tamAro ahaM ane tamAruM aMtaHkaraNa, Ama juo to e baMne tamArA ja che ane chatAM e baMnenI mAga AkhI judI ja che. tamArA ahaMnI mAga A che ke mArI pratyeka vAtamAM sAmAe 'hA' ja pADavI joIe ane pote jemAM asaMmata hoya e vAtamAM sAmAe paNa 'asaMmati' ja darzAvavI joIe. jyAre aMtaHkaraNa tamAruM ema kahe che ke je pravRttimAM mAruM ahita ja che athavA to mane nukasAna ja che e pravRttimAM sAmAe mane parANe paNa rokavo ja joIe ane je pravRttimAM mAruM hita - lAbha ja che e pravRttimAM sAmAe mane parANe paNa joDavo ja joIe. sAce ja jIvanane jo sArthaka karI devA mAgo cho to eka kAma khAsa karo. ahaMne tRpta kare evA mitrothI dUra ja raho ane aMtaHkaraNane prasanna rAkhe evA mitronI zodhamAM nIkaLI paDo. duryodhane jo zakunine badale zrI kRSNanI vAta - salAha mAnI lIdhI hota to mahAbhAratanA yuddhane badale mahAna bhAratano itihAsa lakhAI gayo hota evuM nathI lAgatuM? 33

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pappA ! tamane itihAsanI jANakArI kevI ?' jabaradasta' 'prazna pUchuM eno javAba ApI zako ?' 'zaMkA che tane tArA bApanI vidvattA para ?' 'pappA, evuM nathI paNa...' 'are paNa ne baNa ! tuM pUcha ne tAre je pUchavuM hoya te !' "pappA ! yudhiSThira koNa hatA ?' 'tane eTalI ya khabara nathI ? khola mAro kabATa. emAM rAmAyaNa paDyuM che e laI Ava. tane vaMcAvI dauM ke koNa hatA yudhiSThira ?' pANIno eka vicitra svabhAva tamArA khyAlamAM che ? ene badhAyamAM pravezavAnI Teva hoya che. gaMgA lAvo ke gaTara lAvo, nadI lAvo ke sarovara lAvo, khAbociyuM lAvo ke khADo lAvo. e darekamAM pravezI javAnI enI taiyArI ! basa, bilakula pANI jevo che ahaM. koI kSetra evuM nathI ke emAM e ghUsavA na mAgato hoya. are, saphaLatAne to e potAnA khAte khatavI de che paNa niSphaLatA lamaNe jhIMkAya che tyAM ya e potAnA astitvanI jAherAta mATenuM koka ne koka bahAnuM zodhIne ja rahe che. 'tamane khyAla che ? meM mahenata ja evI jabaradasta karI hatI ke parIkSAmAM pahelo naMbara mane ja maLe' A che saphaLatAmAM ahaMno caMcupAta, jyAre 'tamane khyAla nahIM hoya paNa mAre eka ja vargamAM be varasa bhaNavuM hatuM ane eTale meM jANI joIne ja bhaNavAnI upekSA karI nApAsa thayo enuM mane koI ja duHkha nathI' A che niSphaLatAmAM ya ahaMno caMcupAta ! AvA pATalI badala ahaMne jIvananuM cAlakabaLa jo banAvI beThA to lamaNe hAtha daIne rovAnuM Avaze e nizcita samajI rAkhajo. 39 'A davA tamAre kaI rIte levAnI che e barAbara samajI lo.' DaoNkTare dardIne kahyuM. 'bolo' "A bATalImAMthI be camacI davA...' 'pachI ?' A nAnI bATalImAMthI be camacI davA baporanA.' 'pachI ?' "A moTI bATalImAMthI be camacI davA sAMjanA...' A sAMbhaLIne pelo dardI to raDavA ja lAgyo. ene raDato joIne DaoNkTare pUchyuM, 'kema, A rIte davA levAmAM koI takalIpha che ?' 'DaoNkTara sAheba ! huM to garIba mANasa chuM. ATalI badhI camacIo huM lAvIza kyAMthI ?' maMdInA samayamAM mANasa mojazokha ochA karI daIne ekavAra potAnA mananI prasannatA TakAvI paNa rAkhe, moMdhavArInA samayamAM jarUriyAto ochI karI daIne mANasa ekavAra potAnI bAMdhelI AvakamAMthI divaso kheMcI paNa kADhe paNa mAMdagI Ave tyAre TUMkI AvakamAM ene zeM pahoMcI vaLavuM e samasyAno enI pAse koI ja vikalpa nathI. tame dUdha vinA calAvI lo paNa davA vinA ? tame vepArI pAse na jAo to cAle paNa DaoNkTara ke vaida pAse ? tame phoTo paDAvyA vinA jIvI zako paNa bImArI ja evI vaLagI hoya ane nidAna mATe eksa-re paDAvavo jarUrI ja hoya ane chatAM eksa-re na paDAvo to ? tame baoNlapena na lo to cAlI jAya paNa IMjekzana na lo to ? re vijJAna ! teM garIba mANasone mAMdagIne badale mota pasaMda karatA karI dIdhA ? 40

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'kapaDAM tArA ATalA badhA melA che?" varga khaMDamAM ekaThA thayela vidyArthIonI sAme zikSake borDa para eka vAkya lakhyuM. 'baLada ane gAya khetaramAM care che' ane pachI pUchyuM. "javAba Apo. A vAkya barAbara che ke emAM koI sudhAro karavo jarUrI che ?" 'sara ! sudhAro jarUrI che" eka vidyArthIe kahyuM." "zo ?' huM karI dauM to cAlaze ?" 'jarUra ane vidyArthIe borDa para navuM vAkya lakhI dIdhuM. 'gAya ane baLada khetaramAM care che' A vAkyano artha to eno e ja rahyo to pachI te sudhAro zo karyo ?' 'baLada-gAyanI jagAe 'gAya-baLada'meM eTalA mATe lakhyuM ke A dezamAM 'strI prathama'nuM sUtra pracalita banyuM che' vidyArthIe javAba Apyo. dhoI nAkha' koI artha nathI" kema?" rzerabajAramAM huM pUrepUro dhovAI gayo chuM. AvatI kAle zuM thaze? enI ciMtAmAM nicovAI gayo chuM ane ghara mATe doDadhAma karavAmAM pUrepUro sukAI gayo chuM. have kapaDAM dhovAya to ya zuM ane na dhovAya to ya zuM ?' 'strI prathama'nA sUtrane amalI banAvavAnA prayAsomAM strInI hAlata A dezanA zAsakoe ane pracAra mAdhyamoe kevI karuNa karI nAkhI che e jovuM hoya to tame najara nAkhI jAo koI paNa vartamAnapatra para, megejhIna para, sAptAhika para, jAherAto para, TI.vI.mAM AvatAM dazyo para ke vebasAiTo para. tamane strInuM mAtRsvarUpa ke bhaginI svarUpa lagabhaga jovA nahIM maLe. pUjyA svarUpa lagabhaga nIrakhavA nahIM maLe - tamane eka ja svarUpa jovA maLaze. 'bhogyA' nuM ! khullAM aMgopAMgovALI, ochAM vastrovALI ane vyabhicAra mATe AmaMtraNa ApavAvALI ! sthiti A che ane chatAM 'LADIEW FIRST' nI ahIM jabaradasta bolabAlA che. agni game tevo dAhaka che to ya badhA ja padArthonI rAkha karI nAkhavAnI enAmAM kSamatA nathI ja nathI. vAvAjhoDAno pavana bhale ne bhAre pralayakArI che; paraMtu badhA ja padArthone uDADI devAnI ke halAvI devAnI tAkAta enAmAM nathI ja nathI. bhUkaMpanA AMcakAnI tIvratA bhale ne thatharAvI mUke tevI che chatAM pRthvI para UbhI thayela tamAma imAratone dharAzAyI karI devAnI tAkAta enAmAM nathI ja nathI. nadImAM Avela pUra bhale ne jAlima vikarALa che paNa kinAre AvelA badhAM ja gAmaDAMone DubADI devAnI kSamatA enAmAM nathI ja nathI. paNa, lobha ? e kyA guNone nathI saLagAvI deto e prazna che. e kaI sajjanatAne uDADI nathI deto e prazna che. e kaI samyatAkAtane dharAzAyI nathI karI deto e prazna che. e kaI uttamatAne DubADI nathI deto e prazna che. 'sarvasukhavinAzane mAt' A zAstrapaMktinA 'lobhI sarva guNono vinAza che' arthane satata AMkha sAme rAkhIne manane lobhathI grasta banatuM prayatnapUrvaka paNa aTakAvatA rahejo. saMpattithI khAlI thaI jaIe e cAle paNa guNothI bhraSTa thaI jaIe e to zuM cAle ?

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mane ema lAge che ke mArA gharamAM koka upadravI tattvano praveza thaI gayo che' kanue manune kahyuM. zenA AdhAre tuM A kahe che ?" gharanI koI paNa cIjane huM aDuM chuM, mane darda ja thAya che' "eTale ?" 'Tebalane aDuM chuM, vedanA thAya che. kabATamAM rahela kapaDAMne aDuM chuM, vedanA thAya che. khurazIne aDuM chuM, darda thAya che. upadravI tattvanI hAjarI vinA AvuM bane ja zI rIte ?" eka kAma kara. mArI sAthe cAla' ema kahIne manu kanune haoNspiTalamAM laI gayo. AMgaLIno phoTo paDAvyo aneriporTa Avyo ke "AMgaLInA hADakAmAM tirADa paDI gaI che !' sainyamAM bharatI thavA mATe eka yuvake "inTara-lU' ApavA mATe lazkaranA aphasara samakSa hAjara thayo. aphasare ene keTalAka prazno pUchaDyA bAda lazkarI DaoNkTara pAse zArIrika tapAsa arthe mokalyo. AMkha?" badhuM ja barAbara dekhAya che' 'kAna ?" 'ekadama vyavasthita saMbhaLAya che" "chAtI ?" ekadama majabUta che" DaoNkTare e badhuM ya ceka karI lIdhA bAda kahyuM, 'tamArI pITha batAvo" e nahIM batAvuM' paNa kema?" e to huM yuddhamAM ja batADIza' mananI A ja to badamAzI che. nabaLuM kAMI paNa bane che, javAbadArI e bIjA para thopI detA paLano ya vilaMba nathI karatuM. bahAnAMo zodhavA ane UbhA karavA e paLanI ya rAha nathI jotuM. 'tAva AvI gayo ?' 'hA, maccharono upadrava vadhI gayo che' mana pAse A javAba taiyAra ja hoya che. 'dhaMdhAmAM anIti karo cho ?' 'sarakArI kAyadAo ja evA che ke anIti karyA vinA cAle ja nahIM' mana pAse A bahAnuM taiyAra ja hoya che 'rAtribhojana roja karo cho ?' 'zuM karuM ? dhaMdhA ja evA thaI gayA che" mana pAse A rokaDo javAba hoya che. 'TI.vI. hajI choDI zaktA nathI ?' 'A jamAnAmAM TI.vI. koNa nathI jotuM?' mana phaTAka karatuM javAba ApI de che. yAda rAkhajo , bahAnuM e to jUTha mATenuM rakSAkavaca che. jyAM sudhI mana bahAnAMo rajU karatuM raheze tyAM sudhI jIvanamAM pApa-jUTha ane bhUlanI tripuTI jIvatI ja raheze. mananI A ja to badamAzI kaho to badamAzI ane kamajorI kaho to kamajorI che. vAta e AsamAnanI karyA kare che ane dharatI para cAlavA e taiyAra thatuM nathI. parAkASTAnI sAdhanAnI e gulabAMgo pheMkyA kare che ane saMkalpanA nAme e tasubhAra paNa AgaLa vadhavA taiyAra rahetuM nathI. maMjile pahoMcavAnA enA abharakhA bhAre hoya che ane mArga para kadama mUkatA enuM pANI UtarI jatuM hoya che. bAhya yuddhamAM paNa zatruone pITha batAvanAro jo vijetA banI zakato nathI to AtyaMtara yuddhamAM to saMkalpahIna manavALo vijetA na ja banI zakato hoya to emAM Azcarya zuM che? yAda rAkhajo, utsAha adamya ane saMkalpa deDha. sAdhanAmArganA A be pATA para cAlatI jIvananI gADI ja maMjile pahoMcI zake che. 43

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lagna karyAne tamane keTalAM varasa thayA ?' 'aDhAra' 'aDhAra varasa thayA ?' 'hA' "ane tamane Aje ja khabara paDI ke tamArA pati dArUnA vyasanI che ?' 'hA' "ATalAM varasa khabara na paDavAnuM kAraNa ?' 'kAraNa ke Aje e jeTalA 'narvasa' lAgyA eTalA 'narvasa' meM emane ATalAM varasomAM kyAreya joyA ja nathI.' bhUkha sakhata lAgI hoya ane bhojana peTamAM jAya to tRptino anubhava jarUra thAya paNa peTamAM bhojana na jAya to vedanA satata anubhavAtI ja rahe. paraMtu vyasananI vicitratA kaho to vicitratA ane vikRti kaho to vikRti e che ke enuM sevana tame karyA ja karo ane cAlu ja rAkho to ya tamane AnaMdano koI anubhava na thAya; paraMtu emAM jo tame khADo pADo ke enA sevanathI tame dUra thaI jAo to e tamane duHkhI duHkhI banAvI de. moDhe sigareTa lagAvanArane ke peTamAM dArUnI pyAlI lavanArane tamAre pUchavuM hoya to pUchI lejo. A vAstavikatAnI tamane pratIti thaI jaze. sevanamAM koI AnaMda nahIM ane tyAgamAM ke upekSAmAM taraphaDATano koI pAra nahIM. vyasanono jo A ja guNadharma che to zreSTha vikalpa e che ke jIvanamAM ene sthAna ApyA pachI ene sthAnabhraSTa karavA prayatnazIla banavAne badale jIvanamAM ene sthAna Apo ja nahIM. jIvana khUba svastha raheze. 45 'DaoNkTara sAheba ! dAMtamAM darda khUba thAya che.' 'aMdara Avo. joI lauM.' ane dAMtanI sthiti joyA bAda DaoNkTare dardIne kahyuM, 'dAMta kADhI nAkhavo paDaze.' 'keTalA rUpiyA lAgaze ?' '100 rUpiyA' 'DaoNkTara ! eka kAma karI zako ?' 'huM Apane 20 rUpiyA ApuM. Apa mAro dAMta khAlI DhIlo paDI jAya e rIte halAvI do. pachInuM ene kADhI nAkhavAnuM kAma huM ja karI laIza.' hA. saMsAramAM to A vRtti ghara karI ja gaI che; paraMtu adhyAtmamArgamAM praveza karI rahela keTalAka sAdhako paNa have A vRttinA zikAra banI rahyA hoya evuM dekhAvA lAgyuM che. mArga para cAlavAnI taiyArI nahIM, kaSTo veThI laIne paNa mArgane pakaDI ja rAkhavAnI koI vRtti nahIM ane taiyArI nahIM, 'saraLa'nI zodha ane 'sahelA'nI ja mAMga, A vRtti sAthe dharma thato hoya to karavo anyathA dharmane choDI detA athavA to dharmanA saraLa vibhAgane athavA to je paNa dharmamAM mArga saraLa lAgato hoya e mArgane pakaDI letA paLanI ya vAra lagADavI ja nahIM. TUMkamAM, maMjila sudhI pahoMcavAnI gaNatarI kharI paNa sAthe mananI jAtajAtanI zarato paNa kharI. mArga TUMko hovo joIe, suvidhAkAraka ane suvidhAdAyaka hovo joIe. majA Ave evo hovo joIe. javuM che parvatanA zikhare paNa zarata e che ke barapha para skeTiMga karatA hoIe e rIte javuM che. re karuNatA ! *

