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________________ sUri PR. maitrInA gulamahoronuM upavana maha 15 munizIlacandraviz2ayog For Private Personal
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________________ maitrInAM gulamaheArAnuM upavana ( paryuSaNaparva vize ATha laghu-nibadhA ) muni zIlacandravijaya
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________________ zrInemi-nandana granthamALA : pustaka 8 muM prakAzaka : surendra ma. kApaDiyA jaina eDavokeTa pri. presa, ghI kAMTA, jezIMgabhAInI vADI, amadAvAda-380 001. (c) sarvAdhikAra surakSita prathama AvRtti : navembara 1983 pratiH 2000 mudraka : jhaverI kerporezana, 21, 3jI phephalavADI, muMbaI-400 002.
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________________ jIvana che ghaTamALa eka paLe e varavI bhAse, khIjI paLe madhalALa jo varasAve kaleza-agana A, krura banelA kALa; jIvananA ujjaDa khetaramAM, te Uge kATamALa sattvaguNI kA' vIraleA chAMDe, duniyAnI ja jALa; te| sukha-duHkhabharyu jIvana paNu, maghamaghatI phUlamALa lakSya banAva tuM Tocane tAruM, dharatI para bhale cAla; UlaTaze tuja jIvana--dariye, unnati kerA juvALa zI. (21-10-83) >>
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________________ anukrama : paryuSaNa nAmanI ghaTanAnuM Agamana susvAgatama mAnavajAta joga paryuSaNane khAsa saMdeza paryuSaNa parva" sAthe rasaprada mulAkAta ApaNuM vaijJAnika ajJAna! Ave, AtmAne oLakhIe ApaNe Astika chIe? kSamAnAM gulamahoranuM upavana A nibaMdhe paryuSaNa-lekhamALAnA rUpamAM amadAvAdanA dainika janasattAmAM pragaTa thayA hatA. te have zrI goDIjI mahArAja jaina Tempala enDa cerITIjha, pAyadhUnI, muMbaInI dravyasahAyathI A laghu pustikarUpe pragaTa thAya che.
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________________ eka paryuSaNa nAmanI ghaTanAnuM Agamana manuSyanuM jIvana eTale eka lAM...buM ghaTanAcaka. ghaTanAo vattA ghaTanAo vattA ghaTanAe eTale manuSyanuM jIvana. nAnI ghaTanAo ane moTI ghaTanAo; sArI ghaTanAo ane nabaLI ghaTanAo; unnatinI ghaTanAo ane patananI ghaTanAe; kAmanI ghaTanAo ane nakAmI ghaTanAo; A yAdI hajI ghaNI laMbAvI zakAya; ane e pUrepUrI yAdI e ja te jIvana che! ghaNIvAra jIvanamAM evA paNa keTalAka divase Ave che, je khuda eka jIvatI jAgatI ane svataMtra, viziSTa ghaTanA hoya che. AvI svataMtra ghaTanAo, kayAreka ghaNA lAMbA vakhata sudhI rAha jovarAvyA pachI paNa Ave. ane kyAreka vaLI vAraMvAra paNa Ave; kyAreka ekaladokala ja TahelatI TahelatI AvI caDhe ne kayAreka te AvI ghaTanAonuM bakhuMya AvI caDhe che. e te jevA jenA saMjoga. ghaNIvAra evuM bane ke A jIvaMta ghaTanAe samA divasanuM jhuMbakhuM ApaNuM saunA-jIvana-AMgaNe DekiyuM te karI jAya, paNa e mukAma to tene tyAM ja kare, jenuM prArabdha jAgatuM hoya ane je e ghaTanAonI pratIkSA karyA karate heya. ane A ghaTanAe jyAM-jene tyAM mukAma kare. enuM AkhuMye ghaTanAcaka, enuM samagra jIvana, keIka anerI akhilAIthI ane paritRtithI bharyuM bharyuM banI jatuM hoya che. pachI enA
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________________ nI eka cita, mananI jIvanamAMthI saMtApanI ghaTanAo ane zudra svArthavRttionI gaMdakIthI kharaDAyelI ghaTanAonI, anAyAse ja, bAdabAkI thaI jAya che; enuM jIvana dhanyatA anubhave che. AdhArabhUta vartuLo dvArA jANavA maLyuM che ke, "paryuSaNa" nAmanI eka cittasaMtarpaka ghaTanA, ATha ATha divasanA eka masta ghaTanAvRMdanI sAthe, mAnavajAtanI mulAkAtArthe nIkaLI che, ne kayA kayA jIvanabAraNe pitAnI pratIkSA thaI rahI che tenI mecaNI karI rahI che. vadhumAM jANavA maLe che ke, jenA jIvanamAM ahaMkAra, svArtha, prapaMca, dveSa, IrSA, lobha. kalezakaMkAsa, kusaMpa, anIti jevAM tattva na hoya, athavA je A tane pitAnA jIvanamAMthI nAbUda karavA Atura hoya, tenA AMgaNe A ghaTanAgraMdane mukAma karavo behada game che. mitro, hoziyAra! ApaNA samagra jIvanane ajavALe evuM A ghaTanAvRda, ApaNuM AMgaNethI rakhe meM pheravIne pAchuM cAlyuM jAya ! sAvadhAna! avasara bera bera nahi Ave.........
