Mahavir Devno Gruhasthashram

Author(s): Satyabhakta
Publisher: Mandal Jain Sangh
Catalog link: https://jainqq.org/explore/034947/1

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nakhara Adya udgAra (prastAvanA) 1. azAnti ... ... viSa cA nu krU ma 2. bhInI AMkheA 3. thrIkA vasanta 4. AMsuonuM nd 5. mAnI zakti 6. adhUrI sAttvanA 7. sanyAsa ane kaceNa ... 8. sItA ane UrmilAnAM upAkhyAna... 9. nArInI sAdhanA ... 10. sattatAnI sAmagrI 11. pitRviyega 12. mAtRviyega 13. bhAIchatA anurAdha 14. grahatapasyA 15. mujhavaNu 16. devInI anumati 17. niSkramaNu *** ... 030 900 ... 180 www ... ... ... 630 Shree Sudharmaswami Gyanbhandar-Umara, Surat ... 200 ... 0.0 *** ... ... ... 600 ... ... ... 930 : 230 ... ... 830 ... ... ... ... ... ... : ... ... 930 ... ... ... 830 pRS4 3 1 13 18 21 28 34 36 43 47 para 55 pa 18 61 17 68 74 www.umaragyanbhandar.com

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Agha uddagAra vadho-satyAzramanA sthApaka zrI satyabhAjanuM hindImAM lakheluM mahAda ja tattara) pustaka, je lagabhaga poNA cAra pRSonuM che, temAM prAraMbhathI laI mahAvIranA "niSkramaNa sudhIne bhAga, je lagabhaga bahetara pUcho sudhI che tenuM A gujarAtI rUpAntara che, e pustakamAM mahAvIranI DAyarI rUpe e mahApuruSanuM jIvanacitraNa che. citraNamAM kalpanAone saMbhAra khUba che. paNa te asaMgata nahi, kintu susaMgatarUpe camakate dekhAya che. mahAvIrajIvananI mULa hakIkata je prAcIna zAstromAM ulikhita maLe che, prAyaH te badhI lekhake lIdhI che ane pitAnI prakhara prajJAzaktinA sundara raMgathI raMgIne mUkI che, je, vaijJAnika ane navayuganI parimArjita buddhine khUba rocaka banI javA saMbhava che. mahAvIranuM tatvadarzana paNa lekhake buddhigrAhya yuktivaibhavathI samRddha vizada vistArathI ApyuM che. saraLa, subodha rIte AlekhAyeluM AkhuM pustaka kAntinI prazasta pratibhAthI samajavalita dekhAya che. granthane prAraMbha karatAM ja vAcaka joI zakaze ke "mahAvIranI patnI yazodA hatI" e sivAya yazodA devIne mATe eka paNa zabda purANuM ke pachInA granthamAM zodhyo jaDatuM nathI, jyAre A pustakamAM lekhake mahAvIra ane yazodA devInA saMbaMdhamAM ane yazodA devIthI kema budI maLe enI mahAvIrane thatI mathAmaNamAM cesaTha jeTalAM pUNe

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: 4 : rAkayAM che, jemAM vAcakanA hRtyane dravita karI mUke eve karuNa rasa te vahe ja che, uparAMta, yazeAdAdevI pratye mRdu, snigdha ane vivekI vyavahAra rAkhavAmAM mahAvIra kevA zAlIna dekhAya che enuM citraNa lekhaka tarI khUba sarasa banavA pAmyuM' che. peAte mahAna saubhAgyazAlI saMjoge vacce hAtAM paNa mahAvIra jagatanI du:khArtA dazA para keTalA vyathita rahe che ane enA ( jaganA ) kalyANanI jAjvalyamAna bhAvanAe peAtAnA samagra bhautika sukhanA tyAga karI sanyAsanA ativikaTa kaSTapUrNa tyAgadharma para caDavAne e kAruNika puruSa keTaleA jha Mkhe che e badhu asarakAraka rIte AlekhIne lekhake mahAvIranI vAstavika mahattA vAstavika rIte pradarzita karI che. ApaNe yAda rAkhIe ke koI paNa santane jIvanamahimA vikAsakrame UrdhvagAmI bane che ane utkarSanI parAkASThAe pahoMce che, tadnusAra A pustakamAM mahAvIranA vAstavika jIvanamahimA-gRhasthAzrama, saMnyAsa, vItarAga sAdhanA ane tIrtha"karavarUpe-khIlate jAya che ane eve khIlavA pAmyA che ke Aja sudhInA samagra grantheAnI tulanAmAM navI bhAta pADatA mAlUma paDe che, je, jaina para'parAnI andaranA ke bahAranA kAI paNa buddhijIvI vicArakeAnAM, taTastha medhAvIenAM anta:karaNane avazya AkarSI zakaze ema mAnu cheM. e mahAt pustaka jaina ke a-jaina dareka satyajijJAsue avaleAkavA lAyaka che ema mArI namra abhiprAya che. } vi. sa. 2010-vaizAkha pATaNa (gujarAta) Shree Sudharmaswami Gyanbhandar-Umara, Surat --nyAyavijaya www.umaragyanbhandar.com

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mahAvIradevano gRhasthAzrama 1, azAnti (1) jagat duHkhI che, e mATe nahi ke jIvananirvAhanAM sAdhana nathI; jIvita rahevA lAyaka-peTa bharavA lAyaka--badhuM che; paNa kamI eka ja vAtanI che ke tRNuM bharAI (purAI jAya evuM jagamAM kaMI nathI. jagat mudra yA kaMgAla che evuM kaMI nathI, paNa tRSNanuM meTuM bahu meTuM che, e kadi bharAtuM nathI. enuM meTuM mApIne eTalA mApanI cIja emAM bharI devAmAM Ave te ethI cAragaNuM e (meTuM) moTuM thaI jAya che. ApaNe bharatA jaIzuM ane e vadhu ne vadhu phATatuM jaze. vicitra anavasthA che! paraMtu jaganA prANIo A nathI samajatA ane tRSNAnuM mAM bharavAnI nirarthaka ceSTA dinarAta karyA kare che, tyAM sudhI ke potAnI tRSNanuM moTuM bharavA mATe teo bIjAonAM jIvanane hemI de che, emanAM peTanI roTI suddhAM chInavI le che, emanI jIvanazaktine cUsI nAkhe che. AthI ja jagatamAM hiMsA che, jUTha che, cerI che, vyabhicAra che ane anAvazyaka saMgraha che.

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tRSNAnA kAraNe mANasa potAne hamezAM tarasyo (tRSita) anubhave che ane bIjAnAM kaSTane jeto nathI. IcchApUtine Ananda kSaNabhara ja Take che, bIjI ja kSaNe pharI hatI evI ja tRSA lAgI Ave che, evI ja vyathA pedA thAya che. Ama saphalatA paNa niSkalatAmAM pariName che. tRSNAne mAryA vinA kaI sAcI saphaLatA meLavI zakato nathI. tRSNAne naSTa karavAmAM Ave te svarganI jarUra na rahe ane mekSa ghaTaghaTamAM virAja. mAna thaI jAya. huM A mokSa meLavavA IcchuM chuM, kevaLa meLavavA ja nahi, kintu mekSane mArga jagatane batAvavA IcchuM chuM, ane batAvavA ja nahi, paNa e mArga para duniyAne calAvavA paNa cAhuM chuM. vicAra karuM chuM ke A badhuM kevI rIte bane ? A mATe mAre DuM nahi, ghaNuM karavAnuM che, jIvana khapAvavuM joize. pacIsa varSanI ummara thaI cukI che. pAchalA divase A ja vicAramAM athavA Antarika taiyArImAM vItyA che. paNa na mAlUma, haju bIjA keTalA divase vItaze? kuTuMbIonA pratye paNa mArI javAbadArI che, ene kevI rIte pUrI karuM? kevI rIte emanAthI chuTTI lauM? samajAtuM nathI. hajusudhI mArA mananI vAta keIne mAluma nathI. mAluma paDaze tyAre, na mAluma, zuM thaze, kikaLa macI jaze. mArI raheNIkaraNIthI kuTuMbIo kaMIka zaMkita to che, paNa emane zuM khabara ke mArA manamAM kevI azAnti macI che. Ama te mane kaI vAtanuM kaSTa nathI. mAbApane dulAre chuM, bhAI nandivardhana mane

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pitAne jamaNe hAtha samaje che, patnI te mane prANasamAna pyAra kare che ane bacI priyadarzanA mane joI ullAsathI evI kUdavA mAMDe che ke huM kevAya vicAromAM magna hAu teya mAruM dhyAna kheMcI ja le che. mAre ene kheALAmAM levI ja paDe che. aDadhI ghaDI mArI badhI gaMbhIratAne te uthalAvI nAkhe che. A bAbanA suvarNa saMsAra cheDavAnuM kene mana thAya ! choDavAnI vAta kahuM to loko AzcaryamAM DUbavA lAgaze. paNa A tarapha emanuM dhyAna ja jatuM nathI ke A badhuM cirasthAyI nathI ane na badhAnA bhAgyamAM nirmANa thayuM che. e hAI paNa zake nahi. badhA rAjA thaI jAya to rAjya kenA upara heAya? badhA mAlika thaI jAya to sevaka keNu hoya ? ataH badhAne mArA jevI paristhiti maLI zakatI nathI; to A asvAbhAvika sthitithI jagata kevI rIte sukhI thaI zake? sthiti evI hevI joIe ke koI keInI upara savAra na hoya; sevA, jJAna, tapa, tyAganI mahattA hoya, paNa kulanI, dhananI, vaMzaparaMparAnI, adhikAranI mahattA nAza pAmelI hoya. leke svecchAthI guNIonI, upakArIonI sevA-pUjA-pratiSThAyogAna kare, paNa emAM vivazatAnI hInatA na hovI joIe. jyAM sudhI A badhuM bane nahi tyAM sudhI jagat sukhI thaI zake nahi. sukhane A mArga mAre jagatane batAve che, e mArga para cAlavuM che ane ene mATe pitAnA jIvananuM balidAna karavuM che. (2) Aja citta ghaNuM khinna che. pharate pharate Aja govara' gAmanI tarapha cAlyA gayA hatA. mAluma paDayuM ke

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: 8 : tyAM yajJa thayela. hADakAM ane mAMsa cAre bAju vikharAyela paDayAM hatAM. yajJamAM seMkaDe jAnavare mAryA gayAM hatAM. mANasanI A kevI nirdayatA che! bIcArA niraparAdha pazuonI te hatyA kare che ane phakta svAdane mATe hatyA kare che. dezamAM anAjanI kamI nathI. have te kRSikArya eTaluM vadhI gayuM che ke anAjanI kamI paDI ja zakatI nathI, chatAM mANasa jIbhane mATe kevI hatyA kare che ! ane vadhAre duHkhanI vAta e che ke A hatyAone te pA5 samajato nathI. ene dharmanuM rUpa Ape che. ke bhayaMkara daMbha che? kevuM meTuM mithyAtva che? samajuM chuM ke asaMyama karatAM paNa mithyAtva dharmane moTo duzmana che. asaMyamIne asaMyama chupAI javA mATe ADa meLavI zakato nathI, jyAre mithyAtvIne asaMyama chupAI javA mATe dharmanA paNa nAmanI eAtha meLavI le che. ethI ene haTAvavAnuM kArya atikaThina banI jAya che. meM eomAMnA eka jaNane pUchayuM tame loke dharmanA nAma para AvAM muMgA prANuonI hatyA zA mATe karo che? tamane tamArI A nirdayatA mATe zarama nathI AvatI ? tyAre eNe nirlajajapaNe javAba Ape ke emAM nirdayatA zuM che? ame te eka prakAre dayA karIne ja pazuonuM yajJamAM balidAna karIe chIe. balidAnathI teo pazupenithI chUTI jAya che ane svarge cAlyA jAya che. ahIM teo ghAsa khAya che ane A rIte marIne tyAM pahoMcI amRta pIe che. yajJamAM maravA sivAya bIjuM kayuM kalyANa emanuM zakya che? enI A daMpUrNa nirlajajatA yA pUratA para ane A

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badhAM pApa para paDade nAkhanAra mahApApa mithyAtva para mane ghaNuM Azcarya thayuM. meM ene pUchyuM. teo svarge jAya che e tame joyuM che? tyAre eNe kahyuM joyuM nathI te zuM thayuM? vedamAM te kahyuM che ne? eha! e veda! ane enA AdhAra para A ghora anartha ! paNa A badhI vAta e sAMbhaLavA taiyAra nahato. ataH meM eTaluM ja kahyuM ke je yajJamAM maravAthI pazuo svargamAM jatAM hoya te tame paNa yajJamAM kema na marI gayA ? tame paNa svargamAM pahoMcI jAta ane pazuothI vadhu UMcuM sthAna pAmI jAta. Ane eNe kaze javAba na Ape. meM bagADIne cAlyA gaye. javAba deta paNa zuM? ema jaNAya che ke mANasane mANasa banAva heya te mANamAM patharAyelI vedamUDhatAne haTAvavI paDaze. manuSyane e zikhavavuM paDaze ke te zAstrane pitAnI buddhithI, vivekathI parakhe, dravya-kSetra-kALa-bhAvane vicAra kare. Aja huM becena chuM ke A zAstramUDhatAthI ane krUratAthI manuSyane kevI rIte cheDAvuM? (3) Aja huM rathamAM besI jaI rahyo hato ke rastAmAM bhIDa dekhI. pUchatAM mAluma paDayuM ke paMDitenAM be daLamAM jhaghaDo thaI gayo che. jhaghaDe hate haita ane advaitane. dratavAdI paMDite advaitavAdI paMDitanI patnI sAthe vyabhicAra karelo; ema chatAM te kahI rahyo hato ke emAM pApa zuM thayuM? ane tivAdamAM potAnuM zuM ane parAyuM zuM? badhuM eka che. pachI

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: 10: pApa kyAM ? A yuktine javAba enuM mAthuM phADIne ApavAmAM AvyuM hatuM ane kahevAmAM AvyuM hatuM ke daitavAdamAM AtmA ane zarIra bhinna-bhinna che, mATe mAthuM pheDavAthI AtmAnuM zuM bagaDayuM? keTalA mUkha ane avivekI che A paMDito ! kevI vivekazUnya ekAntadaSTi che A mANasonI! asaMyama, atyAcAra, anIti para dharma ane darzananuM kevuM AvaraNa nAkhe che A leke ! chatAMya A lokone joI janatA kiMkartavyavimUDha che. janatA emanI saMskRta bhASA samajatI nathI. e bhASAmAM kaMIpaNa bheLavI-ghaLI eo janatA para pitAnA pAMDityanI dhAka jamAve che. e meghajIvI (harAmakhore) pRthvIne bhAra che. pRthvIne A bhAra koI paNa prakAre Utaravo joIe. | darzananA A jhaghaDAone dUra karavA mATe ekAntadaSTine tyAga jarUrI che. anekAnta siddhAnta ja A mithyAtvane naSTa karI zake che. te eka evI cAvI che ke jenAthI sAdhAraNa janatA paNuM kartavya-akartavya, satya-asatyane nirNaya karI zake che. hA, dharma ane jJAnane janatAnI pAse pahoMcADavA mATe janatAnI bhASAmAM besavuM paDaze. paMDitenI durbodha saMskRtane tyAga kara paDaze. mAgadhI yA AsapAsanI anya belIothI mizrita mAgadhI arthAt ardhamAgadhImAM zAstra banAvavuM paDaze. tyAre ja sarvasAdhAraNa janatA dharmane marma samajaze ane A moghajIvI paMDitanI pola khUlaze ane dharmanA nAma para thanAruM adharmanuM tAMDava naSTa thaze. paNa A badhuM bane zI rIte ? kahevA-bAlavAthI te

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': 11 : nahi ja banI jAya. balake AvI vAto moDhethI nikaLatAM ja cAre bAjuthI eTalo virodha thaze ke ene sahana kare kaThina thaze, mane nahi te kuTuMbIone jarUra. A badhI samasyAonI pUrti mATe mAre pitAnA jIvanamAM paryApta kAnti karavI paDaze. paNa ene samaya kyAre Avaze ? e kAnti huM kema karIza? kaMI kahI zakato nathI. manamAM ne manamAM becenI vadhI rahI che. (4) Aja vanavihAra gayo hato. vasantanA ullAsamAM badhA masta hatA. ghaDIbhara huM paNa pitAne nizcitta je anubhavavA lAgyo, ke eTalAmAM mArA raMgamAM bhaMga thaye. mArI najara eka ghAyala AdamI para paDI. ene mAthethI lehI vahI rahyuM hatuM. hAtha-pagamAM paNa ghA hatA. pITha sUjhI gaI hatI. te ghaNe cheTethI lathaDato AvI rahyo hato. ate enI zaktie javAba daI dIdhe. te mArA kIDAvananA phATakanA eka kinAre thAkIne paDI gaye. huM tarata ja tenI pAse pahoMce. pUchavAthI mAluma paDayuM ke enuM nAma zivakezI che, jAtine cAMDAla che. kayAMka vedanuM paThana thaI rahyuM hatuM ane enA manamAM veda sAMbhaLavAnI IcchA thaI AvI eTale e bahAra Ubhe Ubhe sAMbhaLavA lAge. cAMDAlanA kAnamAM vedanA akSare cAlyA jAya e eTaluM meTuM pApa manAyuM che ke enuM mastaka uDavuM ane ene aMga-aMge ghAyala kara e puratuM prAyazcitta nahi! zivakezIe e paNa kahyuM ke ghaNA brAhmaNenI icchA te e hatI ke A pApanA prAyazcittamAM cAMDAlanA kAnamAM sIsuM

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: 13 pigaLAvIne nAkhavuM joie. paNa e leAkeAe dayA karIne mAthAthI paga sudhI phakta daDA mArI mArIne tene ghAyala karIne ja cheADI dvIdheA. manuSyatAnuM apamAna AthI vadhAre bhayaMkara zuM hoya ? dharmanA nAma para paizAcika vartAvanI kalpanA AthI vadhAre zu karI zakAya ? veda A meAghajIvI paDitAnA roTalA che; e leAkeAne Dara che ke keAI bIjo veda jANI amArA roTalA na chInavI le ! eTalA mATe e leAkeA ene sAru krUrathI krUra ane che. jJAna manuSyanA janmasiddha adhikAra che, paNa e ja jJAnathI A meghajIvI leAkeA manuSyAne vaMcita rAkhavA mAMge che. ee manuSyatAnA zatru che. A ajJAnatA, A ghamaMDa ane A krUratAnuM nikandana thavuM ja joie. mAre A mATe lekamata taiyAra karavA che ane evI taiyArI karavI che ke jethI kAi manuSyAkAra jantu manuSyatAnuM apamAna na karI zake. Aha ! zivakezInA e zabdo mane hajI sudhI bhedI rahyA che ke dayA karIne mane manuSya na samajo! mane pazu samajo ! (( "" enA para paDelA ghA jovA mATe jyAre meM enA zarIra para hAtha lagADayeA tyAre eNe kahyuM ke mane na aDA ! huM cAMDAla chu'! tyAre meM kahyuM, Akhara manuSya teA che. teNe hyuM: " mArA para dayA karI, mane manuSya na samajo, huM' manuSya kahevAvA cAhateA nathI. hu' jo pazu Ata te| kAnamAM vedajavAthI na mAruM zira phADAta, na huM adbhUta.kahevAta. kAI jAnavara achUta kahevAtuM nathI, phakta mANasa ja adbhUta kahevAya