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A bAbo ATalo badho raDe che kema?' ene mAryo? koNe?' relave sTezana para bhIkha mAgI rahela eka bhikhArI eka yAtrI pAse pahoMcI gayo. mane kaMIka Apo ne?" 'AgaLa cAla' mAtra pAMca rUpiyA Apo' 'nathI mArI pAse' eka ja rUpiyo Apo. bhagavAna tamane svargamAM jagA karI Apaze" alyA! svargamAM jagA meLavavAnI vAta pachI samajI lezuM. tuM pahelAM TrenamAM to jagA apAvI de yAtrI bhikhArI para akaLAI jatAM bolyo. 'paNa zuM kAma?" 'e mArI pAse jIda karI beTho hato ke mAre koI paNa hisAbe atyAre ne atyAre ja gadheDA para savArI karavI che. mAruM nahIM to bIjuM zuM karuM?" 'tamAre ene mAravAnI jarUra nahotI. tamArI pITha para besADI dIdho hota to zuM vAMdho hato?" patnIe patine spaSTa zabdomAM saMbhaLAvA jevuM saMbhaLAvI dIdhuM. kamAla che ne A mana ! saMbaMdha bAMdhe che tyAre e evuM nazAmAM hoya che ke koIno ya avAja ene saMbhaLAto nathI hoto ane pachI jenI sAthe saMbaMdha baMdhAyelo hoya che eno avAja sAMbhaLI sAMbhaLIne e hade e trAsI jAya che ke enI sAtheno saMbaMdha toDI nAkhavA e koIno ya avAja sAMbhaLatuM nathI, sAMbhaLavA mAgatuM nathI. yAda rAkhajo, vAvAjhoDAnA pavana vacce tame jo sarovaranA pANIne niSkrapita rAkhI zako, AganI jvALAo vacce tame jo mINabattIne akhaMDa rAkhI zako, bhUkaMpanA AMcakA vacce tame jo mATInA banelA jhUMpaDAne sthira rAkhI zako to ja tame asthira manathI asthira manavALA sAthe baMdhAtA saMbaMdhane sthira, nirmaLa ane pavitra rAkhI zako ! vAMcI che ne A paMktio ? 'dhagadhagatI madhyAnhe mahAle, sAMja paDe akaLAtuM, kaMTaka sAthe prIta kare ne puSpothI zaramAtuM; o mana ! tuM ja nathI samajAtuM' vijJAnayuge kUtarAno 'haDakavA'no roga mANasane ApI dIdho che. haDakAyA kUtarAne tame kyAMka ne kyAMka, kyAreka ne kyAreka joyo to haze ja ne? e tamane beThelo jovA nahIM ja maLyo hoya ! basa, doDato ne doDato ja, bhAgato ne bhAgato ja, je paNa vacce bhaTakAI jAya ene karaDavAno prayAsa karato ja tame ene joyo haze. joI lo AjanA yuganA mAnavane ! enI pAchaLa haDakAyA kUtaro paDyo hoya ane e kAraNasara e doDI rahyo hoya to to ApaNe ene mApha karI daIe paNa e khuda lobhanA-bhoganA ane pratiSThAnA haDakavAno zikAra banI gayo che ane enA kAraNe doDI rahyo che. gharamAM e zAMta nathI, bajAramAM e nazAmAM che. havAkhAvAnAM sthaLo para paNa enA kAne mobAila che ane maMdiramAM paNa e becena che. enI A doTa jotAM anumAna karavAnuM mana thaI jAya che ke ene zuM mazAna jaladI pahoMcI javuM haze mATe A jhaDape e bhAgI rahyo haze ! kAMI ja samajAtuM nathI. GOL Call 9.

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eka praznano tame javAba Apazo ?" 'tame TrenanI musApharI daramyAna kAMI vAMcatA nathI ?" 'nA' 'TaeNksInI musApharI daramyAna" 'nA' rikSAnI musApharI daramyAna ?' 'nA' 'musApharI daramyAna tame vAMcatA ja nathI ema?" nA. evuM nathI. vimAnanI musApharI daramyAna huM khAsa vAMcuM chuM." | 'kAraNa kAMI ?' huM ucca keLavaNI laI rahyo chuM!' varasothI khIsAM kApavAnA dhaMdhAmAM goThavAI gayela eka pAkITamAra potAnA dhaMdhAmAM dAkhala thavA taiyAra thaI gayela dIkarAne pATha ApI rahyo hato. beTA! ApaNA dhaMdhAnI tejI kyAre ane maMdI kyAre eno tane koI khyAla kharo?" "A dhaMdhAmAM dAkhala ja huM hajI have thaI rahyo chuM tyAM mane evo to khyAla kyAMthI hoya ?' to barAbara sAMbhaLI le. unALAno samaya ApaNA mATe tejIno ane ziyALAno samaya ApaNA mATe maMdIno' "kAraNa kAMI?" "unALAmAM garamI sakhata hovAnA kAraNe badhAyanA hAtha khIsAnI bahAra ja hoya eTale ApaNane pAkITa mAravAmAM khUba saraLatA rahe jyAre ziyALAmAM ThaMDI sakhata hovAnA kAraNe badhAyanA hAtha khIsAmAM ja hoya. ApaNe pAkITa mArI ja zI rIte zakIe? have to tane rahasya samajAI gayuM ne ke unALo eTale ApaNA dhaMdhAnI tejI ane ziyALo eTale ApaNA dhaMdhAnI maMdI !" * maMdabuddhine to tame mApha karI do paNa vakrabuddhinuM to karavuM zuM? AkhI ya zikSaNa vyavasthAne tame tapAsI jAo. zikSaNa laIne bahAra paDela DaoNkTara, vakIla, enjiniyara, klArka-maeNnejara-cArTarDa ekAunTanTa vagerenAM jIvanamAM tame DokiyuM karI juo. tamane saraLa vyavahAra, saraLa svabhAva ke saraLa vartAva lagabhaga jovA nahIM maLe. rastA para cAlanAra mANasa pAse lAkaDI jo sIdhI ja hovI joIe, mukhamAM nakhAto khorAka peTamAM jo sIdho ja javo joIe, makAnane TakAvI rAkhato thAMbhalo jo sIdho ja hovo joIe, rastA para cAlatI vakhate pagalAM jo sIdhA ja paDavA joIe to bhaNelagaNela vyaktinA svabhAvamAM, vyavahAramAM ke vartAvamAM saraLatA na hovI joIe ? yAda rAkhajo. jagata Aje buddhinI maMdatAthI pIDAI nathI rahyuM paraMtu buddhinI malinatAthI pIDAI rahyuM che. kamajora mANasane nirakSarothI eTalo bhaya nathI jeTalo bhaya sAkSarothI che. eka ja dhyAna rAkhajo . bhaNajo jarUra paNa saraLatA-komaLatA ane pavitratAnuM balidAna na devAI jAya enuM dhyAna rAkhajo . peTamAM kayAM dravyo padharAvavA joIe e bAbatamAM mANasa pAse jarUrI hoziyArI kadAca nahIM hoya. ziyALAmAM kevAM kapaDAM na paheravA joIe enI akkala mANasa pAse kadAca ochI haze paNa paisA kevI rIte meLavavA, sAcavavA ane vadhAravA e bAbatamAM to mANasanI hoziyArI gajabanI che. paNa, vedanA sAthe kahevuM paDe ema che ke enI A hoziyArIe ja ene prabhuthI dUra karI dIdho che. puNyakAryothI vaMcita karI dIdho che. parivAra pratye upekSita karI dIdho che, pavitratAthI dUra dhakelI dIdho che ane prasannatAthI rahita banAvI dIdho che. re paisA ! tArI pAchaLanI pAgalatAno A karuNa aMjAma ? 49

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"pinTu, tArA gharamAM mammI-pappA jhaghaDe kharA ?' 'dha' 'roja ' 'lagabhaga roja' 'jhaghaDA ochA kyAre thAya ?' 'Disembara-jAnyuArImAM' 'kAraNa ?' 'e divasomAM ThaMDI sakhata hoya ne ?' 'jhaghaDAne ThaMDI sAthe zuM saMbaMdha ?' 'evuM che ne ke ziyALAmAM ThaMDInA kAraNe mArA pappAnA kAna para maphalara vIMTaLAyeluM hoya che ane mammInA kAna para zAla ! A sthitimAM baMnene eka bIjAnuM boleluM jyAM saMbhaLAtuM ja na hoya tyAM e be vacce jhaghaDo to thAya ja zI rIte ?' pinTue vargazikSakane javAba Apyo. je paththarothI pula banI zakato hato e ja paththarono upayaga koke dIvAla UbhI karavAmAM karI dIdho. be duzmanane paNa najIka lAvI devAnI tAkAta dharAvato pula kyAM ane sagA be bhAIone paNa ekabIjAthI dUra karI devAnI rAkSasI kSamatA dharAvatI dIvAla kyAM ? zabdo Akhare che zuM ? tamAruM haiyuM premasabhara hoya to tame emane 'pula' nuM gaurava paNa ApI zako ane tamAruM kalejuM ThekANe na hoya to tame emanA zira para 'dIvAla'nuM kalaMka paNa jhIMkI do. cAreya bAju kleza-kaMkAsa-kalahanuM je vAtAvaraNa Aje jovA maLI rahyuM che e jotAM ema lAge che ke mANasane dUra rahelAne najIka lAvavAmAM eTalo rasa nathI jeTalo rasa najIka rahelAne dUra dhakelI devAmAM che. karuNatA ja che ne ? 51 'tamArI bAjumAM roja AvIne eka eka kalAka je besI jAya che ne, e vyakti aMge mAre tamArI sAthe keTalIka vAto karavI che' eka saMtanI pAse koke AvIne vAta karI. 'tamArI vAta huM sAMbhaLuM to kharo paNa e pahelAM tamane huM je pUchuM, enA tamAre javAba ApavA paDaze' 'pUcho ?' tame mane je vAta karavA mAgo cho e vAta so TakA sAcI ja hovAnI nakkI ?' 'ema to huM zuM kahI zakuM ?' 'e vAta sArI ja hovAnuM nakkI ?' 'nA' 'e vAta mArA mATe kAmanI ?' 'nA' 'to pachI javAba Apo. mAre tamArI e vAta zA mATe sAMbhaLavI joIe ? tamAre evI vAta zA mATe mane saMbhaLAvavI joIe ?' pelA bhAIe tyAMthI cAlatI ja pakaDI. mANasa mAtra jo eTaluM ja nakkI karI de ne ke je vastu mArA mATe upayogI nathI e vastu mAre vasAvavI nathI. je vyakti mArA mATe kalyANakArI nathI e vyakti sAthe mAre AtmIya saMbaMdha bAMdhavA nathI ane je vAta mArA mATe lAbhadAyI nathI e vAta mAre sAMbhaLavI nathI to ya saMkhyAbaMdha kaleza-saMkleza-kusaMskAro ane karmabaMdhathI potAnI jAtane khUba AsAnIthI ane sahajatAthI bacAvI zake ! paNa re karuNatA ! jIvanano moTA bhAgano samaya mANasa nirarthaka, nuksAnakArI ane nirmAlya bAbatomAM ja veDaphI rahyo che ! prabhu ja ene satbuddhi Ape ! para