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________________ e Thera Thera ujavAyelA payu SaNa - pa nA svAgata - samArohanA AMkhe dekhyA ahevAla ? jagavikhyAta kSamApa zrIparyu SaNpanuM, Aja rAja, hRdaya-mAge zubha-Agamana thatAM, temanuM bhAvabhInuM svAgata karavAmAM AvyuM hatuM. varSo va samayasara AvavAnA ane pUrA ATha divasanuM rokANa karavAnA peAtAnA jugajUnA vacana pramANe AvI pahoMcelA pa Nune AvakAravA mATe, mAsakhamaNu aThThAi chaThThuM-aThThama-pauSadha vagere vividha tapazcaryAerUpI kiMmatI AtmAla kArAthI sugeAbhita evA hujArA pazu SaNa premIe hAjara rahyA hatA. pa SaNu-cAhakAnA hRdaya mAga'mAM, Thera Thera, 'bhale padhAraze parvAdhirAja ' evuM lakhelAM benarA tathA dha bhAvanAnI raMgaberaMgI dhvajAevALAM tArA laTakAvelAM najare paDatAM hatAM. 'payu SaNu'ne tapa, tyAga ane sayama vadhu pasaMda che enI jANa heAvAthI, temanu sAmaiyu, maunanA mIThA sUrA relAvatAM, 'tapa' ane ' ArAdhanA ' nAmanAM viziSTa vAjitro vaDe karavAmAM AvyuM hatuM. susvAgatam joke payu SaNnA rasAlA mATe utArAnA baMdobasta jaina dhama sthAna'mAM karAyA hatA, Ama chatAM, payuSaNa peve bhAvika ra
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________________ ArAdhakonA hRdaya-madiramAM ja rahevAnu nakakI karyu" hatuM. temanA A aNukalpyA ni yathI, temanA lAkhA cAhako bhAre gelamAM AvI gayA hatA ane Ana krAtirekathI nAcI UThavyA hatA. meADethI, jaina upAzrayamAM UbhA karAyelA bhavya vyAkhyAnamaDapamAM, pa paNunA svAgatAthe yeAjAyelA eka jAhera samArAmAM, samAreAhanA adhyakSa ane mukhya vaktA jaina AcAya mahArAje, peAtAnA svAgata-pravacanamAM, tyAM upasthita hajAro paryu SaNa premIne 'paryuSaNa'nA paricaya ApatAM kahyuM hatu ke H payu SaNa eTale puNyanu pASaNa. payu SaNa eTale pApanu zeSaNa. mAnavInA haiyAmAM vilasatI pavitratAne pekhe ane malinatAne zeSe tenuM nAma paryuSaNa. ApaNe Aja sudhI ApaNI pApavRttione peASe evAM tattvane ja AvakAratA rahyA chIe ne emAM ja ApaNe jIvananI sArthakatA mAnI beThA chIe. paraMtu, ApaNI, mAnavajAtanI, atyAre narI AMkhe paNa joI zakAya tevI avanatinuM kAraNa paNa ApaNI A malina vRtti-pravRtti ja che, ema huM kahuM to te vadhupaDatuM nathI. * mitrA! manuSyane janma ApaNane maLyA che. mane lAge che ke manuSyajanmanuM mukhya dhyeya jo kAI hAya to te che samagra mAnavajAtanI ane ethIye AgaLa vadhIne samagra jIvasRSTinI unnati, je mAnava, mAnavajAtanI ane jIvasRSTinI unnati kAje gheADAka paNa kALeA ApI zakatA nathI, tenA mAnavajanma niraka che ane yAda rAkhajo mitrA, ke je peAtAnA jIvanamAM pApavRttione ja pASatA rahe che, te kayAre ya keAInIya unnati karI zakatA nathI; peAtAnI paNa nahi. je peAte ja avanatinA khADAmAM paDatA hAya, te khIjAnI unnati kevI rIte karI zake, bhalA? ja
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________________ Aje ApaNA gharaAMgaNe "payuMSaNa mahAparvanI padharAmaNI thaI che. ahIM, ApaNe badhA, A meM gherA mahemAnane satkAravA mATe ekaThA thayA chIe. have, tame sau jANe che ke je ApaNA mahemAna hoya temanuM managamatuM karavuM, temane AnaMda Ave te rIte vartavuM, e ApaNuM bhAratIya-AtithyabhAvanAnuM hArda che. te baMdhuo! ApaNA mAnavaMtA mahemAnane gamatI pravRttio be che : "tapazcaryAnI ane saMyamanI." ane emane aNagamatI pravRtti mAtra eka ja che: "pApavRttione piSavAnI". Apa saune cetavI devA cAhuM chuM ke je vyakti, pApavRttione piSavAnI pravRtti nahi cheDe, tenI mahemAnagati " paryuSaNa parva nahi svIkAre, ne tethI ja tene "payuMSaNanI ArAdhanAne lAbha paNa maLI zakaze nahi. pApa-vRttionuM zamana karavAne ApaNe nirNaya ja, paryuSaNa parvanuM sAcuM svAgata che. mATe mitro! ApaNe Aje A nirNaya karIne ApaNuM mahemAnanuM sAcuM svAgata karIe. bele paryuSaNa mahAparvanI jaya!" samArohanA aMte sau "dharmanI pavitra vRttionI prabhAvanA laIne vIkharAyA hatA.