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ka 13 : che." keTalA marmanI vAta kahI teNe. kharekhara mANasa mANasa tarapha dhRNA karI keTalo adhama banI gayo che! ohavaidika dharmanI havA keTalI vikRta thaI gaI che ! e vikiyAe manuSyanI manuSyatA chInavI lIdhI che, keTalAkane eNe pazu ane keTalAkane eNe nArakI banAvI dIdhA che. zivakezInI cikitsA mATe jyAre meM vaidyane bolAvyo tyAre vidya ghA dekhavA mATe ene aDavAnI nA pADI. dUrathI davA batAvI cAlyo gayo. mAruM pada, vyaktitva paNa enI pAse A kAma na karAvI zakayuM. mArAM pada ane vyaktitva karatAM paNa vadhI jAya evI enI pAse zakti hatI lokamatanI. keIne vaidyanI beparavAI anucita na lAgI. ' bhAI nendivardhanane A vAta jaNAvI tyAre temaNe paNa kahyuM te cAMDAlane kema aData? tAtparya e ke pApa Aja manuSyasamAjane sahaja svabhAva banI gayA che. zAsanazakti eno kaza avarodha karI zakatI nathI. huM rAjA yA samrA banIne paNa A dizAmAM kaMI karI zakatuM nathI. jagatnI sevA mATe jaMgalamAM javuM paDaze. mahelomAM rahevAthI nahi cAle. paNa A badhuM bane kema ? ane kyAre ? 2. bhInI AMkho (1) yazodAdevInI bhInI AMkhe mArI AMkhonI sAmethI khasatI nathI. duniyAnAM duHkhe ane adherazAhI joI mAruM mana becena te pahelethI ja hatuM, paNa kAle zivakezInI durdazA

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14 : joI ane e durdazAne dUra karavAmAM mArA asAmane anubhava karyo ethI rAtanA e becenI khUba vadhI gaI. mane becena joI yazadAdevInI becenI mArAthI paNa ghaNuM vadhI gaI emaNe pharI pharI mane mArI becenInuM kAraNa pUchyuM. paNa huM zuM batAvata ! huM manamAM ne manamAM acakAI rahyA ke mArI becenInA A kAraNa para te badhAM hasavA lAgaze. sAdhAraNa mANasane svabhAva te e che ke enA upara jyAre koI saMkaTa Ave che tyAre te becena bane che; bIjAnA duHkhamAM te phakta sahAnubhUti prakaTa karI zake che, paNa sahAnubhUti karI zakato nathI, dinarAta becenI rahevI e te ghaNuM cheTI vAta. ataH mArI becenI e zuM samaje ? ethI mArI becenInI vAta yazadAdevIne paNa kahevAnuM mana thatuM nahatuM. paNa emanA atyAgrahathI mAre badhI vAta kahevI paDI. duniyAmAM phelAyelI tRSNA, anIti, hiMsA, dharmAnyatA, jAtimada vagerenI vAta jyAre meM kahI tyAre devI zira nIcuM rAkhI badhuM sAMbhaLatAM rahyAM. pachI emaNe kahyuM: deva, ApanI karuNA agAdha che ane AvA karuNAzAlI puruSanI patnI hovAnuM mane gaurava che, ema chatAM Apane prArthanA karuM chuM ke Apa becena na thAo. ApaNuM duHkhI thavAthI ApaNuM luMTAyeluM sukha saMsAramAM vaheMcAI nahi jAya. luMTAyeluM dhana vaheMcAI jaI zake che, paNa luMTAyeluM sukha vaheMcAI jatuM nathI. ' kahyuM paNa jyAM sudhI bIjAonuM duHkha ApaNuM duHkha na banI jAya tyAM sudhI ene dUra karavAne gaMbhIra prayatna ApaNe zI rIte karI zakIe tema chIe? bIjAonA dukhe

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: 15 : jeTalA vadhu dukhI ApaNe thaIzuM, paropakArane mATe eTale ja vadhu prayatna ApaNe thaze. gaMbhIra becenI vinA prayatna paNa gaMbhIra banI zakatuM nathI. priyadarzanAnA kaSTane dUra karavA mATe tame jeTalo prayatna karI zake che eTale ja prayatna zuM kaI bIjI kanyAne mATe karI zako che? devI kSaNabhara aTakyAM, pachI belyAM-nathI karI zakatI. huM enuM kAraNa e ja te che ke priyadarzanAnA kaSTathI jeTalI becenI tamane pedA thaI zake che teTalI bIjAnA kaSTathI nahi. devIH Apa barAbara kaho che. pachI meM caherA para jarA smita lAvIne kahyuM have te tame mArI becenInuM kAraNa samajI gayAM haze. ziSTatAvaza devIe muskAI dIdhuM, paNa mane e samajavAmAM vAra na lAgI ke e muskAvAnA raMganI nIce cintAne raMga hato, je e muskAvAnA raMgathI gADha hato. thoDIvAra ciMtA karIne devIe kahyuMH ApanuM kahevuM ThIka che, paNa manuSya adhikathI adhika AtmakalyANa ja karI zake che. jagatane sudhAravAnI ciMtA karIne paNa thavAnuM zuM? jagat to apAra che. ApaNe enI ciMtA karIne paNa pAra pAmI zakatA nathI, te pachI ApaNuM ja kalyANa kema na karIe? devInI A tArkikatA joI mane Azcarya na thayuM. vAta ema che ke devIe kaLI lIdhuM che ke mAre mArga sarvasvatyAgano che, ane enAthI bacavA mATe teo potAnI badhI zakti lagAvI rahyAM che, buddhi para paNa jora lagAvI rahyAM che,

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pakSa : 16 : ethI ja teo AvI dalIla mUkI zakyAM. paNa meM pitAnA pakSanA samarthana mATe kahyuM: AtmakalyANane mATe paNa jagata kalyANa karavAnI jarUra che. jyAre cAre bAju anIti, azAnti ane jaDatA phelAyelI hoya tyAre ApaNI nIti, zAnti ane buddhimattA saphala thaI zakatI nathI. | devIe ThIka che. Apa pitAnA svajano ane parijanone tapAse ke emAM kyAMya anIti, azAnti ane jaDatA te nathI? je hoya te Apa emanI cikitsA kare. ethI Apane paNa santoSa thaze ane emane paNa uddhAra thaze. eha! emanI A vAta sAMbhaLIne te mane evuM lAgyuM ke devI bahArathI vinIta ane zAna rahIne paNa andara ne andara mArI sAthe bauddhika mallayuddha karI rahyAM che ane navA navA peca nAkhI rahyAM che. AmAM emane vAMka nathI. emanI vedanAne huM anubhava karuM chuM. paNa karuM zuM ? mane je samyagdarzana thayuM che enI sArthakatA A nAnAsarakhA kSetramAM cena karavAmAM nathI, kintu badhAnI pyAsa chipAvavAmAM che. dharAtalanI andara badhI jagyAe pravAha vahI rahyA che, paNa upara duniyA mAsathI taDaphaDI rahI che, mAruM kAma kUpa khedI andara chupAyeluM jaLa bahAra lAvavAnuM che ane badhAne jaLa pIvAne rAha batAvavAnuM che athavA rAha banAvavAnuM paNa che. A ja vAta jarA bIjA DhaMgathI samajAvavA mATe meM devIne kahyuM: eka kUtare jyAre kayAMya besavA cAhe che tyAre pagathI ekAda hAtha jagyA sApha karI le che, ane eTalI saphAIthI saMtuSTa thaI besI jAya che, paNa eka AdamI eTalAthI santuSTa nathI thata; te

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e jarUrI samaje che ke mArI pUrI paDI sApha che. jeo enAthI paNa adhika vikasita che teo ema vicAre che ke kevala jhuMpaDI sApha thavAthI ja zuM thavAnuM? je jhuMpaDInI AsapAsa malamUtra bharAI rahyuM che te jhupaDImAM kema rahI zakAze ? jeo emanAthI paNa adhika vikasita hoya che teo vicAre che ke jhuMpaDInI AsapAsanI saphAIthI ja zuM thavAnuM? agara nagaranA bIjA rastA malamUtrathI bharelA rahe te evA nagaramAM rahevAthI te javuM-AvavuM paNa banI zakaze nahi. ethI e cAhe che ke AkhuM zahera svaccha he. niHsaEha, A badhuM teo pitAne mATe cAhe che, paNa emane svArtha AkhA zaherane svArtha siddha thaI jAya che. e ja te parakalyANamAM AtmakalyANa che ane evuM ja AtmakalyANa huM karavA IcchuM chuM. devI theDI vAra mauna rahyAM, ane pachI dhIre dhIre emanI AMkha bhInI thaI ane pipacA para motI paNa banyAM. meM atyanta snehanI sAthe devInA zira para hAtha rAkhe ane emanuM mastaka mArI chAtI para DhaLI paDayuM. meM khUba ja premala svaramAM kahyuMH devI, tame ATalAM gabharAo che ? jarA te amaratAnuM dhyAna te karo je jagatkalyANane mATe sarvasva samarpaNa karanArAone ane emanA saMbaMdhIone maLe che; ane Aja to huM kaMI karI ja rahyA nathI. vizvahitane mATe niSkamaNane dina to cheTe hAya ema jaNAya che. mAtA-pitA ane tamArI anumati vagara hu kadi niSkramaNa karIza nahi. ema chatAM eka vAta tamane kahuM chuM. tame kSatriyANI che,

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: 18 : hareka kSatriyANInA pitA, putra, pati yuddhakSetramAM jatA hoya che ane kSatrANI AratI utArI emane vidAya kare che. yuddha kSetramAM vidAya karavA mATe kevA kaThera hRdayanI AvazyakatA che e kahevAnI jarUra nathI; ane evuM ja hRdaya kSatriyANIne maLeluM hoya che. te pachI tamArA hRdayamAM ATalI kAtaratA kema? | devIe kahyuM: deva, kSatrANI vidAyanI AratI utAre che, paNa te vakhate anDara--andara te pitAnAM AMsuone je pI jAya che te kevaLa e ja AzA upara ke pharI kaI divase te svAgatanI AratI paNa utAraze. paNa niSkamaNamAM A AzA kyAM ? Ama kahetAM kahetAM devInuM gaLuM bharAI AvyuM ane mArA khoLAmAM mAthuM chupAvI teo dhrusake dhrusake revA lAgyAM. | mArI AMkhe paNa bharAI AvI ane gaLuM paNa bharAI gayuM, ethI huM pharI kaMI kahI zakyo nahi. snehathI emanA zira para ane pITha para hAtha pheravavA lAge. ghaNIvAre emaNe mAthuM uThAvyuM ane bhInI AMkhethI mane jovA lAgyAM. te bhInI AMkhe mane A vakhate paNa dekhAI rahI che. 3. phIke vasanta pandara divasathI yazodAdevInA vyavahAramAM ghaNuM attara joI rahyo chuM. prema e che thaI gayuM che ema nathI, paNa emAM bhaya, AzaMkA bhaLavAthI Adara vadhI gayo che. mArI sUcanAonuM turata zIdhrAtizIvra ane ThIka-ThIka pAlana thAya enuM adhikathI adhika dhyAna rAkhavAmAM Ave che. jANe ke huM gharane AdamI nahi, paNa bahArane atyA

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: 19 : daraNIya atithi chuM. huM kaI agavaDanA kAraNe jarA paNa aprasanna na thavA pAmuM enI pUrI ceSTAonuM phaLa e AvyuM ke A varSane vasanta phIke pasAra thaI rahyo che. gata varSe A ja vasantanA divase hatA, devIe te divase sakhIonI sAthe maLIne mALAo gUMthI hatI, eTalAmAM pahoMcyo chuM ane hasIne kahyuM: Aja to phUlone hera bhege karyo che, kAmadevanI AyudhazALA para chApo mAryo che zuM ? | mArI vAta sAMbhaLI badhI hasavA lAgI. keTalIka zaramAI paNa. paNa belakaNI vAsanI belIpaNa kumAra, kAmadevanI AyudhazALA tUTatAM lUMTatAM sakhInI AMgaLIo thAkI gaI che. meM kahyuM te tame badhI zA mATe che? tamArAthI eTaluM paNa na thayuM ke sakhInI AMgaLIe dabAvI emanI thakAvaTa dUra karI dete ? paNa vAsantI na zaramAI, na te cUpa rahI. eNe tarata ja javAba Ape ke e badhuM ame karI cukyA, paNa komalAMgIenA dabAvavAthI thakAvaTa zI rIte dUra thaI zake, e mATe te kumArasarakhA azakta hAtha joIe. badhAne aTTahAsa havAmAM guMjI UTho, ane meM AgaLa jaI devInA baMne hAtha pakaDI lIdhA ane AMgaLIo dabAvavA lAgyo. devI zaramAI gayAM, emaNe AMgaLIo cheDAvavAnuM nATya karyuM, paNa AMgaLIe cheDAvI nahi. badhI muskAvA lAgI. gatavarSane vasanta A ja rasIlo hato. A varSane vasanta phIka che. devIe mALAo A vakhate paNa banAvI che,

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: 20 : nRtya paNa thayAM che, zRMgAra paNa thaI rahyA che, mane rijhavavAmAM paNa Ave che, paNa te unmuktapaNuM nathI jevuM harasAlI rahyA karatuM hatuM. devInA caherA para e dekhAI rahyuM che ke emane A vakhate A kAmamAM zrama lAge che. pahelAM teo mane pitAne sAthI samajatAM hatAM, ethI mane bAMdhI rAkhavAne parizrama emane nahato kare paDato; have eo samaje che ke huM bhAgI javAne chuM, ethI e sevAthI, ziSTatAthI, vinayathI mane bAMdhI rAkhavA cAhe che. have huM emane sahacara nahi, paNa ArAdhya chuM. mAruM sthAna have emaNe pahelA karatAM UMcuM karI dIdhuM che, eTaluM UMcuM ke vasantane rasa eTalI UMcAI sudhI caDavA pAmatuM nathI. Ama hamaNAM vasanta phIke paDI gayo che. hAlamAM duvidhAmAMthI pasAra thaI rahyo chuM. jagata pitAnI mUMgI AhAthI mane bolAvI rahyuM che, paNa ahIM huM AMsuothI gherAyelo chuM. jaganA pratye mAruM je kartavya che te mane duvidhAmAM nAkhI rahyuM che. eka buddhi kahe che ke jaganI sevA mATe gharathI nikaLa! bIjI kahe che ke eka niraparAdha patnIne avaidhavyamAM paNa vaidhavyanI yAtanA devAne tane ze adhikAra che? kamamAM kama tuM tyAM sudhI ghara nathI cheDI zakate jyAM sudhI teo tane dilathI anumati na Ape paNa te kaI patnI che je AvA kAryane mATe patine antaHkaraNathI anumati ApI de. ane mAtAjI ! emanuM zuM pUchavuM ? teo te zAyada mArA javAnI vAta sAMbhaLatAM ja AMsuonI nadI vahAvavA lAgaze. patnI te lajajAvaza, saMkecavaza

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: 21 kuMbhAranA nibhADAnI AganI peThe andarane andara ja baLatI rahI zake che, paNa mAtA to jvAlAnI jema baLavAnI. ema lAge che ke mAre A mATe keTalAMka varSa rekAI javuM paDaze. chavvIsa varSanI ummara thaI cukI che, mATe amuka ja varSa vadhu zekAI zakuM tema chuM, paNa na mAluma kyAM sudhI rokAvuM paDe. ThIka te che, mArA saMkalpanI parIkSA paNa te thavI joIe. e paNa te mAlUma paDavuM joIe ke te kSaNika Avega nahote. e daramyAna mArA vicAra patnInA manamAM paNa utAravA joIe. yA to mAre vivAha karavo ja nahotuM ane karyo che te jhaTake mArI toDavAnI nirdayatA na karavI joIe. ane A rAha jovAmAM eka lAbha e paNa che ke bhaviSyanI taiyArI mATe mane purata avasara maLe che. hA, e kharuM che ke AjakAla mArI jevI manovRtti che e jotAM A vasanta phIka jaI rahyo che. mane pitAnI cintA nathI; mane je te vasanta e grISma; chatAMya huM cAhuM chuM ke mArA kAraNe devIne vasanta phIka na jAya. huM emane kahI devAnuM chuM ke mArA taraphathI teo nizcitta rahe. jyAre huM temane mArA dhyeya ane kartavyanI saccAI samajAvI daIza ane temanI anumati laI laIza tyAre ja niSkramaNa karIza. teo prasanna rahe, unmukta rahe, pitAnA vasantamAM phIkApaNuM na lAve. 4 AMsuonuM dvandra vicAra karyo hato ke Aja devIne AzvAsana ApIza. emanI sAthe Aje ThIkaThIka vAtacIta paNa thaI, paratu.