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eka bAbatanuM rahasya mane hajI nathI samajAyuM' 'zuM?' tAre kanu sAthe bolAcAlI thaI gaI ane kanuno gusso jyAre AsamAne pahoMcyo tyAre kanunA hAthamAM lAkaDI te pote ja pakaDAvI dIdhI hatI ne? ane e lAkaDI paNa pAchI tArA hAthamAM hatI e ja te ene ApI dIdhI hatI ne?" kaMIka meLavavA kaMIka mUkavuM ja paDe che athavA to kaMIka gumAvavuM ja paDe che' e siddhAMta aMge tamAruM zuM mAnavuM ?' navarAzanI paLomAM chApuM vAMcI rahela patine patnIe pUchyuM. e siddhAMta barAbara che" zA parathI kaho cho?' anubhava parathI' kayo anubhava thayo ?" 'lagnano' eTale?" 'tuM mane kyAre maLI? svataMtratA meM mUkI tyAre, ane mArA mananI prasannatA gumAvI tyAre !" patie patnIne rokaDo javAba ApI dIdho. "kAraNa kAMI?" mArI pAse rahela lAkaDI ja enA hAthamAM pakaDAvI devI paDe evI paristhiti sarjAyelI hatI." eTale?' 'tane khyAla nahIM hoya paNa amArI baMne vacce bolAcAlI thaI tyAre kanunA hAthamAM lokhaMDano saLiyo hato. jo meM pote mArA hAthamAM rahela lAkaDI enA hAthamAM na pakaDAvI dIdhI hota to enA hAthamAM rahela lokhaMDano saLiyo sIdho mArA mAthA para Avyo hota !' naTunI A vAta sAMbhaLIne manu stabdha thaI gayo. svIkAravuM na game evuM kaDavuM satya A che ke A jagatanA koI paNa padArthanA mAlika banavA jatAM tamAre jIvananI svataMtratA ane mananI prasannatAnuM balidAna devuM ja paDe che. bUTa bahAra mUkIne vyAkhyAnamAM beso ke paisA bhareluM pAkITa khIsAmAM rAkhI TrenamAM beso, jhaverAta tijorImAM rAkhI mahAbaLezvara jAo ke chatrI bahAra mUkIne maMdiramAM jAo, rUpavatI patnIne ghare rAkhIne oNphise jAo ke maeNnejarane oNphisa soMpIne vizvayAtrAe jAo. magajamAM tanAva to rahevAno ja. cittamAM ajaMpo to rahevAno ja. manamAM Dara to rahevAno ja ! koI e cIjo AMcakI jaze to? e cIjo sAthe koI aDapalAM karI besaze to? e cIja svayaM mArAthI dUra thaI jaze to? basa, saMsAranI A ja to asAratA che. e tamane kadAca duniyAbharanAM sukho ApI de paNa nirbhayatAnuM sukha ApavAnI enAmAM koI ja tAkAta nahIM ane nirbhayatAnA sukha vinAnA A saMsAranAM koI paNa sukhane sukha kahevAno koI artha ja nathI. dharmane jIvanamAM prAdhAnya ApatA mANasa eka ja kAraNasara Dare che, dharma e kaSTano, agavaDano, pratikULatAno mArga che. paisA ochA karyA vinA dAna nathI. niyaMtraNono svIkAra karyA vinA zIla nathI, zarIrane tapAvyA vinA tapa nathI ane manane vazamAM rAkhyA vinA bhAvanA nathI. basa, A ko trAsarUpa lAgatA hovAthI jIva dharmanA mArga joDAvA tatpara banato nathI. paraMtu, vAstavikatA e che ke jo tame dharmanA mArge AvatAM lAkaDI jevAM kaSTo veThI levA taiyAra nathI to karmo tamArA lamaNe lokhaMDanA saLiyAnA mAra jevAM kaSTo jhIMkIne ja rahevAnA che. pasaMdagIno nirNaya ApaNe ja karavAno che. pa4

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kUtuhalavRtti konuM nAma? e yuvakane evI vicitra Adata ke jyAM kyAMya paNa koI borDa jovA maLe, enA paranuM lakhANa vAMcyA vinA ene cena ja na paDe. ekavAra banyuM evuM ke e rastA parathI pasAra thaI rahyo hato ane enI najara eka nAnakaDI TekarI para lAkaDAnA thAMbhalA para laTakAvelA borDa para paDI. borDa paranuM lakhANa vAMcavAno eNe khUba prayAsa karyo paNa akSaro nAnA hovAnA kAraNe emAM ene saphaLatA na maLI. e TekarI para caDIne borDa pAse pahoMcI gayo. lakhANa vAMcyuM ane enuM mAthuM phATI gayuM. 'vAMcavAvALo pAgala che' A lakhANa hatuM e borDa para. gussAmAM ne gussAmAM e lakhANa bhUMsIne navuM lakhANa eNe lakhI dIdhuM. lakhavAvALo lalu che' tame banAvela kavitAnI racanA para huM eTalo badho ApharIna pokArI gayo chuM ke tame je mAgo te ApI devA taiyAra chuM" rAjAe kavine kahyuM. 'vacanapAlana karazo ?" 'parIkSA karI juo... eka lAkha sonAmahora ApI do' eka lAkhano AMkaDo sAMbhaLIne rAjA to stabdha thaI gayo. "ATalI badhI?" eka sonAmahora ApI do' ATalI ochI ?' "eka lAkha sonAmahora mAgI hatI ApanI udAratA joIne ane eka sonAmahora atyAre mAgI rahyo chuM mArI pAtratA joIne !' kavie javAba Apyo. rAjAe eka lAkha sonAmahora ApI dIdhI. dArUnA nazAmAM mANasa sIdho cAlI zake, kamaLAvALI AMkhe mANasa spaSTa joI zake, thothavAtI jIbhe mANasa spaSTa bolI zake to krodhanA nazAmAM mANasa spaSTa vicArI zake. krodha karyA bAda paNa prasannatA anubhavI hoya evo eka paNa prasaMga jiMdagImAM na banyo hovA chatAM mANasa koNa jANe kema paNa krodha karyA ja kare che, krodha karyo ja jAya che. krodha karavA mATe jANe ke takanI rAha ja joto hoya che ! zuM kAraNa haze AnI pAchaLa, e jANavuM hoya to enAM mukhya kAraNa be che. naMbara eka : krodhanA sevanakALamAM pote 'tAkAtavAna' hovAno bhrama mANasa majethI sevI zake che. naMbara be : krodhanuM sevana tAtkAlika enI asara nIpajAve che. paNa, asarakAraka anubhavAto krodha vinAzaka che e satya asthimajjA banAvI dejo . krodha karI nahIM zakAya. tame koI gaNitazane be bagaDA ApI do. e 2 + 2 =4 banAvI deze paNa tame koI saMvedanazIla vyaktine be bagaDA ApI do, e 22 banAvI deze. kAraNa? gaNitajJa pAse mana che, buddhi che, gaNatarI che ane eTale ja cAlAkI che, cAlabAjI che. e be bagaDAne bhegA rAkhI devAnuM vicArI zakato ja nathI jyAre saMvedanazIla vyakti pAse hRdaya che, lAgaNI che, AMsu che, kalpanA che, bhAvanA che, Urmi che ane eTale ja saraLatA che, sahRdayatA che. e be bagaDA vacce koI paNa prakAranuM vyavadhAna ke koI paNa prakArano aMtarAla UbhuM karavAnuM vicArI zakato ja nathI. sAce ja jIvanane dhanya banAvI devuM che? saMsAranA kSetramAM bagaDA vacce bhale kaMIka ne kaMIka mUkatA rahejo paNa dharmanA kSetramAM to be bagaDAne sAthe ja rAkhI dejo.

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"zAhajahAMe mumatAjhanI yAdamAM tAjamahela banAvyo. tame mArI yAdamAM zuM banAvazo ?' patnIe patine pUchyuM. dIvAnakhAnAmAM tAro phoTo mUkIza' basa, eTaluM ja ?" 'phoTA para hAra caDAvIza' "basa, eTaluM ja ' 'ghIno dIvo karIza' basa ?' 'namaskAra karIza' 'zenA mATe ?' "mArAthI tAro chuTakAro vahelo thaI javAnA AnaMda badala' patie javAba Apyo. nadInA uparanA bhAgamAM tamane bhale ne nirmaLa pANInAM darzana thatAM hoya paNa tame aMdara UMDA UtaratA UtaratA taLiye pahoMcI jAo, tamArA hAthamAM sivAya kAdava bIjuM kAMI ja nahIM Ave. je saMbaMdhanA kendramAM kevaLa vAsanA ja che, svArthapUrti ane apekSApUrti ja che e saMbaMdhamAM tame UMDA UtaratA jAo, e saMbaMdhamAM tame samaya javA do, e saMbaMdhamAM tame vadhu ne vadhu ghaniSTatA ane nikaTatA kevaLo, tamane tyAM saMgharSa-saMkleza ane samasyAnA kAdava sivAya bIjuM kAMI ja anubhavavA nahIM maLe. saMsAra asAra che eno artha e nathI ke saMsAramAM badheya kAdava ja kAdava che. nA. artha eno A ja che. ahIM tame cAlatA cAlatA, caDatA caDatA ke UtaratA UtaratA kyAMya paNa pahoMco. maMjile tamane ukaLATa, udvega ane uttejanA sivAya bIjuM kAMI ja anubhavavA nahIM maLe ! 57 tamane AvatI kAle haoNspiTalamAMthI rajA ApI devAnI gaNatarI che. kAraNa ke tamane dhAryA karatAM ghaNo vadhAre ane ghaNo jhaDapI sudhAro che' DaoNkTare Trakano eNksiDanTa thavAthI haoNspiTalamAM dAkhala thayelA dardIne kahyuM. 'DaoNkTara sAheba ! mane khUba Dara lAge che' *Dara ?" paNa....' 'paNa zeno Dara lAge che ?' 'Traka akasmAtano' "e to bhUtakALa thaI gayo. have zuM che ?' 'DaoNkTara sAheba, je Traka mArI sAthe TakarAI gaI e TrakanI pAchaLa lakhyuM che ke 'pira mist' bhUkha sakhata lAgI hoya bhikhArIne ane rAtanA AkAzamAM UgelA pUrNimAnA cAMdamAM bhikhArIne jo roTalInAM darzana thatAM hoya to emAM kAMI navAI pAmavA jevuM nathI. dhanalaMpaTane rastAmAM paDelA thUMkanA baLakhAmAM rUpiyAnAM darzana thatAM hoya to emAMya AzcaryA pAmavA jevuM kAMI nathI. vagara TikiTe TrenamAM musApharI karI rahela musApharane TrenamAM caDI rahela dareka navA yAtrikamAM TI.sI.nAM darzana thatAM hoya to emAM ya navAI pAmavA jevuM kAMI nathI. kAraNa ? vAstavikatA e che ke je viSayamAM ke vicAramAM tame UMDA UtarI jAo cho e viSaya ke vicAra tamArAmAM eTalo ja UMDo UtarI jAya che. UtaravuM ja hoya UMDA to prabhumAM ane prabhuvacanonA vicAromAM ja UMDA UtarI jAo. A loka dhanya banI jaze, paraloka saddhara banI jaze. para

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'tuM to kamAla kare che' patnIne patie pUchyuM, 'kema zuM thayuM?" cUMTaNImAM umedavArI meM noMdhAvI che ane pracAra tuM evI rIte karI rahI che ke jANe tAre ja jItI javAnuM na hoya ?' 'hajI to huM vadhu jorazorathI pracAra karavAnI chuM" pAcho tuM ahIM AvI gayo ?' nyAyAdhIze gunegAra tarapha AMkha karaDI karIne pUchyuM. 'u" tane khyAla che kharo, tuM ahIM keTalAmI vAra Avyo che?" '22 mI vAra' meM tane gaI vakhate nahotuM kahyuM ke vAraMvAra korTamAM AvavuM paDe evAM kAmo tAre baMdha karI devA joIe!" 'sara ! kahyuM hatuM? 'toya pAcho tuM ahIM AvI caDyo?" 'sara ! eka prazna Apane pUchuM ?" | 'kAraNa?" 'tamAro vijaya thavo ja joIe.' 'paNa mane vijetA banAvavAmAM tane ATalo badho rasa kema che e mane samajAtuM nathI.' 'tame cUMTAI jAo to gharamAM kama se kama pAMca varasa to zAMti rahe!' patnIe javAba Apyo. pUcha huM to ahIM 22 mI vAra Avyo chuM paNa Apa to ahIM chellAM 22 varasathI roja AvI rahyA cho enuM zuM?" tame guMDAne zAhukAra banAvI zako, durAcArIne sadAcArI banAvI zako, durjanane sajjana banAvI zako, vyabhicAriNIne satI banAvI zako. gAMDAne DAhyo banAvI zako, mUrkhane buddhimAna banAvI zako, paraMtu jenI AMkhomAMthI zaramanAM jaLa sukAI gayA che. evA bezaramane tame na to saMskArI banAvI zako ke na to sajjana banAvI zako. na to sAro banAvI zako ke na to zANo banAvI zako. saMpattinI nukasAnI veThavI paDe to eka vAra veThI lejo. koka kAraNasara taMdurastInuM balidAna daI devuM paDe to daI dejo . koka nimittavaza mitra gumAvI devo paDe to gumAvI dejo. koka khataranAka paribaLa tamane parivArathI alaga thaI javA majabUra karI bese to eka vAra e vikalpamAM saMmata thaI jajo paNa AMkhamAM rahela zaramanAM jaLane to kyAreya sukAvA na dezo. kAraNa ke e baceluM raheze to jIvananAM tamAma mUlyo surakSita rahI jaze. zuM thaI gayuM che AjanA yuganA mANasane, e ja samajAtuM nathI. ene kUtarA sAthe jAme che, potAnI gADI sAthe ene phAve che, pharnicara sAthe e goThavAI jAya che, TrenanI musApharI daramyAna bAjumAM beThela ajanabI sAthe jamAvI devAmAM ene phAvaTa che. sarakasa jovA jAya to jokara sAthe ya ene phAve che ane prANI saMgrahAlayamAM jAya che to sasalA sAthe ya ene jAme che. pAMjarApoLamAM jAya che to baLadiyA sAthe ya ene phAve che to haoNspiTalamAM jAya che to garIba dardI pratye ya enA haiyAmAM sneha UbharAya che. paNa, koNa jANe kema, ene potAnA parivAra sAthe ja phAvatuM nathI. pappA pAse e besavA taiyAra nathI. mammInI tabiyata kevI che e jANavAnI ene darakAra nathI. patnInI zI apekSA che ene e pUchavA taiyAra nathI. bAbo zenA vinA jhUrI rahyo che e jANavAnI ene koI talapa nathI. re mAnava ! tuM pazujagatathI ya gayo? pa9