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________________ traNa mAnavajAta joga paryuSaNano khAsa saMdeza mArA mAnavamitro! Aje huM pharI ekavAra tamArI sevAmAM upasthita thaye chuM. bhagavAna tIrthakare, jyArathI mArI niyukti mAnavajAtanuM kalyANa karanArA pitAnA khAsa pratinidhi tarIke karI che. tyArathI eTale ke ghaNuMghaNuM saikAothI, varSovarSa tamArI pAse AvavAmAM mane apUrva AnaMdAnubhava thAya che. mane lAge che ke mAre, mArA ahIM AvavAno hetu, tamArI samakSa, spaSTa kare joIe. baMdhuo ! Apa saune e suvidita che ke, jagatanI samagra prANIsRSTinuM kalyANa karavAnA dhyeyane varelA bhagavAne, pitAnA jIvanakALa daramiyAna, asaMkhya prANIono uddhAra karyo hato. paNa vizvavatsala bhagavAne joyuM ke A saMsAramAM mAnavajAtane uddhAra kare e sakhata puruSArtha ane khUbakhUba sAvadhAnI mAMgI le tevuM kAma che, kema ke A mAnavajAta rAgadraSanA atizaya UMDA kaLaNamAM, bhAre dayanIya rIte DUbI gaI che; hatuhIna verajhera ane nirarthaka kaleza kaMkAsamAM ja e parovAyelI rahe che. ane e sAva svAbhAvika che ke, AvI paristhitimAM khapI gayelI keIpaNa vyakti, A sthitimAMthI bahAra AvavA Icche teya, keI sabaLa sahAya ke TekA vinA nIkaLI na ja zake. vaLI, bhagavAne pitAnI jJAnadaSTithI e paNa joyuM ke bhaviSyamAM, mArI gerahAjarImAM paNa, agaNita manuSya evA haze ke
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________________ jeo A rAga-dveSanA kaLaNamAMthI nIkaLavA mATe taraphaDatA hoya. eTale, AvA manuSyano uddhAra zI rIte karo? A savAla bhagavAnanI sAme upasthita thaye e sAthe ja emane mAruM smaraNa thayuM. bhagavAna te paramezvara (Super Power) hatA temane mATe zuM azakya ke ajJeya hAya? temaNe tarata ja mane belA ane mAnavajAtanuM kalyANa karavAnuM mizana" mane vyuM. emanA A Adeza anusAra huM saikAothI, prativarSa mAnavajAtanI sevA bajAvavA samayasara upasthita thato rahuM chuM. mAnavajAtane duHkha, durgati ane duSkarmothI bacAvavI ane tene paramakalyANanA unnata mArge dorI javI, e ja mAruM zAzvata yeya che, ane e dhyeya sAthe ja huM punaH ekavAra ahIM upasthita thaye chuM. eka vAtanI spaSTatA karavI Avazyaka lAge che huM game tevuM kalyANakArI yeya laIne ahIM AvuM to paNa, tamArA eTale ke manuSya samAjanA sahakAra vagara e eya bhAgye ja pAra paDI zake. je DUbele che, tene bahAra nIkaLavuM hoya te ugAranAre tene bahAra kADhI zake; paNa je tene bahAra nIkaLavuM ja na hoya, te ugAranAre zuM karI zake? mAre bhAre duHkha sAthe kahevuM paDe che ke, chellAM keTalAMka varSo thayAM, tamAre manuSya samAja mane bahu ja ochA sahakAra Ape che. tamAruM kalyANa karavAnA mArA samartha prayatna chatAM, tame loko rAga-dveSa ne vera-jheranA kaLaNamAM evA te khaMpI gayA he che ke, tamArA uddhAra mATenI mArI saghaLI mahenata. mahadaMze niSphaLa ja jAya che. baMdhuo ! AmAM mArI be rIte kaphoDI dazA thAya che. eka te tamane na UgArI zakyAno paritApa mane bALe che, ane bIja, A kAraNe, bhagavAne pUrA vizvAsa sAthe mane soMpelA mizanamAM AvI jatI UNapa paNa mane saMtApe che. mitro!
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________________ mAre Aje tamane eka ja prazna pUche che ke tamAre kharekhara tamAruM kalyANa sAdhavuM che ke nahi? duHkha ane durgatithI bacavuM che ke nahi? mAre samagra utsAha, A praznanA tamArA uttara para ja avalaMbe che, e nakkI mAnaje. - jo tame duHkha ane durgatinA khADAmAM paDI rahevAne athavA paDavAne utsuka che, te mAre kazuM kahevAnuM nathI. kemake evuM karIne paDatAMne pATu mAravAnI, mArI karuNAvRtti mane nA kahe che. paraMtu jo tame tamAruM kalyANa sAdhavA Icche che, duSkarmanA unmArgane TALIne sanmArge caDhavA Iccho cho, te , bIjuM kazuM ja karavAnuM nathI; tamAre mAtra sahakArane hAtha ja lAMbe karavAnuM che. tame mArI dostI kare eTaluM ja mane khape che. bAkInuM badhuM ja huM saMbhALI laIza. te ArAdhaka mitro! Avo, ApaNe sAthe maLIne tamAruM, samagra mAnava jAtanuM zubha karIe. vinA sahakAra, nahi uddhAra.