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: 23 : emanI ja tarathI carcA kaIka evI cheDAI ke vAta kayAMnIkayAM jaI paheAMcI. vAta emaNe ja cheDI, paNa eka patnInI peThe nahi, kintu eka jijJAsu ziSyAnI jema. elyAM keH-- saMsAramAM e prakAranA prANI zukAma banAvavAmAM AvyAnara ane mAdA ? zuM eka ja prakAranA prANI banavAthI kAma na cAlata? prazna sAMbhaLI huM devInA sukhanI tarapha ekITase joi rahyo. emanI AMkheA nAcanI tarapha hatI ethI AMkhathI AMkha na maLI. kSaNabhara cUpa rahI meM kahyuM: kAma cAlata ke nahi e vAta javA do, paNa e matAveA ke kAma cAlata teA zuM sAruM heta ? Ama kahIne huM' muskAvA lAgyA. emaNe AMkheA UcI karI ane zaramAIne kI nIcI karI lIdhI. musakAna emanA mukha upara paNa khelavA lAgyu. emaNe zira nIce rAkhIne ja kahyuM: huM zuM jANuM ? Apa ja batAveA. me kahyuM tame jANA che, paNa peAtAnA mananI vAta mArA mukhathI paNa kahevarAvavA IcchA che. mArI vAta sAMbhaLatAM ja emanuM musakAna hAsya khanI gayuM ane lajjAne bhAra eTaleA vacce ke emanuM mastaka jhukIne mArI jA'gha para AvI gayuM. me pITha para hAtha pheravatAM pheravatAM kahyuM: tamArI matalaba samajuM chuM devI ! paNa pahelAM zAstrIya praznanA zAstrIya uttara ja ApuM chuM:

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kAryakAraNanI paraMparAthI sRSTi che ane hareka kAryane mATe nimitta ane upAdAna be kAraNonI jarUra che. be kAraNemAMthI eka paNa kama thaI jAya te kArya na thAya, sRSTi aTakI jAya, naSTa thaI jAya. prANisRSTimAM nArI upAdAna che ane puruSa nimitta. ataH bemAMthI ekanA vinA kAma kevI rIte cAlata? A te thaI tattvajJAnanI vAta ane sRSTinI anivAryatAnI vAta; paNa sRSTinA saundarya ane rasanI daSTie paNa naranArI Avazyaka che e vAta kahevAnI te jarUra paNa jaNAtI nathI. mArI vAta sAMbhaLI devI cUpa rahyAM, e mATe nahi ke mArI vAtathI emane santoSa thaI gaye. paNa phakta e mATe ke vadhAre uttara-pratyuttara karavAthI kayAMya mAre avinaya na thaI jAya. mitu huM emanA mananI vAta samajatuM hatuM, ataH emane bolavAnA saMkecamAM na nAkhatAM meM kahyuM: - have tame kaheze ke je Ama che te kaI mANase saMsA ranA A saundaryane naSTa karavAnI athavA rasane sUkavI devAnI vAta zuM kAma kare che? teo zA mATe duniyAthI bhAgI nimitta-upAdAnane sahayeAga teDI nAkhe che? A ja che ne tamArA mananI vAta ? devIe zira uThAvyuM ane karuNamizrita musakAnanI sAthe zira halAvI svIkRti prakaTa karI. ' kahyuMA ja huM tamane samajAvavA IcchuM chuM. Aja saMsArane A rasa luMTAI cUkyuM che, saundarya naSTa thaI cukayuM che. rasa ane saundaryane choDa Uge ane phale, phaLe ene

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* 24: mATe mAre mAruM jIvana bIjanI jema mATImAM meLavavu che. A rasa manuSyamAtraneA nahi, prANImAtranA che. paNa jayAre jou chuM ke eka gAyanI AgaLa enA sAthI-aLadanA dharmanA nAma para kakaDA-kakaDA karI devAya che tyAre te gAya ane baLadanA jIvananA rasa keTale! bacavA pAme che ? e ja dazA bheMsa-pADA, bakarI-bakarA, hiraNI-hiraNa vagerenI che. khera, pazuonI vAta javA de, paNa te divase zivakezInA mastakathI paga sudhInI badhI haTToe bhAMgI nAkhelI ethI e zivakezI ane enI zivakezinInA jIvanamAM keTaleA rasa khacelA ? te divase paDitAnAM dalee ekabIjAnu zira phADeluM tyAre temanAM kuTu emAM rAtrie kayA rasa vahyo haze ? sAthInA atibhAga ane vyabhicArathI pati-patnInA jIvanamAM keTale rasa rahI jatA haze ? saMsAranI sampatti jyAre eka tarapha kheMcAi bhegI thAya che tyAre khIjI tarapha leAkeA dANA dANA mATe mehatAja (lAcAra) khanI jAya che tyAre te kaM gAleAnA jIvanamAM keTale rasa rahI jatA haze ? A badhAM rasane sUkavI nAkhanArAM pApa che. e pApAne nimUla karavA mATe mAre jIvana khapAvavuM che. A pApa jo na heAta, duniyAmAM duHkha na heAta tA mAre jIvana khapAvavAnA vicAra karaveA na paData. sAMbhaLIe chIe ke eka jamAnA evA hatA ke jyAre ahIMAM koI pApa nahetu. janmathI maraNa sudhI dampati Anandamaya jIvana vitAvatAM hatAM. te samaye na tA kAI dharma-tIrthaM hatuM, na kAi tIrthaMkara, na AcAya, ane prajA marIne devagatimAM jatI hatI. Aje mANase mANasane rasa

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H 25 : phUTI lIdhA che ane koI zakti ene rokavA pAmatI nathI, mATe enAmAM manuSyatAnA bhAva bharavA mATe mArA jevA jAti mANase jIvana khapAvavuM jarUrI che. vAtanIvAtamAM huM eka pravacana jevuM karI gayA. devI pazu dhyAna daI mAruM vaktavya sAMbhaLatAM rahyAM ane e pUruM thatAM paNa kaMI na khAlyAM, paNa emanA caherA parathI jaNAi Avatu hatuM ke e kaMi kahevA cAhe che. huM paNa utsukatAthI emanA mukha tarapha evI rIte jotA rahyo ke jANe huM kaMika sAMbhaLavA cAhuM chuM. ghaNA saMkAcathI ane dhImA svaramAM emaNe kahyu ke ApanA prayatnathI jarUra duniyAnAM ghaNAMkharAM duHkhA dUra thaze, paNa prakRtie ja prANIne zuM kaMi ochuM duHkha daI rAkhyu che ? enu' zuM thaze ? meM kahyuMH mArA prayatnathI ja duniyAnAM badhAM pApa dUra nahi thai jaze, ane prAkRtika kaSTo paNa anyAM rahevAnAM, ema chatAM mANasane emanAthI bacAvI zakAya che. ane e badhu khanI zake che manuSyane jIvanmukta banAvIne. jIvanmukti, mukti yA meAnA pATha pazu manuSyane ApavA che. sabhava che ke A meAkSa ja manuSyanAM badhAM duHkhA para vijaya prApta karavAnu ameAdha ane antima zastra hAya. devI ceDIvAra grUpa rahyAM, pachI muskAyAM, pachI emaNe hasatAM hasatAM kahyuM: DIka che meAkSanA ja pATha paDhAveA ! ane ene mATe pahelI ziSyA mane manAvA !

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: 26 : devIne mAThuM na lAge e mATe javAbamAM meM paNa hasI dIdhuM, paNa e hAsya vadhu vakhata na TakI zakayuM. meM gaMbhIraprAya banIne kahyuM: mokSane pATha paDhAvavAnA pahelAM to mAre mokSa prApta karavuM paDaze ane enI parIkSAomAM uttIrNa thavuM paDaze. mukta ja muktine pATha paDhAvI zake che, bIjAone mukta banAvI zake che. devI theDIvAra cUpa rahyAM, pachI bolyAM sAruM, muktine abhyAsa kare! huM muktisAdhakanI sevA karIne ja pitAne kRtakRtya samajIza. huM: paNa vaibhava ane vilAsanI sAthe sevA karAvatA rahIne muktinI sAdhanA nathI thatI ane enI parIkSA devI e te vaLI vadhAre kaThina che. gherAtighera saMkaTo upara vijaya prApta karyA vinA ane saMkaTamAM sthira rahyA vinA kema samajI zakAya ke huM mukta chuM. e parIkSA gharamAM nahi, vanamAM thaze. saMbhavataH carcA kaMIka vadhu AgaLa cAlata, paNa eTalAmAM AvI gaI vAsatI. Aja e hAMsIkhora yuvatInA caherA upara paNa hAsya nahatuM. A tarapha amArA baMnenI gaMbhIra carcAe paNa amArA baMnenA caherA gaMbhIra banAvI dIdhA hatA. ethI e AvIne cUpacApa UbhI rahI. meM pUchayuM: kaMI khAsa vAta che vAsantI !? vAsantIe kahyuM. jI hA, cAMDAlavastIthI mAdhurika AvyuM che ane kahI rahyo che ke Aja savAre zivakezI marI gaye. marI gaye !" Azcarya pUrvaka doharAvyuM.

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: 27 : mArA mAthAthI paga sudhI jANe eka jvALA saLagI UThI. becenIthI huM Amatema AMTA mAravA lAgyA. Ama te koi cAMDAlanA maravAnA samAcAranA eka rAjakuTukhamAM kai artha nathI hotA, paNa devInI sAme a hatA, vAsantInI sAme paNa hatA. kemake teo jANatAM hatAM ke jyArathI zivakezI ghAyala thayA che tyArathI ja huM tenI cikitsA karAvavAne pramanya karI rahyo chuM ane pratidina tenI sUdha levA mAdhurikane mAkalyA karuM chuM, khIjo tA kAI javAne taiyAra paNa nathI thatA. mane te kAie paNa zivakezIne ghera javA na dIdhA. enA maravAnA samAcAra sAMbhaLIne paNa huM ene ghera na jai zakA! zAyada ethI samAjanI maryAdAmAM pralaya macI jAta ! mAtApitA ane bhAI nantivananuM siMhAsana paNa hAlI UThata ! * huM devInA oraDAmAMthI nikaLI mArA eraDAmAM AvI gayA. devIne huM kaMi sAnskana na ApI zakayA. devAnI maneAvRtti paNa rahI naheAtI. carcA paNa kayAMyathI kayAMya jaI pahAMcI hatI. mArA oraDAmAM AvI huM AMTA mAravA lAgyA, pAMjarAmAM paDelA siMhanI jema huM Amatema TahelateA rahyo. vAre vAre mArI AMkhAnI sAme zivakezInI vidhavAnuM apUrNa mukhamaMDala ghUmavA lAgyuM ane kSaNavAramAM enI ja sAthe ghUmavA lAgyAM lAkhA zivakezinIonAM ane lAkhA pazuonAM AMsu nItaratAM mukhama`DaLeA pazu. mArA kAnamAM emanAM Andana saMbhaLAvavA lAgyAM-e ! vadhumAna ! e ! vadhu mAna ! amane bacAva ! amane bacAva! AMsuenI dhArA sivAya tane caDA vavA mATe amArI pAse kaMi nathI.

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: 28 : jaganAM AMsu mane potAnI tarapha kheMcI rahyAM che ane gharanAM AMsu mane keda karI rahela che. AMsuomAM kaddha macyuM che. kyAre kene vijaya thaze, kone khabara? 5. mAnI zakti Aje mAtAjIe mane bolAvyuM hatuM eTale huM emanA oraDAmAM gayA. mAtAjInI vatsalatAnuM zuM pUchavuM? paNa enI sAthe Aje teo paNa kaMI Adara jevuM karavA lAgyAM. vatsalatA ane Adarano meLa kaMIka vicitra je bane che, ethI e kaMIka asvAbhAvika ja lAge. Aja huM emane caraNasparza paNa karavA na pAmyuM ke emaNe vacamAM ja pakaDIne mane pitAnI barAbarIe zayyA para besADyo. eka dAsI AvI paMkhe karavA lAgI, bIjI suvarNajhArImAM sugandhita jaLa laI UbhI rahI. A prakAranI sagavaDa che ke mAtAjIne tyAM mane pahelAM paNa maLatI rahI che, paNa Aja je zIvratA hatI, je sabhrama hato te pahelAM nahetAM thatAM. samajI gayo ke yazeAdAdevInA dvArA mArA mAnasasamAcAra ahIM pahoMcI gayA che. mAtAjIe mArA cibuka (haDapacI)ne hAtha lagAvI kahyuM: beTA, sAMbhaLuM chuM ke AjakAla tame bahu udAsa rahe che. agara koInA taraphathI kaI aparAdha thaI gaye hoya to tame IcchAnusAra daMDa ApI zake che, paNa A pramANe udAsa banavAnI zI jarUra ? ' meM kahyuM-aparAdha badala je lekene huM daMDa daI zakuM chuM temAMthI keIe koI aparAdha karyo nathI; balake emanI

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: 29: sAme te huM pote aparAdhI chuM, kemake emane cintita ane duHkhI karI rahyo chuM. paNa je vAstavamAM aparAdhI che temane daMDa devAnI zakti na mArAmAM che, na tamArAmAM, na bhAI nandivardhanamAM che, na pitAjImAM. | mAtAjI mArI vAta sAMbhaLatAM ja pahelAM te Azcarya cakita banI gayAM, pachI moDhA upara roSa patharAI gaye, pachI jarA jezapUrvaka belyAM: vardhamAna ! bele to te duSTa keNa che je mArA beTAne aparAdha karIne haju sudhI jIvita che ? jarA enuM nAma-ThekANuM te sAMbhaLuM. huMH huM samajuM chuM ke, mAtAjI, emanuM nAma-ThekANuM yazadAdevIe tamane batAvI dIdhuM haze. | mAtAjI-zuM zivakezIne ghAyala karavAvALA brAhmaNothI tamArI matalaba che ? huM na kevaLa te brAhmaNethI, paNa hajAre zivakezIone ghAyala karavAvALA lAkhe brAhmaNethI ! lAkha mUMgA pazuonAM khUnane kIcaDa banAvavAvALA hajAro rAja ane SimmathI !! nItisadAcAranI hatyA karavAvALA hareka manuSyAkAra jatuthI mArI matalaba che !!! te badhA aparAdhI che. | mAtAjI stabdha thaI gayAM. ghaNIvAra sudhI emanA mukhathI eka zabda paNa na nikaLe. pachI gahara zvAsa laIne belyAM beTA, tame manuSya nathI, devatA che. tame mane rAjamAtA nahi, devamAtA banAvI che. kharekhara tame keTalA mahAna che. ema chatAM tame je aparAdhIonI vAta kare che temane keNa daMDa

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: 30 : ApI zake che? manuSya te ApI ja nathI zakata, paNa devatA paNa nathI ApI zakatA. AvA asaMbhava kAryanI zuM kAma cintA kare che mArA lAla ! pAchalI vAta belatAM bolatAM mAtAjInI AMkho bhInI thaI gaI ane emane aMcala AMkhe masalavA lAgyA. mAtAjInI A vedanA joI mAruM hRdaya pIDAvA lAgyuM, chatAM meM dhIrajathI uttara ApeH mAtAjI, kharekhara devatA A kAma nathI karI zakatA, kemake devatA kRtakRtya hoya che, paNa manuSya kRtakRtya nathI hote, te kartavya kRtya hoya che, karmaThatA ja enuM jIvana che. te asaMbhavane saMbhava karI zake che. huM jagatane jItIza ane ene badalI nAkhIza. mArAM ojasvI vAkyo sAMbhaLI mAtAjInA caherA para pharI teja dekhAvA lAgyuM. emaNe prasannatAthI mArA mastaka para hAtha pheravatAM kahyuM: sArI vAta che beTA, tame jagavijayI bane ! cakravatI bane ! duniyAne jItI anIti-anyAya badhA dUra karI de ! A udAsInatA cheDe. ' kahyuM mA ! huM ethI ja te udAsIna banyo chuM. udAsIna banyA vinA te jagane joI paNa nathI zakate. mAtAjI mArA moM tarapha jatAM rahyAM. meM kahyuM ThIka ja kahuM chuM mA ! udAsInane artha che -bAlana, arthAt upara beThela. je jeTaluM vadhAre udAsIna arthAt upara beThelo hoya che te teTaluM ja vadhAre dekhI zake che. bhUtala parathI jeTalA

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daranuM dekhAya che. prAsAda upara besIne jevAthI ethI ghaNuM vadhAre dekhAya che. girizaMga para besI dekhavAthI ethI paNa vadhAre. je jeTalo vadhAre udAsIna, te teTalo ja vadhAre draSTA. mAtAjI mArI vAta sAMbhaLI cakita to thaI gayAM paNa santuSTa na thayAM. emaNe sadehanA svaramAM pUchyuM paNa udAsIna thavAthI cakravartI kema banI zakaze beTA ? meM kahyuM. mAre cakravartI banavAnI jarUra nathI mA ! cakavartI banIne paNa huM e aparAdhIone daMDa nathI dai zakate jemane ullekha hamaNAM huM karI cukI chuM. rAmacandrajI cakavatI hatA, samrATa hatA, paNa teo zuM karI zakayA ? eka zUddhanA tapasyA karavA upara emane IcchA na hovA chatAM ene vadha karavo paDe. cakravartI lekenA hRdaya para zAsana nathI karI zako, ane hRdayaparivartana kArya te ene mATe asaMbhava che. e cakravartI banIne huM zuM karavAne? mAtAjI pharI becena banyAM, paNa teo vadhu kaMI na belI zakayAM. phakta eTaluM ja kahyuM te pachI ? ' kahyuM: mAre ene mATe bahu bhAre sAdhanA karavI paDaze mA ! niSkramaNa karavuM paDaze, varSo lagI tapasyA karavI paDaze ane kalyANane mArga banAvI duniyAne enI jhAMkhI batAvavI paDaze. eka mahAna AdhyAtmika jagatanI racanA karavI paDaze. mAtAjI kAtara svaramAM belyAM e ThIka che beTA! tame jagatanuM kalyANa karaze, ene tApa haraze, paNa zuM mAnA saMbaMdhamAM tamAruM ke kartavya nathI ?

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* kara : huM: huM ene asvIkAra nathI karate mA !, paNa AzA karuM chuM ke tame mane jagatakalyANane mATe samarpita karavAnI udAratA batAvaze. sAthe ja mane e paNa vizvAsa che ke mArA na rahevA chatAM bhAI nadivardhana tamArI sevAmAM koI prakAranI kaI kamI na rAkhaze. mAtAjI jarA uttejita jevAM thaI gayAM ane tyAM hA, hA, kamI zuM haze? reTI maLI ja jaze, peTa bharAI ja jaze. paNa kema vardhamAna! zuM jIvanano badho Ananda peTamAM ja rahe che, manathI keI saMbaMdha nahi ? huM evuM te huM kema kahI zakuM? mana na bharAya te peTa bharAvAthI zuM vaLaze ? | mA ? tyAre tame vicAre ke jene juvAna putra vikhUTe paDe te mAnuM mana bharAze ? are ! mana bharAvAnI vAta javA de parantu suhAga te nArInuM sahuthI moTuM dhana che, paNa jenI putravadhU vidhavA na hovA chatAM vidhavAnI jema jIvana vitAvaze te kayA moDhe pitAnA suhAgane anubhava karaze? yazadA moDhethI kaMI kahe yA na kahe, paNa sAme AvatAM ja enI AMkhe mane pUchaze ke, kema mA ! A ja hAlata mATe tame mane pitAnI putravadhU banAvI hatI ? bola te beTA ! te vakhate huM tene zuM uttara ApIza? ane kema ene meTuM batAvI zakIza ? huM cUpa rahyo. mAe pharI atyanta karuNa svaramAM kahyuM tArA javAthI

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AkhuM jagata enI hAMsI uDAvaze ! enAM suhAgacihune ene pUchaze-have amAre bojo zA mATe? have tuM ja batAva, enI AvI durdazA dekhI mane kema te nIMda Avaze? kema anAja gaLe Utaraze? AMsu vahAvatAM vahAvatAM to AMkhanAM AMsu paNa sukAI jaze, pachI A sUkI ane phATelI AMkhothI kema duniyA dekhI zakIza ? zuM jIvananA antamAM mAre A narayAtanA sahevI paDaze ? mATe beTA ! tAre je karavuM hoya te kara, AdhyAtmika jagatane mahela khaDe kara, paNa te badhuM mArI citA upara. mArI citA yA mArI lAza badhe je uThAvI leze, paNa A bUDhI mAmAM eTalI zakti nathI, beTA! mArI jindagI sudhI to tAre gharamAM ja rahevuM paDaze. A pramANe kahIne mAe ThIka-ThIka jorathI mAre hAtha pakaDI lIdhe, jANe ke teo keTTapAla (keTavALa) hoya ane huM kedI ! pachI teo bolyAM kaha! kahe ! beTA! zuM A bUDhiyA mAne kamajora hAtha jhaTaka daI choDAvavA cAho che ? have huM kaheta zuM ? sAMkaLa teDI zakatuM hatuM, paNa vAtsalyamayI mAtAne hAtha choDAvavAnI zakti kyAMthI lAvata ? mAnA hAthane jhaTake devA mATe manuSyatAnuM balidAna joIe, pazutAne unmAda joIe, te mArAmAM nathI, AvI paNa zake nahi. eTale meM kahyuMH tamAre hAtha choDAvavAnI zakti mArAmAM nathI mA! ataH huM tamane vacana ApuM chuM ke tamArA jIvanaparyata huM niSkramaNa nahi karIza,

