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________________ paccIsavAM pravacana darzana, jJAna, caritra-aura mokSa For Private & Pesanal Use Only
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________________ nANeNa jANaI bhAve, daMsaNeNa ya sddhe| caritteNa nigiNhAi, taveNa prisujjhii||62|| nAdaMsaNissa nANaM, nANeNa viNA na huMti crnngunnaa| aguNissa natthi mokkho, natthi amokkhassa nivvANaM / / 63 / / hayaM nANaM kiyAhINaM, hayA aNNANao kiyaa| pAsaMto paMgulo daDDo, dhAvamANo ya aNdho||64|| saMjoasiddhIi phalaM vayaMti, na hu egacakkeNa raho pyaai| aMdho ya paMgu ya vaNe samiccA, te saMpaDattA nagaraM pvitttthaa||65||
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________________ NeNa jANaI bhAve-jJAna se manuSya jAnatA hai| rkhnaa| adhika logoM ne jIvana ke AdhAra jJAna para rakha lie haiN| / daMsaNeNa ya saddahe-darzana se zraddhA utpanna hotI hai| tarka se, vicAra se, buddhi se jo bAta ThIka lagI hai-socA, use caritteNa nigiNhAi-caritra se nirodha hotA hai, svIkAra kara leN| lekina jo tarka se ThIka lagA hai vaha hRdaya taka niSedha hotA hai| | na jA sakegA, kyoMki tarka kI pahuMca hRdaya taka nhiiN| tarka to taveNa parisujjhaI-aura tapa se manuSya vizuddha hotA hai| sirpha khopar3I kI khujalAhaTa hai; bahuta Upara-Upara hai| prANoM ko jJAna se hama jAnate haiN| lekina jAnanA kAphI nahIM hai| jAnanA AMdolita nahIM karatA trk| bahuta Upara-Upara hai| mAtra jAna lene se zraddhA paidA nahIM hotii| tarka ke lie kabhI kisI ne prANa diye? tarka ke lie kabhI jaba taka ki svayaM darzana na ho jAye, jaba taka ki khuda kI AMkhoM koI zahIda huA? tuma jisake lie mara sako, vahI tumhArI se hama na dekha leM-taba taka zraddhA nahIM hotii| zraddhA hai| tuma jisake binA jI na sako, vahI tumhArI zraddhA hai| mahAvIra ne dekhA; hamane sunaa| jo sunakara jAna liyA, usase tuma kaho jIyeMge to isake sAtha, isake binA to mRtyu ho zraddhA paidA nahIM hogii| kRSNa ne kahA; hamane sunaa| mAna liyA jAyegI vahI zraddhA hai| jo jIvana se bhI bar3I hai, vahI zraddhA sunkr| usase zraddhA paidA nahIM hogii| aura agara tumane zraddhA | hai| jisake lie jIvana bhI nichAvara kiyA jA sakatA hai, vahI kisI bhAMti Aropita kara lI to tuma bhaTaka jaaoge| kyoMki | zraddhA hai| jhaThI zraddhA jIvana ko rUpAMtarita nahIM krtii| vahI lakSaNa hai jhaThI tarka ke lie tumane kabhI kisI ko jIvana nichAvara karate zraddhA kA, ki jIvana to kahIM aura jAtA hai, zraddhA kucha aura dekhA? do aura do cAra hote haiM--isa satya kA agara koI kahatI hai| zraddhA kahatI hai, tyAga; aura jIvana dhana ko ikaTThA pratipAdana karatA ho aura tuma talavAra lekara khar3e ho jAo, to karatA calA jAtA hai| to zraddhA jhUThI hai, mithyA hai| kyA vaha satya kI rakSA ke lie apane jIvana ko denA cAhegA? jaba jIvana aura zraddhA sAtha-sAtha calane lage, jaba jIvana mUr3hatApUrNa mAlUma pdd'egaa| zraddhA ke pIche chAyA kI bhAMti calane lage, tabhI jAnanA kI zraddhA do aura do cAra hote haiM, isake lie marane meM koI sAra na mAlUma saccI hai| hogaa| vaha kahegA ki tumhArI marjI, do aura do pAMca kara lo ki to mahAvIra kahate haiM, zraddhA maulika hai| zraddhA se jo jJAna do aura do tIna kara lo; lekina do aura do cAra koI aisI bAta AvirbhUta ho, vahI jJAna hai| aura jaba zraddhA se jJAna AvirbhUta nahIM jisake lie maiM jIvana ko gaMvA duuN| hogA to jJAna se cAritrya apane-Apa niSpanna hotA hai| prema ke lie koI jIvana ko gaMvA sakatA hai| isalie zraddhA jIvana kA AdhAra jJAna para mata rakhanA-dRSTi para, darzana para prema kI bhAMti hai| mahAvIra kahate haiM, zraddhA para jIvana ko khar3A 537
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________________ jina sUtra bhAgaH1 krnaa| mahAvIra kI zraddhA ko samajha lenaa| unakA vizeSa zabda rAjI ho jAte haiN| vizvAsa marA huA hai, lAza hai| hai: shrddhaan| yaha tuma jise sAdhAraNataH zraddhA kahate ho usase hAM, mahAvIra ko dikhAyI par3A hogaa| jo unhoMne kahA vaha mahAvIra kA koI prayojana nahIM hai| loga kahate haiM, hamArI to unakI zraddhA thI; jo tumane sunA vaha tumhArA vizvAsa hai| Izvara meM bar3I zraddhA hai| jise tumane dekhA nahIM, zraddhA hogI isalie khayAla rakhanA, agara maiM kucha kaha rahA hUM to vaha merI kaise? zraddhA kAna se nahIM hotI, zraddhA AMkha se hotI hai| zraddhA hai| aura tumane agara sunakara mAna liyA to tuma dhokhe meM isalie zraddhAna kA dUsarA nAma mahAvIra 'darzana' kahate haiN| par3a gye| tumhAre lie vaha vizvAsa hogaa| cUMki mere lie zraddhA zraddhAna aura darzana mahAvIra kI bhASA meM paryAyavAcI haiM; eka hI hai, isalie tumhAre lie zraddhA na ho jaayegii| jaisA maiMne dekhA, artha rakhate haiM, unameM jarA bhI pharka nahIM hai| tuma bhI dekho| isalie tuma kahate ho, Izvara meM hamArI zraddhA hai| dekhA? to maiM tumheM zraddhA nahIM de sakatA; maiM tumheM sirpha kucha izAre de anubhava kiyA? sparza huA? jIye usameM? tumhArA hRdaya sakatA hUM, jinase tuma bhI AMkha kholo aura dekho| jaba tuma dekha usake sAtha dhar3akA? tuma nAce usake sAtha? koI pahacAna hai? loge tabhI zraddhA hogii| phira tumhAre dekhe ko koI chIna na nahIM, tuma kahate ho mAnyatA hai| aura loga kahate haiM, bar3e bujurga skegaa| kyoMki dekhate hI hRdaya meM virAjamAna ho jAtA hai| kahate haiM, sanAtana se calI AyI bAta, paraMparA meM hai| lekina isalie mahAvIra ne zrutiyoM ko, smRtiyoM ko, sabhI ko inakAra isase zraddhA paidA na hogii| yaha tumhArA vizvAsa hai, zraddhA nhiiN| kara diyA; veda ko inakAra kara diyaa| yaha zabda vicAraNIya hai| vizvAsa aura zraddhA kA bheda yahI hai| vizvAsa udhAra; zraddhA hiMdU kahate haiM, veda upaniSada zrutiyAM haiN| sunA aisA hamane; aisA apnii| zraddhA hotI hai nija kI, vizvAsa aisA hai jaise bAjAra se sadapuruSoM ne kahA; aisA jo jAge, unakA bodha hai-zruti! phira kharIda lAe kAgaja yA plAsTika ke phUla aura ghara ko sajA hamane use yAda rakhA; sadiyoM sadiyoM taka samhAlA dharohara kI liyaa| zraddhA aise hai jaise bIja boyA, vRkSa ko samhAlA, pAnI taraha-smRti! sabhI zAstra pahale zruti banate, phira smRti bana diyA, khAda dI-phira eka dina phUla Aye aura havAeM sugaMdha se jaate| mahAvIra ne kahA, na zruti na smRti-shrddhaa| bhara gyiiN| zAstra ko tumheM svayaM hI nirmita karanA hogaa| tumhArA zAstra zraddhA ke phUla tumhAre jIvana meM lagate haiM--udhAra aura bAse tumheM janma denA hogaa| aise goda lie zAstra kAma na pdd'eNge| nahIM; kisI aura se nahIM; mAMge hue nhiiN| pharka dekhA! eka strI mAM banatI hai-goda lekara mAM bana jAtI vizvAsa bar3A sastA hai| itane saste tuma satya ko na pA hai| aisA mAM banane kA dhokhA detI hai| na to garbha rahA, na garbha kI skoge| satya jo sarvopari hai, use tuma vizvAsa se na pA pIr3A sahI, na nau mahIne ke laMbe kaSTa bhoge, na vamana haA, na darda skoge| udhAra kaba kisane satya ko jAnA hai| uThA, na mitalI AyI, na bojha sahA, phira prasava kI pIr3A bhI na upaniSada kahate haiM : satyam paraM, paraM satyam; satya sarvotkRSTa hai sahI, ki jaise prANa saMkaTa meM par3e, ki baceMge ki na bceNge|...us ajJAta jIvana ke lie jo peTa meM hai apane jJAta kaise pA sakoge? apane ko dAMva para lagAnA hogaa| isalie maiM | jIvana ko dAMva para lagAyA--usa anajAna ke lie jo abhI kahatA hUM, dukAnadAra satya taka nahIM pahuMcate; juArI pahuMcate haiN| AyA nahIM; kauna hai, kaisA hai, kucha patA nahIM hai; jo jJAta hai, kyoMki satya kI pahalI zarta yaha hai: apane ko gaMvAo to paricita hai, pahacAnA hai, usako khatare meM DAlA; apane prANa milegA; dAMva para lagAo to milegaa| yaha bilakula jue jaisA jokhima meM ddaale| hai| milegA ki nahIM, yaha pakkA nahIM hai| tuma to gaMvA doge apane to eka to mAM banatI hai garbha ko dhAraNa krke| phira hoziyAra ko, taba milegaa| gaMvAne ke pahale koI sunizcita nahIM kara loga haiN| ve kahate haiM, 'itanI parezAnI meM kyA par3anA! bacce to sakatA ki milegA hii| goda bhI lie jA sakate haiN|' goda le lo| lekina goda lene meM isalie dukAnadAra, gaNita, tarka biThAnevAle loga vizvAsa se aura garbha lene meM bar3A pharka hai| kAmacalAU mAM paidA ho jAyegI. 538