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________________ cAra "paryuSaNa parva sAthe rasaprada mulAkAta mulAkAtI pratinidhiH Apane sau payuMSaNa" tarIke oLakhe che, te paryuSaNa eTale zuM, e samajAvaze ? paryuSaNa paryuSaNa eTale pitAnA AtmasvarUpamAM sArI rIte rahevuM-sthira thavuM. je divasamAM ApaNe ApaNuM AtmasvarUpamAM ramavAnuM zIkhIe, te divasanuM nAma "payuSaNa." pratinidhi: AtmasvarUpamAM ramavuM eTale? paryuSaNaH bAharI ALapaMpALa ane meha-mAyAnAM baMdhanemAMthI AtmAne mukta karavAnI prakriyA pratinidhi paNa AtmA che ja enI zI sAbitI? e hoya to ene mukta karI zakAya! paryuSaNa AtmA che e nirvivAda hakIkata che. chatAM ene vize sAbitI joItI hoya te bhAdaravA zudi bIjanA divase bapore, 'gaNadharavAdanuM vyAkhyAna sAMbhaLavA jaje. AtmA vize badhI spaSTatA thaI jaze. pratinidhi baheLe janasamudAya Apane pitAnA ArAdhya" mAne che. AnuM zuM kAraNa? paryuSaNaH A praznano uttara jANatAM pahelAM tamAre thoDIka vigate samajI levI paDaze. juo, jaina dharmanA praNetA bhagavAna tIrthakara che....
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________________ pratinidhiH kSamA karaje, paNa eka savAla vacce pUchI lauM tIrthakara keNa thaI zake, e kaheze? paryuSaNa: huM eja kahI rahyo chuM. je vyaktinA AtmAnA aNuaNumAM vizvanI samagra jIvasRSTinuM kalyANa karavAnI adamya tamannA ane karuNAno dhodha vahe, e vyakti tIrthakara banI zake. A arthamAM tIrthakarane tame vizvanA mitra kahI zako. A tIrthakara, janme te eka manuSya tarIke ja, paNa potAnA e mAnavaavatAramAM teo, devone paNa asAdhya evI AtmasAdhanA kare ane AtmAnA zatruone jIte. A zatruo eTale rAga, dveSa ane ajJAna. A traNane nAza kare ke tarata ja teo tIrthaMkaranI bhUmikAne prApta kare; ane e sAthe ja teo, samagra jIvasRSTinuM kalyANa karavAnA pitAnA mahAmUlA svapnane, mUrta banAvavAnI prakiyA prAraMbhI de che. emanA haiye vyApelI karuNA jANe emane kahetI hoya che ke, jyAM sudhI, ekaeka prANI pitAnA Atmazatrao para vijaya nahi meLave, tyAM sudhI tenuM parama kalyANa thavuM zakya nathI, mATe jIvamAtrane tenA Atmazatruo sAthe laDavAmAM sahAya kare ane tene A laData mATe jAgRta karo! AvI parama karuNAthI prerAyelA tIrthakara, pitAnA hayAtI kALamAM te asaMkhya prANIone uddhAra kare ja che; paNa emane eTalAthI saMtoSa nathI hato, eTale, pitAnA nirvANa pachI paNa prANI kalyANanuM puNyakArya cAlu ja rahe evA AzayathI, keTalIka viziSTa dharmajanAonuM AyeAjana kare che. e janAo eTale jaina dharmamAM nirUpAyelI viziSTa dharmArAdhanAo. ekaekathI caDiyAtI e janAone lAbha je le, jene letAM AvaDe, tenuM kalyANa thayA vinA na rahe. AvI aneka janAo paikI ekaviziSTa pejanA eTale ja huM paryuSaNa have tame ja kahe, samagra saMsAra mATe parama ArAdhya evA tIrthakare je mAruM Ajana karyuM hoya, ane te paNa saunA kalyANane khAtara ja, te huM paNa saune ArAdhya kema na banuM? For Prival Personal Use Only
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________________ bAbata che ke jene banAvI mUkaye , nahi jANanAra pratinidhiH te zuM jaina dharmanuM phalaka ATaluM badhuM vizALa che? ame te mAnatA AvyA chIe ke jainene arthAt eka saMkucita vicArasaraNI dharAvatI nAnakaDI kemane dharmasaMpradAya te jainadharma! payuMSaNaH A eka bahu ja duHkhada bAbata che ke jenA dharmanA paramArthane nahi jANanArAM tame tene saMkucita banAvI mUke che! paNa vastusthiti AvI nathI. jena dharmanuM hArda vidhavAtsalya che. samagra vizvanuM kalyANa karavuM e jaina dharmanuM mizana che. manuSya hoya ke pazu, jaina hoya ke jainetara, saunuM bhaluM karavuM e ja jaina dharmanuM dayeya che. mitra! havethI noMdhI rAkhajo ke jaina dharma eTale vizvamatrIne dhama, sarva kalyANane dharma ane saMkucita vicAramAM baMdhAyelo baMdhiyAra saMpradAya haragIjha nahi pratinidhi : chelale savAla pUchI lauM. te zuM ApanI (paryuSaNanI upAsanA jainetare paNa karI zake? jo hA, te jainetaro kaI rIte ApanI upAsanA karI zake, e aMge kAMIka mArgadarzana Apazo? paryuSaNaH alabatta, karI zake. kaI paNa vyakti paryuSaNanI ArAdhanA karI zake. yAda rahe, je vyakti pitAnA mananI ' malina vRttione dUra kare che ane zubha vRttione vikasAve che, e mArI sAcI upAsanA kare che. mananI bUrAIone dUra na karanAra vyakti, te jaina hoya te paNa kyAreya mArI ArAdhanA karI zakatI nathI. 11 alionai