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Apa jIvatA cho?" 'Apane 'pradhAna' pade maLyAnA samAcAra amanagarajanone maLyA che. ApanagaramAM padhAro. ame "suvarNa'thI ApanI tulA karavA mAgIe chIe" eka nagarajane pradhAnane phona karyo. 'mane atyAre samaya nathI' javAba maLyo. be mahinA pachI samAcAra maLyA ke emane 'pradhAna' padethI haTAvIne "rAjyapAla' pade besADI devAmAM AvyA che. "ame cAMdI'thI ApanI tulA karavA mAgIe chIe. Apa turta nagaramAM padhAro.' huM traNa mahinA pachI AvI zakIza' be mahinA pachI samAcAra AvyA ke emane 'sarapaMca pade goThavI devAmAM AvyA che. ame 'rUpiyAthI ApanI tulA karavA mAgIe chIe." 'aThavADiyAmAM ja AvuM chuM" trIje divase to samAcAra AvyA ke emane ghare besADI devAmAM AvyA che. e pote sAme caDIne nagarajano samakSa AvI UbhA rahI gayA. Apa taiyAra ho to ame Apane 'pastI'thI tolavA taiyAra chIe" eka nagarajane saMbhaLAvI dIdhuM. 'AjanA peparamAM tamArI prArthanAsabhA'nI to jAherAta AvI che e vAMcIne ame Apane tyAM AvyA ane Apa to beThA beThA pepara vAMcI rahyA cho. vAta zI che? badhuM barAbara ja che' eTale?" peparamAM prArthanAsabhAnI jAherAta meM ja ApI che !" Ape pote ja?" 'paNa kAraNa kAMI?" huM jANavA mAgato hato ke mArA para kharekhara "prema" keTalA lokone che ? tamane badhAyane ATalI vizALa saMkhyAmAM hAjara thayelA jotA ema lAge che ke jAherAtanA meM kharacelA paisA vasUla thaI gayA che" zeThe hasatA hasatA javAba Apyo. mIThAInAM vakhANa jo emAM rahela sAkaranA kAraNe ja thatAM hoya che, zarIranI zobhAno badho ja yaza jo enA para rahela cAmaDInA phALe ja jato hoya che, mukhanuM sauMdarya jo AMkhane ja AbhArI hoya che, mANasanI bolabAlA jo enI pAse rahela paisAnA hisAbe ja thatI hoya che to A saMsAranA koI paNa jIvanuM gaurava enA puNyanA kAraNe ja thatuM hoya che. jyAM emAM kaDAko bolAyo, e koDInI kiMmatano thaI gayo. jyAM emAM maMdI AvI, e pastInuM pratinidhitva dharAvato thaI gayo. mAnava ! yAda rAkhaje, tane moTo banAvavAnuM kAma puNya kare che paNa tuM jo mahAna banavA mAge che to 'guNa'nA zaraNe gayA vinA tArA mATe bIjo koI vikalpa ja nathI. gAMDAmAM ane ahaMkArImAM eTalo ja phera hoya che ke gAMDAno upalo mALa khAlI hoya che jyAre ahaMkArIe potAno upalo mALa bhADe ApI dIdho hoya che. upalo mALa, jeno khAlI hoya emAM to tame dAkhala thaI zako paNa upalo mALa jeNe bhADe ja ApI dIdho hoya tyAM to tame kAMI ja na karI zako ! tamAre tapAsa karavI hoya to karI lejo. A jagata mATe gAMDAo eTalA upadravI nathI banyA jeTalA upadravI ahaMkArIo banyA che. rAvaNa, duryodhana, hITalara, IdI amIna vagerenA upadravothI AkhuM jagata paricita che. evA AtmAomAM naMbara na lagAvavo hoya to ahaMkAra sAthe dostI kyAreya karazo nahIM ane karI dIdhI ja hoya to vahelI take toDI nAkhyA vinA rahezo nahIM !

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'dosta ! eka prazna pUchuM?" pUcha ne' dhAra ke tArI pAse paiDAnuM paeNkeTa AvI gayuM hoya, emAMthI tuM peDA khAvAnI taiyArI karI rahyo hoya ane acAnaka huM tyAM AvI caDuM to tuM zuM kare ?" 'tane zuM lAge che ?" 'tuM mane peDo khAvAnI "ophara' kare ja nA, tuM bhUle che" 'to tuM kare zuM?" huM tArA javAnI rAha jouM !" kRpaNe javAba Apyo." 10varasanI vaye pinTa pahelI vAra aDadhI caDDImAMthI penTa paheravAno hato. eNe penTa paherI joyuM tyAre khyAla Avyo ke penTa eka veMta jeTaluM moTuM hatuM. eNe mammIne vinaMti karI. mammI, tuM eka veta kApI Apa ne?" mane samaya nathI" bhAbhI ! tame eka veMta ochuM karI Apo ne?" mane ya samaya nathI kAkI ! tame ATaluM kAma karI Apazo ?" mane ya kyAM samaya che ?" nirAza thaI gayela pinke raDatA raDatA sUI to gayo paNa enA sUI gayA bAda enA para dayA AvI javAthI mammIe penTa eka veMta TUMkuM karI nAkhyuM. mammI bAda enI bhAbhIe paNa eka veMta penTa kApI nAkhyuM ane tyAra bAda kAkIe paNa eka veMta ochuM karI nAkhyuM. savAranApinTee jayAre penTa paheravAno prayAsa karyo tyAre e penTa aDadhI caDDImAM pheravAI gayuM hatuM ! skUle jaI rahela bAbAne vaeNkezanamAM mammI game tyAM mokalatI haze paNa risesamAM khAvA mATe jyAre nAstAno Dabbo taiyAra karIne enA daphataramAM mUkatI hoya che tyAre bAbA eka sUcana e acUka karatI hoya che ke DabbAmAM rahela A nAsto tuM ekalo ja khAje. bIjA koIne ya emAMthI kAMI ApIza nahIM." A ja mammI gharamAM jUnA thaI gayela kapaDAMnA badalAmAM vAsaNa letI hoya che. sAMja paDye vadhelA dUdhamAM meLavaNa nAkhIne dahIM banAvatI hoya che to vadhela roTalInA khAkharA banAvI detI hoya che. are, phATI gayela dUdhano ya mAvo banAvA besI jatI hoya che ! jyAM bagaDI gayeluM, jUnuM thaI gayeluM, nakAmuM thaI gayeluM ke vadhArAnuM ya bIjAne ApavAnuM mana na thatuM hoya tyAM jIvanamAM paramArthanAM kAryo karavAnuM mana thatuM rahe ke potAnAM sukhamAM bIjAno bhAga rAkhavAnI vRtti jAgatI rahe evI AzA rAkhavI vyartha ja che ne? kamAlanI che mANasanI manovRtti ! sukha ja joIe che ene sahu pAsethI ane koIne ya sukha ApavAnI enI taiyArI nathI !! puNya ja jenuM paravArI cUkyuM hoya che ane tame game tevA anukULa saMyogo Apo ke anukULa sAmagrIo Apo, ene tame anukULa vAtAvaraNamAM mUko ke anukULa sobatamAM mUko, ene saphaLatA nathI ja maLatI te nathI ja maLatI.. karuNa vAstavikatA e che ke mANasane paisAmAM zaktinAM darzana thAya che, puruSArthamAM tAkAtanAM darzana thAya che, pratiSThAmAM zaktinAM darzana thAya che; paraMtu puNyamAM zakti hovAnI bAbatamAM enuM mana kAyama dvidhAgrasta ja rahe che. yAda rAkhajo , AtyaMtara jagatamAM "guNa' vinA jo sarasatA nathI to bahirjagatamAM 'puNya' vinA saphaLatA nathI.

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pappA! mAro A skUlano 'riporTa' che. tame joI lo. enA para tamArI sahI karI ApavAnI che. 'riporTamAM che zuM?' 'tame ja vAMcI lo ne!" ane bApe riporTa vAMcyo. beTAnAM parAkramo [3] nI pUrI yazogAthA [3] e pustaka jevaDA riporTamAM lakhAI hatI. bApe e riporTa nIce potAnA aMgUThAnuM nizAna lagAvI dIdhuM. pappA! A tame zuM karyuM? tame to bhaNelA-gaNelA cho ane chatAM tamArA hastAkSaramAM sahI na karatA aMgUThAnuM nizAna kema lagAvyuM?" 'tArA jevA DaphoLa dIkarAno bApa bhaNelo-gaNelo che evuM huM koIne ya jaNAvavA mAgato nathI eTale." jaTAzaMkara jiMdagImAM prathamavAra ja TrenamAM musApharI karI rahyA hatA ane eya potAnI sAthe 20 kilogrAma vajanavALo ghIno Dabbo laIne ! TrenamAM girdI ghaNI tI. mAMDa mAMDa pote to aMdara caDI gayA paNa hAthamAM rahela ghInA DabbAne kyAM mUkavo enI emane ciMtA thavA lAgI. acAnaka emanI najara TrenanI sAMkaLa para paDI ane paLanI ya vAra lagADyA vinA emaNe ghIno Dabbo sAMkaLa para laTakAvI dIdho. 20kilogrAma vajanavALo Dabbo sAMkaLa para laTakAtAMnI sAthe ja Trena UbhI rahI gaI. gArDa DabbAmAM Avyo. joyuM to sAMkaLa para Dabbo laTakato hato. A Dabbo kono che?" mAro' jaTAzaMkara uvAca. 'tamane khabara che kharI ke A DabbAnA vajanathI AkhI Trena UbhI rahI che!" te UbhI ja rahe ne?" eTale?' "eTale zuM? A DabbAmAM je ghI che e cokhyuM che. Trena UbhI na rahe to jAya kyAM ?" jaTAzaMkara bolyA. katalakhAnAmAM pazuo kapAya che eTale katalakhAnA pratye to manamAM aNagamAno bhAva sahaja ja pedA thaI jAya che; paraMtu AjanI zikSaNasaMsthAomAM thaI rahela saMskArazIla ane AdarzanI jAlima ane kAramI katala koIne ya lagabhaga dekhAtI nathI eTale enA pratye aNagamAno bhAva to pedA thato nathI paraMtu deza samastanA suMdara bhAvinuM nirmANa tyAM ja thaI rahyuM hovAno bahujanavarganA manamAM eka jAtano bhrama Ubho thaI gayo hovAnA kAraNe e saMsthAo kema vadhu ne vadhu phAle ane phUle enA prayAsomAM ja sahu rAcatA thaI gayA che. - sadupayoganI buddhi na AvI hoya tyAM sudhI bALakanA hAthamAM charI na ja apAya eno khyAla sahune che paNa sadabuddhinI gerahAjarImAM yuvAnInA hAthamA zaktio na ja soMpAya enI khabara ahIM kone che e prazna che. chidra maLatAM ja pANI aMdara pravezI jAya che ema kahevAne badale ema kaho ke kyAMya paNa praveza meLavI levA pANI chidranI tapAsamAM nIkaLI jAya che. basa, A ahaM che bilakula pANI jevo. nimitta maLatAM e tagaDo banato rahe che ema nahIM, tagaDo banato rahevA e satata nimittanI zodha karato ja rahe che. ane kamAlanI vAta to e che ke sahaja banatA prasaMgone ya ahaM potAnA khAte khatavato rahIne potAnA phuggA jevA zarIrane phulAvato ja rahe che. paNa virATakAya paNa phuggo eka nAnakaDI TAMcaNI pAse jema kamajora puravAra thAya che tema puSTa paNa ahaMkAra mAmUlI paNa prasaMga sAme napuMsaka puravAra thaI jato hoya che.

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'pharI pAcho tuM jelamAM AvI gayo ?' corI?" 'tamAre daMDa bharavo paDaze" 'paNa zeno ?" atyAre rAtanA agiyAra vAgyA che ane tamArI sAikalamAM lAiTa to che nahIM. lAiTa vinA sAyakala calAvavI e kAnUnI aparAdha che." eka prazna pUchuM?" 'nA' baLAtkAra?" 'nA' pUcho' khUna ?" 'to?" "khoTI sahI karatA pakaDAI gayo eTale ahIM AvavuM paDyuM 'paNa tane vAMcatAM-lakhatAM to nahotuM AvaDatuM ne?" 'nahotuM ja AvaDatuM paNa gaye vakhate jelamAM Avelo ne tyAre akSarajJAna zIkhIne bahAra gayelo. basa, e akSarajJAna ja mane naDyuM !" 'rastA para cAreya bAju lAiTa ja lAiTa che. pachI mArI sAikalamAM lAiTa hoya ke na hoya, zuM pharaka paDe che? polIse sAikala savAranA A praznano javAba ApavAne badale enI sAikalanA TAyaramAMthI havA ja kADhI nAkhI." tame A zuM karyuM?' 'TAyaramAMthI havA kADhI nAkhI' 'cAreya bAju havA ja havA che ne? tamArI sAikalanA TAyaramAM havA hoya ke na hoya, zuM pharaka paDe che?" paoNlIse hasatA hasatA javAba Apyo. saMskRta zabda 'sAkSarAH' ne tame ulaTAvI do, 'rAkSasAH' banI jaze. atizayokti vinA kahevuM hoya to ema kahI zakAya ke AjanA 'sAkSaro'ne tame "rAkSaso' kahIne navAjo to rAkSaso paNa kadAca korTamAM jaIne badanakSIno dAvo mAMDI bese ke 'AjanA sAkSaro je aMdhamatama kAryo karI rahyA che evAM aMdhamatama kAryo amArI AkhIya rAkSasa paraMparAmAM koIe paNa kyAreya nathI karyA ! peTamAM rahela potAnA bALakanI ThaMDe kaleje hatyA karI nAkhanAra khUnI mAtAone ame kyAreya inAmothI navAjI nathI. karoDo darzako samakSa potAnAM kapaDAM utArI rahela yuvatIone ame kyAreya karoDo rUpiyA ApyA nathI. mAtra hUMDiyAmaNa meLavavAnI lAlaca lAkho-karoDo abola pazuone kApI nAkhatAM katalakhAnAo ame kyAreya kholyA nathI. AjanA sAkSaro e je paNa haze te, rAkSaso to nathI ja !!! bhUlano kAM to bacAva ane kAM to pratikAra, manano A ja to svabhAva che. ane A ja svabhAvanA kAraNe to mANase potAnA jIvanane kalpanAtIta hade kSatiothI vyApta banAvI dIdhuM che. kamAlanuM Azcarya to e che ke gaNitanA dAkhalAmAM rahI gayela kSati svIkArIne sudhArI levA mANasa taiyAra che. rasto pakaDavAmAM thaI gayela bhUlane svIkArI levAmAM mANasa vacce ahaMne lAvato nathI; paraMtu jIvanamAM Dagale ne pagale thatI rahetI bhUlone kabUla karI letA na jANe mANasa keTalo badho dhUMA-phUMA thaI jAya che. yAda rAkhajo, bhUlano bacAva e bhUlane bevaDAvavAnI jAlima bevakUphI che.