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________________ ni, jJAna, caritra-aura mAkSa lekina asalI mAM paidA na hogii| kyoMki asalI mAM to tabhI paidA citta kI mAlUma pdd'egii| jiddii| haThAgrahI! ekAMtavAdI! hotI hai jaba baccA paidA hotA hai| samajhadAra AdamI to samajhautAvAdI hotA hai| buddhimAna to sabhI jaba baccA paidA hotA hai to do cIjoM kA janma hotA hai-bacce | samajhautAvAdI hote haiN| ve kahate haiM, jahAM pUrA na milatA ho vahAM kA aura mAM kaa| eka tarapha baccA paidA hotA hai, dUsarI tarapha mAM | AdhA le lo| to manovaijJAnika usa strI ko-jo kahegI ki paidA hotI hai| abhI kala taka jo eka sAdhAraNa strI thI, ThIka hai, maiM AdhA lene ko rAjI hUM-kahegA svastha hai, nArmala acAnaka mAM bana jAtI hai| bacce ko tumane goda meM le liyA to | hai| aura yaha strI to AbsaisDa hai, jo kahatI hai pUrA lUMgI, nahIM to baccA to kabhI paidA nahIM huA; tumase to paidA nahIM huaa| to mAM pUrA de dUMgI, yaha to pAgalapana se bharI hai| banane kA dhokhA paidA hotA hai| to usa manovaijJAnika ne kahA hai, agara Aja yaha ghaTanA ghaTe to vizvAsa aisA hI hai-goda liyA huA sty| zraddhAna, zraddhA amarIkA kI adAlata baccA usako de degI jo AdhA lene ko aise hai-janma diyA huA sty| aura koI dUsarA tumhAre satya rAjI thI, kyoMki vaha pAgala nahIM hai| tarkayukta hai usakA uttara, ko kaise janma de sakegA! vicArapUrNa hai| yaha kauna-sI samajhadArI hai ki agara pUrA na bar3I purAnI kahAnI hai solomana ke jIvana meN| do striyAM milatA ho to AdhA bhI chor3a do| jitanA milatA ho utanA to le solomana kI adAlata meM aayiiN| ve donoM dAvA kara rahI thIM eka lo! madhyamArga cuno| ati para to mata jAo! hI bacce kA ki vaha usakI mAM hai| bar3I kaThinAI thii| kaise taya jo loga buddhi se calate haiM, ve hoziyArI se calate haiN| jo kiyA jAye? solomana ne kahA, ThIka hai| eka-eka ko pAsa | zraddhAna se calate haiM, ve dIvAne hote haiN| isalie to buddhi ke lie bulAyA aura kAna meM kahA ki suna, taya karanA to muzkila ho rahA prema sadA aMdhA mAlUma hotA hai| buddhi kahatI hai, thor3A soco, hai| koI gavAha nahIM, koI cazmadIda gavAha nahIM hai| to ucita samajho, vicAro, hisAba bitthaao| yahI hai ki AdhA-AdhA baccA bAMTa dete haiN| to jisakA baccA | mahAvIra kaha rahe haiM ki jJAna se to manuSya kevala jAnatA hai| thA vaha to cIkha mArakara ro utthii| usane kahA ki nahIM, aisA mata jAnanA yAnI paricaya baahr-baahr| hRdaya taka bidhatI nahIM karanA; phira pUrA hI use de do| lekina jisakA baccA nahIM thA, baat| zraddhA se, darzana se bidhatI hai hRdaya taka-roeM-roeM meM usane kahA ki ThIka hai, nyAyayukta hai, tarkayukta samA jAtI hai; zvAsa-zvAsa meM praviSTa ho jAtI hai| isalie tuma hai-AdhA-AdhA bAMTa do| jo cIkha uThI thii| aura jisane jJAna ko pakar3akara mata baiThe raha jaanaa|...naannenn jANaI tarka kA sahArA na liyA thA, hRdaya kA sahArA liyA thA, usane bhAve-jJAna se to basa jAnanA mAtra hotA hai| 'ekveNttens'| kahA ki nahIM-nahIM, phira use hI de do; merA nahIM hai, usI kA hai| | aisA paricaya bana jAtA hai| solomana ne usI ko beTA de diyaa| hRdaya ne gavAhI de dI, | __ jaise tumane himAlaya ke saMbaMdha meM kucha bAteM bhUgola kI kitAba kisakA hai! meM par3hI haiM--kyA yaha jAnanA vahI hai jo usake lie pragaTa hotA yaha to kahAnI purAnI ho gyii| | hai, jisane himAlaya ke darzana kie, jisakI AMkhoM ne himAlaya eka manovaijJAnika kA jIvana meM par3ha rahA thaa| usane isa kahAnI | kI zItalatA ko pIyA, jisakI AMkhoM ne himAlaya ke sauMdarya ko ke bAbata carcA kI hai| aura usane likhA hai agara Aja amarIkA apane meM praviSTa hone diyA, jo himAlaya kI ghATiyoM aura kI kisI adAlata meM yaha mAmalA Aye aura jaja taya na kara zikharoM para ghUmA, jisane himAlaya kA sparza kiyA? kyA yaha pAye, to vaha manovaijJAnika ko bulaayegaa| kyoMki aba to jAnanA vahI hai jo bhUgola kI kitAba se mila jAtA hai? bhUgola amarIkA meM manovaijJAnika se pUchA jAtA hai ki kyA karanA, ye kI kitAba meM to kore kAgajoM para syAhI ke kAle cihna haiM aura donoM striyAM dAvA karatI haiM, inameM kauna jhUThI hai? aura kucha bhI nhiiN| kahAM ve svarNa-zikhara! kahAM ve barpha se DhaMke hue manovaijJAnika solomana kI tarakIba kA upayoga kareM, to jo strI zItala achUte, kuMvAre loka! kahe, ki 'lUMgI to pUrA, nahIM to pUrA de dUMgI', vaha thor3A rugNa AMkheM-AMkheM hI kevala satya ko dekha skeNgii| kahI-sunI 539
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________________ jina sUtra bhAgaH1 para bahuta dhyAna mata denaa| dekhA-dekhI bAta! dekho to hI kucha jAnanA hai? vivekAnaMda jhijhake! 'abhI jAnanA hai ki thor3I dera bAta huii| likhA-likhI kI hai nahIM, dekhA-dekhI baat| rukoge?' vivekAnaMda ne kahA, maiMne socA nhiiN| yaha to maiMne nANeNa jANaI bhAve, daMsaNeNa ya sddhe| socA hI na thA ki koI isa taraha pUchegA jaise ki pAsa ke kamare meM 'darzana se hI zraddhA utpanna hotI hai|' hai Izvara, daravAjA kholA ki dikhA deMge! zraddhA kA artha hai, jur3a gaye tAra tumhAre hRdaya se; bAta buddhi kI rAmakRSNa ne kahA, usa kamare se bhI pAsa hai| tumhAre bhItara hai! na rahI; bAta kevala mata na rahI, 'opiniyana' na rhii| aba | mere bhItara hai! tuma kaho to maiM dikhA dN| aura tamane abhI taiyArI na aisA nahIM ki aisA hama socate haiM-aisA hai| zraddhA kA artha kI ho to socakara A jaanaa|| huA : aisA hai| aisA nahIM ki hama socate haiM; aisA nahIM ki aura aura isake pahale ki vivekAnaMda kucha kaheM-rAmakRSNa to thor3e loga kahate haiM; aisA nahIM ki jAnanevAloM ne kahA hai; aisA nahIM pAgala-se AdamI the-unhoMne vivekAnaMda kI chAtI para paira lagA ki hamane sunA hai-aisA hai| diyaa| vivekAnaMda dhar3Ama se gira pdd'e| behoza ho gye| ghaMTebhara vivekAnaMda paramAtmA kI khoja meM bhaTakate the| aneka guruoM ke bAda jaba hoza meM Aye to kaMpa rahe the patte kI taraha tUphAna meM! rone pAsa gye| pUchA, Izvara hai? vivekAnaMda kI niSThA aura lge| kyoMki jo dikhAyA, jo pratIti huI usa ghar3I meM, usane vivekAnaMda kI jalatI huI khoja! jisase pUchate vaha ghabar3A | sArA, sArA jIvana badala diyaa| phira rAmakRSNa se bahuta bhAgane jaataa| ve balazAlI vyakti the| ve aise pUchate ki agara uttara kI koziza kI, bahuta bhAgane kI koziza kI, saba upAya ThIka na milA to zAyada car3ha par3eMge, zAyada gardana dabA deNge| kie-lekina bhAga na ske| isa AdamI ne vivekAnaMda kI rAmakRSNa ke pAsa bhI gye| auroM ne Izvara ke bAbata carcA kI | AMkheM kisI tarapha khola diiN| thii| usameM kaI bar3e-bar3e loga the| usameM ravIMdranAtha ke dAdA the; aba yaha savAla jJAna kA na rhaa| isako mahAvIra zraddhAna kahate ve maharSi samajhe jAte the| unake pAsa bhI vivekAnaMda pahuMca gaye haiN| zraddhA huii| yaha gaira par3hA-likhA AdamI rAmakRSNa, maharSi the| ve eka bajare meM rahate the nAva meN| AdhI rAta tairakara nAva meM deveMdranAtha ko harA diyaa| ve bar3e jJAnI the, bar3e paMDita the, car3ha ge| pUrI nAva kaMpa gyii| ve dhyAna kara rahe the aNdr| brahma-samAja ke janmadAtAoM meM eka the| lekina zruti thI, smRti daravAjA dhakkA dekara tor3a diyaa| bhItara pahuMca gaye pAgala kI thI-zraddhAna na thaa| trh| AdhI rAta! pAnI meM sarobora! pUchA, 'kyA bAta hai| mahAvIra kahate haiM, jJAna se jAnA jAtA hai; darzana se zraddhA hotI yuvaka! kaise Aye?' to vivekAnaMda ne kahA, 'Izvara hai?' to hai| aura jaba zraddhA hotI hai to caritra kA janma hotA hai| kyoMki unhoMne kahA, 'baiTho maiM tumheM smjhaauuNgaa|' vivekAnaMda ne kahA, jisa para zraddhA hI nahIM hai vaha tumhAre caritra meM kabhI na utara 'maiM samajhane nahIM aayaa| maiM yaha jAnanA cAhatA hUM, Izvara hai? | skegaa| utAra loge to pAkhaMDa hogaa| Upara-Upara hogaa| kisI aisA tumheM anubhava huA hai?' aura ko dikhAne ko hogaa| aMtartama meM tuma viparIta rahoge, bhinna jhijhake maharSi! vivekAnaMda chalAMga lagAkara nadI meM kUda gye| rhoge| bAhara ke daravAje se eka, bhItara ke daravAje se dUsare bulAyA ki 'suno, Aye...cale?' vivekAnaMda ne kahA, jhijhaka rhoge| kahoge kucha, karoge kuch| vaha tumhAre caritra meM na A ne saba kaha diyaa| samajhane meM AyA nahIM, jAnane meM AyA nhiiN| skegaa| caritra meM to koI bAta tabhI AtI hai jaba zraddhA kI bhUmi maiM to yaha pUchane AyA hUM ki tumane dekhA hai? maiM kisI aise meM bIja par3atA hai| AdamI kI talAza meM hai, jisakA hAtha Izvara ke hAtha meM ho| jIsasa ne kahA hai, kisAna bIja pheMkatA hai| kucha rAste para par3a zAstra to maiM bhI par3ha luuNgaa| zAstra hI samajhanA ho to tamase kyA jAte haiM, jahAM patharIlI jagaha hai: kabhI ugate. samajheMge, khuda hI par3ha leNge| kinAre par3a jAte haiM, jahAM jamIna to ThIka hai, lekina loga gujarate phira rAmakRSNa ke pAsa bhI vahI savAla kiyA thA, ki Izvara haiM, pairoM meM daba jAte haiM: uga bhI Ate haiM to mara jAte haiN| kacha usa | hai ? to rAmakRSNa ne kyA uttara diyA? rAmakRSNa ne kahA, tumheM bhUmi meM par3ate haiM, gIlI, komala-jahAM paidA bhI hote haiM, surakSita 5401