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________________ pAMca ApaNuM vaijJAnika ajJAna ! AjanA manuSya pAse, be taddana paraspara virodhI dhoraNone, eka-bIjAthI taddana alipta-samAMtara-rIte, sAcavavAnI ane jarUra pramANe te banneno upayoga karavAnI, adabhuta siddhi che. dharma ane adharma-bane, samAMtara gatie jIvanamAM cAlatAM rahe, evI vyavasthA eNe goThavI lIdhI che. have ene dharma, enA adharmAcaraNamAM ADe nathI Avate ane enA adhama. caraNane lIdhe, enA dharmane zaramiMdA banavuM paDatuM nathI. "bevaDAM dhAraNane siddhAMta ene barAbara pacI game che vijJAnanI sAthe sAthe ajJAnane paNa vikAsa e sAdhata rahe che. vijJAna ane ajJAna jevA ekamekanAM paramavirodhI tane tAlameLa besADave, e kaI nAnIsUnI siddhina gaNAya. sAmAnya rIte, bhautika sAdhano ane sagavaDone sarjanArI nipuNatAne ApaNe "vijJAna" tarIke oLakhIe chIe. e nipuNatAnA durupayogane ApaNe "ajJAna" tarIke oLakhIzuM. na jANavuM e ja ajJAna, evuM nathI. jANavA chatAM te pramANe na vartavuM athavA te jANakArIne gera upayoga kare, te paNa ajJAna ja gaNAya. ApaNuM A ajJAna, vijJAnanI sAthe sAthe vikasatuM jAya che eTaluM ja nahi, paNa have e, vijJAnanA hAthamAM surakSita paNa banI cUkyuM che. A vAtanI sAbitI, meTAM zaherenA dhorI rAjamArgothI mAMDIne nAnakaDAM gAmaDAMnI dhaLiyA zerIo upara, jAtajAtanA caTAkedAra khANIpINInA padArtho
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________________ bharelI, khulI hAthalArIonI AsapAsa, divasarAta jAmelI rahetI bhIDa dvArA, ApaNane maLI rahe che. vijJAna upara ApaNuM ajJAna eTaluM badhuM mustAka che ke, A lArIomAM maLatA padArtho, gANuo ane viSANuothI grasta hevAnI pAkI, ane ghaNIvAra te vaijJAnika, mAhitI hovA chatAM, ene gaNakAryA vagara ja ApaNe, hoMze hoMze e padArthone peTamAM ThAMsatA rahIe chIe! A padArtho rogANuthI vyApta hovAnI vAtanI khAtarI karavI hoya che, tema karavA mATe, khAdyAnna prayogazALA-Food Laboratory nI sagavaDa, have te sarvatra sulabha che. haTale mAM banatI raI, AgalA divasanA vadhyAghaTyA eMThavADa uparAMta aneka jAtanA kacarA ane jIvaDAonAM kalevare to kharAM ja, paNa sAthe sAthe, e rasoI banAvanArAonAM melAMdATa zarIramAMthI nItaratA gaMdhAtA parasevAnA bhegavALI hoya che evuM jANavA chatAM, e ja hoTalomAM jaIne, e ja rAIne, hoMzehoMze AreganArA manuSyanA vaijJAnika ajJAna upara hasavuM ke raDavuM, e have samajAtuM nathI. A vidhAna atizayoktimAM na khapI jAya e mATe keTalAka vartamAnapatromAM chapAyelA eka samAcAra ApaNe jovA joIe e samAcAramAM jaNAvAyuM che ke - yugAMDAnI Arogya sevAo paDI bhAMgI che ane pATanagara kaMpAlAmAM zerIonA sTela para vecAtA phaLanA rasa karatAM gaTaranuM pANI pIvuM kadAca vadhAre salAmatI bharyuM che, ema saMyukta rASTra saMghanA adhikArIoe jaNAvyuM hatuM. pANI ane vecAI rahelA rasa ane pINAM TAIphoIDanA jatuthI 100 TakA pradUSita thayelA hatA, jyAre zaheranA gaTaranA pANInI tapAsamAM te phakta 50 TakA pradUSita thayeluM jaNAyuM hatuM." vijJAna ane ajJAna e be sArvabhauma to che. amuka deza ke manuSyanuM vijJAna judA mArkonuM ne bIjAnuM vaLI judA 13 cor"
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________________ mArkonuM, evuM nathI.gamete deza, samAja ke manuSya pAse bhale hoya. paNa vijJAna te vijJAna ja che ane te ekasarakhuM ja hovAnuM, evuM ja ajJAnanuM paNa samajavAnuM. kaMpAlAmAM je ajJAna, phaLanA rasa vATe, mAnavInA zarIramAM praveze che, e ja ajJAna, ahIM paNa lArIomAM ane heTamAM maLatA caTAkedAra khAdyapadArtho dvArA, ahIMnA mAnavInA zarIramAM pravezatuM rahe che. e ajJAna kyAreka rogANu laIne praveze che. kayAreka e viSANune khecI lAve che, te kayAreka mRtyuno meLApa paNa karAvI Ape che! ane chatAM, A ajJAnane davAkhAnAMone svAMga sajIne beThelA vijJAnanuM rakSaNa maLatuM rahe che tyAM sudhI tene AMca AvavAnI kaI zakayatA nathI. mANasane, potAnA vijJAnarakSita ajJAnane hoMzabhera vaLagI rahevAnI bAbate, bevaDu dheraNa apanAvavAnuM hajI ganImata nahi lAgatuM hoya kadAca! A muddA para navesarathI, uMDo vicAra karavAnI eka sarasa taka, paryuSaNa parvanA rUpamAM, sAme AvIne UbhI che. e takano sadupayeAga karI levAmAM ja ApaNo jayAre che.