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'tuM raDe che kema ?' mane zikSake lApho mAryo' 'tophAna karyuM haze' 'nA' 'lesanamAM garabaDa karI haze' 'nA' 'cAlu kalAsamAM vAto karI haze' 'nA' 'to ?' 'kAMI ja nahotuM karyuM" ane toya tane lApho mAryo ?' 'hA. pAchalI pATalI para cAlu klAsamAM zAMtithI sUI gayo hato ane zikSake mane jagADIne lApho lagAvI dIdho' cinTue pappAne raDatAM raDatAM javAba Apyo. imAratanI majabUtAIno AdhAra pAyo che. e ja jo kAco che to imAratanI sthiratA so TakA jokhamamAM ja che. saMpUrNa jIvananI majabUtAIno AdhAra bacapana che. e vayamAM bALakane jo na maLyA suMdara saMskAro, jo na maLyuM suMdara vAtAvaraNa, na maLyuM jo samyak zikSaNa to enuM AkhuM jIvana rahI jAya boduM, banI jAya bekAra ane caDI jAya galata ravADe ! hindustAnanA koI paNa zahera ke gAmaDAMmAM tame cAlyA jAo. koI paNa skUlanI mulAkAta laI juo. tamane eka dazya acUka jovA maLaze. zikSako gaMbhIratAthI ane prasannatAthI bhaNAvatA nathI. bALako AnaMdathI ane ullAsathI bhaNatA nathI. ati mahattvanI kahI zakAya evI 'bAlyavaya' kalpanAtIta hade chetarAI rahI che, gumarAha banI rahI che. Fe "beTA ! eka khuzakhabara' 'zuM che ?' parIkSA najIka Ave che ne ?' 'dha' 'A vakhate parIkSAmaM tuM jo prathama naMbare pAsa thaI jaIza to huM tane bheTamAM skUTara ApIza.' ane parIkSAnuM pariNAma AvyuM tyAre bApane khabara paDI ke cinTu parIkSAmAM nApAsa ja thayo hato. beTA ! A zuM ?' 'pappA ! huM zuM karuM ?' 'paNa parIkSA AvatA pahelAM tuM karato zuM hato ?' "pappA ! skUTara calAvavAnuM zIkhato hato.' mananI A ja to prakRti che. ene pariNAmanuM jabaradasta AkarSaNa che paNa e pariNAma sudhI pahoMcADanAra prakriyA pratye e ghora udAsIna che. ene lpanAtIta hade saphaLatA game che paNa je mArga para pasAra thayA bAda ja saphaLatA maLe che e mArga para kadama mUkavAnI bAbatamAM e kAyama mATe gallAM-tallAM ja karyA karatuM hoya che. kahevuM hoya to ema kahI zakAya ke sAdhanA karyA vinA ja siddhi meLavI levAnA abharakhAmAM e rAcatuM hoya che, mUlya cUkavyA vinA ja mAla meLavI levAnA aramAno e potAnA peTamAM saMgharIne beThuM hoya che. A vRttinuM pariNAma e Ave che ke saphaLatA meLavI levA mana game te raste, game tevA mAdhyame, game te rIte, game te kArya karI levA taiyAra rahetuM hoya che. A manaHsthitimAM mUlyapratiSThA TakI rahe ke thatI rahe e zakya ja kyAM che? 30

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'tamArA hAthamAM kAMI takalIpha che?" 'nA' mAthuM ThekANe nathI ?" 'ThekANe ja che" 'to pachI...' eka guMDo potAnA camacAo samakSa baDAI hAMkI rahyo hato. 'tamane khabara che eka vAtanI ?' kaI?" mAro janma thayo tyAre zuM thayuM hatuM enI !" sAkara vaheMcAI haze' 'peMDA vaheMcAyA haze' tame kAgaLa ATalo badho dhIme dhIme kema lakho cho?" "evuM che ne ke mArA bAbAnI uMmara hajI cha varasanI ja che. hajI to e pahelI copaDImAM bhaNI rahyo che. ekadama jhaDapathI to e kAgaLa vAMcI ja kevI rIte zake ? A kAgaLa huM enA para lakhI rahI chuM eTale lakhavAnI jhaDapa dhImI rAkhI che' mammIe javAba Apyo. 'to?" '21 topo phUTI hatI' nizAna cUkI gaI haze ema lAge che' eka yuvAna Ama bolIne jhaDapathI tyAMthI bhAgI ja gayo. prazno uThAvavAmAM mana hajI kyAreka paNa thAtuM haze paNa praznone gUMcavI nAkhavAnI kuzaLatA mana pAse jevI che evI to A jagatamAM koInI ya pAse nathI. tame khuda mana dvArA UbhA karelA kutarkonA jaMgalamAM evA aTavAI jAo ke emAMthI tame bahAra nIkaLI ja na zako. tame pUcho, candra zItaLa che kharo ? e tamane sAmethI pUchaze. candra tamane roTalI jevo hoya evuM nathI lAgatuM? tame pUcho, sAgara gaMbhIra nathI lAgato ? e tamane pUchaze, sAgaranuM pANI khAruM hoya evuM zuM tame kyAreya anubhavyuM nathI ? TUMkamAM, khUMkhAra DAkU to kyAreka paNa paoNlIsanA zaraNe AvavA taiyAra thaI jAya che; paraMtu kutarkabAja mana to kyAreya potAnI hAra svIkArI levA taiyAra thatuM nathI. AvA mananA hAthamAM jIvananI gADInuM sTIariMga vhIla pakaDAvI detA pahelAM lAkha vAra vicAra karajo. keTalAka jIvonAM jIvana evA hoya che ke teo maraNa pachI ya anekanAM haiyAmAM 'smaraNa' rUpe jIvatA hoya che jyAre keTalAka jIvonAM jIvana evA hoya che ke teo potAnA jIvanakALa daramyAna paNa anekanAM haiyAmAM 'kabara" rUpe jIvatA hoya che. potAnA jIvanakALa daramyAna banI zake ke puSpa kokanA paga nIce kacarAI jaIne akALe paralokanI yAtrA para nIkaLI paDatuM haze ke sAMja paDye karamAI jaIne sahaja rUpe ja paralokanI yAtrAe nIkaLI jatuM haze paNa to ya kavionI stutino viSaya, bhaktonA AkarSaNano viSaya, premIonI pasaMdagIno viSaya haMmeza mATe e puSpa ja rahyuM che, nahIM ke lAMbA samaya sudhI jIvato ane koInAthI ya na kacarAto kAMTo ! nakkI karajo. jIvanamAM banazuM to suvAsa prasarAvatA puSpa jevA ja banazuM. kokane mATe pIDArUpa banatA kaMTaka jevA to kyAreya nahIM banIe. ka

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"vagara TikiTe musApharI karavA badala tamAre daMDa bharavo ja paDaze.' 'nahIM bharuM' 'to jelamAM javuM paDaze' 'nahIM jAu' "A gADI tamArA parama pUjya pitAzrInI nathI e to tamArA khyAlamAM che ne ?' 'tamane TrenamAM mukAyela borDa paranuM lakhANa yAda to che ne ?" 'zuM lakhAyuM che ?' 'relave e tamArI potAnI ja saMpatti che. chUTathI eno upayoga karo' basa, A borDane anusAre ja to meM TikiTa lIdhA vinA musApharI karI che.' bhale ne guMDAnA hAthamAM e ja charI che ke je charIthI DaoNkTare oNparezana thiyeTaramAM ochAmAM ochA 50 dardIone motanA mukhamAM homAI jatA bacAvI lIdhA che; paraMtu e ja charI dvArA guMDAe 50 mANasone motane ghATa utArI dIdhA. charI bicArI zuM kare ? lakhANa bhale ne tame ekadama sarasa karyuM che paNa enuM arthaghaTana karanAruM mana jo vakra che to e evuM arthaghaTana karI besaze ke jenI tame kyAreya kalpanA paNa nahIM karI hoya ane AnAthI viparIta, mana jo saraLa che ane sarasa che to lakhANa bhale ne ekavAra vicitra paNa che, mana enuM evuM suMdara arthaghaTana karI besaze ke tame khuda acaMbAmAM paDI jazo. be ja kAma karo. naMbara eka H manane barAbara samajI lo. ane naMbara be : manane barAbara samajI lIdhA pachI ene samyak samaja ApI do. jIvana salAmata rahI jaze. 73 "eka divasamAM te keTalI bhUlo karI che eno tane koI khyAla che kharo ?' nokarane zeThe khakhaDAvyo. 'nA' 'yAda karAvuM ?' 'hA' 'lonDrImAMthI kapaDAM na lAvyo' barAbara' 'mArA bUTa ThekANe na mUkyA' barAbara' 'have Aje eka paNa bhUla teM karI che to tArA pagAramAMthI 10 rUpiyA kApI laIza.' barAbara' "are, te mArA penTanA khIsAmAMthI 500 rUpiyA uThAvyA ?' rAtanA zeThe nokarane dhamakAvyo. 'zeTha, bhUla thaI gaI. 10 rUpiyA pagAramAMthI kApI nAkho' nokare hasatAM hasatAM javAba Apyo. dUdhamAM nAkho tame meLavaNa, e dahIMmAM rUpAMtarita thaI jAya. dUdhamAM nAkho tame pANI, e pAtaLuM banI jAya, dUdhamAM tame nAkho lIMbunAM TIpAM, e phATI jAya. sa, mana bilakula A dUdha jevuM che. ene jAmI jatAM paNa vAra nahIM to phATI jatAM paNa vAra nahIM. arthano anartha karatAM paNa ene vAra nahIM ane anarthanuM arthamAM rUpAMtaraNa karatAM paNa ene vAra nahIM. e sIdhuM bolelAnuM UMdhuM ya karI batAve to UMdhuM bolelAnuM sIdhuM ya karI batAve. AvA ati vicitra, viSama ane viziSTa mana sAthe sAcavIne kAma letAM jene na AvaDe e rAkSasa paNa banI jAya ane kAma letAM AvaDe e paramAtmA paNa banI jAya ! 74

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khUna karavA badala phAMsInI sajA pAmela kedIne vIjaLInI khurazImAM besADIne yamasadana pahoMcADavo evo nyAyAdhIze cukAdo Apyo hovAnA kAraNe chelle divase ene vijaLIvALI khurazImAM besADI jallAde pUchyuM, "bola, tArI koI icchA che ?" bahena ! tame aDadhA kalAkathI phona AgaLa UbhA rahIne Teliphona DirekTarInAM pAnAMo pheravyA karo cho. tamAre kono naMbara joIe che?' koIno ya nahIM* 'phona kone karavo che?" "koIne ya nahIM' to pachI ahIM zuM karo cho?" e to evuM che ne ke mAre mArA bAbAnuM nAma pADavu che. kuMbharAzi athavA to kanyA rAzi para nAma Ave che. Teliphona DirekTarInAM pAnAMo huM eTalA mATe pheravI rahI chuM ke bAbA mATe kadAca koka sAruM nAma maLI jAya' bahene javAba Apyo. "zuM ?' 'mane Dara khUba lAge che' "huM karI zakuM?" 'tame vIjaLIno pravAha khurazImAM vahevaDAvavAnuM cAlu karo tyAre kAM to khurazImAM mArI sAthe besI jAo ane kAM to mAro hAtha pakaDI rAkho' kedIe jallAdane potAnA mananI vAta karI. badhIya nadIo game teTalI alaga alaga dizAomAM vahetI bhale ne dekhAtI hoya, Akhare to e sAgaramAM ja vilIna thaI jatI hoya che. dhanalaMpaTa pAse vAtonA viSayo bhalene jAtajAtanA hoya che, e vAto chelle to paisA AgaLa AvIne ja aTakI jatI hoya che. vAsanAlaMpaTa vAto bhale ne kadAca prabhunI karato hoya che, enuM aMtaHkaraNa to strIzarIranI AsapAsa ja ghUmatuM hoya che. basa, e ja nyAye mANasa bhale ne AjIvikAnA bhayathI gherAyelo lAgato hoya ke apayazanA bhayathI tharatharato hoya. akasmAta thavAno bhaya bhale ne ene satAvato hoya ke rogano bhaya bhale ne ene dhrujAvato hoya, e tamAma bhayonA kendramAM eka ja bhaya hoya che. ane e che motano bhaya ! ene koI paNa bhoge maravuM nathI ane hakIkata e che ke lAkha prayAso pachI ya mota ane bharakhI gayA vinA rahetuM nathI. cIja tame bhale ne dareka vyakti samakSa eka ja lAvIne mUkI do paNa dareka vyakti potapotAnI ruci pramANe ja enuM darzana karIne enI sAthe e rItano vyavahAra karaze. je prabhunI pratimA mATe bhakta lAkho rUpiyA kharacI deto hoya che e ja pratimAnA nirmANa peTe hajAro rUpiyA maLI jatAM kArIgara tRpta thaI jato hoya che to roja e prabhunI pUjA karavAnuM sadbhAgya jene sAMpaDatuM hoya che e pUjArI mAtra e pUjA peTe ekabe hajArano pagAra maLI jatAM AnaMdita thaI jato hoya che. are, nAstika ziromaNIne e prabhu pratimAmAM caTaNI vATavAnA paththaranAM darzana thatAM hoya ane enA kAraNe e maMdira nirmANa pAchaLa thatA saMpattinA savyayane 'ghora durthaya' mAnato hoya e ya zakya che. eka ja kAma karavA jevuM che. satyadarzana, snehadarzana ane AgaLa vadhIne samyaphadarzana karI zakIe evI dRSTinA svAmI banI jaIe. rAga-dveSanI mAtrAmAM kaDAko bolAto ja raheze. ou