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________________ / darzana, jJAna, caritra-aura mokSa bhI raha jAte haiN| asatya giratA hai; satya to-jo zeSa raha jAtA hai, asatya ke to jaba taka koI jJAna tumhArI zraddhA na bana jAye, jaba taka hRdaya gira jAne para jo zeSa raha jAtA hai, tumhArA svabhAva, vahI satya hai| kI bhUmi meM koI bIja na par3e, jaba taka tumhArI dRSTi meM koI bAta isalie mahAvIra kahate haiM, caritra se sirpha nirodha hotA hai, satya kI taraha anubhava meM na A jAye taba taka cAritrya kA, nakAra hotA hai, vyartha chUTa jAtA hai| sArthaka to hai hI bhItara, vyartha caritra kA, AcaraNa kA koI rUpAMtaraNa nahIM hotaa| hAM, tuma se jur3a gayA hai| sArthaka ko lAnA nahIM hai| Ayojana karake, ceSTA karake rUpAMtaraNa kara sakate ho| bahutoM ne yahI kiyA hai| nimaMtraNa dekara, abhyAsa karake lAnA nahIM hai sirpha vyartha ko jJAna se sIdhA caritra nirmita kiyA jA sakatA hai lekina vahI dekha lenA hai| vyartha ko vyartha kI taraha dekha lenA paryApta hai| vyartha caritra pAkhaMDI, hipokreTa kA caritra hai| jo jJAna se sIdhA caritra vyartha kI taraha dikhA ki hAtha se chUTA, giraa| phira tuma use dubArA para calA gayA, vaha apane Upara eka taraha kA AropaNa kara na uThA skoge| aura tuma jo usake binA raha jAoge, vahI satya legaa| vaha satya bolegA, lekina jhUTha se usakI mukti na hogii| hai, vahI svabhAva hai| vaha tuma sadA se the| jhUTha bhItara-bhItara ubalegA, satya Upara-Upara thopegaa| vaha isakA artha yaha huA ki tuma ThIka to ho hI, kucha galata se ahiMsaka ho jAyegA, lekina hiMsA bhItara dAvAnala kI taraha tumhArA saMbaMdha jur3a gayA hai| ThIka honA to sadA se hI hai; galata jalatI rhegii| vaha brahmacarya kA vrata le legA, lekina kAmavAsanA se saMbaMdha jur3a gayA hai| galata se saMbaMdha chUTa jAye, tuma ThIka to the roeM-roeM meM maujUda rhegii| usake vrata Upara-Upara hoMge; jaise hii| aisA nahIM hai ki tuma galata ho gae ho aura tumheM ThIka honA vastra haiM aise hoMge; haDDI, mAMsa, majjA na bneNge| hai; aisA hI hai ki sone ke Upara miTTI kI taha baiTha gayI, dhUla jama jaba jJAna zraddhA ke mAdhyama se gujarakara caritra taka pahuMcatA hai, gayI, darpaNa ke Upara dhUla baiTha gayI-basa dhUla ko haTA denA hai, taba samyaka cAritrya paidA hotA hai| poMcha denA hai; darpaNa to darpaNa hai hii| dhUla ke bhItara zuddha darpaNa caritra se, jo vyartha hai usakA nirodha ho jAtA hai| caritra kA maujUda hai| dhUla ne darpaNa ko kharAba thor3e hI kiyA hai! dhUla se itanA hI artha hai| mahAvIra ke hisAba se caritra kA artha hai : vyartha darpaNa naSTa thor3e hI huA hai ! DhaMka gayA hai-ughAr3anA hai| kA nirodh| ise khayAla meM lenA, kyoMki mahAvIra kii| isalie mahAvIra ke lie AtmA eka AviSkAra hai| sirpha nakArAtmaka dRSTi kA buniyAdI hissA hai| mahAvIra yaha nahIM | ughAr3anA hai| jaise rAkha meM aMgArA chipA ho-phUMka mArI, rAkha kahate ki tumheM brahmacarya Aropita karanA hai| brahmacarya to AtmA gira gayI, aMgArA raha gyaa| aise hI dRSTi kI phUMka jaba laga jAtI kA svabhAva hai; Aropita karanA nhiiN| Aropita to isalie hai, rAkha jhar3a jAtI hai; jo zeSa raha jAtA hai, vahI caritra hai| karanA par3atA hai ki zraddhA se kabhI vAsanA kA satya, vAsanA kI 'caritra se nirodha hotA hai aura tapa se vizuddhi hotI hai|' vyarthatA tumheM dikhAyI nahIM pdd'ii| sunA kisI ko, brahmacarya kI | tapa kA maiMne tumheM kala artha kahA, vaha khayAla rkhnaa| tapa kA bAteM madhura lagI, tumhAre anubhava se bhI thor3I mela khAtI lgiiN| artha hai : jo dukha AyeM unheM cupacApa, binA nA-nuca kiye, binA jIvana ke dukha se bhI tuma Uba gaye ho, parezAna ho gaye ho| to asvIkAra kie svIkAra kara lenaa| lagA ki ThIka hI hai, ucita hI hai| aisA ucita mAnakara tumane tapa kA bhI artha itanA hI hai ki pichale-pichale janmoM meM, dUra brahmacarya AropaNa karanA zurU kiyaa| to brahmacarya ko vidhAyaka kI laMbI yAtrA meM, hamane jo dukha ke bIja boe the unake phala paka rUpa se Aropita karanA hogA, pAjiTiva rUpa se Aropita karanA gaye haiN| unheM kauna bhogegA? unheM bhoganA hI hogaa| to jise hogaa| tumheM ceSTA karake brahmacArI bananA hogaa| bhoganA hI hai, use dukha se bhoganA galata hai| jise bhoganA hI hai mahAvIra kA kahanA yaha hai, agara tumheM dikhAyI par3a gayA ki use sahaja svabhAva se, saralatA se, zAMti se bhoga lenA ucita vAsanA vyartha hai to brahmacarya Aropita nahIM karanA par3atA; vAsanA hai| kyoMki agara tumane use dukha se bhogA to tumane phira dukha ke gira jAtI hai, jo zeSa raha jAtA hai vahI brhmcry| isa bheda ko bIja boye| tumane pratikriyA kii| tuma kahate rahe ki cAhatA nahIM khUba gaharAI se samajha lenaa| thA, yaha kyA ho rahA hai? inakAra karate rhe| to tumane cAha kI
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________________ jina sUtra bhAgaH phira pradarzanA kii| tumhArI cAha bhItara banI hI rhii| tuma sukha __ abhI pazcima meM vaijJAnika kahate haiM, jaldI hI TesTa-TyUba meM cAhate the aura dukha mila rahA hai to tuma nArAja rahe, tuma krodhita bacce hone lageMge, tAki striyoM ko itanI jhaMjhaTa na uThAnI pdd'e| rhe| dukha to bhoganA hI pdd'aa| lekina ye krodha aura nArAjagI ke yaha hogaa| yaha bIsa varSoM ke bhItara hogaa| yaha tumhAre sAmane naye bIja bo liye| inakA dukha phira bhoganA pdd'egaa| hogaa| kyoMki striyoM ko eka bAra patA ho gayA ki bacce mahAvIra kahate haiM, tuma cupacApa, binA koI pratikriyA kiye, | | TesTa-TyUba meM paidA ho sakate haiM, to jaise hI mAM ke peTa meM dukha Aye to use bhoga lo| jaise darpaNa ke sAmane suMdara vyakti | garbhAdhAraNa hogA, usake aMDe ko nikAlakara TesTa-TyUba meM rakha A jAye ki kurUpa vyakti A jAye, darpaNa koI inakAra nahIM | diyA jaayegaa| phira vaijJAnika usakI phikra kara leMge aspatAla karatA, donoM ko jhalakA detA hai| phira donoM cale jAte haiM, darpaNa meN| yaha mAM ko nau mahIne kI upadrava, parezAnI, kaThinAI, pIr3A khAlI raha jAtA hai| to mahAvIra kahate haiM, sukha Aye to pakar3anA yaha saba baca jaayegii| yaha saba to baca jAyegI, lekina mAM bhI mata, dukha Aye to dhakAnA mt| sukha Aye to samajhanA, kiye | paidA na hogii| hue puNya-karmoM kA phala hai| dukha Aye to samajhanA ki kiye hue jarA soco! tumhArA baccA TesTa-TyUba meM paidA huA, to vaha pApa-karmoM kA phala hai| niSpakSa, taTastha darpaNa kI bhAMti khar3e tumhArA hai yA kisI dUsare kA hai, kyA pharka par3atA hai? rahanA : donoM Aye haiM, donoM cale jaayeNge| jo AtA hai vaha jAne TesTa-TyUba agara badala gayI ho bhUla-cUka se klarkoM kI, to ko hI AtA hai| jo AyA hai vaha jAne ke rAste para hI hai| subaha tumheM kabhI patA bhI na calegA ki tumhArA hai yA kisI aura kA hai! ho gayI, sAMjha ho jaayegii| sAMjha ho gayI, subaha ho jaayegii| bheda hI kyA hai? sUraja UgA, sUryAsta hone lgaa| isalie ghabar3AnA mt| tuma phira gaNita