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________________ AvA, AtmAne ALakhIe AtmA" nAmane koI padArtha A sasAramAM astitva dharAve che ke nahi e age, paramapUjya AcAya zrIvijayanandanasUrijI mahArAje, ekavAra khUba ja vyavahAru chaNAvaTa rajU karI hatI. ApaNe e chaNAvaTane temanA peAtAnA ja zabdomAM mANIe : cha 6 '' lAMbI vArtAnI jarUra nathI. jagatamAM tamane je vahAlAmAM vahAluM heAya enuM nAma AtmA samajavA, tamane duniyAmAM vahAlAmAM vahAlu kANu che? dhana? putra ? zarIra ? IMdriya ? prANu ? e pahelAM nakkI karI le, eTale badhuM samajAI jaze. ' ane jagatamAM mANasane 'dhana' sauthI priya che. lakSmI badhAne vahAlI che. ene mATe mANasa badhuM DIne paradeza jAya che; TADha-taDakA-varasAda-badhuM sahana kare che ne prabhunu dhyAna paNa mUkI de che. mATe sauthI vahAluM ' dhana ' che. e dhana karatAM ya 'putra' vahAle che. game teTaluM dhana hAya, paNa jo dIkarA mAM paDyo hoya, e bace evuM na heAya tA DokaTara-vaidya kahe ke phalANI davA lAvavI paDaze, te e mATe lAkhA rUpiyA khavAya e taiyAra thAya che. eTale nakkI thayu ke dhana karatAMya 'dIkarA' vahAle che. paNa e dIkara karatAM ya 'zarIra' vahAluM hAya che. zarIra para jyAre du:kha AvatuM hoya tyAre mANasa dhana ne dIkarA badhuM cheDI de che. 15
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________________ eka DeAzI hatI. ene eka dIkarA hatA. banne eka gharamAM rahetAM hatAM. nAnuM evuM ghara hatuM ne bahAra AzarI hatI. banne jaNA ezarImAM khATalA nAkhIne sUI rahe. emAM ekavAra chekarA mAMdA paDyo. eTale DozI huMmezAM prabhune prArthanA kare ke, ' huM bhagavAna ! tuM mane laI jaje, paNa mArA dIkarAne acAvaje, hemakhema rAkhaje.? emAM eka dahADA anyu. evu ke paDeAzInuM pADuM hatuM, e chUTI gayuM, ne pharatu pharatuM DozInA khATalA pAse AvyuM. have pADAne evI Teva hAya che ke, je enI najare caDe te meMmAM nAkhIne cAve. pelu' pADu' ahIM AvyuM, ne DeAzInuM gedaDu... meM vaDe kheMcIne cAvavA mAMDayuM. geAdaDu kheMcAyu" eTale DozI jAgI gaI. mAtu ughADIne joyuM to pADo ! DArI te bhaDakI ja gaI ke A tA rAja prA nA karatI hatI, te Aje te yamarAja sAcesAca AvyA lAge che! e tarata ja beThI thaI gaI, ne khAlI he yamarAja ! tuM khATaleA bhUlye lAge che. tuM jene mATe Avye che e khATaleA te A mArI bAjumAM che' A batAve che ke dIkarA karatAMya 'zarIra' vahAluM che. : * ane zarIramAM paNa 'IM dricA' vahuAlI che mANasa ke'kavAra paDyo-AkhaDyo hoya ne enA hAtha paga bhAMgyA hoya, tA kahe ke 'hAza, hAthapaga bhAMgyA te bhale bhAMgyA, paNa AMkha, kAna ne nAka tA khacI gayAM!' paNa A iMdriyA karatAM paNa eka vastu vadhAre vahAlI che. jyAre mANasa mAMdo paDyo hoya. ne emAM enI AMkhe| gai hoya, kAna paNa tUTI gayA hoya ke jIbha kacarAI gaI hoya, tA mANasa zuM bele che? 'hAza, AMkha gaI te bhale gaI, paNa mArA prANa te khacI gayA! A uparathI khabara paDI jAya che ke iMdriyA karatAMya prANa vadhu vahAlA che. Ama. lakSmIthI putra vahAleA. putrathI zarIra vahAluM. zarIrathI iMdriye vahAlI ne IMdriyAthI prANa vahAlA che. have e 16