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: 34 : mAe ekadama mane chAtIe lagAvI lIdhe, mArA zirane vAraMvAra cUkhyuM ane evI rIte muktapaNe revA lAgyAM ke jANe, huM varSothI kayAMya gUma thaI gaye hatuM ane Aje ja maLe chuM. Ama, anizcita kALa mATe niSkamaNa baMdha rahyuM che. have gharamAM ja abhyAsa karavAnuM che. 6 adhUrI sAtvanA Aje jyAre huM devInA oraDAmAM gayo joyuM ke devInA mukha-maMDaLanI AbhA kaMIka badalAyelI che. haLavI sarakhI nizcittatAne Ananda tenA para chavAyelo che. mAtAjIne meM je vacana ApyuM che tenA khabara ahIM te ja vakhate AvI gayA haze. e mATe devIe svAgata karyuM te sAcA muskAnanI sAthe. meM paNa muskAnanI sAthe kahyuM Akhara tame jItI gayAM devI! devIe kahyuM huM zuM jItatI ? huM to kyAranI hArI cukI hatI, chata te mAtAjInI thaI! meM kahyuMH hA, ratha mAtAjIne ane bANa tamArAM. devI zira nIcuM karI muskAtAM rahyAM ane aMgUThAthI jamIna khetaratAM rahyAM. pachI meM kahyuM. agara tame mAtAjInI pAse na jAta to paNa kAma cAlata. huM Ubhe hato, devI paNa UbhAM hatAM. mArI vAta sAMbhaLatAM ja devI mArA pagee vaLagI gayAM ane karuNa svaramAM belyAM: aparAdhanI kSamA he deva ! nArI pitAnA suhAgane mATe

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: 3pa : na jANe, zuM zuM karI nAkhe che ane mAtAjI to mAtAjI che. AvA avasara para emanA zaraNe javAmAM mane zuM zarama AvatI ? huM mArI antarvedanA Apane zI rIte batAvuM? agara hRdaya cIrIne batAvavA jevI cIja hota to huM batAvI deta ke ApanA mukhathI niSkamaNanI vAta sAMbhaLyA pachI enI andara ke hAhAkAra mace che ! Ama kahetAM kahetAM emanAM AMsuothI mArA paga devAvA mAMDyA. ' kahyuM. mAtAjInI pAse javA mATe oLabhe nathI ApI rahyo devI ! e tamAre adhikAra hatuM, ane ucita paNa hatuM. huM to phakta mArA mananI adhUrI vAtane pUro khulAse karI devA IcchuM chuM. Ama kahetAM kahetAM meM devIne uThADI UbhAM karyA. temaNe pitAnuM mastaka mArA vakSasthala para TekavI dIdhuM. meM mArA uttarIyathI emanAM AMsu lUchayAM. kSaNabhara zAnta rahIne meM kahyuM. huM traNa divasa pahelAM tamane je vAta kahevA cAhate hato te huM kahevA pAmyuM nahotuM. te divase carcA akasmAt ja kayAMyathI kayAMya jaI pahoMcI hatI. devIe kahyuM. te divase kharekhara carcA kaDhaMgI thaI gaI. meM ja mArI mUrkhatAthI eka aTapaTo prazna pUchI nAkhyo. ' kahyuM. prazna te aTapaTe nahete, paNa na jANe kema vAta kayAMyathI kayAMya jaI pahoMcI. khera, have kahI dauM. yadyapi have huM mAtAjIne vacana ApI cukyo chuM, paNa agara na

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paNa Apata to paNa jyAM sudhI tamane huM mArA niSkramaNanI upayogitA na samajAvI deta tyAM sudhI niSkramaNa na karata. hA, e saMbhavita kharuM ke dhIre dhIre mArI manovRtti ane dinacaryA evI badalAI jAya ke zAyada tamAre mATe mAruM jIvana upayogI rahe nahi. devI DIvAra vicAramAM paDyAM, pachI tyAM ApanAM nitya darzana ja mane paryApta che deva ! Apane hAtha mArA mastaka para rahe, ApanA vakSasthala para kayAreka kyAreka zira TekavI zakuM eTalI ja bhikSAnI huM bhikSu chuM. jANuM chuM ke Apa kevala eka rAjakumAra ja nathI, eka rAjakumArInA pati ja nathI, kintu lekettara mahApuruSa che. AvA mahAna lekettara mahApuruSanI patnInA gauravane yogya huM nathI. jyAre keI vakhata mArA dilamAM A vicAro Ave che tyAre mArI kSudratAne khyAla karI huM saMkecAI jAu chuM. chatAMya ApanI patnI nahi, te ApanI dAsInuM sthAna surakSita rAkhavA cAhuM chuM. Ama kahIne devIe mane jorathI jakaDI lIdhA. emanAM AMsuothI mAruM vakSasthala bhIMjAvA lAgyuM. Akhara Aje paNa vAta adhUrI jevI rahI. huM sAtvanA ApI cAlyA AvyA. 7. saMnyAsa ane kamalega have garamI vadhAre paDavA mAMDI che, ethI Aja zA prAsAdanI chata para lagAvavAmAM AvI hatI. devInI zayyA paNa anatiddara hatI. pazcimamAM lAlimA lupta thatAM ja huM chata para cAle gaye. badhA loko kAmakAjamAM hatA ethI chata

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para ekAnta hatuM, ane huM ekAnta cAhate paNa hatuM. devIe tarata suparNa dAsIne makalI, kintu meM ja ene vidAya karI dIdhI. paNa mArA bhAgyamAM A vakhate ekAnta nirmANa thayeluM ja nahotuM; thoDIvAramAM jInA para keInA caDavAne pharI avAja Avye. meM kahyuM keNu? supaNuM? avAja Avya-supaNuM nahi, viSNuzarmA. ane avAjanI sAthe AdheDa ummaranA eka sajajana AvatA dekhAyA. pAse AvIne emaNe svayameva kahevuM zarU karyuM. mAtAjIthI mAlUma paDayuM ke Apa meTA tattvajJAnI che, ethI mane IcchA thaI ke ApanI sAthe kaMIka carcA karuM. huM te Apa hamaNuM mAtAjInI pAsethI AvI rahyA che? viSNuzarmA nahi, mAtAjI te kAle maLyAM hatAM. kAle mArA pravacanamAM teo padhAryA hatAM. pravacana thayA pachI emaNe mane Apano paricaya ApyA hatA ane Apane maLavA mATe anurodha paNa karyo hate. huM anurodha karavA vakhate phakta mAtAjI hatAM? bIjuM keI nahatuM ? viSNu...nahi, keTalIka dAsIo paNa hatI ane bane bAju emanI ane putravadhUo paNa UbhI hatI. huM mArAM bhAbhI ane yazadAdevI ? viSNujI hA. huM emaNe kaMI nahi kahyuM? viSaNu badhAe kahyuM, badhAnI IcchA hatI ke huM Apane maLuM.

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: 38 : huM" kahIne huM thoDI vAra cUpa rahe. atyAra sudhI ame loke UbhA ja hatA. meM kahyuM. te bese. meM emane Asana batAvyuM. huM paNa eka Asana para besI gaye. beThA pachI meM pUchayuM kAle A5nuM pravacana kayA viSaya para thayuM hatuM ? viSNuH viSaya hato garbhaganA samanvayane. emAMrAjarSi janaka ane zrIkRSNanAM upAkhyAna kahevAmAM AvyAM hatAM. huM bahu ja sAre ane upayogI viSaya hate. viSNu zuM Apa karmavegane mAne che ? huM mAnuM chuM. viSaNu paNa meM te sAMbhaLyuM che ke Apa saMnyAsanI taiyArI karI rahyA che. samajI te huM pahelAM ja gayo hato ke zarmAjI kema AvyA che? jyAre emane mekalavAmAM yazadAdevI ane mAtAjIno hAtha hato tyAre AvavAne uddeza spaSTa ja hatuM, paNa jyAre emaNe mArA saMnyAsanI vAta uThAvI tyAre rahyosa sadeha paNa dUra thaI gaye. ema chatAM meM mAre manebhAva dabAvIne kahyuM: karmaveganI sAdhanA mATe je saMnyAsanI jarUra paDe che te ja saMnyAsanI taiyArI huM karI rahyA chuM, jIvananI thakAvaTanI pachI pedA thavAvALA saMnyAsanI nahi athavA saMsAramAM zAntipUrvaka rahevAnI asamarthatAthI pedA thavAvALA saMnyAsanI nahi. zarmA zuM Apa mAne che ke saMnyAsa paNa karmayoganI bhUmikA banI zake che?

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: 39 : huM: kaceganI ja nahi, hareka karmanI bhUmikA sanyAsa banI zake che ane prAyaH mane che. zarmA: A vAtane ka'i udAharaNa ApI spaSTa karazeA ? huM: gRhasthAzrama tA kanu mukhya kSetra che, paNa enI ceAgyatA prApta karavA mATe brahmacaryAzrama banAvavAmAM Avyu che, jemAM saMnyAsI sarakhI sAdhanA karavI paDe che. sanyAsamAM e ja tA jarUrI che ke manuSya brahmacArI rahe, indriyAnA bhAgeAnI paravA na kare ane peAtAnI sAdhanA cheADI bIjA kazAthI meAha na rAkhe, je kaMI vipadA Ave tene sahana karI le. sanyAsanA A guNA manuSyane hareka kamasAdhanAmAM prApta karavA paDe che, jIvanamAM utAravA paDe che. eka sainikane paNa yuddhamAM A guNNAnA paricaya devA paDe che. sAMbhaLavAmAM Ave che ke vidyAdhara leAkeA vidyAsiddhi mATe kaThAra tapasyA kare che. rAvaNa vageree paNa peAtAnA divijayanI pahelAM sanyAsIAne paNa mahAta karavAvALI tapasyA karI hatI. viSNuzarmA: jarA ullAsamAM AvI melyAH ThIka ! ThIka ! ! samajI gayA, Apa vizvavijayanI taiyArI karavA cAhe che. me' kahyuM: hA ! zarmA: ghaNI prasannatAnI vAta che. paNa divijaya karyA pachI A garIkha viSNuzarmAne na bhUlatA. huM: te te na bhUlIza. paNa huM samajuM chuM ke mArA dig vijayanu phaLa cAkhavA mATe viSNuzarmA taiyAra na thaze. zarmA: evA kANu mUkha haze je cakravartInI chatrachAyAnA

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: 40 : InkAra karI de? huM paNa dharmacakavatanI chAyAmAM rahevA mATe viralA ja taiyAra thAya che. zarmAjI AzcaryathI moTuM dabAvI rahI gayA, DIvAra stabdhatA rahI, pachI emaNe kahyuM: zuM dharmacakanA dvArA Apa digavijaya karavA cAho che? paNa ethI zuM lAbha? huM kone lAbha? mAre yA samAjane ? zarmAH Apane ane samAjane paNa? A kAmamAM jindagI nikaLI jaze, paNa saphaLatA na maLavAnI. jIvanabhara kaSTa uThAvatA rahevuM paDaze, te Apane zuM lAbha maLyo? rahI samAjanI vAta. samAja to kUtarAnI pUMchaDI je che. te kadi sIdhI na thavAnI. juone, vedanAM nirarthaka kriyAkAMDanA vireAdhamAM upaniSatkAe kevAM kevAM vAkya lakhyAM, vedane aparA vidyA kahI nAkhI, yajJanI AdhyAtmika vyAkhyA karI dIdhI, paNa yajJakAMDe jarA paNa na ghaTyAM. samAja rUDhione dAsa bane ja che; ane ame loko paNa e dAsatvathI chUTavA pAmatA nathI, chUTIe te bhUkhe marI jaIe. huM paNa agara Apa bhUkhe maravAnI himmata karI zakata te bhUkhe paNa na maravuM paData; A dAsatvathI paNa chUTata ane samAjane paNa choDAvata. zarmA paNa strI-baccAMnuM zuM thAta? huM: hA, eka baLada be gADIomAM ekIsAthe nathI joDAI zakate, ane e ja kAraNa che ke mAre mATe krAntine Shree Sudharmaswami Gyanbhandar-Umara, Surat Surat www.umaragyanbhandar.com

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: 1 : sAruM gRhatyAganI taiyArI karavAnuM upasthita thAya che ane te evA saMnyAsanI taiyArI ke je krAntikArI kama ceAganI bhUmikA banI zake. viSNuzarmA thADIvAra cupa rahyA. pachI elyAH Apane hu ghaNI vAtA kahevA cA kahevA nahi, zikhavavA AbyA hatA, paNa ApanI vArtA sAMbhaLI e adhI bhUlI gayA chuM. kharekhara sanyAsane kaceAganI bhUmikA banAvavA athavA kama yAgane sanyAsane veSa paherAvavA e eka adbhuta AviSkAra che. hA, mArga kaThina che. Apa rAjavaMzI che! ethI, jo jo, janaka ane zrI kRSNanA rAha para cAlIne Apa krAntinI taiyArI karI zake| te prayatna karajo ! huM: upaniSatkAronA ullekha karIne Apa svayaM kahI cukayA che ke hajI sudhI emane kAi saphalatA maLI nathI. janaka ane kRSNa paNa zeramAM pUNI kAMtavA pAmyA nathI. e mATe moTA pAyA para navA DhaMganA balidAnanI jarUra che. have jUnAM cIMtharAMmAM thIgaDAM devAthI kAma nahi cAlaze. navuM kapaDuM ja vaNavu paDaze. zarmAjIe UMDA zvAsa lIdheA ane khelyAH AzIrvAda devA ceAgya te huM nathI, kintu ummaranA hisAbe ApanAthI mATe chuM ane e ja haisiyatathI Apane AzIrvAda devAnu sAhasa karuM chuM ke Apa ApanA prayatnamAM sala thAo ! ema kahIne viSNuzarmA cAlyA gayA. ee gayA ke tarata devI AvyAM. te pAse ja chAne chAne badhI carcA sAMbhaLI rahyAM hatAM.

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AvatAM ja emaNe pitAnA caherA para muskAna lAvavAnI ceSTA karatAM kahyuM: Aryaputrane vadhAI! meM pUchyuM kaI vAtanI ? devIe kahyuMeka diggaja vidvAnane capaTIomAM parAsta karavAnI. meM hasatAM kahyuM: yadi diggaja vidvAna parAsta na thayA hata, Aryaputra parAsta thayA hatA te kene vadhAI Apata? devIe tarata niHsaMkocapaNe hasIne kahyuM. te pitAne. meM muskAnane jarA vadhArIne kahyuM: vAha re! patiprema! devI bolyAM patiprema che mATe ja te ! huM e ja mATe tame patine parAjaya pasanda kare che ? devI agara parAjaya milanane sthAyI banAvI devAvALe hoya te ene patipremanI nizAnI samajavI joIe. ema kahetAM kahetAM devI mArA meLA upara leTI gayAM ane vaLI belyAM: huM jANuM chuM ke Apa ghaNI UMcAI para che, paNa na to mArAmAM eTalI UMcAI sudhI caDavAnI tAkAta che, na Apane dUra rAkhavAnI himmata, e ja mATe Apane nIce kheMcavAnI dhRSTatA karyA karuM chuM. A dhRSTatA sivAya mane keI bIjo upAya ja nathI sUjhato. pAchaluM vAkya bolatI vakhate devIne svara badalAI gayo, avAja ruMdhAyela gaLethI AvyuM ane mArI jAMdha para eka AMsu paNa TapakayuM.

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: 43 : huM devInI pITha para hAtha pheravavA lAgyo. - 8, sItA ane UrmilAnAM upAkhyAna nagaramAM keTalAya divasothI rAmalIlA thaI rahI che. gharanA badhA loke rAmalIlA jevA jAya che, khAsa karIne strIvarga. huM haju sudhI nathI gaye. devIe ekathI vadhAre vAra anurodha karyo, paNa huM premathI TALatA rahyA. A khela-tamAzAomAM mArI ruci nathI. paNa kAle devIne anurodha bahu vadhAre hatuM, eTale vadhAre ke emaNe kahyuM ke je Apa Aje paNa mArI sAthe rAmalIlA jevA na AvyA te huM jIvanabhara keI khela joIza nahi. emanA A ugra anuradhanuM kaI vizeSa kAraNa hovuM joIe eTaluM te huM samajI gayo hatuM, paNa te zuM e vAta tyAre huM samajavA pAmyuM nahe. khela jotAM jotAM samajI gaye. vAta e banI ke kAle rAmanA vanavAsagamananuM dazya batAvavAmAM AvyuM hatuM. vAstavamAM dazya karuNa hatuM. rAjyAbhiSeka hevAnA divase ja rAmane vanavAsanI taiyArI karavI paDI. vanavAsa phakta rAmane ja devAmAM AvyuM hatuM, paNa sItAdevIe sAtha na cheDyo, vananI vibhISikAo temane na DarAvI zakI. dAmpatyamAM naranArI-tAdAmya kevuM hoI zake che enuM ghaNuM ja marmasparzI dazya hatuM. devI bhAre paDakhe kaMIka aDIne ja beThAM hatAM emane paDakhe bhAbhI ane mAtAjI hatAM. jyAre sItAdevInA anurodha yA prema-haThanI AgaLa rAmane hAra mAnavI paDI, sItAdevIne

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vanamAM pitAnI sAthe rahevAnI anumati devI paDI tyAre devIe dhIrethI mArI jAMghamAM cuMTI bharI. tAtparya spaSTa hatuM. devIne e nizcaya thaI gayo hato ke Aje nahi te kAle huM vanagamana karanAro chuM, mATe devInI IcchA che ke huM emane vanamAM sAthe rAkhuM. je rAmanI sItAdevI rAmanI sAthe vanavAsa karI zake che, to vardhamAnanI yazadAdevI vardhamAnanI sAthe zuM kAma na karI zake ? A ja vAta samajAvavA mATe devI atyadhika anurodhathI mane rAmalIlA dekhADavA lAvyAM hatAM. rAmanA vanagamanamAM ane vardhamAnane vanagamanamAM je antara che, udeza ane paristhitine je bheda che te devInA dhyAnamAM nahoto Avato. astu. rAmalIlA AgaLa cAlI. rAmanI sAthe lakSmaNa paNa taiyAra thayA. rAme ghaNuM manA karavA chatAM lakSmaNa na mAnyA. lakSmaNane Aveza, joza, rAjamahelanAM SaDyuMnne pratye ghaNA, kaikayInA nAma para dAMta pIsavA, dazarathanA nAma para reSAveza ThAlavavo vagere lakSamaNane abhinaya bahu sundara banavA pAmyo hatuM. A viSayamAM paNa rAmane premaparAjaya thayo. emane lakSamaNane sAthe rAkhavAnI anumati devI paDI. niHsaMdeha, rAmAyaNamAM lakSamaNanuM sthAna ghaNuM UMcuM che. e lakSamaNa ja hatA jemaNe pitAnI udAratAthI batAvI ApyuM ke be bhAI maLIne narakane svarga banAvI zake che, jaMgalamAM paNa maMgala karI zake che. e pachI te parama karuNa dazya AvyuM jemAM lakSmaNa pitAnI patnI UrmilAdevIthI vidAI le che. lakSamaNe rAmanI