kA aise vistAra hotA hai| phira vaijJAnika kahate haiM sirpha cupacApa khar3e rhnaa| tumhArI dRSTi korI rahe, darpaNa kI taraha ki jarUrI kyoM ho ki tumhAre hI vIryANu se tumhArA baccA paidA rahe--binA kisI pakSapAta ke, binA kisI vikalpa ke| koI | ho| acche vIryANu mila sakate haiN| yaha bAta saca hai| AdamI dhAraNA mata bnaanaa| isa avasthA kA nAma tapa hai| jaba bIja botA hai, khetI karatA hai, phUla lagAtA hai, to acche se tapa se AdamI zuddha hotA hai| kyoM? kyoMki tapa se jo atIta acche bIja cunatA hai| tuma apanA baccA paidA karanA cAhate ho, hai, usase chuTakArA ho jAtA hai| atIta hai azuddhi...atIta se | acche se acche bIja cuno| tumase behatara bIja mila sakate haiN| chuTakArA hai vishuddhi| atIta se dabe rahanA hai ashuddhi| to jaldI hI, Aja nahIM kala jaise phUloM kI dukAnoM para bIja kacarA, kUr3A-karkaTa na-mAlUma kitane janmoM kA chAtI para rakhe paikeTa meM milate haiM, vaise Aja nahIM kala vaijJAnika baccoM ke hama baiThe haiM! yaha hai ashuddhi| isase chuTakArA pA jAnA hai shuddhi| vIryANu paikeToM meM becane lgeNge| usakI pUrI yojanAeM taiyAra haiN| aura jaise hI koI zuddha huA, vaise hI mahAvIra kahate haiM: jo hai, itanA hI nahIM, jaise phUla ke paikeTa para phUla kI tasvIra banI hotI hamArA svarUpa, svabhAva, usakI chavi ubharane lagatI hai; usakA hai ki kaisA phUla hogA jaba phUla hogA, bacce kI tasvIra bhI banI rUpa spaSTa hone lagatA hai| aura eka se dUsarI cIja jur3I hai| hogI ki kaisA baccA hogaa| to tuma cunAva kara sakate ho : kaisI lekina zuruAta zraddhA se| AMkha cAhie, kaise bAla cAhie, kaisA ceharA cAhie, kitanI darzana, jJAna, caritra-inako mahAvIra ne mokSa kA mArga kahA | UMcAI cAhie, lar3akA cAhie, lar3akI cAhie, vaijJAnika, hai| jIvana bar3A saMyukta hai : bIja se paudhA, paudhe se vRkSa, vRkSa meM | kavi-tuma kyA cAhate ho? lekina taba eka bAta pakkI hai: phaloM kA laga jAnA, phUloM kA laga jaanaa| saba ThIka ho jAyegA; baccA tumhArA nahIM hogaa| mAM banane se, kahIM bIca se zurU mata karanA! prAraMbha se hI prAraMbha krnaa| pitA banane se, tuma vaMcita raha jaaoge| bahuta loga jaldabAjI meM hote haiN| ve socate haiM, 'phUla to bAjAra yaha honevAlA hai, kyoMki AdamI takalIphoM se bahuta Darane lagA meM mila jAte haiN| kyoM itanI parezAnI uThAnI? kyoM itanI jhaMjhaTa hai| to jahAM-jahAM suvidhA mile, saba svIkAra kara letA hai| lenI? jo saste meM mila jAtA hai, vaha saste meM le liyA jaaye|' agara suvidhA ke kAraNa jIvana bhI gaMvA de to bhI harja nahIM, 542/
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________________ MRITARAMIN darzana, jJAna, caritra-aura mokSa - lekina suvidhA caahie| phira thor3I dera bAda aayaa| use dekhakara hI vaha kaipTana thor3A tapa kA artha hai : jIvana saMgharSoM se gujaratA hai, tUphAna bhI Ate parezAna hone lgaa| usane kahA ki 'phira A gae! aba kyA haiM, kaThinAiyAM bhI haiM..-unako svIkAra krnaa| unako zAMta bhAva mAmalA hai?' to mullA ne kahA, 'aura saba to ThIka-ThAka hai? se svIkAra kara lenA, to tumhAre jIvana meM dhIre-dhIre zuddhi aura koI gar3abar3a to nahIM hai ?' usa kaipTana ne kahA ki isase nikhregii| AtmA pragAr3ha hogii| tuma keMdrita banoge, AtmavAna tumheM matalaba kyA hai ? mullA ne kahA, 'matalaba? phira bIca meM bnoge| aura eka se dUsarI cIja jur3I hai| zraddhA se zurU krnaa| mata kahanA, jaba ruka jAye ki utarakara dhakke lagAo!' hRdaya se zurU krnaa| kyoMki vahIM tumhAre prANoM kA prANa chipA basa meM baiThane ke AdI! AdamI dUdha se jala jAye to chAcha bhI hai| vahI tumhArA maMdira hai| aura phira jJAna apane-Apa calA phUMka-phUMkakara pIne lagatA hai| tumheM dikhAyI par3e, Aga jalAtI AtA hai| hai, anubhava meM A jaaye...| AyA hI thA khayAla ki AMkheM chalaka par3IM to tumane khayAla kiyA hai| agara kahIM thiyeTara meM baiThe ho aura AMsU kisI kI yAda se kitane karIba the| loga itanA hI cillA deM, 'Aga!' ki bhagadar3a maca jAtI hai| AyA hI thA khayAla kI AMkheM chalaka par3I! khayAla hI uThatA | kisI ko Aga dikhAyI nahIM par3a rahI hai, kisI ne ho sakatA hai hai, yAda hI AtI hai ki AMkhoM meM AMsU bhara jAte haiN| majAka hI kI ho; lekina loga itanA hI cillA deM, 'Aga!' AMsU kisI kI yAda se kitane karIba the| jaise yAda ke karIba ki bhagadar3a maca jAtI hai| phira tuma lAkha samajhAo ki ruko, AMsU haiM aura hRdaya meM kisI kI yAda uThI to AMkheM DabaDabA koI sunanevAlA nahIM hai| Aga zabda bhI ghabar3A detA hai| jIvaMta AtI haiM-aisA hI, jahAM darzana ghaTA, vahAM jJAna ghaTatA hai| bahuta anubhava kA itanA pariNAma hai! karIba hai jJAna darzana ke| aura jahAM jJAna ghaTA, vahAM cAritrya ghaTanA | to agara vAsanA jalA de to vAsanA kI to bAta dUra, vAsanA zurU ho jAtA hai| agara eka hI bAta sadha jAye-darzana-to | | zabda bhI tuma hAtha meM na le skoge| agara kAmavAsanA ne tumhAre saba sadha jAtA hai| jIvana ko dagdha kiyA aura ghAva banA diye to kAmavAsanA kI to mahAvIra ne tIna kI bAteM kahIM, tAki tumheM pUrA vizleSaNa sApha dUra, kAmavAsanA kI jahAM carcA bhI hotI hai vahAM tuma na baiTha ho jAye; anyathA darzana kahane se bhI kAma cala jaataa| jaba tumheM skoge| koI artha na rhaa| vyartha ke lie kauna baiThatA hai! aura jAtA hai ki daravAjA kahAM hai, to phira tuma dIvAla se vyartha kI hI bAta nahIM, jale jIvana ke dukhada anubhava hue, ghAva nahIM niklte| aura jaba tumheM dikhAyI par3a jAtA hai ki Aga hAtha bane-kauna ghAvoM ko mAMgane jAtA hai! ko jalA detI hai, anubhava meM A jAtA hai, to phira tuma hAtha Aga lekina tuma sunate ho brahmacarya kI carcA, lobha paidA hotA hai| meM nahIM ddaalte| Aga kI to bAta dUra, Aga kI tasvIra bhI rakhI vAsanA kI Aga abhI dikhAI nahIM par3I aura brahmacarya kI carcA se ho to tuma jarA bacakara calate ho| | lobha jagane lagatA hai-isase ar3acana khar3I hotI hai| isase maiMne sunA hai, mullA nasaruddIna pahalI daphA samudra kI yAtrA para | jIvana meM eka bhrAMti AtI hai|| gyaa| isake pahale kabhI samudra kI yAtrA na kI thI, jahAja meM | mahAvIra kahate haiM, zurU karanA darzana se| darzana, jJAna, baiThA na thaa| basa ke alAvA aura kisI vAhana meM baiThA hI na thaa| caritra-yaha samyaka saraNi hai| aura jIvana ko agara ThIka se jahAja meM thor3I dera baitthaa| uThA, kaipTana ke kamare meM jAkara bolA, pahacAnanA ho to jIvana ko pratipala jAgakara dekhate rhnaa| usake 'peTrola-veTrola to bhara liyA hai?' to usane kahA, 'saba bhara atirikta koI upAya nahIM hai| jo bhI hai-agara krodha ho rahA hai liyA hai, tuma phikra na kro| baiTho apanI jagaha para!' thor3I dera to krodha ko jAgakara dekhanA-vahI darzana bnegaa| karuNA kA baiThA rahA, phira uThakara pahuMcA, aura kahA, 'suno jI! zAstra mata par3hanA, krodha ko gaura se dekhanA : usI se karuNA kisI iMjina-viMjina to ThIka hai?' kaipTana thor3A jhllaayaa| usane dina paidA hogii| kahA ki saba ThIka hai, Apa apanI jagaha para baiThiye! lekina vaha maiM hakIkata-AznA hUM hastie-mohUma kA 543
