Aatmnishtha Dhruv Taro Ambalalbhai

Author(s): Bhavprabhashreeji
Publisher: Subodhak Pustakshala
Catalog link: https://jainqq.org/explore/032151/1

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AtmaniSTha dhuva tAro pU. zrI aMbAlAlabhAI prakAzaka zrI subodhaka pustakAlaya khaMbhAta

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AtmaniSTha dhruva tAro che. pU. zrI aMbAlAlabhA pU. zrI aMbAlAlabhAI AtmaniSTha dhruva tAro pU.zrI aMbAlAlabhAI samAdhi-zatAbdI graMtha lekhana ane saMpAdana : pa.pU. bhAvaprabhAzrIjI ma.sAheba prakAzaka : zrI subodhaka pustakazALA lokAparI, khaMbhAta. 1 3

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AtmaniSTha dhruva tAro 2 prakAzaka ane prApti sthAna : zrI subodhaka pustakazALA loMkAparI khaMbhAta - 388620. prakAzana : prathama AvRtti prata : 750 kiMmata : rUA. 50/ prakAzana varSa : saMvata 2063 pU.zrI aMbAlAlabhAI samAdhi zatAbdI varSa mudraka : amRta prinTarsa amadAvAda. phona : 22169852 pU.zrI aMbAlAlabhAI jJAnanI AzAtanA na thAya te mATe pustakane jayaNAthI vAparavuM jethI jJAnAvaraNIya karma na baMdhAya.

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AtmaniSTha dhruva tAro (0 pazrI aMbAlAlabhAI pU.zrI aMbAlAlabhAI zrImad rAjacaMdra varSa 24muM vi.saM. 1947 yugapradhAna zrI rAjacaMdraprabhu, mokSArthI ziratAja re; zAsana vIrataNuM zobhAvI, sAyaM bhavijana kAja re.

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AtmaniSTha dhruva tAro 11 30 44: 11 prakAzakIya nivedana pU.zrI aMbAlAlabhAI amo A subodhaka pustakAlayanA TrasTI maMDaLane temaja pUjya zrI aMbAlAlabhAInA kuTuMbI vargane pU.zrI aMbAlAlabhAInA dehavilayanI puNyatithine so varSa thayAM hovAthI upakAra smRtirUpe e mahAbhAgyagaNanA nAyaka samA pUjya purUSanI puNyatithi nimitte samAdhi zatAbdhi UjavavAnI bhAvanA utpanna thaI ane temAM zrI khaMbhAtanA mumukSu bhAI-bahenono sAro sahakAra maLyo tethI A puNya prasaMga UjavavA amo bhAgyazALI banyA chIe. A zubha prasaMge teozrInA guNAnuvAda gAtI pustikA graMtharUpe taiyAra karavAnuM nakkI karavAmAM AvyuM. "AtmaniSTha dhruva tAro" e nAma sArthaka jaNAtAM A pustikA pUjya zrI aMbAlAlabhAInA caraNamAM bhakti-bheTaNArUpe arpI teozrInA caraNakamaLamAM vinayabhAve namaskAra karIe chIe. asIma upakArI pUjya zrI aMbAlAlabhAInI mumukSutA, pragaTa paramAtmAne pUrNarUpe oLakhI levAnI pUrva saMskAritA, vizALaprajJA, vairAgyapUrvaka AjJAdhinatA, zrI vItarAga purUSa pratyeno zuddha bhaktipUrvakano parama sneha, bhavabhIrUpaNuM, alpa saMsArIpaNuM, UMcI zreNImAM lakSa, zrI paramakRpALudevane mArga prabhAvanAmAM gaNanAyaka sarIkhA anusaranArA, satsaMgamAM eka niSThA, dareka kAryamAM niyamitatA, pramAda rahitapaNuM, sarve mumukSu prati vAtsalyapUrNa AdarabhAva, tatvajJAnanI vizALatA, Atma upayoganI jAgRtatA, zrI sadgurUcaraNa sevAmAM tanmayatA, potAnA ISTadeva pratye abhinna bhAve premArpaNa vagere adbhuta guNanA dhAraka hatA. ghaNI badhI bAhyazakti khIlelI hatI, jema ke smaraNa zakti, kavitva zakti, alaMkAra vidyAthI prabaMdha racanAzakti, saMskRta, prAkRta, IMglIza, hindI, marAThI Adi bhASAjJAna, lekhanazakti, vANInuM cittAkarSaNapaNuM, bIjAne doravAnI prerakazakti, samajAvavAnI kaLA, tIvravedanAmAM sahanazIlatA adbhuta prakAre hatI. saMsAranA pratikULa saMjogomAM samatA, dhIraja, hRdayanI vizALatA, paropakArabuddhi "paropakArAya satAM vibhUtayaH" e paMkti temane hastagata hatI. paraguNa grahaNatA, nijadoSa nirIkSaNamAM jAgRtatA, laghutA, matamatAMtara sahiSNutA Adi uttamottama guNone zuM varNavI zakIe. emaNe alpa samayamAM je mahAna kArya karyuM che evA prabhAvazALI, zrI rAjakRpAnI prasAdI jene maLI che teja karI zake. amArA jevA alpajJAnInI kalpanAmAM paNa na AvI zake. adhika zuM lakhIe ? A pustikAmAM pUjya zrI aMbAlAlabhAIne saMvata 1946thI parama prabhuno satsaMga thayo ane saMvata 1957 sudhI bAra varSa sudhI sat lAbha, sadgurUsevA, bodha zravaNa vi. prasaMgonuM je varNana che tenuM AchuM rekhAMkana A pustakamAM karyuM che. temAM dasa sthaLe pote rasoIA banyA hatA te sthaLo rALaja - vaDavA - kAviThA - ANaMda - vaso - naDIyAda - uMdela - haDamatIyA - uttarasaMDA - kheDAnI vigata, vaLI satsaMga prasaMganI sAthe zrI paramakRpALudeve temanA pratye pAThavelA bodhaka patro, mokSamArganI doravaNI sAthe AjJArUpa hitavacano tenI aMdara kramasara AvarI lIdhela che. A pustikA vAMcI - - 5

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AtmaniSTha dhruva tAro pU. zrI aMbAlAlabhAI vicArI evA guNo ane prabhubodhane anusaravAnI zakti - bhakti ane AkAMkSA ApaNane raho, e ja prabhunA yogabaLa pAse prArthanA. - pUjya zrI aMbAlAlabhAInA premalakSaNArUpa bhaktinA prasaMgo, jIvanacaryAnuM ciMtana e bhakti mArganA pravAsIne eka dIvAdAMDIrUpa banI zake, e bhAvanAthI A saMkalana thayuM che, je svaparA hitakArI thAo, e ja paramakRpALunI kRpAdraSTi ke AziSa mAMgIe chIe. pU. zrI aMbAlAlabhAIne paramakRpALudevamAM paramAtmapaNAnA darzana thayAM ane patravyavahAra zarU karyo tyAre teozrI potAnI satsaMga virahavyAkuLatA ane tRSA-yAcanA ja temAM darzAvatA. emAM potAnA skUlano, potAnI AdhyAtmika pragatinI maMdatA, anugraha yAcanA, svadoSa kathana vagere eTalA nikhAlasatAthI jaNAvatA ke paramakRpALudevanI karuNA temanA prati UbharAyA vinA rahe ja nahIM. patronA uttara maLatAM temanA pratye kevo nirmaLa karuNAsabhara prema vyakta thato te A saMsthA dvArA agAu prakAzana karavAmAM Avela 'satsaMga saMjIvanI' pustakamAMthI vAMcavA maLaze. - teozrInA bhakta jIvanamAMthI ghaNuM samajavAnuM ane AlekhavAnuM bAkI rahI jAya che. yogyatA evI nahIM hovAthI buddhigamya thayuM teTaluM paricaya prasaMgonAM AdhAre sthULarUpe guNa smRti karI che. amArI matinI maMdatAthI ghaNI kSati AvavA yogya che, jethI vAcaka varga kSamA kare evI vinaMtI che. A nAnakaDI chatAM preraNArUpa pustikAnuM zubhanAma pUjya zrI mahArAja sAhebe 'AtmaniSTha dhruva tAro" Apela che te khUba ja yathArtha che. pUjaya zrI aMbAlAlabhAIe ekaniSTha dhruva tArAnI mAphaka preraNArUpa banI jijJAsu mumukSu jIvone AtmAnI zuddhi arthe yogya mArgadarzana Apela che. bhagavAna paramakRpALudevazrInI paramakRpAthI jeone samyakdarzananI prApti thayela, te pavitra AtmAne - mokSagAmI AtmAne namaskAra ho ! namaskAra ho ! AvA pavitra AtmAnA jIvana-kavana saMbaMdhI agAu "zrI rAjaratna pU. zrI aMbAlAlabhAI?" nAmano zubha graMtha A saMsthA dvArA prakAzita thayela che, temAM ghaNI vigato preraNA levA lAyaka pU. zrI aMbAlAlabhAInAM jIvana saMbaMdhI AlekhavAmAM AvI gayela che, jene zrI mumukSuo taraphathI sAro AvakAra maLyo che. have te sivAya bAkInA navA prasaMgo pUjaya zrI aMbAlAlabhAInA jIvananA A pustikAmAM samAveza karela che, je mumukSuone mArgadarzaka preraNArUpa thAo tevI zubhAbhilASA sAthe prabhu prArthanA. A tamAma sAhityanuM saMkalana-saMzodhana karavAmAM pU. zrI bhAvaprabhAzrIjI mahArAja sAhebano atyaMta zrama samAyelo che. nAdurasta tabiyata hovA chatAM mAnasika zArIrika parizrama laI mumukSuonAM AtmakalyANane arthe ane pU. zrI aMbAlAlabhAInA je pAramArthika upakAro che tene saMbhArI je je prasaMgo te te vakhate astitvamAM Avela che te prasaMgo jIvanA AtmopakAra arthe A pustikAmAM pU. zrI e AvarI lIdhela che.

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AtmaniSTha dhuva tAro pU. zrI aMbAlAlabhAI pU. zrI bhAvaprabhAzrIjI mahArAja sAheba zrI vacanAmRtajInA khUba ja abhyAsI che. paramakRpALudevazrI pratye, vItarAga mArga pratye atyaMta zradhdhA bhakti dharAve che ane zrI vacanAmRtajImAMthI bhagavAnanA gaMbhIra Azayo samajAve che tethI 5.ku. pratye tathA vItarAga bhagavaMta pratye zradhdhA bhakti daDha thAya che. mumukSuone paramakRpALudevazrI pratye tathA vItarAga mArga pratye zradhdhA vadhAravAmAM amone sAcA sahAyakarUpa che. atyAre teozrInI zrI subodhaka pustakAlayamAM sthiratA che, sAthe pU. zrI caMdraprabhAzrIjI mahArAja sAheba, tathA pU. zrI rAjaprajJAzrIjI mahArAja sAheba birAjamAna che. teozrI mumukSuone bhagavAna pratye zradhdhA bhaktibhAva vadhAravAmAM sahAyaka thayAM che. amArA samAjanA bhAI-baheno teozrInA upakArI guNone yAda karI teozrIne namaskAra pAThave che. khaMbhAta subodhaka pustakAlaya - jJAna bhaMDAra 1) zrI khaMbhAta tIrthakSetra sthita subodhaka pustakAlayanA jJAna bhaMDAramAM zrI paramakRpALudevanA svahaste likhita vacanAmRtonI phoTokopInA bAvIsa Albama che. 2) pU. aMbAlAlabhAIe utArela hastAkSaranI AtmasidhdhijI zAstranI buka gujarAtI tathA bALabodha lIpImAM 110 varSa jUnI che, tathA pU. aMbAlAlabhAInA hAthanA utArAnI zrI vacanAmRtajInI cha (6) noTabuko leminezana karAvela hAla vidyamAna che je jotAM Azcarya upaje tema che. te sivAya paramakRpALudeve svahaste Apela saMvata 1956nI sAlanA mULa citrapaTo (1) kAusagga mudrA ane (2) padmAsana mudrA surakSita che. je (105) ekaso pAMca varSe paNa Aje darzanArthe vyavasthita sacavAyela che. 3) zrI paramakRpALudeve khaMbhAta subodhaka pustakAlayane zrI uttarAdhyayanajI sUtra bheTa Apela che. 4) pU. aMbAlAlabhAIne AjJA karela zrI samayasAra graMtha tathA zrI kArtikeyAnuprekSA vigere zAstranI prato tathA bIjA dIgambara temaja zvetAMbara zAstro vasAvyAM che. temaja nIti, vairAgya ane kathAonA jaina jainetara pustako hajArekanI saMkhyAmAM che. yogavAsiSTha, viduranIti, maNiratna mALA, kasturI prakaraNa, prakaraNa ratnAkara, Adi keTalAMka pustako mumukSuoe zrI zALAne bheTa Apela che. zrI bhagavatI sUtra, zrI AcArAMgAdi Agamo pratAkAra che, tenI pothIo bAMdhelA che. zrI raNachoDabhAI modIe tathA zrI padamazIbhAIe nIcenA pustako kharIdI ApyAM hatAM tenA nAma atre darzAvela che. 1) zrI prakaraNa ratnAkara bhAga-4 2) zrIpALa rAsa 3) zrI yogazAstra 4) zrI adhyAtmasAra 5) zrI karmagraMtha 6) zrI tattvArtha sUtra 7) zrI vIsa sthAnakano rAsa ( 8) zrI punarjanma 9) zrI dvAdazAnuprekSA 10) zrI dharma sarvasva adhikAra 11) zrI AcArya haribhadrASTaka temAMnA keTalAMka pustako amadAvAda bhImasiMha mANekane tyAMthI kharIdelA. jainetara pustako

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AtmaniSTha dhruva tAro pU. zrI aMbAlAlabhAI gujarAta varnAkyulara sosAyaTImAMthI lAvelA ane pU. zrI aMbAlAlabhAI bhAvanagarathI AtmAnaMda sabhAnA membara banelA eTale zrI triSaSThI zalAkApurUSa caritra, jaina kathA ratnakoSa, bhAvanagara sabhAe mokalAvela che. jJAna pipAsuone vItarAganA zrutajJAnano lAbha levA, zravaNa manana karavA, e subodhane anusaravA, umaMgI thavA A subodhaka pustakAlayanI zrutajJAnanI paraba zrI paramakRpALudeve mAMDI che. te satkRtanA paricayathI, abhyAsathI, saMsAratApathI bacI jIva zItaLa thAya evA hetue A zALAno jJAnabhaMDAra ekatrita thayela che. jemAM prabhunI kRpA ane preraNA AzirvAdarUpa che. 5) vizeSamAM zrI paramakRpALudevanA orIjInala pagalAM je pU. zrI raNachoDabhAIne ghare dIdhelAM te pagalAMnI cAMdImAM banAvela pratikRti atre darzanArthe rAkhavAmAM Avela che. 6) saMvata 1961nA zrI paramazrata prabhAvaka maMDaLa taraphathI prathama pragaTa thayela zrI vacanAmRtajI graMtha cAMdInA pUMThA sahita suzobhita che. 7) pUjya zrI aMbAlAlabhAInI bhaktithI meLavelA paramakRpALudevanA thoDAMka mULa orIjInala posTakArDa te samayanA saMbhALapUrvaka sanmAnathI sAcavI rAkhelA che. 8) zrI paramakRpALudeva pU. zrI choTAbhAIne tyAM (hAlamAM je 'rAjachAyA'nA nAme oLakhAya che) padhArelA, ahIM 18 divasa sthiratA karI hatI te vakhate upayogamAM lIdhela smRti cinharUpa palaMga zALAmAM mUkela che. A zALAnI maulikatA e che ke jenA darzanathI zrI paramakRpALu sagurUdevanI jIvaMta chAyAno ane paramANunA sparzano anubhava thAya che. paramakRpALudevamAM niSThA dharAvanAra ane zrotAgaNane pa.kR. devamAM zradhdhA-bhaktinI daDhatA karAvanAra AjIvana brahmacaryavratadhArIpaNe pavitra jIvana gALanAra pU. zrI prakAzabhAI DI. zAhe potAnI Atmahita sAdhanAmAMthI avakAza meLavI temaja svapara hitakArI satsaMga-svAdhyAya Adi dharmakAryomAM sahabhAgI banI utsAha ApanAra pU. zrI prakAzabhAIe potAno amUlya samaya phALavI A laghu pustikAmAM TUMkI paNa zraddhApUraka prastAvanA amArI vinaMtIthI lakhI ApI amone je sahakAra Apyo che ane je upakRti svabhAvanuM darzana karAvyuM che te mATe amo TrasTIgaNa teozrInA RNI chIe ane teozrIno aMtaHkaraNapUrvaka AbhAra mAnIe chIe. A graMthanuM prinTIMga kAma karanAra amRta prinTarsano paNa amo AbhAra mAnIe chIe. bAkI je koI mumukSu bhAI-bahenoe A pustaka taiyAra karavAmAM je kAMI sAtha-sahakAra Apyo che te badala te sahuno paNa AbhAra mAnI viramIe chIe. zrI subodhaka pustakazALA TrasTa maMDaLa amRtalAla je. zAha pramukha haribhAI pI. bhAvasAra sekreTarI caMdrakAnta esa. jhaverI upapramukha mahezabhAI ema. bhAvasAra sahasekreTarInA navinacaMdra bI. zAha nANAmaMtrI jaya sadgurUvaMdana

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AtmaniSTha dhruva tAro prastAvanA "mahAdivyA kukSiratnam zajitavarAtmajam zrI rAjacaMdra mahaM vaMde tatvalocanadAyakam // ' pU.zrI aMbAlAlabhAI pU. zrI aMbAlAlabhAI racita je 'jJAnAvatAra' puruSanuM darzana caturthakALamAM paNa durlabha hatuM, tevA parama puruSanuM paMcamakALamAM janmavuM te eka AzcaryakAraka ghaTanA che ! vikarALa duHSamakALamAM tIrthaMkara paramAtmAnA sanmArgano punarodhdhAra karavA ane ApaNA jevA jijJAsu jIvonA zreyArthe ja yuga-yuganA yogI paramakRpALudeva zrImad rAjacaMdrajInuM atre A kALamAM avataravuM thayuM hoya, ema bhAse che. AvA avatArI puruSanA Azraye sevA-bhakti-premArpaNa dvArA AtmakalyANa sAdhanArA uttama AtmArthI puruSa che khaMbhAtavAsI pU. zrI aMbAlAlabhAI. vartamAnamAM paramakRpALudeva praNIta 'zrImad rAjacaMdra vacanAmRta' graMthanI amRta prasAdI je ApaNane saMprApta thaI che, tenuM mahat zreya ApaNA upakArI (caritranAyaka) pU. zrI aMbAlAlabhAInA phALe jAya che, je sarvavidita che. A avanI paranuM amRta evI alaukika "Atmasidhdhi'nA avataraNanA naDiyAda mukAme ekamAtra 'mUka sAkSI' rAjasevaka pU. zrI aMbAlAlabhAI hatA. dhanya bhAgya che evA vIra mUka sevakane ! ekaniSThapaNe satata doDha kalAka sudhI khaDepage hAthamAM phAnasa pakaDIne, kRpALudevanA parama pavitra mukhAraviMdane pUjyabhAve-vinayabhAve nirakhatAM vairAgya citta aMbAlAlabhAInI "Atmasidhdhi' jevI amarakRtine avataratI jovAnI subhAgyazALI 'AtmaceSTA'ne anaMtavAra vaMdana ho ! pU. zrI aMbAlAlabhAI jevA vinayI-vivekI-vairAgyavAna-samarpita sevaka jovA-jANavAmaLavA ati durlabha che. temaNe je prakAre paramakRpALudevanI tana-mana-dhana ane AtmaniSThAthI sevA karI che, tevI niHspRha, niSkAma, niSkapaTa sevA-bhakti-sAdhanA virala che. kRpALudevanI divasa-rAta khaDepage AvI sevAno lAbha lenAra sadbhAgI zrI aMbAlAlabhAIne koTi-koTi praNAma ! ke zrI sadgurU pratyeno sevAbhAva tathA AjJAdhInavRtti temanAmAM ajoDa hatAM. teo dareka kAryamAM prabhunI anumati mAMgatA ane AjJA anusAra vartatA. eka vakhata aMbAlAlabhAIne kRpALudeve pUchyuM ke "A taLAvamAM pANI keTaluM UMDu che ?" ema pUchyuM ke tarata ja aMbAlAlabhAIe ekadama kUdIne taLAvamAM paDavA mAMDyuM ke tarata ja kRpALudeve hAtha jhAlyo ane temane pakaDI rAkhyA. kevI adbhUta AjJAvaza vRtti ane kevuM samarpaNa ! dhanya che aMbAlAlabhAInI AjJAdhIna dazAne ane sarvAMga samarpaNa bhAvane ! ApaNe tevA kyAre thaIzuM ? paramakRpALudevanA dehAvasAnanA AgaLanA divase (caitra vada cotha, vi.saM. 1957) rAjakoTa mukAme paramakRpALudeve svamukhe morabI sTeTanA nyAyAdhiza dhArazIbhAIne jaNAvela ke "dhArazIbhAI kahevAnuM ghaNuM che. avasara nathI. amArA samAgame traNa puruSo svarUpane pAmyA che. sobhAgabhAI,

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AtmaniSTha dhuva tAro pU. zrI aMbAlAlabhAI aMbAlAla tathA munIzrI lallujI" Ama kRpALudeve ja jene "svasvarUpa" pAmyAnI chApa ApelI tevA staMbhatIrthavAsI zrI aMbAlAlabhAI paramakRpALudevanA 'dhruvatArA' samAna uttamouttama sevaka-Azrita hatA ane kRpALudevathI 'bodhabIja' pAmela AtmArthI satapuruSa hatA ! paramakRpALudevane sarvasaMga parityAga karIne vItarAga mahAvIrano mULamArga je rIte prakAzano hato temAM aMbAlAlabhAI agresara hatA. paramakRpALudeve kAvIThAmAM mahUDInA kUve bapore 2 vAge pU. zrI aMbAlAlabhAIne laI jaIne bhalAmaNa karelI ke, kyAre vanavAsa laIe te kahI zakAya nahIM mATe tAre bheTha bAMdhIne taiyAra rahevuM ane badhA mumukSuone kahevuM ke AnaMdaghanajInI jema avadhUtapaNe A puruSa cAlI nIkaLe tyAre badhAye ghara choDI cAlI nIkaLavuM." | vi.saM. 1954mAM 5.pU. bhAIzrI popaTalAla (vaDavA AzramanA sthApaka) pU. aMbAlAlabhAInA satsaMgAthe khaMbhAta temanA ghare padhArela hatA. teo sAthe zrI ciMtAmaNI pArthaprabhunA derAsaramAM darzanArthe gayelA. tyAM bhoMyarAmAM prabhu sanmukha besIne pU. aMbAlAlabhAI "he prabhu, he prabhu, zuM kahuM, dinAnAtha dayALa" e vIsa doharA khUba ja ArtatAthI bolatA hatA. prabhunI pratimAjImAM sAkSAt prabhunAM darzana karatAM hoya tevI jinabhaktimAM atizudhdhabhAve lInatA thayelI joI, tenI pU. bhAIzrInA dayamAM chApa paDI ke te vakhate kSAyika jevI aMbAlAlabhAInI dazA hatI." dhanya che AvI jina bhaktine, dhanya che AvI dazAne ! 'bhajIne bhagavaMta bhavaaMta lo.' "raghukuLa rIta sadA calI AyI, prANa jAye aru vacana na jAye." A vacana pU. aMbAlAlabhAIe jIvI batAvyuM hatuM. vi.saM. 1963mAM satsaMgamaMDaLamAM khaMbhAta mukAme eka divasa pheNAvanA zrI choTAbhAI AvelA. teoe svAdhyAya pachI pU. zrI aMbAlAlabhAI pAsethI vacana mAMgI lIdhuM ke mane avazya samAdhimaraNa karAvazo. mumukSuo pratyenA vAtsalyabhAvathI prerAIne teozrIe choTAbhAIne vacana ApyuM. thoDA vakhatamAM choTAbhAIne plegano roga lAgu paDyo ane pU. aMbAlAlabhAIne jANa thaI eTale dehanI paNa darakAra karyA vagara temane samAdhimaraNa karAvavA turta ja pheNAva pahoMcI gayA. temaja pote rogano bhaya rAkhyA vagara temanI khUbaja sevA-cAkarI karI pariNAme choTAbhAInuM samAdhimaraNa thayuM. kRpALudeva kahetA ke "mumukSue mumukSune arthe A deha jato karavo paDe to aDacaNa gaNavI nahIM." khaMbhAta ghare AvyA pachI pU. aMbAlAlabhAIne paNa pleganA rogano cepa lAgu paDyo. cAra-pAMca divasa tIvra azAtA vedanIya karma rahyuM paNa pote tene adbhuta samatAthI ane akhaMDa AtmajAgRtithI sahana karyuM. teozrInA hRyamAM satata paramakRpALudevanuM dhyAna hatuM ane mukhamAM "mahAdivyA kukSiratnam" e padanuM satata smaraNa hatuM. chellA zvAse teozrIe "sahajAtma svarUpa", "he prabhu" nAmanuM uccAraNa karatAM karatAM rAtre 9-30 kalAke vi.saM. 1963nA caitra vada bArase khaMbhAta mukAme mAtra 37 varSanI madhya yuvA vaye samAdhimaraNa karyuM. aMbAlAlabhAIno e atyaMta pavitra AtmA samAdhipaNe rAja prabhunI zaraNamAM samAI gayo, alpa AyuSyamAM paNa jJAnInA anugrahathI Atmasidhdhi pAmI gayo. namana ho Asanna bhavya evA nikaTa mokSagAmI pavitra, divya AtmAne ! samAdhimaraNa samayanI teozrInI samatA 30

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AtmaniSTha dhruva tAro pU.zrI aMbAlAlabhAI zudhdha zradhdhA-dhI2ja-AtmasmaraNa-AtmasamAdhi sarve sAdhaka-mumukSu jIvoe niraMtara saMbhAravA yogya che. pU. aMbAlAlabhAIno patrAmRtra bodha : (1) "je citta anAdinA abhyAsamAM joDAyeluM rahe che te cittane paramAtmAnA nAmasmaraNamAM joDeluM rAkhavAthI te citta aparAdha karatAM aTake che, pApa ane kaSAyanuM ciMtana karatAM aTake che. sarva sukhano paramotkRSTa upAya e ja sahelAmAM sahelo che. je citta nakAmI mAthAkuTa karyA kare che, laukika bhAvomAM paDI rahe che, te cittane zudhdha karavAmAM - pApano nAza karavAmAM, paramAtmAnuM nAmasmaraNa e kevo majeno upAya che !'' (2) "mahat puNyano yoga thAya tyAre satpuruSa maLe ane "huM" paNuM bheguM bheLavI de eTale huM to AtmA chuM ane satpuruSa te rUpa che eTale huM to jagatamAM chuM ja nahIM, eka satpuruSa ja che. ema karavAthI je bhUla potAnI che te maTe che. eTale e satpuruSa sivAya bIjuM kaMI che ja nahIM. e mArApaNAnuM abhimAna bhUlI javuM ane e satpuruSane mukhya gaNavA. tene laIne ja A badhuM che, tenA sivAya bIjuM kaMI che ja nahIM.' (3) "satpuruSanA vacana para vizvAsa rAkhavo ane te vizvAsanuM baLa rAkhI maMdavIrya thavA devuM nahIM. tenI sAthe potAnA doSa jovAno lakSa cUkavo nahIM. koI pUche to javAba DhIlo Apavo nahIM. majabUta javAba Apyo haze to pharI koI vakhata ApaNI bhUla thAya to zaramAIne pAchuM vaLavAnuM thaze, kAraNa ke AgaLa vizvAsa majabuta karyo che tene laIne sudharavAnuM banaze." kevo uttama ane gahana-gaMbhIra bodha pU. zrI aMbAlAlabhAIe ApaNane Apyo che ! 'kara vicAra to pAma.' parama kRpALudevanA mArgamAM jIvana arpaNa karanAra pUjya sAdhvIjI bhAvaprabhAjIe A granthanA saMkalana-saMpAdanamAM ananya bhAve ghaNI mahenata karI che. thoDAM varSo pUrve paNa teozrInA prema-prarizramathI "satsaMga saMjIvanI'' temaja 'vaDavAno prANa' A be graMtho prakAzita thayela, je mumukSuone khUbaja upakArI sidhdha thayela. A laghugraMtha paNa mumukSu jIvone AtmahitamAM avazya sahAyaka thaze, ema A lekhakanuM mAnavuM che. kRpALudevanA ane pU. aMbAlAlabhAInA jIvananA keTalAka prasaMgo temAMthI jJAta thaze. pUjya sAdhvIjI mahArAjanA haste AvA suMdara graMtho prakAzita thatAM rahe tevI paramakRpALudevanA yogabaLa AgaLa prayAcanA ! satpuruSonuM yogabaLa jagatanuM kalyANa karo. 'he paramakRpALudeva ! tArA abheda svarUpamAM mAro nivAsa ho.' AvI aMtaHstalanI prArthanA sAthe A lekhanIne virAma ApuM chuM, kemake mahApuruSonA guNone-jIvanane-vacanane pUrNapaNe lakhI zakavA mATe ApaNe asamartha chIe. vItarAga puruSonI caraNaraja niraMtara mastake raho ! saMtacaraNaraja, AtmArthI prakAza DI. zAha, amadAvAdanA jayaprabhu, zuddhAtma vaMdana. 11

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AtmaniSTha dhruva tAro pU. zrI aMbAlAlabhAI 0 S. 0 0 6 K A 2 24 25 30 krama viSaya pAna naMbara prakAzakIya nivedana - TrasTIgaNa | prastAvanA maMgaLa stuti guNAnuvAda - smaraNAMjalI - pU. bhAvaprabhAzrIjI zrI rAjamudrA 6 zrI sadguru prArthanA 7 pU. jUThAbhAI ane pU. aMbAlAlabhAIno meLApa 8 harimilana vi.saM.1946 9 vi.saM.1947 ratalAmathI muMbaI - rALajA 10 vi.saM.1948 ANaMda 11 vi.saM.1949 khaMbhAta - zrI rAjachAyA 12 OM sadguru dayALa 13 vi.saM.1949 - pU. kilAbhAIno paricaya 14 zrI rAjachAyAvALA choTAbhAInA suputra maNilAla urphe bApujI zeThano paricaya 44 15 vi.saM.1951 - kaThora 45 16 vi.saM.1951 - vavANiyA 47 17 vi.saM.1951 - zrI haDamatiyA 18 vi.saM.1951 dharmaja - vIrasada 19 vi.saM.195ra - apragaTa patra - kAviThA 20 vi.saM.1952 - rALaja 21 vi.saM.1952 - zrI vaDavA 22 vi.saM.195ra - ANaMda - u.chAyA 23 vi.saM. 1952 - naDiyAda - zrI AtmasiddhizAstra 24 vi.saM.1952 - gurugama 25 vi.saM.1953 - prabhu - pratipatra 26 pU. zrI sobhAgabhAInuM samAdhi maraNanuM darzana 27 vi.saM.1954 - kAviThA - vaso 28 vi.saM.1954 - uttarasaMDA - kheDA 29 vi.saM. 1955 - muMbaI 30 vi.saM.1956 - dharamapura 31 vi.saM.1956 - paramakRta prabhAvaka maMDaLanI sthApanA - vaDhavANa 5O para pa3 56 - A * * u o ~ b = USO * * * ) 12

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AtmaniSTha dhruva tAro 32 vi.saM.1957 - zrI subodhaka pustakazALAnuM nAmAbhidhAna - khaMbhAta vi.saM.1957 AgAkhAnanA baMgale khaMbhAta - zALAnA pustako 33 34 35 vi.saM.1957 - rAjakoTa - nirvANa saMtano saMga - satsaMga - navadhAbhakti 36 39 vi.saM.1957 thI 1963 38 39 40 41 42 43 44 samAdhi sAdhanA pU. aMbAlAlabhAIe zrI manasukhabhAI upara lakhela patro - be mumukSunA pU. aMbAlAlabhAI pratye patro 'rUpaka:' videha kSetranA yAtrIone pAsaporTa - pU. amRtabhAI parIkha aMtima stuti - maMgala - pU. bApujI zeTha prabhu rAjacaMdra nAmAvaLI mahimA - pU. bApujI zeTha zrI sadguru Arati - pU. bApujI zeTha e pU.zrI aMbAlAlabhAI 75 33 81 81 82 88 90 94 95 103 107 108 108 13

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AtmaniSTha ghuva tAro pU.zrI aMbAlAlabhAI maMgaLa stuti OM sarvajJAya namaH "namo durvAra ravi, vairivAra nivArine | hRti yoninAthAya, mahAvIrAya tathine '' "apAra mahAmohajaLane anaMta aMtarAya chatAM dhIra rahI je purUSa taryA te zrI purUSa bhagavAnane namaskAra." anaMtakALathI je jJAna bhavahetu thatuM hatuM te jJAnane eka samaya mAtramAM jAtyAMtara karI jeNe bhavanivRttirUpa karyuM te kalyANamUrti samyagadarzanane namaskAra." - zrImad rAjacaMdra va. 839 "mahAdivyAH kukSiratna, zabdajIta varAtmajaM; zrI rAjacaMdra mahuM vaMde, tattvalocana dAyakaM." - pa.pU. zrI aMbAlAlabhAI prathama namuM gururAjane, jeNe ApyuM jJAna; jJAne vIrane oLakhyA, TaLyuM deha abhimAna." "je svarUpa samajyA vinA, pAmyo duHkha anaMta; samajAvyuM te pada namuM, zrI sadguru bhagavaMta." 14

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AtmaniSTha duva tAro . . pU. zrI aMbAlAlabhAi janama : | dehotsarga : vi.saM. 1924 caitra vada 12 vi.saM. 1@3 adbhuta dhAraNAzaktinA dhA2ka ane pU. zrI paramakRpALudevanA pavitra bodhane Atmastha ka2nA2 pU. zrI aMbAlAlabhAI lAlacaMda - khaMbhAta e vizrAmo adhavaca malyo, puNya kerA prabhAve; je satsaMge nita nita vadhyo, Aja e yAda Ave. 15

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AtmaniSTha dhruva tAro pU. zrI aMbAlAlabhAI pUjya zrI aMbAlAlabhAIne -: guNAnuvAdarUpa smaraNAMjali : zrI jinezvaranI stuti he jagadAnaMda ! mokSa mArga vidhAyaka ! tamane namaskAra karuM chuM. he vacanAtita traNa lokanA svAmI ! tamane namaskAra karuM chuM. he prabhu ! anaMta paramAnaMda pUrNa dhAmamAM rahevA ApazrIne, bhavyo prema bhaktithI ahIM ja sAkSAt jue che. ApanI mUrtimAM mane to Apano ja sAkSAtkAra jaNAya che. - zrI sidhdharSigaNi | varSa upara varSa vItatAM pUjaya aMbAlAlabhAInA svargavAsane A sAla so varSa pUrAM thayAM. vinAzIka deha vaDe avinAzI vastu tatva jemaNe prApta karI lIdhuM hatuM, teo alaukika vastujJAnano amara vAraso sAthe laI gayA. teozrIe bhaktinI pUrNa prasannatAmAM jIvanalIlA saMkelI lIdhI. AyuSyanI avadhi jANatA ja hatA, teno vAta vAtamAM isAro karI dIdho hato, chatAM kaMI mRtyuno bhaya na hato, kAraNa amaratvanI siddhi varI hatI. uMmara nAnI chatAM dila moTuM hatuM. vyApAra, vahIvaTa, strI, putrAdi ane sagA-snehIonI hAjarI najara sAme hatI, chatAM jANe potAnuM kaMI nathI, eka sahajAtmasvarUpa ja priya che, evI rIte sarva mamatAne mUkI, koI svajano pratye dRSTi sarakhI mAMDI nahIM. kuTuMbIonI bhALa-bhalAmaNano bhAva paNa AvA puruSone kyAMthI hoya ? TUMkA AyuSyamAM svapara hitanuM adbhuta kAma karyuM. zrI vacanAmRtanA mULapatro uparathI 1946nI sAlathI ja utArA karavA zarU karyA. prathama to pUjaya zrI jUThAbhAI pAsethI maLelA temanA paranA patro, nitya smRti, zrI sajjanatA viSe, saMyati dharma va.21nA 126 vAkyo, praznottara vigere zarUAtanuM lakhANa (buka naM.1 pAnA 600) hAla subodhaka pustakazALAmAM che. pUjaya prabhuzrI paranA patro paNa meLavIne utArela che. temAM maroDadAra, chApelA jevA suMdara akSaro che. bukamAM kyAMya akSaranI azuddhi nathI. zabdanI chekachUkI karI nathI. kevI ekAgratA haze ! vacano pratye kevI tallInatA haze ! ATaluM lakhANa karatAM samaya keTalo gayo haze ! naM. 2nI bukanI sAijha moTI che. temAM paNa 600 pAnA hAthathI lakhelA che. jemAM pUjya zrI sobhAgabhAInA 60 thI 70 patro che. naM.3nI bukamAM hajAra pAnA lakhelA che. bIjI traNa nAnI bukamAM pAnA aDhIso che. kula cha buko pU. aMbAlAlabhAInA hAthanA utArAnI che, temAM lagabhaga vacanAmRta AkhuM zamAvI dIdhuM che. zrI vacanAmRta graMtha prathama chapAyo te A pUjaya zrI aMbAlAlabhAInA svahaste lakhAyela buko atrethI (khaMbhAtathI) laI jaI zrI paramazruta prabhAvaka maMDaLe saM. 1961mAM bahAra pADyo. A lekhana pravRtti uparAMta mumukSu upara patro lakhavA, prabhu sevA, satsaMga, mumukSu sAthe 17