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'tamArA bAtharUmamAM tame traNa Taba rAkhyA che?" duniyAmAM mAro vaTa paDI jAya evuM mAre kaMIka karI batAvavuM che. tArI pAse koI vikalpa kharo?' che ne?" kAraNa?" eka Taba garama pANInuM 'phAvaze?" 'ThaMDA pANInuM ane trIjuM ?" jene bAtharUmamAM javuM hoya paNa nahAvuM na hoya ene mATe !" 'to eka kAma kara. tuM hAthI para caDIne zIrSAsana kara' 'hAthI para zIrSAsana ?" 'hya' pachI?" 'eno phoTo paDAva' "pachI?' e phoTAne UMdho karIne tuM judA judA peparomAM ane megejhInomAM mokalAvI de. "enAthI zuM thaze ?" badhAyane ema lAgaze ke te mAthA para hAthIne UMcakyo che." garIba ane zrImaMtanI vyAkhyA pUrvanA kALe game te haze te, AjanA kALe eka ja vyAkhyA amalamAM che. jenI pAse jarUriyAtathI vadhArAnuM kAMI ja nathI e garIba ane jenA gharamAM, jIvanamAM ane manamAM pAra vinAnAkha binajarUrInI pratiSThA, praveza ane padharAmaNI thaI cUkI che e zrImaMta. tame eka vAtanI noMdha na karI hoya to karI jojo. garIbane tyAM koka jamavA jAya che to 'zuM jamI Avyo' enI noMdha enA manamAM hoya che jyAre zrImaMtane tyAM yojAyela lagnAdi prasaMganA jamaNavAramAM koI jamavA jAya che to thALI keTalAnI che" enI ja pRcchAmAM e aTavAyela hoya che. are, garIbanA gharamAM janAranI najara 'garIba' tarapha ja hoya che. jyAre zrImaMtanA gharamAM janAranI jabAna 'zrImaMtanA gharamAM zuM-zuM hatuM' enA varNanamAM ja vyasta rahetI hoya che. vAstavikatA A hovA chatAM sahune saMpatti kSetre ja zrImaMta banavuM che pachI bhale e zrImaMtAI prApta karavA jatAM mana kSetre sAva ja bhikhArI banI javuM paDatuM hoya ane manamAM e bhikhArIpaNAnA hisAbe maraNa ane paraloka baMne ya bagaDI jatAM hoya ane barabAda thaI jatA hoya ! ahaMkArane be ja bAbatamAM rasa hoya che. kAM to vAhaka banavuM ane kAM to viziSTa banavuM. tame ene vizuddha banavAnI vAta karo. e turta ja chaMcheDAI jaze ane tamArAthI moDhuM pheravI leze. paNa, ahaMkAranuM mULa pota to havAthI phulAyela phuggAnuM che. phuggo bhale ne game teTalo moTo dekhAto hoya, soyanI eka ja nAnakaDI aNI ene aDe che ane enuM OM namaH zivAya thaI jAya che. sAce ja prApta thayela uttama jIvanane jItI javuM che ? vizuddha banavAnA prayAsamAM lAgI jAo. eNTamabaoNmba paNa tamane kAMI karI nahIM zake ! 78

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'vakIla sAheba, eka vinaMti che" Aje A zuM mAMDyuM che?" patnIne patine paDyuM kema zuM thayuM?" A navAM kapaDAM kema paheryA che ?' bahAra javuM che? paNa kyAM ?" 'gADInA pATA pAse' kAma?' 'ApaghAta karavo che" ApaghAta?" mArA gunA badala mane tame phAMsInI sajA na thAya enuM khAsa dhyAna rAkhajo. janamaTIpanI sajA huM bhogavI laIza paNa phAMsInI sajA to huM sAMbhaLI ja nahIM zakuM.' "sAruM ane nyAyAdhIze kedIne jyAre janamaTIpanI sajAno cukAdo saMbhaLAvyo tyAre e kedInI AMkhamAM harSanAM AMsu AvI gayA. korTanI bahAra nIkaLyA bAda kedIe vakIlane pUchyuM, janamaTIpanI sajA karAvatA Apane muzkelI..." khUba paDI ema?' hA. nyAyAdhIza to tane nirdoSa ja choDI mUkavAnA hatA paNa tAro potAno ja janamaTIpanI sajAno Agraha hato eTale e bAbatamAM nyAyAdhIzane saMmata karatA mane khUba muzkelI paDI' vakIle javAba Apyo. marI javuM che to jUnAM kapaDAM paherIne nathI jaI zakAtuM?" patnIe spaSTa zabdomAM saMbhaLAvI dIdhuM. Agane to lAkaDA ApavAmAM Ave che tyAre ja e pragaTatI hoya che; paraMtu saMbaMdhamAM kaDavAza vyApyA bAda aMtaramAM sAcI vyakti pratye aNagamAnI je Aga pragaTI jAya che e Aga to nimitta na hoya ene ya nimitta banAvIne satata prajvalita ja rahyA kare che. vItelA bhUtakALane tapAsavo hoya to tapAsI jajo. ekAda vakhatano ja nahIM, aneka vakhatanA evA anubhavo tamArI AMkha sAme AvI jaze ke je anubhavomAM tamane tamArA aMtaramAM koka cokkasa vyakti pratye pragaTI gayela aNagamAnI Agane tame pote sAme caDIne ja pragaTelI rAkhI hovAnuM dekhAze. maitrI sarva jIvo pratye' ane 'kSamApanA sarva jIvo sAthe " A be sUtrone sAcA arthamAM aMtaramAM ane jIvanamAM jIvatA karI devAmAM ApaNe jo saphaLa banIe to ja aMtarane aNagamAnI AgathI binasparzaluM rAkhI zakIe ! gaeNkTarane dardImAM "mANasa'nAM darzana thatAM hoya tyAM sudhI to bahu vAMdho nathI Avato paNa mANasane badale jyArathI ene "grAhaka'nAM darzana thavA lAge che tyArathI enA hRdayamAM beThelo zetAna bahAra AvIne enA jIvanane raphedaphe karI nAkhato hoya che. AjanA arthapradhAna yugamAM badhAM ja kSetromAM A ja hakIkata amalamAM AvavA lAgI che. "mANasa'nAM darzana baMdha thaI gayA che, 'grAhaka'nAM darzana cAlu thaI gayA che. ane enuM ja A duSpariNAma AvI rahyuM che ke sahu ekabIjAne gajA pramANe ane kada pramANe vetarI rahyA che ! 2.

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'kema rahyuM Aje skUlamAM ?' 'moTAbhAI, zikSakane meM dAkhalA batAvyA to e ekadama dhUvAM-pUMvA thaI gayA.' pachI ?' 'mane mAravA hAthamAM phUTa paNa laI lIdhuM' 'mAryuM?' nA' 'kema?' meM emane sAcuM kahI dIdhuM ke A dAkhalA to mane mArA moTAbhAIe karAvyA che. basa, emaNe hAthamAM rahela phUTa nIce mUkI dIdhuM.' 'kAMI kahyuM ?' 'hA. eTaluM ja bolyA ke tArA moTAbhAInI bhUla badala tane sajA karavAno koI artha raheto nathI !' zikSaNamAM Aje abhyAsa evo dAkhala karI devAmAM Avyo che ke dIkaro je bhaNe che e bApane AvaDatuM nathI ane dIkarI je bhaNe che e mAne AvaDatuM nathI. are, zikSako zuM bhaNAvI rahyA che e kadAca vidyArthIone samajAtuM nathI ane vidyArthIo zuM bhaNI rahyA che e jANavAnI zikSakone koI tAlAvelI nathI. sarakAra karoDo-abajo rUpiyA zikSaNa pAchaLa kharacI rahI che. mA-bApa hajArolAkho rUpiyA dIkarA-dIkarIonAM zikSaNa pAchaLa kharacI rahyA che ane yuvaka-yuvatIo potAnA jIvananA ati kImatI kahI zakAya evA seMkaDo kalAko zikSaNa pAchaLa ApI rahyA che. e pachI ya Aje zikSaNanuM je pariNAma AvI rahyuM che enAthI koIne ya saMtoSa nathI. zAsakone paNa nahIM, mA-bApone paNa nahIM ane khuda vidyArthIone paNa nahIM ! ane chatAM A vyavasthAmAM badalAva lAvavAnuM koI vicAratA paNa nathI. karuNatA ja che ne! 1 'kUtarA pAsethI zuM zIkhavA maLe ?' 'vaphAdArI' 'koyala pAsethI ?' 'mIThuM bolo' 'kabUtara pAsethI ?' 'bhoLA raho' 'mora pAsethI ?' 'nRtya karo' 'ane madhamAkhI pAsethI ?' 'tamane koI aDavA Ave to ene DaMkha mAro' eka vidyArthIe javAba Apyo. zabdo game teTalA sArA bhale ne che, enuM arthaghaTana to mANasa potAnI rIte ja karavAno che ne ? paricayamAM AvanAra vyakti bhale ne ekadama sajjana che. mANasa enI sAthe vyavahAra to potAnI mAnasika sthitinA AdhAre ja karavAno che ne ? AMkha sAme pratimA bhale ne paramAtmAnI goThavAI gaI che, mANasa darzana to potAnI mAnyatAnA AdhAre ja karavAno che ne ? muzkelI AjanA kALe A ja sarjAI che. maMdironAM sarjana thatAM rahe che to vikRta buddhivALAo bumarANa macAve che ke 'AjanA kALe maMdironI jarUra ja nathI' ane thiyeTaromAM, megejhInomAM ane vartamAnapatromAM khaDakAI rahela azlIlatA sAme koI sajjana ke saMta avAja uThAve che to emane A saDelA bhejAovALA salAha Ape che ke 'zlIla-azlIla jevuM kAMI che ja nahIM, je che e badhuM ya tamArI dRSTimAM ja che !' prabhunI pratimAmAM 'paththara'nAM darzana karatI e lokonI AMkho ardha nagna yuvatInI tasavIramAM potAnI 'mAtA'nAM darzana karatI haze, ema ? 82

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mammI ! bhagavAna kyAM rahe ?' badhe ja gharamAM?' 'bAtharUmamAM ?" 'hA' 'dIvAnakhAnAmAM ?" be mitro hatA. ekanI cAmaDIno raMga goro hato jyAre bIjAnI cAmaDIno raMga kALo hato. goro vAtavAtamAM kALiyAnuM apamAna karato raheto hato. 'mArI sAme AkarSita koNa nathI thatuM e jo prazna che to tArI sAme jovA koNa taiyAra thAya che e ya prazna che.' kALiyAne ema lAgyuM ke ekavAra to A goriyAne enuM sthAna batAvI devuM ja paDaze. ane e moko eka vAra AvI ja gayo. goriyo kALiyAnI mazkarI karI rahyo hato ane e vakhate kALiyAe goriyAne kahyuM. eka vAta karuM?' mArA zarIranA raMgano eka aMza paNa tArA mukha para AvI jAya to tAruM gaurava vadhI jAya e to sAcI vAta ne?' mArA peTamAM?" 'to mammI, tuM sAMbhaLI le. peTamAM rahela bhagavAna caoNkaleTa mAgI rahyA che" bAbAe mammIne kahyuM. ane tArA zarIranA raMgano eka aMza paNa mArA mukha para AvI jAya to mAruM gaurava ghaTI jAya e vAta paNa sAcI ja che ne?" kALiyAnI A vAta sAMbhaLIne goriyo mauna thaI gayo. svArthapuSTi' mATenI hoziyArI A jagatamAM konI pAse nathI hotI e prazna che. duSkALa paDe che, ghAsano vepArI AnaMdamAM AvI jAya che. vAtAvaraNamAM sukALa hoya che, kheDUta rAjIno reDa thaI jAya che. comAsAnI Rtu Ave che, DaoNkTarone enAmAM 'sijhana'nAM darzana thAya che. be dezo vacce yuddha zarU thAya che, zastronA sodAgarone emAM 'malAI'nAM darzana thAya che. aNagamatI patnInuM mota thaI jAya che, patidevane divALI lAge che. gamatI patnI marI jAya che, patideva hoLInI vedanA anubhave che. saMsAra pratikULa che, yogI prasanna thaI jAya che. saMsAra anukULa rahe che, bhogI pAgala pAgala banI jAya che. aMdhakAra thaI jAya che, cora manamAM ne manamAM malakAya che. prakAza thaI jAya che, vepArI AnaMdamAM AvI jAya che. kahevuM hoya to ema kahI zakAya ke ahIM 'sva' sivAya ane 'svArtha' sivAya koIne koInA ya para prIti nathI. sAgara gaMbhIra che to khAro paNa che. nadI mIThI che to chIcharI paNa che. koyala madhurakaMThI che to kALI paNa che. sUrya garama che to prakAzaka paNa che. gaMgotrI nirmaLa che to nAnI paNa che. gaMgA virATa che to gaMdI paNa che. meghadhanuSya AkarSaka che to kSaNabhaMgura paNa che. sarpa khataranAka che to enI cAmaDI lIsI paNa che. choDa para gulAba che to sAthe kAMTA paNa che. lImaDo kaDavo che to guNakArI paNa che. basa, e ja nyAye sajjanamAM ekAda doSa paNa che to durjanamAM ekAda guNa paNa che. ahIM koIe ahaMkArI banavA jevuM paNa nathI to laghutAgraMthinA zikAra banavA jevuM paNa nathI !

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'beTA ! mArI eka vAta sAMbhaLIza ?' 'bolo' 'bila geTsanuM nAma to...' 'meM sAMbhaLyuM che' 'tArI uMmare e parIkSAmAM.' prathama naMbare pAsa thato hato e ja kahevuM che ne tamAre ?' 'hA' pappA ! mArI eka vAta sAMbhaLazo ?' 'bola' nuM nAma to tame...' hiTalaranuM na 'sAMbhaLyuM che' 'tamArI uMmare e....' 'zuM karyuM hatuM ?' 'tamane khabara nathI ?' 'nA' 'ApaghAta karI lIdho hato !' hA. A e yuga cAle che jyAM samarpaNane 'gulAmI'nuM lebala maLI rahyuM che ane svacchaMdatAne 'svataMtratA'nuM gaurava maLI rahyuM che. ahIM nirmaLa zraddhAne 'aMdhazraddhA'nI gALa devAI rahI che ane kutarkane 'hoziyArI'nuM biruda maLI rahyuM che. ahIM pavitratama maryAdA 'baMdhana'nA nAme vagovAI rahI che ane 'sauMdarya'nuM birUda pAmIne svecchAcAra mardAnagIpUrvaka sarvatra satkAra pAmI rahyo che. kalpanA karo. jherane amRtanuM gaurava maLI jAya ane hIrAne 'kAcanA TukaDA'nI oLakha maLI jAya e kALamAM sajjanone ane ziSTa puruSone prasannatApUrvaka jIvavuM keTaluM badhuM kaparuM banI rahetuM haze ! 5 "pappA ! eka prazna che' 'pUcha' skUlamAM Aje zikSake eka prazna pUchyo che. AvatI kAle mAre eno javAba ApavAno che.' 'zuM pUchyuM che ?' 'tamane AvaDaze ?' 'pahelAM prazna to kahe' 'himAlaya che kyAM ?' 'himAlaya?' 'hA' 'tArI mammIne pUchI jo. kaI cIja kyAM hoya che enI khabara ene ja hoya che.' pappAe javAba Apyo. gati jeTalI tIvra hoya che, vastunuM darzana eTaluM spaSTa thatuM nathI ema kahevAya che. lokala TrenamAM musApharI karanArane hajI TrenanI baMne bAju UgelAM jhADa-pAna vyavasthita dekhAtA haze paNa phranTiyaramAM musApharI karanArane ? rAjadhAnI eksapresamAM musApharI karanArane ? helikaoNpTaramAM UDanArane ? vimAnamAM janArane ? raoNkeTamAM besanArane ? uttarottara AjubAjunuM kAM to aspaSTa dekhAya che ane kAM to dekhAtuM sarvathA baMdha thaI jAya che. A Akho ya yuga 'gati'no yuga che. ahIM 'sthiratA'nuM koI mUlya nathI ke 'sthiratA'nuM koI gaurava nathI. paisA kamAI levA che ne ? tamAma tAkAtane kAme lagADIne doDo. bhogo bhogavI levA che ne ? davAo khAI-khAIne ya zarIrane sAMDha jevuM banAveluM rAkho. duniyAmAM nAma kamAI levuM che ne ? mA-bApa, patnI-putra yAvat zarIranI paNa upekSA karIne bhAgatA raho. A sthitimAM 'himAlaya'nI to zI, paNa potAnI 'pena' kyAM che, enI jANakArI ya mANasane na hoya to Azcarya na thAya !