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________________ 2. jina sUtra bhAgaH 11 dekhatA hUM gaura se phUloM ko murajhAne ke baad| 'aura mokSa ke binA AnaMda kahAM, nirvANa khaaN|' aise gaura se dekhane se kucha lAbha na hogaa| jaba natthi amokkhassa nivvaannN| phira dekhane se kucha sAra nhiiN| bar3e sIdhe-sarala, lekina bar3e vaijJAnika sUtra haiM! bur3hApe meM loga kAmavAsanA ke saMbaMdha meM vicAra zurU karate haiN| 'darzana ke binA jJAna nhiiN|' jaba phUla murjha gae, jaba jIvana meM UrjA kho gayI, jaba thaka gaye, isalie aura kaisA bhI jJAna tumane ikaTThA kiyA ho, use jJAna jaba jIvana javAba dene lagA, jaba jiMdagI khuda hI unheM chor3ane | mata smjhnaa| aura kitanA hI jJAna tumhAre pAsa ho, use tuma lagI aura raddI ke Dhera para pheMkane lagI-taba ve tyAgane kI bAta ajJAna kA AbhUSaNa hI samajhanA; usase ajJAna hI saja gayA hai, socate haiN| saMvara gayA hai, jJAna paidA nahIM huaa| usase ajJAna DhaMka gayA hai, isalie mahAvIra ne eka bahuta anUThA sUtra bhArata ko jJAna paidA nahIM huaa| diyA-aura vaha thA: jaba tuma javAna ho, jaba jIvana kI UrjA | 'jJAna ke binA caritra nhiiN|' bharI-pUrI hai, tabhI agara tuma jIvana ke dukha ko dekha lo aura darzana, jJAna, critr| aura jJAna kI parIkSA yahI hai ki vaha usase chUTa jAo, bharI javAnI meM tyAga kA phala laga jAye, to | tumhAre AcaraNa meM utara aaye| bar3A zubha hai| kyoMki taba UrjA hai| to jisa UrjA se tuma saMsAra maiMne sunA hai, prasiddha zahIda caMdrazekhara AjAda ko tIna hI kI tarapha jAte the, vahI UrjA tumheM mokSa kI tarapha le jAne kA | gAliyAM AtI thiiN| aura jaba vaha bahuta krodha meM bhI A jAte to sAdhana bana jaayegii| UrjA to vahI hai| lekina jaba UrjA jA unhIM tIna gAliyoM ko bAra-bAra doharAne lgte| gadhA, cukI, thaka gaye, hAtha-paira kamajora par3a gaye, uThate nahIM banatA, nAlAyaka, ullU ke paTTe-basa tIna hI gAliyAM AtI thiiN| baiThate nahIM banatA-taba tuma tyAga kA socane lge| yaha tyAga na kisI mitra ne kahA ki agara tumheM gAliyAM dene meM aisA rasa AtA huA, yaha to apane ko dhokhA denA huaa| jiMdagI khuda hI tumheM / hai aura krodha ke vakta gAliyAM kama par3a jAtI haiM to aura kyoM nahIM tyAge de rahI hai| aba tumhAre tyAga kA koI artha nahIM hai| yaha to | sIkha lete? koI gAliyoM kI kamI hai?...ki gadhA, | aise hI haA ki jaba dAMta TaTa gaye taba tamane bahata-sI cIjeM khAne | nAlAyaka, ulla ke paTTe phira gadhA, nAlAyaka, ulla ke kA tyAga kara diyaa| aba tuma unheM khA hI nahIM skte| paDhe-bAra-bAra vahI doharAne lagate ho, acchA bhI nahIM mAlUma dhyAna rakhanA, jo bIta rahA hai abhI, Aja, yahAM, usake prati | hotA! jaise TUTA huA rikArDa doharAne lagatA hai| jAganA! darzana kI kSamatA ko vahAM sajaga krnaa| jaise-jaise to caMdrazekhara AjAda ne kahA, 'cauthI gAlI kI jarUrata nahIM darzana jAgatA jAyegA-krodha meM, kAma meM, lobha meM, moha hai|' koTa ke khIse se pistaula nikAlI aura kahA, 'gAlI, meM vaise-vaise tuma pAoge moha, kAma, krodha, lobha girane lage, phira golii| tIna gAlI kAphI haiN| phira isake bAda golii|' aura eka nayI UrjA kA bhItara AvirbhAva huaa| kyoMki jo kahA ki maiM isa sUtra ko mAnakara calatA hUM ki vicAra AcaraNa meM UrjA krodha meM lagI hai vahI mukta hokara karuNA bana jAtI hai| lAne caahie| to gAlI to kevala vicAra hai, golI AcaraNa hai| darzana ke mAdhyama se krodha karuNA bana jAtA hai| aura kAma kI magara majA yaha hai ki agara gAlI hai to golI apane-Apa A yAtrA rAma kI yAtrA bana jAtI hai| jaayegii| gAlI kaba taka dete rahoge? agara krodha hai to hiMsA paidA 'samyaka darzana ke binA jJAna nhiiN|' hogii| usase baca na skoge| kyoMki jisako hama vicAra meM nAMdasaNissa naannN| samhAlate haiM, vaha Aja nahIM kala AcaraNa meM jhalaka jAtA hai| 'jJAna ke binA cAritrya nhiiN|' kyoMki AcaraNa kucha bhI nahIM hai--niraMtara vicAra, parta-parta nANeNa viNA na haMti crnngunnaa| vicAra kA hI jama jAnA hai| vicAra hI to vastueM bana jAte haiN| 'caritraguNa ke binA mokSa nhiiN|' jo tumane socA hai, kala vahI tumhArA AcaraNa bana jaayegaa| jo aguNissa natyi mokkho tumhArA Aja vicAra hai vaha kala AcaraNa hogaa| aura jo Aja
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________________ darzana, jJAna, caritra-aura mokSa tumhArA AcaraNa hai vaha kala tumhArA vicAra thaa| bhI jyAdA jaldabAjI meM haiM, ve caritra se zurU kara dete haiN| jaba bhI vicAra aura AcaraNa eka hI yAtrA ke hisse haiN| vicAra pahalA tumheM khayAla uThatA hai, tuma socane lagate ho caritra ko kaise kadama hai; AcaraNa aNtim| agara koI vicAra AcaraNa na banatA | bdleN| tuma AkhirI bAta pahale lAnA cAhate ho? tuma bhrAMti meM ho to isa bAta kA eka hI artha hotA hai ki vaha vicAra tumhArA par3a rahe ho| tuma sira ke bala khar3e ho jaaoge| nahIM hai| isalie kaise AcaraNa bane? isalie maiM kahatA hUM, jaina muni sau meM ninyAnabe sira ke bala cikitsakoM se pUcho! agara tumhAre zarIra meM khUna kI kamI ho khar3e haiN| unhoMne caritra se zuruAta kara dii| aura mahAvIra ke bar3e jAye to hara kisI kA khUna tumhAre kAma na pdd'egaa| tumhArA hI | sIdhe-sApha sUtra haiN| inako samajhane ke lie koI bahuta buddhimattA TAipa caahie| matalaba huA ki tumhArA khUna hI tumhArA zarIra nahIM caahie| inameM ulajhAva kucha bhI nahIM hai| mahAvIra kI svIkAra karatA hai aura kisI taraha kA khUna svIkAra nahIM ulajhAne kI Adata nahIM hai; cIjoM ko bilakula sApha-sApha rakha krtaa| agara tumhAre cehare para plAsTika sarjana kucha Aparezana dene kI Adata hai| aba isase jyAdA sApha sUtra kyA hogA: kare aura camar3I badalanI ho to tumhAre hI paira yA jAMgha kI camar3I 'darzana ke binA jJAna nahIM! jJAna ke binA caritra nhiiN| caritra ke nikAlakara lagAnI par3atI hai| kyoMki dUsarI kisI kI camar3I binA mokSa nhiiN|' tumhArA zarIra svIkAra nahIM krtaa| | lekina jaina muni kyA kara rahA hai? vaha caritra ko sAdha rahA hai| jo zarIra ke saMbaMdha meM sahI hai vaha AtmA ke saMbaMdha meM aura bhI vaha kahatA hai, jaba caritra zuddha hogA to jJAna zuddha hogaa| jaba jyAdA sahI hai| tumhArA hI ho anubhava to hI tumhArI AtmA jJAna zuddha hogA to darzana zuddha hogaa| usane sArI prakriyA ulaTI kAra karatI hai, anyathA nahIM svIkAra krtii| tamhAre hI prANoM kara lI hai| vaha sira ke bala khar3A ho gayA hai| isalie na to meM pagA ho to hI tumhArI AtmA use apane bhItara letI hai, anyathA darzana utpanna hotA, na jJAna utpanna hotA, na caritra utpanna hotaa| bAhara pheMka detI hai| jaise hara kisI ke khUna ko tumhAre bhItara nahIM | saba bAsA hai| saba udhAra hai| saba murdA aura lAza kI bhAMti hai| DAlA jA sakatA aura jaise hara kisI kI camar3I tumhAre paira para yA / koI utsava nahIM hai satya kaa| koI paramAtmA kI jIvaMta anabhati tumhAre cehare para nahIM cipakAyI jA sakatI-zarIra to bAhara hai, | nahIM hai| AtmA to bahuta gahare hai, tumhArA AkhirI, AtyaMtika astitva 'kriyA-vihIna jJAna vyartha hai|' hayaM nANaM kiyaahiinnN| aura hai| vahAM to kevala tuma hI tuma ho| tumhArA hI jo hai, vahI vahAM ajJAniyoM kI kriyA bhI vyartha hai|' pAegA jagaha; zeSa saba asvIkRta ho jAtA hai| _ye sUtra bar3e bahumUlya haiM! isalie mahAvIra kahate haiM, samyaka darzana ke binA jJAna nhiiN| 'hayA aNNANao kiyaa|' jJAna ke binA cAritrya nhiiN| cAritrya ke binA mokSa nhiiN| __'kriyAvihIna jJAna vyartha hai|' agara aisA koI jJAna tumhAre aura jo abhI caritra meM zuddha nahIM huA, usakI mukti kahAM! pAsa hai jo jIvana meM Acarita nahIM ho rahA hai, apane-Apa jIvana kyoMki mokSa to jo galata hai usase chuTa jAne kA nAma hai, baMdhana ke meM utara nahIM rahA hai to vyartha hai, galata hai| aura agara tuma ajJAnI TUTa jAne kA nAma hai| ho aura kriyA meM laga gaye ho, caritra banAne meM laga gaye ho, to aura mokSa ke binA nirvANa kahAM, AnaMda kahAM? vaha bhI vyartha hai| to tuma agara dukhI ho to Akasmika nhiiN| tuma dukhI rahoge kriyAhIna jJAna to vyartha hai; kyoMki jAnate tuma ho, lekina hI, kyoMki AnaMda taka jAne kI tuma yAtrA nahIM kara rahe ho| aura jIvana meM kAma meM nahIM lAte ho| yaha to aise hI hai ki bhojana rakhA agara kabhI tuma utsuka bhI hote ho to tuma jaldabAjI meM ho, hai aura tuma bhUkhe baiThe ho| yaha bhojana vyartha hai| ho yA na ho, adhairya hai bhut| to tuma socate ho, do-cAra kadama eka sAtha uTha | barAbara hai| yaha sardI par3a rahI hai, kaMbala sAmane rakhe baiThe ho, jAyeM ki do-cAra sIr3hiyAM eka sAtha chalAMga laga jAyeM, ki jaldI or3hate nahIM ho--ki dhUpa nikalI hai, tuma sardI meM kaMpa rahe ho, kucha ho jaaye| kucha haiM jo jJAna se zurU karate haiN| kucha, jo aura | jAkara dhUpa meM nahIM baiTha jAte ho ki thor3A dhUpa kA AnaMda le lo 545/