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: 41 : te yuktionA Azraya na lIdhe je yuktione sItAdevIe rAmanA mukhathI sAMbhaLIne teDI nAkhI hatI. UrmilAdevIe jyAre dAvA karyo ke huM jIjI( sItAdevI )thI AchI kaSTasahiSNu nathI, tyAre lakSmaNe bahu mA~sparzI tarIkAthI kahyuM: avizvAsa nathI, devI ! mane tamArI kasahiSNutA para paNa mAre sevAnI je sAdhanA karavI che emAM tame mArI sahAyatA alaga rahIne ja karI zake che. bhAIne vanavAsanA divaseA pUrA karavA che, emanI koI vizeSa sAdhanA nathI, te peAtAnA divaseA bhAbhIjIne sAthe rAkhIne paNa pUrA karI zake che, paNa mAre te! bhAI-bhAbhInI sevA karavAnI sAdhanA karavI che. emane ArAmathI jaMgalamAM paNa nIMda Ave e mATe mAre bANu caDAvIne rAta rAta paherI devAnA che, dareka agavaDa ane saMkaTanA prasaMga para mAre mArI chAtI bhIDAvI devAnI che, A badhu tamArA sAtha heAtAM zI rIte banaze ? zuM e kalpI zake che ke bhAI-bhAbhIne sukhanI nIMda Ave e mATe hu tamane sAthe laine pahere bharIza ! zuM bhAI-bhAbhI eka kSaNane mATe paNa A vAtane sahana karI zakaze ? A badhu asabhava che! asabhavatama che ! ! UrmilAdevI nIcI AMkha karI UbhI rahI. kSajIvAra pachI lakSmaNe pharI kahyuM: me A sAdhanAne je svecchAthI apanAvI che te kevaLa e mATe nahi ke huM bhAInA bhakta chuM, kintu e mATe ke manuSyatAnI upara, nyAyanI upara, bhagavAnanI upara je saMkaTa AvyuM che te TaLI jAya, nirviSa thaI jAya. maryAdApuruSAttama

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dhAne kahyuM thI kaThina che. tamAre rAmane agara nyAyamUrti hevAnA kAraNe vanavana bhaTakavuM paDe ane te vakhate A jagat lakSamaNa jevo eka turacha sevaka paNa emanI sevAmAM na rAkhI zake te sAcuM kahuM chuM, devI ! ke vidhAtAnAM AMsuothI A jagat vahI jaze, A kRtagha jagat satyezvaranA kepathI rasAtalamAM dhasI jaze. satyezvarane prasanna rAkhavA mATe mAre A sAdhanA karavI ja joIe ane jaganA kalyANane mATe tamAre paNa mAre viyoga sahe joIe. UrmilAnI AMkhamAMthI AMsu vahevA lAgyAM. kaThera-hRdaya lakSamaNanI AMkhemAM paNa AMsu AvI gayAM. emaNe UrmilAne chAtIe lagAvIne kahyuM. huM jANuM chuM, devI! ke mArI sAdhanA karatAM tamArI sAdhanA keTalI kaThina che ! mArAM te sevA karatAM karatAM bAra varSa ema ja nikaLI jaze, paNa tamAre eka yugane pratyeka kSaNa gaNIgaNIne vitAvavAne che, chatAM duniyA mArI tapasyA jaze ane tamArI tapasyAnI ene jANa nahi thAya. nIcenA patthara para mandira UbhuM thAya che, paNa ene ( e pattharane) keNa jue che? ATaluM kahIne lakSamaNe UrmilAnAM AMsu laMDyAM. UrmilAe gadgada svaramAM kahyuM jAodeva! jAo ! satya ane nyAyanA siMhAsanane surakSita rAkhavA mATe jaMgalamAM sAdhanA kare! tamArI kartavyaniSThA tamane rAjamandiramAM rahevA devA nathI cAhatI, te bhale na rahevA de, paNa mArA hRdayamandiramAMthI khaseDavAnI zakti keImAM paNa nathI, vidhAtAmAM paNa nathI. lakSamaNe kahyuMH devI! tamArI A tapasyAne keI pichAne kena pichAne, paNa eka hRdaya jarUra evuM che je tamArI A mArI

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: 47 : sAdhanAnuM mUlya AMkavAmAM eka keDInI paNa bhUla na karaze. ATalu kahIne dhIre dhIre lakSmaNa vidAya thaI gayA. ee vidAya thatAM ja UrmilA sUcchita thaI paDI gaI. kharekhara lakSmaNa ane UrmilAnA abhinaya atyanta svAbhAvika ane kalApUrNa hatA. eNe AkhI sabhAne stabdha anAvI mUkI hatI. paNa raMgama'ca para te kevaLa abhinaya hatA, jyAre mArI ja khAjumAM te abhinaya vAstavikatAmAM pariNata thai gayA ! maMca uparathI lakSmaNa vidAya thatAM ja yazeAdAdevI kAMpavA lAgyAM ane gheADIvAramAM emanuM zarIra parasevA parasevA thai gayu. huM emane saMbhALu e pahelAM ja tee mUcchita thaI paDI gayAM. meM ane bhAbhIe ekadama emane uThAvI lIdhAM. sabhA UbhI thai gai, bhIDe amane badhAne gherI lIdhA. koIpaNa rIte bhIDane haTAvI devIne rAjamandiramAM lAvavAmAM AvyAM. pachI zItale pacAra karavAthI emane hAza Adhye. hAza AvatAM ja emanI najara mArA para paDI ane mane vaLagIne teo muktapaNe rAvA lAgyAM. A sAruM thayuM. emanI jIvanarakSA mATe A prakAre rAvuM jarUrI hatu. nahi te dakhAyelI vedanA AMkhAnA dvArathI na nikaLatI, hRdayanA visphoTa karIne nikaLatI. devInAM AMsuethI huM mAruM uttarIya pavitra karatA rahyA. nArInI sAdhanA lagabhaga eka varSathI niSkramaNanu nAma paNa huM mAM 52 lAbyA nathI. gata varSe rAmalIlAmAM jyAre devI mUti thaI

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: 48 : gayAM hatAM tyArathI huM samaje ke niSkramaNa saMbaMdhI koI vAta na nikaLe e ja ThIka che. ema chatAM devI nizcitta nathI. hA! prasannatA pradarzita karavAnI pUrI ceSTA karatAM rahe che. paNa Aja devInA kAraNe ja kaMIka carcA cheDAI paDI. priyadarzana have ThIka heziyAra thaI gaI che, cha varSanI thaI cukI che, ene Aja sAtamo janmadivasa hato, e mATe Aje ene vizeSa rUpathI navAM kapaDAM paherAvavAmAM AvyAM hatAM. bhejana paNa kaMIka vizeSa banAvavAmAM AvyuM hatuM. eka nAnesara gharAu utsava manAvyo hato. bhejana thayA pachI devI priyadarzanane laI mArA oraDAmAM AvyAM ane mane lakSya karI priyadarzanane kahyuM tArA pitAjIne praNAma kara beTI ! ane vara mAMga ke tAre saMsAra sukharUpa bane. meM kahyuM. A saMsAra ja zuM, badhAne saMsAra sukharUpa bane e mATe AzIrvAda ApuM chuM ke A jagaudhAriNI bane. devIe hasatAM hasatAM kahyuM. paNa ATalA lAMbA-pahoLA AzIrvAdane baje A uThAvI paNa zakaze? eka nAnuM sarakhuM vacana kema nathI daI detA ke ene Apa sAre vara zodhI Apaze ? ene mATe vacana devAnI zI jarUra che? e te Avazyaka rtavya che je enA pitA na karavA pAmaze to enI mAtA karaze. devI mAtA kema karaze? pitAnuM kartavya pitAe ja karavuM paDaze. santAnanA pratye nArInuM dAyitva (javAbadArI) jeTaluM che, naranuM dAyitva ethI ochuM nathI.

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: 49; hu nara te nimitta mAtra che, badhI sAdhanA nArInI che. sAdhAraNuprANijagatamAM sattAne pitAne kyAre oLakhe che? tyAM mAtA ja santAnane mATe badhuM che. devI paNa manuSya te sAdhAraNuprANijagat jevo nathI. huM nathI. chatAMya ahIM lekekti pracalita che ke so pitAnI barAbara eka mAtA hoya che. te atathya nathI. nArInuM je A zatagaNuM mUlya che enuM kAraNa santAnanA pratye enI zataguNa sAdhanA ja te che. devIH paNa enI matalaba te e ja che ke prakRtie anya jAtinI mAdAo para sAdhanAne je je nAkhe che te mAnavI nArI upara paNa nAkhe che. A daSTie mAnavInuM paNa mAtAnA rUpamAM segaNuM mUlya che. paNa prakRtipradara A sAdhanAthI te phakta prANInuM nirmANa thavA pAme che, mAnavanuM nahi. mAnavanuM nirmANa te tyAre ja thAya che jyAre nArInI sAdhanAmAM nara paNa khabhekhabhe milAvI AgaLa vadhe che. pazunA baccAnI apekSAe manuSyanA baccAne je asaMkhya gaNe vikAsa thAya che emAM nArInI sAdhanA karatAM naranI sAdhanAne ja vizeSa aMza che. huM bahu ThIka kahyuM tame, e ja vizeSa aMzane pUre karavA mATe ja te mAre niSkramaNa karavAnuM che. Aja manuSyanA baccAne vikAsa aTakI gayo che athavA te pazutA yA dAnavatAnI tarapha jhukI paDe che. nArI pitAnI sAdhanAnuM kAma pUruM karI rahI che, paNa nara pitAnI sAdhanAnA kAmamAM pAchA

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: 50 paDI gaye che. teNe pitAnuM kAma pUruM karavA mATe ThIka-ThIka tapasyA karavAnI che. niSkamaNanI vAta sAMbhaLI devInuM mukhamaMDala phikku paDI gayuM. ghaNI kaThinatAthI emaNe dhIraja saMbhALIne kahyuM. je naranI sAdhanAnuM kAma bAkI paDayuM che ane nArI pitAnI sAdhanAnuM kAma pUruM karI rahI che to nArInuM e kartavya thaI paDe che ke naranI sAdhanAmAM sAtha Ape. huM avazya. e ja mATe te meM priyadarzanAne jagadududhAriNI thavAne AzIrvAda Ape hate. chatAM sAdhAraNataH e vAtanuM te dhyAna rAkhavuM ja paDaze ke nArI pitAnI sAdhanAnuM kAma pUruM karIne ja naranI sAdhanAmAM sAtha ApI zake che. vizeSataH te pitAnI sAdhanA adhUrI te nathI choDI zakatI. enI sAdhanA adhUrI rahI te naranI sAdhanAnuM kAma paNa aTakI jaze. nArI je kapaDuM nahi vaNaze te nara raMgaze kone? devI enI te matalaba e thaI ke mAnavatAnI vizeSa sAdhanAne avasara nArIne kayAre paNa maLI ja nathI zakate. huMH hA, AjakAla kaThinatAthI maLe che, paNa huM cAhuM chuM ke mAnavatAnI vizeSa sAdhanAno avasara nArIne paNa maLe. RSi7, munitva, tIrthakara ane mukti e naranuM ja bApIkuM na rahe. vAstavamAM naranArIne adhikAra samAna che ane maulika yogyatAmAM paNa koI antara nathI. paNa vizeSa-sAdhanAnuM kAma nArI tyAre ja karI zake che ke jyAre sAmAnyasAdhanAnuM kAma pUruM karI levAya yA prAraMbhathI ja vizeSa sAdhanAnI tarapha vadhavAmAM Ave.

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* para 1 devIH sAmAnya-sAdhanAnuM kAma pUruM karIne te vizeSasAdhanAnI tarapha kema vadhI zakAze ? Ape ja te te divase viSNuzarmAne kahyuM hatuM ke jIvananI thakAvaTathI pedA thavAvALA saMnyAsane Apa nathI cAhatA. huM e paNa ThIka che, paNa evA paNa mAna hoI zake che ke jeo sAmAnya-sAdhanAnuM kAma pUruM karIne paNa na thAke, tanathI vRddha hovA chatAM manathI yuvA rahe. devI. paNa A harekanA vazanI vAta nathI. huM paNa A harekanA vazanI vAta che ke te vizeSa sAdhanAne mATe mAnava banAvIne daI de. tame priyadarzanAnuM nirmANa karatAM karatAM je thAkI jAo te paNa tame tene vizeSa sAdhanAne yogya te banAvI ja zake che. tamArI A sAdhanAnuM mUlya kaMI ochuM nahi haze, vizeSataH e avasthAmAM jyAre ke mArI sAmAnya-sAdhanAne beje paNa tame pitAnA upara laI lo. atyAra sudhI priyadarzanA vArApharatI amArA baMnenA meM tarapha joyA karatI hatI. jyAre huM bela tyAre mArI tarapha ane devI belatAM hatAM tyAre devInI tarapha. e baccI gaMbhIra carcA te zuM samajatI, paNa mukhamudrAne vAMcavAnI ceSa jarUra karatI hatI. mArI vAta sAMbhaLIne jyAre devInA mukhamaMDala para cintA chavAI gaI tyAre eNe mAtAnI vedanA vAMcI ane e devIne gaLe hAtha nAkhI chAtIe bAjhI gaI. | devIe paNa enA kapela cUmI ene bane hAthae jakaDI lIdhI.

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ka para ka nArInI sAdhanA vAtsalyanA kAraNe keTalI rasamayI che enI jhAMkhI mA-eTInA ArliganamAM dekhAI rahI hatI. 10. sajJatAnI sAmagrI samAjamAM krAnti karavA mATe tathA jagane A ja janmamAM meAkSa-sukhanA anubhava karAvavA mATe varSothI huM niSkramaNane vicAra karI rahyo chuM. paNa devInA anurAdhanA kAraNe mAre mArI IcchAne damAvavI paDI che. e ThIka che ke niSkramaNanI atyanta AvazyakatA che, paNa devIne anurAdha paNa nyAyeAcita che. ataH sAcuM te e che ke mAre vivAha ja naheAtA karavA joitA; paNa jyAre karI lIdhA te pachI asamayamAM emanA zira para saubhAgyaveSI vaidhavya lAdavu ucita nathI. jyAM sudhI teo A tyAganA ma na samajI jAya tyAM sudhI huM andhanamukta thaI zakatA nathI. paNa me' A andhananA samayanA paNa ThIka-ThIka sadupayoga karyAM che. sAdhu-saMnyAsI te gaNyAgAMThayA ja manuSyA banavA pAme che, emanuM jIvana sudhAravuM yA emane meAkSasukhanA anubhava karAvave kaThina nathI, paNa gRhasthAnu jIvana je sudhAravAmAM na AvyuM teA tI racanAnuM vAstavika prayeAjana ja naSTa thaI jaze. sa'sAra teA mukhyatayA gRhasthAnA ja raheze, ane sAdhu paNa gRhasthAnA sahAre Takaze, AvI avasthAmAM gRhasthAnI upekSA karI zakAtI nathI. mAre emanI avasthA samajavI joize, emanI paristhiti anusAra emane .dhanA mArga batAvave joize. paNa A badhuM tyAre ja thaI zake che, jyAre huM andarathI emanI kaThaNAie ane paristhitione samajuM.

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: 53 : yadyapi devInA anurodhathI mAre rokAvuM paDayuM che, paNa A rakAvAthI paNa ThIkaThIka lAbha pahoMce che. A divasomAM mane kauTuMbika jIvananI kaThaNAIo ane gUMcane samajavAne ThIkaThIka avasara maLyo che. khera, mArA gharamAM to eTalI muMjhavaNavALI paristhiti nathI, kemake badhAM susaMskArI vyaktio che ane abhAvanuM e kaSTa nathI jenA kAraNe mANasa durAcArI nItibhraSTa banI jAya che; chatAM mane sAdhAraNa janatAne samajavAnA ane emanI samasyAne ukelavAno avasara maLyA che. gharanI andaranA A anubhavo saMbhavataH niSkramaNa pachI maLavA na pAmata. mAruM kAma thatajJAnathI nathI cAlI zakatuM. kemake zrutismRti badhI purANuM bhUtakALanI banI gaI che. teo pitAnAM kAma pitAnA yugamAM karI cukI. mAre te pratyakSadarzI banavuM che, anubhavanA AdhAre satyanI kheja karavI che, navA tIrthanI racanA karavI che, navuM zruta banAvavuM che. mArA anuyAyIo mArA banAvela zrutajJAnathI kAma calAvI zakaze. kemake mAruM zrata AjanA anubhavanA AdhAra para nirmANa thayeluM haze, ane keTalIka peDhIo sudhI kAma Apaze. parantu mArA anubhave jeTalA vizALa haze, mArA zratanI upagitA paNa eTalI vizALa banaze. ahiMsA, satya AdinuM nAma levAthI yA enAM gIta gAvAthI kaMI lAbha nahi; jANavuM te e che ke emanA pAlananA mArgamAM bAdhAo kaI che, mAnavasvabhAva ane sAmAjika paristhitio manuSyane keTalA aMzamAM ahiMsA, satyathI laI thavA prere che ane keTalA aMzamAM

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emanA para vijaya prApta karI zakAya che yA ahiMsA, satyane vyAvahArika banAvI zakAya che, ane ene mATe bAhyAcArane kevuM rUpa ApavuM joIe, AcArane zreNa-vibhAga kevA prakAre kare joIe? A badhI bAbate Aje kaI purANa mRtathI nathI jANI zakAtI, e to haratA-pharatA saMsArathI ja jANI zakAya che; ane gharamAM rahetAM huM jANuM paNa rahyo chuM. ghara choDyA pachI anubhave to thavAnA, paNa gharAu anubhave je gharamAM thaI rahyA che te vanamAM nahi thavAnA. mATe devIe mane re te paNa eka prakAre sArthaka thaI rahyuM che. ane have te huM gharanI pratyeka ghaTanAnuM sUma nirIkSaNa karuM chuM, enuM vizleSaNa karuM chuM. prAsAda para Ubhe Ubhe pathikanI ceSTAo ane emanA parasparanA saMgharSo para daSTi rAkhuM chuM, emanA kalaha-prema-sahaganI vAta sAMbhaLuM chuM. ethI mAnava-prakRtine ThIkaThIka gaharo anubhava thaI rahyo che. Aje mane vicAra Ave che ke je meM A anubhavene saMgraha na karyo hato ane zIvra ja niSkramaNa karI lIdhuM heta te huM jagatane vidyA banavA mATe ghaNe agya heta. e ThIka che ke kevaLa A ja anubhavathI kAma na cAlaze, gRhatyAganI pachI paNa mAre ghaNA anubhava karavA paDaze, ane e anubhavane niSkarSa kheMcI ene vitaraNa karavA mATe eka pUrI senA lAgaze. e mATe niSkramaNa jarUrI che, paNa Aje je anubhavone saMgraha thaI rahyo che te paNa jarUrI che. ene paNa sarvajJatAnI sAmagrI kahevI joIe.