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'philma kevI lAgI ?' 'tamAre kema pUchavuM paDyuM ?' 'A philmanI Dhaba meM nakkI karI che' 'eTale ?" paTakathA meM lakhI che' 'tamAre eka pheraphAra karavA jevo hato' 'kayo ?' 'philmamAM hIro vilanane cAku mAre che enA badale baoNmba pheMkato batAvavAnI jarUra hatI' 'kAraNa ?' *kama se kama darzako jAgatA to raheta !' 'manoraMjana'nA nAme Aje TI.vI.mAM je darzAvAI rahyuM che ane thiyeTaramAM je pIrasAI rahyuM che, megejhInomAM je batAvAI rahyuM che ane samAcArapatromAM je chapAI rahyuM che e tamAma aMge kahevuM hoya to ema kahI zakAya ke daramAM cheka UMDe rahelA sarpane moralIno avAja karavA dvArA bahAra pragaTIkaraNanI gaMdI cAlabAjI cAlI rahI che. moralIno avAja sAMbhaLavA na maLyo hota to sarpa kadAca bahAra Avata ja nahIM paNa sarpane bahAra lAvIne ene jo khatama ja karI nAkhavo che to ene moralIno avAja saMbhaLAvavo anivArya ja che. basa, AkhI ne AkhI prajAne cAritryathI bhraSTa karavI che ne ? susaMskArothI naSTa karavI che ne ? zaramanA kSetre ene dhRSTa banAvI devI che ne ? eka ja kAma karo. eka eka vyaktimAM suSupta paDelA kusaMskAronA sarpo sahajarUpe bahAra AvavA lAge evAM kunimittonA moralInA sUra emane saMbhaLAvatA raho. pariNAma enuM Aje AMkha sAme ja che. 83 kanu skUle javA nIkaLyo ane sAmethI sAMDhane potAnA tarapha doDato AvI rahyo joyo. e DarI gayo. eNe ya doTa lagAvI to kharI paNa ene doDato joIne sAMDha vadhu jhaDapathI enI pAchaLa doDavA lAgyo. ya kanune lAgyuM ke have bacavA mATe kaMIka karavuM ja paDaze. rastAnI eka bAju eNe khADo joyo ane e khADAmAM kUdI paDyo. sAMDha jyAM hato tyAM ja Ubho rahI gayo paNa be ja miniTamAM kanu khADAmAMthI bahAra Avyo. ene jotA veMta sAMDhe kanu tarapha doTa lagAvI. kanu punaH khADAmAM kUchyo. be miniTamAM ja bahAra Avyo tyAM punaH sAMDha enA tarapha doDyo. thoDeka dUra UbhelA kanune manue kahyuM, "sAMDha bahAra ja Ubho che to pachI khADAmAMthI jaladI bahAra zuM kAma nIkaLI jAya che ?' 'huM zuM karuM paNa ? kAraNa ke khADAmAM alseziyana kUtaro beTho che !' kanue javAba Apyo. hA. saMsAranuM A ja to svarUpa che. patnInI bevaphAIthI trAsIne tame putranA zaraNe jAo cho to putra uddhata nIkaLe che. vepArInI badamAzIthI thAkI jaIne tame jo nokarIe lAgI jAo cho to zeTha harAmakhora nIkaLe che. meleriyAnA tAvathI chUTavA tame goLInA zaraNe jAo cho to e goLI enI ADaasaramAM tamArA zarIrane toDI nAkhe che. bhojana maLe che to pANI nathI maLatuM ane pANI maLe che to sarabata nathI maLatuM. sarabata maLe che to sarabatamAM sAkara gAyaba hoya che ane sAkara hAjara hoya che to jIbha kaDavI hoya che. sAgara ! tAruM pratyeka buMda khAruM. saMsAra ! tAruM pratyeka kSetra duHkhabharyuM ! dara

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"tame rAhatakAryanA phaMDamAM rakama lakhAvI ?' 'nA' 'eka paNa rUpiyo nahIM ?' 'nA' 'tamArI Arthika sthiti sArI hovA chatAM ya nahIM ?' 'nA' 'kAraNa kAMI ?' 'sAMbhaLI zakazo ?' jarUra' 'rAhatakAryamAM tame kAMI paNa rakama lakhAvo. pacAsa TakA jeTalI rakama to cavAI ja jAya che.' 'eka vikalpa batAvuM ?' 'zuM ?' "tame baso TakA rakama ja lakhAvo. tamArI icchA mujabanI rakama vaparAIne ja raheze.' ema to peTamAM jatuM badhuM ja bhojana kAMI pacatuM nathI ane chatAM mANasa peTa bharIne ja jame che. ema to dharatImAM vAvelA badhA ja dANAo kAMI UgatA nathI ane chatAM kheDUta dharatImAM thobaMdha dANAo ja vAvato rahe che. ema to dhaMdhAmAM rokelA badhA ja nANAMnuM pUrepUruM vaLatara maLatuM nathI ane chatAM mANasa potAnI moTA bhAganI saMpatti dhaMdhAmAM rokI de che. paNa kamAla ! bhikhArIne e eka rUpiyo paNa Ape che ane icche che ke enuM ene pUrepUruM vaLatara ja maLavuM joIe. koka saMsthAmAM e so rUpiyA ja Ape che ane Agraha rAkhe che ke potAnA eka eka rUpiyAno pUrepUro upayoga thavo ja joIe ! dAna na karavA mATenI mananI A cAlabAjI ja hoya evuM nathI lAgatuM ? 89 'tame mArI 10,000 nI rakama cUkavI ja do' 'paNa mArI pAse..' 'rakamanI vyavasthA nathI ema ?' 'hA' 'tame bIjA pAsethI 2kama udhAra laIne ya mane to cUkavI ja do.' 'nahIM cUkavuM to ?' 'to huM zuM karIza e tamAre jANavuM che ?' 'hya' 'tamArA jeTalA paNa leNadAro che e tamAmane phona karIne huM kahI daIza ke mArI 2kama mane maLI gaI che. tamAre rakama levAnI hoya to vahelI take pahoMcI jajo' pelAe 10,000 nI rakama cUkavI dIdhI. 'jenA mAthe eka paNa paisAnuM devuM nathI e ja sAco zrImaMta che' 'Avaka vadhe tema na hoya tyAre kharca ghaTADI nAkhavo e ja mananI svasthatA ane gharanI vyavasthA TakAvI rAkhAvAno rAjamArga che' 'pathArI jevaDI hoya, paga eTalA ja pahoLA karavA' A badhI ziSTa puruSoe batAvela uktione AjanA vijJAnayuge radabAtala ane nakAmI jAhera karI dIdhI che. Aje to 'devuM karIne paNa ghI pIo'nI cArvAkanI salAha calaNamAM che. lona, kreDiTa kArDa, hapatA paddhatinI bolabAlAvALA A yugamAM jenA mAthe eka paNa paisAnuM devuM na hoya enI gaNanA kadAca 'mAmA'mAM thaI rahI che. bIjAne navaDAvI nAkhavAnI kuzaLatA jenA hAthamAM na hoya ene Aje kadAca 'DaphoLa' zabdathI navAjavAmAM AvI rahyo che. re kaliyuga ! tane 'kalahayuga'nuM vizeSaNa amAre zA mATe na ApavuM ? ed

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'tArAM lagna thaI gayA?" 'sara ! tamane zuM lAge che?" zenuM ?' A vakhate huM pAsa thaIza ke nahIM?" lAgavAnuM zuM che? tAruM pariNAma taiyAra...' thaI ja gayuM che ?' zuM che?" ApaNI skUlanuM 'gInIjha buka' mAM nAma Ave evuM" eTale 'ekanA eka vargamAM tuM agiyAramI vakhata nApAsa thaI rahyo che... zikSake javAba Apyo. keTalAM varasa thayA?" "cAra" 'anubhava?" zeno ?' tArI mammI sAthe tuM 24/24 varasa sudhI rahyo. ane patnI sAthe te 4 varasa gALyA. kAMI pharaka?" mAmUlI pharaka kharo' 'zuM?' 'ApaNane raDatA raDatA A jagatamAM lAve e mammI ane pachI AkhI jiMdagI rovaDAvyA kare e patnI' kanue javAba Apyo. 'ramavAnI uMmare bhaNavAnuM ane bhaNavAnI uMmare rakhaDavAnu' e AjanA jamAnAnI tAsIra banI gaI che. je bAlyavayamAM bAbAnA hAthamAM goTI-ramakaDAM ke gillI-daMDA pUrvanA kALamAM rahetA hatA, AjanA kALe bAlyavayamAM e bAbAne kayUTara sAme besADI devAmAM Avyo che. je yuvAvayamAM pUrvanA kALe kizoro ane yuvakonA jIvanamAM zrama-saMskAra ane zikSaNanI bolabAlA hatI, AjanA kALe e kizoro ane yuvakonA hAthamAM mobAila pakaDAvI devAmAM AvyA che. skUlomAM emane jAtIya zikSaNa ApavAmAM AvI rahyuM che. kaoNlejomAM emane cUMTaNI mATe guMDAgIrI kevI karavI paDe enuM vAtAvaraNa ApavAmAM AvI rahyuM che. zarIrano kamajora samAja mATe jo nakAmo puravAra thAya che to buddhino vyabhicArI samasta jagata mATe trAsadAyaka puravAra thAya che. AjanA vijJAne zarIrane sazakta rAkhavA puSkaLa upAyo zodhyA che paNa buddhine samyapha rAkhavAnA? Aga sAthenI dostImAM 'baLavAnu' jo nizcita ja che to vAsanA sAthenI dostImAM 'raDavAnuM' paNa nizcita ja che. kAraNa? eka ja che. vAsanAnI bhUkha je manamAMthI jAge che e mana asIma che ane e bhUkha je zarIranA mAdhyame zAMta karavI paDe che e zarIra saMkhyAbaMdha maryAdAothI baddha che, azakta che ane sImita che. phUTapaTTIthI himAlayane mApavAmAM hajI saphaLatA maLI jAya, camacIthI sAgarane khAlI karavAmAM paNa hajI kadAca saphaLatA maLI jAya paNa sImita zarIrathI mananI vAsanAnI asIma bhUkhane zamAvavAmAM saphaLatA maLI jAya e vAta to cAmaDAnI AMkhe AkAzamAM rahelA tArAo gaNavA jevI sarvathA azakya che ane asaMbhavita che. manane svastha, zAMta ane tRpta rAkhavuM che? eka ja kAma karo. ene vAsanAnI bhUkha lAge ja nahIM evA vAtAvaraNamAM ane evAM nimitto vacce rAkho. phAvI jazo.

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beTA ! A zuM ?" 'kema ?' 'tArA gAla lAla kema che ?' 'mAra paDyo' 'tuM ATalo tAkAtavAna ane tane koI mArI gayuM ?' 'hA' 'polIsacokImAM phariyAda...' 'nathI noMdhAvavI' 'paNa kema ?' 'eka jaNanuM khIsuM kApatA mane eka polIsa joI gayo ane eNe ja mane gAla para be-cAra tamAcA lagAvI dIdhA che.' dIkarAe javAba Apyo. saMpatti jo nItithI niyaMtrita na hoya, bhoga jo sadAcArathI niyaMtrita na hoya, sarpa jo madArIthI niyaMtrita na hoya, nadI jo kinArAthI niyaMtrita na hoya, AMkho jo zaramathI suzobhita na hoya, ghareNuM jo tijorIthI niyaMtrita na hoya, sAMDha jo doraDAthI niyaMtrita na hoya ane nArI jo lajjAthI niyaMtrita na hoya to hAhAkAra ja sarjAya emAM jo koI zaMkA ja nathI to zakti paNa jo sabuddhithI niyaMtrita na hoya to sva-para anekane nuksAna thaIne ja rahe eya zaMkA vinAnI vAta che. yAda rAkhajo. roTalo to raste rakhaDatA rahetA kUtarAne ya maLI raheto hoya che to zaktio to durjanane ya maLI rahetI hoya che. prazna je che e zaktionA sadupayogano che. sadupayoga mATenI janmadAtrI sabuddhino che. prabhu pAse traNa ja cIjanI mAgaNI karajo. sadguddhinI, sadupayoganI ane samAdhinI. sadgati nizcita thaIne ja raheze. 93 'tame basamAM besI to gayA cho paNa tamAre javuM che kyAM ?' kanDakaTare naTubhAIne pUchyuM. "basa kyAM jAya che ?' 'Indaura' bIje?' 'mahidapura' 'pachI ?' 'khaMDavA' 'pachI ?' 'dhaMdhAnA' 'pachI ?' pachI pachI zuM pUchyA karo cho ? tamAre jyAM javuM hoya enuM nAma kaho ne ? tamane enI TikiTa phADI ApuM !' 'eka vAta tamane kahuM ? tamAre jenI paNa TikiTa phADI ApavI hoya enI phADI Apo. mAre A gAmamAM nathI rahevuM eTaluM nakkI che' naTubhAIe javAba Apyo.' hA. tame koI paNa sAdhakane pUchI jojo. 'tAre marIne javuM che kyAM ? svargamAM ? vaikuMThamAM ? jannatamAM ? ke pachI mokSamAM ?' e sAdhakano A ja javAba haze ke marIne mAre kyAM javuM che enI vAta tame mane pUcho ja nahIM. paNa eka javAba mAro nizcita che ke mAre A saMsAramAM to nathI ja rahevuM. jyAM jIvone mAratA rahyA vinA jIvI zakAtuM nathI, jyAM Dagale ne pagale kaSAyo karyA vinA rahI zakAtuM nathI, jyAM viSayo pAchaLa doDatA rahyA vinA indriyone cena paDatuM nathI evA saMsArathI mAre Aje ne Aje ja, atyAre ne atyAre ja chuTakAro meLavavo che !' 94