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________________ jina sUtra bhAgaH1 4 aura zarIra ko garamA lo| yaha jJAna to vyartha hai jo AcaraNa meM na hUM, jaba taka tuma Dholapura meM na bola sako, taka taka tumhAre utara aaye| isa bhojana kA kyA karoge? bolapura meM bolane kA koI matalaba nahIM hai| zAMti to vahAM jIsasa ke jIvana meM ullekha hai ki jIsasa ne camatkAra kiyA ghanIbhUta honI cAhie jahAM cAroM tarapha azAMti hai| Dholapura! aura pattharoM ko roTI banA diyaa| eka IsAI mere pAsa AyA thaa| | bIca bAjAra meM agara tuma mukta na ho sako to tumhArI mukti do vaha kahane lagA, Apa isameM mAnate haiM yA nahIM? maiMne kahA, maiM | kauDI kI hai| agara himAlaya kI coTiyoM para baiThakara tuma mukta mAnatA hUM kyoMki isase bhI bar3A camatkAra dUsare loga kara rahe haiN| ho jAo to usa mukti kA koI mUlya nahIM hai| kyoMki utarate hI unhoMne roTiyoM ko patthara banA diyA hai! to yaha koI bar3I bAta pahAr3a se nIce tuma pAoge, vaha mukti pahAr3a para hI chUTa gyii| nahIM ki IsA ne agara patthara ko roTI banA diyA; yaha to maiM roja | bAjAra meM kharoMceM lgeNgii| dekha rahA hUM ki karor3oM-karor3oM logoM ne roTI ko patthara banA diyA | tuma apane muniyoM ko thor3A bAjAra meM lAo! vahAM patA cala hai| camatkAra to vahI hai| | jAyegA, kyoMki vahAM cAroM tarapha dhakkama-dhukkI hai| jJAna rakhA hai, kisI kAma nahIM AtA! tumane jJAna kA kabhI maiMne sunA hai, eka saMnyAsI tIsa varSa taka himAlaya meM rhaa| upayoga kiyA hai? tuma kara hI nahIM sakate upayoga, kyoMki vaha usakI khyAti dUra-dUra taka phaila gii| loga usakI pahAr3I guphA darzana se paidA nahIM huA hai| vaha tumhArA hai hI nhiiN| bhItara gahare taka Ane lage, usake caraNa chuune| Akhira kuMbha kA melA bharA mana meM tuma jAnate hI ho ki vaha ThIka nahIM hai| Upara-Upara se kahe thA, to logoM ne kahA, 'mahArAja! aba to nIce utro|' to jAte ho, ThIka hai| lokopacAra, samAja, paraMparA! usako bhI aba to bharosA A gayA thaa| tIsa sAla! eka daphA tumhArA jJAna eka ziSTAcAra mAtra hai| lekina bhItara tumheM usa krodha nahIM huaa| eka daphA nArAja nahIM huaa| eka daphA koI para bharosA nahIM hai| jisa para bharosA nahIM use tuma kaise jIvana meM vikRti nahIM utthii| usane kahA, AtA huuN| vaha aayaa| aba kuMbha utAroge? jisa bhojana para tumheM bharosA nahIM hai, use tuma kaise | kA melA! vahAM kauna kisakI phikra karatA hai! dhakkama-dhukkI! karoge? use tuma kaise pacAoge? use tuma kyoM cabAoge? vaha nIce utarA to dhakkama-dhukkI hone lgii| eka AdamI kA Upara se tuma kahate ho, bhojana hai; bhItara to tumheM dikhAyI par3atA paira usake paira para par3a gyaa| vaha bhUla hI gayA tIsa sAla kA hai patthara, miTTI hai| isalie jJAna par3A raha jAtA hai| himAlaya kA vAsa, zAMti, dhyAna! jhapaTakara usakI gardana pakar3a _ 'kriyAvihIna jJAna vyartha hai aura ajJAniyoM kI kriyA bhI vyartha lI aura kahA, 'tUne samajhA kyA hai ? kisake Upara paira rakha rahA hai|' aura agara ajJAnI caritravAna hone kI koziza meM laga jAye hai? hoza se cala!' lekina tabhI use khayAla AyA, are! tIsa to vaha bhI vyartha hai; kyoMki vaha kitanA hI Aropita kara le | sAla miTTI ho gaye! caritra, vaha kabhI usake prANoM kA spaMdana nahIM bnegaa| vaha usake para himAlaya meM tuma baiThe the, ekAMta meM, na kisI kA paira paira para jIvana kA gIta na hogaa| vaha basa Upara-Upara hogaa| jarA par3atA thA, na mauke the, na avasara the| kharoMca jarA-sI laga jAye, kharoMca do-aura asalI mavAda bAhara nikala aaegaa| muzkila meM par3a jaaoge| to tuma tathAkathita caritravAnoM ko kharoMcanA mata, anyathA sAdhu agara samyaka caritra ko upalabdha ho to bhagor3A nahIM camar3I se bhI kama gaharA unakA caritra hai| binA kharoMcA rahe to hogaa| bhagor3e hone kI koI jarUrata nahIM hai| usake hone meM saba ThIka cala jAtA hai| jarA-sI kharoMca-aura kaThinAI ho sAdhutA hogii| usane kucha chor3A nahIM hai; jo galata thA vaha chUTa jAtI hai| isalie to tumhAre caritravAna jIvana ko chor3akara bhAga gayA hai| aura usane kucha thopA nahIM hai; jo ThIka thA vaha pragaTa jAte haiM, kyoMki jIvana meM lagatI haiM khroNceN| huA hai| usakA caritra usakI AMtarika AtmA kA hI pratibiMba ravIMdranAtha se kisI ne pUchA, 'Apane zAMtiniketana bolapura meM hogaa| usake jIvana meM tuma virodha na paaoge| usake bhItara koI kyoM banAyA?' to unhoMne kahA, 'kyA Dholapura meM banAUM? yahAM | doharI parte nahIM haiN| usake vyaktitva meM tuma Dabala:mAiMDa na kama se kama bola to sakate haiN| bolapura!' aura maiM tumase kahatA paaoge| aisA nahIM hai ki vaha kucha bhItara hai aura kucha hone kI 546
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________________ darzana, jJAna, caritra-aura mokSa ceSTA kara rahA hai| vaha jo bhItara hai, vaisA hI bAhara pragaTa ho rahA | pahalI mulAkAta meM kyA tamAzA khar3A kareM? aura bhIr3a lagI hai, hai| isalie mahAvIra nagna khar3e hue| maulavI hai, samAja hai, vivAha ho rahA hai, gaThabaMdhana DAlA jA rahA nagna khar3e honA bar3A pratIkAtmaka hai, ki jaisA maiM bhItara hUM vaisA hai-aba isameM kahAM tamAzA khar3A karo bIca meM--isalie! baahr| kapar3e bhI kyoM pahanaM? maiM vaisA kyoM dikhalAUM jaisA ki jiMdagI meM tumhArI kasameM, tumhAre vrata, tumhAre caritra, agara maiM nahIM hUM? kisI kAraNa se haiM to Upara-Upara hoNge| tumane dekhA! kapar3e ke pIche sirpha zarIra ko DhAMkane kI hI patnI bahuta nArAja ho gayI-yaha maulavI kI aura vivAha kI AkAMkSA thor3e hI hai| agara sirpha zarIra ko DhAMkane kI AkAMkSA bAta uThate dekhkr| aura usane kahA ki mere mana meM kaI daphe aisA ho to tthiik| kapar3e ke pIche zarIra ko vaisA dikhAne kI AkAMkSA lagatA hai ki tuma bAra-bAra socate hooge ki maiM agara kisI hai jaisA vaha nahIM hai| to mahAvIra kA nagna khar3e ho jAnA kapar3oM aura ko byAhI gaI hotI to acchA thaa| kA virodha nahIM hai; lekina tumhArI gaharI AkAMkSA kA virodha hai| mullA ne kahA, 'nahIM, kabhI nahIM! maiM kisI kA bhalA...kisI dekhA striyAM yA puruSa! puruSa koTa banavAte haiM to kaMdhoM para ruI kA burA kyoM cAhane lagA! hAM, yaha bhAvanA jarUra mana meM bharavA lete haiM, kyoMki chAtI ubharI huI dikhAyI pdd'e| ruI sahI; kabhI-kabhI uThatI hai ki tuma agara janama bhara kuMvArI rahatI to magara kauna dekha rahA hai bhItara Akara! bAhara se calate to chAtI | bar3A acchA hotaa|' ubharI dikhAyI par3atI hai| hama chipAye jAte haiN| jahAM prema nahIM hai, vahAM prema dikhalAe jAte striyAM stanoM ko hajAra taraha se ubhArakara dikhalAne kI koziza haiN| jahAM sadabhAva nahIM hai, vahAM sadabhAva dikhalAe cale jAte haiN| meM lagI rahatI haiN| na mAlUma kitane taraha ke iMtajAma kara rakhe haiN| aura jaise hama nahIM haiM vaisA hama apane cAroM tarapha rUpa khar3A karate jaisA nahIM hai vaisA dikhAne kI ceSTA cala rahI hai| rahate haiN| dhIre-dhIre dUsare to dhokhe meM Ate hI haiM, hama bhI dhokhe meM mahAvIra nagna khar3e hue--sirpha isa artha meN| yaha pratIkAtmaka A jAte haiN| apane hI pracArita asatya apane ko hI satya mAlUma hai ki jaisA hUM, ThIka huuN| aba isako anyathA dikhAne kI kyA hone lagate haiN| taba eka bar3I duvidhA paidA hotI hai| usI duvidhA jarUrata; anyathA dikhAne se anyathA ho to na jaauuNgaa| kisako | meM loga phaMse haiN| dhokhA denA hai aura kyA sAra hai? mahAvIra kahate haiM, kriyAvihIna jJAna vyartha, ajJAniyoM kI kriyA darzana ho to jJAna hotA, jJAna ho to eka caritra AnA zurU vyrth| to na to AcaraNa karanA jbrdstii| kyoMki jo tumhAre hotaa| lekina vaha caritra bar3A naisargika hotaa| usameM AropaNa, jJAna meM na utarA ho vaha tumheM pAkhaMDita karegA, tumheM pAkhaMDI ceSTA, zrama jarA bhI nahIM hotaa| eka naisargika dazA hotI hai| bnaaegaa| aura agara koI tumhAre jJAna meM utarA ho to usakI mullA nasaruddIna ke ghara maiM mehamAna thaa| subaha-subaha usakI parIkSA yahI hai ki vaha AcaraNa meM utre| isase tuma galata artha patnI se kisI bAta para jhaMjhaTa ho gyii| to mujhe dekhakara usane mata lenA, jaisA ki Amataura se jaina anuyAyI lete haiN| ve socate thor3A jyAdA rauba bAMdhanA cAhA patnI pr| aura usane kahA ki haiM ki jo jJAna meM A gayA, aba isako AcaraNa meM utAranA hai| dekho, maulavI ke sAmane, samAja ke sAmane tumane kasama nahIM nahIM, yaha to sirpha parIkSA, kasauTI hai| mahAvIra yaha kaha rahe haiM khAyI thI ki sadA merI AjJA kA pAlana karogI? ki jo jJAna meM A gayA hai, vaha AcaraNa meM AnA hI caahie| maiM maujUda thA to usane socA ki zAyada patnI thor3I jhukegI aura agara jJAna meM A gayA hai to AcaraNa meM Ane se baca nahIM jhaMjhaTa jyAdA na kregii| sktaa| lekina eka zarta hai ki jJAna meM darzana ke mAdhyama se lekina patnI ne kahA, 'hAM, khAyI thI, mujhe yAda hai| lekina AyA ho| agara darzana ke mAdhyama se na AyA ho to jJAna kI vaha sirpha isIlie khAyI thI ki maiM usa vakta pahalI-pahalI | taraha par3A rahegA--tumase dUra, saMbaMdha na jur3egA; tumhAre hRdaya aura mulAkAta meM tamAzA khar3A nahIM karanA cAhatI thii|' tumhAre jJAna meM koI setu na hogaa| aba aisI kasama kA kyA artha, jo isIlie khAyI gaI ho ki 'jaise paMgu vyakti vana meM lagI Aga ko dekhate hue bhI bhAgane meM 547