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H 55 : 11-pitRviyAga eka saptAhathI pitAjInI tamiyata ghaNI kharAba hatI. mAtAjIe te aharniza sevA karI. cintA ane jAgaraNathI emanuM svAsthya lathaDI gayuM. huM paNa sevAmAM upasthita rahyo. rAjyamAM jeTalA sArA vaidyo maLI zakatA hatA teTalA sArA vaidyone khelAvavAmAM AvyA, paNa kaI lAbha na thayA, ane Aja trIjA paheAre emanA dehAnta thai gayA. mRtyunuM dRzya dekhavAne A paheleA ja prasaMga hatA. mRtyu ! Aha ! keTaluM bhayaMkara ane keTaluM mabhedI dRzya ! paNa jeTalu bhayaMkara, eTalu ja anivAyaeN ane eTaluM ja Avazyaka paNa. mRtyu na heAya teA janma paNa na hoya. ka karavA mATe navuM kSetra paNa na maLe. badhA pUjene mATe gharamAM jagyA rahI paNa nathI zakatI, ane badhA rahe te premaAdarasneha nathI rahI zakatA. viyAga ja snehane sahuthI meATA uddIpaka che. A badhuM jANavA chatAM pitAjInA viyeAgathI huM viSaNuM thaI gayA. mAlUma nahi, mArI viSNutA keTalI gaharI ane sthAyI hAta, kintu mAtAjInI vivalatAe mArI viSNutAne bhulAvI dIdhI. mAre ane badhA kuTuMbIone pitAjInA viyeAganA viSAdane bhUlI mAtAjIne saMbhALavAmAM lAgI javuM paDayuM. badhA lAke te roI rahyA hatA, pazu mAtAjInI AMkhAmAMthI na te AMsunuM TIpu nikaLatuM hatuM, na kAI rADa. teo kaika vikSisa jevAM dekhAvA lAgyAM ane pachI sUcchita thaI gayAM. pitAjInA mRta zarIrane antima saMskArane mATe lai javAnA vakhate mAtAjIne

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: 56 : saMbhALavAM bahu muzkela banI gayuM hatuM. A saMsAranuM nATaka keTaluM gaharuM che ! khelADI bhUlI jAya che ke A nATaka che. mRtyuparyanta enI A bhUlamAM sudhAro nathI thato ! 12mAtRviyoga badhA loka pitAjInA viganA zekamAM DULyA hatA, chatAM sAdhAraNa rivAjathI vadhu zekapradarzananuM kaI kAma na karI zakyA. balake amArA badhAnA zAkanI jagyA to mAtAjInI cintAe laI lIdhI. badhAne zeka ghanIbhUta thaI mAtAjInA hRdayamAM jaI beThe. pitAjInA viyoganI pachI teo ruNazayyA para ja rahyAM, ane te ruNazayyA paNa Akhara mRtyuzapyA ja siddha thaI. Aja savAre sUryodayanI pahelAM emane dehAnta thaI gayA. A bAra tera divasamAM devIe mAtAjInI je sevA karI te asAdhAraNa hatI. mAtAjIe pitAjInI je asAdhAraNa sevA karI hatI, devIe mAtAjInI sevA karavAmAM ethI paNa ati karI dIdhI. meM emane khAtAM-pItAM yA setAM jayAM nahi. palaMganI pArTIe zira TekAvI thoDuM ghaNuM teo sUI letAM haze ane tyAM ja beThAM beThAM thoDuM kaMI khAI-pI letAM haze. badhA emane rAtadina palaMganI AsapAsa ja jetA. mAtAjI pitAnI zekavivalatAnA kAraNe keIthI belatAMcAlatAM nahotAM, paNa devI pitAnI tapasyAthI emanuM maunavrata paNa bhagna karatAM rahetAM hatAM. mAtAjIne vAre vAre kahevuM paDatuM hatuM ke beTI! tuM ahIM ja kema beThI che? jaIne jarA

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: 57 : ArAmathI suI jA ! khAI pI le ! badhA loke te sevA karavA mATe che, ane sevAnI eTalI jarUra paNa zuM che? mane bImArI ja zuM che ? durbalatA che, te kaI ne koI prakAre te nikaLI jaze. A "kaI ne kaI prakAre ane artha keInI samajamAM Avate heya ke na Avato hoya, paNa devInI samajamAM sArI rIte Avato hato. paNa teo kaMI na kahetAM AMsuethI pitAnA kapala devA lAgatAM hatAM, jenA javAbamAM mAtAjInI AMkhe paNa chalakAI AvatI hatI. e samaye huM je sAme hatA te mAjInI AMkhe mArI tarapha ekaTase tAkI rahetI hatI. e vakhate je mArI daSTi mAtAjInI daSTi sAthe maLI gaI che te mAre mArI daSTi nIcI karI levI paDI che. emaNe mukhathI kaMI nahi kahyuM, paNa emanI AMkhe kahevA lAgatI hatI ke vardhamAna ! tame mane ApeluM vacana pUruM karyuM che, chatAM vahUnI sUrata joI huM becena chuM. have tamane kaMI paNa kahevAne mATe adhikAra nathI, ema chatAM vahUnuM mukha dekhavAne tamane anurodha karuM chuM. enA javAbamAM mArI AMkhee zuM kahyuM te mAtAjI to zuM, svayaM mArI samajamAM paNa na AvyuM. mAtAjInA anurodhanuM mAre mATe mUlya hatuM, devInA adhikAranuM paNa mAre mATe mUlya hatuM, paNa A jagatanA adhikAranuM mUlya zivakezinIenA adhikAranuM mUlya taDaphI rahetA lAkho pazuonAM AMsuenuM mUlya? emanAM dInAkrandananuM mUlya? andhavizvAsamAM phaselA

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4 58 : mAnavajagatanA mauna pikAranuM mUlya ? svarganI sAmagrIthI narakanuM nirmANa karavAvALA mUDha mAnava-jagane sanmArga para laI javA mATe satyanA pakAranuM mUlya? A badhAM mahAmUlyone javAba mArI pAse kaMI nahato. e ja kAraNa che ke mAtAjInI daSTi sAthe mArI daSTi huM na milAvI zake. mAtAjI cAlyAM gayAM. vAtsalyanI sarvazreSTha ane sarvasundara pratimA TUTI gaI. mArA virAgI hRdayamAM paNa zeDI vArane mATe hAhAkAra macI gaye. Aja dinamAM keTalIye vAra bhUlyo chuM. vAravAra paga mAtAjInA oraDAnI tarapha gayA che ane prayatnapUrvaka yAda karIne caMkI UThyo chuM-are! mAtAjI to che ja nahi. meM ja to emanA zarIrane dAha-saMskAra karyo che. jIvananI Antarika racanA paNa keTalI jaTila che! bhAvanAenA pUramAM buddhi ane vivekanA nirNaya to vahI ja jAya che, paNa AMkhe dekhI vAtanA saMskAre paNa amuka vakhatane mATe lupta thaI jAya che. e ja kAraNa che ke mArA pagee mane kaI vAra dekhe dIdhuM che ane mArI sUkI AMkhe paNa Aja varasAdanI vAvaDI banelI che. 13-bhAIjIne anurodha karIba be saptAha sudhI gharamAM ThIka ThIka bhIDa rahI. je lokone pitAjInA svargavAsanA samAcAra maLyA hatA teo sahAnubhUti prakaTa karavA AvyA, paNa ghaNAonA AvavAnA pahelAM te mAtAjIne paNa dehAnta thaI gaye, ethI e lekene keTalAka divasa vadhu rekAvuM paDayuM. amArA bamaNuM

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: 59 : duHkhanA kAraNe emanI sahAnubhUti paNa bamaNuM thaI. ceTaka rAjA te na jANe keTalIvAra sahAnubhUti prakaTa karatA hatA. teo vAraMvAra gahare zvAsa laI kahetA hatA ke trizalA mArI pahelAM ja cAlI jaze evI kene kalpanA hatI. te sAcI satI hatI. siddhArthanI pachI ja cAlI gaI. e baMnene prema Indra ane zacIthI paNa vadhAre hate. | mArA upara te emanuM aTUTa vAtsalya mAluma paDatuM hatuM. je huM jarA nAne heta te zAyada teo mane kheLAmAM laI laIne ghUmata. vAre vAre kahetA ke tamArA caherAmAM mane trizalAno cahere dekhAI paDe che. tame ja te mAruM AzvAsana che. emanI sahAnubhUti tathA anya jJAtijanonA nehanA kAraNe mane ekAnta maLavuM durlabha thaI gayuM hatuM, chatAM mAre ekAnta meLavavuM paDatuM hatuM-khAsa karI devIne mATe. yadyapi mAmI devIne ghaNe lADa karatAM hatAM, chatAM teo devInI vedanAne nahAtAM samajI zakatAM. sAsunA maravAthI kaI vahune jeTaluM duHkha thaI zake che ethI adhika duHkhanI kalapanA emane nahotI, enA ja anupAtamAM teo sahAnubhUti prakaTa karatAM hatAM. paNa bAkI pUti mAre karavI paDatI hatI. paristhitie zekanI jANe adalAbadalI karI dIdhI hatI. mAtAjI maryAM hatAM mArAM, devInAM te sAsu maryAM hatAM, paNa mAre vyavahAra e kare paDate ke jANe mArAM sAsujI maryo hoya ane devInAM mAtAjI maryA hoya ! rAtamAM ane vakhata kADhI divase paNa mAre devIne sAtvana devAnuM kAma karavuM paDatuM hatuM.

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mArI pAsethI je samaya bacate te devI bhAbhIjInI pAse vitAvatAM. ema paNa mAluma paDatuM ke teo bhAbhInI sAme be cAra vAra bhAIne paNa kahI cukyAM hatAM. bhaiyAnA mukhathI nikaLelA A zabda te ekavAra mArA paNa kAnamAM paDI gayA hatA ke "huM zuM pAgala chuM, ema kema thavA daIza?" Aje sAMje bhAIjInI sAthe kaMI carcA thaI gaI. meM kahyuMH bhAIjI ! Apane mAluma che ke mArI ruci gRhasaMsAramAM nathI. ApanA kAmamAM paNa kaMI sahAyatA nathI karavA pAmate. je kAma mAre karavA mATe paDayuM che tene mATe niSkramaNa karavuM jarUrI che. huM dhAruM chuM ke AvatA mahInAmAM......... huM vAta pUrI paNa na karavA pAmyuM ke bhAIjIe mArA moM para hAtha rAkhI dIdho ane belyAH basa ! basa ! bhaiyA ! ghaNuM kaThora na bane! huM mAnuM chuM ke tame moTA jJAnI che, mahAtmA che, tamAre avatAra gharagRhasthInI jhaMjhaTomAM barabAda thavA mATe nathI thaye, tame dharmacakravatI tIrthakara banavAvALA che, tame samagra jagatane mATe dayAnA avatAra che, paNa sakala jagat para dayA karavA pahelAM pitAnA A duHkhI bhAI para paNa dayA kare. eka ja mahInAmAM pitAjI ane mAtAjIne viyega thaya. mAthA parathI emanI chAyA zuM haTI, gharanuM chAparuM ja jANe UDI gayuM ! sUnuM sUnuM ghara mane khAvA dhAya che ane A hAlatamAM tame paNa je A vakhate cAlyA gayA che te mAre pAgala banI ghara choDI devuM paDaze. bhAIjIe pitAnI vAta evA vyavasthita DhaMgathI kahI jANe enI teyArI emaNe pahelAM karI rAkhI hoya. emane

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: $1 : tarka balavAna hatA, chatAMya me' kahyuM: bhAIjI, mAtApitAnA viyeAganA zeka thavA svAbhAvika che, paNa ee ApaNane asamartha hAlatamAM mUkI gayA nathI, pALI-pASIne meTA karyAM che ane eTalA meATA karyAM che ke keta byanA khejo ApaNe sArI rIte uThAvI zakIe. Apa ApanA kho uThAvI ja rahyA che, mane paNa mAre ene uDAvavA do. gharagRhasthInAM kAmamAM evI jhaMjhaTA nathI ke Apa emane sahana na karI zakeA. bhAijIe kahyuM: tame ThIka kahe che| bhAi ! huM gharagRhasthInI badhI jhaMjhaTo sahana karI zakuM chuM, paNa tamArA javAthI yazeAdAdevInA oraDAmAMthI je AhA nikaLaze tene sahana karavAnI zakti mArAmAM nathI. mAtAjI heAta te te adhu sahana karI leta, paNa Aja te paNa nathI, AvI hAlatamAM huM tamane prArthanA karuM chuM ke jema mAtAjInA anurodhathI tame ATalA divaseA rAkAyA tema kumamAM kama eka varSa mAre mATe paNa rAkAo. huM cUpa rahyo. bhAijI ene mArI svIkRti samajyA, ethI ee prasannatA prakaTa karatAM khelyAH-masa! eka varSe, mAre mATe phakta eka va. meM maneAmana kahyuM: Apane mATe nahi, ApanA nAma para yazeAdAdevIne mATe A kevala eka varSa nathI kintu vaLI eka va che. 14 hetapasyA bhAi sAhebe mane je epha varSa rAphAi javAnA anu

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thA ) repa karyo temAM emanI IcchA karatAM vadhAre devInI IcchA hatI, ane A ghaTanAmAM devIne ja mukhya hAtha hato, A badhuM jANavA chatAM paNa meM e viSayamAM devIne eka zabda paNa na kahyo. teo je kare che te bilakula svAbhAvika che, eTale e vAtano ullekha karIne emane lajita karavAthI zuM lAbha? ema chatAM mArI dinacaryA badalAI gaI che. have huM divase ane rAtrie kalAka sudhI U UbhuM dhyAna lagAvuM chuM. AjakAla sarvarasajana kyAre paNa nathI karatuM. kyAreka namaka nathI leto, to kyAreka ghI nathI lete, kyAreka geLa nahi, te kyAreka khATI cIja nahi, kyAreka maracAM nahiAma jIbhane jItavAne abhyAsa karI rahyo chuM. kyAreka kyAreka kANazayyA para sUI rahuM chuM, jenA para kaI prakAranuM gAdaluM ke vastra nathI hatuM. yadyapi A divasomAM ThIka ThIka ThaMDI paDe che, tema chatAM anekavAra huM rAtabhara ughADe paDaye rahyo chuM. upavAsa paNa karuM chuM, ardha-peTa paNa rahuM chuM. | devI A badhuM joI bahu viSaNu rahe che. bhayavaza kaMI kahevA pAmatAM nathI, paNa emanA mananI azAnti emanA caherA para khUba vAMcI zakAya che. huM vAMcate rahyo chuM, paNa meM svayaM cheDavuM ThIka na dhAyu. hA, teo paNa eTaluM kare che ke je divase je rasa huM nathI khAte te rasa te divase teo paNa nathI letAM. mArI IcchA thaI ke emane A prakAre anukaraNa karatAM kuM, kemake huM A sAdhanA koI uddezathI karI rahyo chuM, jyAre emanA dvArA A sAdhanAnuM anukaraNa kevala mehanuM pariNAma che, ethI niSphala che. chatAM meM reryuM

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: 13 : nahi. bhaya hato ke re kAyele "bAMdha" phUTI na paDe. paNa Aje trIjA pahoranA vakhate teo mArI pAse AvyAM ane mArA khoLAmAM mAthuM rAkhI dhrusake dhrusake revA lAgyAM. rekAyelo bAMdha bharAI javAthI ApoApa phUTI vahevA lAgyo. - thoDIvAra huM kAMI na bolyo, snehathI emanI pITha para hAtha pheravato rahyo ane teo mArA kheALAmAM AMsu varasAvatAM rahyAM. rudananuM pUruM kaMIka kama thatAM meM nehapUrNa svaramAM kahyuM. devI, zuM tame ema samaje che ke huM tamArAthI cha chuM? devIe zira uThAvyuM. emanI AMkhe AMsuothI bharI hatI. amuka kSaNa emaNe gaLuM sApha karavAnI ceSTA karI, paNa gaLuM bharAyeluM ja rahyuM. tyAre ruMdhAyela gaLe ja teo bAlyAM Apa mahAna che, Apane samajavAnI zakti mArAmAM nathI, ethI huM nathI kahI zakatI ke Apa rUSTa che ke nahi ? te paNa eTaluM to jANuM chuM ke Apane ruSTa thavAne adhikAra che. ApanI sAdhanAmAM meM kadi madada karI nathI. jANuM chuM ke ApanuM mana kaI tarapha che, chatAM e dizAmAM pragati karatAM Apane meM pAchaLa ja kheMcyA che, ApanI sAdhanAnA mArgamAM kAMTALI jhADI sarakhI banIne khaDI thaI gaI chuM ane ene ja bhayaMkara ane asahya daMDa mane ApanI taraphathI maLI rahyo che. ' kahyuM: bhUle che devI! mArI sAdhanAthI tamane vedanA pahoMcI rahI che eTaluM huM samajuM chuM, paNa huM tamane daMDa ApI rahyo chuM e tamAre bhrama che. mArI sAdhanA saMsAra para ahiMsAnI che, dayAnI che. huM tamane te zuM? eka

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: 4 : kIDIne paNa daMDa devA nathI cAhatA. devI: paNa jyAM sudhI huM samajI' chuM, sa'sAranA santamahatttAe nArInI paravA kIDI kharAkhara paNa nathI karI. kamamAM kama patnInA rUpamAM te nathI ja karI. mArA ceharA para muskarAhaTa AvI gayu, meM muskAtAM kahyuM: phADalA phADI rahyAM che, devI ! ! devIe mArAthI kama mukAtAM kahyuM: huM ThIka kahI rahI ', deva ! huM: tamAruM kahevuM nirAdhAra nathI, paNa che ekAntavAda. ekAntavAdamAM AMzika tathya hAi zake che, paNa ene satya kahI zakAya nahi. devI: tathyamAM satya dekhavAnI kSamatA mArAmAM nathI, deva ! huM tathyanI tIkSNatAthI ja eTalI ghAyala thaI jAuM chuM ke satyane kheAjavAnI himmata ja phUTI jAya che. Apa je AjakAla karI rahyA che emAM paNa satya tA haze ja, paNa ene svAda mane maLavA pAmatA nathI. A nALiyeranI tathyarUpI jaTAethI ja mArI jIbha eTalI cheAlAI jAya che ke satyanA gara (TAparA) sudhI paheAMcavAnI himmata ja nathI rahetI. huM: paNa e (satya dekhavAnI) kSamatA jarUrI che, devI ! nahi te niraka kaSTa ja palle paDaze. devI: Apa je prakAre ucita samajo te prakAre A kaSTathI mArI rakSA karo. mArI dhRSTatAne kAraNe Apa A prakAre phaTTa

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: 65 : sahe e mArAthI dekhyuM nahi jAya. huM te samajuM chuM ke AtmakaNa daMDanuM bhayaMkaratama rUpa che. huMH tame ThIka samaje che devI! paNa je kaMI huM karI rahyuM chuM te AtmakaSTa nathI, phakta abhyAsa che. abhyAsane koI prakArane daMDa kahI zakAtuM nathI. devIe Azcarya ane sadehathI deharAvyuM abhyAsa che? meM kahyuMhA, abhyAsa che. jaga bhegamAM ja sukhane anubhava kare che ane bhegonI chInAjhapaTIthI ja te naraka banyuM che. huM batAvavA cAhuM chuM ke asalI sukhane sota andarathI che, bahArathI nathI. jagane je aneka pATha paDhAvavA cAhuM chuM emAM eka pATha A paNa che. ene ja mATe A abhyAsa che. devI kaMIka vicAravA lAgyAM pachI bolyAM deva! Apa jevA janmajAta jJAnI ane saMkalpabalIne A prakArane abhyAsa karavAnI koI AvazyakatA nathI. kemalAMgI strIo paNa AvazyakatA AvI paDatAM vagara abhyAse ja meTAM moTAM duHsAhasanAM kAma karI jAya che. Apa te mahApuruSa che, je divase je kAryanI AvazyakatA haze te divase niSNAtanI jema Apa te kAma karI dekhADazo. mATe dayA karI A abhyAsa na kare je dinarAta mArA hRdayamAM zULanI jema bheMkAte rahe. huM thoDIvAra cUpa rahyo. pachI be Akhara tame zuM cAhe che? devIH e ja ke kaMIka abhyAsa kama karI do. Apa UbhA rahI dhyAna lagAve ane jyAre cAhe tyAre lagAve, mane