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AtmaniSTha dhruva tAro pU.zrI aMbAlAlabhAI nityano khaMbhAtamAM svAdhyAyakrama, saMskRta abhyAsa, nivRttikSetramAM nivRtti nivAsa, adhyayana, dhyAna, nitya niyama IM. Atmahita kAryamAM rata rahetA. zarIranA adhyAsa khAna, pAna, nidrA, ArAma ItyAdi kyAre karyAM haze ? te badhAMno vicAra thatAM temanA purUSArthanI guNa smRti thaI AzcaryathI mastaka namI ja jAya che. A jIve kSaNa kSaNa jAgRti rAkhI A apUrva, atyaMta durlabha paramAtmAno caraNa yoga sAdhI jIvananI kRtArthatA meLavavA AtmabaLa sphurAvI dRDha bhakti prApta karavI te A guNAnuvAdanuM samyak phaLa che. zrI paramakRpALu devano adbhuta nidhi jJAna khajAno je potAne maLyo temAM anekane bhAgyazALI banAvavA temaNe zrama laI ApaNA para athAga upakAra karyo che. e hastalikhita hAthanA utArAnI kRtio so varSa thayA chatAM jANe haju kAla savAranI vAta hoya e rIte ApaNI pAse mojuda che. gahulI prabaMdha, dhanuSa prabaMdha, kaMpAsa ane ghaDI prabaMdha dvArA vacanAmRtamAM premabhAvanA raMga pUryA che. 166nA vacanAmRtajInuM eka amUlya vAkya hRdayamAM kotarI rAkhavA jevuM - "be akSaramAM mArga rahyo che." tene ATha prakAre gUMthI - goThavaNa karI koI anero opa Apyo che. tenuM varNana ApaNe kayA zabdomAM karIzuM ? tenuM guNa darzana karI, anumodana karI, AtmAne ujjavaLa karIe, Atmasiddhi sAdhIe e ja abhyarthanA. 18 - pUjya aMbAlAlabhAIe kRpALudevanI AjJAthI mumukSubhAIo pAsethI patro maMgAvI noTabukamAM svahaste utArA karyA. taduparAMta nAnI vayanuM lakhANa, jaLahaLa jyoti, puSpamALA, avadhAna kAvyo, i. tathA Atmasiddhi mULa vivecana sahita, hAthanoMdha 1, saghaLuM lakhANa zrI paramakRpALu devanI vidyamAnatAmAM pUrNa karyuM hatuM. eTale ja ApaNe A bhagavAnanI vANIno lAbha levA mahabhAgI banyA chIe, nahIM to ApaNane A adbhutinidha maLavo muzkela hato. A nidhimAM paramakRpALudeve jJAnIonuM hradaya ane anaMtajJAnInI sAkSI ApI che e koI nAnIsUnI vAta nathI. kevo nirmaLa jJAna prabhAva ane Atma sAmarthya tenI aMdara samAyeluM draSTigocara thAya che ! zrI paramakRpALu devanA nirvANa bAda pUjya manasukhabhAI ravajIbhAI tathA zrI revAzaMkarabhAIe turta ja nirNaya lIdho keH- pUjya aMbAlAlabhAIe vacanAmRtajInuM lakhANa karyuM che te pustaka paramakRpALu deva pote tapAsI gayA che ane potAnA svahaste temAM keTalAka sudhArAvadhArA karyA che. te ja sAhitya hAla bahAra pADIe. bIjA zAstronI mULa prato uparathI zuddha lakhANa karavuM, zAstrono zodha karI saMgraha karavo, vi. kAryane ghaNIvAra lAge tevuM che ane grAhakonI utAvaLa che, mATe mumukSuonI sammati lIdhI. je je mumukSuoe pa2mazruta khAtAmAM jJAnadAna karyuM hatuM te sarvee harSapUrvaka 'hA' jaNAvI. jenA phaLa svarUpe Aje ApaNe A zrI vacanAmRtajI - zrI paramakRpALu devanA anubhavajJAnano rasAsvAda mANavA bhAgyazALI thayA chIe. zrI paramakRpALu devanA sarve mumukSuomAM teo atyaMta priya hatA. guNAnurAgathI temanA pratye pUjyabhAva dharAvatA hatA. pUjya zrI tribhovanabhAI, pUjya zrI choTAbhAI, pUjya zrI kIlAbhAI,

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AtmaniSTha dhruva tAro pU.zrI aMbAlAlabhAI pUjya bhAIzrI popaTalAlabhAI, pUjaya sukhalAlabhAI, pUjaya kuMvarajIbhAI vigerene temanA viyogathI ghaNuM ja duHkha lAgyuM hatuM ane temanI satsaMga sahAyatAne saMbhArI kheda karatA hatA ke, are ! prabhunA paMthane ajavALato e dhruva tAro zuM asta thayo ! basa ! teNe vidAya laI lIdhI ! khare, ApaNAthI dUra jato rahyo? kaI dharatIne prakAzavA cAlyo ? he baMdhu ! zuM amAro sAtha tamane na gamyo? jethI alpavaye utAvaLa karI ! zuM amArA bhAgyanI khAmI thaI paDI ? have amane kRpAnAthanI mahAbhya kathA koNa karaze ? satsaMgamAM mIThI vANIthI hRdayane ThaMDaka koNa Apaze ? khaMbhAtavAsI amo sarvene tame paramAtmA sAthe anusaMdhAna karI ApyuM. mArga ciMdhavA amArI paDakhe UbhA rahyA. tame to akhaMDavRttithI prabhusevAmAM jiMdagI arpaNa karI. vaLI bhave bhave enuM ja dAsatva karavAnuM bhIkhavrata pALavA nakkI karyuM lAge che, eTale amane kalpanAmAMya na hatuM, athavA evuM svapna paNa jANyuM na hatuM ke Ama sAva ajANa rAkhI phakta cAra ja divasanI mAMdagImAM ociMtA cAlyA jazo. cAra-pAMca divasa agAu to rAtanA svAdhyAyamAM zrI rAjavANInI bhakti karatAM-karAvatAM hRdayamAM premAnaMda upajAvatA hatA - te hAthatALI daIne cAlyA gayA e zuM yogya karyuM che ? bhale, tame to choDI gayA paNa ame to tamArA aneka upakArone saMbhAratAM tamArI sAthe ja rahIzuM. sAthe ja bhakti karIzuM. tamArA sAtha sahakArathI maLela amUlya bheTa - zrI vacanAmRto - zrI AtmasiddhijI, upadeza chAyA, vigerenA avalaMbane jIvIzuM.' 'paMcamakALanA prabhAve amane tamArI khoTa paDI. tame amane amUlya vastu - ratnatraya ApI gayA cho. AvA virala, cothA kALe moMghA, parama mumukSu, sakhA, dInanA belI evA amane moTAbhAgyathI maLyA, te paramAtmAnI kRpA. ame tamArA upakArane namaskAra karIe chIe. tame jayAM ho - "sukha dhAma"mAM tyAMthI amArA tarapha kRpA kiraNo pheMkatA rahezo evI AzA rAkhIe chIe ane A guNAnuvAdarUpa smaraNAMjalI ApanA samIpamAM be hAtha joDI arpIe chIe." AvA gaNanAyaka bhaktano mumukSu pratyeno upakAra te kaMI laukika nathI. vyavahAramAM mAbApano moTo upakAra gaNAya te dehane laIne, jyAre zrI saddagurUnA sat ziSya ke Azritano upakAra lokottara che, AtmahitArthe che, je bhavAMtare paNa bhUlAto nathI. smaraNa thatAM ahobhAva vedAya che. e bhaktajana najaramAM hAjara hoya tyAre paramAtmAnI smRti akhaMDa rakhAve che ane viyogamAM paNa saMbhALa laI mAyAnI saMgatithI bacAve che. bhagavAna pratyenI prIti tAjI rakhAve che. evo vizeSa upakAra karatA hovAthI apekSAe teno badalo vALI zakAto nathI eTale ApaNe temanA adbhuta guNone saMbhArI, paramakRpALu paramAtmAne prArthanA karI mAMgIe - 'sahajAtma svarUpa suNo vinaMtI re, huM to vinavuM vinaye dinarAta mArA nAtha, mane dIje akhaMDa upAsanA re, sadguru satsaMgano sAtha mArA nAtha, vaLI ratnatrayanI dIje aikyatA re, huM to mAMgu caraNa dharI mAthe mArA nAtha.' - saMta caraNaraja bhAvaprabhAzrI | 19

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AtmaniSTha dhruva tAro pU. zrI aMbAlAlabhAI zrI rAjamudrA kRpALunI mudrA re mArA cittamAM vasI rahI; ethI jagatanI sarva AkRtio tuccha te nAsI gaI ...kRpALunI anupama zAMti maLe prabhu jotAM, sthiratA te bhAve thaI; e paramAtmAne oLakhI bhajatAM, bhavanI bhAvaTa gaI ..kRpALunI Asana siddha avicaLa jenuM, dIThe subuddhi thaI sAra grahaNa kare bhakti prabhAve, bhrAMti badhI maTI gaI ...kRpALunI zAMtapaNuM paripUrNa che jemAM, upazama rasa chalakAya, dRSTi sudhArasa kyArI nirakhatAM, AnaMda aMga na mAya ...kRpALunI parama kRpAnidhi sadgurU sAcA, zrImad sadgurU deva; rAjacaMdra prabhu kRpA karI mane, Apo caraNanI seva ...kRpALunI A saMsAra dAvAnaLa saLage, duHkhamaya aparaMpAra; tene bUjhAve samyakadarzana, tAruM prabhu sukhakAra ...kRpALunI nAma tAruM letAM kAma kalyANanuM, satvara saheje thAya; hRdayanuM darzana hRdayathI thAtAM, bhAva apUrva pamAya ...kRpALunI zrI sahajAtma svarUpa tamAruM, mudrAe oLakhAya; sukha svabhAva sthiratA sthitinuM, preme parakhI levAya ...kRpALunI upayoge samajI levAya ...kRpALunI anupama dRSTi prakAza prabhujI, teja anaMta karanAra; dAsanI dRSTi sudhArI sukhI karo, sAdI anaMta prakAra ...kRpALunI jaya jaya sadgurU rAjacaMdra prabhu, puSTAlaMbana deva; A sevaka kara joDIne vinave, gho zuddha caraNanI seva ..kRpALunI - pU. giradharabApA kRta. 2)

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AtmaniSTha dhruva tAro pU. zrI aMbAlAlabhAI prabhu kRpAnA parama pAtra pUjya zrI aMbAlAlabhAI racita zrI sadgurU taraNa tAraNa kRpAnAtha pratyenI premarUpA bhakti pada : zrI sadguru caraNAya namaH zrI prArthanA | chaMda - harigIta jaya rAjyacaMdra kRpALu gurU jaya, yogI janamana raMjana; agaNita guNa maNi koSa, bhavi ura doSa sakaLa vimocana; jaya svAnubhUti rati ramaNa, adyatama haraNa karaNa nizA haraM; jaya bhUSaNa dUSaNa niyukta mAyA, mukta jaya kalimala hara. 1 maMjula maMgaLa moda karaNI, piyuSa jharaNI vANI che; bhavamoha rajanI dalana haMsa, prakAza parama pramANI che; e nAtha karUNA kaMda, pada paMkaja taNuM zaraNuM grahuM; nirmaLa matithI satata rahevA, Apa caraNe huM cahuM. 2 manathI na jene pharaka jIvana, maraNa yoga viyogamAM; nahIM leza harSa viSAda lAbha alAbha sukha-duHkha bhogamAM; yogI abhaya anubhava rasI, upayoga sva para taNo sajyo; e rAjacaMdra kRpALu gurU, padakuMja zaraNa sadA hajo. 3 he nAtha ! tava zaraNe paDyo, sAdhana viSe samajuM nahIM, cho sarva jJAtA tAta, vAta adhika A sthaLe zuM kahuM ? hoDI tamAre hAtha nAtha, utArajo karUNA karI; karavA na zaktimAna chuM, kaMI AtmabaLathI huM jarI. 4 nirbaLa ane mati alpa, moha vikalpa vidha vidhanA naDe; baMdhana thayuM copAsa, AzA eka nahIM najare paDe; nijano gaNIne nAtha, sAthe rAkhajo hAthe grahI; nahIM to na raheze lAja, prabhu e satya kathana karyuM sahI. 5 R

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AtmaniSTha dhruva tAro 22 amadAvAdamAM pU. zrI aMbAlAlabhAInuM pU. zrI juThAbhAI sAthe prathama milana saM. 1946 pU.zrI aMbAlAlabhAI khaMbhAtathI pU. zrI aMbAlAlabhAi ane pU. zrI tribhovanabhAI 52makRpALudevane ANaMda levA jai rahyAA che. - saM. 1946

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AtmaniSTha dhruva tAro pU. zrI aMbAlAlabhAI ramA saMda relve sTerama ANaMda sTezane paramakRpALudeva TreInamAM utaryA tyAre pU. zrI aMbAlAlabhAI paramakRpALudevane namaskAra kare che. - saM. 1946 zrI paramakRpALudeva pU. zrI aMbAlAlabhAInA ghare padhAre che, tyAre . zrI aMbAlAlabhAI ahobhAvathI teozrInuM svAgata kare che. - saM. 1946 23

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AtmaniSTha dhruva tAro pU. zrI aMbAlAlabhAI pUjya zrI jUThAbhAI ane pU. zrI aMbAlAlabhAIno meLApa pUjya zrI aMbAlAlabhAI sthAnakavAsI kuLamAM janma pAmyA hatA, paNa janmathI adhyAtma jIvananA zodhaka hatA tethI matabhedathI para rahyA hatA. bhavathI nirveda pAmelA, tattvanA abhilASI hatA. temanI dRSTi satyane jhaMkhatI hatI. tevo samaya pAkatAM e taka sAMpaDI gaI. ekaveLA pUjaya zrI aMbAlAlabhAI saM. 1946nA mahAmAsamAM temanA mitrachaganalAlabhAInA ghera lagna prasaMge amadAvAda gayA hatA. tyAM pUjaya zrI jUThAbhAIne maLavAnI AkAMkSA rahetI hovAthI jUThAbhAIne ghera chIpApoLanA makAne gayA ane lagnamAM AvavA saMbaMdhI pUchayuM. jUThAbhAIe udAsInamaNe kahyuM, "evo huM kyAM pratibaMdha karUM?" jUThAbhAInI tabIyata te vakhate narama rahyA karatI hatI chatAM temanAmAM vinayaguNa tathA saraLatA abhuta hatAM, tethI pUjaya aMbAlAlabhAInuM citta AkarSAyuM. thoDI vAtacIta thayA pachI sAMje pharI maLavAnI rajA laIne gayA. haju yuvAvaya chatAM lagna jevA prakAramAM citta coMTyuM nahIM ne jUThAbhAI tarapha mana Atura rahyuM eTale chaganabhAIne tyAM lagna prasaMga patAvI vhelA vhelA navakAra maMtranuM smaraNa karatAM manameLApi zrI jUThAbhAI samIpe AvI pahoMcyA. temaNe prItipUrvaka bolAvyA ne jUThAbhAInA mukhamAMthI udgAra nIkaLyA ke, 'tamArI sAthe mAro pUrvano saMbaMdha hovo joIe ema bhAse che.' paramakRpALudevanA paricayathI jUThAbhAInA aMtarano ghaNo ughADa-prakAza thayela hato tethI gupta vAto jANI zakatA hatA. temaNe pUjaya aMbAlAlabhAInI tRSAturatA joI lIdhI ne vacanAmRtanuM rasapAna karAvyuM. paramakRpALudevanA mahimAnI, jJAnanI vAto karIne oLakhANa ApI, prabhunA apUrva patro vaMcAvyA. temAMnA keTalAka utArA karavA ApyA. va.21mAMthI sonerI sUtro kaMpAsanA AkAramAM goThavyA hatA evo (guTako) pustaka ApyuM. Avo adbhuta - akSaya khajAno mArA nAthano jUThAbhAI taraphathI bheTa malyo eTale to pU. aMbAlAlabhAInA hRdayamAM apUrva prema UrminI bharatI AvI. mokSamArganI sAdhanAno aNasAra maLI gayo. 'sa'nuM siMcana thayuM. A rIte jUThAbhAI dvArA prathama upakAra thayo. baMnenI dharma-prIti atUTa baMdhANI. paramAtmAnA yogano juga jUno saMketa maLI gayo. | zrI jUThAbhAInA paricaya bAda pU. aMbAlAlabhAI paramakRpALudevane muMbaI patravyavahAra kare che ane paramakRpALudeva pU. aMbAlAlabhAInI patra-tRSA jANI saMtoSa darzAve che te prathama patra nIce mujaba che. muMbaI, phAgaNa suda-8, 1946. sujJa bhAIzrI, "tamArUM patra ane patuM baMne maLyAM hatAM. patrane mATe tame tRSA darzAvI te vakhata meLavI lakhI zakIza..... tribhovana ahIMthI somavAre ravAnA thavAnA hatA. temane maLavA AvI zakyA haze. tame, teo ane bIjA tamane lagatA mAMDaliko dharmane iccho cho. te jo sarvanuM aMtarAtmAthI icchavuM haze to parama kalyANarUpa che. mane tamArI dharma jijJAsAnuM rUDApaNuM joI saMtoSa pAmavAnuM kAraNa che." - va. 106

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AtmaniSTha dhruva tAro pU.zrI aMbAlAlabhAI "yathArtha upadeza jemaNe karyo che, evA vItarAganA upadezamAM parAyaNa raho, e mArI vinayapUrvaka tamane banne bhAIone ane bIjAone bhalAmaNa che." - va. 115 vItarAgano e parama rAgI - enA satsaMge pUjaya aMbAlAlabhAIne parama prabhunA sAkSAta darzananI jhaMkhanA lAgI - khaMbhAta AvI paramagurUne muMbaI patra lakhyo, darzanAkAMkSA jaNAvI. paramAtmAe - hIrApArakhu jhaverIe - ratana pArakhI lIdhuM, javAbamAM jaNAvyuM. tame mArA meLApane iccho cho" . mArI pAsethI Atmika lAbha iccho cho te te lAbha pAmo e mArI aMtaHkaraNathI icchA ja che. "jAgyA tyAMthI prabhAta", Ama sapuruSanI kRpAdRSTi thaI. bhaktano hAtha jhAlyo, vizvAsa Apyo ke - "A mArga ApavAnI samarthatAvALo purUSa tamAre bIjo zodhavo nahIM paDe. - ame A kaLiyugamAM jJAnAvatAra chIe e niHsaMdeha zraddhA ja tamane iSTa che, kalyANarUpa che." paramakRpALudevazrIe khaMbhAta padhAryA pahelAM pUjya aMbAlAlabhAI vigere pratye saMvatsarI kSamApanAnA gahana bhAvo prakAzyo che. anaMta bhavanI kSamApanA jANe karAve che. pUrve kyAreya sAMbhaLyA na hoya - ciMtavyA na hoya, tevA gaMbhIra vairAgya bhAvo prakAzyA che, AzcaryakAraka vAta to e lakhe che ke - "have paribhramaNanA pratyAkhyAna laIe to? laI zakAya." aho ! potAnI sAthe rAkhI pharIthI janma na levAnI pratijJA levaDAvatA hoya evo marmabodha ApI dIdho che, emAM potAnI aMtaraMga apUrva vItarAga dazAnuM darzana paNa ApaNane thAya che. - pUjya aMbAlAlabhAInI kevI uttamottama pAtratA joI haze eTale enI AgaLa hRdaya kholyuM che - paranA paramArtha sivAyano deha ja gamato nathI to?" - va. 134 harimilana vi. saM. 1946 Ama cha - sAta mahInAnA gALAmAM prabhune khaMbhAta padhAravA vinaMtI patro vAraMvAra lakhyA ane parokSa satsaMgathI vItarAga purUSanA samAgamanuM ArAdhana jAgI gayuM. bhavAMtarano nikaTano ghaniSTa saMbaMdha navapallavIta thayo. aMtara enuM pokArI rahyuM. pUjaya devacaMdrajI mahArAja "niSkAmI ho niHkaSAyI nAtha ke sAtha hojo nitya tama taNo; to paNa mujane ho zivapura sAdhatAM, hojo sadA susahAya." e bhaktanI bhAvabhInI arajI, kRpALu paramAtmAne pahoMcI gaI ane paramakRpALu nAthanA Agamanano - meghavarSAno saMdeza patra Avyo. megha joI mayura nAce, tema priyatamanA cAhakanuM dilaDuM DolI UThyuM. jIvane zivanA milananI aNamola ghaDI AvI UbhI. 25

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AtmaniSTha dhruva tAro pU. zrI aMbAlAlabhAI saM. 1946 Aso vadI 7 - soma. (sAyalA) zrI tribhovana mANekacaMda, khaMbhAta. baMnne bhAIo huM ahIM cokkasa hitakArInA AgrahathI Avyo chuM. hAlamAM tamAruM patra patuM maLyuM nathI. ahIMthI gurUvAranI savAre ravAnA thaI te ja divase mULI sTezanathI besI divasanA - poNAbAra vAge vaDhavANa kempa AvavA icchA che, tyAMthI te ja divasanA melamAM UtaravA icchA rAkhuM chuM. kadApi tame jaNAvyA pramANe TreInanI yojanA ThIka thaze to zukranI miksamAM ANaMda utarIza. - li. rAyacaMdra - prabhuno kRpApAtra vAMcI pUjaya aMbAlAlabhAI sIgarAma laI ANaMda prabhune levA gayA. te vakhate khaMbhAta sudhI TreIna AvatI na hatI. paramakRpALu deva tathA maNIlAla (pU.zrI sobhAgabhAInA ciraMjIvI) sAyalAthI AvatI baporanI gADImAM 12 vAge ANaMda UtaryA. darzana thatAM ja namaskAra karyA. prabhu sAthe pUjaya aMbAlAlabhAI phaNAva AvyA. zrI tribhovanabhAI, suMdarabhAI tathA pUjya bApujI zeThanA nagInabhAI jaNasaNa - pheNAva rAha jotA UbhA hatA. pheNAvathI sIgarAmamAM besI teo badhA khaMbhAta AvyA. maMgalamUrti prabhue lAbha coghaDIye sAMje 5 vAge aMbAlAlabhAInA ghera tAraka pagalAM mUkyA. saMta darzana amogha hovAthI darzana thatAM ja anaMtabhavanA pApone - doSone bALe che, bhagavatanI amI dRSTi jyAM jIva upara paDe che, tyAM ja tenI mati palaTAI sanmati thaI rahe che. e bhagavAna vaNabolyA rahe to paNa sadbodha e daSTithI maLe che. kAraNa ke "jenI pratyakSa dazA ja bodharUpa che. enA aMgamAM tyAga che ke saMga karanArane raMga lAge." e dhanya paLe prabhu milanano meLa - subhAgya sumeLa saMdhAI gayo. emAM izvarano adazya hAtha hato. prabhu pagalAMthI aMdhArI rAta maTI UjaLI banI gaI. sarva satkRtyo - puNyo Aje phaLyAM. prabhu meLApathI tenuM haiyuM hele caDyuM . mana snehabhInuM banI rahyuM. pUjya devacaMdrajInA stavananA zabdomAM kahIe to - 'dITho darizaNa zrI prabhujIno, sAce rAge manazuM bhIno, huM to prabhu vAri chuM tuma mukhanI, huM to jina balihAri tuma mukhanI, manamohana tuma sanmukha nirakhata, AMkha na tRpti amacI." "Aja mane ucharaMga anupama, janma kRtAratha joga jaNAyo." - paramakRpALudeva. aMtara-pariNAma janama janamanuM du:kha gayuM, aMtara AnaMdanI laharI chUTI. zuddha caitanya mUrati, niraMjana nAthanI amI dRSTithI, jIvatara saphaLa thayuM. 26

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AtmaniSTha dhruva tAro pU. zrI aMbAlAlabhAI pU. zrI aMbAlAlabhAInA ghare zrI pa2makRpALudeva hiMDoLA upa2 zAMta mudrAmAM birAjamAna che. - saM. 1947 khaMbhAta sthAnakavAsInA upAzraye pU. zrI laghurAjasvAmI pAse pU. zrI aMbAlAlabhAI zrI paramakRpALudevane laI gayA che. - saM. 1947 29

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AtmaniSTha dhruva tAro pU. zrI aMbAlAlabhAI nayane - nayana malyAM - manabhrAMti bhAMgI gaI. prabhu caraNamAM badhu soMpI, vinaya bhAve DhaLI paDyA. enA saMta snehImAM eno Atama TharI gayo. zAMtasvarUpI svAmI paramakRpALudeva DelAmAM vacalA holamAM bahAra gAdI para birAjyA hatA. aba hama amara bhaye na mareMge.' 'kamaTha dalana jina baMdata banArasI,' e pado uccAratA hatA. sAMjanA ghoDAgADImAM paramakRpALudeva ane pUjya aMbAlAlabhAI dariyA tarapha pharavA sArU padhAryA hatA. rastAmAM AvatAM sthaLo viSe paramakRpALudeva pUchatA hatA. (pUrvanI smRti pramANe) rAtanA pharIne AvyA. aMbAlAlabhAInA ghare aMdaranI oraDImAM bichAnuM pAtharyuM hatuM tyAM padhAryA. savAre zrI lAlacaMdabhAIne jayotiSa jANavAnI icchAthI kRpALue kahyuM ke 'tamAro janma zrAvaNa vadamAM phalANI tithie thayela che ?" lAlacaMdabhAIe kahyuM - 'hA, jI, Ape kahyuM te kharUM che." bIje divase upadeza cAlyo hato. satsaMganuM mahAbhya pUrvabhave veDyuM hatuM te ja kartavyarUpa che ema preraNA ApatA hatA ke - "satsaMga zodho. sapurUSanI zraddhA vinA chUTako nathI." sAMbhaLIne loko Azcaryacakita thatAM. 12 vAgyA pachI pUjya aMbAlAlabhAInA AgrahathI sthAnakavAsInA upAzraye prabhuzrIjInI jijJAsAthI gayelA ne tyAM harakhacaMdajI mahArAja samakSa siddhAMtonA anupama artha ane 8 avadhAna karyA tethI badhA munio vigere ahobhAva pAmyA. trIje divase gAma bahAra nArezvara bAgamAM pharavA gayA hatA. tyAM bodha cAlyo hato. kRpALudevanI amRta sarakhI vANI sAMbhaLI sarvee atyAnaMda anubhavyo hato. va. 139mAM bhagavAne lakhyuM hatuM ke - "amArI pUrNa kasoTI karajo..... temAM tamane yogyatAnuM kAraNa che." jenI pAsethI je vastu levA jaIe te, sonuM vigere cokakhuM che ke nahIM tenI tapAsa karIe chIe ne ? tema jenI pAsethI dharma levA jaIe tenI pAse dharma che ke mata? tevA samadarzI gurU che? tenI parIkSA karavAnuM zAstrakAro kahe che. kasa, tApa ane bheda e traNa prakAra kasoTInA che. kRpALudeva to sAcA purUSa che tenI khAtrI pUjaya aMbAlAlabhAIne hatI ja. - have je mumukSu bhagavAnane Azare Avyo tene potAnI saMpatti e kyAre Ape ? kasoTI karIne. pUjya aMbAlAlabhAInI kasoTI te dayALue karavA dhAryuM - eka vakhata pUjya aMbAlAlabhAIne AjJA karI ke - "aMbAlAla, bahArathI phaLiyuM svaccha kara." te vakhate pUjaya aMbAlAlabhAInA gharA AgaLa nokara sAphasUphInuM kAma karato hato. aMbAlAlabhAI prabhuno Azaya na samajI zakyA tethI kezavane kahyuM ke - tuM badhuM ja bahAranuM paNa phaLiyuM vi. sAthe sAthe svaccha karI nAMkhaje, kacaro ghaNo che te na zobhe. 28

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AtmaniSTha dhruva tAro pU.zrI aMbAlAlabhAI khaMbhAta upAzrayethI zrI paramakRpALudeva tathA zrI aMbAlAlabhAI ghara tarapha jaI 2hyA che. - 2stAmAM vAta kare che ke 'muni pAtra jIva che' - saM. 1947 zrI paramakRpALudeva pU. zrI aMbAlAlabhAInA gha2nA rUmamAM dhyAnamAM besatA te ma. - saM. 1947 29

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AtmaniSTha dhruva tAro pU. zrI aMbAlAlabhAI te sAMbhaLI prabhue karUNA kaTAkSa nAMkhyo - "aMbAlAla! amane nokara rAkhatAM AvaDe che." e zabdo zravaNa karI pUjya aMbAlAlabhAI samajI gayA, cetI gayA ne AjJAdhIna thaI - phaLiyuM jAte ja sApha karyuM. prathamavAra 6 divasanI sthiratA paramakRpALudeva bhagavAnanI khaMbhAtamAM thaI. kArataka suda 2nA khaMbhAtathI vihAra karI muMbaI padhAryA. aMbAlAlabhAI ANaMda mUkavA sAthe gayA. muMbaI | vi.saM. 1947 aMbAlAlabhAI vyApAra prasaMge ratalAma javAnA hatA, tyAMthI vaLatA muMbaI zrI prabhunA satsaMga arthe javA bhAvanA prabaLa hatI tethI prabhune patra lakhI AjJA maMgAvI. tenA javAbamAM kRpALudeva sammati darzAvato patra nIce mujaba lakhe che. "tamArUM kuzaLa patra saMprApta thayuM. ratalAmathI vaLatAM tame ahIM AvavA iccho cho te icchAmAM mArI sammati che." A patra vAraMvAra manana karavA preraNA karI che. AgaLa revAzaMkarabhAI ane khImajIthI paramArtha viSaya carcita karavAmAM 8 praznonA nirNaya vicAravA jaNAve che. bhAgIdArane temanI nirmohI dazA - niHspRhadazAnuM oLakhANa thAya tema Atmahitano lAbha levA prere che. sAthe jaNAve che - "bhAI tribhovanadAsanI atra AvavAnI icchA rahe che; to te icchAmAM huM sammata chuM. temane tame ratalAmathI patra lakho to tamArI muMbaImAM jyAre sthiti hoya, tyAre temane AvavAnI anukULatA hoya to AvavAmAM mArI sammati che. " - va. 236 rALaja vi. saM. 1947 kRpALudeva khaMbhAta padhAryA pachI jyAre jyAre nivRtti levA mATe nIkaLatA tyAre pUjya aMbAlAlabhAIne ekAMta sthaLanI tapAsa karavA jaNAvatA hatA. te mujaba 1947mAM paryuSaNa parva mATe yogya sthaLanI tajavIja karavA jaNAve che ke - "tamArA gAmathI (khaMbhAtathI) pAMca-sAta gAu para evuM gAma che ke jyAM ajANapaNe rahevuM hoya to anukULa Ave ?... tevuM sthaLa jo dhyAnamAM hoya to lakhazo. mAtra nirvikArapaNe (pravRttirahita) jyAM rahevAya, ane ekAda be manuSyo tyAM khapa pUratA hoya eTale ghaNuMya che. kramapUrvaka tamAro je kAMI samAgama rAkhavo ghaTaze te rAkhazuM. adhika jaMjALa joItI nathI. uparanI bAbata mATe sAdhAraNa tajavIja karavI. vadhAre jANamAM Ave evuM na thavuM joIe." - va. 261 30

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AtmaniSTha dhuva tAro pU. zrI aMbAlAlabhAI e sUcanAne anukULa rahI pUjya aMbAlAlabhAIe tapAsa karIne khaMbhAtathI pAMca kilomITara dUra rALaja gAma bahAra, roDa upara pArasIno baMgalo bhADe meLavI lIdho. te bhAI paradeza hovAthI makAna khAlI hatuM. jagyA vizALa hatI. tyAM havA pANI vigerenI sagavaDa sArI hatI. pAMca-paMdara mumukSu rahI zake evA oraDA hatA, tethI te jagyA pasaMda karIne prabhune lakhI jaNAvyuM. sammati maLatAM te baMgalAmAM aMbAlAlabhAIe gAdalA vigere ane rasoI vigereno sAmAna badhuM ja goThavI dIdhuM. prabhu zrAvaNa vada bIjanA muMbaIthI nivRtta thaI rALaja padhAryA. joDe pUjya zrI sobhAgabhAI - mumukSunA parama upakArI - padhAryA hatA. darzana thatAM namaskAra karyA. pUjaya aMbAlAlabhAI, suMdaralAlabhAI, nagInabhAI vigere savAranA 8 vAgye rALaja pahoMcyA. zrA.va. bIjathI bhAdaravA suda 8 sudhI prabhunI rALaja sthiratA thaI hatI. te arasAmAM zrI paramakRpALudevazrI zrImad bhAgavata vAMcatA hatA, ane zrI kRSNa bhagavAnanI lIlAnA pado zrI mukhethI vAraMvAra bolatA hatA - uccasvare A pado uccAratA. valavale vaikuMTha nAtha, gopI, mane jAvA de eNIvAra, gopI mane jAvA de eNIvAra, mane mAraze mArI mAta, gopI tAro bahu mAnIza upakAra, gopI. ema smita karI AnaMda mukha karatA hatA. vaLI bIjo bodha ghaNo thato. rAtanA vakhatamAM nIcenuM pada paNa uccAratA "jagI he joga kI dhunI, barasata buMda se dunI." (rALaja) paramakRpALu rAtanA oraDAmAM palaMga para sUtA. pUjya aMbAlAlabhAI aMtaryAmInA caraNa taLAsatA, badhA prakAre sevAmAM rahetA, bAda pAMgathe sUI rahetA. pUjaya aMbAlAlabhAI rasoDAnuM kAma karatA ane sidhu sAmAna levA - mUkavAmAM bhAI nagInanI madada letA. paramakRpALu mATenI rasoI AjJA mujaba pUjya aMbAlAlabhAI karatA. prabhu alpa AhAra letA. koIvAra phakta ekavAra AhAra grahaNa karatA. videhI prabhune nidrA - darzanAvaraNIya - karma na hatuM. pUjya zrI sobhAgabhAIne kaheluM ke koI vikathA kare to nidrA Ave, nahIMtara nahIM. udAsInatA mukha para alaukika taravaratI dekhAtI. va. 255mAM lekhita thayelI aMtara udAsInatA paramAtmA svarUpa rahelAnI chAyAno bhAsa karAve che. darzanathI ane bodha prabhAvathI mumukSunA hRdayamAMthI jagatanA padArthanI Asakti - prIti upazamI jatI - evI vairAgyanI asara paDatI. te prabhunuM keTaloka samaya sudhI smaraNa satata rahetuM. prabhu karUNAsAgara hRdayamAM jagatanA kalyANanuM ciMtana karatA. mumukSune mATe prabhue bhaktinA sAdhanarUpa - "he prabhu ! he prabhu !" nA vIsa doharA vigere cAra padonI sahaja racanA karI. pUjya aMbAlAlabhAIne tenI traNa kopI karavA jaNAvyuM. tenI eka prata pUjya prabhuzrIne mokalI ApavA 3

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AtmaniSTha dhruva tAro pU.zrI aMbAlAlabhAI AjJA thaI hatI. rALaja rahyA tyAM sudhI pUjya aMbAlAlabhAI rAta-divasa dAsyabhakti upAsatA dAdaramAM besI rahetA. rALajathI bhAdaravA suda 9nA nIkaLI pUjya zrI sobhAgabhAI sAthe kalola zrI kuMvarajIbhAIne tyAM padhAryA hatA. 32 ANaMda vi. saM. 1948 zrI vavANiyAthI vidAya thavA mATe kArataka suda AThamanA divase pUjya aMbAlAlabhAIne vihArakrama jaNAve che. "be divasa pahelAM (tamArUM) patra prApta thayuM che. maganalAla, kIlAbhAI, khuzAlabhAI vigerenI ANaMda AvavAnI icchA che to tema karavAmAM kaMI aDacaNa nathI; tathApi bIjA manuSyomAM e vAtathI amArUM pragaTapaNuM jaNAya che. tevuM pragaTapaNuM hAla amane pratibaMdharUpa thAya che. kIlAbhAIne jaNAvazo ke.... kaMI pRcchA karavA icchA hoya to temaNe ANaMda harSapUrvaka karavI.' - va. 300 pUjya aMbAlAlabhAI to nivRtti sthaLe sevAmAM prabhu sAthe hoya che. bIjA mATe prasiddhimAM na avAya tevI IzvarecchA prabhu tyAM jaNAve che. A aprasiddhinI bhAvanA vItarAga mArganI Azaya gaMbhIratA darzAve che. va. aMbAlAlabhAIne ANaMda satsamAgama arthe AvavA saMmati Ape che. "atrethI vadI - 3nA nIkaLavAno vicAra che.... ANaMda samAgamanI icchA rAkhajo. morabInI nivRtta karazo." 303. morabIthI aMbAlAlabhAIne lakhe che. "zrI subhAgya premasamAdhi viSe varte che. OM brahmasamAdhi'' - va.306. zrI maganalAla (aMbAlAlabhAInA pitAzrI) kIlAbhAI, khuzAladAsa vigere daseka mumukSubhAIo ANaMda jAya che. ANaMda dharmazALAmAM bhojananI vyavasthA pUjya aMbAlAlabhAI kare che. - zrI paramakRpALudeva rAtanA 9 vAgatAM TreInamAMthI utaryA te vakhate sapheda pheMTo bAMdhela hato; pustakanI peTI temaja kapaDAM vigere sAmAna lIdhA vinA sIdhA cAlatA thayA. zrI aMbAlAlabhAI emanI vItarAga caryA - munidazA (aMtaraMganI) jANatA hatA. teo tamAma sarasAmAna gADImAMthI laI AvyA. zrI paramakRpALudeva zAha premacaMda rAyacaMdanI dharmazALAmAM be oraDI rAkhI hatI tyAM pUjya aMbAlAlabhAIe bichAnuM pAtharela hatuM te para birAjyA ane 1 kalAka sudhI zAMta cittathI maunapaNe besI rahyA. evI AtmarUpa munidazAnI sthiti joI - mokSa mAragano sathavAro maLyAno AnaMda vedAyo. rAtanA 11 vAgatAM koI koIne nidrA AvatI joI pa.kR.deva bIjI oraDImAM pathArI karI hatI tyAM padhAryA ane jIvonI pramAdavALI sthitimAM bodha na karyo. bIje divase savAre 8 vAgatAMnA sumAre paramakRpALudeva bahAra kUvA pAse dharmazALAnI oraDInA oTalA para birAjyA ane keTalIkavAra pachI saheje bodha zarU thayo. temAM jenI je zaMkAo hatI te badhAnuM vagara pUchya samAdhAna thaI gayuM. tethI sau Azcarya sAthe saMtoSa pAmyA ane paramAtmAnI vatsalatA joI aMtaramAM

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AtmaniSTha dhruva tAro pU.zrI aMbAlAlabhAI muMbainI peDhI u52 pU. tribhovanabhAi tathA pU. zrI aMbAlAlabhAI zrI paramakRpALudevanA darzana karI dhanyatA anubhave che. O 33