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________________ jina sUtra bhAgaH asamartha hone se jala maratA hai...aura aMdhA vyakti daur3ate hue bhI | na nikala skeNge| aura jinake pAsa jJAna hai lekina caritra nahIM, ve dekhane meM asamartha hone se jala maratA hai|' bhI na nikala skeNge| tumhAre bhItara eka rasAyana ghaTe, eka jaMgala meM Aga lagI ho aura eka aMdhA AdamI ho jaMgala meM, alkemikala parivartana ho, eka kImiyA se tuma gujara jAo ki vaha daur3a sakatA hai; lekina use dikhAyI nahIM par3atA ki Aga tumhArA jJAna darzana bane, tumhArI AMkha bana jAye aura tumhArA jJAna kahAM hai, lapaTeM kahAM haiN| vaha daur3akara bhI jala maratA hai| aura eka tumhArA caritra bana jaaye| do tarapha jJAna meM ghaTanAeM ghaTeM, eka tarapha laMgar3A ho, use dikhAyI par3atA hai ki Aga kahAM lagI hai, kahAM se jJAna darzana bane aura dUsarI tarapha jJAna caritra bane, to pakSI ke donoM bhAgU, kahA se nikalUM; lekina paira nahIM haiM, to bhI jala maratA hai| / paMkha upalabdha ho ge| aba tuma ur3a sakate ho isa virATa ke jisa vyakti ke pAsa jJAna to hai, lekina AcaraNa nahIM, vaha | AkAza meN| jala mregaa| vaha laMgar3A hai| jisa vyakti ke pAsa AcaraNa to hai aMdherI rAta para hai, lekina bodha nahIM, vaha bhI jala mregaa| usake pAsa paira to the, dIvA jalAnA kaba manA hai? lekina AMkha nahIM hai| kalpanA ke hAtha se 'kahA jAtA hai ki jJAna aura kriyA ke saMyoga se hI phala kI kamanIya jo maMdira banA thA prApti hotI hai| jaise ki vana meM paMgu aura aMdhe ke milane para bhAvanA ke hAtha se jisameM pArasparika saMprayoga se vana se nikalakara donoM nagara meM praviSTa ho vitAnoM ko tanA thA, jAte haiN| eka pahie se ratha nahIM cltaa|' svapna ne apane karoM se pAsaMto paMgulo daDDo, dhAvamANo ya aNdho| thA jise ruci se saMvArA aMdhA bhI mara jAtA hai| paira the, baca sakatA thaa| paMgu bhI mara svarga ke duSprApya raMgoM se, jAtA hai| AMkheM thIM, baca sakatA thaa| rasoM se jo sanA thA lekina donoM kA milana caahie| Dhaha gayA vaha to juTAkara saMjo asiddhIi phalaM vayaMti, na ha ega cakkeNa raho pyaai| IMTa, patthara, kaMkar3oM ko aMdho ya paMgu ya vaNe samiccA, te saMpaDattA nagaraM pvitttthaa|| eka apanI zAMti kI agara donoM sAtha ho jAeM, agara aMdhA aura laMgar3A eka kuTiyA banAnA kaba manA hai? samajhaute para A jAyeM, eka maitrI kara leM, eka saMbaMdha banA hai aMdherI rAta para leM-saMbaMdha ki laMgar3A kahe ki mujhe tuma apane kaMdhoM para biThA dIvA jalAnA kaba manA hai? lo, tAki maiM tumhArI AMkha kA kAma karane lagU; saMbaMdha ki aMdhA jisa dina tuma darzana ko upalabdha hooge, usa dina tumhArA kahe, tuma mere kaMdhoM para baiTha jAo, tAki maiM tumhAre paira bana jaauuN| purAnA bhavana-sapanoM kA, svarga ke raMgoM kA, iMdradhanuSoM kA aMdhA aura laMgar3A usa vana meM jahAM Aga lagI hai, bacakara nikala giregA-dhUla meM giregaa| khaMDahara bhI na bceNge| kyoMki sapane ke sakate haiM agara eka vyakti ho jAyeM, agara do na rheN| agara kahIM koI khaMDahara bacate haiN| basa tirohita ho jAyegA, jaise kabhI laMgar3A aMdhe ke kaMdhe para baiTha jAye, aMdhe ke lie dekhe aura aMdhA na thaa| hAtha meM rAkha bhI na raha jaayegii| laMgar3e ke lie cale, donoM jur3a jAyeM, yaha saMyoga agara baiTha jAye, darzana ko upalabdha hote hI, jIvana ko gaura se dekhate hI eka to bacakara nikala sakate haiM, to sone meM sugaMdha A jaaye| bAta sApha ho jAtI hai ki jIvana hai, tuma ho-aura bIca meM tumane mahAvIra kahate haiM, eka pahiye se ratha nahIM cltaa| aura aisI hI jo sapane banAe the ve jhUThe the| ve tumhArI mUrchA se uThe the| ve vyakti ke jIvana kI dazA hai| jIvana meM to Aga lagI hai| yaha tumhArI baMda AMkhoM se uThe the| jaise subaha eka AdamI jAgatA hai, jIvana kA vana to jala rahA hai| isase nikalane kA upAya? AMkha kholatA hai-sAre sapane tirohita ho ge| akelA jinake pAsa caritra hai aura jinake pAsa bodha nahIM, ve bhI darzana kA artha hai, aise hI tama jIvana ke prati AMkha kholo, 548
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________________ darzana, jJAna, caritra-aura mokSa jAgo aura dekho! to kitane-kitane tumane sajAe haiM, saMvAre haiM aura darzana mUla bhitti hai| agara darzana ko na samajha pAe to pUre svapna, kitane raMga bhare haiM ! ve saba acAnaka tirohita ho jaayeNge| mahAvIra bebUjha raha jaayeNge| darzana kA artha hai : AMkha svapna se kitane hI raMgIna hoM, sapane sapane haiN| unake tirohita ho jAne se khAlI ho; AMkha meM koI sapanA na ho, koI cAha na ho, koI ghabar3A mata jaanaa| IMTa-patthara se bhI choTI-sI kuTiyA banAyI jA tRSNA na ho| AMkha usako dekhane ko rAjI ho jo hai; AMkha sakatI hai| satya se bhI zAMti kI choTI-sI kuTiyA banAyI jA usakI mAMga na kare jo honA caahie| sakatI hai| jhUThe sapanoM ke bar3e mahaloM se kucha sAra nahIM; unameM phira se doharA duuN| jaba bhI tuma kahate ho aisA honA cAhie, koI kabhI rahA nhiiN| logoM ne sirpha socA hai ki rheNge| vaha sirpha tabhI tuma use dekhane meM asamartha ho jAte ho-jo hai| taba tuma bAtacIta hai| vaha bAtacIta kitanI hI suMdara mAlUma par3e, vaha sirpha use dekhane lagate ho kisI gahare tala para-jo nahIM hai aura honA laphphAjI hai| | caahie| taba tumane sapanA banAnA zurU kara diyaa| tumane yathArtha maiMne sunA hai, mirjA gAliba ke pAsa koI AdamI rupaye udhAra ko na dekhaa| tumane Adarza ko maaNgaa| tumane vaha na dekhA jo mAMgane aayaa| unhoMne bar3I mIThI bAteM khiiN| kavi the| jo maujUda thaa| tuma usakI cAha karane lage jo honA caahie| tuma AdamI rupaye udhAra mAMgane AyA thA, usane bhI kavitA meM hI bAta | AzA ko bIca meM le aae| tuma kalpanA bIca meM le aae| phira kii| kahA kalpanA ne tAne-bAne bune| phira saba cIjeM galata ho gyiiN| phira kAkA! bar3e be-vakta A gae kalpanA ke mAdhyama se tuma jo dekhate ho vaha satya nahIM hai| aisA vyartha hI rAstA nApA tuma cAhate the| aura Apako dekhake merA mana kAMpA tumane dekhA, jaba do vyakti eka-dUsare ke prema meM par3a jAte haiM to aura Apane samaya ThIka nahIM bhAMpA eka-dUsare meM aisI cIjeM dekhane lagate haiM jo haiM hI nhiiN| strI puruSa mere zera mArane gaye haiM DAkA meM aisA dekhane lagatI hai ki aisA mahAvIra kabhI huA hI nhiiN| abhI to cala rahA hai phAkA puruSa strI meM dekhane lagatA hai jagata kA sArA sauMdarya! aisI bAteM lauTakara Ane do mere kAkA karane lagate haiM ki jisakA hisAba nhiiN| cAMda-tAroM ko dekhane ApakA bana jAyegA khAkA lagate haiM-eka-dUsare ke ceharoM meM, AMkhoM meN| anaMta phUloM kI abhI hAkA karo, varnA gaMdha eka-dUsare ke pasIne se Ane lagatI hai| ye sapane haiM! aisA ve bIbI banA degI ApakA sAkA cAhate haiN| phira agara suhAgarAta pUrI hote-hote ye saba sapane TUTa aura maiM karUMgA tAkA jAte haiM to Azcarya nhiiN| Azcarya to yaha thA ki tuma itanI dera mere AkA! abhI na karanA idhara nAkA bhI kaise dekha sake! nahIM to bIbI na chor3egI eka bAla baaNkaa| phira premI socate haiM ki dUsare ne majhe dhokhA diyaa| koI kisI itanI laMbI kavitA kahI! lekina lenA-denA kucha bhI nahIM hai| ko dhokhA nahIM de rahA-tuma hI dhokhA khA rahe ho| phira premI vaha AdamI kavitA se hI ghabar3Akara bhAga gayA hogaa| phira dubArA socatA hai, yaha preyasI to galata sAbita huii| yaha to maiMne jo phUla na AyA hogaa| kI gaMdha dekhI thI vaha nikalI n| yaha kyA mujhe dhokhA de gii| yaha tumhAre zabda kitane hI raMgIna hoM, aura kitane hI kAvya ke raMga to bar3I karkazA niklii| aura maiMne to sAre saMgIta, sArA sAja tumane bhare hoM, aura kitanI hI tukabaMdI bAMdhI ho, kitane hI zabdoM isake kaMTha meM sunA thaa| maiMne to koyala ko kUkate sunA thaa| maiMne kA sauMdarya biThAyA ho lekina bhulAve haiMaura jitane jaldI to kokilA jAnI thii| aura yaha to ghara Ate-Ate svara karkaza jAga jAo utanA acchA hai| ho gyaa| to kyA isane mujhe dhokhA diyA thA? kyA usa kSaNa darzana kA kyA artha? darzana kA itanA hI artha hai : AMkheM isane banAvaTa kI thI? vaha jo mAdhurya isase maiMne pAyA thA, to sapanoM se khAlI ho jaayeN| vaha saba pravaMcanA thI? to vaha jAla thA? vaha mujhe phaMsAne ke 549