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vAMdho nathI; paNa acAnaka ja Apa lUkhuM-sUkuM khAvA lAge che, ethI je divase je rasa Apa nathI letA te huM paNa nathI letI, mArI ja thALImAM bhejana karavA priyadarzanA bese che eTale te lUkhuM-sUkuM bhejanuM peTa bharI khAvA nathI pAmatI; mAre mATe nahi, kintu te baccIne mATe te A abhyAsamAM kamI kare. e ja vAta zayanane aMge che. A abhyAsane mATe sUvAmAM vastrane upayoga nathI karatA, huM paNa nathI karatI, priyadarzanA mArA vagara bIjI jagyAe nathI sUtI; aDadhI rAta sudhI te ThIka, paNa pachI ThaMDI vadhI jAya che, te vakhate huM bacIne chAtI sAthe vaLagADI dauM chuM ane enI pITha para mAre aMcala phelAvI dauM chuM; chatAMya te ThaMDIthI akaDAI jAya che, ene nIMda nathI AvatI. te vAravAra pUche che ke mA, tuM kapaDA kema nathI oDhatI ? paNa huM tene zuM samajAvuM ? kema samajAvuM ? A kahIne devI cUpa thaI gayAM. emanuM mastaka ekadama jhukI gayuM. thoDIvAramAM jamIna para TapakelAM AMsu dekhAI rahyAM. ' devInuM jhukeluM mastaka bane hAthethI UMcuM karyuM ane kahyuM: mArI sAdhanA ane tamArI sAdhanAnI dizAo bhinnabhinna che yA bilakula UlaTI che; chatAM huM tamArI sAdhanAmAM bAdhA nAMkhavA nathI cAhate. AjathI jyAM sudhI gRhasthAzramamAM chuM tyAM sudhI kAryotsarga, dhyAna Adi sudhI ja mAre abhyAsa sImita raheze.......... jyAM sudhI gRhasthAzramamAM chuM tyAM sudhI tyAMnI maryAdAne khyAla rAkha paNa jarUrI che. te yuga hajI dUra che, atidura

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: 7 : che, jyAre gRhasthAzramamAM paNa meAkSanAM darzana thavA lAgaze. te yugane lAvavAnI huM ceSTA karIza, e prakAranAM citra paNa mecIza, jethI e satyane leAke samaje; paNa hamaNAM te te durlabha che; ane mArI sAdhanA te e rUpamAM thaI ja nathI zakatI. mAre te mAruM jIvana vikaTa parIkSAemAMthI gujAravu' paDaze. devIe e ThIka kahyuM hatu` ke mAre abhyAsa karavAnI jarUra nathI. sAce ja nathI. paNa vAstavika vAta te e che ke mane A abhyAsamAM eka prakAre Ananda Ave che, ThIka e prakAre ke je prakAre eka yAddhAne yuddhamAM Ananda Ave che. prakRti upara adhikathI adhika vijaya prApta karavA e mArI IcchA che. e ja jinatva che ane mAre jina banavuM che. astu. mArI gRhatapasyA bahArathI bhale kama thai gaI hAya, paNa Antarika tapasyAmAM kAi kamI AvavA na pAmaze. 15-muMjhavaNu mAtAjInA svargavAsa thayAne eka varSathI vadhu vakhata thayeA. bhAIsAhebane je eka varSanuM vacana Apyu hatu. te paNa vItI gayuM. have bhAIsAhebanI anumati maLavAmAM sandeha nathI. paNa bhAIsAheba te nimittamAtra che, vAstavika prazna tA devInA che. eka be mahInAthI emanA ceharA upara evI viddhalatA chavAyelI rahe che ane cintAnA kAraNe emanI zarIraSTi eTalI dula thai gai che ke emanI AgaLa niSkramaNanI carcA asamayanAM gItathI paNa bhaddI mAlUma paDe che. have teA kaThinAI tyAM sudhI vadhI gai che ke jIvananI, samAjanI kAI carcA paNa nathI thavA pAmatI. jarA jeTaluM prakaraNa cheDAtAM ja

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: 68: teo e samajIne atyanta vyAkula thaI jAya che ke niSkamaNanA prastAvanI ja A badhI bhUmikA che. huM jhaTake mArIne javA nathI cAhate. huM te cAhuM chuM ke teo kaIne kaI prakAre A apriya satyane samaje. jagatkalyANane mATe mAre je mArge AgaLa vadhavAnI jarUra che te mArga para teo svayaM te jaI zakatAM nathI, khAsa karIne hamaNuM te nathI jaI zakatAM, paNa mane anumati ApIne jagatkalyANa karAvavAnuM puNya laI zake che. emane A tyAga saharSa hoya yA vicArapUrvaka hoya te mane te santoSa raheze ja, sAthe ja emanuM jIvana paNa vikasita thaze. agara emanI IrachA vinA huM emane choDIne cAlI nikaLuM to emAM emane tyAga nahi haze, emAM emane luMTAI javAnuM haze, e te eka prakAranuM vaidhavya haze. mane svecchAthI anumati ApIne teo mahAsatI banI zake che, tyAgamUrti banI zake che, AdhyAtmika draSTithI parama saubhAgyavatI banI zake che. paNa A bane kevI rIte? jyAM sudhI mArI vAta vivekapUrvaka emane gaLe na UtarI jAya tyAM sudhI ThekIpITIne vaidyarAja banAvavAthI zuM thavAnuM? pAchalA keTalAka divasathI huM Ama ghaNuM muMjhavaNamAM paDyo chuM. 16 devInI anumati keTalAka divasathI je muMjhavaNa hatI te akasmAta ja Aja maTI gaI. Aja bhejana karIne huM mArA oraDAmAM beThe hate; devI paNa mArA oraDAmAM AvyAM hatAM. ahIM-tahIMnI carcA cAlI rahI hatI, paNa niSkramaNanI anumati mAMgavA jevI keI

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4 69 ? vAta nikaLI nahatI, teTalAmAM dAsIe khabara ApyA ke bahAra kaI leko beThA che ane Apane maLavA cAhe che. huM : keNa che? gRhastha che ke saMnyAsI? dAsI H zuM batAvuM? kaMI samajamAM AvatuM nathI. sAdhAraNa gRhastha to nathI, paNa sAdhu-saMnyAsI jevA paNa nathI mAlUma paDatA; paNa AdamI kaMIka UMcI zreNInA mAluma paDe che. AvA AdamI ApaNe tyAM AvelA kadiye joyA nathI. huM : ThIka te emane mekalI Apa. pahelAM te devInI irachA oraDAnI bahAra javAnI thaI, paNa dAsIe je varNana karyuM tethI emanAmAM temane dekhavAnI utsukatA paNa pedA thaI. ethI teo beThAM rahyAM. kula ATha sajjana hatA. dekhavAthI ja mAlUma paDatuM hatuM ke e loke vidvAn haze, vicArazIla haze. gRhastha jevo veSa nahe, paNa zramaNe yA vaidika sAdhuonA je paNa veSa nahoto. yathAsthAna beThA pachI paricaya karavAthI mAluma paDayuM ke e leke eka prakAranA rAjagI che. koI prakAranI kaI bAhya tapasyA nathI karatA. ghaNAM ja svacacha parimArjita DhaMganAM vastra pahere che, paNa evAM ke jemanAthI vilAsa yA viTatva(kAmukatA)ne bhAsa na thAya. A janma brahmacArI rahe che. kaI rAjadarabAra vageremAM kadi jatA nathI. zAstranuM manana, cintana karatA rahe che. jemAM pahelA naMbara para beThA hatA te sArasvatajIe A badhe paricaya Ape. bIjA AdityajIe kahyuM ke A gaNatatvanI bahAra rAjata-mAM teo rahe che. gaNatatranI sImAthI daza gAu dUra "brahAleka" nAmanuM eka

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nagara che, te nagaranI bahAra AThe dizAomAM ATha Azrama che. e te AzramamAM ja rahe che. bAkI chanAM nAma hatAM vahni, aruNa, gardaya, tuSita, avyAbAdha, ariSTa. badhAnAM alaga alaga Azrame hatAM. emanA AzramamAM strIo hatI nathI. ziSya hatA nathI. badhA vayaska ane vidvAna brahmacArI hoya che. keI keIthI vizeSa saMbaMdha nathI rAkhatA. keI utsavamAM zAmila paNa nathI thatA. emane paricaya pAmI mane ghaNI prasannatA thaI, ane manamAM Azcarya pUrNa jijJAsA paNa thaI ke jyAre A leke keI zrImAn yA zAsakane maLavA nathI jatA, tyAM sudhI ke prajAnA keI utsavamAM paNa sammilita nathI thatA, to mArI pAse AvavAnI kRpA kema karI ? A vAta meM temane pUchI paNa. teoH yadyapi ame loke jaganA mAyAmAhathI alaga chIe, chatAMya AMkha baMdha karIne besI nathI rahetA. jagatane dekhIe chIe ke te sudhare. A samaye samAjanI ghaNI durdazA che. jJAna-vijJAna badhuM naSTa thaI rahyuM che. zAstro te basa andhazraddhApUrNa kriyAkAMDanI jANakArImAM samApta thaI gayAM che. samAjane eka varga e padadalita karAI rahyo che ke jANe te manuSya ja nathI. kadAcita jAnavarathI paNa kharAba enI dazA che. yajJanA nAma para hatyAkAMDa eTalAM vadhI gayAM che ke mAtAyAtane mATe azvo ane kRSine mATe baLada paNa maLatA nathI. kRSaka varga herAna thaI rahyo che, zuddha varga pisAI rahyo che, paNa kaI sAMbhaLanAra nathI. jemanI pAse vaibhava che temane

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: us : svargamAM apsarAone niyata karI levAnI cintA che. UrvazI ane tilottamA para badhAnI dRSTi che. paNa AthI samAjane moTe bhAga kaMgAla banatuM jAya che e tarapha keInI daSTi nathI. te Apa Apane tyAMnA zAsakane A vAta kema nathI kahetA ? teoH kahevAno zuM arthazAsake to e ja vAta jANe che yuddha ane vilAsa. bAkI bIjI badhI vAta samajavAne IjAre emaNe brAhmaNane ApI dIdhuM che. huM te brAhmaNane kahe. teoH brAhmaNane kahevAne paNa kaMI artha nathI. kemake lekenA andhavizvAsa tathA vyarthanAM A kriyAkAMDe upara ja brAhaNenI jIvikA nirbhara che; ane A jIvikAne vyavasthita rAkhavA mATe je moTAInI jarUra che te janmathI jAti mAnavAthI ane bIjAone nIcA dekhADavAthI ja maLI zake che. samAjanI durdazA para ja jemanA svArtha TakelA che teo durdazAne zuM dUra karaze ? ane zuM kAma karaze ? te Apa mArI pAsethI zI AzA kare che ? teoH ame lekee ApanA saMbaMdhamAM ghaNuM sAMbhaLyuM che. Apa ghaNA jJAnI che, tapasvI che, saMsAranI A durdazA para cintita che. e mATe Apa eka navA tIrthanI sthApanA karI zake che. jyAM sudhI navuM tIrtha na bane, tIrthanA AdhAra para vizALa saMdha na bane tyAM sudhI sAdhAraNa janatAnA mana upara potAnA vicAronI chApa paDavAnI nahi, samAjane A durdazAthI uddhAra thavAne nahi.

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: 72 : vacamAM bolI UThayAM devIjI: purANuM tIrtho kaMI ceDAM nathI; te pachI eka navuM tIrtha banAvavAthI zuM lAbha? teoH gharamAM agara ghaNuM buThThA beThA hoya te zuM ethI navA bALakanI AvazyakatA nathI rahetI, mAI ? devIH bALaka zuM vRddha nahi banavAne? teoH banaze. paNa vRddha banavA pahelAM javAnIbhara kAma karI jaze, AgaLane mATe navuM bALaka paNa pedA karI jaze. jaganI vyavasthA to A ja prakAre cAlyA kare che, mAI! purANuM vyaktio mare che, navI vyaktio pedA thaI temanI jagyA le che; purANuM tIrtho mare che, emanI jagyAe navuM pedA thAya che. dharmanI paraMparA mAnavanI paraMparAnI jema A ja prakAre cAle che. thoDIvAra badhA cUpa rahyA. pharI lokAntike belyA emAM sardeha nahi, mAI, ke kumAranA javAthI ApanA jIvanamAM zUnyatA AvI jaze. paNa AjanI durdazAnA kAraNe keTalAM gharamAM zUnyatA AvI rahI che ene pate Apane ekavAra paNa jo lAgI jAya te dinarAta ApanAM AMsu rokAze nahi. pazuonI durdazAnI vAta javA daIe, ene mATe te brAhmaNenuM sApha kahevuM che ke "jJArtha gharAvaH sura" yajJane mATe pazuo banAvavAmAM AvyA che, ane yajJane artha karI rAkhe che emane jIvatA bALIne khAI javA ! paNa manuSyone je yajJa thAya che enA maraNa mAtrathI chAtI tharatharI jAya che. hamaNAM ja be saptAha pahelAMnI vAta che. kRSakenuM eka dila amArI pAse AvyuM hatuM, badhAnI pAse rajatapiMDe hatAM,

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: 73 : paNa enAthI teo baLade kharIda na karI zakyA. sAmantoe svarNapiDe daI yajJane mATe badhA baLade kharIdI lIdhA. baLada vinA teo evA taraphaDatA hatA, jema ke santAnahIna vyakti taraphaDe. Ama kRSaka varganI burI dazA che....bIjI tarapha lAkha AdamI jAtimadanA zikAra che. hamaNAM eka saptAha pahelAMnI vAta che. amArA nagaranI bahAra ke cAMDAlakuTuMba retuM-cillAtuM jaI rahyuM hatuM. mAluma paDayuM ke amuka maryAdAnI andara eka cAMDAlane praveza thavAthI yajJa bhraSTa thaI gayeA hato, ethI e cAMDAlanI hatyA karI nAkhavAmAM AvI hatI. ke sundara hRSTapuSTa yuvaka hato! enI pAchaLa enI vidhavA patnI, buThThI mAtA ane traNa varSanI nAnIsI baracI zuM cIsa pADI pADI reI rahyAM hatAM ! jeIne pattharane paNa AMsu nikaLI zakatAM hatAM. paNa Ajane manuSya pattharathI paNa vadhAre kaThora che, ene pigaLAvavA mATe kaI mahAna tapasvIne tapa joIe. A megyatA: amane vardhamAna kumAramAM ja dekhAya che, mAI ! jagatanA uddhAra mATe tamAre paNa A tapasyAmAM sahAyaka thavuM paDaze, vardhamAna kumArane chUTI devI joIze. tamAre A tyAga jaganA mahAnamAM mahAna tyAgemAM haze. tame dayAlu che mAI! lAkha vyaktionI AMkhamAMthI nikaLelI azrudhArAne joI tame pitAnI AMkhanAM AMsu bhUlI jaze mAI! devI zira jhukAvIne beThAM rahyAM. emanI AMkhomAM AMsu bharAI AvyAM ane kSaNabhara pachI emaNe mArA page para mAthuM nAkhI dIdhuM ane rAtAM rotAM bolyAH zamA kare deva!

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: 74 : huM ghaNI svAthI chuM. meM pitAnA sukhane mATe jaganAM sukhanuM balidAna karyuM che, pitAnAM AMsu bacAvavA mATe lAkhe prANuMonAM AMsuonI vaitaraNI banavA dIdhI che, potAnAM AMsuonI ADe jagatanAM AMsuone dekhavAthI bacatI rahI chuM, paNa have huM A pApa nahi karIza. ApanA mArgamAM bAdhA nahi nAkhIza. kAntike--dhanya che! mAI! dhanya che ! ! e pachI lakAntike cAlyA gayA ane jatAM jatAM kahI gayA ke have ame jagatane kahIzuM ke zAnta thA re jagat ! dhIraja rAkha re jagat ! tArA uddhArane mATe na saNA AvI rahyo che, na tIrthakara AvI rahyA che. 17. niSkamaNu kAle saMdhyA vakhate meM bhAIsAhebane niSkamaNanA nizcayanI vAta karI dIdhI ane Aje trIjA pahere gRhatyAga karavAne kAryakrama sUcita karI dIdhuM. ethI eka khaLabhaLATa jevuM macI gayuM. deDyAM deDyAM bhAbhIjI AvyAM. dAsIo paNa AvI. badhIe mane gherI lIdho. paNa badhI khamacAtI rahI. thoDIvAra pachI bhAbhIe mArA khabhA upara hAtha rAkhatAM kahyuMH mAtAjIne mATe tame keTalAMya varSa rekAyA devara! pitAnA bhayAne mATe paNa eka varSa rekAyA, have zuM potAnI bhAbhIne mATe cha mahInA paNa na rokAI zake? zuM bhAbhIne eTale paNa adhikAra nahi? muskAtAM kahyuM. tamane bhayAthI judAM samajavAnuM pApa nathI karI zakate bhAbhI!