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AtmaniSTha dhruva tAro pU.zrI aMbAlAlabhAI prema jAgyo. ANaMdamAM be-traNa divasano satsaMga, harirasa mANyo. pUjya zrI sobhAgabhAI ANaMda AvyA nathI tethI hRdayasakhAne yAda karIne lakhe che. "(evuM je) parama satya tenuM ame dhyAna karIe chIe." - va. 307 "je satyanuM dhyAna kare che te satya hoya che." A patra pUjaya aMbAlAlabhAIne vAMcavA ne bIDavA Ape che. vaLI ANaMda mumukSuo para kRpA karI muMbaI karmakSayArthe padhAryA. pote zrImukhe prakAzya che. "mahAtmAno deha be kAraNane laIne vidyamAnapaNe varte che, prArabdha karma bhogavavAne arthe; jIvonA kalyANane arthe." - va. 373 - 1) jaga pAvana karatAM karatAM prabhu ANaMdathI muMbaI padhAre che. tyAMthI pUjya aMbAlAlabhAIne aMtaraMga vartatI apUrva saMyama zreNInuM digdarzana karAve che. je patra lakhe che - "kSAyika cAritrane saMbhArIe chIe." - va. 312. je dazAnuM dhyAna karatAM AtmA svarUpAnaMdanI zreNie caDato jAya - AvA (anupama) aciMtya svarUpanuM pUjya aMbAlAlabhAIne va. 312mAM kevuM adbhuta darzana karAve che ke jethI aMbAlAlabhAInI cittavRttimAM te dazA smRtirUpa rahe, jethI saheje Atmabodha thAya, e temanI uttamottama pAtratA hatI. 2) paramAtmAnI chAyAmAM vasavAthI jema jema aMbAlAlabhAInI mumukSu dazA, jijJAsA baLa, vicAra baLa vadhatAM jAya che tema tema prabhu pAtramAM tattva rasAyaNa reDe che ane - "hIrA pArakhu jhaverI maLatAM mAla badhoya batalAve." tema paramAtmA va. 3pa6mAM potAno aMtaraMga vaibhava - (jhaverAta) temane batAve che ane grAhaka thavAnI sIdhI preraNA kare che. "AtmasamAdhipUrvaka yogaupAdhi rahyA kare che, je pratibaMdhane lIdhe hAla to kaMI icchita karI zakAtuM nathI. AvA ja hetue karIne zrI RSabhAdi jJAnIoe zarIrAdi pravartanAnA bhAnano paNa tyAga karyo hato." "samaya mAtra paNa apramatta dhArAne nahIM vismaraNa karatuM evuM ja AtmAkAra mana te vartamAna samaye udaya pramANe pravRtti kare che; ...te udayane viSe prIti paNa nathI, ane aprIti paNa nathI. samatA che, karavA yogya paNa ema ja che." - va. 353 ( 3) pUrve bAMdhelA zubhAzubha karmane abaMdha pariNAma bhogavI sarvathA chUTI javAnI paramakRpALu deve svacaryAthI A eka cAvI ApI ke tame paNa temAM game teTalA thoDA aMze pravartAya topaNa tema pravartavAno abhyAsa rAkhajo. prIti - aprIti jema utpanna na thAya tema tevA prasaMgamAM savicArathI varto. 4) zAstravAMcananI aMbAlAlabhAI pRcchA karI AjJA mAMge che tyAM niSpakSapAta dRSTi Ape che. "vicArasAgara anukrame (prAraMbhathI chevaTa sudhI) vicAravAno hAla paricaya rAkhavAnuM bane to karavA yogya che. mAtra je jaNAvIe chIe, te tama sarvane upadeza levA arthe jaNAvIe chIe." - va. 358 38

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AtmaniSTha dhruva tAro pU. zrI aMbAlAlabhAI khaMbhAta zrI rAjachAyA'nA makAnamAM zrI paramakRpALudeva bodha ApI rahyA che. te sAMbhaLavA mAnavamaherAmaNa doicara thAya che. khaMbhAta nArezva2 bANamAM sAMjanA samaye zrI paramakRpALudeva sAthe pU. zrI aMbAlAlabhAI pharavA jaI 2hyA che. 35

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AtmaniSTha dhruva tAro pU. zrI aMbAlAlabhAI zrI rAjachAyA, khaMbhAta vi. saM. 1949 saM. 1949nI sAlamAM paryuSaNa bAda prabhu peTalAda thaI nivRtti arthe khaMbhAta pAse kaMsArI gAme padhAryA. tyAM kIDIyono upadrava hovAthI dInAnAtha khaMbhAta padhAryA. khaMbhAtathI lakhela patra che. zrI choTAbhAInA makAnamAM 18 divasanI sthiratA thaI hatI. te makAnanI agAzImAM zrI yazovijayajI kRta - sADI traNaso gAthAmAMthI keTalIka DhALo bolyA hatA. eka divasa sAyaMkALe dariyA para pharavA padhAryA tyAre pUjaya aMbAlAlabhAI vigere bIjA bhAIo sAthe hatA. AvatI pherA prabhue zrI DuMgarazIbhAIne kahyuM - gAmamAM kyAMthI javAze ? teo rastA jANatA na hatA chatAM jJAnIpaNuM mAnI lIdheluM tethI kIdhuM ke cAlo mArI sAthe. kRpALudeva jANatA hatA ke A rasto gAmamAM jato nathI. chatAM tenI sAthe aMbAlAlabhAI vigere gayA, pachI AgaLa jatAM DuMgarazIbhAI rasto bhUlyA eTale prabhue dayA karI kaDaka bhASAmAM Thapako dIdho ke - AvI rIte je rasto nathI jANatA te mokSamArga batAvI zake nahIM." te upara vistArathI samajAvI vyAkhyA karI hatI. tyArathI DuMgarazIbhAInuM abhimAna jJAna pAmyAnuM gaLI gayuM hatuM. pachI bodhamAM kahyuM ke - eka sapuruSa pratye - pratyakSa bhagavAna pratye jeno oghe paNa rAga hoya te paNa kalyANa pAme A vAta "sumati' graMthamAM kahI che. mATe tamo amArI pUrNa zraddhA rAkhajo." Ama roja rAjachAyAmAM satsaMga varSA cAlatI hatI ane pU. aMbAlAlabhAI, zrI choTAbhAI vigere amRta pAna karI abhaya thatA hatA. eka divasa - pa.pU. kuMdakuMdAcAryakRta "samayasAra' - nAmano graMtha vAMcatA hatA te veLA jANe ekalo AtmA ja bole che evo bhAsa - anubhava thato, pratIti AvatI. bhrAMtithI potAmAM jJAna mAnyuM hoya teno saMzaya dUra thAya evuM dRSTAMta ApI samajAvatA ke - "AtmajJAna tene kahevAya che ke khoLAmAM AvIne siMha bese, sarpa bese paNa kiMcit mAtra rUMvADAmAMya bhaya thAya nahIM." - zrI rAjachAyAmAM nivAsa daramyAna eka divasa prabhu pUjya aMbAlAlabhAIne ghera padhAryA. te vakhate satsaMga arthe ugarIbena paNa aMbAlAlabhAInA ghera AvyA hatA. zrI lAlacaMdabhAIne DhaMDhIyAnA zrAvakoe kRpALudevanI virUddha uzkeryA hatAM eTale vyAkhyAnamAMthI UThI badhA aMbAlAlabhAInA ghera AvyA eTale lAlacaMdabhAI kRpALudeva pratye ghaNA ja Akroza vacanathI bolyA ke - tame mArA gharamAMthI navakAranuM nAma kADhI nAkhyuM. aMbAlAla kaMIka bIjuM smaraNa kare che. ityAdi ghaNAM ja kaThaNa vacano kahyAM. paramAtmA to zAMta rahyA. aMbAlAlabhAI paNa joI rahyA. te bolatA baMdha thayA tyAre paramakRpALudeve lAlacaMdabhAIne pUchyuM ke - "tame 60 varSathI dharamano abhyAsa karo cho - vyAkhyAna sAMbhaLo cho to kaho jIvanuM svarUpa zuM che?" lAlacaMdabhAI gUMcAyA - javAba na daI zakyA, eTale DhuMDhIyAnA zrAvako bhaNI joyuM ne kIdhuM ke - A loko javAba deze. lAlacaMdabhAInA kahevAthI kRpALudeve teone pUchyuM te paNa kaMI javAba daI na zakyA ne kSobha pAmyA ane badhA zrAvako UThI cAlyA gayA. eka vakhata kRpALudeva padhAryA tyAre pU. zrI aMbAlAlabhAI, zrI kalAbhAI, zrI gAMDAbhAI 3

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AtmaniSTha dhruva tAro pU.zrI aMbAlAlabhAI vigere samIpamAM beThA hatA. ghaNA vakhata sudhI pote mauna rahyA. sapheda aMgarakhu paherela hatuM ane jANe parama yogI dekhAtA hatA. thoDIvAra pachI bolyA ke - "jJAnI purUSa 50 ke tethI vadhu mANasa beThA hoya te vakhate ema jANatA hoya ke AmAMthI ATalA jIva jarUra ATalA bhave bodha pAmaze, jJAna pAmaze tathA amuka amuka jIvonI bhaviSyamAM Ama gati thaze. ityAdi vyAkhyA karI hatI.' eka vakhata kRpALudeve kahyuM ke - "aMbAlAlane vinaya bhaktithI labdhi prApta thaI che, ane te tamo badhA karatAM caDiyAtA che.'' zrI aMbAlAlabhAImAM udAratAno guNa sAro hato ane zrI kRpAnAthanA samAgamathI temanI dazA adbhUta vartatI hatI. paramakRpALudevanI bhakti temaNe ananya karI hatI. jema pativratA strI bhakti kare evI akhaMDa prema - vinayathI bhakti karatA hatA. nidrA le nahIM - pAMgathe rAtanA besatA hatA ane paga taLAMsatA hatA. tyAMnA tyAM ja sUI rahetA hatA. temanAmAM vinaya guNa ananya hato. prabhu pratyenuM parama dainyatva - dAsIbhAvane varela hatA eTale rasoI paNa pote ja karatA hatA. temanAmAM rasoInI AvaData hatI - vizeSa prakAre sArI AvaData hatI. pUjya aMbAlAlabhAI ekAMtavAsamAM haMmeza - asaMga bhAve UThatA-besatA hatA. ane rAta-divasa "mahAdivyA kukSiratna" e zlokanuM raTaNa karatA hatA. temano vinaya joIne mumukSuomAM mAMho mAMhe vAta thatI ke jagatamAM bIje sthaLe jovA na maLe tevo bhaktibhAva temanAmAM che. ghaNA premathI mumukSu ekabIjAne cAhatA hatA. pUjya aMbAlAlabhAInA pratApathI mumukSuomAM vinaya guNanA bIja ropAyela che. pU. aMbAlAlabhAInI mokSamArganI adhikArItA jANI mukhya upAya spaSTa darzAve che. "AtmAne vibhAvathI avakAzita karavAne arthe ane svabhAvamAM anavakAzapaNe rahevAne arthe koIpaNa mukhya upAya hoya to AtmArAma evA jJAnIpurUSano niSkAma buddhithI bhaktiyogarUpa saMga che.'' - va. 432. je mArga ArAdhyA vinA jIve anAdi kALathI paribhramaNa karyu che te pratye prabhue aMgulInirdeza karyo che ke - "vAraMvAra te purUSarUpa bhagavAnane paramapreme bhajavA yogya che.'' dharmano mULa pAyo zrI vIre zraddhAne kahyo che. te zraddhA - niSThA sabaLa karavA 5.kR.deva bhalAmaNa kare che. je nIce jaNAvela vacanAmRtathI pratIta thavA yogya che. "sat zraddhA pAmIne je koI tamane dharma nimitte icche teno saMga rAkho.'' - va. 171. "satpurUSanI zraddhA vinA chUTako nathI. satsaMganI vRddhi karazo." - va. 174 "parama samAdhi che. tamArA badhAno jijJAsu bhAva vadho e niraMtaranI icchA che." - va. 175 "tamArAM prazna maLyAM. yogya vakhate uttara lakhIza. AdhAra nimittamAtra chuM. tame niSThA sabaLa karavAnuM prayatna karo e bhalAmaNa che.' - va. 184 39

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AtmaniSTha dhruva tAro pU. zrI aMbAlAlabhAI "atra AnaMdavRtti che. jema mArgAnusArI thavAya tema prayatna karavuM e bhalAmaNa che." - va. 186 Aje tamAruM patra - 1 maLyuM. "karanA phakIrI kanyA dilagIrI, sadA magana mana rahenA jI." e vRtti mumukSuone adhikAdhika vardhamAna karavA jevI che. paramArtha ciMtA hoya e viSaya judo che. vyavahAraciMtAnuM vedana aMtarathI ochuM karavuM e eka mArga pAmavAnuM sAdhana che amArI vRtti je karavA icche che, te niSkAraNa paramArtha che; e viSe vAraMvAra jANI zakyA cho... tame jeo samajyA cho, teo mArgane sAdhya karavA niraMtara sapurUSanAM caritranuM manana rAkhajo. te viSaya prasaMge amane pUchajo. sanzAstrane ane satkathAne tema ja sadgatane sevajo." - va. 192. pU. aMbAlAlabhAI kRpALunI aMtaravRtti jANe che ke A divya purUSa aneka jIvone kalyANa mArge dorI zake ema che eTale sapurUSanI atyaMtara dazAnuM manana karavA sUcavyuM che. mokSano mArga bahAra nathI, paNa AtmAmAM che. mArgane pAmelo mArga pamADaze. be akSaramAM mArga rahyo che, ane anAdi kALathI eTaluM badhuM karyA chatAM zA mATe prApta thayo nathI te vicAro." - va. 166 sarvee eTaluM ja hAla to karavAnuM che ke jUnuM mUkyA vinA to chUTako ja nathI, ane e mUkavA yogya ja che ema deDha karavuM... ame to sarvanA dAsa chIe. tribhovanane jarUra bolAvajo.' - va. 210. pratyakSa bhagavAnarUpa purUSa maLyA pachI zAstrIya abhiniveza TALe che. zAstro sapurUSanA mukhamAM rahyAM che. je bAra aMganA sArarUpa ane cha darzananuM sarvottama tattva, jJAnInA bodhanuM bIjA saMkSepamAM kahI de che.... "mATe jenI 'sat' prApta karavAnI deDha mati thaI che, teNe pote kaMI ja jANato nathI evo dRDha nizcayavALo prathama vicAra karavo, ane pachI "sa"nI prApti mATe jJAnIne zaraNe javuM; to jarUra mArganI prApti thAya..... e tamane ane koIpaNa mumukSune gupta rIte kahevAno amAro maMtra che." - va. 211. A gupta maMtra kharA mumukSune mATe ApI dIdho e eno parama upakAra che. vacanAmRtamAM duSamakALanuM svarUpa jaNAvI pU. aMbAlAlabhAIne pratyakSa satparUSanA joge vagara samajAvya svarUpasthitinuM kAraNa jaNAvI nizcayamAM prere che. tevI jijJAsA utpanna karAve che. kAraNa.... "pratyakSa ciMtananuM phaLa mokSa hoya che. kAraNa ke mUrtimAna mokSa te satparUSa che." - va. 249 padArthano nirNaya eTale samyagadarzana pAmavA mATe niHzaMkatAdi ATha aMga kahyA che te meLavavAnA krama rUpe gUDha zAstrArtha pratipAdana karyo che. te niHzaMkatA zAmAM karavAnI ? prathama - "mahAtmAmAM jeno dRDha nizcaya thAya che, tene mohAsakti maTI padArthano nirNaya hoya che. tethI vyAkuLatA maTe che. tethI niHzaMkatA Ave che. jethI jIva sarva prakAranAM duHkhathI nirbhaya hoya che, ane tethI ja niHsaMgatA utpanna hoya che, ane ema yogya che." - va. 254. AdipurUSa bhakta pAse potAnA aMtaranI bAjI khulI karI de che. paramakRpALudeva cothA kALamAM durlabha yoganuM A apUrva phaLa kAMDa jhAlI ApavA icche che. 30

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AtmaniSTha dhruva tAro pU. zrI aMbAlAlabhAI "AtmA brahma samAdhimAM che. mana vanamAM che. eka bIjAnA AbhAse anukrame deha kaMI kriyA kare che, tyAM savigata ane saMtoSarUpa evAM tamArA baMnenAM patrano uttara zAthI lakhavo te tame kaho.... maganalAla ane tribhuvananA pitAjI kevI pravRttimAM che te lakhavuM... eka samaya paNa viraha nahIM, evI rIte satsaMgamAM ja rahevAnuM icchIe chIe. paNa te to hariicchAvaza che." - va. 291 AvI aMtaragamya (khAnagI) vAta bhagavAna ane bhakta vaccenI Aje ApaNane sAMbhaLavA maLe che. temAMthI ApaNane kalyANano mArga maLI jAya che. A ApaNuM mahad bhAgya che. vaLI eka prasaMge pUjaya aMbAlAlabhAI prabhune vinaMtI kare che ke A mAyAnA karmano prapaMca kSaNe kSaNe AtmAne badhA pamADI rahyo che. temAM AtmAne samapariNatI rahetI nathI. pariNAma caMcaLa thAya che. emAM Apa jevA nirmoha purUSa ja rahI zake, mATe tame saMsAramAMthI amane kheMcI lyo. kaSAyanA nimittomAM kaSAya ane harSa zoka thaI jAya che. mAthe TokanAra - najara rAkhanAra na hoya tyAre nirAlaMba bodha aMtare sthira rahevo kaThaNa paDe che, mATe Apano Azraya Apo. e caraNa yoganI niHzaMkatAno mArga batAve che. "pratyakSa AzrayanuM svarUpa lakhyuM te patra atre prApta thayuM che. mumukSu jIve parama bhakti sahita te svarUpa upAsavA yogya che. yogabaLa sahita, eTale jemano upadeza ghaNA jIvone thoDA prayAsa mokSasAdhanarUpa thaI zake evA atizaya sahita je satparUSa hoya te jyAre yathAprArabdha upadezavyavahArano udaya prApta thAya tyAre mukhyapaNe ghaNuM karIne te bhaktirUpa pratyakSa AzrayamArga prakAze che. paNa tevA udayayoga vinA ghaNuM karI prakAzatA nathI.... te temanuM karUNA svabhAvapaNuM che." - va. 52 1. pahelAM guNaThANAthI AgaLa kevI rIte vadhavuM, tenA zA upAya che ? kyAMthI zarUAta karavI ? tenuM ghaDatara - zikSaNa, gurU kArIgara jevA - ghaDI rahyA che. jene viSe sasvarUpa varte che, evA je jJAnI tene viSe loka-spRhAdino tyAga karI, bhAve paNa je AzritapaNe varte che, te nikaTapaNe kalyANane pAme che ema jANIe chIe." - va. 376. aho prabhunI dayA ! jJAnInI gata to jJAnI jANe. jJAnI purUSa jIvanA bhItaranA paDa - graMthI - parigrahAdi kAmanAnA gaMja - UMDA gayelA che tene chedI - bhedI nAMkhe che. sadAcaraNa Teka sahita sevavAM, maraNa AvyuM paNa pAchA haThavuM nahIM. AraMbha, parigrahathI jJAnInAM vacano zravaNa thatAM nathI, manana thatAM nathI; nahIM to dazA badalAyA vinA kema rahe ?... jJAnIoe kahyuM che tethI jIva avaLo cAle che; eTale purUSanI vANI kyAMthI pariNAma pAme ? lokalAja parigrahAdi zalya che. e zalyane laIne jIvanuM pANI bhabhakatuM nathI. te zalyane saMpurUSanAM vacanarUpI TAMkaNe karI taDa paDe to pANI bhabhakI UThe. jIvanA zalya, doSo hajAro divasanA prayatna paNa jAte na TaLe, paNa satsaMgano yoga eka mahinA sudhI thAya, to TaLe; ne raste jIva cAlyo jAya." - u. chAyA. pAna. naM. 726 39

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AtmaniSTha dhruva tAro pU. zrI aMbAlAlabhAI "amane ema AvI jAya che ke ame, je apratibadhdhapaNe rahI zakIe ema chIe, chatAM saMsAranA bAhya prasaMgane, kuTuMbAdi snehane bhajavA icchatA nathI, to tama jevA mArgecchAvAnane te bhajavAne atyaMta trAsa ahorAtra kema nathI chUTato ? ke jene pratibadhdhapaNArUpa bhayaMkara yamanuM sahacArIpaNuM varte che." - va. 414 "agama agocara nirvANamArga che ema zrI vItarAge kahyuM che." e ja kAraNathI kRpALudeva agamacetI Ape che ke zuddha AtmasvarUpane pAmavAmAM apAra aMtarAyo jJAnIe joyAM che, ane te jIvane mArgathI pADe tevo bhaya hoya che eTale rasto batAve che ke - "jo mahatu puNyathI (paramAtmAno) satsaMgano apUrva lAbha rahyA kare to nirvidanapaNe kaivalya paryaMtanI bhUmikAe pahoMcI jAya che." "..tema ajJAnadazArUpa svapnarUpayoge A jIva potAne, potAnAM nahIM evAM bIjAM dravyane viSe svapaNe mAne che; ane e ja mAnyatA te saMsAra che, te ja ajJAna che, narakAdi gatino hetu te ja che, te ja janma che, maraNa che, ane te ja deha che, dehanA vikAra che, te ja putra, te ja pitA, te ja zatru, te ja mitrAdi bhAva kalpanAnA hetu che, ane tenI nivRtti thaI tyAM sahaja mokSa che, ane e ja nivRttine arthe satsaMga, sapuruSAdi sAdhana kahyAM che; ane te sAdhana paNa jIva jo potAnA puruSArthane temAM gopavyA sivAya pravartAve to ja siddha che." - va. 537 AvA sUkSma bodhabharita vacanAmRto zrI mukhethI pravAharUpe nIkaLyAM che. jemAM mArganI zarUAtathI aMtaHparvatanI saMlanA garbhita che, te vaDe ApaNane DhaMDhoLe che, jIvane krame krame svarUpa zreNIe caDhavA prathama mAna ane matAgai ADA thaMbharUpa che, ane asatsaMganI vAsanAe janma pAmeluM evuM nijecchApaNuM, svachaMda e mahAmoTo doSa che, je anAdinI ghara karIne rahelI mithyAdharmanI vAsanA, temaja mAyika sukhanI vAMcchA tene TALe che. mokSamArga ArAdhanAmAM avarodha karanArA kadAgraha, matamatAMtara, vizvAsaghAta ane asatavacanano tiraskAra karI hRdayanA pAtrane nirmaLa sasaMskArathI vAsita banAve che, "he prabhunA padamAM taravAnA traNa upAya darzAvyA, temAM nijadoSa jovAno daDha lakSa, mohanIya karmano kSaya thatAM sudhI apramattapaNe rAkhavo, eka e sugama upAya prarUpyo che. huM pAmI gayo chuM, huM ThIka samajuM chuM, have mArAmAM guNa pragaTyo e mAnyatA jIvane patita bhAva pamADe che. ApaNe viSe koI guNa pragaTyo hoya, ane te mATe jo koI mANasa ApaNI stuti kare, ane jo tethI ApaNo AtmA ahaMkAra lAve to te pAcho haThe. potAnA AtmAne niMde nahIM, atyaMtara doSa vicAre nahIM, to jIva laukikabhAvamAM cAlyo jAya paNa jo potAnA doSa jue, potAnA AtmAne niMda, ahaMbhAva rahitapaNuM vicAre, to sapuruSanA AzrayathI AtmalakSa thAya." - u. chAyA. pAna naM. 700 A eka lAlabattI jevuM che. "potAnuM kSayopazama baLa ochuM jANIne ahaMmamatAdino parAbhava thavAne nitya potAnuM nyUnapaNuM dekhavuM." - va. 65ra Y0

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AtmaniSTha dhruva tAro pU. zrI aMbAlAlabhAI "sajIvanamUrti prApta thaye ja sat prApta thAya che, sat samajAya che, satuno mArga maLe che, satu para lakSa Ave che. sajIvanamUrtinA lakSa vagara je kaMI paNa karavAmAM Ave che te jIvane baMdhana che; A amAruM hRdaya che." - va. 198. A paramAtmA potAnuM aMtaraMga hRdaya khulluM kare che. kevI karuNA ! pUjya aMbAlAlabhAI pUrve kRpALudevanI sAthe RNa bAMdhIne AvyA che jethI temane mahatuM mahatu punya yoga, sajIvanamUrtinA caraNa samIpano nivAsa maLyo che. A pUrNa punyodaya dInabaMdhunI kRpAthI tenI sAthe ApaNane paNa aMze maLyo. AvA uccagAmI mumukSu pragaTa karI ApaNane cothA kALanA bhagavAna, cothA kALanA muni, cothA ArAnA mumukSu dekhADyA, cothA kALanI jinavANI pratyakSa karI, e AzcaryakArI dena che. pUjya yazovijayajI mahArAja "acarIjavALe acaraja kIdhuM, bhakta sevaka kAraja sidhyuM." A eno divya saMdeza - amUlya vacanAmRtono parama AdhAra ApI kRpALudeve zrI aMbAlAlabhAI para ane ApaNA upara karUNAno dhodha varasAvyo che. atUTa amRtadhArArUpe mana mUkIne bodha vRSTie varasyA che. anAdinA moTA roga ethI khasyA che. sujANa dhavaMtarI vaida ane gaMbhIra dardI jevI vAta banI gaI che. samyagu darzanathI laI TheTha pUrNa dazA sudhI pahoMcADI agama - gharanI jhAMkhI karAvI devA tatpara thayA dekhAya che. e madhura ane nirmaLa vANI ApaNA aMtaramAM prasaro ane saunA kalyANarUpa thAo. OM sagurU dayALa sarvasya Aptasya dayArda hRdayaMsti artha :- sarvanuM hita icchanAra ane dayAthI pIgaLeluM haiyuM che jenuM; ane eka sarakhI rIte jagatamAM saMpUrNatva yaza phelAyelo che jeno, te koNa ? mArA zrI sadagurU - rAjacaMdrajI evA nAme che. he gurU ! be hAtha joDI huM mo majAvaMta Apane namaskAra karuM chuM. "nirAdhAra kema mUkI, zyAma mane nirAdhAra kema mUkI, janmAro kema jAzI." Ama cheka nirAdhAra mUkavAthI A pAmaranA divasa kema jaze ? sahaja paNa amRta tulya prasAdI maLavAnI icchA rAkhyA karUM chuM. - li. aMbAlAlanA punaH punaH namaskAra javAba va. 515. "jema AtmabaLa apramAdI thAya tema satsaMga, satvAMcanAno prasaMga nitya pratye karavA yogya che." uparanA patramAM pUjya aMbAlAlabhAInI prabhunA caraNa sahavAsa pratinI prabaLa jhaMkhanA jotAM hRdaya DhIluM kare che.

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AtmaniSTha dhruva tAro pU. zrI aMbAlAlabhAI pUjya zrI kIlAbhAIno paricaya | vi. saMvata 1949 pU. zrI kIlAbhAI jaNAve che ke saMvata 1948mAM amo ANaMda sTezana upara pa.kR.devane levA gayA hatA. TreIna AvI ke turata kRpALudeva DabbAmAMthI UtarI peTI vigerenI kAMIpaNa levAnI bhalAmaNa karyA vagara sApa jema kAMcaLI choDI cAlyo jAya tema cAlatA thayA. amo badhAe daMDavatu namaskAra karyA. kRpALudeve sAmuM paNa joyuM nahIM. tethI temanI nirAgI dazA viSe bahu camatkAra lAgyo, tyArathI huM saddagurU tarIke kRpALudevane mAnavA lAgyo. ekavakhata kRpALudeve muMbaIthI patra lakhyo ke ANaMda sTezane eka be mumukSuone AvavAmAM AjJAno atikrama nathI. te vakhatamAM paryuSaNa besanArA hatA, jethI kULarUDhIthI paryuSaNamAM bahAra javAmAM keTalAka mumukSuo saMkocAvA lAgyA. pUjaya aMbAlAlabhAInA kahevAthI huM tathA karasanadAsa banne jaNA ANaMda gayA. tyAM kRpALudevano hastalikhita eka kAgaLa popaTalAle mane Apyo, temAM jaNAveluM hatuM ke tamAre vaDodarA AvavuM hoya to jhaverI mANekalAlane tyAM AvavuM. huM ekalo vaDodarA gayo. tyAM zrI kRpALudeva banArasIdAsanA savaiyAnI dhUna lagAvI rahelA hatA. tyAM DuMgarazIbhAI, zrI sobhAgabhAI tathA khImajIbhAI sAthe hatA. eka vakhata zahera bahAra pharavA padhAryA hatA, sAthe DuMgarazIbhAI, sobhAgabhAI tathA huM sAthe hatA. DuMgarazIbhAI bolyA ke 'sAhebajI ! AkhA jagatamAM aMdhakAra vyApi rahyo che, temAM amArA TuMDhiyAmAM to bahu aMdhakAra vyApyo che. Apa dharmano udyota kyAre karazo ?' te sAMbhaLIne kRpALudeva hasamukhe bolyA ke 'DuMgarazIbhAI ! tamo sthAnakavAsI kULamAM janmyA tethI tenI tamone vadhAre dayA Ave che paNa vakhata Avye sthAnakavAsInuM to zuM AkhA jagatanuM kalyANa thaze." eka vakhata sAMje zahera bahAra kRpALudeva eka kUvAnA thALA para beThelA hatA. pUjya zrI sobhAgabhAI laghuzaMkA karavA eka vADa tarapha jatA hatA. kRpALudeve temane rokyA ne kahyuM ke e tarapha sApa paDelo che tethI bIjI tarapha jAva. tethI Azcarya pAmI huM tyAM jovA gayo, tyAM dUra vADane othe sApa paDelo joyo, AthI mArA manamAM kRpALudevane adbhuta jJAna che ema bhAsyuM. - eka vakhata gAyakavADa sarakAranuM jhaverAta dekhADavA zeTha phakIrabhAI AvyA hatA, temAM eka nava lAkhano hIro paNa hato. te kRpALudevane batAvyo. kRpALudeva bolyA ke aciMtya jenuM mahAbhya che evA AtmAnuM jIvane mahAbhya ke camatkAra kaMI bhAsatuM nathI ane AvA cokhkhA patharAnuM mahAbhya Ave che. AvuM sAMbhaLI mane lAgyuM ke A purUSa bahu nispRha jaNAya che. meM DhuMDhiyAkULanA Agraha viSe prazno pUchavA nakkI karelA hatA tyAre savAranA ATha-nava vAge je upadeza cAlato hato temAM tenA khulAsA mArA pUchyA vagara karI nAkhyA. eka vakhata kRpALudeve mane pUchyuM ke tamo zuM samajIne ahIM AvyA cho ? meM javAba dIdho ke mArA kalyANa arthe Avyo chuM tyAre kRpALudeva bolyA ke amArAthI tamAruM kalyANa thaze enI zI khAtrI ? meM javAba Apyo ke ApanA darzana temaja vacanAmRtothI khAtrI thaI che ke ApathI ja mAruM kalyANa thaze. kRpALudeva - tamane amArA pratye 42

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AtmaniSTha dhuva tAro pU. zrI aMbAlAlabhAI vizvAsa Avaze ? amo kahIye tema karazo ? meM javAba dIdho ke hA jI. kRpALu kahe ke "ame tamane sanyAsIno veSa paherAvazuM to paherazo ?" meM kahyuM hA jI sAheba. kRpALudeva - 'tamane te gamaze?" tyAre meM kahyuM "mArA kalyANa mATe Apa je batAvo te yogya ja haze." kRpALudeva - "anaMtakALa thayA jIve nakAmA janmo khoyA che mATe A bhava tame amane soMpI do." meM kahyuM ke "A deha Apane soMpyo che.' bIje divase kRpALudeva muMbaI padhAryA hatA. sTezana upara daMDavat namaskAra karyA paNa bIlakula sAmuM joyuM na hatuM. tIvra vairAgyavAna mukhamudrA rahetI hatI. tyAM eka DabbAmAM moTA adhikArIo ane strIo sekaMDa klAsamAM beThelA hatA. meM bAraNuM ughADavA mAMDyuM to teo na besavA devA takarAra karavA lAgyA eTalAmAM kRpALudeva tyAM padhAryA ne temanI sAmuM joI bolyA ke "kAraNa zuM?' eTalo eka zabda bolatAM ja teo cUpa thaI gayA ane kRpALudeva te DabbAmAM padhAryA. mane lAgyuM ke aho ! prabhunA yogabaLano pratApa kevo che? tyArabAda kRpALudeva muMbaI padhAryA. mane kRpALudevanA virahathI AMkhamAM AMsu AvavA lAgyA. sarva dizAo zUnya jevI lAgavA mAMDI. jyAM jouM tyAM, je oraDImAM kRpALudeva birAjayA hatA te oraDI ane kRpALudeva ja dekhAya. pachI te vastu dekhAtI ema mane pAMca divasa sudhI rahyuM hatuM. tyArapachI te - ochuM dekhAtuM ema karatAM paMdara divase te dekhAvuM baMdha thaI gayuM hatuM. A prakAranA Azcaryane laIne mArA aMtaHkaraNamAM koI ora ja chApa paDI gaI ke A koI daivI purUSa che. bIjo samAgama saMvata 1951mAM kRpALudeva uMdela padhAryA hatA tyAre thayo hato. eka vakhata bhAgoLe beThA hatA, sAthe pacAsa mumukSubhAIo hatA tathA bAjumAM eka gAMDo mANasa beTho hato te potAnA hAtha-paganI ceSTA karato hato. te vakhate upadezadhArAno amRta varasAda varasato hato. pelA gAMDA mANasanI ceSTAthI keTalAkane hasavuM AvyuM. te joI kRpALudeve teone Thapako Apyo ke "enAmAM vadhAre mIThuM paDyuM che ne tamArAmAM thoDuM mIThuM paDyuM che paNa kaMI tamo sAva cokhkhA cho ema mAnavAnuM nathI.' A rIte e gAMDo mANasa saMkalpa vikalpa bahAra kADhe che ne tamo tene dabAvI rAkho cho paNa aMdarathI gAMDApaNuM baMnene sarakhuM che. - kRpALudeve eka vakhata evo bodha karyo hato ke jIva jyAre jJAnI pAse AvI kalyANanI icchA batAve che tyAre jJAnI kahe che ke - "viSayone rokavA" tethI jIva gabharAya che ne mArAthI te nahIM bane ema kahI tyAMthI cAlyA jAya che. vaLI aneka janmonuM cakkara pharI, pAcho jJAnI pAse koI vakhata AvI caDhe tyAre paNa kalyANa mATe jJAnI kahe che ke viSaya kaSAyane choDavA ane pote karato hoya tenAthI bIjuM sAdhana karavA jJAnI AjJA kare to jIva kahe ke huM karuM chuM te ThIka che, bIjuM mArAthI nahIM bane, ema pharI pharI pAcho cAlyo jAya che. Ama jIva anAdikALathI rakhaDyo che. vaLI tyAM bIDI nahIM pIvA mATe ghaNo Thapako detA hatA. A jIva sADAtraNa maNanuM A no-karma eTale zarIra pAmyo che ne vaLI te uparAMta te tejovezyAno dhumADo kADhe che e thoDuM zaramAvA jevuM che? eka pAInI cAra bIDI te AtmAne AkarSe che. eka pAInA cAra AtmA thayA. Ama baLavAna upadeza karyo hato. huM paNa roja pacAsa bIDI pIto hato tyArathI choDI dIdhI te pharIthI pIvAnI icchA thaI na hatI. eka vakhata ratanacaMda nAmano eka zuSka adhyAtmI vANiyo tyAM Avyo hato. kRpALudeva ratanacaMda 43

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AtmaniSTha dhuva tAro pU. zrI aMbAlAlabhAI sAmuM joI tenI prakRti svabhAvane joI khAnagImAM zrI aMbAlAlabhAIne kahyuM ke Ane lADu khavaDAvajo . AjJAthI aMbAlAlabhAIe tene lADu jamADyA hatA. te mANasane lADu jamavA maLe to khuza raheto. Ama thavAthI kRpALudevanA temaja temanA jJAnanA ghaNA ja guNagrAma karavA lAgyo. kRpALudeva uMdelamAM akhaMDa rAtri divasa navI navI gAthAonI dhUna lagAvyA karatA hatA. koI mumukSu kaMI vastu letAM detAM A mArI vastu che ema bolI jAya to tene upayoga ApatA hatA, A jaDa padArtha tamAro kevI rIte ? ema prasaMge prasaMge jaDa-caitanyanA judApaNAno bodha ApI vANI bolatA "A mArI che" ema bolavuM aTakAvIne vastu svarUpa tarapha vALatA hatA. eka vakhata DuMgarazIbhAI bolyA, 'mArAM pagarakhAM lAvo,' tyAre kRpALudeve kahyuM ke pharIthI bolo, A pagarakhAM te tamArAM che ke cAmaDAMnAM che ? tevI rIte dareka kArya kAryo bhUla thatAM Atma jAgRti karAvatA. tyAM paMDito AvatA hatA, teo prazna pUchatA, kRpALudevanA khulAsAthI teo saMtoSa pAmI ghera jatA. eka vakhata eka jyotiSazAstrI kRpALu pAse Avyo ane kahevA lAgyo ke mane jyotiSa zAstro sAcA nathI lAgatA, bAkI kAzI dezamAM jyotiSano graMtha bhRgu saMhitAnuM nAma kRpALue ApyuM hatuM te graMtha barAbara sAco che te jovAthI tamane khAtrI thaze, pachI kRpALudeve jayotiSanA dAkhalA ApI samajAvyuM ke Ama hoya to putra janmyo che ema mAluma paDe, tethI te jayotiSazAstrI ghaNo ja AnaMda pAmI kRpALune namaskAra karI tyAMthI cAlyo gayo hato. eka vakhata DuMgarazIbhAI bolyA ke jhaverI mANekalAla kyAre mAraga pAmaze ? tathA bharUcavALA anupacaMdabhAI kyAre mAraga pAmaze ? tyAre kRpALudeva bolyA ke "mANekalAlabhAIne traNa varasanI vAra che ane anupacaMdabhAIne haju vAra che." zrAvaNa vadI amAsanI rAtre agiyAra vAge mumukSubhAI zrI kIlAbhAIne zrI kRpALudeva pAsethI samyatva prApta thayuM hatuM. zrI rAjachAyA'vALA choTAbhAInA suputra maNIlAla urphe bApujI zeThano paricaya OM namaH zrI paramakRpALu parama dayALu prabhu zrI rAjacaMdradevane namaskAra ho ! saM. 1949nI sAlamAM zrI paramakRpALudeva kaMsArI padhArelA tyAre mane pUjya kAkA suMdarabhAIe kahyuM ke ApaNA ghare bhagavAna padhAravAnA che te jANI citta ati ullAsamAM AvyuM ke bhagavAna kevA haze? te jovAnI icchA rahyA kare. jyAre prabhu mAMDavInI poLanA makAne padhAryA tyAre temanI samIpamAM temanA sAmuM ne sAmuM daSTi karI jovAnuM mana rahyA kare, bIjuM kAMI paNa samajato na hato, kAraNa 8 varasanI uMmara, paNa koI saMskAranA baLe temanI pAsethI - kRpALudevanI pAsethI khasavuM gamatuM nahIM. aMtaramAM koI apUrvabhAva rahyA kare, ema svAbhAvika thatuM. saMvata 1951mAM bena jIjIbAno lagna prasaMga hato tyAM paNa pU. aMbAlAlabhAI tathA nagInabhAI sAthe javuM thayuM hatuM. te bALavayamAM heje bIjAono saMga ke bolavuM cAlavuM ochuM gamatuM. samajyA vinA paNa odhe paramakRpALunuM smaraNa cittamAM rahetuM. je ghaNA 44

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AtmaniSTha dhruva tAro pU. zrI aMbAlAlabhAI prayatna paNa saMsAra bhUlAya nahIM te samayamAM sTeje kAMI sAMbharatuM nahIM ane citta vairAgyavALuM rahetuM. vavANIye paramakRpALudeva savAramAM bahAra dizAe jatA tyAM sAthe badhA bhAIo jatA. AgaLa paramakRpALudeva ane pAchaLa badhA bhAIo cAle, te vakhate mane pUjaya aMbAlAlabhAIe sUcana karyuM ke tuM vakhatovakhata kaheto ke mokSa Apo to have paramakRpALudeva pAse mAMga tyAre meM AgaLa cAlI paramakRpALu devanuM dhotiyuM pakaDIne jaNAvyuM ke mane mokSa Apo tyAre paramakRpALudeve moDhuM malakAvI hAtha halAvyo. pachI aMbAlAlabhAI kahe, have tuM dhotiyuM choDI de eTale meM choDI dIdhuM. te pachI uMdelamAM samAgama thayo ane tyArapachI saMvata 1954mAM kAviThA, vaso ane kheDAmAM eka mahino lagabhaga samAgama rahyo ane tyAM prabhunI sAmuM ne sAmuM joyA karavAnuM citta rahe. te vakhate muni zrI laghurAja svAmI jaNAvatA ke bApu to kRpALudevanI sAmuM moralInI mAphaka joyA kare che. paramakRpALudevano yoga moTA cakravartI rAjA karatAM paNa ghaNo vadhI jAya tevo yogabaLa tenI mudrAmAM ane vANImAM hato. bALapaNamAM te prabhunA yogabaLe zuM kAma karyuM. eka vakhata vasomAM sAMjanA vakhate pUjya zrI DuMgarazIbhAI sAthe bahAra pharavA jatA te vakhate pUjya aMbAlAlabhAI vigere ghaNA bhAIo temanI pAchaLa jatA. pachI paramakRpALu hAthathI izAro kare je koIe pAchaLa AvavuM nahIM eTale koIpaNa bhAI pAchaLa jatA nahIM. aMbAlAlabhAI kahe tuM bahu nAnI uMmarano eTale tAre javAmAM vAMdho nahIM. paramakRpALudeva kyAM jAya che ? ane kyAM bese che ? te tuM pAchaLa jaIne joI Ava, eTale aMbAlAlabhAInA kahevAthI huM gayo. paramakRpALudeva AgaLa ane huM pAchaLa pAchaLa teozrI na dekhe tema jauM. paramakRpALudeva eka vAvanI upara teozrI tathA DuMgarazIbhAI beThA ane huM tyAM gayo. mane jotAMnI sAthe paramakRpALudeve eTaluM ja kahyuM. ahIM kema Avyo? ATaluM kahetAMnI sAthe huM poke poke raDavA maMDI paDyo ane roto roto aMbAlAlabhAI pAse gayo. aMbAlAlabhAIe pUchyuM ke kema ATaluM badhuM rove che ? paNa huM kAMI javAba daI zakyo nahIM. pachI thoDIvAre kahyuM je prabhue mane kahyuM ke ahIM kema Avyo ? eTale mane rovuM AvI gayuM, pachI aMbAlAlabhAIne paNa bahu pastAvo thayo, ke temanI AjJA nahIM chatAM tane mokalyo e khoTuM thayuM. bIje divase savAre kRpALu pAse gayo tyAre mane kahyuM ke kAle tane kahyuM tethI bahu rovuM AvI gayuM ? have Avaje. jenA eka vacanamAM eTaluM badhuM yogabaLa hatuM te atyAre yAda Ave che. - kaThora vi. saM. 1951 pUjya prabhuzrIjInI vAraMvAra satsaMganI mAgaNI - vinaMtIthI - kaThora 2 - 3 divasa padhArI sthiratA karI hatI ane tyAM pUjya aMbAlAlabhAIne AvavA AjJA karI hatI tethI "ghaNuM karIne zrI aMbAlAla te vakhatamAM kaThora AvI zake te mATe temane jaNAvIza... amAre mATe bIjI vizeSa tajavIja karavAnuM paNa kAraNa nathI.... ane kadApi vAhananuM ke kaMI kAraNa haze to zrI aMbAlAla te viSe tajavIja karI zakaze." - va. 553 pa

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AtmaniSTha dhruva tAro YG ww O pU.zrI aMbAlAlabhAI zrI vavANiyA jIjIbahenanA lagna prasaMge pU. aMbAlAlabhAI tathA pU. sobhAgyabhAi jAya che tyAre zrI 52makRpALudeva DelImAM UbhA baMne mahAnubhAvone AvakArI rahyA che. haDamatAlAmAM zrI 52makRpALudevanI sevAmAM rAtanA samaye zrI maNIlAla boTAvALA tathA pU. aMbAlAlabhAi pagacaMpI ka2I 2hyAA che.