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'tame oNphisamAMthI eka mahinAnI rajA lIdhI hatI ema tamArA mitra chagane mane kahyuM hatuM. vAta sAcI ?" 'kyAM gayA hatA ?" mahAbaLezvara" eka mahino tyAM ja pUro karyo ?' 'nA' to ?' 'eka ja divasa tyAM rahevAnuM banyuM 'tyAM karyuM zuM?" ghoDevArI' Akho divasa?' nA. eka ja kalAka' pachI bAkInA 29 divasa ?" 'haoNspiTalamAM pasAra karyA." pappA ! peparamAM yuddhanA samAcAro to khUba Ave che; paraMtu yuddhanI zarUAta thAya kevI rIte ? cinhae pappAne pUchyuM. dhAra ke amerikA bhArata para AkramaNa kare.' 'tame zuM gappA lagAvo cho? amerikA to bhAratanuMmitra che. e bhArata para AkramaNa kare ja zenuM"cinhanI mammI vacce bolI. are, A to dhAravAnI vAta che' 'ema khoTuM zuM kAma dhAravAnuM?" huM to cinhane yuddha kaI rIte zarU thAya e samajAvI rahyo chuM.' 'tamAre samajAvavuM hoya to sAcuM ja samajAvo ne ? bhArata para AkramaNa karavAnI hiMmata kare to pAkistAna kare, amerikA to kare ja zuM kAma?" 'tuM vacce bolavAnuM baMdha karI tame mane koNa kahenArA?' pappA! yuddha kevI rIte zarU thAya eno javAba mane maLI gayo. have mAre kAMI ja sAMbhaLavuM nathI' cinha bolyo. abhyAsa vinA ane sAtatya vinA to saMsAranA kSetramAM paNa jo saphaLa banI zakAtuM nathI to adhyAtma jagatamAM paga jamAvI devA mATe ke prasannatA anubhavatA rahevA mATe abhyAsa ane sAtatya vinA to kyAM ThekANuM paDe tema che ? kamAlanuM Azcarya e che ke varasAdanA eka ja TIpAthI pAka pedA thaI jAya evI AzA kheDUta rAkhato nathI. eka ja vakhata sAikala calAvavAno prayAsa karavAthI sAikala calAvavAmAM kuzaLatA AvI javAnI AzA koI yuvaka rAkhato nathI paNa adhyAtma jagatamAM praveza karato navo sAdhaka paNa evA vizvAsamAM rAcato thaI jAya che ke ati alpa prayAsa paNa sAdhanAjIvanamAM huM jAmI ja jaIza. sAvadhAna ! sarpanA mukhamAMthI jhera nIkaLI jAya pachI tamAre enI sAthe ramavuM hoya to khuzIthI ramo, tamArA jIvana para koI ja jokhama nathI. talavAranI dhAra ja buThThI thaI gaI hoya pachI ene bhale ne tame jIbha para pheravo, tamArI jIbha para koI ja jokhama nathI. manamAMthI ahaMnA jherane nicovIne sApha karI nAkho, saMbaMdhamAM rahela AtmIyatA para koI ja khataro nathI. yAda rAkhajo, ahaM eka evuM jhera che ke je mANasane jIvato rahevA daIne enA jIvanane zeraDInA kUcA jevuM nirasa banAvI de che. 5

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'paNa A tuM kare che zuM ?' 'kema zuM thayuM ?' 'eka sAthe dArUnI traNa pyAlI ?' "jo. eka vAtano tane khulAso karI dauM chuM. mAro eka mitra amerikA gayo che ene yAda karIne eka pyAlI pIuM chuM. eka mitra kaeNneDA gayo che ene yAda karIne eka pyAlI pIuM chuM ane eka pyAlI mArI khudanI pIuM chuM. AmAM huM khoTuM zuM karuM chuM ? jigarajAna mitronI yAdamAM kaMIka to bhoga Apavo paDe ke nahIM ? 'cinTue pinTune A javAba to Apyo. paNa, eka divasa cinTue peTamAM jyAre dArUnI be pyAlI padharAvI tyAre pinTue cinTune pUchyuM. 'Aje be ja pyAlI ?' ja hA. baMne mitro ghaNA vakhatathI mArAthI dUra ja hovAthI enI vyathAmAM meM mArI pyAlI choDI dIdhI che' cinTue javAba Apyo. eka apekSAe kahevuM hoya to ema kahI zakAya ke jIvanamAM pApane maLI jatuM sthAna to dUdhamAM nakhAtI badAma jevuM hoya che. badAmane tame jema dUdhamAMthI dhAro tyAre alaga karI zako cho tema pApane tame jIvanamAMthI dhAro tyAre dezavaTo ApI zako cho. paraMtu jIvanamAM vyasanone apAI jatuM sthAna to dUdhamAM bhaLI jatI sAkara jevuM hoya che. sAkarane dUdhathI alaga karavAmAM saphaLatA jema nathI ja maLatI tema vyasanIne potAnA jIvanamAMthI vyasanone tilAMjali ApavAmAM saphaLatA nathI ja maLatI. pApathI ja bacatA rahejo. pApathI na ja bacI zakAya to ya vyasanothI to jAtane bacAvatA ja rahejo. 97 pitAjI ! sAMbhaLo cho ?' 'hA' 'DaoNkTaranuM kahevuM ema che ke have tame vadhumAM vadhu eka kalAkanA mahemAna cho.' barAbara' 'tamArI koI khAsa icchA che ?' 'hA' "zuM ?' mArA maryA pachI tame mAruM muMDana pasalA hajAma pAse ja karAvajo' 'kema?' "enI pAsethI ugharANInA 50 rUpiyA levAnA mAre eka varasathI bAkI che.' ATaluM bolatA bolatA to eka AMcakI AvI ane pappAnA zarIranA piMjaramAMthI haMsalo UDI gayo. mojAM mukhya banI jAya ane paga gauNa banI jAya, cazmAM naMbara eka para AvI jAya ane AMkha naMbara be para goThavAI jAya, makAnanI evI bolabAlA thAya ke makAnamAlika ja visarAI jAya, bhojananAM dravyo pAchaLa e hade pAgalapana AvI jAya ke peTanI upekSA ja thaI jAya ane je hAsyAspada sthiti sarjAya enA karatAM anekagaNI hAsyAspada sthiti tyAre sarjAya che ke jyAre 'sAdhana'nA sthAnane pAmelo paiso 'sAdhya'nA sthAne goThavAI javAmAM saphaLa banI jAya che. sAdhanA naMbara be para rahI jAya ane zarIra naMbara eka para AvI jAya e jo sAdhakanI karuNatA che to saMpatti naMbara eka para AvI jAya ane vyakti pote naMbara be para goThavAI jAya e saMsArI mAnnasanI karuNatA che. 98

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'tame skUlamAM bhaNyA cho?" kaoNlejamAM gayA cho?" 'hA' zuM AvaDe che ?' 'sAMbhaLatAM AvaDe che, lakhatAM AvaDe che, vAMcatAM bilakula nathI AvaDatuM." 'tamAruM nAma lakhI zako ?" gAmaDiyo pahelI ja vAra zaheramAM Avyo hato enI enI najara thiyeTaranI bahAra lagADAyelA eka posTara para paDI. eNe bAjumAM UbhelA eka bhAIne pUchyuM, A zuM che ?' manoraMjananuM sthaLa' eTale?" aMdara jA. traNa kalAka manoraMjana jovA maLaze.' paisA ApIne, TikiTa laIne e aMdara jaIne khurazI para besI gayo. ane pikyara zarU thavAnI pAMca miniTa pahelAM thiyeTaramAM aMdhAruM thaI gayuM. aMdhAruM thatAMnI sAthe ja gAmaDiyo thiyeTaranA daravAjA pAse UbhelA geTakIpara pAse pahoMcI gayo ane sIdhI enI bocI ja pakaDI lIdhI. | 'tuM samaje che zuM tArA manamAM paisA kharacIne huM aMdara Avyo chuM ane te aMdhAruM karI nAkhyuM ?' 'lakho' inTara-bU ApavA AvelA yuvake potAnuM nAma eka kAgaLa para lakhyuM to kharuM paNa tyAra bAda inTara-bU lenAre ene kahyuM. 'tame je lakhyuM che e vAMcI jAo' 'meM Apane kahyuM to kharuM ke mane lakhatAM AvaDe che, vAMcatAM nathI AvaDatuM !' akSarajJAna eka alaga cIja che, jyAre zANapaNanuM jJAna ane DahApaNanuM jJAna e bilakula alagacIja che. AjanI AkhIya zikSaNavyavasthAmAM eka ja cIjanI bolabAlA che-akSarajJAnanI. DahApaNa-jJAnanI ke zANapaNanA jJAnanI tyAM koI vAta nathI. zarIramAM roga Ave tyAre ane dhaMdhAmAM maMdI Ave tyAre, svajano bevaphA bane tyAre ane mitro taraphathI vizvAsaghAta thAya tyAre prasannatA zuM TakAvI rAkhavI, enuM koI jJAne tyAM ApavAmAM AvatuM nathI; to saMpatti puSkaLa maLatI rahe tyAre ane zaktiono jIvanamAM besumAra ughADa thAya tyAre eno sadupayoga kema karavo enI kaLA paNa tyAM zIkhavavAmAM AvatI nathI. dizAno samyak bodha nahIM ane gADInI gati vadhu, e gADInuM bhAvi zuM? dharmathI maLatA sukhanI ane guNanI vAto sAMbhaLIne koka vyakti dharmanA mArge AvI to jAya che paraMtu prAraMbhika tabakkAmAM ene jyAre sukhane badale kaSTono anubhava thavA lAge che, AtmanirIkSaNa karatAM aMdara badheya aMdhAruM dhaba hovAno anubhava thavA lAge che tyAre enI akaLAmaNano pAra nathI raheto. 'huM to samajato hato ke dharma to prakAzano anubhava karAvIne raheze paNa ahIM to khAlIpA sivAya kazuM ya anubhavAtuM nathI.' koNa samajAve ene ke adhyAtmanI yAtrA to eka apekSAe aMdhakAranI yAtrA che. aMdhakAranI yAtrA eTale ? ekAMtanI yAtrA, ekalAnI yAtrA, anajAna pradezanI yAtrA. eno svIkAra karyA vinA manobhaMjananI majA mANavAnuM sadbhAgya nathI ja maLavAnuM. 100

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prakAzapadAna e ja lakSya anubhava karavo che mIThAzano, paNa e mATe hAjara karavI paDe che sAkarane. bAbAne batADavo che candra, paNa e mATe upayoga AMgaLIno karavo paDe che. rastA para karavo che ujAza, paNa e mATe hAthamAM baeNTarI rAkhavI paDe che. basa, e ja nyAye jANavI che saMsAranI asAratA ane dharmanI tArakatA, paNa kyAreka e mATe dRSTAntono levo paDe che sahAro. ahIM evo eka prayoga karyo to che, paNa e prayoganI saphaLatAno AdhAra che vAcakonAM dRSTibiMdu para. dRSTibiMdune samyaka banAvavAnI saMkhyAbaMdha yuktio batAvatuM pustaka eTale ja TaoNrcano prakAza" dharma to e sAgara che ke jenAM taLiye sadaguNonAM motIo paDyA che, jyAre saMsAra to e nadI che ke jenAM taLiye vAsanAno kIcaDa khaDakAyelo che. parivArathI upekSita thaI rahela vRddha puruSanA mukha para kavacit dekhAtA hAsya pAchaLa banI zake ke jAlima dardI chupAyela hoya, jyAre prabhunAM darzane raDI rahela bhaktanAM AMsu pAchaLa zakya che ke gajabanAka harSa chupAyela hoya. TUMkamAM, bahAra juduM, aMdara juduM e vAstavikatA mAtra saMsArajagatamAM ja nathI, adhyAtmajagatamAM paNa e ja vAstavikatA hoI zake che; paraMtu baMne vacce pharaka eTalo ja che ke saMsArajagatamAM e vAstavikatA tamane kadAca 'mutsadI' 'cAlAka' ke 'hoziyAra banAvI zake che, jyAre adhyAtmajagatamAM e vAstavikatA tamane sarjana, saMta yAvatuM paramAtmA paNa banAvI zake che. A pustakamAM saMgrahita karelA 100 TucakAo Ama jovA jAo to 'hasAvanArA' che; paraMtu e TucakAonI nIce je upanaya mUkyo che e upanaya gaMbhIratAthI jo vAMcavAmAM Avaze to acUka samyaka samajano ko'ka navo ja prakAza aMtaramAM pragaTaze ane sAcuM kahuM to mAruM lakSya vAcako samyapha samajano prakAza pAme e ja che. paNa TucakAonI TaoNrca vinA e prakAza sahajatAthI vAcako samakSa nahIM pahoMcI zake evuM mane lAgavAthI ahIM TucakAonI ToMcano meM upayoga karyo che. eTaluM ja kahIza vAcakone ke teo prakAzane pAmIne sva-jIvanane ujALI le. TaoNrcane na bahu vajana Ape ke na enI ja guNavattAnI carcAmAM paDe ! pustakanA A lakhANamAM kyAMya paNa zrI jinAjJA viruddha lakhANa lakhAI gayuM hoya to enuM trividha trividha micchA mi dukkaDam... da. AcArya vijaya ratnasuMdarasUri