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75 H mArI vAta sAMbhaLI dAsIo suddhAM muskAI paDI. bhAbhIe kahyuM. bIjAonuM meM baMdha karavuM khUba jANe che devara!! vacamAM belI UDyA bhayA. bolyA vardhamAnakumAra badhI vAtemAM asAdhAraNa che, anyathA kaI bhAbhInuM meM baMdha karI zakavAvALe kaI devara te Aja sudhI dekhyo-sAMbhaLyo nathI. pachI eka haLavIsarakhI muskAnanI lahera badhAnI vacce relAI gaI. e pachI miyAe kaMIka gaMbhIra thaIne kahyuM have tamane rekI zakavAnuM ke zastra amArI pAse nathI rahyuM, vardhamAna! ame hAryA chIe, mATe kAle tame je prakAre vidAI cAhaze te prakAre tamane vidAya karI devA paDaze. huM ene mATe kaI vizeSa yejanA te karavI nathI bhayA ! huM kAle trIjA pahere mArAM vastrAbhUSaNe garIbone dAna daI phakta eka cAdara lapeTIne vana tarapha ekalo cAlI nikaLIza. bhAbhIe acarajathI kahyuM: pagapALA ja ! huM pagapALA nahi te zuM ? parivrAjaka sAdhue zuM hAthI-ghoDA-pAlakhIo para dhUmyA kare che? have te mATe jIvananA anta sudhI pagapALA ja jAmaNa karavAnuM che. mArI vAta sAMbhaLI bhAbhI kSaNabhara stabdha banI gayAM. pachI aMcalathI pitAnI AMkha lUchIne belyAM: jIvanabhara tame cAhe tema dhUma devara ! paNa huM evI abhAgaNuM bhAbhI banavA nathI cAhatI ke jene devara sAdhAraNa bhikhArI je banI gharathI nikaLI jAya. agara mAre devara sAdhAraNa yu

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: 7} : vijayane mATe paNa jAta teA gAmabharanI sImantinIe enI AratI utArata, te azvArUDha heta, enA rastAmAM phUla bichAvelAM hAta; paNa kAle te mArA devara vizvavijayane mATe jaI rahyA che, leAkeAnA zarIra para nahi, AtmAe para vijaya prApta karavA mATe jai rahyA che, te enA samAroha ene anurUpa ja thaze. bhaiyAe kahyuM: hA ! hA ! kema nahi thAya ? A mAkhatamAM vardhamAne ka MI nahi khelavAnu. huM atyArathI ja badhI taiyArI karAvuM chuM. ema kahIne bhaiyAjI UThI cAlyA gayA. huM paNa UThIne cAlyeA AvyeA. prAsAdanI AgaLa rAtabhara ThekaTheka cAlyA karI. rAjamArga svaccha ane sajAyeleA karavAnI dhamAdhama cAlatI rahI. azvArAhIonA Amatema javAnA avAjo AvatA rahyA. mAlUma paDatu hatu ke jeTalA dUranA sAmantA ane prajAjanane khabara ApI zakAtA hatA, ApI devAyA. kaMika te A prakAre rAtrinI niHstabdhatAnA bhaMga thavAnA kAraNe, kaMIka niSkramaNanA ucchvAsanA kAraNe, kaMIka AgaLanA kAryakramanA vicAranA kAraNe mane nIMda na AvI. vacamAM vacamAM huM AraDAnI andara pharavA lAgyA, tyAM sudhI ke madharAtane samaya thai gayA; eTalAmAM hu* cAMyeA. devInA eraDAmAMthI thAbaDavAne avAja AvyeA. samajI gayeA ke devIne paNa nIMda AvatI nathI ane ethI ja priyadarzanA paNa sUI rahI nathI, ene suvADavA mATe tee thAbaDI rahyAM che. yadyapi pAchalA eka varSathI huM kaMika alaga jevA ja

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*H : rahu chuM; eka prakAre mArA badhA vakhata mArI sAdhanAmAM lAgyA rahyA che; chatAM maLavA-karavA ane vAta karavAnA samaya tA maLatA ja rahyA che. paNa Aja emanA ane mArA jIvananA uparI milananI antima rAtri che. A pachI uparanuM dAmpatya paNa vicchinna thaI jaze. kAle e laukAntika rAjayAgIonI vAta sAMbhaLIne devIe mane niSkramaNanI anumati ApI dIdhI; chatAM e tyAganA bAjo emane ThIkaThIka bhAre paDI rahyo che. emanA viveke, emanI vizvahitaSitAe anumati ApI che, paNa mana teA vyathAbhArathI Aha Aha karI rahyu che. paNa ene upAya ze ? duniyAnA tAmasa yajJone dUra karavA mATe A mahAn sAttvika yajJa karavA ja paDaze. eka vAra icchA tA thai AvI ke devInA oraDAmAM jai emane sAndvanA daI AvuM, jethI emane nIMda AvI jAya; paNa aTakI gayA. A vakhate emane sAndvanA ApavAnA atha hatA emane rAtabhara rAvarAvavAM. mATe na gayeA. huM cAhuM chuM ke mArA javA pachI eA vaidhavyanI yAtanAneA anubhava na kare, kintu tyAganA mahAna gauravane anubhava kare. A badhA vicArAmAM rAta nikaLI javA AvI. TahelavAkvAthI kaika thakAvaTa jevu lAgyuM ane leTI gayA, thADI vAramAM nIMda paNa AvI gaI; paNa kaMI muhUta bhara sUvA pAmyA hatA ke hu cAMkI gayA. AMkha khulatAM ja joyuM ke devI zayyAnI nIce beThAM beThAM ekITase mArA mAM tarapha joi rahyAM

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4 78 ; che. mane Azcarya na thayuM. chatAM premala svaramAM meM pUchayuM: ATalI rAta sudhI zuM tame sUtAM nathI devI ? devInA heTha kAMpavA lAgyA. mAlUma paDayuM ke bane hoThe ubharAI rahelA rudananA dhakkAne sahana nathI karI rahyA. ghaNI muzkelIthI ruMdhAyela gaLAthI emaNe kahyuM: sUvA mATe te AkhuM jIvana paDayuM che deva ! huM beThe thaI gaye. devIne hAtha pakaDI meM emane zayyA para besADI lIdhAM ane haLavuM sarakhuM muskAna lAvIne kahyuM A prakAre ekITase zuM joI rahyAM hatA devI? devIH ApanA rUpane pI rahI hatI deva! vicAra karyo ke jIvanabhara te tarasathI taraphaDavuM ja che, A atima rAtri che, jeTaluM pI zakuM teTaluM pI lauM. meM kahyuM: mekSanA sivAya zuM kayAreya kAmathI pyAsa bujhAI che kharI, devI !? devI cUpa rahyAM. meM kahyuM- Ama dhIraja khevAnI jarUra nathI devI! tamAre te pitAnI dAnavIratAno anubhava karavAnuM che. lAkhe suvarNa- mudrAonuM dAna karavAvALAonI dAnavIratA tamArI A dAnavIratAnI AgaLa kaMI hisAbamAM nathI. teo suvarNanA TukaDAonuM dAna kare che, paNa hRdayanA TukaDAonuM yA pUrA hRdayanuM dAna teo nathI karavA pAmatA. tame te Aje pitAnA hRdayanuM dAna karyuM che, jIvananAM te sukhanuM dAna karyuM

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haet che ke jemane mATe leko na jANe keTalAM pApa kare che; ane e badhuM kaI svarganI lAlasAthI nahi, paNa vizvakalyANane mATe karyuM che. A mahAna gauravane prApta karavAvALI sImattinI mane kaI dekhAtI nathI. jyAretyAre yuddho phATI nikaLe che, hajAre ddhA mAryA jAya che, lAkhe mahilAonAM AMsuonAM vaheNa vahevA mAMDe che, te vaheNane rokavuM che, AMsu vahAvIne te vadhAravuM nathI. durdevathI luMTAyelI e abhAgaNI mahilAemAM tamAre pitAnI gaNatrI nathI karAvavAnI, kaMgAliyata ane tyAgane eka nathI banAvavAM. kAle dezamAM te keNa strI haze je vizvakalyANane mATe sarvasvano tyAga karavAvALI yazadAdevInI sAme zira UMcuM karIne cAlI zakaze ? paNa agara tame dInatAne anubhava karI svayaM ja pitAnuM zira nIcuM karI lo te bIjAonuM zira svayameva UMcuM rahI jaze. A te vilAsanI sAme tyAganI hAra thaze. A badhuM varSamAnanI patnIne yogya nathI. | devIe pitAnAM AMsu lUchI nAMkhyAM. kSaNabhara virAma laIne bAlyAMkSamA kare deva ! mAruM kamaLa hRdaya thoDAsA ja tApathI pIgaLIne AMsu banavA lAge che. huM te samajuM chuM ke nArImAM A kamaLatA, jene durbaLatA ja kahevI joIe, sahaja che. paNa huM nArInI A sahaja prakRti upara vijaya meLavavAne pUro prayatna karIza. ApanI patnIne egya bhale na banI zakuM, paNa enA gauravanI rakSA te karavI ja che. nArInA hRdayanI kemaLatAne huM durbaLatA nathI kahI zakate

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* 20: devI ! te komaLatA ja te dharmonu, sabhyatAonuM mULa che. nArInuM A pIgaLatuM hRdaya jyAre peAtAnI asa`khya dhArAothI daze dizAone byAsa karI le che tyAre te ja te " sattvapu maitrI" anI jAya che; teja te bhagavatI ahiMsAnI tripathagA mUrti banI jAya che; ane jyAre tene kAi puruSa pAmI jAya che tyAre te devatA kahevAvA lAge che. mATe ene doSa samajI enA upara vijaya meLavavAnI keziza na kare, kintu ene phelAveA, eTalu phelAvA ke saMsArane pratyeka prANI tamane priyadarzanAsame| mAlUma paDavA lAge ane mAruM niSkramaNa asakhya priyadarzanAenI sevAmAM lAgelu dekhAya. devIe eka gaharA zvAsa lIdheA ane melyAM: ema ja karIza - deva ! huM ApanuM anusaraNa te nathI karavA pAmatI, paNa thoDuM ghaNuM anukaraNa karavAnA prayatna jarUra karIza. A janmamAM anusaraNa jo na thaI zakyuM te AgAmI janmamAM jarUra thaze. eTalAmAM kUkaDAneA svara saMbhaLAyA. meM kahyuM: uSAkALa thaI gayA che devI ! devI UThyAM, khAlyAM: te jAuM chuM, priyadarzInA jAgIne rAvA na lAge. ema kahIne teo AMsu lUchatAM cAlyAM gayAM. prAtaHkALa thatAM ja jyAre me rAjamArga para najara nAMkhI tyAre mAlUma paDayuM ke Aje savArathI ja ThIkaThIka bhIDa che. AsapAsanAM gAmeAnI janatA savArathI ja ekaThThI thaI rahI che. khIcArI bhALI janatA nathI samajatI ke huM zuM karavA jaI rahyo chuM. janatA phakta e kutUhalathI ekaTrI thaI rahI che ke *

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: 81 : eka rAjakumAra vaibhavane lAta mArIne jaI rahyo che. mUlya tyAganA uddezanuM nathI, paNa rAjakumArapaNAnuM che. prAsAdanI andara paNa ghaNI dhAmadhUma hatI. hA! ullAsa nahoto. sugandhita cUrNathI mAruM viTaNa karavAmAM AvyuM. hemanta Rtu hevAthI garama jaLathI snAna karAvavAmAM AvyuM. bhejanamAM vyaMjanenI bharamAra hatI. badhuM hatuM, paNa hAsyanIvinodanI badhI jagyAe kamI hatI. | bhajananI pachI mAre ghaNe vakhata garIbane dAna devAmAM gaye; tyAM sudhImAM rAjamArga para banne bAjue hajAre naranArIonI bhIDa ekaTrI thaI gaI. bhAIsAhebe zibikAne je prakAre sajAvI hatI tevI sajAvaTa mArA vivAhanA vakhate paNa karavAmAM AvI nahotI, chatAM ema mAlUma paDatuM hatuM ke khUba sajAvyA chatAM zibikA hasI nathI rahI. divasane trIje pahara vItI rahyo hato, ethI mAre vidAI levA mATe zIvratA karavI paDI. puruSavarga te jJAtakhaMDa sudhI sAthe cAlavAvALo hato. dAsI-parijanethI, bhAbhIthI ane devIthI vidAI levAnI hatI. badhIe sADhu netrathI vidAI ApI, badhI AMsuothI mArA paga dhatI gaI ane aMcaLathI lUMchatI gaI. bhAbhIe AMsu bharIne ane mArI bhujA para pitAne hAtha rAkhIne kahyuM: devara ! ame leke kSatriyANIo chIe, janmathI ja pitAnA bhAgyamAM e lakhAvI lAvyAM chIe ke motanA meMmAM javA vakhate pitAnA pati, pitA, putra, bhAI ane devaranI AratI utAryA karIe ane AMsu lAvyA vagara vidAya

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: 82 : karyA karIe, paNa AjanA jevI vidAI devAnuM paNa pitAnA bhAgyamAM lakhAvI lAvyA chIe enI amane kalpanA suddhAM nahotI, mATe A avasara upara agara ame pitAnA hRdayane patthara na banAvavA pAmIe te amane kSamA karaje. ' kahyuMH bhAbhI, huM e mATe vidAI laI rahyo chuM ke bhaviSyamAM paNa bahena-putrIo-patnIo-bhAbhIone pitAnA hRdayane patthara banAvavAne avasara ja na Ave. AzIrvAda Ape ke huM mArI sAdhanAmAM saphala thaI zakuM. e pachI vidAI ApI devIe. emanA mukhathI kaMI belI zakAyuM nahi. pahelAM te emaNe pAse UbhelI priyadarzanAne mArA paga para jhukAvI dIdhI, pachI svayaM jhukIne mArA page para zira rAkhIne raDI paDayAM. emanAM AMsuothI mArA paga bhIMjAvA lAgyA. meM emane uThADatAM kahyuM. dhIraja rAkho devI! metIethI paNa adhika sundara ane bahumUlya AMsuone A prakAre kharca na kare. duHkhathI jalatA saMsAranI Aga bujhAvavA mATe A AMsuone sAcavI rAkhavAnAM che. devIe gaga6 svaramAM kahyuM: cintA na kare deva ! nArIo dhIrajamAM bhale kaMgAla haya, paNa AMsuomAM kaMgAla nathI hatI. AMkhenuM pANI ja te emanA jIvananI kahAnI che. huM te tame paNa AzIrvAda Ape devI, ke tamArAM AMsuomAM huM saMsArabharanI nArIonI kahAnI paDhI zakuM. devI pAse UbhelAM bhAbhIjInA khabhA para zira rAkhI emane khabhe bhIMjavavA lAgyAM.

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: 83 : kSaNabhara huM stabdha rahe, pachI bhAbhIne kahyuM have jAuM chuM bhAbhI ! sAhasa eka karavAnuM kAma tamane seMpI jAuM chuM. AzA che ke ene mATe hisse tame devIne pradAna karaze. huM prAsAdathI bahAra nikaLyo. mane dekhatAM ja hajAre kaThe cillAyA-"vardhamAnakumAranI jaya !" huM zibikAmAM beThe. hajAre AdamI AgaLa ane hajAre AdamI pAchaLa cAlI rahyA hatA. gavAkSamAMthI sImatinIo lAjA (cokhA) varasAvI rahI hatI. vastInI bahAra jyAre jalasa pahoMcyo tyAre mArI daSTi rastAthI dUra UbhA rahelA eka mAnavasamUha para paDI. teo cAMDAlakuTuMbanA hatA. zivakezInI ghaTanA banyA pachI mArA viSayamAM temane Adara ThIka ThIka vadhI gayo hatuM. teo cAhatA hatA ke jalsamAM AvIne mArI zibikA upara lAjA varasAvI jAya. paNa e emane mATe AgamAM kUdavA karatAMya bhayaMkara hatuM. ethI cAMDAla badhuoe potAnA aMcaLamAM rAkhela lAjA mArI tarapha lakSya karIne pitAnI ja sAme varasAvI lIdhA hatA. A jotAM ja mAruM hadaya bharAI AvyuM. je AMsuone huM devI ane bhAbhInI AgaLa rokI zakyo hato te have na rokAyAM. ene lUchIne meM mAruM uttarIya pavitra karyuM. kSaNabhara irachA thaI ke zibikAmAMthI UtarIne huM e cAMDAla banyuone sAtvanA ApI AvuM; paNa pachI e vicArIne aTakI gaye ke AthI janatAmAM eTale kSobha phelAze ke rastAthI dUra UbhA rahevAnA aparAdhamAM paNa janatA

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: 84 : e cAMDAlone mArA gayA pachI pIsI nAMkhaze. AthI rokAI gaye. - jJAtakhaMDa pahoMcIne huM zibikAmAMthI UtarI gaye. janatA eka samUhamAM UbhI rahI gaI. meM badhAne saMbodhana karatAM kahyuM have huM Apa lokethI vidAI lauM chuM-e mATe nahi ke Apa lekethI kauTuMbikatA teDavA cAhuM chuM, kintu e mATe ke huM te sAdhanA karI zakuM jethI Apa lekenA samAna manuSyamAtra sAthe yA prANI mAtra sAthe ekasarakhI kauTuMbikatA rAkhI zakuM. tRSNa ane ahaMkAre AtmAnI andara bharelA ananta sukhanA bhaMDAranuM je dvAra baMdha karI rAkhyuM che e dvArane khelAvI zakuM ane batAvI zakuM ke tRSNa ane ahaM. kArane tyAga karI parama vItarAgatA ane parama samabhAvanI sAthe aparigrahamAM paNa manuSya keTale sukhI rahI zake che. ene mATe ekAntamAM rahI mAre varSo sudhI nAnA prakAranA prayoge karavA che ane e prayoganI siddhinuM phaLa jagatane pIrasavuM che. huM Aja e prayogonI bAbatamAM kaI spaSTIkaraNa karI zakatuM nathI, kintu te samaya Avaze ke jyAre te prayoge mUrtimanta rUpa dhAraNa karaze. A kahIne meM eka eka AbhUSaNa utArI pheMkI dIdhuM; pachI vastrone vAro Avyo. eka devadUSya uttarIyane choDI bAkI vastro paNa badhAM alaga karI dIdhAM. A badhuM joIne bhAI nandivardhananI AMkhamAM AMsu AvI gayAM ane seMkaDo uttarIya vastro pitAnI AMkhe

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lUchatAM dekhAvA lAgyAM. meM kahyuM Apa leke Ane zoka na karatA. aparigrahatA durbhAgya nathI, saubhAgya che. ke pazu para ladAyela bAje UtarI jAya te e e pazunuM durbhAgya haze ke saubhAgya? mATe prasaratAthI have Apa ke ghera padhAre. huM mArI sAdhanA mATe vihAra karIza. Ama kahIne huM cAlI nikaLyo, ane pharI mukha pheravIne emanI tarapha joyuM paNa nahi. ThIkaThIka raste cAlyA pachI jyAre rastAne vaLAMka AvatAM mAre moDAvuM paDayuM tyAre mArI najara vidAInI jagyA para paDI. badhI janatA jemanItema UbhI hatI. saMbhavataH te mane tyAM sudhI dekhatI rahevA cAhatI hatI ke jyAM sudhI huM dekhAte rahuM. kharekhara ja sanehanuM AkarSaNa badhAM AkarSaNethI tIvra hoya che. paNa huM Aja enA upara vijaya meLavI zakyo, enuM banjana teDI zo. 'hA, e bandhana teDavA mATe nathI toDayuM, paNa vizvanI sAthe nAte joDavA mATe teDayuM che. samAsa * ) :

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jJA papha na do . A thi ke sa ha ya ke alchbllo <&tJV loio Bee 9, nAmuM 1 vArA bhAgIlAla talakazIbhAI 2 dAsI kALIdAsa vAlajIbhAI 3 zAha lavajIbhAI hukamaca da ja zAha cImanalAla choTAlAla 5 zAhu cInubhAI gAMDAlAla-peDhI 6 zAha ratilAla sebhAgacaMda cha dosI kAntilAla bhogIlAla 8 sAnI vIrajIbhAI lalubhAI 9 zAha amRtalAla harakhaca da 10 zAha jesaMgabhAI harakhacaMda 11 zAha narasIdAsa bhUdarabhAI 1ra vArA bAlacaMda lalubhAI 13 desI popaTalAla caturabhAI 14 zAha mahAsukhabhAI dhArasIbhAI 15 zAhe navInacaMdra cInubhAI 16 zAha cu akalAla zakaraca de 17 zAha bhAgIlAla kezavalAla 18 vArA bAbulAla amRtalAla 19 desI kakalabhAI ratanazI 20 zAhe jeThAlAla ArAbhAI 21 zAhe lakhamIcaMda caturabhAI Shree Sudharmaswami Gyanbhandar-Umara, Surat = 2 7 7 7 7 7 7 7 7 7 www.umaragyanbhandar.com