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________________ jina sUtra bhAgaH1 lie thA? aura preyasI bhI yahI socane lagatI hai ki isa AdamI Dhaha gayA vaha to juTAkara meM jo bhagavattA dekhI thI vaha kahAM gii| isake caraNoM meM sira rakhane IMTa, patthara, kaMkar3oM ko kA mana huA thA to ve caraNa saba banAvaTI the| vaha saba eka apanI zAMti kI pAkhaMDa thA? kuTiyA banAnA kaba manA hai? jaldI hI kAMTe ubhara Ate haiM, phUla vidA ho jAte haiN| jaldI hI zuddha darzana se jo dikhAyI par3atA hai, yathArtha, usa yathArtha se hI yathArtha pragaTa hotA hai aura sapane haTa jAte haiN| | apanI jIvana kI kuTiyA ko banA lene kA nAma cAritrya hai| aura aisA premI aura preyasI ke bIca hotA hai, aisA nahIM--aisA | svapna se jIvana ko banAnA aura satya se jIvana ko hamAre hara saMbaMdha meM hotA hai| aise jIvana ke hara mor3a para hama una banAnA-basa yahI jIvana ko banAne ke do DhaMga haiN| cIjoM ko dekha lete haiM jo haiM nhiiN| hama una iMdradhanuSoM ko tAna lete Dhaha gayA vaha to juTAkara haiM jo kahIM bhI nahIM haiN| aura phira jaba iMdradhanuSa nahIM pAte haiM to rote IMTa, patthara, kaMkar3oM ko haiM, cIkhate haiM, viSAda se bharate haiM, dukhI hote haiM, ciMtita hote haiN| eka apanI zAMti kI darzana kA artha hai : jo hai use binA kisI AzA se samizrita kuTiyA banAnA kaba manA hai? kie, binA kisI kalpanA meM DubAye, binA kaisA honA cAhie hai aMdherI rAta para usako bIca meM lAye, dekha lene kI kalA! dIvA jalAnA kaba manA hai? AMkha sApha ho to tuma kabhI ulajhoge n| AMkha sApha ho to lekina yaha kisI bAhara ke dIye ke jalAne kI bAta nahIM yathArtha se saMbaMdha rahegA; ayathArtha tumheM bAMdhegA n| aura AMkha hai-bhItara ke dIye ko jalAne kI bAta hai| aura yaha dIyA jalane sApha ho, to sApha AMkha se jo bodha saMgrahIta hotA hai usakA nAma lagatA hai jaise-jaise tuma AMkha ko sApha karake dekhane lagate ho| jnyaan| sApha AMkha se saMgRhIta bodha kA aMtima jo pariNAma hotA | to kyA karo? hai, usakA nAma caaritry| aura cAritrya kA jo AtyaMtika phala hai | mahAvIra kA zabda hai-saamaayik| pataMjali kA zabda vaha mokss| hai-dhyaan| buddha kA zabda hai-samyaka smRti| jIvana ko hai aMdherI rAta para jAgaraNa se bharo! jo bhI karate ho, karate samaya smaraNa rakho ki dIvA jalAnA kaba manA hai? sapanoM ko haTAte clo| purAnI AdateM haiM, ve bAra-bAra bIca meM A rAta aMdherI hai| yathArtha kaThora hai| lekina dIye ke jalAne kI jaayeNgii| unako haTAte clo|| koI manAhI nahIM hai| terI duA hai ki ho terI ArajU pUrI hai aMdherI rAta para merI duA hai ki terI ArajU badala jaae| dIvA jalAnA kaba manA hai? tuma to cAhate ho ki tumhArI AkAMkSAeM pUrI ho jAyeM, lekina -AMkha ke dIye ko jalAo! darzana ko jagAo! mahAvIra, buddha, kRSNa cAhate haiM tumhArI AkAMkSAeM badala jaayeN| kalpanA ke hAtha se kamanIya AkAMkSAeM pUrI karanA cAhoge to sapanoM meM rhoge| AkAMkSA jo maMdira banA thA badala jAe, AkAMkSA na ho jAe, zUnya ho jAe-to AkAMkSA bhAvanA ke hAtha ne jisameM ke nIce se jo zakti bacegI, jo AkAMkSA meM niyojita thI, mukta vitAnoM ko tanA thA hogI, vaha tumhAre jIvana meM visphoTa ho jAyegA; jaise aNu ko svapna ne apane karoM se hama tor3ate haiM, to choTe-se aNu meM jo AMkha se bhI dikhAyI nahIM thA jise ruci se saMvArA par3atA, itanI UrjA pragaTa hotI hai| aNu ke jo paramANu haiM vaha svarga ke duSprApya raMgoM se, eka-dUsare ko bAMdhe hue haiN| jaba unheM hama alaga karate haiM to jo rasoM se jo sanA thA zakti unako bAMdhe thI, vaha mukta hotI hai| usa mukta zakti kA 550]
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________________ darzana, jJAna, caritra-aura mokSa / Pain pariNAma hirozimA meM dekhA, nAgAsAkI meM dekhA: eka lAkha pacAoge, puSTa hooge, to cAritrya utpanna hogaa| AdamI kSaNabhara meM rAkha ho ge| eka choTe-se paramANu ko | aura mokSa cAritrya kI prabhA hai| caritravAna mukta hai| caritrahIna jisako aba taka kisI ne dekhA nahIM hai, itane kSudra ke bhItara itanI baMdhA hai| caritravAna kI jaMjIreM gira gyiiN| UrjA chipI hai! to AtmA ke bhItara kitanI UrjA na chipI hogI! | lekina abhI to tumane jo caritravAna dekhe haiM, tuma unako jarA AtmA ke baMdhana ko haTAnA jarUrI hai| jaise aNu ke baMdhana ko pAoge ki unhoMne nayI jaMjIreM banA lI haiN| to tumhAre caritrahIna haTAyA to itanI virATa UrjA pragaTa huI-AtmA ke baMdhana haTa bhI baMdhe haiM, tumhAre caritravAna bhI baMdhe haiN| aura akasara to bar3A jAyeM to jo parama UrjA pragaTa hotI hai usI kA nAma mahAvIra ne vyaMgya aura bar3I ulaTI bAta dikhAyI par3atI hai: caritrahInoM se paramAtmA kahA hai| vaha Atma-visphoTa hai| jyAdA baMdhe tumhAre caritravAna haiN| caritrahInoM se bhI baMdhe! baMdhana haTAne haiN| baMdhana AkAMkSAoM ke, AzAoM ke haiN| baMdhana caritrahIna meM bhI thor3I-bahuta svataMtratA mAlUma par3atI hai| mUrchA ke haiN| to mUrchA ko tor3ane meM laga jaao| caritravAna to baiThA hai maMdira meM, sthAnaka meM, pUjAgRha meM baMda! aisA sAre vicAra kA mahAvIra kA eka saMkSipta bhAva hai : mUrchA ko ghabar3AyA, DarA! lekina kahIM cUka ho gayI hai| caritra kI prabhA tor3ane meM laga jaao| jo bhI karo apane ko jagAkara kro| rAha mokSa hai| jo mukta na kara jAye, vaha caritra nhiiN| para calo to jAgakara clo| bhojana karo to jAgakara kro| tuma darzana se zurU karanA : kisI dina mokSa kI prabhA upalabdha kisI kA hAtha hAtha meM lo to jAgakara lo| aura sadA dhyAna rakho hotI hai| nizcita hotI hai| yaha jIvana kA ThIka gaNita hai| ki bIca meM sapanA na aae| thor3e dina sapanoM ko aise chAMTate rahe, aura mahAvIra jo bhI kaha rahe haiM, vaha vaijJAnika saMgati kA satya haTAte rahe, haTAte rahe to jaldI hI tuma pAoge kabhI-kabhI | hai| usameM eka-eka kadama vaijJAnika hai| jaise sau DigrI pAnI kSaNabhara ko sapane nahIM hote aura jhalaka milatI hai| vahI jhalaka garama karo, bhApa bana jAtA hai-aise mahAvIra ke vacana haiM : darzana jJAna bnegii| phira una jhalakoM ko ikaTThI karate jaanaa| vaha apane se jJAna, jJAna se caritra, caritra se mokSa! Apa ikaTThI hotI calI jAtI haiN| jJAna eka daphA ho to koI bhUla nahIM sktaa| vaha to hameM, dUsaroM kI bAteM haiM, isalie yAda rakhanI Aja itanA hii| par3atI haiN| jo apane meM ghaTatA hai use vismaraNa karane kA upAya nahIM hai| vaha to saMgRhIta hotA calA jAtA hai, saghana hotA calA jAtA hai| aura jaise bUMda-bUMda girakara sAgara bana jAtA hai, aise bUMda-bUMda jJAna kI girakara AcaraNa nirmita hotA hai| nANeNa jANaI bhAve, daMsaNeNa ya sddhe| caritteNa nigiNhAi, taveNa prisujjhii|| 'jJAna se jAnanA hotA hai; darzana se zraddhA, zraddhA se caritra, caritra se zuddhi...' nAdaMsaNissa nANaM-darzana ke binA jJAna nhiiN| nANeNa viNA na huMti caraNaguNA-jJAna ke binA caritra nhiiN| aguNissa natthi mokkho-caritra ke binA mokSa kahAM? natthi amokkhassa nivvANaM-aura mokSa ke binA AnaMda kahAM? usa paramAnaMda ko cAhate ho to darzana ke bIja boo| darzana ke bIja boo-jJAna kI phasala kaattoge| usa jJAna kI phasala ko 551