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AtmaniSTha dhruva tAro pU. zrI aMbAlAlabhAI vavANiyA paramakRpALu vacanAmRta 540mAM jIjIbenanA lagna prasaMge javA viSe lakhe che. saMvata 1951 mahA suda 8 pachI prabhujI zrI vavANiyA padhAre che. prabhue mumukSuo para niSkAma vAtsalya dharIne AmaMtraNa ApyuM che. mumukSuo to sAcAM sagAM che. tethI paramAtmAnA darzana - satsaMga lAbhanI AkAMkSA sarvene hoya to Avo lAbha koNa jato kare ? jANe prabhunI pavitra sAnidhyatAno apUrva avasara Avyo jANI keTalAka mumukSuo harSabhera vavANiyA gayA che. pUjaya sobhAgabhAI, pUjaya aMbAlAlabhAI, pUjya bApujI zeTha, pUjya chaganakAkA, manasukha devazI, kezavalAlabhAI vigere hatA. te bena jIjIbAnA vivAhamAM teDAvavAthI gayA hatA. ghera pahoMcyA te veLA sAhebajI beThA hatA, tyAMthI UbhA thaI hAtha meLavIne aMdara laI gayA. sAhebajI TreInanA TAIme rAha joI DelImAM UbhA hatA. kRpALudevane chaganakAkA sAmasAme bAtha bhIDIne maLyA pachI aMbAlAlabhAI vigeree sASTAMga namaskAra karyA pachI meM pUchyuM - ke - "kevaLajJAna che ema kahIe to kema ?" tyAre kRpAnAthe kahyuM ke - "kevaLajJAna nathI, mana:paryava nathI, avadhijJAna A kALamAM nathI. chatAM te viSe vAta karavI te kema ? eTale e vAta na karavI. vaLI te loka virUddha che." ema javAba dIdho. paramakRpALudevane khaMbhAtanA bhAIo pU. zrI aMbAlAlabhAI vigere namaskAra karatA hatA te joIne A jIvane samajAyuM ke zrI sadgurU bhagavAnane mAre A rIte namaskAra karavAnuM sUjhayuM. vivAhamAM jAnanA mANasone - ravajI adA, zrI manasukhabhAI vigere kuTuMbIo jamavAnA samaye jamADe ne paramakRpALu to te viSemAM kAMI pirasatAM dUdhapAkanuM kamaMDaLa DhoLAI jAya to paNa kAMI bolatA nahIM. navalacaMdabhAI sAthe ke koI mumukSu sAthe paramArtha vAta karatA ane potAne khabara paDe ke A mANasa Avaze te saMsAranI vAta karaze to pote soDa tANIne sUI jAya. e temanA gayA pachI koI mumukSu dharamanI vAta karavA Ave te veLA toDa kADhI nAMkhe te viSe najare jovAmAM AvatuM. A amohasvarUpa hRdaya tyAgInI dazA che. va.mAM pU. sobhAgabhAIne lakhe che ke - "evAM kAryomAM mAruM citta apravezaka hovAthI. tema tevAM kAryanuM mAhAbhya kaMI che nahIM, ema dhyAna karyuM hovAthI mAruM agAuthI AvavuM kaMI tevuM upayogI nathI." - va. 540 zrI haDamatiyA - rANapura vi. saM. 1951 saM. 1951nA paryuSaNa - saMvatsarI patramAM kRpALudeva zrI aMbAlAlabhAIne kSamApanA sAthe nivRtti kSetra viSe zrI vavANiyAthI lakhe che. "atrethI ghaNuM karI ravivAre nivartavAnuM thaze ema lAge che. morabI suda 15 sudhI sthiti thavA saMbhava che. tyAra pachI koI nivRttikSetre paMdara divasanI lagabhaga sthiti thAya to karavA viSe cittanI sahaja vRtti rahe che. koI nivRtti kSetra lakSamAM hoya to lakhazo." - va. 635

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AtmaniSTha dhuva tAro pU. zrI aMbAlAlabhAI prabhunI AjJA mujaba rANapura (haDamatiyA)mAM mahAdevanI dharmazALAmAM oraDI rAkhI lIdhI. rasoI - sAmAna vigere badhI vyavasthA sevA mATe karI lIdhI. va. 638mAM lakhyA mujaba bhAdaravA vada 12nA divase prabhu pUjaya sobhAgabhAInI sAthe haDamatiyA padhAryA, te viSe zrI dhArazIbhAIne jaNAvyuM che ke - "be patra maLyAM hatAM. gaI kAle atre eTale rANapuranI samIpanA gAmamAM AvavuM thayuM che." haDamatAlAmAM zrI maNIlAla rAyacaMda paricayamAM prathamavAra ja AvyA hatA. temanA mananA samAdhAna mATe kRpALudeva bodha ApyA bAda gAma bahAra javAne cAlyA. prabhue kaMI paNa haju vAparyuM na hatuM, tethI pUjaya aMbAlAlabhAIe dUdhano pyAlo dharI pIvA mATe vinaMtI karI, tyAre kRpALudeve pIvAno vakhata nathI, jamavAno samaya thavA Avyo che ane A maNIlAle boTAdathI ravAnA thatAM daDha saMkalpa karyo che ke - mArA manano khulAso mArA vagara kahyuM karI Ape to ja anAja khape, nahIM to e jamavA bese nahIM, tyAM sudhI ApaNAthI kevI rIte besI zakAya ? AtmajJAna (samakita) prApta thavAnI jene taiyArI hoya - samakitanI tAlAvelI lAgI hoya to tenI pUrvabhUmikA kevI hoya - hRdayabhUmi kevI svaccha hoya - ukhara bhUmimAM bIja kadI na Uge, phaLa na Ape - tema satparUSa ApaNA cittane sApha karavA mATe va.mAM jaNAve che ke - "mumukSu jIvane eTale vicAravAna jIvane A saMsArane viSe ajJAna sivAya bIjo koI bhaya hoya nahIM. .. vicAravAnanA cittamAM saMsAra kArAgRha che, samasta loka duHkhe karI Arta che, bhayAkuLa che, rAgadveSanA prApta phaLathI baLato che, evo vicAra nizcayarUpa ja varte che." - va. 537 - "satsamAgama ane sazAstranA lAbhane icchatA evA mumukSuone AraMbha, parigraha ane rasa svAdAdi pratibaMdha saMkSepa karavA yogya che, ema zrI jinAdi mahApuruSoe kahyuM che." nivRtti kSetre rokAvA saMbaMdhI vicAra vadhAre spaSTatAthI jaNAvavAnuM banaze to karIza." zrI haDamatiyA pAMca divasa rahI prabhu rANapura padhAryA che te va. 639mAMthI khAtrI thAya evuM che. rANapurathI prabhue dharmaja jatAM kahyuM ke - sobhAgabhAI, gosaLIyA tathA huM badhA dharmaja jaIne rahevuM thaze, tyArabAda suda chaThTha badhA bhAIo dharmaja aMbArAmane tyAM AvyA ane aMbArAma pote potAne prabhu tarIke mAnatA, potAne jJAna prApti che tema mAnatA, tethI kRpALudeve temane karUNA karIne agAdha jJAnano bodha karyo, pachI aMbArAma kRpALudevane prabhu mAnatA. - rANapurathI peTalAda thaI 1951nA Aso mAsamAM kRpALudeva dharmaja padhAryA hatA. agAu pUjaya aMbAlAlabhAIne dharmanA mahaMta zrI kabIrapaMthI aMbArAmajI pAse mokalyA hatA. temane pUrvabhavanI oLakhANa ApI jAgRta thavA sUcavyuM hatuM ane jJAnamAM jANI kahevarAvyuM hatuM ke... "izvarecchA haze to Apane thoDA vakhatamAM temano samAgama thaze." te mujaba te mahaMtane AsomAM dharmajanA AzramamAM maLavA gayA hatA. sAthe pUjya aMbAlAlabhAI, pUjya sobhAgabhAI tathA zrI kIlAbhAI vigere hatA. samAgamathI kRpALudeva pratye temane thoDI ghaNI mAhAbhyapaNAnI pratIti AvI hatI tevA udgAra temanA mukhamAMthI nIkaLyA paNa hatA.

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AtmaniSTha dhruva tAro pU.zrI aMbAlAlabhAI kRpALudeva tyAM thoDA kalAka rahyA hatA. tenA AtmalAbha arthe zrI kRpALudeve potAno khesa Apyo hato, ema pUjya aMbAlAlabhAIe pachIthI vAta karI hatI. caraNanyAsa vaDe pRthvIne pAvana karatAM dharmajathI kRpALudeva vIrasada padhAryA hatA. sAMjanA badhA vIrasadanI dharmazALAmAM rahyA hatA. tyAMthI bIjA divase khaMbhAtathI traNa gAu dUra udela gAme padhAryA hatA. prabhunI sAthe jhaverI mANekalAla ghelAbhAI paNa hatA. tyAM pUjya aMbAlAlabhAI rasoI banAvatA. uMdela ATha divasa rahyA hatA. rAtanAM tyAM jJAna-darzanAdi viSe ghaNoja bodha karyo hato. bIje divase vairAgyano athAga bodha cAlyo hato. bIDInuM je vyasana tyAgavA saMbaMdhI josabhera baLa ApyuM hatuM. bIDI jevA tuccha vyasanane mATe carcA cAlI hatI. jethI ghaNA mumukSuoe tenI prabhu samakSa pratijJA karI hatI. bIjA niyamo paNa tyAM jIvadayAnA grahaNa karyA hatA. pUjya aMbAlAlabhAInA praznanA uttaramAM samajAvyuM ke "krame jema vaya vadhe che, tema tema indriyabaLa vadhe che, tema te baLane vikAranA hetu evAM nimitto maLe che; ane pUrva bhavanA tevA vikAranA saMskAra rahyA che, tethI te nimittAdi yoga pAmI vizeSa pariNAma pAme che. (dA.ta. bIja jema vRkSAkAre pariName che tema) pUrvanA bIjabhUta saMskAro krame karI vizeSAkAre pariName che.'' - - va. 632 "anAdithI viparIta abhyAsa che, tethI vairAgya upazamAdi bhAvonI pariNati ekadama na thaI zake - - - tathApi niraMtara te bhAvo pratye lakSa rAkhye avazya siddhi thAya che. - - - sau kAryanI prathama bhUmikA vikaTa hoya che, to anaMtakALathI anabhyasta evI mumukSutA mATe tema hoya emAM kaMI Azcarya nathI." - va. 644 tyAMthI Aso suda 10nA nIkaLI zrI muMbaI padhAryA che. va. 640mAM pUjya sobhAgabhAIne vidita kare che. - "Aje savAre atre kuzaLatAthI AvavuM thayuM che.' saM. 1952 va. 685 muMbaIthI paramakRpALudeva aMbAlAlabhAIne zrI kuMvarajIbhAI tathA zrI sukhalAlabhAIne samyag darzanAdi lakSaNAdivALA patro - upadeza vacano lakhI mokalavA lakhe che. te patro vicAravAthI vRtti utkarSa pAme, sadvicAranuM baLa vardhamAna thAya, kSayopazamanI vizeSa zuddhi thaI zakavA yogya - parama lAbha samAyA che. A lAbha vacanAmRtathI ApaNe levA yogya che. bhaviSyamAM mumukSuone "avalaMbanarUpa" che. ema zrImukhe prakAzyuM hatuM. va. 697 - mAM aMbAlAlabhAIne muMbaIthI prArabdha pratibaMdhanuM vedana jaNAvI patranI pahoMca paNa lakhavAnuM karyuM nathI, - tethI e kRpALunuM hRdaya dayAdre thayuM che. 49

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AtmaniSTha dhruva tAro 50 apragaTa patra pU.zrI aMbAlAlabhAI sujJa bhAI aMbAlAla "atrethI zrAvaNa vada 5 nI rAtrInA melamAM vidAya thavA icchuM chuM. kayA gAmamAM rahevuM e nahIM sUjhavAthI ANaMda sTezane hAla to utaravAnuM dhAruM chuM. tyAM tamane maLyA pachI sthaLa saMbaMdhI vigata tamArA mukhethI jANI laI yogya karIzuM. zrI sobhAgabhAI amArA samAgamane icche che, jethI teone ANaMda sTezane utaravA mATe Aje lakhuM chuM ane teo paNa banatA sudhI zrAvaNa vada 5 nI prabhAte morabIthI ravAnA thaI zake to tema kare evI sUcanA karUM chuM. amAruM svarUpa jene jANavAmAM che te bhAIo A vAta jANe to kAMI bAdha nathI paNa te jANeluM teoe sau saue potAnA hRdayamAM hAla to rAkhavuM yogya che. kAraNa ke hari icchA tevI che.'' kAviThA saM. 1952 saM. 1952mAM kRpALudeva peTalAda sTezane UtaryA. tyAM aMbAlAlabhAI levA AvelA. prabhue kahyuM - kAviThA javAnuM che eTale zrAvaNa vada 1 nA sAMje 4 vAge kRpALudeva kAviThA padhAryA hatA. sAthe pUjya zrI sobhAgabhAI tathA pUjya zrI DuMgarabhAI, jhavera zeThanA ghera padhArelA, te vakhate daza divasanI sthiratA thayela ane kRpALudeva mATe saMyamI jIvana - jevA AhArane mATe rasoI pUjya aMbAlAlabhAI karatA ane jhavera bApAnA ghara AgaLa meDIe - be vAra jamavA padhAratA. ekavAra bAsudInuM jamaNa kareluM. badhA mumukSubhAIoe jamI lIdhuM paNa - bapora sudhI aMbAlAlabhAI jamyA nahIM. jhavera zeThe pachIthI prabhune kahyuM ke aMbAlAlabhAIne jamavA AjJA Apo, te vinA nahIM jame. tyAre prabhue pUchyuM konA kahevAthI bAsudI banAvI hatI ? aMbAlAle bAsudI nahIM khAvI. AvI kaDaka AjJA ApI te pALI hatI. yogavAsiSTa, suMdara vilAsa vigere vairAgya poSaka graMtho tyAM vAMcavAnI AjJA karI hatI. kAviThe savAra - bapora - sAMja bodha dhArA vahetI. zrI AnaMdaghanajI kRta zrI zAMtinAtha prabhunuM stavana - "zAMti jina eka muja vinatI'' e stavana vakhato vakhata kahevarAvatA ane tyAga - vairAgyanI vizeSa vyAkhyA cAlatI. kaMdamULano sarvathA tyAga, pAMca tithi lIlotarI tyAga vi. paccakhANa ghaNA mumukSue karyA hatAM. kRpALudeva vanamAM gAma bahAra mahuDInA kUvA tarapha padhAratA. eka vakhata baporanA 2 vAge zrI paramakRpALudeva aMbAlAlabhAIne laI mahuDInA kUvA AgaLa beThA hatA, ane aMbAlAlabhAIne ghaNI ghaNI preraNA - zikhAmaNa ApI hatI ke - badhA mumukSune tAre kahevuM ke A purUSa AnaMdaghanajInI jema game tyAre ociMtA udaya pUrNa thaye vanamAM javA nIkaLI jaze mATe tamAre saghaLAe gRhatyAga karavA taiyAra rahevuM. saMsAranuM koI kAma bAkI na rAkhavuM "jJAnI maLyA tyArathI bheTha bAMdhI taiyAra thaI rahevuM ane AjJA thaye cAlI nIkaLavuM." - va. 336

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AtmaniSTha dhruva tAro ___ kAviThAmAM pU. aMbAlAlabhAI pote rasoI karI zrI 52makRpALudevane jamADI ahobhAva vedI rahyA che. pU.zrI aMbAlAlabhAI khaMbhAtathI 5.pU. prabhuzrIjI zrI pa2makRpALudevanA darzana ka2vA 2ALaja gayA che tyAre pU. zrI aMbAlAlabhAI pAse darzana-vaMdana mATe 2jA maMgAve che. 51

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AtmaniSTha dhruva tAro pU. zrI aMbAlAlabhAI kuMvarajIbhAIne kRpALudeva khaMbhAta patra prasaMga rAkhavA jaNAve che. be-cAra ke ATha divasane AMtare tamAre patrAdi lakhavAno paricaya rAkhavo ane potAnI vRtti jaNAvatA rahevuM. tema savRtti vardhamAna thAya evo lakSa rAkhavo. jema bane tema saMsAra vadhavAnI je pravartanA tene jatI karavI ane savRtti, sadvicAra ane sazAstrane aMgIkAra karavA ane A trAsarUpa saMsAramAM koI padArtha upara vizeSa prIti thavA na devI. sAhebajInI aMbAlAlabhAI snAna vigere sevAno upayoga rAkhatA. DelA para 11 vAgyA sudhI upadeza dhvani cAlato pachI sarve zravaNa karela bodhanI vAtacIta calAvatA. prabhu kasovALI pAsAbaMdhI paheratA. kIramajI raMgano pheMTo paheratA. eka vakhate pUjaya aMbAlAlabhAIne eka vepArIe pUchela ke zrI revAzaMkara jagajIvananI ka. zAhukArI rIte jo amAruM kAma kare to ame tenI AData karIe, te vakhate zrI paramakRpALudeve uttaramAM jaNAvela ke temAM amone zuM pUchavuM, teno uttara to tamAre parabhAro Apavo joIto hato. "sapuruSa anyAya kare nahIM, sapuruSa anyAya karaze to varasAda konA mATe varasaze? vAyu konA mATe vAze ? sUrya konA mATe ugaze?" eka divasa kRpALudeve zrI aMbAlAlabhAIne jaNAvyuM ke - "amone to sarve mumukSubhAIo sAthe besIne jamavAnI icchA che paraMtu amArAthI tema banI zake nahIM. e mArmika hetuo sahita jaNAvyuM hatuM. amane samAnatA ja game, koIthI bhinnabhAva amane nathI. chatAM jJAnIpuruSanI abhinna bhAvanA, jJAnInI gaMbhIratA, alaukika dRSTi jIva na samajI zake eTale sAmAnya manuSyanI jevA ja che ema gaNe. mAhAsya na rahe. vaLI jJAnInuM anukaraNa paNa karI bese. va. 385 - mAM jJAnInuM AtmapaNuM, paritoSapaNuM ane muktapaNuM jIvane jANyAmAM na Ave eTale te prasaMgamAM potAnI jevI dazA thAya tevI jJAnImAM kahyuM. ethI sAmA jIvane AvaraNa Ave evI prabhune anukaMpA varte che." zrI rALaja vi. saM. 1952 kAviThAthI pajusaNano vakhata thavAthI ekAMta arthe prabhu zrAvaNa vada 11nA roja sIMgarAmamAM rALaja padhAryA hatA. pUjya jhavera zeThano DamaNIyo - araja karIne tyAM rAkhyo hato. paryuSaNa tyAM karyA. - va. 701 - pUjya aMbAlAlabhAI rasoI banAvatA, baMgalAnI nIce jamavA padhAratA. utAro kharazedajI zeThanA makAnamAM hato. 19paramAM bIjIvAra padhAryA hatA ane 28 divasanI sthiratA thaI hatI. tyAM zrI ThANAMgasUtra tathA zrI bhagavatIjImAMthI thoDA pATho samajAvatA, tyAM eka vakhata AhAra levAnI mumukSuone AjJA hatI. prabhue samyagadarzananI adbhuta vyAkhyA jaNAvI, te vicAravA mATe darekane judA judA besavA AjJA karatA hatA. kRpALudeva meDA upara vacalA holamAM chatrapalaMga para zayana thayA hatA, ane gAthAonI dhUnanA vAraMvAra udgAro thatA hatA. eka divasa khaMbhAtathI zrI gAMDAbhAI, vigere AvIne meDA pa2

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AtmaniSTha dhruva tAro pU. zrI aMbAlAlabhAI paranA dAdara pAse jaIne UbhA rahyA, te sIDInA pagathiyAmAM pUjaya bhAI zrI aMbAlAlabhAI beThA hatA. amoe darzana javA AjJA mAMgI tyAre pUjya aMbAlAlabhAIe prabhu sanmukhe jaI be hAtha joDI vinayapUrvaka pUchyuM ke - ApazrInA darzanArthe khaMbhAtathI traNa jaNa AvyA che ane atre ApazrI pAse darzane AvavA dhAre che mATe AjJA meLavavA huM ApanI pAse Avyo chuM. tyAre prabhue jaNAvyuM ke bhale AvavA do. pU. aMbAlAlabhAIe holamAMthI bahAra AvI jaNAvyuM ke sAhebajI pAse javAnI AjJA meLavI Avyo chuM, have tamAre javuM hoya to khuzIthI jAo. - paryuSaNamAM bhAdaravA suda pane divase saMvatsarIno upavAsa AjJA vinA keTalAka mumukSue karela. chaThThanA pAraNA samaye savAranA - cA, rAbaDInI icchA rahe. tyAre pUjya sobhAgabhAIe kahyuM ke badhAne upavAsanA pAraNA che. kRpALudeve kahyuM kone pUchIne karyA? kRpALudeve evo ekadhArA akhaMDa bodha karyo ke A jIve je kAMI karyuM che te svacchedathI ne abhimAna sahita karyuM che, ane pUrvAnupUrvanI phuraNA thAya che. e saMbaMdhI je kRpAnAthe bodha karyo te eka dhArA akhaMDa traNa kalAka sudhI dezanA dIdhI jethI upavAsa karyAnuM abhimAna hatuM te gaLI gayuM ne samajAyuM ke A jIve kAMI karyuM nathI. rALaja prabhu sAthe pUjya sobhAgabhAI, pUjaya manasukha devazI tathA kuMvarajIbhAI vi. ghaNA ja mumukSuo AvyA hatA. zrI paramakRpALudevanuM yogamudrAnuM citrapaTa 24 varSanuM naDIyAdavALAe te sthaLe pADyuM hatuM te pUjya aMbAlAlabhAIne ApyuM hatuM. | zrI vaDavA vi. saM. 1952 zrI paramakRpALudeva rALajathI bhAdaravA suda 10nA roja vaDavA padhAryA hatA. makAnanA uparanA oraDAnI bArImAMthI pUjaya aMbAlAlabhAIne kRpALudeve jaNAvyuM ke - A suvarNa bhUmi che. ahIM caMdraprabhu svAmInI sthApanA thaze. khaMbhAtathI te vakhate Azare eka hajAra mANasa Avela hatuM. vaDa nIce bodha cAlato. paramakRpALu para taDako Avato hato tethI pUjaya aMbAlAlabhAIe ADA-UbhA rahI chAMyaDo karyo hato. vaDa nIce jAjama upara birAjyA ane sau kuMDALuvALI beThA te samosaraNa jevI racanA amane AbehUba lAgatI. 'zrI bharatezvara mana hI meM vairAgI' - e sajjAya kahevA AjJA karI ne pachI pote paNa ucca svare josabhera A gAthAo vAraMvAra uccAratA hatA. vairAgya - bhaktino raMga tethI mumukSune lAgato - dhanya te munivarA re, je cAle samabhAve" enuM svapna jo darzana pAme re, tenuM mana na caDhe bIje bhAme re" A sAla - 1952mAM temane traNeka mAsa saLaMga samAgama rahyo. kAviThA-vaDavA-ANaMda pa3

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AtmaniSTha dhruva tAro 54 pU.zrI aMbAlAlabhAI zrI vaDavA tIrthanI sAme Avela vAvanI bAjumAM meDI u52 zrI 52makRpALudeva bi2AjamAna hatA tyAre meDInA dAdara vacce pU. aMbAlAlabhAI sevakapaNuM bajAvavA beThA che. mata zrI vaDavA tIrthakSetranI sAme Avela vAvanI bAjunI meDI u52 zrI paramakRpALudeva birAjamAna hatA tyAre te meDInI bArImAMthI AMgaLI cIMdhI jaNAvyuM hatuM ke 'sAmenI Teka2I che te suvarNabhUmi che, tyAM caMdraprabhunI sthApanA thaze.' juo jJAnIpuruSanA jJAnano jJAnAtizaya.

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AtmaniSTha dhruva tAro pU. zrI aMbAlAlabhAI zrI vaDavA tIrthakSetranI pAchaLa Avela khaMbhAtanA dariyAkinAre zrI paramakRpALudeva pU. aMbAlAlabhAI sAthe pharavA jaI rahyA che tyAre zrI goracaMda viSe jaNAve che ke 'tame tenA pratye abhAva karazo nahi. aMta2mAM amArA pratye temane prema hato.' papa

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AtmaniSTha dhruva tAro pU. zrI aMbAlAlabhAI dareka sthaLe bodha lakhyo, je ApaNane te kALa ane samayanA satsaMganI smRti karAvI anupama sukha Ape che. sAthe naDIyAda tIrthanI Atmasiddhi, tenI cAra prata jIvaMtatAnI nizAnI che. eka mahinAmAM to temaNe bIjI ATha kopI taiyArI karI, keTalI jhaDapathI ! sAhebajInA mukhAraviMdamAMhethI jyAre upadeza dhvani cAlato hato te samaye bhAIzrI aMbAlAlabhAI utAro karatA hatA. tyArabAda sAhebajI pAse baMgalImAM beThakanI gAdI para utArAnA kAgaLo mUkIne cAlyA AvatA. sAhebajI jyAre te sthAne padhAre tyAre te daSTigocara karI letA. te utArAmAM bhUla thaI jAya te sthaLe sAhebajI pote svahasta vaDe sudhAro karatA hatA. je hAlamAM thoDA vakhata para teozrInA mukAme gayela tyAre hAtha utArAnA graMtho jovAmAM AvyA hatA. bhAIzrI aMbAlAlabhAIno evo to tikSNa upayoga vartato hoya ke utAro karavAmAM banatA sudhI kAMIpaNa bhUla thatI na hatI. ANaMda - u. chAyA vi. saM. 1952 vaDavAthI saM. 195ranA Aso mAsamAM kRpALudeva ANaMda padhAryA hatA. tyAM choTAlAla vardhamAna prabhujInA darzane AvyA hatA, tyAre zrI jhaverabApA taraphathI jamaNa hatuM. rAtre 12 vAgatA sudhI bodha cAlyo hato. paramakRpALudeva ANaMda padhAryA tyAre popaTabhAI gulAbacaMda tyAM darzane hAjara hatA. e samayamAM ANaMdamAM marakIno roga cAlu thayo hato. eka mANasane roga lAgu thavAthI te muMbaInI gADIyethI utarela, tene sTezana uparanA mANase kADhI mUkI sTezana paranI dharmazALAnI najIkamAM nAMkhI mukela hato. paramakRpALudeva tyAMthI jatA hatA ane te mANasa najare paDyo, jethI aMbAlAlabhAIne jaNAvyuM ke A mANasane dharmazALAmAM laI jAva ane tenI sAravAra karo, - davA vi. lAvo, tethI aMbAlAlabhAIe DaoNkTarane bolAvI davA sevAbadAsta sArI karI hatI, paraMtu te mANasa bIje divase gujarI gayo hato. A pUjya aMbAlAlabhAInI AjJAdhInatA. e dehane roga thavAno bhaya paNa na lAgyo. je ApaNane vicAramAM mUkI de che. naDIyAda - zrI AtmasiddhijI | vi. saM. 1952 ANaMdathI Aso mAsamAM paramakRpALudeva naDIyAda padhAryA hatA. sAMjanA paramakRpALudeva naDIyAdanA taLAva tarapha pharavA sArU padhAryA hatA. sAthe pUjya sobhAgabhAI, nagInadAsa, pUjya aMbAlAlabhAI vigere cAlatA hatA. rastAmAM vaDanA jhADa nIce prabhu ubhA rahyA. A vaDanuM bIja kevaDuM haze? pUjya sobhAgabhAIe kahyuM ghaNuM ja bArIka - jhINuM hoya che. kRpALudeve kahyuM - "je A bIjamAMthI AvaDuM moTuM vRkSa thayuM, tema astitva bhAse to AtmAnI pratIti thAya che, mokSa che e nizcaya thAya che. astitva bhAsavAthI dRSTinI mAphaka najarAya che, ane najarAyAthI AtmA tyAMthI pa6

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AtmaniSTha dhruva tAro pU.zrI aMbAlAlabhAI khasI zakato nathI.'' vyA. 1 - 220 kalama prabhuno upadeza zAMta rIte sAMbhaLI - kRpALudeva pratye vItarAgatAno bhAsa tAdaza thato hato. eka vakhata paramakRpALudeve pUjya aMbAlAlabhAIne pUchyuM ke - "naDIyAda taLAvamAM pANI keTaluM UMDuM che ?'' tarata ja aMbAlAlabhAIe AjJAdhInavRttithI ekadama kudIne taLAvamAM paDavA mAMDyuM eTale tarata ja kRpALudeve hAtha jhAlIne kheMcI lIdhA. kevI AjJAvazavRtti ! ApaNA temane zataH zataH namaskAra ho ! huM kIlAbhAI - naDIyAda gayo hato. paramakRpALudevazrI tathA manasukhabhAI devazI tathA pU. aMbAlAlabhAI pharavA jatA hatA tyAM taLAva AgaLa pUjya aMbAlAlabhAIe paramakRpALudevane prazna karyu ke - taLAvamAM je lIlaphUla che temAM anaMtakAya jIva che ke kema ? uttara - Thapako ApIne kRpALudeve jaNAvyuM - "teM vinaya sahita pUchyuM nathI, sADa traNa hAtha cheTe rahIne pUchyuM nathI, namaskAra vigere karIne pUchyuM nathI." vigere vinayanA 17 - prakAra jaNAvyA ne cAlatAM cAlatAM pUchyuM che tethI Thapako ApIne vinaya mArga batAvyo. upayoga na rahyo tethI 17 prakAra vinayanA - zrI uttarAdhyayana adhyayananA jaNAvyA hatA. - potAnA upakArI purUSanA kapaDAM Adi durasta karavA, sAMdhavA - dhovA ityAdi dareka kAmamAM dhyAna devuM joIe. pUjya zrI aMbAlAlabhAInI jIvanacaryAnuM vihaMgAvalokana karIe to pUrvabhavathI laI Avela zrI sadgurU sAtha ane bhaktinI upAsanA mukhya taravare che. janmAMtaramAM paramakRpALudevanA Azrita hoI nAma sAMbhaLatAMnI sAthe anusaMdhAna thaI gayuM. kadI e prabhuno viyoga na thAya evo janama janamano saMgAthI dhaNI dhAryo. e bhaktinA pratApe punyodaya jAgyo. zrI AtmasiddhijInA avataraNane nihALavAno suavasara Avyo. aneka mumukSuonA paNa mahAbhAgya udaya thatAM, eka sonerI paLe - amRta coghaDIye zrI sadgurU bhagavAnanA hRdayamAMthI amRta pravahatuM hatuM, te amRta svarUpe akSara dehadhAraNa karI pragaTapaNAne pAmyuM. cauda pUrvanA sArarUpa, sakaLa AgamanuM navanIta, jJAnInAM hRdayarUpa, mumukSune abhaya ApanAra, mokSano mahAmArga batAvanAra, bodhabIjadAyaka, aciMtya ciMtAmaNI svarUpa zrI AtmasiddhijInuM zrI svarUpanI lekhinI dvArA gaMgAvataraNa thayuM. e 'gaMgAvahI' ghaTamAM ane pUjya aMbAlAlabhAInI premabhaktinI saritA e zrutasAgaramAM zamAI gaI. cothA kALamAM je durlabha - anaMtaguNa gaMbhIra jJAnAvatAra - guNAtizayathI bharelA evA prabhunI kalamathI motIbiMduo jevI AtmasiddhijIne pote animeSa nayanathI nihALI rahyA. sthirapaNe UbhA rahI, mana tanmaya banI, dehabhAna kSaNabhara visarAI gayuM hoya evI lInatAthI dIvI dharIne prabhunA jJAna prakAzabhuvananuM, prabhunI prabhutAnuM darzana karyuM. te kSaNe e bhaktanI prasannatA - dhanyatA - ahobhAva kevA alaukika akalpya haze ! eNe visphArIta netrathI amRta rasa AsvAdyo. eka kalAka aDaga UbhA rahevAthI thAka na lAgyo. UlTo prabhu sAnidhyamAM aMtarano vizrAma maLyo. je kevaLa netra vaDe jagata 57

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AtmaniSTha dhruva tAro 58 2065 zrI saMbAlAlabhAI dahImada rAjacaMdrajI karI aMgAmA naDIyAda talAva kinAre pharavA gayA tyAre zrI 52makRpALudeva pU. aMbAlAlabhAIne kahe che 'A talAva keTaluM UMDuM che ?' javAbamAM bhUsako mAravAnI taiyArI kare che. stella reure sat LO rAjajI pU.zrI aMbAlAlabhAI ANaMdamAM zrI 52makRpALudeva pU. aMbAlAlabhAIne pleganA rdInI sevA karavA jaNAve che. kevI karuNA !

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AtmaniSTha dhruva tAro pU. zrI aMbAlAlabhAI AkhAne joI rahyA che te paramAtmAne prakAzanI kyAM jarUra hatI. e to loka vyApaka aMdhakArane viSe svae karI prakAzita che te jagatanA nAthe aMbAlAlabhAInI aMtara oraDIye aMdhArU dUra karavA phAnasa dharI rAkhavA AjJA karI hoya jANe ! - e rIte tallInatA thatAM aMbAlAlabhAInA ghaNA AvaraNo - karma paDaLono nAza karyo. teno cetanarAma aMtarabhUmimAM ujjavaLatA pragaTAvI guNamaNIthI dIpI UThyo. pachI prabhunI kalama aTakI ane aMbAlAlabhAIne jagADyA, sAda karyo - aMbAlAla, "le A AtmasiddhijI, tenI cAra kopI karI lAva" paramakRpALunA hastakamaLamAMthI zrI AtmasiddhijI aMbAlAlabhAInA hastakamaLamAM AvI caDI - svarUpasiddhi jevI, pUrNa jJAnariddhi jevI, kharA ratananI khANa jevI, jIvanasiddhine hRdaya dezamAM sthApita karI lIdhI. parama harSathI potAnA mAthe caDAvI namaskAra karyA. "aho ! aho ! zrI sadgurU, karUNAsiMdhu apAra," uccArI punaH punaH namaskAra karyA, satkAra karyo, sanmAna karyuM, jaya jaya vadhAmaNI karI. cAra prata tenI utArI te prathama pUjya sobhAgabhAIne mokalI ApI. tyAM nagInadAsa gulAbacaMda, pUjya manasukhabhAI devazIbhAI vigere darzanArthe AvelA. tyAM paramakRpALudeve zrI AtmasiddhijI zAstranA artha pUravA mATe zrI aMbAlAlabhAIne pharamAvyuM hatuM. te arthe pUjya aMbAlAlabhAI nagInane pAse rAkhI vaMcAvatA hatA. ANaMdanuM sarakArI makAna choDI paramakRpALudeva naDIyAda padhArela hatA, ane tihAM nAnA mAtuzrI muMbaIthI AvelA hatAM. tyAM 1 mAsanI sthiratA hatI. tihAM ekavAra aMbAlAlabhAI eka moTA thALamAM pANIno loTo - dUdhano loTo - temAM eka loTanI kaNIkanI koDIyuM - 4 bhAgamAM - dIveTa rahe ne Arati utare tevuM banAvI - Arati - pUjA - karavAnI taiyArI karatA hatA, te joI paramakRpALudeve kahyuM - "zuM DhoMga karo cho." eTale turata badho sAmAna eka tarapha mUkI dIdho. tyArapachI - zrI sUyagaDAMga sUtramAMthI bodha je aThThANuM putrone zrI RSabhadevajI bhagavAne Apyo tevo bodha Apyo hato. te zravaNa thatAM pUjya aMbAlAlabhAI, pUjya zrI jhaverabApA vigerene AMsunI dhArA chUTela - saMsArathI chUTavAno bhaNakAra thavA lAgyo. evI parApazyati vANI hatI. AtmAnA pradezamAMthI luchAIne pravahatI hatI. enI khumArI jene caDhI hoya te jANe. zrImAna yazovijayajI mahArAja - "tuja vacana rAga sukha sAgare jhIlato." zrI sadagurUnI AjJAe zAstravAMcana karavAmAM Ave to te jIvane saMzaya - vikalpanuM samAdhAna karI de. gama pADI de ke jo Ano Azaya Ama che, eTale saddagurUne pUchavAthI - AjJAthI zAstra upakAranA hetu thAya, eTale pUjaya aMbAlAlabhAInA pUchavAthI paramakRpALudeva jaNAve che ke - "karmagraMtha vicAratAM kaSAyAdinuM svarUpa, keTaluMka yathArtha samajAtuM nathI, te vizeSa anuprekSAthI tyAgavRttinA baLe, samAgame samajAvA yogya che. jJAnanuM phaLa viratI che.' vItarAganuM A vacana sarva mumukSuoe nitya smaraNamAM rAkhavA yogya che. .......vicAravRtti sAthe (vibhAva - kAryonI) tyAgavRtti utpanna karavI te ja vicAra saphaLa pa9

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AtmaniSTha dhruva tAro pU. zrI aMbAlAlabhAI che, ema kahevAno jJAnIno paramArtha che." - va. 749 | zrI sadgurU Azraya vinA svacchede vartavAthI zuSkajJAnI thavAno vakhata Ave ane tapa - tyAgAdimAM paNa vRttio zAMta thatI nathI - unmatta thAya che, jethI jIva mArgathI paDI jAya che. pUjaya aMbAlAlabhAIne kRpALudevano samAgama lAbha nathI maLato, tethI jaMgaduM vyavahAra savRtti cUkavI de evAmAM rahevuM paDe che tethI mUMjhAya che ne nirAza thaI prabhune pokAre che ke mArI saMbhALa lyo, mane AmAMthI prabhu bacAvo, mArI vhAre Avo, tevA khedamAM prabhu temane hiMmata ApI - utsAha - zUravIratA Ape che. - te ja enA satsaMganI balihArI che. "mumukSupaNuM jema deDha thAya tema karo; hAravAno athavA nirAza thavAno kaMI hetu nathI. durlabha yoga jIvane prApta thayo to pachI thoDoka pramAda choDI devAmAM jIve mUMjhAvA jevuM athavA nirAza thavA jevuM kaMI ja nathI." - va. 829 | "uparanI bhUmikAomAM paNa avakAza prApta thaye anAdi vAsanAnuM saMkramaNa thaI Ave che, ane AtmAne vAraMvAra AkuLa vyAkuLa karI de che. -- - dharyathI sarvicAra paMthe javAno udyama karatAM jaya thaI - - - avikSepapaNuM prApta thAya che." - va. 813 guru gama" vi. saM. 1952 "te zrImAna puruSottama, sat - cit - AnaMdarUpe sarvatra bharapUra che. mUrtimAna ! (gurugama) svarUpa akSaradhAmamAM birAje che. ame te mUrtimAna svarUpane zuM varNavIe? e svarUpa vicAratAM, saMbhAratAM amane to parama samAdhi Ave che." - va. 157 paramAtmAnuM svarUpa ke, zuddhAtmAnuM svarUpa vacanAtita che, buddhithI para che, agama agocara vastu che, tene buddhigamyathI ke vacanathI samajI na zakAya, te mAtra anubhavagamya che. AnaMdaghanajI mahArAja kahe che "naya nikSepe re jeha na jANIe, navi jIhAM prasare pramANa, jeha agocara mAnasa vacanane, teha atindrIyarUpa, anubhava mittere vyakti zaktizuM, bhAkhyuM tAsa svarUpa" - "caitanyano niraMtara avicchinna anubhava priya che, .... eka "tuMhi tuMhi" e ja yathArtha vahetI pravAhanA joIe che, .... lakhyuM lakhAya tema nathI; kahyuM kathAya tema nathI. jJAne mAtra gamya che." - va. 144 eTale kRpALudeva kahe che - "vaha bAta rahI suguru gamakI" guru zAna kare emAM ja pAtra ziSyane samajAI jAya che. chapadanI siddhithI AtmasvarUpa samajAvA arthe e gurugamarUpa zrI AtmasiddhijInI racanA guru ziSyanA saMvAdarUpe karI che. ziSyane AtmAnI, punarjanmanI, karmanI, mokSanI, AsthA che, paNa te aMtaramAM UMDI zaMkAsahitanI ogha AsthA che te saddaguru bhagavAna jANe che, eTale "e aMtara zaMkAtaNo samajAvo sadupAya." ema prathama padanI zaMkA mUkI che. AtmA nAmano padArtha judA judA darzano ane mato, jude jude svarUpe kahe che. tenA baMdha mokSanI vyAkhyA jude

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AtmaniSTha dhruva tAro pU.zrI aMbAlAlabhAI jude svarUpe kahe che, teno zAstrathI nirNaya zI rIte thAya ? paramakRpALudeva kahe che. "ame te AtmA evo jANyo che; joyo che; spaSTa anubhavyo che, pragaTa te ja AtmA chIe.'' ApaNane tenI pratIti karI svarUpastha thavA mATe avirUddha upAya zuM ? zAzvata sugama mArga zuM ? tyAM ziSyanuM e samAdhAna kare che ke : "seve sadguru caraNane tyAgI daI nija pakSa, pAme te paramArthane nijapadano le lakSa.' "" je vastu gurugama svarUpa che, tene ApaNe kSayopazamathI, abhyAsathI, nizcayathI, adhyAtma ciMtanathI prApta karavA mathIe te kema saMbhavita thAya ? vyavahArika zikSaNa vakIla ke DaoNkTara thavA mATe zikSakanA hAtha nIce rahevuM jarUrI che tema Atmasiddhi mATe zrI jina vItarAga paramagurU Apta purUSanA caraNa samIpa svacchaMda choDIne rahevuM jarUrI che e sAva samajI zakAya evo prakAra che. kRpALudeva A zikSAne siddhAMtarUpa ane sarvazAstranA bodhanA lakSarUpa kahe che. "je padano vizeSa artha lakhyo che, te smaraNamAM lAvI sidghAMtarUpa evA uparanA padane viSe saMdhibhUta karavuM yogya che.'' "mana mahilAnuM vahAlA upare.' "bhakti pradhAna dazAe vartavAthI jIvanA svacchaMdAdi doSa sugamapaNe vilaya thAya che, evo pradhAna Azaya jJAnI puruSono che." - va. 394 kRpALudeva ApaNane kevo nizcaya karAve che - "mAnAdika zatru mahA, nijachaMde na marAya; jAtAM sadgurU zaraNamAM, alpa prayAse jAya.'' sadgurU caraNasamIpano nivAsa jIvane ghaNA hitanuM kAraNa che. u. chAyAmAM kRpALudeve kalyANanI cAvIo batAvI che, je atra vidIta che. "jJAnI kahe che te kUMcIrUpI jJAna vicAre, to ajJAnarUpI tALuM UghaDI jAya, keTalAMya tALAM UghaDI jAya.'' ....kalyANa zuM haze ? evo jIvane bhAmo che. te kaMI hAthI ghoDo nathI. jIvanI AvI bhrAMtine lIdhe kalyANanI kUMcIo samajAtI nathI. samajAya to to sugama che. .....kaSAya ghaTe te kalyANa-jIvanA rAga, dveSa, ajJAna jAya tene kalyANa kahevAya. .....AtmA ajJAnarUpI paththare karI dabAI gayo che. jJAna (tIrthaMkara) ja AtmAne UMco lAvaze. AtmA dabAI gayo che, eTale kalyANa sUjhatuM nathI. jJAnI sadvicArorUpI sahelI kUMcIo batAve te kUMcIo hajAro tALAMne lAge che. .....kadAgraha mUkIne jIva vicAre, to mArga to judo che. .....satpurUSanAM (bhagavAnanA) vacanonuM AsthAsahita zravaNa manana kare to samyaktva Ave. jJAna to mAMhIthI gAMTha maTe tyAre ja kahevAya. dayA, satya, adatta na levuM. e Adi (sadguNo) satpuruSanI samIpa AvavAnAM sAdhana che. vRddha, juvAna, bALa, e sarve saMsAramAM DUbyAM che. kALanA mukhamAM che, ema bhaya rAkhavo. te bhaya rAkhIne 51

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AtmaniSTha dhruva tAro pU.zrI aMbAlAlabhAI saMsAramAM udAsIna rahevuM. AtmAmAM rAgadveSa gaye jJAna pragaTe. game tyAM beThA ne game te sthitimAM mokSa thAya; paNa rAgadveSa jAya to. potAnA doSo TaLe evA prazna karyo to doSa TaLavAnuM kAraNa thAya. jIvanA doSa ghaTe to mokSa thAya. A kALamAM ghaNA jIva virAdhaka hoya che, ne nahIM jevo ja saMskAra thAya che. kezIsvAmI moTA hatA ane pArzvanAthanA ziSya hatA to paNa pAMca mahAvrata aMgIkAra karyAM hatA. kezIsvAmIe ema na kahyuM ke huM dikSAe moTo chuM mATe tame mArI pAse cAritra lyo. vicAravAna ane saraLajIva jene tarata kalyANayukta thaI javuM che tene AvI vAtano Agraha hoya nahIM. 2 "vANiyo, brAhmaNa, pazu, puruSa, strI Adi kalpanAe karI 'huM vANiyo, brAhmaNa, puruSa, strI, pazu chuM ema mAne che; paNa vicAra kare to pote temAMno koI nathI.' 'mAruM' svarUpa tethI juduM ja che.'' "sadgurUnI AjJAmAM badhAM sAdhana samAI gayAM, je jIvo taravAnA kAmI hoya che tenI badhI vAsanAno nAza thAya che." "jo pUrvanA saMskArathI jJAnInA vacano aMtarapariNAma pAme to dina-pratidina ullAsa pariNAma vadhatA jAya ne svarUpa jAgRtamAna thAya." vi. saM. 1953 pUjya sobhAgabhAI ane pUjya aMbAlAlabhAIne paramAtmAno eka ja sAlamAM bheTo thayo. tyArathI kRpALudevanA patranI prasAdI aMbAlAlabhAIne mokale che ane lakhe che ke sAhebajInA 60 patro hAtha AvyA te tamane mokalyA che, tame amArA aMgarUpa jANI aMgata - patro - vevArIka paNa mokalyA che te judI copaDImAM chApajo. emAM rahasya marama bharA che. A rItanI bhalAmaNa kare che. kRpALudeve paNa pUjya aMbAlAlabhAIne va. 240mAM sobhAga sAthe patra vyavahAra lakhavA preraNA ApI - satpurUSarUpe sobhAgabhAIne zrI prabhue biradAvyA che. "gaIkAle patra ane 5. pUjya zrI sobhAgabhAInuM pattuM sAthe maLyuM. vinayabharyo kAgaLa saharSa temane tame lakhajo. vilaMba thayAnuM kAraNa sAthe jaNAvajo. sAthe jaNAvajo ke rAyacaMde A viSe bahu prasannatA darzAvI che. hAla mane mumukSuono pratibaMdha paNa joIto nahoto. kAraNa ke mArI tamane poSaNa ApavAnI hAla azakyatA varte che. - mATe sobhAgabhAI jevA satpuruSa pratyeno patra vyavahAra tamane poSaNarUpa thaze. e mane moTo saMtoSano mArga maLyo che. temane patra lakhazo. (sobhAgabhAIne) jJAna kathA lakhazo to huM vizeSa prasanna chuM.'' - va. 240 zrI vaDavA prabhu padhAryA che tyAre pU. zrI sobhAgabhAIne potAne ghera jamavA mATe pUjya aMbAlAlabhAI laI jAya che. pUjya sobhAgabhAInA hRdayamAM birAjamAna zrI AdipuruSanuM darzana karI vinayabhakti upAse che. pU. aMbAlAlabhAIe AtmasiddhizAstranA TUMkA artha pUryA te lakhI mokalyA teno javAba kRpALudeva va. 730mAM lakhe che.

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AtmaniSTha dhruva tAro pU. zrI sobhAgabhAinA samAdhima2Na vakhate vizAgheryA pU. aMbAlAlabhAInI hAjarI. pU.zrI aMbAlAlabhAI zrI 52makRpALudeva kAviThAmAM gomeTanA vaDa nIce bodhapAna karAvI rahyA che, je 'upadeza chAyA'mAM chapAyela che. 93

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AtmaniSTha dhruva tAro GY pU.zrI aMbAlAlabhAI "AtmasiddhinI' TIkAnAM pAnAM maLyAM che.'' "jo saphaLatAno mArga samajAya to A manuSyadehano eka samaya paNa sarvotkRSTa ciMtAmaNI che. emAM saMzaya nathI." "zrI subhAgyAdi pratye lakhAyelA patromAMthI je paramArtha saMbaMdhI patro hoya tenI hAla bane to eka judI prata lakhazo.'' - va. 734 "Atmasiddhi vicAratAM AtmA saMbaMdhI kaMIpaNa anuprekSA varte che ke kema ?'' te lakhavAnuM thAya to lakhazo. "koI puruSa pote vizeSa sadAcAramAM tathA saMyamamAM pravarte che tenA samAgamamAM AvavA icchatA jIvone te paddhatinA avalokanathI jevo sadAcAra tathA saMyamano lAbha thAya che, tevo lAbha vistAravALA upadezathI paNa ghaNuM karIne thato nathI, te lakSa rAkhavA yogya che.'' - va. 740 pU. zrI sobhAgabhAInuM samAdhimaraNa parama kRpALudeva potAnA AzritanuM kevuM ghaDatara kare che. AtmAnI kharekharI saMbhALa rAkhe che. jIvano pramAda - susti UDe tevI rIte khabaraaMtara pUche che. A badhuM ApaNane paNa jIvana upayogI che. A saMyama ane sadAcAramAM pravartavAnI zikhAmaNa - paramArtha mArga prApta karavAmAM ghaNI jarUranI che ema ApaNane samajAve che. saMskRtano paricaya na hoya to karazo. je prakAre bIjA mumukSu jIvonAM cittamAM tathA aMgamAM nirmaLatA bhAvanI vRddhi thAya, te te prakAre pravartavuM kartavya che. niyamita zravaNa karAvAya tathA AraMbha parigrahanAM svarUpa samyak prakAre jotAM nivRttine ane nirmaLatAne keTalA pratibaMdhaka che te vAta cittamAM dRDha thAya tema arasaparasa jJAnakathA thAya tema kartavya che. - va. 742 pUjya aMbAlAlabhAI nirAza thAya che tyAM patra Ave che. "be kAgaLa maLyA che. atre ghaNuM karIne maMgaLavAra paryaMta sthiti thaze. budhavAre sAMje amadAvAdathI melagADImAM muMbaI tarapha javA mATe besavAnuM thaze. .....kevaLa nirAzA pAmavAthI jIvane satsamAgamano prApta lAbha paNa zithila thaI jAya che. satsamAgamanA abhAvano kheda rAkhatAM chatAM paNa satjhamAgama thayo che e parama punyayoga banyo che.''-va. 778 muMbaIthI kRpALudeve khaMbhAtanA popaTalAla gulAbacaMdane eka patra lakhI Apyo hato. jemAM aMbAlAlabhAIne sAyalA mukAme sobhAgabhAI pAse javAnI AjJA pharamAvela hatI. tyArabAda manasukhabhAI ravajIbhAI pAse aMbAlAlabhAI para patra lakhAvyo hato ke tamane sobhAgabhAI Icche che to sAyalA tAkIde jajo. e pramANe aMbAlAlabhAI traNa divasa agAu pUjya sobhAgabhAInI samIpe pahoMcI jAya che ane samAdhimaraNa vakhate hAjara UbhA che.

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AtmaniSTha dhruva tAro pU.zrI aMbAlAlabhAI te samayanI pUjya sobhAgabhAInI AtmadazAnuM mAhAtmya ane potAne thayela lAbhanuM varNana paramakRpALudevane patrathI muMbaI jaNAve che. li. alpajJa aMbAlAlanA vidhipUrvaka namaskAra. jeTha vadI 8 bhoma saM. 1953nA sAMje cha vAgye sAyale jaI pUjya sobhAgabhAInA pavitra darzanano kalyANakArI lAbha meLavyo hato. e pavitrAtmAnI eka niSThA ane AtmAnI zuddha jAgRtatA joI vAraMvAra AzcaryavaMta thAuM chuM. dhanya che evA dharmAtmAne. mArA pratyenI te purUSanI dayA ane anukaMpA joI huM bahu ja AnaMda pAmuM chuM, paNa cAra divasa agAu javAno joga banyo hota to bahu ja AnaMda thAta eTaluM jarA kheda rahe che. eka ja sadgurUnuM smaraNa - ciMtavana - dhyAna e to eka ja AtmAmAM prakAzyuM hatuM. 10 ne 48 miniTe meM smaraNa ApyuM te vakhate Indriyo sAva maMda paDI gaI hatI ane jANe AtmA ja bolato hoya te rIte bhASaNa karyuM. "hA. sahajAtma svarUpa. mAro e ja upayoga che. huM samAdhimAM chuM. tuM samAdhimAM raheje. have mane kaMI kahIza nahIM. kAraNa tuM je bole che temAM mAre upayoga devo paDe che, tethI kheda rahe che. vadhu zuM lakhuM. khacita mAre pUjavA yogya - smaraNa karavA yogya evA dharmAtmAno viyoga thavAthI ane temanA uttamottama guNo sAMbharI AvavAthI hRdaya bharAI jAya che. li. alpajJa. chelle sobhAgabhAI kRpALudevane lakhe che ke mane Atmasiddhi TIkA - arthanI copaDI ane aMbAlAla pAse ApanA upadeza patronI prata che te mokalavA kRpA karazo. ane - 4 divasa aMbAlAla velA Ave to AtmasiddhijInA ApanA zrI mukhe teNe dhArelA artha paNa mAre tenI pAsethI sAMbhaLavA che, kAne thoDuM saMbhaLAya che tyAM sudhI dhArI zakuM, keTalAka khulAsA thaI zake. juo ! prabhunA hRdaya sakhA, vayovRddha, jJAna vRddhanI kevI jJAna pipAsA ane saraLatA - namratA. ApaNe sarvee saMbhArI AtmaguNa ka2vA yogya che. vaLI aMbAlAlabhAIne potAnA Atmiya jana mAne che tethI kRpALudevanI pAsethI lAbha apAvavA jANe vakIlAta karatA hoya tema lakhe che ke aMbAlAla ziSya parakhavA jevo rahyo nathI to Ape tene bodhabIja ApyuM haze, nahIM to AMhI Ave tyAre huM karAvuM. AvA harinA premIjananI joDa akhaMDa raho. pUjya sobhAgabhAInA dehavilayanA khabara muMbaI pUjya aMbAlAlabhAIe tArathI ApyA hatA. kAviThA vi. saM. 1954 pUjya aMbAlAlabhAI nivRttimAM prabhu sAthe rahe ane prabhu muMbaImAM birAjatA hoya tyAre prema saMbaMdha patra dvArA avihaDa rAkhe che. mokSamALA vigere graMthono pracAra lokahita mATe thAya tema vinaMtI kare che tenA javAbamAM prabhu darzAve che ke - pa

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AtmaniSTha dhruva tAro pU. zrI aMbAlAlabhAI "amuka sagraMtho lokahitArthe pracAra pAme tema karavAnI vRtti jaNAvI te lakSamAM che.......kevaLa aMtarmukha thavAno satparaSono mArga sarva duHkhakSayano upAya che. paNa te koIka jIvane samajAya che. .....he Arya ! aMtarmukha thavAno abhyAsa karo." zrI paramakRpALudeva zrI paryuSaNa nivRtti arthe muMbaIthI nIkaLI zrI kAviThA padhAre che te viSe vavANiyA lakhe che. zrAvaNa vada - 9 - 1954 budhavAranI rAtrie muMbaIthI nivRtta thaI gurUvAre savAre ANaMda AvavAnuM banyuM hatuM, ane te ja divase rAtrinA Azare 11 vAgye atre AvavuM thayuM. ahIM 10 thI 15 divasa paryata sthiti thavAno saMbhava che. - va. 842 A samaye pU. aMbAlAlabhAI tyAM hAjara rahe che. vaso vi. saM. 1954 kAviThAthI prabhuzrI para zubha samAcAra AvyA ke zrI paramakRpALudeva - kAviThA kSetrathI naDIyAda UtarI vaso padhAraze. bAda paramakRpALu tathA aMbAlAlabhAI zrI naDIyAda sTezane UtarI vasonA vAhananI rAha joyA vagara belagADImAM besI vaso tarapha vidAya thayA, tene ratha sAmo maLatAM pUjya aMbAlAlabhAIe pUchyuM ke A ratha kyAM jAya che? atre paramakRpALudeva padhAryA che temane levA. bAda rathamAM birAjI gAmamAM padhAryA. kAviThAmAM paryuSaNa parva karI zrI vaso mukAme bhAdaravAmAM padhAryA hatA. tyAM zrI navalakhAnA DelAmAM UtaryA hatA. prabhuzrIjInuM cAturmAsa tyAM ja hatuM. temanI khAsa vinaMtIthI eka mAsanI sthiratA karI hatI. tyAM paramakRpALudevanA mukhathI apUrva bodha thato hato. tyAM darekane vrata - niyamo levA mATe paramakRpALudeva AjJA karatA hatA ane paccakakhANa karAvavA mATe pUjya munizrI pAse saghaLAone mokalatA hatA. sAta vyasano saMbaMdhI ghaNo ja bodha karatA hatA. darekane teno tyAga karAvyo hato. vasomAM nagInadAsa gulAbacaMda, pUjya popaTalAlabhAI, pUjaya aMbAlAlabhAI, pUjya sukhalAlabhAI, pUjya vanamALIbhAI vigere pacAsa bhAIo bahAragAmathI AvyA hatA. samAgamamAM AvelA mumukSu bhAIo temaja paramakRpALudeva pote eka vakhata AhAra karatA. ame munio be vakhata AhAra letA, tethI lajjA AvI ane eka TaMka AhAra levAno vicAra karyo. A vakhate pU. aMbAlAlabhAInuM svAbhAvika upAzraye Agamana thayuM, temane vAta jaNAvI tyAre pU. aMbAlAlabhAIe kahyuM - paramakRpALudeva atrethI padhAryA pachI eka vakhata AhAra grahaNa karajo . hAla AhAra-pANI karIne turta ja paramakRpALudevanA samAgamamAM AvavAnuM thAya che tethI pramAda na thAya tema sUkSma AhAranuM rAkhavuM. baporanA kRpALudeva pAse jatAM prabhue AjJA karI ke - "hAla ame kahIye tema karo - havethI eka ja TaMka AhAra lezo." eka rAtrie badhA mumukSuone prabhue aMbAlAlabhAI ane bhAIzrI sarvene samI sAMjathI UbhA rahevAnI AjJA karI, te badhA hAtha joDI sAme UbhA rahyA. AkhI rAta navathI paroDhIye pAMca vAgyA sudhI bodha cAlyo hato. bIje divase jamavAnuM AmaMtraNa thatAM bodhamAM rasanA Indriya para vivecana cAlyuM ke "rasalolupI na thavuM." u9

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AtmaniSTha dhruva tAro pU. zrI aMbAlAlabhAI utta2saMDA vanakSetra 1954, zrI paramakRpALudevanI sevAmAM 2soI mATenI sAmagrI kothaLAmAM laIne rahevA mATe jaI rahyA che. zrI pa2mRpALudeve zrI vasomAM navalakhAnA DahelA upa2 sAMjanA samaye sAta vAgyAthI badhA ja mumukSuone UbhA 2hevAnI AjJA ApI, savA2nA cAra vAgyA sudhI ekadhArA bodha Apyo. u7

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AtmaniSTha dhruva tAro pU.zrI aMbAlAlabhAI eka divasa pUjya bhAIzrIne vRtti thaI ke prabhu sAthe bahAra pharavA javAnI rajA Ape to sArUM. paramakRpALudeve te vicAra jANI laI pUjya aMbAlAlabhAIne kahyuM ke - popaTabhAIne kaho ke tamo sAthe cAlo - prabhunI AjJA maLI che. eka divasa vaso gAma bahAra rAyaNanA vRkSa taLe zrI mallijina stavana - 'sevaka kima avagaNIe' - tenA vizeSArtha pote alaukika rIte karyA pachI tyAMthI AnaMdanI dhUnamAM gAthA bolatA gAma tarapha sIdhAvyA, "rAgIzuM rAgI sahu re, nirAgIzo rAga," ane manahara padamAMthI - "jeno kALa te kiMkara thaI rahyo," e pada AkarSaka avAjathI moTA sUrathI bolatA hatA ane premAvezamAM bIjAnA hRdayamAM paNa divyAnaMdano saMcAra thAya ane hRdaya premathI chalochala UbharAI jAya evA AnaMda sahita gAmamAM padhAryA. teozrInI pAchaLa munio ne tenI pAchaLa mumukSu bhAIoe utAre praveza karyo, tyAM eka mAsa pUrNa rahyA. paramagurUnA yogabaLathI vairAgya-bhaktinA kAvyo teozrInI samakSa gavAtA tyAre copAsa zAMta-vairAgyamaya vAtAvaraNa thatuM. pUjya aMbAlAlabhAInA karNamAM te sUra gUMjyA karatA, tyAMthI khasavuM na gamatuM. uttarasaMDA SC naDIyAda ane uttarasaMDAnI vacamAM nivRtti mATe yogya sthaLanI goThavaNI thaI eTale pUjya aMbAlAla, zrI laherAbhAI ane motilAla e traNanI sAthe kRpALudeva uttarasaMDAne baMgale 'vanakSetra' padhAryA. paMdara divasa sudhI zrI aMbAlAlabhAI sevAmAM rahyA ane rasoI vigerenI badhI vyavasthA pote karI. paraMtu prabhune taddana ekAMta nivRttimAM zrI jinakalpanI sAdhanA karavAnI hatI. pUjya aMbAlAlabhAI rasoIno sAmAna, gAdalA-vAsaNa vigere khaMbhAtathI lAvyA hatA te badhuM ja parata laI javAnI AjJA karI, eka motilAlane sevAmAM rAkhyA. pUjya aMbAlAlabhAI baMgalo khAlI karI badho sAmAna gADAmAM bharAvI laI naDIyAda gayA. zrI motilAlabhAIne sUcanA ApatA gayA hatA ke rAtre be-traNa vakhata prabhunI tapAsa rAkhatA rahejo. pachI motilAle pUchyuM. prabhu ! khAvA-pIvA mATe kema che ? paramakRpALue kahyuM - "tame naDIyAda jAo. tamArAM bAIne navarAvIne roTalI tathA zAka karAvajo. vAsaNa lokhaMDanuM vApare nahIM ane zAka vigeremAM pANI tathA tela nAMkhe nahIM." Ama jinakalpIvat dhyAna mudrAmAM rahetA. macchara karaDatA to paNa aDola rahetA. A vanakSetre be rUpiyA bhAra roTalI tathA thoDuM dUdha vAparatA. A vanakSetre vartatA mahAtmA adbhuta yogindra parama zAMtazItaLa birAje che evI niHsaMgadA varNavatA hatA. kheDA zrI paramakRpALudevanA samAgamamAM zrI choTAbhAI, nagInabhAI, gAMDAbhAI, pUjya bhAIzrI vigere kheDA gayelA. pUjya aMbAlAlabhAI kRpALudevanI sAthe ja AvyA hatA. lallubhAI tyAMthI vidAya thatI veLA prabhu pAse rajA meLavavA gayA hatA. te vakhate manamAM ema thayuM ke paramAtmAnA darzana mATe citrapaTa maLI zake to sArUM eTale prabhu pAse jaI namaskAra karI UbhA rahyA eTale paramakRpALudeve jaNAvyuM ke 'kema citrapaTa joIe che ?' lallubhAIe - hA, jI kahyuM - kRpALudeve jaNAvyuM ke jAva,

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AtmaniSTha dhuva tAro pU. zrI aMbAlAlabhAI bhAI aMbAlAla Apaze. ane amArA para akhaMDa vizvAsa rAkhajo." pUjaya devakIrNajI mahArAjanI vinaMtIthI kheDe padhAryA hatAM. tyAM muni zrI devakIrNajI mahArAja kRpALudevane pUchatA hatA, "sAheba ! Apa dazA zrImALI ke vIzA zrImALI ?" paramakRpALuzrIe sAme pUchyuM ke, "tamAre zuM kAma che ?" munizrIe kahyuM ke, "vIzAno huM vizvAsa karato nathI." tyAre paramakRpALuzrIe jaNAvyuM ke, "vIzA zrImALImAM eka guNa che ke lIdhuM mUke nahIM." A prakAre pUjya bhAIzrI kheDAnA satsaMgamAM pote sAMbhaLela vAta jaNAve che. kheDAmAM dasa divasa sthiti hatI. "he jIva! A klezarUpa saMsArathI nivRtta thA, nivRtta thA." A vItarAga pravacana che. zrI kheDAthI paramagurU mahemadAvAda thaI muMbaI padhAryA. muMbaI vi. saM. 1955 pU. aMbAlAlabhAIne potAnI pUrvabhavanI yogabhUmikAmAM nivAsa mATe vihArakrama jaNAve che. "ghaNuM karIne AvatI kAle rAtrinA melamAM ahIthI uparAmatA (nivRtti) thaze. thoDA divasa paryata ghaNuM karIne iDarakSetre sthiti thaze." - va. 85ra pUjaya aMbAlAlabhAIne apUrva avasaranI nivRtti samAgamanI prabaLa icchA hatI, paNa prabhu ekAMta icchatA hatA tethI rajA na maLI. 'padmanaMdI zAstra' AdinuM nididhyAsana karavA samyagudarzana deDha karAvavA mATe lakhe che. "traNa yoganI alpa pravRtti, te paNa samyaka pravRtti hoya tyAre mahatu purUSanA vacanAmRtanuM manana parama zreyanuM mULa deDhibhUta kare che; krame karIne paramapada saMprApta kare che." - va. 886 - iDarathI saM. 1955mAM zrI paramakRpALudeva pUjaya bhAIzrInI vinaMtIthI temanA ghera ghAMcInI poLe padhAryA hatA ane pUjya aMbAlAlabhAI paNa tyAM padhAryA hatA. pUjya bhAIzrIe ghara AgaLa aTalasanA tAkA patharAvyA ne potAnA prabhu pratye premabhakti pragaTa karI upAsanA karI. - eka vakhata pUjya aMbAlAlabhAI ghAMcInI poLe rAtre agiyAra vAge AvyA hatA. teozrIe jaNAvyuM ke zrI paramakRpALudeve mane jaNAvyuM che ke - "tuM popaTane maLIne jaje - tenA mananuM samAdhAna karIne jaje." pachI amo baMne rAtre be vAgyA sudhI beThA ane jJAnavArtA karI tyArapachI rAtre be vAge munizrI pAse sarasapura gayA hatA. | saMvata 1955nA bhAdaravAmAM zrI paramakRpALudeva muMbaI birAjamAna che. pUjaya aMbAlAlabhAI ratalAmathI vaLatAM prabhu samAgama arthe tyAM pahoMce che. tyAM AgaLa dukAne zrI nAnacaMdabhAI pUnAvALA tathA zrI dAmajIbhAI padhAratA hatA. sAMjanA sAta vAgyA pachI adbhuta upadeza thato. kadI na sAMbhaLyA hoya evA apUrva arthanuM nirUpaNa kRpAnAtha karatA. ekavAra pUjaya aMbAlAlabhAI satsaMgamAM vAta karatA hatA ke zrI paramakRpALudeva pUrvabhave tibeTanA rAjakumAra hatA. A vAtano IzAro va. 212mAM thayela jaNAya che. te vakhate digaMbara munidazA bahu pALI hatI, vaLI jaNAvyuM hatuM ke "mahAvIra svAmInA yogabaLe teonA atizayanA prabhAvathI haju paNa dharma vidyamAna che, dharma aciMtya ciMtAmaNI che, tene ArAdhatAM phaLa mATe ciMtavana SC

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AtmaniSTha dhruva tAro pU. zrI aMbAlAlabhAI karavA jeTaloya parizrama nathI." ema paramakRpALudeve prakANyuM hatuM. dharamapura vi. saM. 1956 saMvata 1956mAM revAzaMkara jagajIvananI kaMpanI sAthe nagInadAsane cokhAno vepAra cAlato hato. vyavahAra kAma mATe tyAM rokAyA hatA te vakhatamAM pUjya aMbAlAlabhAI paNa tyAM ja prabhunI caraNasevAmAM eka mahIno rokAyA hatA - tyAM parama lAbha pAmyA. - zrI raNachoDabhAInI vinaMtIthI paramakRpALudeva dharamapura padhAre che, tyAMthI pa.kR.deva zrI aMbAlAlabhAIne dharamapura AvavA anumati Ape che. 'samayasAra' ane 'kArtikeyAnuprekSA' vigerenI prata karavA AjJA Ape che. - juo va. 909 sarva sAvadha AraMbhanI nivRttipUrvaka be ghaDI ardha prahara paryata "svAmI kArtikeyAnuprekSA' Adi graMthanI prata karavAno nityaniyama yogya che." (cAra mAsa paryata) - va. 899 zuddha gurjara bhASAmAM samayasAra'nI prata karI zakAya to tema karatAM vadhAre upakAra thavA yogya che. jo tema na banI zake to vartamAna prata pramANe bIjI prata lakhavAmAM apratibaMdha che." - va. 907 "jo "svAmI kArtikeyAnuprekSA' ane 'samayasAra'nI prato lakhAI rahI hoya to atre mULa prato sAthe mokalAvazo. athavA mULa prato muMbaI mokalAvazo ane utArelI prato atre mokalAvazo. prato utAratAM haju adhUrI hoya to kyAre pUrNa thavAno saMbhava che te jaNAvazo." - va. 909 zrI 'samayasAra" ane "kArtikeyAnuprekSA' mokalavA viSenuM patra maLyuM haze. A patra saMprApta thatAM atra (dharamapura) AvavAnI vRtti ane anukULatA hoya to AjJAno atikrama nathI." - va. 910 "cakravartInI samasta saMpatti karatAM paNa jeno eka samaya mAtra paNa vizeSa mUlyavAna che evo A manuSyadeha ane paramArthane anukULa evA yoga saMprApta chatAM jo janma-maraNathI rahita evA paramapadanuM dhyAna rahyuM nahIM to A manuSyatvane adhiSThita evA AtmAne anaMtavAra dhikkAra ho ! jemaNe pramAdano jaya karyo temaNe paramapadano jaya karyo." - va. 935 "te mATe UbhA karajoDI, jinavara AgaLa kahIye re, samayacaraNa sevA zudhdha dejo, jema AnaMdaghana lahIe re." - zrImAnuM AnaMdaghanajI

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AtmaniSTha dhruva tAro pU. zrI aMbAlAlabhAI zrI khaMbhAta ciMtAmaNi pArzvanAthajInA daherAsa2mAM nemanAtha prabhunI sanmukha 'he prabhu! he prabhu!'nA doharA hRdhyanA bhAva sAthe AMsu sAratA ucArI 2hI che. sAthe pU. bhAIzrI te bhAvomAM khovAyelA jaNAya che. khaMbhAta zrI ciMtAmaNi pArzvanAthaprabhunA daherAsarajImAM pU. aMbAlAlabhAI tathA pU. bhAIzrI darzana karI parata pharI rahyA che. 71

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AtmaniSTha dhruva tAro pU. zrI aMbAlAlabhAI "patro saMprApta thayAM, zarIra prakRti svasthAsvastha rahe che - - - kavacit azAtA mukhya rahe che." - va. 938 "pramatta-pramatta evA vartamAna jIvo che, ane parama puruSoe apramattamAM sahaja Atmazuddhi kahI che, mATe te virodha zAMta thavA paramapuruSano samAgama, caraNano yoga ja parama hitakArI che." OM zAMtiH - sva. 919 - pUjya zrI aMbAlAlabhAInI daDha icchA to prabhu caraNamAM zrI paryuSaNa mahAparva ArAdhanA karavAnI hovAthI zrI paramakRpALudevane pUchAve che ke, "he nAtha ! mAre kyAM rahevuM ? zuM karavuM ?" javAbamAM nabaLI zarIrasthitimAM paNa svahaste lakhe che : kadApi jo nivRttimukhya sthaLanI sthitinA udayano aMtarAya prApta thayo to he Arya! sadA savinaya evI parama nivRtti, te tame zrAvaNa vada agiyArasathI bhAdaravA suda pUrNimA paryata evI rIte sevajo ke samAgamavAsI mumukSuone tame vizeSa upakAraka thAo ane te sau nivRttibhUta saniyamone sevatAM salphAstra adhyayanAdimAM ekAgra thAya, yathAzakti vrata, niyama, guNanA grahaNakartA thAya." zarIraprakRtimAM sabaLa azAtAnA udayathI jo nivRttimukhya sthaLano aMtarAya jaNAze to atrethI yogazAstra' nuM pustaka tamArA adhyayana mananAdi arthe ghaNuM karI mokalavAnuM thaze." "he Arya! alpAyuSI duSamakALamAM pramAda kartavya nathI; AtmabalAdhInatAthI patra lakhAyuM che." - va. 942 svAtmavIrya gopavyA sivAya bane teTalo nivRtti sevavA yogya avasara prApta karI AtmAne apramatta karavo ema AjJA che. "pramattabhAve A jIvanuM bhUMDuM karavAmAM kAMI nyUnatA rAkhI nathI, tathApi A jIvane nijahitano upayoga nathI e ja atizaya khedakAraka che. atrathI sthitino pheraphAra thaze ane aMbAlAlane jaNAvavA yoga banaze to AvatIkAla sudhImAM banavA yogya che." pUjya aMbAlAlabhAInI kevI saMbhALa (AtmAnI) le che. te ja divase zrI dharmaparvanI ArAdhanAno krama lakhI mokalyo che te ApaNane upayogI che. tyArapachI saM. 1956nA zrAvaNa vada 11thI kArataka vada 5 sudhI vaDhavANa kempamAM lImaDI utAre zrI paramakRpALudevanuM rahevuM thayuM hatuM. te vakhate vanamALIbhAIno deha chUTyo - tenI zAMti mATe zrI prabhue cAra logassano kAusagna karavA AjJA karI hatI. zrI paramakRpALu bichAnAmAM sUtA hatA, tyAM pAMca-sAta bhAIo sAthe pU. zrI aMbAlAlabhAI vigerene bolAvyA ane TIpa karI, tamane vikalpa nathI thato ? ema pUchyuM. zrI surendranagaramAM zrI paramazruta khAtAnI TIpa karI prabhue pUchyuM ke bharavADavALuM karIe 72

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AtmaniSTha dhruva tAro pU. zrI aMbAlAlabhAI ke vANIyAnI rIte ? pUjya zrI aMbAlAlabhAIe kahyuM ke bharavADaNI akhaMDa saubhAgyavatI rahe che - tema karIzuM. pachI "zrI paramakRta prabhAvaka maMDaLa" - evuM nAma ApyuM. tenA saMbaMdhI ghaNuM kharuM lakhANa zrI aMbAlAlabhAIne lakhAvatA hatA. saMvatsarIno upavAsa karavAnI sarve mumukSune AjJA pharamAvela hatI. pUjaya aMbAlAlabhAIne svahaste saM. 1956nI sAlanA be citrapaTa zrI prabhue ApelA je hAla khaMbhAta subodhaka pustakazALAmAM che. - vaDhavANamAM pU. aMbAlAlabhAI eka vakhata dAktara pAse davA levA gayA hatA. eka divasa dAktare kahyuM ke - sAhebajIne ghara bhegA karo, temanI deha raheze nahIM. evuM sAMbhaLI AvyA pachI aMbAlAlabhAIne tenI asara thaI mukha paDI gayuM - raDavA lAgyA. tethI vavANiyethI devAmAtA ane ravajIbhAI tathA muMbaIthI revAzaMkarabhAI ane manasukhabhAI ravajIne tAra karIne teDAvyA - mAtuzrI vigere turta ja AvI gayA. aMbAlAlabhAIne kRpALudeve pUchyuM ke - tane DaoNkTare zuM kahyuM? zuM vAtacIta thaI ? javAbamAM aMbAlAlabhAIe jaNAvyuM ke dAktara ThAkoradAsa kahe che ke - "kSaya che." tyAre kRpALudeve kahyuM - "nA, tema nathI." - "zarIra kSINa che ema kahyuM che." bAda DaoNkTarane bolAvI pUchatAM - zarIra kSINa che ema tenI pAse khAtrI karAvI, hA kahevarAvI. (tevA bhAvanuM pote ja lakhyuM che.) "kaMI roga hoya ema jaNAtuM nathI. badhA DaoNkTarono paNa e ja abhiprAya che. nirbaLatA ghaNI che. te ghaTe tevA kAraNonI jarUra che." - va. 955 aMbAlAlabhAIne zrI paramakRpALudeve kahyuM - "A sonAnuM pAMjarU che temAM siMha che, ne tenuM bAraNuM ughaDI gayuM che. te siMhane nIkaLI jatAM vAra nathI. A tAre samajavAnuM che." ghaNA divasathI kRpALudeva khorAka letA na hatA. eka divasa evo banAva banyo ke - prabhuzrIjI ane devakaraNajIne ema thayuM ke have kRpALudeva khorAka le to ThIka tevA abhiprAyano kRpALudevane patra lakhyo. te ja divase zrI paramakRpALudeve drAkSa maMgAvIne khorAka lIdho ane pUjaya aMbAlAlabhAIne kahyuM ke - "munine patra lakho, Aje amoe khorAka lIdho che." surendranagaramAM eka prasaMge pUjya aMbAlAlabhAI tathA zrI tribhovanabhAIne zrImukhe kahyuM ke "vaDhavANa kempanA zAstrabhaMDAramAM hajAro varSa pahelAMno eka tADapatrIno graMtha che, temAM amuka pAne amAre viSe "yuga pradhAna"nuM nAma lakhela che, emAM bhaviSyamAM thanAra - 2004 "yugapradhAna" purUSanI nAmAvalI che. temAM 63muM nAma darzAvyuM che ke - "vikrama saMvata 1924nA kArataka pUrNimAe "zrImad rAjacaMdra" nAmanA yuga pradhAna purUSano janma thaze." teozrI kahetA ke - "amAre navI mA nathI karavI." vaLI eka vakhata jaNAvyuM ke - "A vacano jagatanuM kalyANa karaze, tamArUM to avazya karaze. je jIvo amArI samIpa AvelA che ane Avaze tenI avazya siddhi thaze." paramazruta prabhAvaka maMDaLa, vaDhavANa saMvata-1956 upadeza noMdha 15 ane 42mAM zrI paramakRpALudevane vaDhavANamAM pUjaya manasukhabhAI kIratacaMdabhAIe pUchyuM che. tenA 93

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AtmaniSTha dhruva tAro pU.zrI aMbAlAlabhAI = - javAbamAM kahyuM hatuM ke - "parama sazrutanA pracArarUpa eka yojanA dhArI che, te pracAra thaI paramArthamArga prakAza pAme tema thaze.'' sazrutanuM lIsTa vacanAmRtamAM chApyuM che te saMbaMdhI keTalAka mumukSu ema mAne che - kahe che ke - kRpALudeve phakta digambara zAstrone ja sadbhuta kahyAM che, zvetAMbara Agamane nahIM, te mAnyatA yathAtathya nathI lAgatI. e mAnyatA matabheda dRSTithI kalpI hoya ema bIjAM vacanAmRto vicAratAM samajAya che. va. 375mAM kRpALudeva lakhe che ke - "te 'sUtrakRtAMga'nI racanA je puruSoe karI che, te AtmasvarUpa puruSa hatA, evo amAro nizcaya che." kRpALudeva jene mATe dAvAnanI chApa Ape che to tene kema utthApAya ? kema ke "AtmasvarUpa puruSa AtmasvarUpArthe atyaMta pratIti yogya che.'' vaLI 'mokSamArga prakAza' vAMcatAM pUjya devakaraNajI mahArAjane zaMkA thAya che, tenA samAdhAnamAM va. 807 - mAM prakAze che. - "digaMbara ane zvetAMbarapaNuM deza, kALa, adhikArIyoge upakArano hetu che." "mokSamArga prakAza" mAM vartamAna jinAgama ke je zvetAMbara saMpradAyane mAnya che teno niSedha karyo che, te niSedha kartavya nathI.'' bIjI eka vAta vicAravA jevI che - kRpALudeve mumukSu popaTabhAI gulAbacaMdane (khaMbhAtanA) zrI subodhaka pustakazALA mATe pustako kharIdavAnuM kahyuM che, tenAM nAma paNa ApyAM che to te zuM asat zAstra kahI zakAya ? bAkI to AtmasiddhijI gAthA 9mAM joIzuM to zAstra paNa sadgurU AjJAe upakArI kahyAM che. 74 "gama paDyA vinA Agama anarthakAraka thaI paDe che." vacanAmRtajImAM to ThAma ThAma e Agama viSe, sUtrakRtAMga Adi zvetAMbara AgamanA Adara sahitano ullekha che. - va. 128. "zrI mahAvIradevane gautamAdi munijana ema pUchatA hatA ke he pUjya ! 'mAhaNa', 'zramaNa', 'bhikSu' ane 'nigraMtha' e cAra zabdano artha zo che, te amane kaho. te artha tyArapachI zrI tIrthaMkara vistArathI kahetA hatA.'' - 1. 448 pUjya aMbAlAlabhAI bhagavatIjInA pATha mATe pUchAve che tyAM kahe che - "pAThamAM bodha ghaNo suMdara che." kRpALudeva to AtmasvarUpapuruSa che. huM koI gacchamAM nathI ema spaSTabhAna ApyuM che, te kema bhagavAnanA mULamArgamAM matabheda UbhA kare ? kAraNa "cAlatA matanA prakAranI vAta kAne paDe che ke hRdayane viSe mRtyuthI adhika vedanA thAya che. sthiti kAM tame jANo cho kAM sthiti vItI gaI che te jANe che, ane hira jANe che." - va. 277 - digaMbara ke zvetAmbara baMne Agama satzAstra ja che. jinanA ja prarUpelA che. va. 755mAM "te dvAdazAMganA mULa upadeSTA sarvajJa vItarAga che.'' eTale teno Azaya pratIta karavA yogya, sevanIya jinavANI che ema samajavuM. upadeza chAyA bemAM "- siddhAMtanA bAMdhA viSe ema samajavuM ke ApaNI buddhi na pahoMce tethI te vacano asat che ema na kahevuM; kAraNa ke jene tame asat kaho cho te zAstrathI ja prathama to tame jIva, ajIva evuM kahetAM zIkhyA cho; arthAt te ja zAstrone AdhAre ja tame je kAMI jANo cho te jANyuM che; to pachI tene asat kahevAM te upakArane badale doSa karavA barAbara gaNAya." "vaLI zAstranA lakhanArAo paNa vicAravAna hatA; tethI te siddhAMta viSe jANatA hatA. mahAvIrasvAmI pachI ghaNe varSe lakhANAM che mATe asat kahevAM te doSa gaNAya." ..

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AtmaniSTha dhruva tAro pU. zrI aMbAlAlabhAI va. 491mAM to spaSTa lakhyuM che ke, "tIrthakara vAraMvAra nIce kahyo che, te upadeza karatA hatA." vAkyanI racanA khUbI bharelI che ke - tIrthakare upadeza karyo hato ema na kahyuM paNa - upadeza karatA te ame sAMbhaLatA hatA. te vakhata pote hAjara hatA ema bhAva nIkaLe che. A svAnubhavanI vAta jIvanI bhramaNA - zaMkAo TALavA kahI dIdhI. kRpALudevanA vacanane prAmANikapaNe AtmahitanI dRSTithI samajI upakArI karI laIe e ja IcchavA yogya che. eka vacanane mAnya karIe ane bIjAM vacanane amAnya gaNIe - (temAM bhUla joIe) to tene anyAya karyo gaNAya. vItarAga vANI to anaMtanaya garbhita che, tene eka nayathI vicArIe to virodha Ave, doSa lAge. jJAnInI vANI pUrvApara avirodha, AtmArtha upadezaka, apUrva arthanuM nirUpaNa karanAra hoya che; ane anubhavasahitapaNuM hovAthI AtmAne satatu jAgRta karanAra hoya che." - va. 679 mArga jene nathI prApta thayo evAM manuSyo nayano Agraha kare che; ane tethI viSamaphaLa (matabheda)nI prApti hoya che. koI naya jyAM dubhAto nathI evAM jJAnInAM vacanane ame namaskAra karIe chIe." mATe te vANIne ApaNe madhyasthatAthI - avirodhapaNe samajavI joIe ne pachI jema zreya thAya tema AcaravuM joIe, emAM zo vivAda hoya ? e vitarAga vacanane viveka buddhithI zravaNa - manana - nididhyAsana karavA zikSA de che. kAraNa ke eka vacana usUtra bolAI jAya to anaMta saMsAra paribhramaNa thAya. e vAta bhagavAne karma siddhAMta prarUpyo temAM svacaritrathI daDha karI che, ke - "jo bhAI ! mane paNa karma mUkatAM nathI. to tamane kema mUkaze ?" DhALamAM kahe che, "marizI kahe dharma ubhayamAM - teNe vacane vadhyo saMsAra, e trIjo kahyo avatAra." - zrI paramakRpALudeve lakhAvela paramazruta prabhAvaka phaMDanI vyavasthA saMbaMdhIno utAro kula tera kalamamAM che. jemAMnI cAra kalama atre darzAvela che. 1) pATaNanA jaina bhaMDAranA pustakanuM bhASAMtara karAvavuM. 2) uttama evAM navInazAstra racavAnuM banI zake to karavuM. 3) pustakanA bhASAMtara mATe hAla vArSika kharca - 1OOO - no rAkhavo. e vyAjamAMthI rUpiyA upayogamAM levA. 4) chapAvelAM pustakono saMgraha rAkhavA viSe ane vyavasthA kevI karavI te viSe amadAvAdanA koI jijJAsubhAIne kAma soMpavuM. te khAtAno hisAba tapAsavAnuM kAma bhAI aMbAlAlane soMpavuM. zrI subodhaka pustakazALAnuM nAmAbhidhAna - khaMbhAta saM. 1957 saMvata 1957nA mAgazara mahinAmAM pa.kR. deva amadAvAdamAM AgAkhAnanA baMgale birAjamAna hatA tyAre pU. zrI aMbAlAlabhAI, pU. zrI nagInadAsa gulAbacaMda tathA pU. gAMDAbhAI bhaIjIbhAI paTela amadAvAda darzanArthe gayA hatA. te samaye pa.kR. devanI zarIraprakRti ghaNI narama 95

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AtmaniSTha dhruva tAro 75 pU.zrI aMbAlAlabhAI amadAvAda AgAkhAnanA baMgale sabhAmAM 52makRpALudeva darzAve che ke ame strI ane lakSmIno tyAga karyo che. zrI 52makRpALudeva u52nI vAta munione bhAvasAranI vADIe kahe che. zrI paramakRpALudeve pU. aMbAlAlabhAIne bAra vrata lakhI ApyAM ane jaNAvyuM ke A bAja vrata muni pAse mAtuzrI devAmAne levaDAvo. 3

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AtmaniSTha dhuva tAro pU. zrI aMbAlAlAbhAI vartatI hatI. teozrIe pU. aMbAlAlabhAIne ghaNI tvarAthI makAna bhADe laI khaMbhAtamAM pustakazALA sthApavA jaNAvyuM. sAthe zrI gAMDAbhAInA haste sthApanA karavA jaNAvyuM. te ja samaye dhavalapatra para svahastAkSare 'zrI subodhaka pustakAlaya' nAma rAkhavA lakhI jaNAvyuM. pa.kR. deve A pavitra pAvanakArI saMsthAnA nibhAva arthe TIpa karavAnI zarUAta karI zrI gAMDAbhAI bhaIjIbhAIne TIpamAM rUA. 201 bharavA mATe jaNAvyuM tyAre prabhune kahyuM Apa je kaho te kabula che. pachI saM. 1957nA mahA sudI pAMcamanA divase kumAravADAnA nAke bIje mALe pa.kR. deve darzAvela nAmAbhidhAna sAthe "zrI subodhaka pustakazALAnI sthApanA thaI. TIpamAM pU. aMbAlAlabhAIe rUA. 100, saburabhAIe rUA. 20 ane bAbarabhAIe rUA. 16 AjJAthI bharAvyA hatA. raNachoDabhAI modIe rUA. 100 ane khImacaMda lakSmIcaMde rUA. 5 paramakRpALudevanI AjJAthI pustakazALAmAM mokalAvyA hatA. te vakhate TIpamAM rUA. 800 Azare thayA hatA ane te pustakazALA mATe pustako, amadAvAda - bhImasiMha mANekane tyAMthI, AjJA karela te pramANe lAvyA hatA ane te zALAnuM tamAma kAma pUjya aMbAlAlabhAInA hastaka cAlatuM hatuM. AgAkhAnane baMgale - amadAvAda saM. 1957 eka divasa kRpALudevanI sAthe pUjaya aMbAlAlabhAI tathA chaganakAkA ghoDAgADImAM besIne pharavA padhAryA. gAma bahAra muni hatA tyAM amo baMnene utAryA pachI pAchA vaLyA. gADImAM pUjya aMbAlAlabhAI bahAranI tarapha beThA. vaLatIphere pUjya aMbAlAlabhAIe kahyuM ke tame aMdara beso, pachI copaDIo levAne UtaryA. bhImasiMha mANekanI dukAne pustaka levA rokANA - te baporanA bAra ke eka thaI gayo. kRpALudeva tenI copaDIo juve - temAM pratAkAra AgaLa-pAchaLa beya bAju vAMcatA ne tarata ja sAhebajI kahetA ke A sUtra lyo. zrI bhagavati sUtra - zataka vigere hatA. temAM khUbI e ke je je copaDI lIdhI te pUrI vAMcyA vinA emane khabara paDatI ke AmAM zuM che. savAranA ATha vAgye nIkaLelA hatA, paNa te - khaMbhAtanI zALA mATe copaDIo letAM kAMI ja zarIra-prakRti narama ja nathI tevuM AzcaryakArI ja lAgatuM. eka divasa rAtre sAta vAgyAnI AsapAsa AgAkhAnanA daravAjA bahAra nIkaLIne - huM tathA pUjaya aMbAlAlabhAI zrI kRpALudevanI sAthe jaIne eka jhADa nIce beThA. te vakhate upadezano - amaratano megha varasato hato, temAM zrI manasukhabhAI ravajIbhAI tyAM AvyA ne kRpALudevane kahe, 'AvI ThaMDI varase che ne AMhI kema beThA cho?' tyAre kRpALudeva kahe - "chagana, A TANe amRtano meha varase che temAM aMtarAya thayo !" pachI manasukhabhAIne duHkha na lAge mATe pUjaya aMbAlAlabhAIe kahyuM - have cAlo, te pachI kRpALudeva UThyA. emane zaradI jevuM kAMI na hatuM. vaLI eka divasa pUjya aMbAlAlabhAI, pUjya manasukha devazIbhAI tathA pUjya puMjAbhAI ne huM e cAra jaNane kahyuM, temAM paheluM mane kahyuM 77

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AtmaniSTha dhruva tAro pU. zrI aMbAlAlabhAI amadAvAda zrI rAjapuranA daherAsarajImAM pU. munibhagavaMto sAthe pU. aMbAlAlabhAI tathA pU. bhAIzrI, zrI paramakRpALudevanI paramArthasUcaka vAtane dhyAnathI sAMbhaLI rahyA che. zrI pa2makRpALudevanA dehotsargasamaye pU. aMbAlAlabhAInI vi2havedanA

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AtmaniSTha dhruva tAro pU.zrI aMbAlAlabhAI je * - chagana, "tArA mana - vacana - kAyA amone arpaNa karo." eTale meM kahyuM - "mArAM mana, vacana, kAyA ane AtmA tamone arpaNa che" pachI pUjya aMbAlAlabhAIne kahyuM ke - tane kahIzuM ke, "cAlo, amArI sAthe (saMsAra choDIne) pachI dukAnanuM ke ghara vigere kAmanuM jovAnuM nahIM rahe." tema sArI rIte pUchyuM ke "tame mana - vacana - kAyA arpaNa karazo ?" kharI rIte kahevarAvIne te baMnee arpaNa karyuM pachI apUrva bodha cAlato temAM asaMgapaNAno ane Atma upayoga viSe bodha hato te veLAe to jANe kRpALudeva viSe deha ja na hato ne sAhebajIne AtmAno upayoga hato. paramakRpALudeve A rIte potApaNuM kaDhAvI nAMkhyuM. vaLI evuM bolyA ke huM aMbAlAlane kahIza - "tane vacanAmRtajI maLaze.' amadAvAdathI je divase muMbaI padhAratA hatA te veLAe sTezana para vaLoTAvavA pUjya popaTalAlabhAI, bhAIbA, pUjya aMbAlAlabhAI vigere AvyA hatA - sTezana para hAtha joDI UbhA rahyA. te veLA udAsInatAthI kahyuM - "tame amArA jevA kyAre thazo ?" pUjya aMbAlAlabhAIe khaMbhAta javA mAMDyuM te veLAe prabhue tene kahyuM ke - "tuM popaTalAlabhAI pAse jaIne - samAdhAna saMtoSa karIne jaje. khaMbhAtamAM subodhaka pustakazALA sthApI temAM dukAne je raLe teno tAre cotho bhAga Apavo.'" evuM aMbAlAlane kahyuM - pachI hA, ema kahyuM. tyAre pharIne kRpALudeve kahyuM, "je A sAlano je raLe - teno eka varasano kamANIno cotho bhAga Apaje. ane bIje varase tArI marajI mujaba Apaje" te pramANe pUjya aMbAlAlabhAIe kabula karyuM hatuM. ekavAra pUjya mAtuzrI deva mAe jaNAvyuM - mane to barAbara samajaNa nahIM, paNa bhAIe samajaNa pADI ke A sUtra - zAstra 'uttarAdhyayana'tamArA kharcathI maMgAvela che, te tame mane vahorAvo. tethI meM kRpALudevane vahorAvyuM. eka divase aMbAlAlabhAI sAthe mAtuzrI devamA ane nAnAM mAtuzrI bhAvasAranI vADIe AvyAM. paramakRpALudeve mAtuzrI devamAne vrata levA mATe bAra vrata saMkSiptamAM lakhI ApyA hatAM ane 'jJAnArNava'mAMthI brahmacaryano adhikAra saMbhaLAvavA kahyuM hatuM te pramANe zrI devakaraNajIe vAMcI saMbhaLAvyuM. A vakhate pUjya prabhuzrI ane pUjya aMbAlAlabhAI beThA hatA. vAMcana pUrNa thaI gayA pachI muni devakarNajIe mAtuzrIne kahyuM ke, "mAtuzrI have AjJA Apo ke jethI kRpALudeva sarva viratine grahaNa kare ane ghaNA jIvono uddhAra kare." mAtuzrI bolyA ke - "mane bahu moha che. temanA uparano moha mane chUTato nathI." mAtuzrI kahe "zarIra sArUM thayA pachI huM rajA ApIza." ATalI vAtacIta thayA pachI pU. aMbAlAlabhAI ane devamAtuzrI temaja nAnAM mAtuzrI AgAkhAnanA baMgale gayAM. eka divasa prabhuzrIjI bhAvasAranI vADIthI sarasapuranA upAzrayamAM AvyA. tyAM eka vakhata rAtrinA bAra vAgyA pachI aMbAlAlabhAIne kRpALudevanI AjJA thavAthI sarasapura AvyA ane temaNe vAta karI ke - Aje mArA para parama gurUe apUrva kRpA karI che ane mAro je pramAda hato te Aje naSTa karAvyo che. vaLI jAgRti ApI - "mULa mArga kevI rIte hovo joIe" te saMbaMdhe vyavahAra ane paramArtha baMnenuM svarUpa mane Aje koI alaukika prakAre samajAvyuM. sAthe paramArtha poSaNa thAya evA sadvyavahAranuM 78

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AtmaniSTha dhruva tAro pU.zrI aMbAlAlabhAI svarUpa paNa mane samajAvyuM. bodhabIjanI dRDhatA ane zuddhatA e rIte karI. ityAdi vAto karatAM savAra thayuM hovAthI - aMbAlAlabhAI zrI paramagurUnA caraNa samIpa padhAryA. CO khaMbhAtanA pUjya zrI tribhovanabhAIne paramakRpALudeve kahyuM ke, "mumukSue mumukSune arthe (sevAmAM) A deha jato karavA sudhImAM aDacaNa gaNavI nahIM." zrI AgAkhAnanA baMgale pUjya bhAIzrI sevAmAM hatA. baMgalAmAM nIce rasoDuM mumukSuo mATe hatuM. tyAM pUjya aMbAlAlabhAI paMdara divasa rahyA hatA ne khaMbhAtanA bIjA bhAIo paNa tyAM rasoDe jamatA. - pUjya bhAIzrIe kahyuM - sAheba ! mAre vacanAmRtajInI prasAdI mATe araja che, aMbAlAlabhAI te nathI ApatA. - teozrIe kahyuM ke - "aMbAlAlabhAIne eno moha thayo che." A traNa noTo - hAtha noMdhanI che te tamane maLaze, pharIthI mAMgaNI pUjya bhAIzrIe vacanAmRtanI karI tyAre teozrIe jaNAvyuM ke - tane e ja game che ? hA. tyAre kRpA karI pote jaNAvyuM ke - "amo muMbaIthI mokalI ApIzuM." te kRpA karI muMbaIthI aMbAlAlabhAInA hastAkSaranI be noTo mokalI ApI hatI. pUnAvALA gagalabhAI baMgale AvyA hatA. prabhu sAthe vAta karatA hatA te vakhate zrI aMbAlAlabhAI jarA dUra sAme UbhA hatA, tyAre paramakRpALudevazrIe aMbAlAlabhAIne pUchyuM ke - "zA mATe ema cheTA UbhA cho ?' tyAre zrI aMbAlAlabhAIe javAba Apyo ke, "Apa ekAMtamAM vAta karatA hatA, tethI Ubho hato." tyAre kRpALudeve bhAIzrIne pUchyuM, "kema popaTa ! A ThIka kahe che ?" tyAre javAba Apyo ke, "zuM kahevuM joIe ?" tyAre paramakRpALudeve khulAso karyo ke "jJAnIne ekAMta kevI ? adhikArI paratve vAta thatI hatI ema kahevuM joIe." kRpALudeva amadAvAda zrI rAjapara derAsara javAnA hovAthI pUjya popaTalAlabhAIne AvavA AjJA thaI tethI pUjya bhAIzrI prabhunA darzana karavA gayA. tyAM pahoMcyA pachI zrI jinamaMdiramAM zrI AnaMdaghanajI kRta - chaThThA zrI padmaprabhujInuM stavana bhoMyarAmAM zrI paramakRpALudeve gAyuM hatuM. te gaMbhIra ane madhura svare hatuM. teno artha paNa kahI saMbhaLAvyo hato. te vakhate munizrI devakaraNajIno hAtha pakaDI zrI Adizvara bhagavAnanI pratimAjIne batAvIne bheTADyA ane kahyuM ke - "he munio ! juo, A mokSano namuno che." ema kahI vRttio ujamALa karI hatI. amadAvAdathI tiththala thaI paramakRpALu paramAtmA zrI vaDhavANa padhAryA. saM. 1957nA mahA mAsamAM pUjya aMbAlAlabhAI potAnA nAnAbhAI nagInadAsa maganalAla sAthe vaDhavANa kRpALunAthanI sevAmAM eka mahIno rahyA hatA. pachI kRpALudeve javAnI AjJA karI tethI khaMbhAta AvyA. khaMbhAtathI pUjya aMbAlAlabhAI paramakRpALune patrathI zarI2 prakRtinA yathAsthita jANavA lakhe che, tenA javAbamAM paramAtmA lakhe che. (svahastathI) tyAM dehAtmAnuM bhinnapaNuM ja darzita thAya che. "zarIra prakRti udayAnusAra che. ghaNuM karI Aje rAjakoTa pratye gamana thaze. zrI pravacanasAra graMtha lakhAya che te avasare munivarone prApta thavA yogya che.'' va. 950

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AtmaniSTha dhruva tAro pU. zrI aMbAlAlabhAI "rAjakoTa thoDAka divasa sthitino saMbhava che." thoDA divasa eTale zuM ? kevo gUDhArtha, sAMketika vANI. pUjya aMbAlAlabhAI rAgavaza samajyA hoya ke kema ? pachI AgaLanA patramAM kaMIka Azaya spaSTa thAya che. "ghaNI tvarAthI pravAsa pUro karavAno hato, tyAM vacce saharAnuM raNa saMprApta thayuM. page nikAcita udayamAna thAka grahaNa karyo - je svarUpa che te anyathA thatuM nathI e ja abhUta Azcarya che. avyAbAdha sthiratA che." - va. 951- A azarIrIbhAvanuM vedana - anubhave che. zrI paramakRpALudevano pUjya aMbAlAlabhAI uparano chello patra che. - khaMbhAta - zALAnA pustako - paramakRpALudeve ghaNA mumukSuone sazAstra kharIdavAnuM zivamAM jaNAvyuM hatuM. teozrInI AjJA pramANe zrI padamazIbhAIe khaMbhAta pustakazALA mATe A pustako kharIdI ApyAM hatAM tenAM nAma 1 zrI prakaraNa ratnAkara bhAga - 4 2 zrIpALa rAsa 3 yogazAstra - zrI hemacaMdrAcAryakRta 4 zrI adhyAtma sAra pa vIza sthAnakano rAsa 6 zrI tatvArtha sUtra 7 zrI AcArya haribhadrASTaka 8 zrI dvAdazAnuprekSA 9 zrI dharma sarvasva adhikAra 10 zrI karmagraMtha 11 zrI viduranIti 12 zrI punarjanma zrI rAjakoTa vi. saM. 1957 potAnA prANAdhAra paramAtmAnI zarIra prakRti ati kSINa thaI gayela hovAthI pUjaya aMbAlAlabhAI rAjakoTa prabhu sevAmAM rahevA AjJA maMgAve che, paramakRpALudevane pUchAve che. jeno javAba lakhavA paramakRpALudeve zrI dhArazIbhAIne kahyuM hatuM ke te aMbAlAlabhAIne patra lakhe, eTale dhArazIbhAI lakhI jaNAve che - bhAIzrI aMbAlAla joga - caitra suda pUnamanA roja Apane tathA munione eka patra lakhavA paramakRpALu devazrIe mane AjJA karI hatI, te mujaba sevAkAryathI paravArI kAgaLa lakhI huM jyAre vaMcAvavA laI gayo tyAre zrI paramakRpALudeva bolyA ke, "- mAro kahevAno Azaya pharI gayo che" amuka vAta patramAM Azaya bahAra lakhANI che. te pramANe bhUlano Thapako ApavAthI huM bahu khedakhinna thayo hato. tenI sAthe kema lakhavuM te pharI sUcanA thavAnI hatI paraMtu pharIthI te jogavAI banI nahIM. huM morabI AvavA nIkaLI gayo. A vAMcI aMbAlAlabhAIne zuM vyathA viyoganI thaI haze te tenuM aMtara jANe, paraMtu ema banavAmAM hariicchA samajI prabhu virahamAM satata citta rAkhI rahyA hatA. 81

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AtmaniSTha dhruva tAro pU. zrI aMbAlAlabhAI 'paricaya prabhAva - pratibhAva' pustakamAMthI zrI rAjakoTamAM caitra mAsamAM paramakRpALudevanA darzane mumukSuo Ave, tene zrI aMbAlAlabhAInA hastathI utArela zrI prabhunA bichAnA pAse Tebala upara vacanAmRtajInI buka paDI hoya temAMthI koI vacanAmRta kADhIne vAMcavAnuM kRpALudeva kahe, te patra mumukSu vAMcIne saMtoSa pAme, ane potAnA para prabhue Aje kevI kRpA karI ema ahobhAva vedI saMtoSa pAmIne jAya. te vakhate kalolathI zrI kuMvarajIbhAI prabhunA darzane AvyA hatA. kRpALudeva samIpe te bukamAMthI vacanAmRta vAMcI, jANe mane kRpAnAthe bodha ApI kRtArtha karyo che, evo bhAva vedatA. mumukSu namaskAra karI bahAra nIkaLI jatA. paramAtmA samakSa - AjJAthI vacanAmRto vAMcatA tenI alaukika asara thatI hatI. zrI aMbAlAlabhAIne paramakRpALudevanA nirvANanA samAcAra maLatAM viraha vedana thayuM te zrI kuMvarajIbhAIne lakhI jaNAve che. zrI kuMvarajIbhAI joga, prabhu to vikaTa araNyane viSe nirAdhAra mUkI cAlyA gayA, je prabhuno viyoga vAraMvAra bdayamAM bharAI jaI kAMI sUjhatuM nathI. Akho divasa ane rAtrI skraya bharAI jaI AMkhomAMthI AMsu vahyA kare che. have konA AdhAre jIvIzuM? he nAtha ! A pAmara para Avo gajaba kopa karyo te ThIka nahIM : pAmarane nirAdhAra karI cAlyA, have to Apano AdhAra che. li. aMbAlAlanA savinaya namaskAra kRpALudevanA nirvANa bAda pUjya bhAIzrIne maLatAM pUjaya aMbAlAlabhAIe satsaMganI durlabhatAnuM vedana jaNAvyuM ke - mokSamArga gayo. have vinaya kono karIe - vinaya karavA yogya puruSa hatA te to cAlyA gayA. saMtano saMga - satsaMga 1) pahelI bhakti - navadhA bhakti - jANe kalpavRkSa heThe beThA e bhakta hRyanA svAmIne AtamanA ArAmIno satsaMga saMvata 1946 mAM prathama thayo. e parama satsaMga thayo tyArathI saM. 1957 sudhI eTale bAra varSa sudhI priya prabhuno sahavAsa rahyo tyAM sudhI te bhakta, bhagavAnanA bhAve Azrita rahyA. eTale AtmabhAvathI samaye samaye temAM ja nivAsa (va. 291 mAM) nirdiSTa vRttie IcchatA hatA. va. 43ra mAM temane ja udezIne lakhyuM che tema vAraMvAra e ja prabhune najara samakSa jotA hatA. nirakhatA hatA. "hasatA ramatAM pragaTa hari dekhuM re," enA dayamaMdiramAM rAjyoti jaLahaLatI hatI. e divya jyotie enA jIvanane ajavALI dIdhuM. enA caitanyanI cinagArI pragaTAvI ne bhava vistAra karI dIdho. janmAMtaranA asatu saMskArone satsaMge dilanA vicAro palaTAvI dIdhA. kRpALudeva kahe che - "satsaMga e sarva sukhanuM mULa che." 82

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AtmaniSTha dhruva tAro pU. zrI aMbAlAlabhAI 2) bIjI bhakti - zravaNa - hari kathAmAM prema kevo hato ? jema "mana mahIlAnuM vhAlA upare" tema bIjAM kAryo karatAM paramAtmAnA alaukika svarUpanuM AkarSaNa rahetuM tethI ghaDI ghaDI mana satsaMgamAM doDI jatuM. va. 121 mAM prabhue kahyuM tema - "te dhArmika kathA mukhya karIne to satsaMgane viSe ja rahI che." ethI tattvazradhdhA janme che. teo mumukSubhAIo sAthe prabhunA guNagrAma, tenA mahAbhyanI kathA-vArtA karatAM prema UbharAto, gopI banI jatA ne mAdhava lyo, koI mAdhava lyo, harirasa pIvA jevo che. te magana thaIne pI lyo, pI lyo, ema kahetA. enI AMkhamAMthI mukhamAMthI are ! sAMdhe sAMdhe rasa saMcarato. e kathAmRta bhava saMtApa bujhAvanArUM - svaparane priya thaI paDyuM hatuM. rasa bhInA thaIne guNagAna gAtAM harikathA karatAM jIvananA khoTA vicAranuM pAnuM pheravI nAMkhe che. "jasa guNakathA bhavavyathA bhAMje" - pUjaya yazovijayajI mahArAja prabhunA premI janane hari kathA karatAM AnaMdanA sarovara jevI TADhaka haiye thAya che. e sarovaramAM DUbakI daI moja mANe che. jJAna kathA, bhagavat kathAthI mananI mUMjhavaNano ukela maLe che. mAyAmaya saMsArano thAka utAre che, chevaTe sat kathAno rasaprema ApaNane paramAtmAnA dvAre pahoMcADe che. paramakRpALu deva kahe che - "mArganA dvAra para AvI pahoMcelAne vilaMba nahIM haze." va. 54 3) trIjI bhakti - gurUcaraNa sevA abhimAnarahita banI : - pUjya aMbAlAlabhAI vyavahAra zikSaNamAM vakIlanuM bhaNyA hatA. nAtanA saMghavI zrImaMtanA zreSThI putra chatAM rasoIyA banI rAjacaraNa sevAmAM tatpara rahetA. laukika moTAI ene na naDatI. lokalAja ADI na AvatI. enA bhagavAnanI rIjhamAM potAnI rIjha mAnatA hatA. zrI rAjacaraNanA e kharekharA anurAgI hatA. enI haiyAnI ukalata - caturatA evI ke A to mAnavadehe paramAtmA che evuM aMtara jAgI gayuM hatuM. saMsAranA trividha tApamAM ene prema samAdhi lAgI jatI. satu caraNamAM bhramaNAo badhI bhAgI javAthI janmanI-jIvananI sArthakatA lAgatI. caraNodakanI mahAmUlI auSadhinuM sevana karatAM bhavaroga maTADe che. aMte te paramAtmAnI gatine pichANI le che. "huM" ne "mArA"no paDado tUTI jAya eTale e ja enI sAdhanAno aMta - sAdhya prabhu sAMpaDatAnI sAthe e ja eka lakSa - pravAha cAle che. "caraNa jahAje pAmIye, akSaya zivanagaranuM rAja re, bhavatAraNo bhagavaMta re." - pU. devacaMdrajI mahArAja 4) cothI bhakti - kapaTano tyAga karIne prabhunA guNonuM gAna karavuM. "jenA guNagrAma karavAthI jIva bhavamukta hoya che." - va. 399 - "asArabhUta vyavahAra sArabhUta prayojananI peThe karavAno udaya varyA chatAM je puruSo te udayathI kSobha na pAmatAM sahajabhAva svadharmamAM nizcaLapaNe rahyA che." - va. 788 - evA mArA sahajAnmasvarUpa svAmI zrI rAjacaMdra deva

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AtmaniSTha dhruva tAro pU.zrI aMbAlAlabhAI che. tenA anaMta vIryane namaskAra karUM chuM. AvA prabhunA adbhuta apUrva guNonuM pUjya aMbAlAlabhAI ullasIta hRdaye gAna karatA. dIrghakALanI jenI sthiti che, tene alpakALanI sthitimAM ANI, jemaNe karmakSaya karyo che.'' - va. 791 - evA parama parAkramI, dhIra, vIra A bhagavAnane bhajo . dehAbhimAna ane dehAdhyAsa nAno sarakho rahyo hoya te paNa prabhue chedI nAMkhyo. pU. aMbAlAlabhAIne mUcha upara hAtha pheravavAnI Teva hatI. kRpALudeve karUNAthI zuddha kaMcanarUpa banAvavA eka veLA hajAmane kahI dIdhuM ke - "tuM tenI mUchane boDI nAMkhaje." hajAme tema karyuM ne kahyuM - "sAhebajInI AjJA hatI tethI meM karyu che. eTale aMbAlAlabhAIne vikalpa na thayo." "huM jANuM chuM." e ahaM, bhaktimArgamAM naDatararUpa che. huM kaMI nathI. huM pAmara abudha chuM. "huM dIna mAnava sAdhanahIna chuM, Avyo chuM tuma zaraNe." - zrI punita "huM dAsa, cAkara deva tAro ziSya tuja pharajaMda re.'' - pUjya yazovijayajI mahArAja A eno jIvanamaMtra hato. paramakRpALudevanuM jIvanavRttAMta bAra pAnAmAM AlekhyuM che. anokhI e zailI che. temAM bALavayanI videhI dazA, jJAna prabhAva, pUrvanI janmasiddha - yogadazA, vItarAgatAnA saullAsa cittathI guNagAna karyAM che. te mAtra potAnI AtmazuddhinA hetue mAnAdinI kAmanAthI rahita e hira bheTyAno umaLako raheto. citta temAM prasanna thatuM. "kapaTarahita thaI Atama arapaNA re, AnaMdaghana pada reha." 5) pAMcamI bhakti - maMtra jApa, deDhatA, vizvAsa pUjya aMbAlAlabhAI "mahAdivyAH kukSIratna, zabdAjita 2vAtmajam; zrI rAjacaMdra mahaMvaMde, tattvalocana dAyakam" tathA "sahajAtmasvarUpa paramagurU" - e zrI sadgurU maMtrano jApa ahonIza karatA hatA ane te AMgaLInA TeravA para hAtha pheravIne satata nAma smaraNa karatA, raTaNa karatA. mAnasa jApa, ajapA jApa to enA zvAse zvAse cAlu hato. prabhu nAma rasAyaNa tulya temane lAgatuM. zrI rAja e nAma letAM e nAmI prabhu jANe hAka mArIne bolAvatA hoya tema tene anubhavAtuM. nAmanuM guMjana rage ragamAM prasarI jatuM - padastha dhyAnathI aMtara paDado khulI gayo, jagadhaNIne hRdayanayane nihALyA. eka saMta 'mero piyu merI pAsa basata hai, guMja karata dinarAtI' e piyu piyunI laganI lAgI rahI tyAM jagatanA mAyika prapaMconI, strI, dhana-kuTuMba vigerenI Asakti kyAMthI hoya. e laganInI sAkha - enA samAdhi maraNanI ghaDI pUre che. vajAzAhe pUchyuM ke tamAre kAMI bhalAmaNa karavI hoya te karo. javAbamAM kAMI na kIdhuM. prItamadAsanI vANI - 'nannA nAma nAva che sAra, je bese te utare pAra." jIvananI dareka paLano upayoga nAma smaraNamAM karatA. pratyeka kSaNa upara nAmano sTempa lagAvI tene pasAra thavA detA eTale eka paLa nakAmI na gumAvatA. pUjya kuMvarajIbhAI kalolavALAe emanA anubhavanI vAta jaNAvI che ane kRpALudeve bodhyuM che tema - "paLa e amUlya cIja che."

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AtmaniSTha dhruva tAro. pU. zrI aMbAlAlabhAI - e vicArI "AjanA divasanI 2, 16,000 vipaLano upayoga karaje." manuSyaavatAre samaye samaye navA karma bAMdhIne jIMdagIno hIna upayoga karyo che, te aTakAvI aMbAlAlabhAIe saphaLatAno mArga samajI lIdho. A eka bhavamAM paryaTanano kInAro lAvavA, - amUlya kaustubhathI vizeSa kiMmatI mAnavadehathI paramapada sAdhya karavA puruSArtha karyo, e nizcaya ane puruSArtha chellI kasoTI mRtyuveLAnI, te samaye sAkAra thayo. te sagAM-vahAlAM ane svajano paNa joI zakatA hatA. 6) chaThThI bhakti - Indriyadamana - sat kArya prIti : a) Indriyadamana : zrI sadgurU sevAmAM seje thatuM. "sevA dharmo parama gahano - sevA - sUzruSA karanAramAM nidrAjaya, rasanA saMyama, vikathA tyAga, pramAda jaya, AhArano jaya, zAtAzIlIyApaNu mUkavuM, bhaya, dugacchA-svachaMda choDavo joIe, to ja tana-mana-dhananI Asakti chUTe ema samajI ekAgratAthI sevA-sUzruSA karatA." ba) sat kArya prIti : paropakAra, dayA, dAnazIla, tIrtha yAtrA, svAmi vAtsalya, saMgha bhakti, dIna duHkhIne madada karavI, dardIne vyAdhithI pIDAtAne je kaMI sahAyatA thAya te karavI. zrI sadUdeva bhakti - satsaMga - sadharmArAdhana-satuzAstra adhyayana-zrI padmanaMdIjI Adi lekhana vigere AtmahitanA kAryomAM paNa jAgRta hatA. temanI pAse adhyAtmanI zuSka vAto na hatI. bIjAnuM duHkha joI tenuM dila dravatuM, tenA be dAkhalA AgaLa AvI gayA che. (pleganA dardInI jAte sAravAra karI), pheNAvanA choTAbhAIne pleganA dardamAM sevA karIne samAdhi maraNa karAvyuM. 7) sAtamI bhakti - AkhA jagatane prabhusvarUpe jovuM : zrI va. 163mAM paramakRpALudevanI zikSA che. "he hari sarvane viSe tuM cho ema hovAthI dAsatvabhAva rAkhavo," e paramadharmanA e upAsaka hatA. "sarvarUpe tuM samAna ja rahyo che, mATe bhedabhAvano tyAga karavo;" - va. 163 A bodha temanA uramAM pariNamyo hato. badhA jIvo harisvarUpe che. A dRSTi maLI pachI te pratye moTAI ke mAna kema rakhAya eTale vhAlA - davalAnA bheda nahIM. samadaSTivaMta potAthI koIne halako athavA nAno jotA nathI, tema jovAthI to e jIvanI sattAmAM rahelA harinI AzAtanA thAya, evI vilakSaNa vRtti jene kRpALu devanA bodhathI maLI hatI, e koInI prakRti - svabhAvane jotA nahIM. jIvathI prakRti judI che, ane te karma prakRti darekane mUkavAnI che. talamAM tela rahyuM che tema e dehadhArImAM paramAtmA beTho che. va. 159 e prabhu vacanano vicAra karatAM chevaTe nirNaya thayo ke - "sarvarUpe eka zrI hari ja che." ema lakSa rAkhavo, tyAre ja samAdhi-samAdhAna raheze. A vacana temaNe sammata karyuM hatuM. va. 833 - samyagadarzananuM baLavIrya e ja che ke - "sarvamAM sAmyabhAva 85

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AtmaniSTha dhuva tAro pU. zrI aMbAlAlabhAI utpanna thAya che." tethI tenA mana vizarAmI zrI rAjanA paramAnaMdasvarUpamAM vRttino pravAha nirAbAdhapaNe vahyA kare che, ane copAsanA pratikULa nimittomAM paNa aMtaraMgamAM to akaleza samAdhi bhogavI zake che. prabhunA bhakto mArA mAthA upara ho - huM tenI caraNa raja ke dAsAnudAsa chuM evo dAsatvabhAva enA vartanamAM dekhAto. koI ene page lAge to e namratAnI mUrti sAme hAtha joDatA namI paDatA ane kahetA - 'A tamAruM RNa huM kyAre cUkavIza?' e bhakta ATaluM jJAna chatAM eka aMza gurUbhAva na vedatA. samatA, dhIraja, sahanatA Adi guNa pragaTyA chatAM kAMI vizeSa zakti pragaTI ema mAnavA kadI taiyAra na hatA. 8) AThamI bhakti - saMtoSa ne svadoSa darzana : paramakRpALudevanA bodhanI asarathI sauprathama saMtoSarUpa kalpavRkSano temaNe Azraya karyo hato. lakSmIne mATe mana jhAMvA nAMkhatuM na hatuM. vaDIlopArjita mUDI - khetara - vADI vigere dAnamAM ApI dIdhuM. eTale hiMsAnA vyApArathI nivRtta thayA. potAnA bhAIone paNa saMtoSyA ane temane premanA amRta pAyA - jIvanamAM kadI kaDavAza karI nathI. temane satsaMgamAM sAtha Apyo. pitAjI maganadAdA tathA bhAI nagIna ane mohanabhAIne jJAnadhanano vAraso Apyo. (badhA kuTuMbIo aMbAlAlabhAInI preraNAthI kRpALudevanA satsaMgamAM AvyA tyArathI ja zraddhAvALA thayAM. temane sanmArge vALavA kathA - vArtA paNa karI che.) e rIte pitAnuM RNa adA karyuM. je avasare je prApta thAya tene viSe saMtoSamAM rahevuM," e prabhuno bodha ghaTamAM utaryo hovAthI sukha-du:khamAM, mAna-apamAna, lAbha-alAbha sama gaNI AtmAmAM viSama bhAva na thavA devAnI sAdhanAno upayoga rAkhatA. "duHkhanuM kAraNa mAtra viSamAtmA che, te jo sama che to sarva sukha ja che." prabhu arpita e vRttine dhAraNa karI hatI. AzA, tRSNA, vAsanAnAM bIjane mULamAMthI dUra karavA koziza karatA hatA. "zIla ratana ko pArakho, mIThA bole veNa, saba jaga se UMco rahe, nIcAM DhALe neNa." "jIvanuM mUDhapaNuM pharI pharI, kSaNe kSaNe, prasaMge prasaMge vicAravAmAM jo sacetapaNuM na rAkhavAmAM AvyuM to Avo joga banyo te paNa vRthA che." - va. 479 "vANInuM saMyamana zreyarUpa che." e AjJA samajI aMtara vicAramAM rahI, svadoSa darzana karatA. 9) navamI bhakti - zaraNAgati : mAyika sukhanI vAMchA choDavA mATe zrI sadgurU pratye tana, mana, dhana ane AtmAthI arpaNa buddhi karavI." - va. 166 - temanA pratye ja kRpALudeve upadezya che ke - "vidyamAna puruSanI prApti ane tenA pratye parama premArpaNa." anaMtakALe e ja mArga che. - va. 254 - A amUlya vacanone

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AtmaniSTha dhruva tAro pU.zrI aMbAlAlabhAI temaNe caritArtha karyAM hatAM. temanAmAM e ja bhAvanAnuM jIvaMta rUpe prAgaTya thayuM hatuM. jagatanA zaraNa badhA baLatarAvALA jANI te pratye vairAgya bhAva jAgyo. -- tulasIjI - maiM bharoMse apane rAma ke, ora na hai kucha kAmake." jagata vyavahAranuM mAhAtmya UDI javAthI prabhu AzrayamAM temanuM mana sthapAyeluM rahI zakatuM. saMsAra mohinIno raMga osarato hato. "hira icchA je haze te sukhadAyaka ja haze" "dhIraja rAkhavI ane hiraicchA sukhadAyaka mAnavI,'' eTaluM ja kartavya samajAyuM hatuM. bhaktanuM jIvana bhagavAna bharose hoya che, kAraNa te prabhune te ja sarvasva soMpIne beThA hoya che ane jagatamAM janmIne prabhu milana sivAya tenI bIjI jhaMkhanA hotI nathI - kartavya nathI mAnyuM. enA neNa ane veNamAM prabhu vaselA hoya che. Izvara para vizvAsa ajoDa hoya che. tethI je prabhu karaze te mama hitanuM, ema ja zaraNAgati - bhaktinuM rahasya che. "huM nuM sthAna tenA aMtaramAM vilaya pAmyuM hoya che." "huM ne sthAne harine sthApI - huM - ne paramAtmAnuM dAsatva Ape che." arthAt "huM" nahIM "tuM"mAM "huM" zamAI jAya che. e judo paDato nathI. hirathI bhedabhAva tene poSAto nathI. jo citta kaMI paNa bIjAmAM jAya che, to tene vyathA thAya che. bhaktanA jIvanamAM saraLatA otaprota vasI hoya che. e prArthe che. "prabhu tArI che hUMpha, hUMphe hUMphe huM jIvuM chuM." tethI aMtara zAMti pAme che. haridarzananI camatkArika prabhA kevI che te va.mAM prabhue sUcavyuM che ke - "jJAnIpuruSane joyA pachI, jJAnIpuruSanAM vacanane sAMbhaLyA pachI strInuM sajIvana zarIra ajIvanapaNe bhAsyA vinA rahe nahIM. kharekhara pRthvIno vikAra dhanAdi saMpatti bhAsyA vinA rahe nahIM.'' - 2. 454 aMbAlAlabhAIne kRpALunA darzanathI e ja prakAre saMsAramAM pravartavA pratyayI vIryamaMda paDI gayuM, jethI te saMbaMdhI - brahmacaryanI pratijJA - prIti sphUryA karatI ane parigrahanI maryAdA - alpatA hovAthI parama prabhunA satsaMgamAM ghaNIvAra ane lAMbo samaya rahevAnuM banatuM, nahIM to nivRtti kyAMthI maLe ? kRpALudeva tyAgavRttine baLapUraka zAlibhadranuM dRSTAMta Ape che. "mAthe rAjA varte che" eTalA vAkyanA ihApoha (vicAra) thI garbhazrImaMta evA zrI zALibhadra te kALathI strI Adi paricayane tyAgavArUpa prAraMbha bhajatA havA. AvA satpuruSanA vairAgyane sAMbhaLyA chatAM A jIva ghaNA varSanA Agrahe kALano vizvAsa kare che, te kiyA baLe karato haze ? te vicArI jovA yogya che." - va. 477 A vacana ApaNane paNa vicArI jotAM gADha mohanidrAmAMthI jagADe che. "alpa AhAra nidrA vaza kare, heta sneha jagathI parihare, loka lAja vi dhare lagAra, eka citta prabhuthI prIta dhAra.' evA prabhu mArganA pathikanuM vartana - AcaraNa paNa bIjA sAdhakone zikSA levA jevuM - dRSTAMta 97

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AtmaniSTha dhruva tAro pU. zrI aMbAlAlabhAI hoya che. eTale ja cidAnaMdajI jevA jJAnI purUSa prabhunuM dhyAna karavAne yogya kevo jIva hoya te bodha zaraNAgatinI baLavAna utkRSTatA, viziSTatA ane apUrva phaLa prApta thavA paramakRpALudeve aMbAlAlabhAIne niHzaMkatA karAvI che, te vacana temaNe hRdayagata karyu che, Atma pariNAma karyuM che. janaka rAjAnuM dRSTAMta ApatAM bodhe che ke - "videhIpaNe janakarAjAnI pravRtti te atyaMta udAsa pariNAmane lIdhe rahetI; ghaNuM karIne temane te sahaja svarUpamAM hatI; tathApi koI mAyAnA duranta prasaMgamAM samudrane viSe jema nAva yatkiMcit DolAyamAna thAya tema te pariNAmanuM DolAyamAna thavApaNuM saMbhavita hovAthI pratyeka mAyAnA prasaMgamAM kevaLa jenI udAsa avasthA che evA nijagurU aSTAvakranI zaraNatA svIkArI hovAthI mAyAne sukhe tarI zakAya ema thatuM hatuM, kAraNa ke mahAtmAnA AlaMbananI evI ja baLavattaratA che." - va. 321 zuddha caitanyamUrti prabhunA caraNamAM lokaspRhAdino tyAga karI, zuddha prema bhAve, ananya AzritapaNe vartI paramAtmAnI nikaTa thaI gayA. enAthI paTaMtara pAmyA. Atmajoga A ja dehe sAdhavA parAkrama karyuM. tana-mananI zakti gopavyA vinA paMcamakALa para paga daI, samyagrajJAna, darzana, cAritranI upAsanA rAkhyA karI che. - va. 306 e bhaktinA AdhArarUpa evA viveka, dhairya ane Azraya e traNa guNanuM zikSApatra graMthamAM je pratipAdana karyuM che, te vicArI svaguNa karavA upayoga Apyo che." - va. 489 te yathArtha jANI viyogamAM paNa citta prabhumAM rAkhI - dhIrajanuM avalaMbana lIdhuM che. saM. 1957 thI 1963 zrI paramakRpALudevanA virahanI vyathA nirvANa samaye pUjaya dhArazIbhAI pratye patra lakhatAM vyakta thaI che. je "kheda, kheda ne kheda e vinA bIjuM kaMI sUjhatuM nathI. rAtri divasa raDI raDIne kATuM chuM." A zabdomAM vedAnuM darda prabhuno premI jana jANe, enA vinA rAta-divasa kevI rIte kADhyAM haze ? mIrAMnI prabhumAM taddarUpa thavAnI jhaMkhanA te tenI prabhu bhaktinA padomAM nItare che. zrI AnaMdaghanajI, pUjaya devacaMdrajI, pUjaya yazovijayajI mahArAjane paNa virahanI brAhmI vedanA lAgI "jima viraho kadIye navi huve, kIjIe tehavo saMca, sevaka yaza kahe sAhIbA, bhAMjo te bheda prapaMca." prabhu jaNAve che - "jene lAgI che tene ja lAgI che ane teNe ja jANI che; te ja "piyu piyu" pokAre che. e brAhmI vedanA kahI kema jAya?" - va. 241 mIrAMbAI mahAbhaktivAna hatAM. - tene zrIkRSNa viyoganuM du:kha keTaluM AkaruM hatuM te temanA bhajanamAM jovA maLe che. "e rI meM to daI dIvAnI merA darda na jAne koI, ghAyala kI gata ghAyala jAne." 88

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AtmaniSTha dhruva tAro pU. zrI aMbAlAlabhAI niraMjana yAra moye kaise mileMge, dUra dekhuM meM dariyA DuMgara; UMce bAdala nIce jamIyu tale. niraMjana yAra.. AnaMdaghana kahe jaza suno bAtA, yehI mile to merI pherI TaLe. niraMjana yAra.... temane ja lakhyuM che ke :- "te samUrtinA viyoge ghaDI eka AyuSya bhogavavuM te paNa tene viTaMbanA lAge che." - va. 212 evI virahanI jhuraNa dazA e pativratArUpa mumukSune hatI. eka dekhiye jAniye, ramI rahiye ika Thaura." - va. 219 - evI laya - gopAMganAnI hatI evI paramAtmA prabhu rAjacaMdradeva pratye zrI aMbAlAlabhAIne hatI e nirvivAda che. aMtara lakSane prema prabhu sAthe, eka palaka nava bhUle." - choTam "have evo nizcaya karavo ghaTe che, ke jene AtmasvarUpa prApta che, pragaTa che, te puruSa vinA bIjo koI te AtmasvarUpa yathArtha kahevA yogya nathI. ......amArA samAgamano hAla aMtarAya jANI cittane pramAdano avakAza Apavo yogya nahIM, paraspara mumukSubhAIono samAgama avyavasthita thavA devo yogya nahIM; nivRttinAM kSetrano prasaMga nyUna thavA devo yogya nahI; kAmanApUrvaka pravRtti yogya nahIM." - va. 449 jJAnIpurUSanA viyogamAM zuM karavuM ke jethI jIva mArgamAM Ubho rahe. - "hAla amArA samAgamano aprasaMga che ema jANyA chatAM paNa tama sarva bhAIoe je prakAre jIvane zAMta, dAMtapaNuM ubhava thAya te prakAre vAMcanAdi samAgama karavo ghaTe che. te vAta baLavAna karavA yogya che." - va. 517 e virahavedana dareka bhaktimAnane hoya ja che ne prabhuvirahamAM paramAtmAnuM satatuM raTaNa - dhyAna - layatA avirata rahe che, tethI prabhunI sAthe aikyatA - abheda bhakti pragaTe che. e parAbhakti ja ene jyotimAM milAvI de che. pUjya mAnavijayajI mahArAja bhagavAnane jANe olaMbhA de che. "manamAM hI ANI vAsiyo, have kema nisaravA devAya; jo bhedarahita mujazuM milo, to palakamAMthI chUTAya." saM. 1957 thI 1963nA viyoganA samayamAM pUjya bhAIzrI, pUjaya manasukhabhAI kIracaMda, zrI dAmajIbhAI, pUjya kuMvarajIbhAI vigere para patro lakhI paramArtha prIti deDha karI che. eka e ja zrI rAja bhaktinuM siMcana karyuM che. AtmAne te bhAve popyo che. mAThA deza-kALa-saMgAdinA yoge te visarjana na thAya tevI emaNe jAgRti rAkhI che ane mumukSune rakhAvI che. svAdhyAya-bhakti, nivRtti, satsaMga ne vairAgya kathAthI saMsAra bhAvanAnuM zoSaNa thAya tevA vairAgya raMgathI temanuM hRdaya raMgAyeluM hatuM. pote jIvanamAM svAcaraNa rAkhyuM hovAthI bIjA para enI chApa paDatI.

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AtmaniSTha dhruva tAro pU. zrI aMbAlAlabhAI zrI samayasAramAM banArasIdAse bhaktinA nava prakAra batAvyA che. (1) zravaNa (2) kIrtana (3) ciMtavana (4) vaMdana (5) sevana (6) dhyAna (7) laghutA (2) samatA (9) ekatA pUjya aMbAlAlabhAIe paramakRpALu nAthanI navadhA bhakti jIvana paryaMta akhaMDa vRttithI upAsI hatI. tenAM phaLarUpe samAdhi maraNa pAmI bhakta zabarInI jema AtmArAma evA zrImad rAjacaMdra prabhunA svarUpamAM samAI gayA che. paramakRpALunI kRpAthI anaMtabhava eka bhavamAM TALavAno bhagIratha purUSArtha karyo. e Azcarya sAthe ApaNane ahobhAva utpanna kare che. kRpALudevanA nirvANa pachInA virahakALamAM temanA guNe raMgAI cetanA jAgRta rAkhI mumukSune paNa upakArabhUta thayA che. prabhubhaktanA kArya agamya hoya che. enI mukhamudrA badalAya che, premateja mukha para avanavuM jhaLake che, te potAnI jAta bhUlI jAya che. muzkelImAM paNa caraNazraddhA makkama che. zrI vacanAmRta graMthanI prathamavRtti saM. 1961mAM paramazruta prabhAvaka maMDaLa taraphathI bahAra paDI temAM pUjaya aMbAlAlabhAIno mukhya sahakAra hato. paramakRpALudeve ja paramazruta prabhAvaka maMDaLanuM kAma - je jUnA zAstra saMzodhana karavA, tenA anuvAda lakhavA, zuddha akSarathI utArA karavA, pATaNa - khaMbhAta vigerenA jJAna bhaMDAramAMthI zodha karavI - kharIdavA vigerenI doravaNI aMbAlAlabhAIne ApI hatI. kuTuMba vyavahAranI javAbadArI chatAM e koInI mAyA mamatA tenA aMtaramAM na hatI. eka ja guMjana - zrI rAja nAma ane temanI AjJA ziromAnya gaNI hatI. e rIte prabhu viyoganA - cha varSanA gALAmAM pote prabhune potAnA karI lIdhA. prema bhaktinA pUra pravahyA tethI harine hAtha karI lIdhA. zrI marakanda dave - spenanA saMta jahonanA kAvyano anuvAda karatAM lakhe che :jhaMkhA juga juganI dharI, huM to UDa calI AkAza jIvaNa jovAnI sakhI mune eka ja Aza, meM harine hAtha karI lIdhA merama to moTA dhaNI, ane ame taNakhalA tola prItama te pAyu mune, evuM zuM aNamola have kahuM dhaDakate Dhola, meM harine hAtha karI lIdhA." samAdhi-sAdhanA pUjya aMbAlAlabhAInA bhAI zrI mohanabhAIe moTA bhAInA samAdhi mRtyunuM Alekhana karyuM che. te nIce pramANe - caitra vada 7 ne zukravAra rAtanA Azare nava vAgyAnA sumAre huM tyAM gayo hato te vakhate paramapUjya moTAbhAI aMbAlAla beThA hatA. zanivAre agiyAra vAgatA sudhI tAvanI sTeja sAja zarUAta hatI. te pachI zanivAre kezavanI sAthe kahevarAvyuM ke mane tAva Avyo che mATe AvI jajo . CO GS,

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AtmaniSTha dhruva tAro pU. zrI aMbAlAlabhAI eTale huM bapore doDha vAgyAnA sumAre jIrALA pADe gayo tyAre pATa upara sUtA hatA. te divasa huM muMbaI javAno hato. mane kahyuM ke tuM muMbaI jaIza nahIM. te pachI pitAzrIne bolAvavA mANasa mokalyuM. te vakhate temanI zraddhA paramakRpALu devanA guNagrAmamAM tathA vicAra bhaktimAM hatI. pachI cAra vAge pitAzrI maganalAlabhAI padhAryA, temaNe tathA meM kahyuM, "sutAravADe tame cAlo." te vakhate potAnA ghara uparano mamatvabhAva tajI AvavA hA kahI ane AtmAmAM akhaMDa lIna hatA ane amo tyAM vAtacIta karatA hatA te upara teo bIlakula dhyAna ApatA nahIM. sAMje pAMca vAgyAnA arasAmAM satsaMgI tribhovanabhAI padhAryA. pUjaya aMbAlAlabhAInA page be hAtha lagADI namaskAra karyA tyAre pUjaya aMbAlAlabhAIe kahyuM ke - "A devuM huM kyAre cUkavIza ?" ema kahI pote beThA thaI je sevA bajAvatA hatA te baMdha karAvI tyArapachI ghoDAgADI lAvavA mane kahyuM paNa tuM jamIne jA, eTale jamIne gayo. te vakhate pote hiMcakA para beThA hatA te potAnI meLe UThIne pATa upara beThA. paramakRpALudevanuM smaraNa karIne gharanI bahAra nIkaLyA, mane gADImAM besavA kahyuM pachI pote potAnI meLe beThA. gADI bajAramAM AvI te vakhate bolyA ke A seja sAja tAva rahyo che. bIjuM kAMI duHkha nathI ema mane dhIraja ApI. pachI sutAravADAnI khaDakImAM AvyA. mArA pitAzrI UbhA hatA. pitAjIe kahyuM ke - hAtha jhAluM, Utaro. tyAre javAba Apyo ke nA, huM UtarIza ema kahI gADImAMthI ghare UtaryA. te vakhate vaidya maNIzaMkare nADa tapAsI kahyuM ke tAva che paNa davA saMbaMdhI kAMI pUchaparacha karI nahIM. zarIra uparathI moha dazA UtarI gayAnuM lAgatuM. pachI rAtanA dasanA sumAre suMdaralAlanA makAne sUtA ane kahyuM ke mArI pAse koIne sUvADazo nahIM. paraMtu bimArI te pachI vadhI gaI. bIje divase caitra vada AThama ravivAre savAranA UDyA paNa Izvara bhaktimAM lIna hatA. Akho divasa he paramakRpALu, he parama gurU, sarvajJa deva tathA zAstronI gAthAnuM smaraNa karatA hatA te vakhate zrI choTAbhAI, zrI tribhovanabhAI, zrI kIlAbhAI, zrI lallubhAI paTela, zrI mohanalAla, zrI jagajIvanadAsa vigere avAranavAra AvatA ane pUjaya aMbAlAlabhAIne jaNAvatA ke - "paramakRpALudevanuM smaraNa - dhyAna akhaMDa rAkhavuM. AtmA akhaMDa che, je Apa jANo cho. sarvajJa devanuM smaraNa je Apa karo cho tevI rIte karyA karazo." tevI hakIkata sAMbhaLavA potAnI Indriyo barAbara sateja rAkhatA ane pote aNasAro hAthanI AMgaLIthI batAvatA hatA - "ke e ja che." chAtie pittanuM jora vadhu hatuM. ravivAre bapore TapAla AvI, kezave kahyuM - pUjaya dAmajIbhAI tathA pUjya manasukhabhAI kIracaMdanI TapAla che. to kahyuM - "zuM lakhe che te vAMca." kezave beya patra vAMcyA paNa kAMI bolyA nahIM. zuM javAba lakhavo te kahyuM nahIM. tevI mohadazA UtArelI cokkasa jaNAI. bAda pAMca vAgatAM mitra ratanalAla AvyA, pote zuddha rIte bhAnamAM chatAM kahyuM nahIM ke padhAro. temanA mitra bhAIcaMdabhAI jyAre Ave tyAre dharma saMbaMdhI temaja nItithI cAlavuM, vivekathI vartavuM, asatyano tyAga karavo ema 91

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AtmaniSTha dhruva tAro ma pU.zrI aMbAlAlabhAI saM. 1963 - khaMbhAta jI2ALApADethI pU. zrI aMbAlAlabhAi mAMgInA kAraNe potAnA ghe2 pIThanA sutA2vADe AvyA te dRzya. saM. 1963 - pU. zrI aMbAlAlabhAInuM samAdhima2Na chellA divasanA samayamAM gioca2 thAya che.

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AtmaniSTha dhruva tAro pU. zrI aMbAlAlabhAI haMmeza vAto karatA. A vakhate kaMI paNa kahyuM nahIM. baporanA vakhate zrI tribhovanabhAI vacanAmRta vAMcatA te kAna daIne barAbara sAMbhaLatA. vaLI vedanAnA udayathI zvAsa vadhAre caDato hato. 1015 miniTa hA-hA, tyAre he prabhu ! he nAtha ! e rIte be divasa sudhI ema karatA. ravivAre rAtanA bAra vAge temanA putra nemacaMdanA sasarA vajecaMde pUjaya aMbAlAlabhAIne beThA karyA, ane kahyuM ke chokarA vigerenI tamo pitAzrI tathA bhAIone bhalAmaNa karo. tyAre pUjaya bhAIzrI aMbAlAle AMkho miMcI dIdhI. vajecaMde pharI pAMca-sAta vAra kahyuM ke, tamo je kahevuM hoya te amane kaho. te sAMbhaLI AMkho miMcI detA. tyAre vajAzAhe kahyuM ke tamane bhAna nathI tethI javAba detA nathI. vajecaMde pUchyuM ke, "huM koNa chuM ? tame oLakhatA ho to kaho." bhAIzrI kahe, 'tame vajAzAha cho.' 'chokarAva vigere mATe zuM kahevuM che ?" "mane suvADo." te vakhate saghaLA kuTuMbI hAjara hatA. pitAzrIe kahyuM mane je tamAre kahevuM hoya te kaho. tyAre eTaluM bolyA - "have mane suvADo" - he sahajAtmasvarUpa. A rIte ghara, kuTuMba parathI, khAvA-pIvAnA padArtho parathI ekadama mohadazA UtArI nAMkhI hatI. somavAre savAre pitAzrI, bhAI, patnI vigeree pucadAna kareluM tenI vigata pote zAMta bhAve sAMbhaLI lIdhI hatI. somavAre Akho divasa mumukSubhAIo dharma saMbaMdhI zravaNa karAvatA ane zrI saddagurUnuM zaraNa tathA jinezvara devanI bhakti ane AtmA akhaMDa che. A vedanIyano udaya che, zAMti Apa rAkho cho tevI kAyama rahe tema eka dhyAna bhaktimAM karazo. vaLI gAMdhI dolatacaMde jIvarAzI saMbhaLAvyuM ane 84 lAkha jIvone pote khamAvyA ne samAdhithI pote vedanIya sahana karatA hatA. - pote pUchatA ke bhAI nagInabhAI tathA bhAIcaMdane A rogamAM kema che ? somavAranA bapora sudhImAM sthiti ghaNI bhayaMkara, vedanA ghaNI hatI. cAra vAgyAnA arasAmAM bhAIzrI bolyA ke he prabhu tAruM zaraNa ! kIlAbhAI sAMjanA padhArela te vakhata Akhara sthitimAM hatA to paNa he prabhu ! he prabhu ! doharA zuddha sthitithI bolatA. chevaTe deha choDavA samaye sarve mumukSu bhAIo dharmanuM vivecana karatA hatA. vedanI pote zAMtabhAve vedatAM deha choDyo tyAre koI jAtanI asvasthatA anubhavI nathI. chelle zrI tribhovanabhAI moTuM pustaka vAMcatAM te dhyAna daIne sAMbhaLatA hatA. chevaTa sudhI temano deha choDaze tevA cinho thayA nathI ane rAtanA sADA nave vi.saM. 1963nA caitra vada bArase samAdhibhAve deha mUkyo. dharmanA pUrNa AhalAdamAM TUMkuM AyuSya pUrNa karyuM. deha mUkatAM bhAIzrInI kAMti zobhI UThI hatI ne deha choDatAM sudhI kAMti ramaNIya dekhAtI hatI ane DAbA pagano aMgUTho camaka camaka thato hato. OM zAMtiH nAtha jevo nibhAvyo nibhAvI leje, Avyo tAre dvAre tuM svikArI leje mArI sAthe sadAye tuM Ubho raheje. tArA caraNone AMsuthI dhovA deje. - punita

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AtmaniSTha dhruva tAro pU. zrI aMbAlAlabhAI anaMtakALe je 'sata' prApta nathI thayuM - paramAtmA darzana, AjJA ArAdhana - te vikaTa kArya temaNe karyuM. "pIche lAga sapurUSa ke" kRpALunI keDe paDI gayA, te vacana temaNe mAthe caDAvyuM - "to saba baMdhana toDa." apUrva puruSanuM ArAdhana karI apUrva vastu meLavI - anaMtakALanI bhUla TALI to saghaLAM kArya siddha thayAM. "anaMta sukhadhAmanuM dhyAna karatAM anaMta zAMtine varyA. pUjya aMbAlAlabhAInuM A eka prakAranuM sAgArI aNasaNa ja kahevAya. laukika rIte aNasaNanI kriyA na karI paNa bhAvathI paccakhANa karyA jethI teo sutAravADe AvyA. pachI koI sAthe kaMIpaNa bolyA nahIM. pUchatAM chatAM eka akSarano javAba na dIdho, tema zarIra mATe vaidane davAnI paNa icchA na batAvI. pitAjI, putra ke bhAI koIno vikalpa rAkhyo nahIM - bhalAmaNa karI nahIM. pUjya sobhAgabhAIne prabhue lakhyuM che, joyuM che, tevI asaMgatAnI sAdhanA karI lIdhI. "koIne arthe vikalpa nahIM ANatAM asaMgapaNuM ja rAkhazo... zarIra nirvAhAdi vyavahAra sau saunA prArabdha pramANe prApta thavA yogya che." - va. 780 "te deha choDatI vakhate jeTalA aMze asaMgapaNuM, nirmohapaNuM, yathArtha samarasapaNuM rahe che teTaluM mokSapada najIka che." - jeoe potAnA svahastathI prabhuvANInA UtArA karyA hatA te kaMI lakhavA pUratA ke mAna arthe nathI karyA paraMtu zrI saddagurUnI AjJAthI ane zrutabhaktithI te parama amRtasama amara banAvanArA vacanAmRtono UtAro karatAM - ghaTamAM utarI gayA hatA. evuM eka vacana zeThazrI anupacaMda malakacaMdane mRtyunI ciMtA thAya che tyAre bhAvathI aNasaNa kone kahevAya te vAta samajAvI che. "ghaNuM karIne utpanna karelAM evAM karmanI rahasyabhUta mati mRtyu vakhate varte che. - - - sadvicAre yathArtha AtmadeSTi ke vAstava udAsInatA to sarva jIva samUha jotAM koIka virala jIvane kvacit kvacit hoya che; .....deha ane tenA saMbaMdhI saMbaMdhano vAraMvArano vikSepa choDI daI, yathArtha AtmabhAvano vicAra karavAnuM lakSagata karo to te ja sArthaka che. chelle avasare anazanAdi ke saMtarAdika ke saMlekhanAdika kriyA kvacit bano ke na bano to paNa je jIvane upara kahyo te bhAva lakSagata che, teno janma saphaLa che, ane krame karI te niHzreyane prApta thAya che." - va. 702 A prakAre jJAnInA mArge pU. aMbAlAlabhAIe janma-jIvana saphaLa karyuM. ane paramapadane meLavI levAnI cAvI hAtha dharI. pU. aMbAlAlabhAIe zrI manasukhabhAI upara lakhela patro 1) AtmArthI bhAIzrI manasukhabhAI kIratacaMda vi. kRpA patta eka maLyuM che. siddhizAstranuM vecANa lakhyuM te jANyuM che. bAkInA mATe yogya vyavasthAthI phelAvo thAya tema karavA vijJapti che. mAsika bahAra pADavA vicAra che te jANyuM che. mAsikanuM nAma "sanAtana jaina' hatuM. ThIka, sarvatra deza, kALa, bhAva ane pariNAma vicArIne karavuM yogya che. A khAsa vAMcazojI. Atma vicAro, Atma jAgRti mATe game tyAre paNa nivRtti ke satsaMga vagara joga banavo 94

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AtmaniSTha dhruva tAro pU. zrI aMbAlAlabhAI nathI ane te pravRttimAM rahyA koIka mahatuM bhAgya mumukSune prApta hoya che. sAmAnya vicAravAnane satsaMga yoga avazya meLavavo ghaTe che. siddhizAstra tathA bhAvanA bodhanA vecANa paikI graMtha ekanA rUpiyA tera aDadho Ano zAha revAzaMkara jagajIvanane tyAM bharI siddhizAstra chapAvavA paDe to tyAM chapAvI pahoMca lakhazo. hAla e ja. sevaka aMbAlAlanA praNAma. hAla kema varte che te lakhazo. saranAmuM : khaMbhAta subodhaka pustakAlaya. tamAma jAtanA jaina dharmanA ane zrImad rAjacaMdra mokSamALA, AtmasiddhizAstra vigere tathA bIjA sarvadharmane lagatA pustako temaja nIti saMbaMdhI upayogI pustako maLaze. zALAnA saranAme maLaze. zrI subodhaka pustakAlaya tA. 9-11-1904 vi. saM. - 1960 zrI sadagurU caraNAya namaH 2) AtmArthI bhAIzrI manasukhabhAI kIratacaMda tathA pUjya bhAIzrI dAmajIbhAI kezavajI muMbaI madhye vi. vi. boTAdavALA phoTogrAphara ThAkarajI morArajIe saM. 1948nI sAlanA kRpALuzrInA citrapaTa chapAvI te vece che. te citrapaTo atrethI jIvonI yogyatAnusAra vidhipUrvaka batAvI azAtanA na thAya ane teno prema vadhe tema jaNAvI maphata ApavAmAM Ave che. have macakara dhaNI kamAvavAnI AzAe pote vece che. te yathArtha che ke kema ? athavA te vecANa te cAlu rAkhe to tethI paramArtha dubhAya ke kema ? athavA tene aTakAvavAno vicAra thAya to zuM pagalAM bharavAM joIe teno vicAra karI yogya uttara taratamAM lakhavA kRpA karazo. e ja. sevaka aMbAlAlanA namaskAra patro - mumukSunA pU. aMbAlAlabhAI pratye 1) zrI aMbAlAla, li. sobhAganA ghaTAratha vAMcajo . tAra kRpALudevano Avela tamane vAMcavA bIDyo che. ghaNI samajavA jevI vAta che ema jANI copaDI bAMdhI na hoya to tame copaDImAM chApajo . kadApi baMdhAI hoya to navI copaDImAM chApajo . AvA khulAsA A kALa ane A kSetramAM bIjo koI Ape evo puruSa mArI samajamAM nathI. ApaNA pUraNa bhAgya che ke AvA puruSano samAgama maLyo che. sarva bhAyune mArA ghaTAutha kahezo. phAgaNa vada - 3 gurU (sAyalethI) 95

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AtmaniSTha dhruva tAro 9 pU.zrI aMbAlAlabhAI 2) zrI sadgurUdevane namaskAra : paramapUjya AtmArthI zrI svarUpa icchAvaMta zAha aMbAlAla lAlacaMda vigere je je purUSane moha - ajJAna tathA mithyAtvano upazama thayo che, rAga tathA dveSa jenA maMda paDyA che, Indriyo tathA AtmA jene potAne vaza varte che, kaSAyaagnino jenAmAM jaya che, tRSNAne TALIne saMtoSane viSe ahonIza AtmasvarUpamAM ramaNa karI rahyA che, para pudgalathI udAsInatA varte che, purAtana karmanA udaye anicchA jene viSe rahe che, sadAkALa svabhAvarUpI dharama pIne parasvabhAvamAM pesI karma baMdha thatA nathI evA AtmaguNa jJAnanA rasiyA mahaMta puruSane parama pUjya upamA ghaTe. ama sarIkhAne ALarUpa che. tamo amadAvAdathI bharUca sudhI kRpALudevanA samAgamamAM gayA te bahu dhanyavAda che. amAre icchA rahI gaI. da : dhorIbhAInA namaskAra svikArazo. saM. 1952 - Aso vadI - 11 3) parama durlabha satsaMga prApta aneka guNAlaMkRta bhAIzrI aMbAlAlabhAI, naDIyAda. vizeSa vinaMtI ke Apano kRpApatra tathA zrI Atmasiddhi graMtha kSudhAturane jema bhojana maLe evo vAMcatAM AnaMda prApta thayo che. eka vakhata te graMtha vAMcI gayo chuM. saraLa bhASAmAM atyaMta gaMbhIratAdarzaka ane jenI TIkA ke anuvAda kharekharA jJAnI-anubhavIthI ja thAya evo A graMtha che. mane anubhava nathI. tema zAstra jJAnapaNa nathI ane A gaMbhIra AzayanA graMthano zabdArtha mAre lakhavo ati kaThaNa che, paNa siMhanA prasAdathI jema bakaro hAthInA mastaka para besI zakyo hato tema vidyamAna sadgurUnI sahAyathI zrI AtmasiddhinA anuvAda tarIke dara saptAhe pAnA - 10 - dasa Apane bIDIza. mane bhASAjJAna nathI mATe te saMbaMdhI mArA vicAromAM pheraphAra hoya to te jaNAvazo. vAraMvAra vinayapUrvaka zrImad pa2mopakArI zrI sadgurU pratye mArI vaMdaNA kahezo. haMmeza saMbhALa levA (mArI) vinaMtI karazo. li. sevaka mANekalAla ghelAbhAInA daMDavat praNAma 4) zrI saubhAgyabhAInA samAgama arthe Apa sAyale jazo. AjJAthI lakhyuM che. zrI Atmasiddhi graMtha tathA upadeza patro tamArA pratyethI zravaNa karavAnI zrI saubhAgyabhAIne vizeSa jijJAsA che. prasaMgopAt sAmAnya mumukSuo samAgamamAM hoya tyAre banatA sudhI AdhyAtmika patro na vAMcavA temaja Atmasiddhi to zrI saubhAgyabhAInI sAthe ekAMtamAM vicArAya tema karazo. keTalAka tenA Azaya zrImukhe kahyA che te smrutimAM hoya to zrI saubhAgabhAIne darzAvazo. muMbaI - jeTha vada 1 bhoma manasukha ravajInA praNAma

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AtmaniSTha dhruva tAro pU.zrI aMbAlAlabhAI 5) zrI sadgurUdevane namo namaH saM. 1953 mahAsuda 14 AtmArthI bhAIzrI aMbAlAlabhAI. parama zItaLakArI evI kalpadrumanI chAyA nIce besI amRtamaya rasanuM pAna eTale anubhavanI prApti mATe jhaMkhanA karatA alpajJajIva popaTa manajInA praNAma. Aje parama pUjyazrInI AjJAthI morabI Avyo chuM. zrI sadgurUno yoga temaja Apa sarve mumukSubaMdhuono satsaMga A jIva prApta karavA e kRpALunAthanI pAse yAcanA kare che, e yoganI pUrNa zraddhA che. citrapaTa viSe hakIkata lakhI te jANI. parama pUjyazrIno abhiprAya thoDA divasamAM IDara javAno che. sarve bhAIone praNAma. mAtuzrIjIne zarIra sukhavRtti che. li. sevaka popaTanA daMDavat praNAma. zrI puruSottama gurUdevane paLe paLe namaskAra ho ! 6) mumukSu pUjya pavitrabhAI zrI aMbAlAla lAlacaMdanI sevAmAM amadAvAdathI vinaMtI sevaka lavajI motIcaMdanA daMDavat praNAma vAMcazo. Apano kRpApAtra poMhato che. Ape je kartavya dhAryu che te ati stuti pAtra che. hAlamAM huM amadAvAda chuM, ane hajI taratamAM rajA maLe tema nathI. aMjAramAM ghara (vavANiyAmAM kRpALudevane bhaNAvatA te mAstara) AgaLa koI nathI jethI kRpALudeva mahAtmAnA koIpaNa bodhipatro mokalI zakAtA nathI tene mATe nirUpAya chuM. Apa kevA bhAgyazALI cho ke mahAtmAne puraNa oLakhI zakyA cho. ahIM to satsaMga paNa maLato nathI tenuM kAraNa ochA punyanuM samajuM chuM. vizeSa mahAtmA zrIjInuM smaraNa aharniza rAkhazojI, vaLato patra lakhazo. amadAvAda kaccha darabArI utAro 7) zrImad sadgurU caraNAya namaH priyabhAI mumukSubhAI aMbAlAla, Apano patra vAMcI saMtoSa upajyo che. Ape lakhyuM te sat che. dharma AtmAmAM che. pudgalika tattvamAM dharma nathI te vAta satya che. tema karavAnI icchA varte che. satsaMga maLethI thaze. A jIva ghaNo ajJAnano bharelo satsaMganA abhAve ghaNo vikSepa pAme che, paraMtu Apano patra Ave che tyAre zAMti pAme che. satpuruSanuM padhAravuM kyAre thaze te lakhavA kRpA karazojI. bhAI popaTalAlanI vRtti paNa tema jaNAya che. satzAsra batAvyA pramANe vAMcavA vicAravAnuM thoDuM thoDuM bane che, paNa tevA yoganA abhAve lAcArI che. li. godhAvIthI vanamALI 8) huM anaMtadoSathI bharelo chuM. kRpALudevanA darzana thavA ghaNA ja Agraha thayA kare che chatAM aMtarAyanA DuMgarA ADA AvavAthI tathA karmanI bahoLatAthI yoga maLavo ghaNo durlabha jaNAya che. ApanA lakhavAthI jANa thaI ke kRpALudeva deza tarapha padhAryA che. tethI kRpALunAthanA darzananI je je A AzA hatI te hamaNAM tuTI gaI tethI aMtarAyano udde haze ema jaNAya che. kheDAnA patrathI 97

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AtmaniSTha dhruva tAro pU.zrI aMbAlAlabhAI kRpALunAtha ANaMda korenaTAInamAM rahyA che evuM jANI kRpALunAthane gaIkAle ANaMda tAra karelo paNa kAMI juvAba noto. CC e ja li. vanamALI 1955 vaizAkha suda 14 maMgaLa 9) zrI aMbAlAlabhAInI sevAmAM vinaMtI je Apano kRpApAtra bIlakula nathI. zrImad paramagurU devAdhidevazrI gayA zanivAre rAtre lIMbaDI padhArI bIje divasa bapora sudhI rahI sADAtraNa baje IDara tarapha padhAravAne amadAvAda padhAryA che. kRpALudevazrIe je graMtha tamone sudhAravAne sArUM mokalyo che tenI nakala levAne mane AjJA karI che ke je mokSamArga prakAza graMtha amadAvAdamAM popaTalAla bhAI pAse hato, te jo Apa sudhArI rahyA hoya to atre mokalavAnI kRpA karazo. li. se. ke.nA namaskAra 10) sujJa devagurU bhaktikA2ka bhAIzrI aMbAlAla vigere vigere. saMvata 1956 vaizAkha suda 2 bhomavAra dharamapurathI ApanuM pattuM Aje pahoMcyuM che. pUjyazrInI prakRti atre vizeSa bagaDI hatI. ApaNA pUrva punyathI darzana thayAM che. teone hAla jo ke tAva nathI paNa khorAka khavAto nathI, azakti ghaNI ja che, atrethI pAMcamane zukravAre pesenjara athavA mela TreInamAM nIkaLI Apane tyAM ANaMda chaThThane zanivAre AvavuM thaze. Apa samayasAra tathA kArtikeyAnuprekSA AdinA pustako sAthe rAkhI ANaMda sTezana upara vaizAkha suda 6nI zanivAre savAre hAjara rahejo. potAno vicAra amadAvAda kIvA viramagAma chaThThanA sAMjanA sudhI rokAvAno che. rAtanA cAlI vaDhavANa javA vicAra che. garamI sahana thaI zake nahIM mATe Ama vyavasthA rAkhI che. Apa bane to sAthe javAnI taiyArI karI Avajo. tyAM vinaMtI karajo pachI thAya te kharUM. li. mANekalAla ghelAbhAInA savinayapUrvaka namaskAra saM. 1956 11) zrI maherabAna murabbI bhAIzrI aMbAlAlabhAI joga lI. dharmasnehIbhAI khImacaMda devacaMdanA praNAma vAMcazojI. gaIkAle atre bhAI dAmajI kezavajI pUjya sAhebajInA caraNa upAsanA karavA padhArela te AvyA. temaNe pUjyazrInI tabiyata viSe sArI khabara dIdhI che te sAMbhaLI bahu ja AnaMda thayo che. haMmezA pUjya sAhebanI sArI sthitinA khabara devA kRpA karazojI. bahu punyanA prabhAvathI Apa sAhebajInA caraNarajanI sevA karo cho tethI tamane tathA tamArA saMjogane dhanyavAda che. mArI evA prasaMgAdimAM Apa bhAIonA darzanano tathA pUjya sAhebajInA darzanano tathA pUjya sAhebajInI nabaLI sthitimAM kazo lAbha laI zakato nathI. mana

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AtmaniSTha dhuva tAro pU. zrI aMbAlAlabhAI ghaNA mudata thayA AkAMkSA rAkhI AkarSaNa kare che, paNa keTalAka saMjoganI khAmIne lIdhe mArAthI kazuM banI zakyuM nathI. saMsArIka niyamano tathA bIjA saMjogo keTalAka to vighna karatA sanmukha rahe che ke jenuM kahevuM paNa zuM ? tema vaLI te murmAnI paNa khAmI che, jethI vizeSa baLa spharatuM nathI, jenA kAraNathI dhAreluM kAma pAra pADI zakAtuM nathI to paNa manamAM evA vicAra upara AvuM chuM ke mahAtmAonI kIrapAthI sarva hita ja thaze. pUjya sAhebajIne zAtA pUchI punaH punaH pradakSiNA daI daMDavat praNAma karazojI ane sevakanA aneka doSanI nivRttirUpa AdhAra sadA jayavaMta varto ema Icche che. mArI sAmAnya matithI je kAlu ghelu lakhyuM te yogya jANI svIkArazojI. vizeSa lakhavuM e che ke zrIjI sAhebanI pratimA saM. 1948nI sAlanI tathA hAlanI kAyotsarga mudrA tathA jinamudrA mokalavAnI kRpA karazo eTale maherabAnI. te mATe je kharca thAya te lakhI vALazo eTalI maherabAnI. vaLato patra amAre davAkhAne karazojI. sarve mumukSune praNAma kahezojI. 12) pUjya aMbAlAlabhAI - Apa murabbI sAyale padhAryA ane vaLatI vakhate lIMbaDIye padhAryAnuM karyuM nahIM tethI pUro kheda thayo che to Apa kRpALunA darzananI teTalI aMtarAya, to have hAlamAM kRpA karI patra dvAre darzanano lAbha Apazo. ApazrI murabbI pUjaya zrI saubhAgyacaMdrabhAI samAdhivata thayA temanA darzanano lAbha lIdho to Apa puraNa bhAgyavAna ane mArA jevA pApIne najIka chatAM darzanano lAbha levAno nahIM e have pazcAtApa thAya che. temanA guNo saddagurU pratye eka niSThA, ane sahajAtma svarUpanuM smaraNa, tevI dazAnI khabara Ape jaNAvI to temane mArA vatI trikALa namaskAra ho ! namaskAra ho ! 13) zrImad saddagurUdevane atyaMta bhaktithI trikALa namaskAra pUjaya kRpALubhAIzrI aMbAlAlabhAInI pavitra sevAmAM. ApanuM ahIM utaryA sivAya khaMbhAta javuM thayuM tethI kheda thayo. haju satsaMgano joga vadhAre maLe evo punyodaya mAro nathI. kRpALu zrI sobhAgacaMdrabhAInuM jIvana vRtAMta mumukSune avadhAravA lAyaka che. e mahAtmA zreya sAdhaka varganA chatrarUpa hatA, tema sarve baMdhune temanA viyogathI kheda thayela che. eka kRpALuzrIne vAraMvAra namaskAra ho ! temano amara AtmA zIvapurImAM zAMtithI birAjo. A sAthe kRpAnAthanuM pattuM mArA para Avela mokalyuM che. alpajJa chorU sukhalAlanA sASTAMga daMDavat praNAma. 14) pUjya aMbAlAlabhAInI sevAmAM ApanA pattA viSe vizeSa vicAra thatAM kRpALuzrInuM zarIra ati kSINatAne pAmyuM jaNAya che ane te manane bhayaMkara lAge che, mATe kRpA karI Apa teozrInI prakRtinA khabara turata Apajo. harasanI pIDA kevI che ? anAja keTaluM levAya che ? zarIranuM valaNa sudhArA para che ke kema ? jarUra ATalI kRpA karazo. parama vItarAgI avyakta zuddha caitanyane bhajatA te paramayogI zrI saddagurUnA caraNamAM A bALanA namaskAra punaH punaH prApta thAya. sarva Adhi, vyAdhi ne upAdhimAM draSTArUpa te -

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AtmaniSTha dhruva tAro pU.zrI aMbAlAlabhAI svayaMbhU sva caitanyanI sattAnI ujjavaLatAthI anyanI paNa vibhAvatAne nAza karatA mahAna yogIndra jyAM vicare che te bhUmine namaskAra karuM chuM. te kSetrane ane temanI sevAmAM rahI parama caitanya svarUpane upAsatA evA sarva bhAIo tathA bahenone punaH punaH namaskAra karuM chuM. jenA caraNa sevavAthI sarva icchita prApta thAya che, jenA darzanathI sarva pApano nAza thAya che evA parama vItarAga asaMgapaNAne bhajatA te zrI sadgurUnA caraNa sadAya jayavaMta raho. zrI sadgurUnI AjJA pramANe viveka ane vinayathI vartanAra Apa bhAIo paramagurUnI vANInA amRtanuM pAna karI kaMcanarUpa thayA cho paNa A pApI maMdabuddhi pramAdI tarapha kRpA kaTAkSa nAkhyA karo cho te mATe punaH punaH upakAra mAnuM chuM. lI. dAsAnudAsa sukhalAla che. nA savinaya namaskAra svIkArazojI. 15) saM. 1955 mahAsuda 6 paramakRpALu paramAtmA deva pratye same same namaskAra ho ! 52ma pUjya pa2ma mumukSubhAI aMbAlAlabhAI pratye. Ape parama pUjya sukhalAlabhAInI mAraphate A bALa sArU 'AtmAnuzAsana' nAmano graMtha mokalyo te Ajaroja prApta thayo, tethI ghaNo AbhArI chuM. tenI kIMmatanA paisA jaNAvazo. he bhAI ! huM to gAmaDAmAM adhavaca paDyo chuM tethI satsaMgano ghaNo viraha paDe che. kAMI paNa yathAtathya vicArAtuM nathI tema vAMcavAnuM banatuM nathI. prasaMge prasaMge amadAvAda vIramagAma javAya che tyAre satsaMgano lAbha levAya che. mArA mAThA bhAgyanA udaye karI kRpALudeva amadAvAda eka rAta sthiti karI melamAM bArobAra birAjyA paNa mArA hIna bhAgye bhagavaMtanA darzanano paNa lAbha malyo nathI, tethI anaMta khedavAna chuM. dhanya che Apa jevA parama mumukSubhAIone je vItarAganA pratApe Apa paNa vItarAgatA anubhavo cho. hAlamAM vRtti ThIka cAle che. 6 : vanamALI saM. 1955 vaizAkha suda 15 amadAvAdathI 100 16) parama pUjya zrI aMbAlAlabhAInI sevAmAM, khaMbhAta Apano patra Avyo hato paNa taratamAM uttara ApI zakyo nathI te mATe kSamA icchuM chuM. zrImad paramakRpALudevazrI ravivAranA sAMjanA vaDhavANanI miksamAM padhAryA hatA ne bArobAra UThI zeThanI vADInA sAme premAbhAInA baMgalAmAM birAjyA hatA ane maMgaLavAre savAre 10nI TreInamAM IDara padhAryA hatA. te vacamAM apUrva bodha maLyo hato. viramagAmathI sukhalAla paNa sAthe AvyA hatA. sAMbhaLavAno lAbha maLyo hato. vanamALIbhAI tathA ThAkarazIbhAI paNa sAthe hatA. mANasa baMgale 20, 25 hatuM. vizeSa hakIkata hamaNAM lakhI zakato nathI, rUbarUmAM banI zakaze. bIjuM kRpALubhAI darzanano lAbha Apazo, sarva satsaMgI bhAIone namaskAra. 'kriyA koSa'nI copaDI naMga 4 levA jaNAvI che, ApanA pAse hoya to vAMcavA jarUra che te mokalAvI Apazo. hAlamAM vyavahArika upAdhithI nivaryo chuM; to ApanI tarapha khaMbhAta ke vavANIyA javA vicAra che, temAM ApanI anukULatA IcchuM chuM. hAlamAM mAre zuM kartavya che ? te jaNAvazo. nivRtti sthaLe dasa, paMdara

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AtmaniSTha dhruva tAro pU. zrI aMbAlAlabhAI divasa jaI zakAya tevuM bane to ThIka, jema yogya lAge tema jaNAvazo. - sevaka popaTanA savinaya namaskAra traNe kALane jeNe muThThImAM lIdho evA sadUgurU vardhamAna zrImad rAjyacaMdrane trikALa namaskAra ! mRtyuthI je nirbhaya thayA, mana jenuM niMdAmAM ane stutimAM samavarte che te mahAtmAone namaskAra ! 17) parama pUjaya bhAIzrI aMbAlAlabhAI pratye ApanI taraphathI Aje kArDa pahoMcyuM, vAMcI upakAra thayo che. he dharmabaMdhu ! ApanA vagara A mUDhane AvI lAgaNI koNa Apata? Apano parama upakAra thayo che tethI sevakane kRpA karI yogya avasare zikSA ApavA kRpA karazo. hAla savAranA 8 thI 10 sudhImAM "mokSamArga prakAza' graMtha samajaNa pramANe vicAruM chuM. atre huM tathA vanamALIbhAI sahajasAja bhaktino vicAra karIye chIye. sANaMdathI mokSamArga prakAza graMtha vAMcavA sArU atre AvI gayo che te vAMcavAne dhAravA vicAra rahe che.... "mArgopadezikA' pustaka hAlamAM navAM chapAya che tethI maLyAM nathI. saMskRta bIjI copaDIno rUpiyo eka Apyo che. 'purUSArtha siddhiupAya' graMthanA zloka ekAvana utAryA che, kula 225 che. hAla e ja sevaka popaTa 195ra aSADha vada 2 ravi viramagAma zrImad prabhu mahAtmA zrI rAjyacaMdrajIne trikALa namaskAra 18) murabbI pUjya baMdhu zrI aMbAlAlabhAInI pavitra sevAmAM. Apano kRpAmaya patra tathA vacanAmRtanuM pustaka mane maLyuM hatuM te pustaka utArI laI ApanI AjJA anusAra baMdhAvI bhAIzrI kuMvarajIbhAIne kalola mokalAvyuM che. Ape mane sapuruSanA caraNakamaLamAM tallIna thavAno upadeza ApI upakAra karela che. avazya mArA zreyano mArga e ja che. Apane paNa puruSomAM TekArUpa eka cho ema gaNuM chuM, kAraNa ke zrI saddagurUnI kRpArUpa pyAlo jeNe pidhela che. vacanAmRtanuM pustaka sarve vAte zreyakara che. jenA vakhANa yathAyogya karI zakavA A lekhakanI zakti nathI. kRpA karI A lekhakane kRpALu gurUthI maLelA Azaya samajAvI patra dvArA raste caDAvavA vijJapti che. saddagurU taraphathI pavitra thayela ApanA vacano mane hitakara nivaDe ema IcchuM chuM. je pavitra purUSa viSe Apa lakho cho te purUSa tarapha mAro prema kevo che te huM zuM kahuM? kadAca premanA badalAmAM AtmA arpaNa thAya to paNa thoDuM ema huM samajuM chuM, paNa mArAthI je prema temanI tarapha rakhAya che te kharA prema sAthe sarakhAvatA ghaNo alpa che, kAraNa ke bhava duHkhanA tAraNahAra pavitra saddagurUnI sevA jayAM sudhI thaI zakatI nathI tyAM sudhI sarva vRthA che. e pavitra purUSanA caraNa upAsavA A jIvanI utkaMThA che paNa karmanI bahulatAne lIdhe ke mAyAno moha che eTale eTalo purUSArtha karavA samartha thato nathI e zrIjInI kRpA thaze tyAre e paNa thaze ema mane nizcaya che. saMsAra tarapha hajI kema vartAya che te sUjha paDatI nathI, 101

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AtmaniSTha dhruva tAro pU.zrI aMbAlAlabhAI kAraNa tyAga avasthA grahaNa karI nathI tyAM sudhI saMsAramAMthI mana haThyuM che ke nahIM te kahI zakAya nahIM, paramakRpALuzrI rasto karaze. Apa kRpALunA bodhanI aharnIza abhilASA che. paMcama ArAne viSe parama AtmavIryane sphuranAra, padarzana jene karakamaLavat hatA, vItarAgatA, samaSTithI jenA rome roma bhiMjAyelA hatA, jenA Atmapradeza dhyAnanI avagADha dazAnuM ullaMghana karI gayA hatA te paramayogI zrI sadgurUe paramakRpAthI ane anaMtadayAthI nikaTa AvatA jIvone apUrva jJAna hRdayathI hRdayamAM reDyuM che. je purUSonI jeTale darajje aMtaravRtti che te purUSone teTale darajje te jJAna prApta thayuM jaNAya che. A jIva upara kRpA karI te jJAna vardhamAna thAya evo bodha ApavA vinaMtI che. li. alpajJa sevaka saMghavI sukhalAlanA jaya sadgurU vaMdana 19) zrImad paramakRpALudeva pratye same same namaskAra AtmArthI parama pUjya bhAI aMbAlAla pratye. gaIkAle sAMjanA sADA cha vAgyAnI ahamadanagaranI gADImAM paramakRpALu devAdhideva pote amadAvAda javA birAjyA hatA ane zukravAranI miksamAM savAranA sADA nava vAgyAnI TreInamAM paramakRpALu deva tathA ci. chaganalAlabhAI tathA TokarazIbhAI mo2bI kSetre padhAryA che. huM viramagAma sIdho melamAM Avyo hato. dhanya che Apa jevA puruSavIrone ke jemaNe bhaktirUpI hathIyArathI mahAtmAone paNa vaza karyA che. e bhaktirUpI khaDaganI sattA AgaLa mahAna puruSo paNa namI apUrvatA bakSe che. li. alpajJa sukhalAla tathA popaTa tathA benazrInA namaskAra 20) pUjya juThAbhAInuM lakhANapatra dhairya e uttama che. huM alpajJa premanuM pAtra nathI. yogya upamAne paNa lAyaka nathI. kola karavA yA rAkhavA huM cAhato nathI temaja Apane e raste caDAvavA icchAvALo nathI, ApaNe sarvabaMdhuo eka ja icchAvALA chIye eTale have ApaNe baMdhAyelAne choDavA sArU satpuruSanA caraNa nivAsI thavA prayatna karIye. te satpuruSa je bodha Ape te grahavA AgrahI thaIe. i.i. vastugate e ja ke jinezvaradevanA vAkyanI khubIno ora rasto che. tenA marmane pAmyA vinA dharma nathI e ja TUMkAmAM che. caitanya potAnI svadazAne bhUlI jaI anyane Adhina thaI laMpaTa ane vyabhicArI thayela che. vyabhicArI mANasa luccAkhora, lAsarIyA, devAdAra gaNAya che temaja A caitanya karmarUpI vepArIno devAdAra che. te pAMca bharatAM bIjAM pacavIza upADe che, paNa aho baMdhu ! Azcarya che ke karmarUpI vepArI jevo umadA ane dhIravAvALo aNavizvAsu mANasa pratyakSamAM nathI mATe tene namaskAra karIne temanI peDhInA darzana na icchatA tvarAthI teonuM deNuM ApavuM e uttama gaNAya. vyabhicArI paragharane potAnuM jANI rahe che ane parINAme khattA khAya che temaja A caitanya paNa pudagalI vastune potAnI mAnI amaradazA mAnI beThuM che, paNa kALa Avye te vyabhicArInI mAphaka durgatimAM jatAM 102

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AtmaniSTha dhruva tAro pU. zrI aMbAlAlabhAI | khattA khAya che mATe have to te baMdhuo ! A caitanya je sattAe siddha samAna che tene potAnA gharamAM ja AnaMda manAvavA prayatnI thavuM e ja ApaNo sarva sammata dharma che. lI. tathAstu sa. 1946 po. zu. pUnama 22) pUjya aMbAlAlabhAI pratye : huM ATalA divasathI ema jANato hato ke jaina rahasyanA jANanAra mArI najare AvatA nathI paNa Aje ApanA patrathI ghaNo ja AnaMda pAmyo chuM. vastu che ema khAtrI thAya che. huM bALa ane maMdamati chuM. paNa ghaNA divasathI khoja pUrI thaI ema lAge che. to have jaNAvavAnuM ke Aje anaMtAnubaMdhInuM svarUpa jotAM (vAMcatA) kAMIka AgaLa vicAra para AvavuM thayuM to te svarUpa Apa je kaMI jANatA ho te vigatathI jaNAvavA vicAra karazo. huM ATalA divasa cotarapha agni saLagato dekhato hato, paNa ApanA be kAgaLathI ghaNo ja saMtoSavAna thayo chuM mATe hAla kAgaLa lakhavA kRpA karazo. li. mumukSuno dAsa popaTanA namaskAra rUpaka' - videhakSetranA yAtrIone pAsaporTa pUjya benazrI javalabena taraphathI Apa sau paramArtha premI jijJAsuo pratye kaMIka jaNAvavA AjJA lauM chuM. - pUjya munizrI bhadramuni A tIrthakSetre padhAratA tyAre ahIM vasatAM saune mATe ema kahI zakyA ke teo sau A saMsAramAMthI nIkaLI javA zrI videhakSetranA paramAtmAnuM sAnidhya meLavavA yogya pAsaporTa levAnI icchAvALA che, to te saMbaMdhI thoDI vigata samajI levI ucita che. amo ahIM paDyA chIe te pAsaporTanI jijJAsAthI e to prabhu jANe paNa Apa sahu pAsaporTanA jijJAsuono AvaDo moTo samudAya jarUra amane jAgRta karaze, ane zrI prabhune bheTavA, zaraNe rahevA tivratA karAvaze, e rIte amo atre padhArela sau jijJAsuono AbhAra mAnIe chIe. have ApaNI yogyatAno vicAra karIe. pAsaporTamAM prathama nAma lakhAvavuM paDe che ane pachI je ThekANe UtarIye tyAM pUche ke tamAruM nAma zuM ? tyAM bIju nAma bole to khAtrI thAya ke nAma banAvaTI che. have tyAM javA mATe je nAmanI jarUra che, tene ahIM pAkaku karavAnuM che ke jethI pUche tyAre anAdibhrama Ubho na thAya. te nAma zuM? te bhagavAne ja jaNAvyuM che, te nAmano uccAra huM karAvuM chuM te mujaba prayoga ApaNe karIe. Apa sahu zAMti ane dhImAzayI vAkya uccAravAmAM sAtha Apazo. kRpALu bhagavAna potAnuM oLakhANa ane nizcaya karAve che. "huM asaMga zuddha cetanya chuM. vacanAtita nirvikalpa ekAMta zuddha anubhava svarUpa chuM. huM parama zuddha, akhaMDa cid dhAtu chuM." 103

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AtmaniSTha dhruva tAro pU. zrI aMbAlAlabhAI To Act ke IcchanA ma ma mukAza jaLa 2 (AI hatA gaTaka ve naMba..be ja daheje. khL116 lo , hA amade I la che. De che paNa >>La . mi. 1 che. 50 bAda ina *10nA che che. tame de ! 11 bhAvaLa 88 - | Jzaw MLa chejo ke, janana che " laug1LI. bhakho tihuM che. jene putrI ' |jAtha mi che, je pAI ne dha gAmataLIne te ja8ne jajI.] dIkarI mA 2 112 otvA ST B -- * Mote che. 1% 1dadala no hAmadina ja che. ane meM 0.2 -LInI EAST INDIA : POST CARD THE ADDRESS ONLY TO BE WRITTEN ON TA's fine. A kA bAda lA lA lAla na baT . - 2 SCE zrI paramakRpALudeve pU. zrI aMbAlAlabhAI upa2 svahastAkSare lakhela patra 1/4

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AtmaniSTha dhruva tAro pU. zrI aMbAlAlabhAI pU. zrI aMbAlAlabhAIe racela prabaMdha racanA - "be akSaramAM mArga rahyo che." A amUlya vAkyane. pU. zrI aMbAlAlabhAIe ATha prakAre gUMcyuM che. - va. 166 be akSaramAM mArga hAo che. akSara bemAM mArga ho che. mArga hAo che be akSaramAM. rahyo che mArga be aThThAramAM. be aThThAmAM 2hayo che mArga. mArga be akSaramAM hAo che. rahyo che be akSaramAM mArga. mArga hAo che akSara bemAM. (sa) dI) vArI vAta karI to jANI najI nI havA hoya chei zALA nA mAM na -zava zIdadni thI mokalI zake che. jo ke, nikhAvo, mA e liil, it . rANA zahIda thI , zA ha rAzinA amo. ke mi ia Alan Tii. ra zASita mArI jAna - | | nA thayA ja chupA gA", thai che. A ja 6e, o vAiN. jhabhya parInI che hA moja ha6 nA jaya za8. cothA, sAdI ke zAba nI moDI A ja ka ja nI, mAthAnagITa mAM nI 2 dhI badhA dAya bAkI Ama "mAja nA nat kaLA che. pU. zrI aMbAlAlabhAInA hastAkSara zrI manasukhabhAI kIratacaMda upara lakhela patra 105

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AtmaniSTha dhuva tAro pU. zrI aMbAlAlabhAI ane te dazAnI niHzaMkatAnuM yathArtha darzana karAvyuM che ke jethI tenuM manana thatAM AtmatvanI daDhatA tadAzrita jIvane thAya. te sAcA jIvanadAtA kRpALudevanA vacano A pramANe che. sau sAthe bolo. - "jIvanA astitvapaNAno to koI kALe paNa saMzaya prApta nahIM thAya. jIvanA nityapaNAno trikALa hovApaNAno to koI kALe paNa saMzaya prApta nahIM thAya. jIvanA caitanyapaNAno trikALa hovApaNAno koI kALe paNa saMzaya prApta nahIM thAya." A pramANe nAmano pAsaporTa manamAM dhArI laIe. e nAma sahita pAsaporTa soMpIe, soMpyA bAda khAtrI karavA nAma pUche, tamAruM nAma zuM ? tyAre jo daDha thayuM nA hoya to prabaLa dehAdhyAsathI bolAI javAya - mAruM nAma maganabhAI, pharI pUche tame kema AvyA ? ane kyAMthI AvyA ? maganabhAI kahe bhAI sAba, parANe Avyo chuM, hajI chokarAnA chokarAne paraNAvavAnA che ane bIjuM keTaluMye kAma che. kevI avivekatA ane mUDhatA ! Ane bhagavAnano saMga gamato nathI, bhale tyAre, tane pAcho mokalIye, ema pAsaporTa lenArAne kahyuM tyAre maganabhAI - hA bhAI sAba ema karo ! AvA javAbanuM parINAma zuM te ApaNe ja vicArI zakIye chIe. Ane badale ApaNe kahIye - spaSTa javAba daIye ke 'herAna herAna thaI gayo chuM." koIe bApa kahyo, koIe kAkA kahyo, koIe mAmo kahyo, vaLI koIe mahAtmA, paMDita ane DAhyo kahyo temAM gUMcAI gayo tethI duHkhI duHkhI thaI gayo." koI harinA janano bheTo thayo teNe mane sAnamAM samajAvyuM - A deha ane badhuM ahIM paDyuM raheze. tuM jIva cho. jA bhagavAnanA caraNamAM saMtane zaraNa jA ! tyAM tane zAMti maLaze. sthiratA ane zAzvatatA jaDaze ane kharA sukhano, svarUpAnaMdano anubhava thaze. are ! tuM ja paramAtmA che. tenuM bhAna e paramakRpALu bhagavAna karAvaze. paNa A nAma bhUlIza nahIM. - 'zuddha caitanyasvarUpa avinAzI evo huM AtmA chuM." mAre paramakRpALu bhagavAnanuM dAsatva karavuM che, eTalA mATe ja Avyo chuM. "harino aMza chuM, tenuM parama dAsatva karavAne yogya chuM." | he karUNAsiMdhu bhagavAna ! mane ApanA caraNanuM parama dAsatva Apo 'bola mA, bola mA, bola mA re, gurUrAja vinA bIjuM bola mA. zIvam - pUjya zrI amRtabhAI parIkha zrI paramakRpALu zrIe saMbhArela jJAnInA sarvocca apUrva adbhuta mukhya guNano svAtmadazAdarzaka - te ja apUrva vANIno AdhAra laI ApaNe zrImAn paramakRpALudevanI evA ahobhAvapUrvaka guNa stavanA rAkhI ApaNI mohanidrita cetanAne jAgRta karIe. akhaMDa samAdhi sthita, svarUpa sthita, sahajAtma svarUpa zuddha caitanyasvAmI - zrI paramakRpALu bhagavaMta, zrImAn rAjacaMdra deva ! "aho ApanuM sAmarthya ! aho ApanI aMtara gaveSaNA ! aho ApanuM dhyAna ! aho ApanI samAdhi ! aho Apano saMyama ! 109

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AtmaniSTha dhruva tAro pU. zrI aMbAlAlabhAI aho Apano apramattabhAva ! aho ApanI parama jAgRti ! aho Apano vItarAga svabhAva ! 1 aho ApanuM nirAvaraNa jJAna ! aho ApanA yoganI zAMti ! aho ApanA vacanAdi yogano udaya ! tenuM rahasya ane tenI Azaya gaMbhIratA ! 1 aho ! aho ! vAraMvAra aho !'' - zrI rA.va. hAtha noMdha 2/11 - pUjya zrI amRtabhAI parIkha aMtima stuti - maMgala zrI paramakRpALu, paramajJAnI, parama vItarAgI, adhogatimAMthI bacAvanAra, sahajAtma svarUpa zrI rAjacaMdra prabhunA parama upakArane vAraMvAra namaskAra ho ! namaskAra ho ! he prabhu ! A kALe tAro yoga na maLyo hota, vartamAnamAM A dehe karI othe paNa tamane na oLakhyA hota to A pApI AtmAnI zI dazA thAta ? tAruM nAma mAtra smaraNa karavAthI A saMsAranA game tevA utApa mUMjhavaNa ke pratikULatAmAM zAMti Ape che, je ghaNA prayatna paNa aMtara zAMti na thAya te tArA nAma smaraNamAM jayAre ATaluM yogabaLa ane mahatva rahyuM che to he prabhu ! jyAre tArA vacana pratye, tArI AjJA pratye vizvAsa Avaze, tenA to sukhanI zI vAta ! he prabhu ! tArA smaraNa sivAya jeTaluM vicAravAmAM Ave che, jeTaluM ciMtavana karavAmAM Ave che, teTaluM atyaMta duHkha ApanAruM thAya che. tArA smaraNa sivAya je samaya jAya che temAM ekalo bhaya, kheda, ciMtA, kleza, saMkalpa vikalpa, AkuLatA, vyAkuLatA, AdI du:kho anubhavyA karuM chuM. tArA vacanAmRtanuM smaraNa AvatAM parama zAMti ane parama dhIraja Ape che, AvuM vakhatovakhata anubhavamAM Ave to jyAre tAruM rAta-divasa smaraNa rahe tyAre to zAMti ane AnaMdano pAra ja kyAM ? he prabhu ! tArA smaraNa sivAya eka aMzamAtra zAtAnuM kAraNa nathI. huM game teTaluM prabhu Apane visarI gayo paNa tamo A bALanI saMbhALa levAmAM cUkyA nahIM. he prabhu ! tArI pAse eTaluM ja mAguM chuM ke rAta-divasa mArA aMtaHkaraNamAM tAruM raTaNa rahyA karo. tA. 1-12-19 OM zAMti 1 - pUjya bApujI zeTha prabhu rAjacaMdra nAmAvaLI mahimA (rAga - bahu pUnya kerA puMjathI) nija AtmabhAva pragaTa thAvA, gurUrAjanI nAmAvalI, zobhe mumukSu kaMThamAM, prabhu nAmanI mALA bhalI; prabhu nAmarUpI nAva, bhavajaLa pAra jAvAne maLI, prabhu nAmarUpI amRte tRSA mumukSunI TaLI ....1 prabhu smaraNa sUrya prakAzathI mithyAtvanI rAtri TaLI, 107

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AtmaniSTha dhruva tAro prabhu nAma zItaLa caMdrathI, samyaktvanI khIle kaLI; karmo anAdinA prabhunA nAmathI jAtAM baLI, koTi janamanA pApa TALe, bhavikajana je sAMbhaLI ....2 bhagavAnanA punya nAmo (rAga - prabhunuM nAma rasAyaNa seve...) ....q paramagurU sarvajJa bhajo, cAhe sahajAtma svarUpa bho, karUNAsAgara dIna dayALA, kRpALudeva anupa bhajo . ravajI suta devAno naMdana, cAhe jhabakano kaMta bhajo, cAhe bodha svarUpa bhajo, ke rAjacaMdra bhagavaMta bhajo. cAhe dharmakIya jIvananA icchuka, cAhe zrI nigraMtha bhajo, cAhe nAmI cAhe anAmI, cAhe upAdhi grAhya bhajo. ....3 cAhe mana vItarAga bhAva ke, cAhe AjJAMkita bhajo, cAhe mithyAnAma dhArIke, cAhe nimitta mAtra bhajo. ....4 cAhe mana IzvarArpaNane, samAM abheda svarUpa bhajo, cAhe mana avyakta dazAne, cAhe samAdhirUpa bho. cAhe amoha svarUpa bhajo, ke cAhe sahajAtma svarUpa bhajo, jIvana mukta dazAnA icchuka, anaMtaguNa gaMbhIra bhajo. ....6 maNi zuddha caitanya svAmI, zrI rAjacaMdra gurUdeva bhajo, zukarAjanA bhaktivatsala, nAtha kRpALudeva bhajo. ....7 zrI sadgurUnI Arati 108 pU.zrI aMbAlAlabhA paramatatva guNa zAtA (2) ravajI naMdana rAjya birAjyA, sat-citta sukha kaMdu, prabhu sat cit sukhakaMdu kAmAdika ripu mardana (2) mumukSunA pratipAlaka, bhava bhava duHkha hArI, jagapAvana bhaya mocana (2) jaya rAja, jaya rAja, jaya sahajAtama svAmI, jaya sahajAtama svAmI AtmAnaMda svarUpI, AtmAnaMda svarUpI, akSaNa pada gAmI. jaya rAja, jaya rAja (1) yogirAja adhirAja, jJAnAmRta siMdhu, prabhu jJAnAmRta siMdhu; ...2 zrI zukarAja sobhAgI, sudRSTi dhArI, prabhu gurUgama gati nyArI, maNi rahe zaraNAgata (2) ....4 praNavAmRta IMdu . jaya rAja, jaya rAja (2) bhakta priya baMdhu. jaya rAja, jaya rAja (3) prabhu bhava bhaya du:kha hArI avicaLa avikArI. jaya rAja, jaya rAja (4) pada raja adhikArI. jaya rAja, jaya rAja (5) - pUjya bApujI zeTha

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zrI subodhaka pustakAlaya lokAparI, khaMbhAta.