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________________ prANa karatAMya kaI vahAluM kharuM? te kahe hA. e kevI rIte? e batAve. tyAre kahe che: je sAMbhaLa! mANasa jyAre mAMde paDyo hoya ene ne asAdhya vedanA upaDI hoya; e duHkha evuM hAya ke ene ja enI khabara paDe; kei enI vedanA laI na zake tyAre tame enI pAse jAva te e zuM bele? have mAro prANa jAya to sAruM!" tyAre prANa sauthI vahAlo have, e jAya te sAruM, ema e kahe che. paNa e prANa keno? to mAro " eTale prANa karatAMya, je "mA" bole che, e kaIka vastu vadhu vahAlI che, e nakakI thayuM. e kahe che, "huM te rahuM, huM na jauM, paNa "mA" prANa jAya! tyAre e, prANu karatAMya eka judI vastu che ane e ApaNane vahAlI che; enuM ja nAma AtmA che.' kevI nirADaMbara bhASAmAM kevuM gUDha rahasya samajAvI dIdhuM che! A rahasya samajavAne Aje divasa che. Aje Thera Thera gaNadharavAdanuM vyAkhyAna thaze, ane emAM AtmA, karma, puNya, pApa, paraleka ne mekSa jevAM atIMdriya tanAM astitvanI supere chaNAvaTa thaze - A chaNAvaTa, ApaNI AstikatAnA dIvAmAM tela pUravA samAna banI raho ! Ti. 1 vittAt putraH priyaH putrAt piNDaH piNDAttathendriyam / khyi priyA: bALA, jhAmpojhara priyaH paraH ||
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________________ sAta ApaNe Astika chIe? ApaNe tyAM jUnI piDhI ane navI peDhI vacce cAlyA karatA vividha saMgharSomAMno eka mahattvano saMgharSa AstikatAnAstikatAne che. jUnI peDhInA magajamAM evuM bhUsuM bharAI gayuM che ke "AjanA juvAniyA te sAva nAstika! dharmamAM mAne ja nahi!" te navI peDhI daDhapaNe mAnI beThI che ke, "A gharaDA eTale jaDa, rUDhicusta ane vediyA!" Ama bane peDhI ekabIjAne UtArI pADavAnI mahenata karatI rahe che ne ethI banne vacce eka prakAranA ThaDA saMgharSanuM vAtAvaraNa jAmeluM ja rahe che. "janarezana gepa rahe che te kadAca AvuM ja kAMIka haze! AvA vivAdo anekavAra amArA jevA sAdhuo pAse AvatA hoya che, niveDA mATe. bApAne lAge ke "kare nAstika che, ne chokarA vicArato hoya ke "bApA TakaTakiyA che; A bane vacce meLa UbhuM karI ApavAnuM purohita kAya ghaNIvAra amAre zire AvI paDe che, ane te vakhate kayAreka to bhAre ramUja pedA thAya che. bemAMthI ekeyane mAThuM na lAge te rIte, bannene temanI bhUla kyAM che te samajAvavuM ane pachI banne vaccenA saMgharSane dara karavAne ubhayamAnya ane kAyamI ukela zodhI Apa, e saheluM kAma te nathI ja Ave vakhate eka savAla satata mUMjhavate rahetA ke Astika ke nAstika kene kahevAya? AstikanI saraLa chatAM sacoTa ne sahelAIthI samajAya tevI vyAkhyA zI? jUnI peDhInI mAnyatA
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________________ pramANe te dekhItI dharmakriyA kare te ja Astika gaNAya. ne navI peDhIne ahIM ja vadhe che. e kahe che ke tame dukAne besIne garIbAnu zASaNa, naphA khArI, kALAM bajAra vagere anIti AcaratAM acakAtA nathI, ne chatAM thoDIka dharmokiyAnA AdhAre pitAnI jAtane dhamI Astika gaNAve che, e amArA magajamAM UtaratuM nathI. jUnI peDhI pAse Ano javAba nathI, eTale e pitAnI vaDIlazAI rIte ja juvAniyAne DAMTe che. joke navI peDhInuMya pAsuM UjaLuM te nathI ja. kema ke jUnI piDhI anIti Acare che jarUra, paNa sAthe dhamakaraNIye cheDatI nathI. jyAre navI peDhI, dhamakaraNathI to sAva vegaLI rahe ja che, paNa sAthe anIti ane bhraSTAcAramAM e, jUnI peDhI karatAM ya cAra DagalAM AgaLa vadhI gaI che! khera, paNa ApaNe te e bane ekabIjAne nAstika mAnIne varte che, enuM nirAkaraNa dhavuM che, banemAM AstikatAnuM samAna tatva kayAM che, e tapAsavuM che. thoDA vakhata pahelAM zrI dAdA dharmAdhikArInuM pustaka vicAra kAnti" vAMcato hato. emAM A aMge emaNe emaNe talasparzI chaNAvaTa karI che. emaNe kahyuM che ke bhagavAnanuM nAma keIna le teTalAthI te nAstika ke nirIzvaravAdI nathI thaI jatuM. AtmAmAM ane brahmamAM na mAnatuM hoya te ye je e pArakAM duHkhe duHkhI thatuM hoya ne pArakAM sukhe sukhI thatuM hoya, asamAnatA enAthI sahana ja na thatI hoya te e nakkI Astika ja che." kevI mULagAmI che A vyAkhyA ! mAtra jUnI-navI peDhInA saMdharSano vyavahAru ukela ja AmAM jaDe che evuM nathI. paNa AmAM te paraleka ne AtmA jevA atIndriya padArthonI samasyAno ukela che. have jUnI peDhIne ApaNe samajAvIzuM ke, A chokaro dharmakaraNI bhale na karatuM hoya ke ochI karate hoya, paNa
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________________ bIjAnAM duHkha joIne ene dUra karavAnI IcchA-dayA to enA haiyAmAM che ne? e nirdaya ne naThera te nathI thaI gaye ne? ne bIjAne sukhI jeIne enA dilamAM AnaMdane badale adekhAI te nathI UgatI ne? te jarUra e Astika che. cheDeka meDo, paNa e dharmakaraNI jarUra karaze. navI peDhIne kahevuM paDaze ke, mitra! tuM je dayALu hoya ne bIjAnA sukhe sukhI thatuM hoya, te pachI DAka sAru tArI AstikatAne kAM adhUrI rAkhe? tuM DI DI dharmakaraNa karIza, te tane be lAbha thaze; eka, tArI AstikatAne dhArmikatAne sonerI DheLa caDaze ne vaLI tArA vaDIlonuM haiyuM paNa Tharaze. ane atIndriya tanA saMdarbhamAM ApaNe vicArIzuM ke, je vyakti "AtmA" nAmanA tatvane na svIkAre, e kayAreya pArakAnAM duHkhe duHkhI na ja thaI zake, je AtmA ja na hoya, te keIkane marate rIbAte dekhIne ApaNe duHkhI thavAne koI artha kharo? e te mare ke na mare, badhuM sarakhuM ja lAgavuM joIe. Ama chatAM, keInI mRtyupIDA ApaNane duHkhI karyA vinA rahetI nathI. ethI ja nakkI thAya che ke "AtmA" che. je mAre jIva mane vahAle che, tevo bIjAne paNa pitAne jIva vahAle che; ne mane je sukha gamatuM hoya, duHkha na gamatuM hoya, te bIjAne paNa sukha ja game, duHkha na ja game...AvI AtmamUlaka vicAraNA-aspaSTapaNe paNa-hAya te ja mANasa bIjAnAM duHkhe duHkhI ne sukhe sukhI thaI zake. A ja che AstikatA. ane A AstikatA ja paryuSaNanI sAthe ApaNane joDanArI sAMkaLa-Link che.
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________________ ATha kSamAnAM gulamahoranuM upavana eka videzI vicArake kahelI eka majAnI vAta hamaNAM vAMcI: "niSNAte e natIjA para pahoMcyA che ke kaI paNa bhASAmAM uccAravAmAM sahuthI muzkela traNa zabdo A cheH mArI bhUla thaI gaI.' A sarasa jaNAtI vAtamAM paNa mArA hisAbe, thoDeka umero karavA Avazyaka che. huM umerIza: micchA mi dukakaDaMnI bhASA AmAM apavAdarUpa che. micchA mi dukkaDaM eTale mArI bhUla thaI gaI. micchA mi dukkaDa eTale mane kSamA kare. micchAmi dukakaDe eTale pharI kayAreya huM bhUla nahi karuM. micchA mi dukakaDe e kSamAnI taLapadI belI che. jyAre paryuSaNanI sAdhanAne paripAka thAya che, tyAre haiyAMmAMthI A belI ApoApa sarI paDe che. kSamA ja vIranuM bhUSaNa gaNAtI hoya, to micchA mi dukakaDa e mardonI vIrabalI che. jAye-ajANya, IcchAo ke anicchAe. IrAdApUrvaka ke vagara-vicAryuM. bIjAonuM azubha bolyA hoIe, vicAryuM hoya ke AcaryuM hoya te tene lIdhe aMtaratalamAM jAmI gayela IrSA, dveSa, rIsa ne udveganA kacarAne ulecI ulecIne Aje bahAra phekavAno che; haiyAMnI saphAI karavAnI che. haiyAmAM vagara paravAnagIe, gerakAyadesara, jAmI paDelI A kacarAnI vasAhatane, Aje jaDamULathI nAbUda karavAnI che. have tyAM kSamA 21
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________________ ane maitrI, prasannatA ane samatAnAM gulamaheArAnuM mIThaDu upavana racavAnuM che. sAcukalA haiyAmAMthI ugelA micchAmi dukkaDamAM, A tamAma kAyavAhI ekale hAthe karI chUTavAnu' sAmarthya che. A aNadITha sAmarthya nA sAcA upayAga ane upabhega Aje lAkhe| jenA karaze ane paryuSaNane ja nahi, paNa peAtAnA jIvanane paNa, kSamA ane maitrInAM gulamaheAranAM mIThAM hAsyathI bharyu bharyu manAvI deze